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Imitating B Poking Her Doll In The Eye (32 Weeks / 12th December 2021)

Self-portrait of me holding a doll, and holding its eyelid down with my right index finger.
Imitating B Poking Her Doll In The Eye (32 Weeks / 12th December 2021)
 
#IHaveMentionedThatBLikesToTryToTouchOurEyesWhichWorriesMeABitWithBabyXsImpendingArrival
#MyNanGotHerADollTheOtherDayAndSheAlsoLikesToTouchItsEyesButItIsSaferThanTouchingHumanEyes
#DollsHaveAlwaysCreepedMeOutSoIHopeSheAndHerSiblingDoNotReallyLikeThem
#ObviouslyIfTheyDoIWillHaveToBeSupportiveButIMuchPreferCuddlyToys
#IFinishedReadingMyHypnobirthingBookAndIFeelMoreRelaxedAboutXsBirthButIDoNeedToReadItAtLeastOnceMore
#TwoDaysAgoIGotFreakedOutByTheBabyNotMovingMuchButSheMadeUpForItYesterdayByMovingLoads
#IHaveStartedToMakeMyBirthingPlaylistAsIFoundItSoHelpfulWhenIWasInEarlyLabourWithB
#IWasDancingBehindMyCurtainOnTheWardWhileWaitingForMyLabourToProgressAndItDefinitelyHelpedMeStayRelaxed
#WeWillHaveToSeeHowEarlyLabourGoesThisTimeAsIMightEndUpNotGoingIntoHospitalUntilMuchLater
#OneOfMyCoatsHasNotDoneUpOverMyBumpForAWhileAndTheOtherOneIsGettingTight
#ISpentALotOfFreeTimeResearchingMaternityCoatsButInTheEndIDecidedItWasNotTheBestOption
#InsteadIHaveSentOneCoatBackToTheBrandToBeRepairedAndRestoredAndWillBeBuyAZipInBabyWearingPanelForIt
#TheOtherDayAGuyInTheParkKeptSayingHelloLoudlyAndIThoughtHeWasOnThePhone
#InTheEndITurnedAroundAsIThoughtIMightHaveDroppedSomethingAndTheGuyWasLookingAtMeLikeIShouldMoveOutOfTheWay
#HeWasStoodQuiteCloseToMeThenPeeredAroundMeToSeeBSittingOnTheStepOnTheBackOfHerPushchair
#HeSaidDoYouDriveDoYouAndSaidSomethingAboutMeGoingFromOneSideOfThePathToTheOther
#HeThenSaidIShouldBeCarefulAndWalkedOffWhichJustLeftMeFeelingQuiteConfusedAndThenAnnoyed
#IHadBeenWalkingSlowlyInCaseBFellOffAndIMoveIfISeePeopleOnThePathAheadOfMeButDidNotRecallMovingInTheTenSecondsOrSoBeforeHeWasRude
#ItWasJustWeirdAndWalkingInTheParkWithAPushchairIsABitDifferentToDrivingInACarOnARoad
#AnywaysWeAreDebatingSendingBToAnotherSessionOfNurseryAWeek
#TiagoCasuallyMentionedItAndAfterThinkingAboutItIDefinitelyWouldFeelABitMoreRelaxedWithLookingAfterOnlyOneKidForAFewMoreHoursAWeek
#IWorryThatWhenBabyXComesIWillBeBoringAndStressedSoIThinkItWouldBeBetterForBToGoOutAndHaveFun
#ITryToBeByTheWindowToWaveHerOffAndWelcomeHerHomeWhenTiagoTakesHerToAndFromNursery
#SheInstinctivelyLooksToTheWindowNowWhichIsQuiteCuteSoIHaveToTryNotToLetHerDown
#SheAlsoTendsToGetUpsetWhenTiagoLeavesSoIUsuallyHoldHerUpToTheWindowToSeeHimLeaveAndAlsoWhenMyMumGoes
#WhenWeGiveNanAMealWeUsuallySayHereYouGoNanAndBThenGenerallyComesRunningOverToSeeWhatSheHasWhichMakesMeLaugh
#SheSeemsToBePickingUpNewThingsAllTheTimeLikeNowShePointsToWhereTheTeddyIsInABookAboutFindingItOrTakesMyFingerToPointToIt
#YesterdayShePointedToTheFloorDuringWindTheBobbinUpAndSuddenlyLovesTheDingleDangleScarecrowSong
#IWasThinkingRecentlyThatItIsWeirdThatBWillGrowUpAndProbablyNotRememberThisPhaseOfHerLife
#INeedToDoTheLastPageOfHerBabyBookAndThinkAboutWhatToDoForBabyX
 

#IHaveMentionedThatBLikesToTryToTouchOurEyesWhichWorriesMeABitWithBabyXsImpendingArrival

I hope she outgrows this phase by the time X arrives.

#MyNanGotHerADollTheOtherDayAndSheAlsoLikesToTouchItsEyesButItIsSaferThanTouchingHumanEyes

The doll’s eyes are probably more fun as she has more control over them. I see her fingers coming towards my eyes and I shut them, and tell her not to do it, but she’s fascinated.

#DollsHaveAlwaysCreepedMeOutSoIHopeSheAndHerSiblingDoNotReallyLikeThem #ObviouslyIfTheyDoIWillHaveToBeSupportiveButIMuchPreferCuddlyToys

I will definitely not be adding to their doll collection, but you never know what they will get as gifts.

#IFinishedReadingMyHypnobirthingBookAndIFeelMoreRelaxedAboutXsBirthButIDoNeedToReadItAtLeastOnceMore

I keep practicing the breathing exercises, and just think about being as relaxed as possible to make things easier.

#TwoDaysAgoIGotFreakedOutByTheBabyNotMovingMuchButSheMadeUpForItYesterdayByMovingLoads

I had done a lot of dance videos, so maybe they needed to chill. I ached a bit afterwards, so I had to have a lie down. Yesterday she was just moving all over the place.

#IHaveStartedToMakeMyBirthingPlaylistAsIFoundItSoHelpfulWhenIWasInEarlyLabourWithB

I still have B’s birth playlist so I took songs from that, then thought about what I wanted to add.

#IWasDancingBehindMyCurtainOnTheWardWhileWaitingForMyLabourToProgressAndItDefinitelyHelpedMeStayRelaxed

Tiago wasn’t allowed to be with me, so I didn’t have much else to do. It definitely helped during surges, along with the breathing exercises.

#WeWillHaveToSeeHowEarlyLabourGoesThisTimeAsIMightEndUpNotGoingIntoHospitalUntilMuchLater

My waters had broken, so I had to go in to be monitored, then they were going to send me home but B was breech.

#OneOfMyCoatsHasNotDoneUpOverMyBumpForAWhileAndTheOtherOneIsGettingTight

It was fine with B as I was pregnant in the summer, but it is a bit colder this time…

#ISpentALotOfFreeTimeResearchingMaternityCoatsButInTheEndIDecidedItWasNotTheBestOption

A good one is expensive. I nearly caved and bought one, but it was dry clean only which is too high maintenance for me – especially with a B who likes to walk in the mud.

#InsteadIHaveSentOneCoatBackToTheBrandToBeRepairedAndRestoredAndWillBeBuyAZipInBabyWearingPanelForIt

It’s a coat I’ve had for at least 6 years if not more. The inside is a bit ripped from where I used the pocket that the coat folds into as an actual pocket, and it just needs a good clean and re-waterproofing. It’s a lot cheaper than getting a new coat, and I like the coat so it makes sense. I don’t really need another coat…

#TheOtherDayAGuyInTheParkKeptSayingHelloLoudlyAndIThoughtHeWasOnThePhone #InTheEndITurnedAroundAsIThoughtIMightHaveDroppedSomethingAndTheGuyWasLookingAtMeLikeIShouldMoveOutOfTheWay #HeWasStoodQuiteCloseToMeThenPeeredAroundMeToSeeBSittingOnTheStepOnTheBackOfHerPushchair #HeSaidDoYouDriveDoYouAndSaidSomethingAboutMeGoingFromOneSideOfThePathToTheOther #HeThenSaidIShouldBeCarefulAndWalkedOffWhichJustLeftMeFeelingQuiteConfusedAndThenAnnoyed

I’m still annoyed about it.

#IHadBeenWalkingSlowlyInCaseBFellOffAndIMoveIfISeePeopleOnThePathAheadOfMeButDidNotRecallMovingInTheTenSecondsOrSoBeforeHeWasRude

He was saying hello for at least five seconds to me (and it sounded quite distant at first), so I don’t think I just cut in front of him. He could have easily moved to the grass (okay, it was a bit muddy but not that bad).

#ItWasJustWeirdAndWalkingInTheParkWithAPushchairIsABitDifferentToDrivingInACarOnARoad

I do wonder if he’d have said the same thing to me if I was a guy. Probably not. He was maybe my age, possibly younger. I just looked at him quite blankly as I really thought he was going to say I’d dropped something, so I was in shock.

#AnywaysWeAreDebatingSendingBToAnotherSessionOfNurseryAWeek #TiagoCasuallyMentionedItAndAfterThinkingAboutItIDefinitelyWouldFeelABitMoreRelaxedWithLookingAfterOnlyOneKidForAFewMoreHoursAWeek

I feel guilty about it, but I think if a lot of people could then they would so why not? We don’t plan on being in Brum forever, so should make the most of the set-up.

#IWorryThatWhenBabyXComesIWillBeBoringAndStressedSoIThinkItWouldBeBetterForBToGoOutAndHaveFun

Seriously, why would she want to be at home all week with her boring Mum when she can be at nursery having fun? If I am more relaxed and happy, then it’s good for B too.

#ITryToBeByTheWindowToWaveHerOffAndWelcomeHerHomeWhenTiagoTakesHerToAndFromNursery

I wave quite enthusiastically, which usually makes her laugh, especially when she comes home. I then usually bend down and wait for her to come through the door so I can give her a hug if she wants one.

#SheInstinctivelyLooksToTheWindowNowWhichIsQuiteCuteSoIHaveToTryNotToLetHerDown

I’m just thinking when the baby arrives it might not be the case, but I will have to try…

#SheAlsoTendsToGetUpsetWhenTiagoLeavesSoIUsuallyHoldHerUpToTheWindowToSeeHimLeaveAndAlsoWhenMyMumGoes

It’s just something I do now. She often still cries when Tiago leaves so I try to make her laugh by dancing or spinning her round, but it often doesn’t work. She likes to wave to my Mum.

#WhenWeGiveNanAMealWeUsuallySayHereYouGoNanAndBThenGenerallyComesRunningOverToSeeWhatSheHasWhichMakesMeLaugh

She’s just started to do it. Breakfast – ‘here you go Nan’. B stops what she is doing and runs over to steal some scrambled egg. I try to serve B her lunch before giving my Nan hers, otherwise B just tries to stick her hands in it. Sometimes dinner is ready earlier than we want to give it to B, so she goes over…

#SheSeemsToBePickingUpNewThingsAllTheTimeLikeNowShePointsToWhereTheTeddyIsInABookAboutFindingItOrTakesMyFingerToPointToIt

It’s good as usually I take ages pointing at everything on the page to look for the Teddy, so it’s a bit quicker now though sometimes she does point to things and I say the name.

#YesterdayShePointedToTheFloorDuringWindTheBobbinUpAndSuddenlyLovesTheDingleDangleScarecrowSong

She’s been doing the claps to Wind The Bobbin Up for a while, but none of the other actions so that’s quite exciting. It’s quite sad that I have a version for when we’re in the park (point to the sky and point to the ground, point to the gate and point to the hound).

#IWasThinkingRecentlyThatItIsWeirdThatBWillGrowUpAndProbablyNotRememberThisPhaseOfHerLife

It’s been such a big deal for me, and I doubt she will remember any of it – living with my Nan, living in Brum etc. She’ll have my work to look at if she wants to, but I doubt she’ll be interested in half of this stuff – is anyone?

#INeedToDoTheLastPageOfHerBabyBookAndThinkAboutWhatToDoForBabyX

I thought about it today and the pages for 12 months are empty. I might do more of a family album for Baby X, though I don’t want her to feel like she’s been cheated out of what B has so maybe we’ll have to get the same book. I might just do it differently this time…

32 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

I keep saying this, but it’s weird that things still aren’t ‘normal’, and things are back up in the air again – I’m hoping it doesn’t impact Baby X’s arrival too much, but it is what it is.

‘#RealisticallyTheBabyWillBeBornUnderSomeKindOfLockdown’ – She was, and X might be as well.

‘#ToSitInARestaurantOrGoToTheCinemaOrGoToAGig’

Well, we sat in a restaurant a few weeks ago, but I haven’t been to the cinema or a gig since before Covid. We went to see Parasite at the cinema a couple of weekends before lockdown, and we feel a bit on edge then (because of Covid, not the film – well a bit of both I guess).

‘#IDefinitelyWillNotBeRushingToGoToLondon’

I’ve been a few times since September, but doubt I will be going there again any time soon now.

‘#YouNeverKnowICouldSlipBackIntoOldLifeQuiteEasily’

My old life is definitely gone. We don’t even live in the same place as we did before Covid. I do wish some things were different – like I wish I had more play dates for B during the week, and didn’t feel so worried about going further from home but we make do. If this was my life forever I would feel stuck, but knowing that we plan to move in the summer is something to look forward to after the baby is born – the baby has been a good countdown for most of the year.

‘#ItWillBeWeirdWhenHeFinallyStartsGoingBackOutToWorkAgain’

I’ve been lucky that he still doesn’t really go out to work very much, which has been nice for him as he has been around for more of B’s early life – but he was working from home a bit before Covid anyways.

‘TheExerciseVideosIHaveBeenDoingForWeeksAreGettingABitMoreHarderToDoWithABiggerBump’

Yesterday I did a pregnancy pilates one for the first time in ages. It felt weird. It’s funny being more pregnant than the women in my usual videos now – I remember reaching that phase with B, and it felt strange.

I’m nearly at the point where it was 5 weeks until B arrived.


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Imitating B Stroking My Hair (29 Weeks / 19th November 2021)

Self-portrait wearing a dark blue top. I am facing away from the camera with my hand touching my hair.
Imitating B Stroking My Hair (29 Weeks / 19th November 2021)
 
#BHasANewThingWhereWhenWePickHerUpSheLikesToStrokeOurHair
#AsAlwaysIWouldLoveToAskHerWhySheDoesItButICanNot
#MaybeItIsAComfortThingOrMaybeSheJustLikesHowItFeels
#ObviouslyTiagoHasLessHairThanMeButSheDoesTouchHisBeardSometimesToo
#ThisMorningSheWasGentlyHoldingMyArmsBeforeIGotHerOutOfHerHighchairWhichWasQuiteSweet
#HerStrokingOurHairDoesMakeMeThinkThatSheIsPettingUsLikeWeAreDogsOrSomething
#TheOtherDayAKidAtThePlaygroundWasPattingBOnTheHeadLikeSheWasALittleDog
#HeKeptSayingHowHeWasTallerThanHerAndIWasLikeYeahJustABitAsYouAreFour
#IKeepDreamingThatBIsRunningAroundOurRoomInTheMiddleOfTheNightLikeWeGotHerUpNotRealisingItWasNotTimeToGetHerUpYet
#TwoNightsAgoSheGotSomethingOnHerHandsWhichIWorriedWasOneOfNansPolishesOrSomething
#ISatUprightAndToldTiagoThatWeNeedToCleanHerHands
#HeSaidWhatAndISaidInAnAnnoyedLoudWhisperYourDaughter
#HeJustRespondedIThinkYouHadADreamAndRolledOverAndWentBackToSleep
#IKeepWakingUpEveryHourOrSoAtTheMomentWhichIsAnnoyingButOhWell
#BHasSleptABitLaterTheLastCoupleOfNightsWhichMakesMeFeelBetterEspeciallyAsMyParentsAreDueToHaveHerThisWeekend
#OurPlanIsToHaveLunchAtOurFavouriteRestaurantThenGoToBuyPicnicStuffAtTheSupermarketThenCheckInAndJustWatchTvEatSleepAndIWantToHaveABath
#IWatchedTheKidsFilmLucaByMyselfOverAFewNightsButIFoundThePlotStressfulAsIRealiseThatIGenerallyWatchToddlersTVWhichIsNotStressfulAtAll
#BDoesNotLikeToWalkToAndFromTheParkMuchAnymoreWhichIsABitOfAReliefInWays
#MaybeSheHasFiguredOutThatWeGetToThePlaygroundQuickerIfSheJustSitsInHerPushchair
#SheWillStartWalkingButThenSlowDownAndIEitherAskHerIfSheWantsToGoInHerPushchairOrSheWillGoNextToIt
#GenerallyByTheTimeWeLeaveThePlaygroundNowItIsQuiteDarkAndWeHaveToRushHomeButIKnowTheDaysAreStillDueToGetShorter
#ThisWeekSheHasGotOnMuchBetterAtNurseryEvenWithARunnyNose
#WeWereNotSureWhetherOrNotToSendHerButWeRealisedThatThereWouldBeNoKidsAtNurseryIfNoOneWasAllowedToBeThereWithARunnyNose
#SheDoesNotCryNowWhenTiagoDropsHerOffAndSheEatsMoreOfHerLunchWhichIsGood
#PregnancyWiseIAmFeelingAlrightButIAmPuttingOffReadingMyHypnobirthingBookWhichIKnowIWillRegret
#IKnowIHaveTimeButIAlsoWorryThatTheBabyMightJustComeSuperEarlySoIShouldGetOnWithIt
#IThinkIHaveSaidBeforeThatIWouldLikeBabyXToBeBornInSomewhereElseAsTWasBornInPortugalBWasBornInLiverpoolAndIWasBornInBirminghamAndSoWillBabyX
#HoweverIRealisedThatTiagoIsAlsoTechnicallyAScouserAsHeGotHisBritishCitizenshipInLiverpoolSoOurFamilyWillBeTwoScousersAndTwoBrummies
#IWantBabyXToLookLikeBButBAlsoLooksALotLikeTiagoSoIWouldLikeXToLookABitMoreLikeMe
#MyNanGotSomeBabyPhotosOutYesterdayThoughAndYouCanSeeAResemblanceBetweenBAndMeAtTimesWhichIsNiceAndSheStillHasALotOfGrowingToDo

#BHasANewThingWhereWhenWePickHerUpSheLikesToStrokeOurHair

This morning she was also messing with mine as I lay down next to her, while she watched TV.

#AsAlwaysIWouldLoveToAskHerWhySheDoesItButICanNot

Why does B do anything and everything? I would love to know. Obviously I can ask her, but I will not get much of a response.

#MaybeItIsAComfortThingOrMaybeSheJustLikesHowItFeels

Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.

#ObviouslyTiagoHasLessHairThanMeButSheDoesTouchHisBeardSometimesToo

Cute.

#ThisMorningSheWasGentlyHoldingMyArmsBeforeIGotHerOutOfHerHighchairWhichWasQuiteSweet

I think she is just discovering about bodies and is showing some interest. It makes sense.

#HerStrokingOurHairDoesMakeMeThinkThatSheIsPettingUsLikeWeAreDogsOrSomething

Yesterday I asked Tiago to pretend to be a dog for her, which soon changed into a horse and B got some rides around the living room which she loved.

#TheOtherDayAKidAtThePlaygroundWasPattingBOnTheHeadLikeSheWasALittleDog

B was just smiling at him and found it funny.

#HeKeptSayingHowHeWasTallerThanHerAndIWasLikeYeahJustABitAsYouAreFour

Well, you can talk, are in school uniform and yeah you told me you are 4.

#IKeepDreamingThatBIsRunningAroundOurRoomInTheMiddleOfTheNightLikeWeGotHerUpNotRealisingItWasNotTimeToGetHerUpYet

It is getting a bit annoying as it just drains my energy. I had lots of dreams last night.

#TwoNightsAgoSheGotSomethingOnHerHandsWhichIWorriedWasOneOfNansPolishesOrSomething

My Nan likes to polish things, and still doesn’t get that B will mess with her stuff.

#ISatUprightAndToldTiagoThatWeNeedToCleanHerHands

There was a lot on her hands and I was worried that she would try to eat it.

#HeSaidWhatAndISaidInAnAnnoyedLoudWhisperYourDaughter

More like YOUR DAUGHTER!

#HeJustRespondedIThinkYouHadADreamAndRolledOverAndWentBackToSleep

I just thought ‘that makes sense’ and also went back to sleep.

#IKeepWakingUpEveryHourOrSoAtTheMomentWhichIsAnnoyingButOhWell

At least I can go back to sleep. I think I am just anticipating B waking up and am intrigued to see the time. I lift my head to look at the clock, then go back to sleep.

#BHasSleptABitLaterTheLastCoupleOfNightsWhichMakesMeFeelBetterEspeciallyAsMyParentsAreDueToHaveHerThisWeekend

She woke up after 6 today. Hurrah. I think it was because her room was quite warm as sometimes I go to get her up and her hands are so cold – not today.

#OurPlanIsToHaveLunchAtOurFavouriteRestaurantThenGoToBuyPicnicStuffAtTheSupermarketThenCheckInAndJustWatchTvEatSleepAndIWantToHaveABath

Originally we were going to have dinner out, but Tiago suggested having lunch out instead and I much prefer that idea. Not having to leave our room from when we check-in until we check-out sounds good to me.

#IWatchedTheKidsFilmLucaByMyselfOverAFewNightsButIFoundThePlotStressfulAsIRealiseThatIGenerallyWatchToddlersTVWhichIsNotStressfulAtAll

I might have watched it quicker if I had not been so stressed out. It might have been over 4 nights… I don’t like to watch trailers so I was quite surprised that the storyline is what it is. I did enjoy it though.

#BDoesNotLikeToWalkToAndFromTheParkMuchAnymoreWhichIsABitOfAReliefInWays

It was a very slow and long walk before…

#MaybeSheHasFiguredOutThatWeGetToThePlaygroundQuickerIfSheJustSitsInHerPushchair

And the playground is way more fun than walking for ages. I think she’s also just realised that the walk is fairly boring, and maybe it is less fun now it is colder as she gets cold hands from holding onto the pushchair while she walks besides it.

#SheWillStartWalkingButThenSlowDownAndIEitherAskHerIfSheWantsToGoInHerPushchairOrSheWillGoNextToIt

Great.

#GenerallyByTheTimeWeLeaveThePlaygroundNowItIsQuiteDarkAndWeHaveToRushHomeButIKnowTheDaysAreStillDueToGetShorter

Ergh. Can’t wait for the evenings to get lighter again. By the time they will be I guess baby X will be of an age where I feel less stressed about taking them both out at least.

#ThisWeekSheHasGotOnMuchBetterAtNurseryEvenWithARunnyNose

Tiago and I feel so proud.

#WeWereNotSureWhetherOrNotToSendHerButWeRealisedThatThereWouldBeNoKidsAtNurseryIfNoOneWasAllowedToBeThereWithARunnyNose

She probably got the runny nose from nursery anyways…

#SheDoesNotCryNowWhenTiagoDropsHerOffAndSheEatsMoreOfHerLunchWhichIsGood

Go B! She settled in quite quick really, but I guess she has started later than a lot of kids do.

#PregnancyWiseIAmFeelingAlrightButIAmPuttingOffReadingMyHypnobirthingBookWhichIKnowIWillRegret

I just read a book about Britney Spears, and now I have a book to read about Karen Carpenter, and ‘Men Who Hate Women’. I do not get on with reading physical books much anymore as I much prefer to read on a screen.

#IKnowIHaveTimeButIAlsoWorryThatTheBabyMightJustComeSuperEarlySoIShouldGetOnWithIt

Excuses. I will start soon. Promise.

#IThinkIHaveSaidBeforeThatIWouldLikeBabyXToBeBornSomewhereElseAsTWasBornInPortugalBWasBornInLiverpoolAndIWasBornInBirminghamAndSoWillBabyX

Something really unimportant that has crossed my mind a few times.

#HoweverIRealisedThatTiagoIsAlsoTechnicallyAScouserAsHeGotHisBritishCitizenshipInLiverpoolSoOurFamilyWillBeTwoScousersAndTwoBrummies

If you ask Tiago where he is from I doubt he will say Liverpool, but whatever.

#IWantBabyXToLookLikeBButBAlsoLooksALotLikeTiagoSoIWouldLikeXToLookABitMoreLikeMe

I’d like for them to look like sisters, but I am selfish and want one kid that looks a bit more like me.

#MyNanGotSomeBabyPhotosOutYesterdayThoughAndYouCanSeeAResemblanceBetweenBAndMeAtTimesWhichIsNiceAndSheStillHasALotOfGrowingToDo

It would be cool if they were both just a good mix of T and me, which DNA wise they are really but we will have to wait and see. Truthfully, I hope they are both more like Tiago though.

29 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

(Apparently I had a productive week back then with 4 photos, but I have put one in my previous post as they both talk about my 28 week appointment.)

Self-portrait where I am facing the right of the image. My hair is wrapped in a towel and my hands are placed on my bump.
It Is Odd That Quite Possibly None Of My Friends Or Family (Besides Tiago) Will See Me Heavily Pregnant In Real Life (29 weeks)
 
#PeopleWarnedUsWhenWeWereTryingToGetPregnantThatWeWouldNeverBeAbleToLeaveTheHouseWhenWeWantedAgain
#IRememberShruggingAtTheTimeAndSayingItDidNotBotherMeMuch
#IHaveAlwaysLikedBookingTicketsForThingsMoreThanGoingToTheThings
#IBookTicketsAndIGetExcited
#ThenOnTheDayTheEventComesRoundIAmAlwaysFeelingTired
#IDoEnjoyEventsButIAmNotThatBothered
#NowIHaveBeenAtHomeFor3WeeksOtherThanGoingForWalks
#AndWhenRestrictionsFinallyLiftIWillNotBeRushingToGoOutForAnythingOtherThanWalks
#TheBabyMayHaveBeenBornAlreadyOrItMayHaveNot
#EitherWayIDoNotEnvisionGoingAnywhereWithTheBabyBesidesWalks
#ItIsOddThatQuitePossiblyNoneOfMyFriendsOrFamilyWillSeeMeHeavilyPregnantInRealLife
#EveryWeekIFeelLikeTheBabyIsGrowingALot
#IDidNotBotherBuyingAnyMoreMaternityClothesThanTheOnesIGotWhenIWas15Weeks
#WhichWereMainlyBrasADressAPairOfLeggingsAndACardigan
#NowIAmJustAtHomeSoIDefinitelyDoNotNeedToGetAnythingElse
#YesterdayISpentTheWholeDayLookingAtBabyStuff
#WeAreJustGoingToHaveToRiskItAndBuyStuffWithoutTrying
#IWouldRatherJustBuyEverythingSoonerRatherThanLaterSoWeDoNotHaveToWorry
#IAmThinkingThatThereIsNoPointBuyingABabyBassinetForThePushchairAsWeWillNotProbablyUseItMuch
#IWouldRatherJustCarryTheBabyInTheBeginning
#ParticularlyToAvoidAnyoneTryingToPeerIntoTheBassinetInsteadOfKeepingTheirDistance
#WeStillDoNotKnowIfItIsAGirlOrABoy
#IOftenForgetItHasAGenderWhichIsWeirdToSay
#IJustReferToThemAsTheBabyOrThem
#WhereasTiagoUsuallyStartsTalkingToTheBumpWithMyBabyBoy
#AndThenICoughInANonCovidWayAndHeSaysOrMyBabyGirl
#HeStillWantsToFindOutBeforeTheBirth
#IWantToWait
#IAmSupposedToBeHavingMoreScansButIHaveNotReceivedALetterRecently
#AndIDoNotFeelLikeChasingThemUpAsIWouldRatherAvoidGoingToTheHospitalIfICan

I was meant to say that it has been weird this time round having strangers comment on my bump like ‘so she’s going to be a big sister then?’ When I was pregnant with B I didn’t talk to random people in the street and we rarely saw anyone that we knew.

I was thinking the other day how I am really not bothered about going to events like gigs and things. If someone offered me a ticket where I got to stand on the side of the stage or got a good seated ticket then sure, but the idea of going to something is so unappealing these days.

This time round I haven’t bought any maternity clothes and am mainly just wearing the dress I bought when I was pregnant with B, the bras from then and Uniqlo leggings as they’re so stretchy and comfortable.

We did buy some baby nappies and cotton wool as I needed to order some vitamins for B and wanted to reach the amount for free postage and packaging, so thought I might as well buy some.

We’ve been told baby X is a girl, but I am still skeptical and will probably continue to be until they are born and we will see.

If the baby had not presented in the scan then we would have probably had to wait until the birth to find out as we do not have any more scans now. We are debating having a private one but I doubt we will.

I am stood facing the camera and it is a crop from my breasts to just above my pubic area. My hands are on the sides of my bump, and Tiago's hands are reaching in from the right side of the image and are cupping the top and bottom of my bump.
Tiago Says It Reminds Him Of Pictures Where People Are Holding A Globe (29 weeks)

#IKeepWakingUpInTheNight
#ForACoupleOfNightsItWasBefore2am
#ButLastNightTiagoGaveMeAnUpperBackMassageAndIDidNotWakeUpUntil4am
#SoMaybeItWasTheMassageOrMaybeItWasACoincidence
#IHadSomeHipPainWhenIWokeUp
#ThinkItWasBecauseIHadLayOnOneSideSinceFallingAsleep
#TurningOverIsBecomingMoreOfAChore
#AsWellAsBendingDownToPickThingsUp
#WhilstHeMassagedMeWeWatchAHypnobirthingVideoAboutDueDates
#HopefullyNowTiagoWillStopTalkingAboutMyDueDateLikeTheBabyIsActuallyComingThatDay
#AsApparentlyOnly4PercentArriveOnTheirDueDate
#ThoughSomethingLike85PercentOfFirstTimeMumsGiveBirthAfter40Weeks
#ItSaidToStopTalkingLikeMyBabyIsComingByTheDueDate
#AndBeMoreLikeFromTheDueDate
#ToBeFairIKnewThat42WeeksIsNormal
#ItWillComeWhenItIsReady
#IHaveBeenTryingToGetTiagoToDoExerciseVideosForAFewWeeksNow
#ForTheLastCoupleOfDaysHeHasBeenDoingMineWithMe
#WhichIsGoodAsIHaveBeenDoingTheSameFewVideosForMonthsNow
#AndINeedABitOfMotivation
#HeSaidHeSleptWellLastNightAndHeThinksItWasBecauseOfTheBedtimeYogaVideoThatWeDid
#WeWillSeeHowLongHeDoesThemWithMe
#IThinkHeMightGetBoredOfMeDoingTheSameOnes
#WeNearlyPutAPauseOnTryingToGetPregnantAsHeWasMeantToBeTheBestManAtAWeddingThisSummer
#WeDecidedNotToAsWeWereLikeWellItHasNotHappenedYetSoItMightNotAnyways
#ObviouslyWeWereNotExpectingAPandemic
#NowTheWeddingIsPostponedUntilNextYear
#WhichIsAnnoyingForThemButGoodForMeAsWeWillBeAbleToGoAsAFamily
#AndIWasABitWorriedAboutPotentiallyBeingHomeAloneWithANewborn
#AsItIsTwoFlightsAwayAndItIsBadEnoughDoingThatSometimesWithJustTheTwoOfUs

Well, the wakings are nothing new then but I think it is more B related this time than pregnancy related.

I had forgotten that Tiago used to give me back massages when I was pregnant with B – I may have to remind him. I seem to have less pain this time – I think sleeping on a better mattress may have a lot to do with it, but I do also stretch in the morning and evening and have done since finding out I was pregnant.

I really thought that I would be a 42 weeker, so I was very surprised that B came before 38 weeks. This time I plan to start going to bed early from 37 weeks, but I will probably be a 42 weeker this time.

We were due to go to 2 weddings that summer. I think the one I mentioned here has been delayed for a bit longer, but one took place this August and we did go.

Self-portrait where I am leaning on a table. I am cupping my chin in my left hand and my right hand is touching my left elbow. I am slightly facing the left side of the image and am staring off.
Eating Almond Butter Is My Daily Highlight Right Now (29 and a half weeks)
 
#TheLastCoupleOfWeeksIHaveNoticedThatIHaveHadAFewBadEvenings
#LastWeekIWasCrankyTwoNightsInARow
#AndLastNightIJustFeltDown
#IFeltDownInTheEveningProbablyACoupleOfWeeksAgo
#IWasCryingAndIDidNotReallyKnowWhy
#IJustFeltOverwhelmed
#IFeelMoreTiredInTheAfternoonThanTheEvenings
#ButMaybeByTheEveningsIAmMoreMentallyTired
#AfterISleepIWakeUpFeelingFine
#IThinkTheMassageMakingMeSleepLaterWasJustACoincidence
#LastNightIWokeUpAt1amThen4amThen6am
#AtLeastNowIDoNotHaveToWorryAboutCommuting
#AndTheWakingUpInTheNightIsPreparationForWhatIsToCome
#IFeltDownLastNightAgainBecauseIThinkIWasOverwhelmed
#IWantToChatWithPeopleButIJustFindItKindOfExhausting
#SeeingMessagesToReplyToMakesMeFeelABitAnxious
#PeopleAskingMeWhenIAmDue
#IDoJustNotWantItToGetToTheTimeWhenIAmDueAndBeGettingLotsOfMessagesAskingMeForBabyNews
#IWillTellPeopleWhenIAmReady
#WhichCouldBeSoonAfterTheBirthOrItMightNot
#SoIfYouHaveAskedAndIHaveToldYouInAnObviousOrVagueWayPleaseDoNotBugMe
#IfYouHaveNotAskedThenPleaseDoNotAskMe
#MyHighlightOfTheDayAtTheMomentIsWhenIEatAnAppleAndABananaWithNutButter
#ThisHasBeenMyDailyHighlightForAtLeastAWeek
#IReadThatEatingNutsInYourFirstTrimesterIsReallyGoodForTheBaby
#ButICouldNotEatThemAsIHadAnAversionToThem
#HopefullyItWillHelpABitNowButMaybeIAmEatingTooMuchAndItHasTheOppositeEffect
#IAmJustEatingItBecauseILoveIt
#WeCouldNotGetBananasTheOtherDayButTiagoGotSomeToday
#IEnjoyThisTreatMoreThanOurWalksAsWeWalkTheSameRouteAllTheTimeAndPeopleStressMeOutAsTheyDoNotSeemToKnowWhat2MetresIs

Well, in the end B was so early that no one had sent me a message asking if she had arrived yet. That was good.

I feel less awkward about people asking me this time, though I still would rather be left in peace about it.

Weirdly I have got quite into nut butters again in the last week or so. I actually might go and eat some after writing this. I’ve been making B cookies which are oats, bananas and nut butters, and enjoying them a lot.

I also generally just walk the same routes now, but with B so it is more interesting and we stop and chat to a few people. I definitely feel like we are more part of the community now than when we lived in Liverpool, which is nice. Tiago is generally working so maybe he does not feel the same, but I think he likes that we know a few more people at least.


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