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Imitating B Pulling Her Hair (19 Weeks / 12th September 2021)

Self-portrait with my hair covering my face and I'm pulling pieces of my hair on the left and right side of my head.
Imitating B Pulling Her Hair (19 Weeks / 12th September 2021)
 
#BIsStartingToBecomeMoreAwareOfHerselfAndHerBodyIThink
#SometimesSheWillJustPullAtHerHairButNotInABadWayJustInAOohIHaveHairWay
#ShePullsMyHairInAHowMuchDoIHaveToPullThisToGetItToComeOutWay
#IGotBackFromLondonLastNightAndHadAShowerToDecontaminate
#IWentToBedWithWetHairAsIWasSoTiredSoMaybeItWillStillLookABitWildByTheTimeIDoAShoot
#IHadNotBeenAwayFromBForMoreThan6HoursBeforeAndInTheEndIDidNotSeeHerForAbout41Hours
#ILeftJustBeforeHerSecondNapOnFridayAndGotBackAfterSheHadGoneToBedOnSaturday
#IHadBeenExcitedAboutGoingButAsIPackedOnFridayISuddenlyFeltQuiteEmotionalAndSadAboutLeaving
#PackingForAnAdultForOneNightIsSoMuchLessWorkThanPackingForTwoAdultsAndAToddler
#OnFridayMorningTiagoEndedUpGivingBASpoonfulOfSlightlySoapyWaterInHerWaterCupRatherThanHerVitaminsSoIWasALittleNervous
#IHadBeenRinsingAnOldBottleForRecyclingAndMyNanMustHaveMovedItAwayFromTheDrainingBoard
#BsParacetamolIsSometimesPinkAndSometimesClearSoTiagoAssumedTheVitaminsMightBeTheSame
#ButInTheEndItWasFineAndTiagoSentMeVideosOfHimChasingAfterBAndHerCuddlingHerCollectionOfTeddies
#MyNanKeepsBuyingHerTeddiesButSheHasNeverPaidMuchAttentionToThemUntilThisWeek
#SheIsGoingThroughALeapAndHasChangedSoMuchInTheLastWeek
#ItWasHotTheOtherDayAndSheWasSatJustInHerNappySpittingOutHerWaterOntoHerChestAndRubbingItIn
#SheCouldNotSwimInTheSeaSoSheHadToMakeDoWithATubOfWaterOutsideButSheHadAGreatTime
#ButYesItWasNiceToHaveAnEveningAndDayAwayForMyselfAndToSeeSoManyOldFriendsAndAcquaintancesAfterSoLong
#IKeptThinkingThatEveryoneHasBeenCarryingOnAsNormalWhileIHaveBeenAwayLookingAfterB
#ButOfCourseThePandemicHasBeenDifferentForEveryoneAndItWasAStrangeExperienceForAll
#ILostMyVoiceAtOnePointAsIWasNotUsedToTalkingAndSpeakingLoudlySoMuch
#MyBumpFeltHeavyAtTimesFromAllTheWalkingAndStandingAndBeforeBoardingTrainsAndTubesIWouldRubMyBellyToShowIWasPregnant
#ItWasUnnecessaryThoughAsTransportWasPrettyQuietWhichWasNiceAndISatInThePregnancySeatsWithoutFeelingSuperAwkwardThoughIFeltALittleBitSo
#ThisWeekBHadHerFirstToddlerClassAndAtTheBeginningSheJustSatByHerPushchair
#IGuessItWasWeirdForHerAsSheHadGoneFromBeingTheOldestToOneOfTheYoungest
#SheHadAlsoNotBeenAroundSoManyYoungPeopleInAWhileSoItMustHaveBeenALotToTakeIn
#ItWillBeGoodForHerThoughAndSheWillLearnALotFromTheOlderOnes
#IAmHopingToJustTakeBabyXAlongToBsClassesAfterTheyAreBorn
#IAmTryingToMakeAnEffortToMeetMoreLocalMumsWhoAreAlsoPregnantViaThoseAwkwardMumApps
#MyThinkingIsTheyWillBeOnMaternityLeaveSoWillHopefullyWantToHangOutAndWeCanPassTheLongWeekdaysTogetherAtTimes

#BIsStartingToBecomeMoreAwareOfHerselfAndHerBodyIThink

She was already aware of it, but it seems like she is more so.

#SometimesSheWillJustPullAtHerHairButNotInABadWayJustInAOohIHaveHairWay

Maybe she is stressed sometimes, or maybe it is just something to do? It seems to be in a playful/toddler way.

#ShePullsMyHairInAHowMuchDoIHaveToPullThisToGetItToComeOutWay

Maybe she is just more aware of bodies in general. She likes to grab our noses more now.

#IGotBackFromLondonLastNightAndHadAShowerToDecontaminate

Put all my clothes in the wash, had a shower and washed my hair.

#IWentToBedWithWetHairAsIWasSoTiredSoMaybeItWillStillLookABitWildByTheTimeIDoAShoot

It looked WILD this morning. We took B for a walk and I don’t want to brush it, so I looked a bit of a mess, but it will have fallen out more by the time I get round to the shoot.

#IHadNotBeenAwayFromBForMoreThan6HoursBeforeAndInTheEndIDidNotSeeHerForAbout41Hours

Those 6 hours were in November…

On holiday the other week I did have a bit of time away from her, but I would generally see her after two or three hours.

It was T’s first time looking after B for a whole day, though my Nan was around and my Mum was about for a bit.

#ILeftJustBeforeHerSecondNapOnFridayAndGotBackAfterSheHadGoneToBedOnSaturday

So I did not see her until this morning.

#IHadBeenExcitedAboutGoingButAsIPackedOnFridayISuddenlyFeltQuiteEmotionalAndSadAboutLeaving

I did miss her while I was away, but I was also happy to see so many people and be reminded that I do have friends and know people.

#PackingForAnAdultForOneNightIsSoMuchLessWorkThanPackingForTwoAdultsAndAToddler

One small backpack. I packed way too many changes of clothes, but whatever. So nice to have a short packing list rather than a massive one.

#OnFridayMorningTiagoEndedUpGivingBASpoonfulOfSlightlySoapyWaterInHerWaterCupRatherThanHerVitaminsSoIWasALittleNervous #IHadBeenRinsingAnOldBottleForRecyclingAndMyNanMustHaveMovedItAwayFromTheDrainingBoard #BsParacetamolIsSometimesPinkAndSometimesClearSoTiagoAssumedTheVitaminsMightBeTheSame

He had given her milk and pointed to a glass and said ‘this is what is left of B’s vitamin water’ (we mix her vitamins in with her water as it seems easier than giving it on a spoon, though she likes it so she probably would take it from the spoon now). I was confused and said ‘it looks a bit clear’, but he mentioned about her paracetamol sometimes being clear and sometimes being pink. Her vitamins are a very strong pink.

After a few seconds it clicked and I could not stop laughing. I tried the water to make T feel a bit better. It couldn’t have been so bad as B had drank most of the cup.

#ButInTheEndItWasFineAndTiagoSentMeVideosOfHimChasingAfterBAndHerCuddlingHerCollectionOfTeddies

A good run around before bed – ‘I’m going to get you’.

A morning cuddle with three teddies.

#MyNanKeepsBuyingHerTeddiesButSheHasNeverPaidMuchAttentionToThemUntilThisWeek

It’s probably because before I put her down for a nap for bed I mention the three stuffed animals that are in her cot. Sometimes she cuddles them, sometimes she cuddles her water cup.

#SheIsGoingThroughALeapAndHasChangedSoMuchInTheLastWeek

She just suddenly seems smarter. She now makes it clear when she wants more water etc.

#ItWasHotTheOtherDayAndSheWasSatJustInHerNappySpittingOutHerWaterOntoHerChestAndRubbingItIn

Classic.

#SheCouldNotSwimInTheSeaSoSheHadToMakeDoWithATubOfWaterOutsideButSheHadAGreatTime

She loved it. One day it was so hot that I did not even bother drying her afterwards and she dried fast. Her skin felt lovely and cold.

#ButYesItWasNiceToHaveAnEveningAndDayAwayForMyselfAndToSeeSoManyOldFriendsAndAcquaintancesAfterSoLong

It’s just nice to wander around and recognise so many faces.

#IKeptThinkingThatEveryoneHasBeenCarryingOnAsNormalWhileIHaveBeenAwayLookingAfterB #ButOfCourseThePandemicHasBeenDifferentForEveryoneAndItWasAStrangeExperienceForAll

Big photography events and openings just haven’t been happening.

#ILostMyVoiceAtOnePointAsIWasNotUsedToTalkingAndSpeakingLoudlySoMuch

It was good to talk about photography and life with people in real life again. Apologies to anyone that I bored talking about family life to.

#MyBumpFeltHeavyAtTimesFromAllTheWalkingAndStandingAndBeforeBoardingTrainsAndTubesIWouldRubMyBellyToShowIWasPregnant

I haven’t stood up and walked so much in a while.

#ItWasUnnecessaryThoughAsTransportWasPrettyQuietWhichWasNiceAndISatInThePregnancySeatsWithoutFeelingSuperAwkwardThoughIFeltALittleBitSo

When I lived in London I’d never sit in the priority chairs so it felt weird, apart from getting the train to and from Brum. I love the single seats that face out, and I managed to get one of them both ways, so I didn’t have to sit next to someone without a mask.

I was disappointed how many people weren’t wearing masks on public transport in London.

#ThisWeekBHadHerFirstToddlerClassAndAtTheBeginningSheJustSatByHerPushchair

I had to put her by the mat and all the kids.

#IGuessItWasWeirdForHerAsSheHadGoneFromBeingTheOldestToOneOfTheYoungest

It’s nice to be at a more age appropriate class though, as the other one was getting boring.

#SheHadAlsoNotBeenAroundSoManyYoungPeopleInAWhileSoItMustHaveBeenALotToTakeIn #ItWillBeGoodForHerThoughAndSheWillLearnALotFromTheOlderOnes

It was a settling in class for both of us. Hopefully she will feel more at home next week, and we can try to meet some people.

#IAmHopingToJustTakeBabyXAlongToBsClassesAfterTheyAreBorn

Fingers crossed. Tiago can take B when he is on paternity leave, and then hopefully I’d feel comfortable enough to take them both.

#IAmTryingToMakeAnEffortToMeetMoreLocalMumsWhoAreAlsoPregnantViaThoseAwkwardMumApps

I’ve spent a lot of time talking to Mums over the last year, but not much comes out of it. It’s worse than dating.

#MyThinkingIsTheyWillBeOnMaternityLeaveSoWillHopefullyWantToHangOutAndWeCanPassTheLongWeekdaysTogetherAtTimes

Especially those who have an older kid as they will hopefully feel more comfortable going out. I’m not being picky though, I’d just like more weekday friends.

19 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait from my head to my knees. I'm dressed all in black and some of my hair is draped over my left arm, which is resting on my head.
The Other Day I Thought I Could Feel The Baby Moving (19 and a half weeks)
 
#TheOtherDayIThoughtICouldFeelTheBabyMoving
#ItFeltLikePopcornLightlyPopping
#ButAgainItCouldHaveBeenWishfulThinking
#TheNightBeforeIHadHadADreamThatINeededToFlushPeoplesRingsDownTheToilet
#OtherwiseSomethingReallyBadWouldHappenToMe
#ItWasASuperStressfulDream
#MeanwhileTiagoWasDreamingThatTheBabyWasCryingInItsCot
#SoHePickedItUpAndSangToItAndSettledIt
#AndThereWasAVeryBabylikeDollInTheCotToo
#BesidesFromTheCreepyDollItSoundsLikeAMuchBetterDream
#IHaveBeenFeelingABitBetterInTheLastFewDays
#IThinkTheCrampsWereProbablyTheBabyJustGrowingAndMyBodyDoingItsThing
#ButIAlsoThinkItMayHaveBeenTrappedWindAndThingsLikeThat
#CharmingButTrue
#ItHasBeenNiceNotGettingMenstrualCrampsForAWhile
#MyPeriodTrackerAppSaysMyPeriodIs111DaysLate
#MyCoughSeemsToHaveReturnedAlreadyWhichIsABitAnnoying
#PeopleAlwaysAskMeAboutIfIHaveCravings
#NotReallyThoughIHavePizzaToastInsteadOfCheeseAndPickleSandwichesWhenPossibleNow
#IThinkItIsMoreMeJustLettingMyselfEatWhatIWantRatherThanCravings
#IAmNotSureIfIMentionedItBeforeButOneDayISawAVanThatSaidWFSOnIt
#AndIWasLikeMmmWaffles
#TheOtherDayTiagoWasWatchingEvertonFootballHighlights
#AndTheirShirtsMadeMeWantCheeseAndOnionCrisps
#SoIGuessWeirdThingsTriggerCravings
#ThoughIDoNotUsuallyEatTheThingsIThinkAbout
#TheCravingsAreNormallyQuiteImpulsive
#LikeIWantItNowAndIfItWasEasilyAttainableThenIProbablyWouldEatItThenAndThere
#ThoughIAmTryingNotToEatTooUnhealthily
#INeedToEatMoreCalciumWhichIsWhyIDoNotFeelBadAboutEatingSomeCheddarEveryDay

I had forgot about describing kicks as popcorn popping. It just felt more ticklish this time and then quickly moved onto stronger movements.

My dreams have been intense lately (mid-October), but I don’t like when I have them as they tire me out.

I had a phase of being quite into vinegary crisps this time, but it passed. I have been enjoying beetroot and pickled red cabbage lately though (in a wrap with other things), and I did have a lot of vinegar on my chips at dinner today. But I was a fan of vinegar before being pregnant – I just usually don’t choose salt and vinegar crisps over other flavours though. Exciting stuff.

I have been making banana bread a lot lately and I put a lot of yoghurt on that, so I guess that’s my calcium sorted.


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Oh Me, Oh Mãe

Hair Bird (22nd August 2020)

Hair on the side of the bath that looks a bit like a bird
Hair Bird (22nd August 2020)
 
#IUsedToTakePicturesOfMyFallenOutHairInTheShowerAllTheTime
#IJustCheckedAndTheFirstOneWasIn2017AndTheLastOneThatICanObviouslySeeWasEarly2019
#WhenIWasPregnantIDidNotReallyLoseAny
#IHadBeenToldThatWouldHappenButItStillSeemedOddWhenItTurnedOutToBeTrue
#IJustPutItOnTheWallOrSideOfTheBathLikeHere
#TodayISeemToHaveRandomlyMadeABird
#ThoughTiagoFirstSaidItLookedLikeAHorseWhenIShowedHim
#IDoNotWashMyHairMuchAnymore
#ICanNotRememberWhenILastDidBeforeTodayButItWasProbably10DaysAgoIsh
#IWasJustGoingToReTieMyHairAndIRealisedThatIHadSoManyKnotsUnderneath
#IHadALittleDreadlockForming
#IDoNotBrushMyHairMuchAsItMakesItGreasier
#AndIfITieMyHairUpThenItDoesNotMatterIfItIsBrushedOrNot
#TheseHashtagsAreSoBoring
#WeGaveBABathToday
#WeUsuallyDoTwiceAWeek
#AndWashHerDailyWithAFlannel
#WeFindItEasierIfOneOfUsGetsInTheBathWithHer
#EspeciallyIfTheTubIsQuiteDeep
#InTheEarlyDaysItWasTiagoWhoGotInAsHeFeltMoreConfident
#NowItIsUsuallyMe
#IfIAmLuckyIGetToStayInTheBathALittleLongerAfterwards
#ThoughMaybeIAmJustBathingInBabyPiss
#TheLastTwoTimesBeforeTodayTheBathGotCutShortDueToNumberTwos
#ButTodayAHadALittleBitOfTimeAndWashedMyHairOverTheBathAfterwards
#AsIWasGettingDressedTiagoCameInToSayBNeededFeeding
#BSeemsToLoveTheBath
#SheSitsInABathSupport
#SheIsStartingToKickHerLegsAndMovesTheSupportByPuttingHerFeetOnTheFloorAndPushing
#ICanNotWaitToGoSwimmingWithHerOneDay

#IUsedToTakePicturesOfMyFallenOutHairInTheShowerAllTheTime #IJustCheckedAndTheFirstOneWasIn2017AndTheLastOneThatICanObviouslySeeWasEarly2019

The project was called Hair Sculptures. It probably needs a better title to be honest, but the name follows on from Bathroom Sculptures which was hand tissues that had been dumped on surfaces in the Mayfair bathroom of a building where I worked.

I did think about putting those projects on my website at some point, but they are quite different to the rest of my work.

I’ve been listening to podcasts whilst pushing B on walks and I feel inspired to try other art forms again, but do I have the time? Not really.

#WhenIWasPregnantIDidNotReallyLoseAny #IHadBeenToldThatWouldHappenButItStillSeemedOddWhenItTurnedOutToBeTrue

I think my hairdresser told me this – that makes me sound fancier than I am. My hair was thick enough already, though I didn’t really notice much change in it whilst I was pregnant. I had it cut to shoulder length when I was about 18 weeks and it’s just been growing since.

#IJustPutItOnTheWallOrSideOfTheBathLikeHere #TodayISeemToHaveRandomlyMadeABird #ThoughTiagoFirstSaidItLookedLikeAHorseWhenIShowedHim

I think T didn’t believe that I randomly made an animal with my hair. Sadly I’m not that creative… Well I am but my execution of it would have been worse if I had tried to do it on purpose. Maybe no one else sees the bird, but it makes me happy. I like random creations.

#IDoNotWashMyHairMuchAnymore #ICanNotRememberWhenILastDidBeforeTodayButItWasProbably10DaysAgoIsh

I was trying to get away with not washing my hair much, but then lockdown really helped as no one really saw me – except T, and strangers on my daily walks.

#IWasJustGoingToReTieMyHairAndIRealisedThatIHadSoManyKnotsUnderneath #IHadALittleDreadlockForming #IDoNotBrushMyHairMuchAsItMakesItGreasier #AndIfITieMyHairUpThenItDoesNotMatterIfItIsBrushedOrNot

I love when I’ve had my hair tied up in a messy bun for a week and it has a massive wave through it when I take it down. It’s not enjoyed for long though as I’ve usually taken it down to wash it or to retie it.

#TheseHashtagsAreSoBoring

No one probably cares about half the stuff I say, but hopefully some of it will be interesting to me in the future.

#WeGaveBABathToday
#WeUsuallyDoTwiceAWeek
#AndWashHerDailyWithAFlannel

It’s so much easier now I’m more confident doing it.

#WeFindItEasierIfOneOfUsGetsInTheBathWithHer
#EspeciallyIfTheTubIsQuiteDeep
#InTheEarlyDaysItWasTiagoWhoGotInAsHeFeltMoreConfident
#NowItIsUsuallyMe
#IfIAmLuckyIGetToStayInTheBathALittleLongerAfterwards
#ThoughMaybeIAmJustBathingInBabyPiss
#TheLastTwoTimesBeforeTodayTheBathGotCutShortDueToNumberTwos

I bought some lavender bath salts to try to help me sleep in the early days. Then I realised I wasn’t supposed to have a bath yet because of my stitches and I haven’t got round to using them. I feel like I don’t have time for a relaxing bath at the moment, but hopefully I will soon!

#ButTodayAHadALittleBitOfTimeAndWashedMyHairOverTheBathAfterwards
#AsIWasGettingDressedTiagoCameInToSayBNeededFeeding

That’s the thing – I can’t be too relaxed in case B needs me, though we’ve gone back to doing a bottle feed in the evening. It seems like an easier way to give her her vitamin D, but she doesn’t seem to like drinking from a bottle anymore.

#BSeemsToLoveTheBath
#SheSitsInABathSupport #SheIsStartingToKickHerLegsAndMovesTheSupportByPuttingHerFeetOnTheFloorAndPushing

I think B has always liked the bath. The first or second time T tried to dunk her more in the bath after and she cried, but she’s quite content sat there. She is getting stronger. She pushes herself away on the mat where I flannel wash her in the mornings, but I’m like I can catch you!

#ICanNotWaitToGoSwimmingWithHerOneDay

This will be nice. I’ve looked at lessons, but they’re quite expensive and not that easy for me to get to so we’ll have to see. Usually we’d have been on holiday this summer to see T’s parents and gone swimming in the sea lots, though it was kind of off the table for me because I was pregnant. T was planning to go for a wedding, but that got postponed. His parents just sent us honey and our favourite cheese, so I’ll just have to close my eyes when I eat it and pretend we’re there…


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