Categories
Pregnancy Waiting II

No, I Have Not Given Birth Yet (40 Weeks / 5th February 2022)

I wasn’t sure what shoot to do today. I was thinking a family shoot, but it’s easier to just do one by myself and save the next family shoot for the four of us. It also might be the last shoot that I do while pregnant, so I want to document my bump well.

Head to knee portrait. I am wearing a black top and black leggings. My top is pulled up to my bra and my leggings are pulled up to my belly button. My right hand is on my hip and my left hand is resting on my bump.
No, I Have Not Given Birth Yet (40 Weeks / 5th February 2022)
 
#IHaveDefinitelyBeenOnHighAlertForWeeksForNoReason
#IHadAMidwifeAppointmentThisWeekAndTiagoWasActuallyAvailableToBeAtTheAppointmentWithoutBForOnce
#HoweverTheyWouldNotLetHimInAsTheySaidTheyHaveToProtectTheOtherWomenWhichIsFairEnough
#IMainlyWantedHimThereAsIWantedToDeclineASweepButSheWasTotallyFineWithMeSayingNoWhichIsHowItShouldBe
#ISaidIFeltLikeThingsWereHappeningAndWhenSheCheckedBumpSheSaidItWasTight
#IHadNotEvenNoticedAndIGuessItWasABraxtonHicksContractionWhichIThinkIHaveBeenHavingALotOf
#BabyWasHeadDownWithAGoodHeartbeatSoSheTriedToBookMeInForAnInductionAtTheLatestPossibleDate
#TheyAreFullyBookedSoINeedToCallOnTheMorningOfThatDayButIAmHopingTheBabyWillBeHereByThen
#BetweenNowAndThenIHaveAnotherMidwifeAppointmentWhereTheyWillOfferMeASweep
#IAmCurrentlyOnTheFenceAboutWhetherIWillAcceptItOrNot
#LastNightWeOrderedIndianFoodAndIFeltSoHungryAndCouldNotStopEating
#IThinkTheBabyHasDroppedNowSoIDoNotGetAcidRefluxAsMuchSoITryToEatWhenIFeelLikeIt
#ACoupleOfNightsThisWeekIHaveGoneDownstairsToEatASnackAround3InTheMorning
#WhenIWasInLabourWithBIReallyCouldNotEatSoIAmJustTryingToGiveMyBodyAsMuchEnergyAsPossibleInCaseIDoNotFeelLikeEatingAgain
#ISleptSoBadlyLastNightAndItWasHorrible
#IWouldGenerallySleepForAnHourAndThenBeAwakeForTwoHours
#BHasBeenSleepingWellButLastNightSheWasAwakeForABitTooWhichThrewMeOffABit
#IHadToUseANoiseMachineToHelpMeSleepAndLaterIListenedToOnlyTimeByEnyaOnRepeatAndFeltQuiteRelaxed
#WhenICanNotSleepIHaveBeenReadingNewPostsOnAGroupForWomenWhoAreDueThisMonth
#EveryoneSeemsInARushToHaveTheirBabyBeforeTheirDueDateAndGettingUpsetWhenTheirDueDateComesWithNoSigns
#IWantToWriteALotButIAlsoDoNotWantToAnnoyEveryoneBySayingYouAllJustNeedToChillOutAndRelax
#SoInsteadISayNothingAndJustReadWhichIsNotVeryHelpful
#IfIGetToThePointOfNeedingAnInductionThenTiagoIsAllowedToBeThereWithMeWhichIsGood
#ThisDefinitelyFeelsLikeAVeryDifferentExperienceThisTimeAsWithBIHadNoneOfThisWaitingAround
#LastNightIWasCryingAtAVideoOfABoyMeetingHisLittleSisterForTheFirstTimeAsHeWasGettingSoEmotional
#IAlsoCriedALotAtVideosOfGrandmothersSeeingTheirGrandchildrenForTheFirstTimeInALongTimeDueToThePandemic
#IReadAnArticleAboutToddlersAndThePandemicAndHowItMayBeAffectingTheirSocialSkills
#BIsDefinitelyGettingMoreUsedToPeopleInTheNeighbourhoodAndLikesToStrokeDogsMoreWhichHisNice
#IThinkHerGoingToNurseryIsGoodForHerAndSheNowRunsAroundThePlaygroundWithHerFriendWhichIsReallyNiceToSee
#IKeepSayingItButICanNotWaitToSeeHowSheReactsToHerSister

#IHaveDefinitelyBeenOnHighAlertForWeeksForNoReason

I think most people who see my bump on the regular thought I would not still be pregnant. A couple of people we see around commented yesterday that my bump has changed shape.

#IHadAMidwifeAppointmentThisWeekAndTiagoWasActuallyAvailableToBeAtTheAppointmentWithoutBForOnce #HoweverTheyWouldNotLetHimInAsTheySaidTheyHaveToProtectTheOtherWomenWhichIsFairEnough

So he went back to the car and did some work. He wasn’t bothered.

#IMainlyWantedHimThereAsIWantedToDeclineASweepButSheWasTotallyFineWithMeSayingNoWhichIsHowItShouldBe

For some reason I thought I’d have to put up a fight, which I said to her but she said ‘no, we just have to offer it’.

#ISaidIFeltLikeThingsWereHappeningAndWhenSheCheckedBumpSheSaidItWasTight #IHadNotEvenNoticedAndIGuessItWasABraxtonHicksContractionWhichIThinkIHaveBeenHavingALotOf

I’ve always said I’m not really sure what are kicks and what are Braxton Hicks, but after a bit more reading it seems like BH makes your bump go tight for quite a while. I was having a lot of them last night.

#BabyWasHeadDownWithAGoodHeartbeatSoSheTriedToBookMeInForAnInductionAtTheLatestPossibleDate #TheyAreFullyBookedSoINeedToCallOnTheMorningOfThatDayButIAmHopingTheBabyWillBeHereByThen

She said a date and I asked if that was as long as I’d be allowed to go. She said yes. Bit disappointed as I’ve heard of people having a bit more time, but I would be surprised if I get that far.

#BetweenNowAndThenIHaveAnotherMidwifeAppointmentWhereTheyWillOfferMeASweep #IAmCurrentlyOnTheFenceAboutWhetherIWillAcceptItOrNot

I have some time, I might not get that far. I keep saying it, but who knows.

#LastNightWeOrderedIndianFoodAndIFeltSoHungryAndCouldNotStopEating

It was so good. We have leftovers for today. I could go and just eat it all now – I’m going to eat after I finish writing this.

#IThinkTheBabyHasDroppedNowSoIDoNotGetAcidRefluxAsMuchSoITryToEatALotWhenIFeelLikeIt

Though I’ve been feeling a bit sick lately, but it might be due to my hormones changing for labour?

#ACoupleOfNightsThisWeekIHaveGoneDownstairsToEatASnackAround3InTheMorning

Always a samosa with some spicy tomato and onion relish. Yum.

#WhenIWasInLabourWithBIReallyCouldNotEatSoIAmJustTryingToGiveMyBodyAsMuchEnergyAsPossibleInCaseIDoNotFeelLikeEatingAgain

I feel quite thirsty as well, so I’m trying to stay as hydrated and fed as possible. I need to rest more though.

#ISleptSoBadlyLastNightAndItWasHorrible

I dislike lying awake trying to sleep for ages.

#IWouldGenerallySleepForAnHourAndThenBeAwakeForTwoHours

Fun times.

#BHasBeenSleepingWellButLastNightSheWasAwakeForABitTooWhichThrewMeOffABit

We had to go in a couple of times. Tiago changed her nappy as she’d had a bath, and she likes to drink a lot of water in the bath…

#IHadToUseANoiseMachineToHelpMeSleepAndLaterIListenedToOnlyTimeByEnyaOnRepeatAndFeltQuiteRelaxed

Weirdly I had that song scheduled for today on my YouTube channel – I danced to it a while ago so had no clue.

Cue me looking up Enya’s wikipedia page during my reading rampage.

#WhenICanNotSleepIHaveBeenReadingNewPostsOnAGroupForWomenWhoAreDueThisMonth

That and undoing all the good phone behaviour I had the other month.

#EveryoneSeemsInARushToHaveTheirBabyBeforeTheirDueDateAndGettingUpsetWhenTheirDueDateComesWithNoSigns #IWantToWriteALotButIAlsoDoNotWantToAnnoyEveryoneBySayingYouAllJustNeedToChillOutAndRelax #SoInsteadISayNothingAndJustReadWhichIsNotVeryHelpful

I’m sure I’d just piss them all off with my comments, so I’m better off staying quiet.

#IfIGetToThePointOfNeedingAnInductionThenTiagoIsAllowedToBeThereWithMeWhichIsGood

They asked me if I wanted an in or out patient induction. I had no clue about the difference, so luckily her phone went dead so I had some time to ask her a bit more before she rang back. An out patient means I would be given a pessary to use at home, labour at home, but I’d have to go in earlier that day or the day before for a scan. In patient means I’ll have it there, but we’ll have to go in at some point for Covid tests. In patient seems easier as my parents can have B and hopefully things would happen fast as I’d be so due. (I read that inductions happen more effectively the more pregnant you are.)

#ThisDefinitelyFeelsLikeAVeryDifferentExperienceThisTimeAsWithBIHadNoneOfThisWaitingAround

With B my waters broke, I went to hospital, they wouldn’t let me go home as she was breech and had me on a countdown to a c-section. Luckily I went into labour (by staying calm and relaxed) and just laboured at the hospital, then got transferred to the delivery suite when I was in established labour.

#LastNightIWasCryingAtAVideoOfABoyMeetingHisLittleSisterForTheFirstTimeAsHeWasGettingSoEmotional

He was a bit older than B, so I don’t think B will be reacting like that.

#IAlsoCriedALotAtVideosOfGrandmothersSeeingTheirGrandchildrenForTheFirstTimeInALongTimeDueToThePandemic

Bless them all.

#IReadAnArticleAboutToddlersAndThePandemicAndHowItMayBeAffectingTheirSocialSkills #BIsDefinitelyGettingMoreUsedToPeopleInTheNeighbourhoodAndLikesToStrokeDogsMoreWhichHisNice #IThinkHerGoingToNurseryIsGoodForHerAndSheNowRunsAroundThePlaygroundWithHerFriendWhichIsReallyNiceToSee

I’m not too concerned. I think her seeing my Nan everyday is good, and we see my Mum a lot so at least she has not just been stuck in a bubble with me and T for the last 15 months.

#IKeepSayingItButICanNotWaitToSeeHowSheReactsToHerSister

I showed her the video of the siblings this morning and she seemed quite captivated.


Thanks for reading! If you’re enjoying my blog (and/or the work I make) please consider supporting me by ‘buying me a coffee’ on Ko-fi – thanks!

Categories
Pregnancy Waiting II

General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot IX (40 Weeks / 2nd February 2022)

Shoot which I am recreating for the 9th time this pregnancy. I am wearing a bra and leggings. I have my right hand clasping my left elbow. My bump is bigger than the previous version of this image.
General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot IX (40 Weeks / 2nd February 2022)
 
#IReallyDidNotThinkThatIWouldStillBePregnantAt40Weeks
#ItIsNiceThatIHaveHadABitMoreTimeToMyselfBeforeBabyXArrivesThough
#IReallyDoForgetAtTimesThatThereCouldBeABabyArrivingAnyDayNow
#ThoughSometimesIFeelLikeTheBabyIsComingAndISuddenlyFeelQuiteCalm
#LetUsHopeThatIFeelLikeThatWhenTheBabyIsActuallyComing
#IThinkAtTheMomentItIsTheUnknownOfNotKnowingWhenTheBabyWillArriveThatIsMakingMeFeelABitStressed
#IJustDoNotWantItToBeTheMiddleOfTheNightWhenMyParentsNeedToComeAndPickUpB
#EspeciallyAsBIsAtNurseryAFewSessionsAWeekNowAndMyMumComesRoundAFewTimesAWeekSoIAmSureItWillHappenAtAVeryInconvenientTime
#IAmPassingTheTimeByThinkingOfWhichDateIWouldLikeToGiveBirthOnAsILikeTheNumbersLikeToday
#ButThenThatDatePassesAndIHaveToFindAnotherOneThatILikeButReallyItDoesNotMatter
#IHaveHadMegaPainInMyRightBoobAFewTimesSinceMyLastShoot
#IHaveNotBotheredTryingToDoTheColostrumHarvestingYetButIMightStartTodayOrTomorrow
#IWantedToGetToThisShootAndIHopeThisIsTheLastOneSoIThinkIWillStartTryingToDoAnythingToKickstartFullOnLabourNow
#IThinkIWillTurnDownTheSweepThatIsScheduledForMeAsThereIsAnotherOneBookedInForAFewDaysLater
#IJustDoNotWantToGetToThePointWhereIHaveToBeInducedThoughIWillBeSurprisedIfIDoButWhoKnows
#AboutAWeekAgoIRealisedThatICanNoLongerDoTheInsideSectionOfMyCoatUp
#SoWhenItIsColdIWearABigCardiganUnderneathMyCoatThoughTheWeatherWasReallyNiceYesterday
#WheneverIGoForWalksNowAndBumpIntoSomeoneIKnowTheyAlwaysSayTheyAreSurprisedToSeeMeOut
#IFeelLikeIHaveBecomeChattierWithMorePeopleOverTheLastFewWeeksAndKnowSomeMorePeople
#IAmDefinitelyWaddlingMoreNowEspeciallyIfIGoOutWithoutBAndThePushchair
#IHaveBeenGaggingWheneverIBrushMyTeethInTheEveningForWeeksNowAndIAmBoredOfIt
#IHaveATowelUnderneathTheBedsheetAndThenOneOnTopOfItInCaseMyWatersBreakWhenIAmInBed
#SomeNightsISleepWellAndSomeNightsIWakeUpLoadsOrCanNotSleepForAnHourOrTwo
#YesterdayIBuiltBsTableAndChairsWhichWasANiceDistraction
#SheHadLunchAtItAndAteMoreCreamCheeseOnToastThanSheEverHasSoThatWasGood
#ANewThingOfHersIsWalkingAroundOnHerTiptoesWhichIGuessSheDoesBecauseSheHasFiguredOutSheCanDoIt
#SheIsAlsoAReallySupportiveCheerleaderAtTheMomentWhoClapsEverythingIDoWhichIsGoodForMySelfEsteem
#IAmNotSureIfItIsHormonesOrWhatButIAmCurrentlyObsessedWithA30SecondSectionOfBatOutOfHellAndIKeepPlayingThatBitOnRepeat
#IHopeThatBabyXLikesMusicAndDancingAsMuchAsBDoesButIfNotThatIsFine
#IDoNotWantToWishTheirEarlyYearsAwayButIAlsoCanNotWaitToSeeTheBigHumansTheyTurnInto

(These shoots have been really stressing me out. I doubt I’ll get to 42 weeks, so I hope this is the last time I have to do one. I’m definitely disappointed that they don’t line up better – I wish I’d known that I’d repeat this shot, or thought about it more and made my life easier by standing or something.)

#IReallyDidNotThinkThatIWouldStillBePregnantAt40Weeks

I’ve been on high alert for 3 weeks as B was so early…

#ItIsNiceThatIHaveHadABitMoreTimeToMyselfBeforeBabyXArrivesThough

B’s at nursery 3 sessions a week, so I’ve had some time to get some things done and just feel less mentally exhausted.

#IReallyDoForgetAtTimesThatThereCouldBeABabyArrivingAnyDayNow

Tiago really does forget I think (I’m sure I say the same things every post now).

#ThoughSometimesIFeelLikeTheBabyIsComingAndISuddenlyFeelQuiteCalm

The other night in bed I thought ‘this is it’. Nope.

#LetUsHopeThatIFeelLikeThatWhenTheBabyIsActuallyComing

Fingers crossed. Probably not as when the baby is actually coming I need to get organised – finish packing the last bits of my hospital bag (things that I use every day like phone charger and toiletries), get B’s stuff organised etc.

#IThinkAtTheMomentItIsTheUnknownOfNotKnowingWhenTheBabyWillArriveThatIsMakingMeFeelABitStressed

I like to be organised. If I knew the baby was coming tomorrow I’d get stuff ready…

#IJustDoNotWantItToBeTheMiddleOfTheNightWhenMyParentsNeedToComeAndPickUpB

My waters broke with B at 1am, so let’s see.

#EspeciallyAsBIsAtNurseryAFewSessionsAWeekNowAndMyMumComesRoundAFewTimesAWeekSoIAmSureItWillHappenAtAVeryInconvenientTime

It would be great if it happened while B was at nursery or my Mum was already here. That’d be too convenient though.

#IAmPassingTheTimeByThinkingOfWhichDateIWouldLikeToGiveBirthOnAsILikeTheNumbersLikeToday

2/2/22 is cool.

#ButThenThatDatePassesAndIHaveToFindAnotherOneThatILikeButReallyItDoesNotMatter

The anniversary of our first date is coming up soon, but to be fair after today I care less.

#IHaveHadMegaPainInMyRightBoobAFewTimesSinceMyLastShoot

I still haven’t had any noticeable boob leaks this pregnancy.

#IHaveNotBotheredTryingToDoTheColostrumHarvestingYetButIMightStartTodayOrTomorrow

B came before I had the chance with her, but I just think it will not work for me. I’ll give it a go though… maybe.

#IWantedToGetToThisShootAndIHopeThisIsTheLastOneSoIThinkIWillStartTryingToDoAnythingToKickstartFullOnLabourNow

I feel like maybe I have been in early labour for a week, but it is hard to say without being examined every day. I want to avoid that until next week really…

#IThinkIWillTurnDownTheSweepThatIsScheduledForMeAsThereIsAnotherOneBookedInForAFewDaysLater

Reading about it it just seems like it increases the chance of you getting an infection, or your waters prematurely breaking which then puts you on a deadline and probably being induced.

#IJustDoNotWantToGetToThePointWhereIHaveToBeInducedThoughIWillBeSurprisedIfIDoButWhoKnows

[Trigger warning: Skip this part if you are pregnant and do not want to read something negative about inductions – don’t read the italics]

I was already feeling worried, and then someone in the park said their girlfriend was induced and she said if anyone tries to do that to her again to kick them in the face.

[Okay you can read again]

#AboutAWeekAgoIRealisedThatICanNoLongerDoTheInsideSectionOfMyCoatUp

I know that I could not do the outside up before I gave birth to B, but I’m not sure about the inside.

#SoWhenItIsColdIWearABigCardiganUnderneathMyCoatThoughTheWeatherWasReallyNiceYesterday

The cardigan makes me look super pregnant, geez. It’s so nice to have pleasant weather where I don’t have to put a million layers on B.

#WheneverIGoForWalksNowAndBumpIntoSomeoneIKnowTheyAlwaysSayTheyAreSurprisedToSeeMeOut

Someone was saying yesterday that they are surprised that I get out as much as I do. I’m trying to walk this baby out, but also I feel better for getting out of the house and moving about.

#IFeelLikeIHaveBecomeChattierWithMorePeopleOverTheLastFewWeeksAndKnowSomeMorePeople

I just know a lot of people with dogs, who generally talk to other people with dogs and so I get introduced to them. The bump is quite obvious now and a big talking point. It’s nice to chat to people.

#IAmDefinitelyWaddlingMoreNowEspeciallyIfIGoOutWithoutBAndThePushchair

When I’m with B we faff a lot and the pushchair gives me a lot of support. I walk less when I’m with B generally.

#IHaveBeenGaggingWheneverIBrushMyTeethInTheEveningForWeeksNowAndIAmBoredOfIt

I’ve mentioned it before. I brush my teeth after lunch and don’t feel sick then, it’s weird.

#IHaveATowelUnderneathTheBedsheetAndThenOneOnTopOfItInCaseMyWatersBreakWhenIAmInBed

I don’t want to ruin my Nan’s nice mattress. My waters might not break though. I feel like they’re more likely to break on a walk on a cold day and I’m freezing trying to get home quickly…

#SomeNightsISleepWellAndSomeNightsIWakeUpLoadsOrCanNotSleepForAnHourOrTwo

The other night I was awake for 2 hours. Yesterday I struggled to nap.

#YesterdayIBuiltBsTableAndChairsWhichWasANiceDistraction

We had them delivered to my parents’ house in case we were at the hospital, but (spoiler) we weren’t… I love building furniture.

#SheHadLunchAtItAndAteMoreCreamCheeseOnToastThanSheEverHasSoThatWasGood

She was probably just hungry, but she seemed happy there. I’m still going to give her breakfast and dinner in her high chair for now.

#ANewThingOfHersIsWalkingAroundOnHerTiptoesWhichIGuessSheDoesBecauseSheHasFiguredOutSheCanDoIt

Why not?

#SheIsAlsoAReallySupportiveCheerleaderAtTheMomentWhoClapsEverythingIDoWhichIsGoodForMySelfEsteem

It is quite funny. She will put something in the bin and clap for herself, which is fine until it is something that she shouldn’t put in the bin – like her cup or my Nan’s gardening gloves.

#IAmNotSureIfItIsHormonesOrWhatButIAmCurrentlyObsessedWithA30SecondSectionOfBatOutOfHellAndIKeepPlayingThatBitOnRepeat

I generally play from 8 to 9 minutes. So good.

#IHopeThatBabyXLikesMusicAndDancingAsMuchAsBDoesButIfNotThatIsFine

I do not want to compare them. They will like what they like and I’ll do my best to support their interests (if they are not illegal 🙂 )

#IDoNotWantToWishTheirEarlyYearsAwayButIAlsoCanNotWaitToSeeTheBigHumansTheyTurnInto

I’m so intrigued. B is constantly changing, which is amazing to see. The newborn phase will be over before I know it with Baby X.


Thanks for reading! If you’re enjoying my blog (and/or the work I make) please consider supporting me by ‘buying me a coffee’ on Ko-fi – thanks!