It was a struggle when T and I were both ill last month and had to look after B. Plus having a newborn baby = more difficulty. No thanks, I’d rather avoid getting it. I probably won’t be venturing anywhere indoors with Baby for a while anyways, but no masks puts me off going to a few possible places that I could go to.
Also, my Nan is quite elderly and I do not want her catching it – though she goes out shopping way more than I do. She needs to go out for sanity, so I hope people who do not wear masks keep their distance.
I’ll say ‘run to the cupboard’ ‘run to the window’ etc. She’ll do it about 10 times. I joke that I am training her for marathons already. She has been napping better lately, it’s probably just her being under the weather but it’s good to wear her out too.
One we see most days, and the other one we have only met a couple of times but is a therapy dog and used to little kids patting it. She still won’t go near the big dogs though, unless they come over to her and sniff her, which they like to do from time to time…
Last time I had a bit of diastasis recti, so I felt a bit proud that I’ve avoided that (I think) this time. I don’t see why they’re so strong though – I guess just from the stretches, picking up B(?), and from sitting up by rolling onto my side first.
B is having a bit of a throwing phase, so I’m going to have to be careful with where I lay Baby X down. I like to imagine B just looking at X intently, but I’m also worried she might try to feed her all her foods.
I’ve seen the appointment in my calendar for ages, but the midwife mentioned it was for a sweep. I was about to leave, so I didn’t say ‘do I have to have it etc?’ as I know they are optional. If the baby isn’t born just after the due date, then they might want to hang on. I have an appointment booked in with my midwife for the week after which would be another sweep, so I’d rather just wait until then, but I also do not want to be induced either really so we’ll see…
I’m not entirely convinced that this baby isn’t breech, or will not be by the time I give birth though. I do think I might be at home longer though. Having B complicates things as my Mum needs to come and get her, if she isn’t here already etc.
It’s from having B and always being out and about our local area. Some I know as they talk to other dog owners and so I have got to know them that way. It’s really nice going for a walk and sometimes having a chat with three people. B isn’t so impressed though…
I’ve mentioned it before. It was easier to give it to her in her water when she was younger, and it encourages her to drink so it’s fine. I really don’t like the taste of it, but she only has plain water or milk otherwise, so it’s probably exciting to her.
I asked if I could have a hug and she ignored me. Then I opened up my cardigan and she ran to me. Tiago came in the room and I held it out wide to hide her from view, so she had a laugh while Tiago pretended that he couldn’t see her and looked for her.
I only knew a couple of his songs until 6ish months ago, but then suddenly really got into a lot more of his music. He’s been the soundtrack to a lot of B’s meals, and weirdly yesterday I suddenly had an urge to listen to his music after having a bit of a break. Thanks for the music Meat Loaf.
‘Raspberry leaf tea is a herbal remedy that is thought to tone the muscles of your uterus (womb), to help it work during labour. The idea is not so much to speed up labour but to help it progress at a steady pace.’
I also notice that it says: ‘If you have already had a baby and your labour went smoothly first time around, there is no need for you to drink raspberry leaf tea for this baby.’
It’s not recommended until 32 weeks.
Like I said, I feel like I don’t have much to lose by drinking it. Plus, it’s cold this time of year so it’s nice to have a warm drink to drink (I can’t drink drinks too hot, so I let it cool down).
There is something satisfying about it. T was born in 1986, so it’s also nice that there is a 2 year gap between his and my birth years, and our kids.
33 weeks pregnant with B comparison:
Okay, it’s good to know that I was feeling uncomfortable at 33 weeks before too. I do not think our sofas and bed were that comfortable in Liverpool though.
I feel like I haven’t had a leg cramp in bed for a while, but I have been drinking more water before bed latley.
My work is still therapeutic for me. Getting my head around being a mother and being pregnant during a pandemic, while also feeling stuck in limbo – living in Birmingham with my Nan and not really doing much career wise.
I never got round to cutting down my workload with B, as it was a surprise that she was early and came a couple of days before the ‘couple of weeks before my due date’.
Again, I am just trying to be open minded about the birth and not get my heart set on anything. At least this time we will know how to change a nappy, and hopefully newborn care won’t feel so alien. You’d hope so, as it has not really been that long since B was a newborn…
I’m terrible at aging young kids as I did not have much experience with them prior to having one, but at times she does seem older. Also, it feels like she’s been in my life for a lot longer than she has – I guess if you add on the 9ish months of pregnancy, then that would seem a bit more accurate.
I do still often look at her and think ‘whoa, I have a kid’.
I feel like I saw his lovely face every day, and it’s so heartbreaking. Especially as his family was fighting so much to protect him and look after him. I’d just turn the TV off, but my Nan is usually watching it.
These are just two cases of many.
It reminds me of a Sandra Bullock interview that I saw the other day, where she talks about how a lot of kids don’t have anyone to love them, and it’s so sad.
This is a great discovery as she likes to be picked up to push the bar, but I have not been able to do it for a while as it is too difficult for me, and Tiago held her to do it for so long the other day that his back hurt.
Also great, as it keeps her happy, though it will be better when she is slightly taller as when she stands up the button that you push to move the handlebars up and down is at her eye height at the moment.
We got an instax printer and printed phone pictures out, but I do not like how they look at all – and it was way more expensive than just getting them printed at the supermarket or via a printing site.
I’m booked in at a medical centre, which is quite far from where we live but my Doctors messaged today to say they will be sending out booking info for there from tomorrow, so I might try to change it as it would be way more convenient to just be able to walk to my appointment. Everything does feel way more squished…
33 weeks pregnant with B comparison:
Well, it’s good to know that at the same point of pregnancy things were a bit unclear. It was definitely more unclear then though – there were no vaccines.
As I have said many times before, I ended up not having a home birth so most of this was irrelevant, and he was there for the birth once I was allowed into a delivery suite – however, he was not able to visit B and I for the 4 days that we were there. I do wonder how it will be this time.
We got way too many snacks, but they came in handy during my long stay in the hospital. I did struggle to eat my hospital lunch when I was in the early stage of labour…
There are no pictures of me giving birth, which I am sad about, so I would like it to be different this time, but I also do not want to get distracted/I feel a bit awkward about it as I (imagine I) will be in hospital. I need to start thinking about this.
It’s weird that I will be emerging from this with two kids – if we ever emerge.
He’s still around 99% of the time, and now the Government have said to work from home if you can, so hopefully it stays like that for a while so he won’t be out (which he rarely is) when I go into labour.
It’s a coat I’ve had for at least 6 years if not more. The inside is a bit ripped from where I used the pocket that the coat folds into as an actual pocket, and it just needs a good clean and re-waterproofing. It’s a lot cheaper than getting a new coat, and I like the coat so it makes sense. I don’t really need another coat…
He was saying hello for at least five seconds to me (and it sounded quite distant at first), so I don’t think I just cut in front of him. He could have easily moved to the grass (okay, it was a bit muddy but not that bad).
I do wonder if he’d have said the same thing to me if I was a guy. Probably not. He was maybe my age, possibly younger. I just looked at him quite blankly as I really thought he was going to say I’d dropped something, so I was in shock.
I wave quite enthusiastically, which usually makes her laugh, especially when she comes home. I then usually bend down and wait for her to come through the door so I can give her a hug if she wants one.
She’s just started to do it. Breakfast – ‘here you go Nan’. B stops what she is doing and runs over to steal some scrambled egg. I try to serve B her lunch before giving my Nan hers, otherwise B just tries to stick her hands in it. Sometimes dinner is ready earlier than we want to give it to B, so she goes over…
She’s been doing the claps to Wind The Bobbin Up for a while, but none of the other actions so that’s quite exciting. It’s quite sad that I have a version for when we’re in the park (point to the sky and point to the ground, point to the gate and point to the hound).
It’s been such a big deal for me, and I doubt she will remember any of it – living with my Nan, living in Brum etc. She’ll have my work to look at if she wants to, but I doubt she’ll be interested in half of this stuff – is anyone?
I thought about it today and the pages for 12 months are empty. I might do more of a family album for Baby X, though I don’t want her to feel like she’s been cheated out of what B has so maybe we’ll have to get the same book. I might just do it differently this time…
32 weeks pregnant with B comparison:
I keep saying this, but it’s weird that things still aren’t ‘normal’, and things are back up in the air again – I’m hoping it doesn’t impact Baby X’s arrival too much, but it is what it is.
‘#RealisticallyTheBabyWillBeBornUnderSomeKindOfLockdown’ – She was, and X might be as well.
Well, we sat in a restaurant a few weeks ago, but I haven’t been to the cinema or a gig since before Covid. We went to see Parasite at the cinema a couple of weekends before lockdown, and we feel a bit on edge then (because of Covid, not the film – well a bit of both I guess).
I’ve been a few times since September, but doubt I will be going there again any time soon now.
My old life is definitely gone. We don’t even live in the same place as we did before Covid. I do wish some things were different – like I wish I had more play dates for B during the week, and didn’t feel so worried about going further from home but we make do. If this was my life forever I would feel stuck, but knowing that we plan to move in the summer is something to look forward to after the baby is born – the baby has been a good countdown for most of the year.
I’ve been lucky that he still doesn’t really go out to work very much, which has been nice for him as he has been around for more of B’s early life – but he was working from home a bit before Covid anyways.
Yesterday I did a pregnancy pilates one for the first time in ages. It felt weird. It’s funny being more pregnant than the women in my usual videos now – I remember reaching that phase with B, and it felt strange.
I’m nearly at the point where it was 5 weeks until B arrived.
(I am not as accurate at copying the shoots as I wish I was, but you can definitely see that bump has grown a lot – even if my back is a bit more pushed out, and my bump is facing the camera a bit more than with the last shoot.)
This sub-project and my midwife appointments are really showing how fast this pregnancy is going…
I feel like I can skim read over a lot of it and just focus on the key bits like breathing, staying in a good position during birth, and how to make a decision on something that is presented to me during labour/birth etc.
You never know. The hypnobirthing definitely helped with the ‘how to make a decision on something that is presented to me during labour/birth etc.’ If this one ends up being breech and I was still in Liverpool I feel like I might not have to fight so much, but who knows how things will go between now and the birth.
I just read that stuff and roll my eyes. When I was pregnant with B I was like ‘oh, okay’ and didn’t even have any birth preferences for a breech baby written down as they kept telling me she was head down at all my checks.
She was sat on the little ladder next to the bin, and the bin was full enough that she was just picking them out. So gross. The same day she had been drinking (nothing) out of a little tea cup, so she was really showing her English and Portugueseness off.
I just find it takes ages for me to get B ready these days, and I worry that I am under or over dressing her. She got cold feet with two pairs of socks and wellies on the other day. It’s stressful.
32 weeks pregnant with B comparison:
I want to try to take some different angled shots of my bump again this time, but I feel like I already did it.
This time it seems like my boobs have not even changed much, or maybe I am too focused on my bump. I’m still yet to experience a leaky boob, so maybe they’re taking their time this time, or they don’t need to change so much after a first pregnancy? We’ll see.
I was so annoyed about my flash sync cable breaking…
This time I am trying to imagine myself having two kids to look after. I think that going from one to two kids will be less of a shock than going from zero to one, but yeah I’m still nervous.
I really like the second image.
I often wake up a lot during the nights now, so I know I’m super tired/B has slept well when I sleep through to 5ish now.
The other day I was daydreaming about meeting Baby X. I hope that I will bond a bit quicker with her this time as last time I was just super freaked out. I didn’t even know how to change a nappy or anything… I am excited to meet her, but I am also nervous about becoming a mother of two.
My Mum was saying that my bump seems to be sticking out the front more this time, but then again she never saw me heavily pregnant in real life last time because of Covid. I guess she’s seen the photos though and saw me on WhatsApp.
They kept asking if it was okay if she was there. I had at least one student midwife at B’s birth, and it was mainly students who were looking after me and B during our hospital stay. She apologised in case I felt uncomfortable during her checks, but I said at least she wasn’t kicking me in the ribs.
Nan wasn’t up yet, but normally she steals most of Nan’s breakfast, even though she’s usually eaten an hour before…
31 weeks pregnant with B comparison:
Well, we are quite used to being called Mummy and Daddy now… We did used to refer to Tiago as Pai, but we seem to do that less these days.
We debated doing an NCT course this time, but it seems like an expensive way to make friends (which is what we thought last time). Especially as we not planning on sticking around the area for more than a year now, so it would be another potential group of friends that we would be moving away from.
We weren’t expecting to move away from Liverpool anytime soon when we did the course, but we did. I had a zoom call with a few of them the other week, so that’s nice at least.
I’m still yet to open my hypnobirthing book, but I’ve got 5% left of the Sinead O’Connor book that I’m reading and then I will.
At first I thought maybe we had signed her up too early, but it was definitely the right decision. She seems to love it too, which is good. T says that she will hug him tight before she goes in, but then is fine.
It’s been 2 months since I had mine, so I’m sure by the time it’s 3 months they will have dropped the age so I’m eligible. It’d be good to have it before the baby is born to give her more antibodies and to protect myself in hospital a bit more.
It’s been a good time to have kids in a way as I really feel like I’m not missing out on much. It is weird thinking how our lives may be right now if Covid hadn’t happened, but we will never know so there’s no point wasting brain power on it.
31 weeks pregnant with B comparison:
I think my bump is currently bigger than in these photos, but it is hard to tell.
I saw something the other day that said my BMI at the start of my pregnancy was 20.2 this time. The extra scans were unnecessary last time, so I’m glad I didn’t have to worry about that this time – they probably wouldn’t have given me them anyways.
Obviously in the end I did not have a home birth, so it didn’t matter but it was weird not knowing what would happen at the time. Whenever I mentioned to midwives that I wanted a homebirth last time they ask if I want one this time – I’m quite looking forward to a change of scenery in hospital to be fair. (I bet I end up having an accidental home birth…)
With names we agreed on a girl name pretty early for B. We didn’t really discuss it much and in hospital it was weird as Tiago wasn’t able to visit that we didn’t really talk much about names. This time there is also a clear winner for a girl’s name (one we hadn’t even considered for B), though we say we are open to others but I guess it probably will this one. I guess we will have to wait and see. If Baby X does turn out to be a boy, then we are screwed. We really can not decide on a boy’s name…
I have not used the same oil this time. I bought some different oil after B was born, but only started to use it during this pregnancy. It smells so good. Turns out that is meant for pregnancy, but for some reason I thought it was after giving birth. *shrug* My skin hasn’t been so itchy this time which is good.
I swam in the summer, and swimming while pregnant was odd. I didn’t like that it was so uncomfortable to swim on my front. There was a swimming pool at the hotel we stayed at the other week, but I was too tired to try it out. Realistically I don’t think I will be swimming for a while now. We had planned to try to take B as she likes water so much, but yeah it hasn’t happened. Her skin is so sensitive that I don’t like the idea of her in a big bath of chlorine.
It had not been so cold, but that day it had been freezing and once the sun went down it was even colder. B didn’t want to be in her pushchair, but we didn’t want her running around all over the place and Tiago couldn’t keep carrying her.
I was freaked out by how many people were there. I knew it would be busy, but I had not seen so many people in a small space in a very long time. I’m glad that masks are being made mandatory for shops and public transport again…
I was stood at the front of the car, so I can run either way to catch her in case she falls out and it was a big fail. I was worried Tiago would tell me off, but he said it happens. I told our friend and she said she was surprised that it had not happened yet…
Tiago had said that something else bad was probably going to happen that day. I do believe in the ‘rule of 3’… Luckily she fell half onto a cushion/a thick rug. She usually turns around and climbs down backwards, but I think she is starting to get more confident/is a bit of a daredevil.
Turning the porridge into pancakes just felt like effort. She had started to go too impatient in the mornings so she’d been having just the porridge. Now we warm it up and a bit and now our mornings are a bit easier.
The other day I was lying down and she was trying to touch my eyes. This morning Tiago was holding her, and B was looking at him lovingly and then tried to touch his eyes. She’s more obsessed with touching her own nose though…
She adapts well to new things. I like to think I adapt quickly. I just asked Tiago how he adapts and he said ‘adapting to stuff is my work’.
30 weeks pregnant with B comparison:
My dreams have been quite vivid lately. Last night I dreamed that my Nan died and one of my sisters was in the process of buying her house…
As B slept so well last night I slept well and didn’t go to the toilet in the night. Hurrah. When B wakes up in the night I usually wait 15 mins before going into her room, and usually pop to the toilet beforehand as there is a big weight pressing on my bladder.
I lay awake for a little bit last night thinking that we should probably buy the other things we need soon. We need to look at another car seat and a heater for our room.
I haven’t done many reshoots for this project, but there have been a couple of times where I just really didn’t like the photos. Looking back I think there are a few shoots that could have been way better, but … oh well.