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Pregnancy Waiting II

Imitating B With Conjunctivitis (34 Weeks / 24th December 2021)

Self-portrait with makeup around my eyes to make them look a bit sore/like when B had conjunctivitis.
Imitating B With Conjunctivitis (34 Weeks / 24th December 2021)
 
#ImitatingBWithTwoRedEyesDueToConjunctivitisIsNotTheNicestPortraitICouldTakeButItHasDominatedOurWeek
#ISeemToHaveBeenInSimilarHealthToHowIWas6WeeksAgoWhenIWasBeingSickALotAndFeelingWeakInGeneral
#IWentToBedFiveDaysAgoFeelingSickAndWokeUpAt1AndWasSickThenSickAgainAnHourLaterAndThenAgainNotLongAfterThat
#ITriedToHaveAShowerAndSleepOnTheSofaButMyNanAlsoCouldNotSleepSoWantedAShowerAndCameIntoTheLivingRoomEarly
#SoIWentBackToBedButDidNotSleepMuchAndKeptBeingSickUntilAbout11ThoughItWasJustWaterThatWasComingUp
#TypicallyItWasTheOneDayWhereBDidNotHaveNurseryAndMyMumWasNotComingOverButTiagoManagedToWorkWhileWatchingBAndIHadALieDown
#InTheAfternoonIHadABathAndBWasQuiteHappyJustSplashingHerHandsInTheWaterAndDroppingHerToysIn
#BHasANewTrickOfPuttingStuffInTheBinAndRippingToiletPaperAndLiftingTheToiletLidUpToPutItInTheToilet
#ITryToDiscourageHerButEvenGettingHerHandTrappedACoupleOfTimesHasNotPutHerOff
#ThisIsProbablyHowSheHasGotConjunctivitisOrMaybeSheGotItFromNursery
#IHadNoticedHerEyesWereABitGunkyButThoughtItWouldPassButByTheNextDayItWasWorse
#IWentToOurLocalPharmacyToGetEyeDropsButTheyWereClosedDueToStaffSickness
#SoMyMumWentToADifferentOneButTheySaidThatTheDropsWereOnlySuitableFor2AndOver
#IKeptWashingHerEyesWithCooledBoiledWaterAndTriedASlightlySaltySolutionTooWhichMightBeWhyTheSkinAroundHerEyesWasSuperRed
#MyDoctorsAreOnlyReallyDealingWithBoostersAtTheMomentSoIWaitedForHalfAnHourToSpeakToTheWalkInCentreButHadCalledAnotherDoctorsByMistake
#SoIWaitedAnotherHalfAnHourToActuallySpeakToTheWalkInAndTheySaidSomeoneWouldCallLater
#TypicallyTheyCalledThe10MinutesThatIWasAwayFromMyPhoneAsBWasAsleepOnMeInHerRoomAndIThoughtIWasJustGoingInToGetHerUpFromHerNap
#After3HoursICalledAgainAndTheySaidSomeoneWouldCallWithinAnHourButTheyCalledBackAbout3HoursLaterAtAround6
#TheCallWasShortAndHePrescribedEyeOintmentThatHeSaidWasOkayForUnder2s
#IShouldHaveAskedForHimWhichPharmacyWasStillOpenButInsteadIHadItSentToOurLocalOneForTheMorning
#WeGotItInTheMorningButSheHadToMissNurseryAsSheWasTooIllToGoReally
#IWasReallyLookingForwardToJustHavingSomeTimeInBedToRestAndRecoverButOhWell
#TiagoWasAlsoFeelingWeakAsHeHadHisBoosterSoWeHaveBeenAVeryFunFamilyThisWeek
#ItIsTheFirstTimeThatWeHaveAllBeenUnderTheWeatherTogetherAndIHopeItDoesNotHappenAgainForAWhile
#TodayWasTheFirstDayIHadEnoughEnergyToDoMyUsualMorningStretchingAndMyAppetiteIsPrettyMuchBackToNormalNow
#IHadMyBoosterVaccineYesterdayAndItWasSoQuickAndOrganisedThisTimeWhichWasGreat
#IAmSoGladThatTheBabyDidNotComeThisWeekAsIHadNoEnergyAtAllSoNowINeedToMakeSureIFeelGoodForWhenLabourBegins
#MyAcidRefluxHasBeenPrettyBadForACoupleOfWeeksSoIAmLookingForwardToThatBeingOver
#HadMy34WeekMidwifeAppointmentAndAllIsFineAlthoughTheBabyIsCurrentlyHeadDownButBackToBack
#ISaidAtLeastTheyAreNotBreechButTheWomanSaidItWouldBeASlowLongLabourWithALotOfBackPainSoLetsHopeTheyMoveBeforeThen

#ImitatingBWithTwoRedEyesDueToConjunctivitisIsNotTheNicestPortraitICouldTakeButItHasDominatedOurWeek

B cries whenever she sees me coming towards her with cotton wool, and giving her ointment is an experience every time.

#ISeemToHaveBeenInSimilarHealthToHowIWas6WeeksAgoWhenIWasBeingSickALotAndFeelingWeakInGeneral

Great.

#IWentToBedFiveDaysAgoFeelingSickAndWokeUpAt1AndWasSickThenSickAgainAnHourLaterAndThenAgainNotLongAfterThat

It’s horrid. My throat then hurt from being sick so much. Fun.

#ITriedToHaveAShowerAndSleepOnTheSofaButMyNanAlsoCouldNotSleepSoWantedAShowerAndCameIntoTheLivingRoomEarly

I wanted to feel nice after all the sick, but it was not meant to be. I thought sleeping on the sofa would be best as to not wake T and B up when I was being sick.

#SoIWentBackToBedButDidNotSleepMuchAndKeptBeingSickUntilAbout11ThoughItWasJustWaterThatWasComingUp

Lovely. It was a long night. I don’t like those nights.

#TypicallyItWasTheOneDayWhereBDidNotHaveNurseryAndMyMumWasNotComingOverButTiagoManagedToWorkWhileWatchingBAndIHadALieDown

He’s got 6 days off over Xmas (it’s currently day 2), so he didn’t want to take more time off. I felt so weak that I could not do much, so lying down in bed was good but I could not sleep.

#InTheAfternoonIHadABathAndBWasQuiteHappyJustSplashingHerHandsInTheWaterAndDroppingHerToysIn

I should have a bath on days like that in future, as it’s a good way to keep B occupied while I don’t feel too crummy as I’m relaxing and resting.

#BHasANewTrickOfPuttingStuffInTheBinAndRippingToiletPaperAndLiftingTheToiletLidUpToPutItInTheToilet

It seemed cute, but obviously we need to properly wash her hands after every time she does it now.

#ITryToDiscourageHerButEvenGettingHerHandTrappedACoupleOfTimesHasNotPutHerOff

I don’t like her wasting toilet paper. We should buy a toilet seat lock really.

#ThisIsProbablyHowSheHasGotConjunctivitisOrMaybeSheGotItFromNursery

She’s had a cold from nursery for over a week.

#IHadNoticedHerEyesWereABitGunkyButThoughtItWouldPassButByTheNextDayItWasWorse

Fail. I just thought it was a bit of sleep or something.

#IWentToOurLocalPharmacyToGetEyeDropsButTheyWereClosedDueToStaffSickness

Great.

#SoMyMumWentToADifferentOneButTheySaidThatTheDropsWereOnlySuitableFor2AndOver

Also great.

#IKeptWashingHerEyesWithCooledBoiledWaterAndTriedASlightlySaltySolutionTooWhichMightBeWhyTheSkinAroundHerEyesWasSuperRed

I wish she understood that we’re trying to help her feel better. It’s such a struggle to try to get them better.

#MyDoctorsAreOnlyReallyDealingWithBoostersAtTheMomentSoIWaitedForHalfAnHourToSpeakToTheWalkInCentreButHadCalledAnotherDoctorsByMistake

Ergh.

#SoIWaitedAnotherHalfAnHourToActuallySpeakToTheWalkInAndTheySaidSomeoneWouldCallLater

Cool.

#TypicallyTheyCalledThe10MinutesThatIWasAwayFromMyPhoneAsBWasAsleepOnMeInHerRoomAndIThoughtIWasJustGoingInToGetHerUpFromHerNap

She woke up early. I planned to get her up, but then wanted to soothe her a bit and she fell asleep on me while I sat on her beanbag. I had to wake her up as my back was hurting and I was bored sitting in the dark without my phone – I would have read my book.

#After3HoursICalledAgainAndTheySaidSomeoneWouldCallWithinAnHourButTheyCalledBackAbout3HoursLaterAtAround6

I understand they’re busy and swamped, so it’s fair enough. I just don’t like waiting around for calls.

#TheCallWasShortAndHePrescribedEyeOintmentThatHeSaidWasOkayForUnder2s

He said that the drops is not okay for under 2s, but the ointment is.

#IShouldHaveAskedForHimWhichPharmacyWasStillOpenButInsteadIHadItSentToOurLocalOneForTheMorning

I hoped that they would be open.

#WeGotItInTheMorningButSheHadToMissNurseryAsSheWasTooIllToGoReally

The instructions said it wasn’t for under 2s, but the NHS website says that chloramphenicol eye stuff can be prescribed for under 2s by a Doctor.

#IWasReallyLookingForwardToJustHavingSomeTimeInBedToRestAndRecoverButOhWell

I was looking forward to just lying down for 4 hours, watching a bit of TV and resting.

#TiagoWasAlsoFeelingWeakAsHeHadHisBoosterSoWeHaveBeenAVeryFunFamilyThisWeek

We had an orzo dish on Sunday night that I’m bored of, but Tiago loves. I threw that up, then didn’t have much on Monday night, but Tiago did and was sick on Tuesday morning. Maybe it was the orzo that triggered off my ‘illness’? Who knows? I’m glad that Tiago doesn’t want to eat it for a while now.

#ItIsTheFirstTimeThatWeHaveAllBeenUnderTheWeatherTogetherAndIHopeItDoesNotHappenAgainForAWhile

I don’t like feeling so weak and helpless.

#TodayWasTheFirstDayIHadEnoughEnergyToDoMyUsualMorningStretchingAndMyAppetiteIsPrettyMuchBackToNormalNow

I kept forcing myself to eat for the baby, but it’s been tough. It’s nice to enjoy food again – just in time for Xmas.

#IHadMyBoosterVaccineYesterdayAndItWasSoQuickAndOrganisedThisTimeWhichWasGreat

Tiago dropped me off and I was confused as they’d moved from a marquee in a car park, into a building. It was so efficient. 5 stars.

I’m still not feeling 100%, which may be down to the booster, but as I felt so bad earlier in the week I feel quite good.

#IAmSoGladThatTheBabyDidNotComeThisWeekAsIHadNoEnergyAtAllSoNowINeedToMakeSureIFeelGoodForWhenLabourBegins

I don’t want to feel that weak again for a long time.

#MyAcidRefluxHasBeenPrettyBadForACoupleOfWeeksSoIAmLookingForwardToThatBeingOver

I went to get something for it, but the pharmacist said it’s best to avoid taking anything really. Being ill this week has meant I haven’t overeaten, so I just need to keep to smaller meals and I sleep with my head elevated, which is meant to be a good thing.

#HadMy34WeekMidwifeAppointmentAndAllIsFineAlthoughTheBabyIsCurrentlyHeadDownButBackToBack #ISaidAtLeastTheyAreNotBreechButTheWomanSaidItWouldBeASlowLongLabourWithALotOfBackPainSoLetsHopeTheyMoveBeforeThen

Well, B was head down in the opposite to back to back until the day before she was born so fingers crossed. Reading about it, it looks like I just need to sit leaning forwards more, not sleep on my back (I often wake up on my back and can’t be bothered to shift), and a lot of babies turn round during labour.

34 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait where I am squatting while in my bra and pants, but my pants are barely visible due to my bump.
I Know It Does Not Look Like It But Swear That I Am Wearing Pants (34 weeks)
 
#TimeIsFlyingBy
#LastNightIHadTheWorstNightsSleepInAges
#JustWakingUpConstantlyAndHavingWeirdDreams
#IPlannedToHaveALieInButOfCourseIWokeUpEarlyAndCouldNotFallBackToSleep
#ItWasGettingLateAndIHadNotFeltTheBabyMovingSoIWasGettingWorried
#EventuallyIFeltMovementsAndWasRelieved
#LastNightTiagoFellAsleepSpooningMyBump
#ISawTheCarSeatTodayAndFreakedOutALittleThinkingWhyDoWeHaveACarSeat
#IMomentarilyForgotIWasPregnant
#WhichIsWeirdAsItDefinitelyIsGettingUncomfortableNow
#TiagoSaidThatHeHasNoticedOnOurDailyWalksThatIAmStartingToWalkABitWeird
#IAskedHimDoYouMeanIAmWaddling
#HeSaidYes
#IDoNotThinkItIsVeryPronouncedButIGuessItMustBeEnoughForTiagoToNotice
#IProbablyWouldNotHaveChosenToBePregnantDuringAPandemic
#ButAtTheSameTimeIFeelLikeIAmNotMissingOutOnStuff
#AndItIsNiceToHaveSomeKindOfCountdown
#AsIThinkALotOfPeopleAreJustWaitingForThingsToChange
#IThoughtMyProjectTitleWasSmartWhenICameUpWithItEarlyOn
#NowItWouldBeMoreLike
#WaitingForThingsInATimeWhenEveryoneIsWaitingForSomething
#ButIGuessTheOldTitleKindOfAppliesToOurEra
#UnlessThingsWillNeverBeTheSameAgain
#WellLikeIHaveSaidBeforeThingsWillNeverBeTheSameAgainForMeAnywaysOnceTheBabyIsBorn
#ThingsWillBeDifferentForTiagoTooButNotToTheSameExtent
#HisBodyWillBeTheSameAndHisWorkShouldStillBeFairlyTheSame
#BeforeIWasPregnantWeWerePrettyMuchTheSameSize
#SameHeightSameShoeSizeICouldWearHisClothesApartFromTrousersWhichICouldFitInButWereALittleTooTight
#IAmJustHappyThatIAmStillExercisingAndIThinkStartingWhenIWasMoreAbleToHelped
#TheSameVideosThatIHaveBeenDoingForMonthsAreGettingHarderToDoNow

Good to know my sleep was also rubbish at 34 weeks last time, but I wasn’t being super sick/feeling weak. I was often waking up at 5 and not being able to sleep again, but with B I am more tired so tend to sleep until she wakes up.

I’m having a lot of weird dreams at the moment too. Super vivid.

I don’t think I am waddling too much at the moment, but usually when I walk I am behind B’s pushchair so it is good support.

This time I did choose to be pregnant during a pandemic. I didn’t think it would be getting worse though (cases are on the rise).

A close-up photo of my belly button. A remake of an image I took at 20 and a half weeks.
My Belly Button Has Never Been So Close Or Perhaps So Far Away (34 weeks)

#ISaidAt20AndAHalfWeeksThatMyBellyButtonHadNeverBeenSoClose
#MaybeNowItIsCloserOrMaybeNot
#CloseToWhatQuestionMarkMyFaceQuestionMark
#IGuessMaybeItIsFurtherAwayNow
#ButItIsFarOut
#MyBellyButtonHasNeverBeenSoFarOut
#ItSoundsLikeASurferOrSomething
#IWishICouldReachMyHeadDownAndRestItOnBump
#IWasSayingWithMyLastPictureThatBabyWasNotMovingMuchAndFreakingMeOut
#ThenTheNextDayItWasMovingAroundLoads
#AndTodayHasBeenAnAverageDay
#EvenSittingOnMyBallIsUncomfortableTheseDays
#WellIFeelComfortableWhilstIAmSatDown
#ThenWhenIStandUpIAmInPain
#LyingDownSittingUpGettingOutOfBedIsAnnoying
#TodayIHadAVideoCallWithTheWomenFromMyNCTGroup
#WeWereTalkingAboutInductionsAndWantingToWait
#ButThenSayingHowUnconfortableWeAreSoWhoKnowsWhatWeWillDecideAtTheTime
#IReadALotOfMyHypnobirthingBookToday
#IHaveBeenGettingABitRubbishAtReadingAndPreparingForBaby
#IStillNeedToDoMyBirthPlan
#SomeWomenOnTheCallWereTalkingAboutHavingTheirHospitalBagsPacked
#IThinkIAmTheOnlyOnePlanningForAHomeBirth
#ButIShouldPackABagJustInCaseAsYouNeverKnow
#IHadNeverHeardAboutNaturalOrGentleCaesareansBeforeDoingTheHypnobirthingCourse
#WithTheBirthPlanItIsABitMoreOfBirthPreferencesThanAPlan
#AndWritingDownWhatYouWouldWantForAnyPossibleSituation
#ItFeelsGoodToKnowMyOptionsAndThatThereAreOptions
#IHaveHeardOfBirthPlansBeingMockedABitButGivingBirthIsABigEventWhichCouldImpactYouForTheRestOfYourLife
#IAmSoGladThatILearnedAboutHypnobirthingAndSeeingBirthInAMorePositiveLight

This is a remake of an image I took at 20 and a half weeks.

It does look really far out this time too, and B likes to touch it when I say ‘where’s the baby?’

Earlier in the week I was getting stressed about movements, but they seem to have been quite active and I have been distracted by B’s eyes and my health.

Our bed is comfier now so I do not have as many pains in bed, but it is still best for me to lie on my left side.

I need to do a birth plan, and reread the hypnobirthing book but I am currently trying to read House of Gucci. Once that is done I am going to focus on baby, I swear. I tried to find B’s baby clothes this morning, but they weren’t where I thought they were, and I need to pack my hospital bag.

The first image on this page is the picture I am referring to in the hashtags.

My sister got me some nice new pyjamas for Xmas, and mentioned my Grandad’s pyjamas.

My Grandad was married to my Nan who we have been living with since late October 2020, so every once in a while I feel sad that Tiago and B and baby X never got to meet him.

B didn’t meet her Portuguese Grandparents until this summer, and she is still yet to meet Tiago’s brother, his wife and their daughter. We did a video call with them all today.

I’m gutted that Tiago’s paternity hasn’t improved since he was off with B, but I’m looking forward to him having two weeks off. He’s going to do the same again – one week of paternity, and one week of annual leave.

It’s good to know that I felt uncomfortable after sitting on the exercise ball, as I thought I didn’t, and I’m getting those pains now.

I didn’t go into another building until I gave birth to B in hospital…


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Imitating B Poking Her Doll In The Eye (32 Weeks / 12th December 2021)

Self-portrait of me holding a doll, and holding its eyelid down with my right index finger.
Imitating B Poking Her Doll In The Eye (32 Weeks / 12th December 2021)
 
#IHaveMentionedThatBLikesToTryToTouchOurEyesWhichWorriesMeABitWithBabyXsImpendingArrival
#MyNanGotHerADollTheOtherDayAndSheAlsoLikesToTouchItsEyesButItIsSaferThanTouchingHumanEyes
#DollsHaveAlwaysCreepedMeOutSoIHopeSheAndHerSiblingDoNotReallyLikeThem
#ObviouslyIfTheyDoIWillHaveToBeSupportiveButIMuchPreferCuddlyToys
#IFinishedReadingMyHypnobirthingBookAndIFeelMoreRelaxedAboutXsBirthButIDoNeedToReadItAtLeastOnceMore
#TwoDaysAgoIGotFreakedOutByTheBabyNotMovingMuchButSheMadeUpForItYesterdayByMovingLoads
#IHaveStartedToMakeMyBirthingPlaylistAsIFoundItSoHelpfulWhenIWasInEarlyLabourWithB
#IWasDancingBehindMyCurtainOnTheWardWhileWaitingForMyLabourToProgressAndItDefinitelyHelpedMeStayRelaxed
#WeWillHaveToSeeHowEarlyLabourGoesThisTimeAsIMightEndUpNotGoingIntoHospitalUntilMuchLater
#OneOfMyCoatsHasNotDoneUpOverMyBumpForAWhileAndTheOtherOneIsGettingTight
#ISpentALotOfFreeTimeResearchingMaternityCoatsButInTheEndIDecidedItWasNotTheBestOption
#InsteadIHaveSentOneCoatBackToTheBrandToBeRepairedAndRestoredAndWillBeBuyAZipInBabyWearingPanelForIt
#TheOtherDayAGuyInTheParkKeptSayingHelloLoudlyAndIThoughtHeWasOnThePhone
#InTheEndITurnedAroundAsIThoughtIMightHaveDroppedSomethingAndTheGuyWasLookingAtMeLikeIShouldMoveOutOfTheWay
#HeWasStoodQuiteCloseToMeThenPeeredAroundMeToSeeBSittingOnTheStepOnTheBackOfHerPushchair
#HeSaidDoYouDriveDoYouAndSaidSomethingAboutMeGoingFromOneSideOfThePathToTheOther
#HeThenSaidIShouldBeCarefulAndWalkedOffWhichJustLeftMeFeelingQuiteConfusedAndThenAnnoyed
#IHadBeenWalkingSlowlyInCaseBFellOffAndIMoveIfISeePeopleOnThePathAheadOfMeButDidNotRecallMovingInTheTenSecondsOrSoBeforeHeWasRude
#ItWasJustWeirdAndWalkingInTheParkWithAPushchairIsABitDifferentToDrivingInACarOnARoad
#AnywaysWeAreDebatingSendingBToAnotherSessionOfNurseryAWeek
#TiagoCasuallyMentionedItAndAfterThinkingAboutItIDefinitelyWouldFeelABitMoreRelaxedWithLookingAfterOnlyOneKidForAFewMoreHoursAWeek
#IWorryThatWhenBabyXComesIWillBeBoringAndStressedSoIThinkItWouldBeBetterForBToGoOutAndHaveFun
#ITryToBeByTheWindowToWaveHerOffAndWelcomeHerHomeWhenTiagoTakesHerToAndFromNursery
#SheInstinctivelyLooksToTheWindowNowWhichIsQuiteCuteSoIHaveToTryNotToLetHerDown
#SheAlsoTendsToGetUpsetWhenTiagoLeavesSoIUsuallyHoldHerUpToTheWindowToSeeHimLeaveAndAlsoWhenMyMumGoes
#WhenWeGiveNanAMealWeUsuallySayHereYouGoNanAndBThenGenerallyComesRunningOverToSeeWhatSheHasWhichMakesMeLaugh
#SheSeemsToBePickingUpNewThingsAllTheTimeLikeNowShePointsToWhereTheTeddyIsInABookAboutFindingItOrTakesMyFingerToPointToIt
#YesterdayShePointedToTheFloorDuringWindTheBobbinUpAndSuddenlyLovesTheDingleDangleScarecrowSong
#IWasThinkingRecentlyThatItIsWeirdThatBWillGrowUpAndProbablyNotRememberThisPhaseOfHerLife
#INeedToDoTheLastPageOfHerBabyBookAndThinkAboutWhatToDoForBabyX
 

#IHaveMentionedThatBLikesToTryToTouchOurEyesWhichWorriesMeABitWithBabyXsImpendingArrival

I hope she outgrows this phase by the time X arrives.

#MyNanGotHerADollTheOtherDayAndSheAlsoLikesToTouchItsEyesButItIsSaferThanTouchingHumanEyes

The doll’s eyes are probably more fun as she has more control over them. I see her fingers coming towards my eyes and I shut them, and tell her not to do it, but she’s fascinated.

#DollsHaveAlwaysCreepedMeOutSoIHopeSheAndHerSiblingDoNotReallyLikeThem #ObviouslyIfTheyDoIWillHaveToBeSupportiveButIMuchPreferCuddlyToys

I will definitely not be adding to their doll collection, but you never know what they will get as gifts.

#IFinishedReadingMyHypnobirthingBookAndIFeelMoreRelaxedAboutXsBirthButIDoNeedToReadItAtLeastOnceMore

I keep practicing the breathing exercises, and just think about being as relaxed as possible to make things easier.

#TwoDaysAgoIGotFreakedOutByTheBabyNotMovingMuchButSheMadeUpForItYesterdayByMovingLoads

I had done a lot of dance videos, so maybe they needed to chill. I ached a bit afterwards, so I had to have a lie down. Yesterday she was just moving all over the place.

#IHaveStartedToMakeMyBirthingPlaylistAsIFoundItSoHelpfulWhenIWasInEarlyLabourWithB

I still have B’s birth playlist so I took songs from that, then thought about what I wanted to add.

#IWasDancingBehindMyCurtainOnTheWardWhileWaitingForMyLabourToProgressAndItDefinitelyHelpedMeStayRelaxed

Tiago wasn’t allowed to be with me, so I didn’t have much else to do. It definitely helped during surges, along with the breathing exercises.

#WeWillHaveToSeeHowEarlyLabourGoesThisTimeAsIMightEndUpNotGoingIntoHospitalUntilMuchLater

My waters had broken, so I had to go in to be monitored, then they were going to send me home but B was breech.

#OneOfMyCoatsHasNotDoneUpOverMyBumpForAWhileAndTheOtherOneIsGettingTight

It was fine with B as I was pregnant in the summer, but it is a bit colder this time…

#ISpentALotOfFreeTimeResearchingMaternityCoatsButInTheEndIDecidedItWasNotTheBestOption

A good one is expensive. I nearly caved and bought one, but it was dry clean only which is too high maintenance for me – especially with a B who likes to walk in the mud.

#InsteadIHaveSentOneCoatBackToTheBrandToBeRepairedAndRestoredAndWillBeBuyAZipInBabyWearingPanelForIt

It’s a coat I’ve had for at least 6 years if not more. The inside is a bit ripped from where I used the pocket that the coat folds into as an actual pocket, and it just needs a good clean and re-waterproofing. It’s a lot cheaper than getting a new coat, and I like the coat so it makes sense. I don’t really need another coat…

#TheOtherDayAGuyInTheParkKeptSayingHelloLoudlyAndIThoughtHeWasOnThePhone #InTheEndITurnedAroundAsIThoughtIMightHaveDroppedSomethingAndTheGuyWasLookingAtMeLikeIShouldMoveOutOfTheWay #HeWasStoodQuiteCloseToMeThenPeeredAroundMeToSeeBSittingOnTheStepOnTheBackOfHerPushchair #HeSaidDoYouDriveDoYouAndSaidSomethingAboutMeGoingFromOneSideOfThePathToTheOther #HeThenSaidIShouldBeCarefulAndWalkedOffWhichJustLeftMeFeelingQuiteConfusedAndThenAnnoyed

I’m still annoyed about it.

#IHadBeenWalkingSlowlyInCaseBFellOffAndIMoveIfISeePeopleOnThePathAheadOfMeButDidNotRecallMovingInTheTenSecondsOrSoBeforeHeWasRude

He was saying hello for at least five seconds to me (and it sounded quite distant at first), so I don’t think I just cut in front of him. He could have easily moved to the grass (okay, it was a bit muddy but not that bad).

#ItWasJustWeirdAndWalkingInTheParkWithAPushchairIsABitDifferentToDrivingInACarOnARoad

I do wonder if he’d have said the same thing to me if I was a guy. Probably not. He was maybe my age, possibly younger. I just looked at him quite blankly as I really thought he was going to say I’d dropped something, so I was in shock.

#AnywaysWeAreDebatingSendingBToAnotherSessionOfNurseryAWeek #TiagoCasuallyMentionedItAndAfterThinkingAboutItIDefinitelyWouldFeelABitMoreRelaxedWithLookingAfterOnlyOneKidForAFewMoreHoursAWeek

I feel guilty about it, but I think if a lot of people could then they would so why not? We don’t plan on being in Brum forever, so should make the most of the set-up.

#IWorryThatWhenBabyXComesIWillBeBoringAndStressedSoIThinkItWouldBeBetterForBToGoOutAndHaveFun

Seriously, why would she want to be at home all week with her boring Mum when she can be at nursery having fun? If I am more relaxed and happy, then it’s good for B too.

#ITryToBeByTheWindowToWaveHerOffAndWelcomeHerHomeWhenTiagoTakesHerToAndFromNursery

I wave quite enthusiastically, which usually makes her laugh, especially when she comes home. I then usually bend down and wait for her to come through the door so I can give her a hug if she wants one.

#SheInstinctivelyLooksToTheWindowNowWhichIsQuiteCuteSoIHaveToTryNotToLetHerDown

I’m just thinking when the baby arrives it might not be the case, but I will have to try…

#SheAlsoTendsToGetUpsetWhenTiagoLeavesSoIUsuallyHoldHerUpToTheWindowToSeeHimLeaveAndAlsoWhenMyMumGoes

It’s just something I do now. She often still cries when Tiago leaves so I try to make her laugh by dancing or spinning her round, but it often doesn’t work. She likes to wave to my Mum.

#WhenWeGiveNanAMealWeUsuallySayHereYouGoNanAndBThenGenerallyComesRunningOverToSeeWhatSheHasWhichMakesMeLaugh

She’s just started to do it. Breakfast – ‘here you go Nan’. B stops what she is doing and runs over to steal some scrambled egg. I try to serve B her lunch before giving my Nan hers, otherwise B just tries to stick her hands in it. Sometimes dinner is ready earlier than we want to give it to B, so she goes over…

#SheSeemsToBePickingUpNewThingsAllTheTimeLikeNowShePointsToWhereTheTeddyIsInABookAboutFindingItOrTakesMyFingerToPointToIt

It’s good as usually I take ages pointing at everything on the page to look for the Teddy, so it’s a bit quicker now though sometimes she does point to things and I say the name.

#YesterdayShePointedToTheFloorDuringWindTheBobbinUpAndSuddenlyLovesTheDingleDangleScarecrowSong

She’s been doing the claps to Wind The Bobbin Up for a while, but none of the other actions so that’s quite exciting. It’s quite sad that I have a version for when we’re in the park (point to the sky and point to the ground, point to the gate and point to the hound).

#IWasThinkingRecentlyThatItIsWeirdThatBWillGrowUpAndProbablyNotRememberThisPhaseOfHerLife

It’s been such a big deal for me, and I doubt she will remember any of it – living with my Nan, living in Brum etc. She’ll have my work to look at if she wants to, but I doubt she’ll be interested in half of this stuff – is anyone?

#INeedToDoTheLastPageOfHerBabyBookAndThinkAboutWhatToDoForBabyX

I thought about it today and the pages for 12 months are empty. I might do more of a family album for Baby X, though I don’t want her to feel like she’s been cheated out of what B has so maybe we’ll have to get the same book. I might just do it differently this time…

32 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

I keep saying this, but it’s weird that things still aren’t ‘normal’, and things are back up in the air again – I’m hoping it doesn’t impact Baby X’s arrival too much, but it is what it is.

‘#RealisticallyTheBabyWillBeBornUnderSomeKindOfLockdown’ – She was, and X might be as well.

‘#ToSitInARestaurantOrGoToTheCinemaOrGoToAGig’

Well, we sat in a restaurant a few weeks ago, but I haven’t been to the cinema or a gig since before Covid. We went to see Parasite at the cinema a couple of weekends before lockdown, and we feel a bit on edge then (because of Covid, not the film – well a bit of both I guess).

‘#IDefinitelyWillNotBeRushingToGoToLondon’

I’ve been a few times since September, but doubt I will be going there again any time soon now.

‘#YouNeverKnowICouldSlipBackIntoOldLifeQuiteEasily’

My old life is definitely gone. We don’t even live in the same place as we did before Covid. I do wish some things were different – like I wish I had more play dates for B during the week, and didn’t feel so worried about going further from home but we make do. If this was my life forever I would feel stuck, but knowing that we plan to move in the summer is something to look forward to after the baby is born – the baby has been a good countdown for most of the year.

‘#ItWillBeWeirdWhenHeFinallyStartsGoingBackOutToWorkAgain’

I’ve been lucky that he still doesn’t really go out to work very much, which has been nice for him as he has been around for more of B’s early life – but he was working from home a bit before Covid anyways.

‘TheExerciseVideosIHaveBeenDoingForWeeksAreGettingABitMoreHarderToDoWithABiggerBump’

Yesterday I did a pregnancy pilates one for the first time in ages. It felt weird. It’s funny being more pregnant than the women in my usual videos now – I remember reaching that phase with B, and it felt strange.

I’m nearly at the point where it was 5 weeks until B arrived.


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Imitating B Standing With Her Hands Behind Her Back (31 Weeks / 5th December 2021)

Self-portrait where I am stood facing a wall with the front of my hands touching my back. I am wearing a flowery dress and my head is tilted upwards slightly.
Imitating B Standing With Her Hands Behind Her Back (31 Weeks / 5th December 2021)
 
#BHasBeenStandingAndWalkingAroundWithHerHandsBehindHerBackForAWhile
#SometimesSheJustHasThemFlatAgainstHerOrSometimesShePlaysWithAFinger
#SheLooksVeryConfidentThoughAndWeAlwaysCommentOnItWhenSheDoesIt
#YesterdaySheDiscoveredThatIfSheStandsInFrontOfMeNextToMyLegsICanNotSeeHerBecauseOfMyBump
#SoWePlayedPeekabooForABitWhichWasFunnyAndIHopeSheDoesNotForgetAboutIt
#SheSometimesPointsToMyBumpButIDoNotThinkSheReallyUnderstandsWhatIsHappeningInThere
#IWantHerToSeeItReallyMoveAsIWantToSeeHerReaction
#IHurtMyFingerTheOtherDayPuttingMySocksOnAsItIsDifficultToNavigateAroundMyBump
#IHadA31WeeksAppointmentWhichWasOptionalAsItIsNotReallyNecessaryAfterYourFirstChild
#TheyOfferedMeOneSoIThoughtIMightAsWellGoAnywaysAsItIsAlwaysGoodToGetSomeReassurance
#TheyAlwaysTestMyUrineNowSoIBoughtSomeTubesToTakeASampleWithMe
#IStruggledToFillOneAsWithMyBumpIReallyCouldNotSeeWhereIWasPissing
#IHadADifferentMidwifeAsMyOriginalOneIsNowWorkingFromHomeAsSheIsOnlyABitMorePregnantThanMe
#ThereWasAlsoAStudentMidwifeWhichIWasNotBotheredAboutAsTheyHaveToLearnSomehowAndThereIsAShortageOfMidwivesInThisCountry
#TheyBothMeasuredMeAndTheStudentSaidTheBabyWas1CentimetreBiggerThanAt28WeeksButTheMidwifeSaidSheIs3CentimetresBigger
#TheMidwifeSaidToHerNotToWorryAsTheyAllHaveTheirOwnWayOfMeasuringSoAsLongAsTheyMeasureTheSameWayEachTimeItGivesTheInformationThatTheyNeed
#WellLastTimeSomeoneElseMeasuredMeSoTheBabyHasSuddenlyJumpedFromTheFiftyPercentileToSeventyIsh
#MaybeTheyDidHaveAGrowthSpurtButItSeemsLikeABitTooMuchAndItObviouslyIsNotSuperAccurateButTheMainThingIsTheBabyHasGrown
#ISaidThatIHadBeenInALotOfPainWithTheBabysMovements
#TheMidwifeSaidThatIDoNotHaveALotSeparatingTheBabyFromMySkinSoItWillBeUncomfortableAtTimes
#IHaveMyNextAppointmentAt34WeeksWhichWillBeWithADifferentMidwifeAndThenTheOnesAfterThatWillBeEvery2Weeks
#BsNurseryCalledDuringHerLastSessionAsSheHadABumpOnHerHeadButTheyDidNotSeeHerDoItAndSheHadNotCried
#TheyWatchedTheCCTVAndSaidSheMustHaveDoneItWhilePlayingWithAToyAroundSomeChairs
#ISaidItWasProbablyAnOldBumpThatTheyHadNotNoticedAndWeWouldBePickingHerUpInHalfAnHourAnyways
#WeWentToGetHerAndItWasAnOldBumpThatLookedLikeItHadBeenKnockedABitButItSoonWentDownAndSheWasFine
#BIsStillCryingWhenWePutHerDownForANapOrBedAndINoLongerEvenTryToLetHerCrawlInByHerselfAsSheCrawlsInHalfwayThenStops
#SoWeHaveZippedItUpAndTurnedItRoundAsTheRipInItIsGettingBiggerAndINeedToFixIt
#ABassinetZipsIntoHerCotSoTheBabyCanHaveHerCotOnceTheyAreBornAsTheBabyWillBeMoreSnugAndBCanHaveADifferentOne
#IJustHadToGoAndWatchBWhileTSortedSomethingOutAndBWasHoldingHerHandsBehindHerBackAgain
#SheDoesNotSeemToLikeScrambledEggsWhenIGiveHerSomeAtMealsButSheIsMoreThanHappyToStealSomeAndTheCrustsFromMyBreakfast

#BHasBeenStandingAndWalkingAroundWithHerHandsBehindHerBackForAWhile

I don’t know why I enjoy seeing her do it so much, but I do.

#SometimesSheJustHasThemFlatAgainstHerOrSometimesShePlaysWithAFinger

I took a video of her for reference for the shoot and she plays with a finger for a bit and then has them flat again.

#SheLooksVeryConfidentThoughAndWeAlwaysCommentOnItWhenSheDoesIt

She looks very powerful. I don’t know where she has picked it up from, but it’s probably another case of her just discovering she can do it…

I imagine the shoot will look a bit like My Baby Is A Brick Wall (14th July 2020).

#YesterdaySheDiscoveredThatIfSheStandsInFrontOfMeNextToMyLegsICanNotSeeHerBecauseOfMyBump

My Mum was saying that my bump seems to be sticking out the front more this time, but then again she never saw me heavily pregnant in real life last time because of Covid. I guess she’s seen the photos though and saw me on WhatsApp.

#SoWePlayedPeekabooForABitWhichWasFunnyAndIHopeSheDoesNotForgetAboutIt

I want to play peekaboo again.

#SheSometimesPointsToMyBumpButIDoNotThinkSheReallyUnderstandsWhatIsHappeningInThere

She knows something is up as I talk to her about it.

#IWantHerToSeeItReallyMoveAsIWantToSeeHerReaction

Baby X does really move about in there now, and my bump is pushed into some weird shapes.

#IHurtMyFingerTheOtherDayPuttingMySocksOnAsItIsDifficultToNavigateAroundMyBump

I was saying to Tiago things are only going to get ‘worse’ now until the baby is born.

#IHadA31WeeksAppointmentWhichWasOptionalAsItIsNotReallyNecessaryAfterYourFirstChild #TheyOfferedMeOneSoIThoughtIMightAsWellGoAnywaysAsItIsAlwaysGoodToGetSomeReassurance

I could walk to my appointment and yeah why not? They offered it to me.

#TheyAlwaysTestMyUrineNowSoIBoughtSomeTubesToTakeASampleWithMe

I bought them ages ago. It means touching less Covid surfaces and having one less thing to worry about once I get there.

#IStruggledToFillOneAsWithMyBumpIReallyCouldNotSeeWhereIWasPissing

Hello, piss on my hand. They need a funnel for the pregnant folk.

#IHadADifferentMidwifeAsMyOriginalOneIsNowWorkingFromHomeAsSheIsOnlyABitNotMorePregnantThanMe

Working from home because of Covid and all. I like her – shame I will probably never see her again. You never know though, we could be ward buddies.

#ThereWasAlsoAStudentMidwifeWhichIWasNotBotheredAboutAsTheyHaveToLearnSomehowAndThereIsAShortageOfMidwivesInThisCountry

They kept asking if it was okay if she was there. I had at least one student midwife at B’s birth, and it was mainly students who were looking after me and B during our hospital stay. She apologised in case I felt uncomfortable during her checks, but I said at least she wasn’t kicking me in the ribs.

#TheyBothMeasuredMeAndTheStudentSaidTheBabyWas1CentimetreBiggerThanAt28WeeksButTheMidwifeSaidSheIs3CentimetresBigger

I initally wrote ‘they are’ instead of ‘she is’, as I am still skeptical…

The midwife measured first, but didn’t tell the student what she had got until after the student had had a go. The test aspect made the appointment more interesting.

#TheMidwifeSaidToHerNotToWorryAsTheyAllHaveTheirOwnWayOfMeasuringSoAsLongAsTheyMeasureTheSameWayEachTimeItGivesTheInformationThatTheyNeed

They just want to see that the baby is growing.

#WellLastTimeSomeoneElseMeasuredMeSoTheBabyHasSuddenlyJumpedFromTheFiftyPercentileToSeventyIsh

Hmm.

#MaybeTheyDidHaveAGrowthSpurtButItSeemsLikeABitTooMuchAndItObviouslyIsNotSuperAccurateButTheMainThingIsTheBabyHasGrown

That’s what we want to see. Next time it will be with someone else, so we will see what they get.

#ISaidThatIHadBeenInALotOfPainWithTheBabysMovements

Though it has not been so bad the last few days. I have been using my body oil more as probably helps my skin not hurt so much.

#TheMidwifeSaidThatIDoNotHaveALotSeparatingTheBabyFromMySkinSoItWillBeUncomfortableAtTimes

Makes sense.

#IHaveMyNextAppointmentAt34WeeksWhichWillBeWithADifferentMidwifeAndThenTheOnesAfterThatWillBeEvery2Weeks

Time is flying by. The last appointment did not feel like 3 weeks ago.

#BsNurseryCalledDuringHerLastSessionAsSheHadABumpOnHerHeadButTheyDidNotSeeHerDoItAndSheHadNotCried #TheyWatchedTheCCTVAndSaidSheMustHaveDoneItWhilePlayingWithAToyAroundSomeChairs

I thought they might have been calling to say she’d been sick, as if she is too active after eating and seems to be a bit sick after meals (mainly breakfast) at the moment.

#ISaidItWasProbablyAnOldBumpThatTheyHadNotNoticedAndWeWouldBePickingHerUpInHalfAnHourAnyways

She keeps knocking the same bit of her head on different things. It’s good they called – and I guess they have to cover their backs.

#WeWentToGetHerAndItWasAnOldBumpThatLookedLikeItHadBeenKnockedABitButItSoonWentDownAndSheWasFine

It probably didn’t need much to upset it again. They said they’d put a cold compress on it. She seemed fine and after her nap it had already gone down a lot.

#BIsStillCryingWhenWePutHerDownForANapOrBedAndINoLongerEvenTryToLetHerCrawlInByHerselfAsSheCrawlsInHalfwayThenStops

If I put her to bed she soon stops crying, but if Tiago does then she seems to cry for a lot longer. She knows I’m the strict one…

#SoWeHaveZippedItUpAndTurnedItRoundAsTheRipInItIsGettingBiggerAndINeedToFixIt

Trying to figure out the best way to do it. She normally sleeps at the edge closest to the door, which was the zipped bit. Hopefully she won’t mess with it more now that we’ve turned it round.

#ABassinetZipsIntoHerCotSoTheBabyCanHaveHerCotOnceTheyAreBornAsTheBabyWillBeMoreSnugAndBCanHaveADifferentOne

I don’t want to have to bend down super far to put the baby down. They will be nice and snug in the bassinet – B liked it.

#IJustHadToGoAndWatchBWhileTSortedSomethingOutAndBWasHoldingHerHandsBehindHerBackAgain

After T came back she was playing with a comb and I said ‘do you want to comb Daddy’s hair?’ and she had fun.

#SheDoesNotSeemToLikeScrambledEggsWhenIGiveHerSomeAtMealsButSheIsMoreThanHappyToStealSomeAndTheCrustsFromMyBreakfast

Nan wasn’t up yet, but normally she steals most of Nan’s breakfast, even though she’s usually eaten an hour before…

31 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait standing on one leg, while holding my left foot and looking away from the camera with my right hand touching my chin. I am nude with small white squares hiding my nipples and pubic area.
It Is Kind Of Weird To Refer To Tiago As Daddy And For Me To Be Called Mummy (31 and a half weeks)
 
#IJustFeelTiredToday
#AtTheWeekendWeHadOurNCTCourse
#NCTMeaningNationalChildbirthTrust
#WeDidItVirtuallyOverZoomAsWeWereUnableToMeetInPersonDueToCovid
#ItWasGoodAndWeLearnedALot
#SomeOfItWasGoingOverWhatWeHadLearnedOnOurHypnobirthingCourse
#ButIFeelLikeIUnderstandThingsMoreAfterHavingSeenDiagramsAndThingsBeingExplainedAgainBySomeoneElse
#WeDidTheCourseBecauseWeWantedToLearnButAlsoBecauseWeWantedToMeetOtherPeople
#EveryoneSeemsNiceAndWeHaveAChatGroupAndWillHopefullyHaveMoreOnlineMeetings
#ButIThinkThingsWouldBeABitDifferentIfWeHadMetInPerson
#HopefullyWeWillGetToOneDay
#SoIThinkHavingTwoDaysOfListeningWhilstOnWebcamHasTiredMeOut
#AsComparedToOtherLockdownWeekendsItWasPrettyIntense
#ThisWeekendThereIsASmallSessionAboutBreastfeeding
#WeWatchedAnotherEpisodeOfBabiesTheOtherDayAndItWasAboutFeeding
#ApparentlyNoBreastMilkIsTheSame
#AndItWillDifferForIfYouHaveABoyOrAGirl
#ThoughIWonderWhatHappensIfYouHadTwinsWhereOneWasABoyAndOneWasAGirl
#ItWasInterestingAnyways
#IFeelLikeBabysKicksAreGettingStronger
#IThinkItWasLastNightWhereICouldJustSeeItMovingAllAbout
#WeAreReallyGettingIntoNestingModeNow
#ReorganisingTheFlatAndPreferringThingsToBeALotTidier
#WeHaveBoughtMostOfTheThingsThatWeNeedNow
#JustAFewSmallBitsAndPiecesLeftToGet
#IKeepTalkingToTheBabyAboutWhatTiagoIsDoingButISayWhatDaddyIsDoing
#ItIsKindOfWeirdToCallHimDaddyAndForMeToBeCalledMummy
#ThoughIThinkHeWouldPreferToBeCalledDadInPortugueseSoIReferToHimAsPaiSometimes
#ThoughPapaiIsDaddy
#SoMaybeIShouldStartReferringToHimAsThat

Well, we are quite used to being called Mummy and Daddy now… We did used to refer to Tiago as Pai, but we seem to do that less these days.

We debated doing an NCT course this time, but it seems like an expensive way to make friends (which is what we thought last time). Especially as we not planning on sticking around the area for more than a year now, so it would be another potential group of friends that we would be moving away from.

We weren’t expecting to move away from Liverpool anytime soon when we did the course, but we did. I had a zoom call with a few of them the other week, so that’s nice at least.

I’m still yet to open my hypnobirthing book, but I’ve got 5% left of the Sinead O’Connor book that I’m reading and then I will.


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Imitating B Touching Her Nose (31 Weeks / 1st December 2021)

Self-portrait where I am touching my nose with my left index finger. I am side on to the camera and wearing a grey jumper and leggings. My bump is very visible.
Imitating B Touching Her Nose (31 Weeks / 1st December 2021)
 
#BWillJustRandomlyTouchHerNoseForNoApparentReason
#SoIWillSingHeadShouldersKneesAndToesAndSheWillSpendMostOfTheSongJustTouchingHerNose
#IThinkSheDoesKnowOtherBodyPartsButSheIsCurrentlyFixatedOnHerNose
#YesterdayIAskedHerWhereWasHerTongueAndSheStuckItOut
#SheHasSuddenlyBecomeAMassiveDaredevilAndItIsFreakingMeOut
#StandingOnTheArmOfTheSofaAndFallingBackwardsAndClimbingUpAnArmchairToTryToSlideDownIt
#WhileSheIsGettingMoreEnergeticIAmBecomingMoreTiredAndSlower
#ICanNotGetUpToSaveHerFromHerselfAsQuickAsIUsedTo
#SheKnowsWhatIDoNotLikeHerDoingLikeStandingOnTheCoffeeTableSoSheWatchesMeWhileSheDoesIt
#SheLovesItWhenIGetFreakedOutEnoughToStandUpWhichProbablyDoesNotHelpThings
#JustBeforeBedtimeSheSuddenlyWantsToRunAroundAndHaveTiagoChaseHer
#IUsuallyGetAnnoyedAsIWantHerToCalmDownAndTheOtherDaySheRanIntoADoorFrameWhileSheWasRunningFromT
#ItIsFunnyWhenSheDoesALittleSquealAtBeingChasedAndHasALaughThough
#MyNanSaysSheIsLikeAnOctopusWithHerArmsInEverythingAsSheIsConstantlyOnTheMoveAndMessingWithMyNansStuff
#BabyXsMovementsAreGettingQuitePainfulEspeciallyAtTheFrontOfMyBump
#IThinkBsPlacentaCushionedALotOfHerMovementsWhereasThisTimeThePlacentaIsInADifferentPlaceAndThisBabyIsBigger
#ASonographerDidSayThatSheHasLongLegsSoMaybeSheIsJustTryingThemOutALot
#OrMaybeIAmGettingPunchedMoreOrACombinationOfTheTwo
#OrMaybeItIsAllBraxtonHicksAndICanStillNotTellTheDifferentBetweenThemAndGettingKickedAndOrPunched
#IDoOftenMakeANoiseThoughAsItHurtsSoMuch
#EspeciallyWhenIAmLyingInBedAndAboutToFallAsleepAndIHaveToTryMyBestNotToCurse
#IOftenJustSayToTiagoCanYouTellYourSecondChildToStopBeatingMeUpPlease
#ICouldHave11WeeksOfThisPregnancyLeftAndTheBabyIsMeantToDoubleInSizeInTheThirdTrimester
#IAmABitWorriedAboutAchesAndPainsAsMyBodyIsDefinitelyStartingToFeelTheImpactOfCarryingThisBaby
#MyBackHurtsMoreAndMyBumpAchesAndIAmSoTired
#BDefinitelyStartedNurseryAtTheRightTimeAsIAmJustBecomingABoringTiredBlob
#MasksAreMandatoryInShopsAndOnPublicTransportAgainThoughIAmNotSureWhyTheyEverStoppedBeingSo
#MyGrandIdeaOfTakingBIntoTheCityCentreSeemsToHaveFadedAsIJustWantToBeCarefulAndTheThoughtOfDoingSoIsTooTiring
#TiagoShouldBeCalledForHisBoosterSoonWhenTheAgeDropsAndAsTheGapForTheBoosterHasBeenDroppedFrom6MonthsTo3ItWillNotBeLongUntilICanGetMine
#ICanNotBelieveThatIAmHavingAnotherBabyInTheTimeOfCovidButHereWeAre

#BWillJustRandomlyTouchHerNoseForNoApparentReason

As always I wish she would say why, but I guess she does it because she found she can.

#SoIWillSingHeadShouldersKneesAndToesAndSheWillSpendMostOfTheSongJustTouchingHerNose

Maybe she will touch her head for the first half, then her nose for the second.

#IThinkSheDoesKnowOtherBodyPartsButSheIsCurrentlyFixatedOnHerNose

I can’t wait for her to know all the body parts in the song. I don’t know why – I guess it will feel like an achievement of sorts.

#YesterdayIAskedHerWhereWasHerTongueAndSheStuckItOut

I think she understands a lot more than I think she does.

#SheHasSuddenlyBecomeAMassiveDaredevilAndItIsFreakingMeOut

I am hoping she gets it out of her system now, but I know it is only the start of a new era of B.

#StandingOnTheArmOfTheSofaAndFallingBackwardsAndClimbingUpAnArmchairToTryToSlideDownIt

I was on a video call to my younger sister when she started to do the sofa business. The armchair is quite dangerous as sometimes she doesn’t go very far and other times she tumbles onto the floor…

#WhileSheIsGettingMoreEnergeticIAmBecomingMoreTiredAndSlower

I need a lie down after I finish this…

#ICanNotGetUpToSaveHerFromHerselfAsQuickAsIUsedTo

This bump is becoming a weight and I have to help myself stand up, otherwise I get pains.

#SheKnowsWhatIDoNotLikeHerDoingLikeStandingOnTheCoffeeTableSoSheWatchesMeWhileSheDoesIt

That and sitting on the top cushion of the armchair…

#SheLovesItWhenIGetFreakedOutEnoughToStandUpWhichProbablyDoesNotHelpThings

Sometimes I just ignore her, but I do not know which approach is better. I’m just worried she is going to really hurt herself.

#JustBeforeBedtimeSheSuddenlyWantsToRunAroundAndHaveTiagoChaseHer

Maybe it’s her toothpaste? Someone is playing a mean trick on us.

#IUsuallyGetAnnoyedAsIWantHerToCalmDownAndTheOtherDaySheRanIntoADoorFrameWhileSheWasRunningFromT

The more tired she gets, the clumsier she gets. Fun times.

#ItIsFunnyWhenSheDoesALittleSquealAtBeingChasedAndHasALaughThough

It’s cute, but not just before bedtime.

#MyNanSaysSheIsLikeAnOctopusWithHerArmsInEverythingAsSheIsConstantlyOnTheMoveAndMessingWithMyNansStuff

Nothing is safe anymore. Yesterday she was bashing the house phone with a magnifying glass…

#BabyXsMovementsAreGettingQuitePainfulEspeciallyAtTheFrontOfMyBump

I feel like she would come out through my belly button if she could.

#IThinkBsPlacentaCushionedALotOfHerMovementsWhereasThisTimeThePlacentaIsInADifferentPlaceAndThisBabyIsBigger

*Nervous laugh*

#ASonographerDidSayThatSheHasLongLegsSoMaybeSheIsJustTryingThemOutALot

I’m happy for you sweet, unborn child of mine but it hurts.

#OrMaybeIAmGettingPunchedMoreOrACombinationOfTheTwo

Probably both, plus her doing rolls.

#OrMaybeItIsAllBraxtonHicksAndICanStillNotTellTheDifferentBetweenThemAndGettingKickedAndOrPunched

You’d have thought that I’d know by now, but no.

#IDoOftenMakeANoiseThoughAsItHurtsSoMuch

Some wincing here, some ouches there.

#EspeciallyWhenIAmLyingInBedAndAboutToFallAsleepAndIHaveToTryMyBestNotToCurse

I guess I notice more when I am more relaxed and my guard is down.

#IOftenJustSayToTiagoCanYouTellYourSecondChildToStopBeatingMeUpPlease

I’d love for him to experience pregnancy, even just for one day but oh well.

#ICouldHave11WeeksOfThisPregnancyLeftAndTheBabyIsMeantToDoubleInSizeInTheThirdTrimester

*Nervous laugh*

#IAmABitWorriedAboutAchesAndPainsAsMyBodyIsDefinitelyStartingToFeelTheImpactOfCarryingThisBaby

Writing this now my upper back hurts.

#MyBackHurtsMoreAndMyBumpAchesAndIAmSoTired

I think lifting B doesn’t help things, but that’s why I stretch in the morning and evening.

#BDefinitelyStartedNurseryAtTheRightTimeAsIAmJustBecomingABoringTiredBlob

At first I thought maybe we had signed her up too early, but it was definitely the right decision. She seems to love it too, which is good. T says that she will hug him tight before she goes in, but then is fine.

#MasksAreMandatoryInShopsAndOnPublicTransportAgainThoughIAmNotSureWhyTheyEverStoppedBeingSo

Ergh. I’m too tired to talk about the Government.

#MyGrandIdeaOfTakingBIntoTheCityCentreSeemsToHaveFadedAsIJustWantToBeCarefulAndTheThoughtOfDoingSoIsTooTiring

I do not have the energy to go there via train. I worry that B would get bored anyways.

#TiagoShouldBeCalledForHisBoosterSoonWhenTheAgeDropsAndAsTheGapForTheBoosterHasBeenDroppedFrom6MonthsTo3ItWillNotBeLongUntilICanGetMine

It’s been 2 months since I had mine, so I’m sure by the time it’s 3 months they will have dropped the age so I’m eligible. It’d be good to have it before the baby is born to give her more antibodies and to protect myself in hospital a bit more.

#ICanNotBelieveThatIAmHavingAnotherBabyInTheTimeOfCovidButHereWeAre

It’s been a good time to have kids in a way as I really feel like I’m not missing out on much. It is weird thinking how our lives may be right now if Covid hadn’t happened, but we will never know so there’s no point wasting brain power on it.

31 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

I think my bump is currently bigger than in these photos, but it is hard to tell.

I saw something the other day that said my BMI at the start of my pregnancy was 20.2 this time. The extra scans were unnecessary last time, so I’m glad I didn’t have to worry about that this time – they probably wouldn’t have given me them anyways.

I did read an article the other day about home births having been suspended for a while.

Obviously in the end I did not have a home birth, so it didn’t matter but it was weird not knowing what would happen at the time. Whenever I mentioned to midwives that I wanted a homebirth last time they ask if I want one this time – I’m quite looking forward to a change of scenery in hospital to be fair. (I bet I end up having an accidental home birth…)

With names we agreed on a girl name pretty early for B. We didn’t really discuss it much and in hospital it was weird as Tiago wasn’t able to visit that we didn’t really talk much about names. This time there is also a clear winner for a girl’s name (one we hadn’t even considered for B), though we say we are open to others but I guess it probably will this one. I guess we will have to wait and see. If Baby X does turn out to be a boy, then we are screwed. We really can not decide on a boy’s name…

I have not used the same oil this time. I bought some different oil after B was born, but only started to use it during this pregnancy. It smells so good. Turns out that is meant for pregnancy, but for some reason I thought it was after giving birth. *shrug* My skin hasn’t been so itchy this time which is good.

I swam in the summer, and swimming while pregnant was odd. I didn’t like that it was so uncomfortable to swim on my front. There was a swimming pool at the hotel we stayed at the other week, but I was too tired to try it out. Realistically I don’t think I will be swimming for a while now. We had planned to try to take B as she likes water so much, but yeah it hasn’t happened. Her skin is so sensitive that I don’t like the idea of her in a big bath of chlorine.


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Imitating B Stroking My Hair (29 Weeks / 19th November 2021)

Self-portrait wearing a dark blue top. I am facing away from the camera with my hand touching my hair.
Imitating B Stroking My Hair (29 Weeks / 19th November 2021)
 
#BHasANewThingWhereWhenWePickHerUpSheLikesToStrokeOurHair
#AsAlwaysIWouldLoveToAskHerWhySheDoesItButICanNot
#MaybeItIsAComfortThingOrMaybeSheJustLikesHowItFeels
#ObviouslyTiagoHasLessHairThanMeButSheDoesTouchHisBeardSometimesToo
#ThisMorningSheWasGentlyHoldingMyArmsBeforeIGotHerOutOfHerHighchairWhichWasQuiteSweet
#HerStrokingOurHairDoesMakeMeThinkThatSheIsPettingUsLikeWeAreDogsOrSomething
#TheOtherDayAKidAtThePlaygroundWasPattingBOnTheHeadLikeSheWasALittleDog
#HeKeptSayingHowHeWasTallerThanHerAndIWasLikeYeahJustABitAsYouAreFour
#IKeepDreamingThatBIsRunningAroundOurRoomInTheMiddleOfTheNightLikeWeGotHerUpNotRealisingItWasNotTimeToGetHerUpYet
#TwoNightsAgoSheGotSomethingOnHerHandsWhichIWorriedWasOneOfNansPolishesOrSomething
#ISatUprightAndToldTiagoThatWeNeedToCleanHerHands
#HeSaidWhatAndISaidInAnAnnoyedLoudWhisperYourDaughter
#HeJustRespondedIThinkYouHadADreamAndRolledOverAndWentBackToSleep
#IKeepWakingUpEveryHourOrSoAtTheMomentWhichIsAnnoyingButOhWell
#BHasSleptABitLaterTheLastCoupleOfNightsWhichMakesMeFeelBetterEspeciallyAsMyParentsAreDueToHaveHerThisWeekend
#OurPlanIsToHaveLunchAtOurFavouriteRestaurantThenGoToBuyPicnicStuffAtTheSupermarketThenCheckInAndJustWatchTvEatSleepAndIWantToHaveABath
#IWatchedTheKidsFilmLucaByMyselfOverAFewNightsButIFoundThePlotStressfulAsIRealiseThatIGenerallyWatchToddlersTVWhichIsNotStressfulAtAll
#BDoesNotLikeToWalkToAndFromTheParkMuchAnymoreWhichIsABitOfAReliefInWays
#MaybeSheHasFiguredOutThatWeGetToThePlaygroundQuickerIfSheJustSitsInHerPushchair
#SheWillStartWalkingButThenSlowDownAndIEitherAskHerIfSheWantsToGoInHerPushchairOrSheWillGoNextToIt
#GenerallyByTheTimeWeLeaveThePlaygroundNowItIsQuiteDarkAndWeHaveToRushHomeButIKnowTheDaysAreStillDueToGetShorter
#ThisWeekSheHasGotOnMuchBetterAtNurseryEvenWithARunnyNose
#WeWereNotSureWhetherOrNotToSendHerButWeRealisedThatThereWouldBeNoKidsAtNurseryIfNoOneWasAllowedToBeThereWithARunnyNose
#SheDoesNotCryNowWhenTiagoDropsHerOffAndSheEatsMoreOfHerLunchWhichIsGood
#PregnancyWiseIAmFeelingAlrightButIAmPuttingOffReadingMyHypnobirthingBookWhichIKnowIWillRegret
#IKnowIHaveTimeButIAlsoWorryThatTheBabyMightJustComeSuperEarlySoIShouldGetOnWithIt
#IThinkIHaveSaidBeforeThatIWouldLikeBabyXToBeBornInSomewhereElseAsTWasBornInPortugalBWasBornInLiverpoolAndIWasBornInBirminghamAndSoWillBabyX
#HoweverIRealisedThatTiagoIsAlsoTechnicallyAScouserAsHeGotHisBritishCitizenshipInLiverpoolSoOurFamilyWillBeTwoScousersAndTwoBrummies
#IWantBabyXToLookLikeBButBAlsoLooksALotLikeTiagoSoIWouldLikeXToLookABitMoreLikeMe
#MyNanGotSomeBabyPhotosOutYesterdayThoughAndYouCanSeeAResemblanceBetweenBAndMeAtTimesWhichIsNiceAndSheStillHasALotOfGrowingToDo

#BHasANewThingWhereWhenWePickHerUpSheLikesToStrokeOurHair

This morning she was also messing with mine as I lay down next to her, while she watched TV.

#AsAlwaysIWouldLoveToAskHerWhySheDoesItButICanNot

Why does B do anything and everything? I would love to know. Obviously I can ask her, but I will not get much of a response.

#MaybeItIsAComfortThingOrMaybeSheJustLikesHowItFeels

Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.

#ObviouslyTiagoHasLessHairThanMeButSheDoesTouchHisBeardSometimesToo

Cute.

#ThisMorningSheWasGentlyHoldingMyArmsBeforeIGotHerOutOfHerHighchairWhichWasQuiteSweet

I think she is just discovering about bodies and is showing some interest. It makes sense.

#HerStrokingOurHairDoesMakeMeThinkThatSheIsPettingUsLikeWeAreDogsOrSomething

Yesterday I asked Tiago to pretend to be a dog for her, which soon changed into a horse and B got some rides around the living room which she loved.

#TheOtherDayAKidAtThePlaygroundWasPattingBOnTheHeadLikeSheWasALittleDog

B was just smiling at him and found it funny.

#HeKeptSayingHowHeWasTallerThanHerAndIWasLikeYeahJustABitAsYouAreFour

Well, you can talk, are in school uniform and yeah you told me you are 4.

#IKeepDreamingThatBIsRunningAroundOurRoomInTheMiddleOfTheNightLikeWeGotHerUpNotRealisingItWasNotTimeToGetHerUpYet

It is getting a bit annoying as it just drains my energy. I had lots of dreams last night.

#TwoNightsAgoSheGotSomethingOnHerHandsWhichIWorriedWasOneOfNansPolishesOrSomething

My Nan likes to polish things, and still doesn’t get that B will mess with her stuff.

#ISatUprightAndToldTiagoThatWeNeedToCleanHerHands

There was a lot on her hands and I was worried that she would try to eat it.

#HeSaidWhatAndISaidInAnAnnoyedLoudWhisperYourDaughter

More like YOUR DAUGHTER!

#HeJustRespondedIThinkYouHadADreamAndRolledOverAndWentBackToSleep

I just thought ‘that makes sense’ and also went back to sleep.

#IKeepWakingUpEveryHourOrSoAtTheMomentWhichIsAnnoyingButOhWell

At least I can go back to sleep. I think I am just anticipating B waking up and am intrigued to see the time. I lift my head to look at the clock, then go back to sleep.

#BHasSleptABitLaterTheLastCoupleOfNightsWhichMakesMeFeelBetterEspeciallyAsMyParentsAreDueToHaveHerThisWeekend

She woke up after 6 today. Hurrah. I think it was because her room was quite warm as sometimes I go to get her up and her hands are so cold – not today.

#OurPlanIsToHaveLunchAtOurFavouriteRestaurantThenGoToBuyPicnicStuffAtTheSupermarketThenCheckInAndJustWatchTvEatSleepAndIWantToHaveABath

Originally we were going to have dinner out, but Tiago suggested having lunch out instead and I much prefer that idea. Not having to leave our room from when we check-in until we check-out sounds good to me.

#IWatchedTheKidsFilmLucaByMyselfOverAFewNightsButIFoundThePlotStressfulAsIRealiseThatIGenerallyWatchToddlersTVWhichIsNotStressfulAtAll

I might have watched it quicker if I had not been so stressed out. It might have been over 4 nights… I don’t like to watch trailers so I was quite surprised that the storyline is what it is. I did enjoy it though.

#BDoesNotLikeToWalkToAndFromTheParkMuchAnymoreWhichIsABitOfAReliefInWays

It was a very slow and long walk before…

#MaybeSheHasFiguredOutThatWeGetToThePlaygroundQuickerIfSheJustSitsInHerPushchair

And the playground is way more fun than walking for ages. I think she’s also just realised that the walk is fairly boring, and maybe it is less fun now it is colder as she gets cold hands from holding onto the pushchair while she walks besides it.

#SheWillStartWalkingButThenSlowDownAndIEitherAskHerIfSheWantsToGoInHerPushchairOrSheWillGoNextToIt

Great.

#GenerallyByTheTimeWeLeaveThePlaygroundNowItIsQuiteDarkAndWeHaveToRushHomeButIKnowTheDaysAreStillDueToGetShorter

Ergh. Can’t wait for the evenings to get lighter again. By the time they will be I guess baby X will be of an age where I feel less stressed about taking them both out at least.

#ThisWeekSheHasGotOnMuchBetterAtNurseryEvenWithARunnyNose

Tiago and I feel so proud.

#WeWereNotSureWhetherOrNotToSendHerButWeRealisedThatThereWouldBeNoKidsAtNurseryIfNoOneWasAllowedToBeThereWithARunnyNose

She probably got the runny nose from nursery anyways…

#SheDoesNotCryNowWhenTiagoDropsHerOffAndSheEatsMoreOfHerLunchWhichIsGood

Go B! She settled in quite quick really, but I guess she has started later than a lot of kids do.

#PregnancyWiseIAmFeelingAlrightButIAmPuttingOffReadingMyHypnobirthingBookWhichIKnowIWillRegret

I just read a book about Britney Spears, and now I have a book to read about Karen Carpenter, and ‘Men Who Hate Women’. I do not get on with reading physical books much anymore as I much prefer to read on a screen.

#IKnowIHaveTimeButIAlsoWorryThatTheBabyMightJustComeSuperEarlySoIShouldGetOnWithIt

Excuses. I will start soon. Promise.

#IThinkIHaveSaidBeforeThatIWouldLikeBabyXToBeBornSomewhereElseAsTWasBornInPortugalBWasBornInLiverpoolAndIWasBornInBirminghamAndSoWillBabyX

Something really unimportant that has crossed my mind a few times.

#HoweverIRealisedThatTiagoIsAlsoTechnicallyAScouserAsHeGotHisBritishCitizenshipInLiverpoolSoOurFamilyWillBeTwoScousersAndTwoBrummies

If you ask Tiago where he is from I doubt he will say Liverpool, but whatever.

#IWantBabyXToLookLikeBButBAlsoLooksALotLikeTiagoSoIWouldLikeXToLookABitMoreLikeMe

I’d like for them to look like sisters, but I am selfish and want one kid that looks a bit more like me.

#MyNanGotSomeBabyPhotosOutYesterdayThoughAndYouCanSeeAResemblanceBetweenBAndMeAtTimesWhichIsNiceAndSheStillHasALotOfGrowingToDo

It would be cool if they were both just a good mix of T and me, which DNA wise they are really but we will have to wait and see. Truthfully, I hope they are both more like Tiago though.

29 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

(Apparently I had a productive week back then with 4 photos, but I have put one in my previous post as they both talk about my 28 week appointment.)

Self-portrait where I am facing the right of the image. My hair is wrapped in a towel and my hands are placed on my bump.
It Is Odd That Quite Possibly None Of My Friends Or Family (Besides Tiago) Will See Me Heavily Pregnant In Real Life (29 weeks)
 
#PeopleWarnedUsWhenWeWereTryingToGetPregnantThatWeWouldNeverBeAbleToLeaveTheHouseWhenWeWantedAgain
#IRememberShruggingAtTheTimeAndSayingItDidNotBotherMeMuch
#IHaveAlwaysLikedBookingTicketsForThingsMoreThanGoingToTheThings
#IBookTicketsAndIGetExcited
#ThenOnTheDayTheEventComesRoundIAmAlwaysFeelingTired
#IDoEnjoyEventsButIAmNotThatBothered
#NowIHaveBeenAtHomeFor3WeeksOtherThanGoingForWalks
#AndWhenRestrictionsFinallyLiftIWillNotBeRushingToGoOutForAnythingOtherThanWalks
#TheBabyMayHaveBeenBornAlreadyOrItMayHaveNot
#EitherWayIDoNotEnvisionGoingAnywhereWithTheBabyBesidesWalks
#ItIsOddThatQuitePossiblyNoneOfMyFriendsOrFamilyWillSeeMeHeavilyPregnantInRealLife
#EveryWeekIFeelLikeTheBabyIsGrowingALot
#IDidNotBotherBuyingAnyMoreMaternityClothesThanTheOnesIGotWhenIWas15Weeks
#WhichWereMainlyBrasADressAPairOfLeggingsAndACardigan
#NowIAmJustAtHomeSoIDefinitelyDoNotNeedToGetAnythingElse
#YesterdayISpentTheWholeDayLookingAtBabyStuff
#WeAreJustGoingToHaveToRiskItAndBuyStuffWithoutTrying
#IWouldRatherJustBuyEverythingSoonerRatherThanLaterSoWeDoNotHaveToWorry
#IAmThinkingThatThereIsNoPointBuyingABabyBassinetForThePushchairAsWeWillNotProbablyUseItMuch
#IWouldRatherJustCarryTheBabyInTheBeginning
#ParticularlyToAvoidAnyoneTryingToPeerIntoTheBassinetInsteadOfKeepingTheirDistance
#WeStillDoNotKnowIfItIsAGirlOrABoy
#IOftenForgetItHasAGenderWhichIsWeirdToSay
#IJustReferToThemAsTheBabyOrThem
#WhereasTiagoUsuallyStartsTalkingToTheBumpWithMyBabyBoy
#AndThenICoughInANonCovidWayAndHeSaysOrMyBabyGirl
#HeStillWantsToFindOutBeforeTheBirth
#IWantToWait
#IAmSupposedToBeHavingMoreScansButIHaveNotReceivedALetterRecently
#AndIDoNotFeelLikeChasingThemUpAsIWouldRatherAvoidGoingToTheHospitalIfICan

I was meant to say that it has been weird this time round having strangers comment on my bump like ‘so she’s going to be a big sister then?’ When I was pregnant with B I didn’t talk to random people in the street and we rarely saw anyone that we knew.

I was thinking the other day how I am really not bothered about going to events like gigs and things. If someone offered me a ticket where I got to stand on the side of the stage or got a good seated ticket then sure, but the idea of going to something is so unappealing these days.

This time round I haven’t bought any maternity clothes and am mainly just wearing the dress I bought when I was pregnant with B, the bras from then and Uniqlo leggings as they’re so stretchy and comfortable.

We did buy some baby nappies and cotton wool as I needed to order some vitamins for B and wanted to reach the amount for free postage and packaging, so thought I might as well buy some.

We’ve been told baby X is a girl, but I am still skeptical and will probably continue to be until they are born and we will see.

If the baby had not presented in the scan then we would have probably had to wait until the birth to find out as we do not have any more scans now. We are debating having a private one but I doubt we will.

I am stood facing the camera and it is a crop from my breasts to just above my pubic area. My hands are on the sides of my bump, and Tiago's hands are reaching in from the right side of the image and are cupping the top and bottom of my bump.
Tiago Says It Reminds Him Of Pictures Where People Are Holding A Globe (29 weeks)

#IKeepWakingUpInTheNight
#ForACoupleOfNightsItWasBefore2am
#ButLastNightTiagoGaveMeAnUpperBackMassageAndIDidNotWakeUpUntil4am
#SoMaybeItWasTheMassageOrMaybeItWasACoincidence
#IHadSomeHipPainWhenIWokeUp
#ThinkItWasBecauseIHadLayOnOneSideSinceFallingAsleep
#TurningOverIsBecomingMoreOfAChore
#AsWellAsBendingDownToPickThingsUp
#WhilstHeMassagedMeWeWatchAHypnobirthingVideoAboutDueDates
#HopefullyNowTiagoWillStopTalkingAboutMyDueDateLikeTheBabyIsActuallyComingThatDay
#AsApparentlyOnly4PercentArriveOnTheirDueDate
#ThoughSomethingLike85PercentOfFirstTimeMumsGiveBirthAfter40Weeks
#ItSaidToStopTalkingLikeMyBabyIsComingByTheDueDate
#AndBeMoreLikeFromTheDueDate
#ToBeFairIKnewThat42WeeksIsNormal
#ItWillComeWhenItIsReady
#IHaveBeenTryingToGetTiagoToDoExerciseVideosForAFewWeeksNow
#ForTheLastCoupleOfDaysHeHasBeenDoingMineWithMe
#WhichIsGoodAsIHaveBeenDoingTheSameFewVideosForMonthsNow
#AndINeedABitOfMotivation
#HeSaidHeSleptWellLastNightAndHeThinksItWasBecauseOfTheBedtimeYogaVideoThatWeDid
#WeWillSeeHowLongHeDoesThemWithMe
#IThinkHeMightGetBoredOfMeDoingTheSameOnes
#WeNearlyPutAPauseOnTryingToGetPregnantAsHeWasMeantToBeTheBestManAtAWeddingThisSummer
#WeDecidedNotToAsWeWereLikeWellItHasNotHappenedYetSoItMightNotAnyways
#ObviouslyWeWereNotExpectingAPandemic
#NowTheWeddingIsPostponedUntilNextYear
#WhichIsAnnoyingForThemButGoodForMeAsWeWillBeAbleToGoAsAFamily
#AndIWasABitWorriedAboutPotentiallyBeingHomeAloneWithANewborn
#AsItIsTwoFlightsAwayAndItIsBadEnoughDoingThatSometimesWithJustTheTwoOfUs

Well, the wakings are nothing new then but I think it is more B related this time than pregnancy related.

I had forgotten that Tiago used to give me back massages when I was pregnant with B – I may have to remind him. I seem to have less pain this time – I think sleeping on a better mattress may have a lot to do with it, but I do also stretch in the morning and evening and have done since finding out I was pregnant.

I really thought that I would be a 42 weeker, so I was very surprised that B came before 38 weeks. This time I plan to start going to bed early from 37 weeks, but I will probably be a 42 weeker this time.

We were due to go to 2 weddings that summer. I think the one I mentioned here has been delayed for a bit longer, but one took place this August and we did go.

Self-portrait where I am leaning on a table. I am cupping my chin in my left hand and my right hand is touching my left elbow. I am slightly facing the left side of the image and am staring off.
Eating Almond Butter Is My Daily Highlight Right Now (29 and a half weeks)
 
#TheLastCoupleOfWeeksIHaveNoticedThatIHaveHadAFewBadEvenings
#LastWeekIWasCrankyTwoNightsInARow
#AndLastNightIJustFeltDown
#IFeltDownInTheEveningProbablyACoupleOfWeeksAgo
#IWasCryingAndIDidNotReallyKnowWhy
#IJustFeltOverwhelmed
#IFeelMoreTiredInTheAfternoonThanTheEvenings
#ButMaybeByTheEveningsIAmMoreMentallyTired
#AfterISleepIWakeUpFeelingFine
#IThinkTheMassageMakingMeSleepLaterWasJustACoincidence
#LastNightIWokeUpAt1amThen4amThen6am
#AtLeastNowIDoNotHaveToWorryAboutCommuting
#AndTheWakingUpInTheNightIsPreparationForWhatIsToCome
#IFeltDownLastNightAgainBecauseIThinkIWasOverwhelmed
#IWantToChatWithPeopleButIJustFindItKindOfExhausting
#SeeingMessagesToReplyToMakesMeFeelABitAnxious
#PeopleAskingMeWhenIAmDue
#IDoJustNotWantItToGetToTheTimeWhenIAmDueAndBeGettingLotsOfMessagesAskingMeForBabyNews
#IWillTellPeopleWhenIAmReady
#WhichCouldBeSoonAfterTheBirthOrItMightNot
#SoIfYouHaveAskedAndIHaveToldYouInAnObviousOrVagueWayPleaseDoNotBugMe
#IfYouHaveNotAskedThenPleaseDoNotAskMe
#MyHighlightOfTheDayAtTheMomentIsWhenIEatAnAppleAndABananaWithNutButter
#ThisHasBeenMyDailyHighlightForAtLeastAWeek
#IReadThatEatingNutsInYourFirstTrimesterIsReallyGoodForTheBaby
#ButICouldNotEatThemAsIHadAnAversionToThem
#HopefullyItWillHelpABitNowButMaybeIAmEatingTooMuchAndItHasTheOppositeEffect
#IAmJustEatingItBecauseILoveIt
#WeCouldNotGetBananasTheOtherDayButTiagoGotSomeToday
#IEnjoyThisTreatMoreThanOurWalksAsWeWalkTheSameRouteAllTheTimeAndPeopleStressMeOutAsTheyDoNotSeemToKnowWhat2MetresIs

Well, in the end B was so early that no one had sent me a message asking if she had arrived yet. That was good.

I feel less awkward about people asking me this time, though I still would rather be left in peace about it.

Weirdly I have got quite into nut butters again in the last week or so. I actually might go and eat some after writing this. I’ve been making B cookies which are oats, bananas and nut butters, and enjoying them a lot.

I also generally just walk the same routes now, but with B so it is more interesting and we stop and chat to a few people. I definitely feel like we are more part of the community now than when we lived in Liverpool, which is nice. Tiago is generally working so maybe he does not feel the same, but I think he likes that we know a few more people at least.


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Imitating B Drinking Tea With A Comb (26 Weeks / 30th October 2021)

Diptych. First image is me dipping a comb into a mug. In the second image I am imitating B drinking tea off the comb.
Imitating B Drinking Tea With A Comb (26 Weeks / 30th October 2021)
 
#TheOtherMorningIExplainedToBAboutCombsAndSheCombedMyHairABit
#ThenInTheAfternoonICaughtHerDippingTheCombIntoMyNansCupOfTeaAndThenPuttingItInHerMouth
#ThisMorningSheTriedToBrushMyHairWithADustpanBrush
#SheSeemsToBeAdaptingAlrightToOneNapADayRoutineAndNowIWishIHadMovedHerToItSooner
#SheDoesStartYawningQuiteEarlySoITryToTakeHerOutForAWalkOrSomethingThoughYesterdaySheFellAsleepOnTheSwingBriefly
#SheLikesToWalkHoldingOntoHerPushchairNowSoITryToTireHerOutAndSheTendsToEatMoreLunchIfSheHasWalkedALot
#SheHasAnEarlyLunchOfElevenThirtyNowAndThenHasASnackAfterSheWakesUp
#BoringStuffLikeMostOfMyHashtagsButThisIsTheStuffThatDominatesMyThoughts
#SheGetsUpsetIfIPickHerUpToCrossTheRoadSoWeHaveToWaitForTheTrafficToClear
#TheOtherDayACarStoppedAndIWasHoldingOntoBWithOneHandAndHerPushchairWithTheOtherAsIfIPutTheBrakeOnItDoesNotComeOff
#TheCarBeepedAtUsSoIHadToDoAMassiveHeadJerkToSayDriveOn
#BLikesToWaveAtPeopleAsSheWalksByJustLiftingHerHand
#ItLooksABitMoreLikeASaluteSoINeedToBeCarefulAboutImitatingIt
#ILoveHerPerseveranceAsIfSomeoneDoesNotWaveBackSheTriesAFewMoreTimesThenMakesANoiseAtThem
#IFeelLikeWeAreStartingToSettleIntoTheLocalCommunityMoreAndWeRecogniseMorePeopleOnOurWalks
#SheDoesNotSeemToWaveAtPeopleWeKnowThoughWhichIsFunny
#YesterdayBWavedAtAWomanAndSheSaidOhSheMustHaveMeConfusedWithSomeoneElseButISaidNoSheOnlyWavesAtStrangers
#SometimesSheMilksItAndJustKeepsWavingAtTheSamePersonWithACombinationOfOneAndTwoHands
#IHaveNoticedThatMorePeopleInteractWithUsWhenSheIsWalkingComparedToWhenSheIsInHerPushchair
#AFiveMinuteWalkDoesTakeUsAboutHalfAnHourEspeciallyIfSheStopsToStareAtDogsAndRunUpAndDownTinyHills
#ThisWeekSomeBoysHadABallInThePlaygroundAndTheyWereReallyNiceAboutLettingHerPlayWithItWhichReallyWarmedMyHeart
#WhenSheGetsTiredNowHerLegsTurnToJellyAndSheFallsOverALot
#TalkingOfJellyICanNowSeeMyBumpWobbleWithKicks
#SheSeemsALotMoreActiveThanBWasButMaybeItIsDownToWhereThePlacentaIsAndMyMemory
#IAmDefinitelyGettingBiggerAsNowISeemToMisjudgeGapsAndKnockMyBumpIntoThings
#YesterdayIHeardTiagoWalkingUpTheStairsAndThrewMyselfOntoTheBedToPretendIWasAsleep
#OfCourseIForgotAboutMyBumpAndLandedOnItSoThatWasUncomfortable
#IAlsoHadATubeOfTomatoPureeFallOutOfTheFridgeOntoItSoSorryBabyXIfIHurtYouAtAllYesterday
#ICanNotWaitForBToFeelAKickButSheStillDoesNotSeemThatInterestedInMyBumpAndProbablyThinksIAmBeingSillyWhenITellHerABabyIsInside
#HoweverSheDidUseItAsAPillowTheOtherDayWhenWeWereChilling
Gif of the two previous images, showing me putting the comb in a mug and then pretending to drink tea off the comb.
Imitating B Drinking Tea With A Comb (26 Weeks / 30th October 2021) (GIF)

#TheOtherMorningIExplainedToBAboutCombsAndSheCombedMyHairABit

I rarely brush my hair, and wash it, so it was a bit of a task for her, but she seemed to enjoy it anyways.

#ThenInTheAfternoonICaughtHerDippingTheCombIntoMyNansCupOfTeaAndThenPuttingItInHerMouth

Does drinking tea from a comb make you more or less British?

#ThisMorningSheTriedToBrushMyHairWithADustpanBrush

Great. I nearly let her do it, then my common sense kicked in. I really can’t be bothered to wash my hair much lately…

#SheSeemsToBeAdaptingAlrightToOneNapADayRoutineAndNowIWishIHadMovedHerToItSooner

Typically I put it off and then it goes alright. I think we did it at the right time though as she had been taking two naps quite well for a while.

#SheDoesStartYawningQuiteEarlySoITryToTakeHerOutForAWalkOrSomethingThoughYesterdaySheFellAsleepOnTheSwingBriefly

We went to meet a pregnant woman that I had been speaking to via an app. On the way I was rattling the toy on B’s pushchair to keep her awake.

B seems to like the swing more now, but I think all the walking tires her out. She was quite happy just being on the swing for ages while we chatted.

#SheLikesToWalkHoldingOntoHerPushchairNowSoITryToTireHerOutAndSheTendsToEatMoreLunchIfSheHasWalkedALot

She walks quite a lot now. I do have to pick her up at times, which isn’t good for bump but sometimes I have to. Sometimes she is so wet from the rain that I do not want to put her in her pushchair, and she doesn’t want to get in it anyways.

#SheHasAnEarlyLunchOfElevenThirtyNowAndThenHasASnackAfterSheWakesUp

I think I need to start giving her a bigger snack and she is starting to get more hangry before dinner.

#BoringStuffLikeMostOfMyHashtagsButThisIsTheStuffThatDominatesMyThoughts

Yeah, this is my life. I don’t think anyone reads this anyways so whatever.

#SheGetsUpsetIfIPickHerUpToCrossTheRoadSoWeHaveToWaitForTheTrafficToClear

Sometimes I do pick her up and it’s a struggle to cross the road with her wriggling, and to push the pushchair.

#TheOtherDayACarStoppedAndIWasHoldingOntoBWithOneHandAndHerPushchairWithTheOtherAsIfIPutTheBrakeOnItDoesNotComeOff

There were a couple of other people waiting, so I though they’d go and we’d just wait.

#TheCarBeepedAtUsSoIHadToDoAMassiveHeadJerkToSayDriveOn

It was so awkward. They couldn’t see B from where they were in the car though.

#BLikesToWaveAtPeopleAsSheWalksByJustLiftingHerHand

Cute.

#ItLooksABitMoreLikeASaluteSoINeedToBeCarefulAboutImitatingIt

Not so cute.

#ILoveHerPerseveranceAsIfSomeoneDoesNotWaveBackSheTriesAFewMoreTimesThenMakesANoiseAtThem

A young woman yesterday was walking looking at her phone. B tried to get her attention a few times with a wave, then made a noise at her while waving, but she was either in her own world or ignoring us. I don’t blame her.

I told B to not lose her friendliness and to keep persisting with her waving, though I doubt she understood me.

#IFeelLikeWeAreStartingToSettleIntoTheLocalCommunityMoreAndWeRecogniseMorePeopleOnOurWalks

I think I’ve said it before, but it’s nice.

#SheDoesNotSeemToWaveAtPeopleWeKnowThoughWhichIsFunny

She generally just hides from them, especially if they have dogs that have barked in the past. Yesterday a couple of dogs we know were barking, and although B jumped she did not cry which is good.

#YesterdayBWavedAtAWomanAndSheSaidOhSheMustHaveMeConfusedWithSomeoneElseButISaidNoSheOnlyWavesAtStrangers

Big lol. She was pushing a shopping trolley bag, and I realised one would not be a bad idea with B. She can push it along and then when she gets tired I can just put her inside. I probably won’t do this…

#SometimesSheMilksItAndJustKeepsWavingAtTheSamePersonWithACombinationOfOneAndTwoHands

This happened a couple of days ago, but the woman was sweet and indulged her. And then when we met ‘the pregnant lady’ B kept waving bye.

#IHaveNoticedThatMorePeopleInteractWithUsWhenSheIsWalkingComparedToWhenSheIsInHerPushchair

‘Oh, isn’t he a good walker.’ (Everyone just assumes she’s a boy.)

#AFiveMinuteWalkDoesTakeUsAboutHalfAnHourEspeciallyIfSheStopsToStareAtDogsAndRunUpAndDownTinyHills

Probably more to be fair. There does seem to be a fine line between tiring B out and her getting overtired, but hopefully over time she will adapt.

#ThisWeekSomeBoysHadABallInThePlaygroundAndTheyWereReallyNiceAboutLettingHerPlayWithItWhichReallyWarmedMyHeart

‘Warmed my heart’ – lol. It’s true though. I was a bit like ‘oh B, don’t play with that it’s not yours’, but they were really kind. They were probably 10 or something? I really can’t age kids.

#WhenSheGetsTiredNowHerLegsTurnToJellyAndSheFallsOverALot

This happened a bit before, but is more obvious now with just the one nap a day.

#TalkingOfJellyICanNowSeeMyBumpWobbleWithKicks

It’s funny. Still trying to get B to notice…

#SheSeemsALotMoreActiveThanBWasButMaybeItIsDownToWhereThePlacentaIsAndMyMemory

She’s moving now. It’s good though as it’s reassuring.

#IAmDefinitelyGettingBiggerAsNowISeemToMisjudgeGapsAndKnockMyBumpIntoThings

‘I can fit through that – oww.’

#YesterdayIHeardTiagoWalkingUpTheStairsAndThrewMyselfOntoTheBedToPretendIWasAsleep

I was super tired to be fair. I couldn’t tell if my computer was playing up or if it was my eyes.

#OfCourseIForgotAboutMyBumpAndLandedOnItSoThatWasUncomfortable

Whoops. I then had to roll over a bit and was just lying weirdly when he entered the room.

#IAlsoHadATubeOfTomatoPureeFallOutOfTheFridgeOntoItSoSorryBabyXIfIHurtYouAtAllYesterday

It was a bit spikey… I think she is quite well protected though.

#ICanNotWaitForBToFeelAKickButSheStillDoesNotSeemThatInterestedInMyBumpAndProbablyThinksIAmBeingSillyWhenITellHerABabyIsInside

She’s still got a bit of time to adapt to the idea. She likes to look at babies in the park, but let’s see how much she likes having one at home all the time.

#HoweverSheDidUseMyBumpAsAPillowTheOtherDayWhenWeWereChilling

See, your sister is useful B. I’m still not 100% sure it’s a girl – I saw a newspaper article about a woman who was told she was pregnant with 2 girls and a boy and she ended up having boy triplets.

26 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait where I am naked from my breasts down. I am showing off a bump and my left hand is touching my back.
Today We Saw The Baby Move For The First Time (26 and a half weeks)
 
#WellThisMorningWasExciting
#IWasWorriedThatIHadNotFeltTheBabyMoveLastNightOrThisMorning
#IWasLyingInBedFaffingOnMyPhoneWithMyTopUp
#AndISawMyBellyMove
#IThoughtIHadNotSeenIt
#SoIJustLayThereWatchingMyBelly
#ItMovedAndIGasped
#WhoNeedsTVWhenYouHaveABump
#ItIsQuiteMeditativeJustWatchingIt
#AtOnePointThereWasAStrangeShapeByMyBellyButton
#SoITouchedIt
#ItMustHaveBeenAHandOrFootAsItThenWentAway
#SoCool
#ButSoWeird
#LastNightIWokeUpInTheNightAndStretchedMyLegOut
#ThenIGotAReallyPainfulCrampInMyLeg
#ITouchedWhereItHurt
#AndIThoughtIFeltALumpWhichFreakedMeOut
#ThoughIThinkItWasJustMyMuscleAndIWasHalfAsleep
#IHaveNotTouchedMyLegsInAWhile
#IGuessIAmGivingMyBumpAllTheAttention
#MyLegsAreGettingMuscly
#PostedAPictureTodayWhereIThoughtItLookedLikeIHaveABumpAtTheTime
#ItLooksLikeNothing
#EspeciallyComparedToNow
#ITookASimilarPictureToThisOnly4WeeksAgo
#AndIFeelLikeTheChangeIsQuiteDifferent
#LookingThroughThePicturesOfThisProjectTheBumpJustKindOfSuddenlyAppears
#AndDoesNotStop
#InterestedToSeeHowMyBumpWillLookJustBeforeIGiveBirth

Okay, so seeing my belly move started around the same time.

I have noticed a few strange shapes too. I guess she is getting bigger. (My app says the size of a swede – 35.6cm in length, that is quite long.)

I haven’t noticed any lumps in my legs with cramps this time, but I had forgot about this. The other night I had a cramp and just swung my leg out of bed to stand up and it was less painful than normal. Win.

I feel torn with this project as I love imitating B, but I also want more bump photos. I guess my next shoot can be a bump image…


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Imitating B Putting Her Head Against A Mirror (26 Weeks / 26th October 2021)

Self-portrait where I am resting my head on a mirror and looking at myself.
Imitating B Putting Her Head Against A Mirror (26 Weeks / 26th October 2021)
 
#IfBSeesAMirrorForSomeReasonSheHasToButtHeadsWithItOrBangOnItOrAtLeastRestHerHeadOnIt
#IAmStillTryingToFigureOutIfSheKnowsItIsHerInTheMirrorOrNot
#IfISeeAMirrorAndIAmCarryingHerThenIUsuallyWaveAtHerSoIThinkSheMustKnowButWhoKnows
#FiveDaysAgoIWroteInMyHashtagRemindersThatMaybeItIsTimeToDropBDownToOneNapADayButIWasFeelingHesitantAsILikeOurRoutines
#WellWeWentAwayAtTheWeekendAndBDidNotHaveASecondNapOnTheFridaySaturdayAndSunday
#ThenYesterdayIPutHerDownForHerFirstNapAndSheWasNotFallingAsleepSoIGotHerBackUpAndThenGaveHerANapAtMiddayInstead
#LastNightSheWasAwakeFromMidnightToTwoishAndThenWokeUpAtFiveThirtySoIPutHerInOurBed
#IDoNotLikeToDoItMuchButSheDidActuallySleepForAnotherHourThoughMySleepWasVeryUnsettledAsIWasWorriedAboutSquishingHerOrSomething
#StayingInAHotelStressedMeOutAsEverytimeSheCriedIWasWorriedThatItWouldAnnoyPeople
#IBarelySleptOnTheFridayNightAndOnTheSaturdayMorningWePutHerInOurBedFromFiveishAndSheSleptALittleBitLonger
#IAmWorriedThatWeAreUndoingHerSleepTrainingButMaybeSheIsJustTeethingAndABitClingierThoughOnSundayNightSheSleptFine
#ItWasWeirdGoingToAPhotographyWeekendAndTiagoAndBJoiningMeAsMyTwoWorldsRarelyCollide
#ItWasFunnyTalkingToPhotoFriendsAndThenSeeingThemWalkingTowardsMeAsItJustSeemedSoOdd
#IAmGoingToHaveToAdjustToThisNewOneNapScheduleButOnceWeDoIThinkItWillBeForTheBetterAsWeCanGoOutForLonger
#ThoughIAmWorriedAboutTheDarkEveningsAsIWillNotBeAbleToTakeHerOutLikeIUsuallyDoSoWeMightFeelABitStuckAtHome
#IWillJustHaveToAdjustWhenITakeHerOutForWalksAndMaybeWeWillJustHaveToDoSomeWalksInTheDarkWithTiagoOnTheNightsThatFeelLonger
#LastWeekIHadAMidwivesAppointmentAndIHadToTakeBWithMeButItWasAllFineAndTheBabyIsFine
#HerDueDateIsAFewDaysBeforeMineIThinkSoIWillNotSeeHerAgainAsSheWillBeWorkingFromHome
#SheSaidAsItIsNotMyFirstBabyThe31WeekAppointmentIsOptionalButISaidIMightAsWellHaveIt
#ThatMorningIWasChangingBsNappyAndThenICouldNotFindHerNappyCreamThoughIKnewIHadGotItBeforeSettingUpAChangingStation
#SoIWentOffToLookForItAndBStoodUpAndPissedOnTheFloorAndThenManagedToSlipOverInItSoWhenITookHerVestOffTheBackOfHerHeadWasWet
#SorryToBIfThisIsTooMuchButIFoundItFunnyAndSoIHadToGiveHerABathWhichMightHaveBeenHerFirstMorningBath
#IAmSureThisMorningThatShePointedToMyBellyAndThenDidAnImpressionOfItWithHerHand
#MyMumAndNanBothSaidMyBumpLooksALotBiggerTodaySoMaybeBNoticedToo
#WithHerNewScheduleIAmGoingToHaveToSeeIfICanDoABitOfWorkWhileShePlaysNextToMe
#IDoNotKnowWhyIFeelBadForDoingThisAsIAmSureALotOfOtherPeopleDoItToo
#YesterdayWeWereInMineAndTsBedroomAndISawAStackOfStuffNextToTheMirror
#ILookedAtItAndThoughtMaybeIShouldMoveItButDecidedItShouldBeFineButThen5MinutesLaterBHadKnockedItOverSoIHadToMoveIt
#IAmGettingQuiteNervousAboutHavingTwoKidsInAFewMonthsOrSo
#SometimesIGetWorriedAboutLackOfMovementsButThenSheStartsMovingALotAndTiagoCouldFeelHerKickingMeLastNight

#IfBSeesAMirrorForSomeReasonSheHasToButtHeadsWithItOrBangOnItOrAtLeastRestHerHeadOnIt

I really wish she could talk so she could explain things to me. Maybe she likes that it feels cold?

#IAmStillTryingToFigureOutIfSheKnowsItIsHerInTheMirrorOrNot

I thought she had known for ages, then I read in a development thing that is a more recent ‘skill’ that they learn.

#IfISeeAMirrorAndIAmCarryingHerThenIUsuallyWaveAtHerSoIThinkSheMustKnowButWhoKnows

I think she knows. Again, I can’t ask her.

#FiveDaysAgoIWroteInMyHashtagRemindersThatMaybeItIsTimeToDropBDownToOneNapADayButIWasFeelingHesitantAsILikeOurRoutines

Things were just working. I did note that maybe it would stop her early mornings though.

I send reminders to myself of what I might want to talk about in my hashtags. I am starting to think that they are just super dull, but I am tired.

#WellWeWentAwayAtTheWeekendAndBDidNotHaveASecondNapOnTheFridaySaturdayAndSunday

Friday I just thought she would not have a long enough nap before going to an appointment, and then going away so we might as well just try to leave as early as possible.

Saturday – She had her morning nap at a good time, then Tiago took her back to the hotel for a nap and she didn’t take it. Maybe it was because she knew T was in the room, but he had been there in the morning too?

Sunday – We left early so B and I could sleep in the car. Then we were meeting friends I could not be bothered to even try to get B to have a nap on the go. To be fair she showed no signs of being tired and wouldn’t even sit in her pushchair…

#ThenYesterdayIPutHerDownForHerFirstNapAndSheWasNotFallingAsleepSoIGotHerBackUpAndThenGaveHerANapAtMiddayInstead

I just realised ‘what am I doing? I should just transition her to one nap now’ as I didn’t think she would end up having a very long second nap anyways.

#LastNightSheWasAwakeFromMidnightToTwoishAndThenWokeUpAtFiveThirtySoIPutHerInOurBed

I was hoping she would sleep late as she was awake for so long.

I went in with her water and paracetamol and she seemed fine, until every time I went to leave. Tiago went in after a bit and stayed with her until she calmed down.

This morning I was not ready to get her up, and she seemed tired so putting her in our bed seemed like the easier option.

#IDoNotLikeToDoItMuchButSheDidActuallySleepForAnotherHourThoughMySleepWasVeryUnsettledAsIWasWorriedAboutSquishingHerOrSomething

My maternity pillow acted as a barrier so she was stuck on my side of the bed. She did cuddle up to me which was cute. When she went to Tiago’s side after an hour-ish I realised what an uncomfortable position I had been in.

#StayingInAHotelStressedMeOutAsEverytimeSheCriedIWasWorriedThatItWouldAnnoyPeople

The hotel reviews were really mixed, but it was nice. The staff were super friendly and the bed wasn’t bad.

#IBarelySleptOnTheFridayNightAndOnTheSaturdayMorningWePutHerInOurBedFromFiveishAndSheSleptALittleBitLonger

Every time she woke up I sat upright and stressed. Again, it seemed like an easier option to just put her in our bed.

#IAmWorriedThatWeAreUndoingHerSleepTrainingButMaybeSheIsJustTeethingAndABitClingierThoughOnSundayNightSheSleptFine

She had a similar bad sleep episode a week ago (awake for 2 hours in the night etc.) I don’t want to keep giving her paracetamol but she has been putting her fingers in her mouth a lot and she does seem to have a bit of a cold again.

#ItWasWeirdGoingToAPhotographyWeekendAndTiagoAndBJoiningMeAsMyTwoWorldsRarelyCollide

Obviously I photograph them, so my worlds collide then but I mean colliding in real life – it was weird.

#ItWasFunnyTalkingToPhotoFriendsAndThenSeeingThemWalkingTowardsMeAsItJustSeemedSoOdd

It was nice to introduce B to people, though when she was getting tired one night she kept falling over, so Tiago had to keep taking her out of the room.

#IAmGoingToHaveToAdjustToThisNewOneNapScheduleButOnceWeDoIThinkItWillBeForTheBetterAsWeCanGoOutForLonger #ThoughIAmWorriedAboutTheDarkEveningsAsIWillNotBeAbleToTakeHerOutLikeIUsuallyDoSoWeMightFeelABitStuckAtHome

We will have to see. I am really not looking forward to the clocks changing.

#IWillJustHaveToAdjustWhenITakeHerOutForWalksAndMaybeWeWillJustHaveToDoSomeWalksInTheDarkWithTiagoOnTheNightsThatFeelLonger

The time of her one nap means we do have a lot of time in the morning, and hopefully we can go out after her nap before it gets dark.

I’m not sure how safe it will be walking around with B at night, but I know people with dogs who are already trying to figure out a route. Some nights we might feel like we have to get out for a bit. I definitely wouldn’t go out with B by myself though.

#LastWeekIHadAMidwivesAppointmentAndIHadToTakeBWithMeButItWasAllFineAndTheBabyIsFine

She was listening for a heartbeat and I could feel the baby kicking so I wasn’t too worried then.

#HerDueDateIsAFewDaysBeforeMineIThinkSoIWillNotSeeHerAgainAsSheWillBeWorkingFromHome

Shame as I like her.

#SheSaidAsItIsNotMyFirstBabyThe31WeekAppointmentIsOptionalButISaidIMightAsWellHaveIt

It’s not too far to go and I’d rather just go for an extra check and know things are okay.

#ThatMorningIWasChangingBsNappyAndThenICouldNotFindHerNappyCreamThoughIKnewIHadGotItBeforeSettingUpAChangingStation #SoIWentOffToLookForItAndBStoodUpAndPissedOnTheFloorAndThenManagedToSlipOverInItSoWhenITookHerVestOffTheBackOfHerHeadWasWet

Of course the cream had just rolled away and was under the step ladder next to us.

#SorryToBIfThisIsTooMuchButIFoundItFunnyAndSoIHadToGiveHerABathWhichMightHaveBeenHerFirstMorningBath

Sorry B. I’m sure most people have slipped over in their piss at least once in their life. If they say no then they’re probably lying. I don’t remember doing it, but I might well have done at your age.

I was hoping to get away with not giving her a bath, but nope. Then I was hoping to just wash the back of her head, but she had splashed so much that I just washed all her hair.

#IAmSureThisMorningThatShePointedToMyBellyAndThenDidAnImpressionOfItWithHerHand

Just like ‘you’re this big now’. We’ve seen some friends the last couple of days and their 4 year old son hadn’t even noticed I was pregnant until he gave me a hug last night and I pointed out he was hugging baby X too.

#MyMumAndNanBothSaidMyBumpLooksALotBiggerTodaySoMaybeBNoticedToo

It does seem to have suddenly grown, but I have eaten a lot this weekend and it might be due to where my placenta is or something. I don’t know.

#WithHerNewScheduleIAmGoingToHaveToSeeIfICanDoABitOfWorkWhileShePlaysNextToMe

Yesterday I did manage to prep a blog post. I’m getting a bit over doing this blog to be honest, but I might feel better once I am up to date with putting the images in, writing pregnancy comparisons and tags etc.

#IDoNotKnowWhyIFeelBadForDoingThisAsIAmSureALotOfOtherPeopleDoItToo

It’s good for kids to play by themselves for a bit for sure. Mum guilt is real.

#YesterdayWeWereInMineAndTsBedroomAndISawAStackOfStuffNextToTheMirror #ILookedAtItAndThoughtMaybeIShouldMoveItButDecidedItShouldBeFineButThen5MinutesLaterBHadKnockedItOverSoIHadToMoveIt

Me being lazy… In future I need to trust my health and safety officer instincts. (I’m not one, but I feel like becoming a parent I do notice risks better.)

#IAmGettingQuiteNervousAboutHavingTwoKidsInAFewMonthsOrSo

*Nervous laugh* I’m just trying to go to bed earlier. The last couple of nights I have gone to sleep quite early. This is why I also need to get stuff done while B is awake/during her naps, though yesterday I had to nap during her nap and I imagine it will be the same today.

#SometimesIGetWorriedAboutLackOfMovementsButThenSheStartsMovingALotAndTiagoCouldFeelHerKickingMeLastNight

I feel like I have been writing ‘it’ instead of ‘her’ as sometimes I forget we know, though I will not 100% believe it until she is born.

I just hadn’t had much time to feel her movements as it was such a busy weekend, so it’s always a relief when I feel her moving about.

26 weeks with B comparison:

Self-portrait in my bra and pants where my bump is showing and I am looking up. My hands are resting on the top of my legs.
We Heard The Baby’s Heartbeat For The First Time Today (26 weeks)
 
#IFeelLikeIAmInSomeWeirdBubbleWithThisWholeCoronaVirus
#IAmUsuallyHomeQuiteABitAnyways
#AndInNoRushToGoOut
#ButNowIAmWorkingFromHomeForTheForeseeableFuture
#AndThereIsSomethingAboutNotHavingAnythingToGoOutTo
#WeJustTryToGoForAWalkInTheEveningToBuySomeFruitAndVeg
#TheGoodThingAboutOptingForAHomeBirthIsTheMidwifeVisitsOurFlat
#SheCameYesterdayAndAllWasGood
#SheSaidMyBloodPressureWasLowButInAGoodWay
#SheSaidWhyLowPressureWasGoodButICanNotRememberWhatSheSaid
#SheAskedMeIfIEverFeltDizzy
#ISaidNo
#ButLastNightAndThisMorningMaybeIGotUpTooQuickAndSawColourfulLightsInMyEyes
#SoINeedToBeCareful
#SheNeededToMeasureMyUterus
#ItTookHerAWhileAsSheSaidMyCoreIsSoStrong
#MustBeBecauseOfTheExerciseThatIAmDoingInTheMorningAndNight
#SheSaidThatMyAbdominalMusclesAreStartingToSeparateNowToMakeRoomForTheBabyWhichIsNormal
#IAmGuessingThatIfIKeepOnExercisingAsIHaveThenItWillAllBeFine
#ISaidIAmMoreFlexibleThanIWasBeforeIWasPregnant
#WhichIThoughtWasDownToTheExerciseAndItProbablyIsABit
#ButSheSaidThatHormonesDuringPregnancyWillMakeYouMoreFlexible
#SheAlsoCheckedTheBabysHeartbeat
#TheNightBeforeIWasConcernedAsICouldNotFeelItInTheEvening
#ThoughWhenICompletelyRelaxedIEventuallyDid
#SheSaidThatThePlacentaMightBeAbsorbingTheKicks
#AsItTookAWhileToFindTheBabyAsSheCouldMostlyHearPlacenta
#WhenSheFoundItThoughItWasAGoodQuickHeartbeatLikeItShouldBe
#TiagoWalkedIntoTheRoomAndHeardItTooWhichWasNice
#ThisMorningItWasKickingStrongAndTiagoFeltItALot

I heard the baby X’s heartbeat for the first time weeks ago, so not sure why it took so long with B.

It is weird thinking that at this point with B I was just going for a walk once a day and only seeing Tiago.

I feel like I look stronger in this above picture than I feel right now (at the same phase). I have made an effort to not sit up straight from lying down so hopefully my muscles will not separate so much this time. My midwife did think that I’d have to do physio after having B, but I didn’t have to luckily.

I think my placenta is in a different position this time, which may be why I can feel it kicking more than I did with B. It may also be why my bump looks different, but that might be down to having had a baby before.

As I’m not planning for a homebirth this time I have to go out to appointments, but I seem to have them at good times and it’s good to get out of the house.

Self-portrait with some broken blood vessels visible on my cheeks. I am wearing a purple top that matches the blotches on my cheeks a bit. I am resting my left hand on my chin.
Broken Blood Vessels (26 weeks)
 
#IHaveBeenNoticingBitsOfRedOnMyCheeksForAFewWeeks
#IJustThoughtItWasToDoWithTheColdOutside
#AsUsuallyMySkinGoesABitRubbishInTheWinter
#OrIThoughtItWasASlightAllergicReaction
#YesterdayMorningIHadABitOfRedOnMyFace
#IWentToPhotographItButTiagoWasDoingExerciseInTheBitOfTheLivingRoomWhereIShoot
#AndByTheTimeHeFinishedItHadFaded
#IWalkedForAbout2HoursYesterday
#AndTiagoCommentedThatMyFaceWasQuiteRedLastNight
#ItIsThatTimeOfYearWhereYourBodyFeelsWeirdWhenTheSunGoesDown
#AsItWasQuiteWarmDuringTheDay
#AndThenSuddenlyItIsVeryCold
#SoIThoughtItMightBeToDoWithThat
#ReadingLastNightThoughApparentlyItIsACommonThing
#ToDoWithIncreasedBloodFlowAndBloodVessels
#SometimesTheBloodVesselsBreak
#WhichExplainsWhySometimesThePatchesTakeAFewDaysToDisappear
#TheSkinOnMyChinIsAlsoABitWeird
#WhichIsProbablyToDoWithHormones
#ApparentlyTheBabyIsTheSizeOfAnAcornSquashNow
#AndAbout36cmLong
#IAmAlsoAboutTwoThirdsOfTheWayThrough
#TimeIsFlying
#FeelLikeIShouldStartBuyingMoreThingsOffTheBabyListSoon
#IKeepLookingAtThingsButDoNotWantToCommitToBuyingRightNow
#IAmHopingThatWeWillGetToGoSomewhereToTryOutThePushchairWeWant
#ButWeMightJustHaveToRiskItAndBuyItWithoutTrying
#WillSeeHowThingsAreWhenIAmAround30Weeks
#WeAreLuckyAsWeBothHaveJobsThatSeemRelativelySecure
#WhoKnowsHowLongThingsAreGoingToGoOnFor
 

I have not noticed any broken blood vessels this time, so far.

This time we do not really need to buy anything, though I remembered earlier that soon we will need to buy newborn nappies and things. Fun times ahead…


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Pregnancy Waiting II

Imitating B Wearing My Pants On Her Head (23 Weeks / 9th October 2021)

Self-portrait diptych. I am wearing a black dress with white stripes in both. In the left image I have pants on my head in a way that looks more like a hat. On the right a leg hole follows my nose and shows the left side of my face.
Imitating B Wearing My Pants On Her Head (23 Weeks / 9th October 2021)
 
#IHaveMentionedBeforeThatBLikesToPutThingsOnHerHeadAndOrAroundHerNeck
#AParticularFavouriteIsGettingMyPantsFromTheClothesLineAndPuttingThemOnHerHead
#ItIsFunnyButItAlsoScaresMeABitSoWeNeedToKeepAnEyeOnHerAtAllTimes
#IWishSheCouldSayWhySheLikesToDoItSoMuchButSheIsStillJustBabblingALot
#IFeelLikeIShouldTalkAboutHowIAmFeelingThisPregnancyAsIThinkThatIHaveNotReallySpokenAboutItMuch
#IHaveBeenHavingALotOfDaydreamsWhereSomethingBadHappensToBabyXEitherNowOrAtTheBirth
#OftenIDaydreamForQuiteALongTimeBeforeIRealiseWhatIAmDoingAndSnapMyselfOutOfIt
#SometimesIDoNotFeelTheBabyForQuiteAWhileButIKnowItIsProbablyBecauseIAmRunningAroundAfterB
#ThoughLastNightIThinkICouldFeelHerHiccuppingForAWhileSoThatWasARelief
#IDidNotFeelBMoveThatMuchReallyAndSheHiccuppedALotTooWhichWasAGoodIndicationThatSheWasOkay
#AtLeastBIsAGoodDistractionWhoMakesTimeFlyButIAmStillQuiteAnxiousWithThisPregnancy
#IMessagedMyMidwifeYesterdayAsIHadNotBeenOfferedTheWhoppingCoughVaccineAndSheSaidToCallMyDoctors
#SoIDidThatAndThatWillBeInAFewWeeksAndSheAlsoEmailedMeMyMaternityExemptionCertificate
#TheDoctorsSaidIJustNeedToAskForMyFluVaccineAtTheSameTimeButIDoNotWantToWaitThatLongForIt
#SoIBookedWithAPharmacyToGetThatDoneThisWeekAsIKnowPeopleMyAgeWhoHaveBeenGettingTheFluQuiteBadThisYear
#YesterdayAfterBreakfastIFeltLikeIWasGettingSomeAcidRefluxWhichIHaveNotHadMuchOfYetAndICanFeelItABitNowWhichIThinkMayBeCausedByOrangeJuice
#ReadingAdviceTheySayToEatSmallMealsButOnceIEatIGenerallyCanNotStopSoIThinkTheTimeHasComeToShowSomeRestraint
#MyBumpIsGettingQuiteBigNowAndIFindItHardToImagineHowMuchMoreItCanGrowBeforeTheBabyIsBorn
#SoItMakesSenseThatINeedToEatLittleAndOftenInsteadOfALotAndInfrequently
#LastNightIWasAwakeForAboutTwoHoursFromTwoInTheMorningWhichWasAnnoyingAsIHaveNotHadThatMuchInsomnia
#IWasJustReallyHotAndThirstyAndThenMyBrainWouldNotLetMeGoBackToSleepSoThatWasFun
#IWasMainlyThinkingAboutSendingBToNurseryAndForHowMuchTimeDuringTheWeek
#ItWouldNotBeYetButWeNeedToHaveALookAtThemAndCheckAvailability
#WeSeeAGirlAroundWhoIsTheSameAgeAsBAndTheyGetQuiteExcitedWhenTheySeeEachOther
#SheGoesToTheNurseryThatWeWereLookingAtSoItWouldBeNiceForThemToHangOutMoreAndItIsGoodToHaveARecommendation
#WeWouldProbablyStartOffSendingHerTwoMorningsAWeekInACoupleOfMonthsTimeSoICanHaveSomeTimeToSortOutThingsBeforeBabyXIsBorn
#IWouldRatherSheGoForTwoMorningsThanAFullDayAsAfterAWhileIWouldJustStartToFaff
#TiagoHasStartedToTalkToBumpABitMoreAndFeltSomeMovementLastNight
#HeMadeMeLaughWhenHeWasTellingTheBabyToWakeUpAndSaidWakeyWabyInsteadOfWakeyBaby
#BAlsoMakesMeLaughWithHerEnthusiasmForThingsLikeHerTryingOutTheRampOnHerClimbingFrameByRunningUpAndDownItFiftyTimesPlusLastNight

(Trigger warning: I talk about some of my anxiety during the pregnancy and unpleasant day dreams.)

#IHaveMentionedBeforeThatBLikesToPutThingsOnHerHeadAndOrAroundHerNeck

I think so anyways. The dry skin at the back of her neck has probably been caused by her love of it…

#AParticularFavouriteIsGettingMyPantsFromTheClothesLineAndPuttingThemOnHerHead

I love when she also carries three pairs of my pants around the house too.

#ItIsFunnyButItAlsoScaresMeABitSoWeNeedToKeepAnEyeOnHerAtAllTimes

You can see how kids can easily suffocate themselves on accident…

#IWishSheCouldSayWhySheLikesToDoItSoMuchButSheIsStillJustBabblingALot

It’s probably just because she found she can do it and it usually gets a reaction. Fair enough.

#IFeelLikeIShouldTalkAboutHowIAmFeelingThisPregnancyAsIThinkThatIHaveNotReallySpokenAboutItMuch

I generally plan to, but then end up talking about all the things that B has been up to.

#IHaveBeenHavingALotOfDaydreamsWhereSomethingBadHappensToBabyXEitherNowOrAtTheBirth

Basically, I end up without a second baby.

#OftenIDaydreamForQuiteALongTimeBeforeIRealiseWhatIAmDoingAndSnapMyselfOutOfIt

I imagine the events, the conversations, the feelings, the reactions etc. It’s deep.

#SometimesIDoNotFeelTheBabyForQuiteAWhileButIKnowItIsProbablyBecauseIAmRunningAroundAfterB

I can feel her (I find it weird that I know it’s a girl) moving about now as I am sat writing this, but sometimes I don’t. When B is awake my attention and focus is elsewhere.

#ThoughLastNightIThinkICouldFeelHerHiccuppingForAWhileSoThatWasARelief

I originally wrote them instead of her as I find it weird to say it’s a girl, I think as I didn’t know what B was until she came out.

#IDidNotFeelBMoveThatMuchReallyAndSheHiccuppedALotTooWhichWasAGoodIndicationThatSheWasOkay

Hiccups are reassuring. My Mum said before that my younger sister was the same.

#AtLeastBIsAGoodDistractionWhoMakesTimeFlyButIAmStillQuiteAnxiousWithThisPregnancy

I need to start reading about hypnobirthing again and start mentally preparing myself for the birth. I stretch in the morning and evening, and try to go for a walk or two a day with B so I feel quite strong at least. I just need to get strong mentally.

#IMessagedMyMidwifeYesterdayAsIHadNotBeenOfferedTheWhoppingCoughVaccineAndSheSaidToCallMyDoctors

With B I’m sure they said about booking it quite early on, or maybe I was just on the ball.

#SoIDidThatAndThatWillBeInAFewWeeksAndSheAlsoEmailedMeMyMaternityExemptionCertificate

I’m sure with B they told me to come in the same day, so I was surprised it was a bit of a wait. It’s good that the certificate is not a piece of paper this time – so much more convenient.

#TheDoctorsSaidIJustNeedToAskForMyFluVaccineAtTheSameTimeButIDoNotWantToWaitThatLongForIt

I’m more bothered about getting my flu vaccine now than the whooping cough.

#SoIBookedWithAPharmacyToGetThatDoneThisWeekAsIKnowPeopleMyAgeWhoHaveBeenGettingTheFluQuiteBadThisYear

My Nan got hers at the start of the week. I do not fancy catching the flu.

#YesterdayAfterBreakfastIFeltLikeIWasGettingSomeAcidRefluxWhichIHaveNotHadMuchOfYetAndICanFeelItABitNowWhichIThinkMayBeCausedByOrangeJuice

I’m still loving my hashbrowns and scrambled egg toasted sandwich with a small glass of orange juice.

#ReadingAdviceTheySayToEatSmallMealsButOnceIEatIGenerallyCanNotStopSoIThinkTheTimeHasComeToShowSomeRestraint

I won’t be hungry, but then I’ll just keep eating for ages once I start – especially at lunch.

#MyBumpIsGettingQuiteBigNowAndIFindItHardToImagineHowMuchMoreItCanGrowBeforeTheBabyIsBorn #SoItMakesSenseThatINeedToEatLittleAndOftenInsteadOfALotAndInfrequently

I feel like I am running out of space already.

#LastNightIWasAwakeForAboutTwoHoursFromTwoInTheMorningWhichWasAnnoyingAsIHaveNotHadThatMuchInsomnia

I mentioned it before but it seemed to be a one off, or two night event.

#IWasJustReallyHotAndThirstyAndThenMyBrainWouldNotLetMeGoBackToSleepSoThatWasFun

I thought my Nan had put the heating on, but she hadn’t. By the time I’d checked the thermostat, and gone to the loo I was wide awake.

#IWasMainlyThinkingAboutSendingBToNurseryAndForHowMuchTimeDuringTheWeek

It’s been taking over my brain space for the last 16 hours or so?

#ItWouldNotBeYetButWeNeedToHaveALookAtThemAndCheckAvailability

I’m keen for it to be after B drops down to one nap a day, which isn’t far away, and when baby X isn’t so far away.

#WeSeeAGirlAroundWhoIsTheSameAgeAsBAndTheyGetQuiteExcitedWhenTheySeeEachOther

We see her and her parents at the playground a lot. They’ll see each other from a distance and start smiling and flapping.

#SheGoesToTheNurseryThatWeWereLookingAtSoItWouldBeNiceForThemToHangOutMoreAndItIsGoodToHaveARecommendation

If it’s good enough for her, then it’s good enough for B. Great.

#WeWouldProbablyStartOffSendingHerTwoMorningsAWeekInACoupleOfMonthsTimeSoICanHaveSomeTimeToSortOutThingsBeforeBabyXIsBorn

And just have a bit of time to feel less tired?

#IWouldRatherSheGoForTwoMorningsThanAFullDayAsAfterAWhileIWouldJustStartToFaff

I do not know what I would do for a full day a week without having B around. I have work to do, but it’s more beneficial for it to be two mornings than a whole day. I’d get a lot more done. It’d also break the week up a bit.

#TiagoHasStartedToTalkToBumpABitMoreAndFeltSomeMovementLastNight

He feels the middle of my belly, but I said I feel more movements at the bottom and then he felt something.

#HeMadeMeLaughWhenHeWasTellingTheBabyToWakeUpAndSaidWakeyWabyInsteadOfWakeyBaby

Yeah, not that funny really but we had a good laugh.

#BAlsoMakesMeLaughWithHerEnthusiasmForThingsLikeHerTryingOutTheRampOnHerClimbingFrameByRunningUpAndDownItFiftyTimesPlusLastNight

I was hoping it would wear her out, but she was up just before 6. Zzz.

23 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait diptych. I am wearing a maternity bra and leggings in both. On the left my leggings are covering my bump, and on the right my bump is exposed.
I Am Not Sick, I Am Just Pregnant (23 and a half weeks)
 
#IWasFeelingStressedYesterday
#WorryingAboutTheBabysMovements
#EveryoneTellsMeNotToWorryButItIsEasierSaidThanDone
#IHaveNeverExperiencedPregnancyBeforeSoIDoNotKnowWhatIsNormal
#IWasOnTheFloorEarlierAndWasStrugglingToGetUp
#AndIWasLaughingToMyself
#IHadToGoOntoAllFoursSoThatICouldStandUp
#IKeepThinkingMyBodyIsTheSameAsItUsedToBe
#YesterdayIWasSayingToTiagoThatMaybeIDoNotEvenLookThatPregnant
#AndHeWasLikeYesYouDo
#IGuessLookingDownAtMyselfItSeemsFairlyNormalNowAsItGrowsABitDaily
#ButIGetMoreWeirdedOutWhenILookInTheMirror
#IDefinitelyLookedMorePregnantInMyDanceVideosToday
#ItIsWeirdLookingBackAtOlderPhotosThoughOfWhenIThoughtIStartedToLookPregnant
#AndIBarelyLookPregnantComparedToNow
#IAmAlsoFeelingAnnoyedAboutWorkAndOpportunities
#WhenIWasTryingToGetPregnantNothingReallyCameUp
#AndAsSoonAsIGotPregnantIStartedToGetApproachedForThings
#IFeelLikeIHaveBeenTurnedDownForThingsBecauseIAmPregnant
#ButInsteadOfThemHavingAConversationWithMeAboutWhatIFeelAbleToDo
#TheyChooseToShutItDownAndJustStartIgnoringMe
#MaybeItIsNotBecauseIAmPregnant
#ButEitherWayJustSaySorryWeDoNotWantToWorkWithYou
#ByThemNotSayingThatAndNotTalkingWithMe
#ItJustFeelsLikeItIsDiscriminationBecauseIAmPregnant
#ButByThemNotChoosingToTalkAboutItThenICanNotCallItDiscrimination
#IAmPostingThisProjectOnlineNowAndIThinkPeopleThinkIAmPostingItInRealTime
#IAmStillWorkingIAmStillMakingWorkIAmStillDancingIExerciseTwiceADay
#IAmNotSickIAmJustPregnant
#IKnowHavingAKidMeansIWillHaveToTurnDownCertainOpportunitiesButIAlsoFeelLikeMaybeIAmAlreadyOnADoNotHireListNow

Another unintentional pairing of comparison pictures – two diptychs. They also both talk about anxiety during pregnancy.

I decided to have another baby as soon as possible as I felt like it would be good to get the baby stage done and then hopefully in the not so distant future I can apply for bigger opportunities again. I also do think it will be good for them to be close in age.

I feel like since becoming a parent I have been approached for less opportunities, but maybe it’s because Covid is also a big part of life now and that also affects things?

I had to turn down one opportunity when I was pregnant with B as it was for international travel around the time B was due, but I guess it got cancelled due to Covid anyways.


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Imitating B In A Box (22 Weeks / 29th September 2021)

Self-portrait where I am sat in a grey fabric box. I am wearing a grey dress with black polka dots, and black leggings. My hands are tucking my hair behind my ears.
Imitating B In A Box (22 Weeks / 29th September 2021)
 
#BHasBeenClimbingInBoxesForAWhileButSheEspeciallyLikesThisOneWhichIsInOurBedroom
#WeUsuallyKeepHerPlayTilesInItAndAFewOtherThingsButIGuessIWillHaveToEmptyItToTryToGetInItAtAll
#IHaveRealisedLatelyThatALotOfTheImitationPhotosAreSimilarToPhotosIHaveTakenOfMyselfInThePast
#ButIWasJustDoingThemThenToTryToThinkOfNewWaysToPhotographMyselfOrToJustBeRandom
#TheOtherDayIWasEatingMyLunchAndBSuddenlyStartedToSoundUpsetAndKeptLookingTowardsTheWindow
#IWasABitScaredOfWhatIWouldFindButItWasAWaspActingABitWeirdAndLookingLikeItWasTrailingSomeLiquidBehindIt
#IThoughtBMustHaveBeenStungAsWeHaveSeenALotOfWaspsLatelyAndITryToRemainCalmWhenTheyAreAroundMe
#IWentToGetTiagoAndHeNoticedSomethingOnHerFingerWhichHeRemovedAndTurnedOutToBeAStinger
#LuckilyIWasWaitingForADoctorToCallBackAboutTheDrySkinOnHerNeckAndWhenSheFinallyRangSheSaidToJustKeepAnEyeOnIt
#HerFingerWasABitRedAndSwollenButSheDidNotSeemBotheredByItAndItHasHealedWell
#IAmJustGladThatSheWasNotAllergicToItAndIGuessSheMustHaveTriedToTouchTheWaspOrSomethingWhichIsWhyItStungHer
#TheOtherNightTiagoWasLyingDownInTheLivingRoomPlayingWithBsBallAndItHitAGlassAndHeJumpedUpVeryFast
#HisReactionPlusMeGettingABitAnnoyedProbablyScaredBABitAndHerLipStartedToQuiver
#ISaidDoYouWantACuddleAndWeHadAVeryLovelyCuddleButItIsAShameThatIOnlyGetThemWhenSheIsWorried
#AtLeastTheseDaysItIsLessOfAChoreToBrushHerTeethAndSheWasEvenBrushingHerTeethHerselfAfterwardsLastNight
#IHaveFinallyStartedToFeelABitBroodyAfterSeeingSomeParentsWithSmallBabiesAtTheWeekendWhenWeWentToAnExhibitionOpening
#IAlsoFoundSomePicturesOfBWhenSheWasLessThanAWeekOldAndICanNotBelieveHowMuchSheHasChangedInFifteenMonths
#IGuessItIsGoodThatIAmFeelingABitBroodyAsTimeIsPassingQuicklyButIDoWorryHowItWillBeLookingAfterANewbornAgain
#IAmNotReallyLookingForwardToItAsIFeelABitNervousAboutBreastfeedingAgainButHopefullyItGoesBetterThisTime
#IAmAlsoNotLookingForwardToHavingToGetUpLotsInTheNightButIKnowTheTimeWillFlyByAndBeforeWeKnowItWeWillHaveTwoToddlers
#SheIsStartingToReallyMoveAboutNowAndLastNightItFeltLikeSheWasTicklingMyInsides
#TheWeatherHasBeenReallyRubbishSoIHaveFeltABitTrappedIndoorsAgain
#ThisMorningTheWeatherWasNiceButItTookMeTwentyMinutesToFindBsSecondShoeWhichTurnedOutToBeInTheWashingMachine
#ByTheTimeIFoundItItWasNearlyTimeForHerNapSoWeHadAVeryShortWalkWhichTurnedIntoMeJustCarryingBAboutAsSheWasMoreInterestedInTwigsThanWalking
#NanGotHerBoosterShotWhichIsGoodNewsThoughSheHadToWaitAnHourForIt
#VaccinesUsedToBeSoOrganisedSoIAmNotSureWhatHasHappenedThoughMaybeFuelPanicBuyingHasNotHelped
#TiagoMadeEveryoneSalmonForDinnerLastNightAndEverytimeTheyHaveFishForDinnerMyNanAsksIfIEatItTooAndIJustSayYesNowAsItIsEasierThanArguing
#SheSaidWeMustStartHavingItTwiceAWeekAsItIsSoGoodForMeAndTheBaby
#IHaveNotEatenFishOrMeatIntentionallySinceIWasAbout15AndBTurnedOutFine
#WhenTiagoCanTellIWantMyNanToStopTalkingAboutSomethingHeAsksHerIfSheWantsACupOfTeaOrDessertToMoveHerOffTheSubjectOrToDistractHer

#BHasBeenClimbingInBoxesForAWhileButSheEspeciallyLikesThisOneWhichIsInOurBedroom #WeUsuallyKeepHerPlayTilesInItAndAFewOtherThingsButIGuessIWillHaveToEmptyItToTryToGetInItAtAll

I am not sure when it started, but I guess during some of her online zoom classes we were supposed to put our kids in a clothes basket or something, so I put B in a box instead.

She was all cute sticking her head out of the top of it, but sadly I won’t be able to do that as I’m too big.

#IHaveRealisedLatelyThatALotOfTheImitationPhotosAreSimilarToPhotosIHaveTakenOfMyselfInThePast

I guess this one will resemble me sitting in a bag in 2012.

Maybe that’s a show idea – me pre-kids in projects, with more recent photos of imitating B but the concepts being similar.

#ButIWasJustDoingThemThenToTryToThinkOfNewWaysToPhotographMyselfOrToJustBeRandom

Oh the days where I just had time to be random.

#TheOtherDayIWasEatingMyLunchAndBSuddenlyStartedToSoundUpsetAndKeptLookingTowardsTheWindow
#IWasABitScaredOfWhatIWouldFindButItWasAWaspActingABitWeirdAndLookingLikeItWasTrailingSomeLiquidBehindIt

Weird as in it was at first just kind of lying on the floor on its back, and then it started to go up the window trailing liquid.

#IThoughtBMustHaveBeenStungAsWeHaveSeenALotOfWaspsLatelyAndITryToRemainCalmWhenTheyAreAroundMe

I had a wasp stuck in my hair the other day at the playground and I could hear it buzzing, I still remained calm though. Tiago likes to swat them away, which I don’t think is a good idea – I have told him that.

#IWentToGetTiagoAndHeNoticedSomethingOnHerFingerWhichHeRemovedAndTurnedOutToBeAStinger

I had looked at B and she seemed okay, and didn’t seem obviously stung. It wasn’t like she was waving her finger around or showed it to me.

#LuckilyIWasWaitingForADoctorToCallBackAboutTheDrySkinOnHerNeckAndWhenSheFinallyRangSheSaidToJustKeepAnEyeOnIt

An eye on the sting. We got a prescription for hydrocortisone again for the neck – she had started to scratch it a lot again, so I thought I had better call.

#HerFingerWasABitRedAndSwollenButSheDidNotSeemBotheredByItAndItHasHealedWell

She really did not seem that bothered apart from when she was looking at the wasp. I think she was just annoyed at the wasp/upset that it had hurt her.

#IAmJustGladThatSheWasNotAllergicToItAndIGuessSheMustHaveTriedToTouchTheWaspOrSomethingWhichIsWhyItStungHer

I did closely monitor her after. I am not sure if I have ever been stung by one, but it is good to know that she reacted well to it all.

#TheOtherNightTiagoWasLyingDownInTheLivingRoomPlayingWithBsBallAndItHitAGlassAndHeJumpedUpVeryFast
#HisReactionPlusMeGettingABitAnnoyedProbablyScaredBABitAndHerLipStartedToQuiver
#ISaidDoYouWantACuddleAndWeHadAVeryLovelyCuddleButItIsAShameThatIOnlyGetThemWhenSheIsWorried

I always ask her if I can have a cuddle and she ignores me, which is fair enough as I did ask her question and the answer is obviously no. On this occasion though she came to me and it was very lovely, but yeah I don’t want her to get upset/scared frequently just so I can have nice cuddles.

#AtLeastTheseDaysItIsLessOfAChoreToBrushHerTeethAndSheWasEvenBrushingHerTeethHerselfAfterwardsLastNight

It may or may not be down to me singing the Something Special theme, though now we also play it on our ‘listening device’ and I think she enjoys it a lot more. I also try to make sure she sees me brushing my teeth, so she knows she isn’t the only one who has to do it.

#IHaveFinallyStartedToFeelABitBroodyAfterSeeingSomeParentsWithSmallBabiesAtTheWeekendWhenWeWentToAnExhibitionOpening

A baby asleep in the arms of a man while he waited outside the toilet. Aww.

#IAlsoFoundSomePicturesOfBWhenSheWasLessThanAWeekOldAndICanNotBelieveHowMuchSheHasChangedInFifteenMonths

Awwwww. It is strange how much they do change in a short space of time.

#IGuessItIsGoodThatIAmFeelingABitBroodyAsTimeIsPassingQuicklyButIDoWorryHowItWillBeLookingAfterANewbornAgain

I am excited to meet the little one, but…

#IAmNotReallyLookingForwardToItAsIFeelABitNervousAboutBreastfeedingAgainButHopefullyItGoesBetterThisTime

I am not really looking forward to the sensations of it all (heavy boobs, clogged boobs etc.) and feeling like my body is being taken over, but I am sure it will be fine.

#IAmAlsoNotLookingForwardToHavingToGetUpLotsInTheNightButIKnowTheTimeWillFlyByAndBeforeWeKnowItWeWillHaveTwoToddlers

We are lucky that B sleeps well at night (due to sleep training), but the time will fly by and then we might be sad that we will never have a little baby again.

#SheIsStartingToReallyMoveAboutNowAndLastNightItFeltLikeSheWasTicklingMyInsides

I originally wrote ‘they are’ as for a minute I forgot that I know it is a girl and that I will have revealed it by now. Yesterday for some reason I thought I was having a boy. My brain… (I actually only corrected one ‘they are’.)

#TheWeatherHasBeenReallyRubbishSoIHaveFeltABitTrappedIndoorsAgain

I need to just get B in her puddle suit and get on with things.

#ThisMorningTheWeatherWasNiceButItTookMeTwentyMinutesToFindBsSecondShoeWhichTurnedOutToBeInTheWashingMachine

I was relieved when I saw it through the door, and it was not wet. I was worried she had put it in the bin…

#ByTheTimeIFoundItItWasNearlyTimeForHerNapSoWeHadAVeryShortWalkWhichTurnedIntoMeJustCarryingBAboutAsSheWasMoreInterestedInTwigsThanWalking

I thought I would let her walk as I knew we did not have time to go far, but it’s not great when you don’t have much time. I should have just let her wander…

#NanGotHerBoosterShotWhichIsGoodNewsThoughSheHadToWaitAnHourForIt
#VaccinesUsedToBeSoOrganisedSoIAmNotSureWhatHasHappenedThoughMaybeFuelPanicBuyingHasNotHelped

I had mine last week before the panic buying had kicked in though. *shrug* I think maybe they’re booking in too many booster shots? Who knows.

#TiagoMadeEveryoneSalmonForDinnerLastNightAndEverytimeTheyHaveFishForDinnerMyNanAsksIfIEatItTooAndIJustSayYesNowAsItIsEasierThanArguing

I used to tell the truth, and get annoyed, so T says just say ‘okay’ and ‘yes’ and it does make things easier.

#SheSaidWeMustStartHavingItTwiceAWeekAsItIsSoGoodForMeAndTheBaby

Roll my eyes.

#IHaveNotEatenFishOrMeatIntentionallySinceIWasAbout15AndBTurnedOutFine

B does eat fish, and my Nan feeds her meat when she eats – I’m not happy about it, but Tiago wants her to eat meat. This is a bigger topic for another day, that I will probably never revisit as I do not have the energy to.

I’m not saying this stuff to be mean about my Nan. I’m just a bit fed up with being a woman in my 30s and getting told by people what I should and should not eat while pregnant.

(I say intentionally as there have been a few mishaps in restaurants, and in foreign countries – Japan with supermarket rice balls especially – where I have accidentally had a bit of meat or fish.)

#WhenTiagoCanTellIWantMyNanToStopTalkingAboutSomethingHeAsksHerIfSheWantsACupOfTeaOrDessertToMoveHerOffTheSubjectOrToDistractHer

The other day he knew I just wanted to eat my dinner in peace (I don’t like to talk much while eating), so he gave Nan some dessert. I like his new strategy. You can’t say it’s mean, as Nan is quite happy with her food/tea.

22 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait in a maternity bra and leggings. I am clasping my hands together and stretching them behind my back. I have a small bump.
It Is A Struggle To Roll Over In Bed (22 weeks)
 
#AFewDaysAgoIDidAShootWhereISaidIThinkIWillMissHavingABump
#IThinkIRomanticisedItABitTooMuch
#IKeepStandingUpTooQuickAndGettingPains
#ItIsAStruggleToRollOverInBed
#IHaveToSitUpFirstThenTurnOver
#RepositioningMyselfToTryToPickSomethingUpOffTheFloor
#OnAFlightAnOlderWomanDroppedSomethingOnTheFloorAcrossTheAisle
#ICouldFeelHerLookingAtMeLikeAreYouGoingToPickItUpForMe
#InMyHeadIWasLikeIAmNotTheBestPersonToPickItUp
#IWouldHaveHadToUndoMySeatbeltAndGetOutOfMySeatAndReachAwkwardlyToGetIt
#WhichMaybeIShouldHaveDone
#ButIGetAnxiousAboutGettingUpOnFlightsAndAvoidItIfICan
#IHaveHadToStretchInTheMorningAndEveningAndABitDuringTheDayToHelpWithPains
#ButIGuessILikeHavingTheBumpButIWillNotMissTheOtherStuff
#IThinkILikeItMainlyAsIDoNotFeelSelfConsciousAboutIt
#ThoughAWomanWasStaringAtMyBumpTheOtherDayAndIFoundItOdd
#SoMaybeIWillGetSelfConsciousAboutItInADifferentWay
#IGuessIAmStillAtThePointWhereRandomPeopleLookAtMeLikeIsShePregnantOrNot
#IUsedToNoticeWomenWithBumpsWhenIWasTryingToGetPregnant
#AndIDidNotMeanToStareButIGuessYouLookThenThinkAboutThings
#MainlyIWouldBeThinkingIsThatEverGoingToHappenToMe
#MyStomachHasNeverBeenAndNeverWillBeMyFavouriteBodyPart
#ItIsWeirdDoingAProjectWhereItIsTheMainFocus
#TheBabysMovementsAreGettingMoreTicklish
#ItIsFunnyExplainingHowItFeelsToPeople
#ThisLittleThingPawingAtYouAndTicklingYouFromTheInside
#ItIsSuperWeird
#AFriendSawTheLastScanPicAndSaidThatTheBabyLooksLikeJeremyCorbyn
#IAmLikeWellAtLeastTheyDidNotSayBorisJohnson
#WeHaveADateForTheFollowUpScanNowSoHopefullyThingsGoOkay

I think this time I just know how to get up easier.

Trying to pick stuff off the floor is annoying though.

At a restaurant last night the waitress dropped a fork on the floor. I looked to see what it was and she said ‘don’t worry about it’. I just pointed to my bump (I’m 26 weeks at the time of writing this) and said ‘it would be hard for me anyways’.

I guess I do look at people to see if they look pregnant these days too.

I was thinking about bellies being the main focus again today actually. It is odd. There was an episode of Yakka Dee on and it was all about tummies, which made me think about it.

I feel like though I have felt some tickles this time, it just felt more like kicks earlier on. Maybe it’s to do with where the placenta is?

Self-portrait with Tiago. My head is cut off and Tiago is next to my bump. I am wearing a black maternity bra and leggings, and Tiago is wearing a black top. He is clean shaven.
I Have Told Him Before That If He Wants To Touch The Bump Then He Has To Make Sure His Hands Are Warm (22 and a half weeks)
 
#IKeepGettingAdsForPregnancyPhotoShoots
#SoIThoughtIBetterTakeMoreOfOurOwn
#IWantedTiagoToRestHisHeadOnTheBump
#ButHeThoughtISaidForHimToPutHisHandsOnIt
#AndTheyWereFREEZING
#IHaveToldHimBeforeThatIfHeWantsToTouchTheBumpThenHeHasToMakeSureHisHandsAreWarm
#ThereIsAnOuttakeOfHimLaughingBecauseISaidNotHisHandsButHisHead
#AnywaysTheBumpContinuesToGrow
#IAmAtThePointNowWhereFoodCrumbsGetStuckOnTheTopOfIt
#TryingToMonitorTheMovementsStillStressesMeOut
#WhenICanFeelItMoveIFeelRelaxed
#WhenICanNotIFeelStressed
#ThisMorningTiagoWentForAShowerAndCameBackToFindMeJustLyingInBedWatchingMyBump
#IAmTryingToFaffLessOnMyPhoneSoItItOneWayOfDoingItIGuess
#WhoNeedsTechnologyWhenYouHaveAnOldFashionedBump
#ThatIsMonitoredInAllTheNewTechnologyWays
#IWasReadingAboutBraxtonHicksTheOtherDay
#IHaveNeverHeardAboutItInAllOfMyLife
#BasicallyItIsWhenYourBodyPracticesContractions
#SoNowIAmLikeWasThatAHiccupFromTheBabyOrABraxtonHicksContraction
#ItIsAFunGame
#INeedToStartThinkingAboutLookingMoreIntoHypnobirthingAndStuffNow
#AsTimeIsFlyingBy
#AndAFriendSaidThatHerFriendGaveBirthAt30Weeks
#SoIFeelLikeINeedToGetMorePrepared
#INeedToStartThinkingMoreAboutPushchairsAndAllThatStuffToo
#ThereIsSoMuchToChooseFromWhichIsAnnoying
#WeAreGoingToABabyShowSoonWhichSoundsLikeMyIdeaOfHellButIAmHopingItWillBeUseful
#TwoPeopleInTheLastWeekHaveToldMeThatILookPale
#WhichHasConcernedMeButIThinkItIsJustBecauseTheWinterIsJustDraggingOnAndMyBodyHasYetToUtiliseItsTemporarySkillOfRetainingATanForLonger

I haven’t had an ad for a pregnancy shoot yet. Disappointing but maybe it’s because I keep rejecting cookies.

I’m yet to take any bump photos with Tiago this time, but he is busy with work and then sometimes he is watching B while I do a shoot. Actually we have been doing family portraits so I guess that is something? But not a shoot like this anyways.

I still can’t tell the difference between a kick and a Braxton Hicks…


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Imitating B With Her Cuddly Toys (21 Weeks / 25th September 2021)

Self-portrait cuddling about 6 of B's cuddly toys.
Imitating B With Her Cuddly Toys (21 Weeks / 25th September 2021)
 
#ILikeThatBInteractsMoreWithHerCuddlyToysNow
#YesterdaySheWasDraggingOneAroundWithHerThroughOurBedroomsWhichWasNiceToSee
#IWasABitObsessedWithCuddlyToysWhenIWasAKidSoMaybeThatIsWhyILikeThatSheIsGettingIntoThem
#WhenSheCrawlsIntoHerCotIWillIncorporateThemAllIntoTheVersionOfTwinkleTwinkleLittleStarThatISingToHer
#IBasicallyGotBoredOfSingingItAndAddNewBitsToItAllTheTime
#SheLikesToTakeFruitFromTheFruitBowlAndBiteIntoItAndThenTakeAnotherPieceOfFruitUntilItAllHasBiteMarksInIt
#BeforeIGiveHerAFewOfHerCrispsIRustleThePacketAndSheRunsOverToMe
#YesterdaySheGaveMeSuchABigSmileAndClappedHerHandsAtTheSightOfTheBag
#SomeDaysIHaveBeenTakingHerForThreeWalksButSomeDaysWeJustGoForOne
#TwoGirlsAtThePlaygroundTheOtherDayKeptCallingHerABoySoICorrectedThem
#OneStillKeptCallingHerABoySoISaidItIsConfusingAsSheWearsALotOfBlue
#ThenTheOtherGirlSaidWhyIsSheWearingRed
#OurNeighbourReferredToHerAsABoyTheOtherDayAndIFeltTooAwkwardToCorrectHim
#SomeDaysIPutHerInHerPinkLeggingsSoThatIDoNotHaveToDealWithTheAwkwardnessOfPeople
#IUsuallyAskPeopleHowOldTheirLittleOneIsSoThatTheyUsuallySayHeOrSheOrTheirKidsNameAsItIsOftenHardToTellWithYoungKids
#SheCanWalkFurtherNowAndWeSometimesTakeHerOutWithHerReins
#SheLikesToKickThroughAPileOfLeavesButWeSometimesHaveToPickHerUpAsOtherwiseSheWillJustKeepGoingBackToThings
#SheGotABitMoreInvolvedWithHerClassThisWeekAndSeemedToUnderstandMore
#OneThingIsThatAtTimesThereWillBeABasketWithInstrumentsToTakeFromAndThenReturnThemTo
#SheTendsToGoUpToItOnceItIsTimeForItToGoAwayButMaybeSoonSheWillBeABitQuicker
#SheDidSpendHalfOfTheClassJustClimbingOnHerPushchairButIThinkSheEnjoyedItStill
#IHadMySecondVaccineTheOtherDayAndIFeelFineApartFromJustFeelingReallyTired
#ItSeemedALotLessOrganisedThanMyFirstButItWasAtADifferentPlaceAndPeopleHaveJustStartedToHaveBoosterShots
#ThereWasABigQueueAndNotManyChairsButEventuallyIGotOne
#WheneverThePersonRunningReceptionStartedToLookForPeopleToKickOutOfChairsIWouldRubMyBelly
#ThisPlaceWasAlsoLessPrivateAndPeopleCouldSeeMeHavingMyVaccine
#IRealisedYesterdayThatThisWillProbablyBeTheLastTimeThatIWillBePregnantSoIShouldTryToAppreciateItAsMuchAsICan
#TheBabysMovementsAreGettingBiggerNowAndItJustRemindsMeOfWhatABizarreThingPregnancyIs
#IWonderIfSheWillLookALotLikeBOrIfTheyWillLookQuiteDifferentToEachOther
#IAmAlsoTryingToMentallyPrepareMyselfForHowItWillBeHavingTwoKidsAsItWillBeQuiteDifferentHavingABabyToLookAfterThisTime

#ILikeThatBInteractsMoreWithHerCuddlyToysNow

She’s had most of them since she was born, so it’s nice to see her enjoying them more each day.

#YesterdaySheWasDraggingOneAroundWithHerThroughOurBedroomsWhichWasNiceToSee

Partners in crime. I realised it was still in our room when she went to bed, but she didn’t miss it.

#IWasABitObsessedWithCuddlyToysWhenIWasAKidSoMaybeThatIsWhyILikeThatSheIsGettingIntoThem

I’d line them up all around my bed and I used to draw family trees and write biographies for them all. I was a cool kid.

#WhenSheCrawlsIntoHerCotIWillIncorporateThemAllIntoTheVersionOfTwinkleTwinkleLittleStarThatISingToHer

Her crawling into her cot now is great, though sometimes she crawls in before we’ve done the rest of her bedtime routine or without her sleeping bag on.

#IBasicallyGotBoredOfSingingItAndAddNewBitsToItAllTheTime

I started off singing it properly and then will sing something along the lines of:

‘Twinkle twinkle little star, you’re our bunny yes you are, we love you so very much, hope you always stay in touch…’

‘Here’s your squirrel, here’s your bee, here’s your carrot, it’s clear to see…’

Blah blah.

#SheLikesToTakeFruitFromTheFruitBowlAndBiteIntoItAndThenTakeAnotherPieceOfFruitUntilItAllHasBiteMarksInIt

We give her fruit for dessert with most meals. I’m not sure if she’s hungry or just doing it for fun. Obviously if we see her doing it we’ll move the bowl away, but she would happily sink her teeth into everything if she could. Earlier she had my dress in her mouth…

#BeforeIGiveHerAFewOfHerCrispsIRustleThePacketAndSheRunsOverToMe #YesterdaySheGaveMeSuchABigSmileAndClappedHerHandsAtTheSightOfTheBag

They’re ones for kids. Chickpea, quinoa, tomato and something? She does like crisps in general though. If we are eating crisps we have to give her a bit of one or she gets upset.

#SomeDaysIHaveBeenTakingHerForThreeWalksButSomeDaysWeJustGoForOne

It depends on the weather, how I’m feeling, how much energy I have etc.

#TwoGirlsAtThePlaygroundTheOtherDayKeptCallingHerABoySoICorrectedThem #OneStillKeptCallingHerABoySoISaidItIsConfusingAsSheWearsALotOfBlue #ThenTheOtherGirlSaidWhyIsSheWearingRed

I wear so much blue, I just knew that was why she was getting confused.

I feel sad as they are missing out on a lot if they feel like they can’t wear/own things of a certain colour.

#OurNeighbourReferredToHerAsABoyTheOtherDayAndIFeltTooAwkwardToCorrectHim

I thought he knew she was a girl, but maybe he forgot/always sees her wandering around in blue and thought he must be wrong? I don’t know.

#SomeDaysIPutHerInHerPinkLeggingsSoThatIDoNotHaveToDealWithTheAwkwardnessOfPeople

Just thinking about it all makes me feel tired.

#IUsuallyAskPeopleHowOldTheirLittleOneIsSoThatTheyUsuallySayHeOrSheOrTheirKidsNameAsItIsOftenHardToTellWithYoungKids

Some parents dress their kids quite gender neutral and some kids have gender neutral names. Even if I think a child is a certain gender, I try not to assume as sometimes I am wrong. Some parents put their daughter’s hair in girlish styles or put head bands on them, so obviously then it is easier to assume.

#SheCanWalkFurtherNowAndWeSometimesTakeHerOutWithHerReins

It’s nice to see her progessing with her walking.

#SheLikesToKickThroughAPileOfLeavesButWeSometimesHaveToPickHerUpAsOtherwiseSheWillJustKeepGoingBackToThings

Walk through the leaves. Back to the leaves. Sit down and play with the leaves.

#SheGotABitMoreInvolvedWithHerClassThisWeekAndSeemedToUnderstandMore

I was a bit proud.

#OneThingIsThatAtTimesThereWillBeABasketWithInstrumentsToTakeFromAndThenReturnThemTo #SheTendsToGoUpToItOnceItIsTimeForItToGoAwayButMaybeSoonSheWillBeABitQuicker

The teacher will often end up giving her an instrument, then I wait to see if she will put it back. Then I’ll put it back, then she’ll go up to the basket.

#SheDidSpendHalfOfTheClassJustClimbingOnHerPushchairButIThinkSheEnjoyedItStill

Like I’ve said before – if she’s happy, I’m happy.

A Grandmother said to me ‘think we’re in the slow corner’, but her Grandson and B are quite a bit younger than the others. The others are jumping and talking, so there is a bit of an age gap…

#IHadMySecondVaccineTheOtherDayAndIFeelFineApartFromJustFeelingReallyTired

I am struggling to write this as I am so tired. I planned to do it this morning, but I just lay in bed and rested. B will have a nap shortly, so I will nap too – she is currently with Tiago.

#ItSeemedALotLessOrganisedThanMyFirstButItWasAtADifferentPlaceAndPeopleHaveJustStartedToHaveBoosterShots

Maybe they booked into too many people for booster shots?

#ThereWasABigQueueAndNotManyChairsButEventuallyIGotOne

I didn’t want to take one close to the ‘vaccine zone’, but eventually one came up right in the back corner. Perfect.

#WheneverThePersonRunningReceptionStartedToLookForPeopleToKickOutOfChairsIWouldRubMyBelly

I had stood up for about 5/10 minutes before I got the chair. I think I waited about 40 minutes in the end before my number was called.

#ThisPlaceWasAlsoLessPrivateAndPeopleCouldSeeMeHavingMyVaccine

The first time was in a health centre, but this was in a tent. It’s fine, but it was weird knowing some people could see me – including a very vocal guy who acted like he was the only one who had to wait.

#IRealisedYesterdayThatThisWillProbablyBeTheLastTimeThatIWillBePregnantSoIShouldTryToAppreciateItAsMuchAsICan

I have already really forgotten how it was to be pregnant with B. I will be glad to not go through it again as it is quite nerve-wracking.

#TheBabysMovementsAreGettingBiggerNowAndItJustRemindsMeOfWhatABizarreThingPregnancyIs

It’s just weird feeling something moving inside of you. It is cool, but sometimes it is just really odd.

#IWonderIfSheWillLookALotLikeBOrIfTheyWillLookQuiteDifferentToEachOther

Only time will tell. It’d be nice if they looked quite alike I think, but if one looks more like me and more like T then that is also cool. But I don’t really mind.

#IAmAlsoTryingToMentallyPrepareMyselfForHowItWillBeHavingTwoKidsAsItWillBeQuiteDifferentHavingABabyToLookAfterThisTime

It was great when B had 5 naps a day. This time it does not matter so much as B will probably only be having 1 by the time baby X is born. I just need to do my best and rest when I can.

21 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait standing on one leg while naked.
Have I Mentioned That Pregnancy Is So Weird? (21 Weeks)
 
#FinallyGotTheScreeningResults
#TheScanPersonSaidToSpeakToMyMidwifeButTheMidwifeSaidToPhoneTheHospital
#PhonedTheHospitalAndGotPassedAround
#ButGotAPhoneCallBackWhichSaidIWasLowRiskForTheThreeSyndromes
#IAmJustGladThatTheyDidNotLoseTheBloodSampleOrResults
#AsIDoNotWantAnotherUnnecessaryBloodTest
#TheLetterGotLostInThePostSoTheyAreSendingAnotherOne
#ItIsReassuringToFeelTheBabyMovingAboutIt
#ThoughItAlsoWorriesMeWhenIFeelNothing
#INoticeTheMovementsMoreWhenIAmSatDownDrinkingWaterAndNotStressing
#IThinkItDidNotReactToMyStarJumpsTheOtherDayAsItIsUsedToMeExercisingAndDancingAbout
#ButItIsWeirdWhenYouFeelTheMovements
#ThatThereIsALittleSomeonePawingInsideYou
#HaveIMentionedThatPregnancyIsSoWeird
#IKnowIHaveSaidItManyTimesAlready
#IGetWorriedAboutThePregnancySometimesAndIExpressThis
#IKnowThatPeopleAreTryingToBeReassuring
#ButSomeoneTellingMeThatEverythingIsAndWillBeFineDoesNotAssureMe
#YouCanBeTheHealthiestPersonInTheWorldWhateverThatMeans
#ButThatDoesNotMeanThatYourBabyWillBeAbsolutelyFine
#PregnancyIsNotLikeTakingATestWhereIfYouStudyYouCanDoYourBest
#PregnancyIsUnpredictableAndYouCanNotControlItAndTheOutcome
#IAmSureThingsWillAllBeFineButItIsGoodToBeRealistic
#PeopleKnowAboutMyPregnancyNowAndIFeelAnxiousThatItIsOutInTheOpen
#AsWhatIfThingsGoWrongAndIHaveToTellPeople
#ButIAmQuiteHonestAboutThingsAndIAmSureIWillMakeWorkAboutThings
#IJustWishIHadBeenMoreHonestAboutTryingToGetPregnantAndMadeWorkAboutIt
#IMadeWorkAboutItButTheTextThatIWroteWasNotReallyAboutIt
#ThisPhotoIsSimilarToAPhotoITookLastYearWhenIWasTryingToGetPregnant
#IThoughtIShouldDocumentMyBodyInCaseIGotPregnantAndSoTheMainDifferenceInThisOneIsThatIHaveABumpButAlsoNoTan

This time my results came within a week.

Like I’ve said 100 times before, I don’t think pregnancy will ever stop not being weird to me.

I will also never stop not liking the fact that I have little control over pregnancy. It is stressful.

This time I did make work about wanting to be pregnant again, though I do feel awkward about it. I know that a lot of people have struggles with fertility or trying to get pregnant or getting through a pregnancy, and at times I do wonder why has it been quite straight forward for us as a family? I do feel guilty about it at times.

It Is Kind Of Nice Knowing That I Am Never Alone (21 and a half weeks)
 
#WellIAmIllAgain
#IThoughtThatMaybeICouldBeatTheColdThatIFeltComingOnButNo
#ItIsNotAsBadAsTheLastTwoTimesAtLeast
#ItIsJustABitAnnoying
#IThinkIAmGettingUsedToMyBodyChangingNow
#ICanNotReallyRememberWhatItLookedLikeBefore
#WellIAmRemindedByLookingAtOldSelfPortraits
#ButIGuessThisIsMyNewNormal
#IThinkIWillMissHavingABump
#ThoughMaybeIWillNotBeSayingThatSoonWhenItGetsMoreUncomfortable
#SoMaybeIWillMissHavingA21AndAHalfWeeksBump
#ItIsKindOfNiceKnowingThatIAmNeverAlone
#WasEatingMyBreakfastThisMorningAndIFeltItMove
#ItMadeMeImagineMyKidInACoupleOfYearsTime
#WatchingMeWheneverIEatAndWantingSomeOfIt
#ThisMorningItWasKindOfPawingAtMe
#LikeGiveMeSomeOfYourFood
#ButObviouslyIGuessItWasHavingTheNutrientsFromItOrWhatever
#ItSeemsToMoveMoreWhenIAmAboutToEat
#MaybeItSensesMyExcitement
#OrItIsJustACoincidence
#WhenItMovesIFeelReassured
#ThenIFeelStressedWhenItDoesNot
#IThinkItHasHadTheHiccupsAFewTimes
#AsTheOtherDayIThoughtItWasMovingButItHadARhythmToit
#AndMyMumHasMentionedThatSheUsedToFeelMySisterHiccuping
#SoWeird
#ItStillBlowsMyMindThatThereIsALittleHumanInMeAndOneDayItWillComeOut
#IKindOfJustWantToKeepItInMyBellyForever
#ButIAlsoWantToMeetTheLittleHumanThatIHaveGrownInsideMe

‘#ItMadeMeImagineMyKidInACoupleOfYearsTime
#WatchingMeWheneverIEatAndWantingSomeOfIt’

Well it hasn’t been a couple of years yet and B likes to eat everything that I have.

I definitely get stressed when I can’t feel many movements. Sometimes I am just busier though so have less opportunities to feel her.

As my bump gets bigger this time it is weird thinking that I probably will not ever be pregnant again, but being pregnant with a toddler is quite different to being pregnant without another kid. As B wants picking up a lot/needs to be as otherwise we will never get home from walks, having a bump does make it harder to pick her up/I get worried that maybe I am overstretching my bump.


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