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Pregnancy Waiting II

Imitating B Stroking My Hair (29 Weeks / 19th November 2021)

Self-portrait wearing a dark blue top. I am facing away from the camera with my hand touching my hair.
Imitating B Stroking My Hair (29 Weeks / 19th November 2021)
 
#BHasANewThingWhereWhenWePickHerUpSheLikesToStrokeOurHair
#AsAlwaysIWouldLoveToAskHerWhySheDoesItButICanNot
#MaybeItIsAComfortThingOrMaybeSheJustLikesHowItFeels
#ObviouslyTiagoHasLessHairThanMeButSheDoesTouchHisBeardSometimesToo
#ThisMorningSheWasGentlyHoldingMyArmsBeforeIGotHerOutOfHerHighchairWhichWasQuiteSweet
#HerStrokingOurHairDoesMakeMeThinkThatSheIsPettingUsLikeWeAreDogsOrSomething
#TheOtherDayAKidAtThePlaygroundWasPattingBOnTheHeadLikeSheWasALittleDog
#HeKeptSayingHowHeWasTallerThanHerAndIWasLikeYeahJustABitAsYouAreFour
#IKeepDreamingThatBIsRunningAroundOurRoomInTheMiddleOfTheNightLikeWeGotHerUpNotRealisingItWasNotTimeToGetHerUpYet
#TwoNightsAgoSheGotSomethingOnHerHandsWhichIWorriedWasOneOfNansPolishesOrSomething
#ISatUprightAndToldTiagoThatWeNeedToCleanHerHands
#HeSaidWhatAndISaidInAnAnnoyedLoudWhisperYourDaughter
#HeJustRespondedIThinkYouHadADreamAndRolledOverAndWentBackToSleep
#IKeepWakingUpEveryHourOrSoAtTheMomentWhichIsAnnoyingButOhWell
#BHasSleptABitLaterTheLastCoupleOfNightsWhichMakesMeFeelBetterEspeciallyAsMyParentsAreDueToHaveHerThisWeekend
#OurPlanIsToHaveLunchAtOurFavouriteRestaurantThenGoToBuyPicnicStuffAtTheSupermarketThenCheckInAndJustWatchTvEatSleepAndIWantToHaveABath
#IWatchedTheKidsFilmLucaByMyselfOverAFewNightsButIFoundThePlotStressfulAsIRealiseThatIGenerallyWatchToddlersTVWhichIsNotStressfulAtAll
#BDoesNotLikeToWalkToAndFromTheParkMuchAnymoreWhichIsABitOfAReliefInWays
#MaybeSheHasFiguredOutThatWeGetToThePlaygroundQuickerIfSheJustSitsInHerPushchair
#SheWillStartWalkingButThenSlowDownAndIEitherAskHerIfSheWantsToGoInHerPushchairOrSheWillGoNextToIt
#GenerallyByTheTimeWeLeaveThePlaygroundNowItIsQuiteDarkAndWeHaveToRushHomeButIKnowTheDaysAreStillDueToGetShorter
#ThisWeekSheHasGotOnMuchBetterAtNurseryEvenWithARunnyNose
#WeWereNotSureWhetherOrNotToSendHerButWeRealisedThatThereWouldBeNoKidsAtNurseryIfNoOneWasAllowedToBeThereWithARunnyNose
#SheDoesNotCryNowWhenTiagoDropsHerOffAndSheEatsMoreOfHerLunchWhichIsGood
#PregnancyWiseIAmFeelingAlrightButIAmPuttingOffReadingMyHypnobirthingBookWhichIKnowIWillRegret
#IKnowIHaveTimeButIAlsoWorryThatTheBabyMightJustComeSuperEarlySoIShouldGetOnWithIt
#IThinkIHaveSaidBeforeThatIWouldLikeBabyXToBeBornInSomewhereElseAsTWasBornInPortugalBWasBornInLiverpoolAndIWasBornInBirminghamAndSoWillBabyX
#HoweverIRealisedThatTiagoIsAlsoTechnicallyAScouserAsHeGotHisBritishCitizenshipInLiverpoolSoOurFamilyWillBeTwoScousersAndTwoBrummies
#IWantBabyXToLookLikeBButBAlsoLooksALotLikeTiagoSoIWouldLikeXToLookABitMoreLikeMe
#MyNanGotSomeBabyPhotosOutYesterdayThoughAndYouCanSeeAResemblanceBetweenBAndMeAtTimesWhichIsNiceAndSheStillHasALotOfGrowingToDo

#BHasANewThingWhereWhenWePickHerUpSheLikesToStrokeOurHair

This morning she was also messing with mine as I lay down next to her, while she watched TV.

#AsAlwaysIWouldLoveToAskHerWhySheDoesItButICanNot

Why does B do anything and everything? I would love to know. Obviously I can ask her, but I will not get much of a response.

#MaybeItIsAComfortThingOrMaybeSheJustLikesHowItFeels

Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.

#ObviouslyTiagoHasLessHairThanMeButSheDoesTouchHisBeardSometimesToo

Cute.

#ThisMorningSheWasGentlyHoldingMyArmsBeforeIGotHerOutOfHerHighchairWhichWasQuiteSweet

I think she is just discovering about bodies and is showing some interest. It makes sense.

#HerStrokingOurHairDoesMakeMeThinkThatSheIsPettingUsLikeWeAreDogsOrSomething

Yesterday I asked Tiago to pretend to be a dog for her, which soon changed into a horse and B got some rides around the living room which she loved.

#TheOtherDayAKidAtThePlaygroundWasPattingBOnTheHeadLikeSheWasALittleDog

B was just smiling at him and found it funny.

#HeKeptSayingHowHeWasTallerThanHerAndIWasLikeYeahJustABitAsYouAreFour

Well, you can talk, are in school uniform and yeah you told me you are 4.

#IKeepDreamingThatBIsRunningAroundOurRoomInTheMiddleOfTheNightLikeWeGotHerUpNotRealisingItWasNotTimeToGetHerUpYet

It is getting a bit annoying as it just drains my energy. I had lots of dreams last night.

#TwoNightsAgoSheGotSomethingOnHerHandsWhichIWorriedWasOneOfNansPolishesOrSomething

My Nan likes to polish things, and still doesn’t get that B will mess with her stuff.

#ISatUprightAndToldTiagoThatWeNeedToCleanHerHands

There was a lot on her hands and I was worried that she would try to eat it.

#HeSaidWhatAndISaidInAnAnnoyedLoudWhisperYourDaughter

More like YOUR DAUGHTER!

#HeJustRespondedIThinkYouHadADreamAndRolledOverAndWentBackToSleep

I just thought ‘that makes sense’ and also went back to sleep.

#IKeepWakingUpEveryHourOrSoAtTheMomentWhichIsAnnoyingButOhWell

At least I can go back to sleep. I think I am just anticipating B waking up and am intrigued to see the time. I lift my head to look at the clock, then go back to sleep.

#BHasSleptABitLaterTheLastCoupleOfNightsWhichMakesMeFeelBetterEspeciallyAsMyParentsAreDueToHaveHerThisWeekend

She woke up after 6 today. Hurrah. I think it was because her room was quite warm as sometimes I go to get her up and her hands are so cold – not today.

#OurPlanIsToHaveLunchAtOurFavouriteRestaurantThenGoToBuyPicnicStuffAtTheSupermarketThenCheckInAndJustWatchTvEatSleepAndIWantToHaveABath

Originally we were going to have dinner out, but Tiago suggested having lunch out instead and I much prefer that idea. Not having to leave our room from when we check-in until we check-out sounds good to me.

#IWatchedTheKidsFilmLucaByMyselfOverAFewNightsButIFoundThePlotStressfulAsIRealiseThatIGenerallyWatchToddlersTVWhichIsNotStressfulAtAll

I might have watched it quicker if I had not been so stressed out. It might have been over 4 nights… I don’t like to watch trailers so I was quite surprised that the storyline is what it is. I did enjoy it though.

#BDoesNotLikeToWalkToAndFromTheParkMuchAnymoreWhichIsABitOfAReliefInWays

It was a very slow and long walk before…

#MaybeSheHasFiguredOutThatWeGetToThePlaygroundQuickerIfSheJustSitsInHerPushchair

And the playground is way more fun than walking for ages. I think she’s also just realised that the walk is fairly boring, and maybe it is less fun now it is colder as she gets cold hands from holding onto the pushchair while she walks besides it.

#SheWillStartWalkingButThenSlowDownAndIEitherAskHerIfSheWantsToGoInHerPushchairOrSheWillGoNextToIt

Great.

#GenerallyByTheTimeWeLeaveThePlaygroundNowItIsQuiteDarkAndWeHaveToRushHomeButIKnowTheDaysAreStillDueToGetShorter

Ergh. Can’t wait for the evenings to get lighter again. By the time they will be I guess baby X will be of an age where I feel less stressed about taking them both out at least.

#ThisWeekSheHasGotOnMuchBetterAtNurseryEvenWithARunnyNose

Tiago and I feel so proud.

#WeWereNotSureWhetherOrNotToSendHerButWeRealisedThatThereWouldBeNoKidsAtNurseryIfNoOneWasAllowedToBeThereWithARunnyNose

She probably got the runny nose from nursery anyways…

#SheDoesNotCryNowWhenTiagoDropsHerOffAndSheEatsMoreOfHerLunchWhichIsGood

Go B! She settled in quite quick really, but I guess she has started later than a lot of kids do.

#PregnancyWiseIAmFeelingAlrightButIAmPuttingOffReadingMyHypnobirthingBookWhichIKnowIWillRegret

I just read a book about Britney Spears, and now I have a book to read about Karen Carpenter, and ‘Men Who Hate Women’. I do not get on with reading physical books much anymore as I much prefer to read on a screen.

#IKnowIHaveTimeButIAlsoWorryThatTheBabyMightJustComeSuperEarlySoIShouldGetOnWithIt

Excuses. I will start soon. Promise.

#IThinkIHaveSaidBeforeThatIWouldLikeBabyXToBeBornSomewhereElseAsTWasBornInPortugalBWasBornInLiverpoolAndIWasBornInBirminghamAndSoWillBabyX

Something really unimportant that has crossed my mind a few times.

#HoweverIRealisedThatTiagoIsAlsoTechnicallyAScouserAsHeGotHisBritishCitizenshipInLiverpoolSoOurFamilyWillBeTwoScousersAndTwoBrummies

If you ask Tiago where he is from I doubt he will say Liverpool, but whatever.

#IWantBabyXToLookLikeBButBAlsoLooksALotLikeTiagoSoIWouldLikeXToLookABitMoreLikeMe

I’d like for them to look like sisters, but I am selfish and want one kid that looks a bit more like me.

#MyNanGotSomeBabyPhotosOutYesterdayThoughAndYouCanSeeAResemblanceBetweenBAndMeAtTimesWhichIsNiceAndSheStillHasALotOfGrowingToDo

It would be cool if they were both just a good mix of T and me, which DNA wise they are really but we will have to wait and see. Truthfully, I hope they are both more like Tiago though.

29 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

(Apparently I had a productive week back then with 4 photos, but I have put one in my previous post as they both talk about my 28 week appointment.)

Self-portrait where I am facing the right of the image. My hair is wrapped in a towel and my hands are placed on my bump.
It Is Odd That Quite Possibly None Of My Friends Or Family (Besides Tiago) Will See Me Heavily Pregnant In Real Life (29 weeks)
 
#PeopleWarnedUsWhenWeWereTryingToGetPregnantThatWeWouldNeverBeAbleToLeaveTheHouseWhenWeWantedAgain
#IRememberShruggingAtTheTimeAndSayingItDidNotBotherMeMuch
#IHaveAlwaysLikedBookingTicketsForThingsMoreThanGoingToTheThings
#IBookTicketsAndIGetExcited
#ThenOnTheDayTheEventComesRoundIAmAlwaysFeelingTired
#IDoEnjoyEventsButIAmNotThatBothered
#NowIHaveBeenAtHomeFor3WeeksOtherThanGoingForWalks
#AndWhenRestrictionsFinallyLiftIWillNotBeRushingToGoOutForAnythingOtherThanWalks
#TheBabyMayHaveBeenBornAlreadyOrItMayHaveNot
#EitherWayIDoNotEnvisionGoingAnywhereWithTheBabyBesidesWalks
#ItIsOddThatQuitePossiblyNoneOfMyFriendsOrFamilyWillSeeMeHeavilyPregnantInRealLife
#EveryWeekIFeelLikeTheBabyIsGrowingALot
#IDidNotBotherBuyingAnyMoreMaternityClothesThanTheOnesIGotWhenIWas15Weeks
#WhichWereMainlyBrasADressAPairOfLeggingsAndACardigan
#NowIAmJustAtHomeSoIDefinitelyDoNotNeedToGetAnythingElse
#YesterdayISpentTheWholeDayLookingAtBabyStuff
#WeAreJustGoingToHaveToRiskItAndBuyStuffWithoutTrying
#IWouldRatherJustBuyEverythingSoonerRatherThanLaterSoWeDoNotHaveToWorry
#IAmThinkingThatThereIsNoPointBuyingABabyBassinetForThePushchairAsWeWillNotProbablyUseItMuch
#IWouldRatherJustCarryTheBabyInTheBeginning
#ParticularlyToAvoidAnyoneTryingToPeerIntoTheBassinetInsteadOfKeepingTheirDistance
#WeStillDoNotKnowIfItIsAGirlOrABoy
#IOftenForgetItHasAGenderWhichIsWeirdToSay
#IJustReferToThemAsTheBabyOrThem
#WhereasTiagoUsuallyStartsTalkingToTheBumpWithMyBabyBoy
#AndThenICoughInANonCovidWayAndHeSaysOrMyBabyGirl
#HeStillWantsToFindOutBeforeTheBirth
#IWantToWait
#IAmSupposedToBeHavingMoreScansButIHaveNotReceivedALetterRecently
#AndIDoNotFeelLikeChasingThemUpAsIWouldRatherAvoidGoingToTheHospitalIfICan

I was meant to say that it has been weird this time round having strangers comment on my bump like ‘so she’s going to be a big sister then?’ When I was pregnant with B I didn’t talk to random people in the street and we rarely saw anyone that we knew.

I was thinking the other day how I am really not bothered about going to events like gigs and things. If someone offered me a ticket where I got to stand on the side of the stage or got a good seated ticket then sure, but the idea of going to something is so unappealing these days.

This time round I haven’t bought any maternity clothes and am mainly just wearing the dress I bought when I was pregnant with B, the bras from then and Uniqlo leggings as they’re so stretchy and comfortable.

We did buy some baby nappies and cotton wool as I needed to order some vitamins for B and wanted to reach the amount for free postage and packaging, so thought I might as well buy some.

We’ve been told baby X is a girl, but I am still skeptical and will probably continue to be until they are born and we will see.

If the baby had not presented in the scan then we would have probably had to wait until the birth to find out as we do not have any more scans now. We are debating having a private one but I doubt we will.

I am stood facing the camera and it is a crop from my breasts to just above my pubic area. My hands are on the sides of my bump, and Tiago's hands are reaching in from the right side of the image and are cupping the top and bottom of my bump.
Tiago Says It Reminds Him Of Pictures Where People Are Holding A Globe (29 weeks)

#IKeepWakingUpInTheNight
#ForACoupleOfNightsItWasBefore2am
#ButLastNightTiagoGaveMeAnUpperBackMassageAndIDidNotWakeUpUntil4am
#SoMaybeItWasTheMassageOrMaybeItWasACoincidence
#IHadSomeHipPainWhenIWokeUp
#ThinkItWasBecauseIHadLayOnOneSideSinceFallingAsleep
#TurningOverIsBecomingMoreOfAChore
#AsWellAsBendingDownToPickThingsUp
#WhilstHeMassagedMeWeWatchAHypnobirthingVideoAboutDueDates
#HopefullyNowTiagoWillStopTalkingAboutMyDueDateLikeTheBabyIsActuallyComingThatDay
#AsApparentlyOnly4PercentArriveOnTheirDueDate
#ThoughSomethingLike85PercentOfFirstTimeMumsGiveBirthAfter40Weeks
#ItSaidToStopTalkingLikeMyBabyIsComingByTheDueDate
#AndBeMoreLikeFromTheDueDate
#ToBeFairIKnewThat42WeeksIsNormal
#ItWillComeWhenItIsReady
#IHaveBeenTryingToGetTiagoToDoExerciseVideosForAFewWeeksNow
#ForTheLastCoupleOfDaysHeHasBeenDoingMineWithMe
#WhichIsGoodAsIHaveBeenDoingTheSameFewVideosForMonthsNow
#AndINeedABitOfMotivation
#HeSaidHeSleptWellLastNightAndHeThinksItWasBecauseOfTheBedtimeYogaVideoThatWeDid
#WeWillSeeHowLongHeDoesThemWithMe
#IThinkHeMightGetBoredOfMeDoingTheSameOnes
#WeNearlyPutAPauseOnTryingToGetPregnantAsHeWasMeantToBeTheBestManAtAWeddingThisSummer
#WeDecidedNotToAsWeWereLikeWellItHasNotHappenedYetSoItMightNotAnyways
#ObviouslyWeWereNotExpectingAPandemic
#NowTheWeddingIsPostponedUntilNextYear
#WhichIsAnnoyingForThemButGoodForMeAsWeWillBeAbleToGoAsAFamily
#AndIWasABitWorriedAboutPotentiallyBeingHomeAloneWithANewborn
#AsItIsTwoFlightsAwayAndItIsBadEnoughDoingThatSometimesWithJustTheTwoOfUs

Well, the wakings are nothing new then but I think it is more B related this time than pregnancy related.

I had forgotten that Tiago used to give me back massages when I was pregnant with B – I may have to remind him. I seem to have less pain this time – I think sleeping on a better mattress may have a lot to do with it, but I do also stretch in the morning and evening and have done since finding out I was pregnant.

I really thought that I would be a 42 weeker, so I was very surprised that B came before 38 weeks. This time I plan to start going to bed early from 37 weeks, but I will probably be a 42 weeker this time.

We were due to go to 2 weddings that summer. I think the one I mentioned here has been delayed for a bit longer, but one took place this August and we did go.

Self-portrait where I am leaning on a table. I am cupping my chin in my left hand and my right hand is touching my left elbow. I am slightly facing the left side of the image and am staring off.
Eating Almond Butter Is My Daily Highlight Right Now (29 and a half weeks)
 
#TheLastCoupleOfWeeksIHaveNoticedThatIHaveHadAFewBadEvenings
#LastWeekIWasCrankyTwoNightsInARow
#AndLastNightIJustFeltDown
#IFeltDownInTheEveningProbablyACoupleOfWeeksAgo
#IWasCryingAndIDidNotReallyKnowWhy
#IJustFeltOverwhelmed
#IFeelMoreTiredInTheAfternoonThanTheEvenings
#ButMaybeByTheEveningsIAmMoreMentallyTired
#AfterISleepIWakeUpFeelingFine
#IThinkTheMassageMakingMeSleepLaterWasJustACoincidence
#LastNightIWokeUpAt1amThen4amThen6am
#AtLeastNowIDoNotHaveToWorryAboutCommuting
#AndTheWakingUpInTheNightIsPreparationForWhatIsToCome
#IFeltDownLastNightAgainBecauseIThinkIWasOverwhelmed
#IWantToChatWithPeopleButIJustFindItKindOfExhausting
#SeeingMessagesToReplyToMakesMeFeelABitAnxious
#PeopleAskingMeWhenIAmDue
#IDoJustNotWantItToGetToTheTimeWhenIAmDueAndBeGettingLotsOfMessagesAskingMeForBabyNews
#IWillTellPeopleWhenIAmReady
#WhichCouldBeSoonAfterTheBirthOrItMightNot
#SoIfYouHaveAskedAndIHaveToldYouInAnObviousOrVagueWayPleaseDoNotBugMe
#IfYouHaveNotAskedThenPleaseDoNotAskMe
#MyHighlightOfTheDayAtTheMomentIsWhenIEatAnAppleAndABananaWithNutButter
#ThisHasBeenMyDailyHighlightForAtLeastAWeek
#IReadThatEatingNutsInYourFirstTrimesterIsReallyGoodForTheBaby
#ButICouldNotEatThemAsIHadAnAversionToThem
#HopefullyItWillHelpABitNowButMaybeIAmEatingTooMuchAndItHasTheOppositeEffect
#IAmJustEatingItBecauseILoveIt
#WeCouldNotGetBananasTheOtherDayButTiagoGotSomeToday
#IEnjoyThisTreatMoreThanOurWalksAsWeWalkTheSameRouteAllTheTimeAndPeopleStressMeOutAsTheyDoNotSeemToKnowWhat2MetresIs

Well, in the end B was so early that no one had sent me a message asking if she had arrived yet. That was good.

I feel less awkward about people asking me this time, though I still would rather be left in peace about it.

Weirdly I have got quite into nut butters again in the last week or so. I actually might go and eat some after writing this. I’ve been making B cookies which are oats, bananas and nut butters, and enjoying them a lot.

I also generally just walk the same routes now, but with B so it is more interesting and we stop and chat to a few people. I definitely feel like we are more part of the community now than when we lived in Liverpool, which is nice. Tiago is generally working so maybe he does not feel the same, but I think he likes that we know a few more people at least.


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Pregnancy Waiting II

Portrait of A Mother Of A Seventeen Month Old (28 Weeks / 14th November 2021)

Self-portrait lying on the bed in a bra and leggings. I am cradling my bump with my right hand and have my left hand resting on my face. I am leaning on and against a maternity pillow.
Portrait Of A Mother Of A Seventeen Month Old (28 Weeks / 14th November 2021)
 
#IKnowIHaveTakenALotOfPicturesOfMyselfLookingTiredInThePastForThisProjectWithinAProject
#ButThisTimeIReallyAmTiredAndBeforeIDoNotThinkIKnewWhatTheMeaningOfTiredWas
#OrMaybeIWasTiredThenButIFeelExhaustedNowAndProbablyShouldBeSavingMyEnergyAndNotTryingToDoABitOfWork
#IWentToBedFourNightsAgoFeelingLikeIWasMaybeGoingToBeSickButThoughtItWouldPass
#IBarelySleptAndGotUpToGoToTheBathroomAroundOneThirtyInTheMorningAndKeptBeingSickThenFinallyStoppedButWasSickAgainAfterASitDown
#BActuallySleptUntilSixForOnceAndIWasSickWhenIGotUpThenButFeltFineEnoughToDoMyMorningExerciseButThenICrashed
#IWentBackToBedAndTWatchedBThenIWatchedBForAnHourThenMyMumCameAndWatchedBUntilLunch
#ThenIGotUpToGiveHerLunchAndSheHadFallenAsleepOnMyMumSoTiagoWatchedHerDuringHisLunchThenSheNappedAndINapped
#IWasSurprisedThatBSleptForTwoHoursButIGotHerUpAndPutHerInOurBedButThenISuddenlyFeltSick
#SoIManagedToPutHerOnTheFloorAndRunToTheBathroomWhereIWasSickAndIMeanSickkk
#IThinkItIsExhaustionAndTheSicknessIsASideEffectOfItThoughIHaveNotBeenSickSinceButHaveFeltLikeIWillBeAtTimes
#BeforeBWasBornIDidUsedToSpendAWeekendInBedAtLeastOnceAYearButObviouslyItIsHardToDoThatNow
#TypicallyItHappenedAfterBStartedNurseryButIGuessMyBodyKnewICouldBeIllSoItWaitedUntilThenAndIHaveNotReallyBeenIllSinceBWasBorn
#BHasBeenABitUpAndDownAsWellButMaybeItIsDueToStartingNurseryAndHavingALeapAndTeethingAndBeingFrustratedAtNotBeingAbleToTalk
#WeGaveHerLunchYesterdayAndSheJustPushedItAllToTheFloorSoICriedAsIWasSoTired
#WeThoughtItWasBecauseSheWasOvertiredSoWeJustPutHerDownForHerNapAndSheWokeUpAfter40Minutes
#TiagoNeededARestAndIFeltTooTiredToLookAfterHerSoIGotIntoHerCotAndRubbedHerBackUntilSheFellBackToSleep
#IManagedToGetOutOfHerCotAndOutOfTheRoomWithoutHerWakingUpAndSheSleptForNearlyTwoMoreHours
#IDoWorryHowIAmGoingToCopeWithTwoKidsButIAmHopingThatIWillSomehowFeelLessTiredWhenTheBabyIsOutAndNotTakingAllMyNutrientsButIDoubtIt
#IHaveBarelyHadAnAppetiteButIHaveBeenMakingMyselfEatForTheBabysSake
#IDidHaveMy28WeeksMidwifeAppointmentThoughAndSheSaidEverythingSeemedFineButThatIShouldDrinkMore
#IDidNotRealiseThatIWasGoingToHaveABloodTestButLuckilyIHadForcedMyselfToEatASandwichBeforeGoing
#SheSaidTheBabyWasMeasuringWellAndThatSheHasAPercentileOf50Percent
#SheToldMeThatBHadAPercentileOf32WhenSheWasBornWhichIDidNotKnowSoThisBabyIsDefinitelyBiggerForNow
#IActuallyThoughtBHadBeenLessThan32SoThatIsGoodToKnow
#SheWasTryingToFigureOutWhereTheBabysHeadWasButSaidItDoesNotMatterAsBTurnedAroundTheDayBeforeSheWasBornAnyways
#ThisWeekendMyParentsAreDueToLookAfterBAndIAmABitNervousWithAllHerEarlyWakings
#WeChangedOurHotelYesterdaySoThatWeAreStayingCloseToOurFavouriteIndianRestaurantInsteadAndTheRoomHasABigBathAsIDoNotKnowIfIWillHaveTheEnergyToSwim
#IHadABathTheOtherDayWhenTiagoHadToTakeACoupleOfHoursOffToLookAfterB
#IWasBoredOfLyingInBedAndThoughtItWouldDoMeGoodAndItWasTheFirstBathIHadEverHadWhilePregnantAndItWasGreatThoughIDidFeelGuiltyForHavingToUseSoMuchWater

#IKnowIHaveTakenALotOfPicturesOfMyselfLookingTiredInThePastForThisProjectWithinAProject #ButThisTimeIReallyAmTiredAndBeforeIDoNotThinkIKnewWhatTheMeaningOfTiredWas

I’m yet to do the shoot, but I think I will be probably lying down or some kind of pose that means little effort for my body.

(Yeah, a classic lie across the bed pose. I was initially wearing a dress, but I didn’t like how it looked in the photos/you couldn’t see my bump as well.)

#OrMaybeIWasTiredThenButIFeelExhaustedNowAndProbablyShouldBeSavingMyEnergyAndNotTryingToDoABitOfWork

I’ve been umming and ahh-ing about whether or not to write this today etc.

#IWentToBedFourNightsAgoFeelingLikeIWasMaybeGoingToBeSickButThoughtItWouldPass #IBarelySleptAndGotUpToGoToTheBathroomAroundOneThirtyInTheMorningAndKeptBeingSickThenFinallyStoppedButWasSickAgainAfterASitDown

I wish I had just made myself be sick before going to bed, but I really hoped it would pass.

#BActuallySleptUntilSixForOnceAndIWasSickWhenIGotUpThenButFeltFineEnoughToDoMyMorningExerciseButThenICrashed

Classic.

#IWentBackToBedAndTWatchedBThenIWatchedBForAnHourThenMyMumCameAndWatchedBUntilLunch

By watching B I mean I just laid on the sofa while she watched TV. I felt bad, but it was all I could do.

#ThenIGotUpToGiveHerLunchAndSheHadFallenAsleepOnMyMumSoTiagoWatchedHerDuringHisLunchThenSheNappedAndINapped

She was just asleep on my Mum’s lap. We (well Tiago) kept her up for an hour and hoped that she would sleep again.

#IWasSurprisedThatBSleptForTwoHoursButIGotHerUpAndPutHerInOurBedButThenISuddenlyFeltSick

It’s good to know that she can nap for a good amount of time after having a short nap not too long before.

The sickness just kind of ‘rose up’.

#SoIManagedToPutHerOnTheFloorAndRunToTheBathroomWhereIWasSickAndIMeanSickkk

Grim. B was just crying and luckily Tiago came upstairs and took her downstairs.

#IThinkItIsExhaustionAndTheSicknessIsASideEffectOfItThoughIHaveNotBeenSickSinceButHaveFeltLikeIWillBeAtTimes

I will probably call the doctors tomorrow just to rule stuff out, but I also don’t want to waste their time.

#BeforeBWasBornIDidUsedToSpendAWeekendInBedAtLeastOnceAYearButObviouslyItIsHardToDoThatNow

Lie in bed and try to sleep, or just watch terrible TV. I did feel better the next night as I just watched TV in bed, and I fell asleep with my phone next to me which I never do – and slept solidly until B woke up at 5.30am.

#TypicallyItHappenedAfterBStartedNurseryButIGuessMyBodyKnewICouldBeIllSoItWaitedUntilThenAndIHaveNotReallyBeenIllSinceBWasBorn

I guess it’s been due, and growing a baby is tiring.

#BHasBeenABitUpAndDownAsWellButMaybeItIsDueToStartingNurseryAndHavingALeapAndTeethingAndBeingFrustratedAtNotBeingAbleToTalk

I try to put myself in her shoes. It must be so annoying not being able to say what you want, though I can guess at times, but sometimes I seem quite off.

#WeGaveHerLunchYesterdayAndSheJustPushedItAllToTheFloorSoICriedAsIWasSoTired

That was my frustration.

#WeThoughtItWasBecauseSheWasOvertiredSoWeJustPutHerDownForHerNapAndSheWokeUpAfter40Minutes

Great.

#TiagoNeededARestAndIFeltTooTiredToLookAfterHerSoIGotIntoHerCotAndRubbedHerBackUntilSheFellBackToSleep

Not the approach I like to take, but I was desperate.

#IManagedToGetOutOfHerCotAndOutOfTheRoomWithoutHerWakingUpAndSheSleptForNearlyTwoMoreHours

I felt like a bit of a champion.

#IDoWorryHowIAmGoingToCopeWithTwoKidsButIAmHopingThatIWillSomehowFeelLessTiredWhenTheBabyIsOutAndNotTakingAllMyNutrientsButIDoubtIt

I do intend to breastfeed again, so she will still be taking nutrients but in a less invasive way to being inside of me I imagine. That’s what I think anyways. The baby is due to double in size between now and birth. *Nervous laugh*

#IHaveBarelyHadAnAppetiteButIHaveBeenMakingMyselfEatForTheBabysSake

It’s been a struggle.

#IDidHaveMy28WeeksMidwifeAppointmentThoughAndSheSaidEverythingSeemedFineButThatIShouldDrinkMore

I really struggled to get a urine sample before I left the house, but I couldn’t see over my bump and so didn’t catch most of it. She said it was enough for the test though. I had drank a lot, but I guess it was old piss. Lovely.

#IDidNotRealiseThatIWasGoingToHaveABloodTestButLuckilyIHadForcedMyselfToEatASandwichBeforeGoing

And drinking all the drinks had helped as it came out quite easily. Hurrah.

#SheSaidTheBabyWasMeasuringWellAndThatSheHasAPercentileOf50Percent #SheToldMeThatBHadAPercentileOf32WhenSheWasBornWhichIDidNotKnowSoThisBabyIsDefinitelyBiggerForNow #IActuallyThoughtBHadBeenLessThan32SoThatIsGoodToKnow

I thought that B had just been over the okay line (I’m not sure what that is, but I thought it was around 10-15%?)

So yeah my suspicions of the baby being bigger have been confirmed. Maybe the first time my body was testing me and thought I could grow a bigger one this time?

#SheWasTryingToFigureOutWhereTheBabysHeadWasButSaidItDoesNotMatterAsBTurnedAroundTheDayBeforeSheWasBornAnyways

Cue a conversation about B’s birth again.

#ThisWeekendMyParentsAreDueToLookAfterBAndIAmABitNervousWithAllHerEarlyWakings

Le sigh.

#WeChangedOurHotelYesterdaySoThatWeAreStayingCloseToOurFavouriteIndianRestaurantInsteadAndTheRoomHasABigBathAsIDoNotKnowIfIWillHaveTheEnergyToSwim

We can also cancel until an hour before check-in so if my parents change their minds, then we can cancel.

This hotel also has a pool, but it is a bit cheaper and we haven’t had food from our favourite Indian restaurant in a long time so it’s a good excuse to change hotel and location.

#IHadABathTheOtherDayWhenTiagoHadToTakeACoupleOfHoursOffToLookAfterB

I think this makes me sound really bad…

#IWasBoredOfLyingInBedAndThoughtItWouldDoMeGoodAndItWasTheFirstBathIHadEverHadWhilePregnantAndItWasGreatThoughIDidFeelGuiltyForHavingToUseSoMuchWater

A lot to cram into the last hashtag, but yeah it was good. I had ran a very shallow bath to begin with and realised I either had to really fill it up or not have a bath. It was weird lifting my bump out of the water as it suddenly felt cold, but also quite heavy?

28 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait of myself nude from my head to knees. There are white sections over my breasts and pubic area.
I Just Want A Nice Record Of My Pregnancy As Maybe I Will Never Be Pregnant Again (28 and a half weeks)
 
#IPlannedToRecreateMyFailedBloodTestsPhotoButIWas7AndAHalfWeeksPregnantThen
#IAmNow28AndAHalfNowSoMyBumpWasTooBig
#SoIRemadeIHaveNeverSeenMyBodyLikeThisBeforeAndItIsSoWeirdInstead
#IHaveTakenNudePicturesBefore
#AndThereAreOthersInTheSeries
#ButIDoNotKnowWhyIFeelSoWeirdAboutHavingThemInThisSeries
#IGuessBecauseTheyAreNotReallyHiding
#AndAllAboutRevealing
#ThoughWhenPostingItIWillHaveToCensorItWhichIsSomewhatARelief
#IHaveBeenMakingSureThatITakeMorePicturesForMyself
#AsMaybeIWillNeverBePregnantAgain
#AndIDoNotActuallyWriteInMyDiaryAboutBeingPregnantThatMuch
#SoThisProjectIsANiceRecordOfIt
#MyBumpIsDefinitelyGettingBigger
#IThinkTheBabyDoublesInSizeBetweenNowAndBirth
#IHaveBeenContinuingMyDanceVideos
#TodayTwoPeopleSaidCongratsOnMyPregnancy
#IHadOnlyHadOneOtherMessageBefore
#SoMaybeItIsFinallyMoreObvious
#MyYouTubeAudienceIsMainlyMaleWhichIsABitWeird
#TodayIGotASexualInstagramMessage
#IThinkTheyFoundMyInstagramViaMyYouTube
#ItIsObviousOnYouTubeAndOnInstagramThatIAmPregnant
#SoItIsMoreWeirdToGetGrossMessages
#ThoughIKnowThatSomePeopleHavePregnancyFetishes
#WhichIsWhyItPutsMeOffSharingNudePhotosOfMyPregnantSelf
#ButItIsAlsoFunnyAsIThinkALotOfPeopleGetPregnantAndDoProfessionalNudeShoots
#EvenIfBeforeTheyWouldNotThinkAboutBeingPhotographedNude
#IJustWantANiceRecordOfMyPregnancy
#MyAppSaysThereAre80DaysLeftIfIGiveBirthOnTheDueDate

Well, spoiler I am pregnant again but it would be nice to have a comparison photo.

I have taken less nudes this time (if any?), but I do need to take at least one like this just as a reminder – and maybe baby X will say ‘Hey Mum, why did you not take a nude portrait with me?’

I am still dancing, but I think I need to be more casual about it with my tiredness and all. No one has commented about my bump yet, but then again I am quite behind with posting them – just like this project. At the time of writing this, this will be my 17th post that I need to post. They’re all ready to go, but yeah I’ve fell behind.

I’m also adding the first photo that I took at 29 weeks on as it talks about my 28 week appointment:

The backdrop is half a plain white wall and half black fabric. I am stood with the wall to my right and the fabric to my left, facing the left of the image. I am wearing a bra and leggings and have my left hand on my hip. Tiago's right hand is resting on my left thigh.
Subject: Leaky Boobs (29 weeks)
 
#IHadAMidwifeAppointmentTheOtherDay
#IAmSupposedToHaveThemEvery3Weeks
#ButTheyAreBeingChangedToEvery4WeeksNow
#IDidTheUsualUrineTestForProteinAndAllWasFine
#MyBloodPressureWasLowInAGoodWayAgain
#SheTriedToDoABloodTestToCheckMyIronLevels
#SheOnlyHadTwoNeedlesInHerBag
#TheRestWereInHerCar
#AndSheCouldNotManageToGetBlood
#SheSaidMyVeinsAreDeep
#IMadeSureIAteAndDrankWaterButObviouslyWasNotEnough
#TheyAreStillDoingHomeBirthsForNow
#AndSheSaidThatMorePeopleAreAskingForHomeBirthsNow
#SheSaidMyMusclesAreSeparatingQuiteALot
#AndThatIMayNeedToDoPhysioAfterBirth
#TiagoStoodAtTheDoorAsSheCheckedTheHeartbeat
#AllWasFine
#SheSaidMyPlacentaIsMainlyAtTheFront
#AndThatMightBeWhyISometimesCanNotFeelTheBaby
#IAmFeelingItMoreThoughParticularlyWhenIAmLyingDownInBed
#OftenICanNotFeelIt
#ButIPutMyHandAtTheBottomOfMyBumpAndICanFeelIt
#IKeepWakingUpAround3am
#WhenIWokeUpAtHalf3TodayMyLeftBoobFeltWeird
#ICouldNotSleepSoIReadForAnHour
#AtSomePointIRealisedThatItHadLeakedABit
#ThatIsTheFirstTimeThatHasHappenedSoItWasKindOfOddButExciting
#IThoughtItWouldNotHappenUntilLaterButLetUsSeeWhenTheRightOneFirstLeaks
#IEmailedMyselfWithTheSubjectOfLeakyBoobToRemindMyselfIncaseIForgotByTheMorning
#IHaveABruiseOnMyRightArmFromTheBloodTestAndIForgotToIncludeItInThePhoto

My midwife appointments are currently every 3 weeks. My blood test was more successful this time too.

No one has mentioned that my muscles have separated this time, which is good – I’ve made an effort to not do anything that might encourage them to separate more.

I think my placenta is at the back this time.

I’m yet to have a leak, so maybe that might happen soon?


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General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot V (28 Weeks / 10th November 2021)

Shoot which I am recreating for the 5th time this pregnancy. I am wearing a bra and leggings. I have my right hand clasping my left elbow. My bump is bigger than the previous version of this image.
General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot V (28 Weeks / 10th November 2021)
 
#WellIBelieveIAmInTheThirdTrimesterNowThoughSomeSourcesSayItStartsAt29Weeks
#IFeelLikeISayThisAfterEveryShootButHowCanMyBumpGetAnyBigger
#IFinallyGotMyWhoopingCoughVaccineAndItWasFineThoughMyArmWasALittleSore
#BIsBackToWakingUpAtFiveInTheMorningWhichIsStressingMeOutABit
#SheHasHadACoupleOfSettlingInSessionsAtNurseryAndTheFirstOneWentBetterAsSheHadJustWokenUpFromANap
#SheLookedABitConfusedWhenTheyTookHerFromMyArmsAndIJustStayedFillingInForms
#SheCameOutAndWantedToGoBackAsSheHadHadFunAndHadSeenHerLittleFriendAndTheyHadBeenExcitedToSeeEachOtherApparently
#TheNextSessionSheHadBeenUpSinceFiveThoughWePutHerInOurBedForAnHourAndSheSleptALittleMore
#IDroppedHerOffAfterSheHadAlreadyBeenAwakeForHoursAndWentRoundTheLocalShopsAsSheWasNotDueToBeThereForVeryLong
#IGotHerADogCuddlyToyWhichWillBeHerPresentFromBabyX
#WhenIWentToGetHerSheWasCryingAndTheySaidSheHadBeenFunnyTheWholeTimeAndMaybeWasTired
#ISaidYeahIThinkSoAndSheFellAsleepOnTheWayHomeAndWasGrumpyWithMeWhenIWokeHerUpSoIPutHerStraightToBed
#SheFellAsleepOnTheWayHomeFromHerToddlerClassLastWeekAsWellAndIWasTryingToWakeHerUpAndSheWasGettingAnnoyedWithMe
#SheSeemsToSuddenlyBeAFussyEaterSoIDoNotThinkSheHasBeenEatingAsMuchAsSheUsuallyDoes
#MaybeItIsHerTeethOrMaybeItIsDueToTheLeapSheIsMeantToBeGoingThroughOrMaybeItIsACombinationOfDifferentThings
#SheNormallyEatsAGoodBreakfastButMaybeSheIsAnnoyedAsIMadeHerABatchOfPlainishPorridgeInsteadOfButternutSquashPorridgeSoWeWillHaveToRevertToThat
#IJustWantHerToGoBackToSleepingUntilSixAsItWouldBeBetterWithNurseryAndStuff
#IFinallyTookHerToSoftPlayAgainThoughItWasADifferentOneToLastTime
#WeWentToMeetFriendsThatWeHaveNotSeenForAgesAndItWasQuiteNice
#IShouldProbablyTakeBMoreButItIsABitBoringForHerAgeAndNotSoFunIfYouAreNotWithSomeoneElseOrOtherPeopleDoNotTalkToYou
#SheHadFunInTheCovidPitIMeanTheBallPitThoughAndSheLikedClimbingOverEverything
#WeWalkedHomeInTheDarkWhichBSeemedIntriguedByAndIKeptTryingToPointOutTheMoonToHer
#AtTheWeekendWeWentToVisitMySisterAndHerFamilyWhichWasFunAndItWasSoNiceToSeeBAndHerCousinPlayingTogether
#TiagoHadABoysNightAndIHadAGirlsNightOnTheFridayEveningWhereAfterDinnerWeEndedUpGoingToABarForAHotChocolateAtTenInTheEvening
#AtFirstTheyWereNotGoingToLetUsInAsTheyCouldNotServeUsDrinksWithoutFoodAfterTenButISaidWhatAboutHotChocolatesWhichIsWhatWeWanted
#ItIsNiceToTravelAndSeePeopleButIThinkTiagoIsKeenToJustStayPutForAWhileNowApartFromOurWeekendWithoutB
#IAmBoredOfPackingAndTiagoSaysHeFeelsLikeHeJustNeverStopsWhichIsFairEnough
#IFeelLikeAllIWantToDoTheseDaysIsEatWhichIGuessMakesSenseWithAGrowingBabyInsideOfMe
#IDoStruggleToGetUpToStandingAtTimesOrSometimesIStandUpTooFastAndGetPains
#IReallyNeedToStartPreparingForTheBirthAsTimeIsFlyingBySoFast

#WellIBelieveIAmInTheThirdTrimesterNowThoughSomeSourcesSayItStartsAt29Weeks

I thought I was last week, but 28 weeks seems to be quite an official third trimester start. It makes sense if 42 weeks is the usually the ‘maximum’.

#IFeelLikeISayThisAfterEveryShootButHowCanMyBumpGetAnyBigger

I know I was pregnant with B not very long ago, but it’s still weird to see myself with a bump.

#IFinallyGotMyWhoopingCoughVaccineAndItWasFineThoughMyArmWasALittleSore

Standard. It was sore for a couple of days, which was more than I thought it would be. I did forget to spin my arm around afterwards though and maybe that’s why? (I did that with my flu jab and it wasn’t bad at all.)

#BIsBackToWakingUpAtFiveInTheMorningWhichIsStressingMeOutABit

Well, the last couple of mornings she has woken up at 4 something, but I think she has gone back to sleep for a bit. I have been anyways…

#SheHasHadACoupleOfSettlingInSessionsAtNurseryAndTheFirstOneWentBetterAsSheHadJustWokenUpFromANap

I had to get her up from her nap early to get her there on time. She was ready to PARTY.

#SheLookedABitConfusedWhenTheyTookHerFromMyArmsAndIJustStayedFillingInForms

I said ‘She’ll be fine in a minute’ and they said as soon as she went in the room she started to play with a toy car and look at a book.

#SheCameOutAndWantedToGoBackAsSheHadHadFunAndHadSeenHerLittleFriendAndTheyHadBeenExcitedToSeeEachOtherApparently

Apparently her friend came in the room and ran over to her and they started to ‘chat’. Cute. After we left she tried to go back in…

#TheNextSessionSheHadBeenUpSinceFiveThoughWePutHerInOurBedForAnHourAndSheSleptALittleMore

I find it hard to sleep well when she is in our bed though. I do not want to make this a habit but I wanted her to get more sleep as I was anxious about nursery.

#IDroppedHerOffAfterSheHadAlreadyBeenAwakeForHoursAndWentRoundTheLocalShopsAsSheWasNotDueToBeThereForVeryLong

It seemed like a waste of time to come home, then go back as I wouldn’t have done much. I hadn’t been round shops in a long time, so it was nice to have a look about.

#IGotHerADogCuddlyToyWhichWillBeHerPresentFromBabyX

I realised the other week that she does not have a dog cuddly toy. I’ve been looking about for one, but couldn’t make my mind up. Seeing them in person made a difference. It’s got a cute hat.

#WhenIWentToGetHerSheWasCryingAndTheySaidSheHadBeenFunnyTheWholeTimeAndMaybeWasTired

I could hear a kid crying when I was waiting and I thought that maybe it was her, but I was not sure.

#ISaidYeahIThinkSoAndSheFellAsleepOnTheWayHomeAndWasGrumpyWithMeWhenIWokeHerUpSoIPutHerStraightToBed

I tried to keep her awake with a cookie (oats, banana and almond butter), but she fell asleep with it in her hand. I tried to rush home, but I can’t really rush with a bump anymore…

#SheFellAsleepOnTheWayHomeFromHerToddlerClassLastWeekAsWellAndIWasTryingToWakeHerUpAndSheWasGettingAnnoyedWithMe

She fell asleep with a bit of cream cheese sandwich in her hand then. She did nap at home afterwards though, so it made me not so worried this time. If she naps for 5 minutes it doesn’t seem to affect her nap so much – she had 2 and a half hours that day, and 2 hours fifteen after nursery.

#SheSeemsToSuddenlyBeAFussyEaterSoIDoNotThinkSheHasBeenEatingAsMuchAsSheUsuallyDoes

She did not like the cauliflower korma I made the other night, but I thought she wasn’t hungry. We had it for dinner last night too and it got the same reaction. I gave her some baked beans and she ate them all up…

#MaybeItIsHerTeethOrMaybeItIsDueToTheLeapSheIsMeantToBeGoingThroughOrMaybeItIsACombinationOfDifferentThings

Oh, kids.

#SheNormallyEatsAGoodBreakfastButMaybeSheIsAnnoyedAsIMadeHerABatchOfPlainishPorridgeInsteadOfButternutSquashPorridgeSoWeWillHaveToRevertToThat

The other morning she seemed so hungry that I just wanted to get food in her asap. We make the porridge into little pancakes and she will often just eat the mix cold from a spoon while she waits…

#IJustWantHerToGoBackToSleepingUntilSixAsItWouldBeBetterWithNurseryAndStuff

She will – I hope. Fun times.

#IFinallyTookHerToSoftPlayAgainThoughItWasADifferentOneToLastTime

It’s been on my list for a while.

#WeWentToMeetFriendsThatWeHaveNotSeenForAgesAndItWasQuiteNice

We hadn’t seen them since before our holiday. It was going to get dark too early to meet in a park, so we needed somewhere to meet indoors.

#IShouldProbablyTakeBMoreButItIsABitBoringForHerAgeAndNotSoFunIfYouAreNotWithSomeoneElseOrOtherPeopleDoNotTalkToYou

Also with me being pregnant it makes it less fun. Our friend climbed up between the ladder and the slide and was sending the kids down the slide.

#SheHadFunInTheCovidPitIMeanTheBallPitThoughAndSheLikedClimbingOverEverything

Soft landings are definitely great when you like to fall off/over everything.

I am still nervous about Covid…

#WeWalkedHomeInTheDarkWhichBSeemedIntriguedByAndIKeptTryingToPointOutTheMoonToHer

We didn’t take the shortcuts and it was rush hour so it was quite safe. I think she did take notice of the moon a bit, but she seemed more interesting in looking at all the houses with their lights on.

#AtTheWeekendWeWentToVisitMySisterAndHerFamilyWhichWasFunAndItWasSoNiceToSeeBAndHerCousinPlayingTogether

They had a bath together where they were super splash happy. B slipped under the water a few times, but was fine…

#TiagoHadABoysNightAndIHadAGirlsNightOnTheFridayEveningWhereAfterDinnerWeEndedUpGoingToABarForAHotChocolateAtTenInTheEvening

They had offered to babysit while we went out for dinner. I knew Tiago really wanted to see his guy mates and talk Portuguese. They hadn’t been together as a group in about three years… My initial plan was to just stay home and rest, but then I thought I should try to arrange something, so I met a few gal pals for dinner at one of my favourite pizza places, then we went to an outdoor beer garden but I was upset that they didn’t have hot chocolate and it was cold, so we went to a place that we thought would be serving hot drinks.

#AtFirstTheyWereNotGoingToLetUsInAsTheyCouldNotServeUsDrinksWithoutFoodAfterTenButISaidWhatAboutHotChocolatesWhichIsWhatWeWanted

Well, three hot chocolates and a mocha. My kind of Friday night! I got home before 12, but I ended up staying late as I didn’t feel tired and regretted that.

#ItIsNiceToTravelAndSeePeopleButIThinkTiagoIsKeenToJustStayPutForAWhileNowApartFromOurWeekendWithoutB

I have been letting myself off doing lots of work for this project if we’re away, so it would nice to be more consistent before the baby is born. It’s good that B is starting nursery as it will give me more time in the week to get stuff done.

#IAmBoredOfPackingAndTiagoSaysHeFeelsLikeHeJustNeverStopsWhichIsFairEnough

He says when we’ve been away, by the time it gets to Thursday he feels like he has been working for 12 days straight. We have been trying to have a weekend in-between trips at home, but yeah it is tiring.

#IFeelLikeAllIWantToDoTheseDaysIsEatWhichIGuessMakesSenseWithAGrowingBabyInsideOfMe

While writing these hashtags and blog I have eaten a lot, and now I am starting to get hungry again.

#IDoStruggleToGetUpToStandingAtTimesOrSometimesIStandUpTooFastAndGetPains

I like to sit on the floor after stretching and watch a bit of TV/YouTube. I feel fine, but when I stand up I feel awful. I need to start using things to help me up too, as I don’t and then I stretch something and regret my decisions.

#IReallyNeedToStartPreparingForTheBirthAsTimeIsFlyingBySoFast

So fast. At the moment I’m about 10 weeks away from when B was born (pregnancy wise).

28 weeks pregnant comparison with B:

I'm leaning over a blue exercise ball on mys side and hugging it. My legs are out straight and my feet are on the floor.
Me, My Ball & My Lump (28 weeks)
 
#VideoCalledWithMyNanAndMumToday
#NanRefersToMyBumpAsALumpWhichMakesMeLaughEveryTime
#MyMumSaidThatMyFaceLooksMoreFilledOut
#APregnancyAppSaysThatTheBabyIsTheSizeOfACanteloupeMelonNow
#TiagoSaysIHaveTwoMelonsAndAWatermelon
#ILookedDownAtMyBellyTodayInBedAndItLookedALotBigger
#ILookAtItEverydayMultipleTimesSoIAmNotSureWhyIWasSoShockedThatTime
#IFeelTired
#EvenBeingAtHomeAllTheTimeIFeelLikeIDoNotReallyStop
#INeedToChillOutABit
#IMightHaveANapShortly
#IQuiteLikeBeingAtHomeAllTheTime
#IJustFeelBadThatICanNotVisitMyNan
#AtLeastWhenMyMumGoesRoundToTakeHerFoodWeCanVideoChat
#IFinallyGotRoundToBlowingUpTheExerciseBall
#IWasThinkingAboutGettingAnOfficeChairButIWillTrySittingOnTheBallInstead
#TiagoCanUseItForExercisingToo
#AndApparentlyItIsGoodForWhenYouAreInLabour
#NeedToStartToThinkAboutGettingMoreBabyStuffTogether
#OurBabyBathSupportArrivedTheOtherDay
#TiagoSaysHeWantsAnAdultSizedOne
#IHaveNotTakenABathSinceBeforeIFoundOutIWasPregnant
#ObviouslyIShowerButForSomeReasonIHaveBeenTooScaredToHaveABath
#IThinkItIsBecauseYouHaveToBeCarefulWithHavingThemTooHot
#SoIHaveJustAvoidedThem
#ButNowIAmOfficiallyInTheThirdTrimesterAndMaybeIShouldHaveOne
#IGotABadLegCrampLastNight
#ItIsTheThirdTimeItHasHappenedNow
#IDefinitelyFeelALumpEveryTimeButItGoesAwayWithTheCramp
#MyMumSaysIShouldPutMyFeetUpMore

I’m currently sat writing this while sat on the ball. This just reminded me to blow it up, so I did.

Living with my Nan she refers to my ‘lump’ all the time now…

‘#IJustFeelBadThatICanNotVisitMyNan’

Well, now I’ve seen her most days for over a year…

I haven’t taken a bath this time either. I know it’s fine for me to, but I do worry that I will cook the baby… I know it’s stupid, but oh well.

I’ve had leg cramps probably a similar number of times, but I keep forgetting to check for the lump. I’m trying to stay hydrated, but I do forgot at times/I worry about needing the toilet too much when I’m out.

Tiago is lying on the sofa, propped up by two blue pillows and has his eyes closed.
Tiago & His Holiday Beard (28 weeks)
 
#TiagoOnlyUsuallyHasSomethingThatResemblesABeardWhenWeHaveBeenOnHoliday
#IGuessItShouldBeCalledHisLockdownBeard
#ButIAlwaysReferToHisFacialHairAsAHolidayBeard
#HeIsNotOnHolidayThoughAsHeIsWorkingFromHome
#ButStillHasVideoMeetingsToAttend
#HeJustCanNotBeBotheredToShave
#HeHasBeenInAFewPicturesInThisProject
#ButNotAsManyAsIFirstThought
#ThoughDueToLockdownItMightBeAGoodChanceToPhotographHimMore
#IThinkTryingToGetHashtagsOutOfHimLastTimeWasHardWork
#IKnewThisWeekendThatIWantedToPhotographHimThough
#WeWentOutForAWalkTodayAndThePlanWasToPhotographHimWhenWeGotHome
#IThoughtTheSofaWasASafeBetAsHeWouldBeRelaxed
#HeDidFallAsleepAtSomePoint
#HeSpentALotOfTimeTodayCookingAndTidying
#IWantedHimToHaveHisEyesClosed
#ButItDoesLookABitLikeHeIsDead
#TheWeekendsGoBySurprisinglyFast
#IAmWaitingForHimToGetOffAVideoCallWithHisParents
#AndThenIWillAskHimIfHeHasAnythingThatHeWantsToSayAboutImpendingFatherhood
#HeWasOnThePhoneForAboutAnHour
#HeSaysHeIsFeelingExcitedByIt
#ItIsBecomingMoreRealEveryDay
#HeSaysHeIsMainlyFocusedOnTheBabyAndNotThatStressedOutByCorona
#HeFeelsConnectedToTheBabyAlreadyEvenThoughHeDoesNotKnowThemYet
#FeelingThemKickIsNice
#HeLooksForwardToParentingAndGettingToKnowTheBaby
#AndTheChallengeOfIt
#HeSaysSeeingMyBumpInTheFleshIsStrangeYetNaturalAtTheSameTime

Tiago was getting rid of his beard for in person meetings, but now he just keeps it smart at a shorter level. Thanks Covid!

I think this time he forgets that I am pregnant. He does talk to bump most nights, but some nights he is too tired – like last night.

I’ve not bothered him too much this time with being in the project as I know he is busy, and often when I am working he is watching B. The family portraits are nice though. We need to do one of them soon…


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Documenting My Bump From A Different Angle (27 Weeks / 2nd November 2021)

Self-portrait sat on floor. My feet are out in front touching each other, and my hands are clasping my bump. The image is shot from above.
Documenting My Bump From A Different Angle (27 Weeks / 2nd November 2021)
 
#IAmYetToDoTheShootButIImagineItWillBeSomeAboveShotOfMyBumpAsWhenIExerciseILookDownAndThinkThatIsWhatIWantToPhotograph
#IThinkBabyXMayBeMoreActiveThanBWasAsWhenIWasPregnantWithBIWasOftenJustSatByMyselfNotMakingMuchNoise
#NowAllDayIAmTalkingToBAndSingingToHerAndReadingHerBooksSoSheProbablyReactsToTheNoiseALot
#HoweverSheDoesKickOrPunchMeALotWhenIAmInBedAndItIsQuiteQuietSoMaybeSheIsMoreActive
#IAmAlreadyStrugglingToPutMySocksOnButIRealisedAsBWasASummerBabyIJustWoreSandalsOutsideButAsBabyXIsAWinterBabyINeedToWearSocks
#IUsuallyWearTiagosShoesIfHeIsNotComingOutWithUsAsTheyAreEasierToJustSlipOnAndOff
#WeSurvivedTheClockChangeThoughIDidWakeUpAndNoticeTheClockWasOffSoThoughtItHadFreakedOut
#ThenIRealisedTheElectricityHadGoneOffSoIWentToPlayWithTheFuseBoxAt2InTheMorningAsIWasWorriedAboutTheFreezerDefrosting
#IUsedAWoodenSpatulaAsIWasWorriedAboutGettingAnElectricShockAndEverythingCameBackOn
#IWasLookingForwardToTheOvenFinallyHavingTheRightTimeOnItButThenISetItAs8InsteadOf6SoIHadToTurnItOffFor15MinutesAndTryAgain
#BWokeUpAt5ButSheIsAlreadyAdaptingThoughLastNightSheWasAwakeFor3HoursBetween12And3AsSheWasProbablyTeethingAndIsGoingThroughALeap
#InOtherNewsBHasBeenOfferedAPlaceForNursery
#SheHasASettlingInHourSessionThisWeekThenAnHourAndAHalfOneNextWeekAndThenSheStarts
#IFeelGuiltyAboutItAndIFeelLikeABitOfAFailureAsAStayAtHomeMum
#ButAtTheSameTimeIThinkItWillBeGoodForHerEspeciallyWhenBabyXComesAlongAndIWillBeTiredAndHaveLessEnthusiasm
#ItIsOnlyForACoupleOfHalfDaysAWeekAndRealisticallyIWillProbablyPickHerUpEarly
#IThinkSheWillLikeItThereAndItWillGiveMeABitMoreTimeToOrganiseMyselfBeforeBabyXIsBornAndThenIKnowIHaveABitOfTimeEachWeekWhereIOnlyHaveToLookAfterOneKid
#UltimatelyIThinkItIsTheBestThingForUsAsAFamilyAndIFeelLikeItIsStartingAtTheRightTime
#MyParentsLookedAfterBForTheFirstTimeTheOtherDayAndItGaveMeATasteOfHowItMightBe
#WeDroppedHerOffAfterBreakfastAndThenWeStayedABitToMakeSureSheWasAlright
#ThenWeWentHomeAndDidABitOfWorkThenWentOutForLunchWhereTheySaidThatTheyCouldNotServeTheDishOfTheDayYetAsTheyWereABitBehind
#IJustMadeACommentAboutHowWeWereTooKeenAsItWasOurFirstLunchDateWithoutOurDaughterAndSoHeSaidHeWouldMakeASmallBatch
#TheDelayMeantWeHadSomeTimeToTalkAndItWasNiceToFeelLikeWeAreNotJustParentsInTheNicestWayPossible
#OnTheWayHomeIFeltColdAndMyBumpWasTooBigToDoTheZipOfMyCoatUpSoWeHadToSwapCoatsAndIThinkTiagoMayBeBorrowingMyCoatForAWhileNow
#AtHomeWeWatchedAlmostOneEpisodeOfAmericanCrimeStoryThenHadANapThenWentToPickHerUp
#IThinkMyTimeWillLookVeryDifferentToThatWhileBIsAtNurseryButIGuessIMightRestALittleBitSometimesThoughIWillProbablyFeelGuiltyForDoingThat
#ItIsGoodToKnowThatBCanHappilySpendTheDayWithMyParentsThoughAsSoonTheyWillBeHavingHerForAnOvernightStay
#IGuessThisIsAllGoodPreparationAsTheyWillProbablyHaveToLookAfterHerWhileIAmInHospitalGivingBirth
#ApparentlySheLookedForUsForFiveMinutesWhenWeLeftButWhenWeArrivedWeWalkedInTheRoomAndSheDidNotEvenNotice
#IAmLikingThatTheMorningsAreLighterNowButINeedToGetUsedToGettingBOutOfTheHouseEarlierForAnAfternoonWalk

#IAmYetToDoTheShootButIImagineItWillBeSomeAbstractShotOfMyBumpAsWhenIExerciseILookAtItAndThinkThatIsWhatIWantToPhotograph

We shall see.

(Well, it ended up as an above shot of my bump. I like it.)

#IThinkBabyXMayBeMoreActiveThanBWasAsWhenIWasPregnantWithBIWasOftenJustSatByMyselfNotMakingMuchNoise

By this point I was at home all the time, not singing in case the neighbours heard me, and Tiago was in the small bedroom/his office working all day.

#NowAllDayIAmTalkingToBAndSingingToHerAndReadingHerBooksSoSheProbablyReactsToTheNoiseALot

Plus I have my Nan to talk to, and my Mum comes round a few times a week, and I take B for walks and talk to people at the playground and park.

#HoweverSheDoesKickOrPunchMeALotWhenIAmInBedAndItIsQuiteQuietSoMaybeSheIsMoreActive

I think the position of the placenta may have something to do with it too, but it’s probably a mix of all these things.

#IAmAlreadyStrugglingToPutMySocksOnButIRealisedAsBWasASummerBabyIJustWoreSandalsOutsideButAsBabyXIsAWinterBabyINeedToWearSocks

Trying to find the easiest way to put them on. Generally sitting down and doing a figure of 4 with my leg.

#IUsuallyWearTiagosShoesIfHeIsNotComingOutWithUsAsTheyAreEasierToJustSlipOnAndOff

The laces are done up and they slip on and off easily.

#WeSurvivedTheClockChangeThoughIDidWakeUpAndNoticeTheClockWasOffSoThoughtItHadFreakedOut

It’s a digital clock that sits on my desk, so I usually sit up and look at it when I wake up. Exciting stuff.

#ThenIRealisedTheElectricityHadGoneOffSoIWentToPlayWithTheFuseBoxAt2InTheMorningAsIWasWorriedAboutTheFreezerDefrosting

I had noticed other things weren’t showing their usual lights, and then the lamp next to the bed wouldn’t turn on. Tiago didn’t seem too bothered, but I wanted to sort it out. I was quite awake though.

#IUsedAWoodenSpatulaAsIWasWorriedAboutGettingAnElectricShockAndEverythingCameBackOn

Everything made a noise and I was surprised that no one woke up – especially the doorbell ringing.

#IWasLookingForwardToTheOvenFinallyHavingTheRightTimeOnItButThenISetItAs8InsteadOf6SoIHadToTurnItOffFor15MinutesAndTryAgain

I like to think I’m quite good at fixing things, but I hadn’t been able to work it out. Before it was nearly at the right time before the last clock change, then someone came and fixed the oven and set it to the right time. More exciting stuff.

#BWokeUpAt5ButSheIsAlreadyAdaptingThoughLastNightSheWasAwakeFor3HoursBetween12And3AsSheWasProbablyTeethingAndIsGoingThroughALeap

Luckily we’d both gone to bed early. I think Tiago was asleep at 9 and I was asleep around 9.45 possibly?

#InOtherNewsBHasBeenOfferedAPlaceForNursery

Hurrah.

#SheHasASettlingInHourSessionThisWeekThenAnHourAndAHalfOneNextWeekAndThenSheStarts

I am a little nervous, but I think she will love it.

#IFeelGuiltyAboutItAndIFeelLikeABitOfAFailureAsAStayAtHomeMum

Well, I guess in the beginning I won’t be a stay at home Mum when B is at nursery, but once Baby X is born I will be again.

#ButAtTheSameTimeIThinkItWillBeGoodForHerEspeciallyWhenBabyXComesAlongAndIWillBeTiredAndHaveLessEnthusiasm

She will love seeing the other kids and playing with different toys I’m sure. The food sounds nice too!

#ItIsOnlyForACoupleOfHalfDaysAWeekAndRealisticallyIWillProbablyPickHerUpEarly

It’s not much at all, but it’s enough for now.

#IThinkSheWillLikeItThereAndItWillGiveMeABitMoreTimeToOrganiseMyselfBeforeBabyXIsBornAndThenIKnowIHaveABitOfTimeEachWeekWhereIOnlyHaveToLookAfterOneKid

Baby X won’t be moving about for a long time and will be napping a lot. B naps once a day now and is always moving about. It will be different.

I need to really go through all my stuff and have a clear out, then go through baby clothes sorting them and washing them etc.

#UltimatelyIThinkItIsTheBestThingForUsAsAFamilyAndIFeelLikeItIsStartingAtTheRightTime

I feel less guilty now. I am definitely starting to feel more tired as bump gets bigger…

#MyParentsLookedAfterBForTheFirstTimeTheOtherDayAndItGaveMeATasteOfHowItMightBe

Though T and I have both felt a bit ill since. We’ve had negative Covid tests. I think our bodies just decided that it was safe to be ill.

#WeDroppedHerOffAfterBreakfastAndThenWeStayedABitToMakeSureSheWasAlright

My Dad recorded some episodes of Teletubbies for her and she seemed quite content.

#ThenWeWentHomeAndDidABitOfWorkThenWentOutForLunchWhereTheySaidThatTheyCouldNotServeTheDishOfTheDayYetAsTheyWereABitBehind

At first we thought they were closed as they had a sign up saying they were closed for a function, but that was the day before.

#IJustMadeACommentAboutHowWeWereTooKeenAsItWasOurFirstLunchDateWithoutOurDaughterAndSoHeSaidHeWouldMakeASmallBatch

Legend. It wasn’t that great in the end, but it felt good to get out and sit in a restaurant/cafe looking out the windows and not having to worry about B.

(We had lunch dates when we visited T’s parents I think, but it was always different as we always felt like we were on a timer.)

#TheDelayMeantWeHadSomeTimeToTalkAndItWasNiceToFeelLikeWeAreNotJustParentsInTheNicestWayPossible

I guess some couples have kids and then all they really talk about is the kids, so it was nice to think and talk about other things. We did talk about her a bit of course, but it was good to feel a bit like our old selves again too.

#OnTheWayHomeIFeltColdAndMyBumpWasTooBigToDoTheZipOfMyCoatUpSoWeHadToSwapCoatsAndIThinkTiagoMayBeBorrowingMyCoatForAWhileNow

He never realised how cozy my coat was. His coat was cold…

#AtHomeWeWatchedAlmostOneEpisodeOfAmericanCrimeStoryThenHadANapThenWentToPickHerUp

The day went fast.

#IThinkMyTimeWillLookVeryDifferentToThatWhileBIsAtNurseryButIGuessIMightRestALittleBitSometimesThoughIWillProbablyFeelGuiltyForDoingThat

I’m sure I’ll have my to do lists. If I get my stuff done then I can rest.

#ItIsGoodToKnowThatBCanHappilySpendTheDayWithMyParentsThoughAsSoonTheyWillBeHavingHerForAnOvernightStay

This was a test run.

#IGuessThisIsAllGoodPreparationAsTheyWillProbablyHaveToLookAfterHerWhileIAmInHospitalGivingBirth

With B I was in for 4 days, so we will have to see how it goes this time. It’s also good prep for B going to nursery, though she knows my Mum well.

#ApparentlySheLookedForUsForFiveMinutesWhenWeLeftButWhenWeArrivedWeWalkedInTheRoomAndSheDidNotEvenNotice

I was just going to sit on the sofa until she noticed but Tiago said hi.

#IAmLikingThatTheMorningsAreLighterNowButINeedToGetUsedToGettingBOutOfTheHouseEarlierForAnAfternoonWalk

Before we would dawdle for a bit before going for a walk. This morning I felt too tired to take B out for a walk, so we definitely need a good one later.

27 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait lying on a sofa leaning on my right elbow and my right hand is nestled in my hair. My top is lifted up so you can see my bump.
I Want To Keep Being Able To Go For Walks (27 weeks)
 
#IAmFeelingTired
#GladIDecidedYesterdayToTakePicturesOfMyselfOnTheSofaToday
#YesterdayIWasLyingOnThereWatchingMyBellyToSeeIfICouldSeeTheBabyMoving
#IHaveNotSeenTheBabyMoveAsMoveAsMuchAsTheFirstDayISawIt
#ITryToTakeABreakToSeeIfICanFeelAndSeeTheBabyMoving
#IThinkItIsMovingNow
#AndItWasDuringTheShootABit
#IDoNotThinkIWillReadBabyForumsForABit
#TheyStressedMeOutBefore
#ButNowWithCoronaTheyAreFullOfPeopleBeingMoreStressedOut
#StillTryingToGoOutForAWalkADay
#IMakeAnEffortToKeepAGoodDistanceBetweenMyselfAndOtherPeople
#TheOtherDayIWasOutsideOfASupermarket
#AWomanAndGuyCameAlong
#TheWomanWentInAndTheGuyStayedOutside
#ButHeStoodRightByTheDoor
#SoAnyoneGoingInAndOutHadToWalkLessThanAMetreAwayFromHim
#ThenYesterdayWeWereWalkingOnAVeryWidePathByTheKerb
#AGuyRanByPuffingAndPantingRightNextToUs
#IShouldHaveToldBothOfThemOff
#AndYesterdayISawTwoGuysCoughInTheStreetWithoutPuttingTheirHandsOverTheirMouths
#AndOneThenWalkedIntoTheSupermarketThatTiagoWasIn
#IWantToKeepBeingAbleToGoForWalks
#INeedTheExercise
#ButIfPeopleKeepNotKeepingTheirDistanceAndDoingDumbThingsThenIMightHaveToStop
#ThoughTheyAreTheOnesWhoShouldNotGoOut
#IFeelLikeMaybeWeWillNotGetIt
#ButMaybeIAmTryingToBeOptimistic
#ItSeemsMoreSeriousByTheDay
#IJustWantToKnowHowLongItWillGoOnForButItCouldBeALongTime

Well, I’m definitely feeling tired. I’m writing this on 2nd November. I’m going to have a nap once I finish the comparison bit.

I have not really read any forums this time as I do not have the time or energy for them.

People still annoy me, but less so now I am double vaccinated. I am worried now that cases are increasing again though.

People running right next to me while breathing loudly does still annoy me a lot.

#IJustWantToKnowHowLongItWillGoOnForButItCouldBeALongTime

Well, it’s still going on and I wrote that in March 2020.

Self-portrait with Tiago. He is facing the right of the frame and I am hugging him with my left hand, but facing more towards the camera.
I Feel Like I Have Lost A Sense Of Urgency (27 weeks)
 
#AnotherDayAtHome
#WellWeWentOutForAShortWalk
#YesterdayWeLeftOurWalkUntilTooLate
#WhenItWasStartingToGetDarkAndCold
#SoWeDidNotGoOut
#OriginallyWeWereHavingOurWalksAfterItGetsDark
#ButTheWeatherGotBetterSoWeWantedToEnjoyTheSunABit
#IHavePlentyOfThingsToKeepMeBusy
#ButIFeelLikeIHaveLostASenseOfUrgency
#LikeWhyRushAsIAmNotGoingAnywhereElse
#AFriendAskedUsIfWeWereOkayJustBeingAroundEachOtherAllDay
#YeahWeAreUsedToBeingHomeALot
#WeAreLuckyAsWeCanSitInDifferentRoomsWhilstWeAreWorkingIfWeWant
#ThoughThisWeekendWeHaveStuckToTheSameRoom
#IWasSupposedToStartPhotographingHimMoreAWhileAgo
#IDidForABitButIFeltBadBotheringHim
#HeWasOnThePhoneDoingTheWashingUpToday
#AndIWasHuggingHim
#AndIThoughtThatWouldMakeAnAlrightPicture
#SoLaterOnIAskedHimAndHeObviouslySaidYes
#ObviouslyAsInHeIsInThePicture
#AskedTiagoIfHeHadAnyCommentsAndHeSaid
#IFeelKindOfRelaxedToBeFair
#HopefulThatThingsWillGetBetterInAMonthOrTwo
#ISaidIThinkItMightTakeAWhileForThingsToGoBackToNormal
#ItMightBeAfterIGiveBirthAtThisPoint
#IThinkEvenWhenThisNonLockdownEndsIWillBeCautious
#AsItCouldQuiteEasilyComeBackAndStartAllOverAgain
#WhoKnows
#IThinkWeJustNeedToBeCareful

I was not much of a walker until Covid. Now with B I love to get out of the house, though this morning I felt too tired to and instead did some baking (we have a lot of bananas that need eating).

I remember this ‘loss of urgency’ phase quite well, but it did not really last too long. It was just a lot to try to comprehend.

We are still trying to be careful.

Me sitting on the floor in a bra and leggings with my legs together in butterfly pose and my hands on my knees. My bump is showing.
The Baby Moving Reminds Me Of A Whale Rolling (27 and a half weeks)
 
#AnotherHalfAWeekGone
#TimeFliesInItsOwnWay
#EvenWhenIAmAtHomeAllTheTime
#ApartForOurLittleDailyWalk
#WeNowWalkALessBusyWayIfWeDoNotNeedToGoToTheSupermarket
#WhichWeHaveNotBeenToItInAFewDaysButProbablyWillGoToTonight
#ExcitingTimes
#WellIWillJustStandOutsideJudgingTheBehaviourOfOthers
#IFeelLikeMyDaysAreStillPrettyFull
#IGuessIHadAGoodRoutineBeforeLockdownHappened
#SoThingsJustContinueAsNormalish
#IAmTryingToReadMore
#AndMaybeIWillStartToWatchMoreTVButIFeelLikeIDoNotHaveMuchTimeForIt
#MaybeJustAtTheWeekends
#IAmQuiteFarBehindWithPostingTheProjectForOthersToSee
#ItIsFunnyReadingMyPreviousConcerns
#ThingsLikePeopleTouchingMyBelly
#LuckilyIWillNotHaveToWorryAboutThatWithSocialDistancing
#WhenWeGoOutForAWalkIWorryThatPeopleLookAtMeLikeSheShouldNotBeOutHere
#ButThatIsWhyItIsNiceThatWeGoTheQuietRoute
#AndPeopleSeemToBeGettingBetterAtKeepingADistance
#IStillGetWorriedAboutNotFeelingTheBabyMove
#IThinkIJustGetSoDistractedByThingsThatIDoNotRegisterItMoving
#IThinkItIsMovingNowThough
#WhenItTurnsOverItRemindsMeOfWhenYouSeeAWhaleRolling
#NotThatIAmComparingTheBabyToAWhale
#ButIJustVisualiseThatRollingMotion
#IGuessItIsARelaxingComparison
#IDoNotFeelTooWorriedAsIBarelyLeaveTheFlat
#ICallMyNanEverydayAndIHopeThatSheStaysFine

It’s so weird that Covid is still going on, but it’s better now that there are vaccines.

My walks are more with purpose these days as I am usually taking B somewhere, and we live in Birmingham now instead of Liverpool.

I think I will not stop being anxious about the baby during the pregnancy, and then when they’re born there are new anxieties.


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Pregnancy In The Time Of Corona Again (25 Weeks / 20th October 2021)

Close up of my bump with my bra and leggings in shot.
Pregnancy In The Time Of Corona Again (25 Weeks / 20th October 2021)
 
#ITookAPhotoCalledPregnancyInTheTimeOfCoronaWhenIWas25WeeksPregnantWithB
#NoOneKnewHowLongThePandemicWouldGoOnForButIAmSurprisedThatItIsStillGoingOn
#IGuessIWillNeverExperienceANormalPregnancyWhateverNormalMeans
#ButItMustBeHarderForPeopleWhoKnowWhatItWasLikeToBePregnantAndHaveABabyInNonCovidTimesButForMeThatIsOnlyWhatIKnow
#MyGumsHaveBeenBleedingALotInTheLastFewDaysWhichIKnowIsFairlyNormalForPregnancy
#WhatIDidNotRealiseIsThatToothAcheIsACommonSymptomTooWhichMakesMeFeelBetterAsOneOfMyTeethHasBeenPlayingMeUpForTheLastCoupleOfWeeks
#BWokeUpAtSixThirtyYesterdayWhichIWasHappyAboutButTodaySheWokeUpAtFiveThirtyAgain
#AtOnePointInTheNightIThoughtWeHadGotBUpAndSheWasRunningAroundOurRoom
#ThenILookedAtTheClockAndSawItWasTwelveFortyAndSaidToTiagoHeyItIsTwelveForty
#HeJustAskedMeIfIWasOkayAndThenIRealisedThatBWasStillInHerCot
#DueToBecomingMorePregnantIHaveStartedToTakeHerHandsAndLetHerStepUpTheStairsToNapsAndBedtime
#NowWhenSheIsAtTheBottomOfTheStairsSheReachesForMyHandsWhichIsQuiteSweet
#SometimesWhenISingTwinkleTwinkleLittleStarToHerInHerCotSheDancesAlong
#SheIsASuperCoolKidButIFeelBadThatIAmSoTiredAndHaveLessEnthusiasmTheseDays
#IThinkHerGoingToNurseryACoupleOfMorningsAWeekWillBeGoodForAllOfUs
#EspeciallyNowThatTheWeatherIsGettingQuiteRubbishThoughIDoTryToTakeHerOutOnceOrTwiceADayStill
#SheHasAPuddleSuitButItLeavesHerWithASoggyBumIfSheSitsDownAtAllOutsideWhichSheDoesAllTheTime
#SoIHaveHadToOrderHerAProperWaterproofOneOtherwiseIAmJustGoingToFeelMoreStuckInTheHouseWithHer
#ILetHerWalkToThePlaygroundNowButThatTakesAboutFortyMinutesAsSheUsuallyStopsToLookAtEverything
#SheAlsoLikesToRunUpAndDownHillsWhichAreBarelyHillsAtAllButAreProbablyLikeMountainsToHer
#ITryNotToPickHerUpTooMuchButIDoEndUpCarryingHerSometimes
#SheLikesToTipHerHeadBackAndThenSheLaughs
#SheHasStartedToTipHerBackInTheSwingTooAndICanSeeThatSheHasMoreTeethComingThrough
#HopefullyOnceSheStopsTeethingForABitSheMightStartToSleepABitLater
#WeAreGoingAwayThisWeekend
#IFeelABitStressedAsWeAreStayingInAHotelRatherThanAnApartmentSoIAmWorriedAboutWhatSheWillHaveForEachMeal
#IAmSureItWillBeOkayThoughAndINeedToStartWritingAPackingList
#IAmHopingThatSheWillGetToMeetSomeMorePeopleAndThatIGetToShowHerOffABit
#ItIsWeirdThinkingHowThingsWouldBeNowIfCovidHadNeverHappened
#WeMightHaveNotMovedToBirminghamButIfWeHadStayedInLiverpoolWeMightHaveEndedUpMovingCloserToParksButItIsGoodForHerToSeeMoreOfHerBritishFamily

#ITookAPhotoCalledPregnancyInTheTimeOfCoronaWhenIWas25WeeksPregnantWithB

(I imagine the comparison photo will be that image, so please scroll down.)

#NoOneKnewHowLongThePandemicWouldGoOnForButIAmSurprisedThatItIsStillGoingOn

How long will it go on for? No one knows.

#IGuessIWillNeverExperienceANormalPregnancyWhateverNormalMeans

Well, just a pregnancy not in the time of Covid.

#ButItMustBeHarderForPeopleWhoKnowWhatItWasLikeToBePregnantAndHaveABabyInNonCovidTimesButForMeThatIsOnlyWhatIKnow

I have nothing to compare it to really. I can compare it to TV, film or what I hear, but I never actually lived it so *shrug*.

#MyGumsHaveBeenBleedingALotInTheLastFewDaysWhichIKnowIsFairlyNormalForPregnancy

I know they bleed when I floss, but they just seemed to randomly bleed the other day. I need to book a dentist appointment…

#WhatIDidNotRealiseIsThatToothAcheIsACommonSymptomTooWhichMakesMeFeelBetterAsOneOfMyTeethHasBeenPlayingMeUpForTheLastCoupleOfWeeks

I am worried I will have no teeth left by the time I’m 40. Like I said – I need to book a dentist appointment.

#BWokeUpAtSixThirtyYesterdayWhichIWasHappyAboutButTodaySheWokeUpAtFiveThirtyAgain

Ergh. I’ve gone to bed earlier the last couple of nights. I am planning to have a nap after I finish writing this, as at least when B wakes up early she has a longer first nap so I have time to work and rest.

#AtOnePointInTheNightIThoughtWeHadGotBUpAndSheWasRunningAroundOurRoom #ThenILookedAtTheClockAndSawItWasTwelveFortyAndSaidToTiagoHeyItIsTwelveForty #HeJustAskedMeIfIWasOkayAndThenIRealisedThatBWasStillInHerCot

Lol. Classic dream confusing me.

#DueToBecomingMorePregnantIHaveStartedToTakeHerHandsAndLetHerStepUpTheStairsToNapsAndBedtime

She would crawl before but she would keep stopping to make sure I was following her, though I was 10cm behind, so this seemed like a quicker option.

#NowWhenSheIsAtTheBottomOfTheStairsSheReachesForMyHandsWhichIsQuiteSweet

Cute.

#SometimesWhenISingTwinkleTwinkleLittleStarToHerInHerCotSheDancesAlong

I love when she dances, especially when there is no music playing and she just seems to sing to herself. This is more randomly around the house or on walks.

#SheIsASuperCoolKidButIFeelBadThatIAmSoTiredAndHaveLessEnthusiasmTheseDays

Did we watch a lot of TV yesterday? Yes. Did I feel bad about it? Yes.

Did she watch TV this morning? Yes. Did I try to read her 5 books to compensate in the end? Yes.

#IThinkHerGoingToNurseryACoupleOfMorningsAWeekWillBeGoodForAllOfUs

Though I do not know how much rest I will really get. I should do things like make meals while I have the free time, but hopefully I can rest a bit too. This is pre-baby X obviously.

#EspeciallyNowThatTheWeatherIsGettingQuiteRubbishThoughIDoTryToTakeHerOutOnceOrTwiceADayStill

I feel like we have much better quality time when we get out of the house. It has been raining all morning…

#SheHasAPuddleSuitButItLeavesHerWithASoggyBumIfSheSitsDownAtAllOutsideWhichSheDoesAllTheTime

Great. I took her on the slide the other day as I thought it didn’t matter. Soggy bum. Sat by a puddle another day. Soggy bum. Sat in the grass on another day. Soggy bum. Le sigh.

#SoIHaveHadToOrderHerAProperWaterproofOneOtherwiseIAmJustGoingToFeelMoreStuckInTheHouseWithHer

It’s annoying getting home and having to change her. I find changing her quite stressful as it is less easier with a big bump now.

#ILetHerWalkToThePlaygroundNowButThatTakesAboutFortyMinutesAsSheUsuallyStopsToLookAtEverything

It really shouldn’t take that long, but I aim to tire her out as well. To be fair to her she has much shorter legs and has only been walking for 4 months.

#SheAlsoLikesToRunUpAndDownHillsWhichAreBarelyHillsAtAllButAreProbablyLikeMountainsToHer

I learned to ride my bike around here when I was a kid and I remember visiting one time and thinking ‘where are all the hills? did they landscape the area?’ No I was just much smaller once.

#ITryNotToPickHerUpTooMuchButIDoEndUpCarryingHerSometimes

Trying to not strain the bump to much and all…

#SheLikesToTipHerHeadBackAndThenSheLaughs

She’s funny. It must feel funny for her.

#SheHasStartedToTipHerBackInTheSwingTooAndICanSeeThatSheHasMoreTeethComingThrough

No wonder she’s been waking up early. She has a good attitude though. She’ll have a finger in her mouth due to teething, but we smiling and bouncing along to music.

#HopefullyOnceSheStopsTeethingForABitSheMightStartToSleepABitLater

Please please please.

#WeAreGoingAwayThisWeekend

We want to try to have a few more weekends away before baby X is born, and there’s a photography book festival happening in Bristol so seemed like a good shout.

#IFeelABitStressedAsWeAreStayingInAHotelRatherThanAnApartmentSoIAmWorriedAboutWhatSheWillHaveForEachMeal

Breakfast opens at least an hour too late for B, so we will have to get some food for her to eat.

#IAmSureItWillBeOkayThoughAndINeedToStartWritingAPackingList

I need to relax more. I am not looking forward to packing.

#IAmHopingThatSheWillGetToMeetSomeMorePeopleAndThatIGetToShowHerOffABit

She still hasn’t met so many people…

#ItIsWeirdThinkingHowThingsWouldBeNowIfCovidHadNeverHappened

I don’t think about it much as it seems like a waste of time, but I just randomly had that thought while writing this. I have thought about it from time to time.

#WeMightNotHaveMovedToBirminghamButItIsGoodForHerToSeeMoreOfHerBritishFamily

Before we moved to Brum we did think about moving in Liverpool to be closer to parks and things, but it made sense to leave. I am happy being closer to my family and it does feel like we are starting to know people now.

25 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Close up of my bump with my bra and leggings in shot.
Pregnancy In The Time Of Corona (25 Weeks)
 
#SoTheThreatOfCoronavirusIsMoreRealNow
#OfficialGuidanceSayItIsNotReallyAThreatToPregnantWomen
#ButIDoWorryThatIfIGetItThatThereMightBeSomeSideEffectsForTheBaby
#IAmAlsoPrettyCertainThatIfItContinuesTheWayItIsThenIWillProbablyGetIt
#IJustHopeICanDelayGettingItUntilIAmMorePregnant
#BecauseOfCoronaIHaveNoticedHowDisgustingPeopleAreInGeneral
#ISawAGuyBlowHisNoseIntoHisHandInTheSupermarketTheOtherDay
#AWomanCoughedInTheLiftYesterdayAndSheDidNotPutHerHandOverHerMouth
#AsSoonAsSheCoughedThePeopleAtTheFrontOfTheLiftLookedAroundNervously
#SoIThinkAfterTheVirusGoesIWillJustWashMyHandsMoreAndUseHandSanitiserMore
#IPushedTheButtonForTheLiftWithAKnuckleBecauseIThoughtIWasBeingSmart
#ButIPushedItIntoTheBrailleAndItStartedToBleed
#MyHandsAreSoDryFromAllTheWashingAndHandSanitising
#IFeelAwkwardUsingTheHandSanitiserInPublic
#TiagoShookSomeonesHandTheOtherDayAndIPassedHimTheHandSanitiser
#IHopeItDidNotOffendTheOtherPerson
#IfIWasNotPregnantThenIThinkIWouldBeMoreChilledOut
#AtLeastBecauseIAmPregnantWeHaveNotMadeAnyTravelPlans
#AndWeWentToTheTheatreLastWeek
#IDoNotHaveAnythingBookedInMyDiaryThatIMightHaveToCancel
#JustLocalArtEventsWhichAreAShameToMissButIDoNotWantToBeInRoomsFullOfPeople
#IWasSpeakingToSomeoneOnTheStairsInMyWorkBuildingYesterday
#AndTodayTheyWereOffAsTheyWereReallyIll
#WeWereStoodAtLeastAMetreApartAndSheWasSomeStepsLowerThanMe
#TypicallyWeWereStoodTalkingAboutCorona
#TheBumpContinuesToGrowThough
#IDownloadedThatAppToMarkWhenIFeelItMove
#AndTheOtherDayAfterTalkingAboutItItHadAQuietDayWhichFreakedMeOut
#ButIThinkItDependsWhatIAmDoing
#WhenIAmAtWorkINoticeItMoreAsIAmNotMovingAboutSoMuch

Well, as far as I’m aware I’m yet to catch Covid but we’ll see. I am less stressed now that I am double vaccinated though.

At times I still feel a little awkward using my sanitiser – in B’s classes when I wander off to get some mainly – but it is more socially acceptable now.

I haven’t been to the theatre since the time mentioned here. I think we went to see Six, which was really good.

I am writing this bit on the same day of the top shoot for once. Funnily enough, I downloaded an app to monitor the kicks the other day. I have only used it once so far as I feel like this baby may be more active than B, or I am just at home more to notice. I can feel her kicking now.


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General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot IV (24 Weeks / 17th October 2021)

Shoot which I am recreating for the 4th time this pregnancy. I am wearing a bra and leggings. I have my right hand clasping my left elbow. My bump is bigger than the previous version of this image.
General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot IV (24 Weeks / 17th October 2021)

#IThoughtItWasTimeThatIDoOneOfTheseShootsAgain
#TheBraThatIWearForThemHasFallenApartALotSinceTheFirstShootSoItWillBeGoingInTheBinOnceBabyXIsBorn
#MyBumpIsDefinitelyGettingBiggerAndICanNotImagineItGettingMuchBiggerButIKnowItWill
#IAmStrugglingToBendDownToPickThingsUpNowWhichIsReallyHandyAsBLikesToThrowEverythingOnTheFloor
#YesterdayISuddenlyFeltTheUrgeToTidyUpOurRoomAndGetRidOfLotsOfThings
#IDoNeedToDeclutterAndReduceMyStuffAsWeArePlanningToMoveAtSomePointNextYear
#SoItIsBetterToDoItNowWhileICanMoveAboutIshAndBeforeBabyXIsBorn
#ThereIsSoMuchStuffThatHasSurvived5MovesWithMeButINeedToBeRealisticWhetherIWouldWantToPayToShipItInTheFutureAndTheAnswerIsUsuallyNo
#IThinkTheOrganisingPlusDoingSomeExtraDanceVideosReallyTiredMeOut
#ThisMorningBWasUpAtFiveThirtySoTiagoWentToGetHerAndUsuallyIWakeUpButIWasAsleepWithHerPlayingRightNextToMe
#SheHasBeenAwakeAtFiveThirtyTheLastFewMorningsWhichIsNotMuchFunThoughAtLeastSheHasALongFirstNap
#IThinkItIsDueToHerTeethingAsSheSeemsToAlwaysHaveHerFingersInHerMouth
#SheOnlyReallyHasMolarsLeftToComeThroughAndTheyCanNotBePleasantAtAll
#ILikeHowIUsedToCountHowManyTeethSheHasAndNowIHaveNoIdea
#WeHaveFinallyBookedToGoAndLookAtANurseryForHer
#TheDaysWeAreThinkingWillMeanWeWillNeedToCancelHerMusicClassAndIWasFeelingBadAboutItAsILikeHerTeacherALot
#ButItTurnsOutHerTeacherIsFiveWeeksLessPregnantThanMeSoSheWillBeGoingOnMaternityLeaveAndNowIDoNotFeelSoBad
#IAmFeelingQuiteStressedAboutBeingPregnantAndTheFactWeWillSoonHaveTwoKids
#WeJustSeemSoTiredAtTheMomentAndEvenThoughBWakesUpEarlyAtLeastWeDoGetAGoodAmountOfSleep
#IJustNeedToGoToBedEarlierWhichToBeFairIDidLastNightButItObviouslyWasNotEnough
#EveryoneKeepsSayingTheFirstYearIsTheHardestAndToBeHonestIAmNotLookingForwardToWeaningAndAllThatStuffAgain
#HopefullySheWillArriveAndIWillJustGetOnWithItAndAllICanDoIsToTryMyBest
#AtLeastInTheEarlyDaysTheirNeedsArePrettyBasic
#IJustNeedToMakeAnEffortToGetOutOfTheHouseOnceADayForMySanity
#ItWillBeAStruggleInTheBeginningIAmSureButWeJustNeedToFindARoutineThatWorksForUs
#IJustHopeThatWeDoNotGetLockedDownAgainButThenAgainWhatDoesItMatterWhenIDoubtIWillWantToGoFarAnyways
#IAmWorriedThatCasesAreRisingButEveryoneIsABitNonchalantAboutItButIGuessIAmMoreRelaxedNowIHaveHadMySecondVaccineAndFluJab
#IJustDoNotGetWhyWearingMasksInShopsAndStuffIsNotCompulsoryAndIAmSurprisedAtHowFewPeopleActuallyDoWearThem
#InOtherNewsBIsTryingReallyHardToTalkNowAndISwearSheSaysTickleTickleTickle
#IHaveHeardACoupleOfMamaAndMumSoundsEscapeFromHerLatelyTooSoIHopeSheMightActuallyStartSayingMumAtMeSoon

#IThoughtItWasTimeThatIDoOneOfTheseShootsAgain

The last one was at 19 weeks, so there should be a difference?

(Yes, there is – you can see the versions here: 1 / 2 / 3.)

#TheBraThatIWearForThemHasFallenApartALotSinceTheFirstShootSoItWillBeGoingInTheBinOnceBabyXIsBorn

Maybe in each picture it will start to look more shabby. I’ve been wearing my maternity bras for a while now, and this is not one of them.

#MyBumpIsDefinitelyGettingBiggerAndICanNotImagineItGettingMuchBiggerButIKnowItWill

*Nervous laugh*

#IAmStrugglingToBendDownToPickThingsUpNowWhichIsReallyHandyAsBLikesToThrowEverythingOnTheFloor

This morning she was eating some of my breakfast (scrambled eggs and crusts of my toast), and then throwing it on the floor. I did struggle to pick it up.

#YesterdayISuddenlyFeltTheUrgeToTidyUpOurRoomAndGetRidOfLotsOfThings

I love nesting.

#IDoNeedToDeclutterAndReduceMyStuffAsWeArePlanningToMoveAtSomePointNextYear

Every time I go through my things I get rid of a few more things, but I need to start being ruthless.

#SoItIsBetterToDoItNowWhileICanMoveAboutIshAndBeforeBabyXIsBorn

I am tired, so yeah there will never be a good time again.

#ThereIsSoMuchStuffThatHasSurvived5MovesWithMeButINeedToBeRealisticWhetherIWouldWantToPayToShipItInTheFutureAndTheAnswerIsUsuallyNo

Playing my favourite ‘would I pay £5 to ship this?’ game.

I told Tiago about it and he said would most things really cost £5 to ship. I said no, but would you still pay £5 to ship it? Is it worth the money?

#IThinkTheOrganisingPlusDoingSomeExtraDanceVideosReallyTiredMeOut

I did lie down before B’s second nap, but I’m not sure if I even slept.

#ThisMorningBWasUpAtFiveThirtySoTiagoWentToGetHerAndUsuallyIWakeUpButIWasAsleepWithHerPlayingRightNextToMe

Wake up as in become more alert. I ended up sleeping in until 7.10am, and then I looked through my books and stretched. Then Tiago had a nap (and is still napping as B is napping as I write this).

#SheHasBeenAwakeAtFiveThirtyTheLastFewMorningsWhichIsNotMuchFunThoughAtLeastSheHasALongFirstNap

I try not to put her down for a nap until 9, and then wake her up between 10.30 to 11 depending on our plans.

#IThinkItIsDueToHerTeethingAsSheSeemsToAlwaysHaveHerFingersInHerMouth

I’m being more generous with her paracetamol these days, as otherwise she does not nap or sleep very well. I do worry that I am drugging her at times, but it’s only when I see her with her fingers in her mouth and it’s been 4 hours since the last dose…

#SheOnlyReallyHasMolarsLeftToComeThroughAndTheyCanNotBePleasantAtAll

Bless her.

#ILikeHowIUsedToCountHowManyTeethSheHasAndNowIHaveNoIdea

If I put my finger in her mouth now it just gets bitten and it hurts.

#WeHaveFinallyBookedToGoAndLookAtANurseryForHer

Hurrah.

#TheDaysWeAreThinkingWillMeanWeWillNeedToCancelHerMusicClassAndIWasFeelingBadAboutItAsILikeHerTeacherALot

The class isn’t the best but I do really like her teacher and she makes it way more enjoyable.

#ButItTurnsOutHerTeacherIsFiveWeeksLessPregnantThanMeSoSheWillBeGoingOnMaternityLeaveAndNowIDoNotFeelSoBad

I mentioned I was pregnant last week and she said ‘oh me too’. I really could not tell that she was at all, but she does wear a baggy t-shirt. I had looked at moving locations and days, but I think once B goes down to one nap the other day and time will not work for us. Hopefully B will get enough stimulation at nursery and we can just do more music stuff at home.

#IAmFeelingQuiteStressedAboutBeingPregnantAndTheFactWeWillSoonHaveTwoKids

I feel like I’ve mentioned it before, but I am starting to get waves of overwhelmed-ness now.

#WeJustSeemSoTiredAtTheMomentAndEvenThoughBWakesUpEarlyAtLeastWeDoGetAGoodAmountOfSleep #IJustNeedToGoToBedEarlierWhichToBeFairIDidLastNightButItObviouslyWasNotEnough

This would probably make a big difference, and I’m sure once she is born I will have to just surrender to motherhood, but for now I am enjoying have a bit of evening time to myself.

#EveryoneKeepsSayingTheFirstYearIsTheHardestAndToBeHonestIAmNotLookingForwardToWeaningAndAllThatStuffAgain

I just need to take each day/cycle of the day at a time.

#HopefullySheWillArriveAndIWillJustGetOnWithItAndAllICanDoIsToTryMyBest

We wanted this baby and I have to handle the responsibility. I am nervous though.

#AtLeastInTheEarlyDaysTheirNeedsArePrettyBasic

And she won’t be running off like B does.

#IJustNeedToMakeAnEffortToGetOutOfTheHouseOnceADayForMySanity

It will be winter, but hopefully by then spring will not be too far away.

#ItWillBeAStruggleInTheBeginningIAmSureButWeJustNeedToFindARoutineThatWorksForUs

Like I said, I need to surrender to motherhood.

#IJustHopeThatWeDoNotGetLockedDownAgainButThenAgainWhatDoesItMatterWhenIDoubtIWillWantToGoFarAnyways

B’s classes moving to zoom would make things a lot easier to be fair. I doubt we will have another lockdown though.

#IAmWorriedThatCasesAreRisingButEveryoneIsABitNonchalantAboutItButIGuessIAmMoreRelaxedNowIHaveHadMySecondVaccineAndFluJab

Other countries have less cases and are in full panic mode, but I guess they are not as vaccinated as here.

#IJustDoNotGetWhyWearingMasksInShopsAndStuffIsNotCompulsoryAndIAmSurprisedAtHowFewPeopleActuallyDoWearThem

We still wear them in shops, and I do on public transport though that is rare. I have not been wearing them in classes, but in B’s music class she does not go near anyone else and we sit far back from everyone. At another class I probably should, but no one else does… When it’s time to sing we sat at the back of the bunch.

#InOtherNewsBIsTryingReallyHardToTalkNowAndISwearSheSaysTickleTickleTickle

It sounds more like ‘iggle iggle iggle’ or something else I guess, but I think that is what she is trying to say.

#IHaveHeardACoupleOfMamaAndMumSoundsEscapeFromHerLatelyTooSoIHopeSheMightActuallyStartSayingMumAtMeSoon

She’s been saying Dada and Dad for so long, though she doesn’t really say it at Tiago much. She is growing up fast though.

Despite my nervousness I am excited to see her with her sister.

24 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait wearing a black dress with white stripes. I have a toy octopus on my head.
So Many Decisions To Be Made (24 and a half weeks)
 
#SoWeFinallyBoughtSomeBabyStuff
#ThereWereSomeGoodSalesOn
#SoWeOrderedSomeBabyClothes
#AndThenISawSomeCuteToysSoIBoughtACouple
#ItFeelsLikeWeAreCursingThingsByBuyingStuff
#ButIAlsoDoNotWantToGetCaughtOutByHavingNothing
#ObviouslyTheBabyWillNotKnowIfItHasToysOrNotInTheBeginning
#ButThingsLikeClothesAreNecessary
#SoManyDecisionsToBeMade
#ThingsAreSeemingMoreReal
#ThoughIAlsoDoStillForgetThatIAmPregnantSometimes
#IFeltSoHeavyNotLongAgoButIFeelLighterTheseDays
#MaybeItIsAllTheStretchingIAmDoing
#AndOrMaybeIAmNotEatingSuchBigMealsNow
#IDoASquatPoseInTheMorning
#ButInTheEveningItIsHarderAsMyBellyIsFuller
#IBoughtAHypnobirthingCourseAfterAFriendsRecommendation
#INeedToStartDoingThatJustInCaseAsAgainIDoNotWantToGetCaughtOut
#IKeepReadingThingsAboutPeopleWhoDidNotWantToBeParents
#WhereasIDoButIWorryThatIWillBeRubbish
#ThoughIRememberGoingToSeeMyNieceForTheFirstTimeAndBeingWorriedAsIHadNotBeenAroundABabyForALongTime
#ButISoonGotOverTheNervousness
#ThoughIWasJustEntertainingHerAndNotDoingHerWholeRoutineAndBeingAroundHerAllDayEveryDay
#ICanOnlyDoMyBest
#AndSoonWeWillDoAnNCTCourseSoHopefullyWeWillNotBeTooClueless
#IFeelLikeTiagoIsGoodWithKids
#IAmLookingForwardToSeeingHimAsAFather
#IGotAKickTrackingAppYesterdayToTryToMakeMeFeelBetter
#ThoughIAmNotMonitoringHowManyKicksYetButJustWhenIFeelItMoving
#TodayIHaveNotFeltItMoveMuchButIThinkIHaveNotBeenThinkingAboutItAsMuchAsYesterday

This shoot was a bit bad. It was definitely a day when I was struggling with ideas…

It’s funny now as it’s gone from being a toy that we bought to it being B’s toy that she does interact with from time to time.

#ObviouslyTheBabyWillNotKnowIfItHasToysOrNotInTheBeginning

B has only really started to interact with the toys she had then, quite recently. Especially cuddly toys.

We aren’t going to do the hypnobirthing course again, but I have the book of it which we are both planning to read again. I need to get on with it really as time is flying by…

I downloaded an app to monitor kicks but I have only used it once. This baby seems more active, so I feel reassured. I am being kicked/punched right now…


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Imitating B Wearing My Pants On Her Head (23 Weeks / 9th October 2021)

Self-portrait diptych. I am wearing a black dress with white stripes in both. In the left image I have pants on my head in a way that looks more like a hat. On the right a leg hole follows my nose and shows the left side of my face.
Imitating B Wearing My Pants On Her Head (23 Weeks / 9th October 2021)
 
#IHaveMentionedBeforeThatBLikesToPutThingsOnHerHeadAndOrAroundHerNeck
#AParticularFavouriteIsGettingMyPantsFromTheClothesLineAndPuttingThemOnHerHead
#ItIsFunnyButItAlsoScaresMeABitSoWeNeedToKeepAnEyeOnHerAtAllTimes
#IWishSheCouldSayWhySheLikesToDoItSoMuchButSheIsStillJustBabblingALot
#IFeelLikeIShouldTalkAboutHowIAmFeelingThisPregnancyAsIThinkThatIHaveNotReallySpokenAboutItMuch
#IHaveBeenHavingALotOfDaydreamsWhereSomethingBadHappensToBabyXEitherNowOrAtTheBirth
#OftenIDaydreamForQuiteALongTimeBeforeIRealiseWhatIAmDoingAndSnapMyselfOutOfIt
#SometimesIDoNotFeelTheBabyForQuiteAWhileButIKnowItIsProbablyBecauseIAmRunningAroundAfterB
#ThoughLastNightIThinkICouldFeelHerHiccuppingForAWhileSoThatWasARelief
#IDidNotFeelBMoveThatMuchReallyAndSheHiccuppedALotTooWhichWasAGoodIndicationThatSheWasOkay
#AtLeastBIsAGoodDistractionWhoMakesTimeFlyButIAmStillQuiteAnxiousWithThisPregnancy
#IMessagedMyMidwifeYesterdayAsIHadNotBeenOfferedTheWhoppingCoughVaccineAndSheSaidToCallMyDoctors
#SoIDidThatAndThatWillBeInAFewWeeksAndSheAlsoEmailedMeMyMaternityExemptionCertificate
#TheDoctorsSaidIJustNeedToAskForMyFluVaccineAtTheSameTimeButIDoNotWantToWaitThatLongForIt
#SoIBookedWithAPharmacyToGetThatDoneThisWeekAsIKnowPeopleMyAgeWhoHaveBeenGettingTheFluQuiteBadThisYear
#YesterdayAfterBreakfastIFeltLikeIWasGettingSomeAcidRefluxWhichIHaveNotHadMuchOfYetAndICanFeelItABitNowWhichIThinkMayBeCausedByOrangeJuice
#ReadingAdviceTheySayToEatSmallMealsButOnceIEatIGenerallyCanNotStopSoIThinkTheTimeHasComeToShowSomeRestraint
#MyBumpIsGettingQuiteBigNowAndIFindItHardToImagineHowMuchMoreItCanGrowBeforeTheBabyIsBorn
#SoItMakesSenseThatINeedToEatLittleAndOftenInsteadOfALotAndInfrequently
#LastNightIWasAwakeForAboutTwoHoursFromTwoInTheMorningWhichWasAnnoyingAsIHaveNotHadThatMuchInsomnia
#IWasJustReallyHotAndThirstyAndThenMyBrainWouldNotLetMeGoBackToSleepSoThatWasFun
#IWasMainlyThinkingAboutSendingBToNurseryAndForHowMuchTimeDuringTheWeek
#ItWouldNotBeYetButWeNeedToHaveALookAtThemAndCheckAvailability
#WeSeeAGirlAroundWhoIsTheSameAgeAsBAndTheyGetQuiteExcitedWhenTheySeeEachOther
#SheGoesToTheNurseryThatWeWereLookingAtSoItWouldBeNiceForThemToHangOutMoreAndItIsGoodToHaveARecommendation
#WeWouldProbablyStartOffSendingHerTwoMorningsAWeekInACoupleOfMonthsTimeSoICanHaveSomeTimeToSortOutThingsBeforeBabyXIsBorn
#IWouldRatherSheGoForTwoMorningsThanAFullDayAsAfterAWhileIWouldJustStartToFaff
#TiagoHasStartedToTalkToBumpABitMoreAndFeltSomeMovementLastNight
#HeMadeMeLaughWhenHeWasTellingTheBabyToWakeUpAndSaidWakeyWabyInsteadOfWakeyBaby
#BAlsoMakesMeLaughWithHerEnthusiasmForThingsLikeHerTryingOutTheRampOnHerClimbingFrameByRunningUpAndDownItFiftyTimesPlusLastNight

(Trigger warning: I talk about some of my anxiety during the pregnancy and unpleasant day dreams.)

#IHaveMentionedBeforeThatBLikesToPutThingsOnHerHeadAndOrAroundHerNeck

I think so anyways. The dry skin at the back of her neck has probably been caused by her love of it…

#AParticularFavouriteIsGettingMyPantsFromTheClothesLineAndPuttingThemOnHerHead

I love when she also carries three pairs of my pants around the house too.

#ItIsFunnyButItAlsoScaresMeABitSoWeNeedToKeepAnEyeOnHerAtAllTimes

You can see how kids can easily suffocate themselves on accident…

#IWishSheCouldSayWhySheLikesToDoItSoMuchButSheIsStillJustBabblingALot

It’s probably just because she found she can do it and it usually gets a reaction. Fair enough.

#IFeelLikeIShouldTalkAboutHowIAmFeelingThisPregnancyAsIThinkThatIHaveNotReallySpokenAboutItMuch

I generally plan to, but then end up talking about all the things that B has been up to.

#IHaveBeenHavingALotOfDaydreamsWhereSomethingBadHappensToBabyXEitherNowOrAtTheBirth

Basically, I end up without a second baby.

#OftenIDaydreamForQuiteALongTimeBeforeIRealiseWhatIAmDoingAndSnapMyselfOutOfIt

I imagine the events, the conversations, the feelings, the reactions etc. It’s deep.

#SometimesIDoNotFeelTheBabyForQuiteAWhileButIKnowItIsProbablyBecauseIAmRunningAroundAfterB

I can feel her (I find it weird that I know it’s a girl) moving about now as I am sat writing this, but sometimes I don’t. When B is awake my attention and focus is elsewhere.

#ThoughLastNightIThinkICouldFeelHerHiccuppingForAWhileSoThatWasARelief

I originally wrote them instead of her as I find it weird to say it’s a girl, I think as I didn’t know what B was until she came out.

#IDidNotFeelBMoveThatMuchReallyAndSheHiccuppedALotTooWhichWasAGoodIndicationThatSheWasOkay

Hiccups are reassuring. My Mum said before that my younger sister was the same.

#AtLeastBIsAGoodDistractionWhoMakesTimeFlyButIAmStillQuiteAnxiousWithThisPregnancy

I need to start reading about hypnobirthing again and start mentally preparing myself for the birth. I stretch in the morning and evening, and try to go for a walk or two a day with B so I feel quite strong at least. I just need to get strong mentally.

#IMessagedMyMidwifeYesterdayAsIHadNotBeenOfferedTheWhoppingCoughVaccineAndSheSaidToCallMyDoctors

With B I’m sure they said about booking it quite early on, or maybe I was just on the ball.

#SoIDidThatAndThatWillBeInAFewWeeksAndSheAlsoEmailedMeMyMaternityExemptionCertificate

I’m sure with B they told me to come in the same day, so I was surprised it was a bit of a wait. It’s good that the certificate is not a piece of paper this time – so much more convenient.

#TheDoctorsSaidIJustNeedToAskForMyFluVaccineAtTheSameTimeButIDoNotWantToWaitThatLongForIt

I’m more bothered about getting my flu vaccine now than the whooping cough.

#SoIBookedWithAPharmacyToGetThatDoneThisWeekAsIKnowPeopleMyAgeWhoHaveBeenGettingTheFluQuiteBadThisYear

My Nan got hers at the start of the week. I do not fancy catching the flu.

#YesterdayAfterBreakfastIFeltLikeIWasGettingSomeAcidRefluxWhichIHaveNotHadMuchOfYetAndICanFeelItABitNowWhichIThinkMayBeCausedByOrangeJuice

I’m still loving my hashbrowns and scrambled egg toasted sandwich with a small glass of orange juice.

#ReadingAdviceTheySayToEatSmallMealsButOnceIEatIGenerallyCanNotStopSoIThinkTheTimeHasComeToShowSomeRestraint

I won’t be hungry, but then I’ll just keep eating for ages once I start – especially at lunch.

#MyBumpIsGettingQuiteBigNowAndIFindItHardToImagineHowMuchMoreItCanGrowBeforeTheBabyIsBorn #SoItMakesSenseThatINeedToEatLittleAndOftenInsteadOfALotAndInfrequently

I feel like I am running out of space already.

#LastNightIWasAwakeForAboutTwoHoursFromTwoInTheMorningWhichWasAnnoyingAsIHaveNotHadThatMuchInsomnia

I mentioned it before but it seemed to be a one off, or two night event.

#IWasJustReallyHotAndThirstyAndThenMyBrainWouldNotLetMeGoBackToSleepSoThatWasFun

I thought my Nan had put the heating on, but she hadn’t. By the time I’d checked the thermostat, and gone to the loo I was wide awake.

#IWasMainlyThinkingAboutSendingBToNurseryAndForHowMuchTimeDuringTheWeek

It’s been taking over my brain space for the last 16 hours or so?

#ItWouldNotBeYetButWeNeedToHaveALookAtThemAndCheckAvailability

I’m keen for it to be after B drops down to one nap a day, which isn’t far away, and when baby X isn’t so far away.

#WeSeeAGirlAroundWhoIsTheSameAgeAsBAndTheyGetQuiteExcitedWhenTheySeeEachOther

We see her and her parents at the playground a lot. They’ll see each other from a distance and start smiling and flapping.

#SheGoesToTheNurseryThatWeWereLookingAtSoItWouldBeNiceForThemToHangOutMoreAndItIsGoodToHaveARecommendation

If it’s good enough for her, then it’s good enough for B. Great.

#WeWouldProbablyStartOffSendingHerTwoMorningsAWeekInACoupleOfMonthsTimeSoICanHaveSomeTimeToSortOutThingsBeforeBabyXIsBorn

And just have a bit of time to feel less tired?

#IWouldRatherSheGoForTwoMorningsThanAFullDayAsAfterAWhileIWouldJustStartToFaff

I do not know what I would do for a full day a week without having B around. I have work to do, but it’s more beneficial for it to be two mornings than a whole day. I’d get a lot more done. It’d also break the week up a bit.

#TiagoHasStartedToTalkToBumpABitMoreAndFeltSomeMovementLastNight

He feels the middle of my belly, but I said I feel more movements at the bottom and then he felt something.

#HeMadeMeLaughWhenHeWasTellingTheBabyToWakeUpAndSaidWakeyWabyInsteadOfWakeyBaby

Yeah, not that funny really but we had a good laugh.

#BAlsoMakesMeLaughWithHerEnthusiasmForThingsLikeHerTryingOutTheRampOnHerClimbingFrameByRunningUpAndDownItFiftyTimesPlusLastNight

I was hoping it would wear her out, but she was up just before 6. Zzz.

23 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait diptych. I am wearing a maternity bra and leggings in both. On the left my leggings are covering my bump, and on the right my bump is exposed.
I Am Not Sick, I Am Just Pregnant (23 and a half weeks)
 
#IWasFeelingStressedYesterday
#WorryingAboutTheBabysMovements
#EveryoneTellsMeNotToWorryButItIsEasierSaidThanDone
#IHaveNeverExperiencedPregnancyBeforeSoIDoNotKnowWhatIsNormal
#IWasOnTheFloorEarlierAndWasStrugglingToGetUp
#AndIWasLaughingToMyself
#IHadToGoOntoAllFoursSoThatICouldStandUp
#IKeepThinkingMyBodyIsTheSameAsItUsedToBe
#YesterdayIWasSayingToTiagoThatMaybeIDoNotEvenLookThatPregnant
#AndHeWasLikeYesYouDo
#IGuessLookingDownAtMyselfItSeemsFairlyNormalNowAsItGrowsABitDaily
#ButIGetMoreWeirdedOutWhenILookInTheMirror
#IDefinitelyLookedMorePregnantInMyDanceVideosToday
#ItIsWeirdLookingBackAtOlderPhotosThoughOfWhenIThoughtIStartedToLookPregnant
#AndIBarelyLookPregnantComparedToNow
#IAmAlsoFeelingAnnoyedAboutWorkAndOpportunities
#WhenIWasTryingToGetPregnantNothingReallyCameUp
#AndAsSoonAsIGotPregnantIStartedToGetApproachedForThings
#IFeelLikeIHaveBeenTurnedDownForThingsBecauseIAmPregnant
#ButInsteadOfThemHavingAConversationWithMeAboutWhatIFeelAbleToDo
#TheyChooseToShutItDownAndJustStartIgnoringMe
#MaybeItIsNotBecauseIAmPregnant
#ButEitherWayJustSaySorryWeDoNotWantToWorkWithYou
#ByThemNotSayingThatAndNotTalkingWithMe
#ItJustFeelsLikeItIsDiscriminationBecauseIAmPregnant
#ButByThemNotChoosingToTalkAboutItThenICanNotCallItDiscrimination
#IAmPostingThisProjectOnlineNowAndIThinkPeopleThinkIAmPostingItInRealTime
#IAmStillWorkingIAmStillMakingWorkIAmStillDancingIExerciseTwiceADay
#IAmNotSickIAmJustPregnant
#IKnowHavingAKidMeansIWillHaveToTurnDownCertainOpportunitiesButIAlsoFeelLikeMaybeIAmAlreadyOnADoNotHireListNow

Another unintentional pairing of comparison pictures – two diptychs. They also both talk about anxiety during pregnancy.

I decided to have another baby as soon as possible as I felt like it would be good to get the baby stage done and then hopefully in the not so distant future I can apply for bigger opportunities again. I also do think it will be good for them to be close in age.

I feel like since becoming a parent I have been approached for less opportunities, but maybe it’s because Covid is also a big part of life now and that also affects things?

I had to turn down one opportunity when I was pregnant with B as it was for international travel around the time B was due, but I guess it got cancelled due to Covid anyways.


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Oh Me, Oh Mãe

Imitating B With Her Hands And Feet On The Floor (6th March 2021)

Imitating B With Her Hands And Feet On The Floor (6th March 2021)
 
#BIsDefinitelyMovingAroundQuickerEachDay
#YesterdaySheGotStuckByTheCushionsByTheTVAsSheOnlyLikesRollingOneWaySoSheKeptRollingIntoThemRatherThanAwayFromThem
#ThisPhotoIsMeImitatingHerWithHerHandsAndFeetOnTheFloorWhichSheHasStartedToDoInTheLastWeekOrSo
#ICanNotImagineHerWalkingAroundButIGuessThoseDaysAreGettingCloserAndCloser
#SometimesAtNightNowIHearHerCryingSoITurnOnTheMonitorAndSheIsJustSatUpInHerCot
#IHadACallWithMySupportBefrienderPersonTheOtherDay
#SheSaidSheThatCouldTellThatIWasDown
#ISaidIDoNotKnowWhyIBotherMakingProjectsAndThingsWithTheFreeTimeIHaveWhenICouldBeRelaxingInstead
#SheSaidItIsBecauseYouLoveIt
#ILikeThisProjectFromTimeToTimeButItIsMoreThatIFeelIHaveToMakeIt
#WhenIDoAGoodShootIFeelGreatButWhenIDoNotIFeelPrettyDown
#SoHerCommentGaveMeAKickToActuallyStartShootingForAProjectThatIHaveBeenThinkingAboutForAFewWeeks
#IDoNotKnowIfItWillEverSeeTheLightOfDayButIDefinitelyFeelBetterForHavingStartedIt
#ThisMorningTiagoGotBUpAt7AndHeWillLookAfterHerUntilHerNapAtAround10
#IDidMyDanceVideosFirstThingToGetThemDoneAsIFeelLikeTheyHangOverMeAtTheWeekend
#TodayIReallyEnjoyedItButSomeWeeksItIsJustAnotherThingThatIFeelIHaveToDo
#INeedToStopFeelingGuiltyForHavingSomeTimeToMyself
#IWorkPrettyQuicklyNowWithTheFreeTimeIHaveAndTiagoIsBsDadSoOfCourseHeShouldBeSpendingTimeWithHer
#IThinkIFeelBadAsTiagoIsWorkingAllWeekAndMakingMoneyWhereasIDoNotMakeMuch
#IAmDoingSomeNonArtPaidWorkAtTheMomentWhichIJustDoInFifteenMinutesToTwoHoursIshSessions
#IDoLookForOtherWorkWhereBWouldHaveToGoToNurseryButThereDoesNotSeemToBeMuchOutThere
#ItWouldAlsoNeedToBeSomethingWhichLeavesMeWithEnoughAfterPayingNurseryFeesToSeemWorthIt
#MostOfTheMumsIKnowWithBabiesOfASimilarAgeAreEitherBackAtWorkOrGoingBackSoon
#ItIsAnnoyingInTheSenseThatSoonWeWillBeAbleToHangOutWithOtherBabiesButTheyAllMightBeInNurseries
#IGuessThereWillBeSomeAroundThoughWhoseParentsWorkPartTimeOrWhoAreInASimilarPosition
#IHaveSpokenToACoupleOfMumsThisWeekAtThePlaygroundWeGoTo
#IRealiseNowThatEveryoneElseProbablyWantsToChatButTheyAreJustAsAwkwardAsMe
#MyCurrentMumPickupLineIsHowOldIsYourLittleOne
#WeSayWeWillSeeEachOtherAroundButWeHaveLivedHereForFourMonthsAndIDoNotThinkIHaveSeenThemBefore
#WorkingOnANewProjectAndTalkingToPeopleMakesMeFeelHappierSoINeedToKeepOnDoingWhatIAmDoing

#BIsDefinitelyMovingAroundQuickerEachDay

I’m excited for her to walk, but I’m almost nervous. We’re on bump alert most of the time at the moment.

#YesterdaySheGotStuckByTheCushionsByTheTVAsSheOnlyLikesRollingOneWaySoSheKeptRollingIntoThemRatherThanAwayFromThem

We have cushions everywhere. She definitely has a rolling preference. She was getting agitated and I’m like ‘why don’t you just roll the other way?’

Obviously she can’t understand me, but eventually she had rolled into them enough times that she was able to make enough space to roll onto her belly and crawl away. Gripping stuff.

#ThisPhotoIsMeImitatingHerWithHerHandsAndFeetOnTheFloorWhichSheHasStartedToDoInTheLastWeekOrSo

I was toying between imitating this and the way she sits down sometimes. I will have to aim to do that next time.

I haven’t done the shoot yet, but I wrote it like I had. I guess the backdrop will be the cupboards in our bedroom again… I could quickly go into B’s room and do it there, but by the time I finish writing this she is due to sleep. I could just go and do the shoot now. Hmm.

Okay I need to move quick…

Well that was fun. Tiago and B came up during the shoot and the light was blocking the doorway (health and safety!!!), so Tiago passed B over the light which she found hilarious.

I obviously (well maybe it’s not that obvious) have more hair than B. I did some yoga after my dance videos too so that helped, especially as B is so flexible.

#ICanNotImagineHerWalkingAroundButIGuessThoseDaysAreGettingCloserAndCloser

So bizarre. I know other babies who are standing up/supporting themselves, but B seemed to want to crawl first and now she has mastered that she is working on her standing.

#SometimesAtNightNowIHearHerCryingSoITurnOnTheMonitorAndSheIsJustSatUpInHerCot

I wanted to write more about this/I did and then deleted them as I needed more space for other things. Maybe I should have kept them? Maybe I should have saved it for my next post?

It did weird me out the first time I saw her just sat there. I don’t know why, it just looked odd!

#IHadACallWithMySupportBefrienderPersonTheOtherDay

I never know what to call her. The woman who calls me every 2 weeks to talk about my mental health. I had thought about quitting the service as they probably have a waiting list and I don’t want to unnecessarily take up their resources. I just feel like I don’t have time for a 30 minute call every 2 weeks (lol) as it happens during B’s nap, but it is useful and it does make me think differently about things.

#SheSaidSheThatCouldTellThatIWasDown

I was trying to hide it.

#ISaidIDoNotKnowWhyIBotherMakingProjectsAndThingsWithTheFreeTimeIHaveWhenICouldBeRelaxingInstead

I have said it before. I wish I could just relax and do nothing, but I’m stubborn about making work. I obviously need to do it as well.

#SheSaidItIsBecauseYouLoveIt

I was like ‘Do I though?’

#ILikeThisProjectFromTimeToTimeButItIsMoreThatIFeelIHaveToMakeIt

It is more just a project that I feel I am stuck making for now. I don’t know how long I will do it for. I thought maybe until B is one, but maybe it is a more long-term thing now that I just need to do once a week, so I have time for other things?

#WhenIDoAGoodShootIFeelGreatButWhenIDoNotIFeelPrettyDown

At the moment this shoot sits on the so-so pile. I might feel differently about it later.

Some weeks I have really not wanted to do this project, particularly when B was a bit younger.

In my ArtsQuest article (ooh get me quoting myself) I said ‘I decided to set up the blog not long after giving birth in June 2020 in a sleep-deprived haze of confidence. There are times that I have told myself off for giving myself extra work as my stubbornness means I will continue to write posts for probably at least a few more years to come whether anyone reads it or not.

I am glad that I did not quit it when there were times that I wanted to. I think this project will be interesting to look back on when B is older.

My favourite shoots are definitely those where I am imitating B, so I just need to make it more fun and playful.

#SoHerCommentGaveMeAKickToActuallyStartShootingForAProjectThatIHaveBeenThinkingAboutForAFewWeeks

Sometimes I have ideas that pass quickly, but this one was stuck in my head to the point where I knew I needed to do it. I had been doing some research for it, but I usually work best by shooting and seeing where it goes. It’s meant to be a fun project, which is self-portraiture and sticks within my interests.

#IDoNotKnowIfItWillEverSeeTheLightOfDayButIDefinitelyFeelBetterForHavingStartedIt

Starting a project is the hardest thing. Particularly now when my last few photography projects have generally been shoot, talk about it and post it, it’s weird doing work where it doesn’t feel like that might be the case. I may need to sit on it and see. It is another project though where I think I do just need to do keep shooting and accumulate mass to wade through.

Was that poetic? It seemed to be.

#ThisMorningTiagoGotBUpAt7AndHeWillLookAfterHerUntilHerNapAtAround10

He’s just gone off for a bike ride and I had 3 hours in the morning to do things. BEAUTIFUL. It’s 10.30am now and B should be asleep for another 45 minutes, so I’m really enjoying getting things done. In the morning I have a list of things that I want to do in my head and it’s a long time to wait until 7.30pm when I can usually get more things done.

#IDidMyDanceVideosFirstThingToGetThemDoneAsIFeelLikeTheyHangOverMeAtTheWeekend

Nothing like waking yourself up with dance videos. I did 5 today. I usually do 3/4, and one was 7 minutes long!

#TodayIReallyEnjoyedItButSomeWeeksItIsJustAnotherThingThatIFeelIHaveToDo

My support befriender person said I’m disciplined. I guess it’s true.

I’ve always said with the dance videos that the project is over when I don’t want to do it anymore. Some weeks it feels like more of a slog (having to move furniture and stuff is always fun), but other times I do get into it more. It’s meant to be an exercise in not caring and today I didn’t care and just enjoyed it.

#INeedToStopFeelingGuiltyForHavingSomeTimeToMyself

Oh, Mum guilt.

#IWorkPrettyQuicklyNowWithTheFreeTimeIHaveAndTiagoIsBsDadSoOfCourseHeShouldBeSpendingTimeWithHer

And he likes spending time with her. I do not faff so much anymore, particularly at this time of day when I know that I can not take the piss.

#IThinkIFeelBadAsTiagoIsWorkingAllWeekAndMakingMoneyWhereasIDoNotMakeMuch

He works so hard and I want him to have time to rest and relax. Well, I guess playing with your daughter is relaxing?

#IAmDoingSomeNonArtPaidWorkAtTheMomentWhichIJustDoInFifteenMinutesToTwoHoursIshSessions

At the moment the work comes when it comes, when it doesn’t come then I do my own work.

#IDoLookForOtherWorkWhereBWouldHaveToGoToNurseryButThereDoesNotSeemToBeMuchOutThere

It’s a weird time.

#ItWouldAlsoNeedToBeSomethingWhichLeavesMeWithEnoughAfterPayingNurseryFeesToSeemWorthIt

If I’m left with 5 quid afterwards then what’s the point? Some people might say yeah it’s 5 quid, but it seems like a lot of hassle. Hopefully something will come up at some point, but for now I should enjoy spending time with B as I’m sure a lot of people would just prefer to be at home with their kids. I know I am lucky.

Having time away from B this morning makes me look forward to playing with her when she wakes up. I don’t feel as excited if I’m with her all day every day you know? No offence B.

#MostOfTheMumsIKnowWithBabiesOfASimilarAgeAreEitherBackAtWorkOrGoingBackSoon #ItIsAnnoyingInTheSenseThatSoonWeWillBeAbleToHangOutWithOtherBabiesButTheyAllMightBeInNurseries

I just want to have a gaggle of friends who we meet up with in the summer and chill in the park with. She might have to make do with younger friends but that’s fine. A lot of the younger babies that we have met will be acknowledging other babies/not sleeping all the time by the time the better weather comes around.

#IGuessThereWillBeSomeAroundThoughWhoseParentsWorkPartTimeOrWhoAreInASimilarPosition

A lot of people seem to be cutting/condensing their hours to fewer days a week, so I guess there will be a day when people are free to play.

#IHaveSpokenToACoupleOfMumsThisWeekAtThePlaygroundWeGoTo

It always seems to come in phases – one week I talk to people and then I do not talk to anyone for a week.

#IRealiseNowThatEveryoneElseProbablyWantsToChatButTheyAreJustAsAwkwardAsMe

I think people do not know how to start a conversation (like me).

#MyCurrentMumPickupLineIsHowOldIsYourLittleOne

This seems to be a good one. I don’t offend someone by misgendering their child, and it’s something that doesn’t seem too intimidating. I usually direct it to people who have sat their kid in the swing next to us.

#WeSayWeWillSeeEachOtherAroundButWeHaveLivedHereForFourMonthsAndIDoNotThinkIHaveSeenThemBefore

One woman I think we might have seen once before, but the other one I really don’t think I have. We’ll see how long it takes to bump into them again.

#WorkingOnANewProjectAndTalkingToPeopleMakesMeFeelHappierSoINeedToKeepOnDoingWhatIAmDoing

Last time I spoke to more people I was feeling really down due to ‘am I pregnant/am I not?’ issues and other people made the effort, but now I am feeling better I am the one reaching out. I guess things go in waves, but I want to keep getting mentally and physically stronger.


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