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Pregnancy Waiting II

Wedding Dress Malfunction (18 Weeks / 29th August 2021)

Self-portrait holding my cardigan strategically over a dress. My left hand is on my stomach, and my left hand is on my chest.
Wedding Dress Malfunction (18 Weeks / 29th August 2021)
 
#ItWasTheWeddingOfABestFriendOfTiagoWhichHadGotDelayedFromLastYearDueToCovid
#IWoreTheDressForOurWeddingAndEveryWeddingWeHaveBeenToSinceAndJustAssumedItWouldFitMeEvenWithABump
#IWentToPutItOnAndStruggledToDoUpTheButtonOnTheInsideSoTiagoHadToHelpMe
#IForgotThatIUsuallyHaveSomeStressWithThisDressDueToMyBraBeingExposedAtSomePointAndTheFrontFlappingOpen
#SoITriedToUseHairGripsWellAndEvenPinnedPartOfItToMyPantsButAsIAteItExposedEvenMore
#InTheEndIWoreMyBigCardiganThatShouldProbablyBeRetiredFromWeddingsNowAndHadItPulledTightlyAroundMeForMostOfTheDay
#ItWasBsFirstWeddingAndThereWereAbout150PeopleWhichHadBeenReducedFromAbout240
#WeEndedUpSittingAtTheBackOfTheCeremonyAndBKeptWanderingOutSoWeHadToKeepLeavingAndComingBack
#AfterBWasBornISaidIWouldWearMoreMakeupSoIBoughtSomeAndYesterdayWasTheFirstTimeIWoreSomeOfItAYearAfterIBoughtIt
#WeWereMeantToGoSomewhereToDoCovidTestsTheDayBeforeButTheRulesChangedSoWeWereJustToldPolitelyToDoFlowTestsWhichIWasAllFor
#ItFeltABitOverwhelmingBeingAroundSoManyPeopleButWeJustFollowedProtocolAndHadAGoodTimeInTheEnd
#WeThoughtWeWouldRelaxMoreAtTheReceptionButWhenYouBecomeAParentYouAlsoBecomeAHealthAndSafetyOfficer
#TiagoKeptTakingHerOutsideButThereWereALotOfRocksAWaterFeatureAndPalletsWithSplintersAndSheKeptRunningAroundSoWeWereBothQuiteTired
#IAmFindingItHarderToBendOverToFollowHerAboutAndItDidNotHelpHavingAMalfunctioningDress
#ITryToExplainToBAboutTheBabyGrowingInsideMeButSheJustPokesMyBellyButtonAndFindsItFunny
#TheOtherDaySheWasPullingMyTopUpJustToPokeIt
#WeWereNotSureHowLongToKeepBThereButInTheEndBAndIWentHomeAtNineThirtyAndTiagoWentBackUntilTwoThirty
#BSleptUntilSevenAndTiagosMumLookedAfterHerUntilHerNapAtTen
#TheOtherNightBSleptSoBadlyAndKeptWakingUpForAgesButItMayHaveBeenACombinationOfTeethingBeingColdAndOrALeap
#IAmNotVeryGoodWithThisSocialisingAfterBGoesToBedAsIAmSoTiredSoOftenTiagoWillDropMeHomeAndThenGoBack
#IWasWaitingToBookOurReturnCovidTestsInCaseThereWasSomeGoodNewsForUsAboutTheCovidTravelTrafficLightSystemWhichGetsUpdatedEveryThreeWeeks
#PortugalIsNotOnTheListButIWasSuperHappyToSeeTheAzoresOnTheList
#IThenWasFrustratedToLearnThatAsOurLayoverIsInLisbonDuringOurReturnTripTheGreenRulesWouldNotApplyToUs
#TheAirlineWeBookedThroughHadOfferedUsARefundOnBothOurFlightsThoughDueToTheLayoverTurningFromFourToNineHours
#LuckilyWeManagedToGetNewFlightsThatAvoidTheMainlandForTheSamePriceAndOurTravelTimeHasNowBeenReducedBySixHours
#WeWillStillGetHomeAt3InTheMorningButIWillNotHaveToQuarantineAndWeBothOnlyHaveToDoDay2TestsNow
#SoIAmNowGratefulThatTheAirlinesScrewedUsOverAndDidNotCareAboutItAsOtherwiseWeWouldHaveNotGotARefund
#ThisAlsoNowMeansThatICanGoToLondonForTheBigPhotographyWeekendOfTheYear
#TiagoKeepsSayingIShouldHaveADayForMyselfButIDidNotWantToWasteItOnSomethingUnworthy
#IAmGoingToGoFridayNightToSaturdayNightAndAmLookingForwardToSeeingLotsOfFriendsThoughIHaveNeverSpentMoreThanFiveHoursAwayFromBBefore

#ItWasTheWeddingOfABestFriendOfTiagoWhichHadGotDelayedFromLastYearDueToCovid

I was also unsure about all the travelling with a newborn, and not really wanting Tiago to leave me alone with B for a few days, so Covid made it easier for us – the wedding had to be postponed.

#IWoreTheDressForOurWeddingAndEveryWeddingWeHaveBeenToSinceAndJustAssumedItWouldFitMeEvenWithABump #IWentToPutItOnAndStruggledToDoUpTheButtonOnTheInsideSoTiagoHadToHelpMe

I should have tried it on before packing it… It was even awkward taking it off yesterday, but I guess I will have to try to get it on again to take a photo to accompany this post. (Spoiler: I managed it.)

#IForgotThatIUsuallyHaveSomeStressWithThisDressDueToMyBraBeingExposedAtSomePointAndTheFrontFlappingOpen

It’s been two years since I last wore it, so I forgot…

#SoITriedToUseHairGripsWellAndEvenPinnedPartOfItToMyPantsButAsIAteItExposedEvenMore

Pinning it to my pants definitely helped in ways, but then it also was probably shifting it round too. Yeah I felt awkward.

#InTheEndIWoreMyBigCardiganThatShouldProbablyBeRetiredFromWeddingsNowAndHadItPulledTightlyAroundMeForMostOfTheDay

The poor cardigan is looking a bit scruffy.

I am going to try to emulate my awkwardness in the photo.

#ItWasBsFirstWeddingAndThereWereAbout150PeopleWhichHadBeenReducedFromAbout240

Luckily she has got used to seeing other people now, and she was mostly interested in the slightly older kids that were wandering about.

#WeEndedUpSittingAtTheBackOfTheCeremonyAndBKeptWanderingOutSoWeHadToKeepLeavingAndComingBack

We were stressed about what she would wear, but in the end we put her in an all in one suit that went with the blue of our outfits. If you can’t wear unicorns and sunflowers to a wedding when you’re one, when can you?

B would not sit still, which is fair enough.

#AfterBWasBornISaidIWouldWearMoreMakeupSoIBoughtSomeAndYesterdayWasTheFirstTimeIWoreSomeOfItAYearAfterIBoughtIt

I thought I should maybe work on my appearance a bit as I always look so rough. I just wore mascara on my upper eyelashes (the bottom are a faff), and lipstick (I do not remember the last time I wore lipstick but it was nice). The lipstick probably wore off under my mask before anyone would have noticed it, but oh well.

#WeWereMeantToGoSomewhereToDoCovidTestsTheDayBeforeButTheRulesChangedSoWeWereJustToldPolitelyToDoFlowTestsWhichIWasAllFor

I was glad that everyone had to do a test, so when I heard the rules changed I did feel a bit uneasy.

There are only 19 active cases on the island, but only a few days ago there was no new cases and the risk was dropped to the lowest. 6 new cases have just been announced.

I hope that everyone did flow tests, but I doubt it.

#ItFeltABitOverwhelmingBeingAroundSoManyPeopleButWeJustFollowedProtocolAndHadAGoodTimeInTheEnd

For some reason we thought we wouldn’t need masks for the wedding and reception, which was dumb of us. We had to go back to our car to get one. We wore one when inside the church, when walking in, out and around the reception etc.

#WeThoughtWeWouldRelaxMoreAtTheReceptionButWhenYouBecomeAParentYouAlsoBecomeAHealthAndSafetyOfficer

Anything and everything is a potential hazard with a kid.

#TiagoKeptTakingHerOutsideButThereWereALotOfRocksAWaterFeatureAndPalletsWithSplintersAndSheKeptRunningAroundSoWeWereBothQuiteTired

At least it was mostly grass. We took trainers for her to wear but she was barefoot the whole time.

Tiago’s other best friend was there and he gets on well with B, so he looked after her a bit which gave us some rest.

#IAmFindingItHarderToBendOverToFollowHerAboutAndItDidNotHelpHavingAMalfunctioningDress

I’m not even halfway and I’m struggling…

#ITryToExplainToBAboutTheBabyGrowingInsideMeButSheJustPokesMyBellyButtonAndFindsItFunny

Not sure if I’ve mentioned B laughing at the picture of Tiago as a baby too. Maybe she’ll get the whole baby bump more as it grows bigger and she grows older.

#TheOtherDaySheWasPullingMyTopUpJustToPokeIt

Classic. Charming.

#WeWereNotSureHowLongToKeepBThereButInTheEndBAndIWentHomeAtNineThirtyAndTiagoWentBackUntilTwoThirty

We had had to wake her up early from her nap to get to the wedding on time, so she would have needed a super early bedtime. She stayed up 3 hours past her wake window… We changed her nappy and put her in her bedtime clothes before we left, so she fell asleep in the car and we moved her to the cot. Again, we forgot her toothbrush…

#BSleptUntilSevenAndTiagosMumLookedAfterHerUntilHerNapAtTen

I had expected B to wake up earlier (our alarm went off and it might have woken her up), and T’s Mum came in a minute after hearing her. I changed B’s nappy, then his Mum took over so we went back to sleep. That was a nice surprise. That was probably the longest sleep I’ve had since she was born.

#TheOtherNightBSleptSoBadlyAndKeptWakingUpForAgesButItMayHaveBeenACombinationOfTeethingBeingColdAndOrALeap

T had dropped me home from something then went back out. I think he might have woken her up, and then she just would not sleep. We gave her paracetamol, we left the room in case it was us, but in the end we put her in her sleeping bag (it has been quite hot until lately) and she went to sleep, so we have been dressing her up warmer at night recently.

#IAmNotVeryGoodWithThisSocialisingAfterBGoesToBedAsIAmSoTiredSoOftenTiagoWillDropMeHomeAndThenGoBack

I haven’t had a nap during the day for the last few days, which doesn’t help. They’re all his friends and my brain stops trying to translate after a while, so it makes sense for him to go back and not have to worry about me/upsetting his friends by leaving early.

#IWasWaitingToBookOurReturnCovidTestsInCaseThereWasSomeGoodNewsForUsAboutTheCovidTravelTrafficLightSystemWhichGetsUpdatedEveryThreeWeeks #PortugalIsNotOnTheListButIWasSuperHappyToSeeTheAzoresOnTheList

It hadn’t been a rumour in the news, but it makes sense as the cases are so low here.

#IThenWasFrustratedToLearnThatAsOurLayoverIsInLisbonDuringOurReturnTripTheGreenRulesWouldNotApplyToUs

There is only one direct flight a week to and from the main island. We had caught that one out, but as the return trip landed at 11pm we booked a different route home.

#TheAirlineWeBookedThroughHadOfferedUsARefundOnBothOurFlightsThoughDueToTheLayoverTurningFromFourToNineHours

We had booked that return home as it landed at a much better time (6pm-ish?), but then they changed it so we landed at 11pm.

#LuckilyWeManagedToGetNewFlightsThatAvoidTheMainlandForTheSamePriceAndOurTravelTimeHasNowBeenReducedBySixHours

We now have to be at the airport for mid-day rather than 6am, so that makes a big difference. Annoyingly our car is by Heathrow and not Stansted (we flew out of Stansted but left our car by Heathrow as we were due to return there).

#WeWillStillGetHomeAt3InTheMorningButIWillNotHaveToQuarantineAndWeBothOnlyHaveToDoDay2TestsNow

The money that we save on my day 8 test (Tiago didn’t need one as he is double vaccinated) will go on a taxi, but at least our return trip costs about the same now.

#SoIAmNowGratefulThatTheAirlinesScrewedUsOverAndDidNotCareAboutItAsOtherwiseWeWouldHaveNotGotARefund

Tiago went to the airport to see if we’d still be able to get a refund. The guy couldn’t do it, but said if they said they would then they would. We went ahead and booked our flights as we didn’t want the prices to go up.

Tiago emailed on Friday morning, and they emailed back on Saturday early afternoon saying we’d get a refund so we went to the wedding happy about that.

It worked in our favour in the end. Phew.

#ThisAlsoNowMeansThatICanGoToLondonForTheBigPhotographyWeekendOfTheYear

I was annoyed that I would be quarantining and would miss it.

(I write all this in hope that I don’t get Covid and have to self-isolate before the weekend).

I’m a bit nervous about going without being double vaccinated, but I’ll be careful.

#TiagoKeepsSayingIShouldHaveADayForMyselfButIDidNotWantToWasteItOnSomethingUnworthy

I feel bad leaving him to look after B for a day for something frivolous, but this is a good use of my ‘get out of parenting for a day’ card.

#IAmGoingToGoFridayNightToSaturdayNightAndAmLookingForwardToSeeingLotsOfFriendsThoughIHaveNeverSpentMoreThanFiveHoursAwayFromBBefore

T suggested that I go on Friday instead of Saturday so that I am less tired on the Saturday. I am not sure how much photography I will be able to see as my stamina for everything is low these days, but I’m looking forward to it. I haven’t been to London since November 2019, so it will be nice to see multiple friends at once and eat some of the food that I’ve been missing.

I’m definitely going to my favourite pizza place… (Spoiler: I didn’t go to my favourite pizza place.)

18 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait with my left hand pressing against my face.
There Is Only So Much Longer That I Can Hide My Bump In My Dance Videos (18 Weeks)
 
#IAmDefinitelyFeelingMorePregnant
#BumpIsDefinitelyGrowing
#IThinkARandomWomanWasStaringAtMyBumpTheOtherDayAtTheTrainStation
#MorePeopleKnowNowButIUsuallyJustTellPeopleInPerson
#OrIfTheyMessageMeAndIKnowIWillNotSeeThemUntilAfterIAnnounceIt
#AsThereIsOnlySoMuchLongerThatICanHideMyBumpWithAJumperInMyDanceVideos
#AndIWantToStartPostingThisProject
#InPersonIUsuallyTryToTellPeopleInAnUnexpectedWay
#LikeIDoNotSayIHaveSomethingToTellYouOrIHaveNews
#SomeoneAskedHowTiagoIsAndISaidHeIsExcitedToBeAFather
#SomeoneAskedIfTiagoWasMyHusbandTheOtherDayAndISaidYesAndMyBabyDaddy
#SomeoneAskedIfAnyoneWasIllAndISaidIAmPregnantIfThatCounts
#GenerallyPeopleAskingHowIAmIWillSayPregnant
#ThoughTheOtherDayIHadJustEatenAndISaidIHadBeenTellingEveryoneThatIAmPregnant
#SheLaughedAndThenAskedIfIWas
#IAmSeeingAFriendTomorrowAndIMightJustSeeIfSheNoticesMyBump
#SeeingTheLookOnPeoplesFacesIsHalfOfTheFun
#IfNotMostOfTheFun
#IAmHappyThatBrushingMyTeethHasBecomeLessOfATask
#ICanActuallyBrushMyTeethMultipleTimesADayWithLessWorryNow
#IHaveASoreThroatAtTheMoment
#SoIDidASaltGargleThisMorning
#IMadeItTooSaltyAsIWasThenSick
#IHaveBeenPhotographingMyselfEverytimeIHaveBeenSickWhilstPregnant
#ButIKnewThisWasMyOwnFaultSoIDidNot
#ThatWasACoupleOfHoursAgoAndMyStomachFeelsABitUneasyStill
#IHaveBeenUpSince5SomethingAsTiagoHadATrainToCatchAndIHaveFinallyGotIntoWatchingTheCircle
#IKnowIWillRegretItLater
#ParticularlyAsIHaveMyOwnTrainToCatchAndPlansForTonight
#AndIAmNotFeelingVeryWellSoIProbablyHaveMadeThingsWorseByNotGoingBackToSleep

This time I announced my pregnancy earlier so I did not have to worry about showing too much in the dance videos. I’m currently 25 weeks pregnant and no one has left a comment about me being pregnant yet, but then again no one really watches them anyways.

As I announced it earlier I didn’t really get to mess around with telling people much. The closest this time was seeing a friend with an older kid and a baby, and she said ‘don’t have a second one’ and I said ‘well I’m pregnant’.

I have had to do a salt water gargle a couple of times this pregnancy and I have tried to be careful.

I definitely don’t have the time or energy to watch TV so early or late.


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Pregnancy Waiting II

Imitating B In Her Temporary Cot (17 Weeks / 25th August 2021)

Self-portrait of my face pressed up against two bars of B's temporary cot.
Imitating B In Her Temporary Cot (17 Weeks / 25th August 2021)
 
#SheDoesSomethingSimilarInHerCotAtHomeButTheEffectIsQuiteDifferentAsThisIsBarsAndAtHomeItIsMesh
#EveryoneKeepsSayingHowMuchBLooksLikeTiagoButSheDefinitelyHasMyLoveOfWater
#SheHasBeenGettingUpsetWheneverWeTakeHerOutOfHerPoolOrOutOfTheSea
#HerLittleLipsWillBeShiveringAndSheWillWantToKeepGoingBackIn
#YesterdayWeTookHerToASpotThatHadARedAndYellowFlag
#WeTookItInTurnsSwimmingInTheYellowAreaAndOnlyLetBHaveALittleSplashWhenTheSeaCalmedDownMomentarily
#WeAreAdjustingToBeingHereButIFeelQuiteLostWithoutOurUsualRoutineAndStuff
#ThisHouseIsNotVeryBabyProofAndThisMorningIHadToRunDownTheCorridorInCaseBDecidedToGoToTheSteps
#TheOtherDayOurAlarmWentOffForTheFirstTimeInMonthsAndWeActuallyHadToWakeBUpForOnceAfterSeven
#ItSeemsLikeAOneOffThoughAsSheHasAtLeastThreeTeethComingThroughAndUsuallyWakesUpAt6SomethingNowWhichIsOkay
#MaybeItIsDueToHavingALaterDinnerOrMaybeItIsFromAllTheSplashingOrMaybeItIsAMixOfFactors
#IThinkWeWillTryPushingHerDinnerALittleLaterWhenWeGetHomeThoughAndGivingHerBiggerSnacks
#TheOtherDayIGotStungByALittleJellyfishWhichWasABitOfAShockButALifeguardPutSomeGelOnIt
#IManagedToSwallowSomeSeaWaterOnAnotherOccasionAndIEndedUpVomitingInMyHandAwkwardlyInFrontOfAFewPeople
#OurConnectingFlightOnTheWayBackHasBeenDelayedByFiveHours
#ThisMeansWeHaveANineHourLayoverAndWillProbablyGetHomeAtThreeInTheMorning
#TheAirlinesDoNotCareWhichIsDisappointingSoWeWillHaveToSeeWhatWeCanDoOtherwiseWeWillHaveToJustDealWithIt
#WeGotATimeAndDateForOur20WeekScanWhichIsAlsoInconvenientSoICalledAndSaidWhatDaysAreBestForUsAndTheyGivenUsAnotherInconvenientSlot
#SoTiagoWillProbablyHaveToWaitWithBInTheCarAndIWillHaveToGoInAloneWhichIsAnnoyingButWhatCanWeDo
#WeHaveTakenBToAMassiveDuckPondACoupleOfTimesWhichSheQuiteLikesAndILoveLookingAtAllTheDucklings
#ThereAreNoDucksLikeTheOnesAtHomeSoItIsNiceToSeeSomeDifferentBirds
#IHadNeverBeenThereBeforeButIGuessThatOurPrioritiesHaveChangedNowWithBAndWeWantToGoToMoreKidFriendlyPlaces
#WeHaveBeenGoingToALittleCoffeeShopForBreakfastAndYesterdayBManagedToKnockTiagosCoffeeAllOverMyBreakfastAndMe
#WhenWeWerePackingISaidIDidNotWantToBringManyClothesAsIEndUpWearingTheSameThreeOutfits
#InRealityIHaveBeenWearingTheSameDressAndJustWashingItAndPuttingItOnAgainAsSoonAsPossible
#WeHaveBeenRunningErrandsOrGoingToMeetFriendsWhileBSleepsAndTiagosMumKeepsAnEyeOnHer
#TheOtherNightWeWentToABarbequeAfterBHadGoneToBedButThenISpentTheWholeEveningSatByABabyAndAFourYearOldSoFeltBadForNotBringingHer
#MyPortugueseSpeakingHasImprovedButIStillFindItDifficultToUnderstandWhatPeopleAreSaying
#IGetSoTiredSoQuicklyInTheEveningsWhenWeGoOutWhichIsProbablyDueToUsingExtraBrainPowerTryingAndGenerallyFailingToTranslate
#ItIsNiceToSeePeopleButIHaveNotSocialisedThisMuchInAVeryLongTime

#SheDoesSomethingSimilarInHerCotAtHomeButTheEffectIsQuiteDifferentAsThisIsBarsAndAtHomeItIsMesh

It’s less of a full face smush, and more of a partial face smush?

#EveryoneKeepsSayingHowMuchBLooksLikeTiagoButSheDefinitelyHasMyLoveOfWater

Yes, she does look like him a lot. There’s a picture above her cot of Tiago as a baby and I keep pointing to it and saying ‘there’s daddy as a baby’ and she laughs.

Tiago likes the water, but he usually just likes to have a very short swim whereas I want to swim for ages. Well, I can’t anymore…

#SheHasBeenGettingUpsetWheneverWeTakeHerOutOfHerPoolOrOutOfTheSea

Similar vibes to when Tiago puts her back on the floor, when she wants to be in his arms all day.

#HerLittleLipsWillBeShiveringAndSheWillWantToKeepGoingBackIn

We try to not let her go in for more than fifteen minutes at a time.

#YesterdayWeTookHerToASpotThatHadARedAndYellowFlag

We saw the flags and were pretty gutted. Tiago went to talk to the lifeguards to see if it was safe enough to swim/take B in. There was a set of stairs that was safe to use, but we had to be careful as waves would wash over the wall and made it a bit dangerous.

#WeTookItInTurnsSwimmingInTheYellowAreaAndOnlyLetBHaveALittleSplashWhenTheSeaCalmedDownMomentarily

B was quite happy splashing in a little puddle on the rocks by the sea, but then after she’d had a bit of a splash in the sea she was annoyed again. She was getting quite jealous of me swimming in the sea. Better to be safe than sorry…

#WeAreAdjustingToBeingHereButIFeelQuiteLostWithoutOurUsualRoutineAndStuff

Today Tiago is out all day running errands, and I’m not sure how to entertain her all day. It’s times like these that I wish I could drive… Public transport around here is not easy to use/it takes forever.

#ThisHouseIsNotVeryBabyProofAndThisMorningIHadToRunDownTheCorridorInCaseBDecidedToGoToTheSteps

I was just turning the light off in the kitchen and I thought B was outside the door. I went to see and she was at the other end of the corridor by steps that go down, so I RAN.

#TheOtherDayOurAlarmWentOffForTheFirstTimeInMonthsAndWeActuallyHadToWakeBUpForOnceAfterSeven

I usually set the alarm to ignore as soon as B gets up. It is better when she wakes us up as we couldn’t be bothered to get up if she wasn’t going to. We got her up at 7:15 in the end.

#ItSeemsLikeAOneOffThoughAsSheHasAtLeastThreeTeethComingThroughAndUsuallyWakesUpAt6SomethingNowWhichIsOkay

She must have not been teething that morning. A few nights ago she was waking up from 4. Yesterday it was 6:30. Today she woke up at 6.

#MaybeItIsDueToHavingALaterDinnerOrMaybeItIsFromAllTheSplashingOrMaybeItIsAMixOfFactors

We will never know.

#IThinkWeWillTryPushingHerDinnerALittleLaterWhenWeGetHomeThoughAndGivingHerBiggerSnacks

People just eat later here. Yesterday I had a small dinner when B had hers (at 6ish) and then I had a second dinner at a friend’s house.

She can have a good snack when she wakes up from her second nap if she’s having a later dinner. We haven’t given her any yoghurt since we’ve been here (which we usually give her as a snack before bedtime in hope that she will sleep later).

#TheOtherDayIGotStungByALittleJellyfishWhichWasABitOfAShockButALifeguardPutSomeGelOnIt

Usually I keep a look out for them, but I was just swimming by myself and felt an electric shock in my arm. I told a friend (in bad Portuguese) and she said maybe it was muscle pain, but I didn’t think so.

Tiago was with a friend who was talking to a lifeguard, so he put some gel on it, and then a bit later the area where I got stung raised up a bit. It wouldn’t hurt and then suddenly it would. Weird. I had looked in the water but saw nothing.

#IManagedToSwallowSomeSeaWaterOnAnotherOccasionAndIEndedUpVomitingInMyHandAwkwardlyInFrontOfAFewPeople

I was trying to get out via a ladder, but lots of people kept jumping in so the water rose too high and I gulped some. I felt sick, but hoped the feeling would pass. I kept stopping in case I was sick, but thought I could get back to my towel and be okay. Tiago was with me as someone was watching B while we had a quick swim together. Suddenly I felt sick again, so put my hand to my mouth and some sadly sprayed out of the side of it. I felt embarrassed – especially with Covid and everything. Awkward. Tiago went back with water to clean it, but all evidence had already gone.

#OurConnectingFlightOnTheWayBackHasBeenDelayedByFiveHours #ThisMeansWeHaveANineHourLayoverAndWillProbablyGetHomeAtThreeInTheMorning #TheAirlinesDoNotCareWhichIsDisappointingSoWeWillHaveToSeeWhatWeCanDoOtherwiseWeWillHaveToJustDealWithIt

We have two flights by two different operators, but we bought them through one operator. The first flight is at 8am, then the second has been moved from 3pm to 8pm. Good job Tiago drove us to London as I was worried enough about catching a train with the 3pm flight (it’s a 3 hour flight). The airline we booked through don’t care, and say we can just have a refund – which isn’t great when you book months in advance for cheaper prices. The airline who delayed their flight have a first flight that is at 1pm, so that would save us waiting around so much at least but we’ll see what they say. It’s going to be a long day with a 14 month old and my pregnant belly, plus poor Tiago then has to drive us home.

#WeGotATimeAndDateForOur20WeekScanWhichIsAlsoInconvenientSoICalledAndSaidWhatDaysAreBestForUsAndTheyGivenUsAnotherInconvenientSlot

My Mum can watch B certain mornings. I said which days and they’ve given us another day where my Mum isn’t around.

#SoTiagoWillProbablyHaveToWaitWithBInTheCarAndIWillHaveToGoInAloneWhichIsAnnoyingButWhatCanWeDo

*Shrug* I’m annoyed about it, but oh well. I should call them again and complain possibly. I don’t like to be annoying and I know they’re busy.

#WeHaveTakenBToAMassiveDuckPondACoupleOfTimesWhichSheQuiteLikesAndILoveLookingAtAllTheDucklings #ThereAreNoDucksLikeTheOnesAtHomeSoItIsNiceToSeeSomeDifferentBirds

The first time we went it was early in the morning and very foggy, so we were the only ones there. The second time it was quite a bit busier. There are a lot of Muscovy ducks, some Appleyards, and some I don’t know. (My parents had ducks when I was younger.)

#IHadNeverBeenThereBeforeButIGuessThatOurPrioritiesHaveChangedNowWithBAndWeWantToGoToMoreKidFriendlyPlaces

We’ve been to a couple of swimming spots lately that I hadn’t been to before, as they’re closer and more kid friendly. I looked for a soft play or kid’s centre, but they don’t seem to have any around. Shame. Covid cases are quite low here. (I just checked and there are currently 14 people with confirmed Covid.)

#WeHaveBeenGoingToALittleCoffeeShopForBreakfastAndYesterdayBManagedToKnockTiagosCoffeeAllOverMyBreakfastAndMe

The guy had just set it all down, B went to go for my water and knocked the coffee over. I went to grab it, but realised I was too late so backed away and stood up. Luckily it just caught the end of my dress, as I didn’t want a burned belly!

#WhenWeWerePackingISaidIDidNotWantToBringManyClothesAsIEndUpWearingTheSameThreeOutfits #InRealityIHaveBeenWearingTheSameDressAndJustWashingItAndPuttingItOnAgainAsSoonAsPossible

Tiago’s Mum washed it and said she thought it was going to have a coffee stain on it, but once it dried it looked fine and I put it on again. It’s so humid here…

#WeHaveBeenRunningErrandsOrGoingToMeetFriendsWhileBSleepsAndTiagosMumKeepsAnEyeOnHer

It’s been nice to get out more, and have nice chats in the car.

#TheOtherNightWeWentToABarbequeAfterBHadGoneToBedButThenISpentTheWholeEveningSatByABabyAndAFourYearOldSoFeltBadForNotBringingHer

It’s nice that things are so kid friendly here. B had woken up early from her second nap (I think) so she had a very early bedtime, otherwise we could have brought her for a bit.

Tiago generally brings me home, then goes back out. He brought me home around 10.30pm and then got back at 2am. It’s good for him to see his friends, but I don’t know how he can stay out so late and then be fine in the morning.

#MyPortugueseSpeakingHasImprovedButIStillFindItDifficultToUnderstandWhatPeopleAreSaying

I feel motivated to try to find the time and energy to study more again – I’ve been a bit ‘lazy’ with all the pregnancies and mothering. We need to watch more kids stuff in Portuguese perhaps; I’ve been enjoying watching Bluey in Portuguese.

#IGetSoTiredSoQuicklyInTheEveningsWhenWeGoOutWhichIsProbablyDueToUsingExtraBrainPowerTryingAndGenerallyFailingToTranslate

Mothering, pregnancy plus extra brain work and socialising.

#ItIsNiceToSeePeopleButIHaveNotSocialisedThisMuchInAVeryLongTime

It is going to be a shock going home to quarantine for 10 days after being out so much. I need to make an effort to do more with B when we return, especially after I get my second jab.

17 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait with my hair covering the left side of my face. My right hand is pointing to where I had my whooping cough injection.
Whooping Cough Vaccine (17 Weeks)
 
#AtMyMidwifeAppointmentTheOtherDaySheSaidToGetTheWhoopingCoughVaccine
#YouHaveToBe16WeeksOrMoreAndIWasJustOver16WeeksSoIBookedAnAppointment
#IGoToTheAppointmentTodayAndAsWeAreWalkingToTheRoomTheWomanLooksAtMyBumpAndSaysNeverNeverNever
#WeSitDownAndSheIsLikeSoYouAreHereForTheWhoopingCoughVaccine
#AreYouPregnant
#YouHaveToBe16WeeksOrMore
#ISayIAm17Weeks
#SheLooksAtMeSuspiciouslyAsIGazeDownAtMyBump
#IStandUpAndPullMyTopInTightSoItAppears
#SheSaysWellIGuessYouKnowBetterYourself
#AndThereWasMeWorryingThatMyBumpWasTooBigForBeing17Weeks
#SoSheGaveMeItAndItWasAllDoneInSeconds
#IWasWaitingToDoAShootUntilAfterwardsAsIThoughtIWouldHaveAPlasterButIDidNot
#WhichIsFineAsIDidNotNeedOne
#ISaidIWouldDoAShootTodayWhereIWouldHaveATopOnAndIWouldFaceTheOtherDirection
#ButTheVaccineWasAtTheTopOfMyLeftArmSoItMadeSenseToDoItThisWay
#IGotHomeAndWasSoTiredThatIThoughtIWouldHaveANapFirst
#ISleptFor3Hours
#IHaveBeenFeelingMoreEnergeticButThisWeekWasSuperBusyAndIDidNotSleepInAsLateAsIPlanned
#IAmStillFeelingAnxiousAboutThingsAboutTheHealthOfTheBaby
#ButIAlsoRealisedTheOtherDayThatThisCouldBeTheOnlyTimeIAmEverPregnantInMyLife
#SoIShouldTryToEnjoyItAsMuchAsICan
#IDoNotKnowHowToReallyEnjoyItInTermsOfThereIsNotMuchICanDo
#ButIGuessIMeanMoreJustTryingNotToWorrySoMuch
#IGotReallyFreakedOutByTheFactThatThereIsSomeoneGrowingInsideMeAgainTheOtherDay
#PeopleAskMeIfIAmScaredOfGivingBirth
#IFeelKindOfExcitedByTheIdeaToBeHonest
#MaybeIMightChangeMyMindAsMyBumpGetsBigger
#ButIJustWantToEnjoyItAsMuchAsICanAsItSeemsLikeSuchABizarreThingThatWomenHaveBeenDoingForThousandsOfYears
#IDidNotStretchLastNightAndMyHipsHurtAllNight

This time no one mentioned to me about getting the whooping cough, so I will be getting it at around 27 weeks. No one will be saying that I don’t look pregnant enough for it this time…

It’s funning reading about ‘sleeping in late’. Now I’m like what is that? I should have relaxed more when I was pregnant with B. I used to waste so much time. Now I don’t have as much time to faff…

Definitely still anxious this time around.

I feel less excited about birth this time around, even though I would say I had a good experience with B. I am mentally trying to prepare myself though and am starting to read about things again. I am excited to meet her though…

Self-portrait wrapped up in a big cardigan that is suitable for breastfeeding.
Goodbye (For Now) Food Aversions (17 and a half weeks)
 
#IJustHadToRearrangeMy20WeekScanForASecondTime
#TheySendYouALetterForAnAppointmentInThePost
#ThenICalledUpToRescheduleItAsICouldNotMakeIt
#UsuallyTheyCheckToSeeWhatDateAndTimeICanDo
#ButThisTimeTheySaidTheDiariesWereNotOpenYetSoIWouldHaveToBeOnAWaitingList
#GotANewAppointmentDateAndTimeTodayWhichTiagoCouldNotDo
#ICouldHaveGoneAloneButTheHospitalIsQuiteFarAwayAndIThinkTiagoWantsToSeeTheBabyAsMuchAsIDo
#ThoughItIsAScanForAbnormalitiesWhichIsABitScary
#SoIWouldRatherThatTiagoIsThereTooJustIncaseItIsBadNews
#FingersCrossed
#InMorePleasantNewsALotOfMyFoodAversionsHaveDisappeared
#IHaveEatenIndianFood5TimesInTheLastWeek
#TiagoIsHappyAsHeCanCookALotOfHisUsualDishesAgain
#AndWeHadTakeawayFromOurFavouriteIndianPlaceLastWeekWhichGaveMe3Meals
#ItIsNiceToNotSitAtDinnerFeelingSickAndStrugglingToEat
#IAmAwareItMayReturnAtSomePointSoIAmJustTryingToEnjoyItWhilstICan
#TheMidwifeSaidIShouldBeEatingMorePulsesAndThingsLikeThat
#SoIAmGladThatLentilsAndChickpeasNoLongerRepulseMe
#IAmWearingOneOfMyFewPiecesOfMaternityClothing
#ItIsACardiganForPregnancyAndNursing
#ItMakesMeLookMorePregnant
#ApparentlyYouCanWearItInAFewDifferentWays
#ItWillProbablyBeHotToWearOnceTheBabyIsBornButItWillDoForNowAndForNextWinter
#ItDoesGetColdInLiverpool
#IDoNotWantToMakeAnyPurchasesForTheBabyUntilIAm6Months
#ButINeedToStartMakingASpreadsheetWithWhatWeWantToBuy
#IAmStillWorriedThatThingsMightGoWrongButIAmAlsoFeelingABitMoreRelaxed
#ItIsNiceToBeAbleToTalkAboutBeingPregnantWithMorePeopleWhenISeePeopleInPerson
#ItIsBecomingMoreObviousNowWithMyGrowingBumpButIWorryAboutBoringPeopleWithTalkingAboutItALot
#IHadToDoAFullYogaVideoLastNightAsINeededAGoodStretchAndIDefinitelyFeltBetter

Good to know that it’s been annoying getting an appointment for my 20 week scans both times.

I wasn’t into lentils and chickpeas at the start of this pregnancy either. B has baked beans on toast a lot and they were grossing me out, but I have started to have them for lunch lately (mid-October).

I didn’t wear this cardigan after having B, but it might be more appropriate with having a winter baby this time (B was a summer baby).

We really didn’t rush to buy anything for B, and thought we didn’t need much, but after she was born we bought LOADS.

It’s weird that in the end not many people saw me heavily pregnant with B.


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We’ve Made It To Portugal (16 Weeks / 18th August 2021)

Yet to do a shoot, but I know it will have a very different look. Maybe these posts will be more like holiday photos? I imagine there being a picture from later today of me standing with a slight bump in front of some water…

(Tiago did take some photos of me on my phone, but they were only cute family album photos, not project pictures – so instead I took some of me sat on the bed in my swimming costume instead.)

Self-portrait sat in my maternity swimming costume on a bed.
We’ve Made It To Portugal (16 Weeks / 18th August 2021)
 
#WeGotOurTestResultsTheNightBeforeAndInTheMorningIKnewIHadTheLastBitsToPack
#MyNanMentionedALargeMothInTheLivingRoomWhichTurnedOutToBeASmallBird
#SoWeHadToGetThatOutOfTheHouseWhileBAteHerBreakfastAndWeGotOnTheRoadAtHalfSeven
#BSleptInTheCarThenWeHadATaxiRideWhereSheWasUnsureOfTheTaxiDriver
#ThenALongWaitAtTheAirportAPlaneAShorterWaitAndAShorterSecondFlight
#SheManagedToHaveHerSecondNapOnTheFirstPlaneThoughSheShouldHaveNappedTwoHoursEarlier
#SheOnlyCriedWhenSheWokeUpAndObviouslyWantedToSleepMoreAndSheEventuallyWentBackOff
#AndWhenTiagoWentToTheBathroomAsSheDidNotLikeHimLeaving
#EveryoneWasSoNiceFromTheAirportStaffToThePeopleAroundUsOnThePlanes
#TheAirportWomanWhoRetrievedOurPushchairTheSecondTimeWentToSchoolWithTiago
#BWentFromBeingSuperShyInTheMorningToLookingAtMorePeopleAndWasFineMeetingTiagosParentsForTheFirstTime
#WeGotToTheirHouseLateAndWeAreInARoomWithB
#TheCotWeHaveIsTheOneThatTiagoSleptInAtBsAgeAndSheKeptClimbingOutOfItAndIWasWorriedSheWouldFallOut
#ThenIRealisedThatTheLoweredSideCouldBeRaisedAndSheEventuallySlept
#TheTimeHereIsAnHourBehindTheUKAndSheWokeUpAtHerUsualTimeButWeGotHerIntoBedWithUsAndSheSleptOnAndOffForThreeMoreHours
#WeOpenedTheShuttersToSeeCowsInTheFieldThatWereNotThereLastTimeWeVisited
#SoBHadAGoodIntroductionToCowsAndThereIsANewPlaygroundNearbyWithACoupleOfCatsHangingAroundCloseBy
#WeHaveHadSomeTeethingProblemsWithTheCotCarSeatAndACarButThingsWillHopefullyBeResolvedToday
#BHasAlsoBeenHavingTeethingProblemsAndINoticedSheHasAMolarComingThroughOnEachSideOfTheBottomOfHerMouth
#IWasNotSureHowSheWouldReactToTheSeaButSheGoesStraightForIt
#YesterdayTAndIWereJustFeelingReallyTiredAndABitDownAsItHadNotFeltLikeAHolidayYet
#ThenTiagosMumWatchedBWhileSheSleptAndACoupleOfFriendsPickedUsUpForASwim
#ThenIFeltLikeIWasOnHolidayAsIHadFinallyHadASwim
#ItWasMyFirstTimeSwimmingWhilePregnantAndItFeelsWeirdToSwimBellyDown
#ThenWeCameHomeAndGotBAndWentToAnotherSwimmingSpotWithThemBAndAFriendAndHerBaby
#BJustSplashedInTheSeaAndIAmSoHappyThatSheLovesTheWaterSoMuch
#WeGotHomeAndPutHerToBedAndTiagosParentsKeptAnEarOutWhileWeWentOutToDinnerWithFriends
#ItWasOurFirstNightOutAsParentsWhichWasNiceButTheFoodCameAtTenAndWeGotHomeAfterEleven
#BIsStartingToEnjoyTheCompanyOfEveryoneElseABitMoreWhichIsNiceForUsAsWeCanRelaxABit
#IAmAlsoLearningToRelaxAboutHerRoutineMoreAndTrustingOthersToLookAfterHerWhichIsGood

#WeGotOurTestResultsTheNightBeforeAndInTheMorningIKnewIHadTheLastBitsToPack

It was such a relief to get the results earlier than expected. We packed a lot the night before, but needed to pack the things that B would be using until she woke up/until we would leave.

I liked packing lists before, but they’re more useful now than ever.

#MyNanMentionedALargeMothInTheLivingRoomWhichTurnedOutToBeASmallBird

She pointed at it whilst it flapped and it would have been a massive massive moth…

Why did it have to happen that day of all days?

#SoWeHadToGetThatOutOfTheHouseWhileBAteHerBreakfastAndWeGotOnTheRoadAtHalfSeven

Poor B was freaked out as we were freaked out, and at one point it sat directly above her while she ate her breakfast. No poop luckily…

#BSleptInTheCarThenWeHadATaxiRideWhereSheWasUnsureOfTheTaxiDriver

We had to drive to London, then parked our car at a friend’s house, then got a taxi to the airport as it was less faff than catching 3 trains/tubes and cost the same amount anyways.

#ThenALongWaitAtTheAirportAPlaneAShorterWaitAndAShorterSecondFlight

It was better to be early than late to the airport. I was worried the car would breakdown or there would be massive traffic jams or anything might delay us.

We took lots of snacks and bought a few more things. Being early allowed us to weigh our bags and reshuffle stuff. Our suitcases were both over. Annoyingly our first flight had limits of 20kg per bag, and the second flight had 23kg limits. Our backpacks were just super heavy for the first flight…

I was worried about B’s meals but she was quite happy snacking on picnic type food (B and I both loved some mozzarella and tomato pastries we got).

#SheManagedToHaveHerSecondNapOnTheFirstPlaneThoughSheShouldHaveNappedTwoHoursEarlier

I thought she probably wouldn’t nap at all, so was happy she went off to sleep after some singing and massage.

#SheOnlyCriedWhenSheWokeUpAndObviouslyWantedToSleepMoreAndSheEventuallyWentBackOff

I think I read so much stuff about annoyed people on planes with kids that I was a bit scared. B was so well behaved though.

#AndWhenTiagoWentToTheBathroomAsSheDidNotLikeHimLeaving

Me awkwardly talking to her (in English and bad Portuguese) while he went to the loo and could hear her crying.

She would get annoyed at T for talking to other people and ignoring her at times.

#EveryoneWasSoNiceFromTheAirportStaffToThePeopleAroundUsOnThePlanes

I’m not sure if the airline staff are overly nice if they see you with a young kid as they know you must be stressed or what, but I’ll take it.

#TheAirportWomanWhoRetrievedOurPushchairTheSecondTimeWentToSchoolWithTiago

I love when we get to the airport and he recognises the staff, or you see other people greeting people they know.

#BWentFromBeingSuperShyInTheMorningToLookingAtMorePeopleAndWasFineMeetingTiagosParentsForTheFirstTime

There was a baby behind us on the second plane and they were interacting. We actually saw that family the next day in the supermarket.

I was worried about how B would react to her grandparents as I knew they would be keen to hold her, and she was fine. Phew.

#WeGotToTheirHouseLateAndWeAreInARoomWithB

So we left home at 7.30am, and then got to his parent’s house at 10pm UK time. It was a long day.

#TheCotWeHaveIsTheOneThatTiagoSleptInAtBsAgeAndSheKeptClimbingOutOfItAndIWasWorriedSheWouldFallOut

It’s obviously very different to the one we have. It was pushed against our bed and B kept climbing out of it to come onto our bed. I was trying to go to bed at the same time as her, while T was getting ready to go to a stag do.

Turned out the quarantining and day 6 test had recently been dropped. Win.

I was knackered as I had not napped at all, and then B was just stood up shaking the cot.

#ThenIRealisedThatTheLoweredSideCouldBeRaisedAndSheEventuallySlept

Phew. In the night I thought she had fallen out though, which stressed me out.

#TheTimeHereIsAnHourBehindTheUKAndSheWokeUpAtHerUsualTimeButWeGotHerIntoBedWithUsAndSheSleptOnAndOffForThreeMoreHours

We knew she was tired as it had been a long day for her. It was our first co-sleeping session as normally we try to get her to sleep, but she won’t. She normally just moves all over the place, but she was still in her sleeping bag and the room was pitch black which probably helped.

#WeOpenedTheShuttersToSeeCowsInTheFieldThatWereNotThereLastTimeWeVisited

The field used to just be harvested for the grass I think. The cows belong to the father of a friend of Tiago, so we had a nice chat with him as he was there.

We caught them at the right time as they’ve since moved onto another field as they’ve eaten everything.

#SoBHadAGoodIntroductionToCowsAndThereIsANewPlaygroundNearbyWithACoupleOfCatsHangingAroundCloseBy

I’m sure she’d seen a cow before, but this was her first time really being aware of them. The playground is nice and wasn’t here last time we visited. The cats live in a house looking onto the playground and like to hang around, so it’s a nice little visit.

#WeHaveHadSomeTeethingProblemsWithTheCotCarSeatAndACarButThingsWillHopefullyBeResolvedToday

The cot has been explained. The car seat that we got lent was for an older kid, but our friend sorted us out. The car has some problems that need fixing so we can’t drive it until then.

#BHasAlsoBeenHavingTeethingProblemsAndINoticedSheHasAMolarComingThroughOnEachSideOfTheBottomOfHerMouth

I know she has been teething in those areas for a long time. She wanted to teethe on my finger and I noticed one, then a few hours later I noticed another one. That also might be why she got upset on the plane…

#IWasNotSureHowSheWouldReactToTheSeaButSheGoesStraightForIt

We took her to the beach at 8am, before we realised the car problems and she walked/crawled into the sea. She loved it.

We brought a paddling pool with us in case of quarantine and she loves splashing in that too.

#YesterdayTAndIWereJustFeelingReallyTiredAndABitDownAsItHadNotFeltLikeAHolidayYet

We were both so tired. Travelling was knackering and with a toddler you can not switch off. I felt stressed as we were stuck at home, but we do not have many toys for B here and I feel like that there is not a safe spot to play with her as all the floors are super hard and there are steps and things. Hard life.

#ThenTiagosMumWatchedBWhileSheSleptAndACoupleOfFriendsPickedUsUpForASwim

I’m not expecting everyone to look after B all the time, but it’s what we need. It’s rare that T and I both leave the house without B.

#ThenIFeltLikeIWasOnHolidayAsIHadFinallyHadASwim

We went to the closest spot and we had not been there before. It was nice, though quite shallow and I worried about banging my toes on rocks. A friend cut his toe… I need to get some swimming socks or shoes.

It felt good though.

We also saw our friend’s sister and husband. They have a baby too, but she was at home being looked after by her grandparents while she slept too. We agreed the swimming spot wasn’t very kid friendly.

#ItWasMyFirstTimeSwimmingWhilePregnantAndItFeelsWeirdToSwimBellyDown

I never swam while pregnant with B. I wanted tom but life and Covid…

#ThenWeCameHomeAndGotBAndWentToAnotherSwimmingSpotWithThemBAndAFriendAndHerBaby

Our friend had planned to pick us up to take us, but then our other friends decided to join too.

It was a more kid friendly spot.

#BJustSplashedInTheSeaAndIAmSoHappyThatSheLovesTheWaterSoMuch

She was just there splashing like a dog doing doggy paddle from the moment she went in until the moment we got her out. We try not to take her in for too long. 15 minutes?

#WeGotHomeAndPutHerToBedAndTiagosParentsKeptAnEarOutWhileWeWentOutToDinnerWithFriends

We were getting hungry and thinking of going straight for food, but I was getting wary of B’s bedtime approaching. It made sense to take her home first.

#ItWasOurFirstNightOutAsParentsWhichWasNiceButTheFoodCameAtTenAndWeGotHomeAfterEleven

We got there at 8:30ish which is already late for me. It was nice to chat though, but swimming makes me hungry and I was… hungry.

I knew we’d regret going to bed late and B was up at 5:30. Luckily Tiago let me go back to sleep once B started to eat breakfast, and Tiago’s Mum took over from him after a while so he could work.

It’s so nice having the extra help as it means now I am working while B naps instead of being so tired that I need to nap. Obviously I don’t expect this to happen everyday, but I need to recharge my batteries and get some small things done.

#BIsStartingToEnjoyTheCompanyOfEveryoneElseABitMoreWhichIsNiceForUsAsWeCanRelaxABit

Yesterday at the swimming spot Tiago looked after B while I swam with a friend. Then we got out and the friend said she could have B while Tiago joined me for a swim. She was quite happy playing with everyone else, and it was nice this morning seeing her playing with her grandparents. She is a little less needy of Tiago which is nice for him.

#IAmAlsoLearningToRelaxAboutHerRoutineMoreAndTrustingOthersToLookAfterHerWhichIsGood

Ish. I’ll never completely relax, but I’m getting better. Yesterday she had some omelette at the swimming spot, then we gave her some fruit and milk when we got home. That seemed okay.

I’m used to other people watching her for an hour or so at my Nan’s house, but not elsewhere. It’s good for her though and it’s good for us.

16 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait hugging a maternity pillow. My left hand is resting on the pillow and my right arm is wrapped around the pillow and resting on my left arm.
Maternity Pillow (16 Weeks)

#SoIGotThePillowAWeekAgo
#IKnowItIsStillEarlyDaysInMyPregnancy
#SayingMyPregnancyIsWeird
#ButIFeltLikeINeededOne
#AndIThoughtTheSoonerIBuyItTheMoreValueIWillGetOutOfIt
#IAmStartingToGetHipPainNow
#AndIStretchInTheMorningAndEveningAndUsuallyABitDuringTheDay
#ButItHelpsWhenISleep
#IAlsoHaveAnOverwhelmingUrgeToCuddleSomethingInMySleep
#SoItAlsoHelpsWithThat
#TheOnlyBadThingsIsThatItTakesUpALotOfTheBed
#WellItTakesUpMyHalfButTiagoProbablyFindsItAnnoying
#ButHeIsPuttingUpWithItBlessHim
#SomeReviewersSaidTheirPartnerSleepsInAnotherRoomSoTheyHavePlentyOfRoomForTheirCushion
#ItIsNotThatBadButWhenTiagoGetsOutOfBedIDoPushItOverABitMoreAndTakeUpMoreSpace
#IProbablyDidNotNeedSuchABigUShapedOne
#ButMaybeItWillBeMoreUsefulLaterOn
#IThinkIWasDoingTooMuchMovingAroundDuringThisShoot
#IAchedABitAfter
#StrainingToSeeTheResultsOnMyScreenAndThingsLikeThat
#ThenIHadADeliveryCome
#ThatParticularDeliveryCompanyDoNotLikeComingUpstairsAnymore
#SoIHadToLugBoxThatWasNotThatHeavyButTooHeavyForMeRightNowIAmSure
#AndIAchedABitAfterwards
#IWasGoingToComplainButIDoNotWantTheDriverToGetIntoTrouble
#IKnowHisPayIsNotGreatAndTheyAskMeToComeDownstairsSoThatTheyCanGetOnWithOtherDeliveries
#ButIThoughtHeWasComingUpstairsSoIWaitedForAges
#ThenIWentDownstairsAndHeWasJustLeaningAgainstTheWallChilling
#SoNoTimeWasSavedInTheEnd
#OhWellIMightJustRelaxWithMyPillowUntilTheAchesPass
#ButIThinkAchesAreHereToStayForALongTimeAndWillProbablyGetWorseAsMyBodyGetsPushedAndStretchedMore

My hashtags used to be short…

With my latest pregnancy I got the smaller part of the pillow out around 11 weeks (see this post), and I started to use the rest of it around 24 weeks. I didn’t know where it was, but I also didn’t want it taking up the whole bed but the bed we sleep in now is bigger, so it’s less overwhelming using it.

I have had less hip pain this time, but I think it’s due to stretching early on in the morning and evening.

Self-portrait in my bra and pants. A little bump is showing.
It Is Hard To Believe That Someone Is Growing Inside Of Me (16 and a half weeks)
 
#TimeIsFlyingBy
#IHadMy16WeekAppointmentTodayWithAMidwife
#SheJustTookMyBloodPressureAndCheckedMyUrineForProtein
#FunTimes
#OneOfMyFavouriteThingsAboutPregnancyIsWhenIThinkIAmWettingMyself
#ButItIsJustMyBodyCleaningOutOldCellsAndStuff
#SuperFunTimes
#IHadAnotherWeirdedOutPhaseYesterday
#LikeThereIsASmallHumanInsideOfMe
#ASmallHumanThatLooksLikeAMixOfTiagoAndMe
#ThatIsSoWeird
#IMentionedToTheMidwifeThatIAmAtAWeirdStageWhereItIsAnother4WeeksUntilIHaveAScan
#SheSaysIProbablyWillNotProperlyBeAbleToFeelItMovingForAnother4To8Weeks
#SoIAmLikeHowDoIKnowThatIsAllIsWell
#SheSaidSheKeptBelievingThatThereWasNotABabyInsideOfHerWhichICompletelyUnderstand
#YesterdayAtWorkThereWereAFewCommentsAboutMyBumpBeingVisible
#SomeoneSaidYouLookSoPregnantToday
#ToBeFairIWasWearingATightFittingTop
#AndOnceIStartEatingTheBumpJustGrows
#ItIsFunnyAsBeforeIWasPregnantIWouldHaveFeltAwkwardAboutWearingSuchATightFittingTop
#ButBeingPregnantIDoNotMindSoMuchAsBumpsArePositive
#AndWeWereDiscussingThisInTheOffice
#AsPregnancyBumpsHaveALotOfPositivityAroundThem
#ButAsSoonAsTheBabyIsOutThereIsALotOfPressureToLoseIt
#IFeelAwkwardTakingAPictureInMyUnderwear
#ThePantsAreTheSameOnesAsIWoreForMyYourMindAndBodyProjectIn2012
#IDoNotWearThemOftenAndToBeFairIProbablyWillNotBeAbleToWearThemAgainForAWhile
#ObviouslyIHaveTakenPicturesOfMyselfNakedInThePastButIThinkIAmMoreAwareOfWhereTheyMightEndUpAndHowPeopleReactToThem
#APictureOfSomeoneInTheirUnderwearIsUsuallyAssociatedWithSexinessWhichMakesMeFeelAwkwardAsIDoNotConsiderAnyOfMyWorkToBeSexy
#ButIWantToDocumentMyChangingBodyAndMyFeedIsUsuallyFilledWithPicturesOfPeopleInTheirBikinisOnTheirHolidays

I had my 16 week appointment a bit earlier this time due to our trip.

I think I have not really thought that I’ve wet myself so much this time, which is nice. But geez the body does a lot of clearing out…

Reading these hashtags make me feel weird that there is a small human inside of me. I still look at B most days and think ‘whoa, I grew her’ and can not believe that I am a mother.

I feel similar this time about wearing tight fitting tops, but then again I do not really go out much apart from for walks and B’s toddler classes.

I haven’t taken any naked pictures of myself yet naked this time (currently 25 weeks pregnant), but I feel like I should soon as there’s not much time left really and it’s a nice record for myself.


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Portrait Of A Mother Of A Fourteen Month Old (15 Weeks / 13th August 2021)

Self-portrait of myself yawning with my eyes partially closed due the yawning. I am resting the index finger of my left hand near my left eye.
Portrait Of A Mother Of A Fourteen Month Old (15 Weeks / 13th August 2021)
 
#IShouldBePackingButInsteadIAmProcrastinatingAndDoingAShootThatIWasNotGoingToDoToday
#ItMakesSenseToGetItDoneThoughAsIWantItToHaveTheSameLookAsOtherPortraitsOfAMotherOfEtc
#HopefullyTomorrowWeWillBeGoingAwayAndIWillHaveToDoWithoutMyLightingKitForNearly3Weeks
#IHadLookedAtGettingSomethingThatWouldSuitButIAmNotEarningMuchAtTheMomentSoItFeltQuiteFrivolous
#AnywaysYesterdayWeWentToBirminghamAirportToDoOurFitToFlyPCRTests
#WeWentForTheDriveThroughOptionWhichWasGoodAsBSleptTheWholeTimeEvenWhenALoudPlaneTookOff
#IWarnedTheWomanThatIAmJustGettingOverMyMorningSicknessButItWasFineAndLessUncomfortableThanWhenIDoAFlowTestMyself
#IJustStartedToWinceOnTheLastFewSecondsOfTheTenSecondsNostrilTwisting
#WeAreDueToGetOurResultsByTenTonightThoughTheySaidItMayTake48HoursFromTheTestWhichIsTomorrowMorning
#ByThatPointWeWillBePackedAndHeadingToLondonSoIReallyHopeTheTestsAreNegative
#IFeltALotMoreHappyAndRelaxedOnceTheTestsWereDoneAsThatWasABigStressToOrganiseAndAtThisPointThereIsNotMuchWeCanDoApartFromWaitForTheResults
#ThoughIFeltLessRelaxedOnceIRealisedThatWeWillBeTestedOnArrivalTooSoWeHaveToHopeWeDoNotPickItUpBetweenTests
#ItShouldBeFineExceptForYesterdayIChattedToALotOfPeopleInThePark
#ISawACoupleWhoWeSeeAllTheTimeAndChattedToThemForTheFirstTimeWhichWasNiceButTypicallyItIsJustAsWeAreGoingAway
#AndThenISpokeToAWomanWithADogWhoWeAlsoSeeAllTheTimeButHaveNeverSpokenMuchTo
#BWasAtFirstYellingOrFrustratedlyTalkingToHerDogAndThenSheWasYellingAtASquirrel
#IHaveNoticedThatSheTalksToAllAnimalsApartFromGeeseWhichIsFairEnoughAsTheyAreScary
#TheWomanCameByAndISaidThatBOnlyLikesToTalkToAnimalsAndThenWeSpokeForAges
#AndThenWeSawAnotherWomanWithADogWhoWeUsuallySeeAboutOnceAMonthNowButByThatPointBWasFedUpAndGotScaredByHerDogBarking
#BLikesToStareALotNowAndTheOtherDayATeenagerYelledAtHerSayingWhatAreYouStaringAt
#IThinkHimYellingJustMadeBStareMoreAndHisFriendSaidToHimWhatAreYouDoingWhichIsGood
#BWokeUpAt6ThisMorningThoughMeAndTiagoWereAwakeAtHerUsualTimeAndWorryingIfSheWasAliveAsSheWasSoQuiet
#IDoNotKnowWhySheSleptLateAsInTheParkSheWasEitherInTheSwingOrHerPushchairButMaybeTheBiryaniSheHadForDinnerFilledHerUpOrSheJustWasNotTeethingAt5ForOnce
#LastNightIWokeUpAndBoltedAcrossTheRoomAsInMyDreamBWasAboutToFallOffTheKitchenCounter
#BMakesMeLaughAsYesterdayNanWasPickingCrumbsUpOffTheFloorWhileBSatNextToHerPlayingWithTheVelcroOnNansShoes
#IHaveMyMidwifeAppointmentTodayAtLunchSoHopefullyThatWillAllGoOkay
#WeirdlyTheMidwifeAndIThoughtWeRecognisedEachOtherButIDoNotThinkWeHaveEverMetBefore
#SheWasAlsoLovelyAndIsAboutAWeekMorePregnantThanMeWhichIsCoolButAlsoAnnoyingAsIWantHerAsMyMidwife
#AtMyLastAppointmentTheySaidTheyMayOrMayNotListenForAHeartbeatAsItIsUsuallyTooEarly
#ButSheTriedAndItWasReassuringToHearItAndSheSaidIfIEverWantToCheckItToJustSendHerAMessage

#IShouldBePackingButInsteadIAmProcrastinatingAndDoingAShootThatIWasNotGoingToDoToday

I just realised that the reminders I write to myself were stacking up, and if I do this today then I can chill about doing work for a little bit.

#ItMakesSenseToGetItDoneThoughAsIWantItToHaveTheSameLookAsOtherPortraitsOfAMotherOfEtc

And this. I had debated just doing a shoot today then writing another day.

#HopefullyTomorrowWeWillBeGoingAwayAndIWillHaveToDoWithoutMyLightingKitForNearly3Weeks

I’m sure I’ll manage, it just ruins the look of the project a little bit but oh well. It might mix it up in a good way…

#IHadLookedAtGettingSomethingThatWouldSuitButIAmNotEarningMuchAtTheMomentSoItFeltQuiteFrivolous

And researching/reading reviews takes up so much time.

#AnywaysYesterdayWeWentToBirminghamAirportToDoOurFitToFlyPCRTests

We had looked at other options, but they’d sold out. I think I mentioned it in my last entry/post (I still don’t know what to call these).

#WeWentForTheDriveThroughOptionWhichWasGoodAsBSleptTheWholeTimeEvenWhenALoudPlaneTookOff

Having to park and go through a walk in felt like more hassle. Especially as we did not know what time B would wake up in the morning (5:15am for the record) and if we would disturb her napping (she fell asleep before we got to the airport).

She did briefly open her eyes just after we started to move again, she sleepily smiled at me then went back to sleep. When we got home she stayed in the car for an hour continuing to nap…

#IWarnedTheWomanThatIAmJustGettingOverMyMorningSicknessButItWasFineAndLessUncomfortableThanWhenIDoAFlowTestMyself #IJustStartedToWinceOnTheLastFewSecondsOfTheTenSecondsNostrilTwisting

I thought that I had better warn her in case I made some weird noises or something. She said she would go slow and I could take a break whenever I wanted but it was fine. I was glad that I got a woman, but it seemed like policy which was good (Tiago got a guy).

#WeAreDueToGetOurResultsByTenTonightThoughTheySaidItMayTake48HoursFromTheTestWhichIsTomorrowMorning #ByThatPointWeWillBePackedAndHeadingToLondonSoIReallyHopeTheTestsAreNegative

It is so stressful. I don’t see why people are bothering to go abroad to places where you need to test loads if you are just going for a week and not visiting family… I need to look at booking day 2 and day 8 tests for when I get back. Tiago only needs to do day 2, and B doesn’t need to do them. Phew.

#IFeltALotMoreHappyAndRelaxedOnceTheTestsWereDoneAsThatWasABigStressToOrganiseAndAtThisPointThereIsNotMuchWeCanDoApartFromWaitForTheResults #ThoughIFeltLessRelaxedOnceIRealisedThatWeWillBeTestedOnArrivalTooSoWeHaveToHopeWeDoNotPickItUpBetweenTests

It’d be bloody typical…

#ItShouldBeFineExceptForYesterdayIChattedToALotOfPeopleInThePark

Typically I often go to the park and hope to talk to people and I talk to no one. Yesterday was our chattiest day in a longgg time, if ever.

#ISawACoupleWhoWeSeeAllTheTimeAndChattedToThemForTheFirstTimeWhichWasNiceButTypicallyItIsJustAsWeAreGoingAway

I think I have mentioned them before (I hope it doesn’t get to the point where they might read this blog and find it awkward – hello if so).

Their kid is the same age as B and we have seen them around since we moved here. It was nice to finally chat. We always say we should say hello to them, but after a while it feels like too late to say hello. I took B to the swings though and they were next to us, so I felt like I should ‘go for it’. They’re so nice, and we chatted for ages. B was getting restless, so I thought I should take her home for dinner and a run around.

#AndThenISpokeToAWomanWithADogWhoWeAlsoSeeAllTheTimeButHaveNeverSpokenMuchTo

Once I was sat with B on a picnic blanket and the dog just came and sat next to her randomly. We spoke briefly then, but that was monthsss ago I think.

#BWasAtFirstYellingOrFrustratedlyTalkingToHerDogAndThenSheWasYellingAtASquirrel

I feel bad as I keep saying she is yelling, but she is probably just talking loudly and gets frustrated as they never come closer to her and/or talk back…

#IHaveNoticedThatSheTalksToAllAnimalsApartFromGeeseWhichIsFairEnoughAsTheyAreScary

At first I put evil instead of scary, but thought I might offend geese lovers. They just get quite defensive and hiss a lot. My parents used to have geese and once one bit my foot (luckily I was wearing steel toe capped boots, but still). I have been weary of them since…

#TheWomanCameByAndISaidThatBOnlyLikesToTalkToAnimalsAndThenWeSpokeForAges

She was smiling and I was in a good mood from talking to the couple. We spoke about lots of things from when she gave birth husbands were not allowed in the hospital at all, to anti-vaxxers. She’s also lovely.

#AndThenWeSawAnotherWomanWithADogWhoWeUsuallySeeAboutOnceAMonthNowButByThatPointBWasFedUpAndGotScaredByHerDogBarking

Last time we saw them it was early in the morning. We caught them this time as they came out early and we were late from chatting to so many people. I had to pick B up as she was scared by his barking. He’s a very friendly dog though.

#BLikesToStareALotNowAndTheOtherDayATeenagerYelledAtHerSayingWhatAreYouStaringAt

I was pushing B across the grass and she was sat on the standing board just chilling and looking at the world. I saw her looking at them and I looked briefly and smiled at them.

#IThinkHimYellingJustMadeBStareMoreAndHisFriendSaidToHimWhatAreYouDoingWhichIsGood

Maybe he was yelling at me, but I doubt it as B was having a good long look. So awkward. Glad his friend told him off as he was probably just showing off, but it did make me feel uncomfortable. I just didn’t look or say anything. Then a guy commented that B was staring a lot, but he was being friendly and was with his kids.

#BWokeUpAt6ThisMorningThoughMeAndTiagoWereAwakeAtHerUsualTimeAndWorryingIfSheWasAliveAsSheWasSoQuiet

Yesterday she was trying to get my Nan’s salt shaker off her tall table and I think it may have hit her on the head, so I was keeping an eye on her because of that.

#IDoNotKnowWhySheSleptLateAsInTheParkSheWasEitherInTheSwingOrHerPushchairButMaybeTheBiryaniSheHadForDinnerFilledHerUpOrSheJustWasNotTeethingAt5ForOnce

She wasn’t running around a lot, unless it was from all the listening? Maybe dinner was filling (she didn’t eat any yoghurt before bed like she usually does), or maybe it was down to teething. She never seems to stop teething, so maybe it did for a little bit and so she slept better. Who knows?

#LastNightIWokeUpAndBoltedAcrossTheRoomAsInMyDreamBWasAboutToFallOffTheKitchenCounter

Lol. There is no kitchen counter in our room. Tiago just said ‘are you alright?’ as my urgency woke him up. Classic.

#BMakesMeLaughAsYesterdayNanWasPickingCrumbsUpOffTheFloorWhileBSatNextToHerPlayingWithTheVelcroOnNansShoes

She is funny. She must like the sound. Today she realised she could make a sound on the cupboard with her fingers.

#IHaveMyMidwifeAppointmentTodayAtLunchSoHopefullyThatWillAllGoOkay

I have left myself four hashtags to write about it. Fun times.

#WeirdlyTheMidwifeAndIThoughtWeRecognisedEachOtherButIDoNotThinkWeHaveEverMetBefore

I was thinking I recognised her (even with her mask on) and then she said that she thought she had met me before. I’ve only had a couple of appointments though and they weren’t with her. I’ve recently moved GP surgery and it is better as I will have more of my appointments there rather than random centres, and I like her.

#SheWasAlsoLovelyAndIsAboutAWeekMorePregnantThanMeWhichIsCoolButAlsoAnnoyingAsIWantHerAsMyMidwife

Happy for her, but it’s typical. She said from her 30 weeks she might have to just work from home due to shielding, but she said we’ll see what the rules are. In Liverpool, my midwife was due to take sick leave but then she didn’t – but in the end she wasn’t my midwife as I didn’t have a homebirth. My midwife today said I could have a homebirth if I wanted, but I said it’s probably not very polite as we live at my Nan’s place.

#AtMyLastAppointmentTheySaidTheyMayOrMayNotListenForAHeartbeatAsItIsUsuallyTooEarly #ButSheTriedAndItWasReassuringToHearItAndSheSaidIfIEverWantToCheckItToJustSendHerAMessage

I know in Liverpool they were a bit weird about it. I guess it freaks people out if they don’t hear it, but the midwife today said that if it’s not good news then you wouldn’t hear much at all. The baby was hiding behind my placenta, but she could hear it moving and my placenta was being noisy. She kept trying to get a clearer sound for me, but I said as long as she was happy that all was good then it was fine with me.

Some reassuring news before our possible holiday. Fingers crossed.

15 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait wearing a black and white stripy dress. I am looking at the camera and have my left thumb touching my lips, and the rest of my fingers closing my left eye.
Maternity Clothes (15 and a half weeks)
 
#SoMyFirstMaternityClothesHaveArrived
#IDidNotWantToCurseThingsByBuyingThemTooEarly
#ButIDefinitelyNeededNewBras
#IAmTryingOutTheClipsThatYouUseSoYouCanFeed
#ItIsStartingToGetEasier
#ButIDoNotWantToPracticeTooMuch
#InCaseIBreakThatFunctionBeforeIActuallyNeedThem
#IHaveStartedToEditMyProjectDownNowSoIDoNotHaveToDoItLaterOn
#IHaveToPickMyFavouriteImageFromAllThePreviousShoots
#AndThenIMightTryDrawingOnThem
#ToHelpWithMyAnxietyAndWorries
#IDoDefinitelyHaveABumpNow
#ThoughIThinkDuringTheDayMostOfItIsDueToFood
#IHaveStartedToDoYogaOrPilatesOrStretchingInTheMorningAndEveningNow
#IHaveGotIntoAGoodHabitOfDoingItInTheMorning
#ButTheLastCoupleOfDaysIHaveBeenDoingItInTheEveningTooAsIFeelLikeINeedIt
#AndIAmStartingToGetPelvicPainNow
#AtLeastISeemToHaveMoreEnergyTheseDays
#IStillFeelABitSickButIAmNotBeingSick
#TheClosestIGetToBeingSickAtTheMomentIsWheneverIBrushMyTeeth
#IHaveTriedAllDifferentToothpastesButMyBodyHatesIt
#ITryToThinkOfDoughnutsAndUnicorns
#ApparentlyInWeek16TheBabyWillBeTheSizeOfADoughnut
#SoIMightGetOneToCelebrateAsIHaveBeenThinkingAboutThemForWeeks
#WheneverIAmSomewhereThatSellsThemINeverWantThemThough
#ApartFromMaybeThoseVansThatSellDinkieDoughnutsOrWhateverTheyAreCalledTheseDays
#AnywaysThisIsMyFirstMaternityDress
#IHateShoppingButISawItAndLikedItWhichIsRareSoIThoughtIShouldGetIt
#IAmBoredOfPregnancyAdsNow
#IWantToSeeOtherThings
#AFewYearsAgoWhenIUsedToGetPregnancyTestAdsOnYouTubeIWasSurprisedThatAGuyInMyImprovClassGotAdvertsForTomatoSoup

Well, coincidentally I have my left hand touching my face and one eye closed.

I have been wearing this dress since B was born, and I have been wearing it a lot lately. I haven’t bought any maternity clothes this time, but I have been given a maternity jumper.

I ended up not wearing the clip bras much, and ended up wearing the ones that you just move the bra with your hands. I’ve been wearing them lately anyways as they’re so comfy.

I never ended up drawing on the pictures, but I have got a lot quicker at editing. I usually edit the shoot on the day of the shoot or the day after now.

I feel like I haven’t had any pelvic pain yet with this pregnancy, but I have been doing pregnancy stretches in the morning and evening since getting a positive test this time which I think has helped.

I tried to distract myself more this time than think about doughnuts and unicorns when I feel sick – the thought of doughnuts is making me hungry. There are some jam doughnuts in the kitchen actually, but I’m not a fan.

I feel like I haven’t had too many pregnancy ads this time, but I am also making an effort to not accept all cookies on sites anymore. I could eat a cookie or five.


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Imitating B Looking For A Raisin Down Her Sleeve (15 Weeks / 11th August 2021)

Self-portrait of me pulling my jumper sleeve out with my left hand and looking down it.
Imitating B Looking For A Raisin Down Her Sleeve (15 Weeks / 11th August 2021)
 
#BLikesRaisinsAndIUsuallyGiveThemToHerForASnackOnceADay
#AsSoonAsSheGetsTheBowlSheLikesToEmptyThemOut
#AsAResultTheyGoEverywhereAndSheIsOftenFindingThemThroughoutTheDay
#IGuessTheyAreTrickyToKeepHoldOfAndTheOtherDayILaughedAsSheLookedDownHerSleeveForOneSheHadDropped
#TiagoAndIJustCelebratedOurThreeYearWeddingAnniversaryButWeDidNotDoMuchExceptOrderOurFavouriteIndianFood
#WeHaveBeenSortingOutOurPaperworkToGetOurMarriageRegisteredInPortugalAndForBToGetHerPortugueseCitizenship
#AsWeHaveBeenMarriedForThreeYearsICanAlsoStartApplyingForCitizenshipWhichIsQuiteExciting
#IAmSoStressedThatOurTripWillNotGoAhead
#WeHaveOurTestsTomorrowMorningButYesterdayMyNanHadAPlumberRoundForTwoHoursAsWellAsSomeoneToLookAtTheRoof
#YouNeedToHaveTakenTheTestNoMoreThan72HoursBeforeYouArriveAtYourFinalDestinationButYouAlsoNeedToAllow48HoursForTheResultsToArrive
#SoWeHaveToHopeWeGetTheResultsInTimeAndThatTheyAreNegative
#WeHadWantedToGetThemDoneWednesdayNightButTheySoldOutAndAsWeHaveAConnectingFlightSaturdayEveningWeNeedToDoThemThursdayMorning
#IHaveBeenTakingBOutToTheParkMoreButIfThePlaygroundIsBusyIWillWaitUntilTheCrowdsLeave
#TheOtherDayAGuyWalkedRightByOurBlanketAgainWhenHeHad10MetresOfGrassToWalkOn
#SomeGoodNewsIsIHaveNotBeenSickIn9DaysAndLastNightWasTheFirstNightIDidNotGagFiveTimesAfterBrushingMyTeeth
#HoweverTwoNightsAgoIDidGetMyFirstLegCrampOfThePregnancyAndItWasNotPleasant
#IThinkIWasQuiteDehydratedSoLastNightIDrankALotBeforeBedAndIDidNotGetOne
#SomePeopleHaveToldMeIAmBraveForHavingASecondOneAlready
#IAmNotIJustHaveNothingElseGoingOnInMyLifeRightNowApartFromLookingAfterB
#ItMakesSenseToHaveAnotherKidNowWhileIFeelStuckInLimboAndAmJustWaitingForTheNextChapterOfOurLives
#IWriteNotesForMyNextPostAndTwoDaysAgoIWroteThatIFeelLikeALoser
#IWroteThatIAmWorkingVeryVeryFreelanceWithAdminWorkAndIAmJustWorkingOnMyOwnStuffThatNoOneCaresAbout
#IKnowALotOfPeopleWouldLoveToBeInMyPositionRegardingKids
#IAmGratefulToBePregnantAndToHaveBButIDoFeelLikeALoser
#ICriedTheOtherDayAsTiagoSaidHeWasLookingForwardToBoysNightsOnHoliday
#IDoNotRememberTheLastTimeIHadAGirlsNightAndIAmNotSureWhenIWillAgain
#IAmTakingBOutMoreInTheHopesThatWeWillMeetSomePeople
#WeSpokeToAWomanTheOtherDayWhoSeemedNiceButLetsSeeIfWeSeeHerAgain
#OnceIAmDoubleVaccinatedIAmGoingToTakeBToBirminghamCityCentreToSeeAShowAndGoForLunch
#IJustFeelLikeINeedToBeCarefulStillButIAlsoNeedToShowHerMoreOfWhatLifeCanBeLikeBeforeHerSiblingArrivesAndIProbablyWillNotFeelLikeGoingOutMuchForAWhile

#BLikesRaisinsAndIUsuallyGiveThemToHerForASnackOnceADay

I think she is starting to get bored of them, but then she keeps eating them… I’ve also started to eat them #FunFact.

#AsSoonAsSheGetsTheBowlSheLikesToEmptyThemOut

And by that I mean hold onto the bowl with one hand and flick it up, so they all go everywhere. Or just empty them out…

#AsAResultTheyGoEverywhereAndSheIsOftenFindingThemThroughoutTheDay

I saw her put something in her mouth the other day, so I yelled at her to spit it out (she was by where my Nan sits and sometimes drops tablets). She started to cry and Tiago said he had put a raisin on the table there… Sorry B!

#IGuessTheyAreTrickyToKeepHoldOfAndTheOtherDayILaughedAsSheLookedDownHerSleeveForOneSheHadDropped

I had to help her get it out in the end…

#TiagoAndIJustCelebratedOurThreeYearWeddingAnniversaryButWeDidNotDoMuchExceptOrderOurFavouriteIndianFood

I say celebrated. I saw it on my calendar in the afternoon… It seemed like a good excuse for Indian food.

#WeHaveBeenSortingOutOurPaperworkToGetOurMarriageRegisteredInPortugalAndForBToGetHerPortugueseCitizenship

We did try to register our marriage just after we got married and went to Portugal, but they said we had to get it translated so it was probably easier to get it done at home. The embassies are so useless in the UK. Tiago has been emailing and calling over the years, but we’ve not got anywhere. They said I needed to get a birth certificate that had been issued in the last 6 months, but our friend who is sorting it out for us in Portugal now said we needed to get the documents Apostille stamped. We will now just get them translated there, as we might be waiting for (more) years if we try to get things done here now with Covid.

#AsWeHaveBeenMarriedForThreeYearsICanAlsoStartApplyingForCitizenshipWhichIsQuiteExciting

Hurrah, we are going to get the ball rolling soon. It’s funny that Tiago and B both have the new passports that don’t have European Union stamped on them, whereas mine does but I am not an EU citizen, whereas Tiago is and B will soon be. B has more claim to citizenship than me, and I think hers will be processed fast.

#IAmSoStressedThatOurTripWillNotGoAhead

Please please please let it happen.

#WeHaveOurTestsTomorrowMorningButYesterdayMyNanHadAPlumberRoundForTwoHoursAsWellAsSomeoneToLookAtTheRoof

Small things that have been wrong with the house since we moved in obviously needed to be looked at this week… (They didn’t, but oh well.)

#YouNeedToHaveTakenTheTestNoMoreThan72HoursBeforeYouArriveAtYourFinalDestinationButYouAlsoNeedToAllow48HoursForTheResultsToArrive

What a headache.

#SoWeHaveToHopeWeGetTheResultsInTimeAndThatTheyAreNegative

If it takes 48 hours we will already be on the road. Worse case scenario is we have to pay for the stupidly expensive tests at the airport (providing they have space).

#WeHadWantedToGetThemDoneWednesdayNightButTheySoldOutAndAsWeHaveAConnectingFlightSaturdayEveningWeNeedToDoThemThursdayMorning

We need to get more organised. We are going to the Birmingham airport drive through to get them done, though we are flying from London. There are some where you get sent a test and a doctor watches you do the test via webcam and can give you an instant pdf certificate, but they had sold out for this week…

Whine whine.

#IHaveBeenTakingBOutToTheParkMoreButIfThePlaygroundIsBusyIWillWaitUntilTheCrowdsLeave

I say crowds as there must be a summer school or group that has about 30 kids that takes it over. The same school/group that decided to start a race a metre away from us the other week…

#TheOtherDayAGuyWalkedRightByOurBlanketAgainWhenHeHad10MetresOfGrassToWalkOn

Maybe we sit too close to that edge of the park, but I don’t see why going 3m off course would harm him. Of course I said something along the lines of ‘Yeah, I know you wouldn’t think there was so much grass to walk on’ to B.

#SomeGoodNewsIsIHaveNotBeenSickIn9DaysAndLastNightWasTheFirstNightIDidNotGagFiveTimesAfterBrushingMyTeeth

Hurrah. I did a little heave, but it wasn’t much.

#HoweverTwoNightsAgoIDidGetMyFirstLegCrampOfThePregnancyAndItWasNotPleasant

Some pain fun to replace sick fun.

#IThinkIWasQuiteDehydratedSoLastNightIDrankALotBeforeBedAndIDidNotGetOne

Let’s hope it stays that way. I woke Tiago up with my oww-ing.

#SomePeopleHaveToldMeIAmBraveForHavingASecondOneAlready

Lol.

#IAmNotIJustHaveNothingElseGoingOnInMyLifeRightNowApartFromLookingAfterB #ItMakesSenseToHaveAnotherKidNowWhileIFeelStuckInLimboAndAmJustWaitingForTheNextChapterOfOurLives

We’re in Brum until at least the start of next summer, so it makes sense to ‘get on with things’.

#IWriteNotesForMyNextPostAndTwoDaysAgoIWroteThatIFeelLikeALoser #IWroteThatIAmWorkingVeryVeryFreelanceWithAdminWorkAndIAmJustWorkingOnMyOwnStuffThatNoOneCaresAbout

I love B, but I’d also love to have a job/commission where B could go to nursery a bit and I could feel a bit more like my old self. Obviously being pregnant now complicates things, but that’s also why I’m pregnant as there are no jobs/commissions around that I am suitable for/are worth it/fit.

#IKnowALotOfPeopleWouldLoveToBeInMyPositionRegardingKids

Having to awkwardly tell certain friends that you are pregnant before they find out from someone else, but you don’t want to tell them as you know it will upset them etc.

#IAmGratefulToBePregnantAndToHaveBButIDoFeelLikeALoser

If I had more local friends to hang out with would it be better? Once I’m double vaccinated I’m going to start going to a local pregnancy yoga class. I doubt I’ll make any good friends, but you never know and it’d be good to have a bit of time for myself and stretch well.

#ICriedTheOtherDayAsTiagoSaidHeWasLookingForwardToBoysNightsOnHoliday #IDoNotRememberTheLastTimeIHadAGirlsNightAndIAmNotSureWhenIWillAgain

Lol, I suddenly just started to cry. Tiago went to London the other month and hung out with a friend, and a friend came to Brum and he went to meet them for dinner/drinks. T says I should have a day to myself soon and do what I want. I want to go to London, but I also don’t want to if you know what I mean? This darn Covid. Once I’m double vacc’d I may feel differently, but I don’t want to be going when I’m SUPER pregnant.

#IAmTakingBOutMoreInTheHopesThatWeWillMeetSomePeople

Love the desperation. I do like looking at all the dogs though, and B usually tries to talk to them all – and also to crows and magpies.

#WeSpokeToAWomanTheOtherDayWhoSeemedNiceButLetsSeeIfWeSeeHerAgain

Her kid was a bit older than B, but she also had an older one. She talked about not having family nearby, but at least having some good friends.

#OnceIAmDoubleVaccinatedIAmGoingToTakeBToBirminghamCityCentreToSeeAShowAndGoForLunch

It’d be nice. I feel like I could look after her outside of the house and it’d be okay (remember that I have not gone far from the house with her by myself). By the time we go she might be down to one nap a day, though I hope she keeps it up for longer.

#IJustFeelLikeINeedToBeCarefulStillButIAlsoNeedToShowHerMoreOfWhatLifeCanBeLikeBeforeHerSiblingArrivesAndIProbablyWillNotFeelLikeGoingOutMuchForAWhile

Typically I finally feel like I could take her to town by myself, but then when the second one comes we will probably be stuck to the house more again. I can only do my best, and maybe with the second one I might be more chill? The idea of taking two to town sounds like a bit too much, so I should definitely try to take B a few times by herself so it would not be too daunting. Let’s see…

15 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait with my top pulled up. I am holding an apple in my right hand over my belly button and my top is pulled up.
A Baby The Size Of An Apple (15 weeks)
 
#SoOBebeIs15WeeksAndTheSizeOfAnApple
#IToldMyselfThatIWouldNotTakeAnyPicturesOfMyselfWithFruitOrVegetables
#ButHereWeAre
#ILikeApplesSoIfIAmGoingToBreakMyRulesThenItMightAsWellBeForAnApple
#AnotherAppSaysItIsAPeachButAllTheAppsAndSitesSayDifferentThings
#ApparentlyItCanStartToHearSingingSoMeAndTiagoHaveBeenTryingToSingToMyBelly
#IAmABitWorriedThatTheNeighboursCanHearUsScreechingAway
#ApparentlyUntil20WeeksTheBabyWillDoubleInSize
#IAmGettingALotOfCrampsSoIAmGuessingThatIsTheBabyGrowing
#SoonIShouldBeAbleToFeelItMoveWhichIsACrazyThought
#IStillAssociateCrampsWithPeriodsSoItStillWeirdsMeOut
#MorePeopleKnowIAmPregnantNow
#ILoveHowEveryoneNeedsToTellMeToRestEatAndDrinkPlenty
#NonAlcoholicDrinksOfCourse
#ItIsNotLikeIGotPregnantAndThenDecidedToStopSleepingEatingAndDrinking
#IKnowPeopleAreJustTryingToBeHelpfulAndSupportive
#ButItIsLikePeopleTellingMeToMakeSureIRememberToBreathe
#IOrderedAMaternityPillowAndIAmHopingItArrivesSoon
#ItIsEarlyDaysButIFeelLikeINeedOne
#IAmASideSleeperButItGetsUncomfortableAndITurnOverManyTimes
#IAlsoFeelLikeINeedToHugSomething
#ICanNotRememberTheLastTimeIFellAsleepHuggingABigTeddyBear
#ButThatIsWhatIFeelLikeINeed
#IStillForgetIAmPregnantSometimes
#OrIStillFindTheThoughtWeird
#IKeepThinkingThatSomethingBadWillHappen
#AsIStillCanNotImagineMeWithABabyAndInSomewaysItDoesNotFeelMeantToBe
#ButObviouslyIHopeItIsMeantToBeAndThatEverythingElseIsFine
#IAmGettingQuiteIntoStretchingInTheMorningsNow

I am yet to take any pictures of myself with fruit and veg this time, and I think I will try to avoid that – says me on a post about raisins. If it’s me imitating B then that’s different (and there were no raisins on the shoot anyways).

Living with my Nan we are lucky as I have to screech pretty loudly for the neighbours to hear me. I can be less self conscious this time and do spend a lot of time singing to B…

I do not think I will ever have a cramp when pregnant and feel relaxed about it.

I have been getting annoyed this time by someone telling me to eat more fish. I haven’t intentionally eaten fish since I was 15. I know they mean well, but it’s quite annoying.

I have been hugging part of my maternity pillow from quite early on this time. I say part as there is a bit that unzips from the main bit. I got the main pillow out the other day, but actually I had forgotten that I can zip the little bit to the main bit. Just need to find where I put the small piece that joins them now…

I am really enjoying my stretching these days.

Portrait of Tiago, my husband. He is sat down with his right hand under his chin and his left hand supporting his elbow. He is looking off slightly to his right.
Tiago Says A Few Words (15 Weeks)

#ICanNotRememberHowIFeltWhenJocelynFoundOutSheWasPregnant
#IWasDefinitelyHappy
#WeHadBeenTryingSinceTheStartOf2019
#TodayIFeelHappyWaitingForMyChildToArrive
#SoICanPutMyFatherSkillsIntoAction
#IThinkIWillBeAGoodFather
#IThinkIWillBeARelaxedFather
#WhateverHappensHappens
#IAmLookingForwardToTeachingMyKidPortugueseAndToShowingThemRoundLiverpool
#IAlreadyFeelCloseToTheChildAsISpeakToThemEveryNight
#SoonIWillBeReadingThemStoriesBeforeBedTime

I didn’t realise that Tiago actually said so few words.

He keeps forgetting that I am pregnant this time…


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Imitating B Dancing (14 Weeks / 8th August 2021)

Me with my right arm in front of my body imitating B dancing.
Imitating B Dancing (14 Weeks / 8th August 2021)
 
#BHasStartedToDanceMoreToSongsWhichIsReallyNiceToSee
#SheUsuallyDoesALotOfIntricateSteppingButSheAlsoPutsHerRightArmInFrontOfHerAtTimes
#BIsConstantlyKneeingMeInTheStomachOrUsingMyBellyAsALeaningPost
#ObviouslySheDoesNotKnowWhatSheIsDoingButItDoesFreakMeOutABit
#SheHasStartedToDoHerSuperCheekySmileAgainWhichMakesMeLaugh
#SheDoesItALotWhileSheRidesOnHerZebraWhichSheCanClimbOnAndPlayWithByHerselfNow
#ThoughSheLikesToScareMeByActingABitLikeAStuntRiderAndStandingUpOnIt
#WeHaveStartedToGiveHerHerMilkAtTheEndOfMealsNow
#BeforeWeWouldGiveItHerAtTheStartOfMealsAndSheWouldJustDrinkItAllUntilItWasGone
#IAmHopingThisMeansSheWillEatMoreNowAndSleepBetter
#ThoughThisMorningSheWasUpSuperEarlySoMaybeNot
#WeUsuallyGiveHerSomeGreekStyleYoghurtBeforeBedtimeButInTheLastFewDaysIHaveBeenStrugglingToEvenLookAtIt
#IDoNotKnowWhyButMyBodyIsRepulsedByItAndItMakesMeWantToMeSick
#IAmStillStrugglingWithBrushingMyTeethAtNightThoughIHaveNotBeenSickInSixDays
#IHaveAnnouncedThatIAmPregnantNowWhichIsMaybeTooEarlyButItIsWhatItIs
#EveryCrampWorriesMeButIGuessMyBodyHasALotOfStretchingToDoAndItHasToCleanItself
#WhenIWasPregnantWithBIAteALotOfJacketPotatoesButIAmYetToHaveOneWithThisPregnancy
#IAmQuiteIntoBeetrootAtTheMomentAndAnythingVinegaryReally
#MyMainConcernCurrentlyThoughIsItIsAWeekUntilOurHolidayAndNotGettingCovidBeforeWeGo
#IDoNotThinkWeHaveHadItYetButKnowingOurLuckWeWillGetItThisWeek
#LastWeekBAndIMetUpWithAFriendAndHerBabyAndIWasTryingToKeepMyDistance
#OfCourseIAmSuperCarefulButThenBGoesAndTriesToDrinkFromTheirWaterBottlesAndCups
#WeJustNeedThisTrip
#TiagoNeedsABreakAndHeWantsToSeeHisParentsAndHisFriends
#INeedABreakAndIWantBToMeetHerGrandparentsAndIWantToSwimInTheSeaAndHaveSomeChangeToOurGroundhogDays
#OfCourseIAmAlsoLookingForwardToSeeingLotsOfPeopleWhoIHaveNotSeenInTwoYears
#IHaveBeenFeelingQuiteLonelyAndBoredOfTheMonotonySoItWillBeNiceToSeePeopleAndHaveAHolidaySimilarButNotEntirelyTheSameAsThoseWeUsedToHaveEverySummer
#IWonderIfIWillEverMakeMoreFriendsHereButAllICanDoIsTryMyBest
#YesterdayWeWentForAWalkAndWeSawSoManyBabiesAndToddlersThatIAmNotSureWhereTheyAllCameFrom
#WeAreAllEnjoyingOurNewBedroomHangoutAtLeastAndItHelpsMixTheDaysUpABit

#BHasStartedToDanceMoreToSongsWhichIsReallyNiceToSee

We do listen to music a lot, and she sees me dancing.

Yesterday T brought her upstairs while I was doing my dance videos and I could see B trying to copy my arm actions.

#SheUsuallyDoesALotOfIntricateSteppingButSheAlsoPutsHerRightArmInFrontOfHerAtTimes

It makes me think of a photo I took for my OMOM project –

I like when I put a song on and she just starts moving around. She was moving fast to ‘I’m Still Standing’ by Elton John the other day. Sometimes she flaps her arms to songs too.

#BIsConstantlyKneeingMeInTheStomachOrUsingMyBellyAsALeaningPost #ObviouslySheDoesNotKnowWhatSheIsDoingButItDoesFreakMeOutABit

I guess the womb is built to be resilient, but I barely knocked my belly at all when I was pregnant with B. A cat walked over it once, which made me worried, but B does a lot worse to it on the daily.

#SheHasStartedToDoHerSuperCheekySmileAgainWhichMakesMeLaugh

I love it. Just super big cheesy grin with her little teeth showing more now.

#SheDoesItALotWhileSheRidesOnHerZebraWhichSheCanClimbOnAndPlayWithByHerselfNow

I say ‘giddy up’ and she goes for it.

#ThoughSheLikesToScareMeByActingABitLikeAStuntRiderAndStandingUpOnIt

I blame all this watching of the Olympics. I’ve watched so much of it this year, but today is the last day. I’m a bit relieved, though I do want to watch the Paralympics. I’m a bit sports out though – luckily I’ve just seen that it doesn’t start for 2+ weeks.

#WeHaveStartedToGiveHerHerMilkAtTheEndOfMealsNow #BeforeWeWouldGiveItHerAtTheStartOfMealsAndSheWouldJustDrinkItAllUntilItWasGone

Though now she just drinks it until it’s gone when she gets it.

#IAmHopingThisMeansSheWillEatMoreNowAndSleepBetter #ThoughThisMorningSheWasUpSuperEarlySoMaybeNot

Fun times.

#WeUsuallyGiveHerSomeGreekStyleYoghurtBeforeBedtimeButInTheLastFewDaysIHaveBeenStrugglingToEvenLookAtIt

When Tiago is busy/out and I have to give it her by myself, geez I really struggle. Yesterday just thinking about it made me want to vomit.

#IDoNotKnowWhyButMyBodyIsRepulsedByItAndItMakesMeWantToMeSick

I do not remember being this grossed out by it last time. I’ve been eating it for breakfast with turkish eggs here and there as well… I think the evenings are just not good for me.

#IAmStillStrugglingWithBrushingMyTeethAtNightThoughIHaveNotBeenSickInSixDays

I’ve been close though. The dry heaving is not much fun, especially as it leaves my stomach feeling unsettled for a bit.

#IHaveAnnouncedThatIAmPregnantNowWhichIsMaybeTooEarlyButItIsWhatItIs

Not that anyone cares, but it feels like a big step with it all.

#EveryCrampWorriesMeButIGuessMyBodyHasALotOfStretchingToDoAndItHasToCleanItself

I get worried a few times during the day. Sometimes it is just gas though… Classy.

#WhenIWasPregnantWithBIAteALotOfJacketPotatoesButIAmYetToHaveOneWithThisPregnancy

I guess I was going to the office then and it was an easy lunch solution as local cafes sold them. Thinking about it I would like a jacket potato with coleslaw now… It’s not even 8am. I feel like I ate baked beans last time, but I have not been able to touch them lately.

(15th October: I had one last weekend and it was great. Earlier I said to Tiago that we should have them for lunch this weekend.)

#IAmQuiteIntoBeetrootAtTheMomentAndAnythingVinegaryReally

I do not usually eat salt and vinegar crisps, but I am a fan at the moment.

#MyMainConcernCurrentlyThoughIsItIsAWeekUntilOurHolidayAndNotGettingCovidBeforeWeGo #IDoNotThinkWeHaveHadItYetButKnowingOurLuckWeWillGetItThisWeek

I am quite concerned. My social calendar is empty this week though – I just need to go to the doctors for an early 16 week check.

#LastWeekBAndIMetUpWithAFriendAndHerBabyAndIWasTryingToKeepMyDistance

I debated saying let’s leave it until after our holiday, but we’d missed her 1st birthday party and I do not see many people.

#OfCourseIAmSuperCarefulButThenBGoesAndTriesToDrinkFromTheirWaterBottlesAndCups

Argh. Hopefully it’ll be okay. They’ve yet to tell us they have Covid so…

#WeJustNeedThisTrip

Need or want? A lot of other people probably want or need a trip too. If it wasn’t for it being where Tiago grew up we’d just be going somewhere in the UK I’m sure. It’d be a lot less stressful.

#TiagoNeedsABreakAndHeWantsToSeeHisParentsAndHisFriends

True, he could have a break in the UK. Seeing his parents and friends is a big thing though. We last saw his parents at Xmas 2019, but in mainland Portugal rather than on the island.

#INeedABreakAndIWantBToMeetHerGrandparentsAndIWantToSwimInTheSeaAndHaveSomeChangeToOurGroundhogDays

So many wants and needs.

#OfCourseIAmAlsoLookingForwardToSeeingLotsOfPeopleWhoIHaveNotSeenInTwoYears

I want to see my parents in law as well, and see the people we usually see every summer.

#IHaveBeenFeelingQuiteLonelyAndBoredOfTheMonotonySoItWillBeNiceToSeePeopleAndHaveAHolidaySimilarButNotEntirelyTheSameAsThoseWeUsedToHaveEverySummer

Lonely when I’m with B all day? Sounds rude, but if you’re a parent I’m sure you know what I mean. It’ll be different when she can talk. It’s just weird that I have so much ‘free time’ (time where I could be hanging out with people) now and I do not really see anyone. Maybe it’ll be different when the summer holidays are over and we start classes again.

#IWonderIfIWillEverMakeMoreFriendsHereButAllICanDoIsTryMyBest

We are not planning to stay here forever, so soon it will get to the point of why bother trying to meet people. Maybe I’m just socially awkward. Maybe I’m just not a very likeable person. Maybe I’m just annoying. Maybe I have little in common with people around here. Maybe maybe maybe.

#YesterdayWeWentForAWalkAndWeSawSoManyBabiesAndToddlersThatIAmNotSureWhereTheyAllCameFrom

I recognised a couple of them, but there was a lot I’d never seen before.

#WeAreAllEnjoyingOurNewBedroomHangoutAtLeastAndItHelpsMixTheDaysUpABit

Now we can hang out downstairs, in our room, go for walks… It’s raining again. I’m so fed up with this weather. I do wonder how things would be if it wasn’t for Covid. I’m sure I’d be taking B out more – hanging out at coffee shops, there’d be more classes/groups perhaps, I wouldn’t be so scared of taking her to soft play etc. Oh well.

14 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait with my top lifted up so my belly is on show. I am staring down at it.
Don’t Touch My Belly (14 and a half weeks)
 
#14AndAHalfWeeks
#IWentToWrite13AndThenIHadToThinkAboutIt
#IAmTryingToNotMakeEveryPhotoShootAboutMyBellyButItIsKindOfWhereTheActionIsHappening
#IDefinitelyHaveABumpNow
#EvenIfSomeOfItIsFoodAndTrappedWind
#ThereIsDefinitelyABellyGrowingThereSlowly
#TheChildWillBeHalfPortuguese
#WellTiagoIsABritishCitizenNowSoHeIsPortugueseBritishSoThatMessesUpTheMathsABit
#ButToMeTheChildWillBeHalfPortuguese
#AndHopefullyOneDayIWillGetPortugueseCitizenship
#ButAnywaysThePortugueseCultureIsABitDifferentToTheBritish
#TheyAreVeryTouchyInGeneral
#ThisWeekIHeardStoriesOfRandomPeopleTouchingYourBump
#ItIsBadEnoughHavingMyPortugueseFamilyTryingToTouchIt
#IToldOneMemberOffAndOnOurGoodbyeSheWentForIt
#EspeciallyAsISpentTheVisitBeingSoIllAndSickAndGrim
#AndIHaveNeverBeenFondOfMyStomachAnyways
#SoHavingItTouchedByPeopleIsSoAwkwardForMe
#AFriendAtLunchReachedOutAndTouchedAndIJustSatThereStillInShock
#TiagoToldThemToBeCarefulAsIBite
#IAmLikingHavingABumpAndIAmLookingForwardToSeeingItGrow
#IJustDoNotLikeAllTheAttentionThatItBrings
#IAmThinkingThatIfPeopleTouchMyBellyThenIWillHaveToTouchTheirsBackToSendAMessage
#YeahAwkwardAndAHalf
#IWouldNotTouchPeoplesBelliesWithoutAsking
#NotThatIWouldThinkOfAskingEitherAsItIsAllAwkwardToMe
#HoweverWhenAFriendWasPregnantACoupleOfYearsAgoTheBabyWasKickingAndSheAskedMeIfIWantedToFeel
#BecauseSheAskedMeAndIWasIntriguedISaidYes
#SoMaybeIMightInvitePeopleToTouchMyBellyAtSomePointButPleaseDoNotTouchItOrAskMeTo
#AsIHateSayingNoButIProbablyWillAndThenWeWillBothFeelAwkwardWhichIsNotNice

I definitely took more bare belly shots when I was pregnant with B. I guess this project is different as a lot of it is me imitating B, so I do not have as much time for belly shots.

I avoided a lot of belly touching with B due to Covid. I’ve had a few people touching it lately without asking and my blanket response is usually ‘you’re touching my lunch’. The same family member was touching my belly on our trip and I had to tell her no again. It was awkward, but I don’t like it.

I still wouldn’t touch someone’s bump without asking, but I also don’t feel the need to touch someone’s belly or bump. It’s quite weird to be honest.

I don’t think I ever invited someone to touch my bump other than Tiago, but then again I was heavily pregnant during the first UK lockdown.

I do try to get B to ‘engage’ with my bump, but she doesn’t get it. I do look forward to her sibling kicking and B being able to see the kicks/feel them. I can just imagine her laughing…


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