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I Can Not Believe That I Am Still Pregnant (39 Weeks / 28th January 2022)

Self-portrait where I am kneeling and have my hands down, but am looking under my right arm.
I Can Not Believe That I Am Still Pregnant (39 Weeks / 28th January 2022)
 
#IAmQuiteSurprisedThatTheBabyHasNotBeenBornYet
#IKeepThinkingIAmShowingSignsOfTheBabyBeingClose
#IThoughtHavingTinglyLegsForACoupleOfDaysWasASignAsMyLegsWouldReallyCrampUpBeforeIFeltTheUrgeToPushOutB
#MyLowerBackHurtsOnAndOffButTheMidwifeSaidAtMyAppointmentThatBabyMayBeABitHunchedOverWhichMayBeCausingIt
#SomeOfTheseSensationsMightJustBeDueToBeingHeavilyPregnantAndNeverBeingThisPregnantBefore
#IHadAScanWhichWentFineAndBabyIsHeadDown
#IWroteInMyCalendarWhichDepartmentItWasAndItWasAGoodJobIDidAsEvenThenIHadAHardTimeFindingIt
#IWentToGoToReceptionButItWasBeingWorkedOnSoIThoughtICouldFindItLikeLastTime
#IWentToTheFloorThatIThoughtItWasOnButTheSignsDidNotShowTheDepartmentSoIWentBackToTheGroundFloor
#SomeoneThenDirectedMeToAHigherFloorSoIWentThereAndItDidNotLookRightSoIWentBackToTheFloorIThoughtItWasOn
#TwoPeopleDirectedMeToTheGroundFloorButISaidTheySentMeToThisFloorLastTimeAndTheySaidOhYeahItIsAroundTheCorner
#ThisTimeIWasTheOnlyOneInTheWaitingRoomAndItWasSoHot
#ISoonGotCalledInAndTheSonographerWorkedQuietlyOccasionallyMentioningWhatBodyPartSheWasMeasuringOrChecking
#SheSaidThatTheGrowthIsFineAndTheBabyIsMeasuringAtAbout7PoundsAndFourteenOunces
#IJustCheckedTheGrowthChartAndSheWasSevenPoundsThreeTwoWeeksAgoSoSheIsDefinitelyGrowing
#TheBabyHasDefinitelyGrownAnywaysAndIWillNotBeGoingBackForAnotherScanAsAIDoNotNeedOneAndBTheBabyWillBeBornSoonAnyways
#MasksAreNoLongerMandatoryInEnglandButIWillDefinitelyKeepWearingOne
#NotThatIGoToManyPlacesButItSeemsTooEarlyAgain
#IWantBToBeAbleToStayInNurseryAsNowIAmSoUsedToHerGoingSoIDoNotWantToGetCovid
#SheIsAlwaysComingHomeWithAColdAndSheSeemedQuiteUnderTheWeatherYesterday
#IThinkItMayHaveBeenTeethingThatWasMakingHerReallyBadThoughAsSheHasBeenVeryDribblyAndHerCheeksWereSoRedAtOnePoint
#IGaveHerParacetamolAndSheSeemedToPerkUpEachTimeSoHopefullyItPassesSoon
#IHaveNappedTheLastCoupleOfDaysWhichHasBeenGoodButWhenINapISleepWorseAtNight
#ICanNotWinAsIFeelLikeINeedToRestDuringTheDayAndObviouslyGetSomeSleepAtNightAsINeverKnowWhenTheBabyWillCome
#IWantToHaveEnoughEnergyToDeliverThisBabyThoughIGuessMyBodyWillWakeUpOnceLabourActuallyStarts
#BHasStartedToRunBetweenTheKitchenCupboardsAndTheWindowInTheLivingRoom
#SheHasAlsoStartedToPatACoupleOfSmallDogsInTheParkWhichIsReallyCuteToSee
#ThereAreAFewBooksThatSheIsQuiteObsessedWithAtTheMomentButSheHasSuddenlyTakenInterestInOneAboutAMumBeingPregnant
#IStillThinkSheDoesNotHaveMuchOfAClueAboutHowMuchOurLittleWorldIsAboutToChange
#IFeelLikeWeAreInAGoodRoutineNowSoItIsGoingToBeFunWorkingOutANewOneThatIncludesTheBaby
Self-portrait of me propping myself up with my elbows and knees. My bump is hanging down.
I Can Not Believe That I Am Still Pregnant (39 Weeks / 28th January 2022) II

I prefer the second image, but I am a bit worried about criticism for it as it’s probably not a pose that heavily pregnant women should be doing. I held it for about 30 seconds…

#IAmQuiteSurprisedThatTheBabyHasNotBeenBornYet

I feel like I really need to look at my hospital bag and hypnobirthing again…

#IKeepThinkingIAmShowingSignsOfTheBabyBeingClose

Well, at this point there really isn’t much time left for the baby. My Nan is like ‘she’ll come when she’s ready’, but I’m like ‘unless she gets to 42 weeks and then they’ll force her out…’.

#IThoughtHavingTinglyLegsForACoupleOfDaysWasASignAsMyLegsWouldReallyCrampUpBeforeIFeltTheUrgeToPushOutB

I’d be resting having some water/energy drink and then my legs would start to cramp up and I knew it was time for the down stage of labour again.

#MyLowerBackHurtsOnAndOffButTheMidwifeSaidAtMyAppointmentThatBabyMayBeABitHunchedOverWhichMayBeCausingIt

When she couldn’t figure out what position the baby was in, she was saying that she thought the baby was hunching over her shoulders which was confusing her.

#SomeOfTheseSensationsMightJustBeDueToBeingHeavilyPregnantAndNeverBeingThisPregnantBefore

I am finding it harder to get up from the floor now for sure…

#IHadAScanWhichWentFineAndBabyIsHeadDown

Hurrah. Still holding my breath though…

#IWroteInMyCalendarWhichDepartmentItWasAndItWasAGoodJobIDidAsEvenThenIHadAHardTimeFindingIt

Last time I went to the wrong department, so this time I was not going to get it wrong.

#IWentToGoToReceptionButItWasBeingWorkedOnSoIThoughtICouldFindItLikeLastTime

I wasn’t sure if reception was even open. It was a bit weird. Someone at the door asks you why you are there, and then they just say okay.

#IWentToTheFloorThatIThoughtItWasOnButTheSignsDidNotShowTheDepartmentSoIWentBackToTheGroundFloor

Luckily I had got there early, but time was running out. My Mum dropped me off and took B to a supermarket while she waited as T was in a meeting.

#SomeoneThenDirectedMeToAHigherFloorSoIWentThereAndItDidNotLookRightSoIWentBackToTheFloorIThoughtItWasOn #TwoPeopleDirectedMeToTheGroundFloorButISaidTheySentMeToThisFloorLastTimeAndTheySaidOhYeahItIsAroundTheCorner

They said it is confusing. Obviously…

#ThisTimeIWasTheOnlyOneInTheWaitingRoomAndItWasSoHot

I’m definitely not going to pack any heavy clothes for the hospital.

#ISoonGotCalledInAndTheSonographerWorkedQuietlyOccasionallyMentioningWhatBodyPartSheWasMeasuringOrChecking

At one point I said it’s so clever and she said if you were taught how to use it you’d soon understand it.

#SheSaidThatTheGrowthIsFineAndTheBabyIsMeasuringAtAbout7PoundsAndFourteenOunces #IJustCheckedTheGrowthChartAndSheWasSevenPoundsThreeTwoWeeksAgoSoSheIsDefinitelyGrowing

I know the weight isn’t super accurate (or so I think), but the fact the technology shows a substantial increase in weight over 2 weeks says a lot.

#TheBabyHasDefinitelyGrownAnywaysAndIWillNotBeGoingBackForAnotherScanAsAIDoNotNeedOneAndBTheBabyWillBeBornSoonAnyways

Hurrah, it’s a massive faff going there so that’s a relief.

#MasksAreNoLongerMandatoryInEnglandButIWillDefinitelyKeepWearingOne #NotThatIGoToManyPlacesButItSeemsTooEarlyAgain

I really don’t see what the hassle is with wearing a mask.

#IWantBToBeAbleToStayInNurseryAsNowIAmSoUsedToHerGoingSoIDoNotWantToGetCovid

It was a struggle when T and I were both ill last month and had to look after B. Plus having a newborn baby = more difficulty. No thanks, I’d rather avoid getting it. I probably won’t be venturing anywhere indoors with Baby for a while anyways, but no masks puts me off going to a few possible places that I could go to.

Also, my Nan is quite elderly and I do not want her catching it – though she goes out shopping way more than I do. She needs to go out for sanity, so I hope people who do not wear masks keep their distance.

#SheIsAlwaysComingHomeWithAColdAndSheSeemedQuiteUnderTheWeatherYesterday

🙁

#IThinkItMayHaveBeenTeethingThatWasMakingHerReallyBadThoughAsSheHasBeenVeryDribblyAndHerCheeksWereSoRedAtOnePoint

I don’t like seeing her poorly. Just lying on the floor while rubbing her back etc. Poor thing.

#IGaveHerParacetamolAndSheSeemedToPerkUpEachTimeSoHopefullyItPassesSoon

She is still in a good mood though even when she is not feeling great. Still dancing. Still keen for books. Still had some appetite.

#IHaveNappedTheLastCoupleOfDaysWhichHasBeenGoodButWhenINapISleepWorseAtNight

The other night I was awake from 2 to 3.30am. Every time I wake up I wonder if my water has broken.

#ICanNotWinAsIFeelLikeINeedToRestDuringTheDayAndObviouslyGetSomeSleepAtNightAsINeverKnowWhenTheBabyWillCome

I don’t want my water breaking at 10pm when I haven’t slept since the morning etc.

#IWantToHaveEnoughEnergyToDeliverThisBabyThoughIGuessMyBodyWillWakeUpOnceLabourActuallyStarts

Fingers crossed.

#BHasStartedToRunBetweenTheKitchenCupboardsAndTheWindowInTheLivingRoom

I’ll say ‘run to the cupboard’ ‘run to the window’ etc. She’ll do it about 10 times. I joke that I am training her for marathons already. She has been napping better lately, it’s probably just her being under the weather but it’s good to wear her out too.

#SheHasAlsoStartedToPatACoupleOfSmallDogsInTheParkWhichIsReallyCuteToSee

One we see most days, and the other one we have only met a couple of times but is a therapy dog and used to little kids patting it. She still won’t go near the big dogs though, unless they come over to her and sniff her, which they like to do from time to time…

#ThereAreAFewBooksThatSheIsQuiteObsessedWithAtTheMomentButSheHasSuddenlyTakenInterestInOneAboutAMumBeingPregnant

I think it’s because it rhymes and sometimes she dances to it while I say the words.

#IStillThinkSheDoesNotHaveMuchOfAClueAboutHowMuchOurLittleWorldIsAboutToChange

I keep saying it, but it’s true. I don’t know if I’m ready for it, but I have little choice.

#IFeelLikeWeAreInAGoodRoutineNowSoItIsGoingToBeFunWorkingOutANewOneThatIncludesTheBaby

Just yesterday I was thinking how steady we are with our routine and how it works well. Baby will just slot in and will be happy as long as she gets fed, changed and sleeps for now I guess.


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General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot VIII (38 Weeks / 19th January 2022)

Shoot which I am recreating for the 8th time this pregnancy. I am wearing a bra and leggings. I have my right hand clasping my left elbow. My bump is bigger than the previous version of this image.
General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot VIII (38 Weeks / 19th January 2022)
 
#ThisIsTheMostPregnantIHaveEverBeenInMyLife
#ThatSoundsDramaticButBWasBornByThisPoint
#ThisAlsoMayBeTheLastImageOfThisSubSeries
#IDoNotImagineThatIWillStillBePregnantInTwoWeeksTimeButItIsPossible
#IStillFindItWeirdThatICouldBeAMotherOfTwoAnyDayNow
#IFeelMoreNervousThanIThinkIWasWithB
#PerhapsBecauseIKnowWhatIAmInForThisTimeAndTheNewbornStageIsSoIntense
#AndAsBWasBornBefore38WeeksIAmJustOnHighAlertNow
#ICanNotSayThatIAmReallyLookingForwardToTheNewbornPhaseButIKnowItWillBeSoonBeOver
#AtLeastBabyXWillNotWriggleLoadsWhileIChangeHerNappyOrDressHer
#SheWillBeAsleepALotButTheFeedingIsJustSoDemandingAndIReallyHopeIFindItEasierThisTime
#IGuessThatIsWhatIAmTheMostNervousAbout
#SomeoneToldMeThatTheirFriendsDaughterHadToWaitSixDaysForABedInTheHospital
#ButIGuessThatWasForAnInductionOrSomethingAsWhenABabyIsComingTheyWillNotThenWaitForDaysAsThereIsNoBed
#ThisWeekIWentToTheCoffeeShopByMyselfAndGotAHotChocolateAndSatInTheParkAndDrankIt
#ThatDoesNotSoundLikeMuchButThatWasTheFirstTimeIHaveDoneThatSinceBWasBornAndItCouldPossiblyBeTheLastTimeForALongTime
#DueToCovidAndBeingCautiousThereAreNotManyThingsThatIFeelLikeICanDoToMarkTheShortTimeLeftBetweenBeingAMotherOfOneAndAMotherOfTwo
#ISawSoManyGirlsWhoLookedToBeASimilarAgeToBWhenIWasSatOnTheBenchAndItMadeMeMissHer
#TheOtherNightSheWasTheMostMiserableIHadEverSeenHerAndItWasAwful
#SheJustSeemsToNeverStopTeethingAndWasSoSadThatWeThoughtABathWouldCheerHerUp
#SheStartedOffHatingItAndBLovesBathsButThenTheIbuprofenWeGaveHerSeemedToKickInAndSheWasHappyAgain
#WeHaveBeenGivingHerParacetamolForAgesButHaveSwitchedToIbuprofen
#BHasAFriendWhoWeSeeAtTheParkALotAndTheyNowHighFiveEachOtherWhichIsSoAdorable
#TheyAlsoClapForEachOtherWhenTheyGetToTheBottomOfTheSlideButTheyAlsoClapThemselves
#HerSleepingHasBeenOnAndOffButThenSoHasMine
#SometimesIDoNotWantToGiveHerMedicineIfIAmNotSureIfSheNeedsItButThenSheWakesUpEarlyFromANapTeething
#ACoupleOfNightsLatelyIHaveNotBeenAbleToSleepBetweenThreeAndFive
#OrIJustWakeUpEveryHourOrSoAsICanNotSeemToGetComfortableAnymore
#FourNightsAgoIHadALegCrampForTheFirstTimeInAWhileAndItWasMassive
#IAmOverBeingPregnantButIAlsoHopeIHaveAFewMoreDaysAtLeast

(I’ve said before that I don’t like doing these shoots. I probably spent the longest on this one, and it’s still quite off. I’m a lot lower than I am in the other photos, but for my sanity I had to stop trying to get it right. I’m frustrated, but I’m also tired and 38 weeks pregnant so I’m going to let myself off – for now and then be annoyed about it for the rest of my life probably.)

#ThisIsTheMostPregnantIHaveEverBeenInMyLife #ThatSoundsDramaticButBWasBornByThisPoint

I could have wrote this as a hashtag with every picture when I was pregnant with B, but I didn’t. This just feels like major unknown territory now.

#ThisAlsoMayBeTheLastImageOfThisSubSeries #IDoNotImagineThatIWillStillBePregnantInTwoWeeksTimeButItIsPossible

Baby will come when baby is ready. I just want to know when that will be though!

#IStillFindItWeirdThatICouldBeAMotherOfTwoAnyDayNow

*Nervous laugh*

#IFeelMoreNervousThanIThinkIWasWithB

Definitely. I’m nervous for the birth too.

#PerhapsBecauseIKnowWhatIAmInForThisTimeAndTheNewbornStageIsSoIntense

Having to set alarms to wake up to feed the baby if they haven’t already woken you up etc.

#AndAsBWasBornBefore38WeeksIAmJustOnHighAlertNow

With B I thought I had more time, this time I am aware that I might not have.

#ICanNotSayThatIAmReallyLookingForwardToTheNewbornPhaseButIKnowItWillBeSoonBeOver

And I will be sad that I will never experience it again (I really do not want more than two kids).

#AtLeastBabyXWillNotWriggleLoadsWhileIChangeHerNappyOrDressHer

In the beginning anyways. I am so slow at dressing B to go out for walks as she keeps running off and I am too pregnant to be bothered to chase her etc.

#SheWillBeAsleepALotButTheFeedingIsJustSoDemandingAndIReallyHopeIFindItEasierThisTime #IGuessThatIsWhatIAmTheMostNervousAbout

I am nervous about breastfeeding. It is what it is. If the baby is bigger then maybe that might help?

#SomeoneToldMeThatTheirFriendsDaughterHadToWaitSixDaysForABedInTheHospital #ButIGuessThatWasForAnInductionOrSomethingAsWhenABabyIsComingTheyWillNotThenWaitForDaysAsThereIsNoBed

So I’m not that put off. If anything it will hopefully buy me more time if I do end up needing an induction…

#ThisWeekIWentToTheCoffeeShopByMyselfAndGotAHotChocolateAndSatInTheParkAndDrankIt

Mega stuff.

#ThatDoesNotSoundLikeMuchButThatWasTheFirstTimeIHaveDoneThatSinceBWasBornAndItCouldPossiblyBeTheLastTimeForALongTime

The weather was quite pleasant. I was going to read my book or something but I just enjoyed watching birds and things. Simple pleasures.

#DueToCovidAndBeingCautiousThereAreNotManyThingsThatIFeelLikeICanDoToMarkTheShortTimeLeftBetweenBeingAMotherOfOneAndAMotherOfTwo

So I am taking advantage of anything I can do.

#ISawSoManyGirlsWhoLookedToBeASimilarAgeToBWhenIWasSatOnTheBenchAndItMadeMeMissHer

I felt awkward smiling at them, but their grownups could probably see I was pregnant and no threat. I’m sure I had not seen any of them before when I’ve been with B…

#TheOtherNightSheWasTheMostMiserableIHadEverSeenHerAndItWasAwful

Yesterday she had her shoe balanced on her foot and brought it towards her face. It fell off and her face nearly made me cry, as she didn’t cry out but her lip was quivering and I felt awful (I’d been trying to put it on over two pairs of socks). This wasn’t why she was miserable though – I just thought about it.

#SheJustSeemsToNeverStopTeethingAndWasSoSadThatWeThoughtABathWouldCheerHerUp

She wasn’t eating much of dinner, she was moping about, and she loves baths.

#SheStartedOffHatingItAndBLovesBathsButThenTheIbuprofenWeGaveHerSeemedToKickInAndSheWasHappyAgain

Yeah, B LOVES baths.

#WeHaveBeenGivingHerParacetamolForAgesButHaveSwitchedToIbuprofen

I think the paracetamol doesn’t do much for her anymore, and I did notice a big molar cutting through the other day. She’s just dribbling constantly. Poor thing.

#BHasAFriendWhoWeSeeAtTheParkALotAndTheyNowHighFiveEachOtherWhichIsSoAdorable

I thought I might give birth there and then from all the oxytocin of seeing them high five.

#TheyAlsoClapForEachOtherWhenTheyGetToTheBottomOfTheSlideButTheyAlsoClapThemselves

Adorable.

#HerSleepingHasBeenOnAndOffButThenSoHasMine

Life is a fun game.

#SometimesIDoNotWantToGiveHerMedicineIfIAmNotSureIfSheNeedsItButThenSheWakesUpEarlyFromANapTeething

And I regret my decisions… This was two days ago. She really needed a nap as she had woken up early, and then only slept 40 minutes and wouldn’t sleep again. I didn’t have a nap and I was tired…

#ACoupleOfNightsLatelyIHaveNotBeenAbleToSleepBetweenThreeAndFive

It’s so frustrating as I know I need my sleep. I ended up reading a book. I tend to sleep the night after, but I just want to have as much energy as possible for labour.

#OrIJustWakeUpEveryHourOrSoAsICanNotSeemToGetComfortableAnymore

Turning over is painful. My hips just hurt. My back hurts right now.

#FourNightsAgoIHadALegCrampForTheFirstTimeInAWhileAndItWasMassive

I thought Tiago might think I was in labour or something, but he said afterwards that that never even crossed his mind. He forgets I’m pregnant half the time…

#IAmOverBeingPregnantButIAlsoHopeIHaveAFewMoreDaysAtLeast

I don’t want it to drag on too much longer, but I also want to have a bit more time to myself. Baby will come when baby is ready though.

There are no comparison photos from now on, as B was born by this point so I have no photos of me pregnant past 37 and a half weeks…


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Thirteenth Family Portrait (35 Weeks / 2nd January 2022)

Family portrait. Tiago and I are looking up at B who is on Tiago's shoulders. A box, the same colour as the wall, is over her face to hide her features.
Thirteenth Family Portrait (35 Weeks / 2nd January 2022)
 
#Hello2022AndHelloToBsThirdYearOnEarth
#ItMakesHerSoundSoOldWhenSheIsNotEven19MonthsYet
#WeHadAVeryQuietNewYearsEveWhereWeJustWatchedACoupleOfEpisodesOfQueerEyeThenWentToSleepAt11
#AtMidnightIWokeUpToALotOfLightAndNoiseAsEveryoneAroundUsSeemedToHaveFireworks
#IThoughtItWas3InTheMorningAndWasReallyConfusedAsToWhatWasHappeningAtFirst
#TiagoBarelyMovedAndBDidWakeUpBrieflyButLuckilyNotForTooLong
#HerSleepingHasBeenGettingWorseAndIThinkSheMustBeGoingThroughARegression
#IHaveMadeTheLightOnHerRoomThermometerABitStrongerInCaseItHelps
#SheJustSeemsToBeFullOfColdAndTeethingALotWhichProbablyDoesNotHelp
#TheOtherDayWhenWeWereAllLeavingThePlaygroundTiagoAndISanitisedOurHandsAndBCopiedWhichMadeMeLaugh
#WeAreStartingToDigOutBabyStuffAndBHadABriefPhaseOfEnjoyingSittingInHerBouncerAgain
#IAmGettingAnnoyedThoughAsWeReallyCanNotFindWhereWePutAllHer0To3MonthBabyClothes
#WeHaveLookedMultipleTimesAndYesterdayWeWentThroughThingsPrettyThoroughlyButNoLuck
#WhenWeMovedBHadOutgrownThemSoTheyMustJustBeInASmallBagSomewhere
#IWantToGetThemAllWashedSoICanPackMyHospitalBagButReallyIJustNeedToPackMyBagAndKeepLooking
#OtherwiseWeNeedToGetSomeClothesAsSoonAsPossibleAsTimeIsQuicklyPassingBy
#INeedToRereadTheHypnobirthingBookAndTiagoNeedsToReadItToo
#WeHaveAFewThingsThatWeNeedToGetThisWeekLikeASterilisingMachineAsWeBorrowedOneLastTime
#IAlsoNeedToHireATENSMachineSoonAsLastTimeIThoughtIWasBeingOrganisedAndItCameADayBeforeINeededToUseItAsBCameSoEarly
#TiagoAndIAreTryingToMakeAnEffortToSpendABitOfTimeTogetherBeforeWeGoToSleepAsUsuallyWeAreOffDoingOurOwnThing
#IAmTryingToFaffLessAndUseSocialMediaLessAndReadTheNewsLessAsIDoNotNeedToReadIt10TimesADay
#ItHasBeenNiceToTalkABitMoreBeforeGoingToBedAsOnceBabyXArrivesIKnowWeWillHaveLessUsTimeForAWhile
#MyMainHopesForThisYearIsThatBabyXIsBornHealthyAndThatTheBirthGoesWell
#IHopeThatBAdaptsWellToHavingASiblingAndThatTheyGetOnWell
#IAlsoHopeThatWeCanMoveOutOfMyNansHouseAndIntoOurPotentialForeverHome
#NextMonthItWillHaveBeen7YearsSinceTiagoAndIMetAndWeHaveLivedIn3DifferentCitiesTogether
#OurPlansAreSlowlyMovingForwardAndWeWantToMoveOutInTheSummer
#SoOnceBabyXIsBornTheCountdownWillSwitchFromTheBirthToMovingOutAndGettingOrganisedForThat
#ItWillBeABigMoveButIThinkAllTheWaitingWillBeWorthItInTheEnd
#ThanksToMyNanForPuttingUpWithUsForOverAYearAlready

#Hello2022AndHelloToBsThirdYearOnEarth

2021 dragged at times, but it also feels like it went quite fast.

#ItMakesHerSoundSoOldWhenSheIsNotEven19MonthsYet

It is weird how things work. Yesterday I was thinking about how I am 22 times older than B.

#WeHadAVeryQuietNewYearsEveWhereWeJustWatchedACoupleOfEpisodesOfQueerEyeThenWentToSleepAt11

New series. Great. We had forgotten that it was New Year’s Eve, so we agreed to both be in bed by 9 to hang out.

#AtMidnightIWokeUpToALotOfLightAndNoiseAsEveryoneAroundUsSeemedToHaveFireworks

I guess it was a safer option for a lot of people to meet up, rather than be indoors.

#IThoughtItWas3InTheMorningAndWasReallyConfusedAsToWhatWasHappeningAtFirst

It really startled me.

#TiagoBarelyMovedAndBDidWakeUpBrieflyButLuckilyNotForTooLong

When I woke up I was so shocked I said ‘Tiago!’, but he just said ‘what?’ and rolled over. I had turned B’s machine up.

#HerSleepingHasBeenGettingWorseAndIThinkSheMustBeGoingThroughARegression

I looked up 18 month sleep regression and a lot of boxes were checked.

#IHaveMadeTheLightOnHerRoomThermometerABitStrongerInCaseItHelps

I had put it on the lowest setting, but it didn’t seem high enough.

#SheJustSeemsToBeFullOfColdAndTeethingALotWhichProbablyDoesNotHelp

We are constantly cleaning her eyes, wiping her nose, wiping away dribble etc.

#TheOtherDayWhenWeWereAllLeavingThePlaygroundTiagoAndISanitisedOurHandsAndBCopiedWhichMadeMeLaugh

She did it a couple of days in a row, and then stopped. We wash her hands when she gets home. Sometimes I use sanitiser, but I worry it is too strong for her.

#WeAreStartingToDigOutBabyStuffAndBHadABriefPhaseOfEnjoyingSittingInHerBouncerAgain

She tried to sit in the baby bath, so I thought I should get the bouncer out for her, then I was worried that she liked it too much that she would be trying to sit on the baby…

#IAmGettingAnnoyedThoughAsWeReallyCanNotFindWhereWePutAllHer0To3MonthBabyClothes

It is stressing me out.

#WeHaveLookedMultipleTimesAndYesterdayWeWentThroughThingsPrettyThoroughlyButNoLuck

I was sure I had put them in a cupboard in our bedroom, but nope. There is a shoulder bag of mine that I have not seen in the couple of weeks that I have been searching, so I am wondering if they are in there, but I kind of doubt it. Thinking about it there is another bag of mine that I haven’t seen either… Hmm. The shoulder bag is probably just full of my bags…

#WhenWeMovedBHadOutgrownThemSoTheyMustJustBeInASmallBagSomewhere

It’s so annoying. I want to find them ASAP.

#IWantToGetThemAllWashedSoICanPackMyHospitalBagButReallyIJustNeedToPackMyBagAndKeepLooking

I might pack my bag later or tomorrow.

#OtherwiseWeNeedToGetSomeClothesAsSoonAsPossibleAsTimeIsQuicklyPassingBy

We have a couple of new sleepsuits that we got as B’s are a bit overwashed and worn as she lived in them, so we need to get a couple more and some vests really. That’s it. I’ve found some cardigans and hats.

#INeedToRereadTheHypnobirthingBookAndTiagoNeedsToReadItToo

I’m enjoying reading a book about the Carpenters at the moment. It’s just a short read, then I will reread the book. To be fair I wrote down the main points in an email to myself and it’s enough really, but I feel like I’d feel calmer if I reread the book.

#WeHaveAFewThingsThatWeNeedToGetThisWeekLikeASterilisingMachineAsWeBorrowedOneLastTime

I don’t want to pump as much as I did last time, but it’s good to be organised. I wasn’t planning to pump at all last time, but we got given a pump and a friend lent us the steriliser so we were all set up for it when we got home from hospital.

#IAlsoNeedToHireATENSMachineSoonAsLastTimeIThoughtIWasBeingOrganisedAndItCameADayBeforeINeededToUseItAsBCameSoEarly

I have put a reminder in my calendar. I think you can keep them for 6 weeks or so, so I’ll just order it next week.

#TiagoAndIAreTryingToMakeAnEffortToSpendABitOfTimeTogetherBeforeWeGoToSleepAsUsuallyWeAreOffDoingOurOwnThing

B goes to bed and we’re like ‘freedom to do what we want’, which is me usually sitting at my computer doing some work, then stretching, and T is usually just having some time to himself and doing bits of work. I guess us not having our own place has made it this way too.

#IAmTryingToFaffLessAndUseSocialMediaLessAndReadTheNewsLessAsIDoNotNeedToReadIt10TimesADay

Less, less, less. I definitely feel better for it.

#ItHasBeenNiceToTalkABitMoreBeforeGoingToBedAsOnceBabyXArrivesIKnowWeWillHaveLessUsTimeForAWhile

We know how important it is to keep our bond strong (cheesy, but true), so that we can navigate the potentially difficult journey ahead (cliche) a bit easier.

#MyMainHopesForThisYearIsThatBabyXIsBornHealthyAndThatTheBirthGoesWell

Fingers crossed.

#IHopeThatBAdaptsWellToHavingASiblingAndThatTheyGetOnWell

Again, fingers crossed.

#IAlsoHopeThatWeCanMoveOutOfMyNansHouseAndIntoOurPotentialForeverHome

Potential forever home, as if we don’t like it then obviously we can move again, but I hope that it all works out.

#NextMonthItWillHaveBeen7YearsSinceTiagoAndIMetAndWeHaveLivedIn3DifferentCitiesTogether

3 and a half years in London in 2 different places a brief stay at my Nan’s while finding a place to live in Liverpool (lots of trips up and down to view places and work etc.), 2 years in Liverpool, then to Birmingham to live with my Nan (we weren’t sure how long we would live with her and had planned to find somewhere of our own to rent in Brum, but it’s too late now).

#OurPlansAreSlowlyMovingForwardAndWeWantToMoveOutInTheSummer

We shall see. We are starting to get a bit excited though.

#SoOnceBabyXIsBornTheCountdownWillSwitchFromTheBirthToMovingOutAndGettingOrganisedForThat

I’m not looking forward to going through all our stuff and really cutting down on things, but there is a lot of stuff that we haven’t touched since moving.

#ItWillBeABigMoveButIThinkAllTheWaitingWillBeWorthItInTheEnd

There has been a lot of waiting, and though it has been frustrating I think the timing is better.

#ThanksToMyNanForPuttingUpWithUsForOverAYearAlready

It’s been nice to see my Nan everyday and not worry about her, though it has been frustrating at times – which says more about me than her. It’s been good for her though, and it’s been good for B too. It’s been nice for my family to see more of B than they would have if we had stayed in Liverpool – especially due to Covid.

35 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait which is shot from below my bump. My eyes are looking out over the top of my bump and my elbows are in the air.
Our World Will Soon Change In One Way Or Another (35 and a half weeks)
 
#IFeelLikeIHaveNotWrittenMuchInMyActualDiaryAboutBeingPregnant
#MaybeBecauseIAmDoingThisProject
#SoLastNightIMadeMyselfWriteAboutHowIAmFeelingAboutImminentMotherhood
#AndIGotABitEmotional
#IAmStillNervousAsEvenThoughIHaveBeenGrowingThisBabyForSoLong
#ItDoesNotMeanWeWillHaveABabyInLessThan2MonthsTime
#ObviouslyIHopeWeDoButThereIsAlwaysAPossibilityThatWeWillNot
#SomeMightSayThatThinkingThatWayDoesYouNoGood
#ButIThinkItIsGoodToBeRealistic
#ThoughIDoNotNowHowIWouldReactIfThingsWentBadly
#ButTiagoSaysWeWillDealWithWhateverComesOurWay
#IAmAlsoNervousForIfWeDoHaveABabyAndIAmARubbishMother
#ObviouslyIWillDoMyBest
#AndIThinkNoMatterHowYouRaiseYourChildrenThingsWillNeverBePerfect
#ThoughIDoNotBelieveInPerfectButItIsTheEasiestWordToUse
#LuckilyWithLockdownItWillTakeSomePressureOffMeIThink
#ObviouslyThereIsAlwaysPressureForTheFatherTooButIThinkTheMotherGetsBurdenedWithALotOfIt
#PeopleSaveMoreJudgementForTheMother
#AndIWillBeThePrimaryCaregiver
#IThinkTiagoWillBeAGoodFatherThough
#IThinkHeHasMorePatienceAndIsABetterTeacherThanMe
#IHopeToWorkOnThoseAspectsOfMyselfThoughAlongWithManyOtherThings
#AndIWantToBeTheBestMotherThatICanPossiblyBe
#WhilstRetainingMyOwnIdentityAtLeastToSomeExtent
#IWillHopefullyBeAMotherButAlsoStillMuchMoreThanThat
#ThatWillBeJustOneOfMyLifeRoles
#MeAndTiagoAreAFamilyButThisWillBeADifferentKindOfFamily
#ILookForwardToLazyDaysInBedOrOnGrassLyingSideBySideBySide
#WritingTheseHashtagsAreMakingMeEmotional
#OurWorldWillSoonChangeInOneWayOrAnotherAndItIsExcitingButAlsoABitScary

This is from a diptych, but the second image is quite booby.

I feel the same as I did when I wrote these hashtags – I am still quite nervous that I might not be be a mother of two soon.

I don’t feel like the best mother at times – especially at the moment as I have no energy – but I know I am not the worst and that I am doing my best (or maybe 90% of my best).

There haven’t been many lazy days in bed or much lying on the grass side by side… Hopefully in the coming years.

I am excited though, but I am feeling a bit nervous too.

My hypnobirthing notes are mainly about breathing and trying to be as relaxed as possible.

See, by this point I had washed all the baby clothes. I need to get on it and find things!

I think I have cared less about how I look with this pregnancy, but I also have not been going out to work and generally people just see me when I take B out and about. I’ve been stretching a lot, and I do get out for daily walks, and I think I am a bit kinder to my body now after birthing one kid.

My mental health has been better in ways during this pregnancy as we want two kids, and I felt a bit lost just living at my Nan’s and waiting for our move, so it made sense to have the second one now. The living situation has been frustrating at times though, and I do look forward to having our own place again – and I’m sure my Nan will like to feel more relaxed in her house again. I know we have been lucky with this situation, and my Nan has benefitted from it too, but we can’t all live like this forever.


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B And The Bump (35 Weeks / 28th December 2021)

Self-portrait where I am holding B above my bump. She has my hair in her hands and is hiding her eyes. I am kissing her on her forehead.
B And The Bump (35 Weeks / 28th December 2021)
 
#ITookAPhotoOfMeHoldingBWhenIWas24WeeksPregnantAndYouCanSeeABitOfABumpButItIsDefinitelyMorePronouncedNow
#SoIWantToDoASimilarShootAsTimeIsRunningOutAndItCouldBeTheLastPhotoOfBWithMyBump
#IAmDefinitelyGettingToThePointOfBeingBoredWithBeingPregnant
#IDoNotLikeAcidRefluxAndNotBeingAbleToEatAsMuchAsIWant
#IWillEatSomethingAndKnowThatIWillFeelAwfulLaterWhichIsLotsOfFun
#IAmJustGladThatIHaveMoreEnergyNowAndFeelQuiteFit
#IAmNotSureIfIHadAnySideEffectsFromMyBoosterAsIFeltSoRubbishInTheWeekLeadingUpToItAndFeltMuchBetterByTheTimeIHadIt
#ChristmasWasVeryQuietAndWasJustNanTBAndIInTheEnd
#BHadAFewPresentsButNoneFromUsAsWeGotHerHerClimbingFrameAndSlideInTheSummerAndAnythingWeBuyForHerWeGenerallyJustGiveToHerStraightAway
#SheHasACoupleOfMolarsComingThroughAndSheWasInAFunnyMoodAllXmasDay
#IHopeThisTeethingStopsSoonButSheStillHasSpaceInHerMouthForMore
#HerConjunctivitisHasClearedUpNowWhichWeAreRelievedAbout
#WeUsuallyBathHerACoupleOfTimesAWeekButWeWereGivingHerDailyBathsToMakeSureHerEyesWereClean
#IAmSurprisedByHowMuchSheLikesWaterAndDidNotMindUsThrowingWaterAtHerFace
#ThisWeekSheSeemsToHaveLearnedWhatEarsAreAndWhenIAskHerWhereMineAreSheSticksAFingerInMyEar
#IAmNowTryingToTeachHerCheeks
#WhenWePutHerInHerHighchairAndPutHerFoxBibOnMostOfTheTimeSheWillTouchItsNose
#WhenSheFinishesHerBreakfastNowSheUsuallyPassesMeHerBowlWhichIsGood
#IThinkSheHasOfficiallyGrownTiredOfBakedBeansForLunchSoWeAreTryingOutDifferentThings
#WhileSheWasReallyIllSheWasNotEatingMuchSoItIsGoodToSeeHerGettingAnAppetiteAgain
#IGenerallyStruggleABitThisTimeOfTheYearWithMyMentalHealth
#TheOtherDayIJustFeltReallyTrappedInThisHouse
#WeArePlanningToMoveAwayInTheSummerSoIJustNeedToHoldOutUntilThen
#IMissHavingAPlaceOfOurOwnAndIGuessCovidHasComplicatedMatters
#IfItWasNotForCovidThenWeProbablyWouldNotBeHereOrInBirmingham
#ItHasBeenGoodInWaysButIHaveFoundItHardInOtherWays
#IGuessHavingASecondChildSoonWillBeABigDistractionAndTheMonthsWillFlyBy
#IWouldLikeToKnowMorePeopleButItAlsoSeemsABitLateNowIfWePlanToMoveAway
#IJustFeelLikeEveryDayIsTheSameAndWithASecondChildItMayFeelMoreThatWay
#INeedToStartGoingToBedEarlierAsIHaveBeenStayingUpTooLateWatchingShowsAndReadingIGuessAsIKnowThatWhenBabyXIsBornINeedToStartGoingToBedWhenTheyDo

#ITookAPhotoOfMeHoldingBWhenIWas24WeeksPregnantAndYouCanSeeABitOfABumpButItIsDefinitelyMorePronouncedNow

For my 33rd birthday portrait / marking B’s 16 month birthday. Post here.

#SoIWantToDoASimilarShootAsTimeIsRunningOutAndItCouldBeTheLastPhotoOfBWithMyBump

We will see how it goes. B was not very happy last time…

(I put off doing it all day, but in the end it was actually quite nice. She was unhappy at first, but then she started to just play with my hair and seemed to relax. Phew.)

#IAmDefinitelyGettingToThePointOfBeingBoredWithBeingPregnant

I know that once the baby is born my life will change a lot again, but I also just want to move on with our lives.

#IDoNotLikeAcidRefluxAndNotBeingAbleToEatAsMuchAsIWant

So much rich, fatty food at Xmas that is not good for acid reflux…

#IWillEatSomethingAndKnowThatIWillFeelAwfulLaterWhichIsLotsOfFun

Yesterday I had pizza for lunch and a few chocolates afterwards, and I didn’t feel as bad as I thought I would actually. Hurrah.

#IAmJustGladThatIHaveMoreEnergyNowAndFeelQuiteFit

I feel like I am not waddling as much as I was at this point when I was pregnant with B, but maybe it’s because I walk slower and not as far with B, and her pushchair gives me support.

#IAmNotSureIfIHadAnySideEffectsFromMyBoosterAsIFeltSoRubbishInTheWeekLeadingUpToItAndFeltMuchBetterByTheTimeIHadIt

It was hard to tell. I couldn’t feel more lousier than I did before having it.

#ChristmasWasVeryQuietAndWasJustNanTBAndIInTheEnd

Super chill.

#BHadAFewPresentsButNoneFromUsAsWeGotHerHerClimbingFrameAndSlideInTheSummerAndAnythingWeBuyForHerWeGenerallyJustGiveToHerStraightAway

I’d got her some felt tips the week before, but my Mum also gave her some. I guess next year we will have to be more Christmassy.

#SheHasACoupleOfMolarsComingThroughAndSheWasInAFunnyMoodAllXmasDay

It was a bit of a drag at times.

#IHopeThisTeethingStopsSoonButSheStillHasSpaceInHerMouthForMore

*Nervous laugh*

#HerConjunctivitisHasClearedUpNowWhichWeAreRelievedAbout

Hurrah. We’re still trying to clean her eyes a couple of times a day though, just in case it wants to come back.

#WeUsuallyBathHerACoupleOfTimesAWeekButWeWereGivingHerDailyBathsToMakeSureHerEyesWereClean

She loved it. We weren’t planning to give her a bath last night, but she went to the bathroom and looked longingly at the bath. It helps the time before bed go faster, and probably relaxes her so why not. She also uses a lot of energy up splashing about…

#IAmSurprisedByHowMuchSheLikesWaterAndDidNotMindUsThrowingWaterAtHerFace

She has a whale jug that we use and normally splash about with, so we’d splash her and say splash, and she’d laugh. Win.

#ThisWeekSheSeemsToHaveLearnedWhatEarsAreAndWhenIAskHerWhereMineAreSheSticksAFingerInMyEar

Lovely.

#IAmNowTryingToTeachHerCheeks

A lot of blowing my cheeks out and squeezing them.

#WhenWePutHerInHerHighchairAndPutHerFoxBibOnMostOfTheTimeSheWillTouchItsNose

Then I ask her where hers is etc.

#WhenSheFinishesHerBreakfastNowSheUsuallyPassesMeHerBowlWhichIsGood

I don’t like when she starts throwing her food about, so this is good progress. Last night she passed me her yoghurt bowl when she was done.

#IThinkSheHasOfficiallyGrownTiredOfBakedBeansForLunchSoWeAreTryingOutDifferentThings

She had a houmous sandwich the other day, she had some pasta, yeah we need to mix it up more. Sorry B – I got lazy.

#WhileSheWasReallyIllSheWasNotEatingMuchSoItIsGoodToSeeHerGettingAnAppetiteAgain

I was getting a bit worried, though I know she will eat when she wants. She might not eat much of her food sometimes, but she will always steal a bit of whatever we are eating.

#IGenerallyStruggleABitThisTimeOfTheYearWithMyMentalHealth

Dark days where we can’t go out for walks so late etc.

#TheOtherDayIJustFeltReallyTrappedInThisHouse

We’ve lived here for 14 months now, and we’re very grateful to my Nan for letting us live with her.

#WeArePlanningToMoveAwayInTheSummerSoIJustNeedToHoldOutUntilThen

There aren’t many short term options now and it does not seem worth it now.

#IMissHavingAPlaceOfOurOwnAndIGuessCovidHasComplicatedMatters

It’s good to know that Nan is fine and that she is being looked after, but I also can’t wait to have our own place where I feel a bit more relaxed.

#IfItWasNotForCovidThenWeProbablyWouldNotBeHereOrInBirmingham

T and I were talking about how things might be now if it wasn’t for Covid. I’m really not sure. I guess we might have moved closer to a park in Liverpool, or we might have just put up with living in the city centre (it wasn’t that much of a chore, but just not that kid friendly) and I’d be taking B to the museums every day…

#ItHasBeenGoodInWaysButIHaveFoundItHardInOtherWays

There’s space for us at my Nan’s, I haven’t been worried about her (I used to call her every day before living with her), she lives in a safe area and close to a park etc.

I just feel trapped as there aren’t many places to go within walking distance, Covid makes me not want to go to the few places that we could go to, I don’t know many people etc.

#IGuessHavingASecondChildSoonWillBeABigDistractionAndTheMonthsWillFlyBy

Once the baby is born I guess I will go into a baby tunnel.

#IWouldLikeToKnowMorePeopleButItAlsoSeemsABitLateNowIfWePlanToMoveAway

It’s been so difficult trying to meet other parents. Everyone has their old schedules too which makes it more complicated. We can’t invite new friends round to my Nan’s (well we could, but it’s not the best set-up), and I don’t feel that comfortable with going to other people’s homes, because of Covid.

#IJustFeelLikeEveryDayIsTheSameAndWithASecondChildItMayFeelMoreThatWay

I’ve been complaining about Groundhog Day vibes for a while. I’m glad we’re having a second kid now though, rather than leaving it until later. It does make sense as I’m really not up to much.

#INeedToStartGoingToBedEarlierAsIHaveBeenStayingUpTooLateWatchingShowsAndReadingIGuessAsIKnowThatWhenBabyXIsBornINeedToStartGoingToBedWhenTheyDo

I finished reading House of Gucci yesterday. I’m currently watching a series of Survivor Australia at 2x speed, and skipping through it a bit as the episodes are too long.

I need to read my hypnobirthing book again, and just go to bed earlier.

35 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait with my hands supporting my bump, and a patch of dried colostrum is visible on my dress by where my right nipple is.
Yes, That Is Dried Colostrum (35 weeks)
 
#InMyHeadIHaveBeenCountingDownTo42Weeks
#AsTheySayThatUsuallyYourFirstBabyArrivesLate
#ButTalkingToPeopleLatelyEveryonesStorySeemsToInvolveTheBabyComingEarly
#SoIGuessNowThereIsAChanceThatEveryShootForThisProjectCouldBeTheLast
#BabyDefinitelySeemsMoreActiveTheseDays
#SoMaybeItHasJustGotToThePointWhereItsMovementsAreNotShelteredByThePlacentaSoMuch
#LastNightIWasHavingALotOfBraxtonHicksContractionsIThink
#SomeWereQuitePainful
#WhenBabyHiccupsItIsQuiteUncomfortable
#ThisMorningTiagoPointedToAWetPatchOnMyDress
#MyRightBoobHadLeaked
#ItHasBeen6WeeksSinceMyLeftBoobFirstLeaked
#IThinkOneOfThemHasLeakedSinceButICanNotRememberWhichOneAndItDidNotSeemThatSignificant
#TodayItDidForSomeReason
#SoMaybeMyRightBoobHasLeakedBefore
#IHaveAScratchOnMyBellyWhichIMustHaveDoneWithAFingerNail
#TiagoAlsoHadToPointThatOutAsICouldNotSeeIt
#YesterdayIWentOutByMyselfForTheFirstTimeSinceBeforeLockdown
#IWentForAWalkWhilstTiagoWentToTheSupermarket
#IFeltSelfConsciousByMyselfAsINoticedPeopleStaringAtMyBump
#IWalkedOnTheSideOfThePathAndYetPeopleWouldPassSuperCloseByMe
#IWasOnThePhoneTheWholeTimeSoItMadeItNotSoBad
#WeFinallyGotSomeWholemealFlourSoIPlanToMakeSomePancakes
#IHaveNotHadThemInSoLong
#IDidNotAskTiagoToBuyMyFavouriteChocolateOatMilkAsIThoughtIShouldHaveAWeekWithoutIt
#ButNowIReallyWantSome
#IThinkLockdownIsStartingToGetToMeALittleMoreNow
#IJustWantToSpendAWeekendAtMyNansAndKeepHerCompany
#ButItIsLookingLikeItWillNotHappenBeforeTheBabyIsBornDueToRulesAndAll
#AndOnceTheBabyIsBornIDoNotThinkItWillBeAGoodIdeaForABit

Lol at the first two hashtags – B came before 38 weeks.

I thought I leaked a lot earlier than this, so I feel a little less worried now. I got given a colostrum kit today. (Oh wait, it said I leaked 6 weeks before.)

I still don’t like hiccups. I didn’t think that B was that active, but this baby is a lot more active.

I go out loads without Tiago, but usually just for walks with B. I do go to the local shops by myself sometimes, and I went to my midwife appointment alone today.

When I picked up B’s prescription a woman with a walking stick said I should sit down on the chair, so I must be looking quite pregnant to other people.

I’ve been on about making pancakes for a long time, and I haven’t. I finally bought some maple syrup the other day, so I should try to do it soon. Reading this makes me want some now.

‘#IJustWantToSpendAWeekendAtMyNansAndKeepHerCompany’

Well, we’ve spent many weekends with her over the last year+…

Self-portrait of Tiago and me hugging. We are hugging so that my bump is to the side of him.
Hugs Are Different When You’ve Got A Bump (35 weeks)

#ThePictureWasSupposedToShowHowWeHaveToHugNow
#ThoughIAmNotSureHowWellItShowsThat
#IAmSoUnawareOfHowBigMyBumpIsSometimes
#LookingDownIsSoDifferentToSeeingItSideOnInTheMirror
#WellEvenLookingDownIKnowItIsBig
#ButStillIBumpIntoThings
#INearlyKnockedAPlateOffTheTableTheOtherDayWithIt
#OrITryToGiveTiagoAHugFromBehindAndJustBumpIntoHim
#IHaveToHugHimWithMyBumpToTheSide
#HeOnlyGoesToTheBigSupermarketOnceAWeek
#ButWeGoToASmallShopOnceAWeekForBitsAndBobsWeNeed
#LikeTomatoesAndMushroomsAsWeSeemToRunOutOfThoseQuick
#SoTodayIAskedForSomeChocolateMilkAsIHaveBeenThinkingAboutItForAFewDays
#ItIsNotMyFavouriteOneAsYouCanOnlyGetThatAtTheBigSupermarket
#ThatIsProbablyBoringButIAmHappyThatIGotSome
#TodayIBoughtSomeMaternityPants
#IDoNotKnowIfIHaveAHomebirthIfIWillGetGivenThoseHospitalStylePants
#SoIBoughtSomeAsWhenIThinkOfPhotographingMyselfPostBirthIThinkOfAPhotoByRinekeDijkstraWithTheMotherWearingThosePants
#ThoughActuallyInTheOtherTwoPicturesTheyAreNotWearingPants
#WeShallSeeHowSoonIEndUpTakingAPictureAfterBirth
#TheMoreIThinkAboutItTheMoreIWantPicturesOfTheBirth
#ButIGuessItDependsOnHowThingsGo
#AndIThinkTiagoDoesNotWantTheResponsibilityOfTakingPictures
#AndWeBothWantToJustExperienceTheBirthAsMuchAsWeCanWithoutDistractions
#IAlsoBoughtADressThatICanNurseIn
#IBoughtABreastfeedingScarfAWhileAgoForMorePrivacy
#ButAtThisRateIDoubtIWillBeDoingMuchFeedingAwayFromHome
#IAmIWillNotFeelSelfConsciousDoingIt
#IThinkTheBabysNeedWillOverTakeAwkwardnessOrIHopeSoAnyways
#ItIsSuchANaturalThingThatItIsAShameThatPeopleGetOffendedByIt

Yeah, we have to hug like that again now.

I’m definitely bumping my bump into things, and Tiago often knocks it as he goes past…

I didn’t use my maternity pants, but I’ve dug them out as a maybe for my hospital bag this time.

I definitely want to get a picture or two of me giving birth this time, but we’ll see.

I never used the breastfeeding scarf… I hope breastfeeding is easier this time.


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I’m Feeling Quite Uncomfortable Now (33 Weeks / 19th December 2021)

Self-portrait dressed in a black top and black leggings. My right hand is on my hip and my left arm is visible too.
I’m Feeling Quite Uncomfortable Now (33 Weeks / 19th December 2021)
 
#TheAchesAndPainsAreReallyStartingToSetInNow
#MyLowerBackIsBeginningToHurtMore
#YesterdayWeHadSomeFamilyRoundAndIThinkIJustSatDownWayTooMuchAndWeDidNotGoForAWalkAtAllSoIAmPayingForItNow
#IJustHadALookAtTheCurrentGovernmentGuidelinesAndItSaysIfYouAreMoreThan28WeeksPregnantThenYouMayWantToConsiderLimitingCloseContactWithPeopleYouDoNotMeetWithRegularly
#ItHasBeenACoupleOfYearsSinceIHadBeenInTheSameRoomAsBothOfMySistersSoItWasNiceToSeeThemTogether
#WeAllTookFlowTestsAndHadTheWindowsOpenTheWholeTimeSoHopefullyWeWillAllBeOkay
#ForXmasItWillJustBeMyNanTiagoBMeAndMaybeMyYoungerSister
#PregnantPeopleAreNowOnThePriorityCovidVaccineList
#TheyShouldHaveBeenALongTimeAgoButAtLeastTheyAreNow
#TiagoGotHisBoosterJabSoIFeelBetterAsHeHadHisSecondJabInApril
#IHaveStartedToDrinkRaspberryLeafTeaNow
#IAmNotSureIfItReallyHelpsWithLabourOrNotButIDrankItWhenIWasPregnantWithBAndIDoNotHaveMuchToLose
#WeGotBAnElectricToothbrushAndSheIsStillGettingUsedToIt
#TheFirstTimeSheTriedItSheJustKeptPuttingItOnHerTongueAndLaughing
#SometimesShePointsToItSoHopefullyIfSheBrushesHerTeethHerselfTwiceADaySheWillBrushThemEnough
#ITryToBrushThemAfterSheHasHadAGoButSheDoesNotSeemToLikeItMuch
#IHaveToKeepAnEyeOnHerAsSheBrushesFamilyPhotosWithIt
#SheHasANewThingOfTakingThingsSheKnowsSheShouldNotTakeAndTakingThemToAQuietPartOfTheRoomAndMessingAround
#MainlyMyNansPurseButYesterdaySheTookMyBowlAndSpoonAndFacedTheCornerOfTheRoomWhileTryingToEatTheCrumbsThatWereLeft
#WeMissedBsLastToddlerClassAsSheSeemedABitUnderTheWeatherAndIDidNotHaveTheEnergyToTakeHer
#ItLooksLikeSheHasACoupleOfMolarsComingThroughAndSheGetsABitUpsetAtTimesWhichIsFairEnough
#ItMustBeSoPainfulAndFrustratingForHer
#ICanNotBelieveThatBWasBorn4WeeksFromThisPointOfPregnancy
#IDoNotFeelReadyAndIDefinitelyNeedToStartOrganisingThingsMoreNow
#INeedToReadMyHypnobirthingBookAgainAndWashBabyClothesAndBuyTheFewThingsWeNeed
#TheOtherDayTwoPeopleAskedMeWhenIWasDueWhileIWasOutWithBSoIFeelLikeThatSaysSomething
#IWantBabyXToComeIn2022WhichIAmSureSheWillAsIDoNotThinkSheWillBeEarlierThanB
#MyMumSaidSheWillBeSurprisedIfIGetToFullTermThough
#IWasBornIn1988SoNumericallyItWillBeVeryNiceIfTheBabyIsBornIn2022
#MaybeItIsABitSadButIDoLikeNumbersAndTheFactThatBWasBornIn2020IsAlsoQuitePleasing

#TheAchesAndPainsAreReallyStartingToSetInNow #MyLowerBackIsBeginningToHurtMore

I am still stretching in the morning and evening, but the baby is getting bigger and my body is feeling it.

#YesterdayWeHadSomeFamilyRoundAndIThinkIJustSatDownWayTooMuchAndWeDidNotGoForAWalkAtAllSoIAmPayingForItNow

I pretty much stayed sat in an armchair all day. I should have taken B out for a walk before they arrived, but we were too busy organising the house, then they left as it had just got dark.

#IJustHadALookAtTheCurrentGovernmentGuidelinesAndItSaysIfYouAreMoreThan28WeeksPregnantThenYouMayWantToConsiderLimitingCloseContactWithPeopleYouDoNotMeetWithRegularly

To be fair, I do not see many people at all.

#ItHasBeenACoupleOfYearsSinceIHadBeenInTheSameRoomAsBothOfMySistersSoItWasNiceToSeeThemTogether

It was nice for B and her cousin to be in the same room too, and for Nan to see them together.

#WeAllTookFlowTestsAndHadTheWindowsOpenTheWholeTimeSoHopefullyWeWillAllBeOkay

We did think about cancelling it, but we’ve all been careful this week. I hope that no one got a false negative test…

#ForXmasItWillJustBeMyNanTiagoBMeAndMaybeMyYoungerSister

My younger sister didn’t come round last year as she had Covid. We’ll see how it goes this year.

#PregnantPeopleAreNowOnThePriorityCovidVaccineList

I have an appointment booked for next week, so it will not change much for me.

#TheyShouldHaveBeenALongTimeAgoButAtLeastTheyAreNow

Maybe it would have not put so many people off being vaccinated…

#TiagoGotHisBoosterJabSoIFeelBetterAsHeHadHisSecondJabInApril

So who knows how much protection he had – I am guessing not much.

#IHaveStartedToDrinkRaspberryLeafTeaNow #IAmNotSureIfItReallyHelpsWithLabourOrNotButIDrankItWhenIWasPregnantWithBAndIDoNotHaveMuchToLose

The Bolton NHS website says:

‘Raspberry leaf tea is a herbal remedy that is thought to tone the muscles of your uterus (womb), to help it work during labour. The idea is not so much to speed up labour but to help it progress at a steady pace.’

I also notice that it says: ‘If you have already had a baby and your labour went smoothly first time around, there is no need for you to drink raspberry leaf tea for this baby.’

It’s not recommended until 32 weeks.

Like I said, I feel like I don’t have much to lose by drinking it. Plus, it’s cold this time of year so it’s nice to have a warm drink to drink (I can’t drink drinks too hot, so I let it cool down).

#WeGotBAnElectricToothbrushAndSheIsStillGettingUsedToIt

I had been looking at them, and her cousin got one and seemed to like it so I thought we should give it a go.

#TheFirstTimeSheTriedItSheJustKeptPuttingItOnHerTongueAndLaughing

That’s my girl.

#SometimesShePointsToItSoHopefullyIfSheBrushesHerTeethHerselfTwiceADaySheWillBrushThemEnough

She doesn’t do a thorough job, but at least she has some enthusiasm for it.

#ITryToBrushThemAfterSheHasHadAGoButSheDoesNotSeemToLikeItMuch

Hopefully she’ll get used to it soon.

#IHaveToKeepAnEyeOnHerAsSheBrushesFamilyPhotosWithIt

And just faffs it in general. She was trying to brush my Grandad’s face with it the other day.

#SheHasANewThingOfTakingThingsSheKnowsSheShouldNotTakeAndTakingThemToAQuietPartOfTheRoomAndMessingAround #MainlyMyNansPurseButYesterdaySheTookMyBowlAndSpoonAndFacedTheCornerOfTheRoomWhileTryingToEatTheCrumbsThatWereLeft

She makes me laugh. So sneaky.

#WeMissedBsLastToddlerClassAsSheSeemedABitUnderTheWeatherAndIDidNotHaveTheEnergyToTakeHer

Plus, I did not really want to be in a room full of strangers while Covid is getting wild.

#ItLooksLikeSheHasACoupleOfMolarsComingThroughAndSheGetsABitUpsetAtTimesWhichIsFairEnough

We give her paracetamol and she seems better.

#ItMustBeSoPainfulAndFrustratingForHer

She can’t have many teeth left to come through.

#ICanNotBelieveThatBWasBorn4WeeksFromThisPointOfPregnancy

Argh!

#IDoNotFeelReadyAndIDefinitelyNeedToStartOrganisingThingsMoreNow

I need to make a to do list.

#INeedToReadMyHypnobirthingBookAgainAndWashBabyClothesAndBuyTheFewThingsWeNeed

And pack my hospital bag.

#TheOtherDayTwoPeopleAskedMeWhenIWasDueWhileIWasOutWithBSoIFeelLikeThatSaysSomething

It’s getting more obvious. My bump seems huge…

#IWantBabyXToComeIn2022WhichIAmSureSheWillAsIDoNotThinkSheWillBeEarlierThanB

She would be 36 weeks-ish if she arrives this year.

#MyMumSaidSheWillBeSurprisedIfIGetToFullTermThough

We will have to see. I feel this uncomfortable now that I do not want to get to 42 weeks…

#IWasBornIn1988SoNumericallyItWillBeVeryNiceIfTheBabyIsBornIn2022

There are at least two other members of my family who were born in ‘same digit’ years. (There must be a better name for them). I like them…

#MaybeItIsABitSadButIDoLikeNumbersAndTheFactThatBWasBornIn2020IsAlsoQuitePleasing

There is something satisfying about it. T was born in 1986, so it’s also nice that there is a 2 year gap between his and my birth years, and our kids.

33 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait of me lying down on my left side on the sofa. My left hand is touching my face and my right hand is resting on my left arm.
Lying On The Sofa Is Not Very Comfortable Anymore (33 and a half weeks)
 
#IWasNotSureHowToPhotographMyselfToday
#IKnewICouldNotHaveBumpOutAgainAsIThinkBumpIsABitTooPresentInThisSeries
#ThoughItIsAProjectAboutGrowingBump
#IDecidedToLieOnTheSofaAsIFeltABitTiredAndICouldHaveEasilyFallenAsleep
#ThoughLyingOnTheSofaIsNotVeryComfortableAnymore
#IUsuallyJustLieDownInBedWithMyMaternityPillow
#AndAnotherPillowOnTopOfTheHeadBitToHelpWithAcidReflux
#ITookAPictureOfMyselfOnTheSofaAt27WeeksSoItReferencesThatABitButWithoutBump
#IWokeUpThisMorningWithAnIntenseCrampInMyLeftLeg
#IFreakedTiagoOutABitAsIWasKindOfWhisperScreamingForAWhile
#HeJustToldMeToBreatheAndIDidWhichWasGoodPracticeForLabour
#NotSureWhatCausesThemButIThinkMaybeIWasABitDehydratedAsIFeltThirstySoItCouldBeThat
#AHealthVisitorCalledMeTodayOnThePhone
#IThinkUsuallyTheyWouldHaveComeHereOrIWouldHaveMetThemSomewhere
#SheWasAskingAboutPlansForTheBirthAndFeedingAndAboutMyMentalHealthAndTiagoEtc
#ISaidThatIWasDoingAnOnlineCBTCourseForAnxietyWhenIFoundOutIWasPregnant
#ButISaidIThinkItWasMainlyBecauseIHadMovedToANewCityAndWasTryingToGetPregnantAndMakeFriendsAndAllThatJazz
#IAlsoSaidAboutHowMyArtIsSuperTherapeuticForMe
#IThinkHavingThisProjectToFocusOnHasBeenReallyGoodForMeWithLockdownAndAll
#IAmSureIfIWasNotPregnantIWouldHaveBeenWorkingOnSomethingElse
#ButIfIWasBetweenProjectsIThinkIWouldHaveStruggledABit
#IFeltALittleLostForTheFirstCoupleOfWeeksOfLockdown
#OrJustLackedSomeMotivation
#AFeelingOfWhyRushToDoThings
#ButMyProductivityHasPickedUpAndIThinkNowINeedToMakeSureIRestEnough
#TheHealthVisitorAskedMeWhenIAmPlanningToCutDownOnWork
#IThinkACoupleOfWeeksBeforeMyDueDate
#IHadPlannedToCutDownSoonerToHaveMoreTimeAtHomeSortingStuffOutButObviouslyIAmAtHomeAllTheTimeNow
#SheSaidItIsGoodThatWeDoNotHaveAnyExpectationsAboutTheBaby
#AndThatWeSeeTheLockdownAsAPositiveToHaveMoreTimeAndSpaceToLearnAboutTheBabyWithLessPressure

Okay, it’s good to know that I was feeling uncomfortable at 33 weeks before too. I do not think our sofas and bed were that comfortable in Liverpool though.

I feel like I haven’t had a leg cramp in bed for a while, but I have been drinking more water before bed latley.

My work is still therapeutic for me. Getting my head around being a mother and being pregnant during a pandemic, while also feeling stuck in limbo – living in Birmingham with my Nan and not really doing much career wise.

I never got round to cutting down my workload with B, as it was a surprise that she was early and came a couple of days before the ‘couple of weeks before my due date’.

Again, I am just trying to be open minded about the birth and not get my heart set on anything. At least this time we will know how to change a nappy, and hopefully newborn care won’t feel so alien. You’d hope so, as it has not really been that long since B was a newborn…


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General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot IV (24 Weeks / 17th October 2021)

Shoot which I am recreating for the 4th time this pregnancy. I am wearing a bra and leggings. I have my right hand clasping my left elbow. My bump is bigger than the previous version of this image.
General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot IV (24 Weeks / 17th October 2021)

#IThoughtItWasTimeThatIDoOneOfTheseShootsAgain
#TheBraThatIWearForThemHasFallenApartALotSinceTheFirstShootSoItWillBeGoingInTheBinOnceBabyXIsBorn
#MyBumpIsDefinitelyGettingBiggerAndICanNotImagineItGettingMuchBiggerButIKnowItWill
#IAmStrugglingToBendDownToPickThingsUpNowWhichIsReallyHandyAsBLikesToThrowEverythingOnTheFloor
#YesterdayISuddenlyFeltTheUrgeToTidyUpOurRoomAndGetRidOfLotsOfThings
#IDoNeedToDeclutterAndReduceMyStuffAsWeArePlanningToMoveAtSomePointNextYear
#SoItIsBetterToDoItNowWhileICanMoveAboutIshAndBeforeBabyXIsBorn
#ThereIsSoMuchStuffThatHasSurvived5MovesWithMeButINeedToBeRealisticWhetherIWouldWantToPayToShipItInTheFutureAndTheAnswerIsUsuallyNo
#IThinkTheOrganisingPlusDoingSomeExtraDanceVideosReallyTiredMeOut
#ThisMorningBWasUpAtFiveThirtySoTiagoWentToGetHerAndUsuallyIWakeUpButIWasAsleepWithHerPlayingRightNextToMe
#SheHasBeenAwakeAtFiveThirtyTheLastFewMorningsWhichIsNotMuchFunThoughAtLeastSheHasALongFirstNap
#IThinkItIsDueToHerTeethingAsSheSeemsToAlwaysHaveHerFingersInHerMouth
#SheOnlyReallyHasMolarsLeftToComeThroughAndTheyCanNotBePleasantAtAll
#ILikeHowIUsedToCountHowManyTeethSheHasAndNowIHaveNoIdea
#WeHaveFinallyBookedToGoAndLookAtANurseryForHer
#TheDaysWeAreThinkingWillMeanWeWillNeedToCancelHerMusicClassAndIWasFeelingBadAboutItAsILikeHerTeacherALot
#ButItTurnsOutHerTeacherIsFiveWeeksLessPregnantThanMeSoSheWillBeGoingOnMaternityLeaveAndNowIDoNotFeelSoBad
#IAmFeelingQuiteStressedAboutBeingPregnantAndTheFactWeWillSoonHaveTwoKids
#WeJustSeemSoTiredAtTheMomentAndEvenThoughBWakesUpEarlyAtLeastWeDoGetAGoodAmountOfSleep
#IJustNeedToGoToBedEarlierWhichToBeFairIDidLastNightButItObviouslyWasNotEnough
#EveryoneKeepsSayingTheFirstYearIsTheHardestAndToBeHonestIAmNotLookingForwardToWeaningAndAllThatStuffAgain
#HopefullySheWillArriveAndIWillJustGetOnWithItAndAllICanDoIsToTryMyBest
#AtLeastInTheEarlyDaysTheirNeedsArePrettyBasic
#IJustNeedToMakeAnEffortToGetOutOfTheHouseOnceADayForMySanity
#ItWillBeAStruggleInTheBeginningIAmSureButWeJustNeedToFindARoutineThatWorksForUs
#IJustHopeThatWeDoNotGetLockedDownAgainButThenAgainWhatDoesItMatterWhenIDoubtIWillWantToGoFarAnyways
#IAmWorriedThatCasesAreRisingButEveryoneIsABitNonchalantAboutItButIGuessIAmMoreRelaxedNowIHaveHadMySecondVaccineAndFluJab
#IJustDoNotGetWhyWearingMasksInShopsAndStuffIsNotCompulsoryAndIAmSurprisedAtHowFewPeopleActuallyDoWearThem
#InOtherNewsBIsTryingReallyHardToTalkNowAndISwearSheSaysTickleTickleTickle
#IHaveHeardACoupleOfMamaAndMumSoundsEscapeFromHerLatelyTooSoIHopeSheMightActuallyStartSayingMumAtMeSoon

#IThoughtItWasTimeThatIDoOneOfTheseShootsAgain

The last one was at 19 weeks, so there should be a difference?

(Yes, there is – you can see the versions here: 1 / 2 / 3.)

#TheBraThatIWearForThemHasFallenApartALotSinceTheFirstShootSoItWillBeGoingInTheBinOnceBabyXIsBorn

Maybe in each picture it will start to look more shabby. I’ve been wearing my maternity bras for a while now, and this is not one of them.

#MyBumpIsDefinitelyGettingBiggerAndICanNotImagineItGettingMuchBiggerButIKnowItWill

*Nervous laugh*

#IAmStrugglingToBendDownToPickThingsUpNowWhichIsReallyHandyAsBLikesToThrowEverythingOnTheFloor

This morning she was eating some of my breakfast (scrambled eggs and crusts of my toast), and then throwing it on the floor. I did struggle to pick it up.

#YesterdayISuddenlyFeltTheUrgeToTidyUpOurRoomAndGetRidOfLotsOfThings

I love nesting.

#IDoNeedToDeclutterAndReduceMyStuffAsWeArePlanningToMoveAtSomePointNextYear

Every time I go through my things I get rid of a few more things, but I need to start being ruthless.

#SoItIsBetterToDoItNowWhileICanMoveAboutIshAndBeforeBabyXIsBorn

I am tired, so yeah there will never be a good time again.

#ThereIsSoMuchStuffThatHasSurvived5MovesWithMeButINeedToBeRealisticWhetherIWouldWantToPayToShipItInTheFutureAndTheAnswerIsUsuallyNo

Playing my favourite ‘would I pay £5 to ship this?’ game.

I told Tiago about it and he said would most things really cost £5 to ship. I said no, but would you still pay £5 to ship it? Is it worth the money?

#IThinkTheOrganisingPlusDoingSomeExtraDanceVideosReallyTiredMeOut

I did lie down before B’s second nap, but I’m not sure if I even slept.

#ThisMorningBWasUpAtFiveThirtySoTiagoWentToGetHerAndUsuallyIWakeUpButIWasAsleepWithHerPlayingRightNextToMe

Wake up as in become more alert. I ended up sleeping in until 7.10am, and then I looked through my books and stretched. Then Tiago had a nap (and is still napping as B is napping as I write this).

#SheHasBeenAwakeAtFiveThirtyTheLastFewMorningsWhichIsNotMuchFunThoughAtLeastSheHasALongFirstNap

I try not to put her down for a nap until 9, and then wake her up between 10.30 to 11 depending on our plans.

#IThinkItIsDueToHerTeethingAsSheSeemsToAlwaysHaveHerFingersInHerMouth

I’m being more generous with her paracetamol these days, as otherwise she does not nap or sleep very well. I do worry that I am drugging her at times, but it’s only when I see her with her fingers in her mouth and it’s been 4 hours since the last dose…

#SheOnlyReallyHasMolarsLeftToComeThroughAndTheyCanNotBePleasantAtAll

Bless her.

#ILikeHowIUsedToCountHowManyTeethSheHasAndNowIHaveNoIdea

If I put my finger in her mouth now it just gets bitten and it hurts.

#WeHaveFinallyBookedToGoAndLookAtANurseryForHer

Hurrah.

#TheDaysWeAreThinkingWillMeanWeWillNeedToCancelHerMusicClassAndIWasFeelingBadAboutItAsILikeHerTeacherALot

The class isn’t the best but I do really like her teacher and she makes it way more enjoyable.

#ButItTurnsOutHerTeacherIsFiveWeeksLessPregnantThanMeSoSheWillBeGoingOnMaternityLeaveAndNowIDoNotFeelSoBad

I mentioned I was pregnant last week and she said ‘oh me too’. I really could not tell that she was at all, but she does wear a baggy t-shirt. I had looked at moving locations and days, but I think once B goes down to one nap the other day and time will not work for us. Hopefully B will get enough stimulation at nursery and we can just do more music stuff at home.

#IAmFeelingQuiteStressedAboutBeingPregnantAndTheFactWeWillSoonHaveTwoKids

I feel like I’ve mentioned it before, but I am starting to get waves of overwhelmed-ness now.

#WeJustSeemSoTiredAtTheMomentAndEvenThoughBWakesUpEarlyAtLeastWeDoGetAGoodAmountOfSleep #IJustNeedToGoToBedEarlierWhichToBeFairIDidLastNightButItObviouslyWasNotEnough

This would probably make a big difference, and I’m sure once she is born I will have to just surrender to motherhood, but for now I am enjoying have a bit of evening time to myself.

#EveryoneKeepsSayingTheFirstYearIsTheHardestAndToBeHonestIAmNotLookingForwardToWeaningAndAllThatStuffAgain

I just need to take each day/cycle of the day at a time.

#HopefullySheWillArriveAndIWillJustGetOnWithItAndAllICanDoIsToTryMyBest

We wanted this baby and I have to handle the responsibility. I am nervous though.

#AtLeastInTheEarlyDaysTheirNeedsArePrettyBasic

And she won’t be running off like B does.

#IJustNeedToMakeAnEffortToGetOutOfTheHouseOnceADayForMySanity

It will be winter, but hopefully by then spring will not be too far away.

#ItWillBeAStruggleInTheBeginningIAmSureButWeJustNeedToFindARoutineThatWorksForUs

Like I said, I need to surrender to motherhood.

#IJustHopeThatWeDoNotGetLockedDownAgainButThenAgainWhatDoesItMatterWhenIDoubtIWillWantToGoFarAnyways

B’s classes moving to zoom would make things a lot easier to be fair. I doubt we will have another lockdown though.

#IAmWorriedThatCasesAreRisingButEveryoneIsABitNonchalantAboutItButIGuessIAmMoreRelaxedNowIHaveHadMySecondVaccineAndFluJab

Other countries have less cases and are in full panic mode, but I guess they are not as vaccinated as here.

#IJustDoNotGetWhyWearingMasksInShopsAndStuffIsNotCompulsoryAndIAmSurprisedAtHowFewPeopleActuallyDoWearThem

We still wear them in shops, and I do on public transport though that is rare. I have not been wearing them in classes, but in B’s music class she does not go near anyone else and we sit far back from everyone. At another class I probably should, but no one else does… When it’s time to sing we sat at the back of the bunch.

#InOtherNewsBIsTryingReallyHardToTalkNowAndISwearSheSaysTickleTickleTickle

It sounds more like ‘iggle iggle iggle’ or something else I guess, but I think that is what she is trying to say.

#IHaveHeardACoupleOfMamaAndMumSoundsEscapeFromHerLatelyTooSoIHopeSheMightActuallyStartSayingMumAtMeSoon

She’s been saying Dada and Dad for so long, though she doesn’t really say it at Tiago much. She is growing up fast though.

Despite my nervousness I am excited to see her with her sister.

24 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait wearing a black dress with white stripes. I have a toy octopus on my head.
So Many Decisions To Be Made (24 and a half weeks)
 
#SoWeFinallyBoughtSomeBabyStuff
#ThereWereSomeGoodSalesOn
#SoWeOrderedSomeBabyClothes
#AndThenISawSomeCuteToysSoIBoughtACouple
#ItFeelsLikeWeAreCursingThingsByBuyingStuff
#ButIAlsoDoNotWantToGetCaughtOutByHavingNothing
#ObviouslyTheBabyWillNotKnowIfItHasToysOrNotInTheBeginning
#ButThingsLikeClothesAreNecessary
#SoManyDecisionsToBeMade
#ThingsAreSeemingMoreReal
#ThoughIAlsoDoStillForgetThatIAmPregnantSometimes
#IFeltSoHeavyNotLongAgoButIFeelLighterTheseDays
#MaybeItIsAllTheStretchingIAmDoing
#AndOrMaybeIAmNotEatingSuchBigMealsNow
#IDoASquatPoseInTheMorning
#ButInTheEveningItIsHarderAsMyBellyIsFuller
#IBoughtAHypnobirthingCourseAfterAFriendsRecommendation
#INeedToStartDoingThatJustInCaseAsAgainIDoNotWantToGetCaughtOut
#IKeepReadingThingsAboutPeopleWhoDidNotWantToBeParents
#WhereasIDoButIWorryThatIWillBeRubbish
#ThoughIRememberGoingToSeeMyNieceForTheFirstTimeAndBeingWorriedAsIHadNotBeenAroundABabyForALongTime
#ButISoonGotOverTheNervousness
#ThoughIWasJustEntertainingHerAndNotDoingHerWholeRoutineAndBeingAroundHerAllDayEveryDay
#ICanOnlyDoMyBest
#AndSoonWeWillDoAnNCTCourseSoHopefullyWeWillNotBeTooClueless
#IFeelLikeTiagoIsGoodWithKids
#IAmLookingForwardToSeeingHimAsAFather
#IGotAKickTrackingAppYesterdayToTryToMakeMeFeelBetter
#ThoughIAmNotMonitoringHowManyKicksYetButJustWhenIFeelItMoving
#TodayIHaveNotFeltItMoveMuchButIThinkIHaveNotBeenThinkingAboutItAsMuchAsYesterday

This shoot was a bit bad. It was definitely a day when I was struggling with ideas…

It’s funny now as it’s gone from being a toy that we bought to it being B’s toy that she does interact with from time to time.

#ObviouslyTheBabyWillNotKnowIfItHasToysOrNotInTheBeginning

B has only really started to interact with the toys she had then, quite recently. Especially cuddly toys.

We aren’t going to do the hypnobirthing course again, but I have the book of it which we are both planning to read again. I need to get on with it really as time is flying by…

I downloaded an app to monitor kicks but I have only used it once. This baby seems more active, so I feel reassured. I am being kicked/punched right now…


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33 / Portrait Of A Mother Of A Sixteen Month Old (24 Weeks / October 2021)

Self-portrait with B. I am holding her in my arms and she is touching my face with both of her hands. Her right foot has been photoshopped (duplicated and mirrored) over her eye, nose and mouth.
33 / Portrait Of A Mother Of A Sixteen Month Old (24 Weeks / October 2021)
 
#IHaveAlreadyDoneTheShootForOnceAndWasTryingToCopyTheShootThatBAndIDidTogetherWhenITurned32
#BackThenThoughSheDidNotMoveAboutMuchSoTodayWasAMassiveWriggleFest
#AtOnePointSheWasJustMessingWithMyFaceAndAsHerNailsNeedToBeCutMyLipHurtsABit
#HerNewFavouriteThingIsStandingUpOnHerBouncingZebraToyAndOnHerSmallCar
#SheHasBeenThreateningToDoItForAWhileSoIWasImpressedWhenSheActuallyStoodUpOnThemAndWithSoMuchControl
#IGuessAllTheClimbingOnHerFrameAndRampAndStandingInTheWobblyCarAtTheParkHasReallyImprovedHerBalanceAndCoreStrength
#AtTheWeekendWeWentToSeeMyParentsAndBHadLotsOfFunExploringTheirGarden
#TheyHaveOfferedToWatchBForAWeekendSoWeHaveJustBookedIntoAHotelWhereThereIsAPoolAndWeIntendToJustSwimEatAndSleep
#WeThoughtItWasAtLeastABitOfADriveFromTheirHouseButItIsOnly15MinutesAwayWhichIGuessIsGoodInCaseWeNeedToGetBackForAnyReason
#TypicallyAsSoonAsTheySaidTheyWouldHaveHerSheDidNotSleepVeryWellThatNightAtAll
#SheHasAMouthFullOfTeethNowButIThinkSheIsGoingThroughAParticularlyBadTeethingPhase
#WeTriedToSeeIfSheWouldSettleButAfterAWhileWeHadToGoInWithParacetamolAndAfterAnotherVisitWhereWeBothLaidWithHerInHerCotSheFinallyWentToSleepTwoHoursLater
#YesterdaySheMissedHerMorningNapWhichIThinkWasDueToMeForgettingToGiveHerParacetamol
#IHaveHadMyFluVaccineNowWhichIsGoodAndMyArmDidNotHurtAtAllOrAnything
#TwoHoursAfterTheAppointmentAtAPharmacyMyDoctorsMessagedToSayICouldHaveAFluJabWithThemThisWeek
#YesterdayWeDugOutTheRestOfMyMaternityPillowAsIHaveJustBeenUsingASmallSectionOfItForWeeks
#IFindMyselfWakingUpALotMoreAtNightNowAndOftenOnMyBackWhichIsNotGood
#IFeelLikeMyBumpIsGettingSoBigThatICanNotImagineItGettingMuchBiggerButIKnowItWill
#INeedToStartReadingHypnobirthingStuffAgainAndMentallyPreparingMyselfForTheBirth
#ThisWeekISaidToTiagoThatWeNeedToStartThinkingAboutBabyNamesAgain
#HeJustTurnedToBAndSaidTheNextSoundYouMakeWillBeTheNameOfYourSister
#WeBothWatchedHerWithAnticipationAndAfterALittleWhileSheDidABurp
#IAmTryingToImagineHowItWillBeOnMyNextBirthdayWhenIAm34AndWillMostLikelyHaveTwoKids
#ThePictureWillDefinitelyBeMoreOfAStruggleForSure
#IKeepSayingItButIKnowIWillNeedToAcceptThatThereWillBeLessTimeForMeForAWhile
#AtTheMomentTiagoUsuallyGetsBUpAndGivesHerBreakfastWhileIStretchAndFaffABit
#WithANewbornIKnowThatTimeWillProbablyBecomeBabyFeedingTimeAndIWillJustNeedToRestWhenICan
#WeOrderedAnIndianTakeawayLastNightThatWeWillAlsoHaveForDinnerTonight
#TiagoGetsStressedOutAboutPresentsEveryYearButIDoNotReallyWantAnything
#IAmOwedAFewMassagesThatHaveBeenGiftedForBirthdaysAndHolidaysEtcFromHimViaWordSoMaybeIWillActuallyGetOneOnOurWeekendAway

#IHaveAlreadyDoneTheShootForOnceAndWasTryingToCopyTheShootThatBAndIDidTogetherWhenITurned32

We did the shoot before her first nap.

(32 shoot.)

#BackThenThoughSheDidNotMoveAboutMuchSoTodayWasAMassiveWriggleFest

I was a bit nervous about how it would go, which was why I was keen to do it asap today.

#AtOnePointSheWasJustMessingWithMyFaceAndAsHerNailsNeedToBeCutMyLipHurtsABit

She found it hilarious. There is a series of her laughing her head off at me.

She was grumpy in the beginning, but then she got into it – especially when she could see the photos of herself and steal my remote.

#HerNewFavouriteThingIsStandingUpOnHerBouncingZebraToyAndOnHerSmallCar

Now I can not look away as you never know what daredevil stunt she will be doing next.

#SheHasBeenThreateningToDoItForAWhileSoIWasImpressedWhenSheActuallyStoodUpOnThemAndWithSoMuchControl

The zebra is quite tall, but she stands up quite slowly and steadily. She does fall off from time to time though.

She was standing on the car in the kitchen and fell off a couple of times. That one does move as it has wheels. The zebra does rotate though.

#IGuessAllTheClimbingOnHerFrameAndRampAndStandingInTheWobblyCarAtTheParkHasReallyImprovedHerBalanceAndCoreStrength

I am quite impressed considering how often she falls over and I thought for a while that her balance was terrible, so it has improved quickly.

#AtTheWeekendWeWentToSeeMyParentsAndBHadLotsOfFunExploringTheirGarden

For a while she just sat playing with stones, she was super intrigued by their cat, and a bit freaked out by their turkeys.

#TheyHaveOfferedToWatchBForAWeekendSoWeHaveJustBookedIntoAHotelWhereThereIsAPoolAndWeIntendToJustSwimEatAndSleep

It will be our first over night stay away from B as a couple. Weird. It is nice to think of grand schemes to get up to, but yeah we just want to sleep, watch some crap TV, eat some nice food and swim. I need to get a new swimming costume as the one I wore in summer was tight then.

#WeThoughtItWasAtLeastABitOfADriveFromTheirHouseButItIsOnly15MinutesAwayWhichIGuessIsGoodInCaseWeNeedToGetBackForAnyReason

I was just looking for places with a pool and my geography is obviously really terrible. I feel so tired writing this. I think the reviews said the beds are comfy.

#TypicallyAsSoonAsTheySaidTheyWouldHaveHerSheDidNotSleepVeryWellThatNightAtAll

She does not cry much usually, but she was crying quite heavily. We were quite concerned.

#SheHasAMouthFullOfTeethNowButIThinkSheIsGoingThroughAParticularlyBadTeethingPhase

Maybe it was affecting her ears as well? At first I thought it was an ear infection.

#WeTriedToSeeIfSheWouldSettleButAfterAWhileWeHadToGoInWithParacetamolAndAfterAnotherVisitWhereWeBothLaidWithHerInHerCotSheFinallyWentToSleepTwoHoursLater

We were conflicted over her sleep training, and naturally reacting to how we saw her. Tiago did cuddle her a lot the first time round until she calmed down, but she was still upset.

So after a while he went in again and as she was still crying I also went in. We laid in her cot with her and before long she was clapping and laughing, so I read her bedtime story and sang Twinkle Twinkle to her to let her know it was bedtime, then she settled. Phew.

#YesterdaySheMissedHerMorningNapWhichIThinkWasDueToMeForgettingToGiveHerParacetamol

I planned to give it to her, but forgot. We usually don’t use the syringe that comes with it, so I have to use that now and realised that we haven’t been giving her the full dose that she is allowed so hopefully by doing that she will be in less pain now.

#IHaveHadMyFluVaccineNowWhichIsGoodAndMyArmDidNotHurtAtAllOrAnything

Hurrah. I have been tired, but I think that is a normal pregnancy symptom…

#TwoHoursAfterTheAppointmentAtAPharmacyMyDoctorsMessagedToSayICouldHaveAFluJabWithThemThisWeek

Typical. It would have been easier. Oh well.

#YesterdayWeDugOutTheRestOfMyMaternityPillowAsIHaveJustBeenUsingASmallSectionOfItForWeeks

I was reading about how I need to support my whole body more, so I thought we better find it. It was vacuum packed in the garage.

#IFindMyselfWakingUpALotMoreAtNightNowAndOftenOnMyBackWhichIsNotGood

Often I wake up on my back and know I shouldn’t be on my back, but just kind of end up staying there. Whoops.

#IFeelLikeMyBumpIsGettingSoBigThatICanNotImagineItGettingMuchBiggerButIKnowItWill

Definitely less space for food these days.

#INeedToStartReadingHypnobirthingStuffAgainAndMentallyPreparingMyselfForTheBirth

I’m going to finish reading Dave Grohl’s book then I’ll start reading my hypnobirthing books.

#ThisWeekISaidToTiagoThatWeNeedToStartThinkingAboutBabyNamesAgain

With B we didn’t have that many thinking sessions about them. We had one early on and then left it for ages. It seems to be our approach this time around too…

#HeJustTurnedToBAndSaidTheNextSoundYouMakeWillBeTheNameOfYourSister

She does babble quite a lot now so I was wondering what she would say.

#WeBothWatchedHerWithAnticipationAndAfterALittleWhileSheDidABurp

Classic B.

#IAmTryingToImagineHowItWillBeOnMyNextBirthdayWhenIAm34AndWillMostLikelyHaveTwoKids

I say ‘most likely’ as I am still quite anxious about things.

#ThePictureWillDefinitelyBeMoreOfAStruggleForSure

I might need to recruit Tiago, or I imagine B might be stood at my feet just pulling on my top. I will have probably mastered how to hold both of them, but who knows.

#IKeepSayingItButIKnowIWillNeedToAcceptThatThereWillBeLessTimeForMeForAWhile

I thought about it again this morning.

#AtTheMomentTiagoUsuallyGetsBUpAndGivesHerBreakfastWhileIStretchAndFaffABit

Not too shabby.

#WithANewbornIKnowThatTimeWillProbablyBecomeBabyFeedingTimeAndIWillJustNeedToRestWhenICan

Less reading, less working, more just resting when I can and looking after my kids. It’s weird to say kids.

#WeOrderedAnIndianTakeawayLastNightThatWeWillAlsoHaveForDinnerTonight

Tiago thought about ordering from somewhere more fancy, but I like our local place. I know what we like. We ordered a couple of different things for once too and they were good.

#TiagoGetsStressedOutAboutPresentsEveryYearButIDoNotReallyWantAnything

If I want something I usually get it for myself.

#IAmOwedAFewMassagesThatHaveBeenGiftedForBirthdaysAndHolidaysEtcFromHimViaWordSoMaybeIWillActuallyGetOneOnOurWeekendAway

Covid, B and life have just stopped me having one. I definitely want a proper one after Baby X is born. I haven’t had many in my life, but I know it will be good for my body, and me.

24 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Diptych where in both I am stood sideways with my left arm forward, my right arm hanging down with a remote, my left leg is forward and my right leg is back. In the first I am breathing out and my bump is visible, in the second I am breathing in and my bump is a bit smaller.
I Tried To Suck In My Bump, But It Didn’t Really Work (24 weeks)
 
#BeforeIWasPregnantIDidNotLikeWearingTightTops
#IBoughtSomeForTheWinterThisYearButDidNotRealiseTheyWereSoTight
#AsTheyWereInPacketsAndIThoughtTheyWereLikeTheOnesIAlreadyHad
#WellIGuessIStillDoNotLikeWearingTightTopsButIHaveBeenWearingThem
#ISupposeIWantToTakeAdvantageOfTheFactThatBumpsAreSeenAsBeautiful
#ThoughNowIAmAtThePointWhereILoveMyBumpButIFeelAwkwardWhenPeopleNoticeIt
#IWoreThisTopTheOtherDayButDidNotThinkMuchAsIWasGoingToWearAJumperOverIt
#ButIWasWarmSoIWasAtTheOfficeAndFeltSelfConsciousWalkingDownTheCorridor
#WhenIWalkedPastAnOfficeWithAnOpenDoorITriedToSuckInMyBump
#ButIRealisedThatItDidNotChangeMuch
#ThenInTheEveningAGroupOfUsWentOutForDinner
#AndItWasHotSoISatInMyTopFeelingAwkward
#ThenWhenIWentToTheBathroomITriedToBreatheInMyBumpABit
#AndPutMyArmsInAWayToTryToCoverItABit
#IGuessIThoughtPeopleWouldJudgeMeForBeingPregnantAndWearingATightTop
#NoMatterHowYouLookAsAWomanYouWillBeCriticisedForSomethingAnyways
#InOtherNewsIAmABitWorriedAboutTheCoronaVirus
#IfIWasNotPregnantThenIWouldNotBeSoWorried
#ButBecauseIAmIDoNotKnowHowItWouldAffectTheBaby
#WouldItHaveLongTermHealthProblemsBecauseOfIt
#WhoKnows
#IAmJustWashingMyHandsMore
#AndSideEyeingPeopleWhoCoughWithNoAttemptToCoverTheirMouthInPublic
#HopefullyItWillBeUnderControlSoon
#IForgotToMentionInMyLastPhotoThatIHadSuchABadHipPainACoupleOfDaysBeforeThePictureWasTaken
#IThinkIJustOverStretchedItBySittingWithButterflyLegsForTooLong
#ButThenItWasReallyAwkwardForMeToWalkForTwoDays
#IStretchedMoreAndGotOverItLuckily
#GettingBoredOfHavingToStretchSoMuch
#ButIFeelGoodAfterwards

I am currently (31st October) sat in one of my tight tops. I feel less awkward as no one really sees me these days. I have breathed in a few times in the mirror to see if it makes a difference, but at this point it does not.

‘#HopefullyItWillBeUnderControlSoon’

I can’t believe that Covid is still a thing and cases are going up… At least we have vaccines now. I have been less scared now that I am double vaccinated, and I feel better for having the flu jab as well.

I have been stretching more this time, so I think that is helping a lot.


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Pregnancy Waiting II

I Didn’t Get A Photo Of Me In My Dress On Our First UK Couple Night Out Since B Was Born, So I’m Taking One Now (23 Weeks / 5th October 2021)

Self-portrait in a very colourful dress. I have my right hand on my back and I am resting my chin on my left wrist/arm.
I Didn’t Get A Photo Of Me In My Dress On Our First UK Couple Night Out Since B Was Born, So I’m Taking One Now (23 Weeks / 5th October 2021)
 
#SoWeWentAwayForTheWeekendToGoToAWeddingReceptionAndSeeFriendsFromOurLiverpoolDays
#WeLeftOnTheFridayJustAfterBsSecondNapAndTheTrafficWasBadAndItWasStressful
#LuckilyIHadDownloadedSomeTeletubbiesAndSomethingSpecialOntoMyPhoneAsAJustInCaseMeasure
#BHasStartedToWatchMoreOfShowsInTheLastCoupleOfWeeksRatherThanJustTheThemeTunes
#MyArmWasAchingFromHoldingThePhoneAndISuddenlyHadHadAFlashBackToBeingAKidInTheCarWithAnArmRest
#IWonderedIfOurCarHadOneAndThenItWasANiceSurpriseToFindItDid
#WeGotThroughItAndBWasSurprisedToSeeSomePeopleAtMyFriendsHouseButWasThenFine
#WeLetHerStayUpABitLateAndIShowedMyFriendHerBedtimeRoutineAndSheWentToSleepFine
#TheNextDayWeWentToAFirstBirthdayPartyWhichWasNice
#WeTookHerHomeForHerSecondNapAndSheWasFineUntilWeWokeHerUp
#SheKeptCryingAndNothingReallySeemedToHelp
#AtHomeWeWouldUsuallyTakeHerOutForAWalkOrSomethingToTryToChangeHerMoodButTheWeatherWasNotNice
#WeTriedToGiveHerDinnerButSheWouldNotHaveItSoWeTookHerOutOfHerHighChair
#ThenAfterAWhileWePutHerBackInAndPutTheClappingSongOnAndSheSeemedOkay
#WeWereDueToGoToAWeddingReceptionAndItWasGettingLate
#TiagoWasGoingToDropMeOffWithBInTheCarThenComeJoinMeAfterSheWentToBed
#ButThenSheSeemedOkayAndOurFriendSaidWeShouldGoAndThenSheWouldLetUsKnowHowBWasGettingOn
#ItHadBeenAStruggleFindingADressForMeToWearAsMyUsualOnesWereNotWeddingPartyEnoughAndTheOneIWantedToWearDidNotFit
#ThenIFoundThisDressThatICanNotRememberTheLastTimeIWoreItButItSeemedToFitTheThemeAndICouldFitInItSoItSeemedLikeAWinner
#ByTheTimeWeGotThereItWasJustAboutBsBedtimeAndMyFriendSaidSheWasInABetterMood
#TiagoAndIHadNotHadANightOutInTheUKSinceBWasBornAndByThisPointWeWereQuiteStressedOut
#WalkingIntoTheVenueWeFeltOverwhelmedByAllThePeopleAndLoudMusic
#WeHadDoneFlowTestsBeforeWeArrivedAsInstructedToButItWasStillWeirdToSeeSoManyPeopleWithoutMasks
#WeDidNotKnowAnyoneAtTheWeddingBesidesTheBrideAndGroomSoWeFeltQuiteAwkwardAndEndedUpNotStayingVeryLong
#WeThoughtWeShouldMakeTheMostOfOurOneNightOfFreedomAsWeKnowWeWillNotHaveManyBeforeBabyXIsBornButWeJustWantedToGoHome
#OurFriendHadSomeFriendsRoundWhoWeKnewSoItWasNiceToJustRelaxInAHouseWithPeopleKnowingBWasFineUpstairsAndChatToPeopleLikeOldTimes
#TheNextDayWeHadToTakeBOutOfHerHighChairAtLunchAndTryAgainLaterSoNowIAmTryingToNotGiveHerSnacksBetweenMealsToSeeIfThisHelps
#YesterdaySheAteMoreOfHerLunchThanNormalSoWeCouldBeOnToAWinnerThere
#IReallyNeedToWorkWithBOnLearningSignsAsItWouldBeSoMuchEasierIfWeCouldCommunicateBetter
#IThinkSheHasACoupleMoreTeethComingThroughAndSheIsMoreSensitiveToUsSayingNoToHerAboutThingsNow
 

I’m going to attempt to write this blog post while B plays around me. I had planned to do it during her nap, but something that was meant to take 5 minutes has not been sorted yet.

I feel a bit awkward writing this post as I know my friends who are talked about in this might read this, but I’m not saying anything bad. I’m just saying how things went and how we felt.

#SoWeWentAwayForTheWeekendToGoToAWeddingReceptionAndSeeFriendsFromOurLiverpoolDays

Great.

#WeLeftOnTheFridayJustAfterBsSecondNapAndTheTrafficWasBadAndItWasStressful

We’d managed to get petrol so that was one thing. Trying to entertain B in the car for 2 and a half hours was a barrel of fun.

#LuckilyIHadDownloadedSomeTeletubbiesAndSomethingSpecialOntoMyPhoneAsAJustInCaseMeasure #BHasStartedToWatchMoreOfShowsInTheLastCoupleOfWeeksRatherThanJustTheThemeTunes

I read her about 5 books first before resorting to them. I said I’d never let my kids have lots of screen time, but desperate times mean desperate measures.

I had brought lots of snacks and a picnic dinner for her.

#MyArmWasAchingFromHoldingThePhoneAndISuddenlyHadHadAFlashBackToBeingAKidInTheCarWithAnArmRest #IWonderedIfOurCarHadOneAndThenItWasANiceSurpriseToFindItDid

Wahoo. Tiago wasn’t sure if he even knew about it. How many trips have I done in the back of the car without realising it was there? It has a drinks holder too, so I felt a bit posh with B’s cup in one and mine in the other.

#WeGotThroughItAndBWasSurprisedToSeeSomePeopleAtMyFriendsHouseButWasThenFine

She was a bit shy, but then she got over it quite quickly.

#WeLetHerStayUpABitLateAndIShowedMyFriendHerBedtimeRoutineAndSheWentToSleepFine

We thought she might as well enjoy hanging out with people she doesn’t see very often, and from our time in Portugal we know her staying up a little bit late doesn’t do her any harm from time to time. (She went to bed at 9, rather than 8.)

#TheNextDayWeWentToAFirstBirthdayPartyWhichWasNice

We were supposed to go to a zoo, but the weather forecast looked bad so we went to their house instead. Typically the weather was okay until much later in the day.

#WeTookHerHomeForHerSecondNapAndSheWasFineUntilWeWokeHerUp

Sometimes she is not in a great mood after we wake her up from that nap.

#SheKeptCryingAndNothingReallySeemedToHelp #AtHomeWeWouldUsuallyTakeHerOutForAWalkOrSomethingToTryToChangeHerMoodButTheWeatherWasNotNice

It’s always fun trying to figure out what to do without all your usual tools and distractions nearby. At home we would have probably gone out with an umbrella, but we didn’t know where to go in that area.

#WeTriedToGiveHerDinnerButSheWouldNotHaveItSoWeTookHerOutOfHerHighChair

Maybe she wasn’t hungry? Maybe she was teething? We did give her some paracetamol as she had started to put her fingers in her mouth.

#ThenAfterAWhileWePutHerBackInAndPutTheClappingSongOnAndSheSeemedOkay

At home we do use music as a big distraction. I’m so bored of The Clapping song (by Shirley Ellis) now.

#WeWereDueToGoToAWeddingReceptionAndItWasGettingLate

The invite said from 6 and it was probably around 6.45 by this point.

#TiagoWasGoingToDropMeOffWithBInTheCarThenComeJoinMeAfterSheWentToBed

I didn’t want to wait until B went to bed, as what if she was miserable for ages and we missed it.

#ButThenSheSeemedOkayAndOurFriendSaidWeShouldGoAndThenSheWouldLetUsKnowHowBWasGettingOn

It seemed the same as Tiago dropping me off with B in the car, except B would be at home so if things were okay then he could stay.

#ItHadBeenAStruggleFindingADressForMeToWearAsMyUsualOnesWereNotWeddingPartyEnoughAndTheOneIWantedToWearDidNotFit

I get stressed enough about wedding attire as it is, let alone being pregnant. The last wedding dress experience didn’t go very well, so that was a definite no.

#ThenIFoundThisDressThatICanNotRememberTheLastTimeIWoreItButItSeemedToFitTheThemeAndICouldFitInItSoItSeemedLikeAWinner

My older sister gave it to me when she worked for a fashion company. I’ve had it since my BA days and have only wore it out a few times, but have worn it for photo shoots.

#ByTheTimeWeGotThereItWasJustAboutBsBedtimeAndMyFriendSaidSheWasInABetterMood

Hurrah.

#TiagoAndIHadNotHadANightOutInTheUKSinceBWasBornAndByThisPointWeWereQuiteStressedOut

We hadn’t had a night out until we went to Portugal and Tiago’s parents would keep an eye on her after she went to bed. Our friend was the first person who had put her to bed besides us.

#WalkingIntoTheVenueWeFeltOverwhelmedByAllThePeopleAndLoudMusic

Well, maybe it was more me than Tiago. I just found it odd. I think I had been expecting less people for some reason.

#WeHadDoneFlowTestsBeforeWeArrivedAsInstructedToButItWasStillWeirdToSeeSoManyPeopleWithoutMasks

We had brought masks with us just in case. I saw one guy around our age wearing one, but no one else. I’ve had my second jab so I feel better about things, but I am still worried about catching Covid.

#WeDidNotKnowAnyoneAtTheWeddingBesidesTheBrideAndGroomSoWeFeltQuiteAwkwardAndEndedUpNotStayingVeryLong

Another couple we know weren’t able to go in the end. If you’ve been at a wedding all day it’s different as you have seats you can sit in and you’ve spoke to people next to you on the table. We just felt really awkward. We had some alcohol free drinks, and danced on the spot. People seemed to be in groups, so we said hi to the groom (the bride was too in demand) and then left. Sorry to my friend if he reads this, but I don’t think our company was missed.

I do think we were great guests though – we didn’t cost them any money by being there and we donated to their honeymood fund.

#WeThoughtWeShouldMakeTheMostOfOurOneNightOfFreedomAsWeKnowWeWillNotHaveManyBeforeBabyXIsBornButWeJustWantedToGoHome

This may have been our last one. We thought about going out for dinner, but on the way there I said can we just go home please.

#OurFriendHadSomeFriendsRoundWhoWeKnewSoItWasNiceToJustRelaxInAHouseWithPeopleKnowingBWasFineUpstairsAndChatToPeopleLikeOldTimes

They’d just ordered pizza, and we felt more relaxed being home to keep an eye on B (not that we didn’t trust her babysitters) and with a group of people we knew. I changed out of my outfit pretty quick.

I’d wanted Tiago to take a picture of me in my dress, but I felt so awkward at the party that I would have felt embarrassed for him to take it there – hence why I will do a shoot that fits this title later on.

#TheNextDayWeHadToTakeBOutOfHerHighChairAtLunchAndTryAgainLaterSoNowIAmTryingToNotGiveHerSnacksBetweenMealsToSeeIfThisHelps

Our friend had some family round and she may have had some chocolate pretzel, so I do not think she was hungry. I will try to give her lunch around 12:30/12:45 now instead of 1.

#YesterdaySheAteMoreOfHerLunchThanNormalSoWeCouldBeOnToAWinnerThere

It was about 12:45. She has a big breakfast – lots of porridge pancakes that she eats quick – and then usually steals some of my Nan’s and my breakfast (scrambled eggs and crusts).

#IReallyNeedToWorkWithBOnLearningSignsAsItWouldBeSoMuchEasierIfWeCouldCommunicateBetter

I think we all get frustrated these days with not knowing what she really wants.

#IThinkSheHasACoupleMoreTeethComingThroughAndSheIsMoreSensitiveToUsSayingNoToHerAboutThingsNow

This morning she tipped her head back and I could see two upper teeth coming through, though maybe she has more as I thought she had been touching the bottom of her mouth but maybe not.

I changed her nappy and she kept trying to put her hands in it, so I shouted ‘B, no!’, so Tiago came in and then she got upset.

I’m sorry B.

23 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Full length self-portrait. I'm wearing a hat with ears, which also has two big pink dangly bobbles. I have a grey jumper, navy coat, cropped trousers and boots on too.
I Usually Wear This Outfit When I Leave Home These Days (23 weeks)
 
#IUsuallyWearThisOutfitWhenILeaveTheHomeTheseDays
#AJumperThatIGotFromMySisterForSecretSanta
#AndSomeTrousersThatIBoughtFromHerProbablyAFewYearsAgoButHadNotReallyWornMuchBefore
#IStartedToWearMyOldBootsEarlyOnInThePregnancyAsIFeelLikeINearlySlipOverALotInMyTrainers
#WhichWasFineBeforeButNotNow
#AndThenIAlwaysHaveToWalkByAMassivePuddleWhereIWorryAboutGettingSplashedByCars
#SoWithMyBootsICanWalkInASmallerPuddleToGetAwayFromIt
#AndAlsoHaveToWorryAboutWhereITreadAllTheTimeAsIDoNotGetWetFeet
#IHaveALotOfHeatTechTopsThatIHaveBeenWearingAllWinter
#SoIAmUsuallyWearingOneOfThoseAsTheyKeepMeWarmAndIDoNotGetSweaty
#DoubleWin
#TheSockChoiceIsImportantAsSomeFallDownEasilyWithTheBootsLikeTheOnesIAmWearingForThisPhoto
#ThenIWearMyCoatWhichIGotTheWeekBeforeIFoundOutIWasPregnant
#ICanStillDoItUpButNotForMuchLonger
#SoHopefullyWarmerWeatherIsComingSoonSoICanJustWearItUnzipped
#AndThenTheHatThatMyMumGotMeWhichFeaturesInMyUlteriorMonologueProject
#IFeelAwkwardWearingItButItKeepsMeWarm
#IOftenCatchPeopleStaringAtMeAndIAmLikeOhItIsProbablyBecauseOfMyHat
#NowMyBumpIsShowingMoreIWonderIfTheyThinkIAmAYoungMother
#AsIDoNotThinkThatILookLikeIAmInMyEarly30sMostOfTheTime
#LetAloneWithAnAnimalHatOn
#IAmStartingToGetHeartburnNow
#IThoughtIHadNeverHadHeartburnBefore
#ButThenIRealisedThatAcidRefluxIsTheSameThingAndIDefinitelyHave
#LastYearIWasGettingItBadBecauseIKeptEatingLate
#IDidMyOwnMadeUpStretchingRoutineLastNightAndNotAVideo
#AndIKeptWakingUpWithPelvisPain
#SoINeedToMakeSureIFollowVideosOrDoAMoreThoroughStretch
#IAmStretchingInThePhoto

Unintentionally the comparison image is also about clothes. I also talk about wearing something that my sister got me, but this jumper was from my younger sister, whereas the dress was from my older sister. Fun fact there.

I haven’t really been wearing this outfit this time. I wear Tiago’s hiking boots when he isn’t wearing them as they’re a lot easier to slip on and off. I do wear the jumper sometimes but it hasn’t been cold enough yet. I do wear the coat. I favour wearing a dress with leggings over the trousers, just as the trousers are cropped and so I do have to wear them with the boots. More fun facts.

I’m now 26 weeks and I do struggle to do the coat up if I have eaten a lot. I will wear the hat once it gets colder. It is hung up waiting for me…

I haven’t had many cases yet where I’ve woken up in the night with acid coming up my throat. I think last night might have been the first time actually (maybe second).

I don’t wake up with pelvis pain so much this time, but maybe it is because I am stretching more, running round after B, and maybe our bed is more comfortable. When we were at Tiago’s parent’s house I don’t think their bed was as comfy and it did cause me a lot of pain at times.

(I’m writing this in late October as I want my blog posts to be up to date to post.)


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Portrait Of A Mother Of A Fifteen Month Old (20 Weeks / 16th September 2021)

Self-portrait in B's tent. I'm leaning on my elbows in the doorway with my fingers pushing in my cheeks.
Portrait Of A Mother Of A Fifteen Month Old (20 Weeks / 16th September 2021)
 
#AfterALotOfLaptopStressInTheLastWeekWithItChargingThenNotItIsNoMore
#SoIAmWritingThisFromTiagosWhereTheSKeyDoesNotWorkAndIHavePasteItInEveryTimeIWantIt
#ICanNotBelieveThatIAm20WeeksAlready
#LastNightIHadATerribleLegCrampForTheFirstTimeInAgesAndIThinkItWasDueToBeingDehydrated
#IWasSoTiredTheOtherDayThatILayDownForANapDuringHerSecondNapWhichIUsuallyDoButThenOversleptBy40Minutes
#LuckilyIPutBToBedJust10MinutesLaterThanUsualAndSheWokeUpAt7InTheMorning
#IAmTryingToMakeMyLifeEasierByLettingBCrawlInAndOutOfHerCotViaTheZippedEntrance
#SheHasDefinitelyChangedALotInTheLastWeekOrTwo
#SheHasStartedToSlideOutOfHerPushchairWhenIPutHerInItSoINowHaveToReclineItToBabyModeWhenItIsTimeToGo
#SheDoesNotComplainOnceSheIsBuckledInAtLeast
#BLovesHerNewShoesAndWandersAroundThePlaygroundInThemNow
#SheSeemsToWalkInThemWellAndHerNewFavouriteThingToDoIsJustShakeTheChainAtTheBottomOfAClimbingWall
#TheOtherDaySheKeptOpeningALittleDrawerInTheLivingRoomThatCouldFallOutAndHurtHer
#TAndIKeptSayingNoAndWhenISayNoSheLooksAtMeLikeIAmTheMeanestPersonOnThePlanet
#InTheEndWeTurnedItRoundAndWhenSheNoticedSheWasPuzzledFor5SecondsAndThenMovedOntoSomethingElse
#SheHasAPatchOfDrySkinOnTheBackOfHerNeckWhichWasWorryingMeButThenIRealisedItIsBecauseSheLikesToPutEverythingAroundHerNeck
#ItIsNotTheBestHabitForHerToHaveSoWeHaveToBeReallyCareful
#SheLikesToHoldThingsSoTheyTouchTheBackOfHerNeckRatherThanGoAllTheWayRoundAtLeast
#SheHasStartedToHelpHerselfToFruitFromTheFruitBowlAndYesterdayManagedToEatMostOfAnAppleThroughoutTheDay
#YouCanSeeThatSheHasAMouthfulOfTeethNowButTheAppleWasQuiteSoftWhichExplainsWhySheWasNotStruggling
#ThisLackOfSKeyIsReallyAnnoying
#BHasAlwaysLovedMusicButItShowsMoreLatelyWhenASongEndsAndSheMakesANoiseAsIfToSayWhyHasTheMusicStopped
#IAmWorriedAboutCovidAndThingsGettingBadAgain
#IFeelABitDividedAboutBoosterShotsAsItSeemsABitUnfairOnALotOfCountriesButIWillAlsoFeelMoreRelievedWhenNanGetsHers
#WeWentToBsToddlerClassAgainAndAtTheFirstOneIDidNotWearAMaskButIDidAtThisOne
#IKnowOnlyMeWearingAMaskDoesNotDoMuchGoodButIFeelSlightlyMoreProtected
#IDoNotWantBsClassesToGetCancelledAgainIfCasesIncreaseButPerhapsItWillBeEasierToAttendOnlineIfItIsAfterBabyXIsBorn
#SheKeptHerDistanceFromTheOtherKidsAndWasQuiteHappyStandingByHerselfWithAMaraca
#ItMustBeOverwhelmingForHerSuddenlyBeingAroundOlderKidsSoAsLongAsSheEnjoysHerselfIDoNotMind
#SheLovesToWatchTheOlderKidsInThePlaygroundSoMaybeSheJustNeedsABitMoreTimeBeforeSheJoinsIn

#AfteraLotOfLaptopStressInTheLastWeekWithItChargingThenNotItIsNoMore

It was struggling to charge, so I got a new charger and then that confirmed that it was my laptop that had the problem… A replacement will hopefully arrive in the next few days.

#SoIAmWritingThisFromTiagosWhereTheSKeyDoesNotWorkAndIHavePasteItInEveryTimeIWantIt

It makes for slow and frustrating work. Maybe it will be a shorter entry than normal.

#ICanNotBelieveThatIAm20WeeksAlready

I have my 20 week scan coming up. I am excited but nervous.

#LastNightIHadATerribleLegCrampForTheFirstTimeInAgesAndIThinkItWasDueToBeingDehydrated

I did feel really thirsty. It is so painful.

#IWasSoTiredTheOtherDayThatILayDownForANapDuringHerSecondNapWhichIUsuallyDoButThenOversleptBy40Minutes

I think my alarm had gone off but I was so disorientated that I went back to sleep and then woke up 40 minutes later and went ‘whoops’. The alarm clock in our room has weirdly disappeared while we were on holiday, but every one says they have not touched it. Weird.

#LuckilyIPutBToBedJust10MinutesLaterThanUsualAndSheWokeUpAt7InTheMorning

Phew. I did not want to put her to bed much later, and I was worried that she would wake up at 6 or something.

She has been making noises at 5 or 6 some days but she tends to go back to sleep until 6:45 or 7. Phew.

#IAmTryingToMakeMyLifeEasierByLettingBCrawlInAndOutOfHerCotViaTheZippedEntrance

I do not want to have to lift her up more times than necessary.

#SheHasDefinitelyChangedALotInTheLastWeekOrTwo

She seems more grown up or acts older at times.

#SheHasStartedToSlideOutOfHerPushchairWhenIPutHerInItSoINowHaveToReclineItToBabyModeWhenItIsTimeToGo

A bit of a tantrum. This seems to be the easiest way to deal with it, where we both do not get too stressed or annoyed.

#SheDoesNotComplainOnceSheIsBuckledInAtLeast

I think kids get distracted quite quickly.

#BLovesHerNewShoesAndWandersAroundThePlaygroundInThemNow #SheSeemsToWalkInThemWellAndHerNewFavouriteThingToDoIsJustShakeTheChainAtTheBottomOfAClimbingWall

Considering she had not worn shoes for three or more weeks she walk really well in them. she likes to play with the velcro too…

She likes to rattle the chain as it makes a loud noise. it is fine as long as long as no older kids are waiting to climb.

#TheOtherDaySheKeptOpeningALittleDrawerInTheLivingRoomThatCouldFallOutAndHurtHer #TAndIKeptSayingNoAndWhenISayNoSheLooksAtMeLikeIAmTheMeanestPersonOnThePlanet

The way her lip curls (I think that’s the right term?) and she looks at me. I only say no if she is doing something dangerous, so I do not feel too bad about it. She does not give T the same look though…

#InTheEndWeTurnedItRoundAndWhenSheNoticedSheWasPuzzledFor5SecondsAndThenMovedOntoSomethingElse

There is always something else for her to be meddling with…

#SheHasAPatchOfDrySkinOnTheBackOfHerNeckWhichWasWorryingMeButThenIRealisedItIsBecauseSheLikesToPutEverythingAroundHerNeck

Which likely explains it, so I have been putting cream on it whenever I remember.

#ItIsNotTheBestHabitForHerToHaveSoWeHaveToBeReallyCareful

We can not seem to stop her doing it.

#SheLikesToHoldThingsSoTheyTouchTheBackOfHerNeckRatherThanGoAllTheWayRoundAtLeast

I am worried that she might suffocate herself. I can see how it is easily done…

#SheHasStartedToHelpHerselfToFruitFromTheFruitBowlAndYesterdayManagedToEatMostOfAnAppleThroughoutTheDay

She took a bit out of it though and then was keen to bite all the other ones.

#YouCanSeeThatSheHasAMouthfulOfTeethNowButTheAppleWasQuiteSoftWhichExplainsWhySheWasNotStruggling

I was impressed but also worried that she was going to break all her teeth.

#ThisLackOfSKeyIsReallyAnnoying

–make s hashtag capital —

I am going to have to make all the capital s’ bigger when I post this. It is too much effort. (Going through this in mid-October I have had to capitalise so many s’.)

#BHasAlwaysLovedMusicButItShowsMoreLatelyWhenASongEndsAndSheMakesANoiseAsIfToSayWhyHasTheMusicStopped

We listen to a good mix of classic, and then Vicky Arlidge – her favourite nursery rhyme singer.

#IAmWorriedAboutCovidAndThingsGettingBadAgain

Oh, the C word appears again.

#IFeelABitDividedAboutBoosterShotsAsItSeemsaBitUnfairOnALotOfCountriesButIWillAlsoFeelMoreRelievedWhenNanGetsHers

It does seem unfair to be getting them already, but people like my Nan are starting to get more vulnerable again.

#WeWentToBsToddlerClassAgainAndAtTheFirstOneIDidNotWearaMaskButIDidAtThisOne

I decided to not wear one when I saw no one else was, but then I spent the whole class feeling uncomfortable. With this one, someone else walked in wearing one, but then took it off. I felt awkard being the only person wearing one – in case people thought I was ill or something. Oh well.

#IKnowOnlyMeWearingAMaskDoesNotDoMuchGoodButIFeelSlightlyMoreProtected

I am basically protecting everyone from me, but I’m not that protected from them. Fun time.

#IDoNotWantBsClassesToGetCancelledAgainIfCasesIncreaseButPerhapsItWillBeEasierToAttendOnlineIfItIsAfterBabyXIsBorn

It is what it is, and we will just have to deal with it. I am not looking forward to the winter.

#SheKeptHerDistanceFromTheOtherKidsAndWasQuiteHappyStandingByHerselfWithAMaraca

The other kids are mostly older and have lots of energy and can talk, and respond more.

#ItMustBeOverwhelmingForHerSuddenlyBeingAroundOlderKidsSoAsLongAsSheEnjoysHerselfIDoNotMind

It is her class, so she can do what she wants. she is not hurting anyone, so it is fine.

#SheLovesToWatchTheOlderKidsInThePlaygroundSoMaybeSheJustNeedsABitMoreTimeBeforeSheJoinsIn

She is just doing a lot of observing, so one day she might just start to do more things, and get more involved. We just need to wait and see.

20 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Close-up of my belly button.
My Belly Button Has Never Been So Close (20 and a half weeks)
 
#IGuessItMustBeWeirderForPeopleWhoHaveInnies
#ItHasBeenMoreOutForAFewWeeks
#ButIAmStartingToThinkThatMaybeItHasAlwaysBeenLikeThis
#ButBecauseMyBellyIsGrowingThenItIsCloserToMe
#IFeelLikeItWasHarderToCleanBeforeThough
#InOtherNewsIHadMy20WeekScanToday
#WasRelievedToSeeAHeartbeatVeryQuickly
#ThoughTheScannerWasQuietALotWhichWorriedMe
#IGuessSheWasJustConcentratingOnCheckingThings
#AtOnePointWeCouldSeeItMovingItsMouthWhichWasFunny
#SheDidAllTheChecksApartFromThree
#SheAskedMeToGoToTheLooAndThenJumpUpAndDown
#TheBabyWasInABallAndWouldNotBudge
#SheHadMeRockingMyHipsFromSideToSide
#ItWouldNotMove
#SheMadeMeDrinkASugaryDrinkAndGoForAWalk
#ItWouldNotMove
#SheHadMeDoingStarjumps
#IWasImpressedWithHowManyIDidBut
#ItWouldNotMove
#SoIHaveToGoBackIn2To3Weeks
#IHopeEverythingIsOkay
#IStillHaveNotHadMyScreeningResultsFrom7PlusWeeksAgo
#IJustKeptLaughingAtTheMonitor
#WeHaveAPictureOfItLookingLikeAGrumpyOldMan
#WhenSheShowedUsItsFaceBeforeItLookedMoreLikeAPuppyThanABaby
#ThenSheShowedUsItsSpineSoMuchThatIComparedItToADinosaur
#SheGaveUsThePicturesForFreeAsSheSaidTheBabyWasInSuchABadPosition
#ICanDefinitelyFeelTheBabyMovingAroundNow
#ItTypicallyWasMovingBeforeAndAfterTheAppointment

It seemed quite pushed out from an early stage this time, but I didn’t document it as it was not so interesting to me this time.

My next post will talk about my 20 week scan for baby X. It was definitely a lot easier this time round, though I was sent out to go to the toilet (weirdly I wrote holiday) to see if it would help do the last few checks.


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Imitating B In Her Temporary Cot (17 Weeks / 25th August 2021)

Self-portrait of my face pressed up against two bars of B's temporary cot.
Imitating B In Her Temporary Cot (17 Weeks / 25th August 2021)
 
#SheDoesSomethingSimilarInHerCotAtHomeButTheEffectIsQuiteDifferentAsThisIsBarsAndAtHomeItIsMesh
#EveryoneKeepsSayingHowMuchBLooksLikeTiagoButSheDefinitelyHasMyLoveOfWater
#SheHasBeenGettingUpsetWheneverWeTakeHerOutOfHerPoolOrOutOfTheSea
#HerLittleLipsWillBeShiveringAndSheWillWantToKeepGoingBackIn
#YesterdayWeTookHerToASpotThatHadARedAndYellowFlag
#WeTookItInTurnsSwimmingInTheYellowAreaAndOnlyLetBHaveALittleSplashWhenTheSeaCalmedDownMomentarily
#WeAreAdjustingToBeingHereButIFeelQuiteLostWithoutOurUsualRoutineAndStuff
#ThisHouseIsNotVeryBabyProofAndThisMorningIHadToRunDownTheCorridorInCaseBDecidedToGoToTheSteps
#TheOtherDayOurAlarmWentOffForTheFirstTimeInMonthsAndWeActuallyHadToWakeBUpForOnceAfterSeven
#ItSeemsLikeAOneOffThoughAsSheHasAtLeastThreeTeethComingThroughAndUsuallyWakesUpAt6SomethingNowWhichIsOkay
#MaybeItIsDueToHavingALaterDinnerOrMaybeItIsFromAllTheSplashingOrMaybeItIsAMixOfFactors
#IThinkWeWillTryPushingHerDinnerALittleLaterWhenWeGetHomeThoughAndGivingHerBiggerSnacks
#TheOtherDayIGotStungByALittleJellyfishWhichWasABitOfAShockButALifeguardPutSomeGelOnIt
#IManagedToSwallowSomeSeaWaterOnAnotherOccasionAndIEndedUpVomitingInMyHandAwkwardlyInFrontOfAFewPeople
#OurConnectingFlightOnTheWayBackHasBeenDelayedByFiveHours
#ThisMeansWeHaveANineHourLayoverAndWillProbablyGetHomeAtThreeInTheMorning
#TheAirlinesDoNotCareWhichIsDisappointingSoWeWillHaveToSeeWhatWeCanDoOtherwiseWeWillHaveToJustDealWithIt
#WeGotATimeAndDateForOur20WeekScanWhichIsAlsoInconvenientSoICalledAndSaidWhatDaysAreBestForUsAndTheyGivenUsAnotherInconvenientSlot
#SoTiagoWillProbablyHaveToWaitWithBInTheCarAndIWillHaveToGoInAloneWhichIsAnnoyingButWhatCanWeDo
#WeHaveTakenBToAMassiveDuckPondACoupleOfTimesWhichSheQuiteLikesAndILoveLookingAtAllTheDucklings
#ThereAreNoDucksLikeTheOnesAtHomeSoItIsNiceToSeeSomeDifferentBirds
#IHadNeverBeenThereBeforeButIGuessThatOurPrioritiesHaveChangedNowWithBAndWeWantToGoToMoreKidFriendlyPlaces
#WeHaveBeenGoingToALittleCoffeeShopForBreakfastAndYesterdayBManagedToKnockTiagosCoffeeAllOverMyBreakfastAndMe
#WhenWeWerePackingISaidIDidNotWantToBringManyClothesAsIEndUpWearingTheSameThreeOutfits
#InRealityIHaveBeenWearingTheSameDressAndJustWashingItAndPuttingItOnAgainAsSoonAsPossible
#WeHaveBeenRunningErrandsOrGoingToMeetFriendsWhileBSleepsAndTiagosMumKeepsAnEyeOnHer
#TheOtherNightWeWentToABarbequeAfterBHadGoneToBedButThenISpentTheWholeEveningSatByABabyAndAFourYearOldSoFeltBadForNotBringingHer
#MyPortugueseSpeakingHasImprovedButIStillFindItDifficultToUnderstandWhatPeopleAreSaying
#IGetSoTiredSoQuicklyInTheEveningsWhenWeGoOutWhichIsProbablyDueToUsingExtraBrainPowerTryingAndGenerallyFailingToTranslate
#ItIsNiceToSeePeopleButIHaveNotSocialisedThisMuchInAVeryLongTime

#SheDoesSomethingSimilarInHerCotAtHomeButTheEffectIsQuiteDifferentAsThisIsBarsAndAtHomeItIsMesh

It’s less of a full face smush, and more of a partial face smush?

#EveryoneKeepsSayingHowMuchBLooksLikeTiagoButSheDefinitelyHasMyLoveOfWater

Yes, she does look like him a lot. There’s a picture above her cot of Tiago as a baby and I keep pointing to it and saying ‘there’s daddy as a baby’ and she laughs.

Tiago likes the water, but he usually just likes to have a very short swim whereas I want to swim for ages. Well, I can’t anymore…

#SheHasBeenGettingUpsetWheneverWeTakeHerOutOfHerPoolOrOutOfTheSea

Similar vibes to when Tiago puts her back on the floor, when she wants to be in his arms all day.

#HerLittleLipsWillBeShiveringAndSheWillWantToKeepGoingBackIn

We try to not let her go in for more than fifteen minutes at a time.

#YesterdayWeTookHerToASpotThatHadARedAndYellowFlag

We saw the flags and were pretty gutted. Tiago went to talk to the lifeguards to see if it was safe enough to swim/take B in. There was a set of stairs that was safe to use, but we had to be careful as waves would wash over the wall and made it a bit dangerous.

#WeTookItInTurnsSwimmingInTheYellowAreaAndOnlyLetBHaveALittleSplashWhenTheSeaCalmedDownMomentarily

B was quite happy splashing in a little puddle on the rocks by the sea, but then after she’d had a bit of a splash in the sea she was annoyed again. She was getting quite jealous of me swimming in the sea. Better to be safe than sorry…

#WeAreAdjustingToBeingHereButIFeelQuiteLostWithoutOurUsualRoutineAndStuff

Today Tiago is out all day running errands, and I’m not sure how to entertain her all day. It’s times like these that I wish I could drive… Public transport around here is not easy to use/it takes forever.

#ThisHouseIsNotVeryBabyProofAndThisMorningIHadToRunDownTheCorridorInCaseBDecidedToGoToTheSteps

I was just turning the light off in the kitchen and I thought B was outside the door. I went to see and she was at the other end of the corridor by steps that go down, so I RAN.

#TheOtherDayOurAlarmWentOffForTheFirstTimeInMonthsAndWeActuallyHadToWakeBUpForOnceAfterSeven

I usually set the alarm to ignore as soon as B gets up. It is better when she wakes us up as we couldn’t be bothered to get up if she wasn’t going to. We got her up at 7:15 in the end.

#ItSeemsLikeAOneOffThoughAsSheHasAtLeastThreeTeethComingThroughAndUsuallyWakesUpAt6SomethingNowWhichIsOkay

She must have not been teething that morning. A few nights ago she was waking up from 4. Yesterday it was 6:30. Today she woke up at 6.

#MaybeItIsDueToHavingALaterDinnerOrMaybeItIsFromAllTheSplashingOrMaybeItIsAMixOfFactors

We will never know.

#IThinkWeWillTryPushingHerDinnerALittleLaterWhenWeGetHomeThoughAndGivingHerBiggerSnacks

People just eat later here. Yesterday I had a small dinner when B had hers (at 6ish) and then I had a second dinner at a friend’s house.

She can have a good snack when she wakes up from her second nap if she’s having a later dinner. We haven’t given her any yoghurt since we’ve been here (which we usually give her as a snack before bedtime in hope that she will sleep later).

#TheOtherDayIGotStungByALittleJellyfishWhichWasABitOfAShockButALifeguardPutSomeGelOnIt

Usually I keep a look out for them, but I was just swimming by myself and felt an electric shock in my arm. I told a friend (in bad Portuguese) and she said maybe it was muscle pain, but I didn’t think so.

Tiago was with a friend who was talking to a lifeguard, so he put some gel on it, and then a bit later the area where I got stung raised up a bit. It wouldn’t hurt and then suddenly it would. Weird. I had looked in the water but saw nothing.

#IManagedToSwallowSomeSeaWaterOnAnotherOccasionAndIEndedUpVomitingInMyHandAwkwardlyInFrontOfAFewPeople

I was trying to get out via a ladder, but lots of people kept jumping in so the water rose too high and I gulped some. I felt sick, but hoped the feeling would pass. I kept stopping in case I was sick, but thought I could get back to my towel and be okay. Tiago was with me as someone was watching B while we had a quick swim together. Suddenly I felt sick again, so put my hand to my mouth and some sadly sprayed out of the side of it. I felt embarrassed – especially with Covid and everything. Awkward. Tiago went back with water to clean it, but all evidence had already gone.

#OurConnectingFlightOnTheWayBackHasBeenDelayedByFiveHours #ThisMeansWeHaveANineHourLayoverAndWillProbablyGetHomeAtThreeInTheMorning #TheAirlinesDoNotCareWhichIsDisappointingSoWeWillHaveToSeeWhatWeCanDoOtherwiseWeWillHaveToJustDealWithIt

We have two flights by two different operators, but we bought them through one operator. The first flight is at 8am, then the second has been moved from 3pm to 8pm. Good job Tiago drove us to London as I was worried enough about catching a train with the 3pm flight (it’s a 3 hour flight). The airline we booked through don’t care, and say we can just have a refund – which isn’t great when you book months in advance for cheaper prices. The airline who delayed their flight have a first flight that is at 1pm, so that would save us waiting around so much at least but we’ll see what they say. It’s going to be a long day with a 14 month old and my pregnant belly, plus poor Tiago then has to drive us home.

#WeGotATimeAndDateForOur20WeekScanWhichIsAlsoInconvenientSoICalledAndSaidWhatDaysAreBestForUsAndTheyGivenUsAnotherInconvenientSlot

My Mum can watch B certain mornings. I said which days and they’ve given us another day where my Mum isn’t around.

#SoTiagoWillProbablyHaveToWaitWithBInTheCarAndIWillHaveToGoInAloneWhichIsAnnoyingButWhatCanWeDo

*Shrug* I’m annoyed about it, but oh well. I should call them again and complain possibly. I don’t like to be annoying and I know they’re busy.

#WeHaveTakenBToAMassiveDuckPondACoupleOfTimesWhichSheQuiteLikesAndILoveLookingAtAllTheDucklings #ThereAreNoDucksLikeTheOnesAtHomeSoItIsNiceToSeeSomeDifferentBirds

The first time we went it was early in the morning and very foggy, so we were the only ones there. The second time it was quite a bit busier. There are a lot of Muscovy ducks, some Appleyards, and some I don’t know. (My parents had ducks when I was younger.)

#IHadNeverBeenThereBeforeButIGuessThatOurPrioritiesHaveChangedNowWithBAndWeWantToGoToMoreKidFriendlyPlaces

We’ve been to a couple of swimming spots lately that I hadn’t been to before, as they’re closer and more kid friendly. I looked for a soft play or kid’s centre, but they don’t seem to have any around. Shame. Covid cases are quite low here. (I just checked and there are currently 14 people with confirmed Covid.)

#WeHaveBeenGoingToALittleCoffeeShopForBreakfastAndYesterdayBManagedToKnockTiagosCoffeeAllOverMyBreakfastAndMe

The guy had just set it all down, B went to go for my water and knocked the coffee over. I went to grab it, but realised I was too late so backed away and stood up. Luckily it just caught the end of my dress, as I didn’t want a burned belly!

#WhenWeWerePackingISaidIDidNotWantToBringManyClothesAsIEndUpWearingTheSameThreeOutfits #InRealityIHaveBeenWearingTheSameDressAndJustWashingItAndPuttingItOnAgainAsSoonAsPossible

Tiago’s Mum washed it and said she thought it was going to have a coffee stain on it, but once it dried it looked fine and I put it on again. It’s so humid here…

#WeHaveBeenRunningErrandsOrGoingToMeetFriendsWhileBSleepsAndTiagosMumKeepsAnEyeOnHer

It’s been nice to get out more, and have nice chats in the car.

#TheOtherNightWeWentToABarbequeAfterBHadGoneToBedButThenISpentTheWholeEveningSatByABabyAndAFourYearOldSoFeltBadForNotBringingHer

It’s nice that things are so kid friendly here. B had woken up early from her second nap (I think) so she had a very early bedtime, otherwise we could have brought her for a bit.

Tiago generally brings me home, then goes back out. He brought me home around 10.30pm and then got back at 2am. It’s good for him to see his friends, but I don’t know how he can stay out so late and then be fine in the morning.

#MyPortugueseSpeakingHasImprovedButIStillFindItDifficultToUnderstandWhatPeopleAreSaying

I feel motivated to try to find the time and energy to study more again – I’ve been a bit ‘lazy’ with all the pregnancies and mothering. We need to watch more kids stuff in Portuguese perhaps; I’ve been enjoying watching Bluey in Portuguese.

#IGetSoTiredSoQuicklyInTheEveningsWhenWeGoOutWhichIsProbablyDueToUsingExtraBrainPowerTryingAndGenerallyFailingToTranslate

Mothering, pregnancy plus extra brain work and socialising.

#ItIsNiceToSeePeopleButIHaveNotSocialisedThisMuchInAVeryLongTime

It is going to be a shock going home to quarantine for 10 days after being out so much. I need to make an effort to do more with B when we return, especially after I get my second jab.

17 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait with my hair covering the left side of my face. My right hand is pointing to where I had my whooping cough injection.
Whooping Cough Vaccine (17 Weeks)
 
#AtMyMidwifeAppointmentTheOtherDaySheSaidToGetTheWhoopingCoughVaccine
#YouHaveToBe16WeeksOrMoreAndIWasJustOver16WeeksSoIBookedAnAppointment
#IGoToTheAppointmentTodayAndAsWeAreWalkingToTheRoomTheWomanLooksAtMyBumpAndSaysNeverNeverNever
#WeSitDownAndSheIsLikeSoYouAreHereForTheWhoopingCoughVaccine
#AreYouPregnant
#YouHaveToBe16WeeksOrMore
#ISayIAm17Weeks
#SheLooksAtMeSuspiciouslyAsIGazeDownAtMyBump
#IStandUpAndPullMyTopInTightSoItAppears
#SheSaysWellIGuessYouKnowBetterYourself
#AndThereWasMeWorryingThatMyBumpWasTooBigForBeing17Weeks
#SoSheGaveMeItAndItWasAllDoneInSeconds
#IWasWaitingToDoAShootUntilAfterwardsAsIThoughtIWouldHaveAPlasterButIDidNot
#WhichIsFineAsIDidNotNeedOne
#ISaidIWouldDoAShootTodayWhereIWouldHaveATopOnAndIWouldFaceTheOtherDirection
#ButTheVaccineWasAtTheTopOfMyLeftArmSoItMadeSenseToDoItThisWay
#IGotHomeAndWasSoTiredThatIThoughtIWouldHaveANapFirst
#ISleptFor3Hours
#IHaveBeenFeelingMoreEnergeticButThisWeekWasSuperBusyAndIDidNotSleepInAsLateAsIPlanned
#IAmStillFeelingAnxiousAboutThingsAboutTheHealthOfTheBaby
#ButIAlsoRealisedTheOtherDayThatThisCouldBeTheOnlyTimeIAmEverPregnantInMyLife
#SoIShouldTryToEnjoyItAsMuchAsICan
#IDoNotKnowHowToReallyEnjoyItInTermsOfThereIsNotMuchICanDo
#ButIGuessIMeanMoreJustTryingNotToWorrySoMuch
#IGotReallyFreakedOutByTheFactThatThereIsSomeoneGrowingInsideMeAgainTheOtherDay
#PeopleAskMeIfIAmScaredOfGivingBirth
#IFeelKindOfExcitedByTheIdeaToBeHonest
#MaybeIMightChangeMyMindAsMyBumpGetsBigger
#ButIJustWantToEnjoyItAsMuchAsICanAsItSeemsLikeSuchABizarreThingThatWomenHaveBeenDoingForThousandsOfYears
#IDidNotStretchLastNightAndMyHipsHurtAllNight

This time no one mentioned to me about getting the whooping cough, so I will be getting it at around 27 weeks. No one will be saying that I don’t look pregnant enough for it this time…

It’s funning reading about ‘sleeping in late’. Now I’m like what is that? I should have relaxed more when I was pregnant with B. I used to waste so much time. Now I don’t have as much time to faff…

Definitely still anxious this time around.

I feel less excited about birth this time around, even though I would say I had a good experience with B. I am mentally trying to prepare myself though and am starting to read about things again. I am excited to meet her though…

Self-portrait wrapped up in a big cardigan that is suitable for breastfeeding.
Goodbye (For Now) Food Aversions (17 and a half weeks)
 
#IJustHadToRearrangeMy20WeekScanForASecondTime
#TheySendYouALetterForAnAppointmentInThePost
#ThenICalledUpToRescheduleItAsICouldNotMakeIt
#UsuallyTheyCheckToSeeWhatDateAndTimeICanDo
#ButThisTimeTheySaidTheDiariesWereNotOpenYetSoIWouldHaveToBeOnAWaitingList
#GotANewAppointmentDateAndTimeTodayWhichTiagoCouldNotDo
#ICouldHaveGoneAloneButTheHospitalIsQuiteFarAwayAndIThinkTiagoWantsToSeeTheBabyAsMuchAsIDo
#ThoughItIsAScanForAbnormalitiesWhichIsABitScary
#SoIWouldRatherThatTiagoIsThereTooJustIncaseItIsBadNews
#FingersCrossed
#InMorePleasantNewsALotOfMyFoodAversionsHaveDisappeared
#IHaveEatenIndianFood5TimesInTheLastWeek
#TiagoIsHappyAsHeCanCookALotOfHisUsualDishesAgain
#AndWeHadTakeawayFromOurFavouriteIndianPlaceLastWeekWhichGaveMe3Meals
#ItIsNiceToNotSitAtDinnerFeelingSickAndStrugglingToEat
#IAmAwareItMayReturnAtSomePointSoIAmJustTryingToEnjoyItWhilstICan
#TheMidwifeSaidIShouldBeEatingMorePulsesAndThingsLikeThat
#SoIAmGladThatLentilsAndChickpeasNoLongerRepulseMe
#IAmWearingOneOfMyFewPiecesOfMaternityClothing
#ItIsACardiganForPregnancyAndNursing
#ItMakesMeLookMorePregnant
#ApparentlyYouCanWearItInAFewDifferentWays
#ItWillProbablyBeHotToWearOnceTheBabyIsBornButItWillDoForNowAndForNextWinter
#ItDoesGetColdInLiverpool
#IDoNotWantToMakeAnyPurchasesForTheBabyUntilIAm6Months
#ButINeedToStartMakingASpreadsheetWithWhatWeWantToBuy
#IAmStillWorriedThatThingsMightGoWrongButIAmAlsoFeelingABitMoreRelaxed
#ItIsNiceToBeAbleToTalkAboutBeingPregnantWithMorePeopleWhenISeePeopleInPerson
#ItIsBecomingMoreObviousNowWithMyGrowingBumpButIWorryAboutBoringPeopleWithTalkingAboutItALot
#IHadToDoAFullYogaVideoLastNightAsINeededAGoodStretchAndIDefinitelyFeltBetter

Good to know that it’s been annoying getting an appointment for my 20 week scans both times.

I wasn’t into lentils and chickpeas at the start of this pregnancy either. B has baked beans on toast a lot and they were grossing me out, but I have started to have them for lunch lately (mid-October).

I didn’t wear this cardigan after having B, but it might be more appropriate with having a winter baby this time (B was a summer baby).

We really didn’t rush to buy anything for B, and thought we didn’t need much, but after she was born we bought LOADS.

It’s weird that in the end not many people saw me heavily pregnant with B.


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