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Pregnancy Waiting II

30 Weeks Feels Like A Big Milestone (30 Weeks / 24th November 2021)

Self-portrait where I am nude from my knees up. My left arm is covering my breasts, and my right hand is covering my pubic area. My bump is very visible.
30 Weeks Feels Like A Big Milestone (30 Weeks / 24th November 2021)
 
#WellIGuess30WeeksIsABigMilestoneAsTheDueDateIsCalculatedFor40Weeks
#SoThatMeansThePregnancyCouldBeThreeQuartersCompleteThoughYouAreAllowedUntil42WeeksIsh
#BWasBornLessThan8WeeksFromThisPointThoughSoWhoKnows
#IHaveToldMyParentsToBeOnAlertFrom37WeeksAndIWillStartGoingToBedEarlierAroundThen
#IWentToBedQuiteLateTheNightBeforeBWasBornAndWokeUpOnlyACoupleOfHoursLaterWithMyWatersBreaking
#ItIsEasyToSayIWillGoToBedEarlierButIDoNotAlwaysManageItAndTheOtherNightIDidButThenWasAwakeFromTwoToFour
#BHadWokenUpAroundTwoButSoonWentBackToSleepButICouldNotThoughLuckilySheSleptUntilSeven
#BAndMyParentsHadAGoodTimeAtTheWeekendWhichIsGoodAsTheyWillWatchHerWhileIAmInHospital
#SheWokeUpAtSixForThemWhichIWasRelievedAboutAsIWasWorriedSheWouldWakeUpAtFive
#WeDroppedHerOffAndWentForLunchThenCheckedIntoTheHotelWhereWeStayedUntilJustBeforeTheCheckoutTime
#WeHadANapAndWatchedTVAndIHadABathThoughIWouldHaveLikedToHaveReadAndSleptMoreButIGuessIWasExcitedAboutStayingUpLate
#AfterWeCheckedOutWeWentToHaveLunchAndDidFoodShoppingThenWentToPickUpB
#MyMumGotHerUpFromHerNapAndAtFirstSheWasJustClingingToMyMumButEventuallySheCameToSeeUs
#SheAteALotOfKidCrispsBeforeWeLeftAndFiveMinutesBeforeWeGotHomeSheWasSick
#AndIHaveNeverSeenSoMuchSickComeOutOfASmallHumansMouthBefore
#SheWentStraightIntoTheBathWhenWeGotHomeWhichSheWasHappyAboutAsSheLovesBathsAnyways
#WeTriedToGetAwayWithJustWipingTheCarSeatDownButYesterdayIHadToSolveTheCarSeatPuzzleAndPutAllThePiecesInTheWash
#IWasWorriedIWouldNotBeAbleToReassembleItButLuckilyIDid
#AfterTenMinutesOfBeingHomeItAlreadyFeltLikeWeHadNotHadAWeekendToOurselves
#WeDidMissBThoughAndAtOnePointWeWereWatchingVideosAndLookingAtPhotosOfHer
#IJustFeelSoTiredButBabyXIsSupposedToDoubleInSizeBetweenNowAndBirthSoIGuessIWillProbablyFeelMoreTired
#IFeelGuiltyAtTimesAsIDoNotHaveMuchEnergyAndIFeelLikeILetBDownABit
#IAmWorriedThatSheWatchesTooMuchTVAndSoITryToPutMusicOnInstead
#SheIsReallyIntoAFewShowsNowButIAmTryingToMakeSureWeReadBooksAndPlay
#IAmGladSheGoesToNurseryACoupleOfSessionsAWeekAsAtLeastIKnowSheIsGettingSomeStimulation
#IDoNotFeelReadyToBeAMotherOfTwoButAtTheSameTimeIJustWantTheBabyToArriveSoWeCanGetOnWithTheNextChapter
#IGuessWeAreOnACountdownNowThoughItIsABitFrustratingNotKnowingWhenTheClockWillRunOut
#BabyXFeelsQuiteActiveAndIAmStartingToGetMoreAcheyNowWithSlightBackPainAndHipPainEvenWithStretchingALot
#IHaveNotDoneAnyNudeShootsThisPregnancySoIGuessIWillDoOneToAccompanyTheseHashtagsAsAMemoryForMyself
#WeAreClosingTheKidBookAtTwoSoMyBodyWillNeverLookLikeThisAgainAfterBabyXIsBorn

#WellIGuess30WeeksIsABigMilestoneAsTheDueDateIsCalculatedFor40Weeks #SoThatMeansThePregnancyCouldBeThreeQuartersCompleteThoughYouAreAllowedUntil42WeeksIsh

I wasn’t sure on what word to use. Complete makes it sound like a video game or something, but I guess that’s what it is.

#BWasBornLessThan8WeeksFromThisPointThoughSoWhoKnows

I was sure that I’d be a 42-weeker, but no. Maybe this time? I hope not though.

#IHaveToldMyParentsToBeOnAlertFrom37WeeksAndIWillStartGoingToBedEarlierAroundThen

Baby X will probably come at 36 weeks now just to surprise me.

#IWentToBedQuiteLateTheNightBeforeBWasBornAndWokeUpOnlyACoupleOfHoursLaterWithMyWatersBreaking

I got through it as I wasn’t tired from running around after a toddler (I nearly wrote teenager?), but I think this time I will be too tired for the same series of events, but I guess adrenaline and whatever kicks in?

#ItIsEasyToSayIWillGoToBedEarlierButIDoNotAlwaysManageItAndTheOtherNightIDidButThenWasAwakeFromTwoToFour

Hello again pregnancy insomnia.

#BHadWokenUpAroundTwoButSoonWentBackToSleepButICouldNotThoughLuckilySheSleptUntilSeven

I was faffing around reading the news and stuff, but I think that just makes my brain more alert. I started to read my book and before long I felt sleepy again. I usually read a book every night until my eyes start to close, or I have to tell myself to go to sleep.

I am currently reading Men Who Hate Women by Laura Bates. It’s interesting, but sad/frustrating/a bit of a downer. I swear I’ll pick up my hypnobirthing book soon…

#BAndMyParentsHadAGoodTimeAtTheWeekendWhichIsGoodAsTheyWillWatchHerWhileIAmInHospital

Well, that’s the plan anyways. Let’s see. I don’t want to be calling them at 1 in the morning…

#SheWokeUpAtSixForThemWhichIWasRelievedAboutAsIWasWorriedSheWouldWakeUpAtFive

Phew.

#WeDroppedHerOffAndWentForLunchThenCheckedIntoTheHotelWhereWeStayedUntilJustBeforeTheCheckoutTime

We went for lunch at our favourite Indian restaurant and it did not disappoint. I have missed their chili paneer. Whenever we order Indian food I always get chili paneer and it is never as good.

We bought snacks at a supermarket before we got to the hotel and we barely touched them as we were so full from lunch.

#WeHadANapAndWatchedTVAndIHadABathThoughIWouldHaveLikedToHaveReadAndSleptMoreButIGuessIWasExcitedAboutStayingUpLate

I did also play The Sims. I do play it once in a while as it’s good when I’m feeling quite stressed/tired. I have phases of playing it once or twice a year. I remember seeing an ad for the first one on the back of a different game I bought and saved up for it until it came out. We have a long history together…

Anyways, I ended up staying up until midnight watching reruns of Gogglebox and then slept until 7. Was a bit disappointed as I did want to sleep until checkout, but I’m not used to sleeping in anymore.

#AfterWeCheckedOutWeWentToHaveLunchAndDidFoodShoppingThenWentToPickUpB

We shared a pizza between us as we were quite full. Exciting stuff.

#MyMumGotHerUpFromHerNapAndAtFirstSheWasJustClingingToMyMumButEventuallySheCameToSeeUs

She was nuzzling into my Mum and then would sneak a peek at us with a smile, then she came over. We knew she was just waking up and wasn’t in a mood with us or anything. My parents said the weekend went better than they thought so that’s nice.

#SheAteALotOfKidCrispsBeforeWeLeftAndFiveMinutesBeforeWeGotHomeSheWasSick

I’d got her some new crisps to try. I usually just give her a few, but as we weren’t at home I thought she could just eat them from the bag, but that was obviously a mistake.

#AndIHaveNeverSeenSoMuchSickComeOutOfASmallHumansMouthBefore

Luckily my morning sickness had passed, otherwise I probably would have been sick too.

#SheWentStraightIntoTheBathWhenWeGotHomeWhichSheWasHappyAboutAsSheLovesBathsAnyways

So she got a longer play than she might do normally. We were going to give her a bath before bed anyways, so it saved us doing it later.

#WeTriedToGetAwayWithJustWipingTheCarSeatDownButYesterdayIHadToSolveTheCarSeatPuzzleAndPutAllThePiecesInTheWash

It took me a good while to take all the pieces out. Tiago said the seat didn’t smell, but the night before we had gone to the supermarket and the car stank of sick.

#IWasWorriedIWouldNotBeAbleToReassembleItButLuckilyIDid

I should have taken pictures of it being dismantled really. I was proud of myself for sorting it out.

#AfterTenMinutesOfBeingHomeItAlreadyFeltLikeWeHadNotHadAWeekendToOurselves

I guess I didn’t have a nap as well (I usually nap when B naps) so that made me feel really tired too.

#WeDidMissBThoughAndAtOnePointWeWereWatchingVideosAndLookingAtPhotosOfHer

We do that a lot. We did it last night too… She’s funny.

#IJustFeelSoTiredButBabyXIsSupposedToDoubleInSizeBetweenNowAndBirthSoIGuessIWillProbablyFeelMoreTired

Apparently I only need to eat 200 more calories a day than before I was pregnant, but I have no idea what 200 calories is and the baby takes most of the nutrients out of what I eat and I get the leftovers. Charming.

#IFeelGuiltyAtTimesAsIDoNotHaveMuchEnergyAndIFeelLikeILetBDownABit

Oh, Mum guilt.

#IAmWorriedThatSheWatchesTooMuchTVAndSoITryToPutMusicOnInstead

If my Nan is up when we get up then we usually watch more. Luckily after a while B gets bored of watching the TV. I do try to take her out for a walk or two a day, but we need to find more things to do really.

#SheIsReallyIntoAFewShowsNowButIAmTryingToMakeSureWeReadBooksAndPlay

She likes to dance to theme tunes and she really likes In The Night Garden. This morning she was saying ‘Gaga’ and pointing at the TV.

#IAmGladSheGoesToNurseryACoupleOfSessionsAWeekAsAtLeastIKnowSheIsGettingSomeStimulation

It’s good for her. Tiago says she doesn’t cry or anything when he drops her off now. She’s settled in quick, but I said why would she want to spend all day with her boring, tired pregnant mother when she can see kids her own age and play with different toys etc.

#IDoNotFeelReadyToBeAMotherOfTwoButAtTheSameTimeIJustWantTheBabyToArriveSoWeCanGetOnWithTheNextChapter

I just keep wondering how it will be, but I just want to get on with it. I am feeling tired though, so I am nervous and should probably enjoy the few hours to myself that I get while B is at nursery and I have no mothering responsibilities while I can.

#IGuessWeAreOnACountdownNowThoughItIsABitFrustratingNotKnowingWhenTheClockWillRunOut

That is what makes me nervous. I just need to get prepared…

#BabyXFeelsQuiteActiveAndIAmStartingToGetMoreAcheyNowWithSlightBackPainAndHipPainEvenWithStretchingALot

I can feel the pain in bed a bit now. I guess baby is getting bigger and my body is trying to keep up. I have a lot of cramps and pains. All fun stuff.

#IHaveNotDoneAnyNudeShootsThisPregnancySoIGuessIWillDoOneToAccompanyTheseHashtagsAsAMemoryForMyself

I did a few when I was pregnant with B. I think I’ve said before that baby X will say ‘Mum, why did you take no nudes with me?’ In reality I’m sure they will both say ‘Mum, why did you take nudes when you were pregnant with us?’ I do wonder what they will think about my work when they’re older. They’ll probably just say ‘Mum, you look so old now’.

#WeAreClosingTheKidBookAtTwoSoMyBodyWillNeverLookLikeThisAgainAfterBabyXIsBorn

I say that, but so many people have told me that their third was an accident. I really don’t want to go through pregnancy again though. The sickness, the tiredness etc. Two seems like a good number. I have two arms. One to grab each kid with. One to replace Tiago, one to replace me. I think I will be stretching myself too much as a mother to more.

30 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait sitting on a sofa, holding my arms up over my head. T is resting his hand on my bump.
We Could Be Parents In 3 Months Or Less (30 weeks)
 
#ISayCouldBecauseIKnowItIsNot100PercentDefinite
#ThoughObviouslyIHopeItHappens
#YouWouldHaveThoughtByNowThatIWouldHaveComeToTermsWithTheFactWeHaveABabyComing
#ButItStillFeelsSurreal
#ThatIAmGrowingSomethingInsideMeThatLooksLikeAMixOfMeAndTiago
#ItReallyIsBizarre
#MyBumpGetsBiggerEveryWeek
#AndTheKicksGotStronger
#ItFeelsMoreActiveInTheEvening
#WhoWouldHaveThoughtThatIWouldBeHeavilyPregnantDuringAPandemic
#ItIsAlsoOddThatIWillNotSeeMyPregnantFriendsPregnantInRealLife
#WeAreOrderingMoreStuffNowAsIDoubtTheShopsWillReopenBeforeIGiveBirth
#AndIfTheyDoThenTheLastPlaceIWantToBeIsSomewhereWithLotsOfRandomPeople
#SomeHatsAndSocksCameInThePostYesterday
#TheyWereSmallerThanIThoughtTheyWouldBe
#ISaidToTiagoThatItIsWeirdThatTheBabyWillBeSoSmall
#HeSaidHeHopesForABigBaby
#ISaidDoNotWishTooMuchAsYouAreNotTheOneWhoHasToPushItOut
#HeSaidTrue
#IPlannedToDoSomethingDifferentWithTheShootToday
#ButTiagoWasFinishingSomethingOnHisComputer
#AndIHadSetUpMyStuff
#SoIJustAskedHimToPutHisHandOnMyBelly
#AndThenIJustMessedAboutWaitingForHim
#ByTheTimeHeWasDoneISaidWeCanTryTheIdeaAnotherTimeAsIThinkIHaveAPicture
#IAskedTiagoIfHeWantedToAddToTheHashtags
#HeShookHisHeadAndSaidHeLooksForwardToTheBabyComing
#HeWantsToKnowTheGenderOfTheBabyBeforeTheBirthButIDoNot
#IRealisedTheOtherDayThatIfIHaveScansHeWillNotBeAllowedInTheRoomOrEvenTheBuilding
#IDoNotSeeThePointOfFindingOutNowAsIWantToBeSurprised

Well, it seems like I felt similar at 30 weeks last time. I am still anxious that I might not become a mother of two, but I am trying to remain calm.

#WhoWouldHaveThoughtThatIWouldBeHeavilyPregnantDuringAPandemic

Who would have thought that I would be this pregnant again during the same pandemic?

#ItIsAlsoOddThatIWillNotSeeMyPregnantFriendsPregnantInRealLife

I had a zoom call with a few of our Liverpool friends the other night who were pregnant at the same time. They said to show them my bump and we talked about how it was weird that we never saw each other pregnant in real life last time. Sadly, they might not see me pregnant in real life this time as well just as I doubt we will get to see them before X is born.

#HeSaidHeHopesForABigBaby

I had forgotten that he said this. B was small. X is meant to be bigger…

#HeWantsToKnowTheGenderOfTheBabyBeforeTheBirthButIDoNot

Well, in the end we didn’t find out and like I’ve said before I’m skeptical that X is a girl. I know that people get it wrong so I’m holding my breath.

Self-portrait with Tiago from our necks to our waists. We are wearing the same top and T is facing the camera, whereas I am stood side on to the camera with my bump touching T's arm.
Who Knows How Things Will Be By The Time I Give Birth (30 weeks)
 
#IKeepTellingMyselfThatIShouldRestMore
#ButIWokeUpTodayFeelingLikeIWantedToDoAShoot
#ThisWasNotTheIdeaIHadYesterdayThatIDidNotEndUpDoing
#IRealiseThatAFewOfTheLastPicturesAllHaveAHandOrHandsOnMyBump
#IWasLookingAtThePictureOfMeAndTiagoWhenIWas19WeeksPregnantAndYouCanBarelySeeMyBump
#SoIThoughtItWouldBeNiceToRedoItWithMyBumpMoreObvious
#WeKindOfLookLikeWeirdMannequins
#WeOrderedOurPushchairAndCotToday
#ItHasBeenStressingMeOutForACoupleOfWeeksDecidingOnWhichOnesToBuy
#SoWeJustTookThePlungeTodayAsWhatIsTheWorstThatCanHappen
#ItIsSoWeirdMakingWhatFeelsLikeBigPurchasesWithoutHavingSeenThemInRealLifeOrHavingTriedThemOutFirst
#ApparentlyIfTheBabyCameNowItWouldHaveAGoodChanceOfSurviving
#SoItMadeSenseToOrderThem
#JustNeedToBuySomeSmallerThingsNowLikeMattressProtectorsAndNappies
#IAmLookingForwardToHavingItAllSorted
#ItIsNiceThatTiagoIsInTheProjectABitMoreNow
#ItIsGoingToBeWeirdWhenWeAreNotAtHomeTogetherSoMuch
#IThinkOnceTheBabyHisBornHisWorkNoLongerConsidersMeToBeVulnerable
#SoHeWillNeedToLeaveTheHouseForWorkAgain
#ButSurelyANewbornIsVulnerable
#IDoNotKnow
#WhoKnowsHowThingsWillBeByTheTimeIGiveBirth
#ItFeelsWeirdBuyingAPushchairKnowingThatItWillProbablyBeUsedForJustMyUsualSimpleWalkForALongTime
#AndMaybeIWillPreferToJustHaveTheBabyInACarrierForAWhileToAvoidAwkwardPavementEncounters
#IGuessItIsGoodToCoverAllTheOptionsAsThePushchairWillBeUsedAtSomePoint
#IHadALieDownThisAfternoonAndIThinkTheBabyWasUsingMyBladderAsATrampoline
#IThoughtIWasGoingToWetMyself
#WentOutForOurUsualWalkEarlier
#AGuyStuckHisHeadOutOfTheWindowOfAVanThatDroveFromBehindUsAndLetOutABloodCurdlingScreamAndIJumped
#HeHadHisHeadOutOfTheWindowSoIHopedHeNoticedIWasPregnantAndThenFeldBadButIAmSureHeWasJustHappyThatHeHadShowedOffInFrontOfWhoeverWasDriving

I keep telling myself that the baby will not come until at least the time B did, but in the back of my head I know the baby could come at anytime.

This time I have already bought nappies, but we need to think about cot options. We might just use the one that my parents have at their house (for B’s stays etc.)

Tiago has been in the project less this time, though hopefully this weekend we will do a family shoot.

This time things are meant to be a bit ‘better’ with visiting at hospitals, but I’m not going to keep looking at it as I know things can and probably will change before X is born. Better not to get my hopes up, but hopefully this time we will be home quicker.

I didn’t like using the pushchair for a while as I felt so self-conscious using it. It can adapt to have two kids in/on it, but we’ll see how it goes. I need to have a go at putting the bassinet and a seat on it.

I do worry about being far away from a toilet when we are out at times as I do feel like my bladder is smaller, but I think the kegels definitely help.


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Pregnancy Waiting II

Documenting My Bump From A Different Angle (27 Weeks / 2nd November 2021)

Self-portrait sat on floor. My feet are out in front touching each other, and my hands are clasping my bump. The image is shot from above.
Documenting My Bump From A Different Angle (27 Weeks / 2nd November 2021)
 
#IAmYetToDoTheShootButIImagineItWillBeSomeAboveShotOfMyBumpAsWhenIExerciseILookDownAndThinkThatIsWhatIWantToPhotograph
#IThinkBabyXMayBeMoreActiveThanBWasAsWhenIWasPregnantWithBIWasOftenJustSatByMyselfNotMakingMuchNoise
#NowAllDayIAmTalkingToBAndSingingToHerAndReadingHerBooksSoSheProbablyReactsToTheNoiseALot
#HoweverSheDoesKickOrPunchMeALotWhenIAmInBedAndItIsQuiteQuietSoMaybeSheIsMoreActive
#IAmAlreadyStrugglingToPutMySocksOnButIRealisedAsBWasASummerBabyIJustWoreSandalsOutsideButAsBabyXIsAWinterBabyINeedToWearSocks
#IUsuallyWearTiagosShoesIfHeIsNotComingOutWithUsAsTheyAreEasierToJustSlipOnAndOff
#WeSurvivedTheClockChangeThoughIDidWakeUpAndNoticeTheClockWasOffSoThoughtItHadFreakedOut
#ThenIRealisedTheElectricityHadGoneOffSoIWentToPlayWithTheFuseBoxAt2InTheMorningAsIWasWorriedAboutTheFreezerDefrosting
#IUsedAWoodenSpatulaAsIWasWorriedAboutGettingAnElectricShockAndEverythingCameBackOn
#IWasLookingForwardToTheOvenFinallyHavingTheRightTimeOnItButThenISetItAs8InsteadOf6SoIHadToTurnItOffFor15MinutesAndTryAgain
#BWokeUpAt5ButSheIsAlreadyAdaptingThoughLastNightSheWasAwakeFor3HoursBetween12And3AsSheWasProbablyTeethingAndIsGoingThroughALeap
#InOtherNewsBHasBeenOfferedAPlaceForNursery
#SheHasASettlingInHourSessionThisWeekThenAnHourAndAHalfOneNextWeekAndThenSheStarts
#IFeelGuiltyAboutItAndIFeelLikeABitOfAFailureAsAStayAtHomeMum
#ButAtTheSameTimeIThinkItWillBeGoodForHerEspeciallyWhenBabyXComesAlongAndIWillBeTiredAndHaveLessEnthusiasm
#ItIsOnlyForACoupleOfHalfDaysAWeekAndRealisticallyIWillProbablyPickHerUpEarly
#IThinkSheWillLikeItThereAndItWillGiveMeABitMoreTimeToOrganiseMyselfBeforeBabyXIsBornAndThenIKnowIHaveABitOfTimeEachWeekWhereIOnlyHaveToLookAfterOneKid
#UltimatelyIThinkItIsTheBestThingForUsAsAFamilyAndIFeelLikeItIsStartingAtTheRightTime
#MyParentsLookedAfterBForTheFirstTimeTheOtherDayAndItGaveMeATasteOfHowItMightBe
#WeDroppedHerOffAfterBreakfastAndThenWeStayedABitToMakeSureSheWasAlright
#ThenWeWentHomeAndDidABitOfWorkThenWentOutForLunchWhereTheySaidThatTheyCouldNotServeTheDishOfTheDayYetAsTheyWereABitBehind
#IJustMadeACommentAboutHowWeWereTooKeenAsItWasOurFirstLunchDateWithoutOurDaughterAndSoHeSaidHeWouldMakeASmallBatch
#TheDelayMeantWeHadSomeTimeToTalkAndItWasNiceToFeelLikeWeAreNotJustParentsInTheNicestWayPossible
#OnTheWayHomeIFeltColdAndMyBumpWasTooBigToDoTheZipOfMyCoatUpSoWeHadToSwapCoatsAndIThinkTiagoMayBeBorrowingMyCoatForAWhileNow
#AtHomeWeWatchedAlmostOneEpisodeOfAmericanCrimeStoryThenHadANapThenWentToPickHerUp
#IThinkMyTimeWillLookVeryDifferentToThatWhileBIsAtNurseryButIGuessIMightRestALittleBitSometimesThoughIWillProbablyFeelGuiltyForDoingThat
#ItIsGoodToKnowThatBCanHappilySpendTheDayWithMyParentsThoughAsSoonTheyWillBeHavingHerForAnOvernightStay
#IGuessThisIsAllGoodPreparationAsTheyWillProbablyHaveToLookAfterHerWhileIAmInHospitalGivingBirth
#ApparentlySheLookedForUsForFiveMinutesWhenWeLeftButWhenWeArrivedWeWalkedInTheRoomAndSheDidNotEvenNotice
#IAmLikingThatTheMorningsAreLighterNowButINeedToGetUsedToGettingBOutOfTheHouseEarlierForAnAfternoonWalk

#IAmYetToDoTheShootButIImagineItWillBeSomeAbstractShotOfMyBumpAsWhenIExerciseILookAtItAndThinkThatIsWhatIWantToPhotograph

We shall see.

(Well, it ended up as an above shot of my bump. I like it.)

#IThinkBabyXMayBeMoreActiveThanBWasAsWhenIWasPregnantWithBIWasOftenJustSatByMyselfNotMakingMuchNoise

By this point I was at home all the time, not singing in case the neighbours heard me, and Tiago was in the small bedroom/his office working all day.

#NowAllDayIAmTalkingToBAndSingingToHerAndReadingHerBooksSoSheProbablyReactsToTheNoiseALot

Plus I have my Nan to talk to, and my Mum comes round a few times a week, and I take B for walks and talk to people at the playground and park.

#HoweverSheDoesKickOrPunchMeALotWhenIAmInBedAndItIsQuiteQuietSoMaybeSheIsMoreActive

I think the position of the placenta may have something to do with it too, but it’s probably a mix of all these things.

#IAmAlreadyStrugglingToPutMySocksOnButIRealisedAsBWasASummerBabyIJustWoreSandalsOutsideButAsBabyXIsAWinterBabyINeedToWearSocks

Trying to find the easiest way to put them on. Generally sitting down and doing a figure of 4 with my leg.

#IUsuallyWearTiagosShoesIfHeIsNotComingOutWithUsAsTheyAreEasierToJustSlipOnAndOff

The laces are done up and they slip on and off easily.

#WeSurvivedTheClockChangeThoughIDidWakeUpAndNoticeTheClockWasOffSoThoughtItHadFreakedOut

It’s a digital clock that sits on my desk, so I usually sit up and look at it when I wake up. Exciting stuff.

#ThenIRealisedTheElectricityHadGoneOffSoIWentToPlayWithTheFuseBoxAt2InTheMorningAsIWasWorriedAboutTheFreezerDefrosting

I had noticed other things weren’t showing their usual lights, and then the lamp next to the bed wouldn’t turn on. Tiago didn’t seem too bothered, but I wanted to sort it out. I was quite awake though.

#IUsedAWoodenSpatulaAsIWasWorriedAboutGettingAnElectricShockAndEverythingCameBackOn

Everything made a noise and I was surprised that no one woke up – especially the doorbell ringing.

#IWasLookingForwardToTheOvenFinallyHavingTheRightTimeOnItButThenISetItAs8InsteadOf6SoIHadToTurnItOffFor15MinutesAndTryAgain

I like to think I’m quite good at fixing things, but I hadn’t been able to work it out. Before it was nearly at the right time before the last clock change, then someone came and fixed the oven and set it to the right time. More exciting stuff.

#BWokeUpAt5ButSheIsAlreadyAdaptingThoughLastNightSheWasAwakeFor3HoursBetween12And3AsSheWasProbablyTeethingAndIsGoingThroughALeap

Luckily we’d both gone to bed early. I think Tiago was asleep at 9 and I was asleep around 9.45 possibly?

#InOtherNewsBHasBeenOfferedAPlaceForNursery

Hurrah.

#SheHasASettlingInHourSessionThisWeekThenAnHourAndAHalfOneNextWeekAndThenSheStarts

I am a little nervous, but I think she will love it.

#IFeelGuiltyAboutItAndIFeelLikeABitOfAFailureAsAStayAtHomeMum

Well, I guess in the beginning I won’t be a stay at home Mum when B is at nursery, but once Baby X is born I will be again.

#ButAtTheSameTimeIThinkItWillBeGoodForHerEspeciallyWhenBabyXComesAlongAndIWillBeTiredAndHaveLessEnthusiasm

She will love seeing the other kids and playing with different toys I’m sure. The food sounds nice too!

#ItIsOnlyForACoupleOfHalfDaysAWeekAndRealisticallyIWillProbablyPickHerUpEarly

It’s not much at all, but it’s enough for now.

#IThinkSheWillLikeItThereAndItWillGiveMeABitMoreTimeToOrganiseMyselfBeforeBabyXIsBornAndThenIKnowIHaveABitOfTimeEachWeekWhereIOnlyHaveToLookAfterOneKid

Baby X won’t be moving about for a long time and will be napping a lot. B naps once a day now and is always moving about. It will be different.

I need to really go through all my stuff and have a clear out, then go through baby clothes sorting them and washing them etc.

#UltimatelyIThinkItIsTheBestThingForUsAsAFamilyAndIFeelLikeItIsStartingAtTheRightTime

I feel less guilty now. I am definitely starting to feel more tired as bump gets bigger…

#MyParentsLookedAfterBForTheFirstTimeTheOtherDayAndItGaveMeATasteOfHowItMightBe

Though T and I have both felt a bit ill since. We’ve had negative Covid tests. I think our bodies just decided that it was safe to be ill.

#WeDroppedHerOffAfterBreakfastAndThenWeStayedABitToMakeSureSheWasAlright

My Dad recorded some episodes of Teletubbies for her and she seemed quite content.

#ThenWeWentHomeAndDidABitOfWorkThenWentOutForLunchWhereTheySaidThatTheyCouldNotServeTheDishOfTheDayYetAsTheyWereABitBehind

At first we thought they were closed as they had a sign up saying they were closed for a function, but that was the day before.

#IJustMadeACommentAboutHowWeWereTooKeenAsItWasOurFirstLunchDateWithoutOurDaughterAndSoHeSaidHeWouldMakeASmallBatch

Legend. It wasn’t that great in the end, but it felt good to get out and sit in a restaurant/cafe looking out the windows and not having to worry about B.

(We had lunch dates when we visited T’s parents I think, but it was always different as we always felt like we were on a timer.)

#TheDelayMeantWeHadSomeTimeToTalkAndItWasNiceToFeelLikeWeAreNotJustParentsInTheNicestWayPossible

I guess some couples have kids and then all they really talk about is the kids, so it was nice to think and talk about other things. We did talk about her a bit of course, but it was good to feel a bit like our old selves again too.

#OnTheWayHomeIFeltColdAndMyBumpWasTooBigToDoTheZipOfMyCoatUpSoWeHadToSwapCoatsAndIThinkTiagoMayBeBorrowingMyCoatForAWhileNow

He never realised how cozy my coat was. His coat was cold…

#AtHomeWeWatchedAlmostOneEpisodeOfAmericanCrimeStoryThenHadANapThenWentToPickHerUp

The day went fast.

#IThinkMyTimeWillLookVeryDifferentToThatWhileBIsAtNurseryButIGuessIMightRestALittleBitSometimesThoughIWillProbablyFeelGuiltyForDoingThat

I’m sure I’ll have my to do lists. If I get my stuff done then I can rest.

#ItIsGoodToKnowThatBCanHappilySpendTheDayWithMyParentsThoughAsSoonTheyWillBeHavingHerForAnOvernightStay

This was a test run.

#IGuessThisIsAllGoodPreparationAsTheyWillProbablyHaveToLookAfterHerWhileIAmInHospitalGivingBirth

With B I was in for 4 days, so we will have to see how it goes this time. It’s also good prep for B going to nursery, though she knows my Mum well.

#ApparentlySheLookedForUsForFiveMinutesWhenWeLeftButWhenWeArrivedWeWalkedInTheRoomAndSheDidNotEvenNotice

I was just going to sit on the sofa until she noticed but Tiago said hi.

#IAmLikingThatTheMorningsAreLighterNowButINeedToGetUsedToGettingBOutOfTheHouseEarlierForAnAfternoonWalk

Before we would dawdle for a bit before going for a walk. This morning I felt too tired to take B out for a walk, so we definitely need a good one later.

27 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait lying on a sofa leaning on my right elbow and my right hand is nestled in my hair. My top is lifted up so you can see my bump.
I Want To Keep Being Able To Go For Walks (27 weeks)
 
#IAmFeelingTired
#GladIDecidedYesterdayToTakePicturesOfMyselfOnTheSofaToday
#YesterdayIWasLyingOnThereWatchingMyBellyToSeeIfICouldSeeTheBabyMoving
#IHaveNotSeenTheBabyMoveAsMoveAsMuchAsTheFirstDayISawIt
#ITryToTakeABreakToSeeIfICanFeelAndSeeTheBabyMoving
#IThinkItIsMovingNow
#AndItWasDuringTheShootABit
#IDoNotThinkIWillReadBabyForumsForABit
#TheyStressedMeOutBefore
#ButNowWithCoronaTheyAreFullOfPeopleBeingMoreStressedOut
#StillTryingToGoOutForAWalkADay
#IMakeAnEffortToKeepAGoodDistanceBetweenMyselfAndOtherPeople
#TheOtherDayIWasOutsideOfASupermarket
#AWomanAndGuyCameAlong
#TheWomanWentInAndTheGuyStayedOutside
#ButHeStoodRightByTheDoor
#SoAnyoneGoingInAndOutHadToWalkLessThanAMetreAwayFromHim
#ThenYesterdayWeWereWalkingOnAVeryWidePathByTheKerb
#AGuyRanByPuffingAndPantingRightNextToUs
#IShouldHaveToldBothOfThemOff
#AndYesterdayISawTwoGuysCoughInTheStreetWithoutPuttingTheirHandsOverTheirMouths
#AndOneThenWalkedIntoTheSupermarketThatTiagoWasIn
#IWantToKeepBeingAbleToGoForWalks
#INeedTheExercise
#ButIfPeopleKeepNotKeepingTheirDistanceAndDoingDumbThingsThenIMightHaveToStop
#ThoughTheyAreTheOnesWhoShouldNotGoOut
#IFeelLikeMaybeWeWillNotGetIt
#ButMaybeIAmTryingToBeOptimistic
#ItSeemsMoreSeriousByTheDay
#IJustWantToKnowHowLongItWillGoOnForButItCouldBeALongTime

Well, I’m definitely feeling tired. I’m writing this on 2nd November. I’m going to have a nap once I finish the comparison bit.

I have not really read any forums this time as I do not have the time or energy for them.

People still annoy me, but less so now I am double vaccinated. I am worried now that cases are increasing again though.

People running right next to me while breathing loudly does still annoy me a lot.

#IJustWantToKnowHowLongItWillGoOnForButItCouldBeALongTime

Well, it’s still going on and I wrote that in March 2020.

Self-portrait with Tiago. He is facing the right of the frame and I am hugging him with my left hand, but facing more towards the camera.
I Feel Like I Have Lost A Sense Of Urgency (27 weeks)
 
#AnotherDayAtHome
#WellWeWentOutForAShortWalk
#YesterdayWeLeftOurWalkUntilTooLate
#WhenItWasStartingToGetDarkAndCold
#SoWeDidNotGoOut
#OriginallyWeWereHavingOurWalksAfterItGetsDark
#ButTheWeatherGotBetterSoWeWantedToEnjoyTheSunABit
#IHavePlentyOfThingsToKeepMeBusy
#ButIFeelLikeIHaveLostASenseOfUrgency
#LikeWhyRushAsIAmNotGoingAnywhereElse
#AFriendAskedUsIfWeWereOkayJustBeingAroundEachOtherAllDay
#YeahWeAreUsedToBeingHomeALot
#WeAreLuckyAsWeCanSitInDifferentRoomsWhilstWeAreWorkingIfWeWant
#ThoughThisWeekendWeHaveStuckToTheSameRoom
#IWasSupposedToStartPhotographingHimMoreAWhileAgo
#IDidForABitButIFeltBadBotheringHim
#HeWasOnThePhoneDoingTheWashingUpToday
#AndIWasHuggingHim
#AndIThoughtThatWouldMakeAnAlrightPicture
#SoLaterOnIAskedHimAndHeObviouslySaidYes
#ObviouslyAsInHeIsInThePicture
#AskedTiagoIfHeHadAnyCommentsAndHeSaid
#IFeelKindOfRelaxedToBeFair
#HopefulThatThingsWillGetBetterInAMonthOrTwo
#ISaidIThinkItMightTakeAWhileForThingsToGoBackToNormal
#ItMightBeAfterIGiveBirthAtThisPoint
#IThinkEvenWhenThisNonLockdownEndsIWillBeCautious
#AsItCouldQuiteEasilyComeBackAndStartAllOverAgain
#WhoKnows
#IThinkWeJustNeedToBeCareful

I was not much of a walker until Covid. Now with B I love to get out of the house, though this morning I felt too tired to and instead did some baking (we have a lot of bananas that need eating).

I remember this ‘loss of urgency’ phase quite well, but it did not really last too long. It was just a lot to try to comprehend.

We are still trying to be careful.

Me sitting on the floor in a bra and leggings with my legs together in butterfly pose and my hands on my knees. My bump is showing.
The Baby Moving Reminds Me Of A Whale Rolling (27 and a half weeks)
 
#AnotherHalfAWeekGone
#TimeFliesInItsOwnWay
#EvenWhenIAmAtHomeAllTheTime
#ApartForOurLittleDailyWalk
#WeNowWalkALessBusyWayIfWeDoNotNeedToGoToTheSupermarket
#WhichWeHaveNotBeenToItInAFewDaysButProbablyWillGoToTonight
#ExcitingTimes
#WellIWillJustStandOutsideJudgingTheBehaviourOfOthers
#IFeelLikeMyDaysAreStillPrettyFull
#IGuessIHadAGoodRoutineBeforeLockdownHappened
#SoThingsJustContinueAsNormalish
#IAmTryingToReadMore
#AndMaybeIWillStartToWatchMoreTVButIFeelLikeIDoNotHaveMuchTimeForIt
#MaybeJustAtTheWeekends
#IAmQuiteFarBehindWithPostingTheProjectForOthersToSee
#ItIsFunnyReadingMyPreviousConcerns
#ThingsLikePeopleTouchingMyBelly
#LuckilyIWillNotHaveToWorryAboutThatWithSocialDistancing
#WhenWeGoOutForAWalkIWorryThatPeopleLookAtMeLikeSheShouldNotBeOutHere
#ButThatIsWhyItIsNiceThatWeGoTheQuietRoute
#AndPeopleSeemToBeGettingBetterAtKeepingADistance
#IStillGetWorriedAboutNotFeelingTheBabyMove
#IThinkIJustGetSoDistractedByThingsThatIDoNotRegisterItMoving
#IThinkItIsMovingNowThough
#WhenItTurnsOverItRemindsMeOfWhenYouSeeAWhaleRolling
#NotThatIAmComparingTheBabyToAWhale
#ButIJustVisualiseThatRollingMotion
#IGuessItIsARelaxingComparison
#IDoNotFeelTooWorriedAsIBarelyLeaveTheFlat
#ICallMyNanEverydayAndIHopeThatSheStaysFine

It’s so weird that Covid is still going on, but it’s better now that there are vaccines.

My walks are more with purpose these days as I am usually taking B somewhere, and we live in Birmingham now instead of Liverpool.

I think I will not stop being anxious about the baby during the pregnancy, and then when they’re born there are new anxieties.


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