It was a struggle when T and I were both ill last month and had to look after B. Plus having a newborn baby = more difficulty. No thanks, I’d rather avoid getting it. I probably won’t be venturing anywhere indoors with Baby for a while anyways, but no masks puts me off going to a few possible places that I could go to.
Also, my Nan is quite elderly and I do not want her catching it – though she goes out shopping way more than I do. She needs to go out for sanity, so I hope people who do not wear masks keep their distance.
I’ll say ‘run to the cupboard’ ‘run to the window’ etc. She’ll do it about 10 times. I joke that I am training her for marathons already. She has been napping better lately, it’s probably just her being under the weather but it’s good to wear her out too.
One we see most days, and the other one we have only met a couple of times but is a therapy dog and used to little kids patting it. She still won’t go near the big dogs though, unless they come over to her and sniff her, which they like to do from time to time…
Tiago told me later he texted my Mum at 4 in the morning to say I hadn’t slept much and to tell me to have a lie down in case I didn’t ask. I tried to sleep, but found it hard. B looked tired all morning and I had to wake her up from her nap.
I was surprised that she was hanging around, but it made for sense for her to do that then go home and potentially come back. She was getting ready to leave, but I said could she hang on for another half an hour just in case as by that point she would have had to turn around by the time she got home. Luckily she did. The roads were quite icy too and as he hadn’t slept much I didn’t want him to be rushing home.
We’ll just have to wait and see. The sonographer said as I’ve had a breech baby before I probably won’t need to argue my case so much, and that if I’ve had a breech baby before then I can handle a back to back baby. I just need to stay calm.
I was saying to Tiago that maybe I am just saying this as I am pregnant, but if I was not pregnant would I want to be trying to get pregnant now with B being more independent? I got pregnant while she was still pretty dependent. I guess I would. I just want to get the baby phase over and done with.
B going to nursery is definitely going to make a big difference, and I’m lucky that we are in the position to send her.
37 weeks pregnant with B comparison:
(This is actually the last photo that I took of myself pregnant for the project.)
I would have liked to have remade this photo, but this was when we lived in Liverpool, and we now live in Birmingham.
Maybe there were warning signs – like cramps in the top of my left leg. When I was having surges with B my legs would cramp up.
Last night the baby had hiccups and I was trying to work out if they were head down or not.
My sent my makeup to make Máscara like images. They arrived the day before B was born and luckily it was my day off and I took photos. I only liked a couple of images. I did a shoot the other day and they seem a lot better.
Last night we went to bed at 9. T fell asleep straight away, whereas I probably fell asleep half an hour later. I woke up quite a lot of times, but eventually got up at 6.30 as B was awake.
My brain just stayed stuck on a breech baby for the rest of the appointment and I forgot to ask about hospital restrictions etc.
B wasn’t breech at her 36 week appointment, so I’m wondering if this appointment hadn’t been delayed would Baby X have been breech at the original appointment time? I’m thinking that they might not have been. I guess at least this time I am aware that the baby is breech at this point (though B was born at 37+5, and I believe she became breech the day before she was born).
She said not to be worried about the growth as it might just be down to having different midwives at every appointment, and everyone measures differently. With B I had the same midwife measuring me, except for one appointment when she thought someone else should see me in case she wasn’t able to be at B’s birth – spoiler: neither of them were at B’s birth.
I’ve gone from feeling stressed to relaxed and back again a lot lately. It’s too much. Now I’ve had a bit of time to process things I feel a bit more relaxed.
I’m just worried if they turn the baby that it might turn back again, but it is what it is. I just want to try a water birth this time. I don’t feel like I can go through arguing my way out of a c-section again, but who knows how things will be on the day of the birth.
There’s more encouragement. The notes say about her looking to her peers and wanting them to join in with her etc. An example is she went to play with some animal hand puppets then smiled to her peers to join her. She put her hand in the puppets, which also explains why she started to do that at home not long ago. Nursery is obviously doing her a lot of good!
It’s very hit and miss. Same with the ‘From Head To Toe’ book as sometimes she will do the actions, and sometimes she won’t. I guess it depends on her mood, and she isn’t on the planet to perform for me.
It’s good. I get worried about her, but she is usually in a good mood despite everything.
37 weeks comparison with B:
I think the day before I had still been 36 weeks.
Chocolate oat milk has been a big treat of mine this pregnancy too. I haven’t been as healthy this time with food this time I think, since I live with my Nan who has a massive sweet tooth and I have been indulging in crisps a bit lately.
I was not planning on using my medical aid this time as I was worried that that is what made B turn round, but now I might give it a go as I have nothing to lose. I also need to look at my colostrum kit, but I don’t know if I can really produce any yet.
Spoiler alert – I had to go to hospital with B.
I was obviously in a good place mentally in regards to giving birth. I need to get there again, so I need to binge on as much hypnobirthing stuff as I can…
I can still do up the inner zip of this coat, so though this baby may be bigger than B was, my bump is obviously not bigger in some ways. Not sure.
I feel like I need to nest, but B has so much stuff that it is hard to. We can not set up the cot yet as it is at my parent’s house for in case they have to have B. I think I will keep B in her cot, and use their one for the new baby.
I try to have a nap every day when B does as otherwise I regret it. I often do not feel sleepy, but manage to sleep for a bit.
This picture is a remake of #1 (last image) and #2 (also last image).
My bump has definitely dropped, and the midwife commented on it (she saw me 2 or 3 appointments ago?)
This time around I tried to remake images more often.
I gave Tiago a haircut last week in case I didn’t have the opportunity to do it again for a while.
I think he is also looking forward to relaxing with a baby on his chest again. Those were sweet moments…
She had two kids and always wanted more. She used the excuse that she has 8 siblings, but I said it is only because contraception didn’t really exist then otherwise I doubt her mum would have had so many. She said true…
Her shoes are so grippy that they help her a lot, but hinder her if she wants to slide down, which to be honest she rarely does. I think she also likes to hang on the slide and use it as a watch tower.
I think it is usually dropped by 17 months, so she has less than 2 months left. Earlier I put her to sleep without her sleeping bag, just as she crawled into her cot and seemed quite happy so I did not want to take her out and put her in it – I had tried to get her to come out and have it put on, but nope.
20 weeks pregnant with B comparison:
My belly button seemed quite pushed out from an early stage this time, but I didn’t document it as it was not so interesting to me this time.
Scans went quite differently – with baby X it was a lot less faff and we found out that it’s a girl. With B we didn’t find out until she was born, and I had to go back so they could take all the measurements. I’m interested to see if this will reflect in their personalities, but I would say that B is pretty chill, so will baby X be even more chilled? We will have to wait and see.
We saw the flags and were pretty gutted. Tiago went to talk to the lifeguards to see if it was safe enough to swim/take B in. There was a set of stairs that was safe to use, but we had to be careful as waves would wash over the wall and made it a bit dangerous.
B was quite happy splashing in a little puddle on the rocks by the sea, but then after she’d had a bit of a splash in the sea she was annoyed again. She was getting quite jealous of me swimming in the sea. Better to be safe than sorry…
Today Tiago is out all day running errands, and I’m not sure how to entertain her all day. It’s times like these that I wish I could drive… Public transport around here is not easy to use/it takes forever.
People just eat later here. Yesterday I had a small dinner when B had hers (at 6ish) and then I had a second dinner at a friend’s house.
She can have a good snack when she wakes up from her second nap if she’s having a later dinner. We haven’t given her any yoghurt since we’ve been here (which we usually give her as a snack before bedtime in hope that she will sleep later).
Usually I keep a look out for them, but I was just swimming by myself and felt an electric shock in my arm. I told a friend (in bad Portuguese) and she said maybe it was muscle pain, but I didn’t think so.
Tiago was with a friend who was talking to a lifeguard, so he put some gel on it, and then a bit later the area where I got stung raised up a bit. It wouldn’t hurt and then suddenly it would. Weird. I had looked in the water but saw nothing.
I was trying to get out via a ladder, but lots of people kept jumping in so the water rose too high and I gulped some. I felt sick, but hoped the feeling would pass. I kept stopping in case I was sick, but thought I could get back to my towel and be okay. Tiago was with me as someone was watching B while we had a quick swim together. Suddenly I felt sick again, so put my hand to my mouth and some sadly sprayed out of the side of it. I felt embarrassed – especially with Covid and everything. Awkward. Tiago went back with water to clean it, but all evidence had already gone.
We have two flights by two different operators, but we bought them through one operator. The first flight is at 8am, then the second has been moved from 3pm to 8pm. Good job Tiago drove us to London as I was worried enough about catching a train with the 3pm flight (it’s a 3 hour flight). The airline we booked through don’t care, and say we can just have a refund – which isn’t great when you book months in advance for cheaper prices. The airline who delayed their flight have a first flight that is at 1pm, so that would save us waiting around so much at least but we’ll see what they say. It’s going to be a long day with a 14 month old and my pregnant belly, plus poor Tiago then has to drive us home.
The first time we went it was early in the morning and very foggy, so we were the only ones there. The second time it was quite a bit busier. There are a lot of Muscovy ducks, some Appleyards, and some I don’t know. (My parents had ducks when I was younger.)
We’ve been to a couple of swimming spots lately that I hadn’t been to before, as they’re closer and more kid friendly. I looked for a soft play or kid’s centre, but they don’t seem to have any around. Shame. Covid cases are quite low here. (I just checked and there are currently 14 people with confirmed Covid.)
The guy had just set it all down, B went to go for my water and knocked the coffee over. I went to grab it, but realised I was too late so backed away and stood up. Luckily it just caught the end of my dress, as I didn’t want a burned belly!
It’s nice that things are so kid friendly here. B had woken up early from her second nap (I think) so she had a very early bedtime, otherwise we could have brought her for a bit.
Tiago generally brings me home, then goes back out. He brought me home around 10.30pm and then got back at 2am. It’s good for him to see his friends, but I don’t know how he can stay out so late and then be fine in the morning.
I feel motivated to try to find the time and energy to study more again – I’ve been a bit ‘lazy’ with all the pregnancies and mothering. We need to watch more kids stuff in Portuguese perhaps; I’ve been enjoying watching Bluey in Portuguese.
It is going to be a shock going home to quarantine for 10 days after being out so much. I need to make an effort to do more with B when we return, especially after I get my second jab.
17 weeks pregnant with B comparison:
This time no one mentioned to me about getting the whooping cough, so I will be getting it at around 27 weeks. No one will be saying that I don’t look pregnant enough for it this time…
It’s funning reading about ‘sleeping in late’. Now I’m like what is that? I should have relaxed more when I was pregnant with B. I used to waste so much time. Now I don’t have as much time to faff…
Definitely still anxious this time around.
I feel less excited about birth this time around, even though I would say I had a good experience with B. I am mentally trying to prepare myself though and am starting to read about things again. I am excited to meet her though…
Good to know that it’s been annoying getting an appointment for my 20 week scans both times.
I wasn’t into lentils and chickpeas at the start of this pregnancy either. B has baked beans on toast a lot and they were grossing me out, but I have started to have them for lunch lately (mid-October).
I didn’t wear this cardigan after having B, but it might be more appropriate with having a winter baby this time (B was a summer baby).
We really didn’t rush to buy anything for B, and thought we didn’t need much, but after she was born we bought LOADS.
It’s weird that in the end not many people saw me heavily pregnant with B.
(7th October: Notice how I even wore the same outfit, and Tiago wore the same shirt for his arm’s appearance. My hair is even a similar length, but I rarely wear it down anymore due to the large cyst on my head. Lovely. Plus if I wear it half up I don’t have to wash my hair so much. Win.
My first scan with B was earlier as I’d had some bleeding and had to go to the hospital. Obviously everything was fine.)
The idea of me being more pregnant had long gone from my mind, though I guess I was still clinging to the remote possibility of it. I just want time to go by, but as I’ve said before my hospital said there would not be a bed for me if I was more pregnant.
I was getting bored. The staff were so lovely though so I was not annoyed at them, as these things happen. Just having a full bladder had been quite uncomfortable, so I just mentioned ‘hey you want us to have a full bladder but then you make us wait’. Also due to wearing masks you can’t sit in the waiting room and keep drinking. I was quite thirsty and hungry by the time we left, I was surprised they managed to get blood from me.
To be fair, they don’t usually say ‘is anyone graduating today?’ but the teachers like B, so maybe they wanted to draw attention to it? Who knows. She did the class in her usual fashion of stealing everyone’s stuff, crawling under the parachute and faffing about, and just going round seeing everyone.
She does like to look at the other babies, but I guess as their parents are there she usually is a little shy. She saw the doll was unattended and went for it. It was one of those dolls where the eyes close when you lie it down, so she was intrigued by that I think. Bless her.
13 weeks pregnant with B comparison:
7th October (I usually write this section on the day I post, but I forget to mention that):
I was definitely more ill with B than I have been this pregnancy. I think all the extra handwashing has helped, plus probably not being in close proximity with so many people a lot of the time.
With this pregnancy I am working more freelance than I was with B, and am basically a stay at Mum who does some admin stuff and works on my photography/video projects. Looking after B is a full-time job though, but I am not on my feet all the time but I probably am more than when I was pregnant with B.
Reading those hashtags I had no idea that Covid was coming. I was worried about how being ill would affect womb B, but at this point I was waiting to get vaccinated and worrying about catching Covid. It’s weird reading the posts from this time as it was not long ago (I’m quite behind with posting but this was the end of July and it’s the start of October now), and seeing how stressed out I was.
I realised yesterday (and expressed to Tiago) that I often have really negative daydreams where something happens to baby X. I just need to try to relax more.
I’m yet to do a shoot, but I’ve called it General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot for now as I want to experiment a bit today and not pretend to be a one year old for once.
(3rd September 2021: I have a habit of doing shoots just after eating, so I look a bit more pregnant than I was. I’ve already copied this shoot once, and I plan to do it at least a few more times during the pregnancy.)
I was going to ask, but then I didn’t. The woman on the phone did say that the letter has a lot of incorrect and missing information on it though. I knew that as the line said it was open until 5, but it closed at 2:30 and I initially called at 2:50 to change my appointment so I had to wait until the next day. Fun times.
I’m sure I mentioned this in a previous set of hashtags. I don’t really get spots that often – unless I have been eating a lot of bad foods. I was reading something the other day and then I thought ‘ah yeah maybe the spots are more due to wearing a mask?’
It is easier to try to let her go back to sleep when you’re not there next to her. She slept better than I thought she would though with the shared room situation. We just tried to only go in the room when we wanted to go to sleep. Sometimes she woke up, but she quickly went back to sleep.
I was relieved as I like for her to have more than half an hour so I can get things done. I probably need to try cutting her nap to 30 minutes then putting her to bed earlier, but I feel like she just likes to wake up between 5 and 5:40.
We just need to go to bed earlier. The last two nights we have been watching football (Euros). I like football, but not that much football. I could have gone to bed at 8pm last night easily, but oh well. Portugal are out now, but Tiago is suddenly more interested in England.
I still have dreams where I think she has fallen out of our bed or is out of her cot or something. Oh the fun. I’m going to try to have a quick lie down now before she wakes up. Hopefully she will sleep for another hour, but sometimes she wakes up earlier. She is teething again, and her skin is itchy again though it looks normal. Fun timessss.
8 weeks pregnant with B comparison:
(I should have posted these in the last post, but oh well. I only did one shoot for 8 weeks, but I don’t want to miss them out.)
I recently had my hair cut off, but I was not at the same stage of pregnancy.
I cut it off due to wanting it to be lower maintenance and because it is harder to bend over the bath to wash my hair – my preferred way to do it, but I did not have that option when I was pregnant with B due to the bathroom set-up.
I can not really wear it down now as it gets so frizzy/wild, so I usually just tie up the top bit of it in a messy bun.
I now live close to my hairdressers again, so I’m going to the same place…
I love how I say I look pregnant when I clearly don’t…
I have been caring less about what I wear as I am usually at home.
9 weeks pregnant with B comparison:
Luckily I have not had a scare like this yet this pregnancy. I’ve been getting bad cramps, which seem stronger than when I was pregnant with B but maybe I’ve just forgotten how things are.
B’s been accidentally kicking and punching me in my stomach loads.
My folder of notes is just a tiny booklet instead this time. Birmingham seems to use an app for all my notes?
I still feel like I do not know what normal is when pregnant, and I get anxious at times, but I just have to take some deep breaths and hope that everything will go the same as last time. I am just hoping that this baby will come out head first this time…