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Oh Me, Oh Mãe II

First Family Portrait As A Family Of Four (25th / 27th February 2022)

Family portrait where T is sat on the floor cradling L, I am kneeling on the floor with B on my lap. B is kissing L's head.
First Family Portrait As A Family Of Four (25th / 27th February 2022)
 
#IAmWritingThisOnThe25thWithTheHopeThatWeWillDoAFamilyPortraitOverTheWeekend
#ICanNotBelieveThatLIsTwoWeeksOldAlreadyThoughItAlsoSeemsLikeSheIsALotOlder
#SheIsSoAlertAndIDefinitelyFeelALotMoreRelaxedWithHerThanIWasWithBAtThisPoint
#ThoughIAmStillYetToBatheHerByMyselfAndSheHasALotOfMilkSpotsAndDrySkin
#IFeelBetterThoughAsBreastfeedingIsGoingSoWellAndSoIDoNotHaveToFaffSoMuchThisTime
#WeHadToTakeHerOutToAnAppointmentToGetWeighedAndSheHadOnlyPutOn20gSoWeHadToGoBackTwoDaysLater
#ThatTimeSheHadPutOn60gAndWasOverHerBirthWeightSoWeHaveBothBeenDischarged
#AtThisPointBabiesAreSoSmallThatTheWeightDifferenceMightBeLargelyDownToWhetherOrNotTheyHaveBeenToTheToiletRecentlyThoughIThink
#IWasWorriedThatMaybeMyMilkWasNotGoodEnoughAndWeWouldHaveToSupplementSoItWasARelief
#BreastfeedingLHasMadeMeRealiseHowMuchGuiltIHaveOverFeedingB
#IThinkAsIStruggledSoMuchInTheBeginningItJustMadeMeWantToPumpAndIAskedTiagoToFeedHerALot
#ThisMeantIWasQuiteDistantFromBAndWhenIDidTryIHatedHowSoreMyNipplesWere
#IJustReallyDidNotEnjoyMyBreastfeedingExperienceWithHerThoughIWasSadWhenItEndedEarlierThanIHopedItWould
#ThenIFeltLikeIWasRemindedAboutMyQuoteFailureUnquoteConstantlyOnSocialMedia
#OfCourseIKnowThatWritingLikeThisMightMakeOthersFeelBadAndEvenSayingThatBreastfeedingIsGoingBetterThisTimeMightBeHardForOthersToHear
#LHasPositionalTalipesSoIAmHavingToMassageTheInsidesOfHerFeet
#TheLastCoupleOfDaysIHaveManagedToTakeThemOutByMyselfWhichHasGreatlyImprovedMyMood
#WeBoughtAPushchairThatCouldExpandToHoldTwoKidsNotKnowingIfWeWouldHaveTwoKidsButObviouslyHopingSo
#ItIsABitOfATankToPushButBSeemsToLikeHerNewSeatAndIsOkayAtBeingPutInItRatherThanRunningAround
#TheMoreTiredIAmAndMoreStuckAtHomeIFeelTheMoreEmotionalIAmSoIAmTryingToHelpMyselfBeTheBestVersionOfMyself
#IHadAGoodCryWhenTiagoWentBackToWorkAndIWasTryingToFigureOutHowToLookAfterBothOfThemByMyselfAsNapTimeApproached
#IFeelLikeINeedToNotOverDoThingsThoughAsOtherwiseIGetQuiteAchyAndINeedToNotDoSomeHeavyLiftingForAWhile
#ThatIsHardAsBFeelsReallyHeavyToMeNowButINeedToLimitHowOftenIPickHerUp
#LuckilySheIsMoreOfADaddysGirlAndDoesNotMindMeHoldingLAllTheTime
#UnfortunatelyItIsToughForTiagoWhenHeWantsToHoldLForABitAsBThenWantsToBeHeldToo
#SheDoesSoonSeemToGetOverItButWeJustNeedToKeepAnEyeOnBothOfThem
#BIsInAThrowingStageStillAndThrewMyShoeAtLWhichIsNotGood
#ICanUnderstandThatSheMustBeGettingSoFrustratedAtNotBeingAbleToExpressHerselfProperly
#IAmGoingToSignLUpForAClassToGoToWhileBIsAtNurseryJustToGetOutOfTheHouse
#CovidRulesAreLessStrictOrPrettyMuchNonExistentButIStillFeelCautious

#IAmWritingThisOnThe25thWithTheHopeThatWeWillDoAFamilyPortraitOverTheWeekend

I think it will be chaotic, but it will be nice to have a record of our early days together. (Well, we managed it a couple of days later. I was dreading it all day, but it actually went quite well. Phew!)

#ICanNotBelieveThatLIsTwoWeeksOldAlreadyThoughItAlsoSeemsLikeSheIsALotOlder

I went from feeling so unprepared to just getting on with it.

#SheIsSoAlertAndIDefinitelyFeelALotMoreRelaxedWithHerThanIWasWithBAtThisPoint

I guess I knew how to look after a newborn, but it does feel like a long time since B was so small (and she was smaller as she was 6 pounds 4 when born and L was 9 pounds 9).

#ThoughIAmStillYetToBatheHerByMyselfAndSheHasALotOfMilkSpotsAndDrySkin

At least her neck is stronger, but I do not enjoy the early days of cleaning and changing – she feels so fragile.

#IFeelBetterThoughAsBreastfeedingIsGoingSoWellAndSoIDoNotHaveToFaffSoMuchThisTime

I’ve pumped (well more massaged) a couple of times, though not in a week, but I hope I will not have to do much of it. I just get worried about getting mastitis, but now I know that if she does not have it all now she might have it at the next feed.

#WeHadToTakeHerOutToAnAppointmentToGetWeighedAndSheHadOnlyPutOn20gSoWeHadToGoBackTwoDaysLater

Getting a newborn ready for appointments is a stress. Luckily B had nursery during the appointments.

#ThatTimeSheHadPutOn60gAndWasOverHerBirthWeightSoWeHaveBothBeenDischarged

Hurrah.

#AtThisPointBabiesAreSoSmallThatTheWeightDifferenceMightBeLargelyDownToWhetherOrNotTheyHaveBeenToTheToiletRecentlyThoughIThink

The second time we were late as she was hungry and I thought it might make the difference between her being over or under. We arrived and they were running late anyways, so had to wait for a while. Tiago just waited in the car and worked both times.

#IWasWorriedThatMaybeMyMilkWasNotGoodEnoughAndWeWouldHaveToSupplementSoItWasARelief

I think she just burns it off quickly as she is so alert and often does not sleep for two hours.

#BreastfeedingLHasMadeMeRealiseHowMuchGuiltIHaveOverFeedingB #IThinkAsIStruggledSoMuchInTheBeginningItJustMadeMeWantToPumpAndIAskedTiagoToFeedHerALot #ThisMeantIWasQuiteDistantFromBAndWhenIDidTryIHatedHowSoreMyNipplesWere #IJustReallyDidNotEnjoyMyBreastfeedingExperienceWithHerThoughIWasSadWhenItEndedEarlierThanIHopedItWould

I think I purposely made myself distant from B as I felt so bad about breastfeeding. I was also not letting Tiago get the sleep he needed, so I think it is much better this time around.

#ThenIFeltLikeIWasRemindedAboutMyQuoteFailureUnquoteConstantlyOnSocialMedia

I follow a lot of mothering/parenting accounts and so I felt like I was just constantly reminded of what a rubbish job I was doing.

My nipples have been sore this time, but as I could not feed her with nipple shields I just had to persevere and it’s alright. I still need to correct her latch at times.

#OfCourseIKnowThatWritingLikeThisMightMakeOthersFeelBadAndEvenSayingThatBreastfeedingIsGoingBetterThisTimeMightBeHardForOthersToHear

This post isn’t to make others feel bad, I just want to say how I feel and how I felt.

#LHasPositionalTalipesSoIAmHavingToMassageTheInsidesOfHerFeet

B had some form of talipes – I just searched on my blog and she also had positional talipes, though I never got told to do the massage with her. B had to wear double nappies for a bit due to clicky hips.

#TheLastCoupleOfDaysIHaveManagedToTakeThemOutByMyselfWhichHasGreatlyImprovedMyMood

Feeling like I’m not just stuck in the house makes a big difference – and preparing to leave the house takes up a lot of time which helps to pass time.

#WeBoughtAPushchairThatCouldExpandToHoldTwoKidsNotKnowingIfWeWouldHaveTwoKidsButObviouslyHopingSo

So it’s worked out well.

#ItIsABitOfATankToPushButBSeemsToLikeHerNewSeatAndIsOkayAtBeingPutInItRatherThanRunningAround

Before I’d let her walk a bit or walk all the way to the playground. Maybe I will again at some point but for now it is better if she sits in her seat. This seat is better as she can not wriggle down and escape like she could in her old one – where she used to sit is now the bassinet with L.

#TheMoreTiredIAmAndMoreStuckAtHomeIFeelTheMoreEmotionalIAmSoIAmTryingToHelpMyselfBeTheBestVersionOfMyself

I think I will have a lie down after this if L isn’t awake by then.

#IHadAGoodCryWhenTiagoWentBackToWorkAndIWasTryingToFigureOutHowToLookAfterBothOfThemByMyselfAsNapTimeApproached

My Mum had gone home and I suddenly felt overwhelmed. I felt better after the nap. The next time I let B eat lunch in the living room instead and it was a lot more relaxed.

#IFeelLikeINeedToNotOverDoThingsThoughAsOtherwiseIGetQuiteAchyAndINeedToNotDoSomeHeavyLiftingForAWhile

My body went through a lot carrying and pushing out a 9 pounds 9 baby so I definitely need to be kinder to myself.

#ThatIsHardAsBFeelsReallyHeavyToMeNowButINeedToLimitHowOftenIPickHerUp

Yesterday I picked her up a lot and then made dinner (enchiladas that I slaved over for ages and were quite disappointing). I need to make quicker meals and sit down more…

#LuckilySheIsMoreOfADaddysGirlAndDoesNotMindMeHoldingLAllTheTime

Phew – must be hard for people whose oldest is the opposite.

#UnfortunatelyItIsToughForTiagoWhenHeWantsToHoldLForABitAsBThenWantsToBeHeldToo

🙁

#SheDoesSoonSeemToGetOverItButWeJustNeedToKeepAnEyeOnBothOfThem

After a walk I will leave L in her bassinet to finish her nap and it seems like a safe place to leave her while I try to make dinner.

#BIsInAThrowingStageStillAndThrewMyShoeAtLWhichIsNotGood

She brought my shoes to me (without me asking) before we went for a walk. I thought she might throw one so I took it off her, turned around to do up the baby carrier and turned back to see my other shoe bouncing and L started to cry…

#ICanUnderstandThatSheMustBeGettingSoFrustratedAtNotBeingAbleToExpressHerselfProperly

Terrible twos are coming. I don’t think she’s terrible and I think she’s a good kid, but yeah the frustrations of not being able to communicate as you would like must be hard.

#IAmGoingToSignLUpForAClassToGoToWhileBIsAtNurseryJustToGetOutOfTheHouse

At this point the class is definitely more for me than for her. I’m sure she won’t mind.

#CovidRulesAreLessStrictOrPrettyMuchNonExistentButIStillFeelCautious

Luckily the teacher of the class I want to do still seems to want to keep precautions in place. Phew.


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Pregnancy Waiting II

No, I Have Not Given Birth Yet (40 Weeks / 5th February 2022)

I wasn’t sure what shoot to do today. I was thinking a family shoot, but it’s easier to just do one by myself and save the next family shoot for the four of us. It also might be the last shoot that I do while pregnant, so I want to document my bump well.

Head to knee portrait. I am wearing a black top and black leggings. My top is pulled up to my bra and my leggings are pulled up to my belly button. My right hand is on my hip and my left hand is resting on my bump.
No, I Have Not Given Birth Yet (40 Weeks / 5th February 2022)
 
#IHaveDefinitelyBeenOnHighAlertForWeeksForNoReason
#IHadAMidwifeAppointmentThisWeekAndTiagoWasActuallyAvailableToBeAtTheAppointmentWithoutBForOnce
#HoweverTheyWouldNotLetHimInAsTheySaidTheyHaveToProtectTheOtherWomenWhichIsFairEnough
#IMainlyWantedHimThereAsIWantedToDeclineASweepButSheWasTotallyFineWithMeSayingNoWhichIsHowItShouldBe
#ISaidIFeltLikeThingsWereHappeningAndWhenSheCheckedBumpSheSaidItWasTight
#IHadNotEvenNoticedAndIGuessItWasABraxtonHicksContractionWhichIThinkIHaveBeenHavingALotOf
#BabyWasHeadDownWithAGoodHeartbeatSoSheTriedToBookMeInForAnInductionAtTheLatestPossibleDate
#TheyAreFullyBookedSoINeedToCallOnTheMorningOfThatDayButIAmHopingTheBabyWillBeHereByThen
#BetweenNowAndThenIHaveAnotherMidwifeAppointmentWhereTheyWillOfferMeASweep
#IAmCurrentlyOnTheFenceAboutWhetherIWillAcceptItOrNot
#LastNightWeOrderedIndianFoodAndIFeltSoHungryAndCouldNotStopEating
#IThinkTheBabyHasDroppedNowSoIDoNotGetAcidRefluxAsMuchSoITryToEatWhenIFeelLikeIt
#ACoupleOfNightsThisWeekIHaveGoneDownstairsToEatASnackAround3InTheMorning
#WhenIWasInLabourWithBIReallyCouldNotEatSoIAmJustTryingToGiveMyBodyAsMuchEnergyAsPossibleInCaseIDoNotFeelLikeEatingAgain
#ISleptSoBadlyLastNightAndItWasHorrible
#IWouldGenerallySleepForAnHourAndThenBeAwakeForTwoHours
#BHasBeenSleepingWellButLastNightSheWasAwakeForABitTooWhichThrewMeOffABit
#IHadToUseANoiseMachineToHelpMeSleepAndLaterIListenedToOnlyTimeByEnyaOnRepeatAndFeltQuiteRelaxed
#WhenICanNotSleepIHaveBeenReadingNewPostsOnAGroupForWomenWhoAreDueThisMonth
#EveryoneSeemsInARushToHaveTheirBabyBeforeTheirDueDateAndGettingUpsetWhenTheirDueDateComesWithNoSigns
#IWantToWriteALotButIAlsoDoNotWantToAnnoyEveryoneBySayingYouAllJustNeedToChillOutAndRelax
#SoInsteadISayNothingAndJustReadWhichIsNotVeryHelpful
#IfIGetToThePointOfNeedingAnInductionThenTiagoIsAllowedToBeThereWithMeWhichIsGood
#ThisDefinitelyFeelsLikeAVeryDifferentExperienceThisTimeAsWithBIHadNoneOfThisWaitingAround
#LastNightIWasCryingAtAVideoOfABoyMeetingHisLittleSisterForTheFirstTimeAsHeWasGettingSoEmotional
#IAlsoCriedALotAtVideosOfGrandmothersSeeingTheirGrandchildrenForTheFirstTimeInALongTimeDueToThePandemic
#IReadAnArticleAboutToddlersAndThePandemicAndHowItMayBeAffectingTheirSocialSkills
#BIsDefinitelyGettingMoreUsedToPeopleInTheNeighbourhoodAndLikesToStrokeDogsMoreWhichHisNice
#IThinkHerGoingToNurseryIsGoodForHerAndSheNowRunsAroundThePlaygroundWithHerFriendWhichIsReallyNiceToSee
#IKeepSayingItButICanNotWaitToSeeHowSheReactsToHerSister

#IHaveDefinitelyBeenOnHighAlertForWeeksForNoReason

I think most people who see my bump on the regular thought I would not still be pregnant. A couple of people we see around commented yesterday that my bump has changed shape.

#IHadAMidwifeAppointmentThisWeekAndTiagoWasActuallyAvailableToBeAtTheAppointmentWithoutBForOnce #HoweverTheyWouldNotLetHimInAsTheySaidTheyHaveToProtectTheOtherWomenWhichIsFairEnough

So he went back to the car and did some work. He wasn’t bothered.

#IMainlyWantedHimThereAsIWantedToDeclineASweepButSheWasTotallyFineWithMeSayingNoWhichIsHowItShouldBe

For some reason I thought I’d have to put up a fight, which I said to her but she said ‘no, we just have to offer it’.

#ISaidIFeltLikeThingsWereHappeningAndWhenSheCheckedBumpSheSaidItWasTight #IHadNotEvenNoticedAndIGuessItWasABraxtonHicksContractionWhichIThinkIHaveBeenHavingALotOf

I’ve always said I’m not really sure what are kicks and what are Braxton Hicks, but after a bit more reading it seems like BH makes your bump go tight for quite a while. I was having a lot of them last night.

#BabyWasHeadDownWithAGoodHeartbeatSoSheTriedToBookMeInForAnInductionAtTheLatestPossibleDate #TheyAreFullyBookedSoINeedToCallOnTheMorningOfThatDayButIAmHopingTheBabyWillBeHereByThen

She said a date and I asked if that was as long as I’d be allowed to go. She said yes. Bit disappointed as I’ve heard of people having a bit more time, but I would be surprised if I get that far.

#BetweenNowAndThenIHaveAnotherMidwifeAppointmentWhereTheyWillOfferMeASweep #IAmCurrentlyOnTheFenceAboutWhetherIWillAcceptItOrNot

I have some time, I might not get that far. I keep saying it, but who knows.

#LastNightWeOrderedIndianFoodAndIFeltSoHungryAndCouldNotStopEating

It was so good. We have leftovers for today. I could go and just eat it all now – I’m going to eat after I finish writing this.

#IThinkTheBabyHasDroppedNowSoIDoNotGetAcidRefluxAsMuchSoITryToEatALotWhenIFeelLikeIt

Though I’ve been feeling a bit sick lately, but it might be due to my hormones changing for labour?

#ACoupleOfNightsThisWeekIHaveGoneDownstairsToEatASnackAround3InTheMorning

Always a samosa with some spicy tomato and onion relish. Yum.

#WhenIWasInLabourWithBIReallyCouldNotEatSoIAmJustTryingToGiveMyBodyAsMuchEnergyAsPossibleInCaseIDoNotFeelLikeEatingAgain

I feel quite thirsty as well, so I’m trying to stay as hydrated and fed as possible. I need to rest more though.

#ISleptSoBadlyLastNightAndItWasHorrible

I dislike lying awake trying to sleep for ages.

#IWouldGenerallySleepForAnHourAndThenBeAwakeForTwoHours

Fun times.

#BHasBeenSleepingWellButLastNightSheWasAwakeForABitTooWhichThrewMeOffABit

We had to go in a couple of times. Tiago changed her nappy as she’d had a bath, and she likes to drink a lot of water in the bath…

#IHadToUseANoiseMachineToHelpMeSleepAndLaterIListenedToOnlyTimeByEnyaOnRepeatAndFeltQuiteRelaxed

Weirdly I had that song scheduled for today on my YouTube channel – I danced to it a while ago so had no clue.

Cue me looking up Enya’s wikipedia page during my reading rampage.

#WhenICanNotSleepIHaveBeenReadingNewPostsOnAGroupForWomenWhoAreDueThisMonth

That and undoing all the good phone behaviour I had the other month.

#EveryoneSeemsInARushToHaveTheirBabyBeforeTheirDueDateAndGettingUpsetWhenTheirDueDateComesWithNoSigns #IWantToWriteALotButIAlsoDoNotWantToAnnoyEveryoneBySayingYouAllJustNeedToChillOutAndRelax #SoInsteadISayNothingAndJustReadWhichIsNotVeryHelpful

I’m sure I’d just piss them all off with my comments, so I’m better off staying quiet.

#IfIGetToThePointOfNeedingAnInductionThenTiagoIsAllowedToBeThereWithMeWhichIsGood

They asked me if I wanted an in or out patient induction. I had no clue about the difference, so luckily her phone went dead so I had some time to ask her a bit more before she rang back. An out patient means I would be given a pessary to use at home, labour at home, but I’d have to go in earlier that day or the day before for a scan. In patient means I’ll have it there, but we’ll have to go in at some point for Covid tests. In patient seems easier as my parents can have B and hopefully things would happen fast as I’d be so due. (I read that inductions happen more effectively the more pregnant you are.)

#ThisDefinitelyFeelsLikeAVeryDifferentExperienceThisTimeAsWithBIHadNoneOfThisWaitingAround

With B my waters broke, I went to hospital, they wouldn’t let me go home as she was breech and had me on a countdown to a c-section. Luckily I went into labour (by staying calm and relaxed) and just laboured at the hospital, then got transferred to the delivery suite when I was in established labour.

#LastNightIWasCryingAtAVideoOfABoyMeetingHisLittleSisterForTheFirstTimeAsHeWasGettingSoEmotional

He was a bit older than B, so I don’t think B will be reacting like that.

#IAlsoCriedALotAtVideosOfGrandmothersSeeingTheirGrandchildrenForTheFirstTimeInALongTimeDueToThePandemic

Bless them all.

#IReadAnArticleAboutToddlersAndThePandemicAndHowItMayBeAffectingTheirSocialSkills #BIsDefinitelyGettingMoreUsedToPeopleInTheNeighbourhoodAndLikesToStrokeDogsMoreWhichHisNice #IThinkHerGoingToNurseryIsGoodForHerAndSheNowRunsAroundThePlaygroundWithHerFriendWhichIsReallyNiceToSee

I’m not too concerned. I think her seeing my Nan everyday is good, and we see my Mum a lot so at least she has not just been stuck in a bubble with me and T for the last 15 months.

#IKeepSayingItButICanNotWaitToSeeHowSheReactsToHerSister

I showed her the video of the siblings this morning and she seemed quite captivated.


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Pregnancy Waiting II

39 Weeks Is Definitely A Big Milestone (39 Weeks / 26th January 2022)

Remake of an image I made when I was 30 weeks pregnant. It is a self-portrait from head to knees. I am nude and my left arm is across my breasts and clasping my right upper arm. My right hand is over my pubic area.
39 Weeks Is Definitely A Big Milestone (39 Weeks / 26th January 2022)
 
#ITookAPhotoOfMyselfNudeAt30WeeksAndSaidThatThatSeemedLikeABigMilestone
#NowIAm39WeeksWhichIHaveNeverBeenBeforeAndSoIThoughtIWouldRecreateTheImage
#ForNumericalPurposes40WeeksWouldBeBetterButIMightNotGetThatFar
#IHadMy38WeekAppointmentAndMyUrineAndBloodPressureWasFineThoughISaidIDidNotKnowWhatPositionTheBabyWasInNow
#ILiftedUpMyDressAndTheBabyWasMakingSomeWeirdShapes
#TheStudentMidwifeSpentAGoodFewMinutesFeelingMyBumpButSaidSheReallyDidNotKnow
#SoTheOtherMidwifeCameOverAndSheSaidSheWasAlsoUnsureAsMyStomachMusclesAreApparentlySoStrongThatItIsHardToTell
#SheGuessedBreechThenToldTheStudentToTryForAHeartbeatOnTheLowerLeftSide
#ShePickedUpAStrongOneButThenTheMidwifeSaidSheShouldHaveSaidToGoForTheUpperLeftSide
#ItWasNotVeryStrongThereSoBasedOnTheHeartbeatTheyThinkTheBabyIsHeadDown
#IGoBetweenFeelingQuiteRelaxedAndStressedAboutGivingBirthAndHavingASecondChild
#SomeMomentsIFeelReallyMentallyPreparedAndThenOtherTimesIHaveToRemindMyselfThatICouldBeHavingABabyAnyDayNow
#IKeepTryingToVisualiseHowItWillBeAndIHopeWeAllAdaptWell
#CurrentlyIAmGoingToBedEarlierAndGettingUpBeforeBToStretch
#IHaveMissedNapsTheLastCoupleOfDaysAndHaveBeenDoingALotOfNesting
#LastNightIFeltLikeMaybeIWasInTheEarlyStagesOfLabourDueToLegTinglesButMaybeIAmImaginingThings
#BFellOverWhenWeWereAtTheParkTheOtherDayAndHasACutUnderHerNose
#IHopeItHealsQuickSoThatItIsNotTooVisibleInTheFirstPicturesOfBAndHerSibling
#ThatSoundsQuiteShallowButItIsSomethingIHaveBeenThinkingAbout
#WeFinallyGotBANewCupWhichIsLikeHerCousinsThatSheLikesToDrinkOutOf
#IHaveNeverSeenHerSoEnthusiasticForJustPlainOldWater
#LastNightIFilledItUpFromMyGlassAndThenSheKeptWantingToPretendToPourWaterIntoMyGlassBeforeHavingADrink
#SheReallyCopiesNowWhichIsQuiteCute
#TheOtherDayTiagoWasRubbingMyArmAffectionatelyAsHeHeldBAndThenSheRubbedMyArm
#IWasShowingHerSomeDrawingsInHerNotepadAndThenSheCopiedHowITouchedThePaper
#SheWasTryingToPutALidOnAJarAndIWasTryingToExplainWithMyHandThatSheNeededToLayItFlatterSoSheWasTappingTheTopWithHerHandToo
#SheHasANewThingOfWhenWeWantToPickHerUpOffTheSofaOrOutOfThePushchairOrOutOfHerHighchairSheHidesHerFace
#IOftenHaveToLeaveHerInHerHighchairToFaffForABitAfterAMealAsSheIsQuiteHappyJustMessingAround
#LatelyWhenIHaveWantingToPutHerShoesOnHerSheLeansAgainstSomethingWhileSheLiftsUpAFoot
#IHaveAnAppointmentBookedForNextWeekWhichIsApparentlyForASweepButIHopeTheBabyComesBeforeThenOrIMightLeaveTheSweepUntilTheFollowingWeek

#ITookAPhotoOfMyselfNudeAt30WeeksAndSaidThatThatSeemedLikeABigMilestone

This image/post.

#NowIAm39WeeksWhichIHaveNeverBeenBeforeAndSoIThoughtIWouldRecreateTheImage

I posted the image this week, so it reminded me and I thought it was a nice one to recreate – especially as bump has grown a lot.

#ForNumericalPurposes40WeeksWouldBeBetterButIMightNotGetThatFar

Baby X could really come any day now…

#IHadMy38WeekAppointmentAndMyUrineAndBloodPressureWasFineThoughISaidIDidNotKnowWhatPositionTheBabyWasInNow

Honestly going to appointments has been something to look forward to, which is really sad, but shows how repetitive our days are at the moment.

#ILiftedUpMyDressAndTheBabyWasMakingSomeWeirdShapes

It was the same two midwives as last time and they probably think I just talk a lot of rubbish – I’m just excited to see people.

#TheStudentMidwifeSpentAGoodFewMinutesFeelingMyBumpButSaidSheReallyDidNotKnow

It must be so weird trying to figure it out. I look at Baby X moving and I have no clue what body part is poking out most/all of the time.

#SoTheOtherMidwifeCameOverAndSheSaidSheWasAlsoUnsureAsMyStomachMusclesAreApparentlySoStrongThatItIsHardToTell

Last time I had a bit of diastasis recti, so I felt a bit proud that I’ve avoided that (I think) this time. I don’t see why they’re so strong though – I guess just from the stretches, picking up B(?), and from sitting up by rolling onto my side first.

#SheGuessedBreechThenToldTheStudentToTryForAHeartbeatOnTheLowerLeftSide #ShePickedUpAStrongOneButThenTheMidwifeSaidSheShouldHaveSaidToGoForTheUpperLeftSide #ItWasNotVeryStrongThereSoBasedOnTheHeartbeatTheyThinkTheBabyIsHeadDown

I have a scan soon, so they will know for sure but I feel that the baby must be head down – unless the baby has moved by then, if the baby doesn’t come before then.

#IGoBetweenFeelingQuiteRelaxedAndStressedAboutGivingBirthAndHavingASecondChild

I just want to get it over and done with, so we can move on with our lives. I’m bored of waiting.

#SomeMomentsIFeelReallyMentallyPreparedAndThenOtherTimesIHaveToRemindMyselfThatICouldBeHavingABabyAnyDayNow

It’s weird. I had to check my hospital bags the other day to remind myself where things are.

#IKeepTryingToVisualiseHowItWillBeAndIHopeWeAllAdaptWell

B is having a bit of a throwing phase, so I’m going to have to be careful with where I lay Baby X down. I like to imagine B just looking at X intently, but I’m also worried she might try to feed her all her foods.

#CurrentlyIAmGoingToBedEarlierAndGettingUpBeforeBToStretch

Tiago has been super tired with work, so I’ve been better at getting B up in the morning – he was doing it for ages as I was so tired.

#IHaveMissedNapsTheLastCoupleOfDaysAndHaveBeenDoingALotOfNesting

I’ve just felt too energetic to nap, though I have been lying down and relaxing. I have been tidying up and organising things a lot.

#LastNightIFeltLikeMaybeIWasInTheEarlyStagesOfLabourDueToLegTinglesButMaybeIAmImaginingThings

When I was in labour with B I had leg tingles, so it could be a sign or it could just be from how I sit or something.

#BFellOverWhenWeWereAtTheParkTheOtherDayAndHasACutUnderHerNose

Her friend likes to escape from the playground and B was running around, then smack… 🙁

#IHopeItHealsQuickSoThatItIsNotTooVisibleInTheFirstPicturesOfBAndHerSibling #ThatSoundsQuiteShallowButItIsSomethingIHaveBeenThinkingAbout

I just want some nice pictures, but it will be an indication of how it will having two under two I guess. I can’t wait for them to meet… I can’t wait to meet the baby!

#WeFinallyGotBANewCupWhichIsLikeHerCousinsThatSheLikesToDrinkOutOf

It has a straw and B always steals it whenever we see her cousin.

#IHaveNeverSeenHerSoEnthusiasticForJustPlainOldWater

Hello lots of nappy changes…

#LastNightIFilledItUpFromMyGlassAndThenSheKeptWantingToPretendToPourWaterIntoMyGlassBeforeHavingADrink

Maybe it was more of a cheers thing, which I showed her before? Maybe a bit of both. It was sweet.

#SheReallyCopiesNowWhichIsQuiteCute

Cute, but a bit scary at times.

#TheOtherDayTiagoWasRubbingMyArmAffectionatelyAsHeHeldBAndThenSheRubbedMyArm

It was really sweet.

#IWasShowingHerSomeDrawingsInHerNotepadAndThenSheCopiedHowITouchedThePaper

I was showing her how she should draw with her crayons as well and she was just moving her hands about.

#SheWasTryingToPutALidOnAJarAndIWasTryingToExplainWithMyHandThatSheNeededToLayItFlatterSoSheWasTappingTheTopWithHerHandToo

Fascinating stuff, but it just showed me how much she copies and takes things literally – it’s fair enough, she’s 19 months old.

#SheHasANewThingOfWhenWeWantToPickHerUpOffTheSofaOrOutOfThePushchairOrOutOfHerHighchairSheHidesHerFace

I picked her up out of her pushchair yesterday and said ‘where’s B?’ and she laughed.

#IOftenHaveToLeaveHerInHerHighchairToFaffForABitAfterAMealAsSheIsQuiteHappyJustMessingAround

And she won’t let me take her out…

#LatelyWhenIHaveWantingToPutHerShoesOnHerSheLeansAgainstSomethingWhileSheLiftsUpAFoot

Cute. Yesterday she put her hand on the wall while she lifted up her right foot, then leaned her back against the wall as I put her left shoe on.

#IHaveAnAppointmentBookedForNextWeekWhichIsApparentlyForASweepButIHopeTheBabyComesBeforeThenOrIMightLeaveTheSweepUntilTheFollowingWeek

I’ve seen the appointment in my calendar for ages, but the midwife mentioned it was for a sweep. I was about to leave, so I didn’t say ‘do I have to have it etc?’ as I know they are optional. If the baby isn’t born just after the due date, then they might want to hang on. I have an appointment booked in with my midwife for the week after which would be another sweep, so I’d rather just wait until then, but I also do not want to be induced either really so we’ll see…


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Pregnancy Waiting II

Apparently My Children Like To Be Breech At 37 Weeks (37 Weeks / 12th January 2022)

Self-portrait from my thighs to below my shoulders. I am wearing a black bra and black leggings. I am side on and pulling up the left side of the leggings with my right hand. My fist is over my bump and my bump is exposed.
Apparently My Children Like To Be Breech At 37 Weeks (37 Weeks / 12th January 2022)
 
#IDoNotKnowWhatPhotoWillAccompanyTheseHashtagsButMaybeSomethingPlayfulAsIMayNotHaveABumpForMuchLonger
#IWentToMyDelayed36WeekAppointmentAndTheFirstThingTheMidwifeSaidWasICheckedYourNotesAndSawThatYouHadABreechDeliveryWithYourFirst
#ISaidYesAndJokedAboutHowBabyXWasBackToBackAtMyLastAppointmentAndHowIHaveAwkwardChildren
#ThereWasAStudentMidwifeAgainAndTheyBothCheckedMyBloodPressureAsThereWasSomeProteinInMyUrineButTheyWereNotConcerned
#IHadToBreatheIntoACarbonMonoxideMachineAndMyResultsWereFine
#ThenTheyHadAFeelOfMyBumpAndTheMidwifeSaidThatTheBabySeemsToBeBreech
#IJustLaughedAndThenIStartedToDaydreamAboutAllThePossibleScenarios
#IThoughtTheBabyHadMovedAsItsBeenSuperActiveButIWasHopingItHadTurnedRoundFromBackToBack
#TheyBothMeasuredMyBumpAndGotACentimetreDifference
#TheBabyDoesNotSeemToHaveGrownMuchSinceMyLastAppointmentSoIWillGoForAScanWhichWillAlsoConfirmIfTheBabyIsBreech
#TheyBookedMeInForTheNextAvailableSlotWhichIsTypicallyOnTheDayThatTiagoHasToGoOutForWorkSoHopefullyHeWillBeHomeInTime
#HeWillDriveMeThereAndWatchBInTheCarAsICanNotTakeHerInWithMe
#IJustWantToHaveTheScanDoneAlreadyAndKnowWhatIsGoingOn
#IWasStartingToFeelRelaxedAboutTheBirthAgainButNowIFeelQuiteStressedOut
#IJustNeedToRelaxAndSeeWhatMyOptionsAre
#IWentThroughAllTheEmotionsOnMyWayHomeIncludingAnnoyedWhichIFeltBadFor
#IHaveBeenGaggingAfterBrushingMyTeethAgainLatelyWhichIsQuiteUnpleasant
#InBNewsIGotSomeUpdatesOnHerNurseryAppTodayWhichWereQuiteOldButSuddenlyCameThrough
#TheyTalkAboutTheThingsThatSheGetsUpToAndTheWordsSheSaysWhichAnswersMyPreviousQuestions
#ApparentlyDuringOneSessionSheWasSayingQuackQuackWhichSheHasNeverSaidToMeEvenWithAllMyEncouragement
#SheAlsoSaidStompRoarAndMunchMunchWhenPlayingWithDinosaurs
#IThenAskedHerWhatSoundADinosaurMakesAndSheSaidSomethingSimilarToRoar
#AndDuringAMusicSessionAtNurserySheSaidBaaBaaSheepWhichSurprisedMe
#IGuessAtNurserySheCopiesTheOtherKidsAndAdultsMoreAndIsMoreLikelyToSayThings
#ISingWindTheBobbinUpToHerLoadsAndSometimesSheWillDoAFewActionsWithMeAndSometimesSheDoesNone
#WeWerePlayingWithHerCowPuppetAndSheSuddenlySaidMoo
#ItIsJustFunnyAsTheOtherDayIWasSayingToAFriendThatIWishedThatBMadeAnimalNoisesAndApparentlySheDoes
#IHaveStartedToPlayHideAndSeekWithBWhereICountToFiveAndTryToFindHer
#NineOutOfTenTimesSheIsBehindTheKitchenDoorButIPretendICanNotFindHerForABit
#SheIsStillTeethingAndHasABitOfAColdButSheIsRunningAroundWithMoreEnergyTheseDays

#IDoNotKnowWhatPhotoWillAccompanyTheseHashtagsButMaybeSomethingPlayfulAsIMayNotHaveABumpForMuchLonger

I feel like I should experiment and try to do something a bit different, but I’m quite tired so we’ll have to see.

#IWentToMyDelayed36WeekAppointmentAndTheFirstThingTheMidwifeSaidWasICheckedYourNotesAndSawThatYouHadABreechDeliveryWithYourFirst

Correct. She was born less than a week from this point…

#ISaidYesAndJokedAboutHowBabyXWasBackToBackAtMyLastAppointmentAndHowIHaveAwkwardChildren

She said about sitting forward and not slouching to encourage the baby to turn round etc. I was slouching at the time.

#ThereWasAStudentMidwifeAgainAndTheyBothCheckedMyBloodPressureAsThereWasSomeProteinInMyUrineButTheyWereNotConcerned

The student midwife did it first, but the midwife just wanted to make sure it was correct as protein in your urine can be a sign of pre-eclampsia.

#IHadToBreatheIntoACarbonMonoxideMachineAndMyResultsWereFine

I couldn’t remember doing it before, but she said they always check at the start and towards the end of your pregnancy.

#ThenTheyHadAFeelOfMyBumpAndTheMidwifeSaidThatTheBabySeemsToBeBreech #IJustLaughedAndThenIStartedToDaydreamAboutAllThePossibleScenarios

My brain just stayed stuck on a breech baby for the rest of the appointment and I forgot to ask about hospital restrictions etc.

B wasn’t breech at her 36 week appointment, so I’m wondering if this appointment hadn’t been delayed would Baby X have been breech at the original appointment time? I’m thinking that they might not have been. I guess at least this time I am aware that the baby is breech at this point (though B was born at 37+5, and I believe she became breech the day before she was born).

#IThoughtTheBabyHadMovedAsItsBeenSuperActiveButIWasHopingItHadTurnedRoundFromBackToBack

She commented while she was checking the heartbeat about how active the baby is.

#TheyBothMeasuredMyBumpAndGotACentimetreDifference

I think last time the midwife and the student midwife got about a difference of about 4cm.

#TheBabyDoesNotSeemToHaveGrownMuchSinceMyLastAppointmentSoIWillGoForAScanWhichWillAlsoConfirmIfTheBabyIsBreech

She said not to be worried about the growth as it might just be down to having different midwives at every appointment, and everyone measures differently. With B I had the same midwife measuring me, except for one appointment when she thought someone else should see me in case she wasn’t able to be at B’s birth – spoiler: neither of them were at B’s birth.

#TheyBookedMeInForTheNextAvailableSlotWhichIsTypicallyOnTheDayThatTiagoHasToGoOutForWorkSoHopefullyHeWillBeHomeInTime

He rarely has to go out for work, but there we go.

#HeWillDriveMeThereAndWatchBInTheCarAsICanNotTakeHerInWithMe

If I could I would just get a taxi to the appointment if Tiago doesn’t get back in time, but that would be too easy. My Mum will have to come and take care of B if he is going to be late.

#IJustWantToHaveTheScanDoneAlreadyAndKnowWhatIsGoingOn #IWasStartingToFeelRelaxedAboutTheBirthAgainButNowIFeelQuiteStressedOut

I’ve gone from feeling stressed to relaxed and back again a lot lately. It’s too much. Now I’ve had a bit of time to process things I feel a bit more relaxed.

#IJustNeedToRelaxAndSeeWhatMyOptionsAre

I’m just worried if they turn the baby that it might turn back again, but it is what it is. I just want to try a water birth this time. I don’t feel like I can go through arguing my way out of a c-section again, but who knows how things will be on the day of the birth.

#IWentThroughAllTheEmotionsOnMyWayHomeIncludingAnnoyedWhichIFeltBadFor

It’s not the baby’s fault. I just felt irritated. I was sweating as I was leaving the appointment.

#IHaveBeenGaggingAfterBrushingMyTeethAgainLatelyWhichIsQuiteUnpleasant

I do not like it. Who does though?

#InBNewsIGotSomeUpdatesOnHerNurseryAppTodayWhichWereQuiteOldButSuddenlyCameThrough

Ooh.

#TheyTalkAboutTheThingsThatSheGetsUpToAndTheWordsSheSaysWhichAnswersMyPreviousQuestions

One of her carers said that she was saying two word sentences and I was confused. What words? etc.

#ApparentlyDuringOneSessionSheWasSayingQuackQuackWhichSheHasNeverSaidToMeEvenWithAllMyEncouragement

Quacking is probably the animal sound that I make to her the most, so it’s good that it’s paying off I guess.

#SheAlsoSaidStompRoarAndMunchMunchWhenPlayingWithDinosaurs

It might explain why she suddenly stomps along with the elephant in her ‘From Head To Toe’ book. She has a book about dinosaurs where I always roar on the first page, so again I guess it’s paid off.

#IThenAskedHerWhatSoundADinosaurMakesAndSheSaidSomethingSimilarToRoar

Maybe rar. I can’t remember now, but it sounded like a roar anyways.

#AndDuringAMusicSessionAtNurserySheSaidBaaBaaSheepWhichSurprisedMe

She had a phase of liking me singing that song, which might have been after that session which also explains why she was so keen on the song – perhaps?

#IGuessAtNurserySheCopiesTheOtherKidsAndAdultsMoreAndIsMoreLikelyToSayThings

There’s more encouragement. The notes say about her looking to her peers and wanting them to join in with her etc. An example is she went to play with some animal hand puppets then smiled to her peers to join her. She put her hand in the puppets, which also explains why she started to do that at home not long ago. Nursery is obviously doing her a lot of good!

#ISingWindTheBobbinUpToHerLoadsAndSometimesSheWillDoAFewActionsWithMeAndSometimesSheDoesNone

It’s very hit and miss. Same with the ‘From Head To Toe’ book as sometimes she will do the actions, and sometimes she won’t. I guess it depends on her mood, and she isn’t on the planet to perform for me.

#WeWerePlayingWithHerCowPuppetAndSheSuddenlySaidMoo

All the surprises!

#ItIsJustFunnyAsTheOtherDayIWasSayingToAFriendThatIWishedThatBMadeAnimalNoisesAndApparentlySheDoes

It was a day of discovery.

#IHaveStartedToPlayHideAndSeekWithBWhereICountToFiveAndTryToFindHer #NineOutOfTenTimesSheIsBehindTheKitchenDoorButIPretendICanNotFindHerForABit

Sometimes she runs around after me while I look for her, and then goes back behind the kitchen door.

#SheIsStillTeethingAndHasABitOfAColdButSheIsRunningAroundWithMoreEnergyTheseDays

It’s good. I get worried about her, but she is usually in a good mood despite everything.

37 weeks comparison with B:

Self-portrait showing me leaning forward with my hands on my hips and my bump drooping down. White boxes censor my nipples.
Tiago Says This Shows The Animal Side Of Carrying A Baby (37 weeks)
 
#HadAMidwifeAppointmentYesterday
#MyUsualOneWasOnAnnualLeaveButAlsoTimedItToMakeSureISawSomeoneDifferent
#SheWasReallyNiceAndJustWentThroughAllMyNotesToDoubleCheckThatEverythingWasCorrect
#SheCalledForMyBloodResultsAndSaidSheDidNotKnowWhatIHaveBeenEatingButMyHemoglobinLevelIsGreat
#WhichIsGoodAsIAmVegetarianButIHaveBeenTakingIronForYears
#AndBeingPregnantEveryoneIsAlwaysAskingYouWhatYouAreEatingAndIfYouAreEatingWellEtc
#IHaveProbablyBeenABitHealthierBecauseOfThePandemic
#NotJustBeingAbleToGoOutAndGetWhatIWantAndOurFavouriteTakeawaysAreOnlyJustReopening
#ChocolateMilkHasBeenMyMainTreat
#SheSaidEverythingElseLooksGoodAndThatFrom37WeeksYouCanHaveAHomeBirth
#ThoughIfIHadTheBabyNowWeWouldProbablyHaveToGoToHospitalForACheckOver
#ICanAlsoStartUsingMyMedicalAidThatWillHopefullyHelpReduceTheRiskOfTearingAndAnEpisiotomy
#AndAlsoStartTryingToCollectColostrumIfMyBoobsSoWishToDoIt
#ThoseTwoThingsCouldPotentiallyTriggerEarlyLabour
#SoThoughIFeelRelaxedAndKindOfExcitedAboutBirthNowBecauseItIsSafeForMeToGiveBirthAtHomeNow
#IDoNotWantToHaveToGoToHospitalAsTheRulesForVisitationAreVeryStrictBecauseOfCovid
#IfIHaveToThenIHaveToAndIKnowWeWillWeWellLookedAfter
#ThereIsNoPointGettingStressedOutAboutThings
#IFeelLikePeopleDoNotKnowHowToTalkToPregnantPeople
#IncludingMyselfBeforeIWasPregnant
#PeopleAskingMeHowIAmFeelingAboutBirthWhichIsFineButThenAskingIfIAmWorried
#WhyShouldIBeWorried
#WhatIsThePointOfWorryingWhenItIsAPerfectlyNormalThingToHappenToMyBody
#PeopleTellingMeAboutALongLabourSomeoneTheyKnowHadAndHavingToHaveEmergencyCaesareans
#ApparentlyEmergencyOnesAreActuallyQuiteRareAndAreCalledUnplanned
#AndIfYouAreInLabourFor48HoursItIsNotConstantItJustComesAndGoes
#AtLeastThatIsWhatIHaveHeardButWhatDoIKnowAsIAmYetToExperienceIt
#IThinkTheMorePositiveYouAreAboutItThenTheBetterItWillGo
#AsAdrenalineStopsLabourSoIJustWantToFocusOnProducingAllTheOxytocin
#IAmDefinitelyGladThatIHaveDoneSomeReadingAndOnlineCourses

I think the day before I had still been 36 weeks.

Chocolate oat milk has been a big treat of mine this pregnancy too. I haven’t been as healthy this time with food this time I think, since I live with my Nan who has a massive sweet tooth and I have been indulging in crisps a bit lately.

I was not planning on using my medical aid this time as I was worried that that is what made B turn round, but now I might give it a go as I have nothing to lose. I also need to look at my colostrum kit, but I don’t know if I can really produce any yet.

Spoiler alert – I had to go to hospital with B.

I was obviously in a good place mentally in regards to giving birth. I need to get there again, so I need to binge on as much hypnobirthing stuff as I can…

Self-portrait showing that I can only do the top part of my coat up.
My Coat Is Uncomfortably Tight These Days (37 weeks)
 
#JustRealisedThatThePrevious3ImagesInTheSeriesAreQuiteNude
#IHadAlreadyPlannedForThisShootToBeMeInMyCoat
#ItWasNotADecisionOfOhIBetterCoverUpInTheNextPicture
#ThoughIAmNotSureWhyIFeelTheNeedToStateThis
#AnywaysYesterdayWeWereOnAWalk
#ItWasABitWindySoIWoreMyCoat
#ICouldJustAboutDoItUpButItFeltTooTightSoIHadToUndoIt
#ButItWasSoWindyThatINeededToDoItUpABit
#LuckilyICouldStillDoTheTopTwoPoppersUp
#IProbablyLookedABitFunnyWithMyBumpHangingOutTheBottomOfMyCoat
#ThoughNotManyPeopleWereAboutAnyways
#AndIDidNotReallyCare
#TodayWeHaveBeenOrganisingTheBedroomMore
#IThoughtTheCotWouldJustGoWhereWeWantedIt
#ButNoThatWouldBeTooEasy
#SoWeHadToRearrangeThingsOtherwiseItWouldBeAFaffToGetInAndOutOfTheRoom
#IDecidedToSetTheCotUp
#ItFeelsABitPrematureAndLikePerhapsIAmJinxingThings
#ButItWillBeNiceToLoseTheShockOfSeeingACotEverytimeIWalkInTheRoom
#ThoughIGuessWalkingInAndSeeingABabyWillBeMoreOfAShock
#WeAlsoCutDownTheBoxesThatOurPillowsCameInToMakeUnderBedStorage
#IWasLookingAtBuyingSomeUnderBedStorageTheOtherWeek
#ButTheDimensionsWereNeverRight
#ItTookMeHalfAnHourToCutOneDownToSize
#ThenTiagoCameHomeFromTheSupermarketAndDidTheOtherOneInAMinuteWithAKnife
#OhWellIWasWatchingSomeFreeBabyClassWhilstIDidTheFirstOneAndItHelpedMeConcentrate
#TiagoIsPracticingPuttingTheCarSeatInTheCarAtTheMoment
#ThoughIDoNotKnowWhenWeWillUseItExceptIfWeHaveToGoToHospitalForSomeReason
#ICanNotRememberTheLastTimeIHadANapDuringTheDay
#IAlwaysPlanToButMyToDoListSeemsNeverEnding

I can still do up the inner zip of this coat, so though this baby may be bigger than B was, my bump is obviously not bigger in some ways. Not sure.

I feel like I need to nest, but B has so much stuff that it is hard to. We can not set up the cot yet as it is at my parent’s house for in case they have to have B. I think I will keep B in her cot, and use their one for the new baby.

I try to have a nap every day when B does as otherwise I regret it. I often do not feel sleepy, but manage to sleep for a bit.

Self-portrait with my husband, Tiago, where we recreated an image for the second time (so there are 3 similar images). Tiago is at the same level as my bump and is slightly staring past it.
Bump Is Definitely Droopier (37 weeks)
 
#IDecidedYesterdayThatWeShouldRemakeThisPicture
#IWasNotSureIfIShouldLeaveItABitLonger
#ButObviouslyIDoNotKnowWhenIMayGiveBirth
#IThoughtMaybeThereWouldNotBeThatMuchChangeSince33Weeks
#ButBumpIsDefinitelyDroopier
#ShameThatWeDidNotDoItAround27AndAHalfWeeksToo
#ItCouldHaveBeenAPictureThatWeRemadeOnceAMonthIfWeHadThoughtAboutIt
#TiagoLooksALittleDifferentButNotMuch
#HeHasTrimmedHisBeardBetweenTheLastRemakeAndThisOne
#IStillNeedToTryToGiveHimAHaircutThoughIAmNervousTo
#HeHadHisBirthdayThisWeek
#ToCelebrateWeOrderedIndianTakeawayThatLastedFor3MealsEach
#ThereWasASmallChanceThatHeCouldHaveSharedHisBirthdayWithBaby
#ButIAmGladThatTheBabyHasNotArrivedYet
#IJustAskedHimHowHeFeelsAboutItPotentiallyBeingHisLastBirthdayWithoutBeingAFather
#HeSaysHeDoesNotCareMuchAboutHisBirthday
#HeLooksForwardToHavingAnotherHumanAroundAndBeingAFather
#WatchingThemGrowAndBeingResponsibleForTheirEducation
#IThinkHeIsExcitedToRelaxWithTheBabyOnHisChest
#LastNightIWasAwakeBetween3And6
#TiagoStirredAtAround6SoIToldHimICouldNotSleep
#SoHeSaidToPutMyHeadOnHisChest
#IFellAsleepPrettyQuickly
#BeforeIWasPregnantIRarelyFellAsleepLikeThat
#IHadToBeSuperSuperTired
#PeopleTalkALotAboutTheBenefitsOfTheBabyBeingOnYourChest
#ButApparentlyItWorksWellForMeToo
#AsThereHaveBeenAFewTimesLatelyThatIHaveFallenAsleepLikeThat
#MaybeItIsSomeEvolutionaryThingAndFeelingSafe
#IWokeUpWhenMyEarStartedToHurtThough

This picture is a remake of #1 (last image) and #2 (also last image).

My bump has definitely dropped, and the midwife commented on it (she saw me 2 or 3 appointments ago?)

This time around I tried to remake images more often.

I gave Tiago a haircut last week in case I didn’t have the opportunity to do it again for a while.

I think he is also looking forward to relaxing with a baby on his chest again. Those were sweet moments…


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Pregnancy Waiting II

Imitating B With Conjunctivitis (34 Weeks / 24th December 2021)

Self-portrait with makeup around my eyes to make them look a bit sore/like when B had conjunctivitis.
Imitating B With Conjunctivitis (34 Weeks / 24th December 2021)
 
#ImitatingBWithTwoRedEyesDueToConjunctivitisIsNotTheNicestPortraitICouldTakeButItHasDominatedOurWeek
#ISeemToHaveBeenInSimilarHealthToHowIWas6WeeksAgoWhenIWasBeingSickALotAndFeelingWeakInGeneral
#IWentToBedFiveDaysAgoFeelingSickAndWokeUpAt1AndWasSickThenSickAgainAnHourLaterAndThenAgainNotLongAfterThat
#ITriedToHaveAShowerAndSleepOnTheSofaButMyNanAlsoCouldNotSleepSoWantedAShowerAndCameIntoTheLivingRoomEarly
#SoIWentBackToBedButDidNotSleepMuchAndKeptBeingSickUntilAbout11ThoughItWasJustWaterThatWasComingUp
#TypicallyItWasTheOneDayWhereBDidNotHaveNurseryAndMyMumWasNotComingOverButTiagoManagedToWorkWhileWatchingBAndIHadALieDown
#InTheAfternoonIHadABathAndBWasQuiteHappyJustSplashingHerHandsInTheWaterAndDroppingHerToysIn
#BHasANewTrickOfPuttingStuffInTheBinAndRippingToiletPaperAndLiftingTheToiletLidUpToPutItInTheToilet
#ITryToDiscourageHerButEvenGettingHerHandTrappedACoupleOfTimesHasNotPutHerOff
#ThisIsProbablyHowSheHasGotConjunctivitisOrMaybeSheGotItFromNursery
#IHadNoticedHerEyesWereABitGunkyButThoughtItWouldPassButByTheNextDayItWasWorse
#IWentToOurLocalPharmacyToGetEyeDropsButTheyWereClosedDueToStaffSickness
#SoMyMumWentToADifferentOneButTheySaidThatTheDropsWereOnlySuitableFor2AndOver
#IKeptWashingHerEyesWithCooledBoiledWaterAndTriedASlightlySaltySolutionTooWhichMightBeWhyTheSkinAroundHerEyesWasSuperRed
#MyDoctorsAreOnlyReallyDealingWithBoostersAtTheMomentSoIWaitedForHalfAnHourToSpeakToTheWalkInCentreButHadCalledAnotherDoctorsByMistake
#SoIWaitedAnotherHalfAnHourToActuallySpeakToTheWalkInAndTheySaidSomeoneWouldCallLater
#TypicallyTheyCalledThe10MinutesThatIWasAwayFromMyPhoneAsBWasAsleepOnMeInHerRoomAndIThoughtIWasJustGoingInToGetHerUpFromHerNap
#After3HoursICalledAgainAndTheySaidSomeoneWouldCallWithinAnHourButTheyCalledBackAbout3HoursLaterAtAround6
#TheCallWasShortAndHePrescribedEyeOintmentThatHeSaidWasOkayForUnder2s
#IShouldHaveAskedForHimWhichPharmacyWasStillOpenButInsteadIHadItSentToOurLocalOneForTheMorning
#WeGotItInTheMorningButSheHadToMissNurseryAsSheWasTooIllToGoReally
#IWasReallyLookingForwardToJustHavingSomeTimeInBedToRestAndRecoverButOhWell
#TiagoWasAlsoFeelingWeakAsHeHadHisBoosterSoWeHaveBeenAVeryFunFamilyThisWeek
#ItIsTheFirstTimeThatWeHaveAllBeenUnderTheWeatherTogetherAndIHopeItDoesNotHappenAgainForAWhile
#TodayWasTheFirstDayIHadEnoughEnergyToDoMyUsualMorningStretchingAndMyAppetiteIsPrettyMuchBackToNormalNow
#IHadMyBoosterVaccineYesterdayAndItWasSoQuickAndOrganisedThisTimeWhichWasGreat
#IAmSoGladThatTheBabyDidNotComeThisWeekAsIHadNoEnergyAtAllSoNowINeedToMakeSureIFeelGoodForWhenLabourBegins
#MyAcidRefluxHasBeenPrettyBadForACoupleOfWeeksSoIAmLookingForwardToThatBeingOver
#HadMy34WeekMidwifeAppointmentAndAllIsFineAlthoughTheBabyIsCurrentlyHeadDownButBackToBack
#ISaidAtLeastTheyAreNotBreechButTheWomanSaidItWouldBeASlowLongLabourWithALotOfBackPainSoLetsHopeTheyMoveBeforeThen

#ImitatingBWithTwoRedEyesDueToConjunctivitisIsNotTheNicestPortraitICouldTakeButItHasDominatedOurWeek

B cries whenever she sees me coming towards her with cotton wool, and giving her ointment is an experience every time.

#ISeemToHaveBeenInSimilarHealthToHowIWas6WeeksAgoWhenIWasBeingSickALotAndFeelingWeakInGeneral

Great.

#IWentToBedFiveDaysAgoFeelingSickAndWokeUpAt1AndWasSickThenSickAgainAnHourLaterAndThenAgainNotLongAfterThat

It’s horrid. My throat then hurt from being sick so much. Fun.

#ITriedToHaveAShowerAndSleepOnTheSofaButMyNanAlsoCouldNotSleepSoWantedAShowerAndCameIntoTheLivingRoomEarly

I wanted to feel nice after all the sick, but it was not meant to be. I thought sleeping on the sofa would be best as to not wake T and B up when I was being sick.

#SoIWentBackToBedButDidNotSleepMuchAndKeptBeingSickUntilAbout11ThoughItWasJustWaterThatWasComingUp

Lovely. It was a long night. I don’t like those nights.

#TypicallyItWasTheOneDayWhereBDidNotHaveNurseryAndMyMumWasNotComingOverButTiagoManagedToWorkWhileWatchingBAndIHadALieDown

He’s got 6 days off over Xmas (it’s currently day 2), so he didn’t want to take more time off. I felt so weak that I could not do much, so lying down in bed was good but I could not sleep.

#InTheAfternoonIHadABathAndBWasQuiteHappyJustSplashingHerHandsInTheWaterAndDroppingHerToysIn

I should have a bath on days like that in future, as it’s a good way to keep B occupied while I don’t feel too crummy as I’m relaxing and resting.

#BHasANewTrickOfPuttingStuffInTheBinAndRippingToiletPaperAndLiftingTheToiletLidUpToPutItInTheToilet

It seemed cute, but obviously we need to properly wash her hands after every time she does it now.

#ITryToDiscourageHerButEvenGettingHerHandTrappedACoupleOfTimesHasNotPutHerOff

I don’t like her wasting toilet paper. We should buy a toilet seat lock really.

#ThisIsProbablyHowSheHasGotConjunctivitisOrMaybeSheGotItFromNursery

She’s had a cold from nursery for over a week.

#IHadNoticedHerEyesWereABitGunkyButThoughtItWouldPassButByTheNextDayItWasWorse

Fail. I just thought it was a bit of sleep or something.

#IWentToOurLocalPharmacyToGetEyeDropsButTheyWereClosedDueToStaffSickness

Great.

#SoMyMumWentToADifferentOneButTheySaidThatTheDropsWereOnlySuitableFor2AndOver

Also great.

#IKeptWashingHerEyesWithCooledBoiledWaterAndTriedASlightlySaltySolutionTooWhichMightBeWhyTheSkinAroundHerEyesWasSuperRed

I wish she understood that we’re trying to help her feel better. It’s such a struggle to try to get them better.

#MyDoctorsAreOnlyReallyDealingWithBoostersAtTheMomentSoIWaitedForHalfAnHourToSpeakToTheWalkInCentreButHadCalledAnotherDoctorsByMistake

Ergh.

#SoIWaitedAnotherHalfAnHourToActuallySpeakToTheWalkInAndTheySaidSomeoneWouldCallLater

Cool.

#TypicallyTheyCalledThe10MinutesThatIWasAwayFromMyPhoneAsBWasAsleepOnMeInHerRoomAndIThoughtIWasJustGoingInToGetHerUpFromHerNap

She woke up early. I planned to get her up, but then wanted to soothe her a bit and she fell asleep on me while I sat on her beanbag. I had to wake her up as my back was hurting and I was bored sitting in the dark without my phone – I would have read my book.

#After3HoursICalledAgainAndTheySaidSomeoneWouldCallWithinAnHourButTheyCalledBackAbout3HoursLaterAtAround6

I understand they’re busy and swamped, so it’s fair enough. I just don’t like waiting around for calls.

#TheCallWasShortAndHePrescribedEyeOintmentThatHeSaidWasOkayForUnder2s

He said that the drops is not okay for under 2s, but the ointment is.

#IShouldHaveAskedForHimWhichPharmacyWasStillOpenButInsteadIHadItSentToOurLocalOneForTheMorning

I hoped that they would be open.

#WeGotItInTheMorningButSheHadToMissNurseryAsSheWasTooIllToGoReally

The instructions said it wasn’t for under 2s, but the NHS website says that chloramphenicol eye stuff can be prescribed for under 2s by a Doctor.

#IWasReallyLookingForwardToJustHavingSomeTimeInBedToRestAndRecoverButOhWell

I was looking forward to just lying down for 4 hours, watching a bit of TV and resting.

#TiagoWasAlsoFeelingWeakAsHeHadHisBoosterSoWeHaveBeenAVeryFunFamilyThisWeek

We had an orzo dish on Sunday night that I’m bored of, but Tiago loves. I threw that up, then didn’t have much on Monday night, but Tiago did and was sick on Tuesday morning. Maybe it was the orzo that triggered off my ‘illness’? Who knows? I’m glad that Tiago doesn’t want to eat it for a while now.

#ItIsTheFirstTimeThatWeHaveAllBeenUnderTheWeatherTogetherAndIHopeItDoesNotHappenAgainForAWhile

I don’t like feeling so weak and helpless.

#TodayWasTheFirstDayIHadEnoughEnergyToDoMyUsualMorningStretchingAndMyAppetiteIsPrettyMuchBackToNormalNow

I kept forcing myself to eat for the baby, but it’s been tough. It’s nice to enjoy food again – just in time for Xmas.

#IHadMyBoosterVaccineYesterdayAndItWasSoQuickAndOrganisedThisTimeWhichWasGreat

Tiago dropped me off and I was confused as they’d moved from a marquee in a car park, into a building. It was so efficient. 5 stars.

I’m still not feeling 100%, which may be down to the booster, but as I felt so bad earlier in the week I feel quite good.

#IAmSoGladThatTheBabyDidNotComeThisWeekAsIHadNoEnergyAtAllSoNowINeedToMakeSureIFeelGoodForWhenLabourBegins

I don’t want to feel that weak again for a long time.

#MyAcidRefluxHasBeenPrettyBadForACoupleOfWeeksSoIAmLookingForwardToThatBeingOver

I went to get something for it, but the pharmacist said it’s best to avoid taking anything really. Being ill this week has meant I haven’t overeaten, so I just need to keep to smaller meals and I sleep with my head elevated, which is meant to be a good thing.

#HadMy34WeekMidwifeAppointmentAndAllIsFineAlthoughTheBabyIsCurrentlyHeadDownButBackToBack #ISaidAtLeastTheyAreNotBreechButTheWomanSaidItWouldBeASlowLongLabourWithALotOfBackPainSoLetsHopeTheyMoveBeforeThen

Well, B was head down in the opposite to back to back until the day before she was born so fingers crossed. Reading about it, it looks like I just need to sit leaning forwards more, not sleep on my back (I often wake up on my back and can’t be bothered to shift), and a lot of babies turn round during labour.

34 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait where I am squatting while in my bra and pants, but my pants are barely visible due to my bump.
I Know It Does Not Look Like It But Swear That I Am Wearing Pants (34 weeks)
 
#TimeIsFlyingBy
#LastNightIHadTheWorstNightsSleepInAges
#JustWakingUpConstantlyAndHavingWeirdDreams
#IPlannedToHaveALieInButOfCourseIWokeUpEarlyAndCouldNotFallBackToSleep
#ItWasGettingLateAndIHadNotFeltTheBabyMovingSoIWasGettingWorried
#EventuallyIFeltMovementsAndWasRelieved
#LastNightTiagoFellAsleepSpooningMyBump
#ISawTheCarSeatTodayAndFreakedOutALittleThinkingWhyDoWeHaveACarSeat
#IMomentarilyForgotIWasPregnant
#WhichIsWeirdAsItDefinitelyIsGettingUncomfortableNow
#TiagoSaidThatHeHasNoticedOnOurDailyWalksThatIAmStartingToWalkABitWeird
#IAskedHimDoYouMeanIAmWaddling
#HeSaidYes
#IDoNotThinkItIsVeryPronouncedButIGuessItMustBeEnoughForTiagoToNotice
#IProbablyWouldNotHaveChosenToBePregnantDuringAPandemic
#ButAtTheSameTimeIFeelLikeIAmNotMissingOutOnStuff
#AndItIsNiceToHaveSomeKindOfCountdown
#AsIThinkALotOfPeopleAreJustWaitingForThingsToChange
#IThoughtMyProjectTitleWasSmartWhenICameUpWithItEarlyOn
#NowItWouldBeMoreLike
#WaitingForThingsInATimeWhenEveryoneIsWaitingForSomething
#ButIGuessTheOldTitleKindOfAppliesToOurEra
#UnlessThingsWillNeverBeTheSameAgain
#WellLikeIHaveSaidBeforeThingsWillNeverBeTheSameAgainForMeAnywaysOnceTheBabyIsBorn
#ThingsWillBeDifferentForTiagoTooButNotToTheSameExtent
#HisBodyWillBeTheSameAndHisWorkShouldStillBeFairlyTheSame
#BeforeIWasPregnantWeWerePrettyMuchTheSameSize
#SameHeightSameShoeSizeICouldWearHisClothesApartFromTrousersWhichICouldFitInButWereALittleTooTight
#IAmJustHappyThatIAmStillExercisingAndIThinkStartingWhenIWasMoreAbleToHelped
#TheSameVideosThatIHaveBeenDoingForMonthsAreGettingHarderToDoNow

Good to know my sleep was also rubbish at 34 weeks last time, but I wasn’t being super sick/feeling weak. I was often waking up at 5 and not being able to sleep again, but with B I am more tired so tend to sleep until she wakes up.

I’m having a lot of weird dreams at the moment too. Super vivid.

I don’t think I am waddling too much at the moment, but usually when I walk I am behind B’s pushchair so it is good support.

This time I did choose to be pregnant during a pandemic. I didn’t think it would be getting worse though (cases are on the rise).

A close-up photo of my belly button. A remake of an image I took at 20 and a half weeks.
My Belly Button Has Never Been So Close Or Perhaps So Far Away (34 weeks)

#ISaidAt20AndAHalfWeeksThatMyBellyButtonHadNeverBeenSoClose
#MaybeNowItIsCloserOrMaybeNot
#CloseToWhatQuestionMarkMyFaceQuestionMark
#IGuessMaybeItIsFurtherAwayNow
#ButItIsFarOut
#MyBellyButtonHasNeverBeenSoFarOut
#ItSoundsLikeASurferOrSomething
#IWishICouldReachMyHeadDownAndRestItOnBump
#IWasSayingWithMyLastPictureThatBabyWasNotMovingMuchAndFreakingMeOut
#ThenTheNextDayItWasMovingAroundLoads
#AndTodayHasBeenAnAverageDay
#EvenSittingOnMyBallIsUncomfortableTheseDays
#WellIFeelComfortableWhilstIAmSatDown
#ThenWhenIStandUpIAmInPain
#LyingDownSittingUpGettingOutOfBedIsAnnoying
#TodayIHadAVideoCallWithTheWomenFromMyNCTGroup
#WeWereTalkingAboutInductionsAndWantingToWait
#ButThenSayingHowUnconfortableWeAreSoWhoKnowsWhatWeWillDecideAtTheTime
#IReadALotOfMyHypnobirthingBookToday
#IHaveBeenGettingABitRubbishAtReadingAndPreparingForBaby
#IStillNeedToDoMyBirthPlan
#SomeWomenOnTheCallWereTalkingAboutHavingTheirHospitalBagsPacked
#IThinkIAmTheOnlyOnePlanningForAHomeBirth
#ButIShouldPackABagJustInCaseAsYouNeverKnow
#IHadNeverHeardAboutNaturalOrGentleCaesareansBeforeDoingTheHypnobirthingCourse
#WithTheBirthPlanItIsABitMoreOfBirthPreferencesThanAPlan
#AndWritingDownWhatYouWouldWantForAnyPossibleSituation
#ItFeelsGoodToKnowMyOptionsAndThatThereAreOptions
#IHaveHeardOfBirthPlansBeingMockedABitButGivingBirthIsABigEventWhichCouldImpactYouForTheRestOfYourLife
#IAmSoGladThatILearnedAboutHypnobirthingAndSeeingBirthInAMorePositiveLight

This is a remake of an image I took at 20 and a half weeks.

It does look really far out this time too, and B likes to touch it when I say ‘where’s the baby?’

Earlier in the week I was getting stressed about movements, but they seem to have been quite active and I have been distracted by B’s eyes and my health.

Our bed is comfier now so I do not have as many pains in bed, but it is still best for me to lie on my left side.

I need to do a birth plan, and reread the hypnobirthing book but I am currently trying to read House of Gucci. Once that is done I am going to focus on baby, I swear. I tried to find B’s baby clothes this morning, but they weren’t where I thought they were, and I need to pack my hospital bag.

The first image on this page is the picture I am referring to in the hashtags.

My sister got me some nice new pyjamas for Xmas, and mentioned my Grandad’s pyjamas.

My Grandad was married to my Nan who we have been living with since late October 2020, so every once in a while I feel sad that Tiago and B and baby X never got to meet him.

B didn’t meet her Portuguese Grandparents until this summer, and she is still yet to meet Tiago’s brother, his wife and their daughter. We did a video call with them all today.

I’m gutted that Tiago’s paternity hasn’t improved since he was off with B, but I’m looking forward to him having two weeks off. He’s going to do the same again – one week of paternity, and one week of annual leave.

It’s good to know that I felt uncomfortable after sitting on the exercise ball, as I thought I didn’t, and I’m getting those pains now.

I didn’t go into another building until I gave birth to B in hospital…


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Imitating B Standing With Her Hands Behind Her Back (31 Weeks / 5th December 2021)

Self-portrait where I am stood facing a wall with the front of my hands touching my back. I am wearing a flowery dress and my head is tilted upwards slightly.
Imitating B Standing With Her Hands Behind Her Back (31 Weeks / 5th December 2021)
 
#BHasBeenStandingAndWalkingAroundWithHerHandsBehindHerBackForAWhile
#SometimesSheJustHasThemFlatAgainstHerOrSometimesShePlaysWithAFinger
#SheLooksVeryConfidentThoughAndWeAlwaysCommentOnItWhenSheDoesIt
#YesterdaySheDiscoveredThatIfSheStandsInFrontOfMeNextToMyLegsICanNotSeeHerBecauseOfMyBump
#SoWePlayedPeekabooForABitWhichWasFunnyAndIHopeSheDoesNotForgetAboutIt
#SheSometimesPointsToMyBumpButIDoNotThinkSheReallyUnderstandsWhatIsHappeningInThere
#IWantHerToSeeItReallyMoveAsIWantToSeeHerReaction
#IHurtMyFingerTheOtherDayPuttingMySocksOnAsItIsDifficultToNavigateAroundMyBump
#IHadA31WeeksAppointmentWhichWasOptionalAsItIsNotReallyNecessaryAfterYourFirstChild
#TheyOfferedMeOneSoIThoughtIMightAsWellGoAnywaysAsItIsAlwaysGoodToGetSomeReassurance
#TheyAlwaysTestMyUrineNowSoIBoughtSomeTubesToTakeASampleWithMe
#IStruggledToFillOneAsWithMyBumpIReallyCouldNotSeeWhereIWasPissing
#IHadADifferentMidwifeAsMyOriginalOneIsNowWorkingFromHomeAsSheIsOnlyABitMorePregnantThanMe
#ThereWasAlsoAStudentMidwifeWhichIWasNotBotheredAboutAsTheyHaveToLearnSomehowAndThereIsAShortageOfMidwivesInThisCountry
#TheyBothMeasuredMeAndTheStudentSaidTheBabyWas1CentimetreBiggerThanAt28WeeksButTheMidwifeSaidSheIs3CentimetresBigger
#TheMidwifeSaidToHerNotToWorryAsTheyAllHaveTheirOwnWayOfMeasuringSoAsLongAsTheyMeasureTheSameWayEachTimeItGivesTheInformationThatTheyNeed
#WellLastTimeSomeoneElseMeasuredMeSoTheBabyHasSuddenlyJumpedFromTheFiftyPercentileToSeventyIsh
#MaybeTheyDidHaveAGrowthSpurtButItSeemsLikeABitTooMuchAndItObviouslyIsNotSuperAccurateButTheMainThingIsTheBabyHasGrown
#ISaidThatIHadBeenInALotOfPainWithTheBabysMovements
#TheMidwifeSaidThatIDoNotHaveALotSeparatingTheBabyFromMySkinSoItWillBeUncomfortableAtTimes
#IHaveMyNextAppointmentAt34WeeksWhichWillBeWithADifferentMidwifeAndThenTheOnesAfterThatWillBeEvery2Weeks
#BsNurseryCalledDuringHerLastSessionAsSheHadABumpOnHerHeadButTheyDidNotSeeHerDoItAndSheHadNotCried
#TheyWatchedTheCCTVAndSaidSheMustHaveDoneItWhilePlayingWithAToyAroundSomeChairs
#ISaidItWasProbablyAnOldBumpThatTheyHadNotNoticedAndWeWouldBePickingHerUpInHalfAnHourAnyways
#WeWentToGetHerAndItWasAnOldBumpThatLookedLikeItHadBeenKnockedABitButItSoonWentDownAndSheWasFine
#BIsStillCryingWhenWePutHerDownForANapOrBedAndINoLongerEvenTryToLetHerCrawlInByHerselfAsSheCrawlsInHalfwayThenStops
#SoWeHaveZippedItUpAndTurnedItRoundAsTheRipInItIsGettingBiggerAndINeedToFixIt
#ABassinetZipsIntoHerCotSoTheBabyCanHaveHerCotOnceTheyAreBornAsTheBabyWillBeMoreSnugAndBCanHaveADifferentOne
#IJustHadToGoAndWatchBWhileTSortedSomethingOutAndBWasHoldingHerHandsBehindHerBackAgain
#SheDoesNotSeemToLikeScrambledEggsWhenIGiveHerSomeAtMealsButSheIsMoreThanHappyToStealSomeAndTheCrustsFromMyBreakfast

#BHasBeenStandingAndWalkingAroundWithHerHandsBehindHerBackForAWhile

I don’t know why I enjoy seeing her do it so much, but I do.

#SometimesSheJustHasThemFlatAgainstHerOrSometimesShePlaysWithAFinger

I took a video of her for reference for the shoot and she plays with a finger for a bit and then has them flat again.

#SheLooksVeryConfidentThoughAndWeAlwaysCommentOnItWhenSheDoesIt

She looks very powerful. I don’t know where she has picked it up from, but it’s probably another case of her just discovering she can do it…

I imagine the shoot will look a bit like My Baby Is A Brick Wall (14th July 2020).

#YesterdaySheDiscoveredThatIfSheStandsInFrontOfMeNextToMyLegsICanNotSeeHerBecauseOfMyBump

My Mum was saying that my bump seems to be sticking out the front more this time, but then again she never saw me heavily pregnant in real life last time because of Covid. I guess she’s seen the photos though and saw me on WhatsApp.

#SoWePlayedPeekabooForABitWhichWasFunnyAndIHopeSheDoesNotForgetAboutIt

I want to play peekaboo again.

#SheSometimesPointsToMyBumpButIDoNotThinkSheReallyUnderstandsWhatIsHappeningInThere

She knows something is up as I talk to her about it.

#IWantHerToSeeItReallyMoveAsIWantToSeeHerReaction

Baby X does really move about in there now, and my bump is pushed into some weird shapes.

#IHurtMyFingerTheOtherDayPuttingMySocksOnAsItIsDifficultToNavigateAroundMyBump

I was saying to Tiago things are only going to get ‘worse’ now until the baby is born.

#IHadA31WeeksAppointmentWhichWasOptionalAsItIsNotReallyNecessaryAfterYourFirstChild #TheyOfferedMeOneSoIThoughtIMightAsWellGoAnywaysAsItIsAlwaysGoodToGetSomeReassurance

I could walk to my appointment and yeah why not? They offered it to me.

#TheyAlwaysTestMyUrineNowSoIBoughtSomeTubesToTakeASampleWithMe

I bought them ages ago. It means touching less Covid surfaces and having one less thing to worry about once I get there.

#IStruggledToFillOneAsWithMyBumpIReallyCouldNotSeeWhereIWasPissing

Hello, piss on my hand. They need a funnel for the pregnant folk.

#IHadADifferentMidwifeAsMyOriginalOneIsNowWorkingFromHomeAsSheIsOnlyABitNotMorePregnantThanMe

Working from home because of Covid and all. I like her – shame I will probably never see her again. You never know though, we could be ward buddies.

#ThereWasAlsoAStudentMidwifeWhichIWasNotBotheredAboutAsTheyHaveToLearnSomehowAndThereIsAShortageOfMidwivesInThisCountry

They kept asking if it was okay if she was there. I had at least one student midwife at B’s birth, and it was mainly students who were looking after me and B during our hospital stay. She apologised in case I felt uncomfortable during her checks, but I said at least she wasn’t kicking me in the ribs.

#TheyBothMeasuredMeAndTheStudentSaidTheBabyWas1CentimetreBiggerThanAt28WeeksButTheMidwifeSaidSheIs3CentimetresBigger

I initally wrote ‘they are’ instead of ‘she is’, as I am still skeptical…

The midwife measured first, but didn’t tell the student what she had got until after the student had had a go. The test aspect made the appointment more interesting.

#TheMidwifeSaidToHerNotToWorryAsTheyAllHaveTheirOwnWayOfMeasuringSoAsLongAsTheyMeasureTheSameWayEachTimeItGivesTheInformationThatTheyNeed

They just want to see that the baby is growing.

#WellLastTimeSomeoneElseMeasuredMeSoTheBabyHasSuddenlyJumpedFromTheFiftyPercentileToSeventyIsh

Hmm.

#MaybeTheyDidHaveAGrowthSpurtButItSeemsLikeABitTooMuchAndItObviouslyIsNotSuperAccurateButTheMainThingIsTheBabyHasGrown

That’s what we want to see. Next time it will be with someone else, so we will see what they get.

#ISaidThatIHadBeenInALotOfPainWithTheBabysMovements

Though it has not been so bad the last few days. I have been using my body oil more as probably helps my skin not hurt so much.

#TheMidwifeSaidThatIDoNotHaveALotSeparatingTheBabyFromMySkinSoItWillBeUncomfortableAtTimes

Makes sense.

#IHaveMyNextAppointmentAt34WeeksWhichWillBeWithADifferentMidwifeAndThenTheOnesAfterThatWillBeEvery2Weeks

Time is flying by. The last appointment did not feel like 3 weeks ago.

#BsNurseryCalledDuringHerLastSessionAsSheHadABumpOnHerHeadButTheyDidNotSeeHerDoItAndSheHadNotCried #TheyWatchedTheCCTVAndSaidSheMustHaveDoneItWhilePlayingWithAToyAroundSomeChairs

I thought they might have been calling to say she’d been sick, as if she is too active after eating and seems to be a bit sick after meals (mainly breakfast) at the moment.

#ISaidItWasProbablyAnOldBumpThatTheyHadNotNoticedAndWeWouldBePickingHerUpInHalfAnHourAnyways

She keeps knocking the same bit of her head on different things. It’s good they called – and I guess they have to cover their backs.

#WeWentToGetHerAndItWasAnOldBumpThatLookedLikeItHadBeenKnockedABitButItSoonWentDownAndSheWasFine

It probably didn’t need much to upset it again. They said they’d put a cold compress on it. She seemed fine and after her nap it had already gone down a lot.

#BIsStillCryingWhenWePutHerDownForANapOrBedAndINoLongerEvenTryToLetHerCrawlInByHerselfAsSheCrawlsInHalfwayThenStops

If I put her to bed she soon stops crying, but if Tiago does then she seems to cry for a lot longer. She knows I’m the strict one…

#SoWeHaveZippedItUpAndTurnedItRoundAsTheRipInItIsGettingBiggerAndINeedToFixIt

Trying to figure out the best way to do it. She normally sleeps at the edge closest to the door, which was the zipped bit. Hopefully she won’t mess with it more now that we’ve turned it round.

#ABassinetZipsIntoHerCotSoTheBabyCanHaveHerCotOnceTheyAreBornAsTheBabyWillBeMoreSnugAndBCanHaveADifferentOne

I don’t want to have to bend down super far to put the baby down. They will be nice and snug in the bassinet – B liked it.

#IJustHadToGoAndWatchBWhileTSortedSomethingOutAndBWasHoldingHerHandsBehindHerBackAgain

After T came back she was playing with a comb and I said ‘do you want to comb Daddy’s hair?’ and she had fun.

#SheDoesNotSeemToLikeScrambledEggsWhenIGiveHerSomeAtMealsButSheIsMoreThanHappyToStealSomeAndTheCrustsFromMyBreakfast

Nan wasn’t up yet, but normally she steals most of Nan’s breakfast, even though she’s usually eaten an hour before…

31 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait standing on one leg, while holding my left foot and looking away from the camera with my right hand touching my chin. I am nude with small white squares hiding my nipples and pubic area.
It Is Kind Of Weird To Refer To Tiago As Daddy And For Me To Be Called Mummy (31 and a half weeks)
 
#IJustFeelTiredToday
#AtTheWeekendWeHadOurNCTCourse
#NCTMeaningNationalChildbirthTrust
#WeDidItVirtuallyOverZoomAsWeWereUnableToMeetInPersonDueToCovid
#ItWasGoodAndWeLearnedALot
#SomeOfItWasGoingOverWhatWeHadLearnedOnOurHypnobirthingCourse
#ButIFeelLikeIUnderstandThingsMoreAfterHavingSeenDiagramsAndThingsBeingExplainedAgainBySomeoneElse
#WeDidTheCourseBecauseWeWantedToLearnButAlsoBecauseWeWantedToMeetOtherPeople
#EveryoneSeemsNiceAndWeHaveAChatGroupAndWillHopefullyHaveMoreOnlineMeetings
#ButIThinkThingsWouldBeABitDifferentIfWeHadMetInPerson
#HopefullyWeWillGetToOneDay
#SoIThinkHavingTwoDaysOfListeningWhilstOnWebcamHasTiredMeOut
#AsComparedToOtherLockdownWeekendsItWasPrettyIntense
#ThisWeekendThereIsASmallSessionAboutBreastfeeding
#WeWatchedAnotherEpisodeOfBabiesTheOtherDayAndItWasAboutFeeding
#ApparentlyNoBreastMilkIsTheSame
#AndItWillDifferForIfYouHaveABoyOrAGirl
#ThoughIWonderWhatHappensIfYouHadTwinsWhereOneWasABoyAndOneWasAGirl
#ItWasInterestingAnyways
#IFeelLikeBabysKicksAreGettingStronger
#IThinkItWasLastNightWhereICouldJustSeeItMovingAllAbout
#WeAreReallyGettingIntoNestingModeNow
#ReorganisingTheFlatAndPreferringThingsToBeALotTidier
#WeHaveBoughtMostOfTheThingsThatWeNeedNow
#JustAFewSmallBitsAndPiecesLeftToGet
#IKeepTalkingToTheBabyAboutWhatTiagoIsDoingButISayWhatDaddyIsDoing
#ItIsKindOfWeirdToCallHimDaddyAndForMeToBeCalledMummy
#ThoughIThinkHeWouldPreferToBeCalledDadInPortugueseSoIReferToHimAsPaiSometimes
#ThoughPapaiIsDaddy
#SoMaybeIShouldStartReferringToHimAsThat

Well, we are quite used to being called Mummy and Daddy now… We did used to refer to Tiago as Pai, but we seem to do that less these days.

We debated doing an NCT course this time, but it seems like an expensive way to make friends (which is what we thought last time). Especially as we not planning on sticking around the area for more than a year now, so it would be another potential group of friends that we would be moving away from.

We weren’t expecting to move away from Liverpool anytime soon when we did the course, but we did. I had a zoom call with a few of them the other week, so that’s nice at least.

I’m still yet to open my hypnobirthing book, but I’ve got 5% left of the Sinead O’Connor book that I’m reading and then I will.


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Portrait of A Mother Of A Seventeen Month Old (28 Weeks / 14th November 2021)

Self-portrait lying on the bed in a bra and leggings. I am cradling my bump with my right hand and have my left hand resting on my face. I am leaning on and against a maternity pillow.
Portrait Of A Mother Of A Seventeen Month Old (28 Weeks / 14th November 2021)
 
#IKnowIHaveTakenALotOfPicturesOfMyselfLookingTiredInThePastForThisProjectWithinAProject
#ButThisTimeIReallyAmTiredAndBeforeIDoNotThinkIKnewWhatTheMeaningOfTiredWas
#OrMaybeIWasTiredThenButIFeelExhaustedNowAndProbablyShouldBeSavingMyEnergyAndNotTryingToDoABitOfWork
#IWentToBedFourNightsAgoFeelingLikeIWasMaybeGoingToBeSickButThoughtItWouldPass
#IBarelySleptAndGotUpToGoToTheBathroomAroundOneThirtyInTheMorningAndKeptBeingSickThenFinallyStoppedButWasSickAgainAfterASitDown
#BActuallySleptUntilSixForOnceAndIWasSickWhenIGotUpThenButFeltFineEnoughToDoMyMorningExerciseButThenICrashed
#IWentBackToBedAndTWatchedBThenIWatchedBForAnHourThenMyMumCameAndWatchedBUntilLunch
#ThenIGotUpToGiveHerLunchAndSheHadFallenAsleepOnMyMumSoTiagoWatchedHerDuringHisLunchThenSheNappedAndINapped
#IWasSurprisedThatBSleptForTwoHoursButIGotHerUpAndPutHerInOurBedButThenISuddenlyFeltSick
#SoIManagedToPutHerOnTheFloorAndRunToTheBathroomWhereIWasSickAndIMeanSickkk
#IThinkItIsExhaustionAndTheSicknessIsASideEffectOfItThoughIHaveNotBeenSickSinceButHaveFeltLikeIWillBeAtTimes
#BeforeBWasBornIDidUsedToSpendAWeekendInBedAtLeastOnceAYearButObviouslyItIsHardToDoThatNow
#TypicallyItHappenedAfterBStartedNurseryButIGuessMyBodyKnewICouldBeIllSoItWaitedUntilThenAndIHaveNotReallyBeenIllSinceBWasBorn
#BHasBeenABitUpAndDownAsWellButMaybeItIsDueToStartingNurseryAndHavingALeapAndTeethingAndBeingFrustratedAtNotBeingAbleToTalk
#WeGaveHerLunchYesterdayAndSheJustPushedItAllToTheFloorSoICriedAsIWasSoTired
#WeThoughtItWasBecauseSheWasOvertiredSoWeJustPutHerDownForHerNapAndSheWokeUpAfter40Minutes
#TiagoNeededARestAndIFeltTooTiredToLookAfterHerSoIGotIntoHerCotAndRubbedHerBackUntilSheFellBackToSleep
#IManagedToGetOutOfHerCotAndOutOfTheRoomWithoutHerWakingUpAndSheSleptForNearlyTwoMoreHours
#IDoWorryHowIAmGoingToCopeWithTwoKidsButIAmHopingThatIWillSomehowFeelLessTiredWhenTheBabyIsOutAndNotTakingAllMyNutrientsButIDoubtIt
#IHaveBarelyHadAnAppetiteButIHaveBeenMakingMyselfEatForTheBabysSake
#IDidHaveMy28WeeksMidwifeAppointmentThoughAndSheSaidEverythingSeemedFineButThatIShouldDrinkMore
#IDidNotRealiseThatIWasGoingToHaveABloodTestButLuckilyIHadForcedMyselfToEatASandwichBeforeGoing
#SheSaidTheBabyWasMeasuringWellAndThatSheHasAPercentileOf50Percent
#SheToldMeThatBHadAPercentileOf32WhenSheWasBornWhichIDidNotKnowSoThisBabyIsDefinitelyBiggerForNow
#IActuallyThoughtBHadBeenLessThan32SoThatIsGoodToKnow
#SheWasTryingToFigureOutWhereTheBabysHeadWasButSaidItDoesNotMatterAsBTurnedAroundTheDayBeforeSheWasBornAnyways
#ThisWeekendMyParentsAreDueToLookAfterBAndIAmABitNervousWithAllHerEarlyWakings
#WeChangedOurHotelYesterdaySoThatWeAreStayingCloseToOurFavouriteIndianRestaurantInsteadAndTheRoomHasABigBathAsIDoNotKnowIfIWillHaveTheEnergyToSwim
#IHadABathTheOtherDayWhenTiagoHadToTakeACoupleOfHoursOffToLookAfterB
#IWasBoredOfLyingInBedAndThoughtItWouldDoMeGoodAndItWasTheFirstBathIHadEverHadWhilePregnantAndItWasGreatThoughIDidFeelGuiltyForHavingToUseSoMuchWater

#IKnowIHaveTakenALotOfPicturesOfMyselfLookingTiredInThePastForThisProjectWithinAProject #ButThisTimeIReallyAmTiredAndBeforeIDoNotThinkIKnewWhatTheMeaningOfTiredWas

I’m yet to do the shoot, but I think I will be probably lying down or some kind of pose that means little effort for my body.

(Yeah, a classic lie across the bed pose. I was initially wearing a dress, but I didn’t like how it looked in the photos/you couldn’t see my bump as well.)

#OrMaybeIWasTiredThenButIFeelExhaustedNowAndProbablyShouldBeSavingMyEnergyAndNotTryingToDoABitOfWork

I’ve been umming and ahh-ing about whether or not to write this today etc.

#IWentToBedFourNightsAgoFeelingLikeIWasMaybeGoingToBeSickButThoughtItWouldPass #IBarelySleptAndGotUpToGoToTheBathroomAroundOneThirtyInTheMorningAndKeptBeingSickThenFinallyStoppedButWasSickAgainAfterASitDown

I wish I had just made myself be sick before going to bed, but I really hoped it would pass.

#BActuallySleptUntilSixForOnceAndIWasSickWhenIGotUpThenButFeltFineEnoughToDoMyMorningExerciseButThenICrashed

Classic.

#IWentBackToBedAndTWatchedBThenIWatchedBForAnHourThenMyMumCameAndWatchedBUntilLunch

By watching B I mean I just laid on the sofa while she watched TV. I felt bad, but it was all I could do.

#ThenIGotUpToGiveHerLunchAndSheHadFallenAsleepOnMyMumSoTiagoWatchedHerDuringHisLunchThenSheNappedAndINapped

She was just asleep on my Mum’s lap. We (well Tiago) kept her up for an hour and hoped that she would sleep again.

#IWasSurprisedThatBSleptForTwoHoursButIGotHerUpAndPutHerInOurBedButThenISuddenlyFeltSick

It’s good to know that she can nap for a good amount of time after having a short nap not too long before.

The sickness just kind of ‘rose up’.

#SoIManagedToPutHerOnTheFloorAndRunToTheBathroomWhereIWasSickAndIMeanSickkk

Grim. B was just crying and luckily Tiago came upstairs and took her downstairs.

#IThinkItIsExhaustionAndTheSicknessIsASideEffectOfItThoughIHaveNotBeenSickSinceButHaveFeltLikeIWillBeAtTimes

I will probably call the doctors tomorrow just to rule stuff out, but I also don’t want to waste their time.

#BeforeBWasBornIDidUsedToSpendAWeekendInBedAtLeastOnceAYearButObviouslyItIsHardToDoThatNow

Lie in bed and try to sleep, or just watch terrible TV. I did feel better the next night as I just watched TV in bed, and I fell asleep with my phone next to me which I never do – and slept solidly until B woke up at 5.30am.

#TypicallyItHappenedAfterBStartedNurseryButIGuessMyBodyKnewICouldBeIllSoItWaitedUntilThenAndIHaveNotReallyBeenIllSinceBWasBorn

I guess it’s been due, and growing a baby is tiring.

#BHasBeenABitUpAndDownAsWellButMaybeItIsDueToStartingNurseryAndHavingALeapAndTeethingAndBeingFrustratedAtNotBeingAbleToTalk

I try to put myself in her shoes. It must be so annoying not being able to say what you want, though I can guess at times, but sometimes I seem quite off.

#WeGaveHerLunchYesterdayAndSheJustPushedItAllToTheFloorSoICriedAsIWasSoTired

That was my frustration.

#WeThoughtItWasBecauseSheWasOvertiredSoWeJustPutHerDownForHerNapAndSheWokeUpAfter40Minutes

Great.

#TiagoNeededARestAndIFeltTooTiredToLookAfterHerSoIGotIntoHerCotAndRubbedHerBackUntilSheFellBackToSleep

Not the approach I like to take, but I was desperate.

#IManagedToGetOutOfHerCotAndOutOfTheRoomWithoutHerWakingUpAndSheSleptForNearlyTwoMoreHours

I felt like a bit of a champion.

#IDoWorryHowIAmGoingToCopeWithTwoKidsButIAmHopingThatIWillSomehowFeelLessTiredWhenTheBabyIsOutAndNotTakingAllMyNutrientsButIDoubtIt

I do intend to breastfeed again, so she will still be taking nutrients but in a less invasive way to being inside of me I imagine. That’s what I think anyways. The baby is due to double in size between now and birth. *Nervous laugh*

#IHaveBarelyHadAnAppetiteButIHaveBeenMakingMyselfEatForTheBabysSake

It’s been a struggle.

#IDidHaveMy28WeeksMidwifeAppointmentThoughAndSheSaidEverythingSeemedFineButThatIShouldDrinkMore

I really struggled to get a urine sample before I left the house, but I couldn’t see over my bump and so didn’t catch most of it. She said it was enough for the test though. I had drank a lot, but I guess it was old piss. Lovely.

#IDidNotRealiseThatIWasGoingToHaveABloodTestButLuckilyIHadForcedMyselfToEatASandwichBeforeGoing

And drinking all the drinks had helped as it came out quite easily. Hurrah.

#SheSaidTheBabyWasMeasuringWellAndThatSheHasAPercentileOf50Percent #SheToldMeThatBHadAPercentileOf32WhenSheWasBornWhichIDidNotKnowSoThisBabyIsDefinitelyBiggerForNow #IActuallyThoughtBHadBeenLessThan32SoThatIsGoodToKnow

I thought that B had just been over the okay line (I’m not sure what that is, but I thought it was around 10-15%?)

So yeah my suspicions of the baby being bigger have been confirmed. Maybe the first time my body was testing me and thought I could grow a bigger one this time?

#SheWasTryingToFigureOutWhereTheBabysHeadWasButSaidItDoesNotMatterAsBTurnedAroundTheDayBeforeSheWasBornAnyways

Cue a conversation about B’s birth again.

#ThisWeekendMyParentsAreDueToLookAfterBAndIAmABitNervousWithAllHerEarlyWakings

Le sigh.

#WeChangedOurHotelYesterdaySoThatWeAreStayingCloseToOurFavouriteIndianRestaurantInsteadAndTheRoomHasABigBathAsIDoNotKnowIfIWillHaveTheEnergyToSwim

We can also cancel until an hour before check-in so if my parents change their minds, then we can cancel.

This hotel also has a pool, but it is a bit cheaper and we haven’t had food from our favourite Indian restaurant in a long time so it’s a good excuse to change hotel and location.

#IHadABathTheOtherDayWhenTiagoHadToTakeACoupleOfHoursOffToLookAfterB

I think this makes me sound really bad…

#IWasBoredOfLyingInBedAndThoughtItWouldDoMeGoodAndItWasTheFirstBathIHadEverHadWhilePregnantAndItWasGreatThoughIDidFeelGuiltyForHavingToUseSoMuchWater

A lot to cram into the last hashtag, but yeah it was good. I had ran a very shallow bath to begin with and realised I either had to really fill it up or not have a bath. It was weird lifting my bump out of the water as it suddenly felt cold, but also quite heavy?

28 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait of myself nude from my head to knees. There are white sections over my breasts and pubic area.
I Just Want A Nice Record Of My Pregnancy As Maybe I Will Never Be Pregnant Again (28 and a half weeks)
 
#IPlannedToRecreateMyFailedBloodTestsPhotoButIWas7AndAHalfWeeksPregnantThen
#IAmNow28AndAHalfNowSoMyBumpWasTooBig
#SoIRemadeIHaveNeverSeenMyBodyLikeThisBeforeAndItIsSoWeirdInstead
#IHaveTakenNudePicturesBefore
#AndThereAreOthersInTheSeries
#ButIDoNotKnowWhyIFeelSoWeirdAboutHavingThemInThisSeries
#IGuessBecauseTheyAreNotReallyHiding
#AndAllAboutRevealing
#ThoughWhenPostingItIWillHaveToCensorItWhichIsSomewhatARelief
#IHaveBeenMakingSureThatITakeMorePicturesForMyself
#AsMaybeIWillNeverBePregnantAgain
#AndIDoNotActuallyWriteInMyDiaryAboutBeingPregnantThatMuch
#SoThisProjectIsANiceRecordOfIt
#MyBumpIsDefinitelyGettingBigger
#IThinkTheBabyDoublesInSizeBetweenNowAndBirth
#IHaveBeenContinuingMyDanceVideos
#TodayTwoPeopleSaidCongratsOnMyPregnancy
#IHadOnlyHadOneOtherMessageBefore
#SoMaybeItIsFinallyMoreObvious
#MyYouTubeAudienceIsMainlyMaleWhichIsABitWeird
#TodayIGotASexualInstagramMessage
#IThinkTheyFoundMyInstagramViaMyYouTube
#ItIsObviousOnYouTubeAndOnInstagramThatIAmPregnant
#SoItIsMoreWeirdToGetGrossMessages
#ThoughIKnowThatSomePeopleHavePregnancyFetishes
#WhichIsWhyItPutsMeOffSharingNudePhotosOfMyPregnantSelf
#ButItIsAlsoFunnyAsIThinkALotOfPeopleGetPregnantAndDoProfessionalNudeShoots
#EvenIfBeforeTheyWouldNotThinkAboutBeingPhotographedNude
#IJustWantANiceRecordOfMyPregnancy
#MyAppSaysThereAre80DaysLeftIfIGiveBirthOnTheDueDate

Well, spoiler I am pregnant again but it would be nice to have a comparison photo.

I have taken less nudes this time (if any?), but I do need to take at least one like this just as a reminder – and maybe baby X will say ‘Hey Mum, why did you not take a nude portrait with me?’

I am still dancing, but I think I need to be more casual about it with my tiredness and all. No one has commented about my bump yet, but then again I am quite behind with posting them – just like this project. At the time of writing this, this will be my 17th post that I need to post. They’re all ready to go, but yeah I’ve fell behind.

I’m also adding the first photo that I took at 29 weeks on as it talks about my 28 week appointment:

The backdrop is half a plain white wall and half black fabric. I am stood with the wall to my right and the fabric to my left, facing the left of the image. I am wearing a bra and leggings and have my left hand on my hip. Tiago's right hand is resting on my left thigh.
Subject: Leaky Boobs (29 weeks)
 
#IHadAMidwifeAppointmentTheOtherDay
#IAmSupposedToHaveThemEvery3Weeks
#ButTheyAreBeingChangedToEvery4WeeksNow
#IDidTheUsualUrineTestForProteinAndAllWasFine
#MyBloodPressureWasLowInAGoodWayAgain
#SheTriedToDoABloodTestToCheckMyIronLevels
#SheOnlyHadTwoNeedlesInHerBag
#TheRestWereInHerCar
#AndSheCouldNotManageToGetBlood
#SheSaidMyVeinsAreDeep
#IMadeSureIAteAndDrankWaterButObviouslyWasNotEnough
#TheyAreStillDoingHomeBirthsForNow
#AndSheSaidThatMorePeopleAreAskingForHomeBirthsNow
#SheSaidMyMusclesAreSeparatingQuiteALot
#AndThatIMayNeedToDoPhysioAfterBirth
#TiagoStoodAtTheDoorAsSheCheckedTheHeartbeat
#AllWasFine
#SheSaidMyPlacentaIsMainlyAtTheFront
#AndThatMightBeWhyISometimesCanNotFeelTheBaby
#IAmFeelingItMoreThoughParticularlyWhenIAmLyingDownInBed
#OftenICanNotFeelIt
#ButIPutMyHandAtTheBottomOfMyBumpAndICanFeelIt
#IKeepWakingUpAround3am
#WhenIWokeUpAtHalf3TodayMyLeftBoobFeltWeird
#ICouldNotSleepSoIReadForAnHour
#AtSomePointIRealisedThatItHadLeakedABit
#ThatIsTheFirstTimeThatHasHappenedSoItWasKindOfOddButExciting
#IThoughtItWouldNotHappenUntilLaterButLetUsSeeWhenTheRightOneFirstLeaks
#IEmailedMyselfWithTheSubjectOfLeakyBoobToRemindMyselfIncaseIForgotByTheMorning
#IHaveABruiseOnMyRightArmFromTheBloodTestAndIForgotToIncludeItInThePhoto

My midwife appointments are currently every 3 weeks. My blood test was more successful this time too.

No one has mentioned that my muscles have separated this time, which is good – I’ve made an effort to not do anything that might encourage them to separate more.

I think my placenta is at the back this time.

I’m yet to have a leak, so maybe that might happen soon?


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Imitating B Putting Her Head Against A Mirror (26 Weeks / 26th October 2021)

Self-portrait where I am resting my head on a mirror and looking at myself.
Imitating B Putting Her Head Against A Mirror (26 Weeks / 26th October 2021)
 
#IfBSeesAMirrorForSomeReasonSheHasToButtHeadsWithItOrBangOnItOrAtLeastRestHerHeadOnIt
#IAmStillTryingToFigureOutIfSheKnowsItIsHerInTheMirrorOrNot
#IfISeeAMirrorAndIAmCarryingHerThenIUsuallyWaveAtHerSoIThinkSheMustKnowButWhoKnows
#FiveDaysAgoIWroteInMyHashtagRemindersThatMaybeItIsTimeToDropBDownToOneNapADayButIWasFeelingHesitantAsILikeOurRoutines
#WellWeWentAwayAtTheWeekendAndBDidNotHaveASecondNapOnTheFridaySaturdayAndSunday
#ThenYesterdayIPutHerDownForHerFirstNapAndSheWasNotFallingAsleepSoIGotHerBackUpAndThenGaveHerANapAtMiddayInstead
#LastNightSheWasAwakeFromMidnightToTwoishAndThenWokeUpAtFiveThirtySoIPutHerInOurBed
#IDoNotLikeToDoItMuchButSheDidActuallySleepForAnotherHourThoughMySleepWasVeryUnsettledAsIWasWorriedAboutSquishingHerOrSomething
#StayingInAHotelStressedMeOutAsEverytimeSheCriedIWasWorriedThatItWouldAnnoyPeople
#IBarelySleptOnTheFridayNightAndOnTheSaturdayMorningWePutHerInOurBedFromFiveishAndSheSleptALittleBitLonger
#IAmWorriedThatWeAreUndoingHerSleepTrainingButMaybeSheIsJustTeethingAndABitClingierThoughOnSundayNightSheSleptFine
#ItWasWeirdGoingToAPhotographyWeekendAndTiagoAndBJoiningMeAsMyTwoWorldsRarelyCollide
#ItWasFunnyTalkingToPhotoFriendsAndThenSeeingThemWalkingTowardsMeAsItJustSeemedSoOdd
#IAmGoingToHaveToAdjustToThisNewOneNapScheduleButOnceWeDoIThinkItWillBeForTheBetterAsWeCanGoOutForLonger
#ThoughIAmWorriedAboutTheDarkEveningsAsIWillNotBeAbleToTakeHerOutLikeIUsuallyDoSoWeMightFeelABitStuckAtHome
#IWillJustHaveToAdjustWhenITakeHerOutForWalksAndMaybeWeWillJustHaveToDoSomeWalksInTheDarkWithTiagoOnTheNightsThatFeelLonger
#LastWeekIHadAMidwivesAppointmentAndIHadToTakeBWithMeButItWasAllFineAndTheBabyIsFine
#HerDueDateIsAFewDaysBeforeMineIThinkSoIWillNotSeeHerAgainAsSheWillBeWorkingFromHome
#SheSaidAsItIsNotMyFirstBabyThe31WeekAppointmentIsOptionalButISaidIMightAsWellHaveIt
#ThatMorningIWasChangingBsNappyAndThenICouldNotFindHerNappyCreamThoughIKnewIHadGotItBeforeSettingUpAChangingStation
#SoIWentOffToLookForItAndBStoodUpAndPissedOnTheFloorAndThenManagedToSlipOverInItSoWhenITookHerVestOffTheBackOfHerHeadWasWet
#SorryToBIfThisIsTooMuchButIFoundItFunnyAndSoIHadToGiveHerABathWhichMightHaveBeenHerFirstMorningBath
#IAmSureThisMorningThatShePointedToMyBellyAndThenDidAnImpressionOfItWithHerHand
#MyMumAndNanBothSaidMyBumpLooksALotBiggerTodaySoMaybeBNoticedToo
#WithHerNewScheduleIAmGoingToHaveToSeeIfICanDoABitOfWorkWhileShePlaysNextToMe
#IDoNotKnowWhyIFeelBadForDoingThisAsIAmSureALotOfOtherPeopleDoItToo
#YesterdayWeWereInMineAndTsBedroomAndISawAStackOfStuffNextToTheMirror
#ILookedAtItAndThoughtMaybeIShouldMoveItButDecidedItShouldBeFineButThen5MinutesLaterBHadKnockedItOverSoIHadToMoveIt
#IAmGettingQuiteNervousAboutHavingTwoKidsInAFewMonthsOrSo
#SometimesIGetWorriedAboutLackOfMovementsButThenSheStartsMovingALotAndTiagoCouldFeelHerKickingMeLastNight

#IfBSeesAMirrorForSomeReasonSheHasToButtHeadsWithItOrBangOnItOrAtLeastRestHerHeadOnIt

I really wish she could talk so she could explain things to me. Maybe she likes that it feels cold?

#IAmStillTryingToFigureOutIfSheKnowsItIsHerInTheMirrorOrNot

I thought she had known for ages, then I read in a development thing that is a more recent ‘skill’ that they learn.

#IfISeeAMirrorAndIAmCarryingHerThenIUsuallyWaveAtHerSoIThinkSheMustKnowButWhoKnows

I think she knows. Again, I can’t ask her.

#FiveDaysAgoIWroteInMyHashtagRemindersThatMaybeItIsTimeToDropBDownToOneNapADayButIWasFeelingHesitantAsILikeOurRoutines

Things were just working. I did note that maybe it would stop her early mornings though.

I send reminders to myself of what I might want to talk about in my hashtags. I am starting to think that they are just super dull, but I am tired.

#WellWeWentAwayAtTheWeekendAndBDidNotHaveASecondNapOnTheFridaySaturdayAndSunday

Friday I just thought she would not have a long enough nap before going to an appointment, and then going away so we might as well just try to leave as early as possible.

Saturday – She had her morning nap at a good time, then Tiago took her back to the hotel for a nap and she didn’t take it. Maybe it was because she knew T was in the room, but he had been there in the morning too?

Sunday – We left early so B and I could sleep in the car. Then we were meeting friends I could not be bothered to even try to get B to have a nap on the go. To be fair she showed no signs of being tired and wouldn’t even sit in her pushchair…

#ThenYesterdayIPutHerDownForHerFirstNapAndSheWasNotFallingAsleepSoIGotHerBackUpAndThenGaveHerANapAtMiddayInstead

I just realised ‘what am I doing? I should just transition her to one nap now’ as I didn’t think she would end up having a very long second nap anyways.

#LastNightSheWasAwakeFromMidnightToTwoishAndThenWokeUpAtFiveThirtySoIPutHerInOurBed

I was hoping she would sleep late as she was awake for so long.

I went in with her water and paracetamol and she seemed fine, until every time I went to leave. Tiago went in after a bit and stayed with her until she calmed down.

This morning I was not ready to get her up, and she seemed tired so putting her in our bed seemed like the easier option.

#IDoNotLikeToDoItMuchButSheDidActuallySleepForAnotherHourThoughMySleepWasVeryUnsettledAsIWasWorriedAboutSquishingHerOrSomething

My maternity pillow acted as a barrier so she was stuck on my side of the bed. She did cuddle up to me which was cute. When she went to Tiago’s side after an hour-ish I realised what an uncomfortable position I had been in.

#StayingInAHotelStressedMeOutAsEverytimeSheCriedIWasWorriedThatItWouldAnnoyPeople

The hotel reviews were really mixed, but it was nice. The staff were super friendly and the bed wasn’t bad.

#IBarelySleptOnTheFridayNightAndOnTheSaturdayMorningWePutHerInOurBedFromFiveishAndSheSleptALittleBitLonger

Every time she woke up I sat upright and stressed. Again, it seemed like an easier option to just put her in our bed.

#IAmWorriedThatWeAreUndoingHerSleepTrainingButMaybeSheIsJustTeethingAndABitClingierThoughOnSundayNightSheSleptFine

She had a similar bad sleep episode a week ago (awake for 2 hours in the night etc.) I don’t want to keep giving her paracetamol but she has been putting her fingers in her mouth a lot and she does seem to have a bit of a cold again.

#ItWasWeirdGoingToAPhotographyWeekendAndTiagoAndBJoiningMeAsMyTwoWorldsRarelyCollide

Obviously I photograph them, so my worlds collide then but I mean colliding in real life – it was weird.

#ItWasFunnyTalkingToPhotoFriendsAndThenSeeingThemWalkingTowardsMeAsItJustSeemedSoOdd

It was nice to introduce B to people, though when she was getting tired one night she kept falling over, so Tiago had to keep taking her out of the room.

#IAmGoingToHaveToAdjustToThisNewOneNapScheduleButOnceWeDoIThinkItWillBeForTheBetterAsWeCanGoOutForLonger #ThoughIAmWorriedAboutTheDarkEveningsAsIWillNotBeAbleToTakeHerOutLikeIUsuallyDoSoWeMightFeelABitStuckAtHome

We will have to see. I am really not looking forward to the clocks changing.

#IWillJustHaveToAdjustWhenITakeHerOutForWalksAndMaybeWeWillJustHaveToDoSomeWalksInTheDarkWithTiagoOnTheNightsThatFeelLonger

The time of her one nap means we do have a lot of time in the morning, and hopefully we can go out after her nap before it gets dark.

I’m not sure how safe it will be walking around with B at night, but I know people with dogs who are already trying to figure out a route. Some nights we might feel like we have to get out for a bit. I definitely wouldn’t go out with B by myself though.

#LastWeekIHadAMidwivesAppointmentAndIHadToTakeBWithMeButItWasAllFineAndTheBabyIsFine

She was listening for a heartbeat and I could feel the baby kicking so I wasn’t too worried then.

#HerDueDateIsAFewDaysBeforeMineIThinkSoIWillNotSeeHerAgainAsSheWillBeWorkingFromHome

Shame as I like her.

#SheSaidAsItIsNotMyFirstBabyThe31WeekAppointmentIsOptionalButISaidIMightAsWellHaveIt

It’s not too far to go and I’d rather just go for an extra check and know things are okay.

#ThatMorningIWasChangingBsNappyAndThenICouldNotFindHerNappyCreamThoughIKnewIHadGotItBeforeSettingUpAChangingStation #SoIWentOffToLookForItAndBStoodUpAndPissedOnTheFloorAndThenManagedToSlipOverInItSoWhenITookHerVestOffTheBackOfHerHeadWasWet

Of course the cream had just rolled away and was under the step ladder next to us.

#SorryToBIfThisIsTooMuchButIFoundItFunnyAndSoIHadToGiveHerABathWhichMightHaveBeenHerFirstMorningBath

Sorry B. I’m sure most people have slipped over in their piss at least once in their life. If they say no then they’re probably lying. I don’t remember doing it, but I might well have done at your age.

I was hoping to get away with not giving her a bath, but nope. Then I was hoping to just wash the back of her head, but she had splashed so much that I just washed all her hair.

#IAmSureThisMorningThatShePointedToMyBellyAndThenDidAnImpressionOfItWithHerHand

Just like ‘you’re this big now’. We’ve seen some friends the last couple of days and their 4 year old son hadn’t even noticed I was pregnant until he gave me a hug last night and I pointed out he was hugging baby X too.

#MyMumAndNanBothSaidMyBumpLooksALotBiggerTodaySoMaybeBNoticedToo

It does seem to have suddenly grown, but I have eaten a lot this weekend and it might be due to where my placenta is or something. I don’t know.

#WithHerNewScheduleIAmGoingToHaveToSeeIfICanDoABitOfWorkWhileShePlaysNextToMe

Yesterday I did manage to prep a blog post. I’m getting a bit over doing this blog to be honest, but I might feel better once I am up to date with putting the images in, writing pregnancy comparisons and tags etc.

#IDoNotKnowWhyIFeelBadForDoingThisAsIAmSureALotOfOtherPeopleDoItToo

It’s good for kids to play by themselves for a bit for sure. Mum guilt is real.

#YesterdayWeWereInMineAndTsBedroomAndISawAStackOfStuffNextToTheMirror #ILookedAtItAndThoughtMaybeIShouldMoveItButDecidedItShouldBeFineButThen5MinutesLaterBHadKnockedItOverSoIHadToMoveIt

Me being lazy… In future I need to trust my health and safety officer instincts. (I’m not one, but I feel like becoming a parent I do notice risks better.)

#IAmGettingQuiteNervousAboutHavingTwoKidsInAFewMonthsOrSo

*Nervous laugh* I’m just trying to go to bed earlier. The last couple of nights I have gone to sleep quite early. This is why I also need to get stuff done while B is awake/during her naps, though yesterday I had to nap during her nap and I imagine it will be the same today.

#SometimesIGetWorriedAboutLackOfMovementsButThenSheStartsMovingALotAndTiagoCouldFeelHerKickingMeLastNight

I feel like I have been writing ‘it’ instead of ‘her’ as sometimes I forget we know, though I will not 100% believe it until she is born.

I just hadn’t had much time to feel her movements as it was such a busy weekend, so it’s always a relief when I feel her moving about.

26 weeks with B comparison:

Self-portrait in my bra and pants where my bump is showing and I am looking up. My hands are resting on the top of my legs.
We Heard The Baby’s Heartbeat For The First Time Today (26 weeks)
 
#IFeelLikeIAmInSomeWeirdBubbleWithThisWholeCoronaVirus
#IAmUsuallyHomeQuiteABitAnyways
#AndInNoRushToGoOut
#ButNowIAmWorkingFromHomeForTheForeseeableFuture
#AndThereIsSomethingAboutNotHavingAnythingToGoOutTo
#WeJustTryToGoForAWalkInTheEveningToBuySomeFruitAndVeg
#TheGoodThingAboutOptingForAHomeBirthIsTheMidwifeVisitsOurFlat
#SheCameYesterdayAndAllWasGood
#SheSaidMyBloodPressureWasLowButInAGoodWay
#SheSaidWhyLowPressureWasGoodButICanNotRememberWhatSheSaid
#SheAskedMeIfIEverFeltDizzy
#ISaidNo
#ButLastNightAndThisMorningMaybeIGotUpTooQuickAndSawColourfulLightsInMyEyes
#SoINeedToBeCareful
#SheNeededToMeasureMyUterus
#ItTookHerAWhileAsSheSaidMyCoreIsSoStrong
#MustBeBecauseOfTheExerciseThatIAmDoingInTheMorningAndNight
#SheSaidThatMyAbdominalMusclesAreStartingToSeparateNowToMakeRoomForTheBabyWhichIsNormal
#IAmGuessingThatIfIKeepOnExercisingAsIHaveThenItWillAllBeFine
#ISaidIAmMoreFlexibleThanIWasBeforeIWasPregnant
#WhichIThoughtWasDownToTheExerciseAndItProbablyIsABit
#ButSheSaidThatHormonesDuringPregnancyWillMakeYouMoreFlexible
#SheAlsoCheckedTheBabysHeartbeat
#TheNightBeforeIWasConcernedAsICouldNotFeelItInTheEvening
#ThoughWhenICompletelyRelaxedIEventuallyDid
#SheSaidThatThePlacentaMightBeAbsorbingTheKicks
#AsItTookAWhileToFindTheBabyAsSheCouldMostlyHearPlacenta
#WhenSheFoundItThoughItWasAGoodQuickHeartbeatLikeItShouldBe
#TiagoWalkedIntoTheRoomAndHeardItTooWhichWasNice
#ThisMorningItWasKickingStrongAndTiagoFeltItALot

I heard the baby X’s heartbeat for the first time weeks ago, so not sure why it took so long with B.

It is weird thinking that at this point with B I was just going for a walk once a day and only seeing Tiago.

I feel like I look stronger in this above picture than I feel right now (at the same phase). I have made an effort to not sit up straight from lying down so hopefully my muscles will not separate so much this time. My midwife did think that I’d have to do physio after having B, but I didn’t have to luckily.

I think my placenta is in a different position this time, which may be why I can feel it kicking more than I did with B. It may also be why my bump looks different, but that might be down to having had a baby before.

As I’m not planning for a homebirth this time I have to go out to appointments, but I seem to have them at good times and it’s good to get out of the house.

Self-portrait with some broken blood vessels visible on my cheeks. I am wearing a purple top that matches the blotches on my cheeks a bit. I am resting my left hand on my chin.
Broken Blood Vessels (26 weeks)
 
#IHaveBeenNoticingBitsOfRedOnMyCheeksForAFewWeeks
#IJustThoughtItWasToDoWithTheColdOutside
#AsUsuallyMySkinGoesABitRubbishInTheWinter
#OrIThoughtItWasASlightAllergicReaction
#YesterdayMorningIHadABitOfRedOnMyFace
#IWentToPhotographItButTiagoWasDoingExerciseInTheBitOfTheLivingRoomWhereIShoot
#AndByTheTimeHeFinishedItHadFaded
#IWalkedForAbout2HoursYesterday
#AndTiagoCommentedThatMyFaceWasQuiteRedLastNight
#ItIsThatTimeOfYearWhereYourBodyFeelsWeirdWhenTheSunGoesDown
#AsItWasQuiteWarmDuringTheDay
#AndThenSuddenlyItIsVeryCold
#SoIThoughtItMightBeToDoWithThat
#ReadingLastNightThoughApparentlyItIsACommonThing
#ToDoWithIncreasedBloodFlowAndBloodVessels
#SometimesTheBloodVesselsBreak
#WhichExplainsWhySometimesThePatchesTakeAFewDaysToDisappear
#TheSkinOnMyChinIsAlsoABitWeird
#WhichIsProbablyToDoWithHormones
#ApparentlyTheBabyIsTheSizeOfAnAcornSquashNow
#AndAbout36cmLong
#IAmAlsoAboutTwoThirdsOfTheWayThrough
#TimeIsFlying
#FeelLikeIShouldStartBuyingMoreThingsOffTheBabyListSoon
#IKeepLookingAtThingsButDoNotWantToCommitToBuyingRightNow
#IAmHopingThatWeWillGetToGoSomewhereToTryOutThePushchairWeWant
#ButWeMightJustHaveToRiskItAndBuyItWithoutTrying
#WillSeeHowThingsAreWhenIAmAround30Weeks
#WeAreLuckyAsWeBothHaveJobsThatSeemRelativelySecure
#WhoKnowsHowLongThingsAreGoingToGoOnFor
 

I have not noticed any broken blood vessels this time, so far.

This time we do not really need to buy anything, though I remembered earlier that soon we will need to buy newborn nappies and things. Fun times ahead…


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Portrait Of A Mother Of A Fourteen Month Old (15 Weeks / 13th August 2021)

Self-portrait of myself yawning with my eyes partially closed due the yawning. I am resting the index finger of my left hand near my left eye.
Portrait Of A Mother Of A Fourteen Month Old (15 Weeks / 13th August 2021)
 
#IShouldBePackingButInsteadIAmProcrastinatingAndDoingAShootThatIWasNotGoingToDoToday
#ItMakesSenseToGetItDoneThoughAsIWantItToHaveTheSameLookAsOtherPortraitsOfAMotherOfEtc
#HopefullyTomorrowWeWillBeGoingAwayAndIWillHaveToDoWithoutMyLightingKitForNearly3Weeks
#IHadLookedAtGettingSomethingThatWouldSuitButIAmNotEarningMuchAtTheMomentSoItFeltQuiteFrivolous
#AnywaysYesterdayWeWentToBirminghamAirportToDoOurFitToFlyPCRTests
#WeWentForTheDriveThroughOptionWhichWasGoodAsBSleptTheWholeTimeEvenWhenALoudPlaneTookOff
#IWarnedTheWomanThatIAmJustGettingOverMyMorningSicknessButItWasFineAndLessUncomfortableThanWhenIDoAFlowTestMyself
#IJustStartedToWinceOnTheLastFewSecondsOfTheTenSecondsNostrilTwisting
#WeAreDueToGetOurResultsByTenTonightThoughTheySaidItMayTake48HoursFromTheTestWhichIsTomorrowMorning
#ByThatPointWeWillBePackedAndHeadingToLondonSoIReallyHopeTheTestsAreNegative
#IFeltALotMoreHappyAndRelaxedOnceTheTestsWereDoneAsThatWasABigStressToOrganiseAndAtThisPointThereIsNotMuchWeCanDoApartFromWaitForTheResults
#ThoughIFeltLessRelaxedOnceIRealisedThatWeWillBeTestedOnArrivalTooSoWeHaveToHopeWeDoNotPickItUpBetweenTests
#ItShouldBeFineExceptForYesterdayIChattedToALotOfPeopleInThePark
#ISawACoupleWhoWeSeeAllTheTimeAndChattedToThemForTheFirstTimeWhichWasNiceButTypicallyItIsJustAsWeAreGoingAway
#AndThenISpokeToAWomanWithADogWhoWeAlsoSeeAllTheTimeButHaveNeverSpokenMuchTo
#BWasAtFirstYellingOrFrustratedlyTalkingToHerDogAndThenSheWasYellingAtASquirrel
#IHaveNoticedThatSheTalksToAllAnimalsApartFromGeeseWhichIsFairEnoughAsTheyAreScary
#TheWomanCameByAndISaidThatBOnlyLikesToTalkToAnimalsAndThenWeSpokeForAges
#AndThenWeSawAnotherWomanWithADogWhoWeUsuallySeeAboutOnceAMonthNowButByThatPointBWasFedUpAndGotScaredByHerDogBarking
#BLikesToStareALotNowAndTheOtherDayATeenagerYelledAtHerSayingWhatAreYouStaringAt
#IThinkHimYellingJustMadeBStareMoreAndHisFriendSaidToHimWhatAreYouDoingWhichIsGood
#BWokeUpAt6ThisMorningThoughMeAndTiagoWereAwakeAtHerUsualTimeAndWorryingIfSheWasAliveAsSheWasSoQuiet
#IDoNotKnowWhySheSleptLateAsInTheParkSheWasEitherInTheSwingOrHerPushchairButMaybeTheBiryaniSheHadForDinnerFilledHerUpOrSheJustWasNotTeethingAt5ForOnce
#LastNightIWokeUpAndBoltedAcrossTheRoomAsInMyDreamBWasAboutToFallOffTheKitchenCounter
#BMakesMeLaughAsYesterdayNanWasPickingCrumbsUpOffTheFloorWhileBSatNextToHerPlayingWithTheVelcroOnNansShoes
#IHaveMyMidwifeAppointmentTodayAtLunchSoHopefullyThatWillAllGoOkay
#WeirdlyTheMidwifeAndIThoughtWeRecognisedEachOtherButIDoNotThinkWeHaveEverMetBefore
#SheWasAlsoLovelyAndIsAboutAWeekMorePregnantThanMeWhichIsCoolButAlsoAnnoyingAsIWantHerAsMyMidwife
#AtMyLastAppointmentTheySaidTheyMayOrMayNotListenForAHeartbeatAsItIsUsuallyTooEarly
#ButSheTriedAndItWasReassuringToHearItAndSheSaidIfIEverWantToCheckItToJustSendHerAMessage

#IShouldBePackingButInsteadIAmProcrastinatingAndDoingAShootThatIWasNotGoingToDoToday

I just realised that the reminders I write to myself were stacking up, and if I do this today then I can chill about doing work for a little bit.

#ItMakesSenseToGetItDoneThoughAsIWantItToHaveTheSameLookAsOtherPortraitsOfAMotherOfEtc

And this. I had debated just doing a shoot today then writing another day.

#HopefullyTomorrowWeWillBeGoingAwayAndIWillHaveToDoWithoutMyLightingKitForNearly3Weeks

I’m sure I’ll manage, it just ruins the look of the project a little bit but oh well. It might mix it up in a good way…

#IHadLookedAtGettingSomethingThatWouldSuitButIAmNotEarningMuchAtTheMomentSoItFeltQuiteFrivolous

And researching/reading reviews takes up so much time.

#AnywaysYesterdayWeWentToBirminghamAirportToDoOurFitToFlyPCRTests

We had looked at other options, but they’d sold out. I think I mentioned it in my last entry/post (I still don’t know what to call these).

#WeWentForTheDriveThroughOptionWhichWasGoodAsBSleptTheWholeTimeEvenWhenALoudPlaneTookOff

Having to park and go through a walk in felt like more hassle. Especially as we did not know what time B would wake up in the morning (5:15am for the record) and if we would disturb her napping (she fell asleep before we got to the airport).

She did briefly open her eyes just after we started to move again, she sleepily smiled at me then went back to sleep. When we got home she stayed in the car for an hour continuing to nap…

#IWarnedTheWomanThatIAmJustGettingOverMyMorningSicknessButItWasFineAndLessUncomfortableThanWhenIDoAFlowTestMyself #IJustStartedToWinceOnTheLastFewSecondsOfTheTenSecondsNostrilTwisting

I thought that I had better warn her in case I made some weird noises or something. She said she would go slow and I could take a break whenever I wanted but it was fine. I was glad that I got a woman, but it seemed like policy which was good (Tiago got a guy).

#WeAreDueToGetOurResultsByTenTonightThoughTheySaidItMayTake48HoursFromTheTestWhichIsTomorrowMorning #ByThatPointWeWillBePackedAndHeadingToLondonSoIReallyHopeTheTestsAreNegative

It is so stressful. I don’t see why people are bothering to go abroad to places where you need to test loads if you are just going for a week and not visiting family… I need to look at booking day 2 and day 8 tests for when I get back. Tiago only needs to do day 2, and B doesn’t need to do them. Phew.

#IFeltALotMoreHappyAndRelaxedOnceTheTestsWereDoneAsThatWasABigStressToOrganiseAndAtThisPointThereIsNotMuchWeCanDoApartFromWaitForTheResults #ThoughIFeltLessRelaxedOnceIRealisedThatWeWillBeTestedOnArrivalTooSoWeHaveToHopeWeDoNotPickItUpBetweenTests

It’d be bloody typical…

#ItShouldBeFineExceptForYesterdayIChattedToALotOfPeopleInThePark

Typically I often go to the park and hope to talk to people and I talk to no one. Yesterday was our chattiest day in a longgg time, if ever.

#ISawACoupleWhoWeSeeAllTheTimeAndChattedToThemForTheFirstTimeWhichWasNiceButTypicallyItIsJustAsWeAreGoingAway

I think I have mentioned them before (I hope it doesn’t get to the point where they might read this blog and find it awkward – hello if so).

Their kid is the same age as B and we have seen them around since we moved here. It was nice to finally chat. We always say we should say hello to them, but after a while it feels like too late to say hello. I took B to the swings though and they were next to us, so I felt like I should ‘go for it’. They’re so nice, and we chatted for ages. B was getting restless, so I thought I should take her home for dinner and a run around.

#AndThenISpokeToAWomanWithADogWhoWeAlsoSeeAllTheTimeButHaveNeverSpokenMuchTo

Once I was sat with B on a picnic blanket and the dog just came and sat next to her randomly. We spoke briefly then, but that was monthsss ago I think.

#BWasAtFirstYellingOrFrustratedlyTalkingToHerDogAndThenSheWasYellingAtASquirrel

I feel bad as I keep saying she is yelling, but she is probably just talking loudly and gets frustrated as they never come closer to her and/or talk back…

#IHaveNoticedThatSheTalksToAllAnimalsApartFromGeeseWhichIsFairEnoughAsTheyAreScary

At first I put evil instead of scary, but thought I might offend geese lovers. They just get quite defensive and hiss a lot. My parents used to have geese and once one bit my foot (luckily I was wearing steel toe capped boots, but still). I have been weary of them since…

#TheWomanCameByAndISaidThatBOnlyLikesToTalkToAnimalsAndThenWeSpokeForAges

She was smiling and I was in a good mood from talking to the couple. We spoke about lots of things from when she gave birth husbands were not allowed in the hospital at all, to anti-vaxxers. She’s also lovely.

#AndThenWeSawAnotherWomanWithADogWhoWeUsuallySeeAboutOnceAMonthNowButByThatPointBWasFedUpAndGotScaredByHerDogBarking

Last time we saw them it was early in the morning. We caught them this time as they came out early and we were late from chatting to so many people. I had to pick B up as she was scared by his barking. He’s a very friendly dog though.

#BLikesToStareALotNowAndTheOtherDayATeenagerYelledAtHerSayingWhatAreYouStaringAt

I was pushing B across the grass and she was sat on the standing board just chilling and looking at the world. I saw her looking at them and I looked briefly and smiled at them.

#IThinkHimYellingJustMadeBStareMoreAndHisFriendSaidToHimWhatAreYouDoingWhichIsGood

Maybe he was yelling at me, but I doubt it as B was having a good long look. So awkward. Glad his friend told him off as he was probably just showing off, but it did make me feel uncomfortable. I just didn’t look or say anything. Then a guy commented that B was staring a lot, but he was being friendly and was with his kids.

#BWokeUpAt6ThisMorningThoughMeAndTiagoWereAwakeAtHerUsualTimeAndWorryingIfSheWasAliveAsSheWasSoQuiet

Yesterday she was trying to get my Nan’s salt shaker off her tall table and I think it may have hit her on the head, so I was keeping an eye on her because of that.

#IDoNotKnowWhySheSleptLateAsInTheParkSheWasEitherInTheSwingOrHerPushchairButMaybeTheBiryaniSheHadForDinnerFilledHerUpOrSheJustWasNotTeethingAt5ForOnce

She wasn’t running around a lot, unless it was from all the listening? Maybe dinner was filling (she didn’t eat any yoghurt before bed like she usually does), or maybe it was down to teething. She never seems to stop teething, so maybe it did for a little bit and so she slept better. Who knows?

#LastNightIWokeUpAndBoltedAcrossTheRoomAsInMyDreamBWasAboutToFallOffTheKitchenCounter

Lol. There is no kitchen counter in our room. Tiago just said ‘are you alright?’ as my urgency woke him up. Classic.

#BMakesMeLaughAsYesterdayNanWasPickingCrumbsUpOffTheFloorWhileBSatNextToHerPlayingWithTheVelcroOnNansShoes

She is funny. She must like the sound. Today she realised she could make a sound on the cupboard with her fingers.

#IHaveMyMidwifeAppointmentTodayAtLunchSoHopefullyThatWillAllGoOkay

I have left myself four hashtags to write about it. Fun times.

#WeirdlyTheMidwifeAndIThoughtWeRecognisedEachOtherButIDoNotThinkWeHaveEverMetBefore

I was thinking I recognised her (even with her mask on) and then she said that she thought she had met me before. I’ve only had a couple of appointments though and they weren’t with her. I’ve recently moved GP surgery and it is better as I will have more of my appointments there rather than random centres, and I like her.

#SheWasAlsoLovelyAndIsAboutAWeekMorePregnantThanMeWhichIsCoolButAlsoAnnoyingAsIWantHerAsMyMidwife

Happy for her, but it’s typical. She said from her 30 weeks she might have to just work from home due to shielding, but she said we’ll see what the rules are. In Liverpool, my midwife was due to take sick leave but then she didn’t – but in the end she wasn’t my midwife as I didn’t have a homebirth. My midwife today said I could have a homebirth if I wanted, but I said it’s probably not very polite as we live at my Nan’s place.

#AtMyLastAppointmentTheySaidTheyMayOrMayNotListenForAHeartbeatAsItIsUsuallyTooEarly #ButSheTriedAndItWasReassuringToHearItAndSheSaidIfIEverWantToCheckItToJustSendHerAMessage

I know in Liverpool they were a bit weird about it. I guess it freaks people out if they don’t hear it, but the midwife today said that if it’s not good news then you wouldn’t hear much at all. The baby was hiding behind my placenta, but she could hear it moving and my placenta was being noisy. She kept trying to get a clearer sound for me, but I said as long as she was happy that all was good then it was fine with me.

Some reassuring news before our possible holiday. Fingers crossed.

15 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait wearing a black and white stripy dress. I am looking at the camera and have my left thumb touching my lips, and the rest of my fingers closing my left eye.
Maternity Clothes (15 and a half weeks)
 
#SoMyFirstMaternityClothesHaveArrived
#IDidNotWantToCurseThingsByBuyingThemTooEarly
#ButIDefinitelyNeededNewBras
#IAmTryingOutTheClipsThatYouUseSoYouCanFeed
#ItIsStartingToGetEasier
#ButIDoNotWantToPracticeTooMuch
#InCaseIBreakThatFunctionBeforeIActuallyNeedThem
#IHaveStartedToEditMyProjectDownNowSoIDoNotHaveToDoItLaterOn
#IHaveToPickMyFavouriteImageFromAllThePreviousShoots
#AndThenIMightTryDrawingOnThem
#ToHelpWithMyAnxietyAndWorries
#IDoDefinitelyHaveABumpNow
#ThoughIThinkDuringTheDayMostOfItIsDueToFood
#IHaveStartedToDoYogaOrPilatesOrStretchingInTheMorningAndEveningNow
#IHaveGotIntoAGoodHabitOfDoingItInTheMorning
#ButTheLastCoupleOfDaysIHaveBeenDoingItInTheEveningTooAsIFeelLikeINeedIt
#AndIAmStartingToGetPelvicPainNow
#AtLeastISeemToHaveMoreEnergyTheseDays
#IStillFeelABitSickButIAmNotBeingSick
#TheClosestIGetToBeingSickAtTheMomentIsWheneverIBrushMyTeeth
#IHaveTriedAllDifferentToothpastesButMyBodyHatesIt
#ITryToThinkOfDoughnutsAndUnicorns
#ApparentlyInWeek16TheBabyWillBeTheSizeOfADoughnut
#SoIMightGetOneToCelebrateAsIHaveBeenThinkingAboutThemForWeeks
#WheneverIAmSomewhereThatSellsThemINeverWantThemThough
#ApartFromMaybeThoseVansThatSellDinkieDoughnutsOrWhateverTheyAreCalledTheseDays
#AnywaysThisIsMyFirstMaternityDress
#IHateShoppingButISawItAndLikedItWhichIsRareSoIThoughtIShouldGetIt
#IAmBoredOfPregnancyAdsNow
#IWantToSeeOtherThings
#AFewYearsAgoWhenIUsedToGetPregnancyTestAdsOnYouTubeIWasSurprisedThatAGuyInMyImprovClassGotAdvertsForTomatoSoup

Well, coincidentally I have my left hand touching my face and one eye closed.

I have been wearing this dress since B was born, and I have been wearing it a lot lately. I haven’t bought any maternity clothes this time, but I have been given a maternity jumper.

I ended up not wearing the clip bras much, and ended up wearing the ones that you just move the bra with your hands. I’ve been wearing them lately anyways as they’re so comfy.

I never ended up drawing on the pictures, but I have got a lot quicker at editing. I usually edit the shoot on the day of the shoot or the day after now.

I feel like I haven’t had any pelvic pain yet with this pregnancy, but I have been doing pregnancy stretches in the morning and evening since getting a positive test this time which I think has helped.

I tried to distract myself more this time than think about doughnuts and unicorns when I feel sick – the thought of doughnuts is making me hungry. There are some jam doughnuts in the kitchen actually, but I’m not a fan.

I feel like I haven’t had too many pregnancy ads this time, but I am also making an effort to not accept all cookies on sites anymore. I could eat a cookie or five.


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Pregnancy Waiting II

General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot (9 Weeks? / 28th June 2021)

Self-portrait of me looking at the camera in a bra and leggings. I am holding onto my elbow, and there is a bit of a baby bump showing.
General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot (9 Weeks? / 28th June 2021)
 
#TypicallyIGotAnAppointmentLetterForAScanTheSameDayThatISaidIHadHeardNothing
#AnnoyinglyItIsTheOneDayThatTiagoCanNotDoForSureSoWeWillHaveToWaitAnotherWeekNow
#TheLetterDoesNotSayIfTiagoCanAttendOrNotButIGuessTheRulesMayChangeByThenAnyways
#IRealiseThatIThoughtIMayBePregnantAsIGotSomeSpotsButTheyMayHaveBeenCausedByMeWearingAMask
#ThoughPerhapsItIsACombinationOfHormonesAndAMaskMakingThemWorseThanNormal
#IFeelHappierLatelyWhichIsProbablyAlsoACombinationOfHormonesAndHavingSomethingToCountdownToAfterMonthsOfFeelingABitLost
#ItHasAlsoBeenGoodToSeeMorePeopleLately
#WeJustHadAFewNightsAwayWhereWeCaughtUpWithLotsOfPeople
#ItWasReallyNiceToJustSeePeopleRegularlyForAFewDays
#ItWasAlsoAGlimpseOfHowItMightBeHavingTwoKids
#BDoesLikeBabiesButSheAlsoLikesToRunAroundAfterBiggerKids
#SheWasQuiteConfidentAtTakingTheirStuffAndDidNotSeemToCareWhenTheyGotAnnoyed
#ItWasAlsoAGoodReminderThatTheSecondKidWillNotDoVeryMuchForAWhile
#SoAtLeastYouCanPutThemDownAndFindThemThereAgainTenSecondsLater
#IAmJustNotLookingForwardToTheConstantFeedingAndNappyChangingAgain
#IHopeBreastfeedingWillBeEasierNextTimeButWeWillHaveToWaitAndSee
#WeTriedToExperimentWithTheLengthOfBsNapsAndHerBedtimeButSheStillWokeUpEarlierThanWeWanted
#WeSharedARoomWithHerSoItProbablyDidNotHelpEncourageHerToFallBackToSleep
#YesterdaySheSleptForAnHourAndAHalfInTheCarThenWentToBedAtSevenFortyFiveAndSheWokeUpAtFiveThirtyToday
#WeHadBeenTryingCuttingHerSecondNapToThirtyMinutesAndPuttingHerToBedAtEightAndSheWasWakingUpAtFive
#SoSheCanJustKeepHavingAnHourNapAtHerSecondNapAndGoToBedAtSevenThirty
#IGuessWeAreLuckyThatAtLeastSheSleepsQuiteSolidlyForAGoodAmountOfTime
#SheSeemsToKnowHerNapAndBedtimeRoutinesNowAndSheEitherClingsToTheSideOfHerCotOrLiesDownNextToItAsITryToGetHerReady
#YesterdayTiagoLookedAfterBAndIWentBackToSleep
#IDreamtThatWeWereAwayAndWeSaidYesToBGoingSwimmingInASmallFountain
#ItThenTurnedOutToBeAMassiveSwimmingPoolAndICouldNotSeeBAndAllTheKidsWereInTheSameCostumesWithTheSameFloats
#IStartedToShoutHadAnyoneSeenHer
#IThenWokeMyselfUpAsIDidNotWantToDealWithTheStress
#IToldTiagoAndHeSaidDoYouKnowThatYouOftenWakeUpInTheMiddleOfTheNightAndLookForB
#YesIDo

I’m yet to do a shoot, but I’ve called it General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot for now as I want to experiment a bit today and not pretend to be a one year old for once.

(3rd September 2021: I have a habit of doing shoots just after eating, so I look a bit more pregnant than I was. I’ve already copied this shoot once, and I plan to do it at least a few more times during the pregnancy.)

#TypicallyIGotAnAppointmentLetterForAScanTheSameDayThatISaidIHadHeardNothing

It’s always the way.

#AnnoyinglyItIsTheOneDayThatTiagoCanNotDoForSureSoWeWillHaveToWaitAnotherWeekNow

What’s another week? I’m impatient though.

#TheLetterDoesNotSayIfTiagoCanAttendOrNotButIGuessTheRulesMayChangeByThenAnyways

I was going to ask, but then I didn’t. The woman on the phone did say that the letter has a lot of incorrect and missing information on it though. I knew that as the line said it was open until 5, but it closed at 2:30 and I initially called at 2:50 to change my appointment so I had to wait until the next day. Fun times.

#IRealiseThatIThoughtIMayBePregnantAsIGotSomeSpotsButTheyMayHaveBeenCausedByMeWearingAMask

I’m sure I mentioned this in a previous set of hashtags. I don’t really get spots that often – unless I have been eating a lot of bad foods. I was reading something the other day and then I thought ‘ah yeah maybe the spots are more due to wearing a mask?’

#ThoughPerhapsItIsACombinationOfHormonesAndAMaskMakingThemWorseThanNormal

I guess I wear a mask for the same amount of time each week, so it must have been a combination of both? I have some really bad ones on the right side of my face right now.

#IFeelHappierLatelyWhichIsProbablyAlsoACombinationOfHormonesAndHavingSomethingToCountdownToAfterMonthsOfFeelingABitLost

If I could bottle these hormones (but not have morning sickness all the time) I’d take them for life, but I guess when I was pregnant with B I had also been feeling lost previously too.

#ItHasAlsoBeenGoodToSeeMorePeopleLately

Seeing people that I have not seen for a year or two or more…

#WeJustHadAFewNightsAwayWhereWeCaughtUpWithLotsOfPeople

Three couples and their kids (they all have two kids each).

#ItWasReallyNiceToJustSeePeopleRegularlyForAFewDays

People to hang out with while we watched the kids and passed time quite nicely. Hurrah. Luckily the weather was nice!

#ItWasAlsoAGlimpseOfHowItMightBeHavingTwoKids

They varied in age from 11 weeks to 9 years.

#BDoesLikeBabiesButSheAlsoLikesToRunAroundAfterBiggerKids

She is intrigued by babies, but she also likes to follow older kids.

#SheWasQuiteConfidentAtTakingTheirStuffAndDidNotSeemToCareWhenTheyGotAnnoyed

The determination/nonchalance on her face…

#ItWasAlsoAGoodReminderThatTheSecondKidWillNotDoVeryMuchForAWhile

I had kind of forgotten how babies are. I guess I am the most concerned about all the night feedings, and B going down to one nap very soon.

#SoAtLeastYouCanPutThemDownAndFindThemThereAgainTenSecondsLater

I forget that they are quite happy just lying on a mat, looking at the ceiling or toys etc.

#IAmJustNotLookingForwardToTheConstantFeedingAndNappyChangingAgain

It is going to be a juggle, but it will be worth it in the end.

#IHopeBreastfeedingWillBeEasierNextTimeButWeWillHaveToWaitAndSee

I feel like I have forgotten everything already, but I’m sure some things will come back to me.

#WeTriedToExperimentWithTheLengthOfBsNapsAndHerBedtimeButSheStillWokeUpEarlierThanWeWanted

Great.

#WeSharedARoomWithHerSoItProbablyDidNotHelpEncourageHerToFallBackToSleep

It is easier to try to let her go back to sleep when you’re not there next to her. She slept better than I thought she would though with the shared room situation. We just tried to only go in the room when we wanted to go to sleep. Sometimes she woke up, but she quickly went back to sleep.

#YesterdaySheSleptForAnHourAndAHalfInTheCarThenWentToBedAtSevenFortyFiveAndSheWokeUpAtFiveThirtyToday

On the way there she was just awake the whole time when I wanted to sleep. Yesterday we both napped. Poor Tiago…

#WeHadBeenTryingCuttingHerSecondNapToThirtyMinutesAndPuttingHerToBedAtEightAndSheWasWakingUpAtFive #SoSheCanJustKeepHavingAnHourNapAtHerSecondNapAndGoToBedAtSevenThirty

I was relieved as I like for her to have more than half an hour so I can get things done. I probably need to try cutting her nap to 30 minutes then putting her to bed earlier, but I feel like she just likes to wake up between 5 and 5:40.

#IGuessWeAreLuckyThatAtLeastSheSleepsQuiteSolidlyForAGoodAmountOfTime

We just need to go to bed earlier. The last two nights we have been watching football (Euros). I like football, but not that much football. I could have gone to bed at 8pm last night easily, but oh well. Portugal are out now, but Tiago is suddenly more interested in England.

#SheSeemsToKnowHerNapAndBedtimeRoutinesNowAndSheEitherClingsToTheSideOfHerCotOrLiesDownNextToItAsITryToGetHerReady

Well, this was just while we were away. I would just be sorting something out and she would be there clinging to it or next to it. It’s good though.

#YesterdayTiagoLookedAfterBAndIWentBackToSleep

Thanks Tiago.

#IDreamtThatWeWereAwayAndWeSaidYesToBGoingSwimmingInASmallFountain #ItThenTurnedOutToBeAMassiveSwimmingPoolAndICouldNotSeeBAndAllTheKidsWereInTheSameCostumesWithTheSameFloats #IStartedToShoutHadAnyoneSeenHer #IThenWokeMyselfUpAsIDidNotWantToDealWithTheStress

I realised it was a dream/nightmare, so there was no way I was going to stay there getting stressed out within it.

#IToldTiagoAndHeSaidDoYouKnowThatYouOftenWakeUpInTheMiddleOfTheNightAndLookForB #YesIDo

I still have dreams where I think she has fallen out of our bed or is out of her cot or something. Oh the fun. I’m going to try to have a quick lie down now before she wakes up. Hopefully she will sleep for another hour, but sometimes she wakes up earlier. She is teething again, and her skin is itchy again though it looks normal. Fun timessss.

8 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

(I should have posted these in the last post, but oh well. I only did one shoot for 8 weeks, but I don’t want to miss them out.)

I have a long necked top on that is covering the bottom of my nose. My hair is hanging long down one side. I am dressed in dark clothing.
Day Before Haircut (8 Weeks)
 
#IAmSoBoredOfTheWinterAlready
#ITryToWashMyHairEvery5DaysIfICan
#IDreadWashingIt
#WellNotTheWashingItSoMuchButMoreTheDryingIt
#AndComingOutOfTheShowerWithALotOfWetHair
#IHaveBeenTryingToSeeHowLongICanGrowItForPhotographicPurposes
#ButIAmTooLowMaintenanceForThis
#ThereIsJustTooMuchHairToDry
#InTheSummerItIsNotTooBadAndItIsABitRefreshing
#ButHavingToPutTheHeaterOnBecauseMyHairIsTooAnnoying
#AndSpendingAgesBlowDryingIt
#Nah
#EspeciallyNowThatIAmPregnantIJustReallyCanNotBeBothered
#IFeelLikeIWillEndUpCuttingItOffSoonAnyways
#SoMightAsWellDoItNowAndSaveMyselfALotOfTimeOverTheWinter
#LetsSeeThough
#AsOftenITalkAboutCuttingItShorter
#ButMyHairdresserDoesNotWantMeToDislikeItAfter
#ItWillNotBeSuperSuperShort
#AsIWantToBeAbleToTieItBackStill
#ButThatWillBeABigImprovementIThink
#MyHairMightBeKeepingMeABitWarmAtTheMoment
#ButICanWearAHat
#SayingMyHairdresserSoundsFunny
#ButIHaveBeenGoingToTheSamePlaceForYEARS
#ThereHaveBeenPhasesWhereIHaveNot
#ButILikeToCatchUpWithEveryoneThere
#AndIUsedToBeSoAwkwardAndSitInSilence
#AndAvoidLookingAtMyselfInTheMirror
#MyHairdresserAndILaughAboutHowAwkwardIUsedToBeAllTheTime

I recently had my hair cut off, but I was not at the same stage of pregnancy.

I cut it off due to wanting it to be lower maintenance and because it is harder to bend over the bath to wash my hair – my preferred way to do it, but I did not have that option when I was pregnant with B due to the bathroom set-up.

I can not really wear it down now as it gets so frizzy/wild, so I usually just tie up the top bit of it in a messy bun.

I now live close to my hairdressers again, so I’m going to the same place…

I am wearing a striped top and my arms are wrapped around me. I am looking at the camera.
Day After Haircut (8 Weeks)

#NotMuchToSayIThink
#GotAHaircut
#ItWasTooMuchHassleHavingLongHair
#MyHairdresserStraightenedItAndWhatever
#SoNotSureHowItWillLookWhenIHaveWashedAndBlowDriedItMyself
#ProbablyALotFluffier
#IWantedItLongEnoughToTieBack
#ButItIsAtALengthWhereIHaveToUseStrongTiesAsOtherwiseItFallsOut
#ItWillBeFine
#IDoNotLikeHowJustCutHairLooksOnMe
#TheEndsAreTooSharp
#ButIGuessItIsAlsoBecauseItIsStraight
#ButOftenIDoNotLikeHowTiagosHairLooksAfterHeHasJustHadItCut
#AfterAFewDaysItSeemsBetterButAlsoMaybeIJustGetUsedToIt
#FeelingABitSickNow
#BoredOfThisSickBusiness
#ILookPregnantHereButIAmJustBloated
#AndThisIsWhyIDoNotLikeTightTops
#ButISomehowDecidedToBuySomeTopsLikeThis
#ToBeFairTheyWereInAPacketAndIThoughtTheyWereLooserLikeOtherOnesIHave
#FunTimes
#GoingToGoSoakMyFeetAsIFeelLikeTheyNeedSomeLove
#ThenReadMyBookAboutTheSpiceGirls

I love how I say I look pregnant when I clearly don’t…

I have been caring less about what I wear as I am usually at home.

9 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait holding my NHS-issued pregnancy book. I look sad and have my arms crossed over the folder.
Bleeding Worry (9 Weeks)
 
#SoLastNightThingsFeltABitFunny
#AndIWasFeelingTooScaredToGoToTheBathroom
#AfterAWhileIWentAsIWantedToBrushMyTeeth
#AndThereWasBlood
#NotLoadsButMoreThanIHaveBledSoFarAndAReallyIntenseColour
#IWasHavingCramps
#IStillHaveSomeCrampsAndWeirdFeelings
#ItCouldBeAFewThings
#HadABusyWeekWhichIsWhyIDecidedThatINeededToStayInAndRestLastNight
#YesterdayIAccidentallyJabbedMyselfInTheStomachWithMyPhoneInMyPocket
#IAteSomethingFromAJarThatWas3WeeksOutOfDate
#ThatIsAwkwardToAdmitButItWasVegetablesAndIHadJustOpenedIt
#IUsedALotOfMoisturiserOnMyBodyWhenIUsuallyRarelyUseAny
#IFeelLikeThereWasSomethingElseButICanNotRemember
#ItCouldAllBeFineButIAmExpectingTheWorst
#LuckilyIHaveAnAppointmentForThisAfternoonAtTheHospital
#MyLeafletSaidToCallIfIHaveAnyBleedingOrPain
#AsThoughItIsNotUncommonItNeedsToBeCheckedOut
#CalledTheNumberAndOption1WasEmergency
#IFeltAwkwardPressing1SoIPressedForAllOtherEnquiriesAndThenShePutMeThroughToTheEmergencyLine
#ItIsInAFewHoursButThisMorningIsDraggingSoMuch
#IWasNotSickToday
#MyBoobsAreNotSore
#MyNoseDoesNotFeelFull
#FeelsLikeMostOfMySymptomsHaveGone
#WeCanOnlyWaitAndSee
#LastNightIJustCriedInTiagosArms
#InThePhotoIAmHoldingMyFolderOfNotesThatINeedToTakeToEveryAppointment
#DuringTheShootItFeltLikeSomethingWasJabbingMe
#IDoNotKnowWhatNormalIsSupposedToFeelLikeWhenPregnant

Luckily I have not had a scare like this yet this pregnancy. I’ve been getting bad cramps, which seem stronger than when I was pregnant with B but maybe I’ve just forgotten how things are.

B’s been accidentally kicking and punching me in my stomach loads.

My folder of notes is just a tiny booklet instead this time. Birmingham seems to use an app for all my notes?

I still feel like I do not know what normal is when pregnant, and I get anxious at times, but I just have to take some deep breaths and hope that everything will go the same as last time. I am just hoping that this baby will come out head first this time…


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