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Pregnancy Waiting II

Imitating B Stroking My Hair (29 Weeks / 19th November 2021)

Self-portrait wearing a dark blue top. I am facing away from the camera with my hand touching my hair.
Imitating B Stroking My Hair (29 Weeks / 19th November 2021)
 
#BHasANewThingWhereWhenWePickHerUpSheLikesToStrokeOurHair
#AsAlwaysIWouldLoveToAskHerWhySheDoesItButICanNot
#MaybeItIsAComfortThingOrMaybeSheJustLikesHowItFeels
#ObviouslyTiagoHasLessHairThanMeButSheDoesTouchHisBeardSometimesToo
#ThisMorningSheWasGentlyHoldingMyArmsBeforeIGotHerOutOfHerHighchairWhichWasQuiteSweet
#HerStrokingOurHairDoesMakeMeThinkThatSheIsPettingUsLikeWeAreDogsOrSomething
#TheOtherDayAKidAtThePlaygroundWasPattingBOnTheHeadLikeSheWasALittleDog
#HeKeptSayingHowHeWasTallerThanHerAndIWasLikeYeahJustABitAsYouAreFour
#IKeepDreamingThatBIsRunningAroundOurRoomInTheMiddleOfTheNightLikeWeGotHerUpNotRealisingItWasNotTimeToGetHerUpYet
#TwoNightsAgoSheGotSomethingOnHerHandsWhichIWorriedWasOneOfNansPolishesOrSomething
#ISatUprightAndToldTiagoThatWeNeedToCleanHerHands
#HeSaidWhatAndISaidInAnAnnoyedLoudWhisperYourDaughter
#HeJustRespondedIThinkYouHadADreamAndRolledOverAndWentBackToSleep
#IKeepWakingUpEveryHourOrSoAtTheMomentWhichIsAnnoyingButOhWell
#BHasSleptABitLaterTheLastCoupleOfNightsWhichMakesMeFeelBetterEspeciallyAsMyParentsAreDueToHaveHerThisWeekend
#OurPlanIsToHaveLunchAtOurFavouriteRestaurantThenGoToBuyPicnicStuffAtTheSupermarketThenCheckInAndJustWatchTvEatSleepAndIWantToHaveABath
#IWatchedTheKidsFilmLucaByMyselfOverAFewNightsButIFoundThePlotStressfulAsIRealiseThatIGenerallyWatchToddlersTVWhichIsNotStressfulAtAll
#BDoesNotLikeToWalkToAndFromTheParkMuchAnymoreWhichIsABitOfAReliefInWays
#MaybeSheHasFiguredOutThatWeGetToThePlaygroundQuickerIfSheJustSitsInHerPushchair
#SheWillStartWalkingButThenSlowDownAndIEitherAskHerIfSheWantsToGoInHerPushchairOrSheWillGoNextToIt
#GenerallyByTheTimeWeLeaveThePlaygroundNowItIsQuiteDarkAndWeHaveToRushHomeButIKnowTheDaysAreStillDueToGetShorter
#ThisWeekSheHasGotOnMuchBetterAtNurseryEvenWithARunnyNose
#WeWereNotSureWhetherOrNotToSendHerButWeRealisedThatThereWouldBeNoKidsAtNurseryIfNoOneWasAllowedToBeThereWithARunnyNose
#SheDoesNotCryNowWhenTiagoDropsHerOffAndSheEatsMoreOfHerLunchWhichIsGood
#PregnancyWiseIAmFeelingAlrightButIAmPuttingOffReadingMyHypnobirthingBookWhichIKnowIWillRegret
#IKnowIHaveTimeButIAlsoWorryThatTheBabyMightJustComeSuperEarlySoIShouldGetOnWithIt
#IThinkIHaveSaidBeforeThatIWouldLikeBabyXToBeBornInSomewhereElseAsTWasBornInPortugalBWasBornInLiverpoolAndIWasBornInBirminghamAndSoWillBabyX
#HoweverIRealisedThatTiagoIsAlsoTechnicallyAScouserAsHeGotHisBritishCitizenshipInLiverpoolSoOurFamilyWillBeTwoScousersAndTwoBrummies
#IWantBabyXToLookLikeBButBAlsoLooksALotLikeTiagoSoIWouldLikeXToLookABitMoreLikeMe
#MyNanGotSomeBabyPhotosOutYesterdayThoughAndYouCanSeeAResemblanceBetweenBAndMeAtTimesWhichIsNiceAndSheStillHasALotOfGrowingToDo

#BHasANewThingWhereWhenWePickHerUpSheLikesToStrokeOurHair

This morning she was also messing with mine as I lay down next to her, while she watched TV.

#AsAlwaysIWouldLoveToAskHerWhySheDoesItButICanNot

Why does B do anything and everything? I would love to know. Obviously I can ask her, but I will not get much of a response.

#MaybeItIsAComfortThingOrMaybeSheJustLikesHowItFeels

Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.

#ObviouslyTiagoHasLessHairThanMeButSheDoesTouchHisBeardSometimesToo

Cute.

#ThisMorningSheWasGentlyHoldingMyArmsBeforeIGotHerOutOfHerHighchairWhichWasQuiteSweet

I think she is just discovering about bodies and is showing some interest. It makes sense.

#HerStrokingOurHairDoesMakeMeThinkThatSheIsPettingUsLikeWeAreDogsOrSomething

Yesterday I asked Tiago to pretend to be a dog for her, which soon changed into a horse and B got some rides around the living room which she loved.

#TheOtherDayAKidAtThePlaygroundWasPattingBOnTheHeadLikeSheWasALittleDog

B was just smiling at him and found it funny.

#HeKeptSayingHowHeWasTallerThanHerAndIWasLikeYeahJustABitAsYouAreFour

Well, you can talk, are in school uniform and yeah you told me you are 4.

#IKeepDreamingThatBIsRunningAroundOurRoomInTheMiddleOfTheNightLikeWeGotHerUpNotRealisingItWasNotTimeToGetHerUpYet

It is getting a bit annoying as it just drains my energy. I had lots of dreams last night.

#TwoNightsAgoSheGotSomethingOnHerHandsWhichIWorriedWasOneOfNansPolishesOrSomething

My Nan likes to polish things, and still doesn’t get that B will mess with her stuff.

#ISatUprightAndToldTiagoThatWeNeedToCleanHerHands

There was a lot on her hands and I was worried that she would try to eat it.

#HeSaidWhatAndISaidInAnAnnoyedLoudWhisperYourDaughter

More like YOUR DAUGHTER!

#HeJustRespondedIThinkYouHadADreamAndRolledOverAndWentBackToSleep

I just thought ‘that makes sense’ and also went back to sleep.

#IKeepWakingUpEveryHourOrSoAtTheMomentWhichIsAnnoyingButOhWell

At least I can go back to sleep. I think I am just anticipating B waking up and am intrigued to see the time. I lift my head to look at the clock, then go back to sleep.

#BHasSleptABitLaterTheLastCoupleOfNightsWhichMakesMeFeelBetterEspeciallyAsMyParentsAreDueToHaveHerThisWeekend

She woke up after 6 today. Hurrah. I think it was because her room was quite warm as sometimes I go to get her up and her hands are so cold – not today.

#OurPlanIsToHaveLunchAtOurFavouriteRestaurantThenGoToBuyPicnicStuffAtTheSupermarketThenCheckInAndJustWatchTvEatSleepAndIWantToHaveABath

Originally we were going to have dinner out, but Tiago suggested having lunch out instead and I much prefer that idea. Not having to leave our room from when we check-in until we check-out sounds good to me.

#IWatchedTheKidsFilmLucaByMyselfOverAFewNightsButIFoundThePlotStressfulAsIRealiseThatIGenerallyWatchToddlersTVWhichIsNotStressfulAtAll

I might have watched it quicker if I had not been so stressed out. It might have been over 4 nights… I don’t like to watch trailers so I was quite surprised that the storyline is what it is. I did enjoy it though.

#BDoesNotLikeToWalkToAndFromTheParkMuchAnymoreWhichIsABitOfAReliefInWays

It was a very slow and long walk before…

#MaybeSheHasFiguredOutThatWeGetToThePlaygroundQuickerIfSheJustSitsInHerPushchair

And the playground is way more fun than walking for ages. I think she’s also just realised that the walk is fairly boring, and maybe it is less fun now it is colder as she gets cold hands from holding onto the pushchair while she walks besides it.

#SheWillStartWalkingButThenSlowDownAndIEitherAskHerIfSheWantsToGoInHerPushchairOrSheWillGoNextToIt

Great.

#GenerallyByTheTimeWeLeaveThePlaygroundNowItIsQuiteDarkAndWeHaveToRushHomeButIKnowTheDaysAreStillDueToGetShorter

Ergh. Can’t wait for the evenings to get lighter again. By the time they will be I guess baby X will be of an age where I feel less stressed about taking them both out at least.

#ThisWeekSheHasGotOnMuchBetterAtNurseryEvenWithARunnyNose

Tiago and I feel so proud.

#WeWereNotSureWhetherOrNotToSendHerButWeRealisedThatThereWouldBeNoKidsAtNurseryIfNoOneWasAllowedToBeThereWithARunnyNose

She probably got the runny nose from nursery anyways…

#SheDoesNotCryNowWhenTiagoDropsHerOffAndSheEatsMoreOfHerLunchWhichIsGood

Go B! She settled in quite quick really, but I guess she has started later than a lot of kids do.

#PregnancyWiseIAmFeelingAlrightButIAmPuttingOffReadingMyHypnobirthingBookWhichIKnowIWillRegret

I just read a book about Britney Spears, and now I have a book to read about Karen Carpenter, and ‘Men Who Hate Women’. I do not get on with reading physical books much anymore as I much prefer to read on a screen.

#IKnowIHaveTimeButIAlsoWorryThatTheBabyMightJustComeSuperEarlySoIShouldGetOnWithIt

Excuses. I will start soon. Promise.

#IThinkIHaveSaidBeforeThatIWouldLikeBabyXToBeBornSomewhereElseAsTWasBornInPortugalBWasBornInLiverpoolAndIWasBornInBirminghamAndSoWillBabyX

Something really unimportant that has crossed my mind a few times.

#HoweverIRealisedThatTiagoIsAlsoTechnicallyAScouserAsHeGotHisBritishCitizenshipInLiverpoolSoOurFamilyWillBeTwoScousersAndTwoBrummies

If you ask Tiago where he is from I doubt he will say Liverpool, but whatever.

#IWantBabyXToLookLikeBButBAlsoLooksALotLikeTiagoSoIWouldLikeXToLookABitMoreLikeMe

I’d like for them to look like sisters, but I am selfish and want one kid that looks a bit more like me.

#MyNanGotSomeBabyPhotosOutYesterdayThoughAndYouCanSeeAResemblanceBetweenBAndMeAtTimesWhichIsNiceAndSheStillHasALotOfGrowingToDo

It would be cool if they were both just a good mix of T and me, which DNA wise they are really but we will have to wait and see. Truthfully, I hope they are both more like Tiago though.

29 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

(Apparently I had a productive week back then with 4 photos, but I have put one in my previous post as they both talk about my 28 week appointment.)

Self-portrait where I am facing the right of the image. My hair is wrapped in a towel and my hands are placed on my bump.
It Is Odd That Quite Possibly None Of My Friends Or Family (Besides Tiago) Will See Me Heavily Pregnant In Real Life (29 weeks)
 
#PeopleWarnedUsWhenWeWereTryingToGetPregnantThatWeWouldNeverBeAbleToLeaveTheHouseWhenWeWantedAgain
#IRememberShruggingAtTheTimeAndSayingItDidNotBotherMeMuch
#IHaveAlwaysLikedBookingTicketsForThingsMoreThanGoingToTheThings
#IBookTicketsAndIGetExcited
#ThenOnTheDayTheEventComesRoundIAmAlwaysFeelingTired
#IDoEnjoyEventsButIAmNotThatBothered
#NowIHaveBeenAtHomeFor3WeeksOtherThanGoingForWalks
#AndWhenRestrictionsFinallyLiftIWillNotBeRushingToGoOutForAnythingOtherThanWalks
#TheBabyMayHaveBeenBornAlreadyOrItMayHaveNot
#EitherWayIDoNotEnvisionGoingAnywhereWithTheBabyBesidesWalks
#ItIsOddThatQuitePossiblyNoneOfMyFriendsOrFamilyWillSeeMeHeavilyPregnantInRealLife
#EveryWeekIFeelLikeTheBabyIsGrowingALot
#IDidNotBotherBuyingAnyMoreMaternityClothesThanTheOnesIGotWhenIWas15Weeks
#WhichWereMainlyBrasADressAPairOfLeggingsAndACardigan
#NowIAmJustAtHomeSoIDefinitelyDoNotNeedToGetAnythingElse
#YesterdayISpentTheWholeDayLookingAtBabyStuff
#WeAreJustGoingToHaveToRiskItAndBuyStuffWithoutTrying
#IWouldRatherJustBuyEverythingSoonerRatherThanLaterSoWeDoNotHaveToWorry
#IAmThinkingThatThereIsNoPointBuyingABabyBassinetForThePushchairAsWeWillNotProbablyUseItMuch
#IWouldRatherJustCarryTheBabyInTheBeginning
#ParticularlyToAvoidAnyoneTryingToPeerIntoTheBassinetInsteadOfKeepingTheirDistance
#WeStillDoNotKnowIfItIsAGirlOrABoy
#IOftenForgetItHasAGenderWhichIsWeirdToSay
#IJustReferToThemAsTheBabyOrThem
#WhereasTiagoUsuallyStartsTalkingToTheBumpWithMyBabyBoy
#AndThenICoughInANonCovidWayAndHeSaysOrMyBabyGirl
#HeStillWantsToFindOutBeforeTheBirth
#IWantToWait
#IAmSupposedToBeHavingMoreScansButIHaveNotReceivedALetterRecently
#AndIDoNotFeelLikeChasingThemUpAsIWouldRatherAvoidGoingToTheHospitalIfICan

I was meant to say that it has been weird this time round having strangers comment on my bump like ‘so she’s going to be a big sister then?’ When I was pregnant with B I didn’t talk to random people in the street and we rarely saw anyone that we knew.

I was thinking the other day how I am really not bothered about going to events like gigs and things. If someone offered me a ticket where I got to stand on the side of the stage or got a good seated ticket then sure, but the idea of going to something is so unappealing these days.

This time round I haven’t bought any maternity clothes and am mainly just wearing the dress I bought when I was pregnant with B, the bras from then and Uniqlo leggings as they’re so stretchy and comfortable.

We did buy some baby nappies and cotton wool as I needed to order some vitamins for B and wanted to reach the amount for free postage and packaging, so thought I might as well buy some.

We’ve been told baby X is a girl, but I am still skeptical and will probably continue to be until they are born and we will see.

If the baby had not presented in the scan then we would have probably had to wait until the birth to find out as we do not have any more scans now. We are debating having a private one but I doubt we will.

I am stood facing the camera and it is a crop from my breasts to just above my pubic area. My hands are on the sides of my bump, and Tiago's hands are reaching in from the right side of the image and are cupping the top and bottom of my bump.
Tiago Says It Reminds Him Of Pictures Where People Are Holding A Globe (29 weeks)

#IKeepWakingUpInTheNight
#ForACoupleOfNightsItWasBefore2am
#ButLastNightTiagoGaveMeAnUpperBackMassageAndIDidNotWakeUpUntil4am
#SoMaybeItWasTheMassageOrMaybeItWasACoincidence
#IHadSomeHipPainWhenIWokeUp
#ThinkItWasBecauseIHadLayOnOneSideSinceFallingAsleep
#TurningOverIsBecomingMoreOfAChore
#AsWellAsBendingDownToPickThingsUp
#WhilstHeMassagedMeWeWatchAHypnobirthingVideoAboutDueDates
#HopefullyNowTiagoWillStopTalkingAboutMyDueDateLikeTheBabyIsActuallyComingThatDay
#AsApparentlyOnly4PercentArriveOnTheirDueDate
#ThoughSomethingLike85PercentOfFirstTimeMumsGiveBirthAfter40Weeks
#ItSaidToStopTalkingLikeMyBabyIsComingByTheDueDate
#AndBeMoreLikeFromTheDueDate
#ToBeFairIKnewThat42WeeksIsNormal
#ItWillComeWhenItIsReady
#IHaveBeenTryingToGetTiagoToDoExerciseVideosForAFewWeeksNow
#ForTheLastCoupleOfDaysHeHasBeenDoingMineWithMe
#WhichIsGoodAsIHaveBeenDoingTheSameFewVideosForMonthsNow
#AndINeedABitOfMotivation
#HeSaidHeSleptWellLastNightAndHeThinksItWasBecauseOfTheBedtimeYogaVideoThatWeDid
#WeWillSeeHowLongHeDoesThemWithMe
#IThinkHeMightGetBoredOfMeDoingTheSameOnes
#WeNearlyPutAPauseOnTryingToGetPregnantAsHeWasMeantToBeTheBestManAtAWeddingThisSummer
#WeDecidedNotToAsWeWereLikeWellItHasNotHappenedYetSoItMightNotAnyways
#ObviouslyWeWereNotExpectingAPandemic
#NowTheWeddingIsPostponedUntilNextYear
#WhichIsAnnoyingForThemButGoodForMeAsWeWillBeAbleToGoAsAFamily
#AndIWasABitWorriedAboutPotentiallyBeingHomeAloneWithANewborn
#AsItIsTwoFlightsAwayAndItIsBadEnoughDoingThatSometimesWithJustTheTwoOfUs

Well, the wakings are nothing new then but I think it is more B related this time than pregnancy related.

I had forgotten that Tiago used to give me back massages when I was pregnant with B – I may have to remind him. I seem to have less pain this time – I think sleeping on a better mattress may have a lot to do with it, but I do also stretch in the morning and evening and have done since finding out I was pregnant.

I really thought that I would be a 42 weeker, so I was very surprised that B came before 38 weeks. This time I plan to start going to bed early from 37 weeks, but I will probably be a 42 weeker this time.

We were due to go to 2 weddings that summer. I think the one I mentioned here has been delayed for a bit longer, but one took place this August and we did go.

Self-portrait where I am leaning on a table. I am cupping my chin in my left hand and my right hand is touching my left elbow. I am slightly facing the left side of the image and am staring off.
Eating Almond Butter Is My Daily Highlight Right Now (29 and a half weeks)
 
#TheLastCoupleOfWeeksIHaveNoticedThatIHaveHadAFewBadEvenings
#LastWeekIWasCrankyTwoNightsInARow
#AndLastNightIJustFeltDown
#IFeltDownInTheEveningProbablyACoupleOfWeeksAgo
#IWasCryingAndIDidNotReallyKnowWhy
#IJustFeltOverwhelmed
#IFeelMoreTiredInTheAfternoonThanTheEvenings
#ButMaybeByTheEveningsIAmMoreMentallyTired
#AfterISleepIWakeUpFeelingFine
#IThinkTheMassageMakingMeSleepLaterWasJustACoincidence
#LastNightIWokeUpAt1amThen4amThen6am
#AtLeastNowIDoNotHaveToWorryAboutCommuting
#AndTheWakingUpInTheNightIsPreparationForWhatIsToCome
#IFeltDownLastNightAgainBecauseIThinkIWasOverwhelmed
#IWantToChatWithPeopleButIJustFindItKindOfExhausting
#SeeingMessagesToReplyToMakesMeFeelABitAnxious
#PeopleAskingMeWhenIAmDue
#IDoJustNotWantItToGetToTheTimeWhenIAmDueAndBeGettingLotsOfMessagesAskingMeForBabyNews
#IWillTellPeopleWhenIAmReady
#WhichCouldBeSoonAfterTheBirthOrItMightNot
#SoIfYouHaveAskedAndIHaveToldYouInAnObviousOrVagueWayPleaseDoNotBugMe
#IfYouHaveNotAskedThenPleaseDoNotAskMe
#MyHighlightOfTheDayAtTheMomentIsWhenIEatAnAppleAndABananaWithNutButter
#ThisHasBeenMyDailyHighlightForAtLeastAWeek
#IReadThatEatingNutsInYourFirstTrimesterIsReallyGoodForTheBaby
#ButICouldNotEatThemAsIHadAnAversionToThem
#HopefullyItWillHelpABitNowButMaybeIAmEatingTooMuchAndItHasTheOppositeEffect
#IAmJustEatingItBecauseILoveIt
#WeCouldNotGetBananasTheOtherDayButTiagoGotSomeToday
#IEnjoyThisTreatMoreThanOurWalksAsWeWalkTheSameRouteAllTheTimeAndPeopleStressMeOutAsTheyDoNotSeemToKnowWhat2MetresIs

Well, in the end B was so early that no one had sent me a message asking if she had arrived yet. That was good.

I feel less awkward about people asking me this time, though I still would rather be left in peace about it.

Weirdly I have got quite into nut butters again in the last week or so. I actually might go and eat some after writing this. I’ve been making B cookies which are oats, bananas and nut butters, and enjoying them a lot.

I also generally just walk the same routes now, but with B so it is more interesting and we stop and chat to a few people. I definitely feel like we are more part of the community now than when we lived in Liverpool, which is nice. Tiago is generally working so maybe he does not feel the same, but I think he likes that we know a few more people at least.


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Pregnancy Waiting II

Documenting My Bump From A Different Angle (27 Weeks / 2nd November 2021)

Self-portrait sat on floor. My feet are out in front touching each other, and my hands are clasping my bump. The image is shot from above.
Documenting My Bump From A Different Angle (27 Weeks / 2nd November 2021)
 
#IAmYetToDoTheShootButIImagineItWillBeSomeAboveShotOfMyBumpAsWhenIExerciseILookDownAndThinkThatIsWhatIWantToPhotograph
#IThinkBabyXMayBeMoreActiveThanBWasAsWhenIWasPregnantWithBIWasOftenJustSatByMyselfNotMakingMuchNoise
#NowAllDayIAmTalkingToBAndSingingToHerAndReadingHerBooksSoSheProbablyReactsToTheNoiseALot
#HoweverSheDoesKickOrPunchMeALotWhenIAmInBedAndItIsQuiteQuietSoMaybeSheIsMoreActive
#IAmAlreadyStrugglingToPutMySocksOnButIRealisedAsBWasASummerBabyIJustWoreSandalsOutsideButAsBabyXIsAWinterBabyINeedToWearSocks
#IUsuallyWearTiagosShoesIfHeIsNotComingOutWithUsAsTheyAreEasierToJustSlipOnAndOff
#WeSurvivedTheClockChangeThoughIDidWakeUpAndNoticeTheClockWasOffSoThoughtItHadFreakedOut
#ThenIRealisedTheElectricityHadGoneOffSoIWentToPlayWithTheFuseBoxAt2InTheMorningAsIWasWorriedAboutTheFreezerDefrosting
#IUsedAWoodenSpatulaAsIWasWorriedAboutGettingAnElectricShockAndEverythingCameBackOn
#IWasLookingForwardToTheOvenFinallyHavingTheRightTimeOnItButThenISetItAs8InsteadOf6SoIHadToTurnItOffFor15MinutesAndTryAgain
#BWokeUpAt5ButSheIsAlreadyAdaptingThoughLastNightSheWasAwakeFor3HoursBetween12And3AsSheWasProbablyTeethingAndIsGoingThroughALeap
#InOtherNewsBHasBeenOfferedAPlaceForNursery
#SheHasASettlingInHourSessionThisWeekThenAnHourAndAHalfOneNextWeekAndThenSheStarts
#IFeelGuiltyAboutItAndIFeelLikeABitOfAFailureAsAStayAtHomeMum
#ButAtTheSameTimeIThinkItWillBeGoodForHerEspeciallyWhenBabyXComesAlongAndIWillBeTiredAndHaveLessEnthusiasm
#ItIsOnlyForACoupleOfHalfDaysAWeekAndRealisticallyIWillProbablyPickHerUpEarly
#IThinkSheWillLikeItThereAndItWillGiveMeABitMoreTimeToOrganiseMyselfBeforeBabyXIsBornAndThenIKnowIHaveABitOfTimeEachWeekWhereIOnlyHaveToLookAfterOneKid
#UltimatelyIThinkItIsTheBestThingForUsAsAFamilyAndIFeelLikeItIsStartingAtTheRightTime
#MyParentsLookedAfterBForTheFirstTimeTheOtherDayAndItGaveMeATasteOfHowItMightBe
#WeDroppedHerOffAfterBreakfastAndThenWeStayedABitToMakeSureSheWasAlright
#ThenWeWentHomeAndDidABitOfWorkThenWentOutForLunchWhereTheySaidThatTheyCouldNotServeTheDishOfTheDayYetAsTheyWereABitBehind
#IJustMadeACommentAboutHowWeWereTooKeenAsItWasOurFirstLunchDateWithoutOurDaughterAndSoHeSaidHeWouldMakeASmallBatch
#TheDelayMeantWeHadSomeTimeToTalkAndItWasNiceToFeelLikeWeAreNotJustParentsInTheNicestWayPossible
#OnTheWayHomeIFeltColdAndMyBumpWasTooBigToDoTheZipOfMyCoatUpSoWeHadToSwapCoatsAndIThinkTiagoMayBeBorrowingMyCoatForAWhileNow
#AtHomeWeWatchedAlmostOneEpisodeOfAmericanCrimeStoryThenHadANapThenWentToPickHerUp
#IThinkMyTimeWillLookVeryDifferentToThatWhileBIsAtNurseryButIGuessIMightRestALittleBitSometimesThoughIWillProbablyFeelGuiltyForDoingThat
#ItIsGoodToKnowThatBCanHappilySpendTheDayWithMyParentsThoughAsSoonTheyWillBeHavingHerForAnOvernightStay
#IGuessThisIsAllGoodPreparationAsTheyWillProbablyHaveToLookAfterHerWhileIAmInHospitalGivingBirth
#ApparentlySheLookedForUsForFiveMinutesWhenWeLeftButWhenWeArrivedWeWalkedInTheRoomAndSheDidNotEvenNotice
#IAmLikingThatTheMorningsAreLighterNowButINeedToGetUsedToGettingBOutOfTheHouseEarlierForAnAfternoonWalk

#IAmYetToDoTheShootButIImagineItWillBeSomeAbstractShotOfMyBumpAsWhenIExerciseILookAtItAndThinkThatIsWhatIWantToPhotograph

We shall see.

(Well, it ended up as an above shot of my bump. I like it.)

#IThinkBabyXMayBeMoreActiveThanBWasAsWhenIWasPregnantWithBIWasOftenJustSatByMyselfNotMakingMuchNoise

By this point I was at home all the time, not singing in case the neighbours heard me, and Tiago was in the small bedroom/his office working all day.

#NowAllDayIAmTalkingToBAndSingingToHerAndReadingHerBooksSoSheProbablyReactsToTheNoiseALot

Plus I have my Nan to talk to, and my Mum comes round a few times a week, and I take B for walks and talk to people at the playground and park.

#HoweverSheDoesKickOrPunchMeALotWhenIAmInBedAndItIsQuiteQuietSoMaybeSheIsMoreActive

I think the position of the placenta may have something to do with it too, but it’s probably a mix of all these things.

#IAmAlreadyStrugglingToPutMySocksOnButIRealisedAsBWasASummerBabyIJustWoreSandalsOutsideButAsBabyXIsAWinterBabyINeedToWearSocks

Trying to find the easiest way to put them on. Generally sitting down and doing a figure of 4 with my leg.

#IUsuallyWearTiagosShoesIfHeIsNotComingOutWithUsAsTheyAreEasierToJustSlipOnAndOff

The laces are done up and they slip on and off easily.

#WeSurvivedTheClockChangeThoughIDidWakeUpAndNoticeTheClockWasOffSoThoughtItHadFreakedOut

It’s a digital clock that sits on my desk, so I usually sit up and look at it when I wake up. Exciting stuff.

#ThenIRealisedTheElectricityHadGoneOffSoIWentToPlayWithTheFuseBoxAt2InTheMorningAsIWasWorriedAboutTheFreezerDefrosting

I had noticed other things weren’t showing their usual lights, and then the lamp next to the bed wouldn’t turn on. Tiago didn’t seem too bothered, but I wanted to sort it out. I was quite awake though.

#IUsedAWoodenSpatulaAsIWasWorriedAboutGettingAnElectricShockAndEverythingCameBackOn

Everything made a noise and I was surprised that no one woke up – especially the doorbell ringing.

#IWasLookingForwardToTheOvenFinallyHavingTheRightTimeOnItButThenISetItAs8InsteadOf6SoIHadToTurnItOffFor15MinutesAndTryAgain

I like to think I’m quite good at fixing things, but I hadn’t been able to work it out. Before it was nearly at the right time before the last clock change, then someone came and fixed the oven and set it to the right time. More exciting stuff.

#BWokeUpAt5ButSheIsAlreadyAdaptingThoughLastNightSheWasAwakeFor3HoursBetween12And3AsSheWasProbablyTeethingAndIsGoingThroughALeap

Luckily we’d both gone to bed early. I think Tiago was asleep at 9 and I was asleep around 9.45 possibly?

#InOtherNewsBHasBeenOfferedAPlaceForNursery

Hurrah.

#SheHasASettlingInHourSessionThisWeekThenAnHourAndAHalfOneNextWeekAndThenSheStarts

I am a little nervous, but I think she will love it.

#IFeelGuiltyAboutItAndIFeelLikeABitOfAFailureAsAStayAtHomeMum

Well, I guess in the beginning I won’t be a stay at home Mum when B is at nursery, but once Baby X is born I will be again.

#ButAtTheSameTimeIThinkItWillBeGoodForHerEspeciallyWhenBabyXComesAlongAndIWillBeTiredAndHaveLessEnthusiasm

She will love seeing the other kids and playing with different toys I’m sure. The food sounds nice too!

#ItIsOnlyForACoupleOfHalfDaysAWeekAndRealisticallyIWillProbablyPickHerUpEarly

It’s not much at all, but it’s enough for now.

#IThinkSheWillLikeItThereAndItWillGiveMeABitMoreTimeToOrganiseMyselfBeforeBabyXIsBornAndThenIKnowIHaveABitOfTimeEachWeekWhereIOnlyHaveToLookAfterOneKid

Baby X won’t be moving about for a long time and will be napping a lot. B naps once a day now and is always moving about. It will be different.

I need to really go through all my stuff and have a clear out, then go through baby clothes sorting them and washing them etc.

#UltimatelyIThinkItIsTheBestThingForUsAsAFamilyAndIFeelLikeItIsStartingAtTheRightTime

I feel less guilty now. I am definitely starting to feel more tired as bump gets bigger…

#MyParentsLookedAfterBForTheFirstTimeTheOtherDayAndItGaveMeATasteOfHowItMightBe

Though T and I have both felt a bit ill since. We’ve had negative Covid tests. I think our bodies just decided that it was safe to be ill.

#WeDroppedHerOffAfterBreakfastAndThenWeStayedABitToMakeSureSheWasAlright

My Dad recorded some episodes of Teletubbies for her and she seemed quite content.

#ThenWeWentHomeAndDidABitOfWorkThenWentOutForLunchWhereTheySaidThatTheyCouldNotServeTheDishOfTheDayYetAsTheyWereABitBehind

At first we thought they were closed as they had a sign up saying they were closed for a function, but that was the day before.

#IJustMadeACommentAboutHowWeWereTooKeenAsItWasOurFirstLunchDateWithoutOurDaughterAndSoHeSaidHeWouldMakeASmallBatch

Legend. It wasn’t that great in the end, but it felt good to get out and sit in a restaurant/cafe looking out the windows and not having to worry about B.

(We had lunch dates when we visited T’s parents I think, but it was always different as we always felt like we were on a timer.)

#TheDelayMeantWeHadSomeTimeToTalkAndItWasNiceToFeelLikeWeAreNotJustParentsInTheNicestWayPossible

I guess some couples have kids and then all they really talk about is the kids, so it was nice to think and talk about other things. We did talk about her a bit of course, but it was good to feel a bit like our old selves again too.

#OnTheWayHomeIFeltColdAndMyBumpWasTooBigToDoTheZipOfMyCoatUpSoWeHadToSwapCoatsAndIThinkTiagoMayBeBorrowingMyCoatForAWhileNow

He never realised how cozy my coat was. His coat was cold…

#AtHomeWeWatchedAlmostOneEpisodeOfAmericanCrimeStoryThenHadANapThenWentToPickHerUp

The day went fast.

#IThinkMyTimeWillLookVeryDifferentToThatWhileBIsAtNurseryButIGuessIMightRestALittleBitSometimesThoughIWillProbablyFeelGuiltyForDoingThat

I’m sure I’ll have my to do lists. If I get my stuff done then I can rest.

#ItIsGoodToKnowThatBCanHappilySpendTheDayWithMyParentsThoughAsSoonTheyWillBeHavingHerForAnOvernightStay

This was a test run.

#IGuessThisIsAllGoodPreparationAsTheyWillProbablyHaveToLookAfterHerWhileIAmInHospitalGivingBirth

With B I was in for 4 days, so we will have to see how it goes this time. It’s also good prep for B going to nursery, though she knows my Mum well.

#ApparentlySheLookedForUsForFiveMinutesWhenWeLeftButWhenWeArrivedWeWalkedInTheRoomAndSheDidNotEvenNotice

I was just going to sit on the sofa until she noticed but Tiago said hi.

#IAmLikingThatTheMorningsAreLighterNowButINeedToGetUsedToGettingBOutOfTheHouseEarlierForAnAfternoonWalk

Before we would dawdle for a bit before going for a walk. This morning I felt too tired to take B out for a walk, so we definitely need a good one later.

27 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait lying on a sofa leaning on my right elbow and my right hand is nestled in my hair. My top is lifted up so you can see my bump.
I Want To Keep Being Able To Go For Walks (27 weeks)
 
#IAmFeelingTired
#GladIDecidedYesterdayToTakePicturesOfMyselfOnTheSofaToday
#YesterdayIWasLyingOnThereWatchingMyBellyToSeeIfICouldSeeTheBabyMoving
#IHaveNotSeenTheBabyMoveAsMoveAsMuchAsTheFirstDayISawIt
#ITryToTakeABreakToSeeIfICanFeelAndSeeTheBabyMoving
#IThinkItIsMovingNow
#AndItWasDuringTheShootABit
#IDoNotThinkIWillReadBabyForumsForABit
#TheyStressedMeOutBefore
#ButNowWithCoronaTheyAreFullOfPeopleBeingMoreStressedOut
#StillTryingToGoOutForAWalkADay
#IMakeAnEffortToKeepAGoodDistanceBetweenMyselfAndOtherPeople
#TheOtherDayIWasOutsideOfASupermarket
#AWomanAndGuyCameAlong
#TheWomanWentInAndTheGuyStayedOutside
#ButHeStoodRightByTheDoor
#SoAnyoneGoingInAndOutHadToWalkLessThanAMetreAwayFromHim
#ThenYesterdayWeWereWalkingOnAVeryWidePathByTheKerb
#AGuyRanByPuffingAndPantingRightNextToUs
#IShouldHaveToldBothOfThemOff
#AndYesterdayISawTwoGuysCoughInTheStreetWithoutPuttingTheirHandsOverTheirMouths
#AndOneThenWalkedIntoTheSupermarketThatTiagoWasIn
#IWantToKeepBeingAbleToGoForWalks
#INeedTheExercise
#ButIfPeopleKeepNotKeepingTheirDistanceAndDoingDumbThingsThenIMightHaveToStop
#ThoughTheyAreTheOnesWhoShouldNotGoOut
#IFeelLikeMaybeWeWillNotGetIt
#ButMaybeIAmTryingToBeOptimistic
#ItSeemsMoreSeriousByTheDay
#IJustWantToKnowHowLongItWillGoOnForButItCouldBeALongTime

Well, I’m definitely feeling tired. I’m writing this on 2nd November. I’m going to have a nap once I finish the comparison bit.

I have not really read any forums this time as I do not have the time or energy for them.

People still annoy me, but less so now I am double vaccinated. I am worried now that cases are increasing again though.

People running right next to me while breathing loudly does still annoy me a lot.

#IJustWantToKnowHowLongItWillGoOnForButItCouldBeALongTime

Well, it’s still going on and I wrote that in March 2020.

Self-portrait with Tiago. He is facing the right of the frame and I am hugging him with my left hand, but facing more towards the camera.
I Feel Like I Have Lost A Sense Of Urgency (27 weeks)
 
#AnotherDayAtHome
#WellWeWentOutForAShortWalk
#YesterdayWeLeftOurWalkUntilTooLate
#WhenItWasStartingToGetDarkAndCold
#SoWeDidNotGoOut
#OriginallyWeWereHavingOurWalksAfterItGetsDark
#ButTheWeatherGotBetterSoWeWantedToEnjoyTheSunABit
#IHavePlentyOfThingsToKeepMeBusy
#ButIFeelLikeIHaveLostASenseOfUrgency
#LikeWhyRushAsIAmNotGoingAnywhereElse
#AFriendAskedUsIfWeWereOkayJustBeingAroundEachOtherAllDay
#YeahWeAreUsedToBeingHomeALot
#WeAreLuckyAsWeCanSitInDifferentRoomsWhilstWeAreWorkingIfWeWant
#ThoughThisWeekendWeHaveStuckToTheSameRoom
#IWasSupposedToStartPhotographingHimMoreAWhileAgo
#IDidForABitButIFeltBadBotheringHim
#HeWasOnThePhoneDoingTheWashingUpToday
#AndIWasHuggingHim
#AndIThoughtThatWouldMakeAnAlrightPicture
#SoLaterOnIAskedHimAndHeObviouslySaidYes
#ObviouslyAsInHeIsInThePicture
#AskedTiagoIfHeHadAnyCommentsAndHeSaid
#IFeelKindOfRelaxedToBeFair
#HopefulThatThingsWillGetBetterInAMonthOrTwo
#ISaidIThinkItMightTakeAWhileForThingsToGoBackToNormal
#ItMightBeAfterIGiveBirthAtThisPoint
#IThinkEvenWhenThisNonLockdownEndsIWillBeCautious
#AsItCouldQuiteEasilyComeBackAndStartAllOverAgain
#WhoKnows
#IThinkWeJustNeedToBeCareful

I was not much of a walker until Covid. Now with B I love to get out of the house, though this morning I felt too tired to and instead did some baking (we have a lot of bananas that need eating).

I remember this ‘loss of urgency’ phase quite well, but it did not really last too long. It was just a lot to try to comprehend.

We are still trying to be careful.

Me sitting on the floor in a bra and leggings with my legs together in butterfly pose and my hands on my knees. My bump is showing.
The Baby Moving Reminds Me Of A Whale Rolling (27 and a half weeks)
 
#AnotherHalfAWeekGone
#TimeFliesInItsOwnWay
#EvenWhenIAmAtHomeAllTheTime
#ApartForOurLittleDailyWalk
#WeNowWalkALessBusyWayIfWeDoNotNeedToGoToTheSupermarket
#WhichWeHaveNotBeenToItInAFewDaysButProbablyWillGoToTonight
#ExcitingTimes
#WellIWillJustStandOutsideJudgingTheBehaviourOfOthers
#IFeelLikeMyDaysAreStillPrettyFull
#IGuessIHadAGoodRoutineBeforeLockdownHappened
#SoThingsJustContinueAsNormalish
#IAmTryingToReadMore
#AndMaybeIWillStartToWatchMoreTVButIFeelLikeIDoNotHaveMuchTimeForIt
#MaybeJustAtTheWeekends
#IAmQuiteFarBehindWithPostingTheProjectForOthersToSee
#ItIsFunnyReadingMyPreviousConcerns
#ThingsLikePeopleTouchingMyBelly
#LuckilyIWillNotHaveToWorryAboutThatWithSocialDistancing
#WhenWeGoOutForAWalkIWorryThatPeopleLookAtMeLikeSheShouldNotBeOutHere
#ButThatIsWhyItIsNiceThatWeGoTheQuietRoute
#AndPeopleSeemToBeGettingBetterAtKeepingADistance
#IStillGetWorriedAboutNotFeelingTheBabyMove
#IThinkIJustGetSoDistractedByThingsThatIDoNotRegisterItMoving
#IThinkItIsMovingNowThough
#WhenItTurnsOverItRemindsMeOfWhenYouSeeAWhaleRolling
#NotThatIAmComparingTheBabyToAWhale
#ButIJustVisualiseThatRollingMotion
#IGuessItIsARelaxingComparison
#IDoNotFeelTooWorriedAsIBarelyLeaveTheFlat
#ICallMyNanEverydayAndIHopeThatSheStaysFine

It’s so weird that Covid is still going on, but it’s better now that there are vaccines.

My walks are more with purpose these days as I am usually taking B somewhere, and we live in Birmingham now instead of Liverpool.

I think I will not stop being anxious about the baby during the pregnancy, and then when they’re born there are new anxieties.


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Imitating B Drinking Tea With A Comb (26 Weeks / 30th October 2021)

Diptych. First image is me dipping a comb into a mug. In the second image I am imitating B drinking tea off the comb.
Imitating B Drinking Tea With A Comb (26 Weeks / 30th October 2021)
 
#TheOtherMorningIExplainedToBAboutCombsAndSheCombedMyHairABit
#ThenInTheAfternoonICaughtHerDippingTheCombIntoMyNansCupOfTeaAndThenPuttingItInHerMouth
#ThisMorningSheTriedToBrushMyHairWithADustpanBrush
#SheSeemsToBeAdaptingAlrightToOneNapADayRoutineAndNowIWishIHadMovedHerToItSooner
#SheDoesStartYawningQuiteEarlySoITryToTakeHerOutForAWalkOrSomethingThoughYesterdaySheFellAsleepOnTheSwingBriefly
#SheLikesToWalkHoldingOntoHerPushchairNowSoITryToTireHerOutAndSheTendsToEatMoreLunchIfSheHasWalkedALot
#SheHasAnEarlyLunchOfElevenThirtyNowAndThenHasASnackAfterSheWakesUp
#BoringStuffLikeMostOfMyHashtagsButThisIsTheStuffThatDominatesMyThoughts
#SheGetsUpsetIfIPickHerUpToCrossTheRoadSoWeHaveToWaitForTheTrafficToClear
#TheOtherDayACarStoppedAndIWasHoldingOntoBWithOneHandAndHerPushchairWithTheOtherAsIfIPutTheBrakeOnItDoesNotComeOff
#TheCarBeepedAtUsSoIHadToDoAMassiveHeadJerkToSayDriveOn
#BLikesToWaveAtPeopleAsSheWalksByJustLiftingHerHand
#ItLooksABitMoreLikeASaluteSoINeedToBeCarefulAboutImitatingIt
#ILoveHerPerseveranceAsIfSomeoneDoesNotWaveBackSheTriesAFewMoreTimesThenMakesANoiseAtThem
#IFeelLikeWeAreStartingToSettleIntoTheLocalCommunityMoreAndWeRecogniseMorePeopleOnOurWalks
#SheDoesNotSeemToWaveAtPeopleWeKnowThoughWhichIsFunny
#YesterdayBWavedAtAWomanAndSheSaidOhSheMustHaveMeConfusedWithSomeoneElseButISaidNoSheOnlyWavesAtStrangers
#SometimesSheMilksItAndJustKeepsWavingAtTheSamePersonWithACombinationOfOneAndTwoHands
#IHaveNoticedThatMorePeopleInteractWithUsWhenSheIsWalkingComparedToWhenSheIsInHerPushchair
#AFiveMinuteWalkDoesTakeUsAboutHalfAnHourEspeciallyIfSheStopsToStareAtDogsAndRunUpAndDownTinyHills
#ThisWeekSomeBoysHadABallInThePlaygroundAndTheyWereReallyNiceAboutLettingHerPlayWithItWhichReallyWarmedMyHeart
#WhenSheGetsTiredNowHerLegsTurnToJellyAndSheFallsOverALot
#TalkingOfJellyICanNowSeeMyBumpWobbleWithKicks
#SheSeemsALotMoreActiveThanBWasButMaybeItIsDownToWhereThePlacentaIsAndMyMemory
#IAmDefinitelyGettingBiggerAsNowISeemToMisjudgeGapsAndKnockMyBumpIntoThings
#YesterdayIHeardTiagoWalkingUpTheStairsAndThrewMyselfOntoTheBedToPretendIWasAsleep
#OfCourseIForgotAboutMyBumpAndLandedOnItSoThatWasUncomfortable
#IAlsoHadATubeOfTomatoPureeFallOutOfTheFridgeOntoItSoSorryBabyXIfIHurtYouAtAllYesterday
#ICanNotWaitForBToFeelAKickButSheStillDoesNotSeemThatInterestedInMyBumpAndProbablyThinksIAmBeingSillyWhenITellHerABabyIsInside
#HoweverSheDidUseItAsAPillowTheOtherDayWhenWeWereChilling
Gif of the two previous images, showing me putting the comb in a mug and then pretending to drink tea off the comb.
Imitating B Drinking Tea With A Comb (26 Weeks / 30th October 2021) (GIF)

#TheOtherMorningIExplainedToBAboutCombsAndSheCombedMyHairABit

I rarely brush my hair, and wash it, so it was a bit of a task for her, but she seemed to enjoy it anyways.

#ThenInTheAfternoonICaughtHerDippingTheCombIntoMyNansCupOfTeaAndThenPuttingItInHerMouth

Does drinking tea from a comb make you more or less British?

#ThisMorningSheTriedToBrushMyHairWithADustpanBrush

Great. I nearly let her do it, then my common sense kicked in. I really can’t be bothered to wash my hair much lately…

#SheSeemsToBeAdaptingAlrightToOneNapADayRoutineAndNowIWishIHadMovedHerToItSooner

Typically I put it off and then it goes alright. I think we did it at the right time though as she had been taking two naps quite well for a while.

#SheDoesStartYawningQuiteEarlySoITryToTakeHerOutForAWalkOrSomethingThoughYesterdaySheFellAsleepOnTheSwingBriefly

We went to meet a pregnant woman that I had been speaking to via an app. On the way I was rattling the toy on B’s pushchair to keep her awake.

B seems to like the swing more now, but I think all the walking tires her out. She was quite happy just being on the swing for ages while we chatted.

#SheLikesToWalkHoldingOntoHerPushchairNowSoITryToTireHerOutAndSheTendsToEatMoreLunchIfSheHasWalkedALot

She walks quite a lot now. I do have to pick her up at times, which isn’t good for bump but sometimes I have to. Sometimes she is so wet from the rain that I do not want to put her in her pushchair, and she doesn’t want to get in it anyways.

#SheHasAnEarlyLunchOfElevenThirtyNowAndThenHasASnackAfterSheWakesUp

I think I need to start giving her a bigger snack and she is starting to get more hangry before dinner.

#BoringStuffLikeMostOfMyHashtagsButThisIsTheStuffThatDominatesMyThoughts

Yeah, this is my life. I don’t think anyone reads this anyways so whatever.

#SheGetsUpsetIfIPickHerUpToCrossTheRoadSoWeHaveToWaitForTheTrafficToClear

Sometimes I do pick her up and it’s a struggle to cross the road with her wriggling, and to push the pushchair.

#TheOtherDayACarStoppedAndIWasHoldingOntoBWithOneHandAndHerPushchairWithTheOtherAsIfIPutTheBrakeOnItDoesNotComeOff

There were a couple of other people waiting, so I though they’d go and we’d just wait.

#TheCarBeepedAtUsSoIHadToDoAMassiveHeadJerkToSayDriveOn

It was so awkward. They couldn’t see B from where they were in the car though.

#BLikesToWaveAtPeopleAsSheWalksByJustLiftingHerHand

Cute.

#ItLooksABitMoreLikeASaluteSoINeedToBeCarefulAboutImitatingIt

Not so cute.

#ILoveHerPerseveranceAsIfSomeoneDoesNotWaveBackSheTriesAFewMoreTimesThenMakesANoiseAtThem

A young woman yesterday was walking looking at her phone. B tried to get her attention a few times with a wave, then made a noise at her while waving, but she was either in her own world or ignoring us. I don’t blame her.

I told B to not lose her friendliness and to keep persisting with her waving, though I doubt she understood me.

#IFeelLikeWeAreStartingToSettleIntoTheLocalCommunityMoreAndWeRecogniseMorePeopleOnOurWalks

I think I’ve said it before, but it’s nice.

#SheDoesNotSeemToWaveAtPeopleWeKnowThoughWhichIsFunny

She generally just hides from them, especially if they have dogs that have barked in the past. Yesterday a couple of dogs we know were barking, and although B jumped she did not cry which is good.

#YesterdayBWavedAtAWomanAndSheSaidOhSheMustHaveMeConfusedWithSomeoneElseButISaidNoSheOnlyWavesAtStrangers

Big lol. She was pushing a shopping trolley bag, and I realised one would not be a bad idea with B. She can push it along and then when she gets tired I can just put her inside. I probably won’t do this…

#SometimesSheMilksItAndJustKeepsWavingAtTheSamePersonWithACombinationOfOneAndTwoHands

This happened a couple of days ago, but the woman was sweet and indulged her. And then when we met ‘the pregnant lady’ B kept waving bye.

#IHaveNoticedThatMorePeopleInteractWithUsWhenSheIsWalkingComparedToWhenSheIsInHerPushchair

‘Oh, isn’t he a good walker.’ (Everyone just assumes she’s a boy.)

#AFiveMinuteWalkDoesTakeUsAboutHalfAnHourEspeciallyIfSheStopsToStareAtDogsAndRunUpAndDownTinyHills

Probably more to be fair. There does seem to be a fine line between tiring B out and her getting overtired, but hopefully over time she will adapt.

#ThisWeekSomeBoysHadABallInThePlaygroundAndTheyWereReallyNiceAboutLettingHerPlayWithItWhichReallyWarmedMyHeart

‘Warmed my heart’ – lol. It’s true though. I was a bit like ‘oh B, don’t play with that it’s not yours’, but they were really kind. They were probably 10 or something? I really can’t age kids.

#WhenSheGetsTiredNowHerLegsTurnToJellyAndSheFallsOverALot

This happened a bit before, but is more obvious now with just the one nap a day.

#TalkingOfJellyICanNowSeeMyBumpWobbleWithKicks

It’s funny. Still trying to get B to notice…

#SheSeemsALotMoreActiveThanBWasButMaybeItIsDownToWhereThePlacentaIsAndMyMemory

She’s moving now. It’s good though as it’s reassuring.

#IAmDefinitelyGettingBiggerAsNowISeemToMisjudgeGapsAndKnockMyBumpIntoThings

‘I can fit through that – oww.’

#YesterdayIHeardTiagoWalkingUpTheStairsAndThrewMyselfOntoTheBedToPretendIWasAsleep

I was super tired to be fair. I couldn’t tell if my computer was playing up or if it was my eyes.

#OfCourseIForgotAboutMyBumpAndLandedOnItSoThatWasUncomfortable

Whoops. I then had to roll over a bit and was just lying weirdly when he entered the room.

#IAlsoHadATubeOfTomatoPureeFallOutOfTheFridgeOntoItSoSorryBabyXIfIHurtYouAtAllYesterday

It was a bit spikey… I think she is quite well protected though.

#ICanNotWaitForBToFeelAKickButSheStillDoesNotSeemThatInterestedInMyBumpAndProbablyThinksIAmBeingSillyWhenITellHerABabyIsInside

She’s still got a bit of time to adapt to the idea. She likes to look at babies in the park, but let’s see how much she likes having one at home all the time.

#HoweverSheDidUseMyBumpAsAPillowTheOtherDayWhenWeWereChilling

See, your sister is useful B. I’m still not 100% sure it’s a girl – I saw a newspaper article about a woman who was told she was pregnant with 2 girls and a boy and she ended up having boy triplets.

26 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait where I am naked from my breasts down. I am showing off a bump and my left hand is touching my back.
Today We Saw The Baby Move For The First Time (26 and a half weeks)
 
#WellThisMorningWasExciting
#IWasWorriedThatIHadNotFeltTheBabyMoveLastNightOrThisMorning
#IWasLyingInBedFaffingOnMyPhoneWithMyTopUp
#AndISawMyBellyMove
#IThoughtIHadNotSeenIt
#SoIJustLayThereWatchingMyBelly
#ItMovedAndIGasped
#WhoNeedsTVWhenYouHaveABump
#ItIsQuiteMeditativeJustWatchingIt
#AtOnePointThereWasAStrangeShapeByMyBellyButton
#SoITouchedIt
#ItMustHaveBeenAHandOrFootAsItThenWentAway
#SoCool
#ButSoWeird
#LastNightIWokeUpInTheNightAndStretchedMyLegOut
#ThenIGotAReallyPainfulCrampInMyLeg
#ITouchedWhereItHurt
#AndIThoughtIFeltALumpWhichFreakedMeOut
#ThoughIThinkItWasJustMyMuscleAndIWasHalfAsleep
#IHaveNotTouchedMyLegsInAWhile
#IGuessIAmGivingMyBumpAllTheAttention
#MyLegsAreGettingMuscly
#PostedAPictureTodayWhereIThoughtItLookedLikeIHaveABumpAtTheTime
#ItLooksLikeNothing
#EspeciallyComparedToNow
#ITookASimilarPictureToThisOnly4WeeksAgo
#AndIFeelLikeTheChangeIsQuiteDifferent
#LookingThroughThePicturesOfThisProjectTheBumpJustKindOfSuddenlyAppears
#AndDoesNotStop
#InterestedToSeeHowMyBumpWillLookJustBeforeIGiveBirth

Okay, so seeing my belly move started around the same time.

I have noticed a few strange shapes too. I guess she is getting bigger. (My app says the size of a swede – 35.6cm in length, that is quite long.)

I haven’t noticed any lumps in my legs with cramps this time, but I had forgot about this. The other night I had a cramp and just swung my leg out of bed to stand up and it was less painful than normal. Win.

I feel torn with this project as I love imitating B, but I also want more bump photos. I guess my next shoot can be a bump image…


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Imitating B Putting Her Head Against A Mirror (26 Weeks / 26th October 2021)

Self-portrait where I am resting my head on a mirror and looking at myself.
Imitating B Putting Her Head Against A Mirror (26 Weeks / 26th October 2021)
 
#IfBSeesAMirrorForSomeReasonSheHasToButtHeadsWithItOrBangOnItOrAtLeastRestHerHeadOnIt
#IAmStillTryingToFigureOutIfSheKnowsItIsHerInTheMirrorOrNot
#IfISeeAMirrorAndIAmCarryingHerThenIUsuallyWaveAtHerSoIThinkSheMustKnowButWhoKnows
#FiveDaysAgoIWroteInMyHashtagRemindersThatMaybeItIsTimeToDropBDownToOneNapADayButIWasFeelingHesitantAsILikeOurRoutines
#WellWeWentAwayAtTheWeekendAndBDidNotHaveASecondNapOnTheFridaySaturdayAndSunday
#ThenYesterdayIPutHerDownForHerFirstNapAndSheWasNotFallingAsleepSoIGotHerBackUpAndThenGaveHerANapAtMiddayInstead
#LastNightSheWasAwakeFromMidnightToTwoishAndThenWokeUpAtFiveThirtySoIPutHerInOurBed
#IDoNotLikeToDoItMuchButSheDidActuallySleepForAnotherHourThoughMySleepWasVeryUnsettledAsIWasWorriedAboutSquishingHerOrSomething
#StayingInAHotelStressedMeOutAsEverytimeSheCriedIWasWorriedThatItWouldAnnoyPeople
#IBarelySleptOnTheFridayNightAndOnTheSaturdayMorningWePutHerInOurBedFromFiveishAndSheSleptALittleBitLonger
#IAmWorriedThatWeAreUndoingHerSleepTrainingButMaybeSheIsJustTeethingAndABitClingierThoughOnSundayNightSheSleptFine
#ItWasWeirdGoingToAPhotographyWeekendAndTiagoAndBJoiningMeAsMyTwoWorldsRarelyCollide
#ItWasFunnyTalkingToPhotoFriendsAndThenSeeingThemWalkingTowardsMeAsItJustSeemedSoOdd
#IAmGoingToHaveToAdjustToThisNewOneNapScheduleButOnceWeDoIThinkItWillBeForTheBetterAsWeCanGoOutForLonger
#ThoughIAmWorriedAboutTheDarkEveningsAsIWillNotBeAbleToTakeHerOutLikeIUsuallyDoSoWeMightFeelABitStuckAtHome
#IWillJustHaveToAdjustWhenITakeHerOutForWalksAndMaybeWeWillJustHaveToDoSomeWalksInTheDarkWithTiagoOnTheNightsThatFeelLonger
#LastWeekIHadAMidwivesAppointmentAndIHadToTakeBWithMeButItWasAllFineAndTheBabyIsFine
#HerDueDateIsAFewDaysBeforeMineIThinkSoIWillNotSeeHerAgainAsSheWillBeWorkingFromHome
#SheSaidAsItIsNotMyFirstBabyThe31WeekAppointmentIsOptionalButISaidIMightAsWellHaveIt
#ThatMorningIWasChangingBsNappyAndThenICouldNotFindHerNappyCreamThoughIKnewIHadGotItBeforeSettingUpAChangingStation
#SoIWentOffToLookForItAndBStoodUpAndPissedOnTheFloorAndThenManagedToSlipOverInItSoWhenITookHerVestOffTheBackOfHerHeadWasWet
#SorryToBIfThisIsTooMuchButIFoundItFunnyAndSoIHadToGiveHerABathWhichMightHaveBeenHerFirstMorningBath
#IAmSureThisMorningThatShePointedToMyBellyAndThenDidAnImpressionOfItWithHerHand
#MyMumAndNanBothSaidMyBumpLooksALotBiggerTodaySoMaybeBNoticedToo
#WithHerNewScheduleIAmGoingToHaveToSeeIfICanDoABitOfWorkWhileShePlaysNextToMe
#IDoNotKnowWhyIFeelBadForDoingThisAsIAmSureALotOfOtherPeopleDoItToo
#YesterdayWeWereInMineAndTsBedroomAndISawAStackOfStuffNextToTheMirror
#ILookedAtItAndThoughtMaybeIShouldMoveItButDecidedItShouldBeFineButThen5MinutesLaterBHadKnockedItOverSoIHadToMoveIt
#IAmGettingQuiteNervousAboutHavingTwoKidsInAFewMonthsOrSo
#SometimesIGetWorriedAboutLackOfMovementsButThenSheStartsMovingALotAndTiagoCouldFeelHerKickingMeLastNight

#IfBSeesAMirrorForSomeReasonSheHasToButtHeadsWithItOrBangOnItOrAtLeastRestHerHeadOnIt

I really wish she could talk so she could explain things to me. Maybe she likes that it feels cold?

#IAmStillTryingToFigureOutIfSheKnowsItIsHerInTheMirrorOrNot

I thought she had known for ages, then I read in a development thing that is a more recent ‘skill’ that they learn.

#IfISeeAMirrorAndIAmCarryingHerThenIUsuallyWaveAtHerSoIThinkSheMustKnowButWhoKnows

I think she knows. Again, I can’t ask her.

#FiveDaysAgoIWroteInMyHashtagRemindersThatMaybeItIsTimeToDropBDownToOneNapADayButIWasFeelingHesitantAsILikeOurRoutines

Things were just working. I did note that maybe it would stop her early mornings though.

I send reminders to myself of what I might want to talk about in my hashtags. I am starting to think that they are just super dull, but I am tired.

#WellWeWentAwayAtTheWeekendAndBDidNotHaveASecondNapOnTheFridaySaturdayAndSunday

Friday I just thought she would not have a long enough nap before going to an appointment, and then going away so we might as well just try to leave as early as possible.

Saturday – She had her morning nap at a good time, then Tiago took her back to the hotel for a nap and she didn’t take it. Maybe it was because she knew T was in the room, but he had been there in the morning too?

Sunday – We left early so B and I could sleep in the car. Then we were meeting friends I could not be bothered to even try to get B to have a nap on the go. To be fair she showed no signs of being tired and wouldn’t even sit in her pushchair…

#ThenYesterdayIPutHerDownForHerFirstNapAndSheWasNotFallingAsleepSoIGotHerBackUpAndThenGaveHerANapAtMiddayInstead

I just realised ‘what am I doing? I should just transition her to one nap now’ as I didn’t think she would end up having a very long second nap anyways.

#LastNightSheWasAwakeFromMidnightToTwoishAndThenWokeUpAtFiveThirtySoIPutHerInOurBed

I was hoping she would sleep late as she was awake for so long.

I went in with her water and paracetamol and she seemed fine, until every time I went to leave. Tiago went in after a bit and stayed with her until she calmed down.

This morning I was not ready to get her up, and she seemed tired so putting her in our bed seemed like the easier option.

#IDoNotLikeToDoItMuchButSheDidActuallySleepForAnotherHourThoughMySleepWasVeryUnsettledAsIWasWorriedAboutSquishingHerOrSomething

My maternity pillow acted as a barrier so she was stuck on my side of the bed. She did cuddle up to me which was cute. When she went to Tiago’s side after an hour-ish I realised what an uncomfortable position I had been in.

#StayingInAHotelStressedMeOutAsEverytimeSheCriedIWasWorriedThatItWouldAnnoyPeople

The hotel reviews were really mixed, but it was nice. The staff were super friendly and the bed wasn’t bad.

#IBarelySleptOnTheFridayNightAndOnTheSaturdayMorningWePutHerInOurBedFromFiveishAndSheSleptALittleBitLonger

Every time she woke up I sat upright and stressed. Again, it seemed like an easier option to just put her in our bed.

#IAmWorriedThatWeAreUndoingHerSleepTrainingButMaybeSheIsJustTeethingAndABitClingierThoughOnSundayNightSheSleptFine

She had a similar bad sleep episode a week ago (awake for 2 hours in the night etc.) I don’t want to keep giving her paracetamol but she has been putting her fingers in her mouth a lot and she does seem to have a bit of a cold again.

#ItWasWeirdGoingToAPhotographyWeekendAndTiagoAndBJoiningMeAsMyTwoWorldsRarelyCollide

Obviously I photograph them, so my worlds collide then but I mean colliding in real life – it was weird.

#ItWasFunnyTalkingToPhotoFriendsAndThenSeeingThemWalkingTowardsMeAsItJustSeemedSoOdd

It was nice to introduce B to people, though when she was getting tired one night she kept falling over, so Tiago had to keep taking her out of the room.

#IAmGoingToHaveToAdjustToThisNewOneNapScheduleButOnceWeDoIThinkItWillBeForTheBetterAsWeCanGoOutForLonger #ThoughIAmWorriedAboutTheDarkEveningsAsIWillNotBeAbleToTakeHerOutLikeIUsuallyDoSoWeMightFeelABitStuckAtHome

We will have to see. I am really not looking forward to the clocks changing.

#IWillJustHaveToAdjustWhenITakeHerOutForWalksAndMaybeWeWillJustHaveToDoSomeWalksInTheDarkWithTiagoOnTheNightsThatFeelLonger

The time of her one nap means we do have a lot of time in the morning, and hopefully we can go out after her nap before it gets dark.

I’m not sure how safe it will be walking around with B at night, but I know people with dogs who are already trying to figure out a route. Some nights we might feel like we have to get out for a bit. I definitely wouldn’t go out with B by myself though.

#LastWeekIHadAMidwivesAppointmentAndIHadToTakeBWithMeButItWasAllFineAndTheBabyIsFine

She was listening for a heartbeat and I could feel the baby kicking so I wasn’t too worried then.

#HerDueDateIsAFewDaysBeforeMineIThinkSoIWillNotSeeHerAgainAsSheWillBeWorkingFromHome

Shame as I like her.

#SheSaidAsItIsNotMyFirstBabyThe31WeekAppointmentIsOptionalButISaidIMightAsWellHaveIt

It’s not too far to go and I’d rather just go for an extra check and know things are okay.

#ThatMorningIWasChangingBsNappyAndThenICouldNotFindHerNappyCreamThoughIKnewIHadGotItBeforeSettingUpAChangingStation #SoIWentOffToLookForItAndBStoodUpAndPissedOnTheFloorAndThenManagedToSlipOverInItSoWhenITookHerVestOffTheBackOfHerHeadWasWet

Of course the cream had just rolled away and was under the step ladder next to us.

#SorryToBIfThisIsTooMuchButIFoundItFunnyAndSoIHadToGiveHerABathWhichMightHaveBeenHerFirstMorningBath

Sorry B. I’m sure most people have slipped over in their piss at least once in their life. If they say no then they’re probably lying. I don’t remember doing it, but I might well have done at your age.

I was hoping to get away with not giving her a bath, but nope. Then I was hoping to just wash the back of her head, but she had splashed so much that I just washed all her hair.

#IAmSureThisMorningThatShePointedToMyBellyAndThenDidAnImpressionOfItWithHerHand

Just like ‘you’re this big now’. We’ve seen some friends the last couple of days and their 4 year old son hadn’t even noticed I was pregnant until he gave me a hug last night and I pointed out he was hugging baby X too.

#MyMumAndNanBothSaidMyBumpLooksALotBiggerTodaySoMaybeBNoticedToo

It does seem to have suddenly grown, but I have eaten a lot this weekend and it might be due to where my placenta is or something. I don’t know.

#WithHerNewScheduleIAmGoingToHaveToSeeIfICanDoABitOfWorkWhileShePlaysNextToMe

Yesterday I did manage to prep a blog post. I’m getting a bit over doing this blog to be honest, but I might feel better once I am up to date with putting the images in, writing pregnancy comparisons and tags etc.

#IDoNotKnowWhyIFeelBadForDoingThisAsIAmSureALotOfOtherPeopleDoItToo

It’s good for kids to play by themselves for a bit for sure. Mum guilt is real.

#YesterdayWeWereInMineAndTsBedroomAndISawAStackOfStuffNextToTheMirror #ILookedAtItAndThoughtMaybeIShouldMoveItButDecidedItShouldBeFineButThen5MinutesLaterBHadKnockedItOverSoIHadToMoveIt

Me being lazy… In future I need to trust my health and safety officer instincts. (I’m not one, but I feel like becoming a parent I do notice risks better.)

#IAmGettingQuiteNervousAboutHavingTwoKidsInAFewMonthsOrSo

*Nervous laugh* I’m just trying to go to bed earlier. The last couple of nights I have gone to sleep quite early. This is why I also need to get stuff done while B is awake/during her naps, though yesterday I had to nap during her nap and I imagine it will be the same today.

#SometimesIGetWorriedAboutLackOfMovementsButThenSheStartsMovingALotAndTiagoCouldFeelHerKickingMeLastNight

I feel like I have been writing ‘it’ instead of ‘her’ as sometimes I forget we know, though I will not 100% believe it until she is born.

I just hadn’t had much time to feel her movements as it was such a busy weekend, so it’s always a relief when I feel her moving about.

26 weeks with B comparison:

Self-portrait in my bra and pants where my bump is showing and I am looking up. My hands are resting on the top of my legs.
We Heard The Baby’s Heartbeat For The First Time Today (26 weeks)
 
#IFeelLikeIAmInSomeWeirdBubbleWithThisWholeCoronaVirus
#IAmUsuallyHomeQuiteABitAnyways
#AndInNoRushToGoOut
#ButNowIAmWorkingFromHomeForTheForeseeableFuture
#AndThereIsSomethingAboutNotHavingAnythingToGoOutTo
#WeJustTryToGoForAWalkInTheEveningToBuySomeFruitAndVeg
#TheGoodThingAboutOptingForAHomeBirthIsTheMidwifeVisitsOurFlat
#SheCameYesterdayAndAllWasGood
#SheSaidMyBloodPressureWasLowButInAGoodWay
#SheSaidWhyLowPressureWasGoodButICanNotRememberWhatSheSaid
#SheAskedMeIfIEverFeltDizzy
#ISaidNo
#ButLastNightAndThisMorningMaybeIGotUpTooQuickAndSawColourfulLightsInMyEyes
#SoINeedToBeCareful
#SheNeededToMeasureMyUterus
#ItTookHerAWhileAsSheSaidMyCoreIsSoStrong
#MustBeBecauseOfTheExerciseThatIAmDoingInTheMorningAndNight
#SheSaidThatMyAbdominalMusclesAreStartingToSeparateNowToMakeRoomForTheBabyWhichIsNormal
#IAmGuessingThatIfIKeepOnExercisingAsIHaveThenItWillAllBeFine
#ISaidIAmMoreFlexibleThanIWasBeforeIWasPregnant
#WhichIThoughtWasDownToTheExerciseAndItProbablyIsABit
#ButSheSaidThatHormonesDuringPregnancyWillMakeYouMoreFlexible
#SheAlsoCheckedTheBabysHeartbeat
#TheNightBeforeIWasConcernedAsICouldNotFeelItInTheEvening
#ThoughWhenICompletelyRelaxedIEventuallyDid
#SheSaidThatThePlacentaMightBeAbsorbingTheKicks
#AsItTookAWhileToFindTheBabyAsSheCouldMostlyHearPlacenta
#WhenSheFoundItThoughItWasAGoodQuickHeartbeatLikeItShouldBe
#TiagoWalkedIntoTheRoomAndHeardItTooWhichWasNice
#ThisMorningItWasKickingStrongAndTiagoFeltItALot

I heard the baby X’s heartbeat for the first time weeks ago, so not sure why it took so long with B.

It is weird thinking that at this point with B I was just going for a walk once a day and only seeing Tiago.

I feel like I look stronger in this above picture than I feel right now (at the same phase). I have made an effort to not sit up straight from lying down so hopefully my muscles will not separate so much this time. My midwife did think that I’d have to do physio after having B, but I didn’t have to luckily.

I think my placenta is in a different position this time, which may be why I can feel it kicking more than I did with B. It may also be why my bump looks different, but that might be down to having had a baby before.

As I’m not planning for a homebirth this time I have to go out to appointments, but I seem to have them at good times and it’s good to get out of the house.

Self-portrait with some broken blood vessels visible on my cheeks. I am wearing a purple top that matches the blotches on my cheeks a bit. I am resting my left hand on my chin.
Broken Blood Vessels (26 weeks)
 
#IHaveBeenNoticingBitsOfRedOnMyCheeksForAFewWeeks
#IJustThoughtItWasToDoWithTheColdOutside
#AsUsuallyMySkinGoesABitRubbishInTheWinter
#OrIThoughtItWasASlightAllergicReaction
#YesterdayMorningIHadABitOfRedOnMyFace
#IWentToPhotographItButTiagoWasDoingExerciseInTheBitOfTheLivingRoomWhereIShoot
#AndByTheTimeHeFinishedItHadFaded
#IWalkedForAbout2HoursYesterday
#AndTiagoCommentedThatMyFaceWasQuiteRedLastNight
#ItIsThatTimeOfYearWhereYourBodyFeelsWeirdWhenTheSunGoesDown
#AsItWasQuiteWarmDuringTheDay
#AndThenSuddenlyItIsVeryCold
#SoIThoughtItMightBeToDoWithThat
#ReadingLastNightThoughApparentlyItIsACommonThing
#ToDoWithIncreasedBloodFlowAndBloodVessels
#SometimesTheBloodVesselsBreak
#WhichExplainsWhySometimesThePatchesTakeAFewDaysToDisappear
#TheSkinOnMyChinIsAlsoABitWeird
#WhichIsProbablyToDoWithHormones
#ApparentlyTheBabyIsTheSizeOfAnAcornSquashNow
#AndAbout36cmLong
#IAmAlsoAboutTwoThirdsOfTheWayThrough
#TimeIsFlying
#FeelLikeIShouldStartBuyingMoreThingsOffTheBabyListSoon
#IKeepLookingAtThingsButDoNotWantToCommitToBuyingRightNow
#IAmHopingThatWeWillGetToGoSomewhereToTryOutThePushchairWeWant
#ButWeMightJustHaveToRiskItAndBuyItWithoutTrying
#WillSeeHowThingsAreWhenIAmAround30Weeks
#WeAreLuckyAsWeBothHaveJobsThatSeemRelativelySecure
#WhoKnowsHowLongThingsAreGoingToGoOnFor
 

I have not noticed any broken blood vessels this time, so far.

This time we do not really need to buy anything, though I remembered earlier that soon we will need to buy newborn nappies and things. Fun times ahead…


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General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot IV (24 Weeks / 17th October 2021)

Shoot which I am recreating for the 4th time this pregnancy. I am wearing a bra and leggings. I have my right hand clasping my left elbow. My bump is bigger than the previous version of this image.
General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot IV (24 Weeks / 17th October 2021)

#IThoughtItWasTimeThatIDoOneOfTheseShootsAgain
#TheBraThatIWearForThemHasFallenApartALotSinceTheFirstShootSoItWillBeGoingInTheBinOnceBabyXIsBorn
#MyBumpIsDefinitelyGettingBiggerAndICanNotImagineItGettingMuchBiggerButIKnowItWill
#IAmStrugglingToBendDownToPickThingsUpNowWhichIsReallyHandyAsBLikesToThrowEverythingOnTheFloor
#YesterdayISuddenlyFeltTheUrgeToTidyUpOurRoomAndGetRidOfLotsOfThings
#IDoNeedToDeclutterAndReduceMyStuffAsWeArePlanningToMoveAtSomePointNextYear
#SoItIsBetterToDoItNowWhileICanMoveAboutIshAndBeforeBabyXIsBorn
#ThereIsSoMuchStuffThatHasSurvived5MovesWithMeButINeedToBeRealisticWhetherIWouldWantToPayToShipItInTheFutureAndTheAnswerIsUsuallyNo
#IThinkTheOrganisingPlusDoingSomeExtraDanceVideosReallyTiredMeOut
#ThisMorningBWasUpAtFiveThirtySoTiagoWentToGetHerAndUsuallyIWakeUpButIWasAsleepWithHerPlayingRightNextToMe
#SheHasBeenAwakeAtFiveThirtyTheLastFewMorningsWhichIsNotMuchFunThoughAtLeastSheHasALongFirstNap
#IThinkItIsDueToHerTeethingAsSheSeemsToAlwaysHaveHerFingersInHerMouth
#SheOnlyReallyHasMolarsLeftToComeThroughAndTheyCanNotBePleasantAtAll
#ILikeHowIUsedToCountHowManyTeethSheHasAndNowIHaveNoIdea
#WeHaveFinallyBookedToGoAndLookAtANurseryForHer
#TheDaysWeAreThinkingWillMeanWeWillNeedToCancelHerMusicClassAndIWasFeelingBadAboutItAsILikeHerTeacherALot
#ButItTurnsOutHerTeacherIsFiveWeeksLessPregnantThanMeSoSheWillBeGoingOnMaternityLeaveAndNowIDoNotFeelSoBad
#IAmFeelingQuiteStressedAboutBeingPregnantAndTheFactWeWillSoonHaveTwoKids
#WeJustSeemSoTiredAtTheMomentAndEvenThoughBWakesUpEarlyAtLeastWeDoGetAGoodAmountOfSleep
#IJustNeedToGoToBedEarlierWhichToBeFairIDidLastNightButItObviouslyWasNotEnough
#EveryoneKeepsSayingTheFirstYearIsTheHardestAndToBeHonestIAmNotLookingForwardToWeaningAndAllThatStuffAgain
#HopefullySheWillArriveAndIWillJustGetOnWithItAndAllICanDoIsToTryMyBest
#AtLeastInTheEarlyDaysTheirNeedsArePrettyBasic
#IJustNeedToMakeAnEffortToGetOutOfTheHouseOnceADayForMySanity
#ItWillBeAStruggleInTheBeginningIAmSureButWeJustNeedToFindARoutineThatWorksForUs
#IJustHopeThatWeDoNotGetLockedDownAgainButThenAgainWhatDoesItMatterWhenIDoubtIWillWantToGoFarAnyways
#IAmWorriedThatCasesAreRisingButEveryoneIsABitNonchalantAboutItButIGuessIAmMoreRelaxedNowIHaveHadMySecondVaccineAndFluJab
#IJustDoNotGetWhyWearingMasksInShopsAndStuffIsNotCompulsoryAndIAmSurprisedAtHowFewPeopleActuallyDoWearThem
#InOtherNewsBIsTryingReallyHardToTalkNowAndISwearSheSaysTickleTickleTickle
#IHaveHeardACoupleOfMamaAndMumSoundsEscapeFromHerLatelyTooSoIHopeSheMightActuallyStartSayingMumAtMeSoon

#IThoughtItWasTimeThatIDoOneOfTheseShootsAgain

The last one was at 19 weeks, so there should be a difference?

(Yes, there is – you can see the versions here: 1 / 2 / 3.)

#TheBraThatIWearForThemHasFallenApartALotSinceTheFirstShootSoItWillBeGoingInTheBinOnceBabyXIsBorn

Maybe in each picture it will start to look more shabby. I’ve been wearing my maternity bras for a while now, and this is not one of them.

#MyBumpIsDefinitelyGettingBiggerAndICanNotImagineItGettingMuchBiggerButIKnowItWill

*Nervous laugh*

#IAmStrugglingToBendDownToPickThingsUpNowWhichIsReallyHandyAsBLikesToThrowEverythingOnTheFloor

This morning she was eating some of my breakfast (scrambled eggs and crusts of my toast), and then throwing it on the floor. I did struggle to pick it up.

#YesterdayISuddenlyFeltTheUrgeToTidyUpOurRoomAndGetRidOfLotsOfThings

I love nesting.

#IDoNeedToDeclutterAndReduceMyStuffAsWeArePlanningToMoveAtSomePointNextYear

Every time I go through my things I get rid of a few more things, but I need to start being ruthless.

#SoItIsBetterToDoItNowWhileICanMoveAboutIshAndBeforeBabyXIsBorn

I am tired, so yeah there will never be a good time again.

#ThereIsSoMuchStuffThatHasSurvived5MovesWithMeButINeedToBeRealisticWhetherIWouldWantToPayToShipItInTheFutureAndTheAnswerIsUsuallyNo

Playing my favourite ‘would I pay £5 to ship this?’ game.

I told Tiago about it and he said would most things really cost £5 to ship. I said no, but would you still pay £5 to ship it? Is it worth the money?

#IThinkTheOrganisingPlusDoingSomeExtraDanceVideosReallyTiredMeOut

I did lie down before B’s second nap, but I’m not sure if I even slept.

#ThisMorningBWasUpAtFiveThirtySoTiagoWentToGetHerAndUsuallyIWakeUpButIWasAsleepWithHerPlayingRightNextToMe

Wake up as in become more alert. I ended up sleeping in until 7.10am, and then I looked through my books and stretched. Then Tiago had a nap (and is still napping as B is napping as I write this).

#SheHasBeenAwakeAtFiveThirtyTheLastFewMorningsWhichIsNotMuchFunThoughAtLeastSheHasALongFirstNap

I try not to put her down for a nap until 9, and then wake her up between 10.30 to 11 depending on our plans.

#IThinkItIsDueToHerTeethingAsSheSeemsToAlwaysHaveHerFingersInHerMouth

I’m being more generous with her paracetamol these days, as otherwise she does not nap or sleep very well. I do worry that I am drugging her at times, but it’s only when I see her with her fingers in her mouth and it’s been 4 hours since the last dose…

#SheOnlyReallyHasMolarsLeftToComeThroughAndTheyCanNotBePleasantAtAll

Bless her.

#ILikeHowIUsedToCountHowManyTeethSheHasAndNowIHaveNoIdea

If I put my finger in her mouth now it just gets bitten and it hurts.

#WeHaveFinallyBookedToGoAndLookAtANurseryForHer

Hurrah.

#TheDaysWeAreThinkingWillMeanWeWillNeedToCancelHerMusicClassAndIWasFeelingBadAboutItAsILikeHerTeacherALot

The class isn’t the best but I do really like her teacher and she makes it way more enjoyable.

#ButItTurnsOutHerTeacherIsFiveWeeksLessPregnantThanMeSoSheWillBeGoingOnMaternityLeaveAndNowIDoNotFeelSoBad

I mentioned I was pregnant last week and she said ‘oh me too’. I really could not tell that she was at all, but she does wear a baggy t-shirt. I had looked at moving locations and days, but I think once B goes down to one nap the other day and time will not work for us. Hopefully B will get enough stimulation at nursery and we can just do more music stuff at home.

#IAmFeelingQuiteStressedAboutBeingPregnantAndTheFactWeWillSoonHaveTwoKids

I feel like I’ve mentioned it before, but I am starting to get waves of overwhelmed-ness now.

#WeJustSeemSoTiredAtTheMomentAndEvenThoughBWakesUpEarlyAtLeastWeDoGetAGoodAmountOfSleep #IJustNeedToGoToBedEarlierWhichToBeFairIDidLastNightButItObviouslyWasNotEnough

This would probably make a big difference, and I’m sure once she is born I will have to just surrender to motherhood, but for now I am enjoying have a bit of evening time to myself.

#EveryoneKeepsSayingTheFirstYearIsTheHardestAndToBeHonestIAmNotLookingForwardToWeaningAndAllThatStuffAgain

I just need to take each day/cycle of the day at a time.

#HopefullySheWillArriveAndIWillJustGetOnWithItAndAllICanDoIsToTryMyBest

We wanted this baby and I have to handle the responsibility. I am nervous though.

#AtLeastInTheEarlyDaysTheirNeedsArePrettyBasic

And she won’t be running off like B does.

#IJustNeedToMakeAnEffortToGetOutOfTheHouseOnceADayForMySanity

It will be winter, but hopefully by then spring will not be too far away.

#ItWillBeAStruggleInTheBeginningIAmSureButWeJustNeedToFindARoutineThatWorksForUs

Like I said, I need to surrender to motherhood.

#IJustHopeThatWeDoNotGetLockedDownAgainButThenAgainWhatDoesItMatterWhenIDoubtIWillWantToGoFarAnyways

B’s classes moving to zoom would make things a lot easier to be fair. I doubt we will have another lockdown though.

#IAmWorriedThatCasesAreRisingButEveryoneIsABitNonchalantAboutItButIGuessIAmMoreRelaxedNowIHaveHadMySecondVaccineAndFluJab

Other countries have less cases and are in full panic mode, but I guess they are not as vaccinated as here.

#IJustDoNotGetWhyWearingMasksInShopsAndStuffIsNotCompulsoryAndIAmSurprisedAtHowFewPeopleActuallyDoWearThem

We still wear them in shops, and I do on public transport though that is rare. I have not been wearing them in classes, but in B’s music class she does not go near anyone else and we sit far back from everyone. At another class I probably should, but no one else does… When it’s time to sing we sat at the back of the bunch.

#InOtherNewsBIsTryingReallyHardToTalkNowAndISwearSheSaysTickleTickleTickle

It sounds more like ‘iggle iggle iggle’ or something else I guess, but I think that is what she is trying to say.

#IHaveHeardACoupleOfMamaAndMumSoundsEscapeFromHerLatelyTooSoIHopeSheMightActuallyStartSayingMumAtMeSoon

She’s been saying Dada and Dad for so long, though she doesn’t really say it at Tiago much. She is growing up fast though.

Despite my nervousness I am excited to see her with her sister.

24 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait wearing a black dress with white stripes. I have a toy octopus on my head.
So Many Decisions To Be Made (24 and a half weeks)
 
#SoWeFinallyBoughtSomeBabyStuff
#ThereWereSomeGoodSalesOn
#SoWeOrderedSomeBabyClothes
#AndThenISawSomeCuteToysSoIBoughtACouple
#ItFeelsLikeWeAreCursingThingsByBuyingStuff
#ButIAlsoDoNotWantToGetCaughtOutByHavingNothing
#ObviouslyTheBabyWillNotKnowIfItHasToysOrNotInTheBeginning
#ButThingsLikeClothesAreNecessary
#SoManyDecisionsToBeMade
#ThingsAreSeemingMoreReal
#ThoughIAlsoDoStillForgetThatIAmPregnantSometimes
#IFeltSoHeavyNotLongAgoButIFeelLighterTheseDays
#MaybeItIsAllTheStretchingIAmDoing
#AndOrMaybeIAmNotEatingSuchBigMealsNow
#IDoASquatPoseInTheMorning
#ButInTheEveningItIsHarderAsMyBellyIsFuller
#IBoughtAHypnobirthingCourseAfterAFriendsRecommendation
#INeedToStartDoingThatJustInCaseAsAgainIDoNotWantToGetCaughtOut
#IKeepReadingThingsAboutPeopleWhoDidNotWantToBeParents
#WhereasIDoButIWorryThatIWillBeRubbish
#ThoughIRememberGoingToSeeMyNieceForTheFirstTimeAndBeingWorriedAsIHadNotBeenAroundABabyForALongTime
#ButISoonGotOverTheNervousness
#ThoughIWasJustEntertainingHerAndNotDoingHerWholeRoutineAndBeingAroundHerAllDayEveryDay
#ICanOnlyDoMyBest
#AndSoonWeWillDoAnNCTCourseSoHopefullyWeWillNotBeTooClueless
#IFeelLikeTiagoIsGoodWithKids
#IAmLookingForwardToSeeingHimAsAFather
#IGotAKickTrackingAppYesterdayToTryToMakeMeFeelBetter
#ThoughIAmNotMonitoringHowManyKicksYetButJustWhenIFeelItMoving
#TodayIHaveNotFeltItMoveMuchButIThinkIHaveNotBeenThinkingAboutItAsMuchAsYesterday

This shoot was a bit bad. It was definitely a day when I was struggling with ideas…

It’s funny now as it’s gone from being a toy that we bought to it being B’s toy that she does interact with from time to time.

#ObviouslyTheBabyWillNotKnowIfItHasToysOrNotInTheBeginning

B has only really started to interact with the toys she had then, quite recently. Especially cuddly toys.

We aren’t going to do the hypnobirthing course again, but I have the book of it which we are both planning to read again. I need to get on with it really as time is flying by…

I downloaded an app to monitor kicks but I have only used it once. This baby seems more active, so I feel reassured. I am being kicked/punched right now…


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Imitating B In A Box (22 Weeks / 29th September 2021)

Self-portrait where I am sat in a grey fabric box. I am wearing a grey dress with black polka dots, and black leggings. My hands are tucking my hair behind my ears.
Imitating B In A Box (22 Weeks / 29th September 2021)
 
#BHasBeenClimbingInBoxesForAWhileButSheEspeciallyLikesThisOneWhichIsInOurBedroom
#WeUsuallyKeepHerPlayTilesInItAndAFewOtherThingsButIGuessIWillHaveToEmptyItToTryToGetInItAtAll
#IHaveRealisedLatelyThatALotOfTheImitationPhotosAreSimilarToPhotosIHaveTakenOfMyselfInThePast
#ButIWasJustDoingThemThenToTryToThinkOfNewWaysToPhotographMyselfOrToJustBeRandom
#TheOtherDayIWasEatingMyLunchAndBSuddenlyStartedToSoundUpsetAndKeptLookingTowardsTheWindow
#IWasABitScaredOfWhatIWouldFindButItWasAWaspActingABitWeirdAndLookingLikeItWasTrailingSomeLiquidBehindIt
#IThoughtBMustHaveBeenStungAsWeHaveSeenALotOfWaspsLatelyAndITryToRemainCalmWhenTheyAreAroundMe
#IWentToGetTiagoAndHeNoticedSomethingOnHerFingerWhichHeRemovedAndTurnedOutToBeAStinger
#LuckilyIWasWaitingForADoctorToCallBackAboutTheDrySkinOnHerNeckAndWhenSheFinallyRangSheSaidToJustKeepAnEyeOnIt
#HerFingerWasABitRedAndSwollenButSheDidNotSeemBotheredByItAndItHasHealedWell
#IAmJustGladThatSheWasNotAllergicToItAndIGuessSheMustHaveTriedToTouchTheWaspOrSomethingWhichIsWhyItStungHer
#TheOtherNightTiagoWasLyingDownInTheLivingRoomPlayingWithBsBallAndItHitAGlassAndHeJumpedUpVeryFast
#HisReactionPlusMeGettingABitAnnoyedProbablyScaredBABitAndHerLipStartedToQuiver
#ISaidDoYouWantACuddleAndWeHadAVeryLovelyCuddleButItIsAShameThatIOnlyGetThemWhenSheIsWorried
#AtLeastTheseDaysItIsLessOfAChoreToBrushHerTeethAndSheWasEvenBrushingHerTeethHerselfAfterwardsLastNight
#IHaveFinallyStartedToFeelABitBroodyAfterSeeingSomeParentsWithSmallBabiesAtTheWeekendWhenWeWentToAnExhibitionOpening
#IAlsoFoundSomePicturesOfBWhenSheWasLessThanAWeekOldAndICanNotBelieveHowMuchSheHasChangedInFifteenMonths
#IGuessItIsGoodThatIAmFeelingABitBroodyAsTimeIsPassingQuicklyButIDoWorryHowItWillBeLookingAfterANewbornAgain
#IAmNotReallyLookingForwardToItAsIFeelABitNervousAboutBreastfeedingAgainButHopefullyItGoesBetterThisTime
#IAmAlsoNotLookingForwardToHavingToGetUpLotsInTheNightButIKnowTheTimeWillFlyByAndBeforeWeKnowItWeWillHaveTwoToddlers
#SheIsStartingToReallyMoveAboutNowAndLastNightItFeltLikeSheWasTicklingMyInsides
#TheWeatherHasBeenReallyRubbishSoIHaveFeltABitTrappedIndoorsAgain
#ThisMorningTheWeatherWasNiceButItTookMeTwentyMinutesToFindBsSecondShoeWhichTurnedOutToBeInTheWashingMachine
#ByTheTimeIFoundItItWasNearlyTimeForHerNapSoWeHadAVeryShortWalkWhichTurnedIntoMeJustCarryingBAboutAsSheWasMoreInterestedInTwigsThanWalking
#NanGotHerBoosterShotWhichIsGoodNewsThoughSheHadToWaitAnHourForIt
#VaccinesUsedToBeSoOrganisedSoIAmNotSureWhatHasHappenedThoughMaybeFuelPanicBuyingHasNotHelped
#TiagoMadeEveryoneSalmonForDinnerLastNightAndEverytimeTheyHaveFishForDinnerMyNanAsksIfIEatItTooAndIJustSayYesNowAsItIsEasierThanArguing
#SheSaidWeMustStartHavingItTwiceAWeekAsItIsSoGoodForMeAndTheBaby
#IHaveNotEatenFishOrMeatIntentionallySinceIWasAbout15AndBTurnedOutFine
#WhenTiagoCanTellIWantMyNanToStopTalkingAboutSomethingHeAsksHerIfSheWantsACupOfTeaOrDessertToMoveHerOffTheSubjectOrToDistractHer

#BHasBeenClimbingInBoxesForAWhileButSheEspeciallyLikesThisOneWhichIsInOurBedroom #WeUsuallyKeepHerPlayTilesInItAndAFewOtherThingsButIGuessIWillHaveToEmptyItToTryToGetInItAtAll

I am not sure when it started, but I guess during some of her online zoom classes we were supposed to put our kids in a clothes basket or something, so I put B in a box instead.

She was all cute sticking her head out of the top of it, but sadly I won’t be able to do that as I’m too big.

#IHaveRealisedLatelyThatALotOfTheImitationPhotosAreSimilarToPhotosIHaveTakenOfMyselfInThePast

I guess this one will resemble me sitting in a bag in 2012.

Maybe that’s a show idea – me pre-kids in projects, with more recent photos of imitating B but the concepts being similar.

#ButIWasJustDoingThemThenToTryToThinkOfNewWaysToPhotographMyselfOrToJustBeRandom

Oh the days where I just had time to be random.

#TheOtherDayIWasEatingMyLunchAndBSuddenlyStartedToSoundUpsetAndKeptLookingTowardsTheWindow
#IWasABitScaredOfWhatIWouldFindButItWasAWaspActingABitWeirdAndLookingLikeItWasTrailingSomeLiquidBehindIt

Weird as in it was at first just kind of lying on the floor on its back, and then it started to go up the window trailing liquid.

#IThoughtBMustHaveBeenStungAsWeHaveSeenALotOfWaspsLatelyAndITryToRemainCalmWhenTheyAreAroundMe

I had a wasp stuck in my hair the other day at the playground and I could hear it buzzing, I still remained calm though. Tiago likes to swat them away, which I don’t think is a good idea – I have told him that.

#IWentToGetTiagoAndHeNoticedSomethingOnHerFingerWhichHeRemovedAndTurnedOutToBeAStinger

I had looked at B and she seemed okay, and didn’t seem obviously stung. It wasn’t like she was waving her finger around or showed it to me.

#LuckilyIWasWaitingForADoctorToCallBackAboutTheDrySkinOnHerNeckAndWhenSheFinallyRangSheSaidToJustKeepAnEyeOnIt

An eye on the sting. We got a prescription for hydrocortisone again for the neck – she had started to scratch it a lot again, so I thought I had better call.

#HerFingerWasABitRedAndSwollenButSheDidNotSeemBotheredByItAndItHasHealedWell

She really did not seem that bothered apart from when she was looking at the wasp. I think she was just annoyed at the wasp/upset that it had hurt her.

#IAmJustGladThatSheWasNotAllergicToItAndIGuessSheMustHaveTriedToTouchTheWaspOrSomethingWhichIsWhyItStungHer

I did closely monitor her after. I am not sure if I have ever been stung by one, but it is good to know that she reacted well to it all.

#TheOtherNightTiagoWasLyingDownInTheLivingRoomPlayingWithBsBallAndItHitAGlassAndHeJumpedUpVeryFast
#HisReactionPlusMeGettingABitAnnoyedProbablyScaredBABitAndHerLipStartedToQuiver
#ISaidDoYouWantACuddleAndWeHadAVeryLovelyCuddleButItIsAShameThatIOnlyGetThemWhenSheIsWorried

I always ask her if I can have a cuddle and she ignores me, which is fair enough as I did ask her question and the answer is obviously no. On this occasion though she came to me and it was very lovely, but yeah I don’t want her to get upset/scared frequently just so I can have nice cuddles.

#AtLeastTheseDaysItIsLessOfAChoreToBrushHerTeethAndSheWasEvenBrushingHerTeethHerselfAfterwardsLastNight

It may or may not be down to me singing the Something Special theme, though now we also play it on our ‘listening device’ and I think she enjoys it a lot more. I also try to make sure she sees me brushing my teeth, so she knows she isn’t the only one who has to do it.

#IHaveFinallyStartedToFeelABitBroodyAfterSeeingSomeParentsWithSmallBabiesAtTheWeekendWhenWeWentToAnExhibitionOpening

A baby asleep in the arms of a man while he waited outside the toilet. Aww.

#IAlsoFoundSomePicturesOfBWhenSheWasLessThanAWeekOldAndICanNotBelieveHowMuchSheHasChangedInFifteenMonths

Awwwww. It is strange how much they do change in a short space of time.

#IGuessItIsGoodThatIAmFeelingABitBroodyAsTimeIsPassingQuicklyButIDoWorryHowItWillBeLookingAfterANewbornAgain

I am excited to meet the little one, but…

#IAmNotReallyLookingForwardToItAsIFeelABitNervousAboutBreastfeedingAgainButHopefullyItGoesBetterThisTime

I am not really looking forward to the sensations of it all (heavy boobs, clogged boobs etc.) and feeling like my body is being taken over, but I am sure it will be fine.

#IAmAlsoNotLookingForwardToHavingToGetUpLotsInTheNightButIKnowTheTimeWillFlyByAndBeforeWeKnowItWeWillHaveTwoToddlers

We are lucky that B sleeps well at night (due to sleep training), but the time will fly by and then we might be sad that we will never have a little baby again.

#SheIsStartingToReallyMoveAboutNowAndLastNightItFeltLikeSheWasTicklingMyInsides

I originally wrote ‘they are’ as for a minute I forgot that I know it is a girl and that I will have revealed it by now. Yesterday for some reason I thought I was having a boy. My brain… (I actually only corrected one ‘they are’.)

#TheWeatherHasBeenReallyRubbishSoIHaveFeltABitTrappedIndoorsAgain

I need to just get B in her puddle suit and get on with things.

#ThisMorningTheWeatherWasNiceButItTookMeTwentyMinutesToFindBsSecondShoeWhichTurnedOutToBeInTheWashingMachine

I was relieved when I saw it through the door, and it was not wet. I was worried she had put it in the bin…

#ByTheTimeIFoundItItWasNearlyTimeForHerNapSoWeHadAVeryShortWalkWhichTurnedIntoMeJustCarryingBAboutAsSheWasMoreInterestedInTwigsThanWalking

I thought I would let her walk as I knew we did not have time to go far, but it’s not great when you don’t have much time. I should have just let her wander…

#NanGotHerBoosterShotWhichIsGoodNewsThoughSheHadToWaitAnHourForIt
#VaccinesUsedToBeSoOrganisedSoIAmNotSureWhatHasHappenedThoughMaybeFuelPanicBuyingHasNotHelped

I had mine last week before the panic buying had kicked in though. *shrug* I think maybe they’re booking in too many booster shots? Who knows.

#TiagoMadeEveryoneSalmonForDinnerLastNightAndEverytimeTheyHaveFishForDinnerMyNanAsksIfIEatItTooAndIJustSayYesNowAsItIsEasierThanArguing

I used to tell the truth, and get annoyed, so T says just say ‘okay’ and ‘yes’ and it does make things easier.

#SheSaidWeMustStartHavingItTwiceAWeekAsItIsSoGoodForMeAndTheBaby

Roll my eyes.

#IHaveNotEatenFishOrMeatIntentionallySinceIWasAbout15AndBTurnedOutFine

B does eat fish, and my Nan feeds her meat when she eats – I’m not happy about it, but Tiago wants her to eat meat. This is a bigger topic for another day, that I will probably never revisit as I do not have the energy to.

I’m not saying this stuff to be mean about my Nan. I’m just a bit fed up with being a woman in my 30s and getting told by people what I should and should not eat while pregnant.

(I say intentionally as there have been a few mishaps in restaurants, and in foreign countries – Japan with supermarket rice balls especially – where I have accidentally had a bit of meat or fish.)

#WhenTiagoCanTellIWantMyNanToStopTalkingAboutSomethingHeAsksHerIfSheWantsACupOfTeaOrDessertToMoveHerOffTheSubjectOrToDistractHer

The other day he knew I just wanted to eat my dinner in peace (I don’t like to talk much while eating), so he gave Nan some dessert. I like his new strategy. You can’t say it’s mean, as Nan is quite happy with her food/tea.

22 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait in a maternity bra and leggings. I am clasping my hands together and stretching them behind my back. I have a small bump.
It Is A Struggle To Roll Over In Bed (22 weeks)
 
#AFewDaysAgoIDidAShootWhereISaidIThinkIWillMissHavingABump
#IThinkIRomanticisedItABitTooMuch
#IKeepStandingUpTooQuickAndGettingPains
#ItIsAStruggleToRollOverInBed
#IHaveToSitUpFirstThenTurnOver
#RepositioningMyselfToTryToPickSomethingUpOffTheFloor
#OnAFlightAnOlderWomanDroppedSomethingOnTheFloorAcrossTheAisle
#ICouldFeelHerLookingAtMeLikeAreYouGoingToPickItUpForMe
#InMyHeadIWasLikeIAmNotTheBestPersonToPickItUp
#IWouldHaveHadToUndoMySeatbeltAndGetOutOfMySeatAndReachAwkwardlyToGetIt
#WhichMaybeIShouldHaveDone
#ButIGetAnxiousAboutGettingUpOnFlightsAndAvoidItIfICan
#IHaveHadToStretchInTheMorningAndEveningAndABitDuringTheDayToHelpWithPains
#ButIGuessILikeHavingTheBumpButIWillNotMissTheOtherStuff
#IThinkILikeItMainlyAsIDoNotFeelSelfConsciousAboutIt
#ThoughAWomanWasStaringAtMyBumpTheOtherDayAndIFoundItOdd
#SoMaybeIWillGetSelfConsciousAboutItInADifferentWay
#IGuessIAmStillAtThePointWhereRandomPeopleLookAtMeLikeIsShePregnantOrNot
#IUsedToNoticeWomenWithBumpsWhenIWasTryingToGetPregnant
#AndIDidNotMeanToStareButIGuessYouLookThenThinkAboutThings
#MainlyIWouldBeThinkingIsThatEverGoingToHappenToMe
#MyStomachHasNeverBeenAndNeverWillBeMyFavouriteBodyPart
#ItIsWeirdDoingAProjectWhereItIsTheMainFocus
#TheBabysMovementsAreGettingMoreTicklish
#ItIsFunnyExplainingHowItFeelsToPeople
#ThisLittleThingPawingAtYouAndTicklingYouFromTheInside
#ItIsSuperWeird
#AFriendSawTheLastScanPicAndSaidThatTheBabyLooksLikeJeremyCorbyn
#IAmLikeWellAtLeastTheyDidNotSayBorisJohnson
#WeHaveADateForTheFollowUpScanNowSoHopefullyThingsGoOkay

I think this time I just know how to get up easier.

Trying to pick stuff off the floor is annoying though.

At a restaurant last night the waitress dropped a fork on the floor. I looked to see what it was and she said ‘don’t worry about it’. I just pointed to my bump (I’m 26 weeks at the time of writing this) and said ‘it would be hard for me anyways’.

I guess I do look at people to see if they look pregnant these days too.

I was thinking about bellies being the main focus again today actually. It is odd. There was an episode of Yakka Dee on and it was all about tummies, which made me think about it.

I feel like though I have felt some tickles this time, it just felt more like kicks earlier on. Maybe it’s to do with where the placenta is?

Self-portrait with Tiago. My head is cut off and Tiago is next to my bump. I am wearing a black maternity bra and leggings, and Tiago is wearing a black top. He is clean shaven.
I Have Told Him Before That If He Wants To Touch The Bump Then He Has To Make Sure His Hands Are Warm (22 and a half weeks)
 
#IKeepGettingAdsForPregnancyPhotoShoots
#SoIThoughtIBetterTakeMoreOfOurOwn
#IWantedTiagoToRestHisHeadOnTheBump
#ButHeThoughtISaidForHimToPutHisHandsOnIt
#AndTheyWereFREEZING
#IHaveToldHimBeforeThatIfHeWantsToTouchTheBumpThenHeHasToMakeSureHisHandsAreWarm
#ThereIsAnOuttakeOfHimLaughingBecauseISaidNotHisHandsButHisHead
#AnywaysTheBumpContinuesToGrow
#IAmAtThePointNowWhereFoodCrumbsGetStuckOnTheTopOfIt
#TryingToMonitorTheMovementsStillStressesMeOut
#WhenICanFeelItMoveIFeelRelaxed
#WhenICanNotIFeelStressed
#ThisMorningTiagoWentForAShowerAndCameBackToFindMeJustLyingInBedWatchingMyBump
#IAmTryingToFaffLessOnMyPhoneSoItItOneWayOfDoingItIGuess
#WhoNeedsTechnologyWhenYouHaveAnOldFashionedBump
#ThatIsMonitoredInAllTheNewTechnologyWays
#IWasReadingAboutBraxtonHicksTheOtherDay
#IHaveNeverHeardAboutItInAllOfMyLife
#BasicallyItIsWhenYourBodyPracticesContractions
#SoNowIAmLikeWasThatAHiccupFromTheBabyOrABraxtonHicksContraction
#ItIsAFunGame
#INeedToStartThinkingAboutLookingMoreIntoHypnobirthingAndStuffNow
#AsTimeIsFlyingBy
#AndAFriendSaidThatHerFriendGaveBirthAt30Weeks
#SoIFeelLikeINeedToGetMorePrepared
#INeedToStartThinkingMoreAboutPushchairsAndAllThatStuffToo
#ThereIsSoMuchToChooseFromWhichIsAnnoying
#WeAreGoingToABabyShowSoonWhichSoundsLikeMyIdeaOfHellButIAmHopingItWillBeUseful
#TwoPeopleInTheLastWeekHaveToldMeThatILookPale
#WhichHasConcernedMeButIThinkItIsJustBecauseTheWinterIsJustDraggingOnAndMyBodyHasYetToUtiliseItsTemporarySkillOfRetainingATanForLonger

I haven’t had an ad for a pregnancy shoot yet. Disappointing but maybe it’s because I keep rejecting cookies.

I’m yet to take any bump photos with Tiago this time, but he is busy with work and then sometimes he is watching B while I do a shoot. Actually we have been doing family portraits so I guess that is something? But not a shoot like this anyways.

I still can’t tell the difference between a kick and a Braxton Hicks…


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Imitating B With Her Cuddly Toys (21 Weeks / 25th September 2021)

Self-portrait cuddling about 6 of B's cuddly toys.
Imitating B With Her Cuddly Toys (21 Weeks / 25th September 2021)
 
#ILikeThatBInteractsMoreWithHerCuddlyToysNow
#YesterdaySheWasDraggingOneAroundWithHerThroughOurBedroomsWhichWasNiceToSee
#IWasABitObsessedWithCuddlyToysWhenIWasAKidSoMaybeThatIsWhyILikeThatSheIsGettingIntoThem
#WhenSheCrawlsIntoHerCotIWillIncorporateThemAllIntoTheVersionOfTwinkleTwinkleLittleStarThatISingToHer
#IBasicallyGotBoredOfSingingItAndAddNewBitsToItAllTheTime
#SheLikesToTakeFruitFromTheFruitBowlAndBiteIntoItAndThenTakeAnotherPieceOfFruitUntilItAllHasBiteMarksInIt
#BeforeIGiveHerAFewOfHerCrispsIRustleThePacketAndSheRunsOverToMe
#YesterdaySheGaveMeSuchABigSmileAndClappedHerHandsAtTheSightOfTheBag
#SomeDaysIHaveBeenTakingHerForThreeWalksButSomeDaysWeJustGoForOne
#TwoGirlsAtThePlaygroundTheOtherDayKeptCallingHerABoySoICorrectedThem
#OneStillKeptCallingHerABoySoISaidItIsConfusingAsSheWearsALotOfBlue
#ThenTheOtherGirlSaidWhyIsSheWearingRed
#OurNeighbourReferredToHerAsABoyTheOtherDayAndIFeltTooAwkwardToCorrectHim
#SomeDaysIPutHerInHerPinkLeggingsSoThatIDoNotHaveToDealWithTheAwkwardnessOfPeople
#IUsuallyAskPeopleHowOldTheirLittleOneIsSoThatTheyUsuallySayHeOrSheOrTheirKidsNameAsItIsOftenHardToTellWithYoungKids
#SheCanWalkFurtherNowAndWeSometimesTakeHerOutWithHerReins
#SheLikesToKickThroughAPileOfLeavesButWeSometimesHaveToPickHerUpAsOtherwiseSheWillJustKeepGoingBackToThings
#SheGotABitMoreInvolvedWithHerClassThisWeekAndSeemedToUnderstandMore
#OneThingIsThatAtTimesThereWillBeABasketWithInstrumentsToTakeFromAndThenReturnThemTo
#SheTendsToGoUpToItOnceItIsTimeForItToGoAwayButMaybeSoonSheWillBeABitQuicker
#SheDidSpendHalfOfTheClassJustClimbingOnHerPushchairButIThinkSheEnjoyedItStill
#IHadMySecondVaccineTheOtherDayAndIFeelFineApartFromJustFeelingReallyTired
#ItSeemedALotLessOrganisedThanMyFirstButItWasAtADifferentPlaceAndPeopleHaveJustStartedToHaveBoosterShots
#ThereWasABigQueueAndNotManyChairsButEventuallyIGotOne
#WheneverThePersonRunningReceptionStartedToLookForPeopleToKickOutOfChairsIWouldRubMyBelly
#ThisPlaceWasAlsoLessPrivateAndPeopleCouldSeeMeHavingMyVaccine
#IRealisedYesterdayThatThisWillProbablyBeTheLastTimeThatIWillBePregnantSoIShouldTryToAppreciateItAsMuchAsICan
#TheBabysMovementsAreGettingBiggerNowAndItJustRemindsMeOfWhatABizarreThingPregnancyIs
#IWonderIfSheWillLookALotLikeBOrIfTheyWillLookQuiteDifferentToEachOther
#IAmAlsoTryingToMentallyPrepareMyselfForHowItWillBeHavingTwoKidsAsItWillBeQuiteDifferentHavingABabyToLookAfterThisTime

#ILikeThatBInteractsMoreWithHerCuddlyToysNow

She’s had most of them since she was born, so it’s nice to see her enjoying them more each day.

#YesterdaySheWasDraggingOneAroundWithHerThroughOurBedroomsWhichWasNiceToSee

Partners in crime. I realised it was still in our room when she went to bed, but she didn’t miss it.

#IWasABitObsessedWithCuddlyToysWhenIWasAKidSoMaybeThatIsWhyILikeThatSheIsGettingIntoThem

I’d line them up all around my bed and I used to draw family trees and write biographies for them all. I was a cool kid.

#WhenSheCrawlsIntoHerCotIWillIncorporateThemAllIntoTheVersionOfTwinkleTwinkleLittleStarThatISingToHer

Her crawling into her cot now is great, though sometimes she crawls in before we’ve done the rest of her bedtime routine or without her sleeping bag on.

#IBasicallyGotBoredOfSingingItAndAddNewBitsToItAllTheTime

I started off singing it properly and then will sing something along the lines of:

‘Twinkle twinkle little star, you’re our bunny yes you are, we love you so very much, hope you always stay in touch…’

‘Here’s your squirrel, here’s your bee, here’s your carrot, it’s clear to see…’

Blah blah.

#SheLikesToTakeFruitFromTheFruitBowlAndBiteIntoItAndThenTakeAnotherPieceOfFruitUntilItAllHasBiteMarksInIt

We give her fruit for dessert with most meals. I’m not sure if she’s hungry or just doing it for fun. Obviously if we see her doing it we’ll move the bowl away, but she would happily sink her teeth into everything if she could. Earlier she had my dress in her mouth…

#BeforeIGiveHerAFewOfHerCrispsIRustleThePacketAndSheRunsOverToMe #YesterdaySheGaveMeSuchABigSmileAndClappedHerHandsAtTheSightOfTheBag

They’re ones for kids. Chickpea, quinoa, tomato and something? She does like crisps in general though. If we are eating crisps we have to give her a bit of one or she gets upset.

#SomeDaysIHaveBeenTakingHerForThreeWalksButSomeDaysWeJustGoForOne

It depends on the weather, how I’m feeling, how much energy I have etc.

#TwoGirlsAtThePlaygroundTheOtherDayKeptCallingHerABoySoICorrectedThem #OneStillKeptCallingHerABoySoISaidItIsConfusingAsSheWearsALotOfBlue #ThenTheOtherGirlSaidWhyIsSheWearingRed

I wear so much blue, I just knew that was why she was getting confused.

I feel sad as they are missing out on a lot if they feel like they can’t wear/own things of a certain colour.

#OurNeighbourReferredToHerAsABoyTheOtherDayAndIFeltTooAwkwardToCorrectHim

I thought he knew she was a girl, but maybe he forgot/always sees her wandering around in blue and thought he must be wrong? I don’t know.

#SomeDaysIPutHerInHerPinkLeggingsSoThatIDoNotHaveToDealWithTheAwkwardnessOfPeople

Just thinking about it all makes me feel tired.

#IUsuallyAskPeopleHowOldTheirLittleOneIsSoThatTheyUsuallySayHeOrSheOrTheirKidsNameAsItIsOftenHardToTellWithYoungKids

Some parents dress their kids quite gender neutral and some kids have gender neutral names. Even if I think a child is a certain gender, I try not to assume as sometimes I am wrong. Some parents put their daughter’s hair in girlish styles or put head bands on them, so obviously then it is easier to assume.

#SheCanWalkFurtherNowAndWeSometimesTakeHerOutWithHerReins

It’s nice to see her progessing with her walking.

#SheLikesToKickThroughAPileOfLeavesButWeSometimesHaveToPickHerUpAsOtherwiseSheWillJustKeepGoingBackToThings

Walk through the leaves. Back to the leaves. Sit down and play with the leaves.

#SheGotABitMoreInvolvedWithHerClassThisWeekAndSeemedToUnderstandMore

I was a bit proud.

#OneThingIsThatAtTimesThereWillBeABasketWithInstrumentsToTakeFromAndThenReturnThemTo #SheTendsToGoUpToItOnceItIsTimeForItToGoAwayButMaybeSoonSheWillBeABitQuicker

The teacher will often end up giving her an instrument, then I wait to see if she will put it back. Then I’ll put it back, then she’ll go up to the basket.

#SheDidSpendHalfOfTheClassJustClimbingOnHerPushchairButIThinkSheEnjoyedItStill

Like I’ve said before – if she’s happy, I’m happy.

A Grandmother said to me ‘think we’re in the slow corner’, but her Grandson and B are quite a bit younger than the others. The others are jumping and talking, so there is a bit of an age gap…

#IHadMySecondVaccineTheOtherDayAndIFeelFineApartFromJustFeelingReallyTired

I am struggling to write this as I am so tired. I planned to do it this morning, but I just lay in bed and rested. B will have a nap shortly, so I will nap too – she is currently with Tiago.

#ItSeemedALotLessOrganisedThanMyFirstButItWasAtADifferentPlaceAndPeopleHaveJustStartedToHaveBoosterShots

Maybe they booked into too many people for booster shots?

#ThereWasABigQueueAndNotManyChairsButEventuallyIGotOne

I didn’t want to take one close to the ‘vaccine zone’, but eventually one came up right in the back corner. Perfect.

#WheneverThePersonRunningReceptionStartedToLookForPeopleToKickOutOfChairsIWouldRubMyBelly

I had stood up for about 5/10 minutes before I got the chair. I think I waited about 40 minutes in the end before my number was called.

#ThisPlaceWasAlsoLessPrivateAndPeopleCouldSeeMeHavingMyVaccine

The first time was in a health centre, but this was in a tent. It’s fine, but it was weird knowing some people could see me – including a very vocal guy who acted like he was the only one who had to wait.

#IRealisedYesterdayThatThisWillProbablyBeTheLastTimeThatIWillBePregnantSoIShouldTryToAppreciateItAsMuchAsICan

I have already really forgotten how it was to be pregnant with B. I will be glad to not go through it again as it is quite nerve-wracking.

#TheBabysMovementsAreGettingBiggerNowAndItJustRemindsMeOfWhatABizarreThingPregnancyIs

It’s just weird feeling something moving inside of you. It is cool, but sometimes it is just really odd.

#IWonderIfSheWillLookALotLikeBOrIfTheyWillLookQuiteDifferentToEachOther

Only time will tell. It’d be nice if they looked quite alike I think, but if one looks more like me and more like T then that is also cool. But I don’t really mind.

#IAmAlsoTryingToMentallyPrepareMyselfForHowItWillBeHavingTwoKidsAsItWillBeQuiteDifferentHavingABabyToLookAfterThisTime

It was great when B had 5 naps a day. This time it does not matter so much as B will probably only be having 1 by the time baby X is born. I just need to do my best and rest when I can.

21 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait standing on one leg while naked.
Have I Mentioned That Pregnancy Is So Weird? (21 Weeks)
 
#FinallyGotTheScreeningResults
#TheScanPersonSaidToSpeakToMyMidwifeButTheMidwifeSaidToPhoneTheHospital
#PhonedTheHospitalAndGotPassedAround
#ButGotAPhoneCallBackWhichSaidIWasLowRiskForTheThreeSyndromes
#IAmJustGladThatTheyDidNotLoseTheBloodSampleOrResults
#AsIDoNotWantAnotherUnnecessaryBloodTest
#TheLetterGotLostInThePostSoTheyAreSendingAnotherOne
#ItIsReassuringToFeelTheBabyMovingAboutIt
#ThoughItAlsoWorriesMeWhenIFeelNothing
#INoticeTheMovementsMoreWhenIAmSatDownDrinkingWaterAndNotStressing
#IThinkItDidNotReactToMyStarJumpsTheOtherDayAsItIsUsedToMeExercisingAndDancingAbout
#ButItIsWeirdWhenYouFeelTheMovements
#ThatThereIsALittleSomeonePawingInsideYou
#HaveIMentionedThatPregnancyIsSoWeird
#IKnowIHaveSaidItManyTimesAlready
#IGetWorriedAboutThePregnancySometimesAndIExpressThis
#IKnowThatPeopleAreTryingToBeReassuring
#ButSomeoneTellingMeThatEverythingIsAndWillBeFineDoesNotAssureMe
#YouCanBeTheHealthiestPersonInTheWorldWhateverThatMeans
#ButThatDoesNotMeanThatYourBabyWillBeAbsolutelyFine
#PregnancyIsNotLikeTakingATestWhereIfYouStudyYouCanDoYourBest
#PregnancyIsUnpredictableAndYouCanNotControlItAndTheOutcome
#IAmSureThingsWillAllBeFineButItIsGoodToBeRealistic
#PeopleKnowAboutMyPregnancyNowAndIFeelAnxiousThatItIsOutInTheOpen
#AsWhatIfThingsGoWrongAndIHaveToTellPeople
#ButIAmQuiteHonestAboutThingsAndIAmSureIWillMakeWorkAboutThings
#IJustWishIHadBeenMoreHonestAboutTryingToGetPregnantAndMadeWorkAboutIt
#IMadeWorkAboutItButTheTextThatIWroteWasNotReallyAboutIt
#ThisPhotoIsSimilarToAPhotoITookLastYearWhenIWasTryingToGetPregnant
#IThoughtIShouldDocumentMyBodyInCaseIGotPregnantAndSoTheMainDifferenceInThisOneIsThatIHaveABumpButAlsoNoTan

This time my results came within a week.

Like I’ve said 100 times before, I don’t think pregnancy will ever stop not being weird to me.

I will also never stop not liking the fact that I have little control over pregnancy. It is stressful.

This time I did make work about wanting to be pregnant again, though I do feel awkward about it. I know that a lot of people have struggles with fertility or trying to get pregnant or getting through a pregnancy, and at times I do wonder why has it been quite straight forward for us as a family? I do feel guilty about it at times.

It Is Kind Of Nice Knowing That I Am Never Alone (21 and a half weeks)
 
#WellIAmIllAgain
#IThoughtThatMaybeICouldBeatTheColdThatIFeltComingOnButNo
#ItIsNotAsBadAsTheLastTwoTimesAtLeast
#ItIsJustABitAnnoying
#IThinkIAmGettingUsedToMyBodyChangingNow
#ICanNotReallyRememberWhatItLookedLikeBefore
#WellIAmRemindedByLookingAtOldSelfPortraits
#ButIGuessThisIsMyNewNormal
#IThinkIWillMissHavingABump
#ThoughMaybeIWillNotBeSayingThatSoonWhenItGetsMoreUncomfortable
#SoMaybeIWillMissHavingA21AndAHalfWeeksBump
#ItIsKindOfNiceKnowingThatIAmNeverAlone
#WasEatingMyBreakfastThisMorningAndIFeltItMove
#ItMadeMeImagineMyKidInACoupleOfYearsTime
#WatchingMeWheneverIEatAndWantingSomeOfIt
#ThisMorningItWasKindOfPawingAtMe
#LikeGiveMeSomeOfYourFood
#ButObviouslyIGuessItWasHavingTheNutrientsFromItOrWhatever
#ItSeemsToMoveMoreWhenIAmAboutToEat
#MaybeItSensesMyExcitement
#OrItIsJustACoincidence
#WhenItMovesIFeelReassured
#ThenIFeelStressedWhenItDoesNot
#IThinkItHasHadTheHiccupsAFewTimes
#AsTheOtherDayIThoughtItWasMovingButItHadARhythmToit
#AndMyMumHasMentionedThatSheUsedToFeelMySisterHiccuping
#SoWeird
#ItStillBlowsMyMindThatThereIsALittleHumanInMeAndOneDayItWillComeOut
#IKindOfJustWantToKeepItInMyBellyForever
#ButIAlsoWantToMeetTheLittleHumanThatIHaveGrownInsideMe

‘#ItMadeMeImagineMyKidInACoupleOfYearsTime
#WatchingMeWheneverIEatAndWantingSomeOfIt’

Well it hasn’t been a couple of years yet and B likes to eat everything that I have.

I definitely get stressed when I can’t feel many movements. Sometimes I am just busier though so have less opportunities to feel her.

As my bump gets bigger this time it is weird thinking that I probably will not ever be pregnant again, but being pregnant with a toddler is quite different to being pregnant without another kid. As B wants picking up a lot/needs to be as otherwise we will never get home from walks, having a bump does make it harder to pick her up/I get worried that maybe I am overstretching my bump.


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Oh Me, Oh Mãe

Imitating B Trying To Eat Her Toes (24th November 2020)

Imitating B Trying To Eat Her Toes (24th November 2020)
 
#ThisShootWasMeJustImitatingBWhenSheDoesTheHappyBabyYogaPoseAndWhenSheTriesToPutHerToesInHerMouth
#ICanSeeHowThePoseGotTheNameNow
#SheHasBeenDoingThisForAWhileButMyPlanOfCopyingHerHasBeenNeglectedForAWhile
#YesterdayITookHerOutForTwoWalksDuringHerAwakeTimes
#HerWakeWindowsAreUsuallyBetweenTwoAndTwoAndAHalfHoursNow
#ThatIsALongTimeToEntertainHer4TimesADay
#SoItMakesSenseToTakeHerOutDuringHerPlaytimesRatherThanNaptimes
#IPutHerForwardFacingInHerCarrierForTheFirstTime
#SheIsOldEnoughNowAndIFiguredItMightBeBetterForLettingHerSeeThings
#FirstITookHerOutInTheMorningAndALotOfPeopleSaidGoodMorningToUsWhichWasReallyNice
#SheJustSeemedToCheerSomePeopleUpAndWeStoppedToTalkToAYoungGirlAndHerFamilyWhoHadPointedAtHer
#IWalkedForABitTooLongAndBFellAsleep
#NextITookHerOutInTheAfternoonButWeDidNotMakeItSoFar
#ThereWereALotOfSchoolKidsAroundWhichFreaksMeOutALittleBitSoNextTimeWeNeedToBeEarlier
#IHadPutSomeLittleBootsOnHerFeet
#ButAfterGettingHomeTheSecondTimeICouldNotFindOneOfThem
#IWaitedForTiagoToFinishAWorkCallSoHeCouldWatchB
#ThenIRetracedOurStepsAndFoundItNotSoFarAwayOnAPath
#SoINeedToBeCarefulAboutTheAmountOfTimeAndKeepAnEyeOnHerBoots
#TheWeatherWasReallyNiceYesterdayButPuttingHerInTheCarrierMightNotBeAGreatPlanForEveryday
#SheHasBeenWakingUpALotAtNightLatelyWhichIsMakingTAndIABitGrumpy
#LastWeekSheWasStillBreastfeedingTwoOrThreeTimesADay
#ButNowSheReallyDoesNotWantToBreastfeedWhichIsABitOfAShame
#IThinkItProbablyHasALotToDoWithHerTeething
#ThoughSometimesIAmTryingToGetHerToLatchOnAndSheJustTipsHerHeadBackAndLooksLonginglyAtAnEmptyBottleThatIForgotToMove
#MyMumSaysThatSheWantedToBreastfeedMySistersAndIForLongerButWeStoppedBeingInterestedAround4Months
#TodayIMightJustTryFormulaFeedingHerForEveryFeedAndSeeIfThatHelpsWithHerSleep
#IAlsoMightGiveHerSomeBabyRiceTodayButIFeelLikeISayThatEveryday
#IAmCurrentlySpendingALotOfMyFreeTimePlanningForAHashtagWorkshop
#IAmNervousAboutItButIHopeThatItGoesWellAndThatPeopleEnjoyIt

(I wrote this on 24th November.)

#ThisShootWasMeJustImitatingBWhenSheDoesTheHappyBabyYogaPoseAndWhenSheTriesToPutHerToesInHerMouth

Classic B.

#ICanSeeHowThePoseGotTheNameNow

I could kind of see how it did before, but having a baby has made it very clear.

#SheHasBeenDoingThisForAWhileButMyPlanOfCopyingHerHasBeenNeglectedForAWhile

I have a list of shoot ideas, but actually this idea is not as old as I thought – I added it on 22nd October.

#YesterdayITookHerOutForTwoWalksDuringHerAwakeTimes #HerWakeWindowsAreUsuallyBetweenTwoAndTwoAndAHalfHoursNow #ThatIsALongTimeToEntertainHer4TimesADay #SoItMakesSenseToTakeHerOutDuringHerPlaytimesRatherThanNaptimes

Well, I know that during her awake times I am feeding her, changing her and other things, but still it leaves a lot of play time.

#IPutHerForwardFacingInHerCarrierForTheFirstTime

The day before Tiago had taken her out facing him.

#SheIsOldEnoughNowAndIFiguredItMightBeBetterForLettingHerSeeThings

Just another one of those things that seems scary to do, but once you do it it seems easy. I’ll just have to see if I can higher her up anymore.

#FirstITookHerOutInTheMorningAndALotOfPeopleSaidGoodMorningToUsWhichWasReallyNice

At one point I think I was having a competition with myself to see how many I could get to say good morning to me or back to me.

#SheJustSeemedToCheerSomePeopleUpAndWeStoppedToTalkToAYoungGirlAndHerFamilyWhoHadPointedAtHer

With her being on me it’s a lot easier to move out of the way of people too if paths are too narrow.

#IWalkedForABitTooLongAndBFellAsleep

So when I got home and wanted her to have a nap, she took longer to fall asleep than usual.

#NextITookHerOutInTheAfternoonButWeDidNotMakeItSoFar #ThereWereALotOfSchoolKidsAroundWhichFreaksMeOutALittleBitSoNextTimeWeNeedToBeEarlier

It just gets a bit busy when all the kids are walking home from school and they seem to hang around more than I thought they would. I think they all get let out at different times too so when one lot seems to clear, a new lot soon appears.

#IHadPutSomeLittleBootsOnHerFeet #ButAfterGettingHomeTheSecondTimeICouldNotFindOneOfThem

Classic me. I thought it must have just fallen off when I lifted her out of her carrier, but I couldn’t see it.

#IWaitedForTiagoToFinishAWorkCallSoHeCouldWatchB #ThenIRetracedOurStepsAndFoundItNotSoFarAwayOnAPath

I was so proud of myself for finding it. I was worried as I had walked across a big patch of grass, which would have made it easier to find, but it had probably dropped just before I went onto it.

#SoINeedToBeCarefulAboutTheAmountOfTimeAndKeepAnEyeOnHerBoots

Shorter walks. Check boots. Got it.

#TheWeatherWasReallyNiceYesterdayButPuttingHerInTheCarrierMightNotBeAGreatPlanForEveryday

I need to get a rain cover for it…

#SheHasBeenWakingUpALotAtNightLatelyWhichIsMakingTAndIABitGrumpy

When she woke up for the last time at 6.30am it felt like it was 3am and I was like erghhhh.

#LastWeekSheWasStillBreastfeedingTwoOrThreeTimesADay

Great.

#ButNowSheReallyDoesNotWantToBreastfeedWhichIsABitOfAShame

I am a bit saddened by it.

#IThinkItProbablyHasALotToDoWithHerTeething

Yeah, it can’t be too comfortable at the moment. She has been teething for about a month, which doesn’t help.

#ThoughSometimesIAmTryingToGetHerToLatchOnAndSheJustTipsHerHeadBackAndLooksLonginglyAtAnEmptyBottleThatIForgotToMove

It’s probably nicer to teethe on.

#MyMumSaysThatSheWantedToBreastfeedMySistersAndIForLongerButWeStoppedBeingInterestedAround4Months

Maybe she’s more like me than she looks… (She looks more like Tiago.)

#TodayIMightJustTryFormulaFeedingHerForEveryFeedAndSeeIfThatHelpsWithHerSleep #IAlsoMightGiveHerSomeBabyRiceTodayButIFeelLikeISayThatEveryday

Between writing the hashtags and writing this blog post I did give her some. It went well. If I remember I’ll probably talk about it in my next blog post.

#IAmCurrentlySpendingALotOfMyFreeTimePlanningForAHashtagWorkshop #IAmNervousAboutItButIHopeThatItGoesWellAndThatPeopleEnjoyIt

Luckily I did a university lecture last week, so I am feeling a little less awkward about it. I really hope that people enjoy it.

I was going to post a link to the workshop, but by the time I post this it will have already happened. Wishing myself luck from the past and future…


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