I have been trying to photograph her doing it, but I always seem too slow. I go to grab my phone and then she stops doing it to follow me.
I can’t ask her about it, but she doesn’t seem to mind sitting like it.
I’d love for her to do gymnastics or something when she’s old enough. I’d have loved to do things like that when I was a kid – I won’t even attempt handstands anymore after too many falls on my face.
I keep forgetting about it to be honest. In past years I’ve just been annoyed that the supermarkets are open at different times.
More family time/more time for me to sneak off and do a bit of my own stuff.
I feel mixed about it. Relieved but also like I’ve let my family down.
You might be able to work out what my job was – I’m not supposed to talk about it and I’m worried that someone at the company tracks this stuff.
You know when you’re trying hard not to cry that it makes it worse and then you just cry more? It’s worse when you’re half an hour walk from home so can’t just pop home, cry it out, then carry on.
I felt relieved to have a mask to hide behind, but it was still obvious from the sniffles and red eyes.
I was nice and polite to people. I was bothering them as they had not done something that they needed to do. The nice people have done what they needed to now.
I have another job which is sometimes busy and sometimes not, but I leave that for the evenings. I did a couple of evenings with this job, but it was too stressful with getting dinner and B sorted. Plus I was knackered as it was a different kind of energy.
I did not like knocking on people’s doors at 9am, but if they had done what they needed to then I would not need to be there.
I’ve been thinking about setting up a patreon for a while, but I feel weird/awkward about it. I might look into it again though. I need to get smart about making money from art, but my confidence is not great. I need to get over things though.
The weather was hot, then it went cold but it has been warm enough to sit in the park on a picnic blanket the last couple of days in the afternoon – with coats on of course. B crawls off the mat and inspects everything, but I’m sure it’s good for her.
It was odd. In the past I would have been like ‘well that guy smelled of sweat, but so have most of the men I’ve walked past today’.
I only started to use deodorant again recently to be fair…
It was weird being out without B. I bumped into a lady who has a dog while out in my work garb and I said to her ‘you might not recognise me without a baby in tow’.
Trying to juggle everything has not been good. It would be fine if I had liked the job, but trying to balance it all for a job that made me miserable has been rubbish.
I might try to have a lie down when I finish this before B wakes up.
A mother who pays more attention to her child is a good start.
The last time I did it B would not sit still. Our last online zoom baby class was just our teacher, B and me. B would not sit still for that either. It’s going to be interesting seeing how she reacts in a real life class.
We usually leave her until 6 before we get her out of her cot, but yesterday T just got up with her as none of us were sleeping.
She woke up at 11 last night and wouldn’t settle. In the end we gave her some paracetamol as she wanted to chew on our fingers and she went back to sleep.
My Uncles visited the other day which was a nice surprise.
I need to sort my life out. Time for a quick lie down first though.
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