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Pregnancy Waiting II

Portrait of A Mother Of A Seventeen Month Old (28 Weeks / 14th November 2021)

Self-portrait lying on the bed in a bra and leggings. I am cradling my bump with my right hand and have my left hand resting on my face. I am leaning on and against a maternity pillow.
Portrait Of A Mother Of A Seventeen Month Old (28 Weeks / 14th November 2021)
 
#IKnowIHaveTakenALotOfPicturesOfMyselfLookingTiredInThePastForThisProjectWithinAProject
#ButThisTimeIReallyAmTiredAndBeforeIDoNotThinkIKnewWhatTheMeaningOfTiredWas
#OrMaybeIWasTiredThenButIFeelExhaustedNowAndProbablyShouldBeSavingMyEnergyAndNotTryingToDoABitOfWork
#IWentToBedFourNightsAgoFeelingLikeIWasMaybeGoingToBeSickButThoughtItWouldPass
#IBarelySleptAndGotUpToGoToTheBathroomAroundOneThirtyInTheMorningAndKeptBeingSickThenFinallyStoppedButWasSickAgainAfterASitDown
#BActuallySleptUntilSixForOnceAndIWasSickWhenIGotUpThenButFeltFineEnoughToDoMyMorningExerciseButThenICrashed
#IWentBackToBedAndTWatchedBThenIWatchedBForAnHourThenMyMumCameAndWatchedBUntilLunch
#ThenIGotUpToGiveHerLunchAndSheHadFallenAsleepOnMyMumSoTiagoWatchedHerDuringHisLunchThenSheNappedAndINapped
#IWasSurprisedThatBSleptForTwoHoursButIGotHerUpAndPutHerInOurBedButThenISuddenlyFeltSick
#SoIManagedToPutHerOnTheFloorAndRunToTheBathroomWhereIWasSickAndIMeanSickkk
#IThinkItIsExhaustionAndTheSicknessIsASideEffectOfItThoughIHaveNotBeenSickSinceButHaveFeltLikeIWillBeAtTimes
#BeforeBWasBornIDidUsedToSpendAWeekendInBedAtLeastOnceAYearButObviouslyItIsHardToDoThatNow
#TypicallyItHappenedAfterBStartedNurseryButIGuessMyBodyKnewICouldBeIllSoItWaitedUntilThenAndIHaveNotReallyBeenIllSinceBWasBorn
#BHasBeenABitUpAndDownAsWellButMaybeItIsDueToStartingNurseryAndHavingALeapAndTeethingAndBeingFrustratedAtNotBeingAbleToTalk
#WeGaveHerLunchYesterdayAndSheJustPushedItAllToTheFloorSoICriedAsIWasSoTired
#WeThoughtItWasBecauseSheWasOvertiredSoWeJustPutHerDownForHerNapAndSheWokeUpAfter40Minutes
#TiagoNeededARestAndIFeltTooTiredToLookAfterHerSoIGotIntoHerCotAndRubbedHerBackUntilSheFellBackToSleep
#IManagedToGetOutOfHerCotAndOutOfTheRoomWithoutHerWakingUpAndSheSleptForNearlyTwoMoreHours
#IDoWorryHowIAmGoingToCopeWithTwoKidsButIAmHopingThatIWillSomehowFeelLessTiredWhenTheBabyIsOutAndNotTakingAllMyNutrientsButIDoubtIt
#IHaveBarelyHadAnAppetiteButIHaveBeenMakingMyselfEatForTheBabysSake
#IDidHaveMy28WeeksMidwifeAppointmentThoughAndSheSaidEverythingSeemedFineButThatIShouldDrinkMore
#IDidNotRealiseThatIWasGoingToHaveABloodTestButLuckilyIHadForcedMyselfToEatASandwichBeforeGoing
#SheSaidTheBabyWasMeasuringWellAndThatSheHasAPercentileOf50Percent
#SheToldMeThatBHadAPercentileOf32WhenSheWasBornWhichIDidNotKnowSoThisBabyIsDefinitelyBiggerForNow
#IActuallyThoughtBHadBeenLessThan32SoThatIsGoodToKnow
#SheWasTryingToFigureOutWhereTheBabysHeadWasButSaidItDoesNotMatterAsBTurnedAroundTheDayBeforeSheWasBornAnyways
#ThisWeekendMyParentsAreDueToLookAfterBAndIAmABitNervousWithAllHerEarlyWakings
#WeChangedOurHotelYesterdaySoThatWeAreStayingCloseToOurFavouriteIndianRestaurantInsteadAndTheRoomHasABigBathAsIDoNotKnowIfIWillHaveTheEnergyToSwim
#IHadABathTheOtherDayWhenTiagoHadToTakeACoupleOfHoursOffToLookAfterB
#IWasBoredOfLyingInBedAndThoughtItWouldDoMeGoodAndItWasTheFirstBathIHadEverHadWhilePregnantAndItWasGreatThoughIDidFeelGuiltyForHavingToUseSoMuchWater

#IKnowIHaveTakenALotOfPicturesOfMyselfLookingTiredInThePastForThisProjectWithinAProject #ButThisTimeIReallyAmTiredAndBeforeIDoNotThinkIKnewWhatTheMeaningOfTiredWas

I’m yet to do the shoot, but I think I will be probably lying down or some kind of pose that means little effort for my body.

(Yeah, a classic lie across the bed pose. I was initially wearing a dress, but I didn’t like how it looked in the photos/you couldn’t see my bump as well.)

#OrMaybeIWasTiredThenButIFeelExhaustedNowAndProbablyShouldBeSavingMyEnergyAndNotTryingToDoABitOfWork

I’ve been umming and ahh-ing about whether or not to write this today etc.

#IWentToBedFourNightsAgoFeelingLikeIWasMaybeGoingToBeSickButThoughtItWouldPass #IBarelySleptAndGotUpToGoToTheBathroomAroundOneThirtyInTheMorningAndKeptBeingSickThenFinallyStoppedButWasSickAgainAfterASitDown

I wish I had just made myself be sick before going to bed, but I really hoped it would pass.

#BActuallySleptUntilSixForOnceAndIWasSickWhenIGotUpThenButFeltFineEnoughToDoMyMorningExerciseButThenICrashed

Classic.

#IWentBackToBedAndTWatchedBThenIWatchedBForAnHourThenMyMumCameAndWatchedBUntilLunch

By watching B I mean I just laid on the sofa while she watched TV. I felt bad, but it was all I could do.

#ThenIGotUpToGiveHerLunchAndSheHadFallenAsleepOnMyMumSoTiagoWatchedHerDuringHisLunchThenSheNappedAndINapped

She was just asleep on my Mum’s lap. We (well Tiago) kept her up for an hour and hoped that she would sleep again.

#IWasSurprisedThatBSleptForTwoHoursButIGotHerUpAndPutHerInOurBedButThenISuddenlyFeltSick

It’s good to know that she can nap for a good amount of time after having a short nap not too long before.

The sickness just kind of ‘rose up’.

#SoIManagedToPutHerOnTheFloorAndRunToTheBathroomWhereIWasSickAndIMeanSickkk

Grim. B was just crying and luckily Tiago came upstairs and took her downstairs.

#IThinkItIsExhaustionAndTheSicknessIsASideEffectOfItThoughIHaveNotBeenSickSinceButHaveFeltLikeIWillBeAtTimes

I will probably call the doctors tomorrow just to rule stuff out, but I also don’t want to waste their time.

#BeforeBWasBornIDidUsedToSpendAWeekendInBedAtLeastOnceAYearButObviouslyItIsHardToDoThatNow

Lie in bed and try to sleep, or just watch terrible TV. I did feel better the next night as I just watched TV in bed, and I fell asleep with my phone next to me which I never do – and slept solidly until B woke up at 5.30am.

#TypicallyItHappenedAfterBStartedNurseryButIGuessMyBodyKnewICouldBeIllSoItWaitedUntilThenAndIHaveNotReallyBeenIllSinceBWasBorn

I guess it’s been due, and growing a baby is tiring.

#BHasBeenABitUpAndDownAsWellButMaybeItIsDueToStartingNurseryAndHavingALeapAndTeethingAndBeingFrustratedAtNotBeingAbleToTalk

I try to put myself in her shoes. It must be so annoying not being able to say what you want, though I can guess at times, but sometimes I seem quite off.

#WeGaveHerLunchYesterdayAndSheJustPushedItAllToTheFloorSoICriedAsIWasSoTired

That was my frustration.

#WeThoughtItWasBecauseSheWasOvertiredSoWeJustPutHerDownForHerNapAndSheWokeUpAfter40Minutes

Great.

#TiagoNeededARestAndIFeltTooTiredToLookAfterHerSoIGotIntoHerCotAndRubbedHerBackUntilSheFellBackToSleep

Not the approach I like to take, but I was desperate.

#IManagedToGetOutOfHerCotAndOutOfTheRoomWithoutHerWakingUpAndSheSleptForNearlyTwoMoreHours

I felt like a bit of a champion.

#IDoWorryHowIAmGoingToCopeWithTwoKidsButIAmHopingThatIWillSomehowFeelLessTiredWhenTheBabyIsOutAndNotTakingAllMyNutrientsButIDoubtIt

I do intend to breastfeed again, so she will still be taking nutrients but in a less invasive way to being inside of me I imagine. That’s what I think anyways. The baby is due to double in size between now and birth. *Nervous laugh*

#IHaveBarelyHadAnAppetiteButIHaveBeenMakingMyselfEatForTheBabysSake

It’s been a struggle.

#IDidHaveMy28WeeksMidwifeAppointmentThoughAndSheSaidEverythingSeemedFineButThatIShouldDrinkMore

I really struggled to get a urine sample before I left the house, but I couldn’t see over my bump and so didn’t catch most of it. She said it was enough for the test though. I had drank a lot, but I guess it was old piss. Lovely.

#IDidNotRealiseThatIWasGoingToHaveABloodTestButLuckilyIHadForcedMyselfToEatASandwichBeforeGoing

And drinking all the drinks had helped as it came out quite easily. Hurrah.

#SheSaidTheBabyWasMeasuringWellAndThatSheHasAPercentileOf50Percent #SheToldMeThatBHadAPercentileOf32WhenSheWasBornWhichIDidNotKnowSoThisBabyIsDefinitelyBiggerForNow #IActuallyThoughtBHadBeenLessThan32SoThatIsGoodToKnow

I thought that B had just been over the okay line (I’m not sure what that is, but I thought it was around 10-15%?)

So yeah my suspicions of the baby being bigger have been confirmed. Maybe the first time my body was testing me and thought I could grow a bigger one this time?

#SheWasTryingToFigureOutWhereTheBabysHeadWasButSaidItDoesNotMatterAsBTurnedAroundTheDayBeforeSheWasBornAnyways

Cue a conversation about B’s birth again.

#ThisWeekendMyParentsAreDueToLookAfterBAndIAmABitNervousWithAllHerEarlyWakings

Le sigh.

#WeChangedOurHotelYesterdaySoThatWeAreStayingCloseToOurFavouriteIndianRestaurantInsteadAndTheRoomHasABigBathAsIDoNotKnowIfIWillHaveTheEnergyToSwim

We can also cancel until an hour before check-in so if my parents change their minds, then we can cancel.

This hotel also has a pool, but it is a bit cheaper and we haven’t had food from our favourite Indian restaurant in a long time so it’s a good excuse to change hotel and location.

#IHadABathTheOtherDayWhenTiagoHadToTakeACoupleOfHoursOffToLookAfterB

I think this makes me sound really bad…

#IWasBoredOfLyingInBedAndThoughtItWouldDoMeGoodAndItWasTheFirstBathIHadEverHadWhilePregnantAndItWasGreatThoughIDidFeelGuiltyForHavingToUseSoMuchWater

A lot to cram into the last hashtag, but yeah it was good. I had ran a very shallow bath to begin with and realised I either had to really fill it up or not have a bath. It was weird lifting my bump out of the water as it suddenly felt cold, but also quite heavy?

28 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait of myself nude from my head to knees. There are white sections over my breasts and pubic area.
I Just Want A Nice Record Of My Pregnancy As Maybe I Will Never Be Pregnant Again (28 and a half weeks)
 
#IPlannedToRecreateMyFailedBloodTestsPhotoButIWas7AndAHalfWeeksPregnantThen
#IAmNow28AndAHalfNowSoMyBumpWasTooBig
#SoIRemadeIHaveNeverSeenMyBodyLikeThisBeforeAndItIsSoWeirdInstead
#IHaveTakenNudePicturesBefore
#AndThereAreOthersInTheSeries
#ButIDoNotKnowWhyIFeelSoWeirdAboutHavingThemInThisSeries
#IGuessBecauseTheyAreNotReallyHiding
#AndAllAboutRevealing
#ThoughWhenPostingItIWillHaveToCensorItWhichIsSomewhatARelief
#IHaveBeenMakingSureThatITakeMorePicturesForMyself
#AsMaybeIWillNeverBePregnantAgain
#AndIDoNotActuallyWriteInMyDiaryAboutBeingPregnantThatMuch
#SoThisProjectIsANiceRecordOfIt
#MyBumpIsDefinitelyGettingBigger
#IThinkTheBabyDoublesInSizeBetweenNowAndBirth
#IHaveBeenContinuingMyDanceVideos
#TodayTwoPeopleSaidCongratsOnMyPregnancy
#IHadOnlyHadOneOtherMessageBefore
#SoMaybeItIsFinallyMoreObvious
#MyYouTubeAudienceIsMainlyMaleWhichIsABitWeird
#TodayIGotASexualInstagramMessage
#IThinkTheyFoundMyInstagramViaMyYouTube
#ItIsObviousOnYouTubeAndOnInstagramThatIAmPregnant
#SoItIsMoreWeirdToGetGrossMessages
#ThoughIKnowThatSomePeopleHavePregnancyFetishes
#WhichIsWhyItPutsMeOffSharingNudePhotosOfMyPregnantSelf
#ButItIsAlsoFunnyAsIThinkALotOfPeopleGetPregnantAndDoProfessionalNudeShoots
#EvenIfBeforeTheyWouldNotThinkAboutBeingPhotographedNude
#IJustWantANiceRecordOfMyPregnancy
#MyAppSaysThereAre80DaysLeftIfIGiveBirthOnTheDueDate

Well, spoiler I am pregnant again but it would be nice to have a comparison photo.

I have taken less nudes this time (if any?), but I do need to take at least one like this just as a reminder – and maybe baby X will say ‘Hey Mum, why did you not take a nude portrait with me?’

I am still dancing, but I think I need to be more casual about it with my tiredness and all. No one has commented about my bump yet, but then again I am quite behind with posting them – just like this project. At the time of writing this, this will be my 17th post that I need to post. They’re all ready to go, but yeah I’ve fell behind.

I’m also adding the first photo that I took at 29 weeks on as it talks about my 28 week appointment:

The backdrop is half a plain white wall and half black fabric. I am stood with the wall to my right and the fabric to my left, facing the left of the image. I am wearing a bra and leggings and have my left hand on my hip. Tiago's right hand is resting on my left thigh.
Subject: Leaky Boobs (29 weeks)
 
#IHadAMidwifeAppointmentTheOtherDay
#IAmSupposedToHaveThemEvery3Weeks
#ButTheyAreBeingChangedToEvery4WeeksNow
#IDidTheUsualUrineTestForProteinAndAllWasFine
#MyBloodPressureWasLowInAGoodWayAgain
#SheTriedToDoABloodTestToCheckMyIronLevels
#SheOnlyHadTwoNeedlesInHerBag
#TheRestWereInHerCar
#AndSheCouldNotManageToGetBlood
#SheSaidMyVeinsAreDeep
#IMadeSureIAteAndDrankWaterButObviouslyWasNotEnough
#TheyAreStillDoingHomeBirthsForNow
#AndSheSaidThatMorePeopleAreAskingForHomeBirthsNow
#SheSaidMyMusclesAreSeparatingQuiteALot
#AndThatIMayNeedToDoPhysioAfterBirth
#TiagoStoodAtTheDoorAsSheCheckedTheHeartbeat
#AllWasFine
#SheSaidMyPlacentaIsMainlyAtTheFront
#AndThatMightBeWhyISometimesCanNotFeelTheBaby
#IAmFeelingItMoreThoughParticularlyWhenIAmLyingDownInBed
#OftenICanNotFeelIt
#ButIPutMyHandAtTheBottomOfMyBumpAndICanFeelIt
#IKeepWakingUpAround3am
#WhenIWokeUpAtHalf3TodayMyLeftBoobFeltWeird
#ICouldNotSleepSoIReadForAnHour
#AtSomePointIRealisedThatItHadLeakedABit
#ThatIsTheFirstTimeThatHasHappenedSoItWasKindOfOddButExciting
#IThoughtItWouldNotHappenUntilLaterButLetUsSeeWhenTheRightOneFirstLeaks
#IEmailedMyselfWithTheSubjectOfLeakyBoobToRemindMyselfIncaseIForgotByTheMorning
#IHaveABruiseOnMyRightArmFromTheBloodTestAndIForgotToIncludeItInThePhoto

My midwife appointments are currently every 3 weeks. My blood test was more successful this time too.

No one has mentioned that my muscles have separated this time, which is good – I’ve made an effort to not do anything that might encourage them to separate more.

I think my placenta is at the back this time.

I’m yet to have a leak, so maybe that might happen soon?


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Imitating B Putting Her Head Against A Mirror (26 Weeks / 26th October 2021)

Self-portrait where I am resting my head on a mirror and looking at myself.
Imitating B Putting Her Head Against A Mirror (26 Weeks / 26th October 2021)
 
#IfBSeesAMirrorForSomeReasonSheHasToButtHeadsWithItOrBangOnItOrAtLeastRestHerHeadOnIt
#IAmStillTryingToFigureOutIfSheKnowsItIsHerInTheMirrorOrNot
#IfISeeAMirrorAndIAmCarryingHerThenIUsuallyWaveAtHerSoIThinkSheMustKnowButWhoKnows
#FiveDaysAgoIWroteInMyHashtagRemindersThatMaybeItIsTimeToDropBDownToOneNapADayButIWasFeelingHesitantAsILikeOurRoutines
#WellWeWentAwayAtTheWeekendAndBDidNotHaveASecondNapOnTheFridaySaturdayAndSunday
#ThenYesterdayIPutHerDownForHerFirstNapAndSheWasNotFallingAsleepSoIGotHerBackUpAndThenGaveHerANapAtMiddayInstead
#LastNightSheWasAwakeFromMidnightToTwoishAndThenWokeUpAtFiveThirtySoIPutHerInOurBed
#IDoNotLikeToDoItMuchButSheDidActuallySleepForAnotherHourThoughMySleepWasVeryUnsettledAsIWasWorriedAboutSquishingHerOrSomething
#StayingInAHotelStressedMeOutAsEverytimeSheCriedIWasWorriedThatItWouldAnnoyPeople
#IBarelySleptOnTheFridayNightAndOnTheSaturdayMorningWePutHerInOurBedFromFiveishAndSheSleptALittleBitLonger
#IAmWorriedThatWeAreUndoingHerSleepTrainingButMaybeSheIsJustTeethingAndABitClingierThoughOnSundayNightSheSleptFine
#ItWasWeirdGoingToAPhotographyWeekendAndTiagoAndBJoiningMeAsMyTwoWorldsRarelyCollide
#ItWasFunnyTalkingToPhotoFriendsAndThenSeeingThemWalkingTowardsMeAsItJustSeemedSoOdd
#IAmGoingToHaveToAdjustToThisNewOneNapScheduleButOnceWeDoIThinkItWillBeForTheBetterAsWeCanGoOutForLonger
#ThoughIAmWorriedAboutTheDarkEveningsAsIWillNotBeAbleToTakeHerOutLikeIUsuallyDoSoWeMightFeelABitStuckAtHome
#IWillJustHaveToAdjustWhenITakeHerOutForWalksAndMaybeWeWillJustHaveToDoSomeWalksInTheDarkWithTiagoOnTheNightsThatFeelLonger
#LastWeekIHadAMidwivesAppointmentAndIHadToTakeBWithMeButItWasAllFineAndTheBabyIsFine
#HerDueDateIsAFewDaysBeforeMineIThinkSoIWillNotSeeHerAgainAsSheWillBeWorkingFromHome
#SheSaidAsItIsNotMyFirstBabyThe31WeekAppointmentIsOptionalButISaidIMightAsWellHaveIt
#ThatMorningIWasChangingBsNappyAndThenICouldNotFindHerNappyCreamThoughIKnewIHadGotItBeforeSettingUpAChangingStation
#SoIWentOffToLookForItAndBStoodUpAndPissedOnTheFloorAndThenManagedToSlipOverInItSoWhenITookHerVestOffTheBackOfHerHeadWasWet
#SorryToBIfThisIsTooMuchButIFoundItFunnyAndSoIHadToGiveHerABathWhichMightHaveBeenHerFirstMorningBath
#IAmSureThisMorningThatShePointedToMyBellyAndThenDidAnImpressionOfItWithHerHand
#MyMumAndNanBothSaidMyBumpLooksALotBiggerTodaySoMaybeBNoticedToo
#WithHerNewScheduleIAmGoingToHaveToSeeIfICanDoABitOfWorkWhileShePlaysNextToMe
#IDoNotKnowWhyIFeelBadForDoingThisAsIAmSureALotOfOtherPeopleDoItToo
#YesterdayWeWereInMineAndTsBedroomAndISawAStackOfStuffNextToTheMirror
#ILookedAtItAndThoughtMaybeIShouldMoveItButDecidedItShouldBeFineButThen5MinutesLaterBHadKnockedItOverSoIHadToMoveIt
#IAmGettingQuiteNervousAboutHavingTwoKidsInAFewMonthsOrSo
#SometimesIGetWorriedAboutLackOfMovementsButThenSheStartsMovingALotAndTiagoCouldFeelHerKickingMeLastNight

#IfBSeesAMirrorForSomeReasonSheHasToButtHeadsWithItOrBangOnItOrAtLeastRestHerHeadOnIt

I really wish she could talk so she could explain things to me. Maybe she likes that it feels cold?

#IAmStillTryingToFigureOutIfSheKnowsItIsHerInTheMirrorOrNot

I thought she had known for ages, then I read in a development thing that is a more recent ‘skill’ that they learn.

#IfISeeAMirrorAndIAmCarryingHerThenIUsuallyWaveAtHerSoIThinkSheMustKnowButWhoKnows

I think she knows. Again, I can’t ask her.

#FiveDaysAgoIWroteInMyHashtagRemindersThatMaybeItIsTimeToDropBDownToOneNapADayButIWasFeelingHesitantAsILikeOurRoutines

Things were just working. I did note that maybe it would stop her early mornings though.

I send reminders to myself of what I might want to talk about in my hashtags. I am starting to think that they are just super dull, but I am tired.

#WellWeWentAwayAtTheWeekendAndBDidNotHaveASecondNapOnTheFridaySaturdayAndSunday

Friday I just thought she would not have a long enough nap before going to an appointment, and then going away so we might as well just try to leave as early as possible.

Saturday – She had her morning nap at a good time, then Tiago took her back to the hotel for a nap and she didn’t take it. Maybe it was because she knew T was in the room, but he had been there in the morning too?

Sunday – We left early so B and I could sleep in the car. Then we were meeting friends I could not be bothered to even try to get B to have a nap on the go. To be fair she showed no signs of being tired and wouldn’t even sit in her pushchair…

#ThenYesterdayIPutHerDownForHerFirstNapAndSheWasNotFallingAsleepSoIGotHerBackUpAndThenGaveHerANapAtMiddayInstead

I just realised ‘what am I doing? I should just transition her to one nap now’ as I didn’t think she would end up having a very long second nap anyways.

#LastNightSheWasAwakeFromMidnightToTwoishAndThenWokeUpAtFiveThirtySoIPutHerInOurBed

I was hoping she would sleep late as she was awake for so long.

I went in with her water and paracetamol and she seemed fine, until every time I went to leave. Tiago went in after a bit and stayed with her until she calmed down.

This morning I was not ready to get her up, and she seemed tired so putting her in our bed seemed like the easier option.

#IDoNotLikeToDoItMuchButSheDidActuallySleepForAnotherHourThoughMySleepWasVeryUnsettledAsIWasWorriedAboutSquishingHerOrSomething

My maternity pillow acted as a barrier so she was stuck on my side of the bed. She did cuddle up to me which was cute. When she went to Tiago’s side after an hour-ish I realised what an uncomfortable position I had been in.

#StayingInAHotelStressedMeOutAsEverytimeSheCriedIWasWorriedThatItWouldAnnoyPeople

The hotel reviews were really mixed, but it was nice. The staff were super friendly and the bed wasn’t bad.

#IBarelySleptOnTheFridayNightAndOnTheSaturdayMorningWePutHerInOurBedFromFiveishAndSheSleptALittleBitLonger

Every time she woke up I sat upright and stressed. Again, it seemed like an easier option to just put her in our bed.

#IAmWorriedThatWeAreUndoingHerSleepTrainingButMaybeSheIsJustTeethingAndABitClingierThoughOnSundayNightSheSleptFine

She had a similar bad sleep episode a week ago (awake for 2 hours in the night etc.) I don’t want to keep giving her paracetamol but she has been putting her fingers in her mouth a lot and she does seem to have a bit of a cold again.

#ItWasWeirdGoingToAPhotographyWeekendAndTiagoAndBJoiningMeAsMyTwoWorldsRarelyCollide

Obviously I photograph them, so my worlds collide then but I mean colliding in real life – it was weird.

#ItWasFunnyTalkingToPhotoFriendsAndThenSeeingThemWalkingTowardsMeAsItJustSeemedSoOdd

It was nice to introduce B to people, though when she was getting tired one night she kept falling over, so Tiago had to keep taking her out of the room.

#IAmGoingToHaveToAdjustToThisNewOneNapScheduleButOnceWeDoIThinkItWillBeForTheBetterAsWeCanGoOutForLonger #ThoughIAmWorriedAboutTheDarkEveningsAsIWillNotBeAbleToTakeHerOutLikeIUsuallyDoSoWeMightFeelABitStuckAtHome

We will have to see. I am really not looking forward to the clocks changing.

#IWillJustHaveToAdjustWhenITakeHerOutForWalksAndMaybeWeWillJustHaveToDoSomeWalksInTheDarkWithTiagoOnTheNightsThatFeelLonger

The time of her one nap means we do have a lot of time in the morning, and hopefully we can go out after her nap before it gets dark.

I’m not sure how safe it will be walking around with B at night, but I know people with dogs who are already trying to figure out a route. Some nights we might feel like we have to get out for a bit. I definitely wouldn’t go out with B by myself though.

#LastWeekIHadAMidwivesAppointmentAndIHadToTakeBWithMeButItWasAllFineAndTheBabyIsFine

She was listening for a heartbeat and I could feel the baby kicking so I wasn’t too worried then.

#HerDueDateIsAFewDaysBeforeMineIThinkSoIWillNotSeeHerAgainAsSheWillBeWorkingFromHome

Shame as I like her.

#SheSaidAsItIsNotMyFirstBabyThe31WeekAppointmentIsOptionalButISaidIMightAsWellHaveIt

It’s not too far to go and I’d rather just go for an extra check and know things are okay.

#ThatMorningIWasChangingBsNappyAndThenICouldNotFindHerNappyCreamThoughIKnewIHadGotItBeforeSettingUpAChangingStation #SoIWentOffToLookForItAndBStoodUpAndPissedOnTheFloorAndThenManagedToSlipOverInItSoWhenITookHerVestOffTheBackOfHerHeadWasWet

Of course the cream had just rolled away and was under the step ladder next to us.

#SorryToBIfThisIsTooMuchButIFoundItFunnyAndSoIHadToGiveHerABathWhichMightHaveBeenHerFirstMorningBath

Sorry B. I’m sure most people have slipped over in their piss at least once in their life. If they say no then they’re probably lying. I don’t remember doing it, but I might well have done at your age.

I was hoping to get away with not giving her a bath, but nope. Then I was hoping to just wash the back of her head, but she had splashed so much that I just washed all her hair.

#IAmSureThisMorningThatShePointedToMyBellyAndThenDidAnImpressionOfItWithHerHand

Just like ‘you’re this big now’. We’ve seen some friends the last couple of days and their 4 year old son hadn’t even noticed I was pregnant until he gave me a hug last night and I pointed out he was hugging baby X too.

#MyMumAndNanBothSaidMyBumpLooksALotBiggerTodaySoMaybeBNoticedToo

It does seem to have suddenly grown, but I have eaten a lot this weekend and it might be due to where my placenta is or something. I don’t know.

#WithHerNewScheduleIAmGoingToHaveToSeeIfICanDoABitOfWorkWhileShePlaysNextToMe

Yesterday I did manage to prep a blog post. I’m getting a bit over doing this blog to be honest, but I might feel better once I am up to date with putting the images in, writing pregnancy comparisons and tags etc.

#IDoNotKnowWhyIFeelBadForDoingThisAsIAmSureALotOfOtherPeopleDoItToo

It’s good for kids to play by themselves for a bit for sure. Mum guilt is real.

#YesterdayWeWereInMineAndTsBedroomAndISawAStackOfStuffNextToTheMirror #ILookedAtItAndThoughtMaybeIShouldMoveItButDecidedItShouldBeFineButThen5MinutesLaterBHadKnockedItOverSoIHadToMoveIt

Me being lazy… In future I need to trust my health and safety officer instincts. (I’m not one, but I feel like becoming a parent I do notice risks better.)

#IAmGettingQuiteNervousAboutHavingTwoKidsInAFewMonthsOrSo

*Nervous laugh* I’m just trying to go to bed earlier. The last couple of nights I have gone to sleep quite early. This is why I also need to get stuff done while B is awake/during her naps, though yesterday I had to nap during her nap and I imagine it will be the same today.

#SometimesIGetWorriedAboutLackOfMovementsButThenSheStartsMovingALotAndTiagoCouldFeelHerKickingMeLastNight

I feel like I have been writing ‘it’ instead of ‘her’ as sometimes I forget we know, though I will not 100% believe it until she is born.

I just hadn’t had much time to feel her movements as it was such a busy weekend, so it’s always a relief when I feel her moving about.

26 weeks with B comparison:

Self-portrait in my bra and pants where my bump is showing and I am looking up. My hands are resting on the top of my legs.
We Heard The Baby’s Heartbeat For The First Time Today (26 weeks)
 
#IFeelLikeIAmInSomeWeirdBubbleWithThisWholeCoronaVirus
#IAmUsuallyHomeQuiteABitAnyways
#AndInNoRushToGoOut
#ButNowIAmWorkingFromHomeForTheForeseeableFuture
#AndThereIsSomethingAboutNotHavingAnythingToGoOutTo
#WeJustTryToGoForAWalkInTheEveningToBuySomeFruitAndVeg
#TheGoodThingAboutOptingForAHomeBirthIsTheMidwifeVisitsOurFlat
#SheCameYesterdayAndAllWasGood
#SheSaidMyBloodPressureWasLowButInAGoodWay
#SheSaidWhyLowPressureWasGoodButICanNotRememberWhatSheSaid
#SheAskedMeIfIEverFeltDizzy
#ISaidNo
#ButLastNightAndThisMorningMaybeIGotUpTooQuickAndSawColourfulLightsInMyEyes
#SoINeedToBeCareful
#SheNeededToMeasureMyUterus
#ItTookHerAWhileAsSheSaidMyCoreIsSoStrong
#MustBeBecauseOfTheExerciseThatIAmDoingInTheMorningAndNight
#SheSaidThatMyAbdominalMusclesAreStartingToSeparateNowToMakeRoomForTheBabyWhichIsNormal
#IAmGuessingThatIfIKeepOnExercisingAsIHaveThenItWillAllBeFine
#ISaidIAmMoreFlexibleThanIWasBeforeIWasPregnant
#WhichIThoughtWasDownToTheExerciseAndItProbablyIsABit
#ButSheSaidThatHormonesDuringPregnancyWillMakeYouMoreFlexible
#SheAlsoCheckedTheBabysHeartbeat
#TheNightBeforeIWasConcernedAsICouldNotFeelItInTheEvening
#ThoughWhenICompletelyRelaxedIEventuallyDid
#SheSaidThatThePlacentaMightBeAbsorbingTheKicks
#AsItTookAWhileToFindTheBabyAsSheCouldMostlyHearPlacenta
#WhenSheFoundItThoughItWasAGoodQuickHeartbeatLikeItShouldBe
#TiagoWalkedIntoTheRoomAndHeardItTooWhichWasNice
#ThisMorningItWasKickingStrongAndTiagoFeltItALot

I heard the baby X’s heartbeat for the first time weeks ago, so not sure why it took so long with B.

It is weird thinking that at this point with B I was just going for a walk once a day and only seeing Tiago.

I feel like I look stronger in this above picture than I feel right now (at the same phase). I have made an effort to not sit up straight from lying down so hopefully my muscles will not separate so much this time. My midwife did think that I’d have to do physio after having B, but I didn’t have to luckily.

I think my placenta is in a different position this time, which may be why I can feel it kicking more than I did with B. It may also be why my bump looks different, but that might be down to having had a baby before.

As I’m not planning for a homebirth this time I have to go out to appointments, but I seem to have them at good times and it’s good to get out of the house.

Self-portrait with some broken blood vessels visible on my cheeks. I am wearing a purple top that matches the blotches on my cheeks a bit. I am resting my left hand on my chin.
Broken Blood Vessels (26 weeks)
 
#IHaveBeenNoticingBitsOfRedOnMyCheeksForAFewWeeks
#IJustThoughtItWasToDoWithTheColdOutside
#AsUsuallyMySkinGoesABitRubbishInTheWinter
#OrIThoughtItWasASlightAllergicReaction
#YesterdayMorningIHadABitOfRedOnMyFace
#IWentToPhotographItButTiagoWasDoingExerciseInTheBitOfTheLivingRoomWhereIShoot
#AndByTheTimeHeFinishedItHadFaded
#IWalkedForAbout2HoursYesterday
#AndTiagoCommentedThatMyFaceWasQuiteRedLastNight
#ItIsThatTimeOfYearWhereYourBodyFeelsWeirdWhenTheSunGoesDown
#AsItWasQuiteWarmDuringTheDay
#AndThenSuddenlyItIsVeryCold
#SoIThoughtItMightBeToDoWithThat
#ReadingLastNightThoughApparentlyItIsACommonThing
#ToDoWithIncreasedBloodFlowAndBloodVessels
#SometimesTheBloodVesselsBreak
#WhichExplainsWhySometimesThePatchesTakeAFewDaysToDisappear
#TheSkinOnMyChinIsAlsoABitWeird
#WhichIsProbablyToDoWithHormones
#ApparentlyTheBabyIsTheSizeOfAnAcornSquashNow
#AndAbout36cmLong
#IAmAlsoAboutTwoThirdsOfTheWayThrough
#TimeIsFlying
#FeelLikeIShouldStartBuyingMoreThingsOffTheBabyListSoon
#IKeepLookingAtThingsButDoNotWantToCommitToBuyingRightNow
#IAmHopingThatWeWillGetToGoSomewhereToTryOutThePushchairWeWant
#ButWeMightJustHaveToRiskItAndBuyItWithoutTrying
#WillSeeHowThingsAreWhenIAmAround30Weeks
#WeAreLuckyAsWeBothHaveJobsThatSeemRelativelySecure
#WhoKnowsHowLongThingsAreGoingToGoOnFor
 

I have not noticed any broken blood vessels this time, so far.

This time we do not really need to buy anything, though I remembered earlier that soon we will need to buy newborn nappies and things. Fun times ahead…


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Portrait Of A Mother Of A Fourteen Month Old (15 Weeks / 13th August 2021)

Self-portrait of myself yawning with my eyes partially closed due the yawning. I am resting the index finger of my left hand near my left eye.
Portrait Of A Mother Of A Fourteen Month Old (15 Weeks / 13th August 2021)
 
#IShouldBePackingButInsteadIAmProcrastinatingAndDoingAShootThatIWasNotGoingToDoToday
#ItMakesSenseToGetItDoneThoughAsIWantItToHaveTheSameLookAsOtherPortraitsOfAMotherOfEtc
#HopefullyTomorrowWeWillBeGoingAwayAndIWillHaveToDoWithoutMyLightingKitForNearly3Weeks
#IHadLookedAtGettingSomethingThatWouldSuitButIAmNotEarningMuchAtTheMomentSoItFeltQuiteFrivolous
#AnywaysYesterdayWeWentToBirminghamAirportToDoOurFitToFlyPCRTests
#WeWentForTheDriveThroughOptionWhichWasGoodAsBSleptTheWholeTimeEvenWhenALoudPlaneTookOff
#IWarnedTheWomanThatIAmJustGettingOverMyMorningSicknessButItWasFineAndLessUncomfortableThanWhenIDoAFlowTestMyself
#IJustStartedToWinceOnTheLastFewSecondsOfTheTenSecondsNostrilTwisting
#WeAreDueToGetOurResultsByTenTonightThoughTheySaidItMayTake48HoursFromTheTestWhichIsTomorrowMorning
#ByThatPointWeWillBePackedAndHeadingToLondonSoIReallyHopeTheTestsAreNegative
#IFeltALotMoreHappyAndRelaxedOnceTheTestsWereDoneAsThatWasABigStressToOrganiseAndAtThisPointThereIsNotMuchWeCanDoApartFromWaitForTheResults
#ThoughIFeltLessRelaxedOnceIRealisedThatWeWillBeTestedOnArrivalTooSoWeHaveToHopeWeDoNotPickItUpBetweenTests
#ItShouldBeFineExceptForYesterdayIChattedToALotOfPeopleInThePark
#ISawACoupleWhoWeSeeAllTheTimeAndChattedToThemForTheFirstTimeWhichWasNiceButTypicallyItIsJustAsWeAreGoingAway
#AndThenISpokeToAWomanWithADogWhoWeAlsoSeeAllTheTimeButHaveNeverSpokenMuchTo
#BWasAtFirstYellingOrFrustratedlyTalkingToHerDogAndThenSheWasYellingAtASquirrel
#IHaveNoticedThatSheTalksToAllAnimalsApartFromGeeseWhichIsFairEnoughAsTheyAreScary
#TheWomanCameByAndISaidThatBOnlyLikesToTalkToAnimalsAndThenWeSpokeForAges
#AndThenWeSawAnotherWomanWithADogWhoWeUsuallySeeAboutOnceAMonthNowButByThatPointBWasFedUpAndGotScaredByHerDogBarking
#BLikesToStareALotNowAndTheOtherDayATeenagerYelledAtHerSayingWhatAreYouStaringAt
#IThinkHimYellingJustMadeBStareMoreAndHisFriendSaidToHimWhatAreYouDoingWhichIsGood
#BWokeUpAt6ThisMorningThoughMeAndTiagoWereAwakeAtHerUsualTimeAndWorryingIfSheWasAliveAsSheWasSoQuiet
#IDoNotKnowWhySheSleptLateAsInTheParkSheWasEitherInTheSwingOrHerPushchairButMaybeTheBiryaniSheHadForDinnerFilledHerUpOrSheJustWasNotTeethingAt5ForOnce
#LastNightIWokeUpAndBoltedAcrossTheRoomAsInMyDreamBWasAboutToFallOffTheKitchenCounter
#BMakesMeLaughAsYesterdayNanWasPickingCrumbsUpOffTheFloorWhileBSatNextToHerPlayingWithTheVelcroOnNansShoes
#IHaveMyMidwifeAppointmentTodayAtLunchSoHopefullyThatWillAllGoOkay
#WeirdlyTheMidwifeAndIThoughtWeRecognisedEachOtherButIDoNotThinkWeHaveEverMetBefore
#SheWasAlsoLovelyAndIsAboutAWeekMorePregnantThanMeWhichIsCoolButAlsoAnnoyingAsIWantHerAsMyMidwife
#AtMyLastAppointmentTheySaidTheyMayOrMayNotListenForAHeartbeatAsItIsUsuallyTooEarly
#ButSheTriedAndItWasReassuringToHearItAndSheSaidIfIEverWantToCheckItToJustSendHerAMessage

#IShouldBePackingButInsteadIAmProcrastinatingAndDoingAShootThatIWasNotGoingToDoToday

I just realised that the reminders I write to myself were stacking up, and if I do this today then I can chill about doing work for a little bit.

#ItMakesSenseToGetItDoneThoughAsIWantItToHaveTheSameLookAsOtherPortraitsOfAMotherOfEtc

And this. I had debated just doing a shoot today then writing another day.

#HopefullyTomorrowWeWillBeGoingAwayAndIWillHaveToDoWithoutMyLightingKitForNearly3Weeks

I’m sure I’ll manage, it just ruins the look of the project a little bit but oh well. It might mix it up in a good way…

#IHadLookedAtGettingSomethingThatWouldSuitButIAmNotEarningMuchAtTheMomentSoItFeltQuiteFrivolous

And researching/reading reviews takes up so much time.

#AnywaysYesterdayWeWentToBirminghamAirportToDoOurFitToFlyPCRTests

We had looked at other options, but they’d sold out. I think I mentioned it in my last entry/post (I still don’t know what to call these).

#WeWentForTheDriveThroughOptionWhichWasGoodAsBSleptTheWholeTimeEvenWhenALoudPlaneTookOff

Having to park and go through a walk in felt like more hassle. Especially as we did not know what time B would wake up in the morning (5:15am for the record) and if we would disturb her napping (she fell asleep before we got to the airport).

She did briefly open her eyes just after we started to move again, she sleepily smiled at me then went back to sleep. When we got home she stayed in the car for an hour continuing to nap…

#IWarnedTheWomanThatIAmJustGettingOverMyMorningSicknessButItWasFineAndLessUncomfortableThanWhenIDoAFlowTestMyself #IJustStartedToWinceOnTheLastFewSecondsOfTheTenSecondsNostrilTwisting

I thought that I had better warn her in case I made some weird noises or something. She said she would go slow and I could take a break whenever I wanted but it was fine. I was glad that I got a woman, but it seemed like policy which was good (Tiago got a guy).

#WeAreDueToGetOurResultsByTenTonightThoughTheySaidItMayTake48HoursFromTheTestWhichIsTomorrowMorning #ByThatPointWeWillBePackedAndHeadingToLondonSoIReallyHopeTheTestsAreNegative

It is so stressful. I don’t see why people are bothering to go abroad to places where you need to test loads if you are just going for a week and not visiting family… I need to look at booking day 2 and day 8 tests for when I get back. Tiago only needs to do day 2, and B doesn’t need to do them. Phew.

#IFeltALotMoreHappyAndRelaxedOnceTheTestsWereDoneAsThatWasABigStressToOrganiseAndAtThisPointThereIsNotMuchWeCanDoApartFromWaitForTheResults #ThoughIFeltLessRelaxedOnceIRealisedThatWeWillBeTestedOnArrivalTooSoWeHaveToHopeWeDoNotPickItUpBetweenTests

It’d be bloody typical…

#ItShouldBeFineExceptForYesterdayIChattedToALotOfPeopleInThePark

Typically I often go to the park and hope to talk to people and I talk to no one. Yesterday was our chattiest day in a longgg time, if ever.

#ISawACoupleWhoWeSeeAllTheTimeAndChattedToThemForTheFirstTimeWhichWasNiceButTypicallyItIsJustAsWeAreGoingAway

I think I have mentioned them before (I hope it doesn’t get to the point where they might read this blog and find it awkward – hello if so).

Their kid is the same age as B and we have seen them around since we moved here. It was nice to finally chat. We always say we should say hello to them, but after a while it feels like too late to say hello. I took B to the swings though and they were next to us, so I felt like I should ‘go for it’. They’re so nice, and we chatted for ages. B was getting restless, so I thought I should take her home for dinner and a run around.

#AndThenISpokeToAWomanWithADogWhoWeAlsoSeeAllTheTimeButHaveNeverSpokenMuchTo

Once I was sat with B on a picnic blanket and the dog just came and sat next to her randomly. We spoke briefly then, but that was monthsss ago I think.

#BWasAtFirstYellingOrFrustratedlyTalkingToHerDogAndThenSheWasYellingAtASquirrel

I feel bad as I keep saying she is yelling, but she is probably just talking loudly and gets frustrated as they never come closer to her and/or talk back…

#IHaveNoticedThatSheTalksToAllAnimalsApartFromGeeseWhichIsFairEnoughAsTheyAreScary

At first I put evil instead of scary, but thought I might offend geese lovers. They just get quite defensive and hiss a lot. My parents used to have geese and once one bit my foot (luckily I was wearing steel toe capped boots, but still). I have been weary of them since…

#TheWomanCameByAndISaidThatBOnlyLikesToTalkToAnimalsAndThenWeSpokeForAges

She was smiling and I was in a good mood from talking to the couple. We spoke about lots of things from when she gave birth husbands were not allowed in the hospital at all, to anti-vaxxers. She’s also lovely.

#AndThenWeSawAnotherWomanWithADogWhoWeUsuallySeeAboutOnceAMonthNowButByThatPointBWasFedUpAndGotScaredByHerDogBarking

Last time we saw them it was early in the morning. We caught them this time as they came out early and we were late from chatting to so many people. I had to pick B up as she was scared by his barking. He’s a very friendly dog though.

#BLikesToStareALotNowAndTheOtherDayATeenagerYelledAtHerSayingWhatAreYouStaringAt

I was pushing B across the grass and she was sat on the standing board just chilling and looking at the world. I saw her looking at them and I looked briefly and smiled at them.

#IThinkHimYellingJustMadeBStareMoreAndHisFriendSaidToHimWhatAreYouDoingWhichIsGood

Maybe he was yelling at me, but I doubt it as B was having a good long look. So awkward. Glad his friend told him off as he was probably just showing off, but it did make me feel uncomfortable. I just didn’t look or say anything. Then a guy commented that B was staring a lot, but he was being friendly and was with his kids.

#BWokeUpAt6ThisMorningThoughMeAndTiagoWereAwakeAtHerUsualTimeAndWorryingIfSheWasAliveAsSheWasSoQuiet

Yesterday she was trying to get my Nan’s salt shaker off her tall table and I think it may have hit her on the head, so I was keeping an eye on her because of that.

#IDoNotKnowWhySheSleptLateAsInTheParkSheWasEitherInTheSwingOrHerPushchairButMaybeTheBiryaniSheHadForDinnerFilledHerUpOrSheJustWasNotTeethingAt5ForOnce

She wasn’t running around a lot, unless it was from all the listening? Maybe dinner was filling (she didn’t eat any yoghurt before bed like she usually does), or maybe it was down to teething. She never seems to stop teething, so maybe it did for a little bit and so she slept better. Who knows?

#LastNightIWokeUpAndBoltedAcrossTheRoomAsInMyDreamBWasAboutToFallOffTheKitchenCounter

Lol. There is no kitchen counter in our room. Tiago just said ‘are you alright?’ as my urgency woke him up. Classic.

#BMakesMeLaughAsYesterdayNanWasPickingCrumbsUpOffTheFloorWhileBSatNextToHerPlayingWithTheVelcroOnNansShoes

She is funny. She must like the sound. Today she realised she could make a sound on the cupboard with her fingers.

#IHaveMyMidwifeAppointmentTodayAtLunchSoHopefullyThatWillAllGoOkay

I have left myself four hashtags to write about it. Fun times.

#WeirdlyTheMidwifeAndIThoughtWeRecognisedEachOtherButIDoNotThinkWeHaveEverMetBefore

I was thinking I recognised her (even with her mask on) and then she said that she thought she had met me before. I’ve only had a couple of appointments though and they weren’t with her. I’ve recently moved GP surgery and it is better as I will have more of my appointments there rather than random centres, and I like her.

#SheWasAlsoLovelyAndIsAboutAWeekMorePregnantThanMeWhichIsCoolButAlsoAnnoyingAsIWantHerAsMyMidwife

Happy for her, but it’s typical. She said from her 30 weeks she might have to just work from home due to shielding, but she said we’ll see what the rules are. In Liverpool, my midwife was due to take sick leave but then she didn’t – but in the end she wasn’t my midwife as I didn’t have a homebirth. My midwife today said I could have a homebirth if I wanted, but I said it’s probably not very polite as we live at my Nan’s place.

#AtMyLastAppointmentTheySaidTheyMayOrMayNotListenForAHeartbeatAsItIsUsuallyTooEarly #ButSheTriedAndItWasReassuringToHearItAndSheSaidIfIEverWantToCheckItToJustSendHerAMessage

I know in Liverpool they were a bit weird about it. I guess it freaks people out if they don’t hear it, but the midwife today said that if it’s not good news then you wouldn’t hear much at all. The baby was hiding behind my placenta, but she could hear it moving and my placenta was being noisy. She kept trying to get a clearer sound for me, but I said as long as she was happy that all was good then it was fine with me.

Some reassuring news before our possible holiday. Fingers crossed.

15 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait wearing a black and white stripy dress. I am looking at the camera and have my left thumb touching my lips, and the rest of my fingers closing my left eye.
Maternity Clothes (15 and a half weeks)
 
#SoMyFirstMaternityClothesHaveArrived
#IDidNotWantToCurseThingsByBuyingThemTooEarly
#ButIDefinitelyNeededNewBras
#IAmTryingOutTheClipsThatYouUseSoYouCanFeed
#ItIsStartingToGetEasier
#ButIDoNotWantToPracticeTooMuch
#InCaseIBreakThatFunctionBeforeIActuallyNeedThem
#IHaveStartedToEditMyProjectDownNowSoIDoNotHaveToDoItLaterOn
#IHaveToPickMyFavouriteImageFromAllThePreviousShoots
#AndThenIMightTryDrawingOnThem
#ToHelpWithMyAnxietyAndWorries
#IDoDefinitelyHaveABumpNow
#ThoughIThinkDuringTheDayMostOfItIsDueToFood
#IHaveStartedToDoYogaOrPilatesOrStretchingInTheMorningAndEveningNow
#IHaveGotIntoAGoodHabitOfDoingItInTheMorning
#ButTheLastCoupleOfDaysIHaveBeenDoingItInTheEveningTooAsIFeelLikeINeedIt
#AndIAmStartingToGetPelvicPainNow
#AtLeastISeemToHaveMoreEnergyTheseDays
#IStillFeelABitSickButIAmNotBeingSick
#TheClosestIGetToBeingSickAtTheMomentIsWheneverIBrushMyTeeth
#IHaveTriedAllDifferentToothpastesButMyBodyHatesIt
#ITryToThinkOfDoughnutsAndUnicorns
#ApparentlyInWeek16TheBabyWillBeTheSizeOfADoughnut
#SoIMightGetOneToCelebrateAsIHaveBeenThinkingAboutThemForWeeks
#WheneverIAmSomewhereThatSellsThemINeverWantThemThough
#ApartFromMaybeThoseVansThatSellDinkieDoughnutsOrWhateverTheyAreCalledTheseDays
#AnywaysThisIsMyFirstMaternityDress
#IHateShoppingButISawItAndLikedItWhichIsRareSoIThoughtIShouldGetIt
#IAmBoredOfPregnancyAdsNow
#IWantToSeeOtherThings
#AFewYearsAgoWhenIUsedToGetPregnancyTestAdsOnYouTubeIWasSurprisedThatAGuyInMyImprovClassGotAdvertsForTomatoSoup

Well, coincidentally I have my left hand touching my face and one eye closed.

I have been wearing this dress since B was born, and I have been wearing it a lot lately. I haven’t bought any maternity clothes this time, but I have been given a maternity jumper.

I ended up not wearing the clip bras much, and ended up wearing the ones that you just move the bra with your hands. I’ve been wearing them lately anyways as they’re so comfy.

I never ended up drawing on the pictures, but I have got a lot quicker at editing. I usually edit the shoot on the day of the shoot or the day after now.

I feel like I haven’t had any pelvic pain yet with this pregnancy, but I have been doing pregnancy stretches in the morning and evening since getting a positive test this time which I think has helped.

I tried to distract myself more this time than think about doughnuts and unicorns when I feel sick – the thought of doughnuts is making me hungry. There are some jam doughnuts in the kitchen actually, but I’m not a fan.

I feel like I haven’t had too many pregnancy ads this time, but I am also making an effort to not accept all cookies on sites anymore. I could eat a cookie or five.


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General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot (9 Weeks? / 28th June 2021)

Self-portrait of me looking at the camera in a bra and leggings. I am holding onto my elbow, and there is a bit of a baby bump showing.
General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot (9 Weeks? / 28th June 2021)
 
#TypicallyIGotAnAppointmentLetterForAScanTheSameDayThatISaidIHadHeardNothing
#AnnoyinglyItIsTheOneDayThatTiagoCanNotDoForSureSoWeWillHaveToWaitAnotherWeekNow
#TheLetterDoesNotSayIfTiagoCanAttendOrNotButIGuessTheRulesMayChangeByThenAnyways
#IRealiseThatIThoughtIMayBePregnantAsIGotSomeSpotsButTheyMayHaveBeenCausedByMeWearingAMask
#ThoughPerhapsItIsACombinationOfHormonesAndAMaskMakingThemWorseThanNormal
#IFeelHappierLatelyWhichIsProbablyAlsoACombinationOfHormonesAndHavingSomethingToCountdownToAfterMonthsOfFeelingABitLost
#ItHasAlsoBeenGoodToSeeMorePeopleLately
#WeJustHadAFewNightsAwayWhereWeCaughtUpWithLotsOfPeople
#ItWasReallyNiceToJustSeePeopleRegularlyForAFewDays
#ItWasAlsoAGlimpseOfHowItMightBeHavingTwoKids
#BDoesLikeBabiesButSheAlsoLikesToRunAroundAfterBiggerKids
#SheWasQuiteConfidentAtTakingTheirStuffAndDidNotSeemToCareWhenTheyGotAnnoyed
#ItWasAlsoAGoodReminderThatTheSecondKidWillNotDoVeryMuchForAWhile
#SoAtLeastYouCanPutThemDownAndFindThemThereAgainTenSecondsLater
#IAmJustNotLookingForwardToTheConstantFeedingAndNappyChangingAgain
#IHopeBreastfeedingWillBeEasierNextTimeButWeWillHaveToWaitAndSee
#WeTriedToExperimentWithTheLengthOfBsNapsAndHerBedtimeButSheStillWokeUpEarlierThanWeWanted
#WeSharedARoomWithHerSoItProbablyDidNotHelpEncourageHerToFallBackToSleep
#YesterdaySheSleptForAnHourAndAHalfInTheCarThenWentToBedAtSevenFortyFiveAndSheWokeUpAtFiveThirtyToday
#WeHadBeenTryingCuttingHerSecondNapToThirtyMinutesAndPuttingHerToBedAtEightAndSheWasWakingUpAtFive
#SoSheCanJustKeepHavingAnHourNapAtHerSecondNapAndGoToBedAtSevenThirty
#IGuessWeAreLuckyThatAtLeastSheSleepsQuiteSolidlyForAGoodAmountOfTime
#SheSeemsToKnowHerNapAndBedtimeRoutinesNowAndSheEitherClingsToTheSideOfHerCotOrLiesDownNextToItAsITryToGetHerReady
#YesterdayTiagoLookedAfterBAndIWentBackToSleep
#IDreamtThatWeWereAwayAndWeSaidYesToBGoingSwimmingInASmallFountain
#ItThenTurnedOutToBeAMassiveSwimmingPoolAndICouldNotSeeBAndAllTheKidsWereInTheSameCostumesWithTheSameFloats
#IStartedToShoutHadAnyoneSeenHer
#IThenWokeMyselfUpAsIDidNotWantToDealWithTheStress
#IToldTiagoAndHeSaidDoYouKnowThatYouOftenWakeUpInTheMiddleOfTheNightAndLookForB
#YesIDo

I’m yet to do a shoot, but I’ve called it General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot for now as I want to experiment a bit today and not pretend to be a one year old for once.

(3rd September 2021: I have a habit of doing shoots just after eating, so I look a bit more pregnant than I was. I’ve already copied this shoot once, and I plan to do it at least a few more times during the pregnancy.)

#TypicallyIGotAnAppointmentLetterForAScanTheSameDayThatISaidIHadHeardNothing

It’s always the way.

#AnnoyinglyItIsTheOneDayThatTiagoCanNotDoForSureSoWeWillHaveToWaitAnotherWeekNow

What’s another week? I’m impatient though.

#TheLetterDoesNotSayIfTiagoCanAttendOrNotButIGuessTheRulesMayChangeByThenAnyways

I was going to ask, but then I didn’t. The woman on the phone did say that the letter has a lot of incorrect and missing information on it though. I knew that as the line said it was open until 5, but it closed at 2:30 and I initially called at 2:50 to change my appointment so I had to wait until the next day. Fun times.

#IRealiseThatIThoughtIMayBePregnantAsIGotSomeSpotsButTheyMayHaveBeenCausedByMeWearingAMask

I’m sure I mentioned this in a previous set of hashtags. I don’t really get spots that often – unless I have been eating a lot of bad foods. I was reading something the other day and then I thought ‘ah yeah maybe the spots are more due to wearing a mask?’

#ThoughPerhapsItIsACombinationOfHormonesAndAMaskMakingThemWorseThanNormal

I guess I wear a mask for the same amount of time each week, so it must have been a combination of both? I have some really bad ones on the right side of my face right now.

#IFeelHappierLatelyWhichIsProbablyAlsoACombinationOfHormonesAndHavingSomethingToCountdownToAfterMonthsOfFeelingABitLost

If I could bottle these hormones (but not have morning sickness all the time) I’d take them for life, but I guess when I was pregnant with B I had also been feeling lost previously too.

#ItHasAlsoBeenGoodToSeeMorePeopleLately

Seeing people that I have not seen for a year or two or more…

#WeJustHadAFewNightsAwayWhereWeCaughtUpWithLotsOfPeople

Three couples and their kids (they all have two kids each).

#ItWasReallyNiceToJustSeePeopleRegularlyForAFewDays

People to hang out with while we watched the kids and passed time quite nicely. Hurrah. Luckily the weather was nice!

#ItWasAlsoAGlimpseOfHowItMightBeHavingTwoKids

They varied in age from 11 weeks to 9 years.

#BDoesLikeBabiesButSheAlsoLikesToRunAroundAfterBiggerKids

She is intrigued by babies, but she also likes to follow older kids.

#SheWasQuiteConfidentAtTakingTheirStuffAndDidNotSeemToCareWhenTheyGotAnnoyed

The determination/nonchalance on her face…

#ItWasAlsoAGoodReminderThatTheSecondKidWillNotDoVeryMuchForAWhile

I had kind of forgotten how babies are. I guess I am the most concerned about all the night feedings, and B going down to one nap very soon.

#SoAtLeastYouCanPutThemDownAndFindThemThereAgainTenSecondsLater

I forget that they are quite happy just lying on a mat, looking at the ceiling or toys etc.

#IAmJustNotLookingForwardToTheConstantFeedingAndNappyChangingAgain

It is going to be a juggle, but it will be worth it in the end.

#IHopeBreastfeedingWillBeEasierNextTimeButWeWillHaveToWaitAndSee

I feel like I have forgotten everything already, but I’m sure some things will come back to me.

#WeTriedToExperimentWithTheLengthOfBsNapsAndHerBedtimeButSheStillWokeUpEarlierThanWeWanted

Great.

#WeSharedARoomWithHerSoItProbablyDidNotHelpEncourageHerToFallBackToSleep

It is easier to try to let her go back to sleep when you’re not there next to her. She slept better than I thought she would though with the shared room situation. We just tried to only go in the room when we wanted to go to sleep. Sometimes she woke up, but she quickly went back to sleep.

#YesterdaySheSleptForAnHourAndAHalfInTheCarThenWentToBedAtSevenFortyFiveAndSheWokeUpAtFiveThirtyToday

On the way there she was just awake the whole time when I wanted to sleep. Yesterday we both napped. Poor Tiago…

#WeHadBeenTryingCuttingHerSecondNapToThirtyMinutesAndPuttingHerToBedAtEightAndSheWasWakingUpAtFive #SoSheCanJustKeepHavingAnHourNapAtHerSecondNapAndGoToBedAtSevenThirty

I was relieved as I like for her to have more than half an hour so I can get things done. I probably need to try cutting her nap to 30 minutes then putting her to bed earlier, but I feel like she just likes to wake up between 5 and 5:40.

#IGuessWeAreLuckyThatAtLeastSheSleepsQuiteSolidlyForAGoodAmountOfTime

We just need to go to bed earlier. The last two nights we have been watching football (Euros). I like football, but not that much football. I could have gone to bed at 8pm last night easily, but oh well. Portugal are out now, but Tiago is suddenly more interested in England.

#SheSeemsToKnowHerNapAndBedtimeRoutinesNowAndSheEitherClingsToTheSideOfHerCotOrLiesDownNextToItAsITryToGetHerReady

Well, this was just while we were away. I would just be sorting something out and she would be there clinging to it or next to it. It’s good though.

#YesterdayTiagoLookedAfterBAndIWentBackToSleep

Thanks Tiago.

#IDreamtThatWeWereAwayAndWeSaidYesToBGoingSwimmingInASmallFountain #ItThenTurnedOutToBeAMassiveSwimmingPoolAndICouldNotSeeBAndAllTheKidsWereInTheSameCostumesWithTheSameFloats #IStartedToShoutHadAnyoneSeenHer #IThenWokeMyselfUpAsIDidNotWantToDealWithTheStress

I realised it was a dream/nightmare, so there was no way I was going to stay there getting stressed out within it.

#IToldTiagoAndHeSaidDoYouKnowThatYouOftenWakeUpInTheMiddleOfTheNightAndLookForB #YesIDo

I still have dreams where I think she has fallen out of our bed or is out of her cot or something. Oh the fun. I’m going to try to have a quick lie down now before she wakes up. Hopefully she will sleep for another hour, but sometimes she wakes up earlier. She is teething again, and her skin is itchy again though it looks normal. Fun timessss.

8 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

(I should have posted these in the last post, but oh well. I only did one shoot for 8 weeks, but I don’t want to miss them out.)

I have a long necked top on that is covering the bottom of my nose. My hair is hanging long down one side. I am dressed in dark clothing.
Day Before Haircut (8 Weeks)
 
#IAmSoBoredOfTheWinterAlready
#ITryToWashMyHairEvery5DaysIfICan
#IDreadWashingIt
#WellNotTheWashingItSoMuchButMoreTheDryingIt
#AndComingOutOfTheShowerWithALotOfWetHair
#IHaveBeenTryingToSeeHowLongICanGrowItForPhotographicPurposes
#ButIAmTooLowMaintenanceForThis
#ThereIsJustTooMuchHairToDry
#InTheSummerItIsNotTooBadAndItIsABitRefreshing
#ButHavingToPutTheHeaterOnBecauseMyHairIsTooAnnoying
#AndSpendingAgesBlowDryingIt
#Nah
#EspeciallyNowThatIAmPregnantIJustReallyCanNotBeBothered
#IFeelLikeIWillEndUpCuttingItOffSoonAnyways
#SoMightAsWellDoItNowAndSaveMyselfALotOfTimeOverTheWinter
#LetsSeeThough
#AsOftenITalkAboutCuttingItShorter
#ButMyHairdresserDoesNotWantMeToDislikeItAfter
#ItWillNotBeSuperSuperShort
#AsIWantToBeAbleToTieItBackStill
#ButThatWillBeABigImprovementIThink
#MyHairMightBeKeepingMeABitWarmAtTheMoment
#ButICanWearAHat
#SayingMyHairdresserSoundsFunny
#ButIHaveBeenGoingToTheSamePlaceForYEARS
#ThereHaveBeenPhasesWhereIHaveNot
#ButILikeToCatchUpWithEveryoneThere
#AndIUsedToBeSoAwkwardAndSitInSilence
#AndAvoidLookingAtMyselfInTheMirror
#MyHairdresserAndILaughAboutHowAwkwardIUsedToBeAllTheTime

I recently had my hair cut off, but I was not at the same stage of pregnancy.

I cut it off due to wanting it to be lower maintenance and because it is harder to bend over the bath to wash my hair – my preferred way to do it, but I did not have that option when I was pregnant with B due to the bathroom set-up.

I can not really wear it down now as it gets so frizzy/wild, so I usually just tie up the top bit of it in a messy bun.

I now live close to my hairdressers again, so I’m going to the same place…

I am wearing a striped top and my arms are wrapped around me. I am looking at the camera.
Day After Haircut (8 Weeks)

#NotMuchToSayIThink
#GotAHaircut
#ItWasTooMuchHassleHavingLongHair
#MyHairdresserStraightenedItAndWhatever
#SoNotSureHowItWillLookWhenIHaveWashedAndBlowDriedItMyself
#ProbablyALotFluffier
#IWantedItLongEnoughToTieBack
#ButItIsAtALengthWhereIHaveToUseStrongTiesAsOtherwiseItFallsOut
#ItWillBeFine
#IDoNotLikeHowJustCutHairLooksOnMe
#TheEndsAreTooSharp
#ButIGuessItIsAlsoBecauseItIsStraight
#ButOftenIDoNotLikeHowTiagosHairLooksAfterHeHasJustHadItCut
#AfterAFewDaysItSeemsBetterButAlsoMaybeIJustGetUsedToIt
#FeelingABitSickNow
#BoredOfThisSickBusiness
#ILookPregnantHereButIAmJustBloated
#AndThisIsWhyIDoNotLikeTightTops
#ButISomehowDecidedToBuySomeTopsLikeThis
#ToBeFairTheyWereInAPacketAndIThoughtTheyWereLooserLikeOtherOnesIHave
#FunTimes
#GoingToGoSoakMyFeetAsIFeelLikeTheyNeedSomeLove
#ThenReadMyBookAboutTheSpiceGirls

I love how I say I look pregnant when I clearly don’t…

I have been caring less about what I wear as I am usually at home.

9 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait holding my NHS-issued pregnancy book. I look sad and have my arms crossed over the folder.
Bleeding Worry (9 Weeks)
 
#SoLastNightThingsFeltABitFunny
#AndIWasFeelingTooScaredToGoToTheBathroom
#AfterAWhileIWentAsIWantedToBrushMyTeeth
#AndThereWasBlood
#NotLoadsButMoreThanIHaveBledSoFarAndAReallyIntenseColour
#IWasHavingCramps
#IStillHaveSomeCrampsAndWeirdFeelings
#ItCouldBeAFewThings
#HadABusyWeekWhichIsWhyIDecidedThatINeededToStayInAndRestLastNight
#YesterdayIAccidentallyJabbedMyselfInTheStomachWithMyPhoneInMyPocket
#IAteSomethingFromAJarThatWas3WeeksOutOfDate
#ThatIsAwkwardToAdmitButItWasVegetablesAndIHadJustOpenedIt
#IUsedALotOfMoisturiserOnMyBodyWhenIUsuallyRarelyUseAny
#IFeelLikeThereWasSomethingElseButICanNotRemember
#ItCouldAllBeFineButIAmExpectingTheWorst
#LuckilyIHaveAnAppointmentForThisAfternoonAtTheHospital
#MyLeafletSaidToCallIfIHaveAnyBleedingOrPain
#AsThoughItIsNotUncommonItNeedsToBeCheckedOut
#CalledTheNumberAndOption1WasEmergency
#IFeltAwkwardPressing1SoIPressedForAllOtherEnquiriesAndThenShePutMeThroughToTheEmergencyLine
#ItIsInAFewHoursButThisMorningIsDraggingSoMuch
#IWasNotSickToday
#MyBoobsAreNotSore
#MyNoseDoesNotFeelFull
#FeelsLikeMostOfMySymptomsHaveGone
#WeCanOnlyWaitAndSee
#LastNightIJustCriedInTiagosArms
#InThePhotoIAmHoldingMyFolderOfNotesThatINeedToTakeToEveryAppointment
#DuringTheShootItFeltLikeSomethingWasJabbingMe
#IDoNotKnowWhatNormalIsSupposedToFeelLikeWhenPregnant

Luckily I have not had a scare like this yet this pregnancy. I’ve been getting bad cramps, which seem stronger than when I was pregnant with B but maybe I’ve just forgotten how things are.

B’s been accidentally kicking and punching me in my stomach loads.

My folder of notes is just a tiny booklet instead this time. Birmingham seems to use an app for all my notes?

I still feel like I do not know what normal is when pregnant, and I get anxious at times, but I just have to take some deep breaths and hope that everything will go the same as last time. I am just hoping that this baby will come out head first this time…


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Pregnancy Waiting II

Mum Looks #1 (10 Weeks? / 11th June 2021)

Self-portrait of myself wearing a colourful top and shorts. I have a book tucked into the back of my shorts and a pig puppet hanging out of my pocket.
Mum Looks #1 (10 Weeks? / 11th June 2021)
 
#ThisIsHowICarriedAPuppetAndABookUpTheStairsTheOtherDayWhileHoldingB
#ThePuppetUsedToDistractHerDuringNappyChangesButNowALittleMusicalPianoWorksBetter
#TheBookIsTheVeryHungryCaterpillarWhichBLikesALot
#NotLongAgoIWasTalkingToAnotherMumAboutAnUpcomingBookFestivalWhereAuthorsWillReadTheirBooks
#IJokedThatAllOfBsFavouriteAuthorsAreDeadAsIThoughtThatEricCarleHadDiedALongTimeAgo
#IWasSurprisedAfterAQuickOnlineSearchThatHeWasStillAliveButThenHeDiedACoupleOfWeeksLater
#IWasSupposedToHaveMyFirstVaccineThisWeekButAfterALotOfResearchIDecidedToWaitUntilIAmInMySecondTrimester
#TheBabyDevelopsSoMuchInTheFirstTrimesterAndIAmFeelingSoSick
#TheyDoNotKnowTheLongTermEffectsOfTheVaccinationsOnUnbornBabiesSoIWouldRatherWaitABit
#IrelandSuggestsWaitingUntil14WeeksToGetTheVaccineAndIHaveSeenThatInAFewPlaces
#SoIJustNeedToBeCarefulAndTryNotToGetCovidBeforeThen
#InABabyClassTheOtherDayWeDidNotHaveToWearAMaskWhenWeWereSatDown
#AndInATakeawayAGuyWalkedInWithoutAMaskButIPlanToKeepWearingMineUntilIGetAVaccine
#IAmStartingToThinkThatMaybeIAmMoreSixWeeksPregnantThanTen
#IThinkIWouldHaveBeenFeelingThisSickForLongerIfIWasTenWeeks
#ButIWasAlsoSoConvincedThatIWasPregnantWhenIWouldHaveOnlyBeenTwoWeeksIfIAmOnlySixWeeksNow
#ItHasBeenGoodThatTiagoHadThisWeekOffAsItMeansIHaveHadPlentyOfTimeToRest
#WeHaveNotDoneMuchButThatIsFineAsIHaveBeenFeelingSoTiredAndSick
#BWokeUpAtSixFortyTodayRatherThanFiveFortyWhichWasABitOfARelief
#WeHaveSatInTheParkAlotAndTodayWePlanToGoToAWildlifeCentre
#IUpdatedHerBabyBookTheOtherDaySoItIsNearlyCompleteNow
#IFeelLikeTheSecondKidWillNotHaveSuchAGoodOneButINeedToMakeTheEffortToMakeSureTheyHaveSomething
#TheWombMustBeQuiteResilientToDealWithPregnantPeopleLookingAfterKids
#BIsAlwaysFallingOnMeOrUsingMyStomachAsASupportPost
#IHaveAlreadyHadMoreKnocksToMyStomachThanIDidDuringMyWholePregnancyWithHer
#LastTimeWhenIWasPregnantIGotALetterFromTheMidwivesAfterTwoDays
#LastNightIGotATextFromMyDoctorsSayingINeedToPickAReferralLetterUpFromReception
#IAmGuessingItIsToDoWithTheMidwivesButItSeemsWeirdThatTheyDoNotPostOrEmailIt
#WellIWentToPickUpMyLetterUpAndIHaveCalledTheHospital
#TheyHavePutMeDownAsSixWeeksForNowAndApparentlyTheyDoNotHaveABedForMeAtTheDueDateIfIAmTenWeeks

(20th August: This probably won’t become a mini-series, but maybe it should. I think my whole project is just Mum Looks – me looking dishevelled.)

#ThisIsHowICarriedAPuppetAndABookUpTheStairsTheOtherDayWhileHoldingB

I tried to take a photo of my look on my phone at the time, but it was hard.

#ThePuppetUsedToDistractHerDuringNappyChangesButNowALittleMusicalPianoWorksBetter

I think it plays about four tunes automatically and I seem to know which one is coming next now. (If I know which one is coming I should know how many it has, but I can’t be bothered to work it out.)

(20th August: It has four. Now I just use any tactic to get her to stay still. Earlier I was using her bath toy, but sometimes it’s a tub with the lid screwed on tight, or a book or anything.)

#TheBookIsTheVeryHungryCaterpillarWhichBLikesALot

I haven’t read it to her in a few days, which I am somewhat happy about as I need a break from it.

#NotLongAgoIWasTalkingToAnotherMumAboutAnUpcomingBookFestivalWhereAuthorsWillReadTheirBooks

I think a lot of children’s authors will be present.

#IJokedThatAllOfBsFavouriteAuthorsAreDeadAsIThoughtThatEricCarleHadDiedALongTimeAgo

She was a Mum at the park and we had a very brief conversation. She likes a lot of Pam Adams’ books and I just looked and she died in 2010…

#IWasSurprisedAfterAQuickOnlineSearchThatHeWasStillAliveButThenHeDiedACoupleOfWeeksLater

RIP Eric Carle. We like his From Head To Toe book too.

#IWasSupposedToHaveMyFirstVaccineThisWeekButAfterALotOfResearchIDecidedToWaitUntilIAmInMySecondTrimester

It was stressing me out, so now I am glad I decided to wait.

(20th August: I ended up getting the vaccine at 13 weeks after advice became a bit more consistent. I was also swayed by a talk by Pregnant Then Screwed and Viki Male, an immunologist. Here is the talk on Instagram.)

#TheBabyDevelopsSoMuchInTheFirstTrimesterAndIAmFeelingSoSick #TheyDoNotKnowTheLongTermEffectsOfTheVaccinationsOnUnbornBabiesSoIWouldRatherWaitABit

Research shows that babies are being born fine, but it is too early to know if there are long term effects and when is best to get the vaccine.

I’m feeling sick all of the time so I don’t want to get ill on top of it if I have a bad reaction…

#IrelandSuggestsWaitingUntil14WeeksToGetTheVaccineAndIHaveSeenThatInAFewPlaces

I saw on Twitter that a country (not sure which one) was offering the vaccine to women over 14 weeks. The UK and my doctor say all trimesters are fine, but I’d rather wait…

#SoIJustNeedToBeCarefulAndTryNotToGetCovidBeforeThen

I’ve managed it this far, but you never know.

#InABabyClassTheOtherDayWeDidNotHaveToWearAMaskWhenWeWereSatDown

I walked in and was like ‘why does everyone look different?’ After a while a couple more women walked in wearing them, but the teacher said we don’t have to wear them while sat down. I took mine off, though I wanted to keep it on. Next time I will as B runs off a lot so I need to get up and pick her up.

#AndInATakeawayAGuyWalkedInWithoutAMaskButIPlanToKeepWearingMineUntilIGetAVaccine

I shouldn’t let my awkwardness affect my personal safety. Maybe it’s unnecessary but I do not want to risk it.

I definitely will have a vaccine in my second trimester as getting Covid in the third trimester is quite dangerous for a pregnant person.

#IAmStartingToThinkThatMaybeIAmMoreSixWeeksPregnantThanTen

This ball of fun again.

#IThinkIWouldHaveBeenFeelingThisSickForLongerIfIWasTenWeeks

Looking at my Waiting project I was feeling sick at 6 weeks and by 8 weeks I felt really bad.

#ButIWasAlsoSoConvincedThatIWasPregnantWhenIWouldHaveOnlyBeenTwoWeeksIfIAmOnlySixWeeksNow

With B I had a period of two days, then it stopped so I thought it was weird, did a pregnancy test and I was about 4 weeks.

Earlier in the year when I was pregnant I had a period of sorts, then I was starting to wake up feeling sick and I was pregnant. About 6 weeks.

This time I had a normal period, then what seemed like a normal period, then a missed period. Then I did a test. I was feeling a bit sick before my missed period/or imagining things as I wanted to be pregnant. ?

#ItHasBeenGoodThatTiagoHadThisWeekOffAsItMeansIHaveHadPlentyOfTimeToRest

I am going to struggle when he goes back to work next week.

#WeHaveNotDoneMuchButThatIsFineAsIHaveBeenFeelingSoTiredAndSick

It’s been nice to just chill at home with T being available.

#BWokeUpAtSixFortyTodayRatherThanFiveFortyWhichWasABitOfARelief

Her heating comes on for a bit between 4 and 5, but it has been the last few days so who knows why she slept better today?

#WeHaveSatInTheParkAlotAndTodayWePlanToGoToAWildlifeCentre

Simple things. Hopefully she likes the centre today.

#IUpdatedHerBabyBookTheOtherDaySoItIsNearlyCompleteNow

Hurrah. I hadn’t looked at in a few months.

#IFeelLikeTheSecondKidWillNotHaveSuchAGoodOneButINeedToMakeTheEffortToMakeSureTheyHaveSomething

Or I need to change the way I do it. I’d feel bad if they didn’t have one.

#TheWombMustBeQuiteResilientToDealWithPregnantPeopleLookingAfterKids #BIsAlwaysFallingOnMeOrUsingMyStomachAsASupportPost #IHaveAlreadyHadMoreKnocksToMyStomachThanIDidDuringMyWholePregnancyWithHer

It freaks me out a bit when she touches my stomach, but I’m sure the baby is well protected.

#LastTimeWhenIWasPregnantIGotALetterFromTheMidwivesAfterTwoDays

Even though my Doctor said there was a massive delay with them.

#LastNightIGotATextFromMyDoctorsSayingINeedToPickAReferralLetterUpFromReception #IAmGuessingItIsToDoWithTheMidwivesButItSeemsWeirdThatTheyDoNotPostOrEmailIt

So it took longer to do the referral letter this time than it did for me to get a letter in the post this time? I know they’re busy. Maybe they thought it would be quicker for me to pick it up. It seems weird though. I’m going to go pick it up now.

#WellIWentToPickUpMyLetterUpAndIHaveCalledTheHospital

I guess they say to pick it up from reception now as the Doctors is operating more like in the ‘old days’ now. No having to wait outside for ages – the door was open.

I got myself a veggie samosa from a nearby shop on the way back and it was good.

#TheyHavePutMeDownAsSixWeeksForNowAndApparentlyTheyDoNotHaveABedForMeAtTheDueDateIfIAmTenWeeks

She said only I could say what date to put me down as. I said for 10 weeks. She said ‘well there are no beds left for then’. So I said to put me down as 6 weeks for now and we will have to see. If I wanted to be put down as 10 weeks a letter had to be sent to the higher ups or something, and maybe I am just 6 weeks. What a faff.

She said the first appointment will either be on the phone or in person. Last time they told me it would be on the phone, so things are changing.

(20th August: I was only 6 weeks here.)

6 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait of me sat with a purple scarf over myself. My left hand is just below my lips and I am gazing off and look deep in thought, though possibly just feeling sick.
Morning Sickness Is Not Only A Morning Thing (6 and a half weeks)
 
#SoTheSicknessComesAndGoes
#MorningSicknessIsSuchALie
#IAskedTheDoctorIfSheHadAnyTipsAfterIFirstWentWhenIFoundOut
#SheSaidThatMorningSicknessIsNotOnlyAMorningThing
#WellSheDidNotLie
#SometimesItIsTheMorning
#YesterdayICouldHaveBeenSickOverEverything
#LastWeekItWasMoreAnAfternoonThing
#ButSometimesItIsTheEvening
#SomeoneWasTalkingAboutWarmCamelsMilkTheOtherDay
#AndItWasMakingMeSoIll
#ThenILookedAtMyCollectionOfSoups
#AndJustReadingTheFlavoursMadeMeFeelIll
#ItIsSuchAWeirdThing
#IKnowThatNoOneReallyLikesToVomit
#ButIReallyHateIt
#IOnceProudlyCouldSayIHadNotVomitedInAtLeast10Years
#AndThenMyHousemateMadeMeSuperStrongRumCocktailsWhenIWasDoingMyBA
#AndThatWasGrim
#AndACharmingExBoyfriendTookPolaroidsOfMeByTheToilet 
#EvenThoughHeWasSickMostWeekendsBecauseOfAlcohol
#IDoNotKnowWhatHappenedToThosePolaroids
#BetTheyShowUpIn50Years
#Anyways
#YesterdayIHadStrongMeatAndFishCravingsEvenThoughIHaveBeenVegetarianForOverHalfMyLife
#CouldHaveEasilyEatenCodAndChipsOrATurkeyAndStuffingSandwich
#ThoughIThinkTheyWouldHaveMadeMeSick
#SoLastNightISettledForAVeganFishFreeBurger
#ItWasProbablyTheFirstTimeIHadEatenAFishBurger
#AndItWasAlrightButIWouldNotBeInARushToEatItAgain

Morning sickness is definitely a lie. With B I was generally sick in the mornings though struggled to eat anything at dinner except for pasta. This time I have been mostly sick in the evenings.

I didn’t like soup again this time and things like baked beans.

I haven’t had strong meat and fish cravings this time, though I’ve been taking double the amount of iron lately.

The bit about my ex-boyfriend taking pictures of me vomiting isn’t pleasant, but it’s true. Now I just take pictures of myself after vomiting…


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Pregnancy Waiting

Failed Blood Tests (7 and a half-ish weeks)

This is a post about the sixth image from my series Waiting For Things In A Time When You Rarely Wait For Things where I documented my pregnancy from October 2019 to June 2020.

I haven’t posted about this project since July. I was just having a morning stretch and thought I should post about it again – even if they’re just short posts. Before I was making my life difficult by digging through outtakes, so I’m just going to focus on the photo/s that I chose for each set of hashtags.

So here we go…

Photo of my body. Arm has a plaster on it from a blood test
Failed Blood Tests (7 and a half-ish weeks)
 
#SoTheyTriedToTakeMyBloodAndFailed
#ProbablyBecauseItWas10amAndIHadNotEatenYet
#AsIHadBeenSickThatMorningAndItPutMeOff
#ItSeemsSoEarlyToBeTalkingAboutOptions
#WhereIWantToGiveBirthWhenItSeemsSoEarlyAndIDoNotKnowTheFullFacts
#TheMidwifeMentionedAHomeBirth
#ILikeTheIdeaOfItButImmediatelyIJustThoughtAboutTheNeighboursAndWhatTheyWouldThink
#LivingInAFlatWithNeighboursOnMostSidesAndUpAndDownDoesNotMakeItSoAppealing
#ButIDoNotHearMuchFromThem
#ApartFromOneNeighbourWhoCoughsLoudly
#AndOnceICouldHearOneVomitingThroughTheVents
#WhichIsWhatIWorriedThisMorningWhenIWasBeingSick
#TIsWorriedAboutTheRisksOfHomeBirth
#SoINeedToFindHimSomeInfo
#OtherPeopleHaveExpressedTheirDisapproval
#WhichUpsetsMe
#AsItIsSoEarlyAndItIsNotSetInStoneYet
#ButThatIsMyPersonalPreference
#AndIAmTheOneGivingBirth
#AndIWantToFeelAsRelaxedAndComfortableAsPossibleToDoTheJobThatPeopleHaveBeenDoingForThousandsOfYears
#AsICanNotBeBotheredWithBeingSuperStressedOut
#LikeISaidMyMainConcernIsTheNeighbours
#SoLetUsHopeForAShortLabourThatIsMidDayAndNotMidNight
#ButItMightNotHappen
#MaybeIWillGoToTheHospitalOrABirthingCentre
#ABirthingPoolIsAllIReallyWant
#AsIWillNotGetASummerHolidaySoICanPretendIAmInTheSeaWhichIsWhereIFeelMostAtPeace
#FingersCrossedThatAllGoesWellFromHere
#ItAllSeemsTooEarlyButTodayMadeThingsABitMoreReal
#IDoNotKnowHowIGotTheScratchOnMyBelly

So I took this photo in November when there wasn’t even a whiff of pandemic in the air (ooh so poetic).

I really do not know how I got that scratch; I’m guessing it was a rogue fingernail.

The photo is cropped and rotated – I don’t like having to crop my work for some reason, but too much boob felt unnecessary. I do like that the picture is a little abstract.

#SoTheyTriedToTakeMyBloodAndFailed
#ProbablyBecauseItWas10amAndIHadNotEatenYet #AsIHadBeenSickThatMorningAndItPutMeOff

Typically it was the first day that I had actually been sick. Later on I would realise that eating a little bit when I felt sick would make me feel better, but at this point I did not know that.

Afterwards before every blood test I would make sure that I drank plenty and ate something. Usually my appointments would be in the morning so I would have less time to eat, and I went off a lot of food so I’d at least try to eat something that I could tolerate (usually some light crisps – like the oven baked ones).

#ItSeemsSoEarlyToBeTalkingAboutOptions
#WhereIWantToGiveBirthWhenItSeemsSoEarlyAndIDoNotKnowTheFullFacts
#TheMidwifeMentionedAHomeBirth

Back then there were more options, but it did seem super early. I remember calling the hospital when I found out I was pregnant and they were like ‘so you’re having the baby here?’ I did not know what my options were; I hadn’t researched or talked to anyone about them yet.

I did read ‘Give Birth Like A Feminist’ by Milli Hill when we were trying to get pregnant, which is when home births first became an idea in my mind.

Then I was surprised at my first midwife appointment that when she asked where I wanted to give birth that she said ‘at home?’ first. She said she had never registered someone for a home birth before. I thought maybe I should think about it more as she straight away referred me to the home birth team, but she did say I could change my mind.

I really wanted one, but I was worried about the neighbours in case the birth was during the night…

#TIsWorriedAboutTheRisksOfHomeBirth
#SoINeedToFindHimSomeInfo

I told T and he wasn’t very enthusiastic about the idea. Back then he was very much ‘you go to hospital and you do what the doctors say as they know best’. Luckily, we did an online hypnobirthing course together and he completely changed his mindset.

Now if he finds out that anyone is pregnant he really recommends the course to them; he says it made him feel empowered (so imagine how it made me feel). There is so much that we never knew about pregnancy before doing the course and it just explained things in a way that made things less daunting. T always says that ‘knowledge is power’ and with the knowledge you know how to advocate for yourself.

In the end I never got a home birth, but the course definitely empowered me to say no to a c-section (if I had needed one then fair enough, but I didn’t) and to ask for a vaginal delivery. T wasn’t there during the discussions due to Covid, so I did not have anyone to back me up. Luckily it worked out in the end, though I didn’t get a home birth or water birth. It’s just really good to know your options and think about your preferences (though my birth plan never accounted for a breech baby – so if you’re reading this while pregnant please think about it and what you would want to do).

I also learned that staying calm will help labour continue (adrenaline stops surges), so I focused on doing the breathing techniques that I had learned on the course and danced to music and tried to relax as much as possible whilst waiting on the maternity ward. If I had got stressed out then I probably would have had to have a C-section as they put me on a countdown (at 9am they said if I wasn’t in established labour by 6pm then I would not be allowed to have a vaginal delivery). I do love a challenge…

#OtherPeopleHaveExpressedTheirDisapproval

Funnily enough with Covid and all, those who weren’t so keen on me having a home birth in the beginning actually saw it as a good idea in the end. It seemed less risky going somewhere where I could possibly get Covid and everything. However precautions were in place there (I had a lovely swab up the nose) and it was so odd but nice to be around a lot of strangers for the first time in months.

You can read my birth story here and about my hospital stay here.


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