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I Can Not Believe That I Am Still Pregnant (39 Weeks / 28th January 2022)

Self-portrait where I am kneeling and have my hands down, but am looking under my right arm.
I Can Not Believe That I Am Still Pregnant (39 Weeks / 28th January 2022)
 
#IAmQuiteSurprisedThatTheBabyHasNotBeenBornYet
#IKeepThinkingIAmShowingSignsOfTheBabyBeingClose
#IThoughtHavingTinglyLegsForACoupleOfDaysWasASignAsMyLegsWouldReallyCrampUpBeforeIFeltTheUrgeToPushOutB
#MyLowerBackHurtsOnAndOffButTheMidwifeSaidAtMyAppointmentThatBabyMayBeABitHunchedOverWhichMayBeCausingIt
#SomeOfTheseSensationsMightJustBeDueToBeingHeavilyPregnantAndNeverBeingThisPregnantBefore
#IHadAScanWhichWentFineAndBabyIsHeadDown
#IWroteInMyCalendarWhichDepartmentItWasAndItWasAGoodJobIDidAsEvenThenIHadAHardTimeFindingIt
#IWentToGoToReceptionButItWasBeingWorkedOnSoIThoughtICouldFindItLikeLastTime
#IWentToTheFloorThatIThoughtItWasOnButTheSignsDidNotShowTheDepartmentSoIWentBackToTheGroundFloor
#SomeoneThenDirectedMeToAHigherFloorSoIWentThereAndItDidNotLookRightSoIWentBackToTheFloorIThoughtItWasOn
#TwoPeopleDirectedMeToTheGroundFloorButISaidTheySentMeToThisFloorLastTimeAndTheySaidOhYeahItIsAroundTheCorner
#ThisTimeIWasTheOnlyOneInTheWaitingRoomAndItWasSoHot
#ISoonGotCalledInAndTheSonographerWorkedQuietlyOccasionallyMentioningWhatBodyPartSheWasMeasuringOrChecking
#SheSaidThatTheGrowthIsFineAndTheBabyIsMeasuringAtAbout7PoundsAndFourteenOunces
#IJustCheckedTheGrowthChartAndSheWasSevenPoundsThreeTwoWeeksAgoSoSheIsDefinitelyGrowing
#TheBabyHasDefinitelyGrownAnywaysAndIWillNotBeGoingBackForAnotherScanAsAIDoNotNeedOneAndBTheBabyWillBeBornSoonAnyways
#MasksAreNoLongerMandatoryInEnglandButIWillDefinitelyKeepWearingOne
#NotThatIGoToManyPlacesButItSeemsTooEarlyAgain
#IWantBToBeAbleToStayInNurseryAsNowIAmSoUsedToHerGoingSoIDoNotWantToGetCovid
#SheIsAlwaysComingHomeWithAColdAndSheSeemedQuiteUnderTheWeatherYesterday
#IThinkItMayHaveBeenTeethingThatWasMakingHerReallyBadThoughAsSheHasBeenVeryDribblyAndHerCheeksWereSoRedAtOnePoint
#IGaveHerParacetamolAndSheSeemedToPerkUpEachTimeSoHopefullyItPassesSoon
#IHaveNappedTheLastCoupleOfDaysWhichHasBeenGoodButWhenINapISleepWorseAtNight
#ICanNotWinAsIFeelLikeINeedToRestDuringTheDayAndObviouslyGetSomeSleepAtNightAsINeverKnowWhenTheBabyWillCome
#IWantToHaveEnoughEnergyToDeliverThisBabyThoughIGuessMyBodyWillWakeUpOnceLabourActuallyStarts
#BHasStartedToRunBetweenTheKitchenCupboardsAndTheWindowInTheLivingRoom
#SheHasAlsoStartedToPatACoupleOfSmallDogsInTheParkWhichIsReallyCuteToSee
#ThereAreAFewBooksThatSheIsQuiteObsessedWithAtTheMomentButSheHasSuddenlyTakenInterestInOneAboutAMumBeingPregnant
#IStillThinkSheDoesNotHaveMuchOfAClueAboutHowMuchOurLittleWorldIsAboutToChange
#IFeelLikeWeAreInAGoodRoutineNowSoItIsGoingToBeFunWorkingOutANewOneThatIncludesTheBaby
Self-portrait of me propping myself up with my elbows and knees. My bump is hanging down.
I Can Not Believe That I Am Still Pregnant (39 Weeks / 28th January 2022) II

I prefer the second image, but I am a bit worried about criticism for it as it’s probably not a pose that heavily pregnant women should be doing. I held it for about 30 seconds…

#IAmQuiteSurprisedThatTheBabyHasNotBeenBornYet

I feel like I really need to look at my hospital bag and hypnobirthing again…

#IKeepThinkingIAmShowingSignsOfTheBabyBeingClose

Well, at this point there really isn’t much time left for the baby. My Nan is like ‘she’ll come when she’s ready’, but I’m like ‘unless she gets to 42 weeks and then they’ll force her out…’.

#IThoughtHavingTinglyLegsForACoupleOfDaysWasASignAsMyLegsWouldReallyCrampUpBeforeIFeltTheUrgeToPushOutB

I’d be resting having some water/energy drink and then my legs would start to cramp up and I knew it was time for the down stage of labour again.

#MyLowerBackHurtsOnAndOffButTheMidwifeSaidAtMyAppointmentThatBabyMayBeABitHunchedOverWhichMayBeCausingIt

When she couldn’t figure out what position the baby was in, she was saying that she thought the baby was hunching over her shoulders which was confusing her.

#SomeOfTheseSensationsMightJustBeDueToBeingHeavilyPregnantAndNeverBeingThisPregnantBefore

I am finding it harder to get up from the floor now for sure…

#IHadAScanWhichWentFineAndBabyIsHeadDown

Hurrah. Still holding my breath though…

#IWroteInMyCalendarWhichDepartmentItWasAndItWasAGoodJobIDidAsEvenThenIHadAHardTimeFindingIt

Last time I went to the wrong department, so this time I was not going to get it wrong.

#IWentToGoToReceptionButItWasBeingWorkedOnSoIThoughtICouldFindItLikeLastTime

I wasn’t sure if reception was even open. It was a bit weird. Someone at the door asks you why you are there, and then they just say okay.

#IWentToTheFloorThatIThoughtItWasOnButTheSignsDidNotShowTheDepartmentSoIWentBackToTheGroundFloor

Luckily I had got there early, but time was running out. My Mum dropped me off and took B to a supermarket while she waited as T was in a meeting.

#SomeoneThenDirectedMeToAHigherFloorSoIWentThereAndItDidNotLookRightSoIWentBackToTheFloorIThoughtItWasOn #TwoPeopleDirectedMeToTheGroundFloorButISaidTheySentMeToThisFloorLastTimeAndTheySaidOhYeahItIsAroundTheCorner

They said it is confusing. Obviously…

#ThisTimeIWasTheOnlyOneInTheWaitingRoomAndItWasSoHot

I’m definitely not going to pack any heavy clothes for the hospital.

#ISoonGotCalledInAndTheSonographerWorkedQuietlyOccasionallyMentioningWhatBodyPartSheWasMeasuringOrChecking

At one point I said it’s so clever and she said if you were taught how to use it you’d soon understand it.

#SheSaidThatTheGrowthIsFineAndTheBabyIsMeasuringAtAbout7PoundsAndFourteenOunces #IJustCheckedTheGrowthChartAndSheWasSevenPoundsThreeTwoWeeksAgoSoSheIsDefinitelyGrowing

I know the weight isn’t super accurate (or so I think), but the fact the technology shows a substantial increase in weight over 2 weeks says a lot.

#TheBabyHasDefinitelyGrownAnywaysAndIWillNotBeGoingBackForAnotherScanAsAIDoNotNeedOneAndBTheBabyWillBeBornSoonAnyways

Hurrah, it’s a massive faff going there so that’s a relief.

#MasksAreNoLongerMandatoryInEnglandButIWillDefinitelyKeepWearingOne #NotThatIGoToManyPlacesButItSeemsTooEarlyAgain

I really don’t see what the hassle is with wearing a mask.

#IWantBToBeAbleToStayInNurseryAsNowIAmSoUsedToHerGoingSoIDoNotWantToGetCovid

It was a struggle when T and I were both ill last month and had to look after B. Plus having a newborn baby = more difficulty. No thanks, I’d rather avoid getting it. I probably won’t be venturing anywhere indoors with Baby for a while anyways, but no masks puts me off going to a few possible places that I could go to.

Also, my Nan is quite elderly and I do not want her catching it – though she goes out shopping way more than I do. She needs to go out for sanity, so I hope people who do not wear masks keep their distance.

#SheIsAlwaysComingHomeWithAColdAndSheSeemedQuiteUnderTheWeatherYesterday

🙁

#IThinkItMayHaveBeenTeethingThatWasMakingHerReallyBadThoughAsSheHasBeenVeryDribblyAndHerCheeksWereSoRedAtOnePoint

I don’t like seeing her poorly. Just lying on the floor while rubbing her back etc. Poor thing.

#IGaveHerParacetamolAndSheSeemedToPerkUpEachTimeSoHopefullyItPassesSoon

She is still in a good mood though even when she is not feeling great. Still dancing. Still keen for books. Still had some appetite.

#IHaveNappedTheLastCoupleOfDaysWhichHasBeenGoodButWhenINapISleepWorseAtNight

The other night I was awake from 2 to 3.30am. Every time I wake up I wonder if my water has broken.

#ICanNotWinAsIFeelLikeINeedToRestDuringTheDayAndObviouslyGetSomeSleepAtNightAsINeverKnowWhenTheBabyWillCome

I don’t want my water breaking at 10pm when I haven’t slept since the morning etc.

#IWantToHaveEnoughEnergyToDeliverThisBabyThoughIGuessMyBodyWillWakeUpOnceLabourActuallyStarts

Fingers crossed.

#BHasStartedToRunBetweenTheKitchenCupboardsAndTheWindowInTheLivingRoom

I’ll say ‘run to the cupboard’ ‘run to the window’ etc. She’ll do it about 10 times. I joke that I am training her for marathons already. She has been napping better lately, it’s probably just her being under the weather but it’s good to wear her out too.

#SheHasAlsoStartedToPatACoupleOfSmallDogsInTheParkWhichIsReallyCuteToSee

One we see most days, and the other one we have only met a couple of times but is a therapy dog and used to little kids patting it. She still won’t go near the big dogs though, unless they come over to her and sniff her, which they like to do from time to time…

#ThereAreAFewBooksThatSheIsQuiteObsessedWithAtTheMomentButSheHasSuddenlyTakenInterestInOneAboutAMumBeingPregnant

I think it’s because it rhymes and sometimes she dances to it while I say the words.

#IStillThinkSheDoesNotHaveMuchOfAClueAboutHowMuchOurLittleWorldIsAboutToChange

I keep saying it, but it’s true. I don’t know if I’m ready for it, but I have little choice.

#IFeelLikeWeAreInAGoodRoutineNowSoItIsGoingToBeFunWorkingOutANewOneThatIncludesTheBaby

Just yesterday I was thinking how steady we are with our routine and how it works well. Baby will just slot in and will be happy as long as she gets fed, changed and sleeps for now I guess.


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Portrait Of A Mother Of A Nineteen Month Old (37 Weeks / 14th January 2022)

Self-portrait where I am sitting down in a black bra and pants. I have my hands on my hand and my elbows are touching. My bump looks very round.
Portrait Of A Mother Of A Nineteen Month Old (37 Weeks / 14th January 2022)
 
#WellTheNightBeforeMyScanBWasAwakeFromOneToFive
#IHadFallenAsleepAroundElevenThirtySoItWasALongNight
#TiagoHadStayedUpLateWorkingAndHadANapDownstairsBeforeLeavingAtFourThirty
#JustBeforeTiagoLeftIMovedBToOurBedAndSheSeemedToFallAsleepButThenWouldSuddenlyWakeUpCrying
#SoAtFiveIMovedHerBackToHerBedAndSheSleptUntilEightWhenIWokeHerUp
#LuckilyMyMumWasComingRoundSoIHadALieDownInTheMorningThenSleptForAnHourWhenBDid
#IWasStressedAsIfIHadGoneIntoLabourIWouldHaveNotHadMuchEnergy
#TiagoWasSetToGetBackInTimeForTheAppointmentButThenThereWasACrashOnTheMotorway
#LuckilyMyMumHadHungAroundSoSheDroppedMeOffAndTookBToTheSupermarketWhileIWasInThere
#IWasWearingAWhiteClothMaskAndThePeopleAtTheDoorAskedMeToPutAStandardBlueMaskOn
#ICouldNotSeeAnyoneAtReceptionSoIWentToWhereIThoughtTheAppointmentWasAndPanickedThatIHadGoneToTheWrongPlaceWhenTheySaidIDidNotHaveOneThere
#LuckilyIJustHadToGoToADifferentDepartmentAndSatAloneInARoomFullOfCouples
#TheySaidTheyWereRunningLateButIGotCalledInAboutFourMinutesAfterMyAppointmentTime
#TheSonographerWasNiceAndAfterAQuickLookSheSaidThatBabyXWasHeadDownAndNotBackToBack
#IHadFeltLikeTheyHadBeenQuiteActiveSinceMyMidwifeAppointmentSoMaybeTheyDidTurnOrMaybeTheyWereNeverBreech
#AlreadyTheBabyHasBeenVeryActiveThatIAmWorriedThatTheyMayBeBackToBackOrSomething
#ThenSheDidMeasurementsAndSaidThatTheBabyIsEstimatedToBeIThinkSheSaid7Pounds6
#BWas6Pounds4WhenSheWasBornAndTheBabyHadBeenMeasuringBigger
#ShePlottedItOnMyGrowthChartAndSaidThatYouHaveToIgnoreTheTapeMeasureEstimatesButItLooksLikeTheBabyIsGrowing
#IHaveAnotherScanScheduledForTwoWeeksTimeIfTheBabyHasNotBeenBornYetSoSheWasObviouslyNotTooConcerned
#AsIHaveBeenSoScepticalAboutWhetherOrNotIAmActuallyHavingAGirlIAskedIfSheCouldCheck
#SheSaidItLooksLikeAGirlToHerButCanNotSayFor100PercentSureIGuessAsTheyHaveToCoverTheirBacks
#IThinkAtThisPointItWouldBeQuiteObviousIfItWasABoySoIShouldStopCallingHerIt
#WaitingForMyMumOutsideItWasABitSurrealWatchingLotsOfDadsArrivingWithCarSeatsOrCouplesLeavingTheHospitalWithBabies
#IKnowIAmHavingABabySoonButIStillFindItHardToGetMyHeadAroundIt
#IAmGettingALotMoreCrampsTheseDaysAndTheBabyCouldBeHereAnyDayNowReally
#INeedToJustGetAsMuchRestAsICanToMakeSureIFeelGoodForLabour
#ButIAlsoJustWantToDoAsMuchAsICanBeforeTheBabyComesAsIKnowThereWillBeLessTimeForMeForAWhile
#BIsGettingMoreIndependentNowSoItWillBeWeirdHavingASmallHumanWhoIsSoDependentOnMeAgain
#LikeIKeepSayingIJustNeedToSurrenderMyselfToMotherhoodAndDoMyBestForMyKids

#WellTheNightBeforeMyScanBWasAwakeFromOneToFive #IHadFallenAsleepAroundElevenThirtySoItWasALongNight

I definitely got frustrated, but had started reading a parenting book while waiting to see if she had fallen asleep, so tried to remain calm.

#TiagoHadStayedUpLateWorkingAndHadANapDownstairsBeforeLeavingAtFourThirty

I had stayed up late waiting for him, though I had said he should sleep downstairs if he wanted. I turned the light off and tried to sleep, but then he came upstairs to sort his clothes out.

#JustBeforeTiagoLeftIMovedBToOurBedAndSheSeemedToFallAsleepButThenWouldSuddenlyWakeUpCrying

I’d given her paracetamol, water, changed her nappy etc. I’m still not sure what the problem was.

I drifted in and out of sleep, while giving her some mimos (Portuguese for affection) – like rubbing her arm and drawing circles in her hand. I’d stop and she’d cry.

#SoAtFiveIMovedHerBackToHerBedAndSheSleptUntilEightWhenIWokeHerUp

I had had an alarm set for 7, which I turned off and woke up at 7.40.

#LuckilyMyMumWasComingRoundSoIHadALieDownInTheMorningThenSleptForAnHourWhenBDid

Tiago told me later he texted my Mum at 4 in the morning to say I hadn’t slept much and to tell me to have a lie down in case I didn’t ask. I tried to sleep, but found it hard. B looked tired all morning and I had to wake her up from her nap.

#IWasStressedAsIfIHadGoneIntoLabourIWouldHaveNotHadMuchEnergy

I guess my body would have woken me up more, but I want to be as rested as possible for the ‘event’.

#TiagoWasSetToGetBackInTimeForTheAppointmentButThenThereWasACrashOnTheMotorway

Typical.

#LuckilyMyMumHadHungAroundSoSheDroppedMeOffAndTookBToTheSupermarketWhileIWasInThere

I was surprised that she was hanging around, but it made for sense for her to do that then go home and potentially come back. She was getting ready to leave, but I said could she hang on for another half an hour just in case as by that point she would have had to turn around by the time she got home. Luckily she did. The roads were quite icy too and as he hadn’t slept much I didn’t want him to be rushing home.

#IWasWearingAWhiteClothMaskAndThePeopleAtTheDoorAskedMeToPutAStandardBlueMaskOn

Fair enough.

#ICouldNotSeeAnyoneAtReceptionSoIWentToWhereIThoughtTheAppointmentWasAndPanickedThatIHadGoneToTheWrongPlaceWhenTheySaidIDidNotHaveOneThere

The midwife did not tell me where it was, but she had given me a phone number so I searched online and saw it was at a hospital.

#LuckilyIJustHadToGoToADifferentDepartmentAndSatAloneInARoomFullOfCouples

Phew. I read an article about The Lost Girls of Covid.

#TheySaidTheyWereRunningLateButIGotCalledInAboutFourMinutesAfterMyAppointmentTime

So not late at all really.

#TheSonographerWasNiceAndAfterAQuickLookSheSaidThatBabyXWasHeadDownAndNotBackToBack

I was a bit too annoyingly chatty I think. I don’t get out much…

#IHadFeltLikeTheyHadBeenQuiteActiveSinceMyMidwifeAppointmentSoMaybeTheyDidTurnOrMaybeTheyWereNeverBreech

The sonographer commented on how active this baby is.

#AlreadyTheBabyHasBeenVeryActiveThatIAmWorriedThatTheyMayBeBackToBackOrSomething

We’ll just have to wait and see. The sonographer said as I’ve had a breech baby before I probably won’t need to argue my case so much, and that if I’ve had a breech baby before then I can handle a back to back baby. I just need to stay calm.

#ThenSheDidMeasurementsAndSaidThatTheBabyIsEstimatedToBeIThinkSheSaid7Pounds6 #BWas6Pounds4WhenSheWasBornAndTheBabyHadBeenMeasuringBigger

B was born before 38 weeks.

#ShePlottedItOnMyGrowthChartAndSaidThatYouHaveToIgnoreTheTapeMeasureEstimatesButItLooksLikeTheBabyIsGrowing

Hurrah. I wasn’t too worried as a lot of friends have told me they had growth scans and everything looked fine.

#IHaveAnotherScanScheduledForTwoWeeksTimeIfTheBabyHasNotBeenBornYetSoSheWasObviouslyNotTooConcerned

Yeah, it’s not like she was like I think this baby should come out ASAP. Cool.

#AsIHaveBeenSoScepticalAboutWhetherOrNotIAmActuallyHavingAGirlIAskedIfSheCouldCheck

She did the usual ‘it’s not always guaranteed that we can see’ etc and I said I know, but if you can then that’d be nice.

#SheSaidItLooksLikeAGirlToHerButCanNotSayFor100PercentSureIGuessAsTheyHaveToCoverTheirBacks #IThinkAtThisPointItWouldBeQuiteObviousIfItWasABoySoIShouldStopCallingHerIt

She did say it’s a girl while pointing her mouse to and naming the labia, so yeah I doubt it is a boy.

#WaitingForMyMumOutsideItWasABitSurrealWatchingLotsOfDadsArrivingWithCarSeatsOrCouplesLeavingTheHospitalWithBabies

It could be us any day now.

#IKnowIAmHavingABabySoonButIStillFindItHardToGetMyHeadAroundIt

It’s just weird. I’ve obviously gone through all of this once before, but still I find it bizarre.

#IAmGettingALotMoreCrampsTheseDaysAndTheBabyCouldBeHereAnyDayNowReally

B’s arrival really surprised me (in terms of I hadn’t noticed any warning signs), so I just read into anything and everything now.

#INeedToJustGetAsMuchRestAsICanToMakeSureIFeelGoodForLabour

I’m going to have a lie down before I do the shoot.

#ButIAlsoJustWantToDoAsMuchAsICanBeforeTheBabyComesAsIKnowThereWillBeLessTimeForMeForAWhile

I want to take more pictures in the style of my Máscara project.

#BIsGettingMoreIndependentNowSoItWillBeWeirdHavingASmallHumanWhoIsSoDependentOnMeAgain

I was saying to Tiago that maybe I am just saying this as I am pregnant, but if I was not pregnant would I want to be trying to get pregnant now with B being more independent? I got pregnant while she was still pretty dependent. I guess I would. I just want to get the baby phase over and done with.

#LikeIKeepSayingIJustNeedToSurrenderMyselfToMotherhoodAndDoMyBestForMyKids

B going to nursery is definitely going to make a big difference, and I’m lucky that we are in the position to send her.

37 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

(This is actually the last photo that I took of myself pregnant for the project.)

Full-length self-portrait. I am slightly silhouetted against white blinds. My right arm is raised above my head and my right hand is behind my head.
Time Is Running Out (37 and a half weeks)
 
#IWasDoingMyMorningExerciseWhenICaughtMyReflectionInTheKitchenSplashBackWall
#IThoughtItWouldBeNiceToDoAMoreSilhouettedPhotoOfMyselfAndBumpAgainstTheBlinds
#SoThatIsWhatIDidThisEvening
#YesterdayEveningWeWentForAWalk
#IDidNotHaveAnyPainsOrDiscomfortAndIFeltLikeICouldWalkFasterThanNormal
#IJustDidTheWashingUpNowAndIGotSomeExtremeCrampsInTheTopOfMyLeftLeg
#AndNowTheBabyHasHiccupsWhichAlwaysMakesMeFeelUncomfortable
#TheyDoNotHurtButIJustDoNotLikeTheFeelingOfThem
#EspeciallyAsTheBabyIsHeadDownSoItJustFeelsWeird
#ItWouldNotBeSoBadIfTheyWereAtTheTopOfTheBump
#AFewDaysAgoIDecidedThatIWouldLikeToTakeSomePicturesInTheStyleOfMyMáscaraProject
#IThoughtIHadTheMakeupHereButApparentlyIDoNot
#MyMumFoundMyBagOfItAsWeHaveStillHaveSomeStuffAtFamilyHousesAndPutItInThePostToday
#SoHopefullyIGetItInTheNextCoupleOfDays
#AsTimeIsRunningOut
#MyHospitalPantsTurnedUpToday
#TheySaidTheyHadBeenDeliveredYesterdaySoIWasABitConcernedAsTheyWereNotHere
#AtTimesIKindOfForgetAboutThePandemic
#AndThenIRememberWhatIsGoingOn
#ItIsAllABitWeird
#IFeelLikeWeHaveAdaptedWellButIKnowWeArePrivileged
#ALotOfPeopleSeemToBeGoingBackToNormal
#ButIAmScared
#MeAndTiagoHaveALittleBitOfACold
#ButTheWeatherKeepsChangingAndIWasIllQuiteALotAtTheStartOfThePregnancy
#IHaveNotReallyBeenIllAtAllSinceLockdown
#SoIThinkItIsJustUsFeelingALittleRundown
#LastNightISleptThroughUntil5AMWhichHasNotHappenedInALongTime
#MaybeDoingALotOfKegelsYesterdayHelped
#AsWellAsHavingAGoodStretchingSessionAndNotSleepingMuchTheNightBefore

I would have liked to have remade this photo, but this was when we lived in Liverpool, and we now live in Birmingham.

Maybe there were warning signs – like cramps in the top of my left leg. When I was having surges with B my legs would cramp up.

Last night the baby had hiccups and I was trying to work out if they were head down or not.

My sent my makeup to make Máscara like images. They arrived the day before B was born and luckily it was my day off and I took photos. I only liked a couple of images. I did a shoot the other day and they seem a lot better.

Last night we went to bed at 9. T fell asleep straight away, whereas I probably fell asleep half an hour later. I woke up quite a lot of times, but eventually got up at 6.30 as B was awake.


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Apparently My Children Like To Be Breech At 37 Weeks (37 Weeks / 12th January 2022)

Self-portrait from my thighs to below my shoulders. I am wearing a black bra and black leggings. I am side on and pulling up the left side of the leggings with my right hand. My fist is over my bump and my bump is exposed.
Apparently My Children Like To Be Breech At 37 Weeks (37 Weeks / 12th January 2022)
 
#IDoNotKnowWhatPhotoWillAccompanyTheseHashtagsButMaybeSomethingPlayfulAsIMayNotHaveABumpForMuchLonger
#IWentToMyDelayed36WeekAppointmentAndTheFirstThingTheMidwifeSaidWasICheckedYourNotesAndSawThatYouHadABreechDeliveryWithYourFirst
#ISaidYesAndJokedAboutHowBabyXWasBackToBackAtMyLastAppointmentAndHowIHaveAwkwardChildren
#ThereWasAStudentMidwifeAgainAndTheyBothCheckedMyBloodPressureAsThereWasSomeProteinInMyUrineButTheyWereNotConcerned
#IHadToBreatheIntoACarbonMonoxideMachineAndMyResultsWereFine
#ThenTheyHadAFeelOfMyBumpAndTheMidwifeSaidThatTheBabySeemsToBeBreech
#IJustLaughedAndThenIStartedToDaydreamAboutAllThePossibleScenarios
#IThoughtTheBabyHadMovedAsItsBeenSuperActiveButIWasHopingItHadTurnedRoundFromBackToBack
#TheyBothMeasuredMyBumpAndGotACentimetreDifference
#TheBabyDoesNotSeemToHaveGrownMuchSinceMyLastAppointmentSoIWillGoForAScanWhichWillAlsoConfirmIfTheBabyIsBreech
#TheyBookedMeInForTheNextAvailableSlotWhichIsTypicallyOnTheDayThatTiagoHasToGoOutForWorkSoHopefullyHeWillBeHomeInTime
#HeWillDriveMeThereAndWatchBInTheCarAsICanNotTakeHerInWithMe
#IJustWantToHaveTheScanDoneAlreadyAndKnowWhatIsGoingOn
#IWasStartingToFeelRelaxedAboutTheBirthAgainButNowIFeelQuiteStressedOut
#IJustNeedToRelaxAndSeeWhatMyOptionsAre
#IWentThroughAllTheEmotionsOnMyWayHomeIncludingAnnoyedWhichIFeltBadFor
#IHaveBeenGaggingAfterBrushingMyTeethAgainLatelyWhichIsQuiteUnpleasant
#InBNewsIGotSomeUpdatesOnHerNurseryAppTodayWhichWereQuiteOldButSuddenlyCameThrough
#TheyTalkAboutTheThingsThatSheGetsUpToAndTheWordsSheSaysWhichAnswersMyPreviousQuestions
#ApparentlyDuringOneSessionSheWasSayingQuackQuackWhichSheHasNeverSaidToMeEvenWithAllMyEncouragement
#SheAlsoSaidStompRoarAndMunchMunchWhenPlayingWithDinosaurs
#IThenAskedHerWhatSoundADinosaurMakesAndSheSaidSomethingSimilarToRoar
#AndDuringAMusicSessionAtNurserySheSaidBaaBaaSheepWhichSurprisedMe
#IGuessAtNurserySheCopiesTheOtherKidsAndAdultsMoreAndIsMoreLikelyToSayThings
#ISingWindTheBobbinUpToHerLoadsAndSometimesSheWillDoAFewActionsWithMeAndSometimesSheDoesNone
#WeWerePlayingWithHerCowPuppetAndSheSuddenlySaidMoo
#ItIsJustFunnyAsTheOtherDayIWasSayingToAFriendThatIWishedThatBMadeAnimalNoisesAndApparentlySheDoes
#IHaveStartedToPlayHideAndSeekWithBWhereICountToFiveAndTryToFindHer
#NineOutOfTenTimesSheIsBehindTheKitchenDoorButIPretendICanNotFindHerForABit
#SheIsStillTeethingAndHasABitOfAColdButSheIsRunningAroundWithMoreEnergyTheseDays

#IDoNotKnowWhatPhotoWillAccompanyTheseHashtagsButMaybeSomethingPlayfulAsIMayNotHaveABumpForMuchLonger

I feel like I should experiment and try to do something a bit different, but I’m quite tired so we’ll have to see.

#IWentToMyDelayed36WeekAppointmentAndTheFirstThingTheMidwifeSaidWasICheckedYourNotesAndSawThatYouHadABreechDeliveryWithYourFirst

Correct. She was born less than a week from this point…

#ISaidYesAndJokedAboutHowBabyXWasBackToBackAtMyLastAppointmentAndHowIHaveAwkwardChildren

She said about sitting forward and not slouching to encourage the baby to turn round etc. I was slouching at the time.

#ThereWasAStudentMidwifeAgainAndTheyBothCheckedMyBloodPressureAsThereWasSomeProteinInMyUrineButTheyWereNotConcerned

The student midwife did it first, but the midwife just wanted to make sure it was correct as protein in your urine can be a sign of pre-eclampsia.

#IHadToBreatheIntoACarbonMonoxideMachineAndMyResultsWereFine

I couldn’t remember doing it before, but she said they always check at the start and towards the end of your pregnancy.

#ThenTheyHadAFeelOfMyBumpAndTheMidwifeSaidThatTheBabySeemsToBeBreech #IJustLaughedAndThenIStartedToDaydreamAboutAllThePossibleScenarios

My brain just stayed stuck on a breech baby for the rest of the appointment and I forgot to ask about hospital restrictions etc.

B wasn’t breech at her 36 week appointment, so I’m wondering if this appointment hadn’t been delayed would Baby X have been breech at the original appointment time? I’m thinking that they might not have been. I guess at least this time I am aware that the baby is breech at this point (though B was born at 37+5, and I believe she became breech the day before she was born).

#IThoughtTheBabyHadMovedAsItsBeenSuperActiveButIWasHopingItHadTurnedRoundFromBackToBack

She commented while she was checking the heartbeat about how active the baby is.

#TheyBothMeasuredMyBumpAndGotACentimetreDifference

I think last time the midwife and the student midwife got about a difference of about 4cm.

#TheBabyDoesNotSeemToHaveGrownMuchSinceMyLastAppointmentSoIWillGoForAScanWhichWillAlsoConfirmIfTheBabyIsBreech

She said not to be worried about the growth as it might just be down to having different midwives at every appointment, and everyone measures differently. With B I had the same midwife measuring me, except for one appointment when she thought someone else should see me in case she wasn’t able to be at B’s birth – spoiler: neither of them were at B’s birth.

#TheyBookedMeInForTheNextAvailableSlotWhichIsTypicallyOnTheDayThatTiagoHasToGoOutForWorkSoHopefullyHeWillBeHomeInTime

He rarely has to go out for work, but there we go.

#HeWillDriveMeThereAndWatchBInTheCarAsICanNotTakeHerInWithMe

If I could I would just get a taxi to the appointment if Tiago doesn’t get back in time, but that would be too easy. My Mum will have to come and take care of B if he is going to be late.

#IJustWantToHaveTheScanDoneAlreadyAndKnowWhatIsGoingOn #IWasStartingToFeelRelaxedAboutTheBirthAgainButNowIFeelQuiteStressedOut

I’ve gone from feeling stressed to relaxed and back again a lot lately. It’s too much. Now I’ve had a bit of time to process things I feel a bit more relaxed.

#IJustNeedToRelaxAndSeeWhatMyOptionsAre

I’m just worried if they turn the baby that it might turn back again, but it is what it is. I just want to try a water birth this time. I don’t feel like I can go through arguing my way out of a c-section again, but who knows how things will be on the day of the birth.

#IWentThroughAllTheEmotionsOnMyWayHomeIncludingAnnoyedWhichIFeltBadFor

It’s not the baby’s fault. I just felt irritated. I was sweating as I was leaving the appointment.

#IHaveBeenGaggingAfterBrushingMyTeethAgainLatelyWhichIsQuiteUnpleasant

I do not like it. Who does though?

#InBNewsIGotSomeUpdatesOnHerNurseryAppTodayWhichWereQuiteOldButSuddenlyCameThrough

Ooh.

#TheyTalkAboutTheThingsThatSheGetsUpToAndTheWordsSheSaysWhichAnswersMyPreviousQuestions

One of her carers said that she was saying two word sentences and I was confused. What words? etc.

#ApparentlyDuringOneSessionSheWasSayingQuackQuackWhichSheHasNeverSaidToMeEvenWithAllMyEncouragement

Quacking is probably the animal sound that I make to her the most, so it’s good that it’s paying off I guess.

#SheAlsoSaidStompRoarAndMunchMunchWhenPlayingWithDinosaurs

It might explain why she suddenly stomps along with the elephant in her ‘From Head To Toe’ book. She has a book about dinosaurs where I always roar on the first page, so again I guess it’s paid off.

#IThenAskedHerWhatSoundADinosaurMakesAndSheSaidSomethingSimilarToRoar

Maybe rar. I can’t remember now, but it sounded like a roar anyways.

#AndDuringAMusicSessionAtNurserySheSaidBaaBaaSheepWhichSurprisedMe

She had a phase of liking me singing that song, which might have been after that session which also explains why she was so keen on the song – perhaps?

#IGuessAtNurserySheCopiesTheOtherKidsAndAdultsMoreAndIsMoreLikelyToSayThings

There’s more encouragement. The notes say about her looking to her peers and wanting them to join in with her etc. An example is she went to play with some animal hand puppets then smiled to her peers to join her. She put her hand in the puppets, which also explains why she started to do that at home not long ago. Nursery is obviously doing her a lot of good!

#ISingWindTheBobbinUpToHerLoadsAndSometimesSheWillDoAFewActionsWithMeAndSometimesSheDoesNone

It’s very hit and miss. Same with the ‘From Head To Toe’ book as sometimes she will do the actions, and sometimes she won’t. I guess it depends on her mood, and she isn’t on the planet to perform for me.

#WeWerePlayingWithHerCowPuppetAndSheSuddenlySaidMoo

All the surprises!

#ItIsJustFunnyAsTheOtherDayIWasSayingToAFriendThatIWishedThatBMadeAnimalNoisesAndApparentlySheDoes

It was a day of discovery.

#IHaveStartedToPlayHideAndSeekWithBWhereICountToFiveAndTryToFindHer #NineOutOfTenTimesSheIsBehindTheKitchenDoorButIPretendICanNotFindHerForABit

Sometimes she runs around after me while I look for her, and then goes back behind the kitchen door.

#SheIsStillTeethingAndHasABitOfAColdButSheIsRunningAroundWithMoreEnergyTheseDays

It’s good. I get worried about her, but she is usually in a good mood despite everything.

37 weeks comparison with B:

Self-portrait showing me leaning forward with my hands on my hips and my bump drooping down. White boxes censor my nipples.
Tiago Says This Shows The Animal Side Of Carrying A Baby (37 weeks)
 
#HadAMidwifeAppointmentYesterday
#MyUsualOneWasOnAnnualLeaveButAlsoTimedItToMakeSureISawSomeoneDifferent
#SheWasReallyNiceAndJustWentThroughAllMyNotesToDoubleCheckThatEverythingWasCorrect
#SheCalledForMyBloodResultsAndSaidSheDidNotKnowWhatIHaveBeenEatingButMyHemoglobinLevelIsGreat
#WhichIsGoodAsIAmVegetarianButIHaveBeenTakingIronForYears
#AndBeingPregnantEveryoneIsAlwaysAskingYouWhatYouAreEatingAndIfYouAreEatingWellEtc
#IHaveProbablyBeenABitHealthierBecauseOfThePandemic
#NotJustBeingAbleToGoOutAndGetWhatIWantAndOurFavouriteTakeawaysAreOnlyJustReopening
#ChocolateMilkHasBeenMyMainTreat
#SheSaidEverythingElseLooksGoodAndThatFrom37WeeksYouCanHaveAHomeBirth
#ThoughIfIHadTheBabyNowWeWouldProbablyHaveToGoToHospitalForACheckOver
#ICanAlsoStartUsingMyMedicalAidThatWillHopefullyHelpReduceTheRiskOfTearingAndAnEpisiotomy
#AndAlsoStartTryingToCollectColostrumIfMyBoobsSoWishToDoIt
#ThoseTwoThingsCouldPotentiallyTriggerEarlyLabour
#SoThoughIFeelRelaxedAndKindOfExcitedAboutBirthNowBecauseItIsSafeForMeToGiveBirthAtHomeNow
#IDoNotWantToHaveToGoToHospitalAsTheRulesForVisitationAreVeryStrictBecauseOfCovid
#IfIHaveToThenIHaveToAndIKnowWeWillWeWellLookedAfter
#ThereIsNoPointGettingStressedOutAboutThings
#IFeelLikePeopleDoNotKnowHowToTalkToPregnantPeople
#IncludingMyselfBeforeIWasPregnant
#PeopleAskingMeHowIAmFeelingAboutBirthWhichIsFineButThenAskingIfIAmWorried
#WhyShouldIBeWorried
#WhatIsThePointOfWorryingWhenItIsAPerfectlyNormalThingToHappenToMyBody
#PeopleTellingMeAboutALongLabourSomeoneTheyKnowHadAndHavingToHaveEmergencyCaesareans
#ApparentlyEmergencyOnesAreActuallyQuiteRareAndAreCalledUnplanned
#AndIfYouAreInLabourFor48HoursItIsNotConstantItJustComesAndGoes
#AtLeastThatIsWhatIHaveHeardButWhatDoIKnowAsIAmYetToExperienceIt
#IThinkTheMorePositiveYouAreAboutItThenTheBetterItWillGo
#AsAdrenalineStopsLabourSoIJustWantToFocusOnProducingAllTheOxytocin
#IAmDefinitelyGladThatIHaveDoneSomeReadingAndOnlineCourses

I think the day before I had still been 36 weeks.

Chocolate oat milk has been a big treat of mine this pregnancy too. I haven’t been as healthy this time with food this time I think, since I live with my Nan who has a massive sweet tooth and I have been indulging in crisps a bit lately.

I was not planning on using my medical aid this time as I was worried that that is what made B turn round, but now I might give it a go as I have nothing to lose. I also need to look at my colostrum kit, but I don’t know if I can really produce any yet.

Spoiler alert – I had to go to hospital with B.

I was obviously in a good place mentally in regards to giving birth. I need to get there again, so I need to binge on as much hypnobirthing stuff as I can…

Self-portrait showing that I can only do the top part of my coat up.
My Coat Is Uncomfortably Tight These Days (37 weeks)
 
#JustRealisedThatThePrevious3ImagesInTheSeriesAreQuiteNude
#IHadAlreadyPlannedForThisShootToBeMeInMyCoat
#ItWasNotADecisionOfOhIBetterCoverUpInTheNextPicture
#ThoughIAmNotSureWhyIFeelTheNeedToStateThis
#AnywaysYesterdayWeWereOnAWalk
#ItWasABitWindySoIWoreMyCoat
#ICouldJustAboutDoItUpButItFeltTooTightSoIHadToUndoIt
#ButItWasSoWindyThatINeededToDoItUpABit
#LuckilyICouldStillDoTheTopTwoPoppersUp
#IProbablyLookedABitFunnyWithMyBumpHangingOutTheBottomOfMyCoat
#ThoughNotManyPeopleWereAboutAnyways
#AndIDidNotReallyCare
#TodayWeHaveBeenOrganisingTheBedroomMore
#IThoughtTheCotWouldJustGoWhereWeWantedIt
#ButNoThatWouldBeTooEasy
#SoWeHadToRearrangeThingsOtherwiseItWouldBeAFaffToGetInAndOutOfTheRoom
#IDecidedToSetTheCotUp
#ItFeelsABitPrematureAndLikePerhapsIAmJinxingThings
#ButItWillBeNiceToLoseTheShockOfSeeingACotEverytimeIWalkInTheRoom
#ThoughIGuessWalkingInAndSeeingABabyWillBeMoreOfAShock
#WeAlsoCutDownTheBoxesThatOurPillowsCameInToMakeUnderBedStorage
#IWasLookingAtBuyingSomeUnderBedStorageTheOtherWeek
#ButTheDimensionsWereNeverRight
#ItTookMeHalfAnHourToCutOneDownToSize
#ThenTiagoCameHomeFromTheSupermarketAndDidTheOtherOneInAMinuteWithAKnife
#OhWellIWasWatchingSomeFreeBabyClassWhilstIDidTheFirstOneAndItHelpedMeConcentrate
#TiagoIsPracticingPuttingTheCarSeatInTheCarAtTheMoment
#ThoughIDoNotKnowWhenWeWillUseItExceptIfWeHaveToGoToHospitalForSomeReason
#ICanNotRememberTheLastTimeIHadANapDuringTheDay
#IAlwaysPlanToButMyToDoListSeemsNeverEnding

I can still do up the inner zip of this coat, so though this baby may be bigger than B was, my bump is obviously not bigger in some ways. Not sure.

I feel like I need to nest, but B has so much stuff that it is hard to. We can not set up the cot yet as it is at my parent’s house for in case they have to have B. I think I will keep B in her cot, and use their one for the new baby.

I try to have a nap every day when B does as otherwise I regret it. I often do not feel sleepy, but manage to sleep for a bit.

Self-portrait with my husband, Tiago, where we recreated an image for the second time (so there are 3 similar images). Tiago is at the same level as my bump and is slightly staring past it.
Bump Is Definitely Droopier (37 weeks)
 
#IDecidedYesterdayThatWeShouldRemakeThisPicture
#IWasNotSureIfIShouldLeaveItABitLonger
#ButObviouslyIDoNotKnowWhenIMayGiveBirth
#IThoughtMaybeThereWouldNotBeThatMuchChangeSince33Weeks
#ButBumpIsDefinitelyDroopier
#ShameThatWeDidNotDoItAround27AndAHalfWeeksToo
#ItCouldHaveBeenAPictureThatWeRemadeOnceAMonthIfWeHadThoughtAboutIt
#TiagoLooksALittleDifferentButNotMuch
#HeHasTrimmedHisBeardBetweenTheLastRemakeAndThisOne
#IStillNeedToTryToGiveHimAHaircutThoughIAmNervousTo
#HeHadHisBirthdayThisWeek
#ToCelebrateWeOrderedIndianTakeawayThatLastedFor3MealsEach
#ThereWasASmallChanceThatHeCouldHaveSharedHisBirthdayWithBaby
#ButIAmGladThatTheBabyHasNotArrivedYet
#IJustAskedHimHowHeFeelsAboutItPotentiallyBeingHisLastBirthdayWithoutBeingAFather
#HeSaysHeDoesNotCareMuchAboutHisBirthday
#HeLooksForwardToHavingAnotherHumanAroundAndBeingAFather
#WatchingThemGrowAndBeingResponsibleForTheirEducation
#IThinkHeIsExcitedToRelaxWithTheBabyOnHisChest
#LastNightIWasAwakeBetween3And6
#TiagoStirredAtAround6SoIToldHimICouldNotSleep
#SoHeSaidToPutMyHeadOnHisChest
#IFellAsleepPrettyQuickly
#BeforeIWasPregnantIRarelyFellAsleepLikeThat
#IHadToBeSuperSuperTired
#PeopleTalkALotAboutTheBenefitsOfTheBabyBeingOnYourChest
#ButApparentlyItWorksWellForMeToo
#AsThereHaveBeenAFewTimesLatelyThatIHaveFallenAsleepLikeThat
#MaybeItIsSomeEvolutionaryThingAndFeelingSafe
#IWokeUpWhenMyEarStartedToHurtThough

This picture is a remake of #1 (last image) and #2 (also last image).

My bump has definitely dropped, and the midwife commented on it (she saw me 2 or 3 appointments ago?)

This time around I tried to remake images more often.

I gave Tiago a haircut last week in case I didn’t have the opportunity to do it again for a while.

I think he is also looking forward to relaxing with a baby on his chest again. Those were sweet moments…


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Eleventh Family Portrait (20 Weeks / 19th September 2021)

Family portrait where T and I are smiling at B, while B holds the camera remote. Her face has been photoshopped so you can see her hair being repeated. I am holding a baby scan.
Eleventh Family Portrait (20 Weeks / 19th September 2021)
 
#WellItHasBeenTwoMonthsSinceWeLastDidAFamilyPortraitButWeFinallyGotRoundToIt
#TheWeatherWasMiserableSoItWasAGoodExcuseToDoAShootRatherThanGoToThePlayground
#BBarelySatStillAndRanOffALotSoWeWillHaveToSeeWhichOneIChoose
#TheMainAdditionToThePortraitThisTimeIsOfCourseTheLatestScanOfBabyX
#TAndBWaitedOutsideTheHospitalAndBHadHerLunchWhileIWentInByMyself
#OnlyThoseWhoWerePregnantWereAllowedToWaitInTheWaitingRoomWhilePartnersHadToWaitByTheCoffeeShop
#ItDoesNotMakeMuchSenseAsSurelyCovidIsMoreLikelyToSpreadAtTheCoffeeShopThanInTheWaitingRoomButWhatever
#TheyWereShowingBargainHuntSoIWasQuiteHappyWatchingThatWhileIWaitedAgesAsTheyWereRunningLate
#FinallyWentInAndTheGuyAskedIfIWantedToKnowTheSexAndISaidYesIfYouCanFindOut
#IHadAskedTiagoIfHeWantedMeThemToWriteItDownSoWeCouldDiscoverItTogetherButHeSaidNahYouCanJustTellMe
#BeforeLongHeSaidAreYouReadyAndILookedAtTheScreenAndAllICouldSeeWasSomethingBetweenTheLegsSoISaidBoy
#HeSaidNoGirlAndISaidOhItMustBeAHandAndHeSaidNoItIsThePlacentaSoObviouslyIHaveNoClueAboutScans
#IHadItInMyHeadAgainThatMaybeIWasHavingABoyThisTimeButIWasGoingToBeHappyEitherWayAndIAm
#HeCheckedAllTheOrgansAndLimbsButWasStrugglingToGetAFewMeasurements
#HeSaidIfHeCouldNotGetThemIWouldHaveToComeBackInTwoWeeksButHeSentMeToEmptyMyBladderAndThenGotThemPhew
#IWentOutAndTiagoAndBWereWalkingAboutAndTiagoSaidDoYouKnow
#ISaidWhatDoYouWantToKnowIfBIsHavingALittleBrotherOrALittleSisterAndIToldHim
#MyNanSaidWeWillHaveToHaveAnotherBabyToHaveABoyAndISaidNanThatIsNotHowItWorksAndTwoIsEnough
#WeShowedBTheScanAndSaidItIsYourLittleSisterButSheStillDoesNotGetItYet
#SheHasASnottyNoseAtTheMomentWhichIsSuperDelightful
#SheMightHavePickedItUpFromPuttingHerHandsInMyNansBirdBathsAndThenLickingHerFingers
#OrFromHerNewFoundFreedomInThePlaygroundAndTouchingEverything
#OrFromRummagingInTheBinAtThePlayground
#AGrandmotherWasSayingThatTooManyParentsDoNotLetTheirKidsGetDirtyTheseDays
#BWasPullingEverythingOutOfTheBinAndSoISaidMaybePlayingInTheBinIsABitTooMuchAndSheAgreed
#SheNowLikesToTryToClimbUpTheSlideWhichIsFineIfItIsQuiteEmpty
#AsSheGenerallyWakesUpAround7NowITakeHerOutForAMorningWalkABitLaterAndWeSeemToMeetMoreKidsHerAgeWhichIsNice
#SometimesSheWillJustPlayWithHerPushchairForAWhileBeforeGoingOffToExplore
#IThinkHerSecondNapMaySoonBeOnTheWayOutAsSheIsTakingLongerToFallAsleepAndOnlyHad10MinutesTheOtherDay
#IWillTryToKeepItForAsLongAsPossibleButWhenSheShowsMoreSignsThatSheIsReallyDoneWithItThenWeWillDropIt

(I am not so sure about the editing of B’s face, though I think I did try a few different things. I might give it another go. 3rd December: I tried. This will do…)

#WellItHasBeenTwoMonthsSinceWeLastDidAFamilyPortraitButWeFinallyGotRoundToIt

My main excuse is we were away for a while and then we’ve been getting back into the flow, but that’s lame.

#TheWeatherWasMiserableSoItWasAGoodExcuseToDoAShootRatherThanGoToThePlayground

I was worried about when we would fit it in, so it worked out well. We were going to see my parents today, but B has a cold so we will go next weekend instead to avoid passing it on.

#BBarelySatStillAndRanOffALotSoWeWillHaveToSeeWhichOneIChoose

There was a point where she put her hand in front of the camera, and she held onto my remote for the whole shoot – I just set up the camera to shoot in intervals as it is easier with a wriggly child.

#TheMainAdditionToThePortraitThisTimeIsOfCourseTheLatestScanOfBabyX

Ooh la la. This also felt like a good time to do the shoot as I knew I would talk about the scan.

#TAndBWaitedOutsideTheHospitalAndBHadHerLunchWhileIWentInByMyself

We had no one available to watch B, so it was how it had to be. I just hoped it would not be bad news as I did not want to receive it by myself.

#OnlyThoseWhoWerePregnantWereAllowedToWaitInTheWaitingRoomWhilePartnersHadToWaitByTheCoffeeShop #ItDoesNotMakeMuchSenseAsSurelyCovidIsMoreLikelyToSpreadAtTheCoffeeShopThanInTheWaitingRoomButWhatever

I am sure they have a good reason, but it just seems more a case of looking like they are trying to do something because of Covid.

#TheyWereShowingBargainHuntSoIWasQuiteHappyWatchingThatWhileIWaitedAgesAsTheyWereRunningLate

There were two people doing scans, and of course mine was the one running late. The other one seemed to be running early…

#FinallyWentInAndTheGuyAskedIfIWantedToKnowTheSexAndISaidYesIfYouCanFindOut

B was a surprise as she would not ‘present’ during scans, which I was happy about as I wanted it to be a surprise, but this time I have less patience.

#IHadAskedTiagoIfHeWantedMeThemToWriteItDownSoWeCouldDiscoverItTogetherButHeSaidNahYouCanJustTellMe

I was a bit relieved that he was casual about it, as I did not really want to have to ask, but I would have of course.

#BeforeLongHeSaidAreYouReadyAndILookedAtTheScreenAndAllICouldSeeWasSomethingBetweenTheLegsSoISaidBoy

Visions of B playing games with her little brother running through my head instantly.

#HeSaidNoGirlAndISaidOhItMustBeAHandAndHeSaidNoItIsThePlacentaSoObviouslyIHaveNoClueAboutScans

Lol, I’m alway tricked. I thought B was a boy when they showed me her after she was born as all I could see was the umbilical cord.

#IHadItInMyHeadAgainThatMaybeIWasHavingABoyThisTimeButIWasGoingToBeHappyEitherWayAndIAm

I was sure that B was going to be a boy, mainly as T always talked to my bump saying my little boy. He was doing that again this time…

I don’t really believe in the whole way that your bump hangs, but it looked similar to last time so I had thought maybe a girl, as well. Well, it’s only 50/50 isn’t it?!

#HeCheckedAllTheOrgansAndLimbsButWasStrugglingToGetAFewMeasurements

I think I had to go back again with B, or maybe that was the previous scan. They all blur into one…

#HeSaidIfHeCouldNotGetThemIWouldHaveToComeBackInTwoWeeksButHeSentMeToEmptyMyBladderAndThenGotThemPhew

I was relieved as these appointments are much more of a faff now with having a kid already, and when they run late and end up taking ages they are quite time consuming.

#IWentOutAndTiagoAndBWereWalkingAboutAndTiagoSaidDoYouKnow

I saw a guy close to them who had been smiling at B.

#ISaidWhatDoYouWantToKnowIfBIsHavingALittleBrotherOrALittleSisterAndIToldHim

The guy said congrats. Tiago was happy, especially when I said the baby is growing well and everything looks good.

#MyNanSaidWeWillHaveToHaveAnotherBabyToHaveABoyAndISaidNanThatIsNotHowItWorksAndTwoIsEnough

She had two kids and always wanted more. She used the excuse that she has 8 siblings, but I said it is only because contraception didn’t really exist then otherwise I doubt her mum would have had so many. She said true…

#WeShowedBTheScanAndSaidItIsYourLittleSisterButSheStillDoesNotGetItYet

Or maybe she does and is just pretending that she doesn’t.

#SheHasASnottyNoseAtTheMomentWhichIsSuperDelightful

I called it her marathon nose this morning as it is more than runny… (I’m so funny.)

#SheMightHavePickedItUpFromPuttingHerHandsInMyNansBirdBathsAndThenLickingHerFingers

We keep pulling her away from them, but she does not care. I was a bit slow the other day…

#OrFromHerNewFoundFreedomInThePlaygroundAndTouchingEverything

It is like taking a different kid to the playground these days.

#OrFromRummagingInTheBinAtThePlayground

Again, I pulled her away from it but she just kept going back.

#AGrandmotherWasSayingThatTooManyParentsDoNotLetTheirKidsGetDirtyTheseDays #BWasPullingEverythingOutOfTheBinAndSoISaidMaybePlayingInTheBinIsABitTooMuchAndSheAgreed

I was glad she agreed, otherwise I was going to be a bit concerned.

#SheNowLikesToTryToClimbUpTheSlideWhichIsFineIfItIsQuiteEmpty

Her shoes are so grippy that they help her a lot, but hinder her if she wants to slide down, which to be honest she rarely does. I think she also likes to hang on the slide and use it as a watch tower.

#AsSheGenerallyWakesUpAround7NowITakeHerOutForAMorningWalkABitLaterAndWeSeemToMeetMoreKidsHerAgeWhichIsNice

We were going out a bit too early before. Yesterday there were so many kids around her age, but I guess it was because it was a Saturday.

#SometimesSheWillJustPlayWithHerPushchairForAWhileBeforeGoingOffToExplore

B loves to climb on it, or play with the harness.

#IThinkHerSecondNapMaySoonBeOnTheWayOutAsSheIsTakingLongerToFallAsleepAndOnlyHad10MinutesTheOtherDay

I was hoping to have a nap, but oh well.

#IWillTryToKeepItForAsLongAsPossibleButWhenSheShowsMoreSignsThatSheIsReallyDoneWithItThenWeWillDropIt

I think it is usually dropped by 17 months, so she has less than 2 months left. Earlier I put her to sleep without her sleeping bag, just as she crawled into her cot and seemed quite happy so I did not want to take her out and put her in it – I had tried to get her to come out and have it put on, but nope.

20 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Close-up of my belly button.
My Belly Button Has Never Been So Close (20 and a half weeks)
 
#IGuessItMustBeWeirderForPeopleWhoHaveInnies
#ItHasBeenMoreOutForAFewWeeks
#ButIAmStartingToThinkThatMaybeItHasAlwaysBeenLikeThis
#ButBecauseMyBellyIsGrowingThenItIsCloserToMe
#IFeelLikeItWasHarderToCleanBeforeThough
#InOtherNewsIHadMy20WeekScanToday
#WasRelievedToSeeAHeartbeatVeryQuickly
#ThoughTheScannerWasQuietALotWhichWorriedMe
#IGuessSheWasJustConcentratingOnCheckingThings
#AtOnePointWeCouldSeeItMovingItsMouthWhichWasFunny
#SheDidAllTheChecksApartFromThree
#SheAskedMeToGoToTheLooAndThenJumpUpAndDown
#TheBabyWasInABallAndWouldNotBudge
#SheHadMeRockingMyHipsFromSideToSide
#ItWouldNotMove
#SheMadeMeDrinkASugaryDrinkAndGoForAWalk
#ItWouldNotMove
#SheHadMeDoingStarjumps
#IWasImpressedWithHowManyIDidBut
#ItWouldNotMove
#SoIHaveToGoBackIn2To3Weeks
#IHopeEverythingIsOkay
#IStillHaveNotHadMyScreeningResultsFrom7PlusWeeksAgo
#IJustKeptLaughingAtTheMonitor
#WeHaveAPictureOfItLookingLikeAGrumpyOldMan
#WhenSheShowedUsItsFaceBeforeItLookedMoreLikeAPuppyThanABaby
#ThenSheShowedUsItsSpineSoMuchThatIComparedItToADinosaur
#SheGaveUsThePicturesForFreeAsSheSaidTheBabyWasInSuchABadPosition
#ICanDefinitelyFeelTheBabyMovingAroundNow
#ItTypicallyWasMovingBeforeAndAfterTheAppointment

My belly button seemed quite pushed out from an early stage this time, but I didn’t document it as it was not so interesting to me this time.

Scans went quite differently – with baby X it was a lot less faff and we found out that it’s a girl. With B we didn’t find out until she was born, and I had to go back so they could take all the measurements. I’m interested to see if this will reflect in their personalities, but I would say that B is pretty chill, so will baby X be even more chilled? We will have to wait and see.


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Imitating B In Her Temporary Cot (17 Weeks / 25th August 2021)

Self-portrait of my face pressed up against two bars of B's temporary cot.
Imitating B In Her Temporary Cot (17 Weeks / 25th August 2021)
 
#SheDoesSomethingSimilarInHerCotAtHomeButTheEffectIsQuiteDifferentAsThisIsBarsAndAtHomeItIsMesh
#EveryoneKeepsSayingHowMuchBLooksLikeTiagoButSheDefinitelyHasMyLoveOfWater
#SheHasBeenGettingUpsetWheneverWeTakeHerOutOfHerPoolOrOutOfTheSea
#HerLittleLipsWillBeShiveringAndSheWillWantToKeepGoingBackIn
#YesterdayWeTookHerToASpotThatHadARedAndYellowFlag
#WeTookItInTurnsSwimmingInTheYellowAreaAndOnlyLetBHaveALittleSplashWhenTheSeaCalmedDownMomentarily
#WeAreAdjustingToBeingHereButIFeelQuiteLostWithoutOurUsualRoutineAndStuff
#ThisHouseIsNotVeryBabyProofAndThisMorningIHadToRunDownTheCorridorInCaseBDecidedToGoToTheSteps
#TheOtherDayOurAlarmWentOffForTheFirstTimeInMonthsAndWeActuallyHadToWakeBUpForOnceAfterSeven
#ItSeemsLikeAOneOffThoughAsSheHasAtLeastThreeTeethComingThroughAndUsuallyWakesUpAt6SomethingNowWhichIsOkay
#MaybeItIsDueToHavingALaterDinnerOrMaybeItIsFromAllTheSplashingOrMaybeItIsAMixOfFactors
#IThinkWeWillTryPushingHerDinnerALittleLaterWhenWeGetHomeThoughAndGivingHerBiggerSnacks
#TheOtherDayIGotStungByALittleJellyfishWhichWasABitOfAShockButALifeguardPutSomeGelOnIt
#IManagedToSwallowSomeSeaWaterOnAnotherOccasionAndIEndedUpVomitingInMyHandAwkwardlyInFrontOfAFewPeople
#OurConnectingFlightOnTheWayBackHasBeenDelayedByFiveHours
#ThisMeansWeHaveANineHourLayoverAndWillProbablyGetHomeAtThreeInTheMorning
#TheAirlinesDoNotCareWhichIsDisappointingSoWeWillHaveToSeeWhatWeCanDoOtherwiseWeWillHaveToJustDealWithIt
#WeGotATimeAndDateForOur20WeekScanWhichIsAlsoInconvenientSoICalledAndSaidWhatDaysAreBestForUsAndTheyGivenUsAnotherInconvenientSlot
#SoTiagoWillProbablyHaveToWaitWithBInTheCarAndIWillHaveToGoInAloneWhichIsAnnoyingButWhatCanWeDo
#WeHaveTakenBToAMassiveDuckPondACoupleOfTimesWhichSheQuiteLikesAndILoveLookingAtAllTheDucklings
#ThereAreNoDucksLikeTheOnesAtHomeSoItIsNiceToSeeSomeDifferentBirds
#IHadNeverBeenThereBeforeButIGuessThatOurPrioritiesHaveChangedNowWithBAndWeWantToGoToMoreKidFriendlyPlaces
#WeHaveBeenGoingToALittleCoffeeShopForBreakfastAndYesterdayBManagedToKnockTiagosCoffeeAllOverMyBreakfastAndMe
#WhenWeWerePackingISaidIDidNotWantToBringManyClothesAsIEndUpWearingTheSameThreeOutfits
#InRealityIHaveBeenWearingTheSameDressAndJustWashingItAndPuttingItOnAgainAsSoonAsPossible
#WeHaveBeenRunningErrandsOrGoingToMeetFriendsWhileBSleepsAndTiagosMumKeepsAnEyeOnHer
#TheOtherNightWeWentToABarbequeAfterBHadGoneToBedButThenISpentTheWholeEveningSatByABabyAndAFourYearOldSoFeltBadForNotBringingHer
#MyPortugueseSpeakingHasImprovedButIStillFindItDifficultToUnderstandWhatPeopleAreSaying
#IGetSoTiredSoQuicklyInTheEveningsWhenWeGoOutWhichIsProbablyDueToUsingExtraBrainPowerTryingAndGenerallyFailingToTranslate
#ItIsNiceToSeePeopleButIHaveNotSocialisedThisMuchInAVeryLongTime

#SheDoesSomethingSimilarInHerCotAtHomeButTheEffectIsQuiteDifferentAsThisIsBarsAndAtHomeItIsMesh

It’s less of a full face smush, and more of a partial face smush?

#EveryoneKeepsSayingHowMuchBLooksLikeTiagoButSheDefinitelyHasMyLoveOfWater

Yes, she does look like him a lot. There’s a picture above her cot of Tiago as a baby and I keep pointing to it and saying ‘there’s daddy as a baby’ and she laughs.

Tiago likes the water, but he usually just likes to have a very short swim whereas I want to swim for ages. Well, I can’t anymore…

#SheHasBeenGettingUpsetWheneverWeTakeHerOutOfHerPoolOrOutOfTheSea

Similar vibes to when Tiago puts her back on the floor, when she wants to be in his arms all day.

#HerLittleLipsWillBeShiveringAndSheWillWantToKeepGoingBackIn

We try to not let her go in for more than fifteen minutes at a time.

#YesterdayWeTookHerToASpotThatHadARedAndYellowFlag

We saw the flags and were pretty gutted. Tiago went to talk to the lifeguards to see if it was safe enough to swim/take B in. There was a set of stairs that was safe to use, but we had to be careful as waves would wash over the wall and made it a bit dangerous.

#WeTookItInTurnsSwimmingInTheYellowAreaAndOnlyLetBHaveALittleSplashWhenTheSeaCalmedDownMomentarily

B was quite happy splashing in a little puddle on the rocks by the sea, but then after she’d had a bit of a splash in the sea she was annoyed again. She was getting quite jealous of me swimming in the sea. Better to be safe than sorry…

#WeAreAdjustingToBeingHereButIFeelQuiteLostWithoutOurUsualRoutineAndStuff

Today Tiago is out all day running errands, and I’m not sure how to entertain her all day. It’s times like these that I wish I could drive… Public transport around here is not easy to use/it takes forever.

#ThisHouseIsNotVeryBabyProofAndThisMorningIHadToRunDownTheCorridorInCaseBDecidedToGoToTheSteps

I was just turning the light off in the kitchen and I thought B was outside the door. I went to see and she was at the other end of the corridor by steps that go down, so I RAN.

#TheOtherDayOurAlarmWentOffForTheFirstTimeInMonthsAndWeActuallyHadToWakeBUpForOnceAfterSeven

I usually set the alarm to ignore as soon as B gets up. It is better when she wakes us up as we couldn’t be bothered to get up if she wasn’t going to. We got her up at 7:15 in the end.

#ItSeemsLikeAOneOffThoughAsSheHasAtLeastThreeTeethComingThroughAndUsuallyWakesUpAt6SomethingNowWhichIsOkay

She must have not been teething that morning. A few nights ago she was waking up from 4. Yesterday it was 6:30. Today she woke up at 6.

#MaybeItIsDueToHavingALaterDinnerOrMaybeItIsFromAllTheSplashingOrMaybeItIsAMixOfFactors

We will never know.

#IThinkWeWillTryPushingHerDinnerALittleLaterWhenWeGetHomeThoughAndGivingHerBiggerSnacks

People just eat later here. Yesterday I had a small dinner when B had hers (at 6ish) and then I had a second dinner at a friend’s house.

She can have a good snack when she wakes up from her second nap if she’s having a later dinner. We haven’t given her any yoghurt since we’ve been here (which we usually give her as a snack before bedtime in hope that she will sleep later).

#TheOtherDayIGotStungByALittleJellyfishWhichWasABitOfAShockButALifeguardPutSomeGelOnIt

Usually I keep a look out for them, but I was just swimming by myself and felt an electric shock in my arm. I told a friend (in bad Portuguese) and she said maybe it was muscle pain, but I didn’t think so.

Tiago was with a friend who was talking to a lifeguard, so he put some gel on it, and then a bit later the area where I got stung raised up a bit. It wouldn’t hurt and then suddenly it would. Weird. I had looked in the water but saw nothing.

#IManagedToSwallowSomeSeaWaterOnAnotherOccasionAndIEndedUpVomitingInMyHandAwkwardlyInFrontOfAFewPeople

I was trying to get out via a ladder, but lots of people kept jumping in so the water rose too high and I gulped some. I felt sick, but hoped the feeling would pass. I kept stopping in case I was sick, but thought I could get back to my towel and be okay. Tiago was with me as someone was watching B while we had a quick swim together. Suddenly I felt sick again, so put my hand to my mouth and some sadly sprayed out of the side of it. I felt embarrassed – especially with Covid and everything. Awkward. Tiago went back with water to clean it, but all evidence had already gone.

#OurConnectingFlightOnTheWayBackHasBeenDelayedByFiveHours #ThisMeansWeHaveANineHourLayoverAndWillProbablyGetHomeAtThreeInTheMorning #TheAirlinesDoNotCareWhichIsDisappointingSoWeWillHaveToSeeWhatWeCanDoOtherwiseWeWillHaveToJustDealWithIt

We have two flights by two different operators, but we bought them through one operator. The first flight is at 8am, then the second has been moved from 3pm to 8pm. Good job Tiago drove us to London as I was worried enough about catching a train with the 3pm flight (it’s a 3 hour flight). The airline we booked through don’t care, and say we can just have a refund – which isn’t great when you book months in advance for cheaper prices. The airline who delayed their flight have a first flight that is at 1pm, so that would save us waiting around so much at least but we’ll see what they say. It’s going to be a long day with a 14 month old and my pregnant belly, plus poor Tiago then has to drive us home.

#WeGotATimeAndDateForOur20WeekScanWhichIsAlsoInconvenientSoICalledAndSaidWhatDaysAreBestForUsAndTheyGivenUsAnotherInconvenientSlot

My Mum can watch B certain mornings. I said which days and they’ve given us another day where my Mum isn’t around.

#SoTiagoWillProbablyHaveToWaitWithBInTheCarAndIWillHaveToGoInAloneWhichIsAnnoyingButWhatCanWeDo

*Shrug* I’m annoyed about it, but oh well. I should call them again and complain possibly. I don’t like to be annoying and I know they’re busy.

#WeHaveTakenBToAMassiveDuckPondACoupleOfTimesWhichSheQuiteLikesAndILoveLookingAtAllTheDucklings #ThereAreNoDucksLikeTheOnesAtHomeSoItIsNiceToSeeSomeDifferentBirds

The first time we went it was early in the morning and very foggy, so we were the only ones there. The second time it was quite a bit busier. There are a lot of Muscovy ducks, some Appleyards, and some I don’t know. (My parents had ducks when I was younger.)

#IHadNeverBeenThereBeforeButIGuessThatOurPrioritiesHaveChangedNowWithBAndWeWantToGoToMoreKidFriendlyPlaces

We’ve been to a couple of swimming spots lately that I hadn’t been to before, as they’re closer and more kid friendly. I looked for a soft play or kid’s centre, but they don’t seem to have any around. Shame. Covid cases are quite low here. (I just checked and there are currently 14 people with confirmed Covid.)

#WeHaveBeenGoingToALittleCoffeeShopForBreakfastAndYesterdayBManagedToKnockTiagosCoffeeAllOverMyBreakfastAndMe

The guy had just set it all down, B went to go for my water and knocked the coffee over. I went to grab it, but realised I was too late so backed away and stood up. Luckily it just caught the end of my dress, as I didn’t want a burned belly!

#WhenWeWerePackingISaidIDidNotWantToBringManyClothesAsIEndUpWearingTheSameThreeOutfits #InRealityIHaveBeenWearingTheSameDressAndJustWashingItAndPuttingItOnAgainAsSoonAsPossible

Tiago’s Mum washed it and said she thought it was going to have a coffee stain on it, but once it dried it looked fine and I put it on again. It’s so humid here…

#WeHaveBeenRunningErrandsOrGoingToMeetFriendsWhileBSleepsAndTiagosMumKeepsAnEyeOnHer

It’s been nice to get out more, and have nice chats in the car.

#TheOtherNightWeWentToABarbequeAfterBHadGoneToBedButThenISpentTheWholeEveningSatByABabyAndAFourYearOldSoFeltBadForNotBringingHer

It’s nice that things are so kid friendly here. B had woken up early from her second nap (I think) so she had a very early bedtime, otherwise we could have brought her for a bit.

Tiago generally brings me home, then goes back out. He brought me home around 10.30pm and then got back at 2am. It’s good for him to see his friends, but I don’t know how he can stay out so late and then be fine in the morning.

#MyPortugueseSpeakingHasImprovedButIStillFindItDifficultToUnderstandWhatPeopleAreSaying

I feel motivated to try to find the time and energy to study more again – I’ve been a bit ‘lazy’ with all the pregnancies and mothering. We need to watch more kids stuff in Portuguese perhaps; I’ve been enjoying watching Bluey in Portuguese.

#IGetSoTiredSoQuicklyInTheEveningsWhenWeGoOutWhichIsProbablyDueToUsingExtraBrainPowerTryingAndGenerallyFailingToTranslate

Mothering, pregnancy plus extra brain work and socialising.

#ItIsNiceToSeePeopleButIHaveNotSocialisedThisMuchInAVeryLongTime

It is going to be a shock going home to quarantine for 10 days after being out so much. I need to make an effort to do more with B when we return, especially after I get my second jab.

17 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait with my hair covering the left side of my face. My right hand is pointing to where I had my whooping cough injection.
Whooping Cough Vaccine (17 Weeks)
 
#AtMyMidwifeAppointmentTheOtherDaySheSaidToGetTheWhoopingCoughVaccine
#YouHaveToBe16WeeksOrMoreAndIWasJustOver16WeeksSoIBookedAnAppointment
#IGoToTheAppointmentTodayAndAsWeAreWalkingToTheRoomTheWomanLooksAtMyBumpAndSaysNeverNeverNever
#WeSitDownAndSheIsLikeSoYouAreHereForTheWhoopingCoughVaccine
#AreYouPregnant
#YouHaveToBe16WeeksOrMore
#ISayIAm17Weeks
#SheLooksAtMeSuspiciouslyAsIGazeDownAtMyBump
#IStandUpAndPullMyTopInTightSoItAppears
#SheSaysWellIGuessYouKnowBetterYourself
#AndThereWasMeWorryingThatMyBumpWasTooBigForBeing17Weeks
#SoSheGaveMeItAndItWasAllDoneInSeconds
#IWasWaitingToDoAShootUntilAfterwardsAsIThoughtIWouldHaveAPlasterButIDidNot
#WhichIsFineAsIDidNotNeedOne
#ISaidIWouldDoAShootTodayWhereIWouldHaveATopOnAndIWouldFaceTheOtherDirection
#ButTheVaccineWasAtTheTopOfMyLeftArmSoItMadeSenseToDoItThisWay
#IGotHomeAndWasSoTiredThatIThoughtIWouldHaveANapFirst
#ISleptFor3Hours
#IHaveBeenFeelingMoreEnergeticButThisWeekWasSuperBusyAndIDidNotSleepInAsLateAsIPlanned
#IAmStillFeelingAnxiousAboutThingsAboutTheHealthOfTheBaby
#ButIAlsoRealisedTheOtherDayThatThisCouldBeTheOnlyTimeIAmEverPregnantInMyLife
#SoIShouldTryToEnjoyItAsMuchAsICan
#IDoNotKnowHowToReallyEnjoyItInTermsOfThereIsNotMuchICanDo
#ButIGuessIMeanMoreJustTryingNotToWorrySoMuch
#IGotReallyFreakedOutByTheFactThatThereIsSomeoneGrowingInsideMeAgainTheOtherDay
#PeopleAskMeIfIAmScaredOfGivingBirth
#IFeelKindOfExcitedByTheIdeaToBeHonest
#MaybeIMightChangeMyMindAsMyBumpGetsBigger
#ButIJustWantToEnjoyItAsMuchAsICanAsItSeemsLikeSuchABizarreThingThatWomenHaveBeenDoingForThousandsOfYears
#IDidNotStretchLastNightAndMyHipsHurtAllNight

This time no one mentioned to me about getting the whooping cough, so I will be getting it at around 27 weeks. No one will be saying that I don’t look pregnant enough for it this time…

It’s funning reading about ‘sleeping in late’. Now I’m like what is that? I should have relaxed more when I was pregnant with B. I used to waste so much time. Now I don’t have as much time to faff…

Definitely still anxious this time around.

I feel less excited about birth this time around, even though I would say I had a good experience with B. I am mentally trying to prepare myself though and am starting to read about things again. I am excited to meet her though…

Self-portrait wrapped up in a big cardigan that is suitable for breastfeeding.
Goodbye (For Now) Food Aversions (17 and a half weeks)
 
#IJustHadToRearrangeMy20WeekScanForASecondTime
#TheySendYouALetterForAnAppointmentInThePost
#ThenICalledUpToRescheduleItAsICouldNotMakeIt
#UsuallyTheyCheckToSeeWhatDateAndTimeICanDo
#ButThisTimeTheySaidTheDiariesWereNotOpenYetSoIWouldHaveToBeOnAWaitingList
#GotANewAppointmentDateAndTimeTodayWhichTiagoCouldNotDo
#ICouldHaveGoneAloneButTheHospitalIsQuiteFarAwayAndIThinkTiagoWantsToSeeTheBabyAsMuchAsIDo
#ThoughItIsAScanForAbnormalitiesWhichIsABitScary
#SoIWouldRatherThatTiagoIsThereTooJustIncaseItIsBadNews
#FingersCrossed
#InMorePleasantNewsALotOfMyFoodAversionsHaveDisappeared
#IHaveEatenIndianFood5TimesInTheLastWeek
#TiagoIsHappyAsHeCanCookALotOfHisUsualDishesAgain
#AndWeHadTakeawayFromOurFavouriteIndianPlaceLastWeekWhichGaveMe3Meals
#ItIsNiceToNotSitAtDinnerFeelingSickAndStrugglingToEat
#IAmAwareItMayReturnAtSomePointSoIAmJustTryingToEnjoyItWhilstICan
#TheMidwifeSaidIShouldBeEatingMorePulsesAndThingsLikeThat
#SoIAmGladThatLentilsAndChickpeasNoLongerRepulseMe
#IAmWearingOneOfMyFewPiecesOfMaternityClothing
#ItIsACardiganForPregnancyAndNursing
#ItMakesMeLookMorePregnant
#ApparentlyYouCanWearItInAFewDifferentWays
#ItWillProbablyBeHotToWearOnceTheBabyIsBornButItWillDoForNowAndForNextWinter
#ItDoesGetColdInLiverpool
#IDoNotWantToMakeAnyPurchasesForTheBabyUntilIAm6Months
#ButINeedToStartMakingASpreadsheetWithWhatWeWantToBuy
#IAmStillWorriedThatThingsMightGoWrongButIAmAlsoFeelingABitMoreRelaxed
#ItIsNiceToBeAbleToTalkAboutBeingPregnantWithMorePeopleWhenISeePeopleInPerson
#ItIsBecomingMoreObviousNowWithMyGrowingBumpButIWorryAboutBoringPeopleWithTalkingAboutItALot
#IHadToDoAFullYogaVideoLastNightAsINeededAGoodStretchAndIDefinitelyFeltBetter

Good to know that it’s been annoying getting an appointment for my 20 week scans both times.

I wasn’t into lentils and chickpeas at the start of this pregnancy either. B has baked beans on toast a lot and they were grossing me out, but I have started to have them for lunch lately (mid-October).

I didn’t wear this cardigan after having B, but it might be more appropriate with having a winter baby this time (B was a summer baby).

We really didn’t rush to buy anything for B, and thought we didn’t need much, but after she was born we bought LOADS.

It’s weird that in the end not many people saw me heavily pregnant with B.


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Pregnancy Waiting II

I Have Had My First Scan (13 Weeks / 28th July 2021)

I'm holding B in my arms while also holding a baby scan in my left hand. Tiago has his left hand on my shoulder.
I Have Had My First Scan (13 Weeks / 28th July 2021)
 
#IImagineThePhotographThatIWillTakeWillReferenceAPictureFromMyWaitingProjectWhenIWasNineAndAHalfWeeks
#IWantToGetBInvolvedInThePictureTooButTheImageIHaveInMyMindWillProbablyNotBeTheOneIEndUpGetting
#TheMidwifeRangTheDayBeforeTheScanAndSaidToWearAFaceMaskHaveAFullBladderForTiagoToBringHisFlowTestAndFiveQuidInCashForPhotos
#WellThereIsAFineLineBetweenHavingAFullBladderAndFeelingLikeYouAreGoingToPissYourself
#TheyWereRunningAboutThirtyMinutesLateSoISatInTheWaitingRoomStrugglingWhilePeopleCoughedAndSniffledAroundUs
#WithMyTwelveWeekAppointmentWithBIGotToldOffForNotHavingAFullEnoughBladderAndGotSentToDrinkMoreWater
#ThisTimeIKeptGettingSentToTheToiletToEmptyMyBladderABitMoreAsIHadWaitedSoLong
#ItWasWeirdToSeeTheBabyOnTheScreenAsIKnowIAmPregnantButIDoOftenForgetWhatItMeans
#SheSaidThatIAm13WeeksWhichIHadAssumedIWasThoughPartOfMeWasStillHopingIWas17Weeks
#IWasRelievedToSeeThatTheBabyWasWellThoughTheMidwifeWasStrugglingToGetAllTheMeasurementsSheNeeded
#IKeptGettingOffTheBedToDanceAroundOrStayedOnTheBedAndPushedMyHipsUpAndWiggled
#InTheEndSheSentUsToTheWaitingRoomWhileSheSawTheNextPatientToSeeIfTheBabyWouldBeInTheRightPositionAfterTheWait
#WeWereOutForNearlyTwoAndAHalfHoursInTheEndSoItWasGoodThatTiagoHadBroughtHisLaptop
#IWentInByMyselfForTheLastBitAndAfterMoreDancingSheGotTheNeckMeasurementThatSheWanted
#IThenNeededToBeWeighedAndHaveABloodTestSoThatWasMoreWaitingAroundButAtLeastThereWasGoodMusicPlayingAtThePlace
#TheyDidNotChargeUsForThePhotoInTheEndAsTheyHadNoEnvelopesAndTheyHadNotBeenChargingAgainUntilRecentlyAsPartnersHadNotBeenAllowedIn
#BeforeSheChoseTheImageForUsWeJokedThatItLookedLikeTheBabyWasSmokingACigarAndTheCloudOfSmokeIsVisibleInTheImage
#LuckilyMyMumWasWatchingBAsKidsAreNotAllowedToAppointments
#ItSoundsLikeMostOfMyAppointmentsAreHereThereAndEverywhereWhichIsABitFrustrating
#LastNightTiagoSaidHeIsFeelingMoreRelaxedAboutThisPregnancy
#ThenFiveMinutesLaterWeLookedAtBOnHerMonitorAndTiagoThoughtSheWasNotBreathingButLuckilySheMovedJustBeforeTiagoWasAboutToGoIntoHerRoom
#TiagoFinallyGotRoundToMakingItSoThatBsDoorNoLongerSqueaks
#SoThatIsGoodWhenWeNeedToGoIntoHerRoomToCloseAWindowOrSomethingAsWeWereAlwaysWakingHerUpBefore
#ISaidInMyLastEntryThatIHadNotBeenSickInFiveDaysButThenThatNightIWasSick
#IWasThenNotSickForThreeDaysUntilThisMorningButEarlyMorningSickIsTheLeastHorribleKindUsually
#IAmStillHavingToStretchMyBackOutTwiceADayAndIGuessItWillOnlyGetWorseAsTimeGoesOn
#BHadHerLastBabySensoryClassAndIAmSadSheIsTooOldForItNowAsItHasBeenAHighlightOfOurWeekForMe
#IThinkSheEntertainsALotOfPeopleSoEveryoneClappedForHerWhichWasSweet
#AtTheEndOfTheClassSheApproachedTheTeachersDollAndWasQuiteIntriguedByIt
#ItGaveMeSomeInsightOfHowSheMightBeWithHerSiblingAndSheWasQuiteCuteWithItButIJustHopeSheDoesNotKeepPokingThemInTheEyes

(7th October: I’m not so sure on the title of the image now – I Had My First Scan, First Scan instead perhaps? But it obviously felt right at the time, so I’ll leave it.)

I keep meaning to keep to Instagram’s text limit, but I just seem to waffle on and on now.

#IImagineThePhotographThatIWillTakeWillReferenceAPictureFromMyWaitingProjectWhenIWasNineAndAHalfWeeks

This one:

Me holding a scan of B when I was 9 and a half weeks pregnant. T has his right hand on my left shoulder.
I Keep Looking At The Scan As I Can Not Believe It (9 and a half weeks)
 
#SoWeWentToTheHospital
#HadAnAppointmentButWaitedNearlyAnHour
#MaybeBecauseOtherPeopleNeededLookingAtMoreUrgently
#SomePeopleDidLookLikeTheyWereInALotOfPain
#IThoughtIShouldHaveAFullBladderIfTheyDidAScan
#SoIWasBurstingForTheToilet
#TheyFinallyCalledMeAndAskedIfINeededToGoToTheLoo
#SoThatWasDiscomfortForNoReasonAsItWasAnInternalExam
#ThePersonExaminingMeWasBeingTestedSoThereWere3PeopleInTheRoomPlusTiago
#TheyGaveMeASheetForDignityAndIApologisedForHavingHairyLegsThoughTheySaidNothingInReply
#TheySaidTheyWereTryingToGiveMeDignityButIAmUsedToHavingMoreInvasiveExaminationsThatInvolveSpeculumsSoIWasNotSureWhereTheSheetWasMeantToBe 
#TiagoSawTheToolTheyWereGoingToUseAndIWasLikeWelcomeToAWomansWorld
#ItWasNotThatBadJustABitColdAndTheWaitingRoomHadBeenSoHot
#BeforeLongTheyTurnedTheScreenAndShowedUsTheLittleHumanInsideOfMe
#SheSaidCanYouSeeTheFlickerThatIsTheHeartbeat
#AndIStartedToCryHappyTearsAsIWasRelievedAndItWasSoSurreal
#AndISaidItIsSoWeirdAsIThoughtPregnancyWasSomethingThatHappenedToOtherPeopleAndNotMeAndItIsSoWeirdSeeingThatLittleThingInsideOfMe
#SheLookedAroundThoroughly
#ItWasGoodThatSheHadSomeoneElseTalkingToHerAsIKnowThatTheyBothHadAGoodLookAndDidNotSeeAnyIssues
#TheTesterSaidIHadTheBestOvariesThatSheHadSeenTodayAndCalledThemBeautiful 
#SheGaveUsAPicture
#TheySaidThatIfItHappensAgainIShouldBookAnotherAppointment
#AsBleedingIsNotUncommonButItStillIsNotNormal
#IAmGladTheyWereEncouragingAsIWouldNotWantToBeSeenAsAnnoying
#IHaveBledALittleSinceButIGuessItIsBecauseTheyHadThatToolInsideMeForAtLeast10Minutes
#IThoughtIWas9WeeksTodayButTheySaidItIsMoreLike9DaysAnd4Or5Days
#IAmGuessingItWillChangeAgainButThatMeansIAmNearlyAQuarterOfTheWayThroughIfAllGoesWell
#TimeHasPassedQuickly
#IKeepLookingAtTheScanAsICanNotBelieveIt
#NanThinksItIsABoyAsSheSaysTheyCauseTroubleFromTheStart

(7th October: Notice how I even wore the same outfit, and Tiago wore the same shirt for his arm’s appearance. My hair is even a similar length, but I rarely wear it down anymore due to the large cyst on my head. Lovely. Plus if I wear it half up I don’t have to wash my hair so much. Win.

My first scan with B was earlier as I’d had some bleeding and had to go to the hospital. Obviously everything was fine.)

#IWantToGetBInvolvedInThePictureTooButTheImageIHaveInMyMindWillProbablyNotBeTheOneIEndUpGetting

I haven’t asked Tiago if I can borrow his arm yet. It’ll be easier if he holds B while we do the shoot and then maybe she can hold onto me too, but we’ll see.

It might just end up being me by myself…

(7th October: If I remember correctly we all got a bit stressed out and so it made sense for me to just hold B. It makes sense as she is where I was holding the scan of her in the early photo.)

#TheMidwifeRangTheDayBeforeTheScanAndSaidToWearAFaceMaskHaveAFullBladderForTiagoToBringHisFlowTestAndFiveQuidInCashForPhotos

She said full mask, full bladder… at first. I was going to ask what a full mask was, but I just assumed it was a normal one. She later said she had meant a face mask.

#WellThereIsAFineLineBetweenHavingAFullBladderAndFeelingLikeYouAreGoingToPissYourself

It’s a good job I do my kegels every day.

#TheyWereRunningAboutThirtyMinutesLateSoISatInTheWaitingRoomStrugglingWhilePeopleCoughedAndSniffledAroundUs

I was not happy.

#WithMyTwelveWeekAppointmentWithBIGotToldOffForNotHavingAFullEnoughBladderAndGotSentToDrinkMoreWater

I still remember his annoyed face. I had not wanted to have a situation where I felt like I was going to piss myself, but obviously I was nowhere near that – plus the appointment was on time then.

#ThisTimeIKeptGettingSentToTheToiletToEmptyMyBladderABitMoreAsIHadWaitedSoLong

I don’t think I’ve really been to the toilet and partially emptied my bladder before. It was a bit difficult and didn’t feel very pleasant…

#ItWasWeirdToSeeTheBabyOnTheScreenAsIKnowIAmPregnantButIDoOftenForgetWhatItMeans

I kept looking at it and just thinking they were a tiny B. Well, they could end up looking very similar.

(7th October: Even yesterday I kept saying to Tiago how weird it is that we have a child, and another on the way.)

#SheSaidThatIAm13WeeksWhichIHadAssumedIWasThoughPartOfMeWasStillHopingIWas17Weeks

The idea of me being more pregnant had long gone from my mind, though I guess I was still clinging to the remote possibility of it. I just want time to go by, but as I’ve said before my hospital said there would not be a bed for me if I was more pregnant.

#IWasRelievedToSeeThatTheBabyWasWellThoughTheMidwifeWasStrugglingToGetAllTheMeasurementsSheNeeded

This happened with B a lot.

#IKeptGettingOffTheBedToDanceAroundOrStayedOnTheBedAndPushedMyHipsUpAndWiggled

I really did not want to have to come back for another scan next week.

#InTheEndSheSentUsToTheWaitingRoomWhileSheSawTheNextPatientToSeeIfTheBabyWouldBeInTheRightPositionAfterTheWait

I stood up for a bit and just swayed. Then I sat down.

#WeWereOutForNearlyTwoAndAHalfHoursInTheEndSoItWasGoodThatTiagoHadBroughtHisLaptop

I think they were having a lot of tech difficulties. Classic.

#IWentInByMyselfForTheLastBitAndAfterMoreDancingSheGotTheNeckMeasurementThatSheWanted

Hurrah. I was nervous, but she managed to get one and just wanted to double check it, and then she confirmed it with another one. She said the baby was quite chilled.

#IThenNeededToBeWeighedAndHaveABloodTestSoThatWasMoreWaitingAroundButAtLeastThereWasGoodMusicPlayingAtThePlace

I was getting bored. The staff were so lovely though so I was not annoyed at them, as these things happen. Just having a full bladder had been quite uncomfortable, so I just mentioned ‘hey you want us to have a full bladder but then you make us wait’. Also due to wearing masks you can’t sit in the waiting room and keep drinking. I was quite thirsty and hungry by the time we left, I was surprised they managed to get blood from me.

#TheyDidNotChargeUsForThePhotoInTheEndAsTheyHadNoEnvelopesAndTheyHadNotBeenChargingAgainUntilRecentlyAsPartnersHadNotBeenAllowedIn

That paid for some veggie samosas, and some grocery shopping on the way home. I went into a mini supermarket for the first time in ages.

#BeforeSheChoseTheImageForUsWeJokedThatItLookedLikeTheBabyWasSmokingACigarAndTheCloudOfSmokeIsVisibleInTheImage

We just try to have a laugh when we can. B sometimes puts big twigs in her mouth and I call her Winston Churchill. Yeah, we’re hilarious.

#LuckilyMyMumWasWatchingBAsKidsAreNotAllowedToAppointments

Luckily it was on a morning where she is free. Otherwise Tiago would have had to drop me off and watch B in the car… That would have been a nightmare.

#ItSoundsLikeMostOfMyAppointmentsAreHereThereAndEverywhereWhichIsABitFrustrating

‘Where do you want your 28 weeks appointment? This place that is far from you or this one?’ Those places also don’t have their clinics at convenient times. Great.

#LastNightTiagoSaidHeIsFeelingMoreRelaxedAboutThisPregnancy

Nice. I feel quite stressed – there’s a lot of pressure on the pregnant person I think. I just want it to go well.

#ThenFiveMinutesLaterWeLookedAtBOnHerMonitorAndTiagoThoughtSheWasNotBreathingButLuckilySheMovedJustBeforeTiagoWasAboutToGoIntoHerRoom

I wasn’t concerned but then I thought ‘well maybe something is wrong’. I kept talking into the monitor but she would not move, so Tiago was about to go and check on her.

#TiagoFinallyGotRoundToMakingItSoThatBsDoorNoLongerSqueaks

Her monitor had been facing the wall as she likes to play with it, so I had just gone in there to readjust it.

#SoThatIsGoodWhenWeNeedToGoIntoHerRoomToCloseAWindowOrSomethingAsWeWereAlwaysWakingHerUpBefore

I could not master opening her door without it squeaking. Tiago was quite good at it, but I’m glad he’s sorted it out.

#ISaidInMyLastEntryThatIHadNotBeenSickInFiveDaysButThenThatNightIWasSick

Typical.

#IWasThenNotSickForThreeDaysUntilThisMorningButEarlyMorningSickIsTheLeastHorribleKindUsually

Early mornings and brushing my teeth are the danger times. In the morning it’s usually just water so that’s fine.

#IAmStillHavingToStretchMyBackOutTwiceADayAndIGuessItWillOnlyGetWorseAsTimeGoesOn

Great.

#BHadHerLastBabySensoryClassAndIAmSadSheIsTooOldForItNowAsItHasBeenAHighlightOfOurWeekForMe

She was quite a lot older than the other kids though.

#IThinkSheEntertainsALotOfPeopleSoEveryoneClappedForHerWhichWasSweet

To be fair, they don’t usually say ‘is anyone graduating today?’ but the teachers like B, so maybe they wanted to draw attention to it? Who knows. She did the class in her usual fashion of stealing everyone’s stuff, crawling under the parachute and faffing about, and just going round seeing everyone.

#AtTheEndOfTheClassSheApproachedTheTeachersDollAndWasQuiteIntriguedByIt

She went right up to the teacher’s area which she hasn’t done before. Then she was looking at its hands and studying it.

#ItGaveMeSomeInsightOfHowSheMightBeWithHerSiblingAndSheWasQuiteCuteWithItButIJustHopeSheDoesNotKeepPokingThemInTheEyes

She does like to look at the other babies, but I guess as their parents are there she usually is a little shy. She saw the doll was unattended and went for it. It was one of those dolls where the eyes close when you lie it down, so she was intrigued by that I think. Bless her.

13 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait wrapped in a fleece blanket with a tissue to my nose. My hair is quite greasy.
Resting, Taking Vitamins, Staying Hydrated, Eating Fruit & Veg (13 Weeks)
 
#IHaveBeenIllFor5DaysNow
#IThinkItIsDueToTryingToDoTooMuch
#AndBeingAroundPeopleWhoWereIllLastWeek
#TiagoToldMeOffTheOtherDayForBeingAroundIllPeople
#IKnewIWasGoingToGetIllAtSomePoint
#IGetIllOnceInAWhile
#AndApparentlyWhenYouArePregnantYourImmuneSystemIsLower
#HeWasIllTheOtherWeekAndIDidNotGetIt
#ButItProbablyWeakenedMyDefences
#HeSaidHeFindsItFrustratingAsHeHasNoControlOverThePregnancy
#WhichIUnderstand
#ButIKnowIAmLuckyAsIDoNotHaveAFullTimeJob
#AndSomePeopleWorkFullTimeOnTheirFeetTheWholeTime
#SoIGetToRestMoreThanMost
#ItIsFrustratingForMeAsICanNotDoAsMuchAsIUsedTo
#OrMaybeThatIsBecauseIAmIllRightNow
#ThoughIFeltLikeIWasBeingMoreProductiveBefore
#AnywaysWeAreBothWorriedAboutHowMeBeingIllWillAffectTheBaby
#ButIfBadThingsHappenedWheneverAnyonePregnantHadAColdThenHumansWouldBeExtinctByNowSurely
#IAmDoingTheBestICanToGetBetter
#RestingTakingVitaminsStayingHydratedEatingFruitAndVegEtc
#IHaveAScanTomorrowSoThatIsComfortingForUsBothAnyways
#IAmABitNervous
#IHaveDaydreamsOfThemTurningAroundToSayItIsBadNews
#ButINeedToRelaxAndJustRestABitMore
#TheMostAnnoyingThingAboutBeingIllIsHavingBrokenSleepDuringTheNight
#ButIGuessThatIsGoodPracticeForHavingANewborn
#MyHairIsGreasyInThePictureAsIHadNotWashedItForAWeek
#IWashedItStraightAfterBecauseOfThisScanTomorrow
#GoingToBackupThisShootThenHaveALieDown

7th October (I usually write this section on the day I post, but I forget to mention that):

I was definitely more ill with B than I have been this pregnancy. I think all the extra handwashing has helped, plus probably not being in close proximity with so many people a lot of the time.

With this pregnancy I am working more freelance than I was with B, and am basically a stay at Mum who does some admin stuff and works on my photography/video projects. Looking after B is a full-time job though, but I am not on my feet all the time but I probably am more than when I was pregnant with B.

Reading those hashtags I had no idea that Covid was coming. I was worried about how being ill would affect womb B, but at this point I was waiting to get vaccinated and worrying about catching Covid. It’s weird reading the posts from this time as it was not long ago (I’m quite behind with posting but this was the end of July and it’s the start of October now), and seeing how stressed out I was.

I realised yesterday (and expressed to Tiago) that I often have really negative daydreams where something happens to baby X. I just need to try to relax more.


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General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot (9 Weeks? / 28th June 2021)

Self-portrait of me looking at the camera in a bra and leggings. I am holding onto my elbow, and there is a bit of a baby bump showing.
General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot (9 Weeks? / 28th June 2021)
 
#TypicallyIGotAnAppointmentLetterForAScanTheSameDayThatISaidIHadHeardNothing
#AnnoyinglyItIsTheOneDayThatTiagoCanNotDoForSureSoWeWillHaveToWaitAnotherWeekNow
#TheLetterDoesNotSayIfTiagoCanAttendOrNotButIGuessTheRulesMayChangeByThenAnyways
#IRealiseThatIThoughtIMayBePregnantAsIGotSomeSpotsButTheyMayHaveBeenCausedByMeWearingAMask
#ThoughPerhapsItIsACombinationOfHormonesAndAMaskMakingThemWorseThanNormal
#IFeelHappierLatelyWhichIsProbablyAlsoACombinationOfHormonesAndHavingSomethingToCountdownToAfterMonthsOfFeelingABitLost
#ItHasAlsoBeenGoodToSeeMorePeopleLately
#WeJustHadAFewNightsAwayWhereWeCaughtUpWithLotsOfPeople
#ItWasReallyNiceToJustSeePeopleRegularlyForAFewDays
#ItWasAlsoAGlimpseOfHowItMightBeHavingTwoKids
#BDoesLikeBabiesButSheAlsoLikesToRunAroundAfterBiggerKids
#SheWasQuiteConfidentAtTakingTheirStuffAndDidNotSeemToCareWhenTheyGotAnnoyed
#ItWasAlsoAGoodReminderThatTheSecondKidWillNotDoVeryMuchForAWhile
#SoAtLeastYouCanPutThemDownAndFindThemThereAgainTenSecondsLater
#IAmJustNotLookingForwardToTheConstantFeedingAndNappyChangingAgain
#IHopeBreastfeedingWillBeEasierNextTimeButWeWillHaveToWaitAndSee
#WeTriedToExperimentWithTheLengthOfBsNapsAndHerBedtimeButSheStillWokeUpEarlierThanWeWanted
#WeSharedARoomWithHerSoItProbablyDidNotHelpEncourageHerToFallBackToSleep
#YesterdaySheSleptForAnHourAndAHalfInTheCarThenWentToBedAtSevenFortyFiveAndSheWokeUpAtFiveThirtyToday
#WeHadBeenTryingCuttingHerSecondNapToThirtyMinutesAndPuttingHerToBedAtEightAndSheWasWakingUpAtFive
#SoSheCanJustKeepHavingAnHourNapAtHerSecondNapAndGoToBedAtSevenThirty
#IGuessWeAreLuckyThatAtLeastSheSleepsQuiteSolidlyForAGoodAmountOfTime
#SheSeemsToKnowHerNapAndBedtimeRoutinesNowAndSheEitherClingsToTheSideOfHerCotOrLiesDownNextToItAsITryToGetHerReady
#YesterdayTiagoLookedAfterBAndIWentBackToSleep
#IDreamtThatWeWereAwayAndWeSaidYesToBGoingSwimmingInASmallFountain
#ItThenTurnedOutToBeAMassiveSwimmingPoolAndICouldNotSeeBAndAllTheKidsWereInTheSameCostumesWithTheSameFloats
#IStartedToShoutHadAnyoneSeenHer
#IThenWokeMyselfUpAsIDidNotWantToDealWithTheStress
#IToldTiagoAndHeSaidDoYouKnowThatYouOftenWakeUpInTheMiddleOfTheNightAndLookForB
#YesIDo

I’m yet to do a shoot, but I’ve called it General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot for now as I want to experiment a bit today and not pretend to be a one year old for once.

(3rd September 2021: I have a habit of doing shoots just after eating, so I look a bit more pregnant than I was. I’ve already copied this shoot once, and I plan to do it at least a few more times during the pregnancy.)

#TypicallyIGotAnAppointmentLetterForAScanTheSameDayThatISaidIHadHeardNothing

It’s always the way.

#AnnoyinglyItIsTheOneDayThatTiagoCanNotDoForSureSoWeWillHaveToWaitAnotherWeekNow

What’s another week? I’m impatient though.

#TheLetterDoesNotSayIfTiagoCanAttendOrNotButIGuessTheRulesMayChangeByThenAnyways

I was going to ask, but then I didn’t. The woman on the phone did say that the letter has a lot of incorrect and missing information on it though. I knew that as the line said it was open until 5, but it closed at 2:30 and I initially called at 2:50 to change my appointment so I had to wait until the next day. Fun times.

#IRealiseThatIThoughtIMayBePregnantAsIGotSomeSpotsButTheyMayHaveBeenCausedByMeWearingAMask

I’m sure I mentioned this in a previous set of hashtags. I don’t really get spots that often – unless I have been eating a lot of bad foods. I was reading something the other day and then I thought ‘ah yeah maybe the spots are more due to wearing a mask?’

#ThoughPerhapsItIsACombinationOfHormonesAndAMaskMakingThemWorseThanNormal

I guess I wear a mask for the same amount of time each week, so it must have been a combination of both? I have some really bad ones on the right side of my face right now.

#IFeelHappierLatelyWhichIsProbablyAlsoACombinationOfHormonesAndHavingSomethingToCountdownToAfterMonthsOfFeelingABitLost

If I could bottle these hormones (but not have morning sickness all the time) I’d take them for life, but I guess when I was pregnant with B I had also been feeling lost previously too.

#ItHasAlsoBeenGoodToSeeMorePeopleLately

Seeing people that I have not seen for a year or two or more…

#WeJustHadAFewNightsAwayWhereWeCaughtUpWithLotsOfPeople

Three couples and their kids (they all have two kids each).

#ItWasReallyNiceToJustSeePeopleRegularlyForAFewDays

People to hang out with while we watched the kids and passed time quite nicely. Hurrah. Luckily the weather was nice!

#ItWasAlsoAGlimpseOfHowItMightBeHavingTwoKids

They varied in age from 11 weeks to 9 years.

#BDoesLikeBabiesButSheAlsoLikesToRunAroundAfterBiggerKids

She is intrigued by babies, but she also likes to follow older kids.

#SheWasQuiteConfidentAtTakingTheirStuffAndDidNotSeemToCareWhenTheyGotAnnoyed

The determination/nonchalance on her face…

#ItWasAlsoAGoodReminderThatTheSecondKidWillNotDoVeryMuchForAWhile

I had kind of forgotten how babies are. I guess I am the most concerned about all the night feedings, and B going down to one nap very soon.

#SoAtLeastYouCanPutThemDownAndFindThemThereAgainTenSecondsLater

I forget that they are quite happy just lying on a mat, looking at the ceiling or toys etc.

#IAmJustNotLookingForwardToTheConstantFeedingAndNappyChangingAgain

It is going to be a juggle, but it will be worth it in the end.

#IHopeBreastfeedingWillBeEasierNextTimeButWeWillHaveToWaitAndSee

I feel like I have forgotten everything already, but I’m sure some things will come back to me.

#WeTriedToExperimentWithTheLengthOfBsNapsAndHerBedtimeButSheStillWokeUpEarlierThanWeWanted

Great.

#WeSharedARoomWithHerSoItProbablyDidNotHelpEncourageHerToFallBackToSleep

It is easier to try to let her go back to sleep when you’re not there next to her. She slept better than I thought she would though with the shared room situation. We just tried to only go in the room when we wanted to go to sleep. Sometimes she woke up, but she quickly went back to sleep.

#YesterdaySheSleptForAnHourAndAHalfInTheCarThenWentToBedAtSevenFortyFiveAndSheWokeUpAtFiveThirtyToday

On the way there she was just awake the whole time when I wanted to sleep. Yesterday we both napped. Poor Tiago…

#WeHadBeenTryingCuttingHerSecondNapToThirtyMinutesAndPuttingHerToBedAtEightAndSheWasWakingUpAtFive #SoSheCanJustKeepHavingAnHourNapAtHerSecondNapAndGoToBedAtSevenThirty

I was relieved as I like for her to have more than half an hour so I can get things done. I probably need to try cutting her nap to 30 minutes then putting her to bed earlier, but I feel like she just likes to wake up between 5 and 5:40.

#IGuessWeAreLuckyThatAtLeastSheSleepsQuiteSolidlyForAGoodAmountOfTime

We just need to go to bed earlier. The last two nights we have been watching football (Euros). I like football, but not that much football. I could have gone to bed at 8pm last night easily, but oh well. Portugal are out now, but Tiago is suddenly more interested in England.

#SheSeemsToKnowHerNapAndBedtimeRoutinesNowAndSheEitherClingsToTheSideOfHerCotOrLiesDownNextToItAsITryToGetHerReady

Well, this was just while we were away. I would just be sorting something out and she would be there clinging to it or next to it. It’s good though.

#YesterdayTiagoLookedAfterBAndIWentBackToSleep

Thanks Tiago.

#IDreamtThatWeWereAwayAndWeSaidYesToBGoingSwimmingInASmallFountain #ItThenTurnedOutToBeAMassiveSwimmingPoolAndICouldNotSeeBAndAllTheKidsWereInTheSameCostumesWithTheSameFloats #IStartedToShoutHadAnyoneSeenHer #IThenWokeMyselfUpAsIDidNotWantToDealWithTheStress

I realised it was a dream/nightmare, so there was no way I was going to stay there getting stressed out within it.

#IToldTiagoAndHeSaidDoYouKnowThatYouOftenWakeUpInTheMiddleOfTheNightAndLookForB #YesIDo

I still have dreams where I think she has fallen out of our bed or is out of her cot or something. Oh the fun. I’m going to try to have a quick lie down now before she wakes up. Hopefully she will sleep for another hour, but sometimes she wakes up earlier. She is teething again, and her skin is itchy again though it looks normal. Fun timessss.

8 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

(I should have posted these in the last post, but oh well. I only did one shoot for 8 weeks, but I don’t want to miss them out.)

I have a long necked top on that is covering the bottom of my nose. My hair is hanging long down one side. I am dressed in dark clothing.
Day Before Haircut (8 Weeks)
 
#IAmSoBoredOfTheWinterAlready
#ITryToWashMyHairEvery5DaysIfICan
#IDreadWashingIt
#WellNotTheWashingItSoMuchButMoreTheDryingIt
#AndComingOutOfTheShowerWithALotOfWetHair
#IHaveBeenTryingToSeeHowLongICanGrowItForPhotographicPurposes
#ButIAmTooLowMaintenanceForThis
#ThereIsJustTooMuchHairToDry
#InTheSummerItIsNotTooBadAndItIsABitRefreshing
#ButHavingToPutTheHeaterOnBecauseMyHairIsTooAnnoying
#AndSpendingAgesBlowDryingIt
#Nah
#EspeciallyNowThatIAmPregnantIJustReallyCanNotBeBothered
#IFeelLikeIWillEndUpCuttingItOffSoonAnyways
#SoMightAsWellDoItNowAndSaveMyselfALotOfTimeOverTheWinter
#LetsSeeThough
#AsOftenITalkAboutCuttingItShorter
#ButMyHairdresserDoesNotWantMeToDislikeItAfter
#ItWillNotBeSuperSuperShort
#AsIWantToBeAbleToTieItBackStill
#ButThatWillBeABigImprovementIThink
#MyHairMightBeKeepingMeABitWarmAtTheMoment
#ButICanWearAHat
#SayingMyHairdresserSoundsFunny
#ButIHaveBeenGoingToTheSamePlaceForYEARS
#ThereHaveBeenPhasesWhereIHaveNot
#ButILikeToCatchUpWithEveryoneThere
#AndIUsedToBeSoAwkwardAndSitInSilence
#AndAvoidLookingAtMyselfInTheMirror
#MyHairdresserAndILaughAboutHowAwkwardIUsedToBeAllTheTime

I recently had my hair cut off, but I was not at the same stage of pregnancy.

I cut it off due to wanting it to be lower maintenance and because it is harder to bend over the bath to wash my hair – my preferred way to do it, but I did not have that option when I was pregnant with B due to the bathroom set-up.

I can not really wear it down now as it gets so frizzy/wild, so I usually just tie up the top bit of it in a messy bun.

I now live close to my hairdressers again, so I’m going to the same place…

I am wearing a striped top and my arms are wrapped around me. I am looking at the camera.
Day After Haircut (8 Weeks)

#NotMuchToSayIThink
#GotAHaircut
#ItWasTooMuchHassleHavingLongHair
#MyHairdresserStraightenedItAndWhatever
#SoNotSureHowItWillLookWhenIHaveWashedAndBlowDriedItMyself
#ProbablyALotFluffier
#IWantedItLongEnoughToTieBack
#ButItIsAtALengthWhereIHaveToUseStrongTiesAsOtherwiseItFallsOut
#ItWillBeFine
#IDoNotLikeHowJustCutHairLooksOnMe
#TheEndsAreTooSharp
#ButIGuessItIsAlsoBecauseItIsStraight
#ButOftenIDoNotLikeHowTiagosHairLooksAfterHeHasJustHadItCut
#AfterAFewDaysItSeemsBetterButAlsoMaybeIJustGetUsedToIt
#FeelingABitSickNow
#BoredOfThisSickBusiness
#ILookPregnantHereButIAmJustBloated
#AndThisIsWhyIDoNotLikeTightTops
#ButISomehowDecidedToBuySomeTopsLikeThis
#ToBeFairTheyWereInAPacketAndIThoughtTheyWereLooserLikeOtherOnesIHave
#FunTimes
#GoingToGoSoakMyFeetAsIFeelLikeTheyNeedSomeLove
#ThenReadMyBookAboutTheSpiceGirls

I love how I say I look pregnant when I clearly don’t…

I have been caring less about what I wear as I am usually at home.

9 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait holding my NHS-issued pregnancy book. I look sad and have my arms crossed over the folder.
Bleeding Worry (9 Weeks)
 
#SoLastNightThingsFeltABitFunny
#AndIWasFeelingTooScaredToGoToTheBathroom
#AfterAWhileIWentAsIWantedToBrushMyTeeth
#AndThereWasBlood
#NotLoadsButMoreThanIHaveBledSoFarAndAReallyIntenseColour
#IWasHavingCramps
#IStillHaveSomeCrampsAndWeirdFeelings
#ItCouldBeAFewThings
#HadABusyWeekWhichIsWhyIDecidedThatINeededToStayInAndRestLastNight
#YesterdayIAccidentallyJabbedMyselfInTheStomachWithMyPhoneInMyPocket
#IAteSomethingFromAJarThatWas3WeeksOutOfDate
#ThatIsAwkwardToAdmitButItWasVegetablesAndIHadJustOpenedIt
#IUsedALotOfMoisturiserOnMyBodyWhenIUsuallyRarelyUseAny
#IFeelLikeThereWasSomethingElseButICanNotRemember
#ItCouldAllBeFineButIAmExpectingTheWorst
#LuckilyIHaveAnAppointmentForThisAfternoonAtTheHospital
#MyLeafletSaidToCallIfIHaveAnyBleedingOrPain
#AsThoughItIsNotUncommonItNeedsToBeCheckedOut
#CalledTheNumberAndOption1WasEmergency
#IFeltAwkwardPressing1SoIPressedForAllOtherEnquiriesAndThenShePutMeThroughToTheEmergencyLine
#ItIsInAFewHoursButThisMorningIsDraggingSoMuch
#IWasNotSickToday
#MyBoobsAreNotSore
#MyNoseDoesNotFeelFull
#FeelsLikeMostOfMySymptomsHaveGone
#WeCanOnlyWaitAndSee
#LastNightIJustCriedInTiagosArms
#InThePhotoIAmHoldingMyFolderOfNotesThatINeedToTakeToEveryAppointment
#DuringTheShootItFeltLikeSomethingWasJabbingMe
#IDoNotKnowWhatNormalIsSupposedToFeelLikeWhenPregnant

Luckily I have not had a scare like this yet this pregnancy. I’ve been getting bad cramps, which seem stronger than when I was pregnant with B but maybe I’ve just forgotten how things are.

B’s been accidentally kicking and punching me in my stomach loads.

My folder of notes is just a tiny booklet instead this time. Birmingham seems to use an app for all my notes?

I still feel like I do not know what normal is when pregnant, and I get anxious at times, but I just have to take some deep breaths and hope that everything will go the same as last time. I am just hoping that this baby will come out head first this time…


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