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Imitating B Standing With Her Hands Behind Her Back (31 Weeks / 5th December 2021)

Self-portrait where I am stood facing a wall with the front of my hands touching my back. I am wearing a flowery dress and my head is tilted upwards slightly.
Imitating B Standing With Her Hands Behind Her Back (31 Weeks / 5th December 2021)
 
#BHasBeenStandingAndWalkingAroundWithHerHandsBehindHerBackForAWhile
#SometimesSheJustHasThemFlatAgainstHerOrSometimesShePlaysWithAFinger
#SheLooksVeryConfidentThoughAndWeAlwaysCommentOnItWhenSheDoesIt
#YesterdaySheDiscoveredThatIfSheStandsInFrontOfMeNextToMyLegsICanNotSeeHerBecauseOfMyBump
#SoWePlayedPeekabooForABitWhichWasFunnyAndIHopeSheDoesNotForgetAboutIt
#SheSometimesPointsToMyBumpButIDoNotThinkSheReallyUnderstandsWhatIsHappeningInThere
#IWantHerToSeeItReallyMoveAsIWantToSeeHerReaction
#IHurtMyFingerTheOtherDayPuttingMySocksOnAsItIsDifficultToNavigateAroundMyBump
#IHadA31WeeksAppointmentWhichWasOptionalAsItIsNotReallyNecessaryAfterYourFirstChild
#TheyOfferedMeOneSoIThoughtIMightAsWellGoAnywaysAsItIsAlwaysGoodToGetSomeReassurance
#TheyAlwaysTestMyUrineNowSoIBoughtSomeTubesToTakeASampleWithMe
#IStruggledToFillOneAsWithMyBumpIReallyCouldNotSeeWhereIWasPissing
#IHadADifferentMidwifeAsMyOriginalOneIsNowWorkingFromHomeAsSheIsOnlyABitMorePregnantThanMe
#ThereWasAlsoAStudentMidwifeWhichIWasNotBotheredAboutAsTheyHaveToLearnSomehowAndThereIsAShortageOfMidwivesInThisCountry
#TheyBothMeasuredMeAndTheStudentSaidTheBabyWas1CentimetreBiggerThanAt28WeeksButTheMidwifeSaidSheIs3CentimetresBigger
#TheMidwifeSaidToHerNotToWorryAsTheyAllHaveTheirOwnWayOfMeasuringSoAsLongAsTheyMeasureTheSameWayEachTimeItGivesTheInformationThatTheyNeed
#WellLastTimeSomeoneElseMeasuredMeSoTheBabyHasSuddenlyJumpedFromTheFiftyPercentileToSeventyIsh
#MaybeTheyDidHaveAGrowthSpurtButItSeemsLikeABitTooMuchAndItObviouslyIsNotSuperAccurateButTheMainThingIsTheBabyHasGrown
#ISaidThatIHadBeenInALotOfPainWithTheBabysMovements
#TheMidwifeSaidThatIDoNotHaveALotSeparatingTheBabyFromMySkinSoItWillBeUncomfortableAtTimes
#IHaveMyNextAppointmentAt34WeeksWhichWillBeWithADifferentMidwifeAndThenTheOnesAfterThatWillBeEvery2Weeks
#BsNurseryCalledDuringHerLastSessionAsSheHadABumpOnHerHeadButTheyDidNotSeeHerDoItAndSheHadNotCried
#TheyWatchedTheCCTVAndSaidSheMustHaveDoneItWhilePlayingWithAToyAroundSomeChairs
#ISaidItWasProbablyAnOldBumpThatTheyHadNotNoticedAndWeWouldBePickingHerUpInHalfAnHourAnyways
#WeWentToGetHerAndItWasAnOldBumpThatLookedLikeItHadBeenKnockedABitButItSoonWentDownAndSheWasFine
#BIsStillCryingWhenWePutHerDownForANapOrBedAndINoLongerEvenTryToLetHerCrawlInByHerselfAsSheCrawlsInHalfwayThenStops
#SoWeHaveZippedItUpAndTurnedItRoundAsTheRipInItIsGettingBiggerAndINeedToFixIt
#ABassinetZipsIntoHerCotSoTheBabyCanHaveHerCotOnceTheyAreBornAsTheBabyWillBeMoreSnugAndBCanHaveADifferentOne
#IJustHadToGoAndWatchBWhileTSortedSomethingOutAndBWasHoldingHerHandsBehindHerBackAgain
#SheDoesNotSeemToLikeScrambledEggsWhenIGiveHerSomeAtMealsButSheIsMoreThanHappyToStealSomeAndTheCrustsFromMyBreakfast

#BHasBeenStandingAndWalkingAroundWithHerHandsBehindHerBackForAWhile

I don’t know why I enjoy seeing her do it so much, but I do.

#SometimesSheJustHasThemFlatAgainstHerOrSometimesShePlaysWithAFinger

I took a video of her for reference for the shoot and she plays with a finger for a bit and then has them flat again.

#SheLooksVeryConfidentThoughAndWeAlwaysCommentOnItWhenSheDoesIt

She looks very powerful. I don’t know where she has picked it up from, but it’s probably another case of her just discovering she can do it…

I imagine the shoot will look a bit like My Baby Is A Brick Wall (14th July 2020).

#YesterdaySheDiscoveredThatIfSheStandsInFrontOfMeNextToMyLegsICanNotSeeHerBecauseOfMyBump

My Mum was saying that my bump seems to be sticking out the front more this time, but then again she never saw me heavily pregnant in real life last time because of Covid. I guess she’s seen the photos though and saw me on WhatsApp.

#SoWePlayedPeekabooForABitWhichWasFunnyAndIHopeSheDoesNotForgetAboutIt

I want to play peekaboo again.

#SheSometimesPointsToMyBumpButIDoNotThinkSheReallyUnderstandsWhatIsHappeningInThere

She knows something is up as I talk to her about it.

#IWantHerToSeeItReallyMoveAsIWantToSeeHerReaction

Baby X does really move about in there now, and my bump is pushed into some weird shapes.

#IHurtMyFingerTheOtherDayPuttingMySocksOnAsItIsDifficultToNavigateAroundMyBump

I was saying to Tiago things are only going to get ‘worse’ now until the baby is born.

#IHadA31WeeksAppointmentWhichWasOptionalAsItIsNotReallyNecessaryAfterYourFirstChild #TheyOfferedMeOneSoIThoughtIMightAsWellGoAnywaysAsItIsAlwaysGoodToGetSomeReassurance

I could walk to my appointment and yeah why not? They offered it to me.

#TheyAlwaysTestMyUrineNowSoIBoughtSomeTubesToTakeASampleWithMe

I bought them ages ago. It means touching less Covid surfaces and having one less thing to worry about once I get there.

#IStruggledToFillOneAsWithMyBumpIReallyCouldNotSeeWhereIWasPissing

Hello, piss on my hand. They need a funnel for the pregnant folk.

#IHadADifferentMidwifeAsMyOriginalOneIsNowWorkingFromHomeAsSheIsOnlyABitNotMorePregnantThanMe

Working from home because of Covid and all. I like her – shame I will probably never see her again. You never know though, we could be ward buddies.

#ThereWasAlsoAStudentMidwifeWhichIWasNotBotheredAboutAsTheyHaveToLearnSomehowAndThereIsAShortageOfMidwivesInThisCountry

They kept asking if it was okay if she was there. I had at least one student midwife at B’s birth, and it was mainly students who were looking after me and B during our hospital stay. She apologised in case I felt uncomfortable during her checks, but I said at least she wasn’t kicking me in the ribs.

#TheyBothMeasuredMeAndTheStudentSaidTheBabyWas1CentimetreBiggerThanAt28WeeksButTheMidwifeSaidSheIs3CentimetresBigger

I initally wrote ‘they are’ instead of ‘she is’, as I am still skeptical…

The midwife measured first, but didn’t tell the student what she had got until after the student had had a go. The test aspect made the appointment more interesting.

#TheMidwifeSaidToHerNotToWorryAsTheyAllHaveTheirOwnWayOfMeasuringSoAsLongAsTheyMeasureTheSameWayEachTimeItGivesTheInformationThatTheyNeed

They just want to see that the baby is growing.

#WellLastTimeSomeoneElseMeasuredMeSoTheBabyHasSuddenlyJumpedFromTheFiftyPercentileToSeventyIsh

Hmm.

#MaybeTheyDidHaveAGrowthSpurtButItSeemsLikeABitTooMuchAndItObviouslyIsNotSuperAccurateButTheMainThingIsTheBabyHasGrown

That’s what we want to see. Next time it will be with someone else, so we will see what they get.

#ISaidThatIHadBeenInALotOfPainWithTheBabysMovements

Though it has not been so bad the last few days. I have been using my body oil more as probably helps my skin not hurt so much.

#TheMidwifeSaidThatIDoNotHaveALotSeparatingTheBabyFromMySkinSoItWillBeUncomfortableAtTimes

Makes sense.

#IHaveMyNextAppointmentAt34WeeksWhichWillBeWithADifferentMidwifeAndThenTheOnesAfterThatWillBeEvery2Weeks

Time is flying by. The last appointment did not feel like 3 weeks ago.

#BsNurseryCalledDuringHerLastSessionAsSheHadABumpOnHerHeadButTheyDidNotSeeHerDoItAndSheHadNotCried #TheyWatchedTheCCTVAndSaidSheMustHaveDoneItWhilePlayingWithAToyAroundSomeChairs

I thought they might have been calling to say she’d been sick, as if she is too active after eating and seems to be a bit sick after meals (mainly breakfast) at the moment.

#ISaidItWasProbablyAnOldBumpThatTheyHadNotNoticedAndWeWouldBePickingHerUpInHalfAnHourAnyways

She keeps knocking the same bit of her head on different things. It’s good they called – and I guess they have to cover their backs.

#WeWentToGetHerAndItWasAnOldBumpThatLookedLikeItHadBeenKnockedABitButItSoonWentDownAndSheWasFine

It probably didn’t need much to upset it again. They said they’d put a cold compress on it. She seemed fine and after her nap it had already gone down a lot.

#BIsStillCryingWhenWePutHerDownForANapOrBedAndINoLongerEvenTryToLetHerCrawlInByHerselfAsSheCrawlsInHalfwayThenStops

If I put her to bed she soon stops crying, but if Tiago does then she seems to cry for a lot longer. She knows I’m the strict one…

#SoWeHaveZippedItUpAndTurnedItRoundAsTheRipInItIsGettingBiggerAndINeedToFixIt

Trying to figure out the best way to do it. She normally sleeps at the edge closest to the door, which was the zipped bit. Hopefully she won’t mess with it more now that we’ve turned it round.

#ABassinetZipsIntoHerCotSoTheBabyCanHaveHerCotOnceTheyAreBornAsTheBabyWillBeMoreSnugAndBCanHaveADifferentOne

I don’t want to have to bend down super far to put the baby down. They will be nice and snug in the bassinet – B liked it.

#IJustHadToGoAndWatchBWhileTSortedSomethingOutAndBWasHoldingHerHandsBehindHerBackAgain

After T came back she was playing with a comb and I said ‘do you want to comb Daddy’s hair?’ and she had fun.

#SheDoesNotSeemToLikeScrambledEggsWhenIGiveHerSomeAtMealsButSheIsMoreThanHappyToStealSomeAndTheCrustsFromMyBreakfast

Nan wasn’t up yet, but normally she steals most of Nan’s breakfast, even though she’s usually eaten an hour before…

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31 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait standing on one leg, while holding my left foot and looking away from the camera with my right hand touching my chin. I am nude with small white squares hiding my nipples and pubic area.
It Is Kind Of Weird To Refer To Tiago As Daddy And For Me To Be Called Mummy (31 and a half weeks)
 
#IJustFeelTiredToday
#AtTheWeekendWeHadOurNCTCourse
#NCTMeaningNationalChildbirthTrust
#WeDidItVirtuallyOverZoomAsWeWereUnableToMeetInPersonDueToCovid
#ItWasGoodAndWeLearnedALot
#SomeOfItWasGoingOverWhatWeHadLearnedOnOurHypnobirthingCourse
#ButIFeelLikeIUnderstandThingsMoreAfterHavingSeenDiagramsAndThingsBeingExplainedAgainBySomeoneElse
#WeDidTheCourseBecauseWeWantedToLearnButAlsoBecauseWeWantedToMeetOtherPeople
#EveryoneSeemsNiceAndWeHaveAChatGroupAndWillHopefullyHaveMoreOnlineMeetings
#ButIThinkThingsWouldBeABitDifferentIfWeHadMetInPerson
#HopefullyWeWillGetToOneDay
#SoIThinkHavingTwoDaysOfListeningWhilstOnWebcamHasTiredMeOut
#AsComparedToOtherLockdownWeekendsItWasPrettyIntense
#ThisWeekendThereIsASmallSessionAboutBreastfeeding
#WeWatchedAnotherEpisodeOfBabiesTheOtherDayAndItWasAboutFeeding
#ApparentlyNoBreastMilkIsTheSame
#AndItWillDifferForIfYouHaveABoyOrAGirl
#ThoughIWonderWhatHappensIfYouHadTwinsWhereOneWasABoyAndOneWasAGirl
#ItWasInterestingAnyways
#IFeelLikeBabysKicksAreGettingStronger
#IThinkItWasLastNightWhereICouldJustSeeItMovingAllAbout
#WeAreReallyGettingIntoNestingModeNow
#ReorganisingTheFlatAndPreferringThingsToBeALotTidier
#WeHaveBoughtMostOfTheThingsThatWeNeedNow
#JustAFewSmallBitsAndPiecesLeftToGet
#IKeepTalkingToTheBabyAboutWhatTiagoIsDoingButISayWhatDaddyIsDoing
#ItIsKindOfWeirdToCallHimDaddyAndForMeToBeCalledMummy
#ThoughIThinkHeWouldPreferToBeCalledDadInPortugueseSoIReferToHimAsPaiSometimes
#ThoughPapaiIsDaddy
#SoMaybeIShouldStartReferringToHimAsThat

Well, we are quite used to being called Mummy and Daddy now… We did used to refer to Tiago as Pai, but we seem to do that less these days.

We debated doing an NCT course this time, but it seems like an expensive way to make friends (which is what we thought last time). Especially as we not planning on sticking around the area for more than a year now, so it would be another potential group of friends that we would be moving away from.

We weren’t expecting to move away from Liverpool anytime soon when we did the course, but we did. I had a zoom call with a few of them the other week, so that’s nice at least.

I’m still yet to open my hypnobirthing book, but I’ve got 5% left of the Sinead O’Connor book that I’m reading and then I will.

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Pregnancy Waiting II

30 Weeks Feels Like A Big Milestone (30 Weeks / 24th November 2021)

Self-portrait where I am nude from my knees up. My left arm is covering my breasts, and my right hand is covering my pubic area. My bump is very visible.
30 Weeks Feels Like A Big Milestone (30 Weeks / 24th November 2021)
 
#WellIGuess30WeeksIsABigMilestoneAsTheDueDateIsCalculatedFor40Weeks
#SoThatMeansThePregnancyCouldBeThreeQuartersCompleteThoughYouAreAllowedUntil42WeeksIsh
#BWasBornLessThan8WeeksFromThisPointThoughSoWhoKnows
#IHaveToldMyParentsToBeOnAlertFrom37WeeksAndIWillStartGoingToBedEarlierAroundThen
#IWentToBedQuiteLateTheNightBeforeBWasBornAndWokeUpOnlyACoupleOfHoursLaterWithMyWatersBreaking
#ItIsEasyToSayIWillGoToBedEarlierButIDoNotAlwaysManageItAndTheOtherNightIDidButThenWasAwakeFromTwoToFour
#BHadWokenUpAroundTwoButSoonWentBackToSleepButICouldNotThoughLuckilySheSleptUntilSeven
#BAndMyParentsHadAGoodTimeAtTheWeekendWhichIsGoodAsTheyWillWatchHerWhileIAmInHospital
#SheWokeUpAtSixForThemWhichIWasRelievedAboutAsIWasWorriedSheWouldWakeUpAtFive
#WeDroppedHerOffAndWentForLunchThenCheckedIntoTheHotelWhereWeStayedUntilJustBeforeTheCheckoutTime
#WeHadANapAndWatchedTVAndIHadABathThoughIWouldHaveLikedToHaveReadAndSleptMoreButIGuessIWasExcitedAboutStayingUpLate
#AfterWeCheckedOutWeWentToHaveLunchAndDidFoodShoppingThenWentToPickUpB
#MyMumGotHerUpFromHerNapAndAtFirstSheWasJustClingingToMyMumButEventuallySheCameToSeeUs
#SheAteALotOfKidCrispsBeforeWeLeftAndFiveMinutesBeforeWeGotHomeSheWasSick
#AndIHaveNeverSeenSoMuchSickComeOutOfASmallHumansMouthBefore
#SheWentStraightIntoTheBathWhenWeGotHomeWhichSheWasHappyAboutAsSheLovesBathsAnyways
#WeTriedToGetAwayWithJustWipingTheCarSeatDownButYesterdayIHadToSolveTheCarSeatPuzzleAndPutAllThePiecesInTheWash
#IWasWorriedIWouldNotBeAbleToReassembleItButLuckilyIDid
#AfterTenMinutesOfBeingHomeItAlreadyFeltLikeWeHadNotHadAWeekendToOurselves
#WeDidMissBThoughAndAtOnePointWeWereWatchingVideosAndLookingAtPhotosOfHer
#IJustFeelSoTiredButBabyXIsSupposedToDoubleInSizeBetweenNowAndBirthSoIGuessIWillProbablyFeelMoreTired
#IFeelGuiltyAtTimesAsIDoNotHaveMuchEnergyAndIFeelLikeILetBDownABit
#IAmWorriedThatSheWatchesTooMuchTVAndSoITryToPutMusicOnInstead
#SheIsReallyIntoAFewShowsNowButIAmTryingToMakeSureWeReadBooksAndPlay
#IAmGladSheGoesToNurseryACoupleOfSessionsAWeekAsAtLeastIKnowSheIsGettingSomeStimulation
#IDoNotFeelReadyToBeAMotherOfTwoButAtTheSameTimeIJustWantTheBabyToArriveSoWeCanGetOnWithTheNextChapter
#IGuessWeAreOnACountdownNowThoughItIsABitFrustratingNotKnowingWhenTheClockWillRunOut
#BabyXFeelsQuiteActiveAndIAmStartingToGetMoreAcheyNowWithSlightBackPainAndHipPainEvenWithStretchingALot
#IHaveNotDoneAnyNudeShootsThisPregnancySoIGuessIWillDoOneToAccompanyTheseHashtagsAsAMemoryForMyself
#WeAreClosingTheKidBookAtTwoSoMyBodyWillNeverLookLikeThisAgainAfterBabyXIsBorn

#WellIGuess30WeeksIsABigMilestoneAsTheDueDateIsCalculatedFor40Weeks #SoThatMeansThePregnancyCouldBeThreeQuartersCompleteThoughYouAreAllowedUntil42WeeksIsh

I wasn’t sure on what word to use. Complete makes it sound like a video game or something, but I guess that’s what it is.

#BWasBornLessThan8WeeksFromThisPointThoughSoWhoKnows

I was sure that I’d be a 42-weeker, but no. Maybe this time? I hope not though.

#IHaveToldMyParentsToBeOnAlertFrom37WeeksAndIWillStartGoingToBedEarlierAroundThen

Baby X will probably come at 36 weeks now just to surprise me.

#IWentToBedQuiteLateTheNightBeforeBWasBornAndWokeUpOnlyACoupleOfHoursLaterWithMyWatersBreaking

I got through it as I wasn’t tired from running around after a toddler (I nearly wrote teenager?), but I think this time I will be too tired for the same series of events, but I guess adrenaline and whatever kicks in?

#ItIsEasyToSayIWillGoToBedEarlierButIDoNotAlwaysManageItAndTheOtherNightIDidButThenWasAwakeFromTwoToFour

Hello again pregnancy insomnia.

#BHadWokenUpAroundTwoButSoonWentBackToSleepButICouldNotThoughLuckilySheSleptUntilSeven

I was faffing around reading the news and stuff, but I think that just makes my brain more alert. I started to read my book and before long I felt sleepy again. I usually read a book every night until my eyes start to close, or I have to tell myself to go to sleep.

I am currently reading Men Who Hate Women by Laura Bates. It’s interesting, but sad/frustrating/a bit of a downer. I swear I’ll pick up my hypnobirthing book soon…

#BAndMyParentsHadAGoodTimeAtTheWeekendWhichIsGoodAsTheyWillWatchHerWhileIAmInHospital

Well, that’s the plan anyways. Let’s see. I don’t want to be calling them at 1 in the morning…

#SheWokeUpAtSixForThemWhichIWasRelievedAboutAsIWasWorriedSheWouldWakeUpAtFive

Phew.

#WeDroppedHerOffAndWentForLunchThenCheckedIntoTheHotelWhereWeStayedUntilJustBeforeTheCheckoutTime

We went for lunch at our favourite Indian restaurant and it did not disappoint. I have missed their chili paneer. Whenever we order Indian food I always get chili paneer and it is never as good.

We bought snacks at a supermarket before we got to the hotel and we barely touched them as we were so full from lunch.

#WeHadANapAndWatchedTVAndIHadABathThoughIWouldHaveLikedToHaveReadAndSleptMoreButIGuessIWasExcitedAboutStayingUpLate

I did also play The Sims. I do play it once in a while as it’s good when I’m feeling quite stressed/tired. I have phases of playing it once or twice a year. I remember seeing an ad for the first one on the back of a different game I bought and saved up for it until it came out. We have a long history together…

Anyways, I ended up staying up until midnight watching reruns of Gogglebox and then slept until 7. Was a bit disappointed as I did want to sleep until checkout, but I’m not used to sleeping in anymore.

#AfterWeCheckedOutWeWentToHaveLunchAndDidFoodShoppingThenWentToPickUpB

We shared a pizza between us as we were quite full. Exciting stuff.

#MyMumGotHerUpFromHerNapAndAtFirstSheWasJustClingingToMyMumButEventuallySheCameToSeeUs

She was nuzzling into my Mum and then would sneak a peek at us with a smile, then she came over. We knew she was just waking up and wasn’t in a mood with us or anything. My parents said the weekend went better than they thought so that’s nice.

#SheAteALotOfKidCrispsBeforeWeLeftAndFiveMinutesBeforeWeGotHomeSheWasSick

I’d got her some new crisps to try. I usually just give her a few, but as we weren’t at home I thought she could just eat them from the bag, but that was obviously a mistake.

#AndIHaveNeverSeenSoMuchSickComeOutOfASmallHumansMouthBefore

Luckily my morning sickness had passed, otherwise I probably would have been sick too.

#SheWentStraightIntoTheBathWhenWeGotHomeWhichSheWasHappyAboutAsSheLovesBathsAnyways

So she got a longer play than she might do normally. We were going to give her a bath before bed anyways, so it saved us doing it later.

#WeTriedToGetAwayWithJustWipingTheCarSeatDownButYesterdayIHadToSolveTheCarSeatPuzzleAndPutAllThePiecesInTheWash

It took me a good while to take all the pieces out. Tiago said the seat didn’t smell, but the night before we had gone to the supermarket and the car stank of sick.

#IWasWorriedIWouldNotBeAbleToReassembleItButLuckilyIDid

I should have taken pictures of it being dismantled really. I was proud of myself for sorting it out.

#AfterTenMinutesOfBeingHomeItAlreadyFeltLikeWeHadNotHadAWeekendToOurselves

I guess I didn’t have a nap as well (I usually nap when B naps) so that made me feel really tired too.

#WeDidMissBThoughAndAtOnePointWeWereWatchingVideosAndLookingAtPhotosOfHer

We do that a lot. We did it last night too… She’s funny.

#IJustFeelSoTiredButBabyXIsSupposedToDoubleInSizeBetweenNowAndBirthSoIGuessIWillProbablyFeelMoreTired

Apparently I only need to eat 200 more calories a day than before I was pregnant, but I have no idea what 200 calories is and the baby takes most of the nutrients out of what I eat and I get the leftovers. Charming.

#IFeelGuiltyAtTimesAsIDoNotHaveMuchEnergyAndIFeelLikeILetBDownABit

Oh, Mum guilt.

#IAmWorriedThatSheWatchesTooMuchTVAndSoITryToPutMusicOnInstead

If my Nan is up when we get up then we usually watch more. Luckily after a while B gets bored of watching the TV. I do try to take her out for a walk or two a day, but we need to find more things to do really.

#SheIsReallyIntoAFewShowsNowButIAmTryingToMakeSureWeReadBooksAndPlay

She likes to dance to theme tunes and she really likes In The Night Garden. This morning she was saying ‘Gaga’ and pointing at the TV.

#IAmGladSheGoesToNurseryACoupleOfSessionsAWeekAsAtLeastIKnowSheIsGettingSomeStimulation

It’s good for her. Tiago says she doesn’t cry or anything when he drops her off now. She’s settled in quick, but I said why would she want to spend all day with her boring, tired pregnant mother when she can see kids her own age and play with different toys etc.

#IDoNotFeelReadyToBeAMotherOfTwoButAtTheSameTimeIJustWantTheBabyToArriveSoWeCanGetOnWithTheNextChapter

I just keep wondering how it will be, but I just want to get on with it. I am feeling tired though, so I am nervous and should probably enjoy the few hours to myself that I get while B is at nursery and I have no mothering responsibilities while I can.

#IGuessWeAreOnACountdownNowThoughItIsABitFrustratingNotKnowingWhenTheClockWillRunOut

That is what makes me nervous. I just need to get prepared…

#BabyXFeelsQuiteActiveAndIAmStartingToGetMoreAcheyNowWithSlightBackPainAndHipPainEvenWithStretchingALot

I can feel the pain in bed a bit now. I guess baby is getting bigger and my body is trying to keep up. I have a lot of cramps and pains. All fun stuff.

#IHaveNotDoneAnyNudeShootsThisPregnancySoIGuessIWillDoOneToAccompanyTheseHashtagsAsAMemoryForMyself

I did a few when I was pregnant with B. I think I’ve said before that baby X will say ‘Mum, why did you take no nudes with me?’ In reality I’m sure they will both say ‘Mum, why did you take nudes when you were pregnant with us?’ I do wonder what they will think about my work when they’re older. They’ll probably just say ‘Mum, you look so old now’.

#WeAreClosingTheKidBookAtTwoSoMyBodyWillNeverLookLikeThisAgainAfterBabyXIsBorn

I say that, but so many people have told me that their third was an accident. I really don’t want to go through pregnancy again though. The sickness, the tiredness etc. Two seems like a good number. I have two arms. One to grab each kid with. One to replace Tiago, one to replace me. I think I will be stretching myself too much as a mother to more.

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30 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait sitting on a sofa, holding my arms up over my head. T is resting his hand on my bump.
We Could Be Parents In 3 Months Or Less (30 weeks)
 
#ISayCouldBecauseIKnowItIsNot100PercentDefinite
#ThoughObviouslyIHopeItHappens
#YouWouldHaveThoughtByNowThatIWouldHaveComeToTermsWithTheFactWeHaveABabyComing
#ButItStillFeelsSurreal
#ThatIAmGrowingSomethingInsideMeThatLooksLikeAMixOfMeAndTiago
#ItReallyIsBizarre
#MyBumpGetsBiggerEveryWeek
#AndTheKicksGotStronger
#ItFeelsMoreActiveInTheEvening
#WhoWouldHaveThoughtThatIWouldBeHeavilyPregnantDuringAPandemic
#ItIsAlsoOddThatIWillNotSeeMyPregnantFriendsPregnantInRealLife
#WeAreOrderingMoreStuffNowAsIDoubtTheShopsWillReopenBeforeIGiveBirth
#AndIfTheyDoThenTheLastPlaceIWantToBeIsSomewhereWithLotsOfRandomPeople
#SomeHatsAndSocksCameInThePostYesterday
#TheyWereSmallerThanIThoughtTheyWouldBe
#ISaidToTiagoThatItIsWeirdThatTheBabyWillBeSoSmall
#HeSaidHeHopesForABigBaby
#ISaidDoNotWishTooMuchAsYouAreNotTheOneWhoHasToPushItOut
#HeSaidTrue
#IPlannedToDoSomethingDifferentWithTheShootToday
#ButTiagoWasFinishingSomethingOnHisComputer
#AndIHadSetUpMyStuff
#SoIJustAskedHimToPutHisHandOnMyBelly
#AndThenIJustMessedAboutWaitingForHim
#ByTheTimeHeWasDoneISaidWeCanTryTheIdeaAnotherTimeAsIThinkIHaveAPicture
#IAskedTiagoIfHeWantedToAddToTheHashtags
#HeShookHisHeadAndSaidHeLooksForwardToTheBabyComing
#HeWantsToKnowTheGenderOfTheBabyBeforeTheBirthButIDoNot
#IRealisedTheOtherDayThatIfIHaveScansHeWillNotBeAllowedInTheRoomOrEvenTheBuilding
#IDoNotSeeThePointOfFindingOutNowAsIWantToBeSurprised

Well, it seems like I felt similar at 30 weeks last time. I am still anxious that I might not become a mother of two, but I am trying to remain calm.

#WhoWouldHaveThoughtThatIWouldBeHeavilyPregnantDuringAPandemic

Who would have thought that I would be this pregnant again during the same pandemic?

#ItIsAlsoOddThatIWillNotSeeMyPregnantFriendsPregnantInRealLife

I had a zoom call with a few of our Liverpool friends the other night who were pregnant at the same time. They said to show them my bump and we talked about how it was weird that we never saw each other pregnant in real life last time. Sadly, they might not see me pregnant in real life this time as well just as I doubt we will get to see them before X is born.

#HeSaidHeHopesForABigBaby

I had forgotten that he said this. B was small. X is meant to be bigger…

#HeWantsToKnowTheGenderOfTheBabyBeforeTheBirthButIDoNot

Well, in the end we didn’t find out and like I’ve said before I’m skeptical that X is a girl. I know that people get it wrong so I’m holding my breath.

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Self-portrait with Tiago from our necks to our waists. We are wearing the same top and T is facing the camera, whereas I am stood side on to the camera with my bump touching T's arm.
Who Knows How Things Will Be By The Time I Give Birth (30 weeks)
 
#IKeepTellingMyselfThatIShouldRestMore
#ButIWokeUpTodayFeelingLikeIWantedToDoAShoot
#ThisWasNotTheIdeaIHadYesterdayThatIDidNotEndUpDoing
#IRealiseThatAFewOfTheLastPicturesAllHaveAHandOrHandsOnMyBump
#IWasLookingAtThePictureOfMeAndTiagoWhenIWas19WeeksPregnantAndYouCanBarelySeeMyBump
#SoIThoughtItWouldBeNiceToRedoItWithMyBumpMoreObvious
#WeKindOfLookLikeWeirdMannequins
#WeOrderedOurPushchairAndCotToday
#ItHasBeenStressingMeOutForACoupleOfWeeksDecidingOnWhichOnesToBuy
#SoWeJustTookThePlungeTodayAsWhatIsTheWorstThatCanHappen
#ItIsSoWeirdMakingWhatFeelsLikeBigPurchasesWithoutHavingSeenThemInRealLifeOrHavingTriedThemOutFirst
#ApparentlyIfTheBabyCameNowItWouldHaveAGoodChanceOfSurviving
#SoItMadeSenseToOrderThem
#JustNeedToBuySomeSmallerThingsNowLikeMattressProtectorsAndNappies
#IAmLookingForwardToHavingItAllSorted
#ItIsNiceThatTiagoIsInTheProjectABitMoreNow
#ItIsGoingToBeWeirdWhenWeAreNotAtHomeTogetherSoMuch
#IThinkOnceTheBabyHisBornHisWorkNoLongerConsidersMeToBeVulnerable
#SoHeWillNeedToLeaveTheHouseForWorkAgain
#ButSurelyANewbornIsVulnerable
#IDoNotKnow
#WhoKnowsHowThingsWillBeByTheTimeIGiveBirth
#ItFeelsWeirdBuyingAPushchairKnowingThatItWillProbablyBeUsedForJustMyUsualSimpleWalkForALongTime
#AndMaybeIWillPreferToJustHaveTheBabyInACarrierForAWhileToAvoidAwkwardPavementEncounters
#IGuessItIsGoodToCoverAllTheOptionsAsThePushchairWillBeUsedAtSomePoint
#IHadALieDownThisAfternoonAndIThinkTheBabyWasUsingMyBladderAsATrampoline
#IThoughtIWasGoingToWetMyself
#WentOutForOurUsualWalkEarlier
#AGuyStuckHisHeadOutOfTheWindowOfAVanThatDroveFromBehindUsAndLetOutABloodCurdlingScreamAndIJumped
#HeHadHisHeadOutOfTheWindowSoIHopedHeNoticedIWasPregnantAndThenFeldBadButIAmSureHeWasJustHappyThatHeHadShowedOffInFrontOfWhoeverWasDriving

I keep telling myself that the baby will not come until at least the time B did, but in the back of my head I know the baby could come at anytime.

This time I have already bought nappies, but we need to think about cot options. We might just use the one that my parents have at their house (for B’s stays etc.)

Tiago has been in the project less this time, though hopefully this weekend we will do a family shoot.

This time things are meant to be a bit ‘better’ with visiting at hospitals, but I’m not going to keep looking at it as I know things can and probably will change before X is born. Better not to get my hopes up, but hopefully this time we will be home quicker.

I didn’t like using the pushchair for a while as I felt so self-conscious using it. It can adapt to have two kids in/on it, but we’ll see how it goes. I need to have a go at putting the bassinet and a seat on it.

I do worry about being far away from a toilet when we are out at times as I do feel like my bladder is smaller, but I think the kegels definitely help.

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Imitating Hiding Like B Behind A Muslin Cloth (12 Weeks? / 21st July 2021)

Self-portrait sat in front of a cupboard with a muslin cloth over my head. My arms and hands are up and I am touching the material.
Imitating B Hiding Behind A Muslin Cloth (12 Weeks? / 21st July 2021)

#BLearnedToHideAWhileAgo
#ICanNotReallyRememberWhenAsOurTimeInBirminghamIsJustOneBigBlobInMyMemory
#AndItIsEvenHardToRememberLifeBeforeBWasWalkingAroundAndThatWasNotThatLongAgo
#SheStillFallsOverABitButTheChorusOfTubthumpingComesToMindOftenWhenAsGetsBackUpQuickly
#ObviouslyTheVersesWithAllTheReferencesToDrinkingAreNotFittingButSometimesSheDoesWalkLikeSheHasHadAFewDrinks
#InOtherNewsDrinkingMoreElectrolytesSeemsToBeHelpingAndIHadNotBeenSickInAFewDaysUntilISniffedABagOfSaladToCheckIfItWasOkayToEat
#EvidentlyItWasNotOkayAndTheSlightlyRottenSmellMadeMeBarf
#IStillSeemToDryHeaveAtLeastOnceADayButItIsOkay
#ItIsGenerallyInTheMorningWhenIFirstGetUpAndBeforeIGoToBed
#IHaveToBeCarefulWhenIBrushMyTeethAndIAlsoHaveToTryHardToNotThinkAboutSickWhileBrushingThem
#IFeelLikeIAmGettingSomeEnergyBackWhichIsGood
#TheOtherDayIHadAMassiveCryForTheFirstTimeInAges
#IWasJustSoPissedOffAndStressedOutByFreedomDay
#IFeelLikeEveryDayIsAlreadyTheSameAsWeDoNotGoAnywhereSoNowIWillNeedToBeMoreCareful
#AndItHasBeenTooHotToGoOutForRegularWalksSoWeGenerallyJustGoOutInTheMorning
#BsNewFavouriteThingToDoIsDrinkFromMyCupOfWaterAndThenStickHerHandInItAndSplashAbout
#IHaveFinallyGotRoundToSortingOutLifeInsuranceAsYouNeverKnowWithTheseWeirdTimes
#BAndTheUnbornWouldGetALumpSumIfIWereToDieAndTiagoOrWhoeverLooksAfterThemWouldGetAMonthlyPaymentToGoTowardsTheirCosts
#WeOnlyHaveOneBabyClassOnAtTheMomentDueToTheSummer
#IWasSoRelievedThatEveryoneWasWearingAMask
#TheTeacherGreetedUsAtTheDoorWearingAMaskAndSheCommentedOnTheHeatAndHowPaleIAm
#IBasicallyJustWalkFromOneAreaOfShadeToAnotherAsQuickAsPossibleTheseDays
#SoIThoughtIWouldMentionThatIWasPregnantInCaseItAffectedAnyOfHerDecisions
#AtTheEndSheThankedUsAllForWearingAMaskAndProtectingEachOther
#IWasReadingTheOtherDayThatThereIsNoPointMeWearingAMaskIfNoOneElseIs
#SoIJustLookedLikeTheWeirdOneAtAnotherClassForNoReasonButAtLeastItMadeMeFeelABitBetter
#BHasAFourthToothComingThroughAndItLooksLikeOtherMightSoonBeFollowing
#ItIsAtTheTopButItLooksLikeAnotherTopOneIsHavingAGoAsWellAsSomeMolars
#ITookBOutForAWalkYesterdayAndADogCameUpToBInHerPushchair
#TheGuySaidThatSheIsElevenButWhenSheWasAPuppySheWentUpToAPushchairAndAteAKidsCrispsAndSinceThenSheSeemsToCheckAllPushchairsForCrisps  

(29th September: Just realised I named this image hiding behind, but maybe it should be more under? Oh well.)

#BLearnedToHideAWhileAgo

I am sure that I have talked about it for months.

#ICanNotReallyRememberWhenAsOurTimeInBirminghamIsJustOneBigBlobInMyMemory

Time passes very weirdly. A day feels like a week.

#AndItIsEvenHardToRememberLifeBeforeBWasWalkingAroundAndThatWasNotThatLongAgo

It seems like she has always been on her feet.

#SheStillFallsOverABitButTheChorusOfTubthumpingComesToMindOftenAsSheGetsBackUpQuickly

You know the one…

#ObviouslyTheVersesWithAllTheReferencesToDrinkingAreNotFittingButSometimesSheDoesWalkLikeSheHasHadAFewDrinks

I can’t remember the last time I had a drink…

#InOtherNewsDrinkingMoreElectrolytesSeemsToBeHelpingAndIHadNotBeenSickInAFewDaysUntilISniffedABagOfSaladToCheckIfItWasOkayToEat

Either it’s easing by itself or it’s the electrolytes. I think the electrolytes are having a big impact.

#EvidentlyItWasNotOkayAndTheSlightlyRottenSmellMadeMeBarf

It was the day that it was due to be opened by and it had not been opened yet. I opened it as the bag we were supposed to eat with dinner did not look appetising either (it came in one of those recipe boxes but they sent the wrong salad, and it looked a bit rotten too). In the end we picked some salad from the garden…

#IStillSeemToDryHeaveAtLeastOnceADayButItIsOkay

It is a bit annoying, but I’d rather dry heave than be sick.

#ItIsGenerallyInTheMorningWhenIFirstGetUpAndBeforeIGoToBed

In the morning I haven’t drank/ate much yet. In the evening I don’t like to eat too late, and I feel like I’ve had my sugar consumption for the day by then.

#IHaveToBeCarefulWhenIBrushMyTeethAndIAlsoHaveToTryHardToNotThinkAboutSickWhileBrushingThem

I’ll often brush my teeth and worry about being sick, which really doesn’t help…

#IFeelLikeIAmGettingSomeEnergyBackWhichIsGood

I wrote this at 6am. It’s now 9am and B has gone down for a nap and I will follow after I write this. Zzz. I also didn’t take B for a walk this morning as I felt so tired, but in ways I feel like I have a bit more energy at times.

#TheOtherDayIHadAMassiveCryForTheFirstTimeInAges

It did me a lot of good. I’ve felt better since then.

#IWasJustSoPissedOffAndStressedOutByFreedomDay

I’m fuming. I can’t even be bothered to rant anymore about it.

#IFeelLikeEveryDayIsAlreadyTheSameAsWeDoNotGoAnywhereSoNowIWillNeedToBeMoreCareful

The frustration is real. I’m going stir crazy enough as it is.

#AndItHasBeenTooHotToGoOutForRegularWalksSoWeGenerallyJustGoOutInTheMorning

Which I didn’t do today… So we’ll have to see if I can stomach a bit of heat later. I try to go for a walk at least once a day.

#BsNewFavouriteThingToDoIsDrinkFromMyCupOfWaterAndThenStickHerHandInItAndSplashAbout

Great. I’m like ‘aww look at her wanting to drink from a glass’ and then it’s just ‘splashhhh’. We do get a tub out for her and let her splash about a bit, and she’s been having baths more regularly due to the heat. She seems to enjoy it.

#IHaveFinallyGotRoundToSortingOutLifeInsuranceAsYouNeverKnowWithTheseWeirdTimes #BAndTheUnbornWouldGetALumpSumIfIWereToDieAndTiagoOrWhoeverLooksAfterThemWouldGetAMonthlyPaymentToGoTowardsTheirCosts

I kept getting adverts, and I don’t want to be morbid but you never know what is round the corner. There’s Covid, birthing complications, freak accidents, life… Thought I’d mention it in case this motivates anyone else to sort theirs out.

#WeOnlyHaveOneBabyClassOnAtTheMomentDueToTheSummer

And the last class (where B will graduate) is next week. It’s the end of an era!

#IWasSoRelievedThatEveryoneWasWearingAMask

Phew. I was worried…

#TheTeacherGreetedUsAtTheDoorWearingAMaskAndSheCommentedOnTheHeatAndHowPaleIAm

The teacher at our other class always worse a visor when we said we didn’t need to wear masks, but I feel like her standing there with her mask was a signal to say wear a mask please.

Yeah, have I mentioned it’s hot?

#IBasicallyJustWalkFromOneAreaOfShadeToAnotherAsQuickAsPossibleTheseDays

And that’s an effort.

#SoIThoughtIWouldMentionThatIWasPregnantInCaseItAffectedAnyOfHerDecisions

In case she was about to say ‘don’t worry about wearing masks’ or something, as I was the second person to arrive. It might sound selfish to some, but fair to others. Some women in the class are still breastfeeding and may not have wanted to get vaccinated yet as well, and someone else may be pregnant but they’re not as gobby as me. Who knows.

#AtTheEndSheThankedUsAllForWearingAMaskAndProtectingEachOther

I felt emotional. She was off the other week as she had to self-isolate. I was surprised it had not happened before. By us wearing masks it also protects her as this is her business and she can not afford to get Covid.

#IWasReadingTheOtherDayThatThereIsNoPointMeWearingAMaskIfNoOneElseIs

I’m protecting others from me-ish, but they’re not protecting me.

#SoIJustLookedLikeTheWeirdOneAtAnotherClassForNoReasonButAtLeastItMadeMeFeelABitBetter

I felt safer for sure, though I may not have actually been. Oh well.

#BHasAFourthToothComingThroughAndItLooksLikeOtherMightSoonBeFollowing

She was waking up a lot the other night and we thought it was due to the heat (she now has a better fan in her room), but it may have been the tooth. Who knows? Bit of both probably.

#ItIsAtTheTopButItLooksLikeAnotherTopOneIsHavingAGoAsWellAsSomeMolars

Seriously, the joy never ends.

#ITookBOutForAWalkYesterdayAndADogCameUpToBInHerPushchair #TheGuySaidThatSheIsElevenButWhenSheWasAPuppySheWentUpToAPushchairAndAteAKidsCrispsAndSinceThenSheSeemsToCheckAllPushchairsForCrisps

Just a (what I thought was) funny story to end things on. I was like ‘oh cute, the dog wants to say hello’, but I had a good laugh after realising she was only looking for food. Unlucky for her as I rarely give B food to eat in her pushchair.

Time for a nap. It sounds like a lot of work is going on outside – chainsaws and diggers? I hope B sleeps. I hope I sleep. I’ll read a bit of The Volunteer by Jack Fairweather first and then try to kip. I thought it’d be a small book, but it’s 780 pages. Just checked and the notes start about 200 pages from the end, so that’s a little less overwhelming now.

–

12 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait from my head to around my knees. I am looking up and off into the distance. I have a remote in my right hand. I am wearing a top say Nobody's Perfect which is pulled up so my belly is visible.
It Still Feels Like Pregnancy Is Something That Happens To Other People And Not Me (12 weeks)

#IAmNotReallyAlludingToAnythingInThisPictureByWearingATopSayingNobodysPerfect
#TheseAreTiagosPJsThatHisMumGotHimForChristmasAFewYearsAgo
#AndIKeepMeaningToTakeAPictureInThem
#IWasLookingForWhatToWearInThePicturesTodayWhenISawThem
#AndIThoughtIShouldTakeAPictureInThemWhilstICanStillFit
#AsMeAndTiagoAreAboutTheSameSizeUsually
#IAmWearingHisSandalsAlso
#MyBottomHalfIsJustABitBiggerThanHisSoHisJeansAreABitTightOnMe
#HeWearsMyClothesTooButIWearHisMore
#NobodysPerfectIsTrueThough
#WeAreWaitingForAPizzaDelivery
#ThisWillBeMyThirdTimeEatingPizzaIn6Days
#ToBeFairIReallyWantToEatASaladWithThePizza
#ButTheWeatherIsCrapSoIMightJustSliceSomeFruitAndEatItWithItAsWell
#TiagoEatsBananaAndCheeseTogetherAllTheTime
#ISawSomeoneOnTheTVEatingMustardAndBananaTogetherAtTheWeekend
#NextWeekIWillFindOutMyNewDueDate
#ButGoingOffWhatTheHospitalSaidLastTimeIAmNow12Weeks
#AllMyFacebookAdsAreBabvRelatedNow
#IWasReadingSomethingEarlierAboutGettingBabiesToSleepAndISuddenlyWorriedThatIWillBeARubbishMother
#IWillTryMyBestOfCourse
#IThinkTiagoWillBeAGoodDadWhichMakesMeFeelBetter
#ButYeahNobodyIsPerfect
#IThinkNoMatterHowYouRaiseYourKidTheyWillHaveProblemsOfSomeSort
#YouJustHaveToDoYourBestAndDoWhatYouCan
#Reaching12WeeksItFeelsABitMoreRealNow
#NotSureIfItIsMoreFoodThanBabyButThereIsDefinitelyABumpForming
#ItStillFeelsLikePregnancyIsSomethingThatHappensToOtherPeopleAndNotMe
#IAmTryingToBeMoreOptimisticButIAmStillExpectingSomethingBadToHappen
#IGuessThatIAmOnlyUsedToMenstrualCrampsSoTheseNewCrampsScareMe 

Well, the images are quite different – one is all about hiding and one is about revealing (I do like hiding and revealing as a theme).

I think I was eating fairly healthy at this point with this pregnancy, but today I said to T that I really want pizza and I think I have not been eating so well lately.

I currently do not think I am the best mother, but I am not the worst and I know that I am doing about 80% of my best. I am human, so at times I do just let her play by herself which is good for her anyways.

I am finding pregnancy weird again, and the cramps still freak me out.

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B Has Only One Tooth And Today I Had One Pulled Out (12th May 2021)

Just realised that the title makes it sound like I had B’s tooth pulled out. Obviously it was one of mine…

Balancing my removed tooth on my thumb.
B Has Only One Tooth And Today I Had One Pulled Out (12th May 2021)
 
#WellThisWasNotWhatIWasPlanningToTalkOrShootAboutToday
#MyToothPainWentAwayForADayOrTwoAndThenItStartedUpAgainSoIThoughtIShouldCallTheDentistToday
#IWasSurprisedThatTheyWouldSeeMeSoSoon
#IWasTryingToWaitForMyDentalHygienistAppointmentButThenIRealisedThatTheyMightNotBeAbleToAdviseOnMyTooth
#TheySaidToCancelThatAppointmentButTheyDoNotHaveOtherSlotsUntilOctober
#MyTwoBackUpperRightTeethWereApparentlySuperCloseTogetherAndTheBackOneHadAFillingThatWasNearlyTouchingTheNerve
#HeTalkedAboutWideningTheGapButHeSeemedToBeSayingToJustGetRidOfTheTooth
#SoIDidAndIWorryThatIMaybeDidItPrematurelyButItIsTooLateNow
#TheFeelingOfHavingAToothYankedOutIsSoWeird
#LuckilyItOnlyTookAFewMinutesAndWasQuiteSimpleComparedToTheThirtyMinutesOrSoItTookToPullOutMyLastWisdomTooth
#TypicallyTheOnlySlotTheyHadCoincidedWithBsBabyClassSoIInitiallySaidIWouldCallAgainTomorrow
#ButThenISpokeToTiagoAndDecidedItWasBestToJustGoToday
#IWasLookingForwardToTakingBToAClassEspeciallyAsSheSeemedToEnjoyHerOtherClassThisWeek
#AllOfTheOtherBabiesWereJustChillingOnTheirMatsAndBWasJustConstantlyCrawlingAway
#IWouldGoToFetchHerAndASecondLaterSheWouldBeOffAgain
#TheTeacherSaidNotToWorryAndAgainWhenEveryoneWasQuietAndBWasScreaming
#SheHasANewHabitOfScreamingButIThinkItIsWhenSheIsExcited
#EarlierSheWasJustStoodUpScreamingAtTheBuckleOfHerHighchair
#TheTeacherSaidThatWeShouldReadAtLeastFiveBooksADayToOurKids
#IUsedToDoThatAndThenIGotLazySoTodayIThinkIReadAboutEightBooksToHer
#SheUsuallyGetsBoredAfterAFewPagesButIKeepReadingAnyways
#WhenIPutHerToBedIWillSometimesLieDownOnHerMatNextToHerAndReadWhichSheSeemsToLike
#UntilSheGetsBoredAndCrawlsAwayOfCourse
#ThereWasAFunnyKidAtThePlaygroundTodayWhoKeptTellingMeThatHeWasABoyAndThatHeIsStrongBecauseHeEatsMightyFood
#IAskedHimWhatMightyFoodIsAndHeSaidPeasAndBroccoli
#ISaidThatBLikesThemButHeThenSaidThatHeDoesNotReallyLikeThem
#WeHaveBookedMostOfOurTripToSeeTiagosParentsAndYesItWillBeAFaffAndYesIHopeItGoesAhead
#ThereWasANewsReportEarlierAboutThePriceOfTestingAndThatSomePeopleHaveHadProblemsWithThemNotTurningUp
#FingersCrossedItWorksOutAsIAmFeelingABitBetterNowThatWeMightHaveSomethingToLookForwardTo
#ThereIsPlentyOfTimeForTravelToPortugalToBeDisallowedAndAllowedAgainSoWeWillHaveToSee

I am too tired to be writing this. I started it this morning, but then had a lot of work to do while dealing with tooth pain. Then I ummed and ahhed about doing it but here we are.

#WellThisWasNotWhatIWasPlanningToTalkOrShootAboutToday

I was thinking about imitating B sticking her tongue out, but that will have to be another time.

#MyToothPainWentAwayForADayOrTwoAndThenItStartedUpAgainSoIThoughtIShouldCallTheDentistToday

My tooth pain got replaced with toe pain, then I might have brushed the tooth too hard yesterday and it was back.

#IWasSurprisedThatTheyWouldSeeMeSoSoon

I guess just because I had to wait a while for an appointment, but this was an ’emergency appointment’ apparently.

#IWasTryingToWaitForMyDentalHygienistAppointmentButThenIRealisedThatTheyMightNotBeAbleToAdviseOnMyTooth

It seemed a bit dumb waiting for it though I had waited a week or so. Then I figured they’d be like ‘ask your dentist’. The dentist I saw before is on maternity leave now – that explains why she asked a lot of questions about pregnancy/B, perhaps?

#TheySaidToCancelThatAppointmentButTheyDoNotHaveOtherSlotsUntilOctober

It’s fine. My dentist told me to have it to see if cleaning would help sort out the tooth pain that I was having back then.

#MyTwoBackUpperRightTeethWereApparentlySuperCloseTogetherAndTheBackOneHadAFillingThatWasNearlyTouchingTheNerve

I knew the filling on that tooth was deep, and when we lived in London I’m sure the dentist said it would need to come out at some point probably.

#HeTalkedAboutWideningTheGapButHeSeemedToBeSayingToJustGetRidOfTheTooth

He said it wasn’t really doing much as there was no tooth completely underneath it to help me eat, and instead it was just getting pressed into by one that was slightly below it – and it hurt when that happened.

#SoIDidAndIWorryThatIMaybeDidItPrematurelyButItIsTooLateNow

The dentist from before said it would need to come out eventually, but that it was protecting the next tooth from more damage. The one today said he didn’t really think that was the case, but now I should be able to brush it better.

#TheFeelingOfHavingAToothYankedOutIsSoWeird

Just bizarre. I don’t like having a numb face either. I probably should have rested more afterwards but I came home and was singing to try to entertain B.

#LuckilyItOnlyTookAFewMinutesAndWasQuiteSimpleComparedToTheThirtyMinutesOrSoItTookToPullOutMyLastWisdomTooth

I guess I thought it all happened so fast as for that tooth I had to go to the hospital for it and let some students wreak havoc with it. When we visited Tiago’s parents a few+ years ago we both had a wisdom tooth taken out (weirdly it was the same tooth) and I sat and watched while his took a longgg time and they used every tool from the tray – mine took five minutes.

#TypicallyTheOnlySlotTheyHadCoincidedWithBsBabyClassSoIInitiallySaidIWouldCallAgainTomorrow #ButThenISpokeToTiagoAndDecidedItWasBestToJustGoToday

It’s the first class we had missed and I felt bad for B. Obviously she has no clue that she has missed it.

#IWasLookingForwardToTakingBToAClassEspeciallyAsSheSeemedToEnjoyHerOtherClassThisWeek

It was meant to be the highlight of the day and I was looking forward to going. Oh well.

#AllOfTheOtherBabiesWereJustChillingOnTheirMatsAndBWasJustConstantlyCrawlingAway

Did I feel like I was being judged? A bit. Were they? Probably not. Tiago said they were probably jealous that their babies weren’t doing much. Doubt it.

#IWouldGoToFetchHerAndASecondLaterSheWouldBeOffAgain

I would initially let her be and see what she was doing, but she only came back once when I asked her to and the rest of the time she was just going super close to the teacher. At the end I think she was worried about the teacher’s baby that had been left alone on her mat – but was a doll.

#TheTeacherSaidNotToWorryAndAgainWhenEveryoneWasQuietAndBWasScreaming

‘Don’t worry it’s all fine’ while I was like ‘B why do you have to keep doing this’. At least with the mask I get to hide a bit…

#SheHasANewHabitOfScreamingButIThinkItIsWhenSheIsExcited #EarlierSheWasJustStoodUpScreamingAtTheBuckleOfHerHighchair

My Nan called from the other room ‘B do you not like your dinner?’

She had already eaten it and was just standing there screaming while I was on my hands and knees cleaning up a lot of dinner that had been thrown on the floor. She did like it though.

#TheTeacherSaidThatWeShouldReadAtLeastFiveBooksADayToOurKids #IUsedToDoThatAndThenIGotLazySoTodayIThinkIReadAboutEightBooksToHer

Today I was reading her The Very Hungry Caterpillar and mentioned about his tooth ache rather than stomach ache…

#SheUsuallyGetsBoredAfterAFewPagesButIKeepReadingAnyways

IT’S FINE YOU JUST GO OVER THERE AND I’LL READ LOUD ENOUGH SO YOU CAN HEAR ME.

#WhenIPutHerToBedIWillSometimesLieDownOnHerMatNextToHerAndReadWhichSheSeemsToLike

I think I’ve mentioned it before. She does a little smile when I lie next to her and sometimes she touches my face in a cute way.

#UntilSheGetsBoredAndCrawlsAwayOfCourse

Obviously.

#ThereWasAFunnyKidAtThePlaygroundTodayWhoKeptTellingMeThatHeWasABoyAndThatHeIsStrongBecauseHeEatsMightyFood

I think he kept mentioning that he’s a boy as he has very long hair and he is probably fed up of being mistaken for a girl. His hair is lovely.

#IAskedHimWhatMightyFoodIsAndHeSaidPeasAndBroccoli

Well at least I am getting better at talking to kids.

#ISaidThatBLikesThemButHeThenSaidThatHeDoesNotReallyLikeThem

I didn’t bother asking him how he is so strong then. I did laugh to myself when he showed me his bicep when he said strong.

#WeHaveBookedMostOfOurTripToSeeTiagosParentsAndYesItWillBeAFaffAndYesIHopeItGoesAhead

I am stressed thinking about it. If it was one flight each way then it would be less stressful, but whatever. I was going to apologise about being so privileged and whiney in my last post about potentially going away, but I am stressed about it.

#ThereWasANewsReportEarlierAboutThePriceOfTestingAndThatSomePeopleHaveHadProblemsWithThemNotTurningUp

And it’s money. But luckily we’re not a family of four and maybe B won’t need to get tested? Can you imagine me shoving a test up B’s nose and in her mouth? I guess it might happen.

#FingersCrossedItWorksOutAsIAmFeelingABitBetterNowThatWeMightHaveSomethingToLookForwardTo

Just having something to countdown to is something.

#ThereIsPlentyOfTimeForTravelToPortugalToBeDisallowedAndAllowedAgainSoWeWillHaveToSee

Fingers crossed. The rules might be completely different by the time we go.

Love when you get to the end and you realise you’ve missed out lots of things in the hashtags. I was meant to talk about how you can’t just chill and have toothache when you’ve got a baby, which might have led to the decision to get it removed earlier rather than later.

Also the dentist said ‘you don’t want to keep this do you?’ about my tooth and of course I said ‘I’LL HAVE IT’. They probably thought I was weird but oh well. I tried to make light conversation and I got a couple of laughs out of them, but I was probably just annoying. Oh well. Tomorrow is a new day and hopefully I can eat better soon 🙂

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Imitating B’s New Cheeky Grin, Though She Does Not Have A Mouth Full Of Bad Teeth (24th March 2021)

Me with a big grin, trying to imitate B.
Imitating B’s New Cheeky Grin, Though She Does Not Have A Mouth Full Of Bad Teeth (24th March 2021)
 
#TheOtherDayINoticedThatBHadANewCheekyGrin
#IMadeAVideoOfItAndShowedItToHerThenSheWasGrinningBackAtHerself
#ThinkingAboutItSheHasNotReallyDoneItSinceThenButSheDoesSeemToDoNewThingsAndForgetAboutThemForABit
#MyMumSaysSheIsImitatingMeWhenIDoItButIAmNotAwareOfMyselfDoingIt
#WeAreJustConstantlyOnBWatchNowAsSheSeemsToBumpHerHeadAMillionTimesADay
#LuckilyBabiesSeemQuiteResilientWhichIsGoodAsOtherwiseIDoNotThinkAnyoneWouldMakeItToAdulthood
#HerToothIsStillYetToBreakThroughAndSheLikesToWakeUpAtAround11pmInPain
#LastNightTAndIWereBothSoTiredThatWeHopedItWasJustARandomWakeUp
#OfCourseIWasJustStartingToDriftOffWhenSheWokeUp
#EventuallyTiagoWentAndGaveHerSomeTeethingGelWhichSeemedToWork
#IShouldHaveJustGotUpSoonerAndDoneItAndNowIFeelQuiteGuilty
#NowIAmActuallyLookingForwardToTheClocksChangingAsIHopeWeCanGetBBackToWakingUpAt7
#OftenWhenISeePicturesOfOtherPeopleBreastfeedingIFeelBadThatOurBreastfeedingJourneyEndedEarlierThanIPlanned
#ButBReallyDidNotWantToDoItSoItMadeSenseToStop
#WeCompletedOurCensusTheOtherDayAndItWasQuiteExcitingToPutBOnThere
#HopefullyIn100YearsTimeWeWillHaveRelativesWhoAreInterestedInUs
#AndTheyWillBeAbleToFindUsLivingWithNan
#IAmDefinitelyGladThatWeMoved
#IThinkIWouldBeStrugglingALotIfWeStillLivedInLiverpoolAsWeWouldNotHaveSoMuchSupport
#IWouldNotBeAbleToHaveTheJobThatIAmDoingAtTheMomentOrAtLeastNotBeAbleToDoItInTheSameWay
#ItHasBeenNiceToGoOutThoughMyLegsFeelABitLikeJellyAfterWalkingSoMuchYesterday
#ItIsGoodThatBIsUsedToMyMumAsSheDoesNotSeemToMindWhenIGoOut
#ItIsEarlyDaysSoThatMightChangeButSheIsQuiteHappyClingingToMyMumDuringABadTeethingMoment
#IHopeItDoesNotRainMuchOnFutureWorkDaysAsThatWillMakeItNotSoGreat
#IFeelPositiveWithGettingOutMoreThoughAndNextWeekWeShouldBeAbleToSitInOtherPeoplesGardens
#AndSoonBabyClassesWillReopenAgainWhichIAmGreatlyLookingForwardTo
#FriendsInDifferentAreasHaveAlreadyBeenGoingToGroupsAndHaveBeenAbleToHangOut
#IWantBToHaveSomeFriendsThatSheCanCrawlAroundWithAndDoThingsThatSheHasBeenMissingOutOn
#LuckilySheDoesNotKnowSheIsMissingOutButHopefullySheWillNotHaveToMissOutAgainThoughIAmNotThatOptimisticAboutItAll
#IAmGladIHaveTheDentistSoonAsOneOfMyTeethIsStartingToPlayUp

(18th April 2021: I debated changing the title today, but there needs to be some comment in it about B not having so many teeth, and my teeth are bad so I guess it’s accurate. I do feel a bit awkward about it, but I guess that’s why my solo show last year was called Always Awkward.

#TheOtherDayINoticedThatBHadANewCheekyGrin

It made me cry a bit as I thought it was so sweet.

#IMadeAVideoOfItAndShowedItToHerThenSheWasGrinningBackAtHerself

Adorable.

#ThinkingAboutItSheHasNotReallyDoneItSinceThenButSheDoesSeemToDoNewThingsAndForgetAboutThemForABit

Yeah this happens a lot. I showed her the video again earlier, but she didn’t do it.

#MyMumSaysSheIsImitatingMeWhenIDoItButIAmNotAwareOfMyselfDoingIt

I guess it’s hard when you can’t see yourself all of the time – not that I’d want to anyways.

#WeAreJustConstantlyOnBWatchNowAsSheSeemsToBumpHerHeadAMillionTimesADay

She currently has two little red marks on her head at the moment. One is from her bumping her head on her box of eggs and the other one could be from a million other incidents.

#LuckilyBabiesSeemQuiteResilientWhichIsGoodAsOtherwiseIDoNotThinkAnyoneWouldMakeItToAdulthood

I probably should look at a baby first aid course. It has been on my list of things to do – I need to get on it.

#HerToothIsStillYetToBreakThroughAndSheLikesToWakeUpAtAround11pmInPain

🙁 I knew I was never going to look forward to the teething phase. Why can’t it just hurry up and appear. We still have lots of other teeth to deal with…

#LastNightTAndIWereBothSoTiredThatWeHopedItWasJustARandomWakeUp

‘She might just go back to sleep soon.’ She did settle for a bit, then as we were falling back to sleep she started again.

#OfCourseIWasJustStartingToDriftOffWhenSheWokeUp

T was already asleep. I need to start reading books again as otherwise my brain doesn’t switch off well…

#EventuallyTiagoWentAndGaveHerSomeTeethingGelWhichSeemedToWork

We hadn’t been using it much before, but it’s our new best friend.

#IShouldHaveJustGotUpSoonerAndDoneItAndNowIFeelQuiteGuilty

Bad parent. We live and learn…

#NowIAmActuallyLookingForwardToTheClocksChangingAsIHopeWeCanGetBBackToWakingUpAt7

Doubt it, but I hope so. Her naps still seem to be a bit here and there too.

#OftenWhenISeePicturesOfOtherPeopleBreastfeedingIFeelBadThatOurBreastfeedingJourneyEndedEarlierThanIPlanned

A random jump, but it’s on my notes to jog my memory about what I might want to talk about.

#ButBReallyDidNotWantToDoItSoItMadeSenseToStop

I probably upset people with my breastfeeding pictures, as they might not have been able to breastfeed or their journey ended earlier than they thought it might too.

I definitely think people should keep sharing their photos, but it just reminds me that I am sad about it all.

#WeCompletedOurCensusTheOtherDayAndItWasQuiteExcitingToPutBOnThere #HopefullyIn100YearsTimeWeWillHaveRelativesWhoAreInterestedInUs #AndTheyWillBeAbleToFindUsLivingWithNan

I do think about things like our family tree a bit. Will our line continue? Maybe, maybe not. Hopefully some distant relative will be interested in us though.

#IAmDefinitelyGladThatWeMoved

I do miss Liverpool but the winter would have been tough.

#IThinkIWouldBeStrugglingALotIfWeStillLivedInLiverpoolAsWeWouldNotHaveSoMuchSupport

Obviously there are people out there who have been through this pandemic with so little support. We would have just got on with it, but I think we would have probably ending up moving somewhere – even just the other side of Liverpool. We didn’t live near any parks, which was a big thing that I felt we were missing.

#IWouldNotBeAbleToHaveTheJobThatIAmDoingAtTheMomentOrAtLeastNotBeAbleToDoItInTheSameWay

At the moment I am spreading out my hours over multiple days so my Mum or Tiago can look after her. She would have either had to go to nursery which would have cancelled out what I was earning or Tiago would have had to look after her all weekend.

#ItHasBeenNiceToGoOutThoughMyLegsFeelABitLikeJellyAfterWalkingSoMuchYesterday

My shoulders are also a bit sore, so I have been trying to roll them out a lot.

#ItIsGoodThatBIsUsedToMyMumAsSheDoesNotSeemToMindWhenIGoOut #ItIsEarlyDaysSoThatMightChangeButSheIsQuiteHappyClingingToMyMumDuringABadTeethingMoment

If she was upset I’m sure she’d get over it soon but I’d feel guilty, though it’s good for us to let me go and do my own thing for a bit.

#IHopeItDoesNotRainMuchOnFutureWorkDaysAsThatWillMakeItNotSoGreat

It has just finished raining. I’m not supposed to talk about my job on social media, so this is why I am quite vague.

#IFeelPositiveWithGettingOutMoreThoughAndNextWeekWeShouldBeAbleToSitInOtherPeoplesGardens

I thought the 29th March was a Sunday, but nope it’s a Monday.

Will people probably be sat in gardens this weekend anyways? Probably.

#AndSoonBabyClassesWillReopenAgainWhichIAmGreatlyLookingForwardTo

Hurrah.

#FriendsInDifferentAreasHaveAlreadyBeenGoingToGroupsAndHaveBeenAbleToHangOut

A know one friend goes to an outdoors group and other friends go to a playgroup. I still don’t know when a playgroup will open near us. Am I jealous? Yes. Am I dealing with it? Yes. I have a big distraction with work now, and by the time I finish that job hopefully lots more things will be open.

#IWantBToHaveSomeFriendsThatSheCanCrawlAroundWithAndDoThingsThatSheHasBeenMissingOutOn

We’ve bumped into a Mum and her kids a couple of times this week, so it’s been nice for B to see a baby her own age.

#LuckilySheDoesNotKnowSheIsMissingOutButHopefullySheWillNotHaveToMissOutAgainThoughIAmNotThatOptimisticAboutItAll

It sounds like things are getting bad again. Hopefully we can be smarter as a country about things this time. The other day we realised that we might not be able to see Tiago’s family this summer. We don’t fancy throwing money down the drain as the logistics are complicated, so we’ll just have to wait and see.

#IAmGladIHaveTheDentistSoonAsOneOfMyTeethIsStartingToPlayUp

A random end, but yes this tooth is playing me up so I’m glad I can get it looked at soon.

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