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Pregnancy Waiting II

We’ve Made It To Portugal (16 Weeks / 18th August 2021)

Yet to do a shoot, but I know it will have a very different look. Maybe these posts will be more like holiday photos? I imagine there being a picture from later today of me standing with a slight bump in front of some water…

(Tiago did take some photos of me on my phone, but they were only cute family album photos, not project pictures – so instead I took some of me sat on the bed in my swimming costume instead.)

Self-portrait sat in my maternity swimming costume on a bed.
We’ve Made It To Portugal (16 Weeks / 18th August 2021)
 
#WeGotOurTestResultsTheNightBeforeAndInTheMorningIKnewIHadTheLastBitsToPack
#MyNanMentionedALargeMothInTheLivingRoomWhichTurnedOutToBeASmallBird
#SoWeHadToGetThatOutOfTheHouseWhileBAteHerBreakfastAndWeGotOnTheRoadAtHalfSeven
#BSleptInTheCarThenWeHadATaxiRideWhereSheWasUnsureOfTheTaxiDriver
#ThenALongWaitAtTheAirportAPlaneAShorterWaitAndAShorterSecondFlight
#SheManagedToHaveHerSecondNapOnTheFirstPlaneThoughSheShouldHaveNappedTwoHoursEarlier
#SheOnlyCriedWhenSheWokeUpAndObviouslyWantedToSleepMoreAndSheEventuallyWentBackOff
#AndWhenTiagoWentToTheBathroomAsSheDidNotLikeHimLeaving
#EveryoneWasSoNiceFromTheAirportStaffToThePeopleAroundUsOnThePlanes
#TheAirportWomanWhoRetrievedOurPushchairTheSecondTimeWentToSchoolWithTiago
#BWentFromBeingSuperShyInTheMorningToLookingAtMorePeopleAndWasFineMeetingTiagosParentsForTheFirstTime
#WeGotToTheirHouseLateAndWeAreInARoomWithB
#TheCotWeHaveIsTheOneThatTiagoSleptInAtBsAgeAndSheKeptClimbingOutOfItAndIWasWorriedSheWouldFallOut
#ThenIRealisedThatTheLoweredSideCouldBeRaisedAndSheEventuallySlept
#TheTimeHereIsAnHourBehindTheUKAndSheWokeUpAtHerUsualTimeButWeGotHerIntoBedWithUsAndSheSleptOnAndOffForThreeMoreHours
#WeOpenedTheShuttersToSeeCowsInTheFieldThatWereNotThereLastTimeWeVisited
#SoBHadAGoodIntroductionToCowsAndThereIsANewPlaygroundNearbyWithACoupleOfCatsHangingAroundCloseBy
#WeHaveHadSomeTeethingProblemsWithTheCotCarSeatAndACarButThingsWillHopefullyBeResolvedToday
#BHasAlsoBeenHavingTeethingProblemsAndINoticedSheHasAMolarComingThroughOnEachSideOfTheBottomOfHerMouth
#IWasNotSureHowSheWouldReactToTheSeaButSheGoesStraightForIt
#YesterdayTAndIWereJustFeelingReallyTiredAndABitDownAsItHadNotFeltLikeAHolidayYet
#ThenTiagosMumWatchedBWhileSheSleptAndACoupleOfFriendsPickedUsUpForASwim
#ThenIFeltLikeIWasOnHolidayAsIHadFinallyHadASwim
#ItWasMyFirstTimeSwimmingWhilePregnantAndItFeelsWeirdToSwimBellyDown
#ThenWeCameHomeAndGotBAndWentToAnotherSwimmingSpotWithThemBAndAFriendAndHerBaby
#BJustSplashedInTheSeaAndIAmSoHappyThatSheLovesTheWaterSoMuch
#WeGotHomeAndPutHerToBedAndTiagosParentsKeptAnEarOutWhileWeWentOutToDinnerWithFriends
#ItWasOurFirstNightOutAsParentsWhichWasNiceButTheFoodCameAtTenAndWeGotHomeAfterEleven
#BIsStartingToEnjoyTheCompanyOfEveryoneElseABitMoreWhichIsNiceForUsAsWeCanRelaxABit
#IAmAlsoLearningToRelaxAboutHerRoutineMoreAndTrustingOthersToLookAfterHerWhichIsGood

#WeGotOurTestResultsTheNightBeforeAndInTheMorningIKnewIHadTheLastBitsToPack

It was such a relief to get the results earlier than expected. We packed a lot the night before, but needed to pack the things that B would be using until she woke up/until we would leave.

I liked packing lists before, but they’re more useful now than ever.

#MyNanMentionedALargeMothInTheLivingRoomWhichTurnedOutToBeASmallBird

She pointed at it whilst it flapped and it would have been a massive massive moth…

Why did it have to happen that day of all days?

#SoWeHadToGetThatOutOfTheHouseWhileBAteHerBreakfastAndWeGotOnTheRoadAtHalfSeven

Poor B was freaked out as we were freaked out, and at one point it sat directly above her while she ate her breakfast. No poop luckily…

#BSleptInTheCarThenWeHadATaxiRideWhereSheWasUnsureOfTheTaxiDriver

We had to drive to London, then parked our car at a friend’s house, then got a taxi to the airport as it was less faff than catching 3 trains/tubes and cost the same amount anyways.

#ThenALongWaitAtTheAirportAPlaneAShorterWaitAndAShorterSecondFlight

It was better to be early than late to the airport. I was worried the car would breakdown or there would be massive traffic jams or anything might delay us.

We took lots of snacks and bought a few more things. Being early allowed us to weigh our bags and reshuffle stuff. Our suitcases were both over. Annoyingly our first flight had limits of 20kg per bag, and the second flight had 23kg limits. Our backpacks were just super heavy for the first flight…

I was worried about B’s meals but she was quite happy snacking on picnic type food (B and I both loved some mozzarella and tomato pastries we got).

#SheManagedToHaveHerSecondNapOnTheFirstPlaneThoughSheShouldHaveNappedTwoHoursEarlier

I thought she probably wouldn’t nap at all, so was happy she went off to sleep after some singing and massage.

#SheOnlyCriedWhenSheWokeUpAndObviouslyWantedToSleepMoreAndSheEventuallyWentBackOff

I think I read so much stuff about annoyed people on planes with kids that I was a bit scared. B was so well behaved though.

#AndWhenTiagoWentToTheBathroomAsSheDidNotLikeHimLeaving

Me awkwardly talking to her (in English and bad Portuguese) while he went to the loo and could hear her crying.

She would get annoyed at T for talking to other people and ignoring her at times.

#EveryoneWasSoNiceFromTheAirportStaffToThePeopleAroundUsOnThePlanes

I’m not sure if the airline staff are overly nice if they see you with a young kid as they know you must be stressed or what, but I’ll take it.

#TheAirportWomanWhoRetrievedOurPushchairTheSecondTimeWentToSchoolWithTiago

I love when we get to the airport and he recognises the staff, or you see other people greeting people they know.

#BWentFromBeingSuperShyInTheMorningToLookingAtMorePeopleAndWasFineMeetingTiagosParentsForTheFirstTime

There was a baby behind us on the second plane and they were interacting. We actually saw that family the next day in the supermarket.

I was worried about how B would react to her grandparents as I knew they would be keen to hold her, and she was fine. Phew.

#WeGotToTheirHouseLateAndWeAreInARoomWithB

So we left home at 7.30am, and then got to his parent’s house at 10pm UK time. It was a long day.

#TheCotWeHaveIsTheOneThatTiagoSleptInAtBsAgeAndSheKeptClimbingOutOfItAndIWasWorriedSheWouldFallOut

It’s obviously very different to the one we have. It was pushed against our bed and B kept climbing out of it to come onto our bed. I was trying to go to bed at the same time as her, while T was getting ready to go to a stag do.

Turned out the quarantining and day 6 test had recently been dropped. Win.

I was knackered as I had not napped at all, and then B was just stood up shaking the cot.

#ThenIRealisedThatTheLoweredSideCouldBeRaisedAndSheEventuallySlept

Phew. In the night I thought she had fallen out though, which stressed me out.

#TheTimeHereIsAnHourBehindTheUKAndSheWokeUpAtHerUsualTimeButWeGotHerIntoBedWithUsAndSheSleptOnAndOffForThreeMoreHours

We knew she was tired as it had been a long day for her. It was our first co-sleeping session as normally we try to get her to sleep, but she won’t. She normally just moves all over the place, but she was still in her sleeping bag and the room was pitch black which probably helped.

#WeOpenedTheShuttersToSeeCowsInTheFieldThatWereNotThereLastTimeWeVisited

The field used to just be harvested for the grass I think. The cows belong to the father of a friend of Tiago, so we had a nice chat with him as he was there.

We caught them at the right time as they’ve since moved onto another field as they’ve eaten everything.

#SoBHadAGoodIntroductionToCowsAndThereIsANewPlaygroundNearbyWithACoupleOfCatsHangingAroundCloseBy

I’m sure she’d seen a cow before, but this was her first time really being aware of them. The playground is nice and wasn’t here last time we visited. The cats live in a house looking onto the playground and like to hang around, so it’s a nice little visit.

#WeHaveHadSomeTeethingProblemsWithTheCotCarSeatAndACarButThingsWillHopefullyBeResolvedToday

The cot has been explained. The car seat that we got lent was for an older kid, but our friend sorted us out. The car has some problems that need fixing so we can’t drive it until then.

#BHasAlsoBeenHavingTeethingProblemsAndINoticedSheHasAMolarComingThroughOnEachSideOfTheBottomOfHerMouth

I know she has been teething in those areas for a long time. She wanted to teethe on my finger and I noticed one, then a few hours later I noticed another one. That also might be why she got upset on the plane…

#IWasNotSureHowSheWouldReactToTheSeaButSheGoesStraightForIt

We took her to the beach at 8am, before we realised the car problems and she walked/crawled into the sea. She loved it.

We brought a paddling pool with us in case of quarantine and she loves splashing in that too.

#YesterdayTAndIWereJustFeelingReallyTiredAndABitDownAsItHadNotFeltLikeAHolidayYet

We were both so tired. Travelling was knackering and with a toddler you can not switch off. I felt stressed as we were stuck at home, but we do not have many toys for B here and I feel like that there is not a safe spot to play with her as all the floors are super hard and there are steps and things. Hard life.

#ThenTiagosMumWatchedBWhileSheSleptAndACoupleOfFriendsPickedUsUpForASwim

I’m not expecting everyone to look after B all the time, but it’s what we need. It’s rare that T and I both leave the house without B.

#ThenIFeltLikeIWasOnHolidayAsIHadFinallyHadASwim

We went to the closest spot and we had not been there before. It was nice, though quite shallow and I worried about banging my toes on rocks. A friend cut his toe… I need to get some swimming socks or shoes.

It felt good though.

We also saw our friend’s sister and husband. They have a baby too, but she was at home being looked after by her grandparents while she slept too. We agreed the swimming spot wasn’t very kid friendly.

#ItWasMyFirstTimeSwimmingWhilePregnantAndItFeelsWeirdToSwimBellyDown

I never swam while pregnant with B. I wanted tom but life and Covid…

#ThenWeCameHomeAndGotBAndWentToAnotherSwimmingSpotWithThemBAndAFriendAndHerBaby

Our friend had planned to pick us up to take us, but then our other friends decided to join too.

It was a more kid friendly spot.

#BJustSplashedInTheSeaAndIAmSoHappyThatSheLovesTheWaterSoMuch

She was just there splashing like a dog doing doggy paddle from the moment she went in until the moment we got her out. We try not to take her in for too long. 15 minutes?

#WeGotHomeAndPutHerToBedAndTiagosParentsKeptAnEarOutWhileWeWentOutToDinnerWithFriends

We were getting hungry and thinking of going straight for food, but I was getting wary of B’s bedtime approaching. It made sense to take her home first.

#ItWasOurFirstNightOutAsParentsWhichWasNiceButTheFoodCameAtTenAndWeGotHomeAfterEleven

We got there at 8:30ish which is already late for me. It was nice to chat though, but swimming makes me hungry and I was… hungry.

I knew we’d regret going to bed late and B was up at 5:30. Luckily Tiago let me go back to sleep once B started to eat breakfast, and Tiago’s Mum took over from him after a while so he could work.

It’s so nice having the extra help as it means now I am working while B naps instead of being so tired that I need to nap. Obviously I don’t expect this to happen everyday, but I need to recharge my batteries and get some small things done.

#BIsStartingToEnjoyTheCompanyOfEveryoneElseABitMoreWhichIsNiceForUsAsWeCanRelaxABit

Yesterday at the swimming spot Tiago looked after B while I swam with a friend. Then we got out and the friend said she could have B while Tiago joined me for a swim. She was quite happy playing with everyone else, and it was nice this morning seeing her playing with her grandparents. She is a little less needy of Tiago which is nice for him.

#IAmAlsoLearningToRelaxAboutHerRoutineMoreAndTrustingOthersToLookAfterHerWhichIsGood

Ish. I’ll never completely relax, but I’m getting better. Yesterday she had some omelette at the swimming spot, then we gave her some fruit and milk when we got home. That seemed okay.

I’m used to other people watching her for an hour or so at my Nan’s house, but not elsewhere. It’s good for her though and it’s good for us.

16 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait hugging a maternity pillow. My left hand is resting on the pillow and my right arm is wrapped around the pillow and resting on my left arm.
Maternity Pillow (16 Weeks)

#SoIGotThePillowAWeekAgo
#IKnowItIsStillEarlyDaysInMyPregnancy
#SayingMyPregnancyIsWeird
#ButIFeltLikeINeededOne
#AndIThoughtTheSoonerIBuyItTheMoreValueIWillGetOutOfIt
#IAmStartingToGetHipPainNow
#AndIStretchInTheMorningAndEveningAndUsuallyABitDuringTheDay
#ButItHelpsWhenISleep
#IAlsoHaveAnOverwhelmingUrgeToCuddleSomethingInMySleep
#SoItAlsoHelpsWithThat
#TheOnlyBadThingsIsThatItTakesUpALotOfTheBed
#WellItTakesUpMyHalfButTiagoProbablyFindsItAnnoying
#ButHeIsPuttingUpWithItBlessHim
#SomeReviewersSaidTheirPartnerSleepsInAnotherRoomSoTheyHavePlentyOfRoomForTheirCushion
#ItIsNotThatBadButWhenTiagoGetsOutOfBedIDoPushItOverABitMoreAndTakeUpMoreSpace
#IProbablyDidNotNeedSuchABigUShapedOne
#ButMaybeItWillBeMoreUsefulLaterOn
#IThinkIWasDoingTooMuchMovingAroundDuringThisShoot
#IAchedABitAfter
#StrainingToSeeTheResultsOnMyScreenAndThingsLikeThat
#ThenIHadADeliveryCome
#ThatParticularDeliveryCompanyDoNotLikeComingUpstairsAnymore
#SoIHadToLugBoxThatWasNotThatHeavyButTooHeavyForMeRightNowIAmSure
#AndIAchedABitAfterwards
#IWasGoingToComplainButIDoNotWantTheDriverToGetIntoTrouble
#IKnowHisPayIsNotGreatAndTheyAskMeToComeDownstairsSoThatTheyCanGetOnWithOtherDeliveries
#ButIThoughtHeWasComingUpstairsSoIWaitedForAges
#ThenIWentDownstairsAndHeWasJustLeaningAgainstTheWallChilling
#SoNoTimeWasSavedInTheEnd
#OhWellIMightJustRelaxWithMyPillowUntilTheAchesPass
#ButIThinkAchesAreHereToStayForALongTimeAndWillProbablyGetWorseAsMyBodyGetsPushedAndStretchedMore

My hashtags used to be short…

With my latest pregnancy I got the smaller part of the pillow out around 11 weeks (see this post), and I started to use the rest of it around 24 weeks. I didn’t know where it was, but I also didn’t want it taking up the whole bed but the bed we sleep in now is bigger, so it’s less overwhelming using it.

I have had less hip pain this time, but I think it’s due to stretching early on in the morning and evening.

Self-portrait in my bra and pants. A little bump is showing.
It Is Hard To Believe That Someone Is Growing Inside Of Me (16 and a half weeks)
 
#TimeIsFlyingBy
#IHadMy16WeekAppointmentTodayWithAMidwife
#SheJustTookMyBloodPressureAndCheckedMyUrineForProtein
#FunTimes
#OneOfMyFavouriteThingsAboutPregnancyIsWhenIThinkIAmWettingMyself
#ButItIsJustMyBodyCleaningOutOldCellsAndStuff
#SuperFunTimes
#IHadAnotherWeirdedOutPhaseYesterday
#LikeThereIsASmallHumanInsideOfMe
#ASmallHumanThatLooksLikeAMixOfTiagoAndMe
#ThatIsSoWeird
#IMentionedToTheMidwifeThatIAmAtAWeirdStageWhereItIsAnother4WeeksUntilIHaveAScan
#SheSaysIProbablyWillNotProperlyBeAbleToFeelItMovingForAnother4To8Weeks
#SoIAmLikeHowDoIKnowThatIsAllIsWell
#SheSaidSheKeptBelievingThatThereWasNotABabyInsideOfHerWhichICompletelyUnderstand
#YesterdayAtWorkThereWereAFewCommentsAboutMyBumpBeingVisible
#SomeoneSaidYouLookSoPregnantToday
#ToBeFairIWasWearingATightFittingTop
#AndOnceIStartEatingTheBumpJustGrows
#ItIsFunnyAsBeforeIWasPregnantIWouldHaveFeltAwkwardAboutWearingSuchATightFittingTop
#ButBeingPregnantIDoNotMindSoMuchAsBumpsArePositive
#AndWeWereDiscussingThisInTheOffice
#AsPregnancyBumpsHaveALotOfPositivityAroundThem
#ButAsSoonAsTheBabyIsOutThereIsALotOfPressureToLoseIt
#IFeelAwkwardTakingAPictureInMyUnderwear
#ThePantsAreTheSameOnesAsIWoreForMyYourMindAndBodyProjectIn2012
#IDoNotWearThemOftenAndToBeFairIProbablyWillNotBeAbleToWearThemAgainForAWhile
#ObviouslyIHaveTakenPicturesOfMyselfNakedInThePastButIThinkIAmMoreAwareOfWhereTheyMightEndUpAndHowPeopleReactToThem
#APictureOfSomeoneInTheirUnderwearIsUsuallyAssociatedWithSexinessWhichMakesMeFeelAwkwardAsIDoNotConsiderAnyOfMyWorkToBeSexy
#ButIWantToDocumentMyChangingBodyAndMyFeedIsUsuallyFilledWithPicturesOfPeopleInTheirBikinisOnTheirHolidays

I had my 16 week appointment a bit earlier this time due to our trip.

I think I have not really thought that I’ve wet myself so much this time, which is nice. But geez the body does a lot of clearing out…

Reading these hashtags make me feel weird that there is a small human inside of me. I still look at B most days and think ‘whoa, I grew her’ and can not believe that I am a mother.

I feel similar this time about wearing tight fitting tops, but then again I do not really go out much apart from for walks and B’s toddler classes.

I haven’t taken any naked pictures of myself yet naked this time (currently 25 weeks pregnant), but I feel like I should soon as there’s not much time left really and it’s a nice record for myself.


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Pregnancy Waiting II

Portrait Of A Mother Of A Thirteen Month Old (11 Weeks? / 14th July 2021)

Me lying in bed hugging my pregnancy pillow, with a face mask sat on my forehead and with a hand to my mouth.
Portrait Of A Mother Of A Thirteen Month Old (11 Weeks? / 14th July 2021)

#ItSeemsQuiteFittingToTakeAPhotoOfMeLyingInBed
#IFeelLikeIDoSoAtAnyChanceIHaveNow
#IAmJustSoTiredAndItIsFunnyReadingBackOldEntriesWhenIDidNotKnowIWasPregnantYetAndJustSayingHowTiredIWas
#ISawAPregnantFriendTheOtherDayWhoAlsoHasOneKidAndSheWasSayingTheFirstTrimesterWasTheWorst
#IAmHopingMyEnergyWillReturnSoon
#IHaveFeltSoInspiredToMakeOtherWorkButJustHaveNoEnergyForIt
#IHaveBeenTryingToOnlySleepOnMyLeftSideButIAmFindingMyRightSideAndBackMoreComfortableAtTheMoment
#TalkingOfSleepingWeWentToLiverpoolForTheWeekendAndOnTheFirstDayBMissedHerSecondNap
#SheHadWokenUpFortyMinutesEarlyFromHerFirstOneWhichMeantMeTryingToEntertainHerInTheCarWhichWasUsJustReadingThroughAllOfHerBooks
#WePlannedToLetHerSleepInHerPushchairForHerSecondNapButWeWereOutForFortyMinutesWithNoSuchLuck
#ThenWeTriedToPutHerDownInACotButAfterFifteenMinutesWeGaveUpSoSheWasUpForNineHours
#WeGotIntoBedAtAroundEightAndWentToSleepAtNineThirty
#TheNextDayBHadASuperShortNapAfterWakingUpAtHerUsualTimeOfPreSix
#ButOnTheWayHomeSheSleptForTwoHoursAndICouldNotWakeHerUp
#IWasWorriedThatSheWasGoingToDropHerSecondNapButNotYetPhew
#YesterdaySomeoneWasAskingMeHowIKnewIWasReadyForASecondKidAndSheTalkedAboutHerFriendsGettingBroody
#IWasNotBroodyAtAllButIJustWantedToTryAndHaveASecondOneBeforeWeReallyKnewWhatWeWereInFor
#BIsBecomingDifficultToChangeAndOftenWillCryLoudlyForWhatSeemsLikeNoReasonAtAll
#TheOtherDayWeWereTryingToGiveHerYoghurtAndSheWasScreamingSoIJustCopiedHer
#StraightAwaySheChangedHerTuneAndStartedToLaughAndAteAllOfHerYoghurt
#ItMaybeIsNotTheBestSolutionEveryTimeButItWasMuchBetterThanGettingStressedOutAndAnnoyed
#AfterwardsWeHadAFunGameOfHerTryingToStealMyEmptyBowlOfCrispsWhenMyBackWasTurned
#SheIsBecomingQuiteTheFoodThiefTheseDaysWithHerTryingToTakeWhateverWeHave
#IHaveNotBeenSickInACoupleOfDaysButIHaveGaggedAFewTimes
#IThinkTheMoreTiredIAmTheWorseIFeelAsLastNightBeforeBedIFeltSoSickAndIWasAsleepBeforeTen
#IWasAwakeFromFourToFiveButThenCouldNotGetUpOnceBHad
#TheGovernmentHasChangedTheirStanceABitWithMasksAfter19thJulyButItSeemsLikeSomePeopleStoppedWearingThemAWhileAgo
#BsWalkingIsDefinitelyImprovingDayByDayNowAndSheCanTakeQuiteAFewStepsNow
#AtHerBabyClassSomeoneWasSayingSheFeelsLikeBIsTheCelebrityOfTheClassAsEveryoneKnowsHerName
#SheReallyLikesToTryToStealEveryonesStuffButEveryoneIsNiceAboutIt

#ItSeemsQuiteFittingToTakeAPhotoOfMeLyingInBed

Well, I am yet to take it yet but it is what I have in mind. Lying in bed with my eye mask on (the one I got as an emergency in case I had to go into hospital to give birth to B – which I did).

#IFeelLikeIDoSoAtAnyChanceIHaveNow

Tiago had gone out with B to the supermarket the other night (for the first time in ages). I was about to go to sleep when I could hear that my Uncles were visiting. ‘Why does it have to be today?’ But it was nice to see them.

(19th September: I was disappointed to miss them the other day as B and I were both napping, and they only made a short visit.)

#IAmJustSoTiredAndItIsFunnyReadingBackOldEntriesWhenIDidNotKnowIWasPregnantYetAndJustSayingHowTiredIWas

I was confused as to why I was so tired. I’m taking double the amount of iron now, and my vitamins, but I guess it is just a big part of the first trimester. Great.

#ISawAPregnantFriendTheOtherDayWhoAlsoHasOneKidAndSheWasSayingTheFirstTrimesterWasTheWorst

She also had sickness and just felt so tired. I actually think I might have mentioned this in my last post, but it was on my mind.

#IAmHopingMyEnergyWillReturnSoon

I hope so. I am getting into bed as soon as I finish writing this.

#IHaveFeltSoInspiredToMakeOtherWorkButJustHaveNoEnergyForIt

By the time my energy returns the inspiration may have gone. What can I do?

#IHaveBeenTryingToOnlySleepOnMyLeftSideButIAmFindingMyRightSideAndBackMoreComfortableAtTheMoment

It is early days, so I do not need to really worry about how I am sleeping yet but I try to sleep on my left anyways. Sometimes I want to sleep on my front, but I am avoiding it.

#TalkingOfSleepingWeWentToLiverpoolForTheWeekendAndOnTheFirstDayBMissedHerSecondNap

It was a friend’s first birthday, so she obviously did not want to miss a minute of it.

#SheHadWokenUpFortyMinutesEarlyFromHerFirstOneWhichMeantMeTryingToEntertainHerInTheCarWhichWasUsJustReadingThroughAllOfHerBooks

I say us. I mean it was me reading to her. I was hoping to have a nap, so I was tired, and Tiago was also tired from driving. Tired family.

#WePlannedToLetHerSleepInHerPushchairForHerSecondNapButWeWereOutForFortyMinutesWithNoSuchLuck

Nothing like pushing B round a park screaming. (Her, not me.)

#ThenWeTriedToPutHerDownInACotButAfterFifteenMinutesWeGaveUpSoSheWasUpForNineHours

She did not seem that tired though.

#WeGotIntoBedAtAroundEightAndWentToSleepAtNineThirty

B had gone to bed at 7:50. Brushed teeth and into bedddd.

#TheNextDayBHadASuperShortNapAfterWakingUpAtHerUsualTimeOfPreSix

She will usually have 2 hours if she’s up that early, but it was more like 40 minutes.

#ButOnTheWayHomeSheSleptForTwoHoursAndICouldNotWakeHerUp

I did not want her to sleep for that long as I was worried she would have a super late bedtime. She went to bed at 7:45pm, as the England v Italy game was at 8pm and it was fine. She slept until her usual time.

#IWasWorriedThatSheWasGoingToDropHerSecondNapButNotYetPhew

I am not ready yet.

#YesterdaySomeoneWasAskingMeHowIKnewIWasReadyForASecondKidAndSheTalkedAboutHerFriendsGettingBroody #IWasNotBroodyAtAllButIJustWantedToTryAndHaveASecondOneBeforeWeReallyKnewWhatWeWereInFor

It’s really down to wanting two kids and feeling like I’m not up to much at the moment besides looking after B, so it seems like a good time to try to have another one. My body felt strong enough. I have been so anxious this week about the pregnancy, but I am trying to stay calm. Two weeks until my first scan…

#BIsBecomingDifficultToChangeAndOftenWillCryLoudlyForWhatSeemsLikeNoReasonAtAll

I am still struggling to change her nappies, and then add in her excessive wriggling and escaping. It’s great.

#TheOtherDayWeWereTryingToGiveHerYoghurtAndSheWasScreamingSoIJustCopiedHer

I remember my Mum doing it with me when I was crying crocodile tears.

#StraightAwaySheChangedHerTuneAndStartedToLaughAndAteAllOfHerYoghurt

Nothing like laughter to get you out of a bad mood. I think she is teething a lot at the moment, so that might be why.

#ItMaybeIsNotTheBestSolutionEveryTimeButItWasMuchBetterThanGettingStressedOutAndAnnoyed

Obviously if she was really upset it would not be a nice thing to do, but when it seems like she just doesn’t want to do something it is a nice trick. I’d rather make her laugh than get really pissed off.

#AfterwardsWeHadAFunGameOfHerTryingToStealMyEmptyBowlOfCrispsWhenMyBackWasTurned

I had some crisps in the bowl. She was trying to eat them. I then put the bowl on the table and she kept going to it and digging her hands in. Later on I had my back to her and she would touch the bowl while my back was turned, then I’d turn round to look at her and she would laugh. I do love when she laughs.

#SheIsBecomingQuiteTheFoodThiefTheseDaysWithHerTryingToTakeWhateverWeHave

She was trying to eat my Nan’s breakfast again today. I had some strawberries the other night and my plate was empty, but she would just scratch the plate anyways and then lick her fingers. She is funny.

#IHaveNotBeenSickInACoupleOfDaysButIHaveGaggedAFewTimes

Nothing like going to the bathroom and expecting to be sick, but just dry heaving instead. Or sometimes it is just when I am in the kitchen. The body is weird.

#IThinkTheMoreTiredIAmTheWorseIFeelAsLastNightBeforeBedIFeltSoSickAndIWasAsleepBeforeTen

I hadn’t napped during her second nap, so I felt tired. When I get tired I faff, but I should just relax instead. I was going to hang up the washing, but I stood up and thought I was going to be sick. I had to lie down in bed as I had already brushed my teeth and did not fancy being sick.

#IWasAwakeFromFourToFiveButThenCouldNotGetUpOnceBHad

I read some of my book to try to feel sleepy again. T and B were up from 5:40. I slept for another hour. Thanks Tiago.

#TheGovernmentHasChangedTheirStanceABitWithMasksAfter19thJulyButItSeemsLikeSomePeopleStoppedWearingThemAWhileAgo

Though I’ve just seen that masks will still be mandatory on London transport. That’s good.

#BsWalkingIsDefinitelyImprovingDayByDayNowAndSheCanTakeQuiteAFewStepsNow

She can do more than a few really. Ten plus quite confidently, maybe more? I need to get her some shoes. I’ve ordered a foot measurer, so we can just measure them when we want to and order online.

#AtHerBabyClassSomeoneWasSayingSheFeelsLikeBIsTheCelebrityOfTheClassAsEveryoneKnowsHerName

I feel bad as I do not know many of the names (unless I think back to the register), but the teachers are always commenting on what B is doing. She was scared of some animal puppets again yesterday 🙁

#SheReallyLikesToTryToStealEveryonesStuffButEveryoneIsNiceAboutIt

Shoes, phones, toys, pushchairs, whatever. If it is there B will have it.

I maybe have time for an hour nap if my brain switches off quick enough…

11 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

A close-up of my face showing a couple of spots in my hairline.
I Feel Like My Body Has A Big Job To Perform Now (11 weeks)

#FeelingConcernedAsIHaveNotFeltSickThisEveningButIFeltSickDuringTheDay 
#MaybeIHaveJustEatenEnoughDinner 
#IWillProbablyFeelSickInAnHour 
#IHeardThatSourSweetsAreGoodForSickness 
#IFoundSomeGoodVeggieSweets 
#DoNotThinkTheyReallyHelpedWithTheSicknessButTheyTasteGood 
#Anyways 
#ThisTextIsSupposedToBeAboutSpots 
#WhenIHadTheCoilISuddenlyStartedToGetLotsOfSpotsOnMyScalp 
#IFiguredItWasDueToTooMuchCopperInMyDietAndInMyBody 
#SoMaybeIHaveBeenEatingALotOfThingsThatHaveCopperInThem 
#ButIDoubtIt 
#IGuessTheSpotsAreMoreToDoWithHormones 
#MyFaceFeelsSpottierTooButIThinkThatHasALotToDoWithTheWeather 
#AsMySkinGetsWorseThanNormalInTheWinter 
#ButIHaveBigSpotsOnMyHairline 
#INoticedThemTheOtherDayButTheySeemBiggerNow 
#FunTimes 
#MaybeINeedToWashMyHairMoreAndIHaveBeenWearingAHat 
#SoMaybeThatPlaysAPartInIt 
#CanNotBelieveIAm11WeeksNow 
#StillNervous 
#TiagoCanNotLieToSaveHisLifeSoHeToldAFewPeopleYesterday 
#SoTheNumberOfPeopleWhoKnowHasNowGrown 
#IJustFeelMorePressureNow 
#NoOneIsPuttingPressureOnMe 
#ButIFeelLikeMyBodyHasABigJobToPerformNow 
#AndIAmNervousThatThereIsPlentyOfTimeForThingsToGoWrong 
#NotFeelingSickNowIsABitWorrying 
#ButIThinkThatIWillGoBrushMyTeethNowAndThatWillProbablyMakeMeFeelSick 

(19th September: Using an image with a border as my laptop stopped charging the other day, and T’s laptop seems incapable of opening editing software – I also have to paste the letter s whenever I want to use it. I am hoping to have my own again in a few days.)

I have felt just as anxious this time as I did with B. I haven’t eaten any sour sweets (I actually forgot about this), but I was eyeing up someone’s sweets on the train the other day.

My face was spotty for a bit, which was probably hormones.

I have been washing my hair even less probably, but it doesn’t look too bad.

I am now 20 weeks and I dry heave again when I brush my teeth in the evenings. This has gone on for longer than when I was pregnant with B…

I feel like I do have a big job ahead of me again, but I am a bit more relaxed about it in ways as I have been through it all once before, and I am feeling a bit more like what will happen will happen – though obviously I am hoping for the best outcomes. Fingers crossed.


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