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Pregnancy Waiting II

33 / Portrait Of A Mother Of A Sixteen Month Old (24 Weeks / October 2021)

Self-portrait with B. I am holding her in my arms and she is touching my face with both of her hands. Her right foot has been photoshopped (duplicated and mirrored) over her eye, nose and mouth.
33 / Portrait Of A Mother Of A Sixteen Month Old (24 Weeks / October 2021)
 
#IHaveAlreadyDoneTheShootForOnceAndWasTryingToCopyTheShootThatBAndIDidTogetherWhenITurned32
#BackThenThoughSheDidNotMoveAboutMuchSoTodayWasAMassiveWriggleFest
#AtOnePointSheWasJustMessingWithMyFaceAndAsHerNailsNeedToBeCutMyLipHurtsABit
#HerNewFavouriteThingIsStandingUpOnHerBouncingZebraToyAndOnHerSmallCar
#SheHasBeenThreateningToDoItForAWhileSoIWasImpressedWhenSheActuallyStoodUpOnThemAndWithSoMuchControl
#IGuessAllTheClimbingOnHerFrameAndRampAndStandingInTheWobblyCarAtTheParkHasReallyImprovedHerBalanceAndCoreStrength
#AtTheWeekendWeWentToSeeMyParentsAndBHadLotsOfFunExploringTheirGarden
#TheyHaveOfferedToWatchBForAWeekendSoWeHaveJustBookedIntoAHotelWhereThereIsAPoolAndWeIntendToJustSwimEatAndSleep
#WeThoughtItWasAtLeastABitOfADriveFromTheirHouseButItIsOnly15MinutesAwayWhichIGuessIsGoodInCaseWeNeedToGetBackForAnyReason
#TypicallyAsSoonAsTheySaidTheyWouldHaveHerSheDidNotSleepVeryWellThatNightAtAll
#SheHasAMouthFullOfTeethNowButIThinkSheIsGoingThroughAParticularlyBadTeethingPhase
#WeTriedToSeeIfSheWouldSettleButAfterAWhileWeHadToGoInWithParacetamolAndAfterAnotherVisitWhereWeBothLaidWithHerInHerCotSheFinallyWentToSleepTwoHoursLater
#YesterdaySheMissedHerMorningNapWhichIThinkWasDueToMeForgettingToGiveHerParacetamol
#IHaveHadMyFluVaccineNowWhichIsGoodAndMyArmDidNotHurtAtAllOrAnything
#TwoHoursAfterTheAppointmentAtAPharmacyMyDoctorsMessagedToSayICouldHaveAFluJabWithThemThisWeek
#YesterdayWeDugOutTheRestOfMyMaternityPillowAsIHaveJustBeenUsingASmallSectionOfItForWeeks
#IFindMyselfWakingUpALotMoreAtNightNowAndOftenOnMyBackWhichIsNotGood
#IFeelLikeMyBumpIsGettingSoBigThatICanNotImagineItGettingMuchBiggerButIKnowItWill
#INeedToStartReadingHypnobirthingStuffAgainAndMentallyPreparingMyselfForTheBirth
#ThisWeekISaidToTiagoThatWeNeedToStartThinkingAboutBabyNamesAgain
#HeJustTurnedToBAndSaidTheNextSoundYouMakeWillBeTheNameOfYourSister
#WeBothWatchedHerWithAnticipationAndAfterALittleWhileSheDidABurp
#IAmTryingToImagineHowItWillBeOnMyNextBirthdayWhenIAm34AndWillMostLikelyHaveTwoKids
#ThePictureWillDefinitelyBeMoreOfAStruggleForSure
#IKeepSayingItButIKnowIWillNeedToAcceptThatThereWillBeLessTimeForMeForAWhile
#AtTheMomentTiagoUsuallyGetsBUpAndGivesHerBreakfastWhileIStretchAndFaffABit
#WithANewbornIKnowThatTimeWillProbablyBecomeBabyFeedingTimeAndIWillJustNeedToRestWhenICan
#WeOrderedAnIndianTakeawayLastNightThatWeWillAlsoHaveForDinnerTonight
#TiagoGetsStressedOutAboutPresentsEveryYearButIDoNotReallyWantAnything
#IAmOwedAFewMassagesThatHaveBeenGiftedForBirthdaysAndHolidaysEtcFromHimViaWordSoMaybeIWillActuallyGetOneOnOurWeekendAway

#IHaveAlreadyDoneTheShootForOnceAndWasTryingToCopyTheShootThatBAndIDidTogetherWhenITurned32

We did the shoot before her first nap.

(32 shoot.)

#BackThenThoughSheDidNotMoveAboutMuchSoTodayWasAMassiveWriggleFest

I was a bit nervous about how it would go, which was why I was keen to do it asap today.

#AtOnePointSheWasJustMessingWithMyFaceAndAsHerNailsNeedToBeCutMyLipHurtsABit

She found it hilarious. There is a series of her laughing her head off at me.

She was grumpy in the beginning, but then she got into it – especially when she could see the photos of herself and steal my remote.

#HerNewFavouriteThingIsStandingUpOnHerBouncingZebraToyAndOnHerSmallCar

Now I can not look away as you never know what daredevil stunt she will be doing next.

#SheHasBeenThreateningToDoItForAWhileSoIWasImpressedWhenSheActuallyStoodUpOnThemAndWithSoMuchControl

The zebra is quite tall, but she stands up quite slowly and steadily. She does fall off from time to time though.

She was standing on the car in the kitchen and fell off a couple of times. That one does move as it has wheels. The zebra does rotate though.

#IGuessAllTheClimbingOnHerFrameAndRampAndStandingInTheWobblyCarAtTheParkHasReallyImprovedHerBalanceAndCoreStrength

I am quite impressed considering how often she falls over and I thought for a while that her balance was terrible, so it has improved quickly.

#AtTheWeekendWeWentToSeeMyParentsAndBHadLotsOfFunExploringTheirGarden

For a while she just sat playing with stones, she was super intrigued by their cat, and a bit freaked out by their turkeys.

#TheyHaveOfferedToWatchBForAWeekendSoWeHaveJustBookedIntoAHotelWhereThereIsAPoolAndWeIntendToJustSwimEatAndSleep

It will be our first over night stay away from B as a couple. Weird. It is nice to think of grand schemes to get up to, but yeah we just want to sleep, watch some crap TV, eat some nice food and swim. I need to get a new swimming costume as the one I wore in summer was tight then.

#WeThoughtItWasAtLeastABitOfADriveFromTheirHouseButItIsOnly15MinutesAwayWhichIGuessIsGoodInCaseWeNeedToGetBackForAnyReason

I was just looking for places with a pool and my geography is obviously really terrible. I feel so tired writing this. I think the reviews said the beds are comfy.

#TypicallyAsSoonAsTheySaidTheyWouldHaveHerSheDidNotSleepVeryWellThatNightAtAll

She does not cry much usually, but she was crying quite heavily. We were quite concerned.

#SheHasAMouthFullOfTeethNowButIThinkSheIsGoingThroughAParticularlyBadTeethingPhase

Maybe it was affecting her ears as well? At first I thought it was an ear infection.

#WeTriedToSeeIfSheWouldSettleButAfterAWhileWeHadToGoInWithParacetamolAndAfterAnotherVisitWhereWeBothLaidWithHerInHerCotSheFinallyWentToSleepTwoHoursLater

We were conflicted over her sleep training, and naturally reacting to how we saw her. Tiago did cuddle her a lot the first time round until she calmed down, but she was still upset.

So after a while he went in again and as she was still crying I also went in. We laid in her cot with her and before long she was clapping and laughing, so I read her bedtime story and sang Twinkle Twinkle to her to let her know it was bedtime, then she settled. Phew.

#YesterdaySheMissedHerMorningNapWhichIThinkWasDueToMeForgettingToGiveHerParacetamol

I planned to give it to her, but forgot. We usually don’t use the syringe that comes with it, so I have to use that now and realised that we haven’t been giving her the full dose that she is allowed so hopefully by doing that she will be in less pain now.

#IHaveHadMyFluVaccineNowWhichIsGoodAndMyArmDidNotHurtAtAllOrAnything

Hurrah. I have been tired, but I think that is a normal pregnancy symptom…

#TwoHoursAfterTheAppointmentAtAPharmacyMyDoctorsMessagedToSayICouldHaveAFluJabWithThemThisWeek

Typical. It would have been easier. Oh well.

#YesterdayWeDugOutTheRestOfMyMaternityPillowAsIHaveJustBeenUsingASmallSectionOfItForWeeks

I was reading about how I need to support my whole body more, so I thought we better find it. It was vacuum packed in the garage.

#IFindMyselfWakingUpALotMoreAtNightNowAndOftenOnMyBackWhichIsNotGood

Often I wake up on my back and know I shouldn’t be on my back, but just kind of end up staying there. Whoops.

#IFeelLikeMyBumpIsGettingSoBigThatICanNotImagineItGettingMuchBiggerButIKnowItWill

Definitely less space for food these days.

#INeedToStartReadingHypnobirthingStuffAgainAndMentallyPreparingMyselfForTheBirth

I’m going to finish reading Dave Grohl’s book then I’ll start reading my hypnobirthing books.

#ThisWeekISaidToTiagoThatWeNeedToStartThinkingAboutBabyNamesAgain

With B we didn’t have that many thinking sessions about them. We had one early on and then left it for ages. It seems to be our approach this time around too…

#HeJustTurnedToBAndSaidTheNextSoundYouMakeWillBeTheNameOfYourSister

She does babble quite a lot now so I was wondering what she would say.

#WeBothWatchedHerWithAnticipationAndAfterALittleWhileSheDidABurp

Classic B.

#IAmTryingToImagineHowItWillBeOnMyNextBirthdayWhenIAm34AndWillMostLikelyHaveTwoKids

I say ‘most likely’ as I am still quite anxious about things.

#ThePictureWillDefinitelyBeMoreOfAStruggleForSure

I might need to recruit Tiago, or I imagine B might be stood at my feet just pulling on my top. I will have probably mastered how to hold both of them, but who knows.

#IKeepSayingItButIKnowIWillNeedToAcceptThatThereWillBeLessTimeForMeForAWhile

I thought about it again this morning.

#AtTheMomentTiagoUsuallyGetsBUpAndGivesHerBreakfastWhileIStretchAndFaffABit

Not too shabby.

#WithANewbornIKnowThatTimeWillProbablyBecomeBabyFeedingTimeAndIWillJustNeedToRestWhenICan

Less reading, less working, more just resting when I can and looking after my kids. It’s weird to say kids.

#WeOrderedAnIndianTakeawayLastNightThatWeWillAlsoHaveForDinnerTonight

Tiago thought about ordering from somewhere more fancy, but I like our local place. I know what we like. We ordered a couple of different things for once too and they were good.

#TiagoGetsStressedOutAboutPresentsEveryYearButIDoNotReallyWantAnything

If I want something I usually get it for myself.

#IAmOwedAFewMassagesThatHaveBeenGiftedForBirthdaysAndHolidaysEtcFromHimViaWordSoMaybeIWillActuallyGetOneOnOurWeekendAway

Covid, B and life have just stopped me having one. I definitely want a proper one after Baby X is born. I haven’t had many in my life, but I know it will be good for my body, and me.

24 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Diptych where in both I am stood sideways with my left arm forward, my right arm hanging down with a remote, my left leg is forward and my right leg is back. In the first I am breathing out and my bump is visible, in the second I am breathing in and my bump is a bit smaller.
I Tried To Suck In My Bump, But It Didn’t Really Work (24 weeks)
 
#BeforeIWasPregnantIDidNotLikeWearingTightTops
#IBoughtSomeForTheWinterThisYearButDidNotRealiseTheyWereSoTight
#AsTheyWereInPacketsAndIThoughtTheyWereLikeTheOnesIAlreadyHad
#WellIGuessIStillDoNotLikeWearingTightTopsButIHaveBeenWearingThem
#ISupposeIWantToTakeAdvantageOfTheFactThatBumpsAreSeenAsBeautiful
#ThoughNowIAmAtThePointWhereILoveMyBumpButIFeelAwkwardWhenPeopleNoticeIt
#IWoreThisTopTheOtherDayButDidNotThinkMuchAsIWasGoingToWearAJumperOverIt
#ButIWasWarmSoIWasAtTheOfficeAndFeltSelfConsciousWalkingDownTheCorridor
#WhenIWalkedPastAnOfficeWithAnOpenDoorITriedToSuckInMyBump
#ButIRealisedThatItDidNotChangeMuch
#ThenInTheEveningAGroupOfUsWentOutForDinner
#AndItWasHotSoISatInMyTopFeelingAwkward
#ThenWhenIWentToTheBathroomITriedToBreatheInMyBumpABit
#AndPutMyArmsInAWayToTryToCoverItABit
#IGuessIThoughtPeopleWouldJudgeMeForBeingPregnantAndWearingATightTop
#NoMatterHowYouLookAsAWomanYouWillBeCriticisedForSomethingAnyways
#InOtherNewsIAmABitWorriedAboutTheCoronaVirus
#IfIWasNotPregnantThenIWouldNotBeSoWorried
#ButBecauseIAmIDoNotKnowHowItWouldAffectTheBaby
#WouldItHaveLongTermHealthProblemsBecauseOfIt
#WhoKnows
#IAmJustWashingMyHandsMore
#AndSideEyeingPeopleWhoCoughWithNoAttemptToCoverTheirMouthInPublic
#HopefullyItWillBeUnderControlSoon
#IForgotToMentionInMyLastPhotoThatIHadSuchABadHipPainACoupleOfDaysBeforeThePictureWasTaken
#IThinkIJustOverStretchedItBySittingWithButterflyLegsForTooLong
#ButThenItWasReallyAwkwardForMeToWalkForTwoDays
#IStretchedMoreAndGotOverItLuckily
#GettingBoredOfHavingToStretchSoMuch
#ButIFeelGoodAfterwards

I am currently (31st October) sat in one of my tight tops. I feel less awkward as no one really sees me these days. I have breathed in a few times in the mirror to see if it makes a difference, but at this point it does not.

‘#HopefullyItWillBeUnderControlSoon’

I can’t believe that Covid is still a thing and cases are going up… At least we have vaccines now. I have been less scared now that I am double vaccinated, and I feel better for having the flu jab as well.

I have been stretching more this time, so I think that is helping a lot.


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Pregnancy Waiting II

General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot II (13 Weeks / 1st August 2021)

I'm kneeling on the floor in my bra and leggings. I am holding my arms behind my back. My bump is slightly bigger than a similar photo I took before.
General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot II (13 Weeks / 1st August 2021)
 
#WellMyMainNewsIsThatIFinallyGotMyFirstVaccine
#MyMumTookMeWhileBNappedAndTiagoWorked
#TheNurseAskedIfIHadAnyConcernsAndIJustSaidIAmPregnantThoughItShowedItQuiteClearlyOnThePaperIHadToFillIn
#SheSaidToTalkToTheDoctorAndHeWasJustLikeIHaveVaccinatedEveryoneFromFourWeeksToPeopleWhoAreBreastfeedingIHaveNoConcerns
#ISaidAboutTheResearchIHadDoneAndHeSaidIProbablyKnewMoreThanHimAnyways
#IWasGoingToGetItButIJustWantedToSeeWhatTheNurseAndDoctorThoughtAsIKnowSomePeopleHaveBeenTurnedAwayOrAdvisedAgainstIt
#TheyAskedWhichArmIWantedItInAndIOfferedMyLeftButThenChangedItForMyRight
#IMainlyCarryBInMyLeftArmSoThoughtThatWasABetterOption
#TheDoctorInjectedItAndThenLeftSwiftlyAsIThinkHeWasJustGoingRoomToRoom
#TheNurseSaidToPutMyFeetUpForTheRestOfTheDayAndILaughedAsBDoesNotStop
#IHadToWaitFifteenMinutesAndWasRelievedThatTheRoomUpstairsWasFullSoIGotToWaitOutsideInTheTent
#WeWentToALargeSupermarketOnTheWayHomeAndICanNotRememberTheLastTimeIWentInOne
#IBasicallyBoughtAllTheThingsThatIHaveBeenCravingForAges
#IFeelSoRelievedToHaveGottenTheVaccineThoughIAmAlsoCountingDownUntilICanHaveMySecondInLessThanEightWeeks
#MyArmWasVeryHeavyTheFirstNightWhichIThinkWasAggravatedFromCarryingBAbout
#TheNextDayItWasLessSoAndNowIAmBackToBeingAbleToStretchProperlyWhichIsGood
#IHaveHadSomeHeadachesAndBeenQuiteTiredButThatMightAlsoBeDownToChasingAroundAnActiveToddlerAndBeingPregnantAsTheyAreNotNewFeelingsForMe
#IWasGoingToSayTheOtherDayThatIFeelLikeThePrimeMinisterStoppedCaringAboutPregnantPeopleWhenHisNowWifeGaveBirthButItTurnsOutSheIsPregnantAgain
#OurPregnancyJourneysHaveBeenFairlySimilarByTheSoundsOfIt
#TheResultsOfTheNeckTissueCheckAndBloodTestForSyndromesCameBackInThreeDaysAndIAmVeryLowRisk
#IThoughtIWouldNotFindOutUntilALotLaterAsLastTimeIDidNotKnowUntil21Weeks
#ButThenIRememberedThatTheLetterGotLostInThePostLastTimeAndIEndedUpHavingToPhoneSomeoneWhenIRealisedIShouldHaveReallyHeardByThen
#TheOtherDayIHadToCallToBookAMidwifeAppointmentForSixteenWeeksAsIWillMissMineAndTheWomanWhoTookMyBloodsToldMeTo
#IHadBeenPuttingItOffAsIWasNotReallySureWhatIWasAskingForButTheWomanOnReceptionGotItAfterAWhileAndItIsBookedNow
#MyBreakfastBurritoCravingWentAwayButNowIJustHaveAScrambledEggAndHashbrownToastedSandwichForBreakfastWhichIsGreat
#IHadNotBeenSickForFourDaysButThenIAteSoMuchBakedCamembertYesterdayThatMyBodyWasSoUpset
#IWasSickAgainTwentyMinutesLaterAndIEvenSearchedForHowToGetRidOfTheTasteOfSickInYourMouth
#IHadAShowerAndBlewMyNoseAndGargledALotAndDrankALotOfWaterAndChangedMyClothesAndItHelpedALot
#MyNewThingWithBIsBeforeIPutHerDownForANapOrBedtimeIsIMassageMoisturiserIntoHerFeetAsSheIsGenerallyBareFootAndTheyGetDry
#IAlsoDoHerLegsAndItSeemsToReallyChillHerOutAndSometimesSheNearlyFallsAsleepSoINeedToLearnMoreAboutFullBodyToddlerMassage

(The image is a remake of this shoot:

I'm kneeling on the floor in my bra and leggings. I am holding my arms behind my back. I have a small bump.
General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot (9 Weeks? / 28th June 2021)

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Well, I seem to have written an essay again…

#WellMyMainNewsIsThatIFinallyGotMyFirstVaccine

After all the um-ing and ah-ing, this Instagram Live really sold it to me. The advice has been quite inconsistent until now (GP said to get it when I said I was pregnant, midwives said to wait until 16 weeks etc.)

#MyMumTookMeWhileBNappedAndTiagoWorked

I don’t drive, not keen on getting public transport (especially while pregnant and not vaccinated), and all the places giving jabs are far away. I booked it for when my Mum usually visits, and when B naps so it worked out well. Thanks Mum.

#TheNurseAskedIfIHadAnyConcernsAndIJustSaidIAmPregnantThoughItShowedItQuiteClearlyOnThePaperIHadToFillIn

A paper with lots of yes or no questions – have you tested positive for Covid in the last 28 days, have you had another vaccine in the last 7 days etc etc.

#SheSaidToTalkToTheDoctorAndHeWasJustLikeIHaveVaccinatedEveryoneFromFourWeeksToPeopleWhoAreBreastfeedingIHaveNoConcerns

He looked like he had been giving the same speech a lot lately, as he seemed so bored while saying it.

I have to add that this place was so organised and they knew what they were doing, but I guess they have been giving them for a while.

#ISaidAboutTheResearchIHadDoneAndHeSaidIProbablyKnewMoreThanHimAnyways #IWasGoingToGetItButIJustWantedToSeeWhatTheNurseAndDoctorThoughtAsIKnowSomePeopleHaveBeenTurnedAwayOrAdvisedAgainstIt

They were both very much for it. The nurse was talking about it giving me a peace of mind and stuff, which it has.

#TheyAskedWhichArmIWantedItInAndIOfferedMyLeftButThenChangedItForMyRight #IMainlyCarryBInMyLeftArmSoThoughtThatWasABetterOption

I did briefly panic looking between my two arms. I thought I’d made a mistake with my right, but I also mainly sleep on my left so it worked out well. Hurrah.

#TheDoctorInjectedItAndThenLeftSwiftlyAsIThinkHeWasJustGoingRoomToRoom

Busy man. Nurse to input information from the form. Doctor to just go round injecting lots of people.

#TheNurseSaidToPutMyFeetUpForTheRestOfTheDayAndILaughedAsBDoesNotStop

She did say ‘if you can’ as I had told her about B.

#IHadToWaitFifteenMinutesAndWasRelievedThatTheRoomUpstairsWasFullSoIGotToWaitOutsideInTheTent

I didn’t fancy being in a small room, even with social distancing. I was surprised how many people were turning up without masks, but they were quickly asked where it was and given a disposable one. The tent downstairs was very airy and I sat by a doorway.

#WeWentToALargeSupermarketOnTheWayHomeAndICanNotRememberTheLastTimeIWentInOne #IBasicallyBoughtAllTheThingsThatIHaveBeenCravingForAges

I did go a bit nuts… Small pleasures.

#IFeelSoRelievedToHaveGottenTheVaccineThoughIAmAlsoCountingDownUntilICanHaveMySecondInLessThanEightWeeks

I know it needs time to really work, but I do feel a bit more relaxed now.

#MyArmWasVeryHeavyTheFirstNightWhichIThinkWasAggravatedFromCarryingBAbout #TheNextDayItWasLessSoAndNowIAmBackToBeingAbleToStretchProperlyWhichIsGood

I was a bit worried about how I might react and thought that maybe I should have waited for the weekend, but it was fine.

#IHaveHadSomeHeadachesAndBeenQuiteTiredButThatMightAlsoBeDownToChasingAroundAnActiveToddlerAndBeingPregnantAsTheyAreNotNewFeelingsForMe

I have not been napping so much now that my energy is back a bit, so I usually get a headache by the evening which probably isn’t helped by a lot of screen time. Yesterday I couldn’t get up from my afternoon nap, but I had been up since 5.15am and didn’t nap in the morning…

#IWasGoingToSayTheOtherDayThatIFeelLikeThePrimeMinisterStoppedCaringAboutPregnantPeopleWhenHisNowWifeGaveBirthButItTurnsOutSheIsPregnantAgain #OurPregnancyJourneysHaveBeenFairlySimilarByTheSoundsOfIt

She had a kid in April 2020, I had a kid in June 2020, we both had miscarriages at the start of the year, she is due in December, I’m due in February…

#TheResultsOfTheNeckTissueCheckAndBloodTestForSyndromesCameBackInThreeDaysAndIAmVeryLowRisk

I don’t know what I would do if I was high risk for something, but luckily I do not have to think about it now I have my results.

#IThoughtIWouldNotFindOutUntilALotLaterAsLastTimeIDidNotKnowUntil21Weeks #ButThenIRememberedThatTheLetterGotLostInThePostLastTimeAndIEndedUpHavingToPhoneSomeoneWhenIRealisedIShouldHaveReallyHeardByThen

It’s one of the reasons why I took so long to announce my pregnancy last time, as I was not sure what we would do if I tested high risk for something. I am guessing I will announce my pregnancy the week after next, though I generally tell anyone that I am chatting to (if I remember). Especially when I see someone in person, as that never happens…

#TheOtherDayIHadToCallToBookAMidwifeAppointmentForSixteenWeeksAsIWillMissMineAndTheWomanWhoTookMyBloodsToldMeTo #IHadBeenPuttingItOffAsIWasNotReallySureWhatIWasAskingForButTheWomanOnReceptionGotItAfterAWhileAndItIsBookedNow

I tried to book an appointment online, but I could not see the option so I felt awkward about having to call. I think it was for the best that I did. I’m glad that’s sorted now though.

#MyBreakfastBurritoCravingWentAwayButNowIJustHaveAScrambledEggAndHashbrownToastedSandwichForBreakfastWhichIsGreat

I am getting hungry now writing this – it’s 7.10am.

#IHadNotBeenSickForFourDaysButThenIAteSoMuchBakedCamembertYesterdayThatMyBodyWasSoUpset

I am not really sure if I am ‘allowed’ to eat it, as some websites said no, and some said to make sure it’s really hot. I bought the camembert and garlic bread during my cravings trip.

#IWasSickAgainTwentyMinutesLaterAndIEvenSearchedForHowToGetRidOfTheTasteOfSickInYourMouth

I will not be eating camembert again for a while now. The combo of that and the garlic bread… ergh.

#IHadAShowerAndBlewMyNoseAndGargledALotAndDrankALotOfWaterAndChangedMyClothesAndItHelpedALot

I was sick twice. I ate dinner. The taste still lingered. It was grim. It’s worse when it’s just before bed though… Sorry if I’ve put you off your snack or whatever you may be consuming right now.

#MyNewThingWithBIsBeforeIPutHerDownForANapOrBedtimeIsIMassageMoisturiserIntoHerFeetAsSheIsGenerallyBareFootAndTheyGetDry

Sorry B, you’ve barely been mentioned in this post. I do it at least once a day and her legs are definitely quite soft now.

#IAlsoDoHerLegsAndItSeemsToReallyChillHerOutAndSometimesSheNearlyFallsAsleepSoINeedToLearnMoreAboutFullBodyToddlerMassage

I wish I had a massage before bedtime, but oh well. She seems to enjoy it and I sing to her softly or talk quietly. It’s a nice moment between us 🙂

13 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait in my bra and trousers. I have a bandage on my right arm from a blood test. In my left hand I am holding a tissue and I am coughing. My nose is a bit red.
My Due Date Got Put Back To Its Original One (Nearly 13 Weeks)
 
#SoIHadMy12WeekScanToday
#AndTheyPutMeBackToMyOriginalDueDate
#WhichMeansIAmNearly13Weeks
#TheAppointmentWasQuiteEarlyInTheMorning
#WhichIsGoodForGettingOnWithTheDay
#ButBadIfYouAreSupposedToDrink2PintsOfWaterAnHourBefore
#AsWellAsEatWhenYouHaveMorningSickness
#IDidNotDrinkEnoughSoHeCouldNotTakeMeasurementsProperly 
#ButHeCheckedThatThereWere2ArmsAnd2Legs
#AndWeWereRelievedToSeeAHeartbeatAsIHaveBeenIll
#TheGuyWasABitAnnoyedButHeSaidToGoDrinkWaterAndHeWouldTryToSeeMeIn40MinutesOrSo
#SoIWentAndDrankALotOfWaterButNotTooMuchThatIfIWaited40MinutesThenIWouldNeedTheToiletBadly
#After25MinsHeCameOutAndSaidTheNextPersonHadNotShowedUpSoWeCouldTryAgain
#INeededTheToilet
#HeSaysMyWombSeemsQuiteLowDownInGeneralSoINeedToDrinkMoreForScans
#HeManagedToTakeTheMeasurementsAndToldMeMyNewOldDueDate
#ThenIHadToHaveBloodsTakenAgain
#ItHurtWayMoreThanTheOtherTimes
#GoodJobIHadDrankALotOfWaterAndManagedToEat
#ItCameOutQuiteEasily
#TheWomanWasNice
#SheSaidSomeoneCalledAndSaidTheyHadNorovirusButWantedToKnowIfTheyCouldComeInAnyways
#IAmGladSheToldThemNo
#IAmBoredOfBeingIllAndSick
#ThisMorningWasSickNumber42
#IFeltSoSickThisEveningToo
#MorningSicknessIsSoMuchBetterThanEveningSickness
#IAmRelievedThatTheBabyIsFineButIAmAlsoFeelingAnxiousToo
#HopefullyTheScreeningResultsAreOkay
#IGuessWeJustHaveToWaitAndSee

Well, these photos actually fit well together. I guess I’m posting these comparisons a bit out of sync now and I’ll have to add another one to try to realign things.

I should have posted this image in the last post as it mentions the guy getting annoyed at me for not drinking enough water…

From the post: ‘#WithMyTwelveWeekAppointmentWithBIGotToldOffForNotHavingAFullEnoughBladderAndGotSentToDrinkMoreWater I still remember his annoyed face. I had not wanted to have a situation where I felt like I was going to piss myself, but obviously I was nowhere near that – plus the appointment was on time then.’

I have definitely been less sick this time – I had a period of really trying not to be sick. This post mentions being sick for the 42nd time. I was sick about 56 times in total (that’s the number I documented in Puke Portraits), whereas Puke Portraits II is 32 images.

Close up of three of my fingers on my skin next to a bruise.
90% Of My Social Media Advertising Now Is To Do With Pregnancy (Nearly 13 Weeks)
 
#ThisMorningINoticedThatIHadABigBruiseOnTheSideOfMyBumSlashTopOfMyHip
#ThenINoticedSomeStretchMarks
#TheStretchMarksMightJustBeFromMyUsualChangingWeightAndExercisingAsIHaveHadThemThereBefore
#OrItCouldBeDoToPregnancyOrABitOfBoth
#NinetyPercentOfMySocialMediaAdvertisingNowIsToDoWithPregnancy
#AndALotOfItIsToDoWithGettingRidOfStretchMarks
#EvenAtTheHospitalYesterdayThereWasAScreenWithAdvertisingOnItAndTheyWereTryingToSellSomeStretchMarkReductionDevice
#IFilledInSomeSurveyTodayToDoWithBodyImageAndPregnancy
#ToBeFairIAmQuiteEarlyAlongButItWasTalkingAboutThePressuresToLookGoodAndHowIFeltBeforePregnancyVersusNow
#ItWasBoringAsHellAndIWasSadToSeeThereWasNoOtherCommentsBox
#IWantedToTalkAboutThePressureIFeelAlreadyToNotHaveStretchMarksAndWhatever
#SomeoneAlreadyBoughtMeSomeBodyMassageStuffToHelpPreventThem
#WhichDoesSmellNiceAndFeelsNice
#ButIWeirdlyWantToHaveSomeStretchMarksOrAtLeastIFeelThatWayRightNow
#MaybeThatIsDumbButIHaveAlwaysCalledThemTigerStripes
#ThoughToBeFairThereAreTheLittleOnesAndThereAreThoseBigRedOnesWhichActuallyLookPainfulSoYeahIDoNotWantThoseOnesReally
#InTheLastWeekOnFacebookIHaveHadAdsForPregnancyForBabyStuffForToddlerStuffForIVFStuffForDoIWantToDonateEggsStuffForDoIWantToBeASurrogateStuff
#ItIsABitBloodyMuch
#YesIAmSavingLinksToThingsAndOnInstagramThoughIDoNotWantToBuyAnythingUntil6MonthsAlong
#INeverNoticedBeforeHowFrequentAdsAreOnInstagram
#Every3Or4PostsOrStoriesWhichJustFeelsABitMuch
#SuperExpensiveBabyStuffOrReallyExpensiveClothes
#OrPuttingPressureOnWomenToLookACertainWayDuringPregnancyOrStraightAfter
#IHaveReadThatStretchMarksAreDownToGeneticsMoreThanAnythingAndALotOfProductsHaveNotBeenClinicallyProvenToWork
#ThereWasAnAdForADeviceToHelpYouGetAFlatStomachAfterBirthOnFacebook
#TheWomanLookedLikeYourUsualSmallModelAndHadASmallBump
#MostOfTheCommentsWereJustComplainingAboutHowTheWomenInTheseAdsAreAlwaysTinyAnyways
#IJustWantToSeeMorePositiveThingsAboutStretchMarksAndAfterPregnancy
#IWouldRatherHaveAdsForOtherThingsLikeFoodOrHolidaysOrThingsICanIgnoreButObviouslyThatIsNotHowAdvertisingWorks
#IRealiseThatThisPictureIsMoreAboutMyBruiseThanStretchMarks

I haven’t really noticed too many stretch marks this time, but I also haven’t really been looking for them. I’ve been using the same oil that I used last time though, as well as another one that I bought for after I gave birth but only opened last week.

I have felt less pressure about my body this time. Maybe it’s because I do not really see many people, but also I try to go out once or twice a day and I stretch in the morning and evening. My body feels strong and I know there is not much more that I could be doing. I do worry that I will not have time to stretch once baby X is born, but if I can faff on social media for 5 minutes, then I can stretch.

I also didn’t have many marks after B was born, but maybe it’s because she was quite small and arrived early, so it may be different this time.


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Baby Fingernails, Stubbed Toe (24th July 2020)

Baby Fingernails, Stubbed Toe (24th July 2020)
 
#IWasThinkingOfTakingAPhotoOfHerHandOnMyHand
#ButThenIRememberedThatIStubbedMyToeBadlyOnTheSofaLegYesterday
#SoIPutMyToeNextToHerHandInsteadObviously
#MaybeYouCanSeeHowBadlyICutHerFingerNailsLastNight
#NotBadForTheFirstAttemptReally
#IHadBeenFilingThemButTheyWereStillQuiteLongAndSharp
#AndSheHasReallyBadMilkSpotsAtTheMomentSoIDoNotWantHerScratching
#AndIDoNotLikePuttingTheMittenPartOfHerOnesiesOverHerHandsAllTheTime
#AsPerhapsSheJustWantsHerHandsToBeFree
#SheLikesToSleepWithHerArmsOutWideOrAboveHerHead
#ICalledTheDoctorsAboutHerSpotsAsTheyLookedReallyBadLastNight
#ItIsTheSecondTimeIHaveHadToCallTheDoctorsForHer
#TheFirstTimeWasBecauseHerEyeLookedSwollenAndIHaveToDoATearDuctMassage
#BothTimesIHaveJustHadToSendPhotosAndIHopeAppointmentsLikeThisContinue
#AsGoingToTheDoctorsForTheseThingsWouldBeSoStressfulAndTakeSoMuchTime
#IHadAQuickShowerThenTheBuildingsFireAlarmStartedToGoOffAsIWasGettingDressed
#TiagoIsOutAtWorkForTheSecondTimeSinceLockdown
#BWasAsleepAndIGotStressedOutThinkingAboutWhatINeededToDoToGetHerReadyToGoOutside
#NextTimeIWouldJustTakeHerAsSheIsAndGrabSomeStuffForInCaseWeWereOutsideForALongTime
#IWaitedAFewMinutesThenHeardVoicesInTheCorridor
#SomeNeighboursWereChattingAndACoupleWereGoingDownstairs
#ISaidIHaveASmallBabyAndIWasHesitantToLeaveTheFlat
#TheyProbablyThoughtIWasAnIdiotAsSurelyWithABabyThatIsMoreOfAReasonToLeave
#TheySaidTheyCouldKnockOnMyDoorIfEverythingWasOkayButObviouslyTheyWouldNotIfItWasNotOkay
#ISaidDoNotWorryIWillJustComeDownstairs
#IWasLookingForwardToMeetingSomeOfMyNeighboursAsIDoNotKnowThem
#IStartedToGetUsReadyAndThenItStopped
#TheGuyKnockedToSayNotToBotherAndIShouldHaveAskedHimHisName
#IHaveSeenHimOnceBeforeSoHopefullyIWillSeeHimAndIPresumeHisGirlfriendAgainSoon
#ThenIThoughtIWouldDoThisShootWhilstBWasStillAsleepOnTheBed
 

#IWasThinkingOfTakingAPhotoOfHerHandOnMyHand

I had imagined a nice, cute picture of her hand on mine recording the difference in size. I’ll have to do it some other time.

#ButThenIRememberedThatIStubbedMyToeBadlyOnTheSofaLegYesterday
#SoIPutMyToeNextToHerHandInsteadObviously

But of course I’m the kind of person who then stubs their toe and thinks that I should put it next to my baby’s hand instead. It doesn’t even really look that bad in the picture, but it got worse as the day went on.

I stub my toes quite a lot, though I thought I hadn’t hit it as hard as previous times but afterwards it hurt more. I had moved the sofa to do dance videos and there was less space to walk by it than usual, so obviously the one time I’m not wearing my sandals I kick the sofa leg. I usually hurt them on the bed or something. Perhaps it doesn’t look that bad because the bedsheet is more purple.

(My feet looks quite tanned compared to B’s hand. I guess I’ve been wearing sandals a lot and B isn’t in the sun very much.)

#MaybeYouCanSeeHowBadlyICutHerFingerNailsLastNight
#NotBadForTheFirstAttemptReally
#IHadBeenFilingThemButTheyWereStillQuiteLongAndSharp

I’ve cut them again since, but I think I did a better job that time; I need to start cutting them and then filing them. She’s started to grab me a bit more, so I probably should for our safety.

#AndSheHasReallyBadMilkSpotsAtTheMomentSoIDoNotWantHerScratching

Oh those milk spots. I said in my last post that in a few posts time I’ll talk about crying again. Well her skin problems were the main reason why I got upset…

#AndIDoNotLikePuttingTheMittenPartOfHerOnesiesOverHerHandsAllTheTime
#AsPerhapsSheJustWantsHerHandsToBeFree

I feel like I’m depriving her by putting them away all the time; I should only really do it when she sleeps. I haven’t used the mittens in a while though…

#SheLikesToSleepWithHerArmsOutWideOrAboveHerHead

So adorable. We did swaddle her more in the beginning and we thought about buying a swaddle rather than using a blanket, but we haven’t done it in a while either.

#ICalledTheDoctorsAboutHerSpotsAsTheyLookedReallyBadLastNight

She just said to use some cream if the skin feels dry and that milk spots are super common.

#TheFirstTimeWasBecauseHerEyeLookedSwollenAndIHaveToDoATearDuctMassage

She had probably been scratching it, but her eyes get gunky and I have to clean them a lot. Their tear ducts get blocked easily at this age. It seems to be getting bad again, so I need to keep doing this massage:

#BothTimesIHaveJustHadToSendPhotosAndIHopeAppointmentsLikeThisContinue
#AsGoingToTheDoctorsForTheseThingsWouldBeSoStressfulAndTakeSoMuchTime

I’ve mentioned how great doctor’s appointments are near me at the moment a few times on this blog (I’m sure it’s a similar situation in the rest of the UK, but I don’t know for sure). It must be better for doctors with less people missing appointments/being late, and like I said I don’t have to stress about leaving home. Speaking of stressed about leaving home…

#IHadAQuickShowerThenTheBuildingsFireAlarmStartedToGoOffAsIWasGettingDressed
#TiagoIsOutAtWorkForTheSecondTimeSinceLockdown
#BWasAsleepAndIGotStressedOutThinkingAboutWhatINeededToDoToGetHerReadyToGoOutside

Of course I had just gotten out of the shower and was getting dressed when it went off. I had never heard it go off before. I just kind of froze in panic. It would have been different if Tiago was there, but obviously he wasn’t. I just didn’t know what to do.

Do I carry her? Put her in a carrier? Put her in a car seat? Put her in the pushchair? Do I put her in a cardigan? Do I change her clothes? Do I bring a bottle in case I feel awkward feeding her? What if we are out there for hours?

#NextTimeIWouldJustTakeHerAsSheIsAndGrabSomeStuffForInCaseWeWereOutsideForALongTime

I should have just grabbed some stuff quickly, put it in a bag and sorted her out once we got outside. Hopefully I won’t have to worry about it again, but next time I’d just get us out ASAP as you never know if it’s real or not.

(Then perhaps too many unnecessary hashtags about me interacting with neighbours/wanting to interact with neighbours.)

I saw two next door neighbours once during lockdown and I wasn’t even sure if they were the neighbours I’d seen before. I don’t know if they noticed that I was pregnant. Were they surprised to hear a baby a few months later? The other next door neighbour/s I might have seen once but I don’t remember. I feel like the one I saw a bit moved out. It’s a shame as in London we knew one neighbour and I thought we would know more here. The day that we moved in we chatted to a guy who lived in our building and he seemed nice, but we haven’t seen him since. So yeah, I’d be keen to know our neighbours more.

The way we spoke to people in our last building was by looking after their post, because it used to get stolen a lot. Here it doesn’t seem to be a problem though…

#ThenIThoughtIWouldDoThisShootWhilstBWasStillAsleepOnTheBed

The alarm was going off right outside our door, so I was also worried about subjecting B to that noise. How she slept through it all I don’t know, but she did and we did a shoot. Hurrah!


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