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Maybe This Will Be The Last Photo Of Me Pregnant In This Project (38 Weeks / 21st January 2022)

Self-portrait of me wearing a black dress. Only a couple of top buttons are done up, and I am pulling out the left side of my dress with my left hand to reveal my bump. My right hand is down to my side. The image cuts off by my knees.
Maybe This Will Be The Last Photo Of Me Pregnant In This Project (38 Weeks / 21st January 2022)
 
#IWasTakingPhotosInTheStyleOfMyMáscaraProjectLastWeekAndIWasMessingAroundWithMyDress
#IDidThisPoseAndILikeTheIdeaOfShowingMyBumpLikeSomeoneWithACoatFullOfWatchesSoIWantedToDoItAgainForThisProject
#ItHasOnlyBeenACoupleOfDaysSinceMyLastImageAndTextButIAlreadyFeelCalmer
#TwoNightsAgoBetweenBeingAwakeAndAsleepIWasImaginingThatIWasHavingContractions
#IFeltSurprisinglyRelaxedAsIWasLikeOkayItIsProbablyHappeningNow
#IWakeUpEveryHourOrSoEachNightNowWhichIsQuiteAnnoying
#EveryTimeIWakeUpIHaveToTurnOverAndIWonderIfMyWatersHaveBroken
#WithBMyWatersBrokeAndThenIWentToHospitalToBeCheckedAndWasNotAllowedToGoHomeAsSheWasBreech
#AsIJustLabouredThereIDidNotHaveToWorryAboutTransferringInOrAnything
#ThisTimeMyWatersMightNotBreakAndItWillProbablyBeACompletelyDifferentExperience
#ILikeToThinkThatIAmOrganisedAndILikeToFeelInControlSoIThinkThatIsWhyIDoNotLikeThisWaitingPeriodSoMuch
#YesterdayWhenIWasOutWithBIHadSomeReallyStrongCrampsButItMightHaveJustBeenFromPickingBUpABit
#MyLowerBackJustAchesALotOfTheTimeAndIDoHaveCrampsHereAndThere
#BabyXCouldArriveReallySoonOrSheCouldJustWaitUntilTheClockRunsOut
#IThinkIHaveSaidItALotButIAmReallyIntriguedToSeeHowBReactsToTheBaby
#BAndIWillStopAndChatToSixDogsAndTheirOwnersAroundHereNow
#WellIChatAndBWaitsPatientlyForMeUntilSheJustGetsUpAndWalksOff
#ItHasBeenNiceHavingMorePeopleToTalkAboutThisPregnancyWithInRealLifeAsInLiverpoolTAndIHadDailyWalksButSpokeToNoOne
#IMentionItAsOneOfTheWomenHasSaidSheCanNotWaitToSeeHowBIsWithTheBaby
#AFewWeeksAgoIStartedToDoAThingWhereWhenIGetToTheBottomOfTheStairsWhileCarryingBIInteractWithTheMirrorThere
#ThereAreFourLittleCirclesOnEachSideOfItWhereIPutMyFingerAndGoPsst
#ItWasABitRandomButItMadeHerLaughSoIAlwaysDoItNowAsILoveToMakeHerLaugh
#NowILetHerTouchTheSidesInsteadAndAfterwardsWePutOurIndexFingersTogetherAndGoPsstThoughSheIsYetToDoTheSounds
#SheLovesHerVitaminWaterWhichSoundsFancyButIsJustHerVitaminsMixedWithSomeWater
#IGiveItToHerWhenSheWakesUpInTheMorningAndAfterHerNap
#WhileSheWaitsForMeToMakeItSheWillSitOnTheFloorThoughSometimesSheWillStandUpAndHugMyLegThenSitBackDown
#YesterdayIPutOnAMaternitySlashBreastfeedingCardiganThatIBoughtWhenIWasPregnantWithHer
#IHaveNeverReallyWornItAsItWasSummerWhenSheWasBornButIWasColdAndItWasByMyHospitalBags
#ItIsQuiteBigAndICanHideBWhileIWearItWhichSheFindsFunnyAndIGetCuddlesWhichIsNice
#RestInPeaceMeatLoafWhoDiedYesterdayAndWhoseMusicIHaveReallyGottenIntoDuringThisPregnancyForSomeReason

#IWasTakingPhotosInTheStyleOfMyMáscaraProjectLastWeekAndIWasMessingAroundWithMyDress

I did the ‘usual nude’ photos, then some wearing a towel, then thought this dress would be good.

#IDidThisPoseAndILikeTheIdeaOfShowingMyBumpLikeSomeoneWithACoatFullOfWatchesSoIWantedToDoItAgainForThisProject

It’s also because I took photos of myself playing around with a black backdrop when I was pregnant with B, and this is a quicker way to get a playful effect…

#ItHasOnlyBeenACoupleOfDaysSinceMyLastImageAndTextButIAlreadyFeelCalmer

I think I am a bit more ready now. I keep thinking I should watch more hypnobirthing, but I know that I just need to remember to breathe and that’s it.

#TwoNightsAgoBetweenBeingAwakeAndAsleepIWasImaginingThatIWasHavingContractions

My bump had gone super tight, and then I think my mind went into overdrive.

#IFeltSurprisinglyRelaxedAsIWasLikeOkayItIsProbablyHappeningNow

But it obviously wasn’t… I felt relieved in ways as I do not like this waiting.

#IWakeUpEveryHourOrSoEachNightNowWhichIsQuiteAnnoying

Luckily I have been getting better at going back to sleep. The other night I was awake from 3 to 5, and that was really annoying.

#EveryTimeIWakeUpIHaveToTurnOverAndIWonderIfMyWatersHaveBroken

Turning over is uncomfortable. I usually go to the loo as well as getting up relieves my hips of pressure briefly.

#WithBMyWatersBrokeAndThenIWentToHospitalToBeCheckedAndWasNotAllowedToGoHomeAsSheWasBreech

It feels so long ago now, but it was June 2020.

#AsIJustLabouredThereIDidNotHaveToWorryAboutTransferringInOrAnything

I had a deadline (if I wasn’t in labour by 6pm I would have had to have a C-section) and I knew I had to get into the ‘zone’. I think not being moved about probably helped.

#ThisTimeMyWatersMightNotBreakAndItWillProbablyBeACompletelyDifferentExperience

I’m not entirely convinced that this baby isn’t breech, or will not be by the time I give birth though. I do think I might be at home longer though. Having B complicates things as my Mum needs to come and get her, if she isn’t here already etc.

#ILikeToThinkThatIAmOrganisedAndILikeToFeelInControlSoIThinkThatIsWhyIDoNotLikeThisWaitingPeriodSoMuch

I do not like the uncertainty. I like to know what is going to happen. I have no clue.

#YesterdayWhenIWasOutWithBIHadSomeReallyStrongCrampsButItMightHaveJustBeenFromPickingBUpABit

My Nan tells me off for picking her up when she sees me doing it, but sometimes it needs to be done.

#MyLowerBackJustAchesALotOfTheTimeAndIDoHaveCrampsHereAndThere

My back is aching a lot at the moment, and I stretched this morning.

#BabyXCouldArriveReallySoonOrSheCouldJustWaitUntilTheClockRunsOut

I really hope she comes soon. I feel more ready now. I’m bored of these pains.

#IThinkIHaveSaidItALotButIAmReallyIntriguedToSeeHowBReactsToTheBaby

She really doesn’t know how much her life is about to change…

#BAndIWillStopAndChatToSixDogsAndTheirOwnersAroundHereNow

I think it’s 6, possibly more.

#WellIChatAndBWaitsPatientlyForMeUntilSheJustGetsUpAndWalksOff

She just wants to get to the playground, but I’m always keen for a chat.

#ItHasBeenNiceHavingMorePeopleToTalkAboutThisPregnancyWithInRealLifeAsInLiverpoolTAndIHadDailyWalksButSpokeToNoOne

It’s from having B and always being out and about our local area. Some I know as they talk to other dog owners and so I have got to know them that way. It’s really nice going for a walk and sometimes having a chat with three people. B isn’t so impressed though…

#IMentionItAsOneOfTheWomenHasSaidSheCanNotWaitToSeeHowBIsWithTheBaby

I’ve said I’ll show her a video of B meeting the baby for the first time – if we remember to do it.

#AFewWeeksAgoIStartedToDoAThingWhereWhenIGetToTheBottomOfTheStairsWhileCarryingBIInteractWithTheMirrorThere

It’s usually after her afternoon nap, but sometimes in the morning as well.

#ThereAreFourLittleCirclesOnEachSideOfItWhereIPutMyFingerAndGoPsst

Like little mirrors within the big mirror.

#ItWasABitRandomButItMadeHerLaughSoIAlwaysDoItNowAsILoveToMakeHerLaugh

The clown training I did in London is really paying off.

#NowILetHerTouchTheSidesInsteadAndAfterwardsWePutOurIndexFingersTogetherAndGoPsstThoughSheIsYetToDoTheSounds

It’s just a nice little thing that we do.

#SheLovesHerVitaminWaterWhichSoundsFancyButIsJustHerVitaminsMixedWithSomeWater

I’ve mentioned it before. It was easier to give it to her in her water when she was younger, and it encourages her to drink so it’s fine. I really don’t like the taste of it, but she only has plain water or milk otherwise, so it’s probably exciting to her.

#IGiveItToHerWhenSheWakesUpInTheMorningAndAfterHerNap

Fun fact.

#WhileSheWaitsForMeToMakeItSheWillSitOnTheFloorThoughSometimesSheWillStandUpAndHugMyLegThenSitBackDown

Too cute.

#YesterdayIPutOnAMaternitySlashBreastfeedingCardiganThatIBoughtWhenIWasPregnantWithHer

I took a photo of me wearing it when I was pregnant with B, and that might have been the only time I wore it.

#IHaveNeverReallyWornItAsItWasSummerWhenSheWasBornButIWasColdAndItWasByMyHospitalBags

It’s definitely more appropriate for a winter baby, which was probably why it was on sale. It definitely warmed me up.

#ItIsQuiteBigAndICanHideBWhileIWearItWhichSheFindsFunnyAndIGetCuddlesWhichIsNice

I asked if I could have a hug and she ignored me. Then I opened up my cardigan and she ran to me. Tiago came in the room and I held it out wide to hide her from view, so she had a laugh while Tiago pretended that he couldn’t see her and looked for her.

#RestInPeaceMeatLoafWhoDiedYesterdayAndWhoseMusicIHaveReallyGottenIntoDuringThisPregnancyForSomeReason

I only knew a couple of his songs until 6ish months ago, but then suddenly really got into a lot more of his music. He’s been the soundtrack to a lot of B’s meals, and weirdly yesterday I suddenly had an urge to listen to his music after having a bit of a break. Thanks for the music Meat Loaf.

Me dancing to Meat Loaf at 32 weeks pregnant. This song was the first track that I added to my birth playlist.

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B And The Bump (35 Weeks / 28th December 2021)

Self-portrait where I am holding B above my bump. She has my hair in her hands and is hiding her eyes. I am kissing her on her forehead.
B And The Bump (35 Weeks / 28th December 2021)
 
#ITookAPhotoOfMeHoldingBWhenIWas24WeeksPregnantAndYouCanSeeABitOfABumpButItIsDefinitelyMorePronouncedNow
#SoIWantToDoASimilarShootAsTimeIsRunningOutAndItCouldBeTheLastPhotoOfBWithMyBump
#IAmDefinitelyGettingToThePointOfBeingBoredWithBeingPregnant
#IDoNotLikeAcidRefluxAndNotBeingAbleToEatAsMuchAsIWant
#IWillEatSomethingAndKnowThatIWillFeelAwfulLaterWhichIsLotsOfFun
#IAmJustGladThatIHaveMoreEnergyNowAndFeelQuiteFit
#IAmNotSureIfIHadAnySideEffectsFromMyBoosterAsIFeltSoRubbishInTheWeekLeadingUpToItAndFeltMuchBetterByTheTimeIHadIt
#ChristmasWasVeryQuietAndWasJustNanTBAndIInTheEnd
#BHadAFewPresentsButNoneFromUsAsWeGotHerHerClimbingFrameAndSlideInTheSummerAndAnythingWeBuyForHerWeGenerallyJustGiveToHerStraightAway
#SheHasACoupleOfMolarsComingThroughAndSheWasInAFunnyMoodAllXmasDay
#IHopeThisTeethingStopsSoonButSheStillHasSpaceInHerMouthForMore
#HerConjunctivitisHasClearedUpNowWhichWeAreRelievedAbout
#WeUsuallyBathHerACoupleOfTimesAWeekButWeWereGivingHerDailyBathsToMakeSureHerEyesWereClean
#IAmSurprisedByHowMuchSheLikesWaterAndDidNotMindUsThrowingWaterAtHerFace
#ThisWeekSheSeemsToHaveLearnedWhatEarsAreAndWhenIAskHerWhereMineAreSheSticksAFingerInMyEar
#IAmNowTryingToTeachHerCheeks
#WhenWePutHerInHerHighchairAndPutHerFoxBibOnMostOfTheTimeSheWillTouchItsNose
#WhenSheFinishesHerBreakfastNowSheUsuallyPassesMeHerBowlWhichIsGood
#IThinkSheHasOfficiallyGrownTiredOfBakedBeansForLunchSoWeAreTryingOutDifferentThings
#WhileSheWasReallyIllSheWasNotEatingMuchSoItIsGoodToSeeHerGettingAnAppetiteAgain
#IGenerallyStruggleABitThisTimeOfTheYearWithMyMentalHealth
#TheOtherDayIJustFeltReallyTrappedInThisHouse
#WeArePlanningToMoveAwayInTheSummerSoIJustNeedToHoldOutUntilThen
#IMissHavingAPlaceOfOurOwnAndIGuessCovidHasComplicatedMatters
#IfItWasNotForCovidThenWeProbablyWouldNotBeHereOrInBirmingham
#ItHasBeenGoodInWaysButIHaveFoundItHardInOtherWays
#IGuessHavingASecondChildSoonWillBeABigDistractionAndTheMonthsWillFlyBy
#IWouldLikeToKnowMorePeopleButItAlsoSeemsABitLateNowIfWePlanToMoveAway
#IJustFeelLikeEveryDayIsTheSameAndWithASecondChildItMayFeelMoreThatWay
#INeedToStartGoingToBedEarlierAsIHaveBeenStayingUpTooLateWatchingShowsAndReadingIGuessAsIKnowThatWhenBabyXIsBornINeedToStartGoingToBedWhenTheyDo

#ITookAPhotoOfMeHoldingBWhenIWas24WeeksPregnantAndYouCanSeeABitOfABumpButItIsDefinitelyMorePronouncedNow

For my 33rd birthday portrait / marking B’s 16 month birthday. Post here.

#SoIWantToDoASimilarShootAsTimeIsRunningOutAndItCouldBeTheLastPhotoOfBWithMyBump

We will see how it goes. B was not very happy last time…

(I put off doing it all day, but in the end it was actually quite nice. She was unhappy at first, but then she started to just play with my hair and seemed to relax. Phew.)

#IAmDefinitelyGettingToThePointOfBeingBoredWithBeingPregnant

I know that once the baby is born my life will change a lot again, but I also just want to move on with our lives.

#IDoNotLikeAcidRefluxAndNotBeingAbleToEatAsMuchAsIWant

So much rich, fatty food at Xmas that is not good for acid reflux…

#IWillEatSomethingAndKnowThatIWillFeelAwfulLaterWhichIsLotsOfFun

Yesterday I had pizza for lunch and a few chocolates afterwards, and I didn’t feel as bad as I thought I would actually. Hurrah.

#IAmJustGladThatIHaveMoreEnergyNowAndFeelQuiteFit

I feel like I am not waddling as much as I was at this point when I was pregnant with B, but maybe it’s because I walk slower and not as far with B, and her pushchair gives me support.

#IAmNotSureIfIHadAnySideEffectsFromMyBoosterAsIFeltSoRubbishInTheWeekLeadingUpToItAndFeltMuchBetterByTheTimeIHadIt

It was hard to tell. I couldn’t feel more lousier than I did before having it.

#ChristmasWasVeryQuietAndWasJustNanTBAndIInTheEnd

Super chill.

#BHadAFewPresentsButNoneFromUsAsWeGotHerHerClimbingFrameAndSlideInTheSummerAndAnythingWeBuyForHerWeGenerallyJustGiveToHerStraightAway

I’d got her some felt tips the week before, but my Mum also gave her some. I guess next year we will have to be more Christmassy.

#SheHasACoupleOfMolarsComingThroughAndSheWasInAFunnyMoodAllXmasDay

It was a bit of a drag at times.

#IHopeThisTeethingStopsSoonButSheStillHasSpaceInHerMouthForMore

*Nervous laugh*

#HerConjunctivitisHasClearedUpNowWhichWeAreRelievedAbout

Hurrah. We’re still trying to clean her eyes a couple of times a day though, just in case it wants to come back.

#WeUsuallyBathHerACoupleOfTimesAWeekButWeWereGivingHerDailyBathsToMakeSureHerEyesWereClean

She loved it. We weren’t planning to give her a bath last night, but she went to the bathroom and looked longingly at the bath. It helps the time before bed go faster, and probably relaxes her so why not. She also uses a lot of energy up splashing about…

#IAmSurprisedByHowMuchSheLikesWaterAndDidNotMindUsThrowingWaterAtHerFace

She has a whale jug that we use and normally splash about with, so we’d splash her and say splash, and she’d laugh. Win.

#ThisWeekSheSeemsToHaveLearnedWhatEarsAreAndWhenIAskHerWhereMineAreSheSticksAFingerInMyEar

Lovely.

#IAmNowTryingToTeachHerCheeks

A lot of blowing my cheeks out and squeezing them.

#WhenWePutHerInHerHighchairAndPutHerFoxBibOnMostOfTheTimeSheWillTouchItsNose

Then I ask her where hers is etc.

#WhenSheFinishesHerBreakfastNowSheUsuallyPassesMeHerBowlWhichIsGood

I don’t like when she starts throwing her food about, so this is good progress. Last night she passed me her yoghurt bowl when she was done.

#IThinkSheHasOfficiallyGrownTiredOfBakedBeansForLunchSoWeAreTryingOutDifferentThings

She had a houmous sandwich the other day, she had some pasta, yeah we need to mix it up more. Sorry B – I got lazy.

#WhileSheWasReallyIllSheWasNotEatingMuchSoItIsGoodToSeeHerGettingAnAppetiteAgain

I was getting a bit worried, though I know she will eat when she wants. She might not eat much of her food sometimes, but she will always steal a bit of whatever we are eating.

#IGenerallyStruggleABitThisTimeOfTheYearWithMyMentalHealth

Dark days where we can’t go out for walks so late etc.

#TheOtherDayIJustFeltReallyTrappedInThisHouse

We’ve lived here for 14 months now, and we’re very grateful to my Nan for letting us live with her.

#WeArePlanningToMoveAwayInTheSummerSoIJustNeedToHoldOutUntilThen

There aren’t many short term options now and it does not seem worth it now.

#IMissHavingAPlaceOfOurOwnAndIGuessCovidHasComplicatedMatters

It’s good to know that Nan is fine and that she is being looked after, but I also can’t wait to have our own place where I feel a bit more relaxed.

#IfItWasNotForCovidThenWeProbablyWouldNotBeHereOrInBirmingham

T and I were talking about how things might be now if it wasn’t for Covid. I’m really not sure. I guess we might have moved closer to a park in Liverpool, or we might have just put up with living in the city centre (it wasn’t that much of a chore, but just not that kid friendly) and I’d be taking B to the museums every day…

#ItHasBeenGoodInWaysButIHaveFoundItHardInOtherWays

There’s space for us at my Nan’s, I haven’t been worried about her (I used to call her every day before living with her), she lives in a safe area and close to a park etc.

I just feel trapped as there aren’t many places to go within walking distance, Covid makes me not want to go to the few places that we could go to, I don’t know many people etc.

#IGuessHavingASecondChildSoonWillBeABigDistractionAndTheMonthsWillFlyBy

Once the baby is born I guess I will go into a baby tunnel.

#IWouldLikeToKnowMorePeopleButItAlsoSeemsABitLateNowIfWePlanToMoveAway

It’s been so difficult trying to meet other parents. Everyone has their old schedules too which makes it more complicated. We can’t invite new friends round to my Nan’s (well we could, but it’s not the best set-up), and I don’t feel that comfortable with going to other people’s homes, because of Covid.

#IJustFeelLikeEveryDayIsTheSameAndWithASecondChildItMayFeelMoreThatWay

I’ve been complaining about Groundhog Day vibes for a while. I’m glad we’re having a second kid now though, rather than leaving it until later. It does make sense as I’m really not up to much.

#INeedToStartGoingToBedEarlierAsIHaveBeenStayingUpTooLateWatchingShowsAndReadingIGuessAsIKnowThatWhenBabyXIsBornINeedToStartGoingToBedWhenTheyDo

I finished reading House of Gucci yesterday. I’m currently watching a series of Survivor Australia at 2x speed, and skipping through it a bit as the episodes are too long.

I need to read my hypnobirthing book again, and just go to bed earlier.

35 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait with my hands supporting my bump, and a patch of dried colostrum is visible on my dress by where my right nipple is.
Yes, That Is Dried Colostrum (35 weeks)
 
#InMyHeadIHaveBeenCountingDownTo42Weeks
#AsTheySayThatUsuallyYourFirstBabyArrivesLate
#ButTalkingToPeopleLatelyEveryonesStorySeemsToInvolveTheBabyComingEarly
#SoIGuessNowThereIsAChanceThatEveryShootForThisProjectCouldBeTheLast
#BabyDefinitelySeemsMoreActiveTheseDays
#SoMaybeItHasJustGotToThePointWhereItsMovementsAreNotShelteredByThePlacentaSoMuch
#LastNightIWasHavingALotOfBraxtonHicksContractionsIThink
#SomeWereQuitePainful
#WhenBabyHiccupsItIsQuiteUncomfortable
#ThisMorningTiagoPointedToAWetPatchOnMyDress
#MyRightBoobHadLeaked
#ItHasBeen6WeeksSinceMyLeftBoobFirstLeaked
#IThinkOneOfThemHasLeakedSinceButICanNotRememberWhichOneAndItDidNotSeemThatSignificant
#TodayItDidForSomeReason
#SoMaybeMyRightBoobHasLeakedBefore
#IHaveAScratchOnMyBellyWhichIMustHaveDoneWithAFingerNail
#TiagoAlsoHadToPointThatOutAsICouldNotSeeIt
#YesterdayIWentOutByMyselfForTheFirstTimeSinceBeforeLockdown
#IWentForAWalkWhilstTiagoWentToTheSupermarket
#IFeltSelfConsciousByMyselfAsINoticedPeopleStaringAtMyBump
#IWalkedOnTheSideOfThePathAndYetPeopleWouldPassSuperCloseByMe
#IWasOnThePhoneTheWholeTimeSoItMadeItNotSoBad
#WeFinallyGotSomeWholemealFlourSoIPlanToMakeSomePancakes
#IHaveNotHadThemInSoLong
#IDidNotAskTiagoToBuyMyFavouriteChocolateOatMilkAsIThoughtIShouldHaveAWeekWithoutIt
#ButNowIReallyWantSome
#IThinkLockdownIsStartingToGetToMeALittleMoreNow
#IJustWantToSpendAWeekendAtMyNansAndKeepHerCompany
#ButItIsLookingLikeItWillNotHappenBeforeTheBabyIsBornDueToRulesAndAll
#AndOnceTheBabyIsBornIDoNotThinkItWillBeAGoodIdeaForABit

Lol at the first two hashtags – B came before 38 weeks.

I thought I leaked a lot earlier than this, so I feel a little less worried now. I got given a colostrum kit today. (Oh wait, it said I leaked 6 weeks before.)

I still don’t like hiccups. I didn’t think that B was that active, but this baby is a lot more active.

I go out loads without Tiago, but usually just for walks with B. I do go to the local shops by myself sometimes, and I went to my midwife appointment alone today.

When I picked up B’s prescription a woman with a walking stick said I should sit down on the chair, so I must be looking quite pregnant to other people.

I’ve been on about making pancakes for a long time, and I haven’t. I finally bought some maple syrup the other day, so I should try to do it soon. Reading this makes me want some now.

‘#IJustWantToSpendAWeekendAtMyNansAndKeepHerCompany’

Well, we’ve spent many weekends with her over the last year+…

Self-portrait of Tiago and me hugging. We are hugging so that my bump is to the side of him.
Hugs Are Different When You’ve Got A Bump (35 weeks)

#ThePictureWasSupposedToShowHowWeHaveToHugNow
#ThoughIAmNotSureHowWellItShowsThat
#IAmSoUnawareOfHowBigMyBumpIsSometimes
#LookingDownIsSoDifferentToSeeingItSideOnInTheMirror
#WellEvenLookingDownIKnowItIsBig
#ButStillIBumpIntoThings
#INearlyKnockedAPlateOffTheTableTheOtherDayWithIt
#OrITryToGiveTiagoAHugFromBehindAndJustBumpIntoHim
#IHaveToHugHimWithMyBumpToTheSide
#HeOnlyGoesToTheBigSupermarketOnceAWeek
#ButWeGoToASmallShopOnceAWeekForBitsAndBobsWeNeed
#LikeTomatoesAndMushroomsAsWeSeemToRunOutOfThoseQuick
#SoTodayIAskedForSomeChocolateMilkAsIHaveBeenThinkingAboutItForAFewDays
#ItIsNotMyFavouriteOneAsYouCanOnlyGetThatAtTheBigSupermarket
#ThatIsProbablyBoringButIAmHappyThatIGotSome
#TodayIBoughtSomeMaternityPants
#IDoNotKnowIfIHaveAHomebirthIfIWillGetGivenThoseHospitalStylePants
#SoIBoughtSomeAsWhenIThinkOfPhotographingMyselfPostBirthIThinkOfAPhotoByRinekeDijkstraWithTheMotherWearingThosePants
#ThoughActuallyInTheOtherTwoPicturesTheyAreNotWearingPants
#WeShallSeeHowSoonIEndUpTakingAPictureAfterBirth
#TheMoreIThinkAboutItTheMoreIWantPicturesOfTheBirth
#ButIGuessItDependsOnHowThingsGo
#AndIThinkTiagoDoesNotWantTheResponsibilityOfTakingPictures
#AndWeBothWantToJustExperienceTheBirthAsMuchAsWeCanWithoutDistractions
#IAlsoBoughtADressThatICanNurseIn
#IBoughtABreastfeedingScarfAWhileAgoForMorePrivacy
#ButAtThisRateIDoubtIWillBeDoingMuchFeedingAwayFromHome
#IAmIWillNotFeelSelfConsciousDoingIt
#IThinkTheBabysNeedWillOverTakeAwkwardnessOrIHopeSoAnyways
#ItIsSuchANaturalThingThatItIsAShameThatPeopleGetOffendedByIt

Yeah, we have to hug like that again now.

I’m definitely bumping my bump into things, and Tiago often knocks it as he goes past…

I didn’t use my maternity pants, but I’ve dug them out as a maybe for my hospital bag this time.

I definitely want to get a picture or two of me giving birth this time, but we’ll see.

I never used the breastfeeding scarf… I hope breastfeeding is easier this time.


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Imitating B With Conjunctivitis (34 Weeks / 24th December 2021)

Self-portrait with makeup around my eyes to make them look a bit sore/like when B had conjunctivitis.
Imitating B With Conjunctivitis (34 Weeks / 24th December 2021)
 
#ImitatingBWithTwoRedEyesDueToConjunctivitisIsNotTheNicestPortraitICouldTakeButItHasDominatedOurWeek
#ISeemToHaveBeenInSimilarHealthToHowIWas6WeeksAgoWhenIWasBeingSickALotAndFeelingWeakInGeneral
#IWentToBedFiveDaysAgoFeelingSickAndWokeUpAt1AndWasSickThenSickAgainAnHourLaterAndThenAgainNotLongAfterThat
#ITriedToHaveAShowerAndSleepOnTheSofaButMyNanAlsoCouldNotSleepSoWantedAShowerAndCameIntoTheLivingRoomEarly
#SoIWentBackToBedButDidNotSleepMuchAndKeptBeingSickUntilAbout11ThoughItWasJustWaterThatWasComingUp
#TypicallyItWasTheOneDayWhereBDidNotHaveNurseryAndMyMumWasNotComingOverButTiagoManagedToWorkWhileWatchingBAndIHadALieDown
#InTheAfternoonIHadABathAndBWasQuiteHappyJustSplashingHerHandsInTheWaterAndDroppingHerToysIn
#BHasANewTrickOfPuttingStuffInTheBinAndRippingToiletPaperAndLiftingTheToiletLidUpToPutItInTheToilet
#ITryToDiscourageHerButEvenGettingHerHandTrappedACoupleOfTimesHasNotPutHerOff
#ThisIsProbablyHowSheHasGotConjunctivitisOrMaybeSheGotItFromNursery
#IHadNoticedHerEyesWereABitGunkyButThoughtItWouldPassButByTheNextDayItWasWorse
#IWentToOurLocalPharmacyToGetEyeDropsButTheyWereClosedDueToStaffSickness
#SoMyMumWentToADifferentOneButTheySaidThatTheDropsWereOnlySuitableFor2AndOver
#IKeptWashingHerEyesWithCooledBoiledWaterAndTriedASlightlySaltySolutionTooWhichMightBeWhyTheSkinAroundHerEyesWasSuperRed
#MyDoctorsAreOnlyReallyDealingWithBoostersAtTheMomentSoIWaitedForHalfAnHourToSpeakToTheWalkInCentreButHadCalledAnotherDoctorsByMistake
#SoIWaitedAnotherHalfAnHourToActuallySpeakToTheWalkInAndTheySaidSomeoneWouldCallLater
#TypicallyTheyCalledThe10MinutesThatIWasAwayFromMyPhoneAsBWasAsleepOnMeInHerRoomAndIThoughtIWasJustGoingInToGetHerUpFromHerNap
#After3HoursICalledAgainAndTheySaidSomeoneWouldCallWithinAnHourButTheyCalledBackAbout3HoursLaterAtAround6
#TheCallWasShortAndHePrescribedEyeOintmentThatHeSaidWasOkayForUnder2s
#IShouldHaveAskedForHimWhichPharmacyWasStillOpenButInsteadIHadItSentToOurLocalOneForTheMorning
#WeGotItInTheMorningButSheHadToMissNurseryAsSheWasTooIllToGoReally
#IWasReallyLookingForwardToJustHavingSomeTimeInBedToRestAndRecoverButOhWell
#TiagoWasAlsoFeelingWeakAsHeHadHisBoosterSoWeHaveBeenAVeryFunFamilyThisWeek
#ItIsTheFirstTimeThatWeHaveAllBeenUnderTheWeatherTogetherAndIHopeItDoesNotHappenAgainForAWhile
#TodayWasTheFirstDayIHadEnoughEnergyToDoMyUsualMorningStretchingAndMyAppetiteIsPrettyMuchBackToNormalNow
#IHadMyBoosterVaccineYesterdayAndItWasSoQuickAndOrganisedThisTimeWhichWasGreat
#IAmSoGladThatTheBabyDidNotComeThisWeekAsIHadNoEnergyAtAllSoNowINeedToMakeSureIFeelGoodForWhenLabourBegins
#MyAcidRefluxHasBeenPrettyBadForACoupleOfWeeksSoIAmLookingForwardToThatBeingOver
#HadMy34WeekMidwifeAppointmentAndAllIsFineAlthoughTheBabyIsCurrentlyHeadDownButBackToBack
#ISaidAtLeastTheyAreNotBreechButTheWomanSaidItWouldBeASlowLongLabourWithALotOfBackPainSoLetsHopeTheyMoveBeforeThen

#ImitatingBWithTwoRedEyesDueToConjunctivitisIsNotTheNicestPortraitICouldTakeButItHasDominatedOurWeek

B cries whenever she sees me coming towards her with cotton wool, and giving her ointment is an experience every time.

#ISeemToHaveBeenInSimilarHealthToHowIWas6WeeksAgoWhenIWasBeingSickALotAndFeelingWeakInGeneral

Great.

#IWentToBedFiveDaysAgoFeelingSickAndWokeUpAt1AndWasSickThenSickAgainAnHourLaterAndThenAgainNotLongAfterThat

It’s horrid. My throat then hurt from being sick so much. Fun.

#ITriedToHaveAShowerAndSleepOnTheSofaButMyNanAlsoCouldNotSleepSoWantedAShowerAndCameIntoTheLivingRoomEarly

I wanted to feel nice after all the sick, but it was not meant to be. I thought sleeping on the sofa would be best as to not wake T and B up when I was being sick.

#SoIWentBackToBedButDidNotSleepMuchAndKeptBeingSickUntilAbout11ThoughItWasJustWaterThatWasComingUp

Lovely. It was a long night. I don’t like those nights.

#TypicallyItWasTheOneDayWhereBDidNotHaveNurseryAndMyMumWasNotComingOverButTiagoManagedToWorkWhileWatchingBAndIHadALieDown

He’s got 6 days off over Xmas (it’s currently day 2), so he didn’t want to take more time off. I felt so weak that I could not do much, so lying down in bed was good but I could not sleep.

#InTheAfternoonIHadABathAndBWasQuiteHappyJustSplashingHerHandsInTheWaterAndDroppingHerToysIn

I should have a bath on days like that in future, as it’s a good way to keep B occupied while I don’t feel too crummy as I’m relaxing and resting.

#BHasANewTrickOfPuttingStuffInTheBinAndRippingToiletPaperAndLiftingTheToiletLidUpToPutItInTheToilet

It seemed cute, but obviously we need to properly wash her hands after every time she does it now.

#ITryToDiscourageHerButEvenGettingHerHandTrappedACoupleOfTimesHasNotPutHerOff

I don’t like her wasting toilet paper. We should buy a toilet seat lock really.

#ThisIsProbablyHowSheHasGotConjunctivitisOrMaybeSheGotItFromNursery

She’s had a cold from nursery for over a week.

#IHadNoticedHerEyesWereABitGunkyButThoughtItWouldPassButByTheNextDayItWasWorse

Fail. I just thought it was a bit of sleep or something.

#IWentToOurLocalPharmacyToGetEyeDropsButTheyWereClosedDueToStaffSickness

Great.

#SoMyMumWentToADifferentOneButTheySaidThatTheDropsWereOnlySuitableFor2AndOver

Also great.

#IKeptWashingHerEyesWithCooledBoiledWaterAndTriedASlightlySaltySolutionTooWhichMightBeWhyTheSkinAroundHerEyesWasSuperRed

I wish she understood that we’re trying to help her feel better. It’s such a struggle to try to get them better.

#MyDoctorsAreOnlyReallyDealingWithBoostersAtTheMomentSoIWaitedForHalfAnHourToSpeakToTheWalkInCentreButHadCalledAnotherDoctorsByMistake

Ergh.

#SoIWaitedAnotherHalfAnHourToActuallySpeakToTheWalkInAndTheySaidSomeoneWouldCallLater

Cool.

#TypicallyTheyCalledThe10MinutesThatIWasAwayFromMyPhoneAsBWasAsleepOnMeInHerRoomAndIThoughtIWasJustGoingInToGetHerUpFromHerNap

She woke up early. I planned to get her up, but then wanted to soothe her a bit and she fell asleep on me while I sat on her beanbag. I had to wake her up as my back was hurting and I was bored sitting in the dark without my phone – I would have read my book.

#After3HoursICalledAgainAndTheySaidSomeoneWouldCallWithinAnHourButTheyCalledBackAbout3HoursLaterAtAround6

I understand they’re busy and swamped, so it’s fair enough. I just don’t like waiting around for calls.

#TheCallWasShortAndHePrescribedEyeOintmentThatHeSaidWasOkayForUnder2s

He said that the drops is not okay for under 2s, but the ointment is.

#IShouldHaveAskedForHimWhichPharmacyWasStillOpenButInsteadIHadItSentToOurLocalOneForTheMorning

I hoped that they would be open.

#WeGotItInTheMorningButSheHadToMissNurseryAsSheWasTooIllToGoReally

The instructions said it wasn’t for under 2s, but the NHS website says that chloramphenicol eye stuff can be prescribed for under 2s by a Doctor.

#IWasReallyLookingForwardToJustHavingSomeTimeInBedToRestAndRecoverButOhWell

I was looking forward to just lying down for 4 hours, watching a bit of TV and resting.

#TiagoWasAlsoFeelingWeakAsHeHadHisBoosterSoWeHaveBeenAVeryFunFamilyThisWeek

We had an orzo dish on Sunday night that I’m bored of, but Tiago loves. I threw that up, then didn’t have much on Monday night, but Tiago did and was sick on Tuesday morning. Maybe it was the orzo that triggered off my ‘illness’? Who knows? I’m glad that Tiago doesn’t want to eat it for a while now.

#ItIsTheFirstTimeThatWeHaveAllBeenUnderTheWeatherTogetherAndIHopeItDoesNotHappenAgainForAWhile

I don’t like feeling so weak and helpless.

#TodayWasTheFirstDayIHadEnoughEnergyToDoMyUsualMorningStretchingAndMyAppetiteIsPrettyMuchBackToNormalNow

I kept forcing myself to eat for the baby, but it’s been tough. It’s nice to enjoy food again – just in time for Xmas.

#IHadMyBoosterVaccineYesterdayAndItWasSoQuickAndOrganisedThisTimeWhichWasGreat

Tiago dropped me off and I was confused as they’d moved from a marquee in a car park, into a building. It was so efficient. 5 stars.

I’m still not feeling 100%, which may be down to the booster, but as I felt so bad earlier in the week I feel quite good.

#IAmSoGladThatTheBabyDidNotComeThisWeekAsIHadNoEnergyAtAllSoNowINeedToMakeSureIFeelGoodForWhenLabourBegins

I don’t want to feel that weak again for a long time.

#MyAcidRefluxHasBeenPrettyBadForACoupleOfWeeksSoIAmLookingForwardToThatBeingOver

I went to get something for it, but the pharmacist said it’s best to avoid taking anything really. Being ill this week has meant I haven’t overeaten, so I just need to keep to smaller meals and I sleep with my head elevated, which is meant to be a good thing.

#HadMy34WeekMidwifeAppointmentAndAllIsFineAlthoughTheBabyIsCurrentlyHeadDownButBackToBack #ISaidAtLeastTheyAreNotBreechButTheWomanSaidItWouldBeASlowLongLabourWithALotOfBackPainSoLetsHopeTheyMoveBeforeThen

Well, B was head down in the opposite to back to back until the day before she was born so fingers crossed. Reading about it, it looks like I just need to sit leaning forwards more, not sleep on my back (I often wake up on my back and can’t be bothered to shift), and a lot of babies turn round during labour.

34 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait where I am squatting while in my bra and pants, but my pants are barely visible due to my bump.
I Know It Does Not Look Like It But Swear That I Am Wearing Pants (34 weeks)
 
#TimeIsFlyingBy
#LastNightIHadTheWorstNightsSleepInAges
#JustWakingUpConstantlyAndHavingWeirdDreams
#IPlannedToHaveALieInButOfCourseIWokeUpEarlyAndCouldNotFallBackToSleep
#ItWasGettingLateAndIHadNotFeltTheBabyMovingSoIWasGettingWorried
#EventuallyIFeltMovementsAndWasRelieved
#LastNightTiagoFellAsleepSpooningMyBump
#ISawTheCarSeatTodayAndFreakedOutALittleThinkingWhyDoWeHaveACarSeat
#IMomentarilyForgotIWasPregnant
#WhichIsWeirdAsItDefinitelyIsGettingUncomfortableNow
#TiagoSaidThatHeHasNoticedOnOurDailyWalksThatIAmStartingToWalkABitWeird
#IAskedHimDoYouMeanIAmWaddling
#HeSaidYes
#IDoNotThinkItIsVeryPronouncedButIGuessItMustBeEnoughForTiagoToNotice
#IProbablyWouldNotHaveChosenToBePregnantDuringAPandemic
#ButAtTheSameTimeIFeelLikeIAmNotMissingOutOnStuff
#AndItIsNiceToHaveSomeKindOfCountdown
#AsIThinkALotOfPeopleAreJustWaitingForThingsToChange
#IThoughtMyProjectTitleWasSmartWhenICameUpWithItEarlyOn
#NowItWouldBeMoreLike
#WaitingForThingsInATimeWhenEveryoneIsWaitingForSomething
#ButIGuessTheOldTitleKindOfAppliesToOurEra
#UnlessThingsWillNeverBeTheSameAgain
#WellLikeIHaveSaidBeforeThingsWillNeverBeTheSameAgainForMeAnywaysOnceTheBabyIsBorn
#ThingsWillBeDifferentForTiagoTooButNotToTheSameExtent
#HisBodyWillBeTheSameAndHisWorkShouldStillBeFairlyTheSame
#BeforeIWasPregnantWeWerePrettyMuchTheSameSize
#SameHeightSameShoeSizeICouldWearHisClothesApartFromTrousersWhichICouldFitInButWereALittleTooTight
#IAmJustHappyThatIAmStillExercisingAndIThinkStartingWhenIWasMoreAbleToHelped
#TheSameVideosThatIHaveBeenDoingForMonthsAreGettingHarderToDoNow

Good to know my sleep was also rubbish at 34 weeks last time, but I wasn’t being super sick/feeling weak. I was often waking up at 5 and not being able to sleep again, but with B I am more tired so tend to sleep until she wakes up.

I’m having a lot of weird dreams at the moment too. Super vivid.

I don’t think I am waddling too much at the moment, but usually when I walk I am behind B’s pushchair so it is good support.

This time I did choose to be pregnant during a pandemic. I didn’t think it would be getting worse though (cases are on the rise).

A close-up photo of my belly button. A remake of an image I took at 20 and a half weeks.
My Belly Button Has Never Been So Close Or Perhaps So Far Away (34 weeks)

#ISaidAt20AndAHalfWeeksThatMyBellyButtonHadNeverBeenSoClose
#MaybeNowItIsCloserOrMaybeNot
#CloseToWhatQuestionMarkMyFaceQuestionMark
#IGuessMaybeItIsFurtherAwayNow
#ButItIsFarOut
#MyBellyButtonHasNeverBeenSoFarOut
#ItSoundsLikeASurferOrSomething
#IWishICouldReachMyHeadDownAndRestItOnBump
#IWasSayingWithMyLastPictureThatBabyWasNotMovingMuchAndFreakingMeOut
#ThenTheNextDayItWasMovingAroundLoads
#AndTodayHasBeenAnAverageDay
#EvenSittingOnMyBallIsUncomfortableTheseDays
#WellIFeelComfortableWhilstIAmSatDown
#ThenWhenIStandUpIAmInPain
#LyingDownSittingUpGettingOutOfBedIsAnnoying
#TodayIHadAVideoCallWithTheWomenFromMyNCTGroup
#WeWereTalkingAboutInductionsAndWantingToWait
#ButThenSayingHowUnconfortableWeAreSoWhoKnowsWhatWeWillDecideAtTheTime
#IReadALotOfMyHypnobirthingBookToday
#IHaveBeenGettingABitRubbishAtReadingAndPreparingForBaby
#IStillNeedToDoMyBirthPlan
#SomeWomenOnTheCallWereTalkingAboutHavingTheirHospitalBagsPacked
#IThinkIAmTheOnlyOnePlanningForAHomeBirth
#ButIShouldPackABagJustInCaseAsYouNeverKnow
#IHadNeverHeardAboutNaturalOrGentleCaesareansBeforeDoingTheHypnobirthingCourse
#WithTheBirthPlanItIsABitMoreOfBirthPreferencesThanAPlan
#AndWritingDownWhatYouWouldWantForAnyPossibleSituation
#ItFeelsGoodToKnowMyOptionsAndThatThereAreOptions
#IHaveHeardOfBirthPlansBeingMockedABitButGivingBirthIsABigEventWhichCouldImpactYouForTheRestOfYourLife
#IAmSoGladThatILearnedAboutHypnobirthingAndSeeingBirthInAMorePositiveLight

This is a remake of an image I took at 20 and a half weeks.

It does look really far out this time too, and B likes to touch it when I say ‘where’s the baby?’

Earlier in the week I was getting stressed about movements, but they seem to have been quite active and I have been distracted by B’s eyes and my health.

Our bed is comfier now so I do not have as many pains in bed, but it is still best for me to lie on my left side.

I need to do a birth plan, and reread the hypnobirthing book but I am currently trying to read House of Gucci. Once that is done I am going to focus on baby, I swear. I tried to find B’s baby clothes this morning, but they weren’t where I thought they were, and I need to pack my hospital bag.

The first image on this page is the picture I am referring to in the hashtags.

My sister got me some nice new pyjamas for Xmas, and mentioned my Grandad’s pyjamas.

My Grandad was married to my Nan who we have been living with since late October 2020, so every once in a while I feel sad that Tiago and B and baby X never got to meet him.

B didn’t meet her Portuguese Grandparents until this summer, and she is still yet to meet Tiago’s brother, his wife and their daughter. We did a video call with them all today.

I’m gutted that Tiago’s paternity hasn’t improved since he was off with B, but I’m looking forward to him having two weeks off. He’s going to do the same again – one week of paternity, and one week of annual leave.

It’s good to know that I felt uncomfortable after sitting on the exercise ball, as I thought I didn’t, and I’m getting those pains now.

I didn’t go into another building until I gave birth to B in hospital…


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I’m Feeling Quite Uncomfortable Now (33 Weeks / 19th December 2021)

Self-portrait dressed in a black top and black leggings. My right hand is on my hip and my left arm is visible too.
I’m Feeling Quite Uncomfortable Now (33 Weeks / 19th December 2021)
 
#TheAchesAndPainsAreReallyStartingToSetInNow
#MyLowerBackIsBeginningToHurtMore
#YesterdayWeHadSomeFamilyRoundAndIThinkIJustSatDownWayTooMuchAndWeDidNotGoForAWalkAtAllSoIAmPayingForItNow
#IJustHadALookAtTheCurrentGovernmentGuidelinesAndItSaysIfYouAreMoreThan28WeeksPregnantThenYouMayWantToConsiderLimitingCloseContactWithPeopleYouDoNotMeetWithRegularly
#ItHasBeenACoupleOfYearsSinceIHadBeenInTheSameRoomAsBothOfMySistersSoItWasNiceToSeeThemTogether
#WeAllTookFlowTestsAndHadTheWindowsOpenTheWholeTimeSoHopefullyWeWillAllBeOkay
#ForXmasItWillJustBeMyNanTiagoBMeAndMaybeMyYoungerSister
#PregnantPeopleAreNowOnThePriorityCovidVaccineList
#TheyShouldHaveBeenALongTimeAgoButAtLeastTheyAreNow
#TiagoGotHisBoosterJabSoIFeelBetterAsHeHadHisSecondJabInApril
#IHaveStartedToDrinkRaspberryLeafTeaNow
#IAmNotSureIfItReallyHelpsWithLabourOrNotButIDrankItWhenIWasPregnantWithBAndIDoNotHaveMuchToLose
#WeGotBAnElectricToothbrushAndSheIsStillGettingUsedToIt
#TheFirstTimeSheTriedItSheJustKeptPuttingItOnHerTongueAndLaughing
#SometimesShePointsToItSoHopefullyIfSheBrushesHerTeethHerselfTwiceADaySheWillBrushThemEnough
#ITryToBrushThemAfterSheHasHadAGoButSheDoesNotSeemToLikeItMuch
#IHaveToKeepAnEyeOnHerAsSheBrushesFamilyPhotosWithIt
#SheHasANewThingOfTakingThingsSheKnowsSheShouldNotTakeAndTakingThemToAQuietPartOfTheRoomAndMessingAround
#MainlyMyNansPurseButYesterdaySheTookMyBowlAndSpoonAndFacedTheCornerOfTheRoomWhileTryingToEatTheCrumbsThatWereLeft
#WeMissedBsLastToddlerClassAsSheSeemedABitUnderTheWeatherAndIDidNotHaveTheEnergyToTakeHer
#ItLooksLikeSheHasACoupleOfMolarsComingThroughAndSheGetsABitUpsetAtTimesWhichIsFairEnough
#ItMustBeSoPainfulAndFrustratingForHer
#ICanNotBelieveThatBWasBorn4WeeksFromThisPointOfPregnancy
#IDoNotFeelReadyAndIDefinitelyNeedToStartOrganisingThingsMoreNow
#INeedToReadMyHypnobirthingBookAgainAndWashBabyClothesAndBuyTheFewThingsWeNeed
#TheOtherDayTwoPeopleAskedMeWhenIWasDueWhileIWasOutWithBSoIFeelLikeThatSaysSomething
#IWantBabyXToComeIn2022WhichIAmSureSheWillAsIDoNotThinkSheWillBeEarlierThanB
#MyMumSaidSheWillBeSurprisedIfIGetToFullTermThough
#IWasBornIn1988SoNumericallyItWillBeVeryNiceIfTheBabyIsBornIn2022
#MaybeItIsABitSadButIDoLikeNumbersAndTheFactThatBWasBornIn2020IsAlsoQuitePleasing

#TheAchesAndPainsAreReallyStartingToSetInNow #MyLowerBackIsBeginningToHurtMore

I am still stretching in the morning and evening, but the baby is getting bigger and my body is feeling it.

#YesterdayWeHadSomeFamilyRoundAndIThinkIJustSatDownWayTooMuchAndWeDidNotGoForAWalkAtAllSoIAmPayingForItNow

I pretty much stayed sat in an armchair all day. I should have taken B out for a walk before they arrived, but we were too busy organising the house, then they left as it had just got dark.

#IJustHadALookAtTheCurrentGovernmentGuidelinesAndItSaysIfYouAreMoreThan28WeeksPregnantThenYouMayWantToConsiderLimitingCloseContactWithPeopleYouDoNotMeetWithRegularly

To be fair, I do not see many people at all.

#ItHasBeenACoupleOfYearsSinceIHadBeenInTheSameRoomAsBothOfMySistersSoItWasNiceToSeeThemTogether

It was nice for B and her cousin to be in the same room too, and for Nan to see them together.

#WeAllTookFlowTestsAndHadTheWindowsOpenTheWholeTimeSoHopefullyWeWillAllBeOkay

We did think about cancelling it, but we’ve all been careful this week. I hope that no one got a false negative test…

#ForXmasItWillJustBeMyNanTiagoBMeAndMaybeMyYoungerSister

My younger sister didn’t come round last year as she had Covid. We’ll see how it goes this year.

#PregnantPeopleAreNowOnThePriorityCovidVaccineList

I have an appointment booked for next week, so it will not change much for me.

#TheyShouldHaveBeenALongTimeAgoButAtLeastTheyAreNow

Maybe it would have not put so many people off being vaccinated…

#TiagoGotHisBoosterJabSoIFeelBetterAsHeHadHisSecondJabInApril

So who knows how much protection he had – I am guessing not much.

#IHaveStartedToDrinkRaspberryLeafTeaNow #IAmNotSureIfItReallyHelpsWithLabourOrNotButIDrankItWhenIWasPregnantWithBAndIDoNotHaveMuchToLose

The Bolton NHS website says:

‘Raspberry leaf tea is a herbal remedy that is thought to tone the muscles of your uterus (womb), to help it work during labour. The idea is not so much to speed up labour but to help it progress at a steady pace.’

I also notice that it says: ‘If you have already had a baby and your labour went smoothly first time around, there is no need for you to drink raspberry leaf tea for this baby.’

It’s not recommended until 32 weeks.

Like I said, I feel like I don’t have much to lose by drinking it. Plus, it’s cold this time of year so it’s nice to have a warm drink to drink (I can’t drink drinks too hot, so I let it cool down).

#WeGotBAnElectricToothbrushAndSheIsStillGettingUsedToIt

I had been looking at them, and her cousin got one and seemed to like it so I thought we should give it a go.

#TheFirstTimeSheTriedItSheJustKeptPuttingItOnHerTongueAndLaughing

That’s my girl.

#SometimesShePointsToItSoHopefullyIfSheBrushesHerTeethHerselfTwiceADaySheWillBrushThemEnough

She doesn’t do a thorough job, but at least she has some enthusiasm for it.

#ITryToBrushThemAfterSheHasHadAGoButSheDoesNotSeemToLikeItMuch

Hopefully she’ll get used to it soon.

#IHaveToKeepAnEyeOnHerAsSheBrushesFamilyPhotosWithIt

And just faffs it in general. She was trying to brush my Grandad’s face with it the other day.

#SheHasANewThingOfTakingThingsSheKnowsSheShouldNotTakeAndTakingThemToAQuietPartOfTheRoomAndMessingAround #MainlyMyNansPurseButYesterdaySheTookMyBowlAndSpoonAndFacedTheCornerOfTheRoomWhileTryingToEatTheCrumbsThatWereLeft

She makes me laugh. So sneaky.

#WeMissedBsLastToddlerClassAsSheSeemedABitUnderTheWeatherAndIDidNotHaveTheEnergyToTakeHer

Plus, I did not really want to be in a room full of strangers while Covid is getting wild.

#ItLooksLikeSheHasACoupleOfMolarsComingThroughAndSheGetsABitUpsetAtTimesWhichIsFairEnough

We give her paracetamol and she seems better.

#ItMustBeSoPainfulAndFrustratingForHer

She can’t have many teeth left to come through.

#ICanNotBelieveThatBWasBorn4WeeksFromThisPointOfPregnancy

Argh!

#IDoNotFeelReadyAndIDefinitelyNeedToStartOrganisingThingsMoreNow

I need to make a to do list.

#INeedToReadMyHypnobirthingBookAgainAndWashBabyClothesAndBuyTheFewThingsWeNeed

And pack my hospital bag.

#TheOtherDayTwoPeopleAskedMeWhenIWasDueWhileIWasOutWithBSoIFeelLikeThatSaysSomething

It’s getting more obvious. My bump seems huge…

#IWantBabyXToComeIn2022WhichIAmSureSheWillAsIDoNotThinkSheWillBeEarlierThanB

She would be 36 weeks-ish if she arrives this year.

#MyMumSaidSheWillBeSurprisedIfIGetToFullTermThough

We will have to see. I feel this uncomfortable now that I do not want to get to 42 weeks…

#IWasBornIn1988SoNumericallyItWillBeVeryNiceIfTheBabyIsBornIn2022

There are at least two other members of my family who were born in ‘same digit’ years. (There must be a better name for them). I like them…

#MaybeItIsABitSadButIDoLikeNumbersAndTheFactThatBWasBornIn2020IsAlsoQuitePleasing

There is something satisfying about it. T was born in 1986, so it’s also nice that there is a 2 year gap between his and my birth years, and our kids.

33 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait of me lying down on my left side on the sofa. My left hand is touching my face and my right hand is resting on my left arm.
Lying On The Sofa Is Not Very Comfortable Anymore (33 and a half weeks)
 
#IWasNotSureHowToPhotographMyselfToday
#IKnewICouldNotHaveBumpOutAgainAsIThinkBumpIsABitTooPresentInThisSeries
#ThoughItIsAProjectAboutGrowingBump
#IDecidedToLieOnTheSofaAsIFeltABitTiredAndICouldHaveEasilyFallenAsleep
#ThoughLyingOnTheSofaIsNotVeryComfortableAnymore
#IUsuallyJustLieDownInBedWithMyMaternityPillow
#AndAnotherPillowOnTopOfTheHeadBitToHelpWithAcidReflux
#ITookAPictureOfMyselfOnTheSofaAt27WeeksSoItReferencesThatABitButWithoutBump
#IWokeUpThisMorningWithAnIntenseCrampInMyLeftLeg
#IFreakedTiagoOutABitAsIWasKindOfWhisperScreamingForAWhile
#HeJustToldMeToBreatheAndIDidWhichWasGoodPracticeForLabour
#NotSureWhatCausesThemButIThinkMaybeIWasABitDehydratedAsIFeltThirstySoItCouldBeThat
#AHealthVisitorCalledMeTodayOnThePhone
#IThinkUsuallyTheyWouldHaveComeHereOrIWouldHaveMetThemSomewhere
#SheWasAskingAboutPlansForTheBirthAndFeedingAndAboutMyMentalHealthAndTiagoEtc
#ISaidThatIWasDoingAnOnlineCBTCourseForAnxietyWhenIFoundOutIWasPregnant
#ButISaidIThinkItWasMainlyBecauseIHadMovedToANewCityAndWasTryingToGetPregnantAndMakeFriendsAndAllThatJazz
#IAlsoSaidAboutHowMyArtIsSuperTherapeuticForMe
#IThinkHavingThisProjectToFocusOnHasBeenReallyGoodForMeWithLockdownAndAll
#IAmSureIfIWasNotPregnantIWouldHaveBeenWorkingOnSomethingElse
#ButIfIWasBetweenProjectsIThinkIWouldHaveStruggledABit
#IFeltALittleLostForTheFirstCoupleOfWeeksOfLockdown
#OrJustLackedSomeMotivation
#AFeelingOfWhyRushToDoThings
#ButMyProductivityHasPickedUpAndIThinkNowINeedToMakeSureIRestEnough
#TheHealthVisitorAskedMeWhenIAmPlanningToCutDownOnWork
#IThinkACoupleOfWeeksBeforeMyDueDate
#IHadPlannedToCutDownSoonerToHaveMoreTimeAtHomeSortingStuffOutButObviouslyIAmAtHomeAllTheTimeNow
#SheSaidItIsGoodThatWeDoNotHaveAnyExpectationsAboutTheBaby
#AndThatWeSeeTheLockdownAsAPositiveToHaveMoreTimeAndSpaceToLearnAboutTheBabyWithLessPressure

Okay, it’s good to know that I was feeling uncomfortable at 33 weeks before too. I do not think our sofas and bed were that comfortable in Liverpool though.

I feel like I haven’t had a leg cramp in bed for a while, but I have been drinking more water before bed latley.

My work is still therapeutic for me. Getting my head around being a mother and being pregnant during a pandemic, while also feeling stuck in limbo – living in Birmingham with my Nan and not really doing much career wise.

I never got round to cutting down my workload with B, as it was a surprise that she was early and came a couple of days before the ‘couple of weeks before my due date’.

Again, I am just trying to be open minded about the birth and not get my heart set on anything. At least this time we will know how to change a nappy, and hopefully newborn care won’t feel so alien. You’d hope so, as it has not really been that long since B was a newborn…


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Twelfth Family Portrait (30 Weeks / 28th November 2021)

Family portrait where T is holding B and I am trying to entertain her with the camera remote. T and I are both looking at her, while B's face has been edited so she has no facial features.
Twelfth Family Portrait (30 Weeks / 28th November 2021)
 
#AgainTimeHasFlownByAndItHasBeenOverTwoMonthsSinceTheLastFamilyPortrait
#SoonThereMayBeAFamilyPortraitOfFourOfUsWhichIsAWeirdButExcitingThought
#IAmDefinitelyDoubtingMyMotheringSkillsMoreEspeciallyWithTheSuddenDropInTemperature
#TheOtherDayITookBToTheParkAndSheWasCryingSoMuchOnTheWayHomeAndEvenAfterWeHadGotHome
#ItIsNotFunWalkingALongWayWithACryingChildAndHavingPeopleCommentAboutIt
#IThinkHerHandsHadGottenTooColdSoNowSheAlwaysGoesOutWithHerOversizedMittens
#ThoughWeWentToSeeChristmasLightsBeingTurnedOnAndBWasCryingALotThenToo
#WeWereWithACoupleOfFriendsAndTheirKidAndIThinkBothKidsJustGotBoredAndColdSoWeAllLeftEarly
#WeThoughtItWouldBeANiceThingToDoButAtTheirAgeIGuessTheyDoNotCareAndIFeltOverwhelmedByTheHugeCrowdOfPeople
#SheHadACoupleOfBadFallsTheOtherDayTooWithOneAtThePlaygroundWhereSheFellOutOfACar
#IRanToCatchHerButIAmWaddlingMoreAndMoreTheseDaysAndWasTooSlow
#ThenSheLikesToGetOntoTheCoffeeTablesInTheLivingRoomAndFellForwardOffOfOneToo
#SheHasAClimbingFrameButSheLikesToClimbOnEverythingElseAsObviouslyThatIsWayMoreFun
#ITalkAboutWhatTimeBWakesUpWayTooMuchAndItIsTheFirstCommentIMakeInMyPersonalDiaryEveryDay
#ButYesterdayIWokeBUpJustBeforeEightAndIWasWorriedSheWasDeadAsIKeptCallingHerNameAndSheWouldNotWakeUp
#TodayWeWokeHerUpAtSevenThirtyAndWeDidNotHearHerAtAllDuringTheNight
#SheSeemsToBeSleepingInLongerButBeforeLastNightSheHadBeenWakingUpTwoOrThreeTimesAndTakingAWhileToFallBackAsleep
#LastNightIJustKeptTheHeaterOnLowInHerRoomAllNightWhereasOtherNightsPerhapsSheHasWokenUpAsSheHasBeenTooHotOrTooCold
#SheGoesThroughHerNapAndBedtimeRoutinesOkayButThenCriesOnceSheIsInHerCotThoughSheUsuallyCrawlsInByHerself
#LuckilySheDoesNotCryForLongButIGuessSheIsJustTryingHerLuckAtStayingUpForLonger
#SheTendsToWakeHerFromHerNapAfterFortyMinutesALotThoughIWillLetHerNapForTwoAndAHalfHours
#IHaveStoppedRubbingHerBackToSendHerBackToSleepAsMaybeThatIsSendingMixedMessagesAndYesterdaySheWentBackToSleepByHerself
#IJustTendToResortToRubbingHerBackWhenTIsWorkingAsHeCanHearHerCryingAndSheAlwaysWakesUpAfterIAmJustAboutToFallAsleep
#SheIsGettingReallyGoodAtEatingWithASpoonNowAndWeHaveStoppedTurningHerPorridgeIntoPancakes
#WeAreBoredOfDoingItAndSheWillHappilyEatThePorridgeByHerselfNowWhichIsGood
#TheBabysKicksAreGettingStrongerAndICanReallySeeMyBellyWobbleNow
#BStillSeemsObliviousAboutThereBeingABabyInMyTummyThoughIAmTryingMyBestToMakeHerAware
#IAmLookingForwardToSeeingHowSheWillReactButIAmALittleNervous
#SheHasANewThingWhereSheLikesToTouchOurEyesSoThatWillNotBeAGoodThingToDoToHerSibling
#SheHasNoIdeaAboutHowMuchHerLittleWorldWillChangeSoonButIThinkWeWillAllBeOkay

I said to T: Ready to see your daughter?

I showed him the photo and he pulled a face. Obviously she doesn’t look nice, but it’s good for hiding her face…

#AgainTimeHasFlownByAndItHasBeenOverTwoMonthsSinceTheLastFamilyPortrait

I was waiting to see if I’d have another scan photo (at 28 weeks), but then I realised that my NHS scans were over and yeah time has passed by fast.

#SoonThereMayBeAFamilyPortraitOfFourOfUsWhichIsAWeirdButExcitingThought

I go between nervous, excited, anxious etc. about becoming a mother to two.

#IAmDefinitelyDoubtingMyMotheringSkillsMoreEspeciallyWithTheSuddenDropInTemperature

Oh, the fun.

#TheOtherDayITookBToTheParkAndSheWasCryingSoMuchOnTheWayHomeAndEvenAfterWeHadGotHome

It had rained a lot and someone wanted to go down the slide and splash water off the slide…

#ItIsNotFunWalkingALongWayWithACryingChildAndHavingPeopleCommentAboutIt

Two women with a few dogs were talking to B and I said ‘I don’t think she’s in the mood’, but really I meant that I was not in the mood. B did temporarily stop crying when she saw the dogs…

#IThinkHerHandsHadGottenTooColdSoNowSheAlwaysGoesOutWithHerOversizedMittens

I had stupidly not taken them out with me as I thought pulling her sleeves down on her jacket was enough, but obviously not – especially after they got wet.

#ThoughWeWentToSeeChristmasLightsBeingTurnedOnAndBWasCryingALotThenToo

Le sigh.

#WeWereWithACoupleOfFriendsAndTheirKidAndIThinkBothKidsJustGotBoredAndColdSoWeAllLeftEarly

We got bored of waiting, but then got stuck trying to get home and so saw them being turned on anyways. It definitely was not worth the stress.

#WeThoughtItWouldBeANiceThingToDoButAtTheirAgeIGuessTheyDoNotCareAndIFeltOverwhelmedByTheHugeCrowdOfPeople

It had not been so cold, but that day it had been freezing and once the sun went down it was even colder. B didn’t want to be in her pushchair, but we didn’t want her running around all over the place and Tiago couldn’t keep carrying her.

I was freaked out by how many people were there. I knew it would be busy, but I had not seen so many people in a small space in a very long time. I’m glad that masks are being made mandatory for shops and public transport again…

#SheHadACoupleOfBadFallsTheOtherDayTooWithOneAtThePlaygroundWhereSheFellOutOfACar #IRanToCatchHerButIAmWaddlingMoreAndMoreTheseDaysAndWasTooSlow

I was stood at the front of the car, so I can run either way to catch her in case she falls out and it was a big fail. I was worried Tiago would tell me off, but he said it happens. I told our friend and she said she was surprised that it had not happened yet…

#ThenSheLikesToGetOntoTheCoffeeTablesInTheLivingRoomAndFellForwardOffOfOneToo

Tiago had said that something else bad was probably going to happen that day. I do believe in the ‘rule of 3’… Luckily she fell half onto a cushion/a thick rug. She usually turns around and climbs down backwards, but I think she is starting to get more confident/is a bit of a daredevil.

#SheHasAClimbingFrameButSheLikesToClimbOnEverythingElseAsObviouslyThatIsWayMoreFun

I wrote the hashtags in the living room today while T was about and B was doing her usual faffing. B was just climbing on various things…

#ITalkAboutWhatTimeBWakesUpWayTooMuchAndItIsTheFirstCommentIMakeInMyPersonalDiaryEveryDay

It is probably a big boring part of my work for most people, but it’s on my mind a lot.

#ButYesterdayIWokeBUpJustBeforeEightAndIWasWorriedSheWasDeadAsIKeptCallingHerNameAndSheWouldNotWakeUp

Usually turning the light on, and/or turning off her noise machine makes her wakeup. Not then. I kept calling her name and started to get freaked out. She must have been in a deep sleep…

#TodayWeWokeHerUpAtSevenThirtyAndWeDidNotHearHerAtAllDuringTheNight

Let’s see how long this lasts.

#SheSeemsToBeSleepingInLongerButBeforeLastNightSheHadBeenWakingUpTwoOrThreeTimesAndTakingAWhileToFallBackAsleep

Usually once before we go to bed or just as I’m putting my head down, then usually around 2 or 4…

#LastNightIJustKeptTheHeaterOnLowInHerRoomAllNightWhereasOtherNightsPerhapsSheHasWokenUpAsSheHasBeenTooHotOrTooCold

Usually when she wakes up I mess with the settings on her heater. The radiator in her room doesn’t work, so she has a heater that is plugged into a smart plug so I can control it from my phone.

#SheGoesThroughHerNapAndBedtimeRoutinesOkayButThenCriesOnceSheIsInHerCotThoughSheUsuallyCrawlsInByHerself

Once she’s in I zip it up and she then usually starts to cry…

#LuckilySheDoesNotCryForLongButIGuessSheIsJustTryingHerLuckAtStayingUpForLonger

Or maybe she wants more attention from me? Not sure.

#SheTendsToWakeHerFromHerNapAfterFortyMinutesALotThoughIWillLetHerNapForTwoAndAHalfHours

It seems to be a more frequent occurrence.

#IHaveStoppedRubbingHerBackToSendHerBackToSleepAsMaybeThatIsSendingMixedMessagesAndYesterdaySheWentBackToSleepByHerself

Maybe that is why she has been waking up more at night and taking longer to fall back to sleep? Who knows.

#IJustTendToResortToRubbingHerBackWhenTIsWorkingAsHeCanHearHerCryingAndSheAlwaysWakesUpAfterIAmJustAboutToFallAsleep

The other day I just resigned myself to the fact that she probably wouldn’t go back to sleep and I’d have to make do with a 10 minute nap. I was a bit grumpy for the rest of the day…

#SheIsGettingReallyGoodAtEatingWithASpoonNowAndWeHaveStoppedTurningHerPorridgeIntoPancakes

We probably should have given her a spoon to use earlier on, but she seems to have picked it up quick.

#WeAreBoredOfDoingItAndSheWillHappilyEatThePorridgeByHerselfNowWhichIsGood

Turning the porridge into pancakes just felt like effort. She had started to go too impatient in the mornings so she’d been having just the porridge. Now we warm it up and a bit and now our mornings are a bit easier.

#TheBabysKicksAreGettingStrongerAndICanReallySeeMyBellyWobbleNow

At one point this morning B and the baby both had hiccups.

#BStillSeemsObliviousAboutThereBeingABabyInMyTummyThoughIAmTryingMyBestToMakeHerAware

I need to find some episodes of her favourite TV shows where they talk about it. Is there a pregnancy version of In The Night Garden?

#IAmLookingForwardToSeeingHowSheWillReactButIAmALittleNervous

I hope she likes being a big sister. I just watched her walked around and got a bit emotional thinking about her being a big sister.

#SheHasANewThingWhereSheLikesToTouchOurEyesSoThatWillNotBeAGoodThingToDoToHerSibling

The other day I was lying down and she was trying to touch my eyes. This morning Tiago was holding her, and B was looking at him lovingly and then tried to touch his eyes. She’s more obsessed with touching her own nose though…

#SheHasNoIdeaAboutHowMuchHerLittleWorldWillChangeSoonButIThinkWeWillAllBeOkay

She adapts well to new things. I like to think I adapt quickly. I just asked Tiago how he adapts and he said ‘adapting to stuff is my work’.

30 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

My dreams have been quite vivid lately. Last night I dreamed that my Nan died and one of my sisters was in the process of buying her house…

As B slept so well last night I slept well and didn’t go to the toilet in the night. Hurrah. When B wakes up in the night I usually wait 15 mins before going into her room, and usually pop to the toilet beforehand as there is a big weight pressing on my bladder.

I lay awake for a little bit last night thinking that we should probably buy the other things we need soon. We need to look at another car seat and a heater for our room.

I haven’t done many reshoots for this project, but there have been a couple of times where I just really didn’t like the photos. Looking back I think there are a few shoots that could have been way better, but … oh well.


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General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot V (28 Weeks / 10th November 2021)

Shoot which I am recreating for the 5th time this pregnancy. I am wearing a bra and leggings. I have my right hand clasping my left elbow. My bump is bigger than the previous version of this image.
General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot V (28 Weeks / 10th November 2021)
 
#WellIBelieveIAmInTheThirdTrimesterNowThoughSomeSourcesSayItStartsAt29Weeks
#IFeelLikeISayThisAfterEveryShootButHowCanMyBumpGetAnyBigger
#IFinallyGotMyWhoopingCoughVaccineAndItWasFineThoughMyArmWasALittleSore
#BIsBackToWakingUpAtFiveInTheMorningWhichIsStressingMeOutABit
#SheHasHadACoupleOfSettlingInSessionsAtNurseryAndTheFirstOneWentBetterAsSheHadJustWokenUpFromANap
#SheLookedABitConfusedWhenTheyTookHerFromMyArmsAndIJustStayedFillingInForms
#SheCameOutAndWantedToGoBackAsSheHadHadFunAndHadSeenHerLittleFriendAndTheyHadBeenExcitedToSeeEachOtherApparently
#TheNextSessionSheHadBeenUpSinceFiveThoughWePutHerInOurBedForAnHourAndSheSleptALittleMore
#IDroppedHerOffAfterSheHadAlreadyBeenAwakeForHoursAndWentRoundTheLocalShopsAsSheWasNotDueToBeThereForVeryLong
#IGotHerADogCuddlyToyWhichWillBeHerPresentFromBabyX
#WhenIWentToGetHerSheWasCryingAndTheySaidSheHadBeenFunnyTheWholeTimeAndMaybeWasTired
#ISaidYeahIThinkSoAndSheFellAsleepOnTheWayHomeAndWasGrumpyWithMeWhenIWokeHerUpSoIPutHerStraightToBed
#SheFellAsleepOnTheWayHomeFromHerToddlerClassLastWeekAsWellAndIWasTryingToWakeHerUpAndSheWasGettingAnnoyedWithMe
#SheSeemsToSuddenlyBeAFussyEaterSoIDoNotThinkSheHasBeenEatingAsMuchAsSheUsuallyDoes
#MaybeItIsHerTeethOrMaybeItIsDueToTheLeapSheIsMeantToBeGoingThroughOrMaybeItIsACombinationOfDifferentThings
#SheNormallyEatsAGoodBreakfastButMaybeSheIsAnnoyedAsIMadeHerABatchOfPlainishPorridgeInsteadOfButternutSquashPorridgeSoWeWillHaveToRevertToThat
#IJustWantHerToGoBackToSleepingUntilSixAsItWouldBeBetterWithNurseryAndStuff
#IFinallyTookHerToSoftPlayAgainThoughItWasADifferentOneToLastTime
#WeWentToMeetFriendsThatWeHaveNotSeenForAgesAndItWasQuiteNice
#IShouldProbablyTakeBMoreButItIsABitBoringForHerAgeAndNotSoFunIfYouAreNotWithSomeoneElseOrOtherPeopleDoNotTalkToYou
#SheHadFunInTheCovidPitIMeanTheBallPitThoughAndSheLikedClimbingOverEverything
#WeWalkedHomeInTheDarkWhichBSeemedIntriguedByAndIKeptTryingToPointOutTheMoonToHer
#AtTheWeekendWeWentToVisitMySisterAndHerFamilyWhichWasFunAndItWasSoNiceToSeeBAndHerCousinPlayingTogether
#TiagoHadABoysNightAndIHadAGirlsNightOnTheFridayEveningWhereAfterDinnerWeEndedUpGoingToABarForAHotChocolateAtTenInTheEvening
#AtFirstTheyWereNotGoingToLetUsInAsTheyCouldNotServeUsDrinksWithoutFoodAfterTenButISaidWhatAboutHotChocolatesWhichIsWhatWeWanted
#ItIsNiceToTravelAndSeePeopleButIThinkTiagoIsKeenToJustStayPutForAWhileNowApartFromOurWeekendWithoutB
#IAmBoredOfPackingAndTiagoSaysHeFeelsLikeHeJustNeverStopsWhichIsFairEnough
#IFeelLikeAllIWantToDoTheseDaysIsEatWhichIGuessMakesSenseWithAGrowingBabyInsideOfMe
#IDoStruggleToGetUpToStandingAtTimesOrSometimesIStandUpTooFastAndGetPains
#IReallyNeedToStartPreparingForTheBirthAsTimeIsFlyingBySoFast

#WellIBelieveIAmInTheThirdTrimesterNowThoughSomeSourcesSayItStartsAt29Weeks

I thought I was last week, but 28 weeks seems to be quite an official third trimester start. It makes sense if 42 weeks is the usually the ‘maximum’.

#IFeelLikeISayThisAfterEveryShootButHowCanMyBumpGetAnyBigger

I know I was pregnant with B not very long ago, but it’s still weird to see myself with a bump.

#IFinallyGotMyWhoopingCoughVaccineAndItWasFineThoughMyArmWasALittleSore

Standard. It was sore for a couple of days, which was more than I thought it would be. I did forget to spin my arm around afterwards though and maybe that’s why? (I did that with my flu jab and it wasn’t bad at all.)

#BIsBackToWakingUpAtFiveInTheMorningWhichIsStressingMeOutABit

Well, the last couple of mornings she has woken up at 4 something, but I think she has gone back to sleep for a bit. I have been anyways…

#SheHasHadACoupleOfSettlingInSessionsAtNurseryAndTheFirstOneWentBetterAsSheHadJustWokenUpFromANap

I had to get her up from her nap early to get her there on time. She was ready to PARTY.

#SheLookedABitConfusedWhenTheyTookHerFromMyArmsAndIJustStayedFillingInForms

I said ‘She’ll be fine in a minute’ and they said as soon as she went in the room she started to play with a toy car and look at a book.

#SheCameOutAndWantedToGoBackAsSheHadHadFunAndHadSeenHerLittleFriendAndTheyHadBeenExcitedToSeeEachOtherApparently

Apparently her friend came in the room and ran over to her and they started to ‘chat’. Cute. After we left she tried to go back in…

#TheNextSessionSheHadBeenUpSinceFiveThoughWePutHerInOurBedForAnHourAndSheSleptALittleMore

I find it hard to sleep well when she is in our bed though. I do not want to make this a habit but I wanted her to get more sleep as I was anxious about nursery.

#IDroppedHerOffAfterSheHadAlreadyBeenAwakeForHoursAndWentRoundTheLocalShopsAsSheWasNotDueToBeThereForVeryLong

It seemed like a waste of time to come home, then go back as I wouldn’t have done much. I hadn’t been round shops in a long time, so it was nice to have a look about.

#IGotHerADogCuddlyToyWhichWillBeHerPresentFromBabyX

I realised the other week that she does not have a dog cuddly toy. I’ve been looking about for one, but couldn’t make my mind up. Seeing them in person made a difference. It’s got a cute hat.

#WhenIWentToGetHerSheWasCryingAndTheySaidSheHadBeenFunnyTheWholeTimeAndMaybeWasTired

I could hear a kid crying when I was waiting and I thought that maybe it was her, but I was not sure.

#ISaidYeahIThinkSoAndSheFellAsleepOnTheWayHomeAndWasGrumpyWithMeWhenIWokeHerUpSoIPutHerStraightToBed

I tried to keep her awake with a cookie (oats, banana and almond butter), but she fell asleep with it in her hand. I tried to rush home, but I can’t really rush with a bump anymore…

#SheFellAsleepOnTheWayHomeFromHerToddlerClassLastWeekAsWellAndIWasTryingToWakeHerUpAndSheWasGettingAnnoyedWithMe

She fell asleep with a bit of cream cheese sandwich in her hand then. She did nap at home afterwards though, so it made me not so worried this time. If she naps for 5 minutes it doesn’t seem to affect her nap so much – she had 2 and a half hours that day, and 2 hours fifteen after nursery.

#SheSeemsToSuddenlyBeAFussyEaterSoIDoNotThinkSheHasBeenEatingAsMuchAsSheUsuallyDoes

She did not like the cauliflower korma I made the other night, but I thought she wasn’t hungry. We had it for dinner last night too and it got the same reaction. I gave her some baked beans and she ate them all up…

#MaybeItIsHerTeethOrMaybeItIsDueToTheLeapSheIsMeantToBeGoingThroughOrMaybeItIsACombinationOfDifferentThings

Oh, kids.

#SheNormallyEatsAGoodBreakfastButMaybeSheIsAnnoyedAsIMadeHerABatchOfPlainishPorridgeInsteadOfButternutSquashPorridgeSoWeWillHaveToRevertToThat

The other morning she seemed so hungry that I just wanted to get food in her asap. We make the porridge into little pancakes and she will often just eat the mix cold from a spoon while she waits…

#IJustWantHerToGoBackToSleepingUntilSixAsItWouldBeBetterWithNurseryAndStuff

She will – I hope. Fun times.

#IFinallyTookHerToSoftPlayAgainThoughItWasADifferentOneToLastTime

It’s been on my list for a while.

#WeWentToMeetFriendsThatWeHaveNotSeenForAgesAndItWasQuiteNice

We hadn’t seen them since before our holiday. It was going to get dark too early to meet in a park, so we needed somewhere to meet indoors.

#IShouldProbablyTakeBMoreButItIsABitBoringForHerAgeAndNotSoFunIfYouAreNotWithSomeoneElseOrOtherPeopleDoNotTalkToYou

Also with me being pregnant it makes it less fun. Our friend climbed up between the ladder and the slide and was sending the kids down the slide.

#SheHadFunInTheCovidPitIMeanTheBallPitThoughAndSheLikedClimbingOverEverything

Soft landings are definitely great when you like to fall off/over everything.

I am still nervous about Covid…

#WeWalkedHomeInTheDarkWhichBSeemedIntriguedByAndIKeptTryingToPointOutTheMoonToHer

We didn’t take the shortcuts and it was rush hour so it was quite safe. I think she did take notice of the moon a bit, but she seemed more interesting in looking at all the houses with their lights on.

#AtTheWeekendWeWentToVisitMySisterAndHerFamilyWhichWasFunAndItWasSoNiceToSeeBAndHerCousinPlayingTogether

They had a bath together where they were super splash happy. B slipped under the water a few times, but was fine…

#TiagoHadABoysNightAndIHadAGirlsNightOnTheFridayEveningWhereAfterDinnerWeEndedUpGoingToABarForAHotChocolateAtTenInTheEvening

They had offered to babysit while we went out for dinner. I knew Tiago really wanted to see his guy mates and talk Portuguese. They hadn’t been together as a group in about three years… My initial plan was to just stay home and rest, but then I thought I should try to arrange something, so I met a few gal pals for dinner at one of my favourite pizza places, then we went to an outdoor beer garden but I was upset that they didn’t have hot chocolate and it was cold, so we went to a place that we thought would be serving hot drinks.

#AtFirstTheyWereNotGoingToLetUsInAsTheyCouldNotServeUsDrinksWithoutFoodAfterTenButISaidWhatAboutHotChocolatesWhichIsWhatWeWanted

Well, three hot chocolates and a mocha. My kind of Friday night! I got home before 12, but I ended up staying late as I didn’t feel tired and regretted that.

#ItIsNiceToTravelAndSeePeopleButIThinkTiagoIsKeenToJustStayPutForAWhileNowApartFromOurWeekendWithoutB

I have been letting myself off doing lots of work for this project if we’re away, so it would nice to be more consistent before the baby is born. It’s good that B is starting nursery as it will give me more time in the week to get stuff done.

#IAmBoredOfPackingAndTiagoSaysHeFeelsLikeHeJustNeverStopsWhichIsFairEnough

He says when we’ve been away, by the time it gets to Thursday he feels like he has been working for 12 days straight. We have been trying to have a weekend in-between trips at home, but yeah it is tiring.

#IFeelLikeAllIWantToDoTheseDaysIsEatWhichIGuessMakesSenseWithAGrowingBabyInsideOfMe

While writing these hashtags and blog I have eaten a lot, and now I am starting to get hungry again.

#IDoStruggleToGetUpToStandingAtTimesOrSometimesIStandUpTooFastAndGetPains

I like to sit on the floor after stretching and watch a bit of TV/YouTube. I feel fine, but when I stand up I feel awful. I need to start using things to help me up too, as I don’t and then I stretch something and regret my decisions.

#IReallyNeedToStartPreparingForTheBirthAsTimeIsFlyingBySoFast

So fast. At the moment I’m about 10 weeks away from when B was born (pregnancy wise).

28 weeks pregnant comparison with B:

I'm leaning over a blue exercise ball on mys side and hugging it. My legs are out straight and my feet are on the floor.
Me, My Ball & My Lump (28 weeks)
 
#VideoCalledWithMyNanAndMumToday
#NanRefersToMyBumpAsALumpWhichMakesMeLaughEveryTime
#MyMumSaidThatMyFaceLooksMoreFilledOut
#APregnancyAppSaysThatTheBabyIsTheSizeOfACanteloupeMelonNow
#TiagoSaysIHaveTwoMelonsAndAWatermelon
#ILookedDownAtMyBellyTodayInBedAndItLookedALotBigger
#ILookAtItEverydayMultipleTimesSoIAmNotSureWhyIWasSoShockedThatTime
#IFeelTired
#EvenBeingAtHomeAllTheTimeIFeelLikeIDoNotReallyStop
#INeedToChillOutABit
#IMightHaveANapShortly
#IQuiteLikeBeingAtHomeAllTheTime
#IJustFeelBadThatICanNotVisitMyNan
#AtLeastWhenMyMumGoesRoundToTakeHerFoodWeCanVideoChat
#IFinallyGotRoundToBlowingUpTheExerciseBall
#IWasThinkingAboutGettingAnOfficeChairButIWillTrySittingOnTheBallInstead
#TiagoCanUseItForExercisingToo
#AndApparentlyItIsGoodForWhenYouAreInLabour
#NeedToStartToThinkAboutGettingMoreBabyStuffTogether
#OurBabyBathSupportArrivedTheOtherDay
#TiagoSaysHeWantsAnAdultSizedOne
#IHaveNotTakenABathSinceBeforeIFoundOutIWasPregnant
#ObviouslyIShowerButForSomeReasonIHaveBeenTooScaredToHaveABath
#IThinkItIsBecauseYouHaveToBeCarefulWithHavingThemTooHot
#SoIHaveJustAvoidedThem
#ButNowIAmOfficiallyInTheThirdTrimesterAndMaybeIShouldHaveOne
#IGotABadLegCrampLastNight
#ItIsTheThirdTimeItHasHappenedNow
#IDefinitelyFeelALumpEveryTimeButItGoesAwayWithTheCramp
#MyMumSaysIShouldPutMyFeetUpMore

I’m currently sat writing this while sat on the ball. This just reminded me to blow it up, so I did.

Living with my Nan she refers to my ‘lump’ all the time now…

‘#IJustFeelBadThatICanNotVisitMyNan’

Well, now I’ve seen her most days for over a year…

I haven’t taken a bath this time either. I know it’s fine for me to, but I do worry that I will cook the baby… I know it’s stupid, but oh well.

I’ve had leg cramps probably a similar number of times, but I keep forgetting to check for the lump. I’m trying to stay hydrated, but I do forgot at times/I worry about needing the toilet too much when I’m out.

Tiago is lying on the sofa, propped up by two blue pillows and has his eyes closed.
Tiago & His Holiday Beard (28 weeks)
 
#TiagoOnlyUsuallyHasSomethingThatResemblesABeardWhenWeHaveBeenOnHoliday
#IGuessItShouldBeCalledHisLockdownBeard
#ButIAlwaysReferToHisFacialHairAsAHolidayBeard
#HeIsNotOnHolidayThoughAsHeIsWorkingFromHome
#ButStillHasVideoMeetingsToAttend
#HeJustCanNotBeBotheredToShave
#HeHasBeenInAFewPicturesInThisProject
#ButNotAsManyAsIFirstThought
#ThoughDueToLockdownItMightBeAGoodChanceToPhotographHimMore
#IThinkTryingToGetHashtagsOutOfHimLastTimeWasHardWork
#IKnewThisWeekendThatIWantedToPhotographHimThough
#WeWentOutForAWalkTodayAndThePlanWasToPhotographHimWhenWeGotHome
#IThoughtTheSofaWasASafeBetAsHeWouldBeRelaxed
#HeDidFallAsleepAtSomePoint
#HeSpentALotOfTimeTodayCookingAndTidying
#IWantedHimToHaveHisEyesClosed
#ButItDoesLookABitLikeHeIsDead
#TheWeekendsGoBySurprisinglyFast
#IAmWaitingForHimToGetOffAVideoCallWithHisParents
#AndThenIWillAskHimIfHeHasAnythingThatHeWantsToSayAboutImpendingFatherhood
#HeWasOnThePhoneForAboutAnHour
#HeSaysHeIsFeelingExcitedByIt
#ItIsBecomingMoreRealEveryDay
#HeSaysHeIsMainlyFocusedOnTheBabyAndNotThatStressedOutByCorona
#HeFeelsConnectedToTheBabyAlreadyEvenThoughHeDoesNotKnowThemYet
#FeelingThemKickIsNice
#HeLooksForwardToParentingAndGettingToKnowTheBaby
#AndTheChallengeOfIt
#HeSaysSeeingMyBumpInTheFleshIsStrangeYetNaturalAtTheSameTime

Tiago was getting rid of his beard for in person meetings, but now he just keeps it smart at a shorter level. Thanks Covid!

I think this time he forgets that I am pregnant. He does talk to bump most nights, but some nights he is too tired – like last night.

I’ve not bothered him too much this time with being in the project as I know he is busy, and often when I am working he is watching B. The family portraits are nice though. We need to do one of them soon…


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33 / Portrait Of A Mother Of A Sixteen Month Old (24 Weeks / October 2021)

Self-portrait with B. I am holding her in my arms and she is touching my face with both of her hands. Her right foot has been photoshopped (duplicated and mirrored) over her eye, nose and mouth.
33 / Portrait Of A Mother Of A Sixteen Month Old (24 Weeks / October 2021)
 
#IHaveAlreadyDoneTheShootForOnceAndWasTryingToCopyTheShootThatBAndIDidTogetherWhenITurned32
#BackThenThoughSheDidNotMoveAboutMuchSoTodayWasAMassiveWriggleFest
#AtOnePointSheWasJustMessingWithMyFaceAndAsHerNailsNeedToBeCutMyLipHurtsABit
#HerNewFavouriteThingIsStandingUpOnHerBouncingZebraToyAndOnHerSmallCar
#SheHasBeenThreateningToDoItForAWhileSoIWasImpressedWhenSheActuallyStoodUpOnThemAndWithSoMuchControl
#IGuessAllTheClimbingOnHerFrameAndRampAndStandingInTheWobblyCarAtTheParkHasReallyImprovedHerBalanceAndCoreStrength
#AtTheWeekendWeWentToSeeMyParentsAndBHadLotsOfFunExploringTheirGarden
#TheyHaveOfferedToWatchBForAWeekendSoWeHaveJustBookedIntoAHotelWhereThereIsAPoolAndWeIntendToJustSwimEatAndSleep
#WeThoughtItWasAtLeastABitOfADriveFromTheirHouseButItIsOnly15MinutesAwayWhichIGuessIsGoodInCaseWeNeedToGetBackForAnyReason
#TypicallyAsSoonAsTheySaidTheyWouldHaveHerSheDidNotSleepVeryWellThatNightAtAll
#SheHasAMouthFullOfTeethNowButIThinkSheIsGoingThroughAParticularlyBadTeethingPhase
#WeTriedToSeeIfSheWouldSettleButAfterAWhileWeHadToGoInWithParacetamolAndAfterAnotherVisitWhereWeBothLaidWithHerInHerCotSheFinallyWentToSleepTwoHoursLater
#YesterdaySheMissedHerMorningNapWhichIThinkWasDueToMeForgettingToGiveHerParacetamol
#IHaveHadMyFluVaccineNowWhichIsGoodAndMyArmDidNotHurtAtAllOrAnything
#TwoHoursAfterTheAppointmentAtAPharmacyMyDoctorsMessagedToSayICouldHaveAFluJabWithThemThisWeek
#YesterdayWeDugOutTheRestOfMyMaternityPillowAsIHaveJustBeenUsingASmallSectionOfItForWeeks
#IFindMyselfWakingUpALotMoreAtNightNowAndOftenOnMyBackWhichIsNotGood
#IFeelLikeMyBumpIsGettingSoBigThatICanNotImagineItGettingMuchBiggerButIKnowItWill
#INeedToStartReadingHypnobirthingStuffAgainAndMentallyPreparingMyselfForTheBirth
#ThisWeekISaidToTiagoThatWeNeedToStartThinkingAboutBabyNamesAgain
#HeJustTurnedToBAndSaidTheNextSoundYouMakeWillBeTheNameOfYourSister
#WeBothWatchedHerWithAnticipationAndAfterALittleWhileSheDidABurp
#IAmTryingToImagineHowItWillBeOnMyNextBirthdayWhenIAm34AndWillMostLikelyHaveTwoKids
#ThePictureWillDefinitelyBeMoreOfAStruggleForSure
#IKeepSayingItButIKnowIWillNeedToAcceptThatThereWillBeLessTimeForMeForAWhile
#AtTheMomentTiagoUsuallyGetsBUpAndGivesHerBreakfastWhileIStretchAndFaffABit
#WithANewbornIKnowThatTimeWillProbablyBecomeBabyFeedingTimeAndIWillJustNeedToRestWhenICan
#WeOrderedAnIndianTakeawayLastNightThatWeWillAlsoHaveForDinnerTonight
#TiagoGetsStressedOutAboutPresentsEveryYearButIDoNotReallyWantAnything
#IAmOwedAFewMassagesThatHaveBeenGiftedForBirthdaysAndHolidaysEtcFromHimViaWordSoMaybeIWillActuallyGetOneOnOurWeekendAway

#IHaveAlreadyDoneTheShootForOnceAndWasTryingToCopyTheShootThatBAndIDidTogetherWhenITurned32

We did the shoot before her first nap.

(32 shoot.)

#BackThenThoughSheDidNotMoveAboutMuchSoTodayWasAMassiveWriggleFest

I was a bit nervous about how it would go, which was why I was keen to do it asap today.

#AtOnePointSheWasJustMessingWithMyFaceAndAsHerNailsNeedToBeCutMyLipHurtsABit

She found it hilarious. There is a series of her laughing her head off at me.

She was grumpy in the beginning, but then she got into it – especially when she could see the photos of herself and steal my remote.

#HerNewFavouriteThingIsStandingUpOnHerBouncingZebraToyAndOnHerSmallCar

Now I can not look away as you never know what daredevil stunt she will be doing next.

#SheHasBeenThreateningToDoItForAWhileSoIWasImpressedWhenSheActuallyStoodUpOnThemAndWithSoMuchControl

The zebra is quite tall, but she stands up quite slowly and steadily. She does fall off from time to time though.

She was standing on the car in the kitchen and fell off a couple of times. That one does move as it has wheels. The zebra does rotate though.

#IGuessAllTheClimbingOnHerFrameAndRampAndStandingInTheWobblyCarAtTheParkHasReallyImprovedHerBalanceAndCoreStrength

I am quite impressed considering how often she falls over and I thought for a while that her balance was terrible, so it has improved quickly.

#AtTheWeekendWeWentToSeeMyParentsAndBHadLotsOfFunExploringTheirGarden

For a while she just sat playing with stones, she was super intrigued by their cat, and a bit freaked out by their turkeys.

#TheyHaveOfferedToWatchBForAWeekendSoWeHaveJustBookedIntoAHotelWhereThereIsAPoolAndWeIntendToJustSwimEatAndSleep

It will be our first over night stay away from B as a couple. Weird. It is nice to think of grand schemes to get up to, but yeah we just want to sleep, watch some crap TV, eat some nice food and swim. I need to get a new swimming costume as the one I wore in summer was tight then.

#WeThoughtItWasAtLeastABitOfADriveFromTheirHouseButItIsOnly15MinutesAwayWhichIGuessIsGoodInCaseWeNeedToGetBackForAnyReason

I was just looking for places with a pool and my geography is obviously really terrible. I feel so tired writing this. I think the reviews said the beds are comfy.

#TypicallyAsSoonAsTheySaidTheyWouldHaveHerSheDidNotSleepVeryWellThatNightAtAll

She does not cry much usually, but she was crying quite heavily. We were quite concerned.

#SheHasAMouthFullOfTeethNowButIThinkSheIsGoingThroughAParticularlyBadTeethingPhase

Maybe it was affecting her ears as well? At first I thought it was an ear infection.

#WeTriedToSeeIfSheWouldSettleButAfterAWhileWeHadToGoInWithParacetamolAndAfterAnotherVisitWhereWeBothLaidWithHerInHerCotSheFinallyWentToSleepTwoHoursLater

We were conflicted over her sleep training, and naturally reacting to how we saw her. Tiago did cuddle her a lot the first time round until she calmed down, but she was still upset.

So after a while he went in again and as she was still crying I also went in. We laid in her cot with her and before long she was clapping and laughing, so I read her bedtime story and sang Twinkle Twinkle to her to let her know it was bedtime, then she settled. Phew.

#YesterdaySheMissedHerMorningNapWhichIThinkWasDueToMeForgettingToGiveHerParacetamol

I planned to give it to her, but forgot. We usually don’t use the syringe that comes with it, so I have to use that now and realised that we haven’t been giving her the full dose that she is allowed so hopefully by doing that she will be in less pain now.

#IHaveHadMyFluVaccineNowWhichIsGoodAndMyArmDidNotHurtAtAllOrAnything

Hurrah. I have been tired, but I think that is a normal pregnancy symptom…

#TwoHoursAfterTheAppointmentAtAPharmacyMyDoctorsMessagedToSayICouldHaveAFluJabWithThemThisWeek

Typical. It would have been easier. Oh well.

#YesterdayWeDugOutTheRestOfMyMaternityPillowAsIHaveJustBeenUsingASmallSectionOfItForWeeks

I was reading about how I need to support my whole body more, so I thought we better find it. It was vacuum packed in the garage.

#IFindMyselfWakingUpALotMoreAtNightNowAndOftenOnMyBackWhichIsNotGood

Often I wake up on my back and know I shouldn’t be on my back, but just kind of end up staying there. Whoops.

#IFeelLikeMyBumpIsGettingSoBigThatICanNotImagineItGettingMuchBiggerButIKnowItWill

Definitely less space for food these days.

#INeedToStartReadingHypnobirthingStuffAgainAndMentallyPreparingMyselfForTheBirth

I’m going to finish reading Dave Grohl’s book then I’ll start reading my hypnobirthing books.

#ThisWeekISaidToTiagoThatWeNeedToStartThinkingAboutBabyNamesAgain

With B we didn’t have that many thinking sessions about them. We had one early on and then left it for ages. It seems to be our approach this time around too…

#HeJustTurnedToBAndSaidTheNextSoundYouMakeWillBeTheNameOfYourSister

She does babble quite a lot now so I was wondering what she would say.

#WeBothWatchedHerWithAnticipationAndAfterALittleWhileSheDidABurp

Classic B.

#IAmTryingToImagineHowItWillBeOnMyNextBirthdayWhenIAm34AndWillMostLikelyHaveTwoKids

I say ‘most likely’ as I am still quite anxious about things.

#ThePictureWillDefinitelyBeMoreOfAStruggleForSure

I might need to recruit Tiago, or I imagine B might be stood at my feet just pulling on my top. I will have probably mastered how to hold both of them, but who knows.

#IKeepSayingItButIKnowIWillNeedToAcceptThatThereWillBeLessTimeForMeForAWhile

I thought about it again this morning.

#AtTheMomentTiagoUsuallyGetsBUpAndGivesHerBreakfastWhileIStretchAndFaffABit

Not too shabby.

#WithANewbornIKnowThatTimeWillProbablyBecomeBabyFeedingTimeAndIWillJustNeedToRestWhenICan

Less reading, less working, more just resting when I can and looking after my kids. It’s weird to say kids.

#WeOrderedAnIndianTakeawayLastNightThatWeWillAlsoHaveForDinnerTonight

Tiago thought about ordering from somewhere more fancy, but I like our local place. I know what we like. We ordered a couple of different things for once too and they were good.

#TiagoGetsStressedOutAboutPresentsEveryYearButIDoNotReallyWantAnything

If I want something I usually get it for myself.

#IAmOwedAFewMassagesThatHaveBeenGiftedForBirthdaysAndHolidaysEtcFromHimViaWordSoMaybeIWillActuallyGetOneOnOurWeekendAway

Covid, B and life have just stopped me having one. I definitely want a proper one after Baby X is born. I haven’t had many in my life, but I know it will be good for my body, and me.

24 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Diptych where in both I am stood sideways with my left arm forward, my right arm hanging down with a remote, my left leg is forward and my right leg is back. In the first I am breathing out and my bump is visible, in the second I am breathing in and my bump is a bit smaller.
I Tried To Suck In My Bump, But It Didn’t Really Work (24 weeks)
 
#BeforeIWasPregnantIDidNotLikeWearingTightTops
#IBoughtSomeForTheWinterThisYearButDidNotRealiseTheyWereSoTight
#AsTheyWereInPacketsAndIThoughtTheyWereLikeTheOnesIAlreadyHad
#WellIGuessIStillDoNotLikeWearingTightTopsButIHaveBeenWearingThem
#ISupposeIWantToTakeAdvantageOfTheFactThatBumpsAreSeenAsBeautiful
#ThoughNowIAmAtThePointWhereILoveMyBumpButIFeelAwkwardWhenPeopleNoticeIt
#IWoreThisTopTheOtherDayButDidNotThinkMuchAsIWasGoingToWearAJumperOverIt
#ButIWasWarmSoIWasAtTheOfficeAndFeltSelfConsciousWalkingDownTheCorridor
#WhenIWalkedPastAnOfficeWithAnOpenDoorITriedToSuckInMyBump
#ButIRealisedThatItDidNotChangeMuch
#ThenInTheEveningAGroupOfUsWentOutForDinner
#AndItWasHotSoISatInMyTopFeelingAwkward
#ThenWhenIWentToTheBathroomITriedToBreatheInMyBumpABit
#AndPutMyArmsInAWayToTryToCoverItABit
#IGuessIThoughtPeopleWouldJudgeMeForBeingPregnantAndWearingATightTop
#NoMatterHowYouLookAsAWomanYouWillBeCriticisedForSomethingAnyways
#InOtherNewsIAmABitWorriedAboutTheCoronaVirus
#IfIWasNotPregnantThenIWouldNotBeSoWorried
#ButBecauseIAmIDoNotKnowHowItWouldAffectTheBaby
#WouldItHaveLongTermHealthProblemsBecauseOfIt
#WhoKnows
#IAmJustWashingMyHandsMore
#AndSideEyeingPeopleWhoCoughWithNoAttemptToCoverTheirMouthInPublic
#HopefullyItWillBeUnderControlSoon
#IForgotToMentionInMyLastPhotoThatIHadSuchABadHipPainACoupleOfDaysBeforeThePictureWasTaken
#IThinkIJustOverStretchedItBySittingWithButterflyLegsForTooLong
#ButThenItWasReallyAwkwardForMeToWalkForTwoDays
#IStretchedMoreAndGotOverItLuckily
#GettingBoredOfHavingToStretchSoMuch
#ButIFeelGoodAfterwards

I am currently (31st October) sat in one of my tight tops. I feel less awkward as no one really sees me these days. I have breathed in a few times in the mirror to see if it makes a difference, but at this point it does not.

‘#HopefullyItWillBeUnderControlSoon’

I can’t believe that Covid is still a thing and cases are going up… At least we have vaccines now. I have been less scared now that I am double vaccinated, and I feel better for having the flu jab as well.

I have been stretching more this time, so I think that is helping a lot.


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I Didn’t Get A Photo Of Me In My Dress On Our First UK Couple Night Out Since B Was Born, So I’m Taking One Now (23 Weeks / 5th October 2021)

Self-portrait in a very colourful dress. I have my right hand on my back and I am resting my chin on my left wrist/arm.
I Didn’t Get A Photo Of Me In My Dress On Our First UK Couple Night Out Since B Was Born, So I’m Taking One Now (23 Weeks / 5th October 2021)
 
#SoWeWentAwayForTheWeekendToGoToAWeddingReceptionAndSeeFriendsFromOurLiverpoolDays
#WeLeftOnTheFridayJustAfterBsSecondNapAndTheTrafficWasBadAndItWasStressful
#LuckilyIHadDownloadedSomeTeletubbiesAndSomethingSpecialOntoMyPhoneAsAJustInCaseMeasure
#BHasStartedToWatchMoreOfShowsInTheLastCoupleOfWeeksRatherThanJustTheThemeTunes
#MyArmWasAchingFromHoldingThePhoneAndISuddenlyHadHadAFlashBackToBeingAKidInTheCarWithAnArmRest
#IWonderedIfOurCarHadOneAndThenItWasANiceSurpriseToFindItDid
#WeGotThroughItAndBWasSurprisedToSeeSomePeopleAtMyFriendsHouseButWasThenFine
#WeLetHerStayUpABitLateAndIShowedMyFriendHerBedtimeRoutineAndSheWentToSleepFine
#TheNextDayWeWentToAFirstBirthdayPartyWhichWasNice
#WeTookHerHomeForHerSecondNapAndSheWasFineUntilWeWokeHerUp
#SheKeptCryingAndNothingReallySeemedToHelp
#AtHomeWeWouldUsuallyTakeHerOutForAWalkOrSomethingToTryToChangeHerMoodButTheWeatherWasNotNice
#WeTriedToGiveHerDinnerButSheWouldNotHaveItSoWeTookHerOutOfHerHighChair
#ThenAfterAWhileWePutHerBackInAndPutTheClappingSongOnAndSheSeemedOkay
#WeWereDueToGoToAWeddingReceptionAndItWasGettingLate
#TiagoWasGoingToDropMeOffWithBInTheCarThenComeJoinMeAfterSheWentToBed
#ButThenSheSeemedOkayAndOurFriendSaidWeShouldGoAndThenSheWouldLetUsKnowHowBWasGettingOn
#ItHadBeenAStruggleFindingADressForMeToWearAsMyUsualOnesWereNotWeddingPartyEnoughAndTheOneIWantedToWearDidNotFit
#ThenIFoundThisDressThatICanNotRememberTheLastTimeIWoreItButItSeemedToFitTheThemeAndICouldFitInItSoItSeemedLikeAWinner
#ByTheTimeWeGotThereItWasJustAboutBsBedtimeAndMyFriendSaidSheWasInABetterMood
#TiagoAndIHadNotHadANightOutInTheUKSinceBWasBornAndByThisPointWeWereQuiteStressedOut
#WalkingIntoTheVenueWeFeltOverwhelmedByAllThePeopleAndLoudMusic
#WeHadDoneFlowTestsBeforeWeArrivedAsInstructedToButItWasStillWeirdToSeeSoManyPeopleWithoutMasks
#WeDidNotKnowAnyoneAtTheWeddingBesidesTheBrideAndGroomSoWeFeltQuiteAwkwardAndEndedUpNotStayingVeryLong
#WeThoughtWeShouldMakeTheMostOfOurOneNightOfFreedomAsWeKnowWeWillNotHaveManyBeforeBabyXIsBornButWeJustWantedToGoHome
#OurFriendHadSomeFriendsRoundWhoWeKnewSoItWasNiceToJustRelaxInAHouseWithPeopleKnowingBWasFineUpstairsAndChatToPeopleLikeOldTimes
#TheNextDayWeHadToTakeBOutOfHerHighChairAtLunchAndTryAgainLaterSoNowIAmTryingToNotGiveHerSnacksBetweenMealsToSeeIfThisHelps
#YesterdaySheAteMoreOfHerLunchThanNormalSoWeCouldBeOnToAWinnerThere
#IReallyNeedToWorkWithBOnLearningSignsAsItWouldBeSoMuchEasierIfWeCouldCommunicateBetter
#IThinkSheHasACoupleMoreTeethComingThroughAndSheIsMoreSensitiveToUsSayingNoToHerAboutThingsNow
 

I’m going to attempt to write this blog post while B plays around me. I had planned to do it during her nap, but something that was meant to take 5 minutes has not been sorted yet.

I feel a bit awkward writing this post as I know my friends who are talked about in this might read this, but I’m not saying anything bad. I’m just saying how things went and how we felt.

#SoWeWentAwayForTheWeekendToGoToAWeddingReceptionAndSeeFriendsFromOurLiverpoolDays

Great.

#WeLeftOnTheFridayJustAfterBsSecondNapAndTheTrafficWasBadAndItWasStressful

We’d managed to get petrol so that was one thing. Trying to entertain B in the car for 2 and a half hours was a barrel of fun.

#LuckilyIHadDownloadedSomeTeletubbiesAndSomethingSpecialOntoMyPhoneAsAJustInCaseMeasure #BHasStartedToWatchMoreOfShowsInTheLastCoupleOfWeeksRatherThanJustTheThemeTunes

I read her about 5 books first before resorting to them. I said I’d never let my kids have lots of screen time, but desperate times mean desperate measures.

I had brought lots of snacks and a picnic dinner for her.

#MyArmWasAchingFromHoldingThePhoneAndISuddenlyHadHadAFlashBackToBeingAKidInTheCarWithAnArmRest #IWonderedIfOurCarHadOneAndThenItWasANiceSurpriseToFindItDid

Wahoo. Tiago wasn’t sure if he even knew about it. How many trips have I done in the back of the car without realising it was there? It has a drinks holder too, so I felt a bit posh with B’s cup in one and mine in the other.

#WeGotThroughItAndBWasSurprisedToSeeSomePeopleAtMyFriendsHouseButWasThenFine

She was a bit shy, but then she got over it quite quickly.

#WeLetHerStayUpABitLateAndIShowedMyFriendHerBedtimeRoutineAndSheWentToSleepFine

We thought she might as well enjoy hanging out with people she doesn’t see very often, and from our time in Portugal we know her staying up a little bit late doesn’t do her any harm from time to time. (She went to bed at 9, rather than 8.)

#TheNextDayWeWentToAFirstBirthdayPartyWhichWasNice

We were supposed to go to a zoo, but the weather forecast looked bad so we went to their house instead. Typically the weather was okay until much later in the day.

#WeTookHerHomeForHerSecondNapAndSheWasFineUntilWeWokeHerUp

Sometimes she is not in a great mood after we wake her up from that nap.

#SheKeptCryingAndNothingReallySeemedToHelp #AtHomeWeWouldUsuallyTakeHerOutForAWalkOrSomethingToTryToChangeHerMoodButTheWeatherWasNotNice

It’s always fun trying to figure out what to do without all your usual tools and distractions nearby. At home we would have probably gone out with an umbrella, but we didn’t know where to go in that area.

#WeTriedToGiveHerDinnerButSheWouldNotHaveItSoWeTookHerOutOfHerHighChair

Maybe she wasn’t hungry? Maybe she was teething? We did give her some paracetamol as she had started to put her fingers in her mouth.

#ThenAfterAWhileWePutHerBackInAndPutTheClappingSongOnAndSheSeemedOkay

At home we do use music as a big distraction. I’m so bored of The Clapping song (by Shirley Ellis) now.

#WeWereDueToGoToAWeddingReceptionAndItWasGettingLate

The invite said from 6 and it was probably around 6.45 by this point.

#TiagoWasGoingToDropMeOffWithBInTheCarThenComeJoinMeAfterSheWentToBed

I didn’t want to wait until B went to bed, as what if she was miserable for ages and we missed it.

#ButThenSheSeemedOkayAndOurFriendSaidWeShouldGoAndThenSheWouldLetUsKnowHowBWasGettingOn

It seemed the same as Tiago dropping me off with B in the car, except B would be at home so if things were okay then he could stay.

#ItHadBeenAStruggleFindingADressForMeToWearAsMyUsualOnesWereNotWeddingPartyEnoughAndTheOneIWantedToWearDidNotFit

I get stressed enough about wedding attire as it is, let alone being pregnant. The last wedding dress experience didn’t go very well, so that was a definite no.

#ThenIFoundThisDressThatICanNotRememberTheLastTimeIWoreItButItSeemedToFitTheThemeAndICouldFitInItSoItSeemedLikeAWinner

My older sister gave it to me when she worked for a fashion company. I’ve had it since my BA days and have only wore it out a few times, but have worn it for photo shoots.

#ByTheTimeWeGotThereItWasJustAboutBsBedtimeAndMyFriendSaidSheWasInABetterMood

Hurrah.

#TiagoAndIHadNotHadANightOutInTheUKSinceBWasBornAndByThisPointWeWereQuiteStressedOut

We hadn’t had a night out until we went to Portugal and Tiago’s parents would keep an eye on her after she went to bed. Our friend was the first person who had put her to bed besides us.

#WalkingIntoTheVenueWeFeltOverwhelmedByAllThePeopleAndLoudMusic

Well, maybe it was more me than Tiago. I just found it odd. I think I had been expecting less people for some reason.

#WeHadDoneFlowTestsBeforeWeArrivedAsInstructedToButItWasStillWeirdToSeeSoManyPeopleWithoutMasks

We had brought masks with us just in case. I saw one guy around our age wearing one, but no one else. I’ve had my second jab so I feel better about things, but I am still worried about catching Covid.

#WeDidNotKnowAnyoneAtTheWeddingBesidesTheBrideAndGroomSoWeFeltQuiteAwkwardAndEndedUpNotStayingVeryLong

Another couple we know weren’t able to go in the end. If you’ve been at a wedding all day it’s different as you have seats you can sit in and you’ve spoke to people next to you on the table. We just felt really awkward. We had some alcohol free drinks, and danced on the spot. People seemed to be in groups, so we said hi to the groom (the bride was too in demand) and then left. Sorry to my friend if he reads this, but I don’t think our company was missed.

I do think we were great guests though – we didn’t cost them any money by being there and we donated to their honeymood fund.

#WeThoughtWeShouldMakeTheMostOfOurOneNightOfFreedomAsWeKnowWeWillNotHaveManyBeforeBabyXIsBornButWeJustWantedToGoHome

This may have been our last one. We thought about going out for dinner, but on the way there I said can we just go home please.

#OurFriendHadSomeFriendsRoundWhoWeKnewSoItWasNiceToJustRelaxInAHouseWithPeopleKnowingBWasFineUpstairsAndChatToPeopleLikeOldTimes

They’d just ordered pizza, and we felt more relaxed being home to keep an eye on B (not that we didn’t trust her babysitters) and with a group of people we knew. I changed out of my outfit pretty quick.

I’d wanted Tiago to take a picture of me in my dress, but I felt so awkward at the party that I would have felt embarrassed for him to take it there – hence why I will do a shoot that fits this title later on.

#TheNextDayWeHadToTakeBOutOfHerHighChairAtLunchAndTryAgainLaterSoNowIAmTryingToNotGiveHerSnacksBetweenMealsToSeeIfThisHelps

Our friend had some family round and she may have had some chocolate pretzel, so I do not think she was hungry. I will try to give her lunch around 12:30/12:45 now instead of 1.

#YesterdaySheAteMoreOfHerLunchThanNormalSoWeCouldBeOnToAWinnerThere

It was about 12:45. She has a big breakfast – lots of porridge pancakes that she eats quick – and then usually steals some of my Nan’s and my breakfast (scrambled eggs and crusts).

#IReallyNeedToWorkWithBOnLearningSignsAsItWouldBeSoMuchEasierIfWeCouldCommunicateBetter

I think we all get frustrated these days with not knowing what she really wants.

#IThinkSheHasACoupleMoreTeethComingThroughAndSheIsMoreSensitiveToUsSayingNoToHerAboutThingsNow

This morning she tipped her head back and I could see two upper teeth coming through, though maybe she has more as I thought she had been touching the bottom of her mouth but maybe not.

I changed her nappy and she kept trying to put her hands in it, so I shouted ‘B, no!’, so Tiago came in and then she got upset.

I’m sorry B.

23 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Full length self-portrait. I'm wearing a hat with ears, which also has two big pink dangly bobbles. I have a grey jumper, navy coat, cropped trousers and boots on too.
I Usually Wear This Outfit When I Leave Home These Days (23 weeks)
 
#IUsuallyWearThisOutfitWhenILeaveTheHomeTheseDays
#AJumperThatIGotFromMySisterForSecretSanta
#AndSomeTrousersThatIBoughtFromHerProbablyAFewYearsAgoButHadNotReallyWornMuchBefore
#IStartedToWearMyOldBootsEarlyOnInThePregnancyAsIFeelLikeINearlySlipOverALotInMyTrainers
#WhichWasFineBeforeButNotNow
#AndThenIAlwaysHaveToWalkByAMassivePuddleWhereIWorryAboutGettingSplashedByCars
#SoWithMyBootsICanWalkInASmallerPuddleToGetAwayFromIt
#AndAlsoHaveToWorryAboutWhereITreadAllTheTimeAsIDoNotGetWetFeet
#IHaveALotOfHeatTechTopsThatIHaveBeenWearingAllWinter
#SoIAmUsuallyWearingOneOfThoseAsTheyKeepMeWarmAndIDoNotGetSweaty
#DoubleWin
#TheSockChoiceIsImportantAsSomeFallDownEasilyWithTheBootsLikeTheOnesIAmWearingForThisPhoto
#ThenIWearMyCoatWhichIGotTheWeekBeforeIFoundOutIWasPregnant
#ICanStillDoItUpButNotForMuchLonger
#SoHopefullyWarmerWeatherIsComingSoonSoICanJustWearItUnzipped
#AndThenTheHatThatMyMumGotMeWhichFeaturesInMyUlteriorMonologueProject
#IFeelAwkwardWearingItButItKeepsMeWarm
#IOftenCatchPeopleStaringAtMeAndIAmLikeOhItIsProbablyBecauseOfMyHat
#NowMyBumpIsShowingMoreIWonderIfTheyThinkIAmAYoungMother
#AsIDoNotThinkThatILookLikeIAmInMyEarly30sMostOfTheTime
#LetAloneWithAnAnimalHatOn
#IAmStartingToGetHeartburnNow
#IThoughtIHadNeverHadHeartburnBefore
#ButThenIRealisedThatAcidRefluxIsTheSameThingAndIDefinitelyHave
#LastYearIWasGettingItBadBecauseIKeptEatingLate
#IDidMyOwnMadeUpStretchingRoutineLastNightAndNotAVideo
#AndIKeptWakingUpWithPelvisPain
#SoINeedToMakeSureIFollowVideosOrDoAMoreThoroughStretch
#IAmStretchingInThePhoto

Unintentionally the comparison image is also about clothes. I also talk about wearing something that my sister got me, but this jumper was from my younger sister, whereas the dress was from my older sister. Fun fact there.

I haven’t really been wearing this outfit this time. I wear Tiago’s hiking boots when he isn’t wearing them as they’re a lot easier to slip on and off. I do wear the jumper sometimes but it hasn’t been cold enough yet. I do wear the coat. I favour wearing a dress with leggings over the trousers, just as the trousers are cropped and so I do have to wear them with the boots. More fun facts.

I’m now 26 weeks and I do struggle to do the coat up if I have eaten a lot. I will wear the hat once it gets colder. It is hung up waiting for me…

I haven’t had many cases yet where I’ve woken up in the night with acid coming up my throat. I think last night might have been the first time actually (maybe second).

I don’t wake up with pelvis pain so much this time, but maybe it is because I am stretching more, running round after B, and maybe our bed is more comfortable. When we were at Tiago’s parent’s house I don’t think their bed was as comfy and it did cause me a lot of pain at times.

(I’m writing this in late October as I want my blog posts to be up to date to post.)


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Imitating B Pulling Her Hair (19 Weeks / 12th September 2021)

Self-portrait with my hair covering my face and I'm pulling pieces of my hair on the left and right side of my head.
Imitating B Pulling Her Hair (19 Weeks / 12th September 2021)
 
#BIsStartingToBecomeMoreAwareOfHerselfAndHerBodyIThink
#SometimesSheWillJustPullAtHerHairButNotInABadWayJustInAOohIHaveHairWay
#ShePullsMyHairInAHowMuchDoIHaveToPullThisToGetItToComeOutWay
#IGotBackFromLondonLastNightAndHadAShowerToDecontaminate
#IWentToBedWithWetHairAsIWasSoTiredSoMaybeItWillStillLookABitWildByTheTimeIDoAShoot
#IHadNotBeenAwayFromBForMoreThan6HoursBeforeAndInTheEndIDidNotSeeHerForAbout41Hours
#ILeftJustBeforeHerSecondNapOnFridayAndGotBackAfterSheHadGoneToBedOnSaturday
#IHadBeenExcitedAboutGoingButAsIPackedOnFridayISuddenlyFeltQuiteEmotionalAndSadAboutLeaving
#PackingForAnAdultForOneNightIsSoMuchLessWorkThanPackingForTwoAdultsAndAToddler
#OnFridayMorningTiagoEndedUpGivingBASpoonfulOfSlightlySoapyWaterInHerWaterCupRatherThanHerVitaminsSoIWasALittleNervous
#IHadBeenRinsingAnOldBottleForRecyclingAndMyNanMustHaveMovedItAwayFromTheDrainingBoard
#BsParacetamolIsSometimesPinkAndSometimesClearSoTiagoAssumedTheVitaminsMightBeTheSame
#ButInTheEndItWasFineAndTiagoSentMeVideosOfHimChasingAfterBAndHerCuddlingHerCollectionOfTeddies
#MyNanKeepsBuyingHerTeddiesButSheHasNeverPaidMuchAttentionToThemUntilThisWeek
#SheIsGoingThroughALeapAndHasChangedSoMuchInTheLastWeek
#ItWasHotTheOtherDayAndSheWasSatJustInHerNappySpittingOutHerWaterOntoHerChestAndRubbingItIn
#SheCouldNotSwimInTheSeaSoSheHadToMakeDoWithATubOfWaterOutsideButSheHadAGreatTime
#ButYesItWasNiceToHaveAnEveningAndDayAwayForMyselfAndToSeeSoManyOldFriendsAndAcquaintancesAfterSoLong
#IKeptThinkingThatEveryoneHasBeenCarryingOnAsNormalWhileIHaveBeenAwayLookingAfterB
#ButOfCourseThePandemicHasBeenDifferentForEveryoneAndItWasAStrangeExperienceForAll
#ILostMyVoiceAtOnePointAsIWasNotUsedToTalkingAndSpeakingLoudlySoMuch
#MyBumpFeltHeavyAtTimesFromAllTheWalkingAndStandingAndBeforeBoardingTrainsAndTubesIWouldRubMyBellyToShowIWasPregnant
#ItWasUnnecessaryThoughAsTransportWasPrettyQuietWhichWasNiceAndISatInThePregnancySeatsWithoutFeelingSuperAwkwardThoughIFeltALittleBitSo
#ThisWeekBHadHerFirstToddlerClassAndAtTheBeginningSheJustSatByHerPushchair
#IGuessItWasWeirdForHerAsSheHadGoneFromBeingTheOldestToOneOfTheYoungest
#SheHadAlsoNotBeenAroundSoManyYoungPeopleInAWhileSoItMustHaveBeenALotToTakeIn
#ItWillBeGoodForHerThoughAndSheWillLearnALotFromTheOlderOnes
#IAmHopingToJustTakeBabyXAlongToBsClassesAfterTheyAreBorn
#IAmTryingToMakeAnEffortToMeetMoreLocalMumsWhoAreAlsoPregnantViaThoseAwkwardMumApps
#MyThinkingIsTheyWillBeOnMaternityLeaveSoWillHopefullyWantToHangOutAndWeCanPassTheLongWeekdaysTogetherAtTimes

#BIsStartingToBecomeMoreAwareOfHerselfAndHerBodyIThink

She was already aware of it, but it seems like she is more so.

#SometimesSheWillJustPullAtHerHairButNotInABadWayJustInAOohIHaveHairWay

Maybe she is stressed sometimes, or maybe it is just something to do? It seems to be in a playful/toddler way.

#ShePullsMyHairInAHowMuchDoIHaveToPullThisToGetItToComeOutWay

Maybe she is just more aware of bodies in general. She likes to grab our noses more now.

#IGotBackFromLondonLastNightAndHadAShowerToDecontaminate

Put all my clothes in the wash, had a shower and washed my hair.

#IWentToBedWithWetHairAsIWasSoTiredSoMaybeItWillStillLookABitWildByTheTimeIDoAShoot

It looked WILD this morning. We took B for a walk and I don’t want to brush it, so I looked a bit of a mess, but it will have fallen out more by the time I get round to the shoot.

#IHadNotBeenAwayFromBForMoreThan6HoursBeforeAndInTheEndIDidNotSeeHerForAbout41Hours

Those 6 hours were in November…

On holiday the other week I did have a bit of time away from her, but I would generally see her after two or three hours.

It was T’s first time looking after B for a whole day, though my Nan was around and my Mum was about for a bit.

#ILeftJustBeforeHerSecondNapOnFridayAndGotBackAfterSheHadGoneToBedOnSaturday

So I did not see her until this morning.

#IHadBeenExcitedAboutGoingButAsIPackedOnFridayISuddenlyFeltQuiteEmotionalAndSadAboutLeaving

I did miss her while I was away, but I was also happy to see so many people and be reminded that I do have friends and know people.

#PackingForAnAdultForOneNightIsSoMuchLessWorkThanPackingForTwoAdultsAndAToddler

One small backpack. I packed way too many changes of clothes, but whatever. So nice to have a short packing list rather than a massive one.

#OnFridayMorningTiagoEndedUpGivingBASpoonfulOfSlightlySoapyWaterInHerWaterCupRatherThanHerVitaminsSoIWasALittleNervous #IHadBeenRinsingAnOldBottleForRecyclingAndMyNanMustHaveMovedItAwayFromTheDrainingBoard #BsParacetamolIsSometimesPinkAndSometimesClearSoTiagoAssumedTheVitaminsMightBeTheSame

He had given her milk and pointed to a glass and said ‘this is what is left of B’s vitamin water’ (we mix her vitamins in with her water as it seems easier than giving it on a spoon, though she likes it so she probably would take it from the spoon now). I was confused and said ‘it looks a bit clear’, but he mentioned about her paracetamol sometimes being clear and sometimes being pink. Her vitamins are a very strong pink.

After a few seconds it clicked and I could not stop laughing. I tried the water to make T feel a bit better. It couldn’t have been so bad as B had drank most of the cup.

#ButInTheEndItWasFineAndTiagoSentMeVideosOfHimChasingAfterBAndHerCuddlingHerCollectionOfTeddies

A good run around before bed – ‘I’m going to get you’.

A morning cuddle with three teddies.

#MyNanKeepsBuyingHerTeddiesButSheHasNeverPaidMuchAttentionToThemUntilThisWeek

It’s probably because before I put her down for a nap for bed I mention the three stuffed animals that are in her cot. Sometimes she cuddles them, sometimes she cuddles her water cup.

#SheIsGoingThroughALeapAndHasChangedSoMuchInTheLastWeek

She just suddenly seems smarter. She now makes it clear when she wants more water etc.

#ItWasHotTheOtherDayAndSheWasSatJustInHerNappySpittingOutHerWaterOntoHerChestAndRubbingItIn

Classic.

#SheCouldNotSwimInTheSeaSoSheHadToMakeDoWithATubOfWaterOutsideButSheHadAGreatTime

She loved it. One day it was so hot that I did not even bother drying her afterwards and she dried fast. Her skin felt lovely and cold.

#ButYesItWasNiceToHaveAnEveningAndDayAwayForMyselfAndToSeeSoManyOldFriendsAndAcquaintancesAfterSoLong

It’s just nice to wander around and recognise so many faces.

#IKeptThinkingThatEveryoneHasBeenCarryingOnAsNormalWhileIHaveBeenAwayLookingAfterB #ButOfCourseThePandemicHasBeenDifferentForEveryoneAndItWasAStrangeExperienceForAll

Big photography events and openings just haven’t been happening.

#ILostMyVoiceAtOnePointAsIWasNotUsedToTalkingAndSpeakingLoudlySoMuch

It was good to talk about photography and life with people in real life again. Apologies to anyone that I bored talking about family life to.

#MyBumpFeltHeavyAtTimesFromAllTheWalkingAndStandingAndBeforeBoardingTrainsAndTubesIWouldRubMyBellyToShowIWasPregnant

I haven’t stood up and walked so much in a while.

#ItWasUnnecessaryThoughAsTransportWasPrettyQuietWhichWasNiceAndISatInThePregnancySeatsWithoutFeelingSuperAwkwardThoughIFeltALittleBitSo

When I lived in London I’d never sit in the priority chairs so it felt weird, apart from getting the train to and from Brum. I love the single seats that face out, and I managed to get one of them both ways, so I didn’t have to sit next to someone without a mask.

I was disappointed how many people weren’t wearing masks on public transport in London.

#ThisWeekBHadHerFirstToddlerClassAndAtTheBeginningSheJustSatByHerPushchair

I had to put her by the mat and all the kids.

#IGuessItWasWeirdForHerAsSheHadGoneFromBeingTheOldestToOneOfTheYoungest

It’s nice to be at a more age appropriate class though, as the other one was getting boring.

#SheHadAlsoNotBeenAroundSoManyYoungPeopleInAWhileSoItMustHaveBeenALotToTakeIn #ItWillBeGoodForHerThoughAndSheWillLearnALotFromTheOlderOnes

It was a settling in class for both of us. Hopefully she will feel more at home next week, and we can try to meet some people.

#IAmHopingToJustTakeBabyXAlongToBsClassesAfterTheyAreBorn

Fingers crossed. Tiago can take B when he is on paternity leave, and then hopefully I’d feel comfortable enough to take them both.

#IAmTryingToMakeAnEffortToMeetMoreLocalMumsWhoAreAlsoPregnantViaThoseAwkwardMumApps

I’ve spent a lot of time talking to Mums over the last year, but not much comes out of it. It’s worse than dating.

#MyThinkingIsTheyWillBeOnMaternityLeaveSoWillHopefullyWantToHangOutAndWeCanPassTheLongWeekdaysTogetherAtTimes

Especially those who have an older kid as they will hopefully feel more comfortable going out. I’m not being picky though, I’d just like more weekday friends.

19 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait from my head to my knees. I'm dressed all in black and some of my hair is draped over my left arm, which is resting on my head.
The Other Day I Thought I Could Feel The Baby Moving (19 and a half weeks)
 
#TheOtherDayIThoughtICouldFeelTheBabyMoving
#ItFeltLikePopcornLightlyPopping
#ButAgainItCouldHaveBeenWishfulThinking
#TheNightBeforeIHadHadADreamThatINeededToFlushPeoplesRingsDownTheToilet
#OtherwiseSomethingReallyBadWouldHappenToMe
#ItWasASuperStressfulDream
#MeanwhileTiagoWasDreamingThatTheBabyWasCryingInItsCot
#SoHePickedItUpAndSangToItAndSettledIt
#AndThereWasAVeryBabylikeDollInTheCotToo
#BesidesFromTheCreepyDollItSoundsLikeAMuchBetterDream
#IHaveBeenFeelingABitBetterInTheLastFewDays
#IThinkTheCrampsWereProbablyTheBabyJustGrowingAndMyBodyDoingItsThing
#ButIAlsoThinkItMayHaveBeenTrappedWindAndThingsLikeThat
#CharmingButTrue
#ItHasBeenNiceNotGettingMenstrualCrampsForAWhile
#MyPeriodTrackerAppSaysMyPeriodIs111DaysLate
#MyCoughSeemsToHaveReturnedAlreadyWhichIsABitAnnoying
#PeopleAlwaysAskMeAboutIfIHaveCravings
#NotReallyThoughIHavePizzaToastInsteadOfCheeseAndPickleSandwichesWhenPossibleNow
#IThinkItIsMoreMeJustLettingMyselfEatWhatIWantRatherThanCravings
#IAmNotSureIfIMentionedItBeforeButOneDayISawAVanThatSaidWFSOnIt
#AndIWasLikeMmmWaffles
#TheOtherDayTiagoWasWatchingEvertonFootballHighlights
#AndTheirShirtsMadeMeWantCheeseAndOnionCrisps
#SoIGuessWeirdThingsTriggerCravings
#ThoughIDoNotUsuallyEatTheThingsIThinkAbout
#TheCravingsAreNormallyQuiteImpulsive
#LikeIWantItNowAndIfItWasEasilyAttainableThenIProbablyWouldEatItThenAndThere
#ThoughIAmTryingNotToEatTooUnhealthily
#INeedToEatMoreCalciumWhichIsWhyIDoNotFeelBadAboutEatingSomeCheddarEveryDay

I had forgot about describing kicks as popcorn popping. It just felt more ticklish this time and then quickly moved onto stronger movements.

My dreams have been intense lately (mid-October), but I don’t like when I have them as they tire me out.

I had a phase of being quite into vinegary crisps this time, but it passed. I have been enjoying beetroot and pickled red cabbage lately though (in a wrap with other things), and I did have a lot of vinegar on my chips at dinner today. But I was a fan of vinegar before being pregnant – I just usually don’t choose salt and vinegar crisps over other flavours though. Exciting stuff.

I have been making banana bread a lot lately and I put a lot of yoghurt on that, so I guess that’s my calcium sorted.


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General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot III (19 Weeks / 7th September 2021)

I'm kneeling on the floor in my bra and leggings. I am holding my arms behind my back. My bump is slightly bigger than similar photos I've taken before.
General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot III (19 Weeks / 7th September 2021)
 
#WeAreNowBackAtHomeSoICanFinallyDoTheThirdVersionOfThisPhoto
#IWouldHaveLikedToHaveDoneItSoonerAsTheGapBetweenTheOtherTwoWasFourWeeksAndNowThereIsASixWeekGap
#OhWellBetterLateThanNever
#ItWasNiceToBeAwayButItIsAlsoReallyGoodToBeHomeAndHaveAllOurStuff
#YesterdayIWasLikeANewWomanCookingAndCleaningLoads
#IThinkIAmDefinitelyNestingButWeWereAlsoTakingLivingWithMyNanForGrantedAndItIsNiceToBeBack
#IThinkIHaveAlreadyUsedUpALotOfMyEnergyAsThisMorningIAmJustSuperTired
#AtLeastIDoNotHaveToQuarantineButItIsSoHotThatIDoNotReallyWantToLeaveTheHouseAnyways
#TheDayBeforeLeavingWeWereSatInABankRunningErrandsAndIThinkIFeltTheBabyKick
#ItMightPossiblyHaveBeenBraxtonHicksButIDefinitelyFeelMoreThingsHappeningWithinMyBumpNow
#NowWhenIAskBForAKissSheOffersMeHerForeheadOrHeadbuttsMe
#TiagoSaidHisMumWasTeachingBHowToHeadbutLikeABullAsThereAreALotOfBullsOnTheIsland
#TravellingBackCouldHaveBeenWorseButItCouldHaveAlsoBeenBetterToo
#TheFirstPlaneWasFineAsTheAirportIsChillAndBHadHadLunchBeforeWeGotToTheAirportAndItWasAShortFlight
#ThenWeHadThreeHoursBetweenFlightsAndBWasStartingToGetSleepySoWeTookItInTurnsPushingHerUpAndDownTheAirportAndSheEventuallyHadANap
#CheckInStartedLateAndWeWereStoodInAQueueForAboutAnHour
#AFamilyInFrontOfUsWithATwoYearOldWereToldThatTheAirlineNoLongerAcceptedResultsFromTheCompanyTheyUsedAndWereNotAllowedToBoard
#WeTriedToHelpThemButThereWasNothingWeCouldDoAndAsCheckInWasSoLateTheyDidNotHaveTimeToGetNewTests
#BHasDefinitelyChangedAsSheWasNotSoBotheredByAllThePeopleAndSpentALotOfTheFlightWanderingUpAndDownTheAisle
#SheWasAlsoStealingWaterBottlesAsKidsDoNotWantFancyToysTheyWantToPlayWithAnythingAndEverythingElseInstead
#SheLikesToDanceUsingHerHandsButIThinkSheDoesAlsoWaveNowAsWellSoSheWasDancingOrWavingAtEveryone
#TheLightsWereOnHighOnTheFlightTheWholeWaySoBDidNotSleepAndWeLandedAtAboutElevenThirty
#TheFamilyQueueWasMassiveSoItTookAnHourToGetThrough
#TheTaxisWereSuperExpensiveAndWeHadJustMissedTheLastTrainSoWeHadToGetACoachInstead
#YouCouldSeeEveryoneInTheQueueThinkingErghNotABabyOnTheCoachButSheSleptTheWholeTime
#WeGotToMySistersPlaceAtTwoThirtyInTheMorningAndLuckilyBWentStraightToSleep
#ItWasNiceForHerToPlayWithHerCousinAndWeWentOutForLunch
#ApparentlySomeRestaurantsDoNotHaveMoreThanOneHighChairSoWeFinallyGotEnoughSeatsInTheThirdPlaceWeTried
#BDidNotLikeHerPlateOfEggFriedRiceSoIHadToGoAndBuyHerSomeFoodFromASupermarket
#WeAreTryingGivingHerDinnerLaterAndPuttingHerToBedLaterButLetsSeeIfSheCanKeepWakingUpAtAMoreRespectableHour
 

#WeAreNowBackAtHomeSoICanFinallyDoTheThirdVersionOfThisPhoto

Version 1 / Version 2.

#IWouldHaveLikedToHaveDoneItSoonerAsTheGapBetweenTheOtherTwoWasFourWeeksAndNowThereIsASixWeekGap #OhWellBetterLateThanNever

It is what it is. I’ll do the shoot when B wakes up from her nap and my Mum looks after her for an hour or so.

#ItWasNiceToBeAwayButItIsAlsoReallyGoodToBeHomeAndHaveAllOurStuff

Tiago’s parents’ house is a lot of stone and rock, so I didn’t feel like we had a safe place to play. Plus we didn’t take many books and toys.

#YesterdayIWasLikeANewWomanCookingAndCleaningLoads

I also don’t get on well with their kitchen and I missed having a routine with washing clothes etc. Simple stuff that shows I’m getting older.

#IThinkIAmDefinitelyNestingButWeWereAlsoTakingLivingWithMyNanForGrantedAndItIsNiceToBeBack

I did not want the suitcases hanging around for ages, so I washed what needed to be washed and put most of it away. Tiago just needs to sort out his mountain of clothes. The floor is covered in B’s toys, but there is no point tidying as she will be messing with them again in a bit. It’s good to see Nan too – though B was a bit weird with her for a day as I think she could not really remember her?

#IThinkIHaveAlreadyUsedUpALotOfMyEnergyAsThisMorningIAmJustSuperTired

I guess I also knew that today was a day for getting work done for me. Yesterday I let myself have an easy day – I also did a lot of what I needed to do before we came back.

#AtLeastIDoNotHaveToQuarantineButItIsSoHotThatIDoNotReallyWantToLeaveTheHouseAnyways

I took B to the park yesterday to kick her ball around, but she just wanted to play with the pushchair. We were in the shade the whole time.

#TheDayBeforeLeavingWeWereSatInABankRunningErrandsAndIThinkIFeltTheBabyKick #ItMightPossiblyHaveBeenBraxtonHicksButIDefinitelyFeelMoreThingsHappeningWithinMyBumpNow

At this point you can start to feel things, and apparently if you’ve had a baby before you might feel it earlier. I think because I was sat so still and not doing much I noticed it more.

#NowWhenIAskBForAKissSheOffersMeHerForeheadOrHeadbuttsMe #TiagoSaidHisMumWasTeachingBHowToHeadbutLikeABullAsThereAreALotOfBullsOnTheIsland

I tried to film it this morning and she just headbutted my phone instead. Hopefully she’ll stop doing it soon.

#TravellingBackCouldHaveBeenWorseButItCouldHaveAlsoBeenBetterToo #TheFirstPlaneWasFineAsTheAirportIsChillAndBHadHadLunchBeforeWeGotToTheAirportAndItWasAShortFlight

T’s parents live so close to the airport that it’s great. We can leave fairly late and still have plenty of time. We ate our lunch in the airport while giving B some snacks as she hadn’t eaten much since it was quite early for her. The flight was about 35 minutes I think.

#ThenWeHadThreeHoursBetweenFlightsAndBWasStartingToGetSleepySoWeTookItInTurnsPushingHerUpAndDownTheAirportAndSheEventuallyHadANap

At first we tried outside but I felt awkward and a lot of people were smoking. It was much better once we went inside and had seats too.

#CheckInStartedLateAndWeWereStoodInAQueueForAboutAnHour

It was less than 2 hours until the flight and T went to ask if it had started. They said yes, then updated the board. We were going to wait until the queue had got smaller, but we also didn’t want to miss our flight.

We moved to a different queue (after following others who had been in our queue), but it turned out to be for a different flight so they made us wait.

#AFamilyInFrontOfUsWithATwoYearOldWereToldThatTheAirlineNoLongerAcceptedResultsFromTheCompanyTheyUsedAndWereNotAllowedToBoard #WeTriedToHelpThemButThereWasNothingWeCouldDoAndAsCheckInWasSoLateTheyDidNotHaveTimeToGetNewTests

They’d used a company for tests to fly out with and it’d been fine. The staff told them they did not accept results from that company anymore… I felt so bad for them. It was late in the day and there is only one direct flight to London a week from the Azores (which was the flight we were all queuing for). I hope they got home okay in the end.

Some people had not needed to check-in, so some people got to the boarding gates without showing test results and were not allowed to board as they had not done tests. There were a lot of empty seats by us on the plane and we had 3 seats to ourselves which was good.

#BHasDefinitelyChangedAsSheWasNotSoBotheredByAllThePeopleAndSpentALotOfTheFlightWanderingUpAndDownTheAisle

She’s changed from the young girl who was scared of all the people on our first flight 3 weeks ago.

#SheWasAlsoStealingWaterBottlesAsKidsDoNotWantFancyToysTheyWantToPlayWithAnythingAndEverythingElseInstead

Ain’t that the truth?

#SheLikesToDanceUsingHerHandsButIThinkSheDoesAlsoWaveNowAsWellSoSheWasDancingOrWavingAtEveryone

Sometimes I do not know if she is waving or dancing at me. Maybe she thinks waving is dancing? Who knows? (Just B who can’t communicate what she thinks yet.)

#TheLightsWereOnHighOnTheFlightTheWholeWaySoBDidNotSleepAndWeLandedAtAboutElevenThirty

There was a slightly older toddler two rows behind us who was also struggling to sleep and making a lot of noise, so that also didn’t help.

#TheFamilyQueueWasMassiveSoItTookAnHourToGetThrough

I thought that not many flights would land at 11:30pm, but apparently they do. It was a queue full of overtired kids, and stressed out parents.

#TheTaxisWereSuperExpensiveAndWeHadJustMissedTheLastTrainSoWeHadToGetACoachInstead

Great.

#YouCouldSeeEveryoneInTheQueueThinkingErghNotABabyOnTheCoachButSheSleptTheWholeTime

It was not as bad as it could have been, but we should have probably got off at the first stop and got a taxi from there as it cost the same as from the fifth stop but whatever. It was too late by the time we realised as our luggage had been put in sections and we were at the back of the coach.

#WeGotToMySistersPlaceAtTwoThirtyInTheMorningAndLuckilyBWentStraightToSleep

We were planning to go to our car (though the taxi was the same price as a taxi to theirs), so we spent the night with them instead which was nice as we hadn’t seen them in a long time.

Another hurrah for not having to quarantine.

#ItWasNiceForHerToPlayWithHerCousinAndWeWentOutForLunch

The last time they saw each other they had been so young that they hadn’t really noticed each other existed. It was fun to see them together.

#ApparentlySomeRestaurantsDoNotHaveMoreThanOneHighChairSoWeFinallyGotEnoughSeatsInTheThirdPlaceWeTried

If we’d known my sister could have brought a booster seat, but oh well. The one we went to in the end had about 4?

#BDidNotLikeHerPlateOfEggFriedRiceSoIHadToGoAndBuyHerSomeFoodFromASupermarket

Her cousin was loving it, but B was crying her head off and we were getting stressed. My sister suggested going out to get her something (as the restaurant didn’t have much toddler friendly food). The kids loved the spinch and feta parcels I got.

#WeAreTryingGivingHerDinnerLaterAndPuttingHerToBedLaterButLetsSeeIfSheCanKeepWakingUpAtAMoreRespectableHour

The first night we all woke up at 7:45 after I realised what time it was and got us up. Yesterday I kept pressing snooze but we got up around 7:30. Today I heard B at 6:15, but she fell asleep again and then was crying at 6:45 so we got up then.

I was sick at about 7. Fun times. Need to get her up now…

19 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Close-up of four of my fingers. There is a cut on one of them.
Hand Cuts & NHS Fine (19 weeks)
 
#IAmGuessingThatTheLittleCutsOnMyHandsAreNotDownToMeBeingPregnant
#IReadThatMasksDoNotReallyHelpWithViruses
#ButTheyStopYouTouchingYourFaceSoMuch
#SoIHaveBeenWashingMyHandsMoreSoTheyAreProbablyMoreDryAndCrackEasier
#NotBecauseOfTheVirusButBecauseIHaveBeenIllAndIAmBoredOfBeingIll
#ManagedToDoSomeSaltWaterGarglingYesterday
#RealisedItIsBestIfIKeepTheSaltDownToOneTeaSpoonPerMug
#AndAtTheEndIStillStruggleABit
#IGotALetterFromTheNHSTheOtherDayAndIWasHopingItWasFromMy12WeeksScreening
#NoItWasAFineForSayingIHadAValidMaternityExemptionCertificateWhenIDidNotWhenIGotAPrescription
#ItSaidIfIWasEntitledToHaveOneThenICanApplyForOneButIStillNeedToPayForThePrescription
#ToBeFairIUsedToWorkInAPharmacyButNoOneEverToldMeAboutFinesForPuttingTheWrongOption
#TheWomanAskedMeIfIUsuallyPayForMyPrescriptions
#AndISaidIAmPregnant
#SoSheTickedTheOption
#NotBlamingHerButIThoughtTheyWouldBeAbleToSeeOnMyRecordsThatIAmPregnant
#WellIAppliedForOneYesterday
#NowIAmJustHopingItMeansIDoNotGetFinedForFreeDentistTreatmentToo
#IHonestlyDidNotKnowHowItAllWorks
#ItMakesSenseThatYouGetFinedIfYouSayTheWrongOption
#LuckilyThePrescriptionWas2MonthsAgoSoTheyGiveYouAWhile
#AndGiveYouTwoMonthsToContestItOrPayOrGetACertificate
#TurningOverInBedIsBecomingAProblemIMightHaveSaidSoBefore
#IHaveToSitUpBeforeIDoItNow
#Doing20MinuteStretchingVideosBeforeBedNowWhichDefinitelyHelps
#IDoNotSeemToHaveSaidMuchPelvisPainLately
#ThoughIGetCrampsAndStuffButThatIsMyBodyCleaningItselfAndGrowing
#StillFeelingNervousAboutTheBabyAsIHaveNotSeenItsHeartbeatIn7Weeks
#ItHasDefinitelyGrownSinceThenButIJustGetWorriedThatIGoAndTheyWillSayItStoppedGrowingXWeeksAgo
#NoPointGettingTooStressedOutButWillBeGladWhenICanStartToFeelItsMovements

This time I didn’t need a prescription, and asked for a maternity exemption certificate later (23 weeks?). No one really tells you how this stuff works or generally asks you if you want things, so you just have to find out for yourself or hope that someone tells you stuff. I get it though – the NHS are under resourced, underfunded, overworked etc etc.

With a subsequent pregnancy you have less appointments so you just have to get on with it and pay attention to your body more I guess. I can feel the baby kicking (or braxton kicks?) as I write this. It definitely helps when you start to feel things as you can monitor things for yourself a bit better.

Portrait with my husband Tiago. We have our backs slightly to each other. We are both wearing blue tops and dark bottoms. We look like we are daydreaming.
My Portuguese-British Family and Me (19 weeks)

#SoBrexitFinallyHappened
#IFeelComfortedKnowingThatTiagoHasBritishCitizenship
#ThoughIAmJealousOfHimStillBeingAnEUCitizen
#HopefullyOurChildWillBeAbleToHaveBoth
#SoIDoNotNeedToWorryAboutThem
#IJustHopeThatOneDayICanBeAnEUCitizenAgainOneDay
#IWillProbablyNeverGetOverBrexit
#IWasSatFumingAllDayOnTheDayItFinallyHappened
#PeopleOnTheNewsDoNotSeemAbleToGiveAGoodEnoughReasonStill
#AndItHasBeen3AndAHalfYears
#WeWereInPortugalWhenTheResultsCameOut
#AndItWasTheGreyestDayOfOurTrip
#WeSpentAgesGettingToABeach
#AndTheWeatherWasJustTerrible
#WhichReflectedOurMood
#TheOnlyGoodThingAboutBrexitIsThatItStoppedUsGettingTrappedInZone5OfLondon
#WeThoughtAboutDidWeReallyWantToSpendOurLivesThere
#WeDecidedNo
#SoWeStayedInZone2AndThenTiagosJobRoleChangedAfterAWhile
#IDidNotSeeMyselfLeavingLondonForAnywhereElseInTheUK
#ButThenOneDayWhenIKnewMyWatfordProjectWasNearlyDoneISaidIfYouWantToMoveUpNorthForYourJobThenIAmReadyNowAndWeLeftWithin5Weeks
#AndNowWeLiveInLiverpool
#SoIAmGladThatWeDidNotCommitToZone5InTheEnd
#YesWeAreWearingTheSameTop
#MyMumBoughtMeOneAndIBoughtAnother
#ButTiagoWearsOneAsTheyAreNiceAndWarm
#AndItIsColdUpHereInLiverpool
#ItIsAwkwardWhenWeGoOutWithJumpersOnAndRealiseWeHaveTheSameTopOnUnderneath
#SoOneOfUsHasToBoilInAJumperSoWeDoNotLookSilly
#BlessTiagoBecauseItIsUsuallyHimBoilingInTheJumperAsWeDoNotWantToOverheatTheBaby

Tiago celebrated his 2 years of citizenship the other day (I’m writing this mid-October). We applied for B’s citizenship on holiday and I think it has gone through as now we can apply for a citizenship card for her. Hurrah.

I’m still pissed off about Brexit and will forever be, but we are lucky as hopefully one day our little family will all be EU citizens. With the kids it is easy, but with me it is more of a faff.

I am still grateful that we didn’t get stuck in zone 5 of London. We might have tried for kids sooner though…

When I wrote the hashtags I had no idea we would end up living in Birmingham within a year. Weird.


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