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Pregnancy Waiting II

I Have Not Taken A Nude Full Length This Pregnancy, So Now Feels Like The Time To (36 Weeks / 9th January 2022)

Full length nude showing my bump. White boxes censor the image.
I Have Not Taken A Nude Full Length This Pregnancy, So Now Feels Like The Time To (36 Weeks / 9th January 2022)
 
#LookingBackAtWhenIWasPregnantWithBITookAFullLengthNudeAt36WeeksSoItWouldBeNiceToHaveAComparisonPictureForMyself
#IFeelLikeIfIDoNotDoItTodayThenIMightNotHaveTheChanceTo
#MyMumAndADogWalkerSaidYesterdayThatMyBumpLookedLikeItHadDroppedMoreSinceTheLastTimeTheySawMeWhichHadOnlyBeenACoupleOfDays
#IThinkWithBIReallyDidNotThinkThatSheWouldComeBeforeHerDueDateThatIDidNotNoticeAnySignsThatLabourWasImminent
#ThisTimeIAmOnHighAlertThatTheBabyCouldComeAnyDayNowAndThinkThatAnyTwingeOrPainCouldMeanSomething
#ISuddenlyHaveABitMoreEnergyWhichIsNiceButItCouldBeASignThatLabourIsClose
#TheInsideOfMyTopRightLegHasBeenHurtingALotLatelyWhichCouldBeDueToRelaxinAndOrOverStretching
#YesterdayILookedToSeeWhatTheLatestCovidRulesAreAtTheHospitalThatIAmDueToGiveBirthIn
#YourBirthPartnerHasToLeaveOnceYouGetMovedFromTheDeliverySuiteToThePostNatalWardAndTheyAreNotAllowedToVisitDuringYourStay
#IHaveJustCheckedTheWebsiteAgainAndItIsVeryMisleadingAsToWhatTheRulesAre
#ItLooksLikeABirthPartnerCanBeWithYouFromTheTimeYouAreAdmittedButIMightBeMissingSomething
#IUnderstandWhyTheRulesMayBeStrictAgainAsServicesAreStretchedAndALotOfStaffAreIll
#ButItIsFrustratingThatThingsMightBeExactlyBackToHowTheyWereWhenIGaveBirthToBInJune2020
#IMightNotBeInForVeryLongThisTimeButIAlsoHaveToMentallyPrepareMyselfInCaseItIsARepeatOfLastTime
#ICavedAndOrderedSomeSleepsuitsForTheBabyLikeTheOnesWeHadForBAsTheyWereSoConvenient
#ILoveHavingAZipThatGoesBothWaysAndBuiltInMittensAndFeetThatYouCanFoldAndUnfoldOver
#TheyArrivedYesterdayAndMyHospitalBagsArePrettyMuchPackedNow
#MostOfTheStuffLeftToPackAreThingsThatIAmUsingLikeClothesAndChargersEtc
#TiagoBoughtSomeSnacksAndDrinksToPackYesterdaySoThatIsGood
#WeHaveStartedToWatchSomeHypnobirthingVideosAndIFeelABitMoreRelaxedAgain
#IWasStartingToFeelABitStressedAndWeirdlyDisconnectedAboutTheFactThatIMayBeGivingBirthSoon
#BHasANewObsessionWithHerBellyButtonWhichIsQuiteCute
#SheWillStartAnotherSessionOfNurseryInACoupleOfWeeksSoIAmFeelingRelievedAboutThat
#WeCanOnlyJustifySendingHerAsWeLiveWithMyNanAndSaveSomeMoney
#ItWillBeABigHelpThoughWhenTheBabyComesAndIKnowThatBIsGettingEnoughStimulation
#IHadToPickHerUpTheOtherDayAsTiagoWentOutToWorkForOnceAndHerCarerWasSayingAboutHowMuchSheLovesMilk
#IWasLikeYeahItIsABigObsessionOfHersButSheHasStartedToNotDrinkItAllInOneGoNowAndTakeSomeBitesOfFoodInBetweenSipsWhichSeemsGood
#IWishBCouldTellUsAboutHerTimeAtNurseryAndWhatSheGetsUpToButIGuessWeWillHaveToWaitAWhile
#HerCarerSaidThatBIsSayingTwoWordSentencesButIAmNotSureIfSheMeansActualWordsOrJustBabble
#BWillQuiteHappilyChatForAWhileWithALotOfEmotionAndLaughterAndHandGesturesButIHaveNoClueWhatSheIsSaying

(I’m feeling awkward about posting this and it’s censored.)

#LookingBackAtWhenIWasPregnantWithBITookAFullLengthNudeAt36WeeksSoItWouldBeNiceToHaveAComparisonPictureForMyself

I saw the image when I was comparing pregnancy images in my last post, and thought I should do a similar shoot.

#IFeelLikeIfIDoNotDoItTodayThenIMightNotHaveTheChanceTo

I know this baby is different to B, but B came really soon in comparison.

#MyMumAndADogWalkerSaidYesterdayThatMyBumpLookedLikeItHadDroppedMoreSinceTheLastTimeTheySawMeWhichHadOnlyBeenACoupleOfDays

I really don’t notice it, but I feel like I can breathe a bit better when I lie in bed, so (I believe) that’s usually a sign that it has dropped.

#IThinkWithBIReallyDidNotThinkThatSheWouldComeBeforeHerDueDateThatIDidNotNoticeAnySignsThatLabourWasImminent

Well, the only thing I can think of is that she was super active the day before she was born (that she turned round), but I was oblivious to any other signs that may have occurred.

#ThisTimeIAmOnHighAlertThatTheBabyCouldComeAnyDayNowAndThinkThatAnyTwingeOrPainCouldMeanSomething

Back pain – ooh does that mean I’m close? A cramp – oh? I know that these things can mean it is a few weeks away, which it could be.

#ISuddenlyHaveABitMoreEnergyWhichIsNiceButItCouldBeASignThatLabourIsClose

All the signs. Any signs. I’ll read into anything now.

#TheInsideOfMyTopRightLegHasBeenHurtingALotLatelyWhichCouldBeDueToRelaxinAndOrOverStretching

Another sign? Actually, it didn’t hurt yesterday for the first day in a while.

#YesterdayILookedToSeeWhatTheLatestCovidRulesAreAtTheHospitalThatIAmDueToGiveBirthIn

I’ve been avoiding looking as I didn’t see the point in looking too early in case things changed.

#YourBirthPartnerHasToLeaveOnceYouGetMovedFromTheDeliverySuiteToThePostNatalWardAndTheyAreNotAllowedToVisitDuringYourStay

Which is what the rules were when I had B – but it’s a different hospital as I was in Liverpool then.

#IHaveJustCheckedTheWebsiteAgainAndItIsVeryMisleadingAsToWhatTheRulesAre

A page about maternity says about being allowed to visit, but a webpage I found on my phone mentions that visiting is no longer allowed. They need to sync their pages.

#ItLooksLikeABirthPartnerCanBeWithYouFromTheTimeYouAreAdmittedButIMightBeMissingSomething

It might be on a page that I did not find.

#IUnderstandWhyTheRulesMayBeStrictAgainAsServicesAreStretchedAndALotOfStaffAreIll

I get it, I do.

#ButItIsFrustratingThatThingsMightBeExactlyBackToHowTheyWereWhenIGaveBirthToBInJune2020

I knew that when we were trying to get pregnant that I might have another Covid baby, but I did not think that cases would be so bad again and that there would be such hospital restrictions. Fun times.

#IMightNotBeInForVeryLongThisTimeButIAlsoHaveToMentallyPrepareMyselfInCaseItIsARepeatOfLastTime

I guess it depends on how breastfeeding goes, how desperately they need my bed, what kind of birth I have, what time of the day I give birth etc.

#ICavedAndOrderedSomeSleepsuitsForTheBabyLikeTheOnesWeHadForBAsTheyWereSoConvenient #ILoveHavingAZipThatGoesBothWaysAndBuiltInMittensAndFeetThatYouCanFoldAndUnfoldOver

We haven’t been able to find her 0-3 month clothes, but her sleepsuits were so worn anyways that it’s probably nicer for the baby to have new ones. I got them in a sale, and I dressed B’s in hers all day every day so we’ll get the use out of them.

#TheyArrivedYesterdayAndMyHospitalBagsArePrettyMuchPackedNow

Hurrah. One bag for baby, one bag for me.

#MostOfTheStuffLeftToPackAreThingsThatIAmUsingLikeClothesAndChargersEtc

It was a similar situation when I was pregnant with B. Everything packed that can be packed, then a list of things to grab when the time comes.

#TiagoBoughtSomeSnacksAndDrinksToPackYesterdaySoThatIsGood

Snack bars, sports drinks, snack mix, crisps etc. Last time I didn’t want to eat during labour, but the food came in handy for my long hospital stay.

#WeHaveStartedToWatchSomeHypnobirthingVideosAndIFeelABitMoreRelaxedAgain

I was getting worried that B would never read the book, so it seems like a good idea.

#IWasStartingToFeelABitStressedAndWeirdlyDisconnectedAboutTheFactThatIMayBeGivingBirthSoon

I’ve done it before, but the fact it could be so different this time is stressing me out a bit. I just need to relax.

#BHasANewObsessionWithHerBellyButtonWhichIsQuiteCute

Yesterday she unzipped her sleepsuit (she generally wears her sleepsuits all day unless she has nursery as it’s so easy to layer clothes over them if we go out – I ordered her a couple of 12-18 months suits as she is still in 6-12 months and the 18-24 months that I bought look massive) and was looking at it.

#SheWillStartAnotherSessionOfNurseryInACoupleOfWeeksSoIAmFeelingRelievedAboutThat

I was hoping that she would start next week, but they were quite slow about arranging it so I feel less bad about buying the sleepsuits as the money saved on a session next week pays for them.

#WeCanOnlyJustifySendingHerAsWeLiveWithMyNanAndSaveSomeMoney

If we moved out now I’d be at home with two kids all week, so it makes sense to stay here until our big move. Respect to the people who stay at home with their kids all week, but it seems too much for me. Sending B to nursery has been such a big relief in my third trimester.

#ItWillBeABigHelpThoughWhenTheBabyComesAndIKnowThatBIsGettingEnoughStimulation

I know that every week day I will have some help now, which I am very grateful for and realise I am extremely privileged to have (T works all week, and my Nan can do some things but I can’t just leave her alone with B for 5 hours).

#IHadToPickHerUpTheOtherDayAsTiagoWentOutToWorkForOnceAndHerCarerWasSayingAboutHowMuchSheLovesMilk

He hasn’t had to leave the house for work for a while, and he also has to one day this week which I am a bit nervous about.

#IWasLikeYeahItIsABigObsessionOfHersButSheHasStartedToNotDrinkItAllInOneGoNowAndTakeSomeBitesOfFoodInBetweenSipsWhichSeemsGood

B loves milk. It’s a fact. I only give her a small amount at each meal as otherwise I feel like she would not eat much.

#IWishBCouldTellUsAboutHerTimeAtNurseryAndWhatSheGetsUpToButIGuessWeWillHaveToWaitAWhile

I’ve said this before probably, but it’s weird sending your daughter off and not hearing from her what happens etc.

#HerCarerSaidThatBIsSayingTwoWordSentencesButIAmNotSureIfSheMeansActualWordsOrJustBabble

I think she means babbling. B is really trying to talk.

#BWillQuiteHappilyChatForAWhileWithALotOfEmotionAndLaughterAndHandGesturesButIHaveNoClueWhatSheIsSaying

I can’t wait for her to start saying actual words and for us to have conversations. It sounds like she has a nice voice.

36 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait sat on the sofa. My bump looks very round and it is a closeup, which my elbows resting over my boobs.
The Baby Just Seems So Protected And Safe In My Belly (36 and a half weeks)
 
#IStillHaveNotBeenSleepingGreat
#WeOrderedSomeNewPillowsWhichArrivedYesterday
#ThoughtWeMightAsWellWithNoPlansToGoAnywhereThisSummer
#AndApparentSleepDeprivationAroundTheCorner
#ThePillowDoesFeelGreatButItDoesNotFixMyProblemOfHavingToWakeUpToTurnOver
#NotSureIfTheLackOfSleepIsDownToMyBodyTryingToPrepareMeForFutureLackOfSleep
#ThoughTalkingToOtherPregnantWomenIAmNotTheOnlyOne
#OurFavouriteFalafelPlaceHasReopenedSoWeGotTakeawayForLunch
#ThatWillProbablyBeTheHighlightOfTheWeekSoItSeemedWorthMentioning
#OtherwiseIGuessWeAreJustApproachingTheWaitingGameNow
#ItIsBabysDueMonthThoughItCouldComeNextMonth
#ABabyFromTheNCTGroupIsDueTodayAndAnotherIsDueTomorrow
#TheyAreTheFirstOnesThatAreDue
#ItWillBeInterestingToSeeWhenAll8BabiesAreBorn
#EarlyOnDateOrLate
#IHopeMineComesAfterTheDueDate
#JustToGiveMeMoreTimeToGetMyHeadAroundItAllAndWindDownABitMore
#ParticularlyAsIStillHaveWorkOnUntilTheWeekBeforeMyDueDate
#ThoughIKnowBabyWillComeWhenBabyWantsTo
#IThinkWeAreReadyEnoughThough
#WatchingThisPostNatalCourseIsReallyUsefulAsIStillFeelLikeIHaveSoMuchLearn
#AndIKnowIWillKeepLearningEveryDayOnceTheBabyArrivesAnyways
#TheBabyJustSeemsSoProtectedAndSafeInMyBelly
#ICanFeelItsHiccupsRightNow
#ItGetsEverythingItWantsOnTapRightNow
#TheWholeFourthTrimesterThingMakesSense
#TheBabyNotNeedingTotalQuietAndWantingToBeCloseEtc
#LikeIHaveSaid100TimesBeforeAtLeastThePandemicAllowsUsMoreTimeToNotRushBackToNormalLife
#ThoughOurNormalLifeTheseDaysIsJustBeingAtHomeForAtLeast23HoursADayReally
#IProbablyWillJustTakeTheBabyOutForWalksAroundLiverpoolInTheBeginning

I’ve been sleeping better this time, but it’s probably because I am tired from looking after B and the mattress at my Nan’s is comfier. I feel like I don’t have to turn over so much for pain reasons.

I miss our favourite falafel place. There is a falafel place that we get takeaway from here, but I’m not sure if it is as good. I don’t get salt headaches from this place though, which is good.

‘#IHopeMineComesAfterTheDueDate’

I was glad in the end that she came early as I did not have to wait and it was so unexpected when my waters broke. This time I’m on high alert, so it’s not as fun, though I guess I think this one won’t be so early. We’ll see.

I feel a bit more unprepared in ways – like I haven’t read/watched as much, but it’s not that long since B was a newborn and I know a bit more about looking after a baby this time (you’d hope).

I definitely took B on a lot of walks. I’m looking forward to taking baby X on walks while B is at nursery, and listening to podcasts and things. I feel like I haven’t had earphones in in a long time – though in Liverpool no one spoke to me, whereas I know a lot of local people now. It’ll be nice to show off the baby a bit.


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Pregnancy Waiting II

Imitating B With Conjunctivitis (34 Weeks / 24th December 2021)

Self-portrait with makeup around my eyes to make them look a bit sore/like when B had conjunctivitis.
Imitating B With Conjunctivitis (34 Weeks / 24th December 2021)
 
#ImitatingBWithTwoRedEyesDueToConjunctivitisIsNotTheNicestPortraitICouldTakeButItHasDominatedOurWeek
#ISeemToHaveBeenInSimilarHealthToHowIWas6WeeksAgoWhenIWasBeingSickALotAndFeelingWeakInGeneral
#IWentToBedFiveDaysAgoFeelingSickAndWokeUpAt1AndWasSickThenSickAgainAnHourLaterAndThenAgainNotLongAfterThat
#ITriedToHaveAShowerAndSleepOnTheSofaButMyNanAlsoCouldNotSleepSoWantedAShowerAndCameIntoTheLivingRoomEarly
#SoIWentBackToBedButDidNotSleepMuchAndKeptBeingSickUntilAbout11ThoughItWasJustWaterThatWasComingUp
#TypicallyItWasTheOneDayWhereBDidNotHaveNurseryAndMyMumWasNotComingOverButTiagoManagedToWorkWhileWatchingBAndIHadALieDown
#InTheAfternoonIHadABathAndBWasQuiteHappyJustSplashingHerHandsInTheWaterAndDroppingHerToysIn
#BHasANewTrickOfPuttingStuffInTheBinAndRippingToiletPaperAndLiftingTheToiletLidUpToPutItInTheToilet
#ITryToDiscourageHerButEvenGettingHerHandTrappedACoupleOfTimesHasNotPutHerOff
#ThisIsProbablyHowSheHasGotConjunctivitisOrMaybeSheGotItFromNursery
#IHadNoticedHerEyesWereABitGunkyButThoughtItWouldPassButByTheNextDayItWasWorse
#IWentToOurLocalPharmacyToGetEyeDropsButTheyWereClosedDueToStaffSickness
#SoMyMumWentToADifferentOneButTheySaidThatTheDropsWereOnlySuitableFor2AndOver
#IKeptWashingHerEyesWithCooledBoiledWaterAndTriedASlightlySaltySolutionTooWhichMightBeWhyTheSkinAroundHerEyesWasSuperRed
#MyDoctorsAreOnlyReallyDealingWithBoostersAtTheMomentSoIWaitedForHalfAnHourToSpeakToTheWalkInCentreButHadCalledAnotherDoctorsByMistake
#SoIWaitedAnotherHalfAnHourToActuallySpeakToTheWalkInAndTheySaidSomeoneWouldCallLater
#TypicallyTheyCalledThe10MinutesThatIWasAwayFromMyPhoneAsBWasAsleepOnMeInHerRoomAndIThoughtIWasJustGoingInToGetHerUpFromHerNap
#After3HoursICalledAgainAndTheySaidSomeoneWouldCallWithinAnHourButTheyCalledBackAbout3HoursLaterAtAround6
#TheCallWasShortAndHePrescribedEyeOintmentThatHeSaidWasOkayForUnder2s
#IShouldHaveAskedForHimWhichPharmacyWasStillOpenButInsteadIHadItSentToOurLocalOneForTheMorning
#WeGotItInTheMorningButSheHadToMissNurseryAsSheWasTooIllToGoReally
#IWasReallyLookingForwardToJustHavingSomeTimeInBedToRestAndRecoverButOhWell
#TiagoWasAlsoFeelingWeakAsHeHadHisBoosterSoWeHaveBeenAVeryFunFamilyThisWeek
#ItIsTheFirstTimeThatWeHaveAllBeenUnderTheWeatherTogetherAndIHopeItDoesNotHappenAgainForAWhile
#TodayWasTheFirstDayIHadEnoughEnergyToDoMyUsualMorningStretchingAndMyAppetiteIsPrettyMuchBackToNormalNow
#IHadMyBoosterVaccineYesterdayAndItWasSoQuickAndOrganisedThisTimeWhichWasGreat
#IAmSoGladThatTheBabyDidNotComeThisWeekAsIHadNoEnergyAtAllSoNowINeedToMakeSureIFeelGoodForWhenLabourBegins
#MyAcidRefluxHasBeenPrettyBadForACoupleOfWeeksSoIAmLookingForwardToThatBeingOver
#HadMy34WeekMidwifeAppointmentAndAllIsFineAlthoughTheBabyIsCurrentlyHeadDownButBackToBack
#ISaidAtLeastTheyAreNotBreechButTheWomanSaidItWouldBeASlowLongLabourWithALotOfBackPainSoLetsHopeTheyMoveBeforeThen

#ImitatingBWithTwoRedEyesDueToConjunctivitisIsNotTheNicestPortraitICouldTakeButItHasDominatedOurWeek

B cries whenever she sees me coming towards her with cotton wool, and giving her ointment is an experience every time.

#ISeemToHaveBeenInSimilarHealthToHowIWas6WeeksAgoWhenIWasBeingSickALotAndFeelingWeakInGeneral

Great.

#IWentToBedFiveDaysAgoFeelingSickAndWokeUpAt1AndWasSickThenSickAgainAnHourLaterAndThenAgainNotLongAfterThat

It’s horrid. My throat then hurt from being sick so much. Fun.

#ITriedToHaveAShowerAndSleepOnTheSofaButMyNanAlsoCouldNotSleepSoWantedAShowerAndCameIntoTheLivingRoomEarly

I wanted to feel nice after all the sick, but it was not meant to be. I thought sleeping on the sofa would be best as to not wake T and B up when I was being sick.

#SoIWentBackToBedButDidNotSleepMuchAndKeptBeingSickUntilAbout11ThoughItWasJustWaterThatWasComingUp

Lovely. It was a long night. I don’t like those nights.

#TypicallyItWasTheOneDayWhereBDidNotHaveNurseryAndMyMumWasNotComingOverButTiagoManagedToWorkWhileWatchingBAndIHadALieDown

He’s got 6 days off over Xmas (it’s currently day 2), so he didn’t want to take more time off. I felt so weak that I could not do much, so lying down in bed was good but I could not sleep.

#InTheAfternoonIHadABathAndBWasQuiteHappyJustSplashingHerHandsInTheWaterAndDroppingHerToysIn

I should have a bath on days like that in future, as it’s a good way to keep B occupied while I don’t feel too crummy as I’m relaxing and resting.

#BHasANewTrickOfPuttingStuffInTheBinAndRippingToiletPaperAndLiftingTheToiletLidUpToPutItInTheToilet

It seemed cute, but obviously we need to properly wash her hands after every time she does it now.

#ITryToDiscourageHerButEvenGettingHerHandTrappedACoupleOfTimesHasNotPutHerOff

I don’t like her wasting toilet paper. We should buy a toilet seat lock really.

#ThisIsProbablyHowSheHasGotConjunctivitisOrMaybeSheGotItFromNursery

She’s had a cold from nursery for over a week.

#IHadNoticedHerEyesWereABitGunkyButThoughtItWouldPassButByTheNextDayItWasWorse

Fail. I just thought it was a bit of sleep or something.

#IWentToOurLocalPharmacyToGetEyeDropsButTheyWereClosedDueToStaffSickness

Great.

#SoMyMumWentToADifferentOneButTheySaidThatTheDropsWereOnlySuitableFor2AndOver

Also great.

#IKeptWashingHerEyesWithCooledBoiledWaterAndTriedASlightlySaltySolutionTooWhichMightBeWhyTheSkinAroundHerEyesWasSuperRed

I wish she understood that we’re trying to help her feel better. It’s such a struggle to try to get them better.

#MyDoctorsAreOnlyReallyDealingWithBoostersAtTheMomentSoIWaitedForHalfAnHourToSpeakToTheWalkInCentreButHadCalledAnotherDoctorsByMistake

Ergh.

#SoIWaitedAnotherHalfAnHourToActuallySpeakToTheWalkInAndTheySaidSomeoneWouldCallLater

Cool.

#TypicallyTheyCalledThe10MinutesThatIWasAwayFromMyPhoneAsBWasAsleepOnMeInHerRoomAndIThoughtIWasJustGoingInToGetHerUpFromHerNap

She woke up early. I planned to get her up, but then wanted to soothe her a bit and she fell asleep on me while I sat on her beanbag. I had to wake her up as my back was hurting and I was bored sitting in the dark without my phone – I would have read my book.

#After3HoursICalledAgainAndTheySaidSomeoneWouldCallWithinAnHourButTheyCalledBackAbout3HoursLaterAtAround6

I understand they’re busy and swamped, so it’s fair enough. I just don’t like waiting around for calls.

#TheCallWasShortAndHePrescribedEyeOintmentThatHeSaidWasOkayForUnder2s

He said that the drops is not okay for under 2s, but the ointment is.

#IShouldHaveAskedForHimWhichPharmacyWasStillOpenButInsteadIHadItSentToOurLocalOneForTheMorning

I hoped that they would be open.

#WeGotItInTheMorningButSheHadToMissNurseryAsSheWasTooIllToGoReally

The instructions said it wasn’t for under 2s, but the NHS website says that chloramphenicol eye stuff can be prescribed for under 2s by a Doctor.

#IWasReallyLookingForwardToJustHavingSomeTimeInBedToRestAndRecoverButOhWell

I was looking forward to just lying down for 4 hours, watching a bit of TV and resting.

#TiagoWasAlsoFeelingWeakAsHeHadHisBoosterSoWeHaveBeenAVeryFunFamilyThisWeek

We had an orzo dish on Sunday night that I’m bored of, but Tiago loves. I threw that up, then didn’t have much on Monday night, but Tiago did and was sick on Tuesday morning. Maybe it was the orzo that triggered off my ‘illness’? Who knows? I’m glad that Tiago doesn’t want to eat it for a while now.

#ItIsTheFirstTimeThatWeHaveAllBeenUnderTheWeatherTogetherAndIHopeItDoesNotHappenAgainForAWhile

I don’t like feeling so weak and helpless.

#TodayWasTheFirstDayIHadEnoughEnergyToDoMyUsualMorningStretchingAndMyAppetiteIsPrettyMuchBackToNormalNow

I kept forcing myself to eat for the baby, but it’s been tough. It’s nice to enjoy food again – just in time for Xmas.

#IHadMyBoosterVaccineYesterdayAndItWasSoQuickAndOrganisedThisTimeWhichWasGreat

Tiago dropped me off and I was confused as they’d moved from a marquee in a car park, into a building. It was so efficient. 5 stars.

I’m still not feeling 100%, which may be down to the booster, but as I felt so bad earlier in the week I feel quite good.

#IAmSoGladThatTheBabyDidNotComeThisWeekAsIHadNoEnergyAtAllSoNowINeedToMakeSureIFeelGoodForWhenLabourBegins

I don’t want to feel that weak again for a long time.

#MyAcidRefluxHasBeenPrettyBadForACoupleOfWeeksSoIAmLookingForwardToThatBeingOver

I went to get something for it, but the pharmacist said it’s best to avoid taking anything really. Being ill this week has meant I haven’t overeaten, so I just need to keep to smaller meals and I sleep with my head elevated, which is meant to be a good thing.

#HadMy34WeekMidwifeAppointmentAndAllIsFineAlthoughTheBabyIsCurrentlyHeadDownButBackToBack #ISaidAtLeastTheyAreNotBreechButTheWomanSaidItWouldBeASlowLongLabourWithALotOfBackPainSoLetsHopeTheyMoveBeforeThen

Well, B was head down in the opposite to back to back until the day before she was born so fingers crossed. Reading about it, it looks like I just need to sit leaning forwards more, not sleep on my back (I often wake up on my back and can’t be bothered to shift), and a lot of babies turn round during labour.

34 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait where I am squatting while in my bra and pants, but my pants are barely visible due to my bump.
I Know It Does Not Look Like It But Swear That I Am Wearing Pants (34 weeks)
 
#TimeIsFlyingBy
#LastNightIHadTheWorstNightsSleepInAges
#JustWakingUpConstantlyAndHavingWeirdDreams
#IPlannedToHaveALieInButOfCourseIWokeUpEarlyAndCouldNotFallBackToSleep
#ItWasGettingLateAndIHadNotFeltTheBabyMovingSoIWasGettingWorried
#EventuallyIFeltMovementsAndWasRelieved
#LastNightTiagoFellAsleepSpooningMyBump
#ISawTheCarSeatTodayAndFreakedOutALittleThinkingWhyDoWeHaveACarSeat
#IMomentarilyForgotIWasPregnant
#WhichIsWeirdAsItDefinitelyIsGettingUncomfortableNow
#TiagoSaidThatHeHasNoticedOnOurDailyWalksThatIAmStartingToWalkABitWeird
#IAskedHimDoYouMeanIAmWaddling
#HeSaidYes
#IDoNotThinkItIsVeryPronouncedButIGuessItMustBeEnoughForTiagoToNotice
#IProbablyWouldNotHaveChosenToBePregnantDuringAPandemic
#ButAtTheSameTimeIFeelLikeIAmNotMissingOutOnStuff
#AndItIsNiceToHaveSomeKindOfCountdown
#AsIThinkALotOfPeopleAreJustWaitingForThingsToChange
#IThoughtMyProjectTitleWasSmartWhenICameUpWithItEarlyOn
#NowItWouldBeMoreLike
#WaitingForThingsInATimeWhenEveryoneIsWaitingForSomething
#ButIGuessTheOldTitleKindOfAppliesToOurEra
#UnlessThingsWillNeverBeTheSameAgain
#WellLikeIHaveSaidBeforeThingsWillNeverBeTheSameAgainForMeAnywaysOnceTheBabyIsBorn
#ThingsWillBeDifferentForTiagoTooButNotToTheSameExtent
#HisBodyWillBeTheSameAndHisWorkShouldStillBeFairlyTheSame
#BeforeIWasPregnantWeWerePrettyMuchTheSameSize
#SameHeightSameShoeSizeICouldWearHisClothesApartFromTrousersWhichICouldFitInButWereALittleTooTight
#IAmJustHappyThatIAmStillExercisingAndIThinkStartingWhenIWasMoreAbleToHelped
#TheSameVideosThatIHaveBeenDoingForMonthsAreGettingHarderToDoNow

Good to know my sleep was also rubbish at 34 weeks last time, but I wasn’t being super sick/feeling weak. I was often waking up at 5 and not being able to sleep again, but with B I am more tired so tend to sleep until she wakes up.

I’m having a lot of weird dreams at the moment too. Super vivid.

I don’t think I am waddling too much at the moment, but usually when I walk I am behind B’s pushchair so it is good support.

This time I did choose to be pregnant during a pandemic. I didn’t think it would be getting worse though (cases are on the rise).

A close-up photo of my belly button. A remake of an image I took at 20 and a half weeks.
My Belly Button Has Never Been So Close Or Perhaps So Far Away (34 weeks)

#ISaidAt20AndAHalfWeeksThatMyBellyButtonHadNeverBeenSoClose
#MaybeNowItIsCloserOrMaybeNot
#CloseToWhatQuestionMarkMyFaceQuestionMark
#IGuessMaybeItIsFurtherAwayNow
#ButItIsFarOut
#MyBellyButtonHasNeverBeenSoFarOut
#ItSoundsLikeASurferOrSomething
#IWishICouldReachMyHeadDownAndRestItOnBump
#IWasSayingWithMyLastPictureThatBabyWasNotMovingMuchAndFreakingMeOut
#ThenTheNextDayItWasMovingAroundLoads
#AndTodayHasBeenAnAverageDay
#EvenSittingOnMyBallIsUncomfortableTheseDays
#WellIFeelComfortableWhilstIAmSatDown
#ThenWhenIStandUpIAmInPain
#LyingDownSittingUpGettingOutOfBedIsAnnoying
#TodayIHadAVideoCallWithTheWomenFromMyNCTGroup
#WeWereTalkingAboutInductionsAndWantingToWait
#ButThenSayingHowUnconfortableWeAreSoWhoKnowsWhatWeWillDecideAtTheTime
#IReadALotOfMyHypnobirthingBookToday
#IHaveBeenGettingABitRubbishAtReadingAndPreparingForBaby
#IStillNeedToDoMyBirthPlan
#SomeWomenOnTheCallWereTalkingAboutHavingTheirHospitalBagsPacked
#IThinkIAmTheOnlyOnePlanningForAHomeBirth
#ButIShouldPackABagJustInCaseAsYouNeverKnow
#IHadNeverHeardAboutNaturalOrGentleCaesareansBeforeDoingTheHypnobirthingCourse
#WithTheBirthPlanItIsABitMoreOfBirthPreferencesThanAPlan
#AndWritingDownWhatYouWouldWantForAnyPossibleSituation
#ItFeelsGoodToKnowMyOptionsAndThatThereAreOptions
#IHaveHeardOfBirthPlansBeingMockedABitButGivingBirthIsABigEventWhichCouldImpactYouForTheRestOfYourLife
#IAmSoGladThatILearnedAboutHypnobirthingAndSeeingBirthInAMorePositiveLight

This is a remake of an image I took at 20 and a half weeks.

It does look really far out this time too, and B likes to touch it when I say ‘where’s the baby?’

Earlier in the week I was getting stressed about movements, but they seem to have been quite active and I have been distracted by B’s eyes and my health.

Our bed is comfier now so I do not have as many pains in bed, but it is still best for me to lie on my left side.

I need to do a birth plan, and reread the hypnobirthing book but I am currently trying to read House of Gucci. Once that is done I am going to focus on baby, I swear. I tried to find B’s baby clothes this morning, but they weren’t where I thought they were, and I need to pack my hospital bag.

The first image on this page is the picture I am referring to in the hashtags.

My sister got me some nice new pyjamas for Xmas, and mentioned my Grandad’s pyjamas.

My Grandad was married to my Nan who we have been living with since late October 2020, so every once in a while I feel sad that Tiago and B and baby X never got to meet him.

B didn’t meet her Portuguese Grandparents until this summer, and she is still yet to meet Tiago’s brother, his wife and their daughter. We did a video call with them all today.

I’m gutted that Tiago’s paternity hasn’t improved since he was off with B, but I’m looking forward to him having two weeks off. He’s going to do the same again – one week of paternity, and one week of annual leave.

It’s good to know that I felt uncomfortable after sitting on the exercise ball, as I thought I didn’t, and I’m getting those pains now.

I didn’t go into another building until I gave birth to B in hospital…


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Imitating B Poking Her Doll In The Eye (32 Weeks / 12th December 2021)

Self-portrait of me holding a doll, and holding its eyelid down with my right index finger.
Imitating B Poking Her Doll In The Eye (32 Weeks / 12th December 2021)
 
#IHaveMentionedThatBLikesToTryToTouchOurEyesWhichWorriesMeABitWithBabyXsImpendingArrival
#MyNanGotHerADollTheOtherDayAndSheAlsoLikesToTouchItsEyesButItIsSaferThanTouchingHumanEyes
#DollsHaveAlwaysCreepedMeOutSoIHopeSheAndHerSiblingDoNotReallyLikeThem
#ObviouslyIfTheyDoIWillHaveToBeSupportiveButIMuchPreferCuddlyToys
#IFinishedReadingMyHypnobirthingBookAndIFeelMoreRelaxedAboutXsBirthButIDoNeedToReadItAtLeastOnceMore
#TwoDaysAgoIGotFreakedOutByTheBabyNotMovingMuchButSheMadeUpForItYesterdayByMovingLoads
#IHaveStartedToMakeMyBirthingPlaylistAsIFoundItSoHelpfulWhenIWasInEarlyLabourWithB
#IWasDancingBehindMyCurtainOnTheWardWhileWaitingForMyLabourToProgressAndItDefinitelyHelpedMeStayRelaxed
#WeWillHaveToSeeHowEarlyLabourGoesThisTimeAsIMightEndUpNotGoingIntoHospitalUntilMuchLater
#OneOfMyCoatsHasNotDoneUpOverMyBumpForAWhileAndTheOtherOneIsGettingTight
#ISpentALotOfFreeTimeResearchingMaternityCoatsButInTheEndIDecidedItWasNotTheBestOption
#InsteadIHaveSentOneCoatBackToTheBrandToBeRepairedAndRestoredAndWillBeBuyAZipInBabyWearingPanelForIt
#TheOtherDayAGuyInTheParkKeptSayingHelloLoudlyAndIThoughtHeWasOnThePhone
#InTheEndITurnedAroundAsIThoughtIMightHaveDroppedSomethingAndTheGuyWasLookingAtMeLikeIShouldMoveOutOfTheWay
#HeWasStoodQuiteCloseToMeThenPeeredAroundMeToSeeBSittingOnTheStepOnTheBackOfHerPushchair
#HeSaidDoYouDriveDoYouAndSaidSomethingAboutMeGoingFromOneSideOfThePathToTheOther
#HeThenSaidIShouldBeCarefulAndWalkedOffWhichJustLeftMeFeelingQuiteConfusedAndThenAnnoyed
#IHadBeenWalkingSlowlyInCaseBFellOffAndIMoveIfISeePeopleOnThePathAheadOfMeButDidNotRecallMovingInTheTenSecondsOrSoBeforeHeWasRude
#ItWasJustWeirdAndWalkingInTheParkWithAPushchairIsABitDifferentToDrivingInACarOnARoad
#AnywaysWeAreDebatingSendingBToAnotherSessionOfNurseryAWeek
#TiagoCasuallyMentionedItAndAfterThinkingAboutItIDefinitelyWouldFeelABitMoreRelaxedWithLookingAfterOnlyOneKidForAFewMoreHoursAWeek
#IWorryThatWhenBabyXComesIWillBeBoringAndStressedSoIThinkItWouldBeBetterForBToGoOutAndHaveFun
#ITryToBeByTheWindowToWaveHerOffAndWelcomeHerHomeWhenTiagoTakesHerToAndFromNursery
#SheInstinctivelyLooksToTheWindowNowWhichIsQuiteCuteSoIHaveToTryNotToLetHerDown
#SheAlsoTendsToGetUpsetWhenTiagoLeavesSoIUsuallyHoldHerUpToTheWindowToSeeHimLeaveAndAlsoWhenMyMumGoes
#WhenWeGiveNanAMealWeUsuallySayHereYouGoNanAndBThenGenerallyComesRunningOverToSeeWhatSheHasWhichMakesMeLaugh
#SheSeemsToBePickingUpNewThingsAllTheTimeLikeNowShePointsToWhereTheTeddyIsInABookAboutFindingItOrTakesMyFingerToPointToIt
#YesterdayShePointedToTheFloorDuringWindTheBobbinUpAndSuddenlyLovesTheDingleDangleScarecrowSong
#IWasThinkingRecentlyThatItIsWeirdThatBWillGrowUpAndProbablyNotRememberThisPhaseOfHerLife
#INeedToDoTheLastPageOfHerBabyBookAndThinkAboutWhatToDoForBabyX
 

#IHaveMentionedThatBLikesToTryToTouchOurEyesWhichWorriesMeABitWithBabyXsImpendingArrival

I hope she outgrows this phase by the time X arrives.

#MyNanGotHerADollTheOtherDayAndSheAlsoLikesToTouchItsEyesButItIsSaferThanTouchingHumanEyes

The doll’s eyes are probably more fun as she has more control over them. I see her fingers coming towards my eyes and I shut them, and tell her not to do it, but she’s fascinated.

#DollsHaveAlwaysCreepedMeOutSoIHopeSheAndHerSiblingDoNotReallyLikeThem #ObviouslyIfTheyDoIWillHaveToBeSupportiveButIMuchPreferCuddlyToys

I will definitely not be adding to their doll collection, but you never know what they will get as gifts.

#IFinishedReadingMyHypnobirthingBookAndIFeelMoreRelaxedAboutXsBirthButIDoNeedToReadItAtLeastOnceMore

I keep practicing the breathing exercises, and just think about being as relaxed as possible to make things easier.

#TwoDaysAgoIGotFreakedOutByTheBabyNotMovingMuchButSheMadeUpForItYesterdayByMovingLoads

I had done a lot of dance videos, so maybe they needed to chill. I ached a bit afterwards, so I had to have a lie down. Yesterday she was just moving all over the place.

#IHaveStartedToMakeMyBirthingPlaylistAsIFoundItSoHelpfulWhenIWasInEarlyLabourWithB

I still have B’s birth playlist so I took songs from that, then thought about what I wanted to add.

#IWasDancingBehindMyCurtainOnTheWardWhileWaitingForMyLabourToProgressAndItDefinitelyHelpedMeStayRelaxed

Tiago wasn’t allowed to be with me, so I didn’t have much else to do. It definitely helped during surges, along with the breathing exercises.

#WeWillHaveToSeeHowEarlyLabourGoesThisTimeAsIMightEndUpNotGoingIntoHospitalUntilMuchLater

My waters had broken, so I had to go in to be monitored, then they were going to send me home but B was breech.

#OneOfMyCoatsHasNotDoneUpOverMyBumpForAWhileAndTheOtherOneIsGettingTight

It was fine with B as I was pregnant in the summer, but it is a bit colder this time…

#ISpentALotOfFreeTimeResearchingMaternityCoatsButInTheEndIDecidedItWasNotTheBestOption

A good one is expensive. I nearly caved and bought one, but it was dry clean only which is too high maintenance for me – especially with a B who likes to walk in the mud.

#InsteadIHaveSentOneCoatBackToTheBrandToBeRepairedAndRestoredAndWillBeBuyAZipInBabyWearingPanelForIt

It’s a coat I’ve had for at least 6 years if not more. The inside is a bit ripped from where I used the pocket that the coat folds into as an actual pocket, and it just needs a good clean and re-waterproofing. It’s a lot cheaper than getting a new coat, and I like the coat so it makes sense. I don’t really need another coat…

#TheOtherDayAGuyInTheParkKeptSayingHelloLoudlyAndIThoughtHeWasOnThePhone #InTheEndITurnedAroundAsIThoughtIMightHaveDroppedSomethingAndTheGuyWasLookingAtMeLikeIShouldMoveOutOfTheWay #HeWasStoodQuiteCloseToMeThenPeeredAroundMeToSeeBSittingOnTheStepOnTheBackOfHerPushchair #HeSaidDoYouDriveDoYouAndSaidSomethingAboutMeGoingFromOneSideOfThePathToTheOther #HeThenSaidIShouldBeCarefulAndWalkedOffWhichJustLeftMeFeelingQuiteConfusedAndThenAnnoyed

I’m still annoyed about it.

#IHadBeenWalkingSlowlyInCaseBFellOffAndIMoveIfISeePeopleOnThePathAheadOfMeButDidNotRecallMovingInTheTenSecondsOrSoBeforeHeWasRude

He was saying hello for at least five seconds to me (and it sounded quite distant at first), so I don’t think I just cut in front of him. He could have easily moved to the grass (okay, it was a bit muddy but not that bad).

#ItWasJustWeirdAndWalkingInTheParkWithAPushchairIsABitDifferentToDrivingInACarOnARoad

I do wonder if he’d have said the same thing to me if I was a guy. Probably not. He was maybe my age, possibly younger. I just looked at him quite blankly as I really thought he was going to say I’d dropped something, so I was in shock.

#AnywaysWeAreDebatingSendingBToAnotherSessionOfNurseryAWeek #TiagoCasuallyMentionedItAndAfterThinkingAboutItIDefinitelyWouldFeelABitMoreRelaxedWithLookingAfterOnlyOneKidForAFewMoreHoursAWeek

I feel guilty about it, but I think if a lot of people could then they would so why not? We don’t plan on being in Brum forever, so should make the most of the set-up.

#IWorryThatWhenBabyXComesIWillBeBoringAndStressedSoIThinkItWouldBeBetterForBToGoOutAndHaveFun

Seriously, why would she want to be at home all week with her boring Mum when she can be at nursery having fun? If I am more relaxed and happy, then it’s good for B too.

#ITryToBeByTheWindowToWaveHerOffAndWelcomeHerHomeWhenTiagoTakesHerToAndFromNursery

I wave quite enthusiastically, which usually makes her laugh, especially when she comes home. I then usually bend down and wait for her to come through the door so I can give her a hug if she wants one.

#SheInstinctivelyLooksToTheWindowNowWhichIsQuiteCuteSoIHaveToTryNotToLetHerDown

I’m just thinking when the baby arrives it might not be the case, but I will have to try…

#SheAlsoTendsToGetUpsetWhenTiagoLeavesSoIUsuallyHoldHerUpToTheWindowToSeeHimLeaveAndAlsoWhenMyMumGoes

It’s just something I do now. She often still cries when Tiago leaves so I try to make her laugh by dancing or spinning her round, but it often doesn’t work. She likes to wave to my Mum.

#WhenWeGiveNanAMealWeUsuallySayHereYouGoNanAndBThenGenerallyComesRunningOverToSeeWhatSheHasWhichMakesMeLaugh

She’s just started to do it. Breakfast – ‘here you go Nan’. B stops what she is doing and runs over to steal some scrambled egg. I try to serve B her lunch before giving my Nan hers, otherwise B just tries to stick her hands in it. Sometimes dinner is ready earlier than we want to give it to B, so she goes over…

#SheSeemsToBePickingUpNewThingsAllTheTimeLikeNowShePointsToWhereTheTeddyIsInABookAboutFindingItOrTakesMyFingerToPointToIt

It’s good as usually I take ages pointing at everything on the page to look for the Teddy, so it’s a bit quicker now though sometimes she does point to things and I say the name.

#YesterdayShePointedToTheFloorDuringWindTheBobbinUpAndSuddenlyLovesTheDingleDangleScarecrowSong

She’s been doing the claps to Wind The Bobbin Up for a while, but none of the other actions so that’s quite exciting. It’s quite sad that I have a version for when we’re in the park (point to the sky and point to the ground, point to the gate and point to the hound).

#IWasThinkingRecentlyThatItIsWeirdThatBWillGrowUpAndProbablyNotRememberThisPhaseOfHerLife

It’s been such a big deal for me, and I doubt she will remember any of it – living with my Nan, living in Brum etc. She’ll have my work to look at if she wants to, but I doubt she’ll be interested in half of this stuff – is anyone?

#INeedToDoTheLastPageOfHerBabyBookAndThinkAboutWhatToDoForBabyX

I thought about it today and the pages for 12 months are empty. I might do more of a family album for Baby X, though I don’t want her to feel like she’s been cheated out of what B has so maybe we’ll have to get the same book. I might just do it differently this time…

32 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

I keep saying this, but it’s weird that things still aren’t ‘normal’, and things are back up in the air again – I’m hoping it doesn’t impact Baby X’s arrival too much, but it is what it is.

‘#RealisticallyTheBabyWillBeBornUnderSomeKindOfLockdown’ – She was, and X might be as well.

‘#ToSitInARestaurantOrGoToTheCinemaOrGoToAGig’

Well, we sat in a restaurant a few weeks ago, but I haven’t been to the cinema or a gig since before Covid. We went to see Parasite at the cinema a couple of weekends before lockdown, and we feel a bit on edge then (because of Covid, not the film – well a bit of both I guess).

‘#IDefinitelyWillNotBeRushingToGoToLondon’

I’ve been a few times since September, but doubt I will be going there again any time soon now.

‘#YouNeverKnowICouldSlipBackIntoOldLifeQuiteEasily’

My old life is definitely gone. We don’t even live in the same place as we did before Covid. I do wish some things were different – like I wish I had more play dates for B during the week, and didn’t feel so worried about going further from home but we make do. If this was my life forever I would feel stuck, but knowing that we plan to move in the summer is something to look forward to after the baby is born – the baby has been a good countdown for most of the year.

‘#ItWillBeWeirdWhenHeFinallyStartsGoingBackOutToWorkAgain’

I’ve been lucky that he still doesn’t really go out to work very much, which has been nice for him as he has been around for more of B’s early life – but he was working from home a bit before Covid anyways.

‘TheExerciseVideosIHaveBeenDoingForWeeksAreGettingABitMoreHarderToDoWithABiggerBump’

Yesterday I did a pregnancy pilates one for the first time in ages. It felt weird. It’s funny being more pregnant than the women in my usual videos now – I remember reaching that phase with B, and it felt strange.

I’m nearly at the point where it was 5 weeks until B arrived.


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Imitating B Standing With Her Hands Behind Her Back (31 Weeks / 5th December 2021)

Self-portrait where I am stood facing a wall with the front of my hands touching my back. I am wearing a flowery dress and my head is tilted upwards slightly.
Imitating B Standing With Her Hands Behind Her Back (31 Weeks / 5th December 2021)
 
#BHasBeenStandingAndWalkingAroundWithHerHandsBehindHerBackForAWhile
#SometimesSheJustHasThemFlatAgainstHerOrSometimesShePlaysWithAFinger
#SheLooksVeryConfidentThoughAndWeAlwaysCommentOnItWhenSheDoesIt
#YesterdaySheDiscoveredThatIfSheStandsInFrontOfMeNextToMyLegsICanNotSeeHerBecauseOfMyBump
#SoWePlayedPeekabooForABitWhichWasFunnyAndIHopeSheDoesNotForgetAboutIt
#SheSometimesPointsToMyBumpButIDoNotThinkSheReallyUnderstandsWhatIsHappeningInThere
#IWantHerToSeeItReallyMoveAsIWantToSeeHerReaction
#IHurtMyFingerTheOtherDayPuttingMySocksOnAsItIsDifficultToNavigateAroundMyBump
#IHadA31WeeksAppointmentWhichWasOptionalAsItIsNotReallyNecessaryAfterYourFirstChild
#TheyOfferedMeOneSoIThoughtIMightAsWellGoAnywaysAsItIsAlwaysGoodToGetSomeReassurance
#TheyAlwaysTestMyUrineNowSoIBoughtSomeTubesToTakeASampleWithMe
#IStruggledToFillOneAsWithMyBumpIReallyCouldNotSeeWhereIWasPissing
#IHadADifferentMidwifeAsMyOriginalOneIsNowWorkingFromHomeAsSheIsOnlyABitMorePregnantThanMe
#ThereWasAlsoAStudentMidwifeWhichIWasNotBotheredAboutAsTheyHaveToLearnSomehowAndThereIsAShortageOfMidwivesInThisCountry
#TheyBothMeasuredMeAndTheStudentSaidTheBabyWas1CentimetreBiggerThanAt28WeeksButTheMidwifeSaidSheIs3CentimetresBigger
#TheMidwifeSaidToHerNotToWorryAsTheyAllHaveTheirOwnWayOfMeasuringSoAsLongAsTheyMeasureTheSameWayEachTimeItGivesTheInformationThatTheyNeed
#WellLastTimeSomeoneElseMeasuredMeSoTheBabyHasSuddenlyJumpedFromTheFiftyPercentileToSeventyIsh
#MaybeTheyDidHaveAGrowthSpurtButItSeemsLikeABitTooMuchAndItObviouslyIsNotSuperAccurateButTheMainThingIsTheBabyHasGrown
#ISaidThatIHadBeenInALotOfPainWithTheBabysMovements
#TheMidwifeSaidThatIDoNotHaveALotSeparatingTheBabyFromMySkinSoItWillBeUncomfortableAtTimes
#IHaveMyNextAppointmentAt34WeeksWhichWillBeWithADifferentMidwifeAndThenTheOnesAfterThatWillBeEvery2Weeks
#BsNurseryCalledDuringHerLastSessionAsSheHadABumpOnHerHeadButTheyDidNotSeeHerDoItAndSheHadNotCried
#TheyWatchedTheCCTVAndSaidSheMustHaveDoneItWhilePlayingWithAToyAroundSomeChairs
#ISaidItWasProbablyAnOldBumpThatTheyHadNotNoticedAndWeWouldBePickingHerUpInHalfAnHourAnyways
#WeWentToGetHerAndItWasAnOldBumpThatLookedLikeItHadBeenKnockedABitButItSoonWentDownAndSheWasFine
#BIsStillCryingWhenWePutHerDownForANapOrBedAndINoLongerEvenTryToLetHerCrawlInByHerselfAsSheCrawlsInHalfwayThenStops
#SoWeHaveZippedItUpAndTurnedItRoundAsTheRipInItIsGettingBiggerAndINeedToFixIt
#ABassinetZipsIntoHerCotSoTheBabyCanHaveHerCotOnceTheyAreBornAsTheBabyWillBeMoreSnugAndBCanHaveADifferentOne
#IJustHadToGoAndWatchBWhileTSortedSomethingOutAndBWasHoldingHerHandsBehindHerBackAgain
#SheDoesNotSeemToLikeScrambledEggsWhenIGiveHerSomeAtMealsButSheIsMoreThanHappyToStealSomeAndTheCrustsFromMyBreakfast

#BHasBeenStandingAndWalkingAroundWithHerHandsBehindHerBackForAWhile

I don’t know why I enjoy seeing her do it so much, but I do.

#SometimesSheJustHasThemFlatAgainstHerOrSometimesShePlaysWithAFinger

I took a video of her for reference for the shoot and she plays with a finger for a bit and then has them flat again.

#SheLooksVeryConfidentThoughAndWeAlwaysCommentOnItWhenSheDoesIt

She looks very powerful. I don’t know where she has picked it up from, but it’s probably another case of her just discovering she can do it…

I imagine the shoot will look a bit like My Baby Is A Brick Wall (14th July 2020).

#YesterdaySheDiscoveredThatIfSheStandsInFrontOfMeNextToMyLegsICanNotSeeHerBecauseOfMyBump

My Mum was saying that my bump seems to be sticking out the front more this time, but then again she never saw me heavily pregnant in real life last time because of Covid. I guess she’s seen the photos though and saw me on WhatsApp.

#SoWePlayedPeekabooForABitWhichWasFunnyAndIHopeSheDoesNotForgetAboutIt

I want to play peekaboo again.

#SheSometimesPointsToMyBumpButIDoNotThinkSheReallyUnderstandsWhatIsHappeningInThere

She knows something is up as I talk to her about it.

#IWantHerToSeeItReallyMoveAsIWantToSeeHerReaction

Baby X does really move about in there now, and my bump is pushed into some weird shapes.

#IHurtMyFingerTheOtherDayPuttingMySocksOnAsItIsDifficultToNavigateAroundMyBump

I was saying to Tiago things are only going to get ‘worse’ now until the baby is born.

#IHadA31WeeksAppointmentWhichWasOptionalAsItIsNotReallyNecessaryAfterYourFirstChild #TheyOfferedMeOneSoIThoughtIMightAsWellGoAnywaysAsItIsAlwaysGoodToGetSomeReassurance

I could walk to my appointment and yeah why not? They offered it to me.

#TheyAlwaysTestMyUrineNowSoIBoughtSomeTubesToTakeASampleWithMe

I bought them ages ago. It means touching less Covid surfaces and having one less thing to worry about once I get there.

#IStruggledToFillOneAsWithMyBumpIReallyCouldNotSeeWhereIWasPissing

Hello, piss on my hand. They need a funnel for the pregnant folk.

#IHadADifferentMidwifeAsMyOriginalOneIsNowWorkingFromHomeAsSheIsOnlyABitNotMorePregnantThanMe

Working from home because of Covid and all. I like her – shame I will probably never see her again. You never know though, we could be ward buddies.

#ThereWasAlsoAStudentMidwifeWhichIWasNotBotheredAboutAsTheyHaveToLearnSomehowAndThereIsAShortageOfMidwivesInThisCountry

They kept asking if it was okay if she was there. I had at least one student midwife at B’s birth, and it was mainly students who were looking after me and B during our hospital stay. She apologised in case I felt uncomfortable during her checks, but I said at least she wasn’t kicking me in the ribs.

#TheyBothMeasuredMeAndTheStudentSaidTheBabyWas1CentimetreBiggerThanAt28WeeksButTheMidwifeSaidSheIs3CentimetresBigger

I initally wrote ‘they are’ instead of ‘she is’, as I am still skeptical…

The midwife measured first, but didn’t tell the student what she had got until after the student had had a go. The test aspect made the appointment more interesting.

#TheMidwifeSaidToHerNotToWorryAsTheyAllHaveTheirOwnWayOfMeasuringSoAsLongAsTheyMeasureTheSameWayEachTimeItGivesTheInformationThatTheyNeed

They just want to see that the baby is growing.

#WellLastTimeSomeoneElseMeasuredMeSoTheBabyHasSuddenlyJumpedFromTheFiftyPercentileToSeventyIsh

Hmm.

#MaybeTheyDidHaveAGrowthSpurtButItSeemsLikeABitTooMuchAndItObviouslyIsNotSuperAccurateButTheMainThingIsTheBabyHasGrown

That’s what we want to see. Next time it will be with someone else, so we will see what they get.

#ISaidThatIHadBeenInALotOfPainWithTheBabysMovements

Though it has not been so bad the last few days. I have been using my body oil more as probably helps my skin not hurt so much.

#TheMidwifeSaidThatIDoNotHaveALotSeparatingTheBabyFromMySkinSoItWillBeUncomfortableAtTimes

Makes sense.

#IHaveMyNextAppointmentAt34WeeksWhichWillBeWithADifferentMidwifeAndThenTheOnesAfterThatWillBeEvery2Weeks

Time is flying by. The last appointment did not feel like 3 weeks ago.

#BsNurseryCalledDuringHerLastSessionAsSheHadABumpOnHerHeadButTheyDidNotSeeHerDoItAndSheHadNotCried #TheyWatchedTheCCTVAndSaidSheMustHaveDoneItWhilePlayingWithAToyAroundSomeChairs

I thought they might have been calling to say she’d been sick, as if she is too active after eating and seems to be a bit sick after meals (mainly breakfast) at the moment.

#ISaidItWasProbablyAnOldBumpThatTheyHadNotNoticedAndWeWouldBePickingHerUpInHalfAnHourAnyways

She keeps knocking the same bit of her head on different things. It’s good they called – and I guess they have to cover their backs.

#WeWentToGetHerAndItWasAnOldBumpThatLookedLikeItHadBeenKnockedABitButItSoonWentDownAndSheWasFine

It probably didn’t need much to upset it again. They said they’d put a cold compress on it. She seemed fine and after her nap it had already gone down a lot.

#BIsStillCryingWhenWePutHerDownForANapOrBedAndINoLongerEvenTryToLetHerCrawlInByHerselfAsSheCrawlsInHalfwayThenStops

If I put her to bed she soon stops crying, but if Tiago does then she seems to cry for a lot longer. She knows I’m the strict one…

#SoWeHaveZippedItUpAndTurnedItRoundAsTheRipInItIsGettingBiggerAndINeedToFixIt

Trying to figure out the best way to do it. She normally sleeps at the edge closest to the door, which was the zipped bit. Hopefully she won’t mess with it more now that we’ve turned it round.

#ABassinetZipsIntoHerCotSoTheBabyCanHaveHerCotOnceTheyAreBornAsTheBabyWillBeMoreSnugAndBCanHaveADifferentOne

I don’t want to have to bend down super far to put the baby down. They will be nice and snug in the bassinet – B liked it.

#IJustHadToGoAndWatchBWhileTSortedSomethingOutAndBWasHoldingHerHandsBehindHerBackAgain

After T came back she was playing with a comb and I said ‘do you want to comb Daddy’s hair?’ and she had fun.

#SheDoesNotSeemToLikeScrambledEggsWhenIGiveHerSomeAtMealsButSheIsMoreThanHappyToStealSomeAndTheCrustsFromMyBreakfast

Nan wasn’t up yet, but normally she steals most of Nan’s breakfast, even though she’s usually eaten an hour before…

31 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait standing on one leg, while holding my left foot and looking away from the camera with my right hand touching my chin. I am nude with small white squares hiding my nipples and pubic area.
It Is Kind Of Weird To Refer To Tiago As Daddy And For Me To Be Called Mummy (31 and a half weeks)
 
#IJustFeelTiredToday
#AtTheWeekendWeHadOurNCTCourse
#NCTMeaningNationalChildbirthTrust
#WeDidItVirtuallyOverZoomAsWeWereUnableToMeetInPersonDueToCovid
#ItWasGoodAndWeLearnedALot
#SomeOfItWasGoingOverWhatWeHadLearnedOnOurHypnobirthingCourse
#ButIFeelLikeIUnderstandThingsMoreAfterHavingSeenDiagramsAndThingsBeingExplainedAgainBySomeoneElse
#WeDidTheCourseBecauseWeWantedToLearnButAlsoBecauseWeWantedToMeetOtherPeople
#EveryoneSeemsNiceAndWeHaveAChatGroupAndWillHopefullyHaveMoreOnlineMeetings
#ButIThinkThingsWouldBeABitDifferentIfWeHadMetInPerson
#HopefullyWeWillGetToOneDay
#SoIThinkHavingTwoDaysOfListeningWhilstOnWebcamHasTiredMeOut
#AsComparedToOtherLockdownWeekendsItWasPrettyIntense
#ThisWeekendThereIsASmallSessionAboutBreastfeeding
#WeWatchedAnotherEpisodeOfBabiesTheOtherDayAndItWasAboutFeeding
#ApparentlyNoBreastMilkIsTheSame
#AndItWillDifferForIfYouHaveABoyOrAGirl
#ThoughIWonderWhatHappensIfYouHadTwinsWhereOneWasABoyAndOneWasAGirl
#ItWasInterestingAnyways
#IFeelLikeBabysKicksAreGettingStronger
#IThinkItWasLastNightWhereICouldJustSeeItMovingAllAbout
#WeAreReallyGettingIntoNestingModeNow
#ReorganisingTheFlatAndPreferringThingsToBeALotTidier
#WeHaveBoughtMostOfTheThingsThatWeNeedNow
#JustAFewSmallBitsAndPiecesLeftToGet
#IKeepTalkingToTheBabyAboutWhatTiagoIsDoingButISayWhatDaddyIsDoing
#ItIsKindOfWeirdToCallHimDaddyAndForMeToBeCalledMummy
#ThoughIThinkHeWouldPreferToBeCalledDadInPortugueseSoIReferToHimAsPaiSometimes
#ThoughPapaiIsDaddy
#SoMaybeIShouldStartReferringToHimAsThat

Well, we are quite used to being called Mummy and Daddy now… We did used to refer to Tiago as Pai, but we seem to do that less these days.

We debated doing an NCT course this time, but it seems like an expensive way to make friends (which is what we thought last time). Especially as we not planning on sticking around the area for more than a year now, so it would be another potential group of friends that we would be moving away from.

We weren’t expecting to move away from Liverpool anytime soon when we did the course, but we did. I had a zoom call with a few of them the other week, so that’s nice at least.

I’m still yet to open my hypnobirthing book, but I’ve got 5% left of the Sinead O’Connor book that I’m reading and then I will.


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Imitating B Touching Her Nose (31 Weeks / 1st December 2021)

Self-portrait where I am touching my nose with my left index finger. I am side on to the camera and wearing a grey jumper and leggings. My bump is very visible.
Imitating B Touching Her Nose (31 Weeks / 1st December 2021)
 
#BWillJustRandomlyTouchHerNoseForNoApparentReason
#SoIWillSingHeadShouldersKneesAndToesAndSheWillSpendMostOfTheSongJustTouchingHerNose
#IThinkSheDoesKnowOtherBodyPartsButSheIsCurrentlyFixatedOnHerNose
#YesterdayIAskedHerWhereWasHerTongueAndSheStuckItOut
#SheHasSuddenlyBecomeAMassiveDaredevilAndItIsFreakingMeOut
#StandingOnTheArmOfTheSofaAndFallingBackwardsAndClimbingUpAnArmchairToTryToSlideDownIt
#WhileSheIsGettingMoreEnergeticIAmBecomingMoreTiredAndSlower
#ICanNotGetUpToSaveHerFromHerselfAsQuickAsIUsedTo
#SheKnowsWhatIDoNotLikeHerDoingLikeStandingOnTheCoffeeTableSoSheWatchesMeWhileSheDoesIt
#SheLovesItWhenIGetFreakedOutEnoughToStandUpWhichProbablyDoesNotHelpThings
#JustBeforeBedtimeSheSuddenlyWantsToRunAroundAndHaveTiagoChaseHer
#IUsuallyGetAnnoyedAsIWantHerToCalmDownAndTheOtherDaySheRanIntoADoorFrameWhileSheWasRunningFromT
#ItIsFunnyWhenSheDoesALittleSquealAtBeingChasedAndHasALaughThough
#MyNanSaysSheIsLikeAnOctopusWithHerArmsInEverythingAsSheIsConstantlyOnTheMoveAndMessingWithMyNansStuff
#BabyXsMovementsAreGettingQuitePainfulEspeciallyAtTheFrontOfMyBump
#IThinkBsPlacentaCushionedALotOfHerMovementsWhereasThisTimeThePlacentaIsInADifferentPlaceAndThisBabyIsBigger
#ASonographerDidSayThatSheHasLongLegsSoMaybeSheIsJustTryingThemOutALot
#OrMaybeIAmGettingPunchedMoreOrACombinationOfTheTwo
#OrMaybeItIsAllBraxtonHicksAndICanStillNotTellTheDifferentBetweenThemAndGettingKickedAndOrPunched
#IDoOftenMakeANoiseThoughAsItHurtsSoMuch
#EspeciallyWhenIAmLyingInBedAndAboutToFallAsleepAndIHaveToTryMyBestNotToCurse
#IOftenJustSayToTiagoCanYouTellYourSecondChildToStopBeatingMeUpPlease
#ICouldHave11WeeksOfThisPregnancyLeftAndTheBabyIsMeantToDoubleInSizeInTheThirdTrimester
#IAmABitWorriedAboutAchesAndPainsAsMyBodyIsDefinitelyStartingToFeelTheImpactOfCarryingThisBaby
#MyBackHurtsMoreAndMyBumpAchesAndIAmSoTired
#BDefinitelyStartedNurseryAtTheRightTimeAsIAmJustBecomingABoringTiredBlob
#MasksAreMandatoryInShopsAndOnPublicTransportAgainThoughIAmNotSureWhyTheyEverStoppedBeingSo
#MyGrandIdeaOfTakingBIntoTheCityCentreSeemsToHaveFadedAsIJustWantToBeCarefulAndTheThoughtOfDoingSoIsTooTiring
#TiagoShouldBeCalledForHisBoosterSoonWhenTheAgeDropsAndAsTheGapForTheBoosterHasBeenDroppedFrom6MonthsTo3ItWillNotBeLongUntilICanGetMine
#ICanNotBelieveThatIAmHavingAnotherBabyInTheTimeOfCovidButHereWeAre

#BWillJustRandomlyTouchHerNoseForNoApparentReason

As always I wish she would say why, but I guess she does it because she found she can.

#SoIWillSingHeadShouldersKneesAndToesAndSheWillSpendMostOfTheSongJustTouchingHerNose

Maybe she will touch her head for the first half, then her nose for the second.

#IThinkSheDoesKnowOtherBodyPartsButSheIsCurrentlyFixatedOnHerNose

I can’t wait for her to know all the body parts in the song. I don’t know why – I guess it will feel like an achievement of sorts.

#YesterdayIAskedHerWhereWasHerTongueAndSheStuckItOut

I think she understands a lot more than I think she does.

#SheHasSuddenlyBecomeAMassiveDaredevilAndItIsFreakingMeOut

I am hoping she gets it out of her system now, but I know it is only the start of a new era of B.

#StandingOnTheArmOfTheSofaAndFallingBackwardsAndClimbingUpAnArmchairToTryToSlideDownIt

I was on a video call to my younger sister when she started to do the sofa business. The armchair is quite dangerous as sometimes she doesn’t go very far and other times she tumbles onto the floor…

#WhileSheIsGettingMoreEnergeticIAmBecomingMoreTiredAndSlower

I need a lie down after I finish this…

#ICanNotGetUpToSaveHerFromHerselfAsQuickAsIUsedTo

This bump is becoming a weight and I have to help myself stand up, otherwise I get pains.

#SheKnowsWhatIDoNotLikeHerDoingLikeStandingOnTheCoffeeTableSoSheWatchesMeWhileSheDoesIt

That and sitting on the top cushion of the armchair…

#SheLovesItWhenIGetFreakedOutEnoughToStandUpWhichProbablyDoesNotHelpThings

Sometimes I just ignore her, but I do not know which approach is better. I’m just worried she is going to really hurt herself.

#JustBeforeBedtimeSheSuddenlyWantsToRunAroundAndHaveTiagoChaseHer

Maybe it’s her toothpaste? Someone is playing a mean trick on us.

#IUsuallyGetAnnoyedAsIWantHerToCalmDownAndTheOtherDaySheRanIntoADoorFrameWhileSheWasRunningFromT

The more tired she gets, the clumsier she gets. Fun times.

#ItIsFunnyWhenSheDoesALittleSquealAtBeingChasedAndHasALaughThough

It’s cute, but not just before bedtime.

#MyNanSaysSheIsLikeAnOctopusWithHerArmsInEverythingAsSheIsConstantlyOnTheMoveAndMessingWithMyNansStuff

Nothing is safe anymore. Yesterday she was bashing the house phone with a magnifying glass…

#BabyXsMovementsAreGettingQuitePainfulEspeciallyAtTheFrontOfMyBump

I feel like she would come out through my belly button if she could.

#IThinkBsPlacentaCushionedALotOfHerMovementsWhereasThisTimeThePlacentaIsInADifferentPlaceAndThisBabyIsBigger

*Nervous laugh*

#ASonographerDidSayThatSheHasLongLegsSoMaybeSheIsJustTryingThemOutALot

I’m happy for you sweet, unborn child of mine but it hurts.

#OrMaybeIAmGettingPunchedMoreOrACombinationOfTheTwo

Probably both, plus her doing rolls.

#OrMaybeItIsAllBraxtonHicksAndICanStillNotTellTheDifferentBetweenThemAndGettingKickedAndOrPunched

You’d have thought that I’d know by now, but no.

#IDoOftenMakeANoiseThoughAsItHurtsSoMuch

Some wincing here, some ouches there.

#EspeciallyWhenIAmLyingInBedAndAboutToFallAsleepAndIHaveToTryMyBestNotToCurse

I guess I notice more when I am more relaxed and my guard is down.

#IOftenJustSayToTiagoCanYouTellYourSecondChildToStopBeatingMeUpPlease

I’d love for him to experience pregnancy, even just for one day but oh well.

#ICouldHave11WeeksOfThisPregnancyLeftAndTheBabyIsMeantToDoubleInSizeInTheThirdTrimester

*Nervous laugh*

#IAmABitWorriedAboutAchesAndPainsAsMyBodyIsDefinitelyStartingToFeelTheImpactOfCarryingThisBaby

Writing this now my upper back hurts.

#MyBackHurtsMoreAndMyBumpAchesAndIAmSoTired

I think lifting B doesn’t help things, but that’s why I stretch in the morning and evening.

#BDefinitelyStartedNurseryAtTheRightTimeAsIAmJustBecomingABoringTiredBlob

At first I thought maybe we had signed her up too early, but it was definitely the right decision. She seems to love it too, which is good. T says that she will hug him tight before she goes in, but then is fine.

#MasksAreMandatoryInShopsAndOnPublicTransportAgainThoughIAmNotSureWhyTheyEverStoppedBeingSo

Ergh. I’m too tired to talk about the Government.

#MyGrandIdeaOfTakingBIntoTheCityCentreSeemsToHaveFadedAsIJustWantToBeCarefulAndTheThoughtOfDoingSoIsTooTiring

I do not have the energy to go there via train. I worry that B would get bored anyways.

#TiagoShouldBeCalledForHisBoosterSoonWhenTheAgeDropsAndAsTheGapForTheBoosterHasBeenDroppedFrom6MonthsTo3ItWillNotBeLongUntilICanGetMine

It’s been 2 months since I had mine, so I’m sure by the time it’s 3 months they will have dropped the age so I’m eligible. It’d be good to have it before the baby is born to give her more antibodies and to protect myself in hospital a bit more.

#ICanNotBelieveThatIAmHavingAnotherBabyInTheTimeOfCovidButHereWeAre

It’s been a good time to have kids in a way as I really feel like I’m not missing out on much. It is weird thinking how our lives may be right now if Covid hadn’t happened, but we will never know so there’s no point wasting brain power on it.

31 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

I think my bump is currently bigger than in these photos, but it is hard to tell.

I saw something the other day that said my BMI at the start of my pregnancy was 20.2 this time. The extra scans were unnecessary last time, so I’m glad I didn’t have to worry about that this time – they probably wouldn’t have given me them anyways.

I did read an article the other day about home births having been suspended for a while.

Obviously in the end I did not have a home birth, so it didn’t matter but it was weird not knowing what would happen at the time. Whenever I mentioned to midwives that I wanted a homebirth last time they ask if I want one this time – I’m quite looking forward to a change of scenery in hospital to be fair. (I bet I end up having an accidental home birth…)

With names we agreed on a girl name pretty early for B. We didn’t really discuss it much and in hospital it was weird as Tiago wasn’t able to visit that we didn’t really talk much about names. This time there is also a clear winner for a girl’s name (one we hadn’t even considered for B), though we say we are open to others but I guess it probably will this one. I guess we will have to wait and see. If Baby X does turn out to be a boy, then we are screwed. We really can not decide on a boy’s name…

I have not used the same oil this time. I bought some different oil after B was born, but only started to use it during this pregnancy. It smells so good. Turns out that is meant for pregnancy, but for some reason I thought it was after giving birth. *shrug* My skin hasn’t been so itchy this time which is good.

I swam in the summer, and swimming while pregnant was odd. I didn’t like that it was so uncomfortable to swim on my front. There was a swimming pool at the hotel we stayed at the other week, but I was too tired to try it out. Realistically I don’t think I will be swimming for a while now. We had planned to try to take B as she likes water so much, but yeah it hasn’t happened. Her skin is so sensitive that I don’t like the idea of her in a big bath of chlorine.


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Pregnancy Waiting II

Imitating B Stroking My Hair (29 Weeks / 19th November 2021)

Self-portrait wearing a dark blue top. I am facing away from the camera with my hand touching my hair.
Imitating B Stroking My Hair (29 Weeks / 19th November 2021)
 
#BHasANewThingWhereWhenWePickHerUpSheLikesToStrokeOurHair
#AsAlwaysIWouldLoveToAskHerWhySheDoesItButICanNot
#MaybeItIsAComfortThingOrMaybeSheJustLikesHowItFeels
#ObviouslyTiagoHasLessHairThanMeButSheDoesTouchHisBeardSometimesToo
#ThisMorningSheWasGentlyHoldingMyArmsBeforeIGotHerOutOfHerHighchairWhichWasQuiteSweet
#HerStrokingOurHairDoesMakeMeThinkThatSheIsPettingUsLikeWeAreDogsOrSomething
#TheOtherDayAKidAtThePlaygroundWasPattingBOnTheHeadLikeSheWasALittleDog
#HeKeptSayingHowHeWasTallerThanHerAndIWasLikeYeahJustABitAsYouAreFour
#IKeepDreamingThatBIsRunningAroundOurRoomInTheMiddleOfTheNightLikeWeGotHerUpNotRealisingItWasNotTimeToGetHerUpYet
#TwoNightsAgoSheGotSomethingOnHerHandsWhichIWorriedWasOneOfNansPolishesOrSomething
#ISatUprightAndToldTiagoThatWeNeedToCleanHerHands
#HeSaidWhatAndISaidInAnAnnoyedLoudWhisperYourDaughter
#HeJustRespondedIThinkYouHadADreamAndRolledOverAndWentBackToSleep
#IKeepWakingUpEveryHourOrSoAtTheMomentWhichIsAnnoyingButOhWell
#BHasSleptABitLaterTheLastCoupleOfNightsWhichMakesMeFeelBetterEspeciallyAsMyParentsAreDueToHaveHerThisWeekend
#OurPlanIsToHaveLunchAtOurFavouriteRestaurantThenGoToBuyPicnicStuffAtTheSupermarketThenCheckInAndJustWatchTvEatSleepAndIWantToHaveABath
#IWatchedTheKidsFilmLucaByMyselfOverAFewNightsButIFoundThePlotStressfulAsIRealiseThatIGenerallyWatchToddlersTVWhichIsNotStressfulAtAll
#BDoesNotLikeToWalkToAndFromTheParkMuchAnymoreWhichIsABitOfAReliefInWays
#MaybeSheHasFiguredOutThatWeGetToThePlaygroundQuickerIfSheJustSitsInHerPushchair
#SheWillStartWalkingButThenSlowDownAndIEitherAskHerIfSheWantsToGoInHerPushchairOrSheWillGoNextToIt
#GenerallyByTheTimeWeLeaveThePlaygroundNowItIsQuiteDarkAndWeHaveToRushHomeButIKnowTheDaysAreStillDueToGetShorter
#ThisWeekSheHasGotOnMuchBetterAtNurseryEvenWithARunnyNose
#WeWereNotSureWhetherOrNotToSendHerButWeRealisedThatThereWouldBeNoKidsAtNurseryIfNoOneWasAllowedToBeThereWithARunnyNose
#SheDoesNotCryNowWhenTiagoDropsHerOffAndSheEatsMoreOfHerLunchWhichIsGood
#PregnancyWiseIAmFeelingAlrightButIAmPuttingOffReadingMyHypnobirthingBookWhichIKnowIWillRegret
#IKnowIHaveTimeButIAlsoWorryThatTheBabyMightJustComeSuperEarlySoIShouldGetOnWithIt
#IThinkIHaveSaidBeforeThatIWouldLikeBabyXToBeBornInSomewhereElseAsTWasBornInPortugalBWasBornInLiverpoolAndIWasBornInBirminghamAndSoWillBabyX
#HoweverIRealisedThatTiagoIsAlsoTechnicallyAScouserAsHeGotHisBritishCitizenshipInLiverpoolSoOurFamilyWillBeTwoScousersAndTwoBrummies
#IWantBabyXToLookLikeBButBAlsoLooksALotLikeTiagoSoIWouldLikeXToLookABitMoreLikeMe
#MyNanGotSomeBabyPhotosOutYesterdayThoughAndYouCanSeeAResemblanceBetweenBAndMeAtTimesWhichIsNiceAndSheStillHasALotOfGrowingToDo

#BHasANewThingWhereWhenWePickHerUpSheLikesToStrokeOurHair

This morning she was also messing with mine as I lay down next to her, while she watched TV.

#AsAlwaysIWouldLoveToAskHerWhySheDoesItButICanNot

Why does B do anything and everything? I would love to know. Obviously I can ask her, but I will not get much of a response.

#MaybeItIsAComfortThingOrMaybeSheJustLikesHowItFeels

Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.

#ObviouslyTiagoHasLessHairThanMeButSheDoesTouchHisBeardSometimesToo

Cute.

#ThisMorningSheWasGentlyHoldingMyArmsBeforeIGotHerOutOfHerHighchairWhichWasQuiteSweet

I think she is just discovering about bodies and is showing some interest. It makes sense.

#HerStrokingOurHairDoesMakeMeThinkThatSheIsPettingUsLikeWeAreDogsOrSomething

Yesterday I asked Tiago to pretend to be a dog for her, which soon changed into a horse and B got some rides around the living room which she loved.

#TheOtherDayAKidAtThePlaygroundWasPattingBOnTheHeadLikeSheWasALittleDog

B was just smiling at him and found it funny.

#HeKeptSayingHowHeWasTallerThanHerAndIWasLikeYeahJustABitAsYouAreFour

Well, you can talk, are in school uniform and yeah you told me you are 4.

#IKeepDreamingThatBIsRunningAroundOurRoomInTheMiddleOfTheNightLikeWeGotHerUpNotRealisingItWasNotTimeToGetHerUpYet

It is getting a bit annoying as it just drains my energy. I had lots of dreams last night.

#TwoNightsAgoSheGotSomethingOnHerHandsWhichIWorriedWasOneOfNansPolishesOrSomething

My Nan likes to polish things, and still doesn’t get that B will mess with her stuff.

#ISatUprightAndToldTiagoThatWeNeedToCleanHerHands

There was a lot on her hands and I was worried that she would try to eat it.

#HeSaidWhatAndISaidInAnAnnoyedLoudWhisperYourDaughter

More like YOUR DAUGHTER!

#HeJustRespondedIThinkYouHadADreamAndRolledOverAndWentBackToSleep

I just thought ‘that makes sense’ and also went back to sleep.

#IKeepWakingUpEveryHourOrSoAtTheMomentWhichIsAnnoyingButOhWell

At least I can go back to sleep. I think I am just anticipating B waking up and am intrigued to see the time. I lift my head to look at the clock, then go back to sleep.

#BHasSleptABitLaterTheLastCoupleOfNightsWhichMakesMeFeelBetterEspeciallyAsMyParentsAreDueToHaveHerThisWeekend

She woke up after 6 today. Hurrah. I think it was because her room was quite warm as sometimes I go to get her up and her hands are so cold – not today.

#OurPlanIsToHaveLunchAtOurFavouriteRestaurantThenGoToBuyPicnicStuffAtTheSupermarketThenCheckInAndJustWatchTvEatSleepAndIWantToHaveABath

Originally we were going to have dinner out, but Tiago suggested having lunch out instead and I much prefer that idea. Not having to leave our room from when we check-in until we check-out sounds good to me.

#IWatchedTheKidsFilmLucaByMyselfOverAFewNightsButIFoundThePlotStressfulAsIRealiseThatIGenerallyWatchToddlersTVWhichIsNotStressfulAtAll

I might have watched it quicker if I had not been so stressed out. It might have been over 4 nights… I don’t like to watch trailers so I was quite surprised that the storyline is what it is. I did enjoy it though.

#BDoesNotLikeToWalkToAndFromTheParkMuchAnymoreWhichIsABitOfAReliefInWays

It was a very slow and long walk before…

#MaybeSheHasFiguredOutThatWeGetToThePlaygroundQuickerIfSheJustSitsInHerPushchair

And the playground is way more fun than walking for ages. I think she’s also just realised that the walk is fairly boring, and maybe it is less fun now it is colder as she gets cold hands from holding onto the pushchair while she walks besides it.

#SheWillStartWalkingButThenSlowDownAndIEitherAskHerIfSheWantsToGoInHerPushchairOrSheWillGoNextToIt

Great.

#GenerallyByTheTimeWeLeaveThePlaygroundNowItIsQuiteDarkAndWeHaveToRushHomeButIKnowTheDaysAreStillDueToGetShorter

Ergh. Can’t wait for the evenings to get lighter again. By the time they will be I guess baby X will be of an age where I feel less stressed about taking them both out at least.

#ThisWeekSheHasGotOnMuchBetterAtNurseryEvenWithARunnyNose

Tiago and I feel so proud.

#WeWereNotSureWhetherOrNotToSendHerButWeRealisedThatThereWouldBeNoKidsAtNurseryIfNoOneWasAllowedToBeThereWithARunnyNose

She probably got the runny nose from nursery anyways…

#SheDoesNotCryNowWhenTiagoDropsHerOffAndSheEatsMoreOfHerLunchWhichIsGood

Go B! She settled in quite quick really, but I guess she has started later than a lot of kids do.

#PregnancyWiseIAmFeelingAlrightButIAmPuttingOffReadingMyHypnobirthingBookWhichIKnowIWillRegret

I just read a book about Britney Spears, and now I have a book to read about Karen Carpenter, and ‘Men Who Hate Women’. I do not get on with reading physical books much anymore as I much prefer to read on a screen.

#IKnowIHaveTimeButIAlsoWorryThatTheBabyMightJustComeSuperEarlySoIShouldGetOnWithIt

Excuses. I will start soon. Promise.

#IThinkIHaveSaidBeforeThatIWouldLikeBabyXToBeBornSomewhereElseAsTWasBornInPortugalBWasBornInLiverpoolAndIWasBornInBirminghamAndSoWillBabyX

Something really unimportant that has crossed my mind a few times.

#HoweverIRealisedThatTiagoIsAlsoTechnicallyAScouserAsHeGotHisBritishCitizenshipInLiverpoolSoOurFamilyWillBeTwoScousersAndTwoBrummies

If you ask Tiago where he is from I doubt he will say Liverpool, but whatever.

#IWantBabyXToLookLikeBButBAlsoLooksALotLikeTiagoSoIWouldLikeXToLookABitMoreLikeMe

I’d like for them to look like sisters, but I am selfish and want one kid that looks a bit more like me.

#MyNanGotSomeBabyPhotosOutYesterdayThoughAndYouCanSeeAResemblanceBetweenBAndMeAtTimesWhichIsNiceAndSheStillHasALotOfGrowingToDo

It would be cool if they were both just a good mix of T and me, which DNA wise they are really but we will have to wait and see. Truthfully, I hope they are both more like Tiago though.

29 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

(Apparently I had a productive week back then with 4 photos, but I have put one in my previous post as they both talk about my 28 week appointment.)

Self-portrait where I am facing the right of the image. My hair is wrapped in a towel and my hands are placed on my bump.
It Is Odd That Quite Possibly None Of My Friends Or Family (Besides Tiago) Will See Me Heavily Pregnant In Real Life (29 weeks)
 
#PeopleWarnedUsWhenWeWereTryingToGetPregnantThatWeWouldNeverBeAbleToLeaveTheHouseWhenWeWantedAgain
#IRememberShruggingAtTheTimeAndSayingItDidNotBotherMeMuch
#IHaveAlwaysLikedBookingTicketsForThingsMoreThanGoingToTheThings
#IBookTicketsAndIGetExcited
#ThenOnTheDayTheEventComesRoundIAmAlwaysFeelingTired
#IDoEnjoyEventsButIAmNotThatBothered
#NowIHaveBeenAtHomeFor3WeeksOtherThanGoingForWalks
#AndWhenRestrictionsFinallyLiftIWillNotBeRushingToGoOutForAnythingOtherThanWalks
#TheBabyMayHaveBeenBornAlreadyOrItMayHaveNot
#EitherWayIDoNotEnvisionGoingAnywhereWithTheBabyBesidesWalks
#ItIsOddThatQuitePossiblyNoneOfMyFriendsOrFamilyWillSeeMeHeavilyPregnantInRealLife
#EveryWeekIFeelLikeTheBabyIsGrowingALot
#IDidNotBotherBuyingAnyMoreMaternityClothesThanTheOnesIGotWhenIWas15Weeks
#WhichWereMainlyBrasADressAPairOfLeggingsAndACardigan
#NowIAmJustAtHomeSoIDefinitelyDoNotNeedToGetAnythingElse
#YesterdayISpentTheWholeDayLookingAtBabyStuff
#WeAreJustGoingToHaveToRiskItAndBuyStuffWithoutTrying
#IWouldRatherJustBuyEverythingSoonerRatherThanLaterSoWeDoNotHaveToWorry
#IAmThinkingThatThereIsNoPointBuyingABabyBassinetForThePushchairAsWeWillNotProbablyUseItMuch
#IWouldRatherJustCarryTheBabyInTheBeginning
#ParticularlyToAvoidAnyoneTryingToPeerIntoTheBassinetInsteadOfKeepingTheirDistance
#WeStillDoNotKnowIfItIsAGirlOrABoy
#IOftenForgetItHasAGenderWhichIsWeirdToSay
#IJustReferToThemAsTheBabyOrThem
#WhereasTiagoUsuallyStartsTalkingToTheBumpWithMyBabyBoy
#AndThenICoughInANonCovidWayAndHeSaysOrMyBabyGirl
#HeStillWantsToFindOutBeforeTheBirth
#IWantToWait
#IAmSupposedToBeHavingMoreScansButIHaveNotReceivedALetterRecently
#AndIDoNotFeelLikeChasingThemUpAsIWouldRatherAvoidGoingToTheHospitalIfICan

I was meant to say that it has been weird this time round having strangers comment on my bump like ‘so she’s going to be a big sister then?’ When I was pregnant with B I didn’t talk to random people in the street and we rarely saw anyone that we knew.

I was thinking the other day how I am really not bothered about going to events like gigs and things. If someone offered me a ticket where I got to stand on the side of the stage or got a good seated ticket then sure, but the idea of going to something is so unappealing these days.

This time round I haven’t bought any maternity clothes and am mainly just wearing the dress I bought when I was pregnant with B, the bras from then and Uniqlo leggings as they’re so stretchy and comfortable.

We did buy some baby nappies and cotton wool as I needed to order some vitamins for B and wanted to reach the amount for free postage and packaging, so thought I might as well buy some.

We’ve been told baby X is a girl, but I am still skeptical and will probably continue to be until they are born and we will see.

If the baby had not presented in the scan then we would have probably had to wait until the birth to find out as we do not have any more scans now. We are debating having a private one but I doubt we will.

I am stood facing the camera and it is a crop from my breasts to just above my pubic area. My hands are on the sides of my bump, and Tiago's hands are reaching in from the right side of the image and are cupping the top and bottom of my bump.
Tiago Says It Reminds Him Of Pictures Where People Are Holding A Globe (29 weeks)

#IKeepWakingUpInTheNight
#ForACoupleOfNightsItWasBefore2am
#ButLastNightTiagoGaveMeAnUpperBackMassageAndIDidNotWakeUpUntil4am
#SoMaybeItWasTheMassageOrMaybeItWasACoincidence
#IHadSomeHipPainWhenIWokeUp
#ThinkItWasBecauseIHadLayOnOneSideSinceFallingAsleep
#TurningOverIsBecomingMoreOfAChore
#AsWellAsBendingDownToPickThingsUp
#WhilstHeMassagedMeWeWatchAHypnobirthingVideoAboutDueDates
#HopefullyNowTiagoWillStopTalkingAboutMyDueDateLikeTheBabyIsActuallyComingThatDay
#AsApparentlyOnly4PercentArriveOnTheirDueDate
#ThoughSomethingLike85PercentOfFirstTimeMumsGiveBirthAfter40Weeks
#ItSaidToStopTalkingLikeMyBabyIsComingByTheDueDate
#AndBeMoreLikeFromTheDueDate
#ToBeFairIKnewThat42WeeksIsNormal
#ItWillComeWhenItIsReady
#IHaveBeenTryingToGetTiagoToDoExerciseVideosForAFewWeeksNow
#ForTheLastCoupleOfDaysHeHasBeenDoingMineWithMe
#WhichIsGoodAsIHaveBeenDoingTheSameFewVideosForMonthsNow
#AndINeedABitOfMotivation
#HeSaidHeSleptWellLastNightAndHeThinksItWasBecauseOfTheBedtimeYogaVideoThatWeDid
#WeWillSeeHowLongHeDoesThemWithMe
#IThinkHeMightGetBoredOfMeDoingTheSameOnes
#WeNearlyPutAPauseOnTryingToGetPregnantAsHeWasMeantToBeTheBestManAtAWeddingThisSummer
#WeDecidedNotToAsWeWereLikeWellItHasNotHappenedYetSoItMightNotAnyways
#ObviouslyWeWereNotExpectingAPandemic
#NowTheWeddingIsPostponedUntilNextYear
#WhichIsAnnoyingForThemButGoodForMeAsWeWillBeAbleToGoAsAFamily
#AndIWasABitWorriedAboutPotentiallyBeingHomeAloneWithANewborn
#AsItIsTwoFlightsAwayAndItIsBadEnoughDoingThatSometimesWithJustTheTwoOfUs

Well, the wakings are nothing new then but I think it is more B related this time than pregnancy related.

I had forgotten that Tiago used to give me back massages when I was pregnant with B – I may have to remind him. I seem to have less pain this time – I think sleeping on a better mattress may have a lot to do with it, but I do also stretch in the morning and evening and have done since finding out I was pregnant.

I really thought that I would be a 42 weeker, so I was very surprised that B came before 38 weeks. This time I plan to start going to bed early from 37 weeks, but I will probably be a 42 weeker this time.

We were due to go to 2 weddings that summer. I think the one I mentioned here has been delayed for a bit longer, but one took place this August and we did go.

Self-portrait where I am leaning on a table. I am cupping my chin in my left hand and my right hand is touching my left elbow. I am slightly facing the left side of the image and am staring off.
Eating Almond Butter Is My Daily Highlight Right Now (29 and a half weeks)
 
#TheLastCoupleOfWeeksIHaveNoticedThatIHaveHadAFewBadEvenings
#LastWeekIWasCrankyTwoNightsInARow
#AndLastNightIJustFeltDown
#IFeltDownInTheEveningProbablyACoupleOfWeeksAgo
#IWasCryingAndIDidNotReallyKnowWhy
#IJustFeltOverwhelmed
#IFeelMoreTiredInTheAfternoonThanTheEvenings
#ButMaybeByTheEveningsIAmMoreMentallyTired
#AfterISleepIWakeUpFeelingFine
#IThinkTheMassageMakingMeSleepLaterWasJustACoincidence
#LastNightIWokeUpAt1amThen4amThen6am
#AtLeastNowIDoNotHaveToWorryAboutCommuting
#AndTheWakingUpInTheNightIsPreparationForWhatIsToCome
#IFeltDownLastNightAgainBecauseIThinkIWasOverwhelmed
#IWantToChatWithPeopleButIJustFindItKindOfExhausting
#SeeingMessagesToReplyToMakesMeFeelABitAnxious
#PeopleAskingMeWhenIAmDue
#IDoJustNotWantItToGetToTheTimeWhenIAmDueAndBeGettingLotsOfMessagesAskingMeForBabyNews
#IWillTellPeopleWhenIAmReady
#WhichCouldBeSoonAfterTheBirthOrItMightNot
#SoIfYouHaveAskedAndIHaveToldYouInAnObviousOrVagueWayPleaseDoNotBugMe
#IfYouHaveNotAskedThenPleaseDoNotAskMe
#MyHighlightOfTheDayAtTheMomentIsWhenIEatAnAppleAndABananaWithNutButter
#ThisHasBeenMyDailyHighlightForAtLeastAWeek
#IReadThatEatingNutsInYourFirstTrimesterIsReallyGoodForTheBaby
#ButICouldNotEatThemAsIHadAnAversionToThem
#HopefullyItWillHelpABitNowButMaybeIAmEatingTooMuchAndItHasTheOppositeEffect
#IAmJustEatingItBecauseILoveIt
#WeCouldNotGetBananasTheOtherDayButTiagoGotSomeToday
#IEnjoyThisTreatMoreThanOurWalksAsWeWalkTheSameRouteAllTheTimeAndPeopleStressMeOutAsTheyDoNotSeemToKnowWhat2MetresIs

Well, in the end B was so early that no one had sent me a message asking if she had arrived yet. That was good.

I feel less awkward about people asking me this time, though I still would rather be left in peace about it.

Weirdly I have got quite into nut butters again in the last week or so. I actually might go and eat some after writing this. I’ve been making B cookies which are oats, bananas and nut butters, and enjoying them a lot.

I also generally just walk the same routes now, but with B so it is more interesting and we stop and chat to a few people. I definitely feel like we are more part of the community now than when we lived in Liverpool, which is nice. Tiago is generally working so maybe he does not feel the same, but I think he likes that we know a few more people at least.


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Portrait of A Mother Of A Seventeen Month Old (28 Weeks / 14th November 2021)

Self-portrait lying on the bed in a bra and leggings. I am cradling my bump with my right hand and have my left hand resting on my face. I am leaning on and against a maternity pillow.
Portrait Of A Mother Of A Seventeen Month Old (28 Weeks / 14th November 2021)
 
#IKnowIHaveTakenALotOfPicturesOfMyselfLookingTiredInThePastForThisProjectWithinAProject
#ButThisTimeIReallyAmTiredAndBeforeIDoNotThinkIKnewWhatTheMeaningOfTiredWas
#OrMaybeIWasTiredThenButIFeelExhaustedNowAndProbablyShouldBeSavingMyEnergyAndNotTryingToDoABitOfWork
#IWentToBedFourNightsAgoFeelingLikeIWasMaybeGoingToBeSickButThoughtItWouldPass
#IBarelySleptAndGotUpToGoToTheBathroomAroundOneThirtyInTheMorningAndKeptBeingSickThenFinallyStoppedButWasSickAgainAfterASitDown
#BActuallySleptUntilSixForOnceAndIWasSickWhenIGotUpThenButFeltFineEnoughToDoMyMorningExerciseButThenICrashed
#IWentBackToBedAndTWatchedBThenIWatchedBForAnHourThenMyMumCameAndWatchedBUntilLunch
#ThenIGotUpToGiveHerLunchAndSheHadFallenAsleepOnMyMumSoTiagoWatchedHerDuringHisLunchThenSheNappedAndINapped
#IWasSurprisedThatBSleptForTwoHoursButIGotHerUpAndPutHerInOurBedButThenISuddenlyFeltSick
#SoIManagedToPutHerOnTheFloorAndRunToTheBathroomWhereIWasSickAndIMeanSickkk
#IThinkItIsExhaustionAndTheSicknessIsASideEffectOfItThoughIHaveNotBeenSickSinceButHaveFeltLikeIWillBeAtTimes
#BeforeBWasBornIDidUsedToSpendAWeekendInBedAtLeastOnceAYearButObviouslyItIsHardToDoThatNow
#TypicallyItHappenedAfterBStartedNurseryButIGuessMyBodyKnewICouldBeIllSoItWaitedUntilThenAndIHaveNotReallyBeenIllSinceBWasBorn
#BHasBeenABitUpAndDownAsWellButMaybeItIsDueToStartingNurseryAndHavingALeapAndTeethingAndBeingFrustratedAtNotBeingAbleToTalk
#WeGaveHerLunchYesterdayAndSheJustPushedItAllToTheFloorSoICriedAsIWasSoTired
#WeThoughtItWasBecauseSheWasOvertiredSoWeJustPutHerDownForHerNapAndSheWokeUpAfter40Minutes
#TiagoNeededARestAndIFeltTooTiredToLookAfterHerSoIGotIntoHerCotAndRubbedHerBackUntilSheFellBackToSleep
#IManagedToGetOutOfHerCotAndOutOfTheRoomWithoutHerWakingUpAndSheSleptForNearlyTwoMoreHours
#IDoWorryHowIAmGoingToCopeWithTwoKidsButIAmHopingThatIWillSomehowFeelLessTiredWhenTheBabyIsOutAndNotTakingAllMyNutrientsButIDoubtIt
#IHaveBarelyHadAnAppetiteButIHaveBeenMakingMyselfEatForTheBabysSake
#IDidHaveMy28WeeksMidwifeAppointmentThoughAndSheSaidEverythingSeemedFineButThatIShouldDrinkMore
#IDidNotRealiseThatIWasGoingToHaveABloodTestButLuckilyIHadForcedMyselfToEatASandwichBeforeGoing
#SheSaidTheBabyWasMeasuringWellAndThatSheHasAPercentileOf50Percent
#SheToldMeThatBHadAPercentileOf32WhenSheWasBornWhichIDidNotKnowSoThisBabyIsDefinitelyBiggerForNow
#IActuallyThoughtBHadBeenLessThan32SoThatIsGoodToKnow
#SheWasTryingToFigureOutWhereTheBabysHeadWasButSaidItDoesNotMatterAsBTurnedAroundTheDayBeforeSheWasBornAnyways
#ThisWeekendMyParentsAreDueToLookAfterBAndIAmABitNervousWithAllHerEarlyWakings
#WeChangedOurHotelYesterdaySoThatWeAreStayingCloseToOurFavouriteIndianRestaurantInsteadAndTheRoomHasABigBathAsIDoNotKnowIfIWillHaveTheEnergyToSwim
#IHadABathTheOtherDayWhenTiagoHadToTakeACoupleOfHoursOffToLookAfterB
#IWasBoredOfLyingInBedAndThoughtItWouldDoMeGoodAndItWasTheFirstBathIHadEverHadWhilePregnantAndItWasGreatThoughIDidFeelGuiltyForHavingToUseSoMuchWater

#IKnowIHaveTakenALotOfPicturesOfMyselfLookingTiredInThePastForThisProjectWithinAProject #ButThisTimeIReallyAmTiredAndBeforeIDoNotThinkIKnewWhatTheMeaningOfTiredWas

I’m yet to do the shoot, but I think I will be probably lying down or some kind of pose that means little effort for my body.

(Yeah, a classic lie across the bed pose. I was initially wearing a dress, but I didn’t like how it looked in the photos/you couldn’t see my bump as well.)

#OrMaybeIWasTiredThenButIFeelExhaustedNowAndProbablyShouldBeSavingMyEnergyAndNotTryingToDoABitOfWork

I’ve been umming and ahh-ing about whether or not to write this today etc.

#IWentToBedFourNightsAgoFeelingLikeIWasMaybeGoingToBeSickButThoughtItWouldPass #IBarelySleptAndGotUpToGoToTheBathroomAroundOneThirtyInTheMorningAndKeptBeingSickThenFinallyStoppedButWasSickAgainAfterASitDown

I wish I had just made myself be sick before going to bed, but I really hoped it would pass.

#BActuallySleptUntilSixForOnceAndIWasSickWhenIGotUpThenButFeltFineEnoughToDoMyMorningExerciseButThenICrashed

Classic.

#IWentBackToBedAndTWatchedBThenIWatchedBForAnHourThenMyMumCameAndWatchedBUntilLunch

By watching B I mean I just laid on the sofa while she watched TV. I felt bad, but it was all I could do.

#ThenIGotUpToGiveHerLunchAndSheHadFallenAsleepOnMyMumSoTiagoWatchedHerDuringHisLunchThenSheNappedAndINapped

She was just asleep on my Mum’s lap. We (well Tiago) kept her up for an hour and hoped that she would sleep again.

#IWasSurprisedThatBSleptForTwoHoursButIGotHerUpAndPutHerInOurBedButThenISuddenlyFeltSick

It’s good to know that she can nap for a good amount of time after having a short nap not too long before.

The sickness just kind of ‘rose up’.

#SoIManagedToPutHerOnTheFloorAndRunToTheBathroomWhereIWasSickAndIMeanSickkk

Grim. B was just crying and luckily Tiago came upstairs and took her downstairs.

#IThinkItIsExhaustionAndTheSicknessIsASideEffectOfItThoughIHaveNotBeenSickSinceButHaveFeltLikeIWillBeAtTimes

I will probably call the doctors tomorrow just to rule stuff out, but I also don’t want to waste their time.

#BeforeBWasBornIDidUsedToSpendAWeekendInBedAtLeastOnceAYearButObviouslyItIsHardToDoThatNow

Lie in bed and try to sleep, or just watch terrible TV. I did feel better the next night as I just watched TV in bed, and I fell asleep with my phone next to me which I never do – and slept solidly until B woke up at 5.30am.

#TypicallyItHappenedAfterBStartedNurseryButIGuessMyBodyKnewICouldBeIllSoItWaitedUntilThenAndIHaveNotReallyBeenIllSinceBWasBorn

I guess it’s been due, and growing a baby is tiring.

#BHasBeenABitUpAndDownAsWellButMaybeItIsDueToStartingNurseryAndHavingALeapAndTeethingAndBeingFrustratedAtNotBeingAbleToTalk

I try to put myself in her shoes. It must be so annoying not being able to say what you want, though I can guess at times, but sometimes I seem quite off.

#WeGaveHerLunchYesterdayAndSheJustPushedItAllToTheFloorSoICriedAsIWasSoTired

That was my frustration.

#WeThoughtItWasBecauseSheWasOvertiredSoWeJustPutHerDownForHerNapAndSheWokeUpAfter40Minutes

Great.

#TiagoNeededARestAndIFeltTooTiredToLookAfterHerSoIGotIntoHerCotAndRubbedHerBackUntilSheFellBackToSleep

Not the approach I like to take, but I was desperate.

#IManagedToGetOutOfHerCotAndOutOfTheRoomWithoutHerWakingUpAndSheSleptForNearlyTwoMoreHours

I felt like a bit of a champion.

#IDoWorryHowIAmGoingToCopeWithTwoKidsButIAmHopingThatIWillSomehowFeelLessTiredWhenTheBabyIsOutAndNotTakingAllMyNutrientsButIDoubtIt

I do intend to breastfeed again, so she will still be taking nutrients but in a less invasive way to being inside of me I imagine. That’s what I think anyways. The baby is due to double in size between now and birth. *Nervous laugh*

#IHaveBarelyHadAnAppetiteButIHaveBeenMakingMyselfEatForTheBabysSake

It’s been a struggle.

#IDidHaveMy28WeeksMidwifeAppointmentThoughAndSheSaidEverythingSeemedFineButThatIShouldDrinkMore

I really struggled to get a urine sample before I left the house, but I couldn’t see over my bump and so didn’t catch most of it. She said it was enough for the test though. I had drank a lot, but I guess it was old piss. Lovely.

#IDidNotRealiseThatIWasGoingToHaveABloodTestButLuckilyIHadForcedMyselfToEatASandwichBeforeGoing

And drinking all the drinks had helped as it came out quite easily. Hurrah.

#SheSaidTheBabyWasMeasuringWellAndThatSheHasAPercentileOf50Percent #SheToldMeThatBHadAPercentileOf32WhenSheWasBornWhichIDidNotKnowSoThisBabyIsDefinitelyBiggerForNow #IActuallyThoughtBHadBeenLessThan32SoThatIsGoodToKnow

I thought that B had just been over the okay line (I’m not sure what that is, but I thought it was around 10-15%?)

So yeah my suspicions of the baby being bigger have been confirmed. Maybe the first time my body was testing me and thought I could grow a bigger one this time?

#SheWasTryingToFigureOutWhereTheBabysHeadWasButSaidItDoesNotMatterAsBTurnedAroundTheDayBeforeSheWasBornAnyways

Cue a conversation about B’s birth again.

#ThisWeekendMyParentsAreDueToLookAfterBAndIAmABitNervousWithAllHerEarlyWakings

Le sigh.

#WeChangedOurHotelYesterdaySoThatWeAreStayingCloseToOurFavouriteIndianRestaurantInsteadAndTheRoomHasABigBathAsIDoNotKnowIfIWillHaveTheEnergyToSwim

We can also cancel until an hour before check-in so if my parents change their minds, then we can cancel.

This hotel also has a pool, but it is a bit cheaper and we haven’t had food from our favourite Indian restaurant in a long time so it’s a good excuse to change hotel and location.

#IHadABathTheOtherDayWhenTiagoHadToTakeACoupleOfHoursOffToLookAfterB

I think this makes me sound really bad…

#IWasBoredOfLyingInBedAndThoughtItWouldDoMeGoodAndItWasTheFirstBathIHadEverHadWhilePregnantAndItWasGreatThoughIDidFeelGuiltyForHavingToUseSoMuchWater

A lot to cram into the last hashtag, but yeah it was good. I had ran a very shallow bath to begin with and realised I either had to really fill it up or not have a bath. It was weird lifting my bump out of the water as it suddenly felt cold, but also quite heavy?

28 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait of myself nude from my head to knees. There are white sections over my breasts and pubic area.
I Just Want A Nice Record Of My Pregnancy As Maybe I Will Never Be Pregnant Again (28 and a half weeks)
 
#IPlannedToRecreateMyFailedBloodTestsPhotoButIWas7AndAHalfWeeksPregnantThen
#IAmNow28AndAHalfNowSoMyBumpWasTooBig
#SoIRemadeIHaveNeverSeenMyBodyLikeThisBeforeAndItIsSoWeirdInstead
#IHaveTakenNudePicturesBefore
#AndThereAreOthersInTheSeries
#ButIDoNotKnowWhyIFeelSoWeirdAboutHavingThemInThisSeries
#IGuessBecauseTheyAreNotReallyHiding
#AndAllAboutRevealing
#ThoughWhenPostingItIWillHaveToCensorItWhichIsSomewhatARelief
#IHaveBeenMakingSureThatITakeMorePicturesForMyself
#AsMaybeIWillNeverBePregnantAgain
#AndIDoNotActuallyWriteInMyDiaryAboutBeingPregnantThatMuch
#SoThisProjectIsANiceRecordOfIt
#MyBumpIsDefinitelyGettingBigger
#IThinkTheBabyDoublesInSizeBetweenNowAndBirth
#IHaveBeenContinuingMyDanceVideos
#TodayTwoPeopleSaidCongratsOnMyPregnancy
#IHadOnlyHadOneOtherMessageBefore
#SoMaybeItIsFinallyMoreObvious
#MyYouTubeAudienceIsMainlyMaleWhichIsABitWeird
#TodayIGotASexualInstagramMessage
#IThinkTheyFoundMyInstagramViaMyYouTube
#ItIsObviousOnYouTubeAndOnInstagramThatIAmPregnant
#SoItIsMoreWeirdToGetGrossMessages
#ThoughIKnowThatSomePeopleHavePregnancyFetishes
#WhichIsWhyItPutsMeOffSharingNudePhotosOfMyPregnantSelf
#ButItIsAlsoFunnyAsIThinkALotOfPeopleGetPregnantAndDoProfessionalNudeShoots
#EvenIfBeforeTheyWouldNotThinkAboutBeingPhotographedNude
#IJustWantANiceRecordOfMyPregnancy
#MyAppSaysThereAre80DaysLeftIfIGiveBirthOnTheDueDate

Well, spoiler I am pregnant again but it would be nice to have a comparison photo.

I have taken less nudes this time (if any?), but I do need to take at least one like this just as a reminder – and maybe baby X will say ‘Hey Mum, why did you not take a nude portrait with me?’

I am still dancing, but I think I need to be more casual about it with my tiredness and all. No one has commented about my bump yet, but then again I am quite behind with posting them – just like this project. At the time of writing this, this will be my 17th post that I need to post. They’re all ready to go, but yeah I’ve fell behind.

I’m also adding the first photo that I took at 29 weeks on as it talks about my 28 week appointment:

The backdrop is half a plain white wall and half black fabric. I am stood with the wall to my right and the fabric to my left, facing the left of the image. I am wearing a bra and leggings and have my left hand on my hip. Tiago's right hand is resting on my left thigh.
Subject: Leaky Boobs (29 weeks)
 
#IHadAMidwifeAppointmentTheOtherDay
#IAmSupposedToHaveThemEvery3Weeks
#ButTheyAreBeingChangedToEvery4WeeksNow
#IDidTheUsualUrineTestForProteinAndAllWasFine
#MyBloodPressureWasLowInAGoodWayAgain
#SheTriedToDoABloodTestToCheckMyIronLevels
#SheOnlyHadTwoNeedlesInHerBag
#TheRestWereInHerCar
#AndSheCouldNotManageToGetBlood
#SheSaidMyVeinsAreDeep
#IMadeSureIAteAndDrankWaterButObviouslyWasNotEnough
#TheyAreStillDoingHomeBirthsForNow
#AndSheSaidThatMorePeopleAreAskingForHomeBirthsNow
#SheSaidMyMusclesAreSeparatingQuiteALot
#AndThatIMayNeedToDoPhysioAfterBirth
#TiagoStoodAtTheDoorAsSheCheckedTheHeartbeat
#AllWasFine
#SheSaidMyPlacentaIsMainlyAtTheFront
#AndThatMightBeWhyISometimesCanNotFeelTheBaby
#IAmFeelingItMoreThoughParticularlyWhenIAmLyingDownInBed
#OftenICanNotFeelIt
#ButIPutMyHandAtTheBottomOfMyBumpAndICanFeelIt
#IKeepWakingUpAround3am
#WhenIWokeUpAtHalf3TodayMyLeftBoobFeltWeird
#ICouldNotSleepSoIReadForAnHour
#AtSomePointIRealisedThatItHadLeakedABit
#ThatIsTheFirstTimeThatHasHappenedSoItWasKindOfOddButExciting
#IThoughtItWouldNotHappenUntilLaterButLetUsSeeWhenTheRightOneFirstLeaks
#IEmailedMyselfWithTheSubjectOfLeakyBoobToRemindMyselfIncaseIForgotByTheMorning
#IHaveABruiseOnMyRightArmFromTheBloodTestAndIForgotToIncludeItInThePhoto

My midwife appointments are currently every 3 weeks. My blood test was more successful this time too.

No one has mentioned that my muscles have separated this time, which is good – I’ve made an effort to not do anything that might encourage them to separate more.

I think my placenta is at the back this time.

I’m yet to have a leak, so maybe that might happen soon?


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General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot V (28 Weeks / 10th November 2021)

Shoot which I am recreating for the 5th time this pregnancy. I am wearing a bra and leggings. I have my right hand clasping my left elbow. My bump is bigger than the previous version of this image.
General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot V (28 Weeks / 10th November 2021)
 
#WellIBelieveIAmInTheThirdTrimesterNowThoughSomeSourcesSayItStartsAt29Weeks
#IFeelLikeISayThisAfterEveryShootButHowCanMyBumpGetAnyBigger
#IFinallyGotMyWhoopingCoughVaccineAndItWasFineThoughMyArmWasALittleSore
#BIsBackToWakingUpAtFiveInTheMorningWhichIsStressingMeOutABit
#SheHasHadACoupleOfSettlingInSessionsAtNurseryAndTheFirstOneWentBetterAsSheHadJustWokenUpFromANap
#SheLookedABitConfusedWhenTheyTookHerFromMyArmsAndIJustStayedFillingInForms
#SheCameOutAndWantedToGoBackAsSheHadHadFunAndHadSeenHerLittleFriendAndTheyHadBeenExcitedToSeeEachOtherApparently
#TheNextSessionSheHadBeenUpSinceFiveThoughWePutHerInOurBedForAnHourAndSheSleptALittleMore
#IDroppedHerOffAfterSheHadAlreadyBeenAwakeForHoursAndWentRoundTheLocalShopsAsSheWasNotDueToBeThereForVeryLong
#IGotHerADogCuddlyToyWhichWillBeHerPresentFromBabyX
#WhenIWentToGetHerSheWasCryingAndTheySaidSheHadBeenFunnyTheWholeTimeAndMaybeWasTired
#ISaidYeahIThinkSoAndSheFellAsleepOnTheWayHomeAndWasGrumpyWithMeWhenIWokeHerUpSoIPutHerStraightToBed
#SheFellAsleepOnTheWayHomeFromHerToddlerClassLastWeekAsWellAndIWasTryingToWakeHerUpAndSheWasGettingAnnoyedWithMe
#SheSeemsToSuddenlyBeAFussyEaterSoIDoNotThinkSheHasBeenEatingAsMuchAsSheUsuallyDoes
#MaybeItIsHerTeethOrMaybeItIsDueToTheLeapSheIsMeantToBeGoingThroughOrMaybeItIsACombinationOfDifferentThings
#SheNormallyEatsAGoodBreakfastButMaybeSheIsAnnoyedAsIMadeHerABatchOfPlainishPorridgeInsteadOfButternutSquashPorridgeSoWeWillHaveToRevertToThat
#IJustWantHerToGoBackToSleepingUntilSixAsItWouldBeBetterWithNurseryAndStuff
#IFinallyTookHerToSoftPlayAgainThoughItWasADifferentOneToLastTime
#WeWentToMeetFriendsThatWeHaveNotSeenForAgesAndItWasQuiteNice
#IShouldProbablyTakeBMoreButItIsABitBoringForHerAgeAndNotSoFunIfYouAreNotWithSomeoneElseOrOtherPeopleDoNotTalkToYou
#SheHadFunInTheCovidPitIMeanTheBallPitThoughAndSheLikedClimbingOverEverything
#WeWalkedHomeInTheDarkWhichBSeemedIntriguedByAndIKeptTryingToPointOutTheMoonToHer
#AtTheWeekendWeWentToVisitMySisterAndHerFamilyWhichWasFunAndItWasSoNiceToSeeBAndHerCousinPlayingTogether
#TiagoHadABoysNightAndIHadAGirlsNightOnTheFridayEveningWhereAfterDinnerWeEndedUpGoingToABarForAHotChocolateAtTenInTheEvening
#AtFirstTheyWereNotGoingToLetUsInAsTheyCouldNotServeUsDrinksWithoutFoodAfterTenButISaidWhatAboutHotChocolatesWhichIsWhatWeWanted
#ItIsNiceToTravelAndSeePeopleButIThinkTiagoIsKeenToJustStayPutForAWhileNowApartFromOurWeekendWithoutB
#IAmBoredOfPackingAndTiagoSaysHeFeelsLikeHeJustNeverStopsWhichIsFairEnough
#IFeelLikeAllIWantToDoTheseDaysIsEatWhichIGuessMakesSenseWithAGrowingBabyInsideOfMe
#IDoStruggleToGetUpToStandingAtTimesOrSometimesIStandUpTooFastAndGetPains
#IReallyNeedToStartPreparingForTheBirthAsTimeIsFlyingBySoFast

#WellIBelieveIAmInTheThirdTrimesterNowThoughSomeSourcesSayItStartsAt29Weeks

I thought I was last week, but 28 weeks seems to be quite an official third trimester start. It makes sense if 42 weeks is the usually the ‘maximum’.

#IFeelLikeISayThisAfterEveryShootButHowCanMyBumpGetAnyBigger

I know I was pregnant with B not very long ago, but it’s still weird to see myself with a bump.

#IFinallyGotMyWhoopingCoughVaccineAndItWasFineThoughMyArmWasALittleSore

Standard. It was sore for a couple of days, which was more than I thought it would be. I did forget to spin my arm around afterwards though and maybe that’s why? (I did that with my flu jab and it wasn’t bad at all.)

#BIsBackToWakingUpAtFiveInTheMorningWhichIsStressingMeOutABit

Well, the last couple of mornings she has woken up at 4 something, but I think she has gone back to sleep for a bit. I have been anyways…

#SheHasHadACoupleOfSettlingInSessionsAtNurseryAndTheFirstOneWentBetterAsSheHadJustWokenUpFromANap

I had to get her up from her nap early to get her there on time. She was ready to PARTY.

#SheLookedABitConfusedWhenTheyTookHerFromMyArmsAndIJustStayedFillingInForms

I said ‘She’ll be fine in a minute’ and they said as soon as she went in the room she started to play with a toy car and look at a book.

#SheCameOutAndWantedToGoBackAsSheHadHadFunAndHadSeenHerLittleFriendAndTheyHadBeenExcitedToSeeEachOtherApparently

Apparently her friend came in the room and ran over to her and they started to ‘chat’. Cute. After we left she tried to go back in…

#TheNextSessionSheHadBeenUpSinceFiveThoughWePutHerInOurBedForAnHourAndSheSleptALittleMore

I find it hard to sleep well when she is in our bed though. I do not want to make this a habit but I wanted her to get more sleep as I was anxious about nursery.

#IDroppedHerOffAfterSheHadAlreadyBeenAwakeForHoursAndWentRoundTheLocalShopsAsSheWasNotDueToBeThereForVeryLong

It seemed like a waste of time to come home, then go back as I wouldn’t have done much. I hadn’t been round shops in a long time, so it was nice to have a look about.

#IGotHerADogCuddlyToyWhichWillBeHerPresentFromBabyX

I realised the other week that she does not have a dog cuddly toy. I’ve been looking about for one, but couldn’t make my mind up. Seeing them in person made a difference. It’s got a cute hat.

#WhenIWentToGetHerSheWasCryingAndTheySaidSheHadBeenFunnyTheWholeTimeAndMaybeWasTired

I could hear a kid crying when I was waiting and I thought that maybe it was her, but I was not sure.

#ISaidYeahIThinkSoAndSheFellAsleepOnTheWayHomeAndWasGrumpyWithMeWhenIWokeHerUpSoIPutHerStraightToBed

I tried to keep her awake with a cookie (oats, banana and almond butter), but she fell asleep with it in her hand. I tried to rush home, but I can’t really rush with a bump anymore…

#SheFellAsleepOnTheWayHomeFromHerToddlerClassLastWeekAsWellAndIWasTryingToWakeHerUpAndSheWasGettingAnnoyedWithMe

She fell asleep with a bit of cream cheese sandwich in her hand then. She did nap at home afterwards though, so it made me not so worried this time. If she naps for 5 minutes it doesn’t seem to affect her nap so much – she had 2 and a half hours that day, and 2 hours fifteen after nursery.

#SheSeemsToSuddenlyBeAFussyEaterSoIDoNotThinkSheHasBeenEatingAsMuchAsSheUsuallyDoes

She did not like the cauliflower korma I made the other night, but I thought she wasn’t hungry. We had it for dinner last night too and it got the same reaction. I gave her some baked beans and she ate them all up…

#MaybeItIsHerTeethOrMaybeItIsDueToTheLeapSheIsMeantToBeGoingThroughOrMaybeItIsACombinationOfDifferentThings

Oh, kids.

#SheNormallyEatsAGoodBreakfastButMaybeSheIsAnnoyedAsIMadeHerABatchOfPlainishPorridgeInsteadOfButternutSquashPorridgeSoWeWillHaveToRevertToThat

The other morning she seemed so hungry that I just wanted to get food in her asap. We make the porridge into little pancakes and she will often just eat the mix cold from a spoon while she waits…

#IJustWantHerToGoBackToSleepingUntilSixAsItWouldBeBetterWithNurseryAndStuff

She will – I hope. Fun times.

#IFinallyTookHerToSoftPlayAgainThoughItWasADifferentOneToLastTime

It’s been on my list for a while.

#WeWentToMeetFriendsThatWeHaveNotSeenForAgesAndItWasQuiteNice

We hadn’t seen them since before our holiday. It was going to get dark too early to meet in a park, so we needed somewhere to meet indoors.

#IShouldProbablyTakeBMoreButItIsABitBoringForHerAgeAndNotSoFunIfYouAreNotWithSomeoneElseOrOtherPeopleDoNotTalkToYou

Also with me being pregnant it makes it less fun. Our friend climbed up between the ladder and the slide and was sending the kids down the slide.

#SheHadFunInTheCovidPitIMeanTheBallPitThoughAndSheLikedClimbingOverEverything

Soft landings are definitely great when you like to fall off/over everything.

I am still nervous about Covid…

#WeWalkedHomeInTheDarkWhichBSeemedIntriguedByAndIKeptTryingToPointOutTheMoonToHer

We didn’t take the shortcuts and it was rush hour so it was quite safe. I think she did take notice of the moon a bit, but she seemed more interesting in looking at all the houses with their lights on.

#AtTheWeekendWeWentToVisitMySisterAndHerFamilyWhichWasFunAndItWasSoNiceToSeeBAndHerCousinPlayingTogether

They had a bath together where they were super splash happy. B slipped under the water a few times, but was fine…

#TiagoHadABoysNightAndIHadAGirlsNightOnTheFridayEveningWhereAfterDinnerWeEndedUpGoingToABarForAHotChocolateAtTenInTheEvening

They had offered to babysit while we went out for dinner. I knew Tiago really wanted to see his guy mates and talk Portuguese. They hadn’t been together as a group in about three years… My initial plan was to just stay home and rest, but then I thought I should try to arrange something, so I met a few gal pals for dinner at one of my favourite pizza places, then we went to an outdoor beer garden but I was upset that they didn’t have hot chocolate and it was cold, so we went to a place that we thought would be serving hot drinks.

#AtFirstTheyWereNotGoingToLetUsInAsTheyCouldNotServeUsDrinksWithoutFoodAfterTenButISaidWhatAboutHotChocolatesWhichIsWhatWeWanted

Well, three hot chocolates and a mocha. My kind of Friday night! I got home before 12, but I ended up staying late as I didn’t feel tired and regretted that.

#ItIsNiceToTravelAndSeePeopleButIThinkTiagoIsKeenToJustStayPutForAWhileNowApartFromOurWeekendWithoutB

I have been letting myself off doing lots of work for this project if we’re away, so it would nice to be more consistent before the baby is born. It’s good that B is starting nursery as it will give me more time in the week to get stuff done.

#IAmBoredOfPackingAndTiagoSaysHeFeelsLikeHeJustNeverStopsWhichIsFairEnough

He says when we’ve been away, by the time it gets to Thursday he feels like he has been working for 12 days straight. We have been trying to have a weekend in-between trips at home, but yeah it is tiring.

#IFeelLikeAllIWantToDoTheseDaysIsEatWhichIGuessMakesSenseWithAGrowingBabyInsideOfMe

While writing these hashtags and blog I have eaten a lot, and now I am starting to get hungry again.

#IDoStruggleToGetUpToStandingAtTimesOrSometimesIStandUpTooFastAndGetPains

I like to sit on the floor after stretching and watch a bit of TV/YouTube. I feel fine, but when I stand up I feel awful. I need to start using things to help me up too, as I don’t and then I stretch something and regret my decisions.

#IReallyNeedToStartPreparingForTheBirthAsTimeIsFlyingBySoFast

So fast. At the moment I’m about 10 weeks away from when B was born (pregnancy wise).

28 weeks pregnant comparison with B:

I'm leaning over a blue exercise ball on mys side and hugging it. My legs are out straight and my feet are on the floor.
Me, My Ball & My Lump (28 weeks)
 
#VideoCalledWithMyNanAndMumToday
#NanRefersToMyBumpAsALumpWhichMakesMeLaughEveryTime
#MyMumSaidThatMyFaceLooksMoreFilledOut
#APregnancyAppSaysThatTheBabyIsTheSizeOfACanteloupeMelonNow
#TiagoSaysIHaveTwoMelonsAndAWatermelon
#ILookedDownAtMyBellyTodayInBedAndItLookedALotBigger
#ILookAtItEverydayMultipleTimesSoIAmNotSureWhyIWasSoShockedThatTime
#IFeelTired
#EvenBeingAtHomeAllTheTimeIFeelLikeIDoNotReallyStop
#INeedToChillOutABit
#IMightHaveANapShortly
#IQuiteLikeBeingAtHomeAllTheTime
#IJustFeelBadThatICanNotVisitMyNan
#AtLeastWhenMyMumGoesRoundToTakeHerFoodWeCanVideoChat
#IFinallyGotRoundToBlowingUpTheExerciseBall
#IWasThinkingAboutGettingAnOfficeChairButIWillTrySittingOnTheBallInstead
#TiagoCanUseItForExercisingToo
#AndApparentlyItIsGoodForWhenYouAreInLabour
#NeedToStartToThinkAboutGettingMoreBabyStuffTogether
#OurBabyBathSupportArrivedTheOtherDay
#TiagoSaysHeWantsAnAdultSizedOne
#IHaveNotTakenABathSinceBeforeIFoundOutIWasPregnant
#ObviouslyIShowerButForSomeReasonIHaveBeenTooScaredToHaveABath
#IThinkItIsBecauseYouHaveToBeCarefulWithHavingThemTooHot
#SoIHaveJustAvoidedThem
#ButNowIAmOfficiallyInTheThirdTrimesterAndMaybeIShouldHaveOne
#IGotABadLegCrampLastNight
#ItIsTheThirdTimeItHasHappenedNow
#IDefinitelyFeelALumpEveryTimeButItGoesAwayWithTheCramp
#MyMumSaysIShouldPutMyFeetUpMore

I’m currently sat writing this while sat on the ball. This just reminded me to blow it up, so I did.

Living with my Nan she refers to my ‘lump’ all the time now…

‘#IJustFeelBadThatICanNotVisitMyNan’

Well, now I’ve seen her most days for over a year…

I haven’t taken a bath this time either. I know it’s fine for me to, but I do worry that I will cook the baby… I know it’s stupid, but oh well.

I’ve had leg cramps probably a similar number of times, but I keep forgetting to check for the lump. I’m trying to stay hydrated, but I do forgot at times/I worry about needing the toilet too much when I’m out.

Tiago is lying on the sofa, propped up by two blue pillows and has his eyes closed.
Tiago & His Holiday Beard (28 weeks)
 
#TiagoOnlyUsuallyHasSomethingThatResemblesABeardWhenWeHaveBeenOnHoliday
#IGuessItShouldBeCalledHisLockdownBeard
#ButIAlwaysReferToHisFacialHairAsAHolidayBeard
#HeIsNotOnHolidayThoughAsHeIsWorkingFromHome
#ButStillHasVideoMeetingsToAttend
#HeJustCanNotBeBotheredToShave
#HeHasBeenInAFewPicturesInThisProject
#ButNotAsManyAsIFirstThought
#ThoughDueToLockdownItMightBeAGoodChanceToPhotographHimMore
#IThinkTryingToGetHashtagsOutOfHimLastTimeWasHardWork
#IKnewThisWeekendThatIWantedToPhotographHimThough
#WeWentOutForAWalkTodayAndThePlanWasToPhotographHimWhenWeGotHome
#IThoughtTheSofaWasASafeBetAsHeWouldBeRelaxed
#HeDidFallAsleepAtSomePoint
#HeSpentALotOfTimeTodayCookingAndTidying
#IWantedHimToHaveHisEyesClosed
#ButItDoesLookABitLikeHeIsDead
#TheWeekendsGoBySurprisinglyFast
#IAmWaitingForHimToGetOffAVideoCallWithHisParents
#AndThenIWillAskHimIfHeHasAnythingThatHeWantsToSayAboutImpendingFatherhood
#HeWasOnThePhoneForAboutAnHour
#HeSaysHeIsFeelingExcitedByIt
#ItIsBecomingMoreRealEveryDay
#HeSaysHeIsMainlyFocusedOnTheBabyAndNotThatStressedOutByCorona
#HeFeelsConnectedToTheBabyAlreadyEvenThoughHeDoesNotKnowThemYet
#FeelingThemKickIsNice
#HeLooksForwardToParentingAndGettingToKnowTheBaby
#AndTheChallengeOfIt
#HeSaysSeeingMyBumpInTheFleshIsStrangeYetNaturalAtTheSameTime

Tiago was getting rid of his beard for in person meetings, but now he just keeps it smart at a shorter level. Thanks Covid!

I think this time he forgets that I am pregnant. He does talk to bump most nights, but some nights he is too tired – like last night.

I’ve not bothered him too much this time with being in the project as I know he is busy, and often when I am working he is watching B. The family portraits are nice though. We need to do one of them soon…


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Documenting My Bump From A Different Angle (27 Weeks / 2nd November 2021)

Self-portrait sat on floor. My feet are out in front touching each other, and my hands are clasping my bump. The image is shot from above.
Documenting My Bump From A Different Angle (27 Weeks / 2nd November 2021)
 
#IAmYetToDoTheShootButIImagineItWillBeSomeAboveShotOfMyBumpAsWhenIExerciseILookDownAndThinkThatIsWhatIWantToPhotograph
#IThinkBabyXMayBeMoreActiveThanBWasAsWhenIWasPregnantWithBIWasOftenJustSatByMyselfNotMakingMuchNoise
#NowAllDayIAmTalkingToBAndSingingToHerAndReadingHerBooksSoSheProbablyReactsToTheNoiseALot
#HoweverSheDoesKickOrPunchMeALotWhenIAmInBedAndItIsQuiteQuietSoMaybeSheIsMoreActive
#IAmAlreadyStrugglingToPutMySocksOnButIRealisedAsBWasASummerBabyIJustWoreSandalsOutsideButAsBabyXIsAWinterBabyINeedToWearSocks
#IUsuallyWearTiagosShoesIfHeIsNotComingOutWithUsAsTheyAreEasierToJustSlipOnAndOff
#WeSurvivedTheClockChangeThoughIDidWakeUpAndNoticeTheClockWasOffSoThoughtItHadFreakedOut
#ThenIRealisedTheElectricityHadGoneOffSoIWentToPlayWithTheFuseBoxAt2InTheMorningAsIWasWorriedAboutTheFreezerDefrosting
#IUsedAWoodenSpatulaAsIWasWorriedAboutGettingAnElectricShockAndEverythingCameBackOn
#IWasLookingForwardToTheOvenFinallyHavingTheRightTimeOnItButThenISetItAs8InsteadOf6SoIHadToTurnItOffFor15MinutesAndTryAgain
#BWokeUpAt5ButSheIsAlreadyAdaptingThoughLastNightSheWasAwakeFor3HoursBetween12And3AsSheWasProbablyTeethingAndIsGoingThroughALeap
#InOtherNewsBHasBeenOfferedAPlaceForNursery
#SheHasASettlingInHourSessionThisWeekThenAnHourAndAHalfOneNextWeekAndThenSheStarts
#IFeelGuiltyAboutItAndIFeelLikeABitOfAFailureAsAStayAtHomeMum
#ButAtTheSameTimeIThinkItWillBeGoodForHerEspeciallyWhenBabyXComesAlongAndIWillBeTiredAndHaveLessEnthusiasm
#ItIsOnlyForACoupleOfHalfDaysAWeekAndRealisticallyIWillProbablyPickHerUpEarly
#IThinkSheWillLikeItThereAndItWillGiveMeABitMoreTimeToOrganiseMyselfBeforeBabyXIsBornAndThenIKnowIHaveABitOfTimeEachWeekWhereIOnlyHaveToLookAfterOneKid
#UltimatelyIThinkItIsTheBestThingForUsAsAFamilyAndIFeelLikeItIsStartingAtTheRightTime
#MyParentsLookedAfterBForTheFirstTimeTheOtherDayAndItGaveMeATasteOfHowItMightBe
#WeDroppedHerOffAfterBreakfastAndThenWeStayedABitToMakeSureSheWasAlright
#ThenWeWentHomeAndDidABitOfWorkThenWentOutForLunchWhereTheySaidThatTheyCouldNotServeTheDishOfTheDayYetAsTheyWereABitBehind
#IJustMadeACommentAboutHowWeWereTooKeenAsItWasOurFirstLunchDateWithoutOurDaughterAndSoHeSaidHeWouldMakeASmallBatch
#TheDelayMeantWeHadSomeTimeToTalkAndItWasNiceToFeelLikeWeAreNotJustParentsInTheNicestWayPossible
#OnTheWayHomeIFeltColdAndMyBumpWasTooBigToDoTheZipOfMyCoatUpSoWeHadToSwapCoatsAndIThinkTiagoMayBeBorrowingMyCoatForAWhileNow
#AtHomeWeWatchedAlmostOneEpisodeOfAmericanCrimeStoryThenHadANapThenWentToPickHerUp
#IThinkMyTimeWillLookVeryDifferentToThatWhileBIsAtNurseryButIGuessIMightRestALittleBitSometimesThoughIWillProbablyFeelGuiltyForDoingThat
#ItIsGoodToKnowThatBCanHappilySpendTheDayWithMyParentsThoughAsSoonTheyWillBeHavingHerForAnOvernightStay
#IGuessThisIsAllGoodPreparationAsTheyWillProbablyHaveToLookAfterHerWhileIAmInHospitalGivingBirth
#ApparentlySheLookedForUsForFiveMinutesWhenWeLeftButWhenWeArrivedWeWalkedInTheRoomAndSheDidNotEvenNotice
#IAmLikingThatTheMorningsAreLighterNowButINeedToGetUsedToGettingBOutOfTheHouseEarlierForAnAfternoonWalk

#IAmYetToDoTheShootButIImagineItWillBeSomeAbstractShotOfMyBumpAsWhenIExerciseILookAtItAndThinkThatIsWhatIWantToPhotograph

We shall see.

(Well, it ended up as an above shot of my bump. I like it.)

#IThinkBabyXMayBeMoreActiveThanBWasAsWhenIWasPregnantWithBIWasOftenJustSatByMyselfNotMakingMuchNoise

By this point I was at home all the time, not singing in case the neighbours heard me, and Tiago was in the small bedroom/his office working all day.

#NowAllDayIAmTalkingToBAndSingingToHerAndReadingHerBooksSoSheProbablyReactsToTheNoiseALot

Plus I have my Nan to talk to, and my Mum comes round a few times a week, and I take B for walks and talk to people at the playground and park.

#HoweverSheDoesKickOrPunchMeALotWhenIAmInBedAndItIsQuiteQuietSoMaybeSheIsMoreActive

I think the position of the placenta may have something to do with it too, but it’s probably a mix of all these things.

#IAmAlreadyStrugglingToPutMySocksOnButIRealisedAsBWasASummerBabyIJustWoreSandalsOutsideButAsBabyXIsAWinterBabyINeedToWearSocks

Trying to find the easiest way to put them on. Generally sitting down and doing a figure of 4 with my leg.

#IUsuallyWearTiagosShoesIfHeIsNotComingOutWithUsAsTheyAreEasierToJustSlipOnAndOff

The laces are done up and they slip on and off easily.

#WeSurvivedTheClockChangeThoughIDidWakeUpAndNoticeTheClockWasOffSoThoughtItHadFreakedOut

It’s a digital clock that sits on my desk, so I usually sit up and look at it when I wake up. Exciting stuff.

#ThenIRealisedTheElectricityHadGoneOffSoIWentToPlayWithTheFuseBoxAt2InTheMorningAsIWasWorriedAboutTheFreezerDefrosting

I had noticed other things weren’t showing their usual lights, and then the lamp next to the bed wouldn’t turn on. Tiago didn’t seem too bothered, but I wanted to sort it out. I was quite awake though.

#IUsedAWoodenSpatulaAsIWasWorriedAboutGettingAnElectricShockAndEverythingCameBackOn

Everything made a noise and I was surprised that no one woke up – especially the doorbell ringing.

#IWasLookingForwardToTheOvenFinallyHavingTheRightTimeOnItButThenISetItAs8InsteadOf6SoIHadToTurnItOffFor15MinutesAndTryAgain

I like to think I’m quite good at fixing things, but I hadn’t been able to work it out. Before it was nearly at the right time before the last clock change, then someone came and fixed the oven and set it to the right time. More exciting stuff.

#BWokeUpAt5ButSheIsAlreadyAdaptingThoughLastNightSheWasAwakeFor3HoursBetween12And3AsSheWasProbablyTeethingAndIsGoingThroughALeap

Luckily we’d both gone to bed early. I think Tiago was asleep at 9 and I was asleep around 9.45 possibly?

#InOtherNewsBHasBeenOfferedAPlaceForNursery

Hurrah.

#SheHasASettlingInHourSessionThisWeekThenAnHourAndAHalfOneNextWeekAndThenSheStarts

I am a little nervous, but I think she will love it.

#IFeelGuiltyAboutItAndIFeelLikeABitOfAFailureAsAStayAtHomeMum

Well, I guess in the beginning I won’t be a stay at home Mum when B is at nursery, but once Baby X is born I will be again.

#ButAtTheSameTimeIThinkItWillBeGoodForHerEspeciallyWhenBabyXComesAlongAndIWillBeTiredAndHaveLessEnthusiasm

She will love seeing the other kids and playing with different toys I’m sure. The food sounds nice too!

#ItIsOnlyForACoupleOfHalfDaysAWeekAndRealisticallyIWillProbablyPickHerUpEarly

It’s not much at all, but it’s enough for now.

#IThinkSheWillLikeItThereAndItWillGiveMeABitMoreTimeToOrganiseMyselfBeforeBabyXIsBornAndThenIKnowIHaveABitOfTimeEachWeekWhereIOnlyHaveToLookAfterOneKid

Baby X won’t be moving about for a long time and will be napping a lot. B naps once a day now and is always moving about. It will be different.

I need to really go through all my stuff and have a clear out, then go through baby clothes sorting them and washing them etc.

#UltimatelyIThinkItIsTheBestThingForUsAsAFamilyAndIFeelLikeItIsStartingAtTheRightTime

I feel less guilty now. I am definitely starting to feel more tired as bump gets bigger…

#MyParentsLookedAfterBForTheFirstTimeTheOtherDayAndItGaveMeATasteOfHowItMightBe

Though T and I have both felt a bit ill since. We’ve had negative Covid tests. I think our bodies just decided that it was safe to be ill.

#WeDroppedHerOffAfterBreakfastAndThenWeStayedABitToMakeSureSheWasAlright

My Dad recorded some episodes of Teletubbies for her and she seemed quite content.

#ThenWeWentHomeAndDidABitOfWorkThenWentOutForLunchWhereTheySaidThatTheyCouldNotServeTheDishOfTheDayYetAsTheyWereABitBehind

At first we thought they were closed as they had a sign up saying they were closed for a function, but that was the day before.

#IJustMadeACommentAboutHowWeWereTooKeenAsItWasOurFirstLunchDateWithoutOurDaughterAndSoHeSaidHeWouldMakeASmallBatch

Legend. It wasn’t that great in the end, but it felt good to get out and sit in a restaurant/cafe looking out the windows and not having to worry about B.

(We had lunch dates when we visited T’s parents I think, but it was always different as we always felt like we were on a timer.)

#TheDelayMeantWeHadSomeTimeToTalkAndItWasNiceToFeelLikeWeAreNotJustParentsInTheNicestWayPossible

I guess some couples have kids and then all they really talk about is the kids, so it was nice to think and talk about other things. We did talk about her a bit of course, but it was good to feel a bit like our old selves again too.

#OnTheWayHomeIFeltColdAndMyBumpWasTooBigToDoTheZipOfMyCoatUpSoWeHadToSwapCoatsAndIThinkTiagoMayBeBorrowingMyCoatForAWhileNow

He never realised how cozy my coat was. His coat was cold…

#AtHomeWeWatchedAlmostOneEpisodeOfAmericanCrimeStoryThenHadANapThenWentToPickHerUp

The day went fast.

#IThinkMyTimeWillLookVeryDifferentToThatWhileBIsAtNurseryButIGuessIMightRestALittleBitSometimesThoughIWillProbablyFeelGuiltyForDoingThat

I’m sure I’ll have my to do lists. If I get my stuff done then I can rest.

#ItIsGoodToKnowThatBCanHappilySpendTheDayWithMyParentsThoughAsSoonTheyWillBeHavingHerForAnOvernightStay

This was a test run.

#IGuessThisIsAllGoodPreparationAsTheyWillProbablyHaveToLookAfterHerWhileIAmInHospitalGivingBirth

With B I was in for 4 days, so we will have to see how it goes this time. It’s also good prep for B going to nursery, though she knows my Mum well.

#ApparentlySheLookedForUsForFiveMinutesWhenWeLeftButWhenWeArrivedWeWalkedInTheRoomAndSheDidNotEvenNotice

I was just going to sit on the sofa until she noticed but Tiago said hi.

#IAmLikingThatTheMorningsAreLighterNowButINeedToGetUsedToGettingBOutOfTheHouseEarlierForAnAfternoonWalk

Before we would dawdle for a bit before going for a walk. This morning I felt too tired to take B out for a walk, so we definitely need a good one later.

27 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait lying on a sofa leaning on my right elbow and my right hand is nestled in my hair. My top is lifted up so you can see my bump.
I Want To Keep Being Able To Go For Walks (27 weeks)
 
#IAmFeelingTired
#GladIDecidedYesterdayToTakePicturesOfMyselfOnTheSofaToday
#YesterdayIWasLyingOnThereWatchingMyBellyToSeeIfICouldSeeTheBabyMoving
#IHaveNotSeenTheBabyMoveAsMoveAsMuchAsTheFirstDayISawIt
#ITryToTakeABreakToSeeIfICanFeelAndSeeTheBabyMoving
#IThinkItIsMovingNow
#AndItWasDuringTheShootABit
#IDoNotThinkIWillReadBabyForumsForABit
#TheyStressedMeOutBefore
#ButNowWithCoronaTheyAreFullOfPeopleBeingMoreStressedOut
#StillTryingToGoOutForAWalkADay
#IMakeAnEffortToKeepAGoodDistanceBetweenMyselfAndOtherPeople
#TheOtherDayIWasOutsideOfASupermarket
#AWomanAndGuyCameAlong
#TheWomanWentInAndTheGuyStayedOutside
#ButHeStoodRightByTheDoor
#SoAnyoneGoingInAndOutHadToWalkLessThanAMetreAwayFromHim
#ThenYesterdayWeWereWalkingOnAVeryWidePathByTheKerb
#AGuyRanByPuffingAndPantingRightNextToUs
#IShouldHaveToldBothOfThemOff
#AndYesterdayISawTwoGuysCoughInTheStreetWithoutPuttingTheirHandsOverTheirMouths
#AndOneThenWalkedIntoTheSupermarketThatTiagoWasIn
#IWantToKeepBeingAbleToGoForWalks
#INeedTheExercise
#ButIfPeopleKeepNotKeepingTheirDistanceAndDoingDumbThingsThenIMightHaveToStop
#ThoughTheyAreTheOnesWhoShouldNotGoOut
#IFeelLikeMaybeWeWillNotGetIt
#ButMaybeIAmTryingToBeOptimistic
#ItSeemsMoreSeriousByTheDay
#IJustWantToKnowHowLongItWillGoOnForButItCouldBeALongTime

Well, I’m definitely feeling tired. I’m writing this on 2nd November. I’m going to have a nap once I finish the comparison bit.

I have not really read any forums this time as I do not have the time or energy for them.

People still annoy me, but less so now I am double vaccinated. I am worried now that cases are increasing again though.

People running right next to me while breathing loudly does still annoy me a lot.

#IJustWantToKnowHowLongItWillGoOnForButItCouldBeALongTime

Well, it’s still going on and I wrote that in March 2020.

Self-portrait with Tiago. He is facing the right of the frame and I am hugging him with my left hand, but facing more towards the camera.
I Feel Like I Have Lost A Sense Of Urgency (27 weeks)
 
#AnotherDayAtHome
#WellWeWentOutForAShortWalk
#YesterdayWeLeftOurWalkUntilTooLate
#WhenItWasStartingToGetDarkAndCold
#SoWeDidNotGoOut
#OriginallyWeWereHavingOurWalksAfterItGetsDark
#ButTheWeatherGotBetterSoWeWantedToEnjoyTheSunABit
#IHavePlentyOfThingsToKeepMeBusy
#ButIFeelLikeIHaveLostASenseOfUrgency
#LikeWhyRushAsIAmNotGoingAnywhereElse
#AFriendAskedUsIfWeWereOkayJustBeingAroundEachOtherAllDay
#YeahWeAreUsedToBeingHomeALot
#WeAreLuckyAsWeCanSitInDifferentRoomsWhilstWeAreWorkingIfWeWant
#ThoughThisWeekendWeHaveStuckToTheSameRoom
#IWasSupposedToStartPhotographingHimMoreAWhileAgo
#IDidForABitButIFeltBadBotheringHim
#HeWasOnThePhoneDoingTheWashingUpToday
#AndIWasHuggingHim
#AndIThoughtThatWouldMakeAnAlrightPicture
#SoLaterOnIAskedHimAndHeObviouslySaidYes
#ObviouslyAsInHeIsInThePicture
#AskedTiagoIfHeHadAnyCommentsAndHeSaid
#IFeelKindOfRelaxedToBeFair
#HopefulThatThingsWillGetBetterInAMonthOrTwo
#ISaidIThinkItMightTakeAWhileForThingsToGoBackToNormal
#ItMightBeAfterIGiveBirthAtThisPoint
#IThinkEvenWhenThisNonLockdownEndsIWillBeCautious
#AsItCouldQuiteEasilyComeBackAndStartAllOverAgain
#WhoKnows
#IThinkWeJustNeedToBeCareful

I was not much of a walker until Covid. Now with B I love to get out of the house, though this morning I felt too tired to and instead did some baking (we have a lot of bananas that need eating).

I remember this ‘loss of urgency’ phase quite well, but it did not really last too long. It was just a lot to try to comprehend.

We are still trying to be careful.

Me sitting on the floor in a bra and leggings with my legs together in butterfly pose and my hands on my knees. My bump is showing.
The Baby Moving Reminds Me Of A Whale Rolling (27 and a half weeks)
 
#AnotherHalfAWeekGone
#TimeFliesInItsOwnWay
#EvenWhenIAmAtHomeAllTheTime
#ApartForOurLittleDailyWalk
#WeNowWalkALessBusyWayIfWeDoNotNeedToGoToTheSupermarket
#WhichWeHaveNotBeenToItInAFewDaysButProbablyWillGoToTonight
#ExcitingTimes
#WellIWillJustStandOutsideJudgingTheBehaviourOfOthers
#IFeelLikeMyDaysAreStillPrettyFull
#IGuessIHadAGoodRoutineBeforeLockdownHappened
#SoThingsJustContinueAsNormalish
#IAmTryingToReadMore
#AndMaybeIWillStartToWatchMoreTVButIFeelLikeIDoNotHaveMuchTimeForIt
#MaybeJustAtTheWeekends
#IAmQuiteFarBehindWithPostingTheProjectForOthersToSee
#ItIsFunnyReadingMyPreviousConcerns
#ThingsLikePeopleTouchingMyBelly
#LuckilyIWillNotHaveToWorryAboutThatWithSocialDistancing
#WhenWeGoOutForAWalkIWorryThatPeopleLookAtMeLikeSheShouldNotBeOutHere
#ButThatIsWhyItIsNiceThatWeGoTheQuietRoute
#AndPeopleSeemToBeGettingBetterAtKeepingADistance
#IStillGetWorriedAboutNotFeelingTheBabyMove
#IThinkIJustGetSoDistractedByThingsThatIDoNotRegisterItMoving
#IThinkItIsMovingNowThough
#WhenItTurnsOverItRemindsMeOfWhenYouSeeAWhaleRolling
#NotThatIAmComparingTheBabyToAWhale
#ButIJustVisualiseThatRollingMotion
#IGuessItIsARelaxingComparison
#IDoNotFeelTooWorriedAsIBarelyLeaveTheFlat
#ICallMyNanEverydayAndIHopeThatSheStaysFine

It’s so weird that Covid is still going on, but it’s better now that there are vaccines.

My walks are more with purpose these days as I am usually taking B somewhere, and we live in Birmingham now instead of Liverpool.

I think I will not stop being anxious about the baby during the pregnancy, and then when they’re born there are new anxieties.


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Pregnancy Waiting II

Pregnancy In The Time Of Corona Again (25 Weeks / 20th October 2021)

Close up of my bump with my bra and leggings in shot.
Pregnancy In The Time Of Corona Again (25 Weeks / 20th October 2021)
 
#ITookAPhotoCalledPregnancyInTheTimeOfCoronaWhenIWas25WeeksPregnantWithB
#NoOneKnewHowLongThePandemicWouldGoOnForButIAmSurprisedThatItIsStillGoingOn
#IGuessIWillNeverExperienceANormalPregnancyWhateverNormalMeans
#ButItMustBeHarderForPeopleWhoKnowWhatItWasLikeToBePregnantAndHaveABabyInNonCovidTimesButForMeThatIsOnlyWhatIKnow
#MyGumsHaveBeenBleedingALotInTheLastFewDaysWhichIKnowIsFairlyNormalForPregnancy
#WhatIDidNotRealiseIsThatToothAcheIsACommonSymptomTooWhichMakesMeFeelBetterAsOneOfMyTeethHasBeenPlayingMeUpForTheLastCoupleOfWeeks
#BWokeUpAtSixThirtyYesterdayWhichIWasHappyAboutButTodaySheWokeUpAtFiveThirtyAgain
#AtOnePointInTheNightIThoughtWeHadGotBUpAndSheWasRunningAroundOurRoom
#ThenILookedAtTheClockAndSawItWasTwelveFortyAndSaidToTiagoHeyItIsTwelveForty
#HeJustAskedMeIfIWasOkayAndThenIRealisedThatBWasStillInHerCot
#DueToBecomingMorePregnantIHaveStartedToTakeHerHandsAndLetHerStepUpTheStairsToNapsAndBedtime
#NowWhenSheIsAtTheBottomOfTheStairsSheReachesForMyHandsWhichIsQuiteSweet
#SometimesWhenISingTwinkleTwinkleLittleStarToHerInHerCotSheDancesAlong
#SheIsASuperCoolKidButIFeelBadThatIAmSoTiredAndHaveLessEnthusiasmTheseDays
#IThinkHerGoingToNurseryACoupleOfMorningsAWeekWillBeGoodForAllOfUs
#EspeciallyNowThatTheWeatherIsGettingQuiteRubbishThoughIDoTryToTakeHerOutOnceOrTwiceADayStill
#SheHasAPuddleSuitButItLeavesHerWithASoggyBumIfSheSitsDownAtAllOutsideWhichSheDoesAllTheTime
#SoIHaveHadToOrderHerAProperWaterproofOneOtherwiseIAmJustGoingToFeelMoreStuckInTheHouseWithHer
#ILetHerWalkToThePlaygroundNowButThatTakesAboutFortyMinutesAsSheUsuallyStopsToLookAtEverything
#SheAlsoLikesToRunUpAndDownHillsWhichAreBarelyHillsAtAllButAreProbablyLikeMountainsToHer
#ITryNotToPickHerUpTooMuchButIDoEndUpCarryingHerSometimes
#SheLikesToTipHerHeadBackAndThenSheLaughs
#SheHasStartedToTipHerBackInTheSwingTooAndICanSeeThatSheHasMoreTeethComingThrough
#HopefullyOnceSheStopsTeethingForABitSheMightStartToSleepABitLater
#WeAreGoingAwayThisWeekend
#IFeelABitStressedAsWeAreStayingInAHotelRatherThanAnApartmentSoIAmWorriedAboutWhatSheWillHaveForEachMeal
#IAmSureItWillBeOkayThoughAndINeedToStartWritingAPackingList
#IAmHopingThatSheWillGetToMeetSomeMorePeopleAndThatIGetToShowHerOffABit
#ItIsWeirdThinkingHowThingsWouldBeNowIfCovidHadNeverHappened
#WeMightHaveNotMovedToBirminghamButIfWeHadStayedInLiverpoolWeMightHaveEndedUpMovingCloserToParksButItIsGoodForHerToSeeMoreOfHerBritishFamily

#ITookAPhotoCalledPregnancyInTheTimeOfCoronaWhenIWas25WeeksPregnantWithB

(I imagine the comparison photo will be that image, so please scroll down.)

#NoOneKnewHowLongThePandemicWouldGoOnForButIAmSurprisedThatItIsStillGoingOn

How long will it go on for? No one knows.

#IGuessIWillNeverExperienceANormalPregnancyWhateverNormalMeans

Well, just a pregnancy not in the time of Covid.

#ButItMustBeHarderForPeopleWhoKnowWhatItWasLikeToBePregnantAndHaveABabyInNonCovidTimesButForMeThatIsOnlyWhatIKnow

I have nothing to compare it to really. I can compare it to TV, film or what I hear, but I never actually lived it so *shrug*.

#MyGumsHaveBeenBleedingALotInTheLastFewDaysWhichIKnowIsFairlyNormalForPregnancy

I know they bleed when I floss, but they just seemed to randomly bleed the other day. I need to book a dentist appointment…

#WhatIDidNotRealiseIsThatToothAcheIsACommonSymptomTooWhichMakesMeFeelBetterAsOneOfMyTeethHasBeenPlayingMeUpForTheLastCoupleOfWeeks

I am worried I will have no teeth left by the time I’m 40. Like I said – I need to book a dentist appointment.

#BWokeUpAtSixThirtyYesterdayWhichIWasHappyAboutButTodaySheWokeUpAtFiveThirtyAgain

Ergh. I’ve gone to bed earlier the last couple of nights. I am planning to have a nap after I finish writing this, as at least when B wakes up early she has a longer first nap so I have time to work and rest.

#AtOnePointInTheNightIThoughtWeHadGotBUpAndSheWasRunningAroundOurRoom #ThenILookedAtTheClockAndSawItWasTwelveFortyAndSaidToTiagoHeyItIsTwelveForty #HeJustAskedMeIfIWasOkayAndThenIRealisedThatBWasStillInHerCot

Lol. Classic dream confusing me.

#DueToBecomingMorePregnantIHaveStartedToTakeHerHandsAndLetHerStepUpTheStairsToNapsAndBedtime

She would crawl before but she would keep stopping to make sure I was following her, though I was 10cm behind, so this seemed like a quicker option.

#NowWhenSheIsAtTheBottomOfTheStairsSheReachesForMyHandsWhichIsQuiteSweet

Cute.

#SometimesWhenISingTwinkleTwinkleLittleStarToHerInHerCotSheDancesAlong

I love when she dances, especially when there is no music playing and she just seems to sing to herself. This is more randomly around the house or on walks.

#SheIsASuperCoolKidButIFeelBadThatIAmSoTiredAndHaveLessEnthusiasmTheseDays

Did we watch a lot of TV yesterday? Yes. Did I feel bad about it? Yes.

Did she watch TV this morning? Yes. Did I try to read her 5 books to compensate in the end? Yes.

#IThinkHerGoingToNurseryACoupleOfMorningsAWeekWillBeGoodForAllOfUs

Though I do not know how much rest I will really get. I should do things like make meals while I have the free time, but hopefully I can rest a bit too. This is pre-baby X obviously.

#EspeciallyNowThatTheWeatherIsGettingQuiteRubbishThoughIDoTryToTakeHerOutOnceOrTwiceADayStill

I feel like we have much better quality time when we get out of the house. It has been raining all morning…

#SheHasAPuddleSuitButItLeavesHerWithASoggyBumIfSheSitsDownAtAllOutsideWhichSheDoesAllTheTime

Great. I took her on the slide the other day as I thought it didn’t matter. Soggy bum. Sat by a puddle another day. Soggy bum. Sat in the grass on another day. Soggy bum. Le sigh.

#SoIHaveHadToOrderHerAProperWaterproofOneOtherwiseIAmJustGoingToFeelMoreStuckInTheHouseWithHer

It’s annoying getting home and having to change her. I find changing her quite stressful as it is less easier with a big bump now.

#ILetHerWalkToThePlaygroundNowButThatTakesAboutFortyMinutesAsSheUsuallyStopsToLookAtEverything

It really shouldn’t take that long, but I aim to tire her out as well. To be fair to her she has much shorter legs and has only been walking for 4 months.

#SheAlsoLikesToRunUpAndDownHillsWhichAreBarelyHillsAtAllButAreProbablyLikeMountainsToHer

I learned to ride my bike around here when I was a kid and I remember visiting one time and thinking ‘where are all the hills? did they landscape the area?’ No I was just much smaller once.

#ITryNotToPickHerUpTooMuchButIDoEndUpCarryingHerSometimes

Trying to not strain the bump to much and all…

#SheLikesToTipHerHeadBackAndThenSheLaughs

She’s funny. It must feel funny for her.

#SheHasStartedToTipHerBackInTheSwingTooAndICanSeeThatSheHasMoreTeethComingThrough

No wonder she’s been waking up early. She has a good attitude though. She’ll have a finger in her mouth due to teething, but we smiling and bouncing along to music.

#HopefullyOnceSheStopsTeethingForABitSheMightStartToSleepABitLater

Please please please.

#WeAreGoingAwayThisWeekend

We want to try to have a few more weekends away before baby X is born, and there’s a photography book festival happening in Bristol so seemed like a good shout.

#IFeelABitStressedAsWeAreStayingInAHotelRatherThanAnApartmentSoIAmWorriedAboutWhatSheWillHaveForEachMeal

Breakfast opens at least an hour too late for B, so we will have to get some food for her to eat.

#IAmSureItWillBeOkayThoughAndINeedToStartWritingAPackingList

I need to relax more. I am not looking forward to packing.

#IAmHopingThatSheWillGetToMeetSomeMorePeopleAndThatIGetToShowHerOffABit

She still hasn’t met so many people…

#ItIsWeirdThinkingHowThingsWouldBeNowIfCovidHadNeverHappened

I don’t think about it much as it seems like a waste of time, but I just randomly had that thought while writing this. I have thought about it from time to time.

#WeMightNotHaveMovedToBirminghamButItIsGoodForHerToSeeMoreOfHerBritishFamily

Before we moved to Brum we did think about moving in Liverpool to be closer to parks and things, but it made sense to leave. I am happy being closer to my family and it does feel like we are starting to know people now.

25 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Close up of my bump with my bra and leggings in shot.
Pregnancy In The Time Of Corona (25 Weeks)
 
#SoTheThreatOfCoronavirusIsMoreRealNow
#OfficialGuidanceSayItIsNotReallyAThreatToPregnantWomen
#ButIDoWorryThatIfIGetItThatThereMightBeSomeSideEffectsForTheBaby
#IAmAlsoPrettyCertainThatIfItContinuesTheWayItIsThenIWillProbablyGetIt
#IJustHopeICanDelayGettingItUntilIAmMorePregnant
#BecauseOfCoronaIHaveNoticedHowDisgustingPeopleAreInGeneral
#ISawAGuyBlowHisNoseIntoHisHandInTheSupermarketTheOtherDay
#AWomanCoughedInTheLiftYesterdayAndSheDidNotPutHerHandOverHerMouth
#AsSoonAsSheCoughedThePeopleAtTheFrontOfTheLiftLookedAroundNervously
#SoIThinkAfterTheVirusGoesIWillJustWashMyHandsMoreAndUseHandSanitiserMore
#IPushedTheButtonForTheLiftWithAKnuckleBecauseIThoughtIWasBeingSmart
#ButIPushedItIntoTheBrailleAndItStartedToBleed
#MyHandsAreSoDryFromAllTheWashingAndHandSanitising
#IFeelAwkwardUsingTheHandSanitiserInPublic
#TiagoShookSomeonesHandTheOtherDayAndIPassedHimTheHandSanitiser
#IHopeItDidNotOffendTheOtherPerson
#IfIWasNotPregnantThenIThinkIWouldBeMoreChilledOut
#AtLeastBecauseIAmPregnantWeHaveNotMadeAnyTravelPlans
#AndWeWentToTheTheatreLastWeek
#IDoNotHaveAnythingBookedInMyDiaryThatIMightHaveToCancel
#JustLocalArtEventsWhichAreAShameToMissButIDoNotWantToBeInRoomsFullOfPeople
#IWasSpeakingToSomeoneOnTheStairsInMyWorkBuildingYesterday
#AndTodayTheyWereOffAsTheyWereReallyIll
#WeWereStoodAtLeastAMetreApartAndSheWasSomeStepsLowerThanMe
#TypicallyWeWereStoodTalkingAboutCorona
#TheBumpContinuesToGrowThough
#IDownloadedThatAppToMarkWhenIFeelItMove
#AndTheOtherDayAfterTalkingAboutItItHadAQuietDayWhichFreakedMeOut
#ButIThinkItDependsWhatIAmDoing
#WhenIAmAtWorkINoticeItMoreAsIAmNotMovingAboutSoMuch

Well, as far as I’m aware I’m yet to catch Covid but we’ll see. I am less stressed now that I am double vaccinated though.

At times I still feel a little awkward using my sanitiser – in B’s classes when I wander off to get some mainly – but it is more socially acceptable now.

I haven’t been to the theatre since the time mentioned here. I think we went to see Six, which was really good.

I am writing this bit on the same day of the top shoot for once. Funnily enough, I downloaded an app to monitor the kicks the other day. I have only used it once so far as I feel like this baby may be more active than B, or I am just at home more to notice. I can feel her kicking now.


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