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Pregnancy Waiting II

Portrait of A Mother Of A Seventeen Month Old (28 Weeks / 14th November 2021)

Self-portrait lying on the bed in a bra and leggings. I am cradling my bump with my right hand and have my left hand resting on my face. I am leaning on and against a maternity pillow.
Portrait Of A Mother Of A Seventeen Month Old (28 Weeks / 14th November 2021)
 
#IKnowIHaveTakenALotOfPicturesOfMyselfLookingTiredInThePastForThisProjectWithinAProject
#ButThisTimeIReallyAmTiredAndBeforeIDoNotThinkIKnewWhatTheMeaningOfTiredWas
#OrMaybeIWasTiredThenButIFeelExhaustedNowAndProbablyShouldBeSavingMyEnergyAndNotTryingToDoABitOfWork
#IWentToBedFourNightsAgoFeelingLikeIWasMaybeGoingToBeSickButThoughtItWouldPass
#IBarelySleptAndGotUpToGoToTheBathroomAroundOneThirtyInTheMorningAndKeptBeingSickThenFinallyStoppedButWasSickAgainAfterASitDown
#BActuallySleptUntilSixForOnceAndIWasSickWhenIGotUpThenButFeltFineEnoughToDoMyMorningExerciseButThenICrashed
#IWentBackToBedAndTWatchedBThenIWatchedBForAnHourThenMyMumCameAndWatchedBUntilLunch
#ThenIGotUpToGiveHerLunchAndSheHadFallenAsleepOnMyMumSoTiagoWatchedHerDuringHisLunchThenSheNappedAndINapped
#IWasSurprisedThatBSleptForTwoHoursButIGotHerUpAndPutHerInOurBedButThenISuddenlyFeltSick
#SoIManagedToPutHerOnTheFloorAndRunToTheBathroomWhereIWasSickAndIMeanSickkk
#IThinkItIsExhaustionAndTheSicknessIsASideEffectOfItThoughIHaveNotBeenSickSinceButHaveFeltLikeIWillBeAtTimes
#BeforeBWasBornIDidUsedToSpendAWeekendInBedAtLeastOnceAYearButObviouslyItIsHardToDoThatNow
#TypicallyItHappenedAfterBStartedNurseryButIGuessMyBodyKnewICouldBeIllSoItWaitedUntilThenAndIHaveNotReallyBeenIllSinceBWasBorn
#BHasBeenABitUpAndDownAsWellButMaybeItIsDueToStartingNurseryAndHavingALeapAndTeethingAndBeingFrustratedAtNotBeingAbleToTalk
#WeGaveHerLunchYesterdayAndSheJustPushedItAllToTheFloorSoICriedAsIWasSoTired
#WeThoughtItWasBecauseSheWasOvertiredSoWeJustPutHerDownForHerNapAndSheWokeUpAfter40Minutes
#TiagoNeededARestAndIFeltTooTiredToLookAfterHerSoIGotIntoHerCotAndRubbedHerBackUntilSheFellBackToSleep
#IManagedToGetOutOfHerCotAndOutOfTheRoomWithoutHerWakingUpAndSheSleptForNearlyTwoMoreHours
#IDoWorryHowIAmGoingToCopeWithTwoKidsButIAmHopingThatIWillSomehowFeelLessTiredWhenTheBabyIsOutAndNotTakingAllMyNutrientsButIDoubtIt
#IHaveBarelyHadAnAppetiteButIHaveBeenMakingMyselfEatForTheBabysSake
#IDidHaveMy28WeeksMidwifeAppointmentThoughAndSheSaidEverythingSeemedFineButThatIShouldDrinkMore
#IDidNotRealiseThatIWasGoingToHaveABloodTestButLuckilyIHadForcedMyselfToEatASandwichBeforeGoing
#SheSaidTheBabyWasMeasuringWellAndThatSheHasAPercentileOf50Percent
#SheToldMeThatBHadAPercentileOf32WhenSheWasBornWhichIDidNotKnowSoThisBabyIsDefinitelyBiggerForNow
#IActuallyThoughtBHadBeenLessThan32SoThatIsGoodToKnow
#SheWasTryingToFigureOutWhereTheBabysHeadWasButSaidItDoesNotMatterAsBTurnedAroundTheDayBeforeSheWasBornAnyways
#ThisWeekendMyParentsAreDueToLookAfterBAndIAmABitNervousWithAllHerEarlyWakings
#WeChangedOurHotelYesterdaySoThatWeAreStayingCloseToOurFavouriteIndianRestaurantInsteadAndTheRoomHasABigBathAsIDoNotKnowIfIWillHaveTheEnergyToSwim
#IHadABathTheOtherDayWhenTiagoHadToTakeACoupleOfHoursOffToLookAfterB
#IWasBoredOfLyingInBedAndThoughtItWouldDoMeGoodAndItWasTheFirstBathIHadEverHadWhilePregnantAndItWasGreatThoughIDidFeelGuiltyForHavingToUseSoMuchWater

#IKnowIHaveTakenALotOfPicturesOfMyselfLookingTiredInThePastForThisProjectWithinAProject #ButThisTimeIReallyAmTiredAndBeforeIDoNotThinkIKnewWhatTheMeaningOfTiredWas

I’m yet to do the shoot, but I think I will be probably lying down or some kind of pose that means little effort for my body.

(Yeah, a classic lie across the bed pose. I was initially wearing a dress, but I didn’t like how it looked in the photos/you couldn’t see my bump as well.)

#OrMaybeIWasTiredThenButIFeelExhaustedNowAndProbablyShouldBeSavingMyEnergyAndNotTryingToDoABitOfWork

I’ve been umming and ahh-ing about whether or not to write this today etc.

#IWentToBedFourNightsAgoFeelingLikeIWasMaybeGoingToBeSickButThoughtItWouldPass #IBarelySleptAndGotUpToGoToTheBathroomAroundOneThirtyInTheMorningAndKeptBeingSickThenFinallyStoppedButWasSickAgainAfterASitDown

I wish I had just made myself be sick before going to bed, but I really hoped it would pass.

#BActuallySleptUntilSixForOnceAndIWasSickWhenIGotUpThenButFeltFineEnoughToDoMyMorningExerciseButThenICrashed

Classic.

#IWentBackToBedAndTWatchedBThenIWatchedBForAnHourThenMyMumCameAndWatchedBUntilLunch

By watching B I mean I just laid on the sofa while she watched TV. I felt bad, but it was all I could do.

#ThenIGotUpToGiveHerLunchAndSheHadFallenAsleepOnMyMumSoTiagoWatchedHerDuringHisLunchThenSheNappedAndINapped

She was just asleep on my Mum’s lap. We (well Tiago) kept her up for an hour and hoped that she would sleep again.

#IWasSurprisedThatBSleptForTwoHoursButIGotHerUpAndPutHerInOurBedButThenISuddenlyFeltSick

It’s good to know that she can nap for a good amount of time after having a short nap not too long before.

The sickness just kind of ‘rose up’.

#SoIManagedToPutHerOnTheFloorAndRunToTheBathroomWhereIWasSickAndIMeanSickkk

Grim. B was just crying and luckily Tiago came upstairs and took her downstairs.

#IThinkItIsExhaustionAndTheSicknessIsASideEffectOfItThoughIHaveNotBeenSickSinceButHaveFeltLikeIWillBeAtTimes

I will probably call the doctors tomorrow just to rule stuff out, but I also don’t want to waste their time.

#BeforeBWasBornIDidUsedToSpendAWeekendInBedAtLeastOnceAYearButObviouslyItIsHardToDoThatNow

Lie in bed and try to sleep, or just watch terrible TV. I did feel better the next night as I just watched TV in bed, and I fell asleep with my phone next to me which I never do – and slept solidly until B woke up at 5.30am.

#TypicallyItHappenedAfterBStartedNurseryButIGuessMyBodyKnewICouldBeIllSoItWaitedUntilThenAndIHaveNotReallyBeenIllSinceBWasBorn

I guess it’s been due, and growing a baby is tiring.

#BHasBeenABitUpAndDownAsWellButMaybeItIsDueToStartingNurseryAndHavingALeapAndTeethingAndBeingFrustratedAtNotBeingAbleToTalk

I try to put myself in her shoes. It must be so annoying not being able to say what you want, though I can guess at times, but sometimes I seem quite off.

#WeGaveHerLunchYesterdayAndSheJustPushedItAllToTheFloorSoICriedAsIWasSoTired

That was my frustration.

#WeThoughtItWasBecauseSheWasOvertiredSoWeJustPutHerDownForHerNapAndSheWokeUpAfter40Minutes

Great.

#TiagoNeededARestAndIFeltTooTiredToLookAfterHerSoIGotIntoHerCotAndRubbedHerBackUntilSheFellBackToSleep

Not the approach I like to take, but I was desperate.

#IManagedToGetOutOfHerCotAndOutOfTheRoomWithoutHerWakingUpAndSheSleptForNearlyTwoMoreHours

I felt like a bit of a champion.

#IDoWorryHowIAmGoingToCopeWithTwoKidsButIAmHopingThatIWillSomehowFeelLessTiredWhenTheBabyIsOutAndNotTakingAllMyNutrientsButIDoubtIt

I do intend to breastfeed again, so she will still be taking nutrients but in a less invasive way to being inside of me I imagine. That’s what I think anyways. The baby is due to double in size between now and birth. *Nervous laugh*

#IHaveBarelyHadAnAppetiteButIHaveBeenMakingMyselfEatForTheBabysSake

It’s been a struggle.

#IDidHaveMy28WeeksMidwifeAppointmentThoughAndSheSaidEverythingSeemedFineButThatIShouldDrinkMore

I really struggled to get a urine sample before I left the house, but I couldn’t see over my bump and so didn’t catch most of it. She said it was enough for the test though. I had drank a lot, but I guess it was old piss. Lovely.

#IDidNotRealiseThatIWasGoingToHaveABloodTestButLuckilyIHadForcedMyselfToEatASandwichBeforeGoing

And drinking all the drinks had helped as it came out quite easily. Hurrah.

#SheSaidTheBabyWasMeasuringWellAndThatSheHasAPercentileOf50Percent #SheToldMeThatBHadAPercentileOf32WhenSheWasBornWhichIDidNotKnowSoThisBabyIsDefinitelyBiggerForNow #IActuallyThoughtBHadBeenLessThan32SoThatIsGoodToKnow

I thought that B had just been over the okay line (I’m not sure what that is, but I thought it was around 10-15%?)

So yeah my suspicions of the baby being bigger have been confirmed. Maybe the first time my body was testing me and thought I could grow a bigger one this time?

#SheWasTryingToFigureOutWhereTheBabysHeadWasButSaidItDoesNotMatterAsBTurnedAroundTheDayBeforeSheWasBornAnyways

Cue a conversation about B’s birth again.

#ThisWeekendMyParentsAreDueToLookAfterBAndIAmABitNervousWithAllHerEarlyWakings

Le sigh.

#WeChangedOurHotelYesterdaySoThatWeAreStayingCloseToOurFavouriteIndianRestaurantInsteadAndTheRoomHasABigBathAsIDoNotKnowIfIWillHaveTheEnergyToSwim

We can also cancel until an hour before check-in so if my parents change their minds, then we can cancel.

This hotel also has a pool, but it is a bit cheaper and we haven’t had food from our favourite Indian restaurant in a long time so it’s a good excuse to change hotel and location.

#IHadABathTheOtherDayWhenTiagoHadToTakeACoupleOfHoursOffToLookAfterB

I think this makes me sound really bad…

#IWasBoredOfLyingInBedAndThoughtItWouldDoMeGoodAndItWasTheFirstBathIHadEverHadWhilePregnantAndItWasGreatThoughIDidFeelGuiltyForHavingToUseSoMuchWater

A lot to cram into the last hashtag, but yeah it was good. I had ran a very shallow bath to begin with and realised I either had to really fill it up or not have a bath. It was weird lifting my bump out of the water as it suddenly felt cold, but also quite heavy?

28 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait of myself nude from my head to knees. There are white sections over my breasts and pubic area.
I Just Want A Nice Record Of My Pregnancy As Maybe I Will Never Be Pregnant Again (28 and a half weeks)
 
#IPlannedToRecreateMyFailedBloodTestsPhotoButIWas7AndAHalfWeeksPregnantThen
#IAmNow28AndAHalfNowSoMyBumpWasTooBig
#SoIRemadeIHaveNeverSeenMyBodyLikeThisBeforeAndItIsSoWeirdInstead
#IHaveTakenNudePicturesBefore
#AndThereAreOthersInTheSeries
#ButIDoNotKnowWhyIFeelSoWeirdAboutHavingThemInThisSeries
#IGuessBecauseTheyAreNotReallyHiding
#AndAllAboutRevealing
#ThoughWhenPostingItIWillHaveToCensorItWhichIsSomewhatARelief
#IHaveBeenMakingSureThatITakeMorePicturesForMyself
#AsMaybeIWillNeverBePregnantAgain
#AndIDoNotActuallyWriteInMyDiaryAboutBeingPregnantThatMuch
#SoThisProjectIsANiceRecordOfIt
#MyBumpIsDefinitelyGettingBigger
#IThinkTheBabyDoublesInSizeBetweenNowAndBirth
#IHaveBeenContinuingMyDanceVideos
#TodayTwoPeopleSaidCongratsOnMyPregnancy
#IHadOnlyHadOneOtherMessageBefore
#SoMaybeItIsFinallyMoreObvious
#MyYouTubeAudienceIsMainlyMaleWhichIsABitWeird
#TodayIGotASexualInstagramMessage
#IThinkTheyFoundMyInstagramViaMyYouTube
#ItIsObviousOnYouTubeAndOnInstagramThatIAmPregnant
#SoItIsMoreWeirdToGetGrossMessages
#ThoughIKnowThatSomePeopleHavePregnancyFetishes
#WhichIsWhyItPutsMeOffSharingNudePhotosOfMyPregnantSelf
#ButItIsAlsoFunnyAsIThinkALotOfPeopleGetPregnantAndDoProfessionalNudeShoots
#EvenIfBeforeTheyWouldNotThinkAboutBeingPhotographedNude
#IJustWantANiceRecordOfMyPregnancy
#MyAppSaysThereAre80DaysLeftIfIGiveBirthOnTheDueDate

Well, spoiler I am pregnant again but it would be nice to have a comparison photo.

I have taken less nudes this time (if any?), but I do need to take at least one like this just as a reminder – and maybe baby X will say ‘Hey Mum, why did you not take a nude portrait with me?’

I am still dancing, but I think I need to be more casual about it with my tiredness and all. No one has commented about my bump yet, but then again I am quite behind with posting them – just like this project. At the time of writing this, this will be my 17th post that I need to post. They’re all ready to go, but yeah I’ve fell behind.

I’m also adding the first photo that I took at 29 weeks on as it talks about my 28 week appointment:

The backdrop is half a plain white wall and half black fabric. I am stood with the wall to my right and the fabric to my left, facing the left of the image. I am wearing a bra and leggings and have my left hand on my hip. Tiago's right hand is resting on my left thigh.
Subject: Leaky Boobs (29 weeks)
 
#IHadAMidwifeAppointmentTheOtherDay
#IAmSupposedToHaveThemEvery3Weeks
#ButTheyAreBeingChangedToEvery4WeeksNow
#IDidTheUsualUrineTestForProteinAndAllWasFine
#MyBloodPressureWasLowInAGoodWayAgain
#SheTriedToDoABloodTestToCheckMyIronLevels
#SheOnlyHadTwoNeedlesInHerBag
#TheRestWereInHerCar
#AndSheCouldNotManageToGetBlood
#SheSaidMyVeinsAreDeep
#IMadeSureIAteAndDrankWaterButObviouslyWasNotEnough
#TheyAreStillDoingHomeBirthsForNow
#AndSheSaidThatMorePeopleAreAskingForHomeBirthsNow
#SheSaidMyMusclesAreSeparatingQuiteALot
#AndThatIMayNeedToDoPhysioAfterBirth
#TiagoStoodAtTheDoorAsSheCheckedTheHeartbeat
#AllWasFine
#SheSaidMyPlacentaIsMainlyAtTheFront
#AndThatMightBeWhyISometimesCanNotFeelTheBaby
#IAmFeelingItMoreThoughParticularlyWhenIAmLyingDownInBed
#OftenICanNotFeelIt
#ButIPutMyHandAtTheBottomOfMyBumpAndICanFeelIt
#IKeepWakingUpAround3am
#WhenIWokeUpAtHalf3TodayMyLeftBoobFeltWeird
#ICouldNotSleepSoIReadForAnHour
#AtSomePointIRealisedThatItHadLeakedABit
#ThatIsTheFirstTimeThatHasHappenedSoItWasKindOfOddButExciting
#IThoughtItWouldNotHappenUntilLaterButLetUsSeeWhenTheRightOneFirstLeaks
#IEmailedMyselfWithTheSubjectOfLeakyBoobToRemindMyselfIncaseIForgotByTheMorning
#IHaveABruiseOnMyRightArmFromTheBloodTestAndIForgotToIncludeItInThePhoto

My midwife appointments are currently every 3 weeks. My blood test was more successful this time too.

No one has mentioned that my muscles have separated this time, which is good – I’ve made an effort to not do anything that might encourage them to separate more.

I think my placenta is at the back this time.

I’m yet to have a leak, so maybe that might happen soon?


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Pregnancy Waiting II

General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot III (19 Weeks / 7th September 2021)

I'm kneeling on the floor in my bra and leggings. I am holding my arms behind my back. My bump is slightly bigger than similar photos I've taken before.
General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot III (19 Weeks / 7th September 2021)
 
#WeAreNowBackAtHomeSoICanFinallyDoTheThirdVersionOfThisPhoto
#IWouldHaveLikedToHaveDoneItSoonerAsTheGapBetweenTheOtherTwoWasFourWeeksAndNowThereIsASixWeekGap
#OhWellBetterLateThanNever
#ItWasNiceToBeAwayButItIsAlsoReallyGoodToBeHomeAndHaveAllOurStuff
#YesterdayIWasLikeANewWomanCookingAndCleaningLoads
#IThinkIAmDefinitelyNestingButWeWereAlsoTakingLivingWithMyNanForGrantedAndItIsNiceToBeBack
#IThinkIHaveAlreadyUsedUpALotOfMyEnergyAsThisMorningIAmJustSuperTired
#AtLeastIDoNotHaveToQuarantineButItIsSoHotThatIDoNotReallyWantToLeaveTheHouseAnyways
#TheDayBeforeLeavingWeWereSatInABankRunningErrandsAndIThinkIFeltTheBabyKick
#ItMightPossiblyHaveBeenBraxtonHicksButIDefinitelyFeelMoreThingsHappeningWithinMyBumpNow
#NowWhenIAskBForAKissSheOffersMeHerForeheadOrHeadbuttsMe
#TiagoSaidHisMumWasTeachingBHowToHeadbutLikeABullAsThereAreALotOfBullsOnTheIsland
#TravellingBackCouldHaveBeenWorseButItCouldHaveAlsoBeenBetterToo
#TheFirstPlaneWasFineAsTheAirportIsChillAndBHadHadLunchBeforeWeGotToTheAirportAndItWasAShortFlight
#ThenWeHadThreeHoursBetweenFlightsAndBWasStartingToGetSleepySoWeTookItInTurnsPushingHerUpAndDownTheAirportAndSheEventuallyHadANap
#CheckInStartedLateAndWeWereStoodInAQueueForAboutAnHour
#AFamilyInFrontOfUsWithATwoYearOldWereToldThatTheAirlineNoLongerAcceptedResultsFromTheCompanyTheyUsedAndWereNotAllowedToBoard
#WeTriedToHelpThemButThereWasNothingWeCouldDoAndAsCheckInWasSoLateTheyDidNotHaveTimeToGetNewTests
#BHasDefinitelyChangedAsSheWasNotSoBotheredByAllThePeopleAndSpentALotOfTheFlightWanderingUpAndDownTheAisle
#SheWasAlsoStealingWaterBottlesAsKidsDoNotWantFancyToysTheyWantToPlayWithAnythingAndEverythingElseInstead
#SheLikesToDanceUsingHerHandsButIThinkSheDoesAlsoWaveNowAsWellSoSheWasDancingOrWavingAtEveryone
#TheLightsWereOnHighOnTheFlightTheWholeWaySoBDidNotSleepAndWeLandedAtAboutElevenThirty
#TheFamilyQueueWasMassiveSoItTookAnHourToGetThrough
#TheTaxisWereSuperExpensiveAndWeHadJustMissedTheLastTrainSoWeHadToGetACoachInstead
#YouCouldSeeEveryoneInTheQueueThinkingErghNotABabyOnTheCoachButSheSleptTheWholeTime
#WeGotToMySistersPlaceAtTwoThirtyInTheMorningAndLuckilyBWentStraightToSleep
#ItWasNiceForHerToPlayWithHerCousinAndWeWentOutForLunch
#ApparentlySomeRestaurantsDoNotHaveMoreThanOneHighChairSoWeFinallyGotEnoughSeatsInTheThirdPlaceWeTried
#BDidNotLikeHerPlateOfEggFriedRiceSoIHadToGoAndBuyHerSomeFoodFromASupermarket
#WeAreTryingGivingHerDinnerLaterAndPuttingHerToBedLaterButLetsSeeIfSheCanKeepWakingUpAtAMoreRespectableHour
 

#WeAreNowBackAtHomeSoICanFinallyDoTheThirdVersionOfThisPhoto

Version 1 / Version 2.

#IWouldHaveLikedToHaveDoneItSoonerAsTheGapBetweenTheOtherTwoWasFourWeeksAndNowThereIsASixWeekGap #OhWellBetterLateThanNever

It is what it is. I’ll do the shoot when B wakes up from her nap and my Mum looks after her for an hour or so.

#ItWasNiceToBeAwayButItIsAlsoReallyGoodToBeHomeAndHaveAllOurStuff

Tiago’s parents’ house is a lot of stone and rock, so I didn’t feel like we had a safe place to play. Plus we didn’t take many books and toys.

#YesterdayIWasLikeANewWomanCookingAndCleaningLoads

I also don’t get on well with their kitchen and I missed having a routine with washing clothes etc. Simple stuff that shows I’m getting older.

#IThinkIAmDefinitelyNestingButWeWereAlsoTakingLivingWithMyNanForGrantedAndItIsNiceToBeBack

I did not want the suitcases hanging around for ages, so I washed what needed to be washed and put most of it away. Tiago just needs to sort out his mountain of clothes. The floor is covered in B’s toys, but there is no point tidying as she will be messing with them again in a bit. It’s good to see Nan too – though B was a bit weird with her for a day as I think she could not really remember her?

#IThinkIHaveAlreadyUsedUpALotOfMyEnergyAsThisMorningIAmJustSuperTired

I guess I also knew that today was a day for getting work done for me. Yesterday I let myself have an easy day – I also did a lot of what I needed to do before we came back.

#AtLeastIDoNotHaveToQuarantineButItIsSoHotThatIDoNotReallyWantToLeaveTheHouseAnyways

I took B to the park yesterday to kick her ball around, but she just wanted to play with the pushchair. We were in the shade the whole time.

#TheDayBeforeLeavingWeWereSatInABankRunningErrandsAndIThinkIFeltTheBabyKick #ItMightPossiblyHaveBeenBraxtonHicksButIDefinitelyFeelMoreThingsHappeningWithinMyBumpNow

At this point you can start to feel things, and apparently if you’ve had a baby before you might feel it earlier. I think because I was sat so still and not doing much I noticed it more.

#NowWhenIAskBForAKissSheOffersMeHerForeheadOrHeadbuttsMe #TiagoSaidHisMumWasTeachingBHowToHeadbutLikeABullAsThereAreALotOfBullsOnTheIsland

I tried to film it this morning and she just headbutted my phone instead. Hopefully she’ll stop doing it soon.

#TravellingBackCouldHaveBeenWorseButItCouldHaveAlsoBeenBetterToo #TheFirstPlaneWasFineAsTheAirportIsChillAndBHadHadLunchBeforeWeGotToTheAirportAndItWasAShortFlight

T’s parents live so close to the airport that it’s great. We can leave fairly late and still have plenty of time. We ate our lunch in the airport while giving B some snacks as she hadn’t eaten much since it was quite early for her. The flight was about 35 minutes I think.

#ThenWeHadThreeHoursBetweenFlightsAndBWasStartingToGetSleepySoWeTookItInTurnsPushingHerUpAndDownTheAirportAndSheEventuallyHadANap

At first we tried outside but I felt awkward and a lot of people were smoking. It was much better once we went inside and had seats too.

#CheckInStartedLateAndWeWereStoodInAQueueForAboutAnHour

It was less than 2 hours until the flight and T went to ask if it had started. They said yes, then updated the board. We were going to wait until the queue had got smaller, but we also didn’t want to miss our flight.

We moved to a different queue (after following others who had been in our queue), but it turned out to be for a different flight so they made us wait.

#AFamilyInFrontOfUsWithATwoYearOldWereToldThatTheAirlineNoLongerAcceptedResultsFromTheCompanyTheyUsedAndWereNotAllowedToBoard #WeTriedToHelpThemButThereWasNothingWeCouldDoAndAsCheckInWasSoLateTheyDidNotHaveTimeToGetNewTests

They’d used a company for tests to fly out with and it’d been fine. The staff told them they did not accept results from that company anymore… I felt so bad for them. It was late in the day and there is only one direct flight to London a week from the Azores (which was the flight we were all queuing for). I hope they got home okay in the end.

Some people had not needed to check-in, so some people got to the boarding gates without showing test results and were not allowed to board as they had not done tests. There were a lot of empty seats by us on the plane and we had 3 seats to ourselves which was good.

#BHasDefinitelyChangedAsSheWasNotSoBotheredByAllThePeopleAndSpentALotOfTheFlightWanderingUpAndDownTheAisle

She’s changed from the young girl who was scared of all the people on our first flight 3 weeks ago.

#SheWasAlsoStealingWaterBottlesAsKidsDoNotWantFancyToysTheyWantToPlayWithAnythingAndEverythingElseInstead

Ain’t that the truth?

#SheLikesToDanceUsingHerHandsButIThinkSheDoesAlsoWaveNowAsWellSoSheWasDancingOrWavingAtEveryone

Sometimes I do not know if she is waving or dancing at me. Maybe she thinks waving is dancing? Who knows? (Just B who can’t communicate what she thinks yet.)

#TheLightsWereOnHighOnTheFlightTheWholeWaySoBDidNotSleepAndWeLandedAtAboutElevenThirty

There was a slightly older toddler two rows behind us who was also struggling to sleep and making a lot of noise, so that also didn’t help.

#TheFamilyQueueWasMassiveSoItTookAnHourToGetThrough

I thought that not many flights would land at 11:30pm, but apparently they do. It was a queue full of overtired kids, and stressed out parents.

#TheTaxisWereSuperExpensiveAndWeHadJustMissedTheLastTrainSoWeHadToGetACoachInstead

Great.

#YouCouldSeeEveryoneInTheQueueThinkingErghNotABabyOnTheCoachButSheSleptTheWholeTime

It was not as bad as it could have been, but we should have probably got off at the first stop and got a taxi from there as it cost the same as from the fifth stop but whatever. It was too late by the time we realised as our luggage had been put in sections and we were at the back of the coach.

#WeGotToMySistersPlaceAtTwoThirtyInTheMorningAndLuckilyBWentStraightToSleep

We were planning to go to our car (though the taxi was the same price as a taxi to theirs), so we spent the night with them instead which was nice as we hadn’t seen them in a long time.

Another hurrah for not having to quarantine.

#ItWasNiceForHerToPlayWithHerCousinAndWeWentOutForLunch

The last time they saw each other they had been so young that they hadn’t really noticed each other existed. It was fun to see them together.

#ApparentlySomeRestaurantsDoNotHaveMoreThanOneHighChairSoWeFinallyGotEnoughSeatsInTheThirdPlaceWeTried

If we’d known my sister could have brought a booster seat, but oh well. The one we went to in the end had about 4?

#BDidNotLikeHerPlateOfEggFriedRiceSoIHadToGoAndBuyHerSomeFoodFromASupermarket

Her cousin was loving it, but B was crying her head off and we were getting stressed. My sister suggested going out to get her something (as the restaurant didn’t have much toddler friendly food). The kids loved the spinch and feta parcels I got.

#WeAreTryingGivingHerDinnerLaterAndPuttingHerToBedLaterButLetsSeeIfSheCanKeepWakingUpAtAMoreRespectableHour

The first night we all woke up at 7:45 after I realised what time it was and got us up. Yesterday I kept pressing snooze but we got up around 7:30. Today I heard B at 6:15, but she fell asleep again and then was crying at 6:45 so we got up then.

I was sick at about 7. Fun times. Need to get her up now…

19 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Close-up of four of my fingers. There is a cut on one of them.
Hand Cuts & NHS Fine (19 weeks)
 
#IAmGuessingThatTheLittleCutsOnMyHandsAreNotDownToMeBeingPregnant
#IReadThatMasksDoNotReallyHelpWithViruses
#ButTheyStopYouTouchingYourFaceSoMuch
#SoIHaveBeenWashingMyHandsMoreSoTheyAreProbablyMoreDryAndCrackEasier
#NotBecauseOfTheVirusButBecauseIHaveBeenIllAndIAmBoredOfBeingIll
#ManagedToDoSomeSaltWaterGarglingYesterday
#RealisedItIsBestIfIKeepTheSaltDownToOneTeaSpoonPerMug
#AndAtTheEndIStillStruggleABit
#IGotALetterFromTheNHSTheOtherDayAndIWasHopingItWasFromMy12WeeksScreening
#NoItWasAFineForSayingIHadAValidMaternityExemptionCertificateWhenIDidNotWhenIGotAPrescription
#ItSaidIfIWasEntitledToHaveOneThenICanApplyForOneButIStillNeedToPayForThePrescription
#ToBeFairIUsedToWorkInAPharmacyButNoOneEverToldMeAboutFinesForPuttingTheWrongOption
#TheWomanAskedMeIfIUsuallyPayForMyPrescriptions
#AndISaidIAmPregnant
#SoSheTickedTheOption
#NotBlamingHerButIThoughtTheyWouldBeAbleToSeeOnMyRecordsThatIAmPregnant
#WellIAppliedForOneYesterday
#NowIAmJustHopingItMeansIDoNotGetFinedForFreeDentistTreatmentToo
#IHonestlyDidNotKnowHowItAllWorks
#ItMakesSenseThatYouGetFinedIfYouSayTheWrongOption
#LuckilyThePrescriptionWas2MonthsAgoSoTheyGiveYouAWhile
#AndGiveYouTwoMonthsToContestItOrPayOrGetACertificate
#TurningOverInBedIsBecomingAProblemIMightHaveSaidSoBefore
#IHaveToSitUpBeforeIDoItNow
#Doing20MinuteStretchingVideosBeforeBedNowWhichDefinitelyHelps
#IDoNotSeemToHaveSaidMuchPelvisPainLately
#ThoughIGetCrampsAndStuffButThatIsMyBodyCleaningItselfAndGrowing
#StillFeelingNervousAboutTheBabyAsIHaveNotSeenItsHeartbeatIn7Weeks
#ItHasDefinitelyGrownSinceThenButIJustGetWorriedThatIGoAndTheyWillSayItStoppedGrowingXWeeksAgo
#NoPointGettingTooStressedOutButWillBeGladWhenICanStartToFeelItsMovements

This time I didn’t need a prescription, and asked for a maternity exemption certificate later (23 weeks?). No one really tells you how this stuff works or generally asks you if you want things, so you just have to find out for yourself or hope that someone tells you stuff. I get it though – the NHS are under resourced, underfunded, overworked etc etc.

With a subsequent pregnancy you have less appointments so you just have to get on with it and pay attention to your body more I guess. I can feel the baby kicking (or braxton kicks?) as I write this. It definitely helps when you start to feel things as you can monitor things for yourself a bit better.

Portrait with my husband Tiago. We have our backs slightly to each other. We are both wearing blue tops and dark bottoms. We look like we are daydreaming.
My Portuguese-British Family and Me (19 weeks)

#SoBrexitFinallyHappened
#IFeelComfortedKnowingThatTiagoHasBritishCitizenship
#ThoughIAmJealousOfHimStillBeingAnEUCitizen
#HopefullyOurChildWillBeAbleToHaveBoth
#SoIDoNotNeedToWorryAboutThem
#IJustHopeThatOneDayICanBeAnEUCitizenAgainOneDay
#IWillProbablyNeverGetOverBrexit
#IWasSatFumingAllDayOnTheDayItFinallyHappened
#PeopleOnTheNewsDoNotSeemAbleToGiveAGoodEnoughReasonStill
#AndItHasBeen3AndAHalfYears
#WeWereInPortugalWhenTheResultsCameOut
#AndItWasTheGreyestDayOfOurTrip
#WeSpentAgesGettingToABeach
#AndTheWeatherWasJustTerrible
#WhichReflectedOurMood
#TheOnlyGoodThingAboutBrexitIsThatItStoppedUsGettingTrappedInZone5OfLondon
#WeThoughtAboutDidWeReallyWantToSpendOurLivesThere
#WeDecidedNo
#SoWeStayedInZone2AndThenTiagosJobRoleChangedAfterAWhile
#IDidNotSeeMyselfLeavingLondonForAnywhereElseInTheUK
#ButThenOneDayWhenIKnewMyWatfordProjectWasNearlyDoneISaidIfYouWantToMoveUpNorthForYourJobThenIAmReadyNowAndWeLeftWithin5Weeks
#AndNowWeLiveInLiverpool
#SoIAmGladThatWeDidNotCommitToZone5InTheEnd
#YesWeAreWearingTheSameTop
#MyMumBoughtMeOneAndIBoughtAnother
#ButTiagoWearsOneAsTheyAreNiceAndWarm
#AndItIsColdUpHereInLiverpool
#ItIsAwkwardWhenWeGoOutWithJumpersOnAndRealiseWeHaveTheSameTopOnUnderneath
#SoOneOfUsHasToBoilInAJumperSoWeDoNotLookSilly
#BlessTiagoBecauseItIsUsuallyHimBoilingInTheJumperAsWeDoNotWantToOverheatTheBaby

Tiago celebrated his 2 years of citizenship the other day (I’m writing this mid-October). We applied for B’s citizenship on holiday and I think it has gone through as now we can apply for a citizenship card for her. Hurrah.

I’m still pissed off about Brexit and will forever be, but we are lucky as hopefully one day our little family will all be EU citizens. With the kids it is easy, but with me it is more of a faff.

I am still grateful that we didn’t get stuck in zone 5 of London. We might have tried for kids sooner though…

When I wrote the hashtags I had no idea we would end up living in Birmingham within a year. Weird.


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Imitating B Hiding Behind The Curtain In Tiago’s Parents’ Living Room (18 Weeks / 2nd September 2021)

Self-portrait hiding behind a thin curtain. I am pressing my head into it so you can see my hair and a bit of my face.
Imitating B Hiding Behind The Curtain In Tiago’s Parents’ Living Room (18 Weeks / 2nd September 2021)
 
#TheOtherDayWeWerePlayingInTheLivingRoomAndThenISuddenlyCouldNotFindB
#SheWasJustSittingQuietlyBehindTheCurtainThoughSometimesSheStandsAndMessesAbout
#SheHasStartedToTurnInCirclesWhichSheFindsHilariousAndIsCuteToSee
#SheNowAlsoPointsToStuffWhichIsGood
#ThisMayOrMayNotBeFromMeSingingAndDoingTheActionsToWindTheBobbinUpAMillionTimes
#TheOtherDayBMetHerSecondCousinWhoIsAboutFourMonthsYounger
#TheirCommonInterestsAreAnimalsFruitAndKeys
#ThereWereACoupleOfKittensInTheGardenWhereWeWereEatingDinnerAndBWasEnjoyingTalkingToThem
#TiagoAndACoupleOfFriendsFoundThreeKittensThatHadBeenAbandonedTheOtherDayWhileFixingSomeGardenWalls
#LuckilyTheyFoundThemAndTookThemToALocalGroceryShopAsACatCharityTheyCalledWasFull
#WeKeepTalkingAboutThemAndItIsSuchAShameThatWeCouldNotHaveKeptThemButIHopeTheyFoundAGoodHomeOrHomes
#WeHaveStartedToTakeBOutWithUsMoreInTheEveningAndTwoNightsInARowWeHaveReturnedWithHerAsleep
#WeRememberedToTakeHerToothbrushAndBrushHerTeethBeforeGettingInTheCarTheSecondTime
#WeHaveBeenWakingUpToTheSoundOfOurAlarmMoreLatelyButIDoWonderIfThisWillHappenWhenWeReturnHome
#TwoNightsAgoIWasLyingInTiagosArmsInTheNightAndAfterAWhileHePanickedAndSaidWhereIsB
#WeBothStartedToLookAroundButThenRealisedSheWasInHerCot
#TheSameNightIWasSatUpOnTheSideOfTheBedForAbout5MinutesWaitingForBAndTAsIThoughtWeWereOutside
#TheRoomWasPitchBlackButAfterAWhileIRealisedICouldHearTheSoundMachineSoKnewWeWereAtHomeSoIWentBackToSleep
#IHaveBeenHavingQuiteVividDreamsLatelyWithTheOneLastNightBeingAWholeEpisodeAboutLookingAfterMyParentsAnimalsAndThinkingIWasGoingOnHolidayWithFriends
#LastWeekIHadOneWhereIFilledUpAnEmptyOneKiloYoghurtBucketWithEarWax
#YesterdayIHadSuchIntenseCrampsInTheMorningThatIStartedToGetConcerned
#IDidNotWantToOverreactSoILookedOnlineAndItSoundedLikeItCouldBeDehydrationAndOrJustMyBodyStretching
#SoIDrankMoreWaterAndIDidFeelBetter
#YesterdayIGotUpTooFastFromSittingOnTheToiletAndIThinkIExperiencedRoundLigamentPain
#WeWillGoHomeInACoupleOfDaysSoTodayWeNeedToRunSomeErrandsAndGetOurCovidTestsDoneWhichIAmWorriedAbout
#ThereAreOnly20ActiveCasesHereSoItIsUnlikelyWeHaveItButYouNeverKnow
#IAmLookingForwardToGoingBackToOurRoutineAtHomeThoughIWillMissOurRandomExcursionsAndGoingOutAndAboutSoMuch
#TheMainChangeWeWantToMakeWhenWeGetAHomeIsToGetAFoldingDiningTableSoWeCanBothSitWithBWhenSheEats
#IMissSleepingInOurBedAsItIsMuchBiggerAndComfortable
#IfMyBodyFeelsThisAchyAndAwfulNowThenIAmReallyNotLookingForwardToBeingMorePregnant

#TheOtherDayWeWerePlayingInTheLivingRoomAndThenISuddenlyCouldNotFindB

The door was shut and I was so confused. There are not that many places for her to hide in the room…

#SheWasJustSittingQuietlyBehindTheCurtainThoughSometimesSheStandsAndMessesAbout

We do play a lot of ‘peekaboo’ with it.

I just need to try and take a photo with it now when it’s not in use (or Tiag’s parents are not there) as otherwise I will feel quite awkward.

#SheHasStartedToTurnInCirclesWhichSheFindsHilariousAndIsCuteToSee

Tiago’s Mum said she was doing it in the living room, then we saw her doing it outside. She usually falls down after 1 or 2 rotations.

#SheNowAlsoPointsToStuffWhichIsGood

Mainly the photos/paintings on the wall. The photo of T on the wall, and the paintings by Tiago’s Grandmother which are of many things but she likes the ones of flowers the most.

#ThisMayOrMayNotBeFromMeSingingAndDoingTheActionsToWindTheBobbinUpAMillionTimes

The whole ‘point to the ceiling, point to the floor, point to the window, point to the door’ saga. She points to none of them.

#TheOtherDayBMetHerSecondCousinWhoIsAboutFourMonthsYounger #TheirCommonInterestsAreAnimalsFruitAndKeys

I really don’t get how cousins work after first cousins, but his Mum is Tiago’s first cousin and I think they are second cousins?

They were both eating a lot of fruit, and playing with a set of keys.

#ThereWereACoupleOfKittensInTheGardenWhereWeWereEatingDinnerAndBWasEnjoyingTalkingToThem

Some say talking, some say yelling.

#TiagoAndACoupleOfFriendsFoundThreeKittensThatHadBeenAbandonedTheOtherDayWhileFixingSomeGardenWalls

They were fixing ‘curraletas’, which are the traditional way of growing grapes in the area.

#LuckilyTheyFoundThemAndTookThemToALocalGroceryShopAsACatCharityTheyCalledWasFull

They had been there one day the week before. It’s not a road where many people walk down and they would have been hidden. Luckily the weather was okay and they had got there early in the morning.

#WeKeepTalkingAboutThemAndItIsSuchAShameThatWeCouldNotHaveKeptThemButIHopeTheyFoundAGoodHomeOrHomes

I really hope they are okay. I am guessing this kind of thing happens more than we like to, but it may be how we end up with pets in the future…

#WeHaveStartedToTakeBOutWithUsMoreInTheEveningAndTwoNightsInARowWeHaveReturnedWithHerAsleep

We had been out 3 nights in a row. I was relieved to stay at home last night. We’d like to have a date night – just T and I – but it may not happen before we leave now. We have two nights left…

#WeRememberedToTakeHerToothbrushAndBrushHerTeethBeforeGettingInTheCarTheSecondTime

Hurrah.

#WeHaveBeenWakingUpToTheSoundOfOurAlarmMoreLatelyButIDoWonderIfThisWillHappenWhenWeReturnHome

Last night she went to bed at 8pm after having dinner at 6.30pm and she woke up when we woke her up at 7am, so that was good. The other nights she had been going to bed 2/3 hours past her bedtime, so it’s good to know she can do it without staying up late late. We’ll have to see if this routine works in the UK.

#TwoNightsAgoIWasLyingInTiagosArmsInTheNightAndAfterAWhileHePanickedAndSaidWhereIsB

He knew it was me, but at some point he thought I was B, and when he realised I wasn’t he panicked.

#WeBothStartedToLookAroundButThenRealisedSheWasInHerCot

Sleepily panicking in the dark.

#TheSameNightIWasSatUpOnTheSideOfTheBedForAbout5MinutesWaitingForBAndTAsIThoughtWeWereOutside

I must have been dreaming and then woke up. I was just sat patiently waiting for them.

#TheRoomWasPitchBlackButAfterAWhileIRealisedICouldHearTheSoundMachineSoKnewWeWereAtHomeSoIWentBackToSleep

It’s so weird. She’s sleeping less than half a metre from Tiago and we’re getting worked up a lot – as we can’t find her or whatever after waking up.

#IHaveBeenHavingQuiteVividDreamsLatelyWithTheOneLastNightBeingAWholeEpisodeAboutLookingAfterMyParentsAnimalsAndThinkingIWasGoingOnHolidayWithFriends

They don’t have many animals, but in my dream they did. They weren’t people I knew from ‘real life’ either – I think they were just based on people I knew or something.

#LastWeekIHadOneWhereIFilledUpAnEmptyOneKiloYoghurtBucketWithEarWax

There was more to the dream, which I have already forgotten. We have a lot of empty yoghurt tubs at home…

#YesterdayIHadSuchIntenseCrampsInTheMorningThatIStartedToGetConcerned

T started to message around about where I could go for a scan.

#IDidNotWantToOverreactSoILookedOnlineAndItSoundedLikeItCouldBeDehydrationAndOrJustMyBodyStretching

I know my body is stretching a lot, but it felt more intense than normal.

#SoIDrankMoreWaterAndIDidFeelBetter

Sometimes I forget to drink. We went out for a quick breakfast (just a cheese sandwich), so I drank water instead of my favourite chocolate milk.

#YesterdayIGotUpTooFastFromSittingOnTheToiletAndIThinkIExperiencedRoundLigamentPain

From reading what my pains could be I thought that I’d had been having round ligament pain earlier in the day. This seemed to fit the description more… I need to start getting up slower.

#WeWillGoHomeInACoupleOfDaysSoTodayWeNeedToRunSomeErrandsAndGetOurCovidTestsDoneWhichIAmWorriedAbout

We will go out in a minute, while T’s Mum can watch B.

#ThereAreOnly20ActiveCasesHereSoItIsUnlikelyWeHaveItButYouNeverKnow

Well it is getting passed about somehow.

#IAmLookingForwardToGoingBackToOurRoutineAtHomeThoughIWillMissOurRandomExcursionsAndGoingOutAndAboutSoMuch

More our base than routine – all of B’s stuff and having a bit more of our own space. B has been practicing her climbing a lot, so I think she will enjoy using her climbing frame a lot again.

#TheMainChangeWeWantToMakeWhenWeGetAHomeIsToGetAFoldingDiningTableSoWeCanBothSitWithBWhenSheEats

Usually one of us watches B in the kitchen and the other one sits in the living room. It’ll be nice if we can just sit together.

#IMissSleepingInOurBedAsItIsMuchBiggerAndComfortable

My shoulders ache. My hips ache. The bed is super creaky, so I have to try to be quiet when I turn over as to not wake B.

#IfMyBodyFeelsThisAchyAndAwfulNowThenIAmReallyNotLookingForwardToBeingMorePregnant

I’m probably not even half way yet, and I’m feeling it.

When we get home I need to exercise/stretch more. I feel like I’ve lost some of my fitness for sure.

Self-portrait where I am nude with a white space cutting through my breasts. My right hand is wrapped around my back and peeking out from behind my left arm. My left arm is supporting my bump.
 I Have Never Seen My Body Like This Before And It Is So Weird (18 and a half weeks)

#WellIAmIllAgain
#ItIsMainlyACoughButICoughedSoMuchYesterdayMorningThatIThrewUp
#IAmJustTryingToDrinkLotsOfWaterButEarlierTheWaterCutOut
#ItIsMeantToGoOffTomorrowSoThatWasWeirdButItIsBackOnNow
#SawAChartEarlierThatShowsIAmInMy5thMonthOfPregnancy
#ItIsGoingSoFast
#IDefinitelyJustLookLikeABlownUpVersionOfMyselfNow
#IHaveNeverSeenMyBodyLikeThisBeforeAndItIsSoWeird
#IAmStillNervousAsItHasBeen6WeeksSinceISawTheBabyInMyBelly
#TodayIWasThinkingHowOddItIsThatInSomeMonthsTimeWeCouldHaveABabyToLookAfter
#ObviouslyWeKnewWhatWeWereSigningUpFor
#ButItStillBlowsMyMindThatIAmGrowingAHumanInsideOfMe
#IAmTryingNotToJustTakeLotsOfBumpPictures
#ButThenIRealisedThatEvenIfIDoNotIntendForEveryPhotoToBeABumpPhoto
#IShouldStillDocumentItForMyself
#AndTheMainThingThatIsChangingIsMyBody
#KindOfObviousButThatIsWhyItIsHardToTryToTakeOtherPicturesOfMyself
#MyWorkHasBeenAboutBodyImageAndSelfEsteemAndSelfConfidenceForSoLong
#SoItIsInterestingSeeingMyBodyChangeAndHowIFeelAboutIt
#ILikeItBecauseIKnowIAmGrowingSomeoneInsideOfMe
#ThatSoundsSoWeirdAndThatIsBecauseItIs
#ButItIsAlsoJustStrangeSeeingMyBodyChangeSoMuchSoQuickly
#IDefinitelyFeelMoreConfidentThoughAndICareALotLessAboutThingsNow
#IHaveSpentMyWholeLifeTryingToBeSuperPoliteToPeople
#IWasCatchingATrainTheOtherDayAndIWas20MinutesEarlySoISatOnABenchBecauseIAmPregnant
#ThePlatformFilledUpSoMuchAndIWasWorriedThatIWouldNotGetASeatForThe90MinuteJourney
#WhenTheTrainCameIJustMovedAsCloseToTheDoorsAsPossible
#WhichFeltABitAwkwardButIHadBeenThereForAges
#AndIWasWorriedThatIWouldNotHaveASeatAndHaveToAskPeopleToGiveMeOneAsIAmPregnantAndNeedToSitDown
#IHaveToStickMyElbowsOutABitWhenIAmInACrowdNowToStopPeopleBargingMeInTheBelly

I am finding being pregnant weird this time too. It hasn’t really been that long since I was pregnant with B, but it does feel like a lifetime ago.

I haven’t had many opportunities to stick my elbows out this pregnancy, but I did do it when I went to London for a weekend at times.

I haven’t taken that many bump photos this time, though I am working on fixing it, but I guess this time the project photos are half about pregnancy and half about being a mother to B.


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Wedding Dress Malfunction (18 Weeks / 29th August 2021)

Self-portrait holding my cardigan strategically over a dress. My left hand is on my stomach, and my left hand is on my chest.
Wedding Dress Malfunction (18 Weeks / 29th August 2021)
 
#ItWasTheWeddingOfABestFriendOfTiagoWhichHadGotDelayedFromLastYearDueToCovid
#IWoreTheDressForOurWeddingAndEveryWeddingWeHaveBeenToSinceAndJustAssumedItWouldFitMeEvenWithABump
#IWentToPutItOnAndStruggledToDoUpTheButtonOnTheInsideSoTiagoHadToHelpMe
#IForgotThatIUsuallyHaveSomeStressWithThisDressDueToMyBraBeingExposedAtSomePointAndTheFrontFlappingOpen
#SoITriedToUseHairGripsWellAndEvenPinnedPartOfItToMyPantsButAsIAteItExposedEvenMore
#InTheEndIWoreMyBigCardiganThatShouldProbablyBeRetiredFromWeddingsNowAndHadItPulledTightlyAroundMeForMostOfTheDay
#ItWasBsFirstWeddingAndThereWereAbout150PeopleWhichHadBeenReducedFromAbout240
#WeEndedUpSittingAtTheBackOfTheCeremonyAndBKeptWanderingOutSoWeHadToKeepLeavingAndComingBack
#AfterBWasBornISaidIWouldWearMoreMakeupSoIBoughtSomeAndYesterdayWasTheFirstTimeIWoreSomeOfItAYearAfterIBoughtIt
#WeWereMeantToGoSomewhereToDoCovidTestsTheDayBeforeButTheRulesChangedSoWeWereJustToldPolitelyToDoFlowTestsWhichIWasAllFor
#ItFeltABitOverwhelmingBeingAroundSoManyPeopleButWeJustFollowedProtocolAndHadAGoodTimeInTheEnd
#WeThoughtWeWouldRelaxMoreAtTheReceptionButWhenYouBecomeAParentYouAlsoBecomeAHealthAndSafetyOfficer
#TiagoKeptTakingHerOutsideButThereWereALotOfRocksAWaterFeatureAndPalletsWithSplintersAndSheKeptRunningAroundSoWeWereBothQuiteTired
#IAmFindingItHarderToBendOverToFollowHerAboutAndItDidNotHelpHavingAMalfunctioningDress
#ITryToExplainToBAboutTheBabyGrowingInsideMeButSheJustPokesMyBellyButtonAndFindsItFunny
#TheOtherDaySheWasPullingMyTopUpJustToPokeIt
#WeWereNotSureHowLongToKeepBThereButInTheEndBAndIWentHomeAtNineThirtyAndTiagoWentBackUntilTwoThirty
#BSleptUntilSevenAndTiagosMumLookedAfterHerUntilHerNapAtTen
#TheOtherNightBSleptSoBadlyAndKeptWakingUpForAgesButItMayHaveBeenACombinationOfTeethingBeingColdAndOrALeap
#IAmNotVeryGoodWithThisSocialisingAfterBGoesToBedAsIAmSoTiredSoOftenTiagoWillDropMeHomeAndThenGoBack
#IWasWaitingToBookOurReturnCovidTestsInCaseThereWasSomeGoodNewsForUsAboutTheCovidTravelTrafficLightSystemWhichGetsUpdatedEveryThreeWeeks
#PortugalIsNotOnTheListButIWasSuperHappyToSeeTheAzoresOnTheList
#IThenWasFrustratedToLearnThatAsOurLayoverIsInLisbonDuringOurReturnTripTheGreenRulesWouldNotApplyToUs
#TheAirlineWeBookedThroughHadOfferedUsARefundOnBothOurFlightsThoughDueToTheLayoverTurningFromFourToNineHours
#LuckilyWeManagedToGetNewFlightsThatAvoidTheMainlandForTheSamePriceAndOurTravelTimeHasNowBeenReducedBySixHours
#WeWillStillGetHomeAt3InTheMorningButIWillNotHaveToQuarantineAndWeBothOnlyHaveToDoDay2TestsNow
#SoIAmNowGratefulThatTheAirlinesScrewedUsOverAndDidNotCareAboutItAsOtherwiseWeWouldHaveNotGotARefund
#ThisAlsoNowMeansThatICanGoToLondonForTheBigPhotographyWeekendOfTheYear
#TiagoKeepsSayingIShouldHaveADayForMyselfButIDidNotWantToWasteItOnSomethingUnworthy
#IAmGoingToGoFridayNightToSaturdayNightAndAmLookingForwardToSeeingLotsOfFriendsThoughIHaveNeverSpentMoreThanFiveHoursAwayFromBBefore

#ItWasTheWeddingOfABestFriendOfTiagoWhichHadGotDelayedFromLastYearDueToCovid

I was also unsure about all the travelling with a newborn, and not really wanting Tiago to leave me alone with B for a few days, so Covid made it easier for us – the wedding had to be postponed.

#IWoreTheDressForOurWeddingAndEveryWeddingWeHaveBeenToSinceAndJustAssumedItWouldFitMeEvenWithABump #IWentToPutItOnAndStruggledToDoUpTheButtonOnTheInsideSoTiagoHadToHelpMe

I should have tried it on before packing it… It was even awkward taking it off yesterday, but I guess I will have to try to get it on again to take a photo to accompany this post. (Spoiler: I managed it.)

#IForgotThatIUsuallyHaveSomeStressWithThisDressDueToMyBraBeingExposedAtSomePointAndTheFrontFlappingOpen

It’s been two years since I last wore it, so I forgot…

#SoITriedToUseHairGripsWellAndEvenPinnedPartOfItToMyPantsButAsIAteItExposedEvenMore

Pinning it to my pants definitely helped in ways, but then it also was probably shifting it round too. Yeah I felt awkward.

#InTheEndIWoreMyBigCardiganThatShouldProbablyBeRetiredFromWeddingsNowAndHadItPulledTightlyAroundMeForMostOfTheDay

The poor cardigan is looking a bit scruffy.

I am going to try to emulate my awkwardness in the photo.

#ItWasBsFirstWeddingAndThereWereAbout150PeopleWhichHadBeenReducedFromAbout240

Luckily she has got used to seeing other people now, and she was mostly interested in the slightly older kids that were wandering about.

#WeEndedUpSittingAtTheBackOfTheCeremonyAndBKeptWanderingOutSoWeHadToKeepLeavingAndComingBack

We were stressed about what she would wear, but in the end we put her in an all in one suit that went with the blue of our outfits. If you can’t wear unicorns and sunflowers to a wedding when you’re one, when can you?

B would not sit still, which is fair enough.

#AfterBWasBornISaidIWouldWearMoreMakeupSoIBoughtSomeAndYesterdayWasTheFirstTimeIWoreSomeOfItAYearAfterIBoughtIt

I thought I should maybe work on my appearance a bit as I always look so rough. I just wore mascara on my upper eyelashes (the bottom are a faff), and lipstick (I do not remember the last time I wore lipstick but it was nice). The lipstick probably wore off under my mask before anyone would have noticed it, but oh well.

#WeWereMeantToGoSomewhereToDoCovidTestsTheDayBeforeButTheRulesChangedSoWeWereJustToldPolitelyToDoFlowTestsWhichIWasAllFor

I was glad that everyone had to do a test, so when I heard the rules changed I did feel a bit uneasy.

There are only 19 active cases on the island, but only a few days ago there was no new cases and the risk was dropped to the lowest. 6 new cases have just been announced.

I hope that everyone did flow tests, but I doubt it.

#ItFeltABitOverwhelmingBeingAroundSoManyPeopleButWeJustFollowedProtocolAndHadAGoodTimeInTheEnd

For some reason we thought we wouldn’t need masks for the wedding and reception, which was dumb of us. We had to go back to our car to get one. We wore one when inside the church, when walking in, out and around the reception etc.

#WeThoughtWeWouldRelaxMoreAtTheReceptionButWhenYouBecomeAParentYouAlsoBecomeAHealthAndSafetyOfficer

Anything and everything is a potential hazard with a kid.

#TiagoKeptTakingHerOutsideButThereWereALotOfRocksAWaterFeatureAndPalletsWithSplintersAndSheKeptRunningAroundSoWeWereBothQuiteTired

At least it was mostly grass. We took trainers for her to wear but she was barefoot the whole time.

Tiago’s other best friend was there and he gets on well with B, so he looked after her a bit which gave us some rest.

#IAmFindingItHarderToBendOverToFollowHerAboutAndItDidNotHelpHavingAMalfunctioningDress

I’m not even halfway and I’m struggling…

#ITryToExplainToBAboutTheBabyGrowingInsideMeButSheJustPokesMyBellyButtonAndFindsItFunny

Not sure if I’ve mentioned B laughing at the picture of Tiago as a baby too. Maybe she’ll get the whole baby bump more as it grows bigger and she grows older.

#TheOtherDaySheWasPullingMyTopUpJustToPokeIt

Classic. Charming.

#WeWereNotSureHowLongToKeepBThereButInTheEndBAndIWentHomeAtNineThirtyAndTiagoWentBackUntilTwoThirty

We had had to wake her up early from her nap to get to the wedding on time, so she would have needed a super early bedtime. She stayed up 3 hours past her wake window… We changed her nappy and put her in her bedtime clothes before we left, so she fell asleep in the car and we moved her to the cot. Again, we forgot her toothbrush…

#BSleptUntilSevenAndTiagosMumLookedAfterHerUntilHerNapAtTen

I had expected B to wake up earlier (our alarm went off and it might have woken her up), and T’s Mum came in a minute after hearing her. I changed B’s nappy, then his Mum took over so we went back to sleep. That was a nice surprise. That was probably the longest sleep I’ve had since she was born.

#TheOtherNightBSleptSoBadlyAndKeptWakingUpForAgesButItMayHaveBeenACombinationOfTeethingBeingColdAndOrALeap

T had dropped me home from something then went back out. I think he might have woken her up, and then she just would not sleep. We gave her paracetamol, we left the room in case it was us, but in the end we put her in her sleeping bag (it has been quite hot until lately) and she went to sleep, so we have been dressing her up warmer at night recently.

#IAmNotVeryGoodWithThisSocialisingAfterBGoesToBedAsIAmSoTiredSoOftenTiagoWillDropMeHomeAndThenGoBack

I haven’t had a nap during the day for the last few days, which doesn’t help. They’re all his friends and my brain stops trying to translate after a while, so it makes sense for him to go back and not have to worry about me/upsetting his friends by leaving early.

#IWasWaitingToBookOurReturnCovidTestsInCaseThereWasSomeGoodNewsForUsAboutTheCovidTravelTrafficLightSystemWhichGetsUpdatedEveryThreeWeeks #PortugalIsNotOnTheListButIWasSuperHappyToSeeTheAzoresOnTheList

It hadn’t been a rumour in the news, but it makes sense as the cases are so low here.

#IThenWasFrustratedToLearnThatAsOurLayoverIsInLisbonDuringOurReturnTripTheGreenRulesWouldNotApplyToUs

There is only one direct flight a week to and from the main island. We had caught that one out, but as the return trip landed at 11pm we booked a different route home.

#TheAirlineWeBookedThroughHadOfferedUsARefundOnBothOurFlightsThoughDueToTheLayoverTurningFromFourToNineHours

We had booked that return home as it landed at a much better time (6pm-ish?), but then they changed it so we landed at 11pm.

#LuckilyWeManagedToGetNewFlightsThatAvoidTheMainlandForTheSamePriceAndOurTravelTimeHasNowBeenReducedBySixHours

We now have to be at the airport for mid-day rather than 6am, so that makes a big difference. Annoyingly our car is by Heathrow and not Stansted (we flew out of Stansted but left our car by Heathrow as we were due to return there).

#WeWillStillGetHomeAt3InTheMorningButIWillNotHaveToQuarantineAndWeBothOnlyHaveToDoDay2TestsNow

The money that we save on my day 8 test (Tiago didn’t need one as he is double vaccinated) will go on a taxi, but at least our return trip costs about the same now.

#SoIAmNowGratefulThatTheAirlinesScrewedUsOverAndDidNotCareAboutItAsOtherwiseWeWouldHaveNotGotARefund

Tiago went to the airport to see if we’d still be able to get a refund. The guy couldn’t do it, but said if they said they would then they would. We went ahead and booked our flights as we didn’t want the prices to go up.

Tiago emailed on Friday morning, and they emailed back on Saturday early afternoon saying we’d get a refund so we went to the wedding happy about that.

It worked in our favour in the end. Phew.

#ThisAlsoNowMeansThatICanGoToLondonForTheBigPhotographyWeekendOfTheYear

I was annoyed that I would be quarantining and would miss it.

(I write all this in hope that I don’t get Covid and have to self-isolate before the weekend).

I’m a bit nervous about going without being double vaccinated, but I’ll be careful.

#TiagoKeepsSayingIShouldHaveADayForMyselfButIDidNotWantToWasteItOnSomethingUnworthy

I feel bad leaving him to look after B for a day for something frivolous, but this is a good use of my ‘get out of parenting for a day’ card.

#IAmGoingToGoFridayNightToSaturdayNightAndAmLookingForwardToSeeingLotsOfFriendsThoughIHaveNeverSpentMoreThanFiveHoursAwayFromBBefore

T suggested that I go on Friday instead of Saturday so that I am less tired on the Saturday. I am not sure how much photography I will be able to see as my stamina for everything is low these days, but I’m looking forward to it. I haven’t been to London since November 2019, so it will be nice to see multiple friends at once and eat some of the food that I’ve been missing.

I’m definitely going to my favourite pizza place… (Spoiler: I didn’t go to my favourite pizza place.)

18 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait with my left hand pressing against my face.
There Is Only So Much Longer That I Can Hide My Bump In My Dance Videos (18 Weeks)
 
#IAmDefinitelyFeelingMorePregnant
#BumpIsDefinitelyGrowing
#IThinkARandomWomanWasStaringAtMyBumpTheOtherDayAtTheTrainStation
#MorePeopleKnowNowButIUsuallyJustTellPeopleInPerson
#OrIfTheyMessageMeAndIKnowIWillNotSeeThemUntilAfterIAnnounceIt
#AsThereIsOnlySoMuchLongerThatICanHideMyBumpWithAJumperInMyDanceVideos
#AndIWantToStartPostingThisProject
#InPersonIUsuallyTryToTellPeopleInAnUnexpectedWay
#LikeIDoNotSayIHaveSomethingToTellYouOrIHaveNews
#SomeoneAskedHowTiagoIsAndISaidHeIsExcitedToBeAFather
#SomeoneAskedIfTiagoWasMyHusbandTheOtherDayAndISaidYesAndMyBabyDaddy
#SomeoneAskedIfAnyoneWasIllAndISaidIAmPregnantIfThatCounts
#GenerallyPeopleAskingHowIAmIWillSayPregnant
#ThoughTheOtherDayIHadJustEatenAndISaidIHadBeenTellingEveryoneThatIAmPregnant
#SheLaughedAndThenAskedIfIWas
#IAmSeeingAFriendTomorrowAndIMightJustSeeIfSheNoticesMyBump
#SeeingTheLookOnPeoplesFacesIsHalfOfTheFun
#IfNotMostOfTheFun
#IAmHappyThatBrushingMyTeethHasBecomeLessOfATask
#ICanActuallyBrushMyTeethMultipleTimesADayWithLessWorryNow
#IHaveASoreThroatAtTheMoment
#SoIDidASaltGargleThisMorning
#IMadeItTooSaltyAsIWasThenSick
#IHaveBeenPhotographingMyselfEverytimeIHaveBeenSickWhilstPregnant
#ButIKnewThisWasMyOwnFaultSoIDidNot
#ThatWasACoupleOfHoursAgoAndMyStomachFeelsABitUneasyStill
#IHaveBeenUpSince5SomethingAsTiagoHadATrainToCatchAndIHaveFinallyGotIntoWatchingTheCircle
#IKnowIWillRegretItLater
#ParticularlyAsIHaveMyOwnTrainToCatchAndPlansForTonight
#AndIAmNotFeelingVeryWellSoIProbablyHaveMadeThingsWorseByNotGoingBackToSleep

This time I announced my pregnancy earlier so I did not have to worry about showing too much in the dance videos. I’m currently 25 weeks pregnant and no one has left a comment about me being pregnant yet, but then again no one really watches them anyways.

As I announced it earlier I didn’t really get to mess around with telling people much. The closest this time was seeing a friend with an older kid and a baby, and she said ‘don’t have a second one’ and I said ‘well I’m pregnant’.

I have had to do a salt water gargle a couple of times this pregnancy and I have tried to be careful.

I definitely don’t have the time or energy to watch TV so early or late.


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Imitating B In Her Temporary Cot (17 Weeks / 25th August 2021)

Self-portrait of my face pressed up against two bars of B's temporary cot.
Imitating B In Her Temporary Cot (17 Weeks / 25th August 2021)
 
#SheDoesSomethingSimilarInHerCotAtHomeButTheEffectIsQuiteDifferentAsThisIsBarsAndAtHomeItIsMesh
#EveryoneKeepsSayingHowMuchBLooksLikeTiagoButSheDefinitelyHasMyLoveOfWater
#SheHasBeenGettingUpsetWheneverWeTakeHerOutOfHerPoolOrOutOfTheSea
#HerLittleLipsWillBeShiveringAndSheWillWantToKeepGoingBackIn
#YesterdayWeTookHerToASpotThatHadARedAndYellowFlag
#WeTookItInTurnsSwimmingInTheYellowAreaAndOnlyLetBHaveALittleSplashWhenTheSeaCalmedDownMomentarily
#WeAreAdjustingToBeingHereButIFeelQuiteLostWithoutOurUsualRoutineAndStuff
#ThisHouseIsNotVeryBabyProofAndThisMorningIHadToRunDownTheCorridorInCaseBDecidedToGoToTheSteps
#TheOtherDayOurAlarmWentOffForTheFirstTimeInMonthsAndWeActuallyHadToWakeBUpForOnceAfterSeven
#ItSeemsLikeAOneOffThoughAsSheHasAtLeastThreeTeethComingThroughAndUsuallyWakesUpAt6SomethingNowWhichIsOkay
#MaybeItIsDueToHavingALaterDinnerOrMaybeItIsFromAllTheSplashingOrMaybeItIsAMixOfFactors
#IThinkWeWillTryPushingHerDinnerALittleLaterWhenWeGetHomeThoughAndGivingHerBiggerSnacks
#TheOtherDayIGotStungByALittleJellyfishWhichWasABitOfAShockButALifeguardPutSomeGelOnIt
#IManagedToSwallowSomeSeaWaterOnAnotherOccasionAndIEndedUpVomitingInMyHandAwkwardlyInFrontOfAFewPeople
#OurConnectingFlightOnTheWayBackHasBeenDelayedByFiveHours
#ThisMeansWeHaveANineHourLayoverAndWillProbablyGetHomeAtThreeInTheMorning
#TheAirlinesDoNotCareWhichIsDisappointingSoWeWillHaveToSeeWhatWeCanDoOtherwiseWeWillHaveToJustDealWithIt
#WeGotATimeAndDateForOur20WeekScanWhichIsAlsoInconvenientSoICalledAndSaidWhatDaysAreBestForUsAndTheyGivenUsAnotherInconvenientSlot
#SoTiagoWillProbablyHaveToWaitWithBInTheCarAndIWillHaveToGoInAloneWhichIsAnnoyingButWhatCanWeDo
#WeHaveTakenBToAMassiveDuckPondACoupleOfTimesWhichSheQuiteLikesAndILoveLookingAtAllTheDucklings
#ThereAreNoDucksLikeTheOnesAtHomeSoItIsNiceToSeeSomeDifferentBirds
#IHadNeverBeenThereBeforeButIGuessThatOurPrioritiesHaveChangedNowWithBAndWeWantToGoToMoreKidFriendlyPlaces
#WeHaveBeenGoingToALittleCoffeeShopForBreakfastAndYesterdayBManagedToKnockTiagosCoffeeAllOverMyBreakfastAndMe
#WhenWeWerePackingISaidIDidNotWantToBringManyClothesAsIEndUpWearingTheSameThreeOutfits
#InRealityIHaveBeenWearingTheSameDressAndJustWashingItAndPuttingItOnAgainAsSoonAsPossible
#WeHaveBeenRunningErrandsOrGoingToMeetFriendsWhileBSleepsAndTiagosMumKeepsAnEyeOnHer
#TheOtherNightWeWentToABarbequeAfterBHadGoneToBedButThenISpentTheWholeEveningSatByABabyAndAFourYearOldSoFeltBadForNotBringingHer
#MyPortugueseSpeakingHasImprovedButIStillFindItDifficultToUnderstandWhatPeopleAreSaying
#IGetSoTiredSoQuicklyInTheEveningsWhenWeGoOutWhichIsProbablyDueToUsingExtraBrainPowerTryingAndGenerallyFailingToTranslate
#ItIsNiceToSeePeopleButIHaveNotSocialisedThisMuchInAVeryLongTime

#SheDoesSomethingSimilarInHerCotAtHomeButTheEffectIsQuiteDifferentAsThisIsBarsAndAtHomeItIsMesh

It’s less of a full face smush, and more of a partial face smush?

#EveryoneKeepsSayingHowMuchBLooksLikeTiagoButSheDefinitelyHasMyLoveOfWater

Yes, she does look like him a lot. There’s a picture above her cot of Tiago as a baby and I keep pointing to it and saying ‘there’s daddy as a baby’ and she laughs.

Tiago likes the water, but he usually just likes to have a very short swim whereas I want to swim for ages. Well, I can’t anymore…

#SheHasBeenGettingUpsetWheneverWeTakeHerOutOfHerPoolOrOutOfTheSea

Similar vibes to when Tiago puts her back on the floor, when she wants to be in his arms all day.

#HerLittleLipsWillBeShiveringAndSheWillWantToKeepGoingBackIn

We try to not let her go in for more than fifteen minutes at a time.

#YesterdayWeTookHerToASpotThatHadARedAndYellowFlag

We saw the flags and were pretty gutted. Tiago went to talk to the lifeguards to see if it was safe enough to swim/take B in. There was a set of stairs that was safe to use, but we had to be careful as waves would wash over the wall and made it a bit dangerous.

#WeTookItInTurnsSwimmingInTheYellowAreaAndOnlyLetBHaveALittleSplashWhenTheSeaCalmedDownMomentarily

B was quite happy splashing in a little puddle on the rocks by the sea, but then after she’d had a bit of a splash in the sea she was annoyed again. She was getting quite jealous of me swimming in the sea. Better to be safe than sorry…

#WeAreAdjustingToBeingHereButIFeelQuiteLostWithoutOurUsualRoutineAndStuff

Today Tiago is out all day running errands, and I’m not sure how to entertain her all day. It’s times like these that I wish I could drive… Public transport around here is not easy to use/it takes forever.

#ThisHouseIsNotVeryBabyProofAndThisMorningIHadToRunDownTheCorridorInCaseBDecidedToGoToTheSteps

I was just turning the light off in the kitchen and I thought B was outside the door. I went to see and she was at the other end of the corridor by steps that go down, so I RAN.

#TheOtherDayOurAlarmWentOffForTheFirstTimeInMonthsAndWeActuallyHadToWakeBUpForOnceAfterSeven

I usually set the alarm to ignore as soon as B gets up. It is better when she wakes us up as we couldn’t be bothered to get up if she wasn’t going to. We got her up at 7:15 in the end.

#ItSeemsLikeAOneOffThoughAsSheHasAtLeastThreeTeethComingThroughAndUsuallyWakesUpAt6SomethingNowWhichIsOkay

She must have not been teething that morning. A few nights ago she was waking up from 4. Yesterday it was 6:30. Today she woke up at 6.

#MaybeItIsDueToHavingALaterDinnerOrMaybeItIsFromAllTheSplashingOrMaybeItIsAMixOfFactors

We will never know.

#IThinkWeWillTryPushingHerDinnerALittleLaterWhenWeGetHomeThoughAndGivingHerBiggerSnacks

People just eat later here. Yesterday I had a small dinner when B had hers (at 6ish) and then I had a second dinner at a friend’s house.

She can have a good snack when she wakes up from her second nap if she’s having a later dinner. We haven’t given her any yoghurt since we’ve been here (which we usually give her as a snack before bedtime in hope that she will sleep later).

#TheOtherDayIGotStungByALittleJellyfishWhichWasABitOfAShockButALifeguardPutSomeGelOnIt

Usually I keep a look out for them, but I was just swimming by myself and felt an electric shock in my arm. I told a friend (in bad Portuguese) and she said maybe it was muscle pain, but I didn’t think so.

Tiago was with a friend who was talking to a lifeguard, so he put some gel on it, and then a bit later the area where I got stung raised up a bit. It wouldn’t hurt and then suddenly it would. Weird. I had looked in the water but saw nothing.

#IManagedToSwallowSomeSeaWaterOnAnotherOccasionAndIEndedUpVomitingInMyHandAwkwardlyInFrontOfAFewPeople

I was trying to get out via a ladder, but lots of people kept jumping in so the water rose too high and I gulped some. I felt sick, but hoped the feeling would pass. I kept stopping in case I was sick, but thought I could get back to my towel and be okay. Tiago was with me as someone was watching B while we had a quick swim together. Suddenly I felt sick again, so put my hand to my mouth and some sadly sprayed out of the side of it. I felt embarrassed – especially with Covid and everything. Awkward. Tiago went back with water to clean it, but all evidence had already gone.

#OurConnectingFlightOnTheWayBackHasBeenDelayedByFiveHours #ThisMeansWeHaveANineHourLayoverAndWillProbablyGetHomeAtThreeInTheMorning #TheAirlinesDoNotCareWhichIsDisappointingSoWeWillHaveToSeeWhatWeCanDoOtherwiseWeWillHaveToJustDealWithIt

We have two flights by two different operators, but we bought them through one operator. The first flight is at 8am, then the second has been moved from 3pm to 8pm. Good job Tiago drove us to London as I was worried enough about catching a train with the 3pm flight (it’s a 3 hour flight). The airline we booked through don’t care, and say we can just have a refund – which isn’t great when you book months in advance for cheaper prices. The airline who delayed their flight have a first flight that is at 1pm, so that would save us waiting around so much at least but we’ll see what they say. It’s going to be a long day with a 14 month old and my pregnant belly, plus poor Tiago then has to drive us home.

#WeGotATimeAndDateForOur20WeekScanWhichIsAlsoInconvenientSoICalledAndSaidWhatDaysAreBestForUsAndTheyGivenUsAnotherInconvenientSlot

My Mum can watch B certain mornings. I said which days and they’ve given us another day where my Mum isn’t around.

#SoTiagoWillProbablyHaveToWaitWithBInTheCarAndIWillHaveToGoInAloneWhichIsAnnoyingButWhatCanWeDo

*Shrug* I’m annoyed about it, but oh well. I should call them again and complain possibly. I don’t like to be annoying and I know they’re busy.

#WeHaveTakenBToAMassiveDuckPondACoupleOfTimesWhichSheQuiteLikesAndILoveLookingAtAllTheDucklings #ThereAreNoDucksLikeTheOnesAtHomeSoItIsNiceToSeeSomeDifferentBirds

The first time we went it was early in the morning and very foggy, so we were the only ones there. The second time it was quite a bit busier. There are a lot of Muscovy ducks, some Appleyards, and some I don’t know. (My parents had ducks when I was younger.)

#IHadNeverBeenThereBeforeButIGuessThatOurPrioritiesHaveChangedNowWithBAndWeWantToGoToMoreKidFriendlyPlaces

We’ve been to a couple of swimming spots lately that I hadn’t been to before, as they’re closer and more kid friendly. I looked for a soft play or kid’s centre, but they don’t seem to have any around. Shame. Covid cases are quite low here. (I just checked and there are currently 14 people with confirmed Covid.)

#WeHaveBeenGoingToALittleCoffeeShopForBreakfastAndYesterdayBManagedToKnockTiagosCoffeeAllOverMyBreakfastAndMe

The guy had just set it all down, B went to go for my water and knocked the coffee over. I went to grab it, but realised I was too late so backed away and stood up. Luckily it just caught the end of my dress, as I didn’t want a burned belly!

#WhenWeWerePackingISaidIDidNotWantToBringManyClothesAsIEndUpWearingTheSameThreeOutfits #InRealityIHaveBeenWearingTheSameDressAndJustWashingItAndPuttingItOnAgainAsSoonAsPossible

Tiago’s Mum washed it and said she thought it was going to have a coffee stain on it, but once it dried it looked fine and I put it on again. It’s so humid here…

#WeHaveBeenRunningErrandsOrGoingToMeetFriendsWhileBSleepsAndTiagosMumKeepsAnEyeOnHer

It’s been nice to get out more, and have nice chats in the car.

#TheOtherNightWeWentToABarbequeAfterBHadGoneToBedButThenISpentTheWholeEveningSatByABabyAndAFourYearOldSoFeltBadForNotBringingHer

It’s nice that things are so kid friendly here. B had woken up early from her second nap (I think) so she had a very early bedtime, otherwise we could have brought her for a bit.

Tiago generally brings me home, then goes back out. He brought me home around 10.30pm and then got back at 2am. It’s good for him to see his friends, but I don’t know how he can stay out so late and then be fine in the morning.

#MyPortugueseSpeakingHasImprovedButIStillFindItDifficultToUnderstandWhatPeopleAreSaying

I feel motivated to try to find the time and energy to study more again – I’ve been a bit ‘lazy’ with all the pregnancies and mothering. We need to watch more kids stuff in Portuguese perhaps; I’ve been enjoying watching Bluey in Portuguese.

#IGetSoTiredSoQuicklyInTheEveningsWhenWeGoOutWhichIsProbablyDueToUsingExtraBrainPowerTryingAndGenerallyFailingToTranslate

Mothering, pregnancy plus extra brain work and socialising.

#ItIsNiceToSeePeopleButIHaveNotSocialisedThisMuchInAVeryLongTime

It is going to be a shock going home to quarantine for 10 days after being out so much. I need to make an effort to do more with B when we return, especially after I get my second jab.

17 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait with my hair covering the left side of my face. My right hand is pointing to where I had my whooping cough injection.
Whooping Cough Vaccine (17 Weeks)
 
#AtMyMidwifeAppointmentTheOtherDaySheSaidToGetTheWhoopingCoughVaccine
#YouHaveToBe16WeeksOrMoreAndIWasJustOver16WeeksSoIBookedAnAppointment
#IGoToTheAppointmentTodayAndAsWeAreWalkingToTheRoomTheWomanLooksAtMyBumpAndSaysNeverNeverNever
#WeSitDownAndSheIsLikeSoYouAreHereForTheWhoopingCoughVaccine
#AreYouPregnant
#YouHaveToBe16WeeksOrMore
#ISayIAm17Weeks
#SheLooksAtMeSuspiciouslyAsIGazeDownAtMyBump
#IStandUpAndPullMyTopInTightSoItAppears
#SheSaysWellIGuessYouKnowBetterYourself
#AndThereWasMeWorryingThatMyBumpWasTooBigForBeing17Weeks
#SoSheGaveMeItAndItWasAllDoneInSeconds
#IWasWaitingToDoAShootUntilAfterwardsAsIThoughtIWouldHaveAPlasterButIDidNot
#WhichIsFineAsIDidNotNeedOne
#ISaidIWouldDoAShootTodayWhereIWouldHaveATopOnAndIWouldFaceTheOtherDirection
#ButTheVaccineWasAtTheTopOfMyLeftArmSoItMadeSenseToDoItThisWay
#IGotHomeAndWasSoTiredThatIThoughtIWouldHaveANapFirst
#ISleptFor3Hours
#IHaveBeenFeelingMoreEnergeticButThisWeekWasSuperBusyAndIDidNotSleepInAsLateAsIPlanned
#IAmStillFeelingAnxiousAboutThingsAboutTheHealthOfTheBaby
#ButIAlsoRealisedTheOtherDayThatThisCouldBeTheOnlyTimeIAmEverPregnantInMyLife
#SoIShouldTryToEnjoyItAsMuchAsICan
#IDoNotKnowHowToReallyEnjoyItInTermsOfThereIsNotMuchICanDo
#ButIGuessIMeanMoreJustTryingNotToWorrySoMuch
#IGotReallyFreakedOutByTheFactThatThereIsSomeoneGrowingInsideMeAgainTheOtherDay
#PeopleAskMeIfIAmScaredOfGivingBirth
#IFeelKindOfExcitedByTheIdeaToBeHonest
#MaybeIMightChangeMyMindAsMyBumpGetsBigger
#ButIJustWantToEnjoyItAsMuchAsICanAsItSeemsLikeSuchABizarreThingThatWomenHaveBeenDoingForThousandsOfYears
#IDidNotStretchLastNightAndMyHipsHurtAllNight

This time no one mentioned to me about getting the whooping cough, so I will be getting it at around 27 weeks. No one will be saying that I don’t look pregnant enough for it this time…

It’s funning reading about ‘sleeping in late’. Now I’m like what is that? I should have relaxed more when I was pregnant with B. I used to waste so much time. Now I don’t have as much time to faff…

Definitely still anxious this time around.

I feel less excited about birth this time around, even though I would say I had a good experience with B. I am mentally trying to prepare myself though and am starting to read about things again. I am excited to meet her though…

Self-portrait wrapped up in a big cardigan that is suitable for breastfeeding.
Goodbye (For Now) Food Aversions (17 and a half weeks)
 
#IJustHadToRearrangeMy20WeekScanForASecondTime
#TheySendYouALetterForAnAppointmentInThePost
#ThenICalledUpToRescheduleItAsICouldNotMakeIt
#UsuallyTheyCheckToSeeWhatDateAndTimeICanDo
#ButThisTimeTheySaidTheDiariesWereNotOpenYetSoIWouldHaveToBeOnAWaitingList
#GotANewAppointmentDateAndTimeTodayWhichTiagoCouldNotDo
#ICouldHaveGoneAloneButTheHospitalIsQuiteFarAwayAndIThinkTiagoWantsToSeeTheBabyAsMuchAsIDo
#ThoughItIsAScanForAbnormalitiesWhichIsABitScary
#SoIWouldRatherThatTiagoIsThereTooJustIncaseItIsBadNews
#FingersCrossed
#InMorePleasantNewsALotOfMyFoodAversionsHaveDisappeared
#IHaveEatenIndianFood5TimesInTheLastWeek
#TiagoIsHappyAsHeCanCookALotOfHisUsualDishesAgain
#AndWeHadTakeawayFromOurFavouriteIndianPlaceLastWeekWhichGaveMe3Meals
#ItIsNiceToNotSitAtDinnerFeelingSickAndStrugglingToEat
#IAmAwareItMayReturnAtSomePointSoIAmJustTryingToEnjoyItWhilstICan
#TheMidwifeSaidIShouldBeEatingMorePulsesAndThingsLikeThat
#SoIAmGladThatLentilsAndChickpeasNoLongerRepulseMe
#IAmWearingOneOfMyFewPiecesOfMaternityClothing
#ItIsACardiganForPregnancyAndNursing
#ItMakesMeLookMorePregnant
#ApparentlyYouCanWearItInAFewDifferentWays
#ItWillProbablyBeHotToWearOnceTheBabyIsBornButItWillDoForNowAndForNextWinter
#ItDoesGetColdInLiverpool
#IDoNotWantToMakeAnyPurchasesForTheBabyUntilIAm6Months
#ButINeedToStartMakingASpreadsheetWithWhatWeWantToBuy
#IAmStillWorriedThatThingsMightGoWrongButIAmAlsoFeelingABitMoreRelaxed
#ItIsNiceToBeAbleToTalkAboutBeingPregnantWithMorePeopleWhenISeePeopleInPerson
#ItIsBecomingMoreObviousNowWithMyGrowingBumpButIWorryAboutBoringPeopleWithTalkingAboutItALot
#IHadToDoAFullYogaVideoLastNightAsINeededAGoodStretchAndIDefinitelyFeltBetter

Good to know that it’s been annoying getting an appointment for my 20 week scans both times.

I wasn’t into lentils and chickpeas at the start of this pregnancy either. B has baked beans on toast a lot and they were grossing me out, but I have started to have them for lunch lately (mid-October).

I didn’t wear this cardigan after having B, but it might be more appropriate with having a winter baby this time (B was a summer baby).

We really didn’t rush to buy anything for B, and thought we didn’t need much, but after she was born we bought LOADS.

It’s weird that in the end not many people saw me heavily pregnant with B.


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Portrait Of A Mother Of A Fourteen Month Old (15 Weeks / 13th August 2021)

Self-portrait of myself yawning with my eyes partially closed due the yawning. I am resting the index finger of my left hand near my left eye.
Portrait Of A Mother Of A Fourteen Month Old (15 Weeks / 13th August 2021)
 
#IShouldBePackingButInsteadIAmProcrastinatingAndDoingAShootThatIWasNotGoingToDoToday
#ItMakesSenseToGetItDoneThoughAsIWantItToHaveTheSameLookAsOtherPortraitsOfAMotherOfEtc
#HopefullyTomorrowWeWillBeGoingAwayAndIWillHaveToDoWithoutMyLightingKitForNearly3Weeks
#IHadLookedAtGettingSomethingThatWouldSuitButIAmNotEarningMuchAtTheMomentSoItFeltQuiteFrivolous
#AnywaysYesterdayWeWentToBirminghamAirportToDoOurFitToFlyPCRTests
#WeWentForTheDriveThroughOptionWhichWasGoodAsBSleptTheWholeTimeEvenWhenALoudPlaneTookOff
#IWarnedTheWomanThatIAmJustGettingOverMyMorningSicknessButItWasFineAndLessUncomfortableThanWhenIDoAFlowTestMyself
#IJustStartedToWinceOnTheLastFewSecondsOfTheTenSecondsNostrilTwisting
#WeAreDueToGetOurResultsByTenTonightThoughTheySaidItMayTake48HoursFromTheTestWhichIsTomorrowMorning
#ByThatPointWeWillBePackedAndHeadingToLondonSoIReallyHopeTheTestsAreNegative
#IFeltALotMoreHappyAndRelaxedOnceTheTestsWereDoneAsThatWasABigStressToOrganiseAndAtThisPointThereIsNotMuchWeCanDoApartFromWaitForTheResults
#ThoughIFeltLessRelaxedOnceIRealisedThatWeWillBeTestedOnArrivalTooSoWeHaveToHopeWeDoNotPickItUpBetweenTests
#ItShouldBeFineExceptForYesterdayIChattedToALotOfPeopleInThePark
#ISawACoupleWhoWeSeeAllTheTimeAndChattedToThemForTheFirstTimeWhichWasNiceButTypicallyItIsJustAsWeAreGoingAway
#AndThenISpokeToAWomanWithADogWhoWeAlsoSeeAllTheTimeButHaveNeverSpokenMuchTo
#BWasAtFirstYellingOrFrustratedlyTalkingToHerDogAndThenSheWasYellingAtASquirrel
#IHaveNoticedThatSheTalksToAllAnimalsApartFromGeeseWhichIsFairEnoughAsTheyAreScary
#TheWomanCameByAndISaidThatBOnlyLikesToTalkToAnimalsAndThenWeSpokeForAges
#AndThenWeSawAnotherWomanWithADogWhoWeUsuallySeeAboutOnceAMonthNowButByThatPointBWasFedUpAndGotScaredByHerDogBarking
#BLikesToStareALotNowAndTheOtherDayATeenagerYelledAtHerSayingWhatAreYouStaringAt
#IThinkHimYellingJustMadeBStareMoreAndHisFriendSaidToHimWhatAreYouDoingWhichIsGood
#BWokeUpAt6ThisMorningThoughMeAndTiagoWereAwakeAtHerUsualTimeAndWorryingIfSheWasAliveAsSheWasSoQuiet
#IDoNotKnowWhySheSleptLateAsInTheParkSheWasEitherInTheSwingOrHerPushchairButMaybeTheBiryaniSheHadForDinnerFilledHerUpOrSheJustWasNotTeethingAt5ForOnce
#LastNightIWokeUpAndBoltedAcrossTheRoomAsInMyDreamBWasAboutToFallOffTheKitchenCounter
#BMakesMeLaughAsYesterdayNanWasPickingCrumbsUpOffTheFloorWhileBSatNextToHerPlayingWithTheVelcroOnNansShoes
#IHaveMyMidwifeAppointmentTodayAtLunchSoHopefullyThatWillAllGoOkay
#WeirdlyTheMidwifeAndIThoughtWeRecognisedEachOtherButIDoNotThinkWeHaveEverMetBefore
#SheWasAlsoLovelyAndIsAboutAWeekMorePregnantThanMeWhichIsCoolButAlsoAnnoyingAsIWantHerAsMyMidwife
#AtMyLastAppointmentTheySaidTheyMayOrMayNotListenForAHeartbeatAsItIsUsuallyTooEarly
#ButSheTriedAndItWasReassuringToHearItAndSheSaidIfIEverWantToCheckItToJustSendHerAMessage

#IShouldBePackingButInsteadIAmProcrastinatingAndDoingAShootThatIWasNotGoingToDoToday

I just realised that the reminders I write to myself were stacking up, and if I do this today then I can chill about doing work for a little bit.

#ItMakesSenseToGetItDoneThoughAsIWantItToHaveTheSameLookAsOtherPortraitsOfAMotherOfEtc

And this. I had debated just doing a shoot today then writing another day.

#HopefullyTomorrowWeWillBeGoingAwayAndIWillHaveToDoWithoutMyLightingKitForNearly3Weeks

I’m sure I’ll manage, it just ruins the look of the project a little bit but oh well. It might mix it up in a good way…

#IHadLookedAtGettingSomethingThatWouldSuitButIAmNotEarningMuchAtTheMomentSoItFeltQuiteFrivolous

And researching/reading reviews takes up so much time.

#AnywaysYesterdayWeWentToBirminghamAirportToDoOurFitToFlyPCRTests

We had looked at other options, but they’d sold out. I think I mentioned it in my last entry/post (I still don’t know what to call these).

#WeWentForTheDriveThroughOptionWhichWasGoodAsBSleptTheWholeTimeEvenWhenALoudPlaneTookOff

Having to park and go through a walk in felt like more hassle. Especially as we did not know what time B would wake up in the morning (5:15am for the record) and if we would disturb her napping (she fell asleep before we got to the airport).

She did briefly open her eyes just after we started to move again, she sleepily smiled at me then went back to sleep. When we got home she stayed in the car for an hour continuing to nap…

#IWarnedTheWomanThatIAmJustGettingOverMyMorningSicknessButItWasFineAndLessUncomfortableThanWhenIDoAFlowTestMyself #IJustStartedToWinceOnTheLastFewSecondsOfTheTenSecondsNostrilTwisting

I thought that I had better warn her in case I made some weird noises or something. She said she would go slow and I could take a break whenever I wanted but it was fine. I was glad that I got a woman, but it seemed like policy which was good (Tiago got a guy).

#WeAreDueToGetOurResultsByTenTonightThoughTheySaidItMayTake48HoursFromTheTestWhichIsTomorrowMorning #ByThatPointWeWillBePackedAndHeadingToLondonSoIReallyHopeTheTestsAreNegative

It is so stressful. I don’t see why people are bothering to go abroad to places where you need to test loads if you are just going for a week and not visiting family… I need to look at booking day 2 and day 8 tests for when I get back. Tiago only needs to do day 2, and B doesn’t need to do them. Phew.

#IFeltALotMoreHappyAndRelaxedOnceTheTestsWereDoneAsThatWasABigStressToOrganiseAndAtThisPointThereIsNotMuchWeCanDoApartFromWaitForTheResults #ThoughIFeltLessRelaxedOnceIRealisedThatWeWillBeTestedOnArrivalTooSoWeHaveToHopeWeDoNotPickItUpBetweenTests

It’d be bloody typical…

#ItShouldBeFineExceptForYesterdayIChattedToALotOfPeopleInThePark

Typically I often go to the park and hope to talk to people and I talk to no one. Yesterday was our chattiest day in a longgg time, if ever.

#ISawACoupleWhoWeSeeAllTheTimeAndChattedToThemForTheFirstTimeWhichWasNiceButTypicallyItIsJustAsWeAreGoingAway

I think I have mentioned them before (I hope it doesn’t get to the point where they might read this blog and find it awkward – hello if so).

Their kid is the same age as B and we have seen them around since we moved here. It was nice to finally chat. We always say we should say hello to them, but after a while it feels like too late to say hello. I took B to the swings though and they were next to us, so I felt like I should ‘go for it’. They’re so nice, and we chatted for ages. B was getting restless, so I thought I should take her home for dinner and a run around.

#AndThenISpokeToAWomanWithADogWhoWeAlsoSeeAllTheTimeButHaveNeverSpokenMuchTo

Once I was sat with B on a picnic blanket and the dog just came and sat next to her randomly. We spoke briefly then, but that was monthsss ago I think.

#BWasAtFirstYellingOrFrustratedlyTalkingToHerDogAndThenSheWasYellingAtASquirrel

I feel bad as I keep saying she is yelling, but she is probably just talking loudly and gets frustrated as they never come closer to her and/or talk back…

#IHaveNoticedThatSheTalksToAllAnimalsApartFromGeeseWhichIsFairEnoughAsTheyAreScary

At first I put evil instead of scary, but thought I might offend geese lovers. They just get quite defensive and hiss a lot. My parents used to have geese and once one bit my foot (luckily I was wearing steel toe capped boots, but still). I have been weary of them since…

#TheWomanCameByAndISaidThatBOnlyLikesToTalkToAnimalsAndThenWeSpokeForAges

She was smiling and I was in a good mood from talking to the couple. We spoke about lots of things from when she gave birth husbands were not allowed in the hospital at all, to anti-vaxxers. She’s also lovely.

#AndThenWeSawAnotherWomanWithADogWhoWeUsuallySeeAboutOnceAMonthNowButByThatPointBWasFedUpAndGotScaredByHerDogBarking

Last time we saw them it was early in the morning. We caught them this time as they came out early and we were late from chatting to so many people. I had to pick B up as she was scared by his barking. He’s a very friendly dog though.

#BLikesToStareALotNowAndTheOtherDayATeenagerYelledAtHerSayingWhatAreYouStaringAt

I was pushing B across the grass and she was sat on the standing board just chilling and looking at the world. I saw her looking at them and I looked briefly and smiled at them.

#IThinkHimYellingJustMadeBStareMoreAndHisFriendSaidToHimWhatAreYouDoingWhichIsGood

Maybe he was yelling at me, but I doubt it as B was having a good long look. So awkward. Glad his friend told him off as he was probably just showing off, but it did make me feel uncomfortable. I just didn’t look or say anything. Then a guy commented that B was staring a lot, but he was being friendly and was with his kids.

#BWokeUpAt6ThisMorningThoughMeAndTiagoWereAwakeAtHerUsualTimeAndWorryingIfSheWasAliveAsSheWasSoQuiet

Yesterday she was trying to get my Nan’s salt shaker off her tall table and I think it may have hit her on the head, so I was keeping an eye on her because of that.

#IDoNotKnowWhySheSleptLateAsInTheParkSheWasEitherInTheSwingOrHerPushchairButMaybeTheBiryaniSheHadForDinnerFilledHerUpOrSheJustWasNotTeethingAt5ForOnce

She wasn’t running around a lot, unless it was from all the listening? Maybe dinner was filling (she didn’t eat any yoghurt before bed like she usually does), or maybe it was down to teething. She never seems to stop teething, so maybe it did for a little bit and so she slept better. Who knows?

#LastNightIWokeUpAndBoltedAcrossTheRoomAsInMyDreamBWasAboutToFallOffTheKitchenCounter

Lol. There is no kitchen counter in our room. Tiago just said ‘are you alright?’ as my urgency woke him up. Classic.

#BMakesMeLaughAsYesterdayNanWasPickingCrumbsUpOffTheFloorWhileBSatNextToHerPlayingWithTheVelcroOnNansShoes

She is funny. She must like the sound. Today she realised she could make a sound on the cupboard with her fingers.

#IHaveMyMidwifeAppointmentTodayAtLunchSoHopefullyThatWillAllGoOkay

I have left myself four hashtags to write about it. Fun times.

#WeirdlyTheMidwifeAndIThoughtWeRecognisedEachOtherButIDoNotThinkWeHaveEverMetBefore

I was thinking I recognised her (even with her mask on) and then she said that she thought she had met me before. I’ve only had a couple of appointments though and they weren’t with her. I’ve recently moved GP surgery and it is better as I will have more of my appointments there rather than random centres, and I like her.

#SheWasAlsoLovelyAndIsAboutAWeekMorePregnantThanMeWhichIsCoolButAlsoAnnoyingAsIWantHerAsMyMidwife

Happy for her, but it’s typical. She said from her 30 weeks she might have to just work from home due to shielding, but she said we’ll see what the rules are. In Liverpool, my midwife was due to take sick leave but then she didn’t – but in the end she wasn’t my midwife as I didn’t have a homebirth. My midwife today said I could have a homebirth if I wanted, but I said it’s probably not very polite as we live at my Nan’s place.

#AtMyLastAppointmentTheySaidTheyMayOrMayNotListenForAHeartbeatAsItIsUsuallyTooEarly #ButSheTriedAndItWasReassuringToHearItAndSheSaidIfIEverWantToCheckItToJustSendHerAMessage

I know in Liverpool they were a bit weird about it. I guess it freaks people out if they don’t hear it, but the midwife today said that if it’s not good news then you wouldn’t hear much at all. The baby was hiding behind my placenta, but she could hear it moving and my placenta was being noisy. She kept trying to get a clearer sound for me, but I said as long as she was happy that all was good then it was fine with me.

Some reassuring news before our possible holiday. Fingers crossed.

15 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait wearing a black and white stripy dress. I am looking at the camera and have my left thumb touching my lips, and the rest of my fingers closing my left eye.
Maternity Clothes (15 and a half weeks)
 
#SoMyFirstMaternityClothesHaveArrived
#IDidNotWantToCurseThingsByBuyingThemTooEarly
#ButIDefinitelyNeededNewBras
#IAmTryingOutTheClipsThatYouUseSoYouCanFeed
#ItIsStartingToGetEasier
#ButIDoNotWantToPracticeTooMuch
#InCaseIBreakThatFunctionBeforeIActuallyNeedThem
#IHaveStartedToEditMyProjectDownNowSoIDoNotHaveToDoItLaterOn
#IHaveToPickMyFavouriteImageFromAllThePreviousShoots
#AndThenIMightTryDrawingOnThem
#ToHelpWithMyAnxietyAndWorries
#IDoDefinitelyHaveABumpNow
#ThoughIThinkDuringTheDayMostOfItIsDueToFood
#IHaveStartedToDoYogaOrPilatesOrStretchingInTheMorningAndEveningNow
#IHaveGotIntoAGoodHabitOfDoingItInTheMorning
#ButTheLastCoupleOfDaysIHaveBeenDoingItInTheEveningTooAsIFeelLikeINeedIt
#AndIAmStartingToGetPelvicPainNow
#AtLeastISeemToHaveMoreEnergyTheseDays
#IStillFeelABitSickButIAmNotBeingSick
#TheClosestIGetToBeingSickAtTheMomentIsWheneverIBrushMyTeeth
#IHaveTriedAllDifferentToothpastesButMyBodyHatesIt
#ITryToThinkOfDoughnutsAndUnicorns
#ApparentlyInWeek16TheBabyWillBeTheSizeOfADoughnut
#SoIMightGetOneToCelebrateAsIHaveBeenThinkingAboutThemForWeeks
#WheneverIAmSomewhereThatSellsThemINeverWantThemThough
#ApartFromMaybeThoseVansThatSellDinkieDoughnutsOrWhateverTheyAreCalledTheseDays
#AnywaysThisIsMyFirstMaternityDress
#IHateShoppingButISawItAndLikedItWhichIsRareSoIThoughtIShouldGetIt
#IAmBoredOfPregnancyAdsNow
#IWantToSeeOtherThings
#AFewYearsAgoWhenIUsedToGetPregnancyTestAdsOnYouTubeIWasSurprisedThatAGuyInMyImprovClassGotAdvertsForTomatoSoup

Well, coincidentally I have my left hand touching my face and one eye closed.

I have been wearing this dress since B was born, and I have been wearing it a lot lately. I haven’t bought any maternity clothes this time, but I have been given a maternity jumper.

I ended up not wearing the clip bras much, and ended up wearing the ones that you just move the bra with your hands. I’ve been wearing them lately anyways as they’re so comfy.

I never ended up drawing on the pictures, but I have got a lot quicker at editing. I usually edit the shoot on the day of the shoot or the day after now.

I feel like I haven’t had any pelvic pain yet with this pregnancy, but I have been doing pregnancy stretches in the morning and evening since getting a positive test this time which I think has helped.

I tried to distract myself more this time than think about doughnuts and unicorns when I feel sick – the thought of doughnuts is making me hungry. There are some jam doughnuts in the kitchen actually, but I’m not a fan.

I feel like I haven’t had too many pregnancy ads this time, but I am also making an effort to not accept all cookies on sites anymore. I could eat a cookie or five.


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Imitating B Looking For A Raisin Down Her Sleeve (15 Weeks / 11th August 2021)

Self-portrait of me pulling my jumper sleeve out with my left hand and looking down it.
Imitating B Looking For A Raisin Down Her Sleeve (15 Weeks / 11th August 2021)
 
#BLikesRaisinsAndIUsuallyGiveThemToHerForASnackOnceADay
#AsSoonAsSheGetsTheBowlSheLikesToEmptyThemOut
#AsAResultTheyGoEverywhereAndSheIsOftenFindingThemThroughoutTheDay
#IGuessTheyAreTrickyToKeepHoldOfAndTheOtherDayILaughedAsSheLookedDownHerSleeveForOneSheHadDropped
#TiagoAndIJustCelebratedOurThreeYearWeddingAnniversaryButWeDidNotDoMuchExceptOrderOurFavouriteIndianFood
#WeHaveBeenSortingOutOurPaperworkToGetOurMarriageRegisteredInPortugalAndForBToGetHerPortugueseCitizenship
#AsWeHaveBeenMarriedForThreeYearsICanAlsoStartApplyingForCitizenshipWhichIsQuiteExciting
#IAmSoStressedThatOurTripWillNotGoAhead
#WeHaveOurTestsTomorrowMorningButYesterdayMyNanHadAPlumberRoundForTwoHoursAsWellAsSomeoneToLookAtTheRoof
#YouNeedToHaveTakenTheTestNoMoreThan72HoursBeforeYouArriveAtYourFinalDestinationButYouAlsoNeedToAllow48HoursForTheResultsToArrive
#SoWeHaveToHopeWeGetTheResultsInTimeAndThatTheyAreNegative
#WeHadWantedToGetThemDoneWednesdayNightButTheySoldOutAndAsWeHaveAConnectingFlightSaturdayEveningWeNeedToDoThemThursdayMorning
#IHaveBeenTakingBOutToTheParkMoreButIfThePlaygroundIsBusyIWillWaitUntilTheCrowdsLeave
#TheOtherDayAGuyWalkedRightByOurBlanketAgainWhenHeHad10MetresOfGrassToWalkOn
#SomeGoodNewsIsIHaveNotBeenSickIn9DaysAndLastNightWasTheFirstNightIDidNotGagFiveTimesAfterBrushingMyTeeth
#HoweverTwoNightsAgoIDidGetMyFirstLegCrampOfThePregnancyAndItWasNotPleasant
#IThinkIWasQuiteDehydratedSoLastNightIDrankALotBeforeBedAndIDidNotGetOne
#SomePeopleHaveToldMeIAmBraveForHavingASecondOneAlready
#IAmNotIJustHaveNothingElseGoingOnInMyLifeRightNowApartFromLookingAfterB
#ItMakesSenseToHaveAnotherKidNowWhileIFeelStuckInLimboAndAmJustWaitingForTheNextChapterOfOurLives
#IWriteNotesForMyNextPostAndTwoDaysAgoIWroteThatIFeelLikeALoser
#IWroteThatIAmWorkingVeryVeryFreelanceWithAdminWorkAndIAmJustWorkingOnMyOwnStuffThatNoOneCaresAbout
#IKnowALotOfPeopleWouldLoveToBeInMyPositionRegardingKids
#IAmGratefulToBePregnantAndToHaveBButIDoFeelLikeALoser
#ICriedTheOtherDayAsTiagoSaidHeWasLookingForwardToBoysNightsOnHoliday
#IDoNotRememberTheLastTimeIHadAGirlsNightAndIAmNotSureWhenIWillAgain
#IAmTakingBOutMoreInTheHopesThatWeWillMeetSomePeople
#WeSpokeToAWomanTheOtherDayWhoSeemedNiceButLetsSeeIfWeSeeHerAgain
#OnceIAmDoubleVaccinatedIAmGoingToTakeBToBirminghamCityCentreToSeeAShowAndGoForLunch
#IJustFeelLikeINeedToBeCarefulStillButIAlsoNeedToShowHerMoreOfWhatLifeCanBeLikeBeforeHerSiblingArrivesAndIProbablyWillNotFeelLikeGoingOutMuchForAWhile

#BLikesRaisinsAndIUsuallyGiveThemToHerForASnackOnceADay

I think she is starting to get bored of them, but then she keeps eating them… I’ve also started to eat them #FunFact.

#AsSoonAsSheGetsTheBowlSheLikesToEmptyThemOut

And by that I mean hold onto the bowl with one hand and flick it up, so they all go everywhere. Or just empty them out…

#AsAResultTheyGoEverywhereAndSheIsOftenFindingThemThroughoutTheDay

I saw her put something in her mouth the other day, so I yelled at her to spit it out (she was by where my Nan sits and sometimes drops tablets). She started to cry and Tiago said he had put a raisin on the table there… Sorry B!

#IGuessTheyAreTrickyToKeepHoldOfAndTheOtherDayILaughedAsSheLookedDownHerSleeveForOneSheHadDropped

I had to help her get it out in the end…

#TiagoAndIJustCelebratedOurThreeYearWeddingAnniversaryButWeDidNotDoMuchExceptOrderOurFavouriteIndianFood

I say celebrated. I saw it on my calendar in the afternoon… It seemed like a good excuse for Indian food.

#WeHaveBeenSortingOutOurPaperworkToGetOurMarriageRegisteredInPortugalAndForBToGetHerPortugueseCitizenship

We did try to register our marriage just after we got married and went to Portugal, but they said we had to get it translated so it was probably easier to get it done at home. The embassies are so useless in the UK. Tiago has been emailing and calling over the years, but we’ve not got anywhere. They said I needed to get a birth certificate that had been issued in the last 6 months, but our friend who is sorting it out for us in Portugal now said we needed to get the documents Apostille stamped. We will now just get them translated there, as we might be waiting for (more) years if we try to get things done here now with Covid.

#AsWeHaveBeenMarriedForThreeYearsICanAlsoStartApplyingForCitizenshipWhichIsQuiteExciting

Hurrah, we are going to get the ball rolling soon. It’s funny that Tiago and B both have the new passports that don’t have European Union stamped on them, whereas mine does but I am not an EU citizen, whereas Tiago is and B will soon be. B has more claim to citizenship than me, and I think hers will be processed fast.

#IAmSoStressedThatOurTripWillNotGoAhead

Please please please let it happen.

#WeHaveOurTestsTomorrowMorningButYesterdayMyNanHadAPlumberRoundForTwoHoursAsWellAsSomeoneToLookAtTheRoof

Small things that have been wrong with the house since we moved in obviously needed to be looked at this week… (They didn’t, but oh well.)

#YouNeedToHaveTakenTheTestNoMoreThan72HoursBeforeYouArriveAtYourFinalDestinationButYouAlsoNeedToAllow48HoursForTheResultsToArrive

What a headache.

#SoWeHaveToHopeWeGetTheResultsInTimeAndThatTheyAreNegative

If it takes 48 hours we will already be on the road. Worse case scenario is we have to pay for the stupidly expensive tests at the airport (providing they have space).

#WeHadWantedToGetThemDoneWednesdayNightButTheySoldOutAndAsWeHaveAConnectingFlightSaturdayEveningWeNeedToDoThemThursdayMorning

We need to get more organised. We are going to the Birmingham airport drive through to get them done, though we are flying from London. There are some where you get sent a test and a doctor watches you do the test via webcam and can give you an instant pdf certificate, but they had sold out for this week…

Whine whine.

#IHaveBeenTakingBOutToTheParkMoreButIfThePlaygroundIsBusyIWillWaitUntilTheCrowdsLeave

I say crowds as there must be a summer school or group that has about 30 kids that takes it over. The same school/group that decided to start a race a metre away from us the other week…

#TheOtherDayAGuyWalkedRightByOurBlanketAgainWhenHeHad10MetresOfGrassToWalkOn

Maybe we sit too close to that edge of the park, but I don’t see why going 3m off course would harm him. Of course I said something along the lines of ‘Yeah, I know you wouldn’t think there was so much grass to walk on’ to B.

#SomeGoodNewsIsIHaveNotBeenSickIn9DaysAndLastNightWasTheFirstNightIDidNotGagFiveTimesAfterBrushingMyTeeth

Hurrah. I did a little heave, but it wasn’t much.

#HoweverTwoNightsAgoIDidGetMyFirstLegCrampOfThePregnancyAndItWasNotPleasant

Some pain fun to replace sick fun.

#IThinkIWasQuiteDehydratedSoLastNightIDrankALotBeforeBedAndIDidNotGetOne

Let’s hope it stays that way. I woke Tiago up with my oww-ing.

#SomePeopleHaveToldMeIAmBraveForHavingASecondOneAlready

Lol.

#IAmNotIJustHaveNothingElseGoingOnInMyLifeRightNowApartFromLookingAfterB #ItMakesSenseToHaveAnotherKidNowWhileIFeelStuckInLimboAndAmJustWaitingForTheNextChapterOfOurLives

We’re in Brum until at least the start of next summer, so it makes sense to ‘get on with things’.

#IWriteNotesForMyNextPostAndTwoDaysAgoIWroteThatIFeelLikeALoser #IWroteThatIAmWorkingVeryVeryFreelanceWithAdminWorkAndIAmJustWorkingOnMyOwnStuffThatNoOneCaresAbout

I love B, but I’d also love to have a job/commission where B could go to nursery a bit and I could feel a bit more like my old self. Obviously being pregnant now complicates things, but that’s also why I’m pregnant as there are no jobs/commissions around that I am suitable for/are worth it/fit.

#IKnowALotOfPeopleWouldLoveToBeInMyPositionRegardingKids

Having to awkwardly tell certain friends that you are pregnant before they find out from someone else, but you don’t want to tell them as you know it will upset them etc.

#IAmGratefulToBePregnantAndToHaveBButIDoFeelLikeALoser

If I had more local friends to hang out with would it be better? Once I’m double vaccinated I’m going to start going to a local pregnancy yoga class. I doubt I’ll make any good friends, but you never know and it’d be good to have a bit of time for myself and stretch well.

#ICriedTheOtherDayAsTiagoSaidHeWasLookingForwardToBoysNightsOnHoliday #IDoNotRememberTheLastTimeIHadAGirlsNightAndIAmNotSureWhenIWillAgain

Lol, I suddenly just started to cry. Tiago went to London the other month and hung out with a friend, and a friend came to Brum and he went to meet them for dinner/drinks. T says I should have a day to myself soon and do what I want. I want to go to London, but I also don’t want to if you know what I mean? This darn Covid. Once I’m double vacc’d I may feel differently, but I don’t want to be going when I’m SUPER pregnant.

#IAmTakingBOutMoreInTheHopesThatWeWillMeetSomePeople

Love the desperation. I do like looking at all the dogs though, and B usually tries to talk to them all – and also to crows and magpies.

#WeSpokeToAWomanTheOtherDayWhoSeemedNiceButLetsSeeIfWeSeeHerAgain

Her kid was a bit older than B, but she also had an older one. She talked about not having family nearby, but at least having some good friends.

#OnceIAmDoubleVaccinatedIAmGoingToTakeBToBirminghamCityCentreToSeeAShowAndGoForLunch

It’d be nice. I feel like I could look after her outside of the house and it’d be okay (remember that I have not gone far from the house with her by myself). By the time we go she might be down to one nap a day, though I hope she keeps it up for longer.

#IJustFeelLikeINeedToBeCarefulStillButIAlsoNeedToShowHerMoreOfWhatLifeCanBeLikeBeforeHerSiblingArrivesAndIProbablyWillNotFeelLikeGoingOutMuchForAWhile

Typically I finally feel like I could take her to town by myself, but then when the second one comes we will probably be stuck to the house more again. I can only do my best, and maybe with the second one I might be more chill? The idea of taking two to town sounds like a bit too much, so I should definitely try to take B a few times by herself so it would not be too daunting. Let’s see…

15 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait with my top pulled up. I am holding an apple in my right hand over my belly button and my top is pulled up.
A Baby The Size Of An Apple (15 weeks)
 
#SoOBebeIs15WeeksAndTheSizeOfAnApple
#IToldMyselfThatIWouldNotTakeAnyPicturesOfMyselfWithFruitOrVegetables
#ButHereWeAre
#ILikeApplesSoIfIAmGoingToBreakMyRulesThenItMightAsWellBeForAnApple
#AnotherAppSaysItIsAPeachButAllTheAppsAndSitesSayDifferentThings
#ApparentlyItCanStartToHearSingingSoMeAndTiagoHaveBeenTryingToSingToMyBelly
#IAmABitWorriedThatTheNeighboursCanHearUsScreechingAway
#ApparentlyUntil20WeeksTheBabyWillDoubleInSize
#IAmGettingALotOfCrampsSoIAmGuessingThatIsTheBabyGrowing
#SoonIShouldBeAbleToFeelItMoveWhichIsACrazyThought
#IStillAssociateCrampsWithPeriodsSoItStillWeirdsMeOut
#MorePeopleKnowIAmPregnantNow
#ILoveHowEveryoneNeedsToTellMeToRestEatAndDrinkPlenty
#NonAlcoholicDrinksOfCourse
#ItIsNotLikeIGotPregnantAndThenDecidedToStopSleepingEatingAndDrinking
#IKnowPeopleAreJustTryingToBeHelpfulAndSupportive
#ButItIsLikePeopleTellingMeToMakeSureIRememberToBreathe
#IOrderedAMaternityPillowAndIAmHopingItArrivesSoon
#ItIsEarlyDaysButIFeelLikeINeedOne
#IAmASideSleeperButItGetsUncomfortableAndITurnOverManyTimes
#IAlsoFeelLikeINeedToHugSomething
#ICanNotRememberTheLastTimeIFellAsleepHuggingABigTeddyBear
#ButThatIsWhatIFeelLikeINeed
#IStillForgetIAmPregnantSometimes
#OrIStillFindTheThoughtWeird
#IKeepThinkingThatSomethingBadWillHappen
#AsIStillCanNotImagineMeWithABabyAndInSomewaysItDoesNotFeelMeantToBe
#ButObviouslyIHopeItIsMeantToBeAndThatEverythingElseIsFine
#IAmGettingQuiteIntoStretchingInTheMorningsNow

I am yet to take any pictures of myself with fruit and veg this time, and I think I will try to avoid that – says me on a post about raisins. If it’s me imitating B then that’s different (and there were no raisins on the shoot anyways).

Living with my Nan we are lucky as I have to screech pretty loudly for the neighbours to hear me. I can be less self conscious this time and do spend a lot of time singing to B…

I do not think I will ever have a cramp when pregnant and feel relaxed about it.

I have been getting annoyed this time by someone telling me to eat more fish. I haven’t intentionally eaten fish since I was 15. I know they mean well, but it’s quite annoying.

I have been hugging part of my maternity pillow from quite early on this time. I say part as there is a bit that unzips from the main bit. I got the main pillow out the other day, but actually I had forgotten that I can zip the little bit to the main bit. Just need to find where I put the small piece that joins them now…

I am really enjoying my stretching these days.

Portrait of Tiago, my husband. He is sat down with his right hand under his chin and his left hand supporting his elbow. He is looking off slightly to his right.
Tiago Says A Few Words (15 Weeks)

#ICanNotRememberHowIFeltWhenJocelynFoundOutSheWasPregnant
#IWasDefinitelyHappy
#WeHadBeenTryingSinceTheStartOf2019
#TodayIFeelHappyWaitingForMyChildToArrive
#SoICanPutMyFatherSkillsIntoAction
#IThinkIWillBeAGoodFather
#IThinkIWillBeARelaxedFather
#WhateverHappensHappens
#IAmLookingForwardToTeachingMyKidPortugueseAndToShowingThemRoundLiverpool
#IAlreadyFeelCloseToTheChildAsISpeakToThemEveryNight
#SoonIWillBeReadingThemStoriesBeforeBedTime

I didn’t realise that Tiago actually said so few words.

He keeps forgetting that I am pregnant this time…


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Imitating B Dancing (14 Weeks / 8th August 2021)

Me with my right arm in front of my body imitating B dancing.
Imitating B Dancing (14 Weeks / 8th August 2021)
 
#BHasStartedToDanceMoreToSongsWhichIsReallyNiceToSee
#SheUsuallyDoesALotOfIntricateSteppingButSheAlsoPutsHerRightArmInFrontOfHerAtTimes
#BIsConstantlyKneeingMeInTheStomachOrUsingMyBellyAsALeaningPost
#ObviouslySheDoesNotKnowWhatSheIsDoingButItDoesFreakMeOutABit
#SheHasStartedToDoHerSuperCheekySmileAgainWhichMakesMeLaugh
#SheDoesItALotWhileSheRidesOnHerZebraWhichSheCanClimbOnAndPlayWithByHerselfNow
#ThoughSheLikesToScareMeByActingABitLikeAStuntRiderAndStandingUpOnIt
#WeHaveStartedToGiveHerHerMilkAtTheEndOfMealsNow
#BeforeWeWouldGiveItHerAtTheStartOfMealsAndSheWouldJustDrinkItAllUntilItWasGone
#IAmHopingThisMeansSheWillEatMoreNowAndSleepBetter
#ThoughThisMorningSheWasUpSuperEarlySoMaybeNot
#WeUsuallyGiveHerSomeGreekStyleYoghurtBeforeBedtimeButInTheLastFewDaysIHaveBeenStrugglingToEvenLookAtIt
#IDoNotKnowWhyButMyBodyIsRepulsedByItAndItMakesMeWantToMeSick
#IAmStillStrugglingWithBrushingMyTeethAtNightThoughIHaveNotBeenSickInSixDays
#IHaveAnnouncedThatIAmPregnantNowWhichIsMaybeTooEarlyButItIsWhatItIs
#EveryCrampWorriesMeButIGuessMyBodyHasALotOfStretchingToDoAndItHasToCleanItself
#WhenIWasPregnantWithBIAteALotOfJacketPotatoesButIAmYetToHaveOneWithThisPregnancy
#IAmQuiteIntoBeetrootAtTheMomentAndAnythingVinegaryReally
#MyMainConcernCurrentlyThoughIsItIsAWeekUntilOurHolidayAndNotGettingCovidBeforeWeGo
#IDoNotThinkWeHaveHadItYetButKnowingOurLuckWeWillGetItThisWeek
#LastWeekBAndIMetUpWithAFriendAndHerBabyAndIWasTryingToKeepMyDistance
#OfCourseIAmSuperCarefulButThenBGoesAndTriesToDrinkFromTheirWaterBottlesAndCups
#WeJustNeedThisTrip
#TiagoNeedsABreakAndHeWantsToSeeHisParentsAndHisFriends
#INeedABreakAndIWantBToMeetHerGrandparentsAndIWantToSwimInTheSeaAndHaveSomeChangeToOurGroundhogDays
#OfCourseIAmAlsoLookingForwardToSeeingLotsOfPeopleWhoIHaveNotSeenInTwoYears
#IHaveBeenFeelingQuiteLonelyAndBoredOfTheMonotonySoItWillBeNiceToSeePeopleAndHaveAHolidaySimilarButNotEntirelyTheSameAsThoseWeUsedToHaveEverySummer
#IWonderIfIWillEverMakeMoreFriendsHereButAllICanDoIsTryMyBest
#YesterdayWeWentForAWalkAndWeSawSoManyBabiesAndToddlersThatIAmNotSureWhereTheyAllCameFrom
#WeAreAllEnjoyingOurNewBedroomHangoutAtLeastAndItHelpsMixTheDaysUpABit

#BHasStartedToDanceMoreToSongsWhichIsReallyNiceToSee

We do listen to music a lot, and she sees me dancing.

Yesterday T brought her upstairs while I was doing my dance videos and I could see B trying to copy my arm actions.

#SheUsuallyDoesALotOfIntricateSteppingButSheAlsoPutsHerRightArmInFrontOfHerAtTimes

It makes me think of a photo I took for my OMOM project –

I like when I put a song on and she just starts moving around. She was moving fast to ‘I’m Still Standing’ by Elton John the other day. Sometimes she flaps her arms to songs too.

#BIsConstantlyKneeingMeInTheStomachOrUsingMyBellyAsALeaningPost #ObviouslySheDoesNotKnowWhatSheIsDoingButItDoesFreakMeOutABit

I guess the womb is built to be resilient, but I barely knocked my belly at all when I was pregnant with B. A cat walked over it once, which made me worried, but B does a lot worse to it on the daily.

#SheHasStartedToDoHerSuperCheekySmileAgainWhichMakesMeLaugh

I love it. Just super big cheesy grin with her little teeth showing more now.

#SheDoesItALotWhileSheRidesOnHerZebraWhichSheCanClimbOnAndPlayWithByHerselfNow

I say ‘giddy up’ and she goes for it.

#ThoughSheLikesToScareMeByActingABitLikeAStuntRiderAndStandingUpOnIt

I blame all this watching of the Olympics. I’ve watched so much of it this year, but today is the last day. I’m a bit relieved, though I do want to watch the Paralympics. I’m a bit sports out though – luckily I’ve just seen that it doesn’t start for 2+ weeks.

#WeHaveStartedToGiveHerHerMilkAtTheEndOfMealsNow #BeforeWeWouldGiveItHerAtTheStartOfMealsAndSheWouldJustDrinkItAllUntilItWasGone

Though now she just drinks it until it’s gone when she gets it.

#IAmHopingThisMeansSheWillEatMoreNowAndSleepBetter #ThoughThisMorningSheWasUpSuperEarlySoMaybeNot

Fun times.

#WeUsuallyGiveHerSomeGreekStyleYoghurtBeforeBedtimeButInTheLastFewDaysIHaveBeenStrugglingToEvenLookAtIt

When Tiago is busy/out and I have to give it her by myself, geez I really struggle. Yesterday just thinking about it made me want to vomit.

#IDoNotKnowWhyButMyBodyIsRepulsedByItAndItMakesMeWantToMeSick

I do not remember being this grossed out by it last time. I’ve been eating it for breakfast with turkish eggs here and there as well… I think the evenings are just not good for me.

#IAmStillStrugglingWithBrushingMyTeethAtNightThoughIHaveNotBeenSickInSixDays

I’ve been close though. The dry heaving is not much fun, especially as it leaves my stomach feeling unsettled for a bit.

#IHaveAnnouncedThatIAmPregnantNowWhichIsMaybeTooEarlyButItIsWhatItIs

Not that anyone cares, but it feels like a big step with it all.

#EveryCrampWorriesMeButIGuessMyBodyHasALotOfStretchingToDoAndItHasToCleanItself

I get worried a few times during the day. Sometimes it is just gas though… Classy.

#WhenIWasPregnantWithBIAteALotOfJacketPotatoesButIAmYetToHaveOneWithThisPregnancy

I guess I was going to the office then and it was an easy lunch solution as local cafes sold them. Thinking about it I would like a jacket potato with coleslaw now… It’s not even 8am. I feel like I ate baked beans last time, but I have not been able to touch them lately.

(15th October: I had one last weekend and it was great. Earlier I said to Tiago that we should have them for lunch this weekend.)

#IAmQuiteIntoBeetrootAtTheMomentAndAnythingVinegaryReally

I do not usually eat salt and vinegar crisps, but I am a fan at the moment.

#MyMainConcernCurrentlyThoughIsItIsAWeekUntilOurHolidayAndNotGettingCovidBeforeWeGo #IDoNotThinkWeHaveHadItYetButKnowingOurLuckWeWillGetItThisWeek

I am quite concerned. My social calendar is empty this week though – I just need to go to the doctors for an early 16 week check.

#LastWeekBAndIMetUpWithAFriendAndHerBabyAndIWasTryingToKeepMyDistance

I debated saying let’s leave it until after our holiday, but we’d missed her 1st birthday party and I do not see many people.

#OfCourseIAmSuperCarefulButThenBGoesAndTriesToDrinkFromTheirWaterBottlesAndCups

Argh. Hopefully it’ll be okay. They’ve yet to tell us they have Covid so…

#WeJustNeedThisTrip

Need or want? A lot of other people probably want or need a trip too. If it wasn’t for it being where Tiago grew up we’d just be going somewhere in the UK I’m sure. It’d be a lot less stressful.

#TiagoNeedsABreakAndHeWantsToSeeHisParentsAndHisFriends

True, he could have a break in the UK. Seeing his parents and friends is a big thing though. We last saw his parents at Xmas 2019, but in mainland Portugal rather than on the island.

#INeedABreakAndIWantBToMeetHerGrandparentsAndIWantToSwimInTheSeaAndHaveSomeChangeToOurGroundhogDays

So many wants and needs.

#OfCourseIAmAlsoLookingForwardToSeeingLotsOfPeopleWhoIHaveNotSeenInTwoYears

I want to see my parents in law as well, and see the people we usually see every summer.

#IHaveBeenFeelingQuiteLonelyAndBoredOfTheMonotonySoItWillBeNiceToSeePeopleAndHaveAHolidaySimilarButNotEntirelyTheSameAsThoseWeUsedToHaveEverySummer

Lonely when I’m with B all day? Sounds rude, but if you’re a parent I’m sure you know what I mean. It’ll be different when she can talk. It’s just weird that I have so much ‘free time’ (time where I could be hanging out with people) now and I do not really see anyone. Maybe it’ll be different when the summer holidays are over and we start classes again.

#IWonderIfIWillEverMakeMoreFriendsHereButAllICanDoIsTryMyBest

We are not planning to stay here forever, so soon it will get to the point of why bother trying to meet people. Maybe I’m just socially awkward. Maybe I’m just not a very likeable person. Maybe I’m just annoying. Maybe I have little in common with people around here. Maybe maybe maybe.

#YesterdayWeWentForAWalkAndWeSawSoManyBabiesAndToddlersThatIAmNotSureWhereTheyAllCameFrom

I recognised a couple of them, but there was a lot I’d never seen before.

#WeAreAllEnjoyingOurNewBedroomHangoutAtLeastAndItHelpsMixTheDaysUpABit

Now we can hang out downstairs, in our room, go for walks… It’s raining again. I’m so fed up with this weather. I do wonder how things would be if it wasn’t for Covid. I’m sure I’d be taking B out more – hanging out at coffee shops, there’d be more classes/groups perhaps, I wouldn’t be so scared of taking her to soft play etc. Oh well.

14 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait with my top lifted up so my belly is on show. I am staring down at it.
Don’t Touch My Belly (14 and a half weeks)
 
#14AndAHalfWeeks
#IWentToWrite13AndThenIHadToThinkAboutIt
#IAmTryingToNotMakeEveryPhotoShootAboutMyBellyButItIsKindOfWhereTheActionIsHappening
#IDefinitelyHaveABumpNow
#EvenIfSomeOfItIsFoodAndTrappedWind
#ThereIsDefinitelyABellyGrowingThereSlowly
#TheChildWillBeHalfPortuguese
#WellTiagoIsABritishCitizenNowSoHeIsPortugueseBritishSoThatMessesUpTheMathsABit
#ButToMeTheChildWillBeHalfPortuguese
#AndHopefullyOneDayIWillGetPortugueseCitizenship
#ButAnywaysThePortugueseCultureIsABitDifferentToTheBritish
#TheyAreVeryTouchyInGeneral
#ThisWeekIHeardStoriesOfRandomPeopleTouchingYourBump
#ItIsBadEnoughHavingMyPortugueseFamilyTryingToTouchIt
#IToldOneMemberOffAndOnOurGoodbyeSheWentForIt
#EspeciallyAsISpentTheVisitBeingSoIllAndSickAndGrim
#AndIHaveNeverBeenFondOfMyStomachAnyways
#SoHavingItTouchedByPeopleIsSoAwkwardForMe
#AFriendAtLunchReachedOutAndTouchedAndIJustSatThereStillInShock
#TiagoToldThemToBeCarefulAsIBite
#IAmLikingHavingABumpAndIAmLookingForwardToSeeingItGrow
#IJustDoNotLikeAllTheAttentionThatItBrings
#IAmThinkingThatIfPeopleTouchMyBellyThenIWillHaveToTouchTheirsBackToSendAMessage
#YeahAwkwardAndAHalf
#IWouldNotTouchPeoplesBelliesWithoutAsking
#NotThatIWouldThinkOfAskingEitherAsItIsAllAwkwardToMe
#HoweverWhenAFriendWasPregnantACoupleOfYearsAgoTheBabyWasKickingAndSheAskedMeIfIWantedToFeel
#BecauseSheAskedMeAndIWasIntriguedISaidYes
#SoMaybeIMightInvitePeopleToTouchMyBellyAtSomePointButPleaseDoNotTouchItOrAskMeTo
#AsIHateSayingNoButIProbablyWillAndThenWeWillBothFeelAwkwardWhichIsNotNice

I definitely took more bare belly shots when I was pregnant with B. I guess this project is different as a lot of it is me imitating B, so I do not have as much time for belly shots.

I avoided a lot of belly touching with B due to Covid. I’ve had a few people touching it lately without asking and my blanket response is usually ‘you’re touching my lunch’. The same family member was touching my belly on our trip and I had to tell her no again. It was awkward, but I don’t like it.

I still wouldn’t touch someone’s bump without asking, but I also don’t feel the need to touch someone’s belly or bump. It’s quite weird to be honest.

I don’t think I ever invited someone to touch my bump other than Tiago, but then again I was heavily pregnant during the first UK lockdown.

I do try to get B to ‘engage’ with my bump, but she doesn’t get it. I do look forward to her sibling kicking and B being able to see the kicks/feel them. I can just imagine her laughing…


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Imitating B Hiding Using Her Hands (14 Weeks / 4th August 2021)

Self-portrait with my hands over my face, but showing my left eye.
Imitating B Hiding Using Her Hands (14 Weeks / 4th August 2021)
 
#SheLikesToPutOneHandInTheMiddleOfHerFaceAndOneOnTheSideOfHerFace
#MaybeSheIsNotTryingToHideButItSeemsLikeTheMostLogicalReasonWhySheIsDoingIt
#SheNowHasAClimbingFrameAndABouncyZebraSetUpInTheLivingRoom
#WeSetThemUpOnTheSameDayAndSheWasHavingABallGoingBetweenTheTwoThenClimbingOnAChair
#TheMorningAfterSheWokeUpAtSixForTheFirstTimeInAgesWhichMightHaveJustBeenAFluke
#SheKeepsWakingUpLoadsAtNightAtTheMomentAndIThinkItIsDueToTeething
#MoreTopTeethAreComingThroughAndIThinkSomeMolarsArePlanningToJoinSoon
#BrushingHerTeethIsSuchAFaffWhichPutsUsOffButWeNeedToStartTryingToDoItTwiceADay
#BrushingMyOwnTeethIsAlsoAFaffAndQuiteUnpleasant
#IFeelMySickestInTheEveningNowAndIDoNotLookForwardToBrushingMyTeeth
#IWasSickStraightAfterBrushingThemTwoNightsAgoAndTheTasteOfSickWasStillThereTwoHoursLater
#IDidNotHaveThisLingeringSickTasteWithBAsIWasUsuallyAlwaysSickFirstThingInTheMorning
#ItIsHorribleAndIWouldNotWishItOnAnyone
#IAmFourteenishWeeksNowWhichMeansIMustBeAThirdOfTheWayThroughThePregnancyNow
#IAmQuiteAnxiousAndEveryTimeIGetACrampIFeelNervous
#IAmPlanningToAnnounceMyPregnancyTomorrowAsIThinkItIsGettingHarderToHideInDanceVideos
#AndIHaveRanOutOfNonPregnancyRelatedImagesToPost
#IFeelAwkwardInCaseSomethingBadHappensButIGuessTheWholePointOfDocumentingAndSharingMyMotherhoodStoryIsItBeingAsHonestAsPossible
#IThinkIHaveAlreadyStartedToNestAsIAmSuddenlyEnjoyingSortingThroughOurStuffAndCleaning
#WeHaveMadeMoreSpaceInOurBedroomSoThatWeCanHangOutWithBInIt
#SoIThinkThisHasMadeMeWantToGetOrganisedAndToBeFairItIsBetterToDoItNowThanWhenTheBabyComes
#BHasSuddenlyStartedToMakeALotOfGNoisesAndJustMakesLotsOfSounds
#IWishIKnewWhatSheWasTryingToSay
#SheHasLearnedToSayYeahAndSheSaysItALotWhenIAskHerQuestionsButIDoNotKnowIfSheReallyUnderstandsWhatSheIsSaying
#SheIsSoSpeedyAndIsAbleToReachThingsThatAreFurtherAwayNowOnHerTipToes
#ThisMorningSheWasUpOnTheSofaRippingATissueIntoManyPieces
#SheStillDoesNotReallyWantToWalkInHerShoesSoINeedToPutThemOnHerEveryday
#SheIsDefinitelyDaddysLittleGirlWhoWantsToBeInHisArmsAtAnyOpportunity
#WhenHeGoesOutSheGetsUpsetButITellTiagoToMakeSureHeAlwaysSaysByeAndWeWillWaveHimOffForABit
#AndThenITryToDistractHerAndSheDoesUsuallyMoveOnAfterAMinute

#SheLikesToPutOneHandInTheMiddleOfHerFaceAndOneOnTheSideOfHerFace #MaybeSheIsNotTryingToHideButItSeemsLikeTheMostLogicalReasonWhySheIsDoingIt

Sometimes she just puts a hand on the side of her head, which may or may not be down to teething.

#SheNowHasAClimbingFrameAndABouncyZebraSetUpInTheLivingRoom

The climbing frame was supposed to come on a Friday, but eventually arrived on a Tuesday so she had to wait for the weekend for us to set it up.

#WeSetThemUpOnTheSameDayAndSheWasHavingABallGoingBetweenTheTwoThenClimbingOnAChair

My Nan got the zebra from a charity shop for four quid. Of course at first she loved the zebra more. They have the same one at the soft play place I took her to, but she was too young for it then and it had no batteries in it – the music adds a lot to it.

She likes to hang on the climbing frame and watch TV.

#TheMorningAfterSheWokeUpAtSixForTheFirstTimeInAgesWhichMightHaveJustBeenAFluke

I was hoping it was her new things wearing her out. Potentially so, but now she’s back to waking up between 5.15 and 5.45 again.

#SheKeepsWakingUpLoadsAtNightAtTheMomentAndIThinkItIsDueToTeething

She’ll wake up a lot until midnight and then she seems to conk out until 5 something. Actually I think I’m lying; she does wake up at one, two, four, whatever, except for last night.

#MoreTopTeethAreComingThroughAndIThinkSomeMolarsArePlanningToJoinSoon

I feel sorry for her. It must be so unpleasant.

#BrushingHerTeethIsSuchAFaffWhichPutsUsOffButWeNeedToStartTryingToDoItTwiceADay

I feel embarrassed to admit that we have only been brushing her teeth once a day, but we need to start doing it more. I’m not looking forward to it.

#BrushingMyOwnTeethIsAlsoAFaffAndQuiteUnpleasant

I tried changing my toothpaste but that hasn’t really helped.

#IFeelMySickestInTheEveningNowAndIDoNotLookForwardToBrushingMyTeeth

I think sometimes I eat too much in the evenings, so last night I tried eating a bit less. I still felt sick, but I managed to not be sick after brushing my teeth at night.

#IWasSickStraightAfterBrushingThemTwoNightsAgoAndTheTasteOfSickWasStillThereTwoHoursLater

I could not be bothered to have a shower, but I did the gargling, constant nose blowing, spitting etc. After I lay down for bed a lot more came up. It’s horrid.

#IDidNotHaveThisLingeringSickTasteWithBAsIWasUsuallyAlwaysSickFirstThingInTheMorning

Lucky me. It wasn’t bad at all then as it was water that would come up.

#ItIsHorribleAndIWouldNotWishItOnAnyone

It’s so horrid.

#IAmFourteenishWeeksNowWhichMeansIMustBeAThirdOfTheWayThroughThePregnancyNow

I thought with B I’d be a 42-weeker. This time I do not want to be, but you never know.

#IAmQuiteAnxiousAndEveryTimeIGetACrampIFeelNervous

I don’t know how people can be chill for their whole pregnancy. Is anyone?

#IAmPlanningToAnnounceMyPregnancyTomorrowAsIThinkItIsGettingHarderToHideInDanceVideos #AndIHaveRanOutOfNonPregnancyRelatedImagesToPost

This makes it sounds like people care. No one cares, but for me it is a big deal. I’ve been dragging out posting my non pregnancy related stuff for a while – going down from two posts a week to one. Now I need to post a backlog of stuff…

#IFeelAwkwardInCaseSomethingBadHappensButIGuessTheWholePointOfDocumentingAndSharingMyMotherhoodStoryIsItBeingAsHonestAsPossible

With B I waited until after I was 20 weeks, but that was because it took so long to get my syndrome results back. I’m hoping sharing my story this time might help others who may be at similar stage – I’m bored of reading comments on different platforms about people being dumb for getting pregnant during a pandemic.

#IThinkIHaveAlreadyStartedToNestAsIAmSuddenlyEnjoyingSortingThroughOurStuffAndCleaning

I just wish I had more time to do it. Yesterday B was sat on the floor with me while I tried to sort through things. I’m playing my favourite game of ‘would I pay £5 to ship this book to keep it?’ I need to be quite ruthless.

#WeHaveMadeMoreSpaceInOurBedroomSoThatWeCanHangOutWithBInIt

We’ve lived with my Nan for 9 months now. We’re grateful, but we need some more space to ourselves. We keep looking at moving out, but we are looking for something short term now and there is not much about. By us living with her she gets support, and we also get support. I think it is normal to want more space, though I feel bad for saying these things.

#SoIThinkThisHasMadeMeWantToGetOrganisedAndToBeFairItIsBetterToDoItNowThanWhenTheBabyComes

I do not think that I will be nesting to the same level as when B was born, as I will have B to look after. Also with how our living arrangement is it will be harder to organise things without waking one of them up.

#BHasSuddenlyStartedToMakeALotOfGNoisesAndJustMakesLotsOfSounds

No gaga yet, but just a lot of riffing on g sounds.

#IWishIKnewWhatSheWasTryingToSay

It might not be too long now before she talks more.

#SheHasLearnedToSayYeahAndSheSaysItALotWhenIAskHerQuestionsButIDoNotKnowIfSheReallyUnderstandsWhatSheIsSaying

‘Do you want some water?’ ‘Yeah’ Does she really want some water though?

#SheIsSoSpeedyAndIsAbleToReachThingsThatAreFurtherAwayNowOnHerTipToes

If she hears a door open she is off. Life is just a game of moving things further away from B and her grasp.

#ThisMorningSheWasUpOnTheSofaRippingATissueIntoManyPieces

She had about four tissues at first, but I took them away except for one. She had a lot of fun ripping it up. I figured it’s good for a lot of skills, though I probably shouldn’t encourage her.

#SheStillDoesNotReallyWantToWalkInHerShoesSoINeedToPutThemOnHerEveryday

At the park yesterday she was just sat down by the swings. She did do a few steps at one point but she is not a fan.

#SheIsDefinitelyDaddysLittleGirlWhoWantsToBeInHisArmsAtAnyOpportunity

I do not mind as it gives me a break, and I know she sees me all the time so she’s not so bothered by me.

#WhenHeGoesOutSheGetsUpsetButITellTiagoToMakeSureHeAlwaysSaysByeAndWeWillWaveHimOffForABit

When I leave she does not care at all, which is good. Tiago will put B down and she will cry, but I have to tell him that once he has put her down he should not pick her up again – as I think she cries more as she knows he usually will pick her up again. It sounds mean, but he usually puts her down as he has things to do, so he needs to go do them.

#AndThenITryToDistractHerAndSheDoesUsuallyMoveOnAfterAMinute

This morning we waved bye through the window, then I took her to the living room before he’d pulled away and within 30 seconds she was fine.

13 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

(I don’t have a picture from 14 weeks, and I’ll save the 14 and a half weeks one for my next post.)

Self-portrait looking off to my lower left. I look quite tired and sick.
I Feel Like All I Write About At The Moment Is Vomit (13 Weeks)
 

#IFeelLikeAllIWriteAboutAtTheMomentIsVomit
#IHad2SickFreeDaysWhichWasMyLongestTimeSinceBeforeMyMorningSicknessBegan
#ThenIWasSickAt4AM
#AndItWasTheFirstOf9TimesInOneDay
#IAteABigMealOfRiceAndBeansTheNightBefore
#MyBrotherInLawLoadedMyPlateAndIForgotThatIHadBeenEatingSmallMealsALotLately
#IAteALotForBreakfastToo
#IWokeUpWithSuchAHeavyStomachThatIKnewTheOnlyWayIWouldFeelBetterWasToThrowUp
#ThenIHadToGoAgain20MinutesLater
#AndAnother20MinutesLater
#TiagoWentIntoTownToGetRehydrationSalts
#HeHadNeverHeardOfThemAndCameBackWith3SmallCartonsThatCostHim12Euros
#SoIDrankTheFirstVerySlowlyButIThinkItWentIntoTheToilet
#IFeltSoWeakAndIWasWorriedAboutTheBaby
#SoEvenAfterBeingSickIWouldTryToEatAgain
#EventuallyInTheEveningIManagedToKeepADrinkDown
#ThenTiagoStartedToBeSickAndIKnewItWasNotMorningSickness
#IThoughtMaybeItWasAStomachBugButIThoughtTheRiceHadJustUpsetMeALot
#ItRemindedMeOfBeingOnACaravanHolidayAtTheEndOfMiddleSchoolOrEarlyHighSchoolWhereIJustThrewUpFor24Hours
#IWouldNotWishSicknessOnMyWorstEnemy
#IFeltSoWeakAndHorrible
#IHopeIEnterTheNiceStageOfPregnancySoon
#IAmFeelingConcernedForTheBaby
#IAmStillNotCompletelyOverMyCold
#ItIsNiceBeingSomewhereSunnyForAWeek
#ButThereIsNothingLikeBeingAtHomeWithMyUsualRoutineAndFood
#MyAppetiteIsNotGreatAndIAmNotAbleToBuyThingsThatIUsuallyLikeToEat
#AndIThinkNotHavingMyUsualEatingRoutineMayHaveContributedToMySickness
#ButHopefullyEverythingIsOkay
#AndICanEnjoyTheLastCoupleOfDaysOfSunAndVitaminD

Well, I have been mentioning vomit a lot lately. I was more sick when I was pregnant with B though. Luckily my food aversions didn’t seem so bad this time too.

With this image/hashtags I think I must have actually had a stomach bug or something as Tiago was also sick at least once. We were visiting his brother in Portugal at time and I was really struggling to find food that I wanted to eat as all my usual favourite things weren’t really available.

I’m starting to feel sick just looking at this image and reading the hashtags…


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General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot II (13 Weeks / 1st August 2021)

I'm kneeling on the floor in my bra and leggings. I am holding my arms behind my back. My bump is slightly bigger than a similar photo I took before.
General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot II (13 Weeks / 1st August 2021)
 
#WellMyMainNewsIsThatIFinallyGotMyFirstVaccine
#MyMumTookMeWhileBNappedAndTiagoWorked
#TheNurseAskedIfIHadAnyConcernsAndIJustSaidIAmPregnantThoughItShowedItQuiteClearlyOnThePaperIHadToFillIn
#SheSaidToTalkToTheDoctorAndHeWasJustLikeIHaveVaccinatedEveryoneFromFourWeeksToPeopleWhoAreBreastfeedingIHaveNoConcerns
#ISaidAboutTheResearchIHadDoneAndHeSaidIProbablyKnewMoreThanHimAnyways
#IWasGoingToGetItButIJustWantedToSeeWhatTheNurseAndDoctorThoughtAsIKnowSomePeopleHaveBeenTurnedAwayOrAdvisedAgainstIt
#TheyAskedWhichArmIWantedItInAndIOfferedMyLeftButThenChangedItForMyRight
#IMainlyCarryBInMyLeftArmSoThoughtThatWasABetterOption
#TheDoctorInjectedItAndThenLeftSwiftlyAsIThinkHeWasJustGoingRoomToRoom
#TheNurseSaidToPutMyFeetUpForTheRestOfTheDayAndILaughedAsBDoesNotStop
#IHadToWaitFifteenMinutesAndWasRelievedThatTheRoomUpstairsWasFullSoIGotToWaitOutsideInTheTent
#WeWentToALargeSupermarketOnTheWayHomeAndICanNotRememberTheLastTimeIWentInOne
#IBasicallyBoughtAllTheThingsThatIHaveBeenCravingForAges
#IFeelSoRelievedToHaveGottenTheVaccineThoughIAmAlsoCountingDownUntilICanHaveMySecondInLessThanEightWeeks
#MyArmWasVeryHeavyTheFirstNightWhichIThinkWasAggravatedFromCarryingBAbout
#TheNextDayItWasLessSoAndNowIAmBackToBeingAbleToStretchProperlyWhichIsGood
#IHaveHadSomeHeadachesAndBeenQuiteTiredButThatMightAlsoBeDownToChasingAroundAnActiveToddlerAndBeingPregnantAsTheyAreNotNewFeelingsForMe
#IWasGoingToSayTheOtherDayThatIFeelLikeThePrimeMinisterStoppedCaringAboutPregnantPeopleWhenHisNowWifeGaveBirthButItTurnsOutSheIsPregnantAgain
#OurPregnancyJourneysHaveBeenFairlySimilarByTheSoundsOfIt
#TheResultsOfTheNeckTissueCheckAndBloodTestForSyndromesCameBackInThreeDaysAndIAmVeryLowRisk
#IThoughtIWouldNotFindOutUntilALotLaterAsLastTimeIDidNotKnowUntil21Weeks
#ButThenIRememberedThatTheLetterGotLostInThePostLastTimeAndIEndedUpHavingToPhoneSomeoneWhenIRealisedIShouldHaveReallyHeardByThen
#TheOtherDayIHadToCallToBookAMidwifeAppointmentForSixteenWeeksAsIWillMissMineAndTheWomanWhoTookMyBloodsToldMeTo
#IHadBeenPuttingItOffAsIWasNotReallySureWhatIWasAskingForButTheWomanOnReceptionGotItAfterAWhileAndItIsBookedNow
#MyBreakfastBurritoCravingWentAwayButNowIJustHaveAScrambledEggAndHashbrownToastedSandwichForBreakfastWhichIsGreat
#IHadNotBeenSickForFourDaysButThenIAteSoMuchBakedCamembertYesterdayThatMyBodyWasSoUpset
#IWasSickAgainTwentyMinutesLaterAndIEvenSearchedForHowToGetRidOfTheTasteOfSickInYourMouth
#IHadAShowerAndBlewMyNoseAndGargledALotAndDrankALotOfWaterAndChangedMyClothesAndItHelpedALot
#MyNewThingWithBIsBeforeIPutHerDownForANapOrBedtimeIsIMassageMoisturiserIntoHerFeetAsSheIsGenerallyBareFootAndTheyGetDry
#IAlsoDoHerLegsAndItSeemsToReallyChillHerOutAndSometimesSheNearlyFallsAsleepSoINeedToLearnMoreAboutFullBodyToddlerMassage

(The image is a remake of this shoot:

I'm kneeling on the floor in my bra and leggings. I am holding my arms behind my back. I have a small bump.
General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot (9 Weeks? / 28th June 2021)

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Well, I seem to have written an essay again…

#WellMyMainNewsIsThatIFinallyGotMyFirstVaccine

After all the um-ing and ah-ing, this Instagram Live really sold it to me. The advice has been quite inconsistent until now (GP said to get it when I said I was pregnant, midwives said to wait until 16 weeks etc.)

#MyMumTookMeWhileBNappedAndTiagoWorked

I don’t drive, not keen on getting public transport (especially while pregnant and not vaccinated), and all the places giving jabs are far away. I booked it for when my Mum usually visits, and when B naps so it worked out well. Thanks Mum.

#TheNurseAskedIfIHadAnyConcernsAndIJustSaidIAmPregnantThoughItShowedItQuiteClearlyOnThePaperIHadToFillIn

A paper with lots of yes or no questions – have you tested positive for Covid in the last 28 days, have you had another vaccine in the last 7 days etc etc.

#SheSaidToTalkToTheDoctorAndHeWasJustLikeIHaveVaccinatedEveryoneFromFourWeeksToPeopleWhoAreBreastfeedingIHaveNoConcerns

He looked like he had been giving the same speech a lot lately, as he seemed so bored while saying it.

I have to add that this place was so organised and they knew what they were doing, but I guess they have been giving them for a while.

#ISaidAboutTheResearchIHadDoneAndHeSaidIProbablyKnewMoreThanHimAnyways #IWasGoingToGetItButIJustWantedToSeeWhatTheNurseAndDoctorThoughtAsIKnowSomePeopleHaveBeenTurnedAwayOrAdvisedAgainstIt

They were both very much for it. The nurse was talking about it giving me a peace of mind and stuff, which it has.

#TheyAskedWhichArmIWantedItInAndIOfferedMyLeftButThenChangedItForMyRight #IMainlyCarryBInMyLeftArmSoThoughtThatWasABetterOption

I did briefly panic looking between my two arms. I thought I’d made a mistake with my right, but I also mainly sleep on my left so it worked out well. Hurrah.

#TheDoctorInjectedItAndThenLeftSwiftlyAsIThinkHeWasJustGoingRoomToRoom

Busy man. Nurse to input information from the form. Doctor to just go round injecting lots of people.

#TheNurseSaidToPutMyFeetUpForTheRestOfTheDayAndILaughedAsBDoesNotStop

She did say ‘if you can’ as I had told her about B.

#IHadToWaitFifteenMinutesAndWasRelievedThatTheRoomUpstairsWasFullSoIGotToWaitOutsideInTheTent

I didn’t fancy being in a small room, even with social distancing. I was surprised how many people were turning up without masks, but they were quickly asked where it was and given a disposable one. The tent downstairs was very airy and I sat by a doorway.

#WeWentToALargeSupermarketOnTheWayHomeAndICanNotRememberTheLastTimeIWentInOne #IBasicallyBoughtAllTheThingsThatIHaveBeenCravingForAges

I did go a bit nuts… Small pleasures.

#IFeelSoRelievedToHaveGottenTheVaccineThoughIAmAlsoCountingDownUntilICanHaveMySecondInLessThanEightWeeks

I know it needs time to really work, but I do feel a bit more relaxed now.

#MyArmWasVeryHeavyTheFirstNightWhichIThinkWasAggravatedFromCarryingBAbout #TheNextDayItWasLessSoAndNowIAmBackToBeingAbleToStretchProperlyWhichIsGood

I was a bit worried about how I might react and thought that maybe I should have waited for the weekend, but it was fine.

#IHaveHadSomeHeadachesAndBeenQuiteTiredButThatMightAlsoBeDownToChasingAroundAnActiveToddlerAndBeingPregnantAsTheyAreNotNewFeelingsForMe

I have not been napping so much now that my energy is back a bit, so I usually get a headache by the evening which probably isn’t helped by a lot of screen time. Yesterday I couldn’t get up from my afternoon nap, but I had been up since 5.15am and didn’t nap in the morning…

#IWasGoingToSayTheOtherDayThatIFeelLikeThePrimeMinisterStoppedCaringAboutPregnantPeopleWhenHisNowWifeGaveBirthButItTurnsOutSheIsPregnantAgain #OurPregnancyJourneysHaveBeenFairlySimilarByTheSoundsOfIt

She had a kid in April 2020, I had a kid in June 2020, we both had miscarriages at the start of the year, she is due in December, I’m due in February…

#TheResultsOfTheNeckTissueCheckAndBloodTestForSyndromesCameBackInThreeDaysAndIAmVeryLowRisk

I don’t know what I would do if I was high risk for something, but luckily I do not have to think about it now I have my results.

#IThoughtIWouldNotFindOutUntilALotLaterAsLastTimeIDidNotKnowUntil21Weeks #ButThenIRememberedThatTheLetterGotLostInThePostLastTimeAndIEndedUpHavingToPhoneSomeoneWhenIRealisedIShouldHaveReallyHeardByThen

It’s one of the reasons why I took so long to announce my pregnancy last time, as I was not sure what we would do if I tested high risk for something. I am guessing I will announce my pregnancy the week after next, though I generally tell anyone that I am chatting to (if I remember). Especially when I see someone in person, as that never happens…

#TheOtherDayIHadToCallToBookAMidwifeAppointmentForSixteenWeeksAsIWillMissMineAndTheWomanWhoTookMyBloodsToldMeTo #IHadBeenPuttingItOffAsIWasNotReallySureWhatIWasAskingForButTheWomanOnReceptionGotItAfterAWhileAndItIsBookedNow

I tried to book an appointment online, but I could not see the option so I felt awkward about having to call. I think it was for the best that I did. I’m glad that’s sorted now though.

#MyBreakfastBurritoCravingWentAwayButNowIJustHaveAScrambledEggAndHashbrownToastedSandwichForBreakfastWhichIsGreat

I am getting hungry now writing this – it’s 7.10am.

#IHadNotBeenSickForFourDaysButThenIAteSoMuchBakedCamembertYesterdayThatMyBodyWasSoUpset

I am not really sure if I am ‘allowed’ to eat it, as some websites said no, and some said to make sure it’s really hot. I bought the camembert and garlic bread during my cravings trip.

#IWasSickAgainTwentyMinutesLaterAndIEvenSearchedForHowToGetRidOfTheTasteOfSickInYourMouth

I will not be eating camembert again for a while now. The combo of that and the garlic bread… ergh.

#IHadAShowerAndBlewMyNoseAndGargledALotAndDrankALotOfWaterAndChangedMyClothesAndItHelpedALot

I was sick twice. I ate dinner. The taste still lingered. It was grim. It’s worse when it’s just before bed though… Sorry if I’ve put you off your snack or whatever you may be consuming right now.

#MyNewThingWithBIsBeforeIPutHerDownForANapOrBedtimeIsIMassageMoisturiserIntoHerFeetAsSheIsGenerallyBareFootAndTheyGetDry

Sorry B, you’ve barely been mentioned in this post. I do it at least once a day and her legs are definitely quite soft now.

#IAlsoDoHerLegsAndItSeemsToReallyChillHerOutAndSometimesSheNearlyFallsAsleepSoINeedToLearnMoreAboutFullBodyToddlerMassage

I wish I had a massage before bedtime, but oh well. She seems to enjoy it and I sing to her softly or talk quietly. It’s a nice moment between us 🙂

13 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait in my bra and trousers. I have a bandage on my right arm from a blood test. In my left hand I am holding a tissue and I am coughing. My nose is a bit red.
My Due Date Got Put Back To Its Original One (Nearly 13 Weeks)
 
#SoIHadMy12WeekScanToday
#AndTheyPutMeBackToMyOriginalDueDate
#WhichMeansIAmNearly13Weeks
#TheAppointmentWasQuiteEarlyInTheMorning
#WhichIsGoodForGettingOnWithTheDay
#ButBadIfYouAreSupposedToDrink2PintsOfWaterAnHourBefore
#AsWellAsEatWhenYouHaveMorningSickness
#IDidNotDrinkEnoughSoHeCouldNotTakeMeasurementsProperly 
#ButHeCheckedThatThereWere2ArmsAnd2Legs
#AndWeWereRelievedToSeeAHeartbeatAsIHaveBeenIll
#TheGuyWasABitAnnoyedButHeSaidToGoDrinkWaterAndHeWouldTryToSeeMeIn40MinutesOrSo
#SoIWentAndDrankALotOfWaterButNotTooMuchThatIfIWaited40MinutesThenIWouldNeedTheToiletBadly
#After25MinsHeCameOutAndSaidTheNextPersonHadNotShowedUpSoWeCouldTryAgain
#INeededTheToilet
#HeSaysMyWombSeemsQuiteLowDownInGeneralSoINeedToDrinkMoreForScans
#HeManagedToTakeTheMeasurementsAndToldMeMyNewOldDueDate
#ThenIHadToHaveBloodsTakenAgain
#ItHurtWayMoreThanTheOtherTimes
#GoodJobIHadDrankALotOfWaterAndManagedToEat
#ItCameOutQuiteEasily
#TheWomanWasNice
#SheSaidSomeoneCalledAndSaidTheyHadNorovirusButWantedToKnowIfTheyCouldComeInAnyways
#IAmGladSheToldThemNo
#IAmBoredOfBeingIllAndSick
#ThisMorningWasSickNumber42
#IFeltSoSickThisEveningToo
#MorningSicknessIsSoMuchBetterThanEveningSickness
#IAmRelievedThatTheBabyIsFineButIAmAlsoFeelingAnxiousToo
#HopefullyTheScreeningResultsAreOkay
#IGuessWeJustHaveToWaitAndSee

Well, these photos actually fit well together. I guess I’m posting these comparisons a bit out of sync now and I’ll have to add another one to try to realign things.

I should have posted this image in the last post as it mentions the guy getting annoyed at me for not drinking enough water…

From the post: ‘#WithMyTwelveWeekAppointmentWithBIGotToldOffForNotHavingAFullEnoughBladderAndGotSentToDrinkMoreWater I still remember his annoyed face. I had not wanted to have a situation where I felt like I was going to piss myself, but obviously I was nowhere near that – plus the appointment was on time then.’

I have definitely been less sick this time – I had a period of really trying not to be sick. This post mentions being sick for the 42nd time. I was sick about 56 times in total (that’s the number I documented in Puke Portraits), whereas Puke Portraits II is 32 images.

Close up of three of my fingers on my skin next to a bruise.
90% Of My Social Media Advertising Now Is To Do With Pregnancy (Nearly 13 Weeks)
 
#ThisMorningINoticedThatIHadABigBruiseOnTheSideOfMyBumSlashTopOfMyHip
#ThenINoticedSomeStretchMarks
#TheStretchMarksMightJustBeFromMyUsualChangingWeightAndExercisingAsIHaveHadThemThereBefore
#OrItCouldBeDoToPregnancyOrABitOfBoth
#NinetyPercentOfMySocialMediaAdvertisingNowIsToDoWithPregnancy
#AndALotOfItIsToDoWithGettingRidOfStretchMarks
#EvenAtTheHospitalYesterdayThereWasAScreenWithAdvertisingOnItAndTheyWereTryingToSellSomeStretchMarkReductionDevice
#IFilledInSomeSurveyTodayToDoWithBodyImageAndPregnancy
#ToBeFairIAmQuiteEarlyAlongButItWasTalkingAboutThePressuresToLookGoodAndHowIFeltBeforePregnancyVersusNow
#ItWasBoringAsHellAndIWasSadToSeeThereWasNoOtherCommentsBox
#IWantedToTalkAboutThePressureIFeelAlreadyToNotHaveStretchMarksAndWhatever
#SomeoneAlreadyBoughtMeSomeBodyMassageStuffToHelpPreventThem
#WhichDoesSmellNiceAndFeelsNice
#ButIWeirdlyWantToHaveSomeStretchMarksOrAtLeastIFeelThatWayRightNow
#MaybeThatIsDumbButIHaveAlwaysCalledThemTigerStripes
#ThoughToBeFairThereAreTheLittleOnesAndThereAreThoseBigRedOnesWhichActuallyLookPainfulSoYeahIDoNotWantThoseOnesReally
#InTheLastWeekOnFacebookIHaveHadAdsForPregnancyForBabyStuffForToddlerStuffForIVFStuffForDoIWantToDonateEggsStuffForDoIWantToBeASurrogateStuff
#ItIsABitBloodyMuch
#YesIAmSavingLinksToThingsAndOnInstagramThoughIDoNotWantToBuyAnythingUntil6MonthsAlong
#INeverNoticedBeforeHowFrequentAdsAreOnInstagram
#Every3Or4PostsOrStoriesWhichJustFeelsABitMuch
#SuperExpensiveBabyStuffOrReallyExpensiveClothes
#OrPuttingPressureOnWomenToLookACertainWayDuringPregnancyOrStraightAfter
#IHaveReadThatStretchMarksAreDownToGeneticsMoreThanAnythingAndALotOfProductsHaveNotBeenClinicallyProvenToWork
#ThereWasAnAdForADeviceToHelpYouGetAFlatStomachAfterBirthOnFacebook
#TheWomanLookedLikeYourUsualSmallModelAndHadASmallBump
#MostOfTheCommentsWereJustComplainingAboutHowTheWomenInTheseAdsAreAlwaysTinyAnyways
#IJustWantToSeeMorePositiveThingsAboutStretchMarksAndAfterPregnancy
#IWouldRatherHaveAdsForOtherThingsLikeFoodOrHolidaysOrThingsICanIgnoreButObviouslyThatIsNotHowAdvertisingWorks
#IRealiseThatThisPictureIsMoreAboutMyBruiseThanStretchMarks

I haven’t really noticed too many stretch marks this time, but I also haven’t really been looking for them. I’ve been using the same oil that I used last time though, as well as another one that I bought for after I gave birth but only opened last week.

I have felt less pressure about my body this time. Maybe it’s because I do not really see many people, but also I try to go out once or twice a day and I stretch in the morning and evening. My body feels strong and I know there is not much more that I could be doing. I do worry that I will not have time to stretch once baby X is born, but if I can faff on social media for 5 minutes, then I can stretch.

I also didn’t have many marks after B was born, but maybe it’s because she was quite small and arrived early, so it may be different this time.


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