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General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot VII (36 Weeks / 5th January 2022)

Shoot which I am recreating for the 7th time this pregnancy. I am wearing a bra and leggings. I have my right hand clasping my left elbow. My bump is bigger than the previous version of this image.
General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot VII (36 Weeks / 5th January 2022)
 
#WellIThoughtThe4WeeksWentFastBetweenShootsLastTimeButThese4WeeksHaveGoneScarilyFast
#IPlanToDropTheTimeBetweenTheseShootsTo2WeeksNowThoughBWasBornBefore38WeeksSoWeWillHaveToSee
#MyBumpIsDroppingLowerOutOfTheFrameWhichIsNotGreatVisuallyButIFeelLikeItIsTooLateToChangeHowIShootThemNowForContinuityPurposes
#TheyAreNotAsSpotOnAsIWouldLikeThemToBeAsTheEarlyOnesAreMoreSideOnAndWithTheLastOneMyBumpIsMorePushedOutButOhWell
#MyMumSawMeYesterdayAndSaidMyBumpHasDroppedMore
#WeStillCanNotFindBs0To3MonthClothesWhichIsReallyAnnoying
#WeHaveACoupleOfSleepsuitsThatWeBoughtRecentlyThoughAndIFoundSomeVestsThatWeDidNotGetRoundToDonating
#SoWeWillManageButIWantToFindAllBsOldSleepsuitsAsTheyHaveTwoWayZipsWhichIsSuperUseful
#IHaveWashedEverythingThatIHaveFoundWhichIncludesACoupleOfHatsAndSomeCardigans
#YesterdayIMadeAListForTheHospitalAndStartedToPackAsIDidNotRealiseThatIAlreadyHadItPackedBy35WeeksWithB
#IWasPrettyOrganisedConsideringIThoughtIWouldBeA42WeekerAndWasPlanningForAHomebirth
#WeGotASecondHandBottleWarmerAndASteriliserWhichTiagoPickedUpYesterdaySoICanTickThemOffTheBabyList
#WeBorrowedThemFromFriendsLastTimeAndDidNotThinkWeWouldUseThemButWeUsedThemLoadsSoItIsGoodToBePrepared
#WhenISayToBWhereIsTheBabySheJustPokesAtMyBellyButtonAndSometimesSmacksTheBumpWithBothOfHerHands
#ISayGentleButSheDoesNotReallyGetItWhichIsFairEnoughAsSheIsStillQuiteYoung
#SometimesIForgetHowYoungSheIs
#IAmGettingQuiteExcitedAtTheThoughtOfMeetingBabyX
#ICanNotWaitToSeeHowBReactsWhenTheyMeetForTheFirstTime
#IAmStillScepticalAboutItBeingAGirlSoWeShallHaveToWaitAndSee
#INeedToWriteABirthPreferencesDocument
#IHopeICanHaveAWaterBirthThisTimeButIKnowINeedToKeepMyExpectationsLow
#BIsGrowingUpMoreEachDay
#SheWasBeingQuietTheOtherDayAndIFoundHerJustLookingAtOneOfMyNansCatalogues
#SheDoesItQuiteALotWhichMakesMeLaugh
#WeBoughtHerATunnelAndYesterdaySheWasSatInItReadingOneOfThem
#InTheBathSheKeptPuttingHerHandsUpToThePumpOfHerBodyWashAndThenRubbingHerHands
#SheHasNotBeenEatingMuchOfHerOwnBreakfastLatelyButThenSheHappilyTakesTheScrambledEggThatMyNanLeavesOnHerPlateForHer
#SheWillJustPickAtItAllMorningAndStealMyCrusts
#YesterdayIGaveMyNanHerBreakfastAndBWentToGetATrayForHerPlate
#SheHasANewThingWhereSheWillAcceptNothingLessThanABigPieceOfSomethingLikeHerGettingOffendedAtMeOfferingHerABitOfBananaRatherThanAWholeOne
 

#WellIThoughtThe4WeeksWentFastBetweenShootsLastTimeButThese4WeeksHaveGoneScarilyFast #IPlanToDropTheTimeBetweenTheseShootsTo2WeeksNowThoughBWasBornBefore38WeeksSoWeWillHaveToSee

I actually thought that I had done the last shoot 2 weeks ago and that now I was going to change to doing them every 2 weeks, that’s how quick time has gone…

So, this could be the last one, but it could not.

#MyBumpIsDroppingLowerOutOfTheFrameWhichIsNotGreatVisuallyButIFeelLikeItIsTooLateToChangeHowIShootThemNowForContinuityPurposes #TheyAreNotAsSpotOnAsIWouldLikeThemToBeAsTheEarlyOnesAreMoreSideOnAndWithTheLastOneMyBumpIsMorePushedOutButOhWell

In all honesty I am not going to miss doing these shoots. I find them quite annoying and frustrating. I think especially now as I can see the errors I made earlier on. I should have just stood up, but I did not take the original one with the plan of repeating it every month. If I had thought about it more then I would have done it differently…

#MyMumSawMeYesterdayAndSaidMyBumpHasDroppedMore

I can not really tell, but I guess the baby is getting bigger and getting ready so it makes sense.

#WeStillCanNotFindBs0To3MonthClothesWhichIsReallyAnnoying

I’m so over it.

#WeHaveACoupleOfSleepsuitsThatWeBoughtRecentlyThoughAndIFoundSomeVestsThatWeDidNotGetRoundToDonating #SoWeWillManageButIWantToFindAllBsOldSleepsuitsAsTheyHaveTwoWayZipsWhichIsSuperUseful

I’d buy more of the same sleepsuits but they’re not cheap, and the baby might not be in them for long. Especially if they’re bigger than B was. Also, as we are not planning to have more kids it does not make sense. We need a few more though, so hopefully we can borrow some or find some alright ones second hand.

#IHaveWashedEverythingThatIHaveFoundWhichIncludesACoupleOfHatsAndSomeCardigans

So, all is not lost. Hurrah. They’re clothes that I did not pack away when we moved though as I guess I hoped B would wear them a bit more, and/or were a bit big for B as a newborn.

#YesterdayIMadeAListForTheHospitalAndStartedToPackAsIDidNotRealiseThatIAlreadyHadItPackedBy35WeeksWithB

Thanks to this blog and comparisons for making me realise.

#IWasPrettyOrganisedConsideringIThoughtIWouldBeA42WeekerAndWasPlanningForAHomebirth

This time I am preparing for a pre-38 week birth, but am obviously a bit more chilled about it. I guess having a toddler to run around after makes it more tiring. I had more time last time…

#WeGotASecondHandBottleWarmerAndASteriliserWhichTiagoPickedUpYesterdaySoICanTickThemOffTheBabyList

We don’t have too much to get now. Just a coat extender for babywearing, snacks and drinks for birth/hospital, sleepsuits, and a baby book (I’m still undecided about which one to get).

#WeBorrowedThemFromFriendsLastTimeAndDidNotThinkWeWouldUseThemButWeUsedThemLoadsSoItIsGoodToBePrepared

I did not expect to pump so much last time.

#WhenISayToBWhereIsTheBabySheJustPokesAtMyBellyButtonAndSometimesSmacksTheBumpWithBothOfHerHands #ISayGentleButSheDoesNotReallyGetItWhichIsFairEnoughAsSheIsStillQuiteYoung

Yesterday, I made a video of B poking my belly button then just smacking it. I kept saying gentle, but she did not seem to get the message… In the end I had to stop filming and stop her.

#SometimesIForgetHowYoungSheIs

Sometimes she seems older. Sometimes she looks so tall, sometimes she doesn’t. It’s weird.

#IAmGettingQuiteExcitedAtTheThoughtOfMeetingBabyX

I lay in bed yesterday just feeling quite emotional. I also just couldn’t wait for B to wake up from her nap so I could cuddle her, but I was relieved that she had the best nap that she had had in ages.

#ICanNotWaitToSeeHowBReactsWhenTheyMeetForTheFirstTime

I hope it goes well. B does seem to like babies, but she might be like ‘okay, when is this baby going back to its home?’

#IAmStillScepticalAboutItBeingAGirlSoWeShallHaveToWaitAndSee

I want to know if it’s actually a girl or not.

#INeedToWriteABirthPreferencesDocument

I’m just going to keep it simple.

#IHopeICanHaveAWaterBirthThisTimeButIKnowINeedToKeepMyExpectationsLow

It’s best not to get too attached to ideas/visions about how the birth will be, as with B it all went out the window.

#BIsGrowingUpMoreEachDay

She seems to change so much day to day.

#SheWasBeingQuietTheOtherDayAndIFoundHerJustLookingAtOneOfMyNansCatalogues

My Nan gets a lot of catalogues in the post and B loves to go through her post. She also loves to go through my Nan’s bags after she’s been shopping.

#SheDoesItQuiteALotWhichMakesMeLaugh

She is funny.

#WeBoughtHerATunnelAndYesterdaySheWasSatInItReadingOneOfThem

Cute. She liked going through the tunnels at a class we no longer go to, so it seemed like a nice idea to get her one.

#InTheBathSheKeptPuttingHerHandsUpToThePumpOfHerBodyWashAndThenRubbingHerHands

It was like her copying us using sanitiser. She’s so observant.

#SheHasNotBeenEatingMuchOfHerOwnBreakfastLatelyButThenSheHappilyTakesTheScrambledEggThatMyNanLeavesOnHerPlateForHer

I ask my Nan if she wants scrambled egg on toast. She always says ‘yes please, and B can have some’

#SheWillJustPickAtItAllMorningAndStealMyCrusts

If I gave her scrambled egg for breakfast, guaranteed she would not eat it. But then again she does just revisit the plate all morning.

#YesterdayIGaveMyNanHerBreakfastAndBWentToGetATrayForHerPlate

I thought my Nan didn’t need one, but B obviously thought otherwise. It was a cute moment. She’s very observant.

#SheHasANewThingWhereSheWillAcceptNothingLessThanABigPieceOfSomethingLikeHerGettingOffendedAtMeOfferingHerABitOfBananaRatherThanAWholeOne

Cue B walking around with a whole banana. I didn’t want her to eat the whole thing, so T took it off her, tore a bit off of it and gave that to her. B then just lay on the floor and was not happy. Fun times.

36 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

When I was thinking about how I am excited to meet Baby X yesterday, I was thinking about when I met B for the first time. Birth is a bizarre thing.

I am hoping this time that things will not be such a shock to the system – I know how to change nappies at least.

I had forgot about the one week in bed, one week on the sofa thing. I didn’t get out for a walk with B until 2 weeks-ish, so it makes sense. I guess it depends on how you feel. I felt sore…

I would say that I am quite active now too.

I am mainly nervous that there will not be enough staff that are Covid-free to have an okay birth experience. With B they gave me time (after I kept saying no to a c-section) to birth naturally, but will they have less patience this time (it’s also a different hospital).

We didn’t make it to Portugal until B was 14 months-ish old. B is still yet to meet one Aunt, Uncle and cousin.

I guess last time it was the summer, so the nights were shorter. I’m also more tired this time as I have B to look after so sleep hasn’t been so much of a problem. I do wear a mask when I have a nap though.

Naked self-portrait. I am stood straight on to the camera with my hands on my hips. I have put white boxes over my nipples and pubic area.
For All I Know This Could Be My Last Week Without The Responsibility Of A Small Human (36 weeks)
 
#RealisedThatIDidNotHaveAnyFullLengthShotsOfMePregnant
#TheyEitherStopBeforeMyKneesOrBeforeMyBoobs
#IWantedToGetAnotherNudeShotBeforeMyBumpDropsSoICanCompareBeforeAndAfter
#ItMightNotDropUntilJustBeforeBirthThoughOrIMightNotEvenNoticeIt
#SomeOfMyFriendsSaidTheirBumpDroppedWeeksAgo
#WeShallJustHaveToWaitAndSee
#ThisMorningWeWereThinkingAboutHowDifferentTheWorldIsGoingToBeForBaby
#HowMuchTechnologyAndThingsHaveChangedInOur30YearPlusLives
#ItIsKindOfScaryButKindOfExciting
#IAmInMyEarly30sButWithItNowBeingThe2020sItMeansIHaveBeenAliveDuring5DecadesWhichIsAWeirdThought
#IGuessItWillNotBeSoWeirdWhenIAmInMyLate30sButICanNotEvenImagineHowLifeWillBeThen
#IKeepReadingAbout1Year2Year5Year10YearPlansAndIAmNoGoodAtThatKindOfStuff
#IJustWantToKeepMakingMyWorkAndHopefullyActuallyStartMakingMoreOfALivingFromIt
#IAmHopingThatHavingABabyMightMakeMeMoreProactiveOrMoreConfident
#IStillFindItWeirdCallingMyselfAnArtist
#IGetImposterSyndromeAllTheTime
#IShouldNotPutTooManyExpectationsOnWhatHavingABabyMightDoForMe
#InTermsOfMakingMeMoreConfidentMoreEfficientMoreOrganisedEtc
#ILikeToThinkIAmAlreadyOrganisedButIFaffALot
#YesterdayIActuallyAllowedMyselfToRelaxABit
#ForAllIKnowThisCouldBeMyLastWeekWithoutTheResponsibilityOfASmallHuman
#WhichIsSuchAWeirdThought
#ICanSeeAndFeelItMovingAboutNow
#IAmTryingToImagineItsFace
#IFindItDifficultTo
#IThinkTiagoWantsItToLookMoreLikeMeAndPullTheFunnyFacesThatIPullInMyChildhoodPicturesAndStillPullNow
#WhereasIWantItToLookMoreLikeHim
#ButReallyIHopeItIsAFunMixOfTheTwoOfUsWithHisBetterPersonalityQualities
#OnlyTimeWillTellButIDoNotWantTimeToPassTooQuickly
#ThisPregnancyHasMadeMeRealiseHowQuicklyLifeGoesByEvenDuringTheSlowishPacedTimeOfAPandemic

I was really not expecting it to be, but actually it was! B came at 37+5, so it was my last full week without a lot of responsibility.

I’m still no good at plans. This year, I just want to keep making work, and move. Then once we move I need to figure out a lot of things. I’m excited though.

I think having a child has given me more confidence in some ways. I like to think I am more efficient and organised too. I don’t have much time to faff. I love to do lists more than ever.

I’ve said it before – I want this baby to look a bit more like me, but I want B and baby X to look like siblings. We’ll have to wait and see – and B’s face just keeps changing.


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B And The Bump (35 Weeks / 28th December 2021)

Self-portrait where I am holding B above my bump. She has my hair in her hands and is hiding her eyes. I am kissing her on her forehead.
B And The Bump (35 Weeks / 28th December 2021)
 
#ITookAPhotoOfMeHoldingBWhenIWas24WeeksPregnantAndYouCanSeeABitOfABumpButItIsDefinitelyMorePronouncedNow
#SoIWantToDoASimilarShootAsTimeIsRunningOutAndItCouldBeTheLastPhotoOfBWithMyBump
#IAmDefinitelyGettingToThePointOfBeingBoredWithBeingPregnant
#IDoNotLikeAcidRefluxAndNotBeingAbleToEatAsMuchAsIWant
#IWillEatSomethingAndKnowThatIWillFeelAwfulLaterWhichIsLotsOfFun
#IAmJustGladThatIHaveMoreEnergyNowAndFeelQuiteFit
#IAmNotSureIfIHadAnySideEffectsFromMyBoosterAsIFeltSoRubbishInTheWeekLeadingUpToItAndFeltMuchBetterByTheTimeIHadIt
#ChristmasWasVeryQuietAndWasJustNanTBAndIInTheEnd
#BHadAFewPresentsButNoneFromUsAsWeGotHerHerClimbingFrameAndSlideInTheSummerAndAnythingWeBuyForHerWeGenerallyJustGiveToHerStraightAway
#SheHasACoupleOfMolarsComingThroughAndSheWasInAFunnyMoodAllXmasDay
#IHopeThisTeethingStopsSoonButSheStillHasSpaceInHerMouthForMore
#HerConjunctivitisHasClearedUpNowWhichWeAreRelievedAbout
#WeUsuallyBathHerACoupleOfTimesAWeekButWeWereGivingHerDailyBathsToMakeSureHerEyesWereClean
#IAmSurprisedByHowMuchSheLikesWaterAndDidNotMindUsThrowingWaterAtHerFace
#ThisWeekSheSeemsToHaveLearnedWhatEarsAreAndWhenIAskHerWhereMineAreSheSticksAFingerInMyEar
#IAmNowTryingToTeachHerCheeks
#WhenWePutHerInHerHighchairAndPutHerFoxBibOnMostOfTheTimeSheWillTouchItsNose
#WhenSheFinishesHerBreakfastNowSheUsuallyPassesMeHerBowlWhichIsGood
#IThinkSheHasOfficiallyGrownTiredOfBakedBeansForLunchSoWeAreTryingOutDifferentThings
#WhileSheWasReallyIllSheWasNotEatingMuchSoItIsGoodToSeeHerGettingAnAppetiteAgain
#IGenerallyStruggleABitThisTimeOfTheYearWithMyMentalHealth
#TheOtherDayIJustFeltReallyTrappedInThisHouse
#WeArePlanningToMoveAwayInTheSummerSoIJustNeedToHoldOutUntilThen
#IMissHavingAPlaceOfOurOwnAndIGuessCovidHasComplicatedMatters
#IfItWasNotForCovidThenWeProbablyWouldNotBeHereOrInBirmingham
#ItHasBeenGoodInWaysButIHaveFoundItHardInOtherWays
#IGuessHavingASecondChildSoonWillBeABigDistractionAndTheMonthsWillFlyBy
#IWouldLikeToKnowMorePeopleButItAlsoSeemsABitLateNowIfWePlanToMoveAway
#IJustFeelLikeEveryDayIsTheSameAndWithASecondChildItMayFeelMoreThatWay
#INeedToStartGoingToBedEarlierAsIHaveBeenStayingUpTooLateWatchingShowsAndReadingIGuessAsIKnowThatWhenBabyXIsBornINeedToStartGoingToBedWhenTheyDo

#ITookAPhotoOfMeHoldingBWhenIWas24WeeksPregnantAndYouCanSeeABitOfABumpButItIsDefinitelyMorePronouncedNow

For my 33rd birthday portrait / marking B’s 16 month birthday. Post here.

#SoIWantToDoASimilarShootAsTimeIsRunningOutAndItCouldBeTheLastPhotoOfBWithMyBump

We will see how it goes. B was not very happy last time…

(I put off doing it all day, but in the end it was actually quite nice. She was unhappy at first, but then she started to just play with my hair and seemed to relax. Phew.)

#IAmDefinitelyGettingToThePointOfBeingBoredWithBeingPregnant

I know that once the baby is born my life will change a lot again, but I also just want to move on with our lives.

#IDoNotLikeAcidRefluxAndNotBeingAbleToEatAsMuchAsIWant

So much rich, fatty food at Xmas that is not good for acid reflux…

#IWillEatSomethingAndKnowThatIWillFeelAwfulLaterWhichIsLotsOfFun

Yesterday I had pizza for lunch and a few chocolates afterwards, and I didn’t feel as bad as I thought I would actually. Hurrah.

#IAmJustGladThatIHaveMoreEnergyNowAndFeelQuiteFit

I feel like I am not waddling as much as I was at this point when I was pregnant with B, but maybe it’s because I walk slower and not as far with B, and her pushchair gives me support.

#IAmNotSureIfIHadAnySideEffectsFromMyBoosterAsIFeltSoRubbishInTheWeekLeadingUpToItAndFeltMuchBetterByTheTimeIHadIt

It was hard to tell. I couldn’t feel more lousier than I did before having it.

#ChristmasWasVeryQuietAndWasJustNanTBAndIInTheEnd

Super chill.

#BHadAFewPresentsButNoneFromUsAsWeGotHerHerClimbingFrameAndSlideInTheSummerAndAnythingWeBuyForHerWeGenerallyJustGiveToHerStraightAway

I’d got her some felt tips the week before, but my Mum also gave her some. I guess next year we will have to be more Christmassy.

#SheHasACoupleOfMolarsComingThroughAndSheWasInAFunnyMoodAllXmasDay

It was a bit of a drag at times.

#IHopeThisTeethingStopsSoonButSheStillHasSpaceInHerMouthForMore

*Nervous laugh*

#HerConjunctivitisHasClearedUpNowWhichWeAreRelievedAbout

Hurrah. We’re still trying to clean her eyes a couple of times a day though, just in case it wants to come back.

#WeUsuallyBathHerACoupleOfTimesAWeekButWeWereGivingHerDailyBathsToMakeSureHerEyesWereClean

She loved it. We weren’t planning to give her a bath last night, but she went to the bathroom and looked longingly at the bath. It helps the time before bed go faster, and probably relaxes her so why not. She also uses a lot of energy up splashing about…

#IAmSurprisedByHowMuchSheLikesWaterAndDidNotMindUsThrowingWaterAtHerFace

She has a whale jug that we use and normally splash about with, so we’d splash her and say splash, and she’d laugh. Win.

#ThisWeekSheSeemsToHaveLearnedWhatEarsAreAndWhenIAskHerWhereMineAreSheSticksAFingerInMyEar

Lovely.

#IAmNowTryingToTeachHerCheeks

A lot of blowing my cheeks out and squeezing them.

#WhenWePutHerInHerHighchairAndPutHerFoxBibOnMostOfTheTimeSheWillTouchItsNose

Then I ask her where hers is etc.

#WhenSheFinishesHerBreakfastNowSheUsuallyPassesMeHerBowlWhichIsGood

I don’t like when she starts throwing her food about, so this is good progress. Last night she passed me her yoghurt bowl when she was done.

#IThinkSheHasOfficiallyGrownTiredOfBakedBeansForLunchSoWeAreTryingOutDifferentThings

She had a houmous sandwich the other day, she had some pasta, yeah we need to mix it up more. Sorry B – I got lazy.

#WhileSheWasReallyIllSheWasNotEatingMuchSoItIsGoodToSeeHerGettingAnAppetiteAgain

I was getting a bit worried, though I know she will eat when she wants. She might not eat much of her food sometimes, but she will always steal a bit of whatever we are eating.

#IGenerallyStruggleABitThisTimeOfTheYearWithMyMentalHealth

Dark days where we can’t go out for walks so late etc.

#TheOtherDayIJustFeltReallyTrappedInThisHouse

We’ve lived here for 14 months now, and we’re very grateful to my Nan for letting us live with her.

#WeArePlanningToMoveAwayInTheSummerSoIJustNeedToHoldOutUntilThen

There aren’t many short term options now and it does not seem worth it now.

#IMissHavingAPlaceOfOurOwnAndIGuessCovidHasComplicatedMatters

It’s good to know that Nan is fine and that she is being looked after, but I also can’t wait to have our own place where I feel a bit more relaxed.

#IfItWasNotForCovidThenWeProbablyWouldNotBeHereOrInBirmingham

T and I were talking about how things might be now if it wasn’t for Covid. I’m really not sure. I guess we might have moved closer to a park in Liverpool, or we might have just put up with living in the city centre (it wasn’t that much of a chore, but just not that kid friendly) and I’d be taking B to the museums every day…

#ItHasBeenGoodInWaysButIHaveFoundItHardInOtherWays

There’s space for us at my Nan’s, I haven’t been worried about her (I used to call her every day before living with her), she lives in a safe area and close to a park etc.

I just feel trapped as there aren’t many places to go within walking distance, Covid makes me not want to go to the few places that we could go to, I don’t know many people etc.

#IGuessHavingASecondChildSoonWillBeABigDistractionAndTheMonthsWillFlyBy

Once the baby is born I guess I will go into a baby tunnel.

#IWouldLikeToKnowMorePeopleButItAlsoSeemsABitLateNowIfWePlanToMoveAway

It’s been so difficult trying to meet other parents. Everyone has their old schedules too which makes it more complicated. We can’t invite new friends round to my Nan’s (well we could, but it’s not the best set-up), and I don’t feel that comfortable with going to other people’s homes, because of Covid.

#IJustFeelLikeEveryDayIsTheSameAndWithASecondChildItMayFeelMoreThatWay

I’ve been complaining about Groundhog Day vibes for a while. I’m glad we’re having a second kid now though, rather than leaving it until later. It does make sense as I’m really not up to much.

#INeedToStartGoingToBedEarlierAsIHaveBeenStayingUpTooLateWatchingShowsAndReadingIGuessAsIKnowThatWhenBabyXIsBornINeedToStartGoingToBedWhenTheyDo

I finished reading House of Gucci yesterday. I’m currently watching a series of Survivor Australia at 2x speed, and skipping through it a bit as the episodes are too long.

I need to read my hypnobirthing book again, and just go to bed earlier.

35 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait with my hands supporting my bump, and a patch of dried colostrum is visible on my dress by where my right nipple is.
Yes, That Is Dried Colostrum (35 weeks)
 
#InMyHeadIHaveBeenCountingDownTo42Weeks
#AsTheySayThatUsuallyYourFirstBabyArrivesLate
#ButTalkingToPeopleLatelyEveryonesStorySeemsToInvolveTheBabyComingEarly
#SoIGuessNowThereIsAChanceThatEveryShootForThisProjectCouldBeTheLast
#BabyDefinitelySeemsMoreActiveTheseDays
#SoMaybeItHasJustGotToThePointWhereItsMovementsAreNotShelteredByThePlacentaSoMuch
#LastNightIWasHavingALotOfBraxtonHicksContractionsIThink
#SomeWereQuitePainful
#WhenBabyHiccupsItIsQuiteUncomfortable
#ThisMorningTiagoPointedToAWetPatchOnMyDress
#MyRightBoobHadLeaked
#ItHasBeen6WeeksSinceMyLeftBoobFirstLeaked
#IThinkOneOfThemHasLeakedSinceButICanNotRememberWhichOneAndItDidNotSeemThatSignificant
#TodayItDidForSomeReason
#SoMaybeMyRightBoobHasLeakedBefore
#IHaveAScratchOnMyBellyWhichIMustHaveDoneWithAFingerNail
#TiagoAlsoHadToPointThatOutAsICouldNotSeeIt
#YesterdayIWentOutByMyselfForTheFirstTimeSinceBeforeLockdown
#IWentForAWalkWhilstTiagoWentToTheSupermarket
#IFeltSelfConsciousByMyselfAsINoticedPeopleStaringAtMyBump
#IWalkedOnTheSideOfThePathAndYetPeopleWouldPassSuperCloseByMe
#IWasOnThePhoneTheWholeTimeSoItMadeItNotSoBad
#WeFinallyGotSomeWholemealFlourSoIPlanToMakeSomePancakes
#IHaveNotHadThemInSoLong
#IDidNotAskTiagoToBuyMyFavouriteChocolateOatMilkAsIThoughtIShouldHaveAWeekWithoutIt
#ButNowIReallyWantSome
#IThinkLockdownIsStartingToGetToMeALittleMoreNow
#IJustWantToSpendAWeekendAtMyNansAndKeepHerCompany
#ButItIsLookingLikeItWillNotHappenBeforeTheBabyIsBornDueToRulesAndAll
#AndOnceTheBabyIsBornIDoNotThinkItWillBeAGoodIdeaForABit

Lol at the first two hashtags – B came before 38 weeks.

I thought I leaked a lot earlier than this, so I feel a little less worried now. I got given a colostrum kit today. (Oh wait, it said I leaked 6 weeks before.)

I still don’t like hiccups. I didn’t think that B was that active, but this baby is a lot more active.

I go out loads without Tiago, but usually just for walks with B. I do go to the local shops by myself sometimes, and I went to my midwife appointment alone today.

When I picked up B’s prescription a woman with a walking stick said I should sit down on the chair, so I must be looking quite pregnant to other people.

I’ve been on about making pancakes for a long time, and I haven’t. I finally bought some maple syrup the other day, so I should try to do it soon. Reading this makes me want some now.

‘#IJustWantToSpendAWeekendAtMyNansAndKeepHerCompany’

Well, we’ve spent many weekends with her over the last year+…

Self-portrait of Tiago and me hugging. We are hugging so that my bump is to the side of him.
Hugs Are Different When You’ve Got A Bump (35 weeks)

#ThePictureWasSupposedToShowHowWeHaveToHugNow
#ThoughIAmNotSureHowWellItShowsThat
#IAmSoUnawareOfHowBigMyBumpIsSometimes
#LookingDownIsSoDifferentToSeeingItSideOnInTheMirror
#WellEvenLookingDownIKnowItIsBig
#ButStillIBumpIntoThings
#INearlyKnockedAPlateOffTheTableTheOtherDayWithIt
#OrITryToGiveTiagoAHugFromBehindAndJustBumpIntoHim
#IHaveToHugHimWithMyBumpToTheSide
#HeOnlyGoesToTheBigSupermarketOnceAWeek
#ButWeGoToASmallShopOnceAWeekForBitsAndBobsWeNeed
#LikeTomatoesAndMushroomsAsWeSeemToRunOutOfThoseQuick
#SoTodayIAskedForSomeChocolateMilkAsIHaveBeenThinkingAboutItForAFewDays
#ItIsNotMyFavouriteOneAsYouCanOnlyGetThatAtTheBigSupermarket
#ThatIsProbablyBoringButIAmHappyThatIGotSome
#TodayIBoughtSomeMaternityPants
#IDoNotKnowIfIHaveAHomebirthIfIWillGetGivenThoseHospitalStylePants
#SoIBoughtSomeAsWhenIThinkOfPhotographingMyselfPostBirthIThinkOfAPhotoByRinekeDijkstraWithTheMotherWearingThosePants
#ThoughActuallyInTheOtherTwoPicturesTheyAreNotWearingPants
#WeShallSeeHowSoonIEndUpTakingAPictureAfterBirth
#TheMoreIThinkAboutItTheMoreIWantPicturesOfTheBirth
#ButIGuessItDependsOnHowThingsGo
#AndIThinkTiagoDoesNotWantTheResponsibilityOfTakingPictures
#AndWeBothWantToJustExperienceTheBirthAsMuchAsWeCanWithoutDistractions
#IAlsoBoughtADressThatICanNurseIn
#IBoughtABreastfeedingScarfAWhileAgoForMorePrivacy
#ButAtThisRateIDoubtIWillBeDoingMuchFeedingAwayFromHome
#IAmIWillNotFeelSelfConsciousDoingIt
#IThinkTheBabysNeedWillOverTakeAwkwardnessOrIHopeSoAnyways
#ItIsSuchANaturalThingThatItIsAShameThatPeopleGetOffendedByIt

Yeah, we have to hug like that again now.

I’m definitely bumping my bump into things, and Tiago often knocks it as he goes past…

I didn’t use my maternity pants, but I’ve dug them out as a maybe for my hospital bag this time.

I definitely want to get a picture or two of me giving birth this time, but we’ll see.

I never used the breastfeeding scarf… I hope breastfeeding is easier this time.


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General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot V (28 Weeks / 10th November 2021)

Shoot which I am recreating for the 5th time this pregnancy. I am wearing a bra and leggings. I have my right hand clasping my left elbow. My bump is bigger than the previous version of this image.
General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot V (28 Weeks / 10th November 2021)
 
#WellIBelieveIAmInTheThirdTrimesterNowThoughSomeSourcesSayItStartsAt29Weeks
#IFeelLikeISayThisAfterEveryShootButHowCanMyBumpGetAnyBigger
#IFinallyGotMyWhoopingCoughVaccineAndItWasFineThoughMyArmWasALittleSore
#BIsBackToWakingUpAtFiveInTheMorningWhichIsStressingMeOutABit
#SheHasHadACoupleOfSettlingInSessionsAtNurseryAndTheFirstOneWentBetterAsSheHadJustWokenUpFromANap
#SheLookedABitConfusedWhenTheyTookHerFromMyArmsAndIJustStayedFillingInForms
#SheCameOutAndWantedToGoBackAsSheHadHadFunAndHadSeenHerLittleFriendAndTheyHadBeenExcitedToSeeEachOtherApparently
#TheNextSessionSheHadBeenUpSinceFiveThoughWePutHerInOurBedForAnHourAndSheSleptALittleMore
#IDroppedHerOffAfterSheHadAlreadyBeenAwakeForHoursAndWentRoundTheLocalShopsAsSheWasNotDueToBeThereForVeryLong
#IGotHerADogCuddlyToyWhichWillBeHerPresentFromBabyX
#WhenIWentToGetHerSheWasCryingAndTheySaidSheHadBeenFunnyTheWholeTimeAndMaybeWasTired
#ISaidYeahIThinkSoAndSheFellAsleepOnTheWayHomeAndWasGrumpyWithMeWhenIWokeHerUpSoIPutHerStraightToBed
#SheFellAsleepOnTheWayHomeFromHerToddlerClassLastWeekAsWellAndIWasTryingToWakeHerUpAndSheWasGettingAnnoyedWithMe
#SheSeemsToSuddenlyBeAFussyEaterSoIDoNotThinkSheHasBeenEatingAsMuchAsSheUsuallyDoes
#MaybeItIsHerTeethOrMaybeItIsDueToTheLeapSheIsMeantToBeGoingThroughOrMaybeItIsACombinationOfDifferentThings
#SheNormallyEatsAGoodBreakfastButMaybeSheIsAnnoyedAsIMadeHerABatchOfPlainishPorridgeInsteadOfButternutSquashPorridgeSoWeWillHaveToRevertToThat
#IJustWantHerToGoBackToSleepingUntilSixAsItWouldBeBetterWithNurseryAndStuff
#IFinallyTookHerToSoftPlayAgainThoughItWasADifferentOneToLastTime
#WeWentToMeetFriendsThatWeHaveNotSeenForAgesAndItWasQuiteNice
#IShouldProbablyTakeBMoreButItIsABitBoringForHerAgeAndNotSoFunIfYouAreNotWithSomeoneElseOrOtherPeopleDoNotTalkToYou
#SheHadFunInTheCovidPitIMeanTheBallPitThoughAndSheLikedClimbingOverEverything
#WeWalkedHomeInTheDarkWhichBSeemedIntriguedByAndIKeptTryingToPointOutTheMoonToHer
#AtTheWeekendWeWentToVisitMySisterAndHerFamilyWhichWasFunAndItWasSoNiceToSeeBAndHerCousinPlayingTogether
#TiagoHadABoysNightAndIHadAGirlsNightOnTheFridayEveningWhereAfterDinnerWeEndedUpGoingToABarForAHotChocolateAtTenInTheEvening
#AtFirstTheyWereNotGoingToLetUsInAsTheyCouldNotServeUsDrinksWithoutFoodAfterTenButISaidWhatAboutHotChocolatesWhichIsWhatWeWanted
#ItIsNiceToTravelAndSeePeopleButIThinkTiagoIsKeenToJustStayPutForAWhileNowApartFromOurWeekendWithoutB
#IAmBoredOfPackingAndTiagoSaysHeFeelsLikeHeJustNeverStopsWhichIsFairEnough
#IFeelLikeAllIWantToDoTheseDaysIsEatWhichIGuessMakesSenseWithAGrowingBabyInsideOfMe
#IDoStruggleToGetUpToStandingAtTimesOrSometimesIStandUpTooFastAndGetPains
#IReallyNeedToStartPreparingForTheBirthAsTimeIsFlyingBySoFast

#WellIBelieveIAmInTheThirdTrimesterNowThoughSomeSourcesSayItStartsAt29Weeks

I thought I was last week, but 28 weeks seems to be quite an official third trimester start. It makes sense if 42 weeks is the usually the ‘maximum’.

#IFeelLikeISayThisAfterEveryShootButHowCanMyBumpGetAnyBigger

I know I was pregnant with B not very long ago, but it’s still weird to see myself with a bump.

#IFinallyGotMyWhoopingCoughVaccineAndItWasFineThoughMyArmWasALittleSore

Standard. It was sore for a couple of days, which was more than I thought it would be. I did forget to spin my arm around afterwards though and maybe that’s why? (I did that with my flu jab and it wasn’t bad at all.)

#BIsBackToWakingUpAtFiveInTheMorningWhichIsStressingMeOutABit

Well, the last couple of mornings she has woken up at 4 something, but I think she has gone back to sleep for a bit. I have been anyways…

#SheHasHadACoupleOfSettlingInSessionsAtNurseryAndTheFirstOneWentBetterAsSheHadJustWokenUpFromANap

I had to get her up from her nap early to get her there on time. She was ready to PARTY.

#SheLookedABitConfusedWhenTheyTookHerFromMyArmsAndIJustStayedFillingInForms

I said ‘She’ll be fine in a minute’ and they said as soon as she went in the room she started to play with a toy car and look at a book.

#SheCameOutAndWantedToGoBackAsSheHadHadFunAndHadSeenHerLittleFriendAndTheyHadBeenExcitedToSeeEachOtherApparently

Apparently her friend came in the room and ran over to her and they started to ‘chat’. Cute. After we left she tried to go back in…

#TheNextSessionSheHadBeenUpSinceFiveThoughWePutHerInOurBedForAnHourAndSheSleptALittleMore

I find it hard to sleep well when she is in our bed though. I do not want to make this a habit but I wanted her to get more sleep as I was anxious about nursery.

#IDroppedHerOffAfterSheHadAlreadyBeenAwakeForHoursAndWentRoundTheLocalShopsAsSheWasNotDueToBeThereForVeryLong

It seemed like a waste of time to come home, then go back as I wouldn’t have done much. I hadn’t been round shops in a long time, so it was nice to have a look about.

#IGotHerADogCuddlyToyWhichWillBeHerPresentFromBabyX

I realised the other week that she does not have a dog cuddly toy. I’ve been looking about for one, but couldn’t make my mind up. Seeing them in person made a difference. It’s got a cute hat.

#WhenIWentToGetHerSheWasCryingAndTheySaidSheHadBeenFunnyTheWholeTimeAndMaybeWasTired

I could hear a kid crying when I was waiting and I thought that maybe it was her, but I was not sure.

#ISaidYeahIThinkSoAndSheFellAsleepOnTheWayHomeAndWasGrumpyWithMeWhenIWokeHerUpSoIPutHerStraightToBed

I tried to keep her awake with a cookie (oats, banana and almond butter), but she fell asleep with it in her hand. I tried to rush home, but I can’t really rush with a bump anymore…

#SheFellAsleepOnTheWayHomeFromHerToddlerClassLastWeekAsWellAndIWasTryingToWakeHerUpAndSheWasGettingAnnoyedWithMe

She fell asleep with a bit of cream cheese sandwich in her hand then. She did nap at home afterwards though, so it made me not so worried this time. If she naps for 5 minutes it doesn’t seem to affect her nap so much – she had 2 and a half hours that day, and 2 hours fifteen after nursery.

#SheSeemsToSuddenlyBeAFussyEaterSoIDoNotThinkSheHasBeenEatingAsMuchAsSheUsuallyDoes

She did not like the cauliflower korma I made the other night, but I thought she wasn’t hungry. We had it for dinner last night too and it got the same reaction. I gave her some baked beans and she ate them all up…

#MaybeItIsHerTeethOrMaybeItIsDueToTheLeapSheIsMeantToBeGoingThroughOrMaybeItIsACombinationOfDifferentThings

Oh, kids.

#SheNormallyEatsAGoodBreakfastButMaybeSheIsAnnoyedAsIMadeHerABatchOfPlainishPorridgeInsteadOfButternutSquashPorridgeSoWeWillHaveToRevertToThat

The other morning she seemed so hungry that I just wanted to get food in her asap. We make the porridge into little pancakes and she will often just eat the mix cold from a spoon while she waits…

#IJustWantHerToGoBackToSleepingUntilSixAsItWouldBeBetterWithNurseryAndStuff

She will – I hope. Fun times.

#IFinallyTookHerToSoftPlayAgainThoughItWasADifferentOneToLastTime

It’s been on my list for a while.

#WeWentToMeetFriendsThatWeHaveNotSeenForAgesAndItWasQuiteNice

We hadn’t seen them since before our holiday. It was going to get dark too early to meet in a park, so we needed somewhere to meet indoors.

#IShouldProbablyTakeBMoreButItIsABitBoringForHerAgeAndNotSoFunIfYouAreNotWithSomeoneElseOrOtherPeopleDoNotTalkToYou

Also with me being pregnant it makes it less fun. Our friend climbed up between the ladder and the slide and was sending the kids down the slide.

#SheHadFunInTheCovidPitIMeanTheBallPitThoughAndSheLikedClimbingOverEverything

Soft landings are definitely great when you like to fall off/over everything.

I am still nervous about Covid…

#WeWalkedHomeInTheDarkWhichBSeemedIntriguedByAndIKeptTryingToPointOutTheMoonToHer

We didn’t take the shortcuts and it was rush hour so it was quite safe. I think she did take notice of the moon a bit, but she seemed more interesting in looking at all the houses with their lights on.

#AtTheWeekendWeWentToVisitMySisterAndHerFamilyWhichWasFunAndItWasSoNiceToSeeBAndHerCousinPlayingTogether

They had a bath together where they were super splash happy. B slipped under the water a few times, but was fine…

#TiagoHadABoysNightAndIHadAGirlsNightOnTheFridayEveningWhereAfterDinnerWeEndedUpGoingToABarForAHotChocolateAtTenInTheEvening

They had offered to babysit while we went out for dinner. I knew Tiago really wanted to see his guy mates and talk Portuguese. They hadn’t been together as a group in about three years… My initial plan was to just stay home and rest, but then I thought I should try to arrange something, so I met a few gal pals for dinner at one of my favourite pizza places, then we went to an outdoor beer garden but I was upset that they didn’t have hot chocolate and it was cold, so we went to a place that we thought would be serving hot drinks.

#AtFirstTheyWereNotGoingToLetUsInAsTheyCouldNotServeUsDrinksWithoutFoodAfterTenButISaidWhatAboutHotChocolatesWhichIsWhatWeWanted

Well, three hot chocolates and a mocha. My kind of Friday night! I got home before 12, but I ended up staying late as I didn’t feel tired and regretted that.

#ItIsNiceToTravelAndSeePeopleButIThinkTiagoIsKeenToJustStayPutForAWhileNowApartFromOurWeekendWithoutB

I have been letting myself off doing lots of work for this project if we’re away, so it would nice to be more consistent before the baby is born. It’s good that B is starting nursery as it will give me more time in the week to get stuff done.

#IAmBoredOfPackingAndTiagoSaysHeFeelsLikeHeJustNeverStopsWhichIsFairEnough

He says when we’ve been away, by the time it gets to Thursday he feels like he has been working for 12 days straight. We have been trying to have a weekend in-between trips at home, but yeah it is tiring.

#IFeelLikeAllIWantToDoTheseDaysIsEatWhichIGuessMakesSenseWithAGrowingBabyInsideOfMe

While writing these hashtags and blog I have eaten a lot, and now I am starting to get hungry again.

#IDoStruggleToGetUpToStandingAtTimesOrSometimesIStandUpTooFastAndGetPains

I like to sit on the floor after stretching and watch a bit of TV/YouTube. I feel fine, but when I stand up I feel awful. I need to start using things to help me up too, as I don’t and then I stretch something and regret my decisions.

#IReallyNeedToStartPreparingForTheBirthAsTimeIsFlyingBySoFast

So fast. At the moment I’m about 10 weeks away from when B was born (pregnancy wise).

28 weeks pregnant comparison with B:

I'm leaning over a blue exercise ball on mys side and hugging it. My legs are out straight and my feet are on the floor.
Me, My Ball & My Lump (28 weeks)
 
#VideoCalledWithMyNanAndMumToday
#NanRefersToMyBumpAsALumpWhichMakesMeLaughEveryTime
#MyMumSaidThatMyFaceLooksMoreFilledOut
#APregnancyAppSaysThatTheBabyIsTheSizeOfACanteloupeMelonNow
#TiagoSaysIHaveTwoMelonsAndAWatermelon
#ILookedDownAtMyBellyTodayInBedAndItLookedALotBigger
#ILookAtItEverydayMultipleTimesSoIAmNotSureWhyIWasSoShockedThatTime
#IFeelTired
#EvenBeingAtHomeAllTheTimeIFeelLikeIDoNotReallyStop
#INeedToChillOutABit
#IMightHaveANapShortly
#IQuiteLikeBeingAtHomeAllTheTime
#IJustFeelBadThatICanNotVisitMyNan
#AtLeastWhenMyMumGoesRoundToTakeHerFoodWeCanVideoChat
#IFinallyGotRoundToBlowingUpTheExerciseBall
#IWasThinkingAboutGettingAnOfficeChairButIWillTrySittingOnTheBallInstead
#TiagoCanUseItForExercisingToo
#AndApparentlyItIsGoodForWhenYouAreInLabour
#NeedToStartToThinkAboutGettingMoreBabyStuffTogether
#OurBabyBathSupportArrivedTheOtherDay
#TiagoSaysHeWantsAnAdultSizedOne
#IHaveNotTakenABathSinceBeforeIFoundOutIWasPregnant
#ObviouslyIShowerButForSomeReasonIHaveBeenTooScaredToHaveABath
#IThinkItIsBecauseYouHaveToBeCarefulWithHavingThemTooHot
#SoIHaveJustAvoidedThem
#ButNowIAmOfficiallyInTheThirdTrimesterAndMaybeIShouldHaveOne
#IGotABadLegCrampLastNight
#ItIsTheThirdTimeItHasHappenedNow
#IDefinitelyFeelALumpEveryTimeButItGoesAwayWithTheCramp
#MyMumSaysIShouldPutMyFeetUpMore

I’m currently sat writing this while sat on the ball. This just reminded me to blow it up, so I did.

Living with my Nan she refers to my ‘lump’ all the time now…

‘#IJustFeelBadThatICanNotVisitMyNan’

Well, now I’ve seen her most days for over a year…

I haven’t taken a bath this time either. I know it’s fine for me to, but I do worry that I will cook the baby… I know it’s stupid, but oh well.

I’ve had leg cramps probably a similar number of times, but I keep forgetting to check for the lump. I’m trying to stay hydrated, but I do forgot at times/I worry about needing the toilet too much when I’m out.

Tiago is lying on the sofa, propped up by two blue pillows and has his eyes closed.
Tiago & His Holiday Beard (28 weeks)
 
#TiagoOnlyUsuallyHasSomethingThatResemblesABeardWhenWeHaveBeenOnHoliday
#IGuessItShouldBeCalledHisLockdownBeard
#ButIAlwaysReferToHisFacialHairAsAHolidayBeard
#HeIsNotOnHolidayThoughAsHeIsWorkingFromHome
#ButStillHasVideoMeetingsToAttend
#HeJustCanNotBeBotheredToShave
#HeHasBeenInAFewPicturesInThisProject
#ButNotAsManyAsIFirstThought
#ThoughDueToLockdownItMightBeAGoodChanceToPhotographHimMore
#IThinkTryingToGetHashtagsOutOfHimLastTimeWasHardWork
#IKnewThisWeekendThatIWantedToPhotographHimThough
#WeWentOutForAWalkTodayAndThePlanWasToPhotographHimWhenWeGotHome
#IThoughtTheSofaWasASafeBetAsHeWouldBeRelaxed
#HeDidFallAsleepAtSomePoint
#HeSpentALotOfTimeTodayCookingAndTidying
#IWantedHimToHaveHisEyesClosed
#ButItDoesLookABitLikeHeIsDead
#TheWeekendsGoBySurprisinglyFast
#IAmWaitingForHimToGetOffAVideoCallWithHisParents
#AndThenIWillAskHimIfHeHasAnythingThatHeWantsToSayAboutImpendingFatherhood
#HeWasOnThePhoneForAboutAnHour
#HeSaysHeIsFeelingExcitedByIt
#ItIsBecomingMoreRealEveryDay
#HeSaysHeIsMainlyFocusedOnTheBabyAndNotThatStressedOutByCorona
#HeFeelsConnectedToTheBabyAlreadyEvenThoughHeDoesNotKnowThemYet
#FeelingThemKickIsNice
#HeLooksForwardToParentingAndGettingToKnowTheBaby
#AndTheChallengeOfIt
#HeSaysSeeingMyBumpInTheFleshIsStrangeYetNaturalAtTheSameTime

Tiago was getting rid of his beard for in person meetings, but now he just keeps it smart at a shorter level. Thanks Covid!

I think this time he forgets that I am pregnant. He does talk to bump most nights, but some nights he is too tired – like last night.

I’ve not bothered him too much this time with being in the project as I know he is busy, and often when I am working he is watching B. The family portraits are nice though. We need to do one of them soon…


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Pregnancy Waiting II

Imitating B With Her Cuddly Toys (21 Weeks / 25th September 2021)

Self-portrait cuddling about 6 of B's cuddly toys.
Imitating B With Her Cuddly Toys (21 Weeks / 25th September 2021)
 
#ILikeThatBInteractsMoreWithHerCuddlyToysNow
#YesterdaySheWasDraggingOneAroundWithHerThroughOurBedroomsWhichWasNiceToSee
#IWasABitObsessedWithCuddlyToysWhenIWasAKidSoMaybeThatIsWhyILikeThatSheIsGettingIntoThem
#WhenSheCrawlsIntoHerCotIWillIncorporateThemAllIntoTheVersionOfTwinkleTwinkleLittleStarThatISingToHer
#IBasicallyGotBoredOfSingingItAndAddNewBitsToItAllTheTime
#SheLikesToTakeFruitFromTheFruitBowlAndBiteIntoItAndThenTakeAnotherPieceOfFruitUntilItAllHasBiteMarksInIt
#BeforeIGiveHerAFewOfHerCrispsIRustleThePacketAndSheRunsOverToMe
#YesterdaySheGaveMeSuchABigSmileAndClappedHerHandsAtTheSightOfTheBag
#SomeDaysIHaveBeenTakingHerForThreeWalksButSomeDaysWeJustGoForOne
#TwoGirlsAtThePlaygroundTheOtherDayKeptCallingHerABoySoICorrectedThem
#OneStillKeptCallingHerABoySoISaidItIsConfusingAsSheWearsALotOfBlue
#ThenTheOtherGirlSaidWhyIsSheWearingRed
#OurNeighbourReferredToHerAsABoyTheOtherDayAndIFeltTooAwkwardToCorrectHim
#SomeDaysIPutHerInHerPinkLeggingsSoThatIDoNotHaveToDealWithTheAwkwardnessOfPeople
#IUsuallyAskPeopleHowOldTheirLittleOneIsSoThatTheyUsuallySayHeOrSheOrTheirKidsNameAsItIsOftenHardToTellWithYoungKids
#SheCanWalkFurtherNowAndWeSometimesTakeHerOutWithHerReins
#SheLikesToKickThroughAPileOfLeavesButWeSometimesHaveToPickHerUpAsOtherwiseSheWillJustKeepGoingBackToThings
#SheGotABitMoreInvolvedWithHerClassThisWeekAndSeemedToUnderstandMore
#OneThingIsThatAtTimesThereWillBeABasketWithInstrumentsToTakeFromAndThenReturnThemTo
#SheTendsToGoUpToItOnceItIsTimeForItToGoAwayButMaybeSoonSheWillBeABitQuicker
#SheDidSpendHalfOfTheClassJustClimbingOnHerPushchairButIThinkSheEnjoyedItStill
#IHadMySecondVaccineTheOtherDayAndIFeelFineApartFromJustFeelingReallyTired
#ItSeemedALotLessOrganisedThanMyFirstButItWasAtADifferentPlaceAndPeopleHaveJustStartedToHaveBoosterShots
#ThereWasABigQueueAndNotManyChairsButEventuallyIGotOne
#WheneverThePersonRunningReceptionStartedToLookForPeopleToKickOutOfChairsIWouldRubMyBelly
#ThisPlaceWasAlsoLessPrivateAndPeopleCouldSeeMeHavingMyVaccine
#IRealisedYesterdayThatThisWillProbablyBeTheLastTimeThatIWillBePregnantSoIShouldTryToAppreciateItAsMuchAsICan
#TheBabysMovementsAreGettingBiggerNowAndItJustRemindsMeOfWhatABizarreThingPregnancyIs
#IWonderIfSheWillLookALotLikeBOrIfTheyWillLookQuiteDifferentToEachOther
#IAmAlsoTryingToMentallyPrepareMyselfForHowItWillBeHavingTwoKidsAsItWillBeQuiteDifferentHavingABabyToLookAfterThisTime

#ILikeThatBInteractsMoreWithHerCuddlyToysNow

She’s had most of them since she was born, so it’s nice to see her enjoying them more each day.

#YesterdaySheWasDraggingOneAroundWithHerThroughOurBedroomsWhichWasNiceToSee

Partners in crime. I realised it was still in our room when she went to bed, but she didn’t miss it.

#IWasABitObsessedWithCuddlyToysWhenIWasAKidSoMaybeThatIsWhyILikeThatSheIsGettingIntoThem

I’d line them up all around my bed and I used to draw family trees and write biographies for them all. I was a cool kid.

#WhenSheCrawlsIntoHerCotIWillIncorporateThemAllIntoTheVersionOfTwinkleTwinkleLittleStarThatISingToHer

Her crawling into her cot now is great, though sometimes she crawls in before we’ve done the rest of her bedtime routine or without her sleeping bag on.

#IBasicallyGotBoredOfSingingItAndAddNewBitsToItAllTheTime

I started off singing it properly and then will sing something along the lines of:

‘Twinkle twinkle little star, you’re our bunny yes you are, we love you so very much, hope you always stay in touch…’

‘Here’s your squirrel, here’s your bee, here’s your carrot, it’s clear to see…’

Blah blah.

#SheLikesToTakeFruitFromTheFruitBowlAndBiteIntoItAndThenTakeAnotherPieceOfFruitUntilItAllHasBiteMarksInIt

We give her fruit for dessert with most meals. I’m not sure if she’s hungry or just doing it for fun. Obviously if we see her doing it we’ll move the bowl away, but she would happily sink her teeth into everything if she could. Earlier she had my dress in her mouth…

#BeforeIGiveHerAFewOfHerCrispsIRustleThePacketAndSheRunsOverToMe #YesterdaySheGaveMeSuchABigSmileAndClappedHerHandsAtTheSightOfTheBag

They’re ones for kids. Chickpea, quinoa, tomato and something? She does like crisps in general though. If we are eating crisps we have to give her a bit of one or she gets upset.

#SomeDaysIHaveBeenTakingHerForThreeWalksButSomeDaysWeJustGoForOne

It depends on the weather, how I’m feeling, how much energy I have etc.

#TwoGirlsAtThePlaygroundTheOtherDayKeptCallingHerABoySoICorrectedThem #OneStillKeptCallingHerABoySoISaidItIsConfusingAsSheWearsALotOfBlue #ThenTheOtherGirlSaidWhyIsSheWearingRed

I wear so much blue, I just knew that was why she was getting confused.

I feel sad as they are missing out on a lot if they feel like they can’t wear/own things of a certain colour.

#OurNeighbourReferredToHerAsABoyTheOtherDayAndIFeltTooAwkwardToCorrectHim

I thought he knew she was a girl, but maybe he forgot/always sees her wandering around in blue and thought he must be wrong? I don’t know.

#SomeDaysIPutHerInHerPinkLeggingsSoThatIDoNotHaveToDealWithTheAwkwardnessOfPeople

Just thinking about it all makes me feel tired.

#IUsuallyAskPeopleHowOldTheirLittleOneIsSoThatTheyUsuallySayHeOrSheOrTheirKidsNameAsItIsOftenHardToTellWithYoungKids

Some parents dress their kids quite gender neutral and some kids have gender neutral names. Even if I think a child is a certain gender, I try not to assume as sometimes I am wrong. Some parents put their daughter’s hair in girlish styles or put head bands on them, so obviously then it is easier to assume.

#SheCanWalkFurtherNowAndWeSometimesTakeHerOutWithHerReins

It’s nice to see her progessing with her walking.

#SheLikesToKickThroughAPileOfLeavesButWeSometimesHaveToPickHerUpAsOtherwiseSheWillJustKeepGoingBackToThings

Walk through the leaves. Back to the leaves. Sit down and play with the leaves.

#SheGotABitMoreInvolvedWithHerClassThisWeekAndSeemedToUnderstandMore

I was a bit proud.

#OneThingIsThatAtTimesThereWillBeABasketWithInstrumentsToTakeFromAndThenReturnThemTo #SheTendsToGoUpToItOnceItIsTimeForItToGoAwayButMaybeSoonSheWillBeABitQuicker

The teacher will often end up giving her an instrument, then I wait to see if she will put it back. Then I’ll put it back, then she’ll go up to the basket.

#SheDidSpendHalfOfTheClassJustClimbingOnHerPushchairButIThinkSheEnjoyedItStill

Like I’ve said before – if she’s happy, I’m happy.

A Grandmother said to me ‘think we’re in the slow corner’, but her Grandson and B are quite a bit younger than the others. The others are jumping and talking, so there is a bit of an age gap…

#IHadMySecondVaccineTheOtherDayAndIFeelFineApartFromJustFeelingReallyTired

I am struggling to write this as I am so tired. I planned to do it this morning, but I just lay in bed and rested. B will have a nap shortly, so I will nap too – she is currently with Tiago.

#ItSeemedALotLessOrganisedThanMyFirstButItWasAtADifferentPlaceAndPeopleHaveJustStartedToHaveBoosterShots

Maybe they booked into too many people for booster shots?

#ThereWasABigQueueAndNotManyChairsButEventuallyIGotOne

I didn’t want to take one close to the ‘vaccine zone’, but eventually one came up right in the back corner. Perfect.

#WheneverThePersonRunningReceptionStartedToLookForPeopleToKickOutOfChairsIWouldRubMyBelly

I had stood up for about 5/10 minutes before I got the chair. I think I waited about 40 minutes in the end before my number was called.

#ThisPlaceWasAlsoLessPrivateAndPeopleCouldSeeMeHavingMyVaccine

The first time was in a health centre, but this was in a tent. It’s fine, but it was weird knowing some people could see me – including a very vocal guy who acted like he was the only one who had to wait.

#IRealisedYesterdayThatThisWillProbablyBeTheLastTimeThatIWillBePregnantSoIShouldTryToAppreciateItAsMuchAsICan

I have already really forgotten how it was to be pregnant with B. I will be glad to not go through it again as it is quite nerve-wracking.

#TheBabysMovementsAreGettingBiggerNowAndItJustRemindsMeOfWhatABizarreThingPregnancyIs

It’s just weird feeling something moving inside of you. It is cool, but sometimes it is just really odd.

#IWonderIfSheWillLookALotLikeBOrIfTheyWillLookQuiteDifferentToEachOther

Only time will tell. It’d be nice if they looked quite alike I think, but if one looks more like me and more like T then that is also cool. But I don’t really mind.

#IAmAlsoTryingToMentallyPrepareMyselfForHowItWillBeHavingTwoKidsAsItWillBeQuiteDifferentHavingABabyToLookAfterThisTime

It was great when B had 5 naps a day. This time it does not matter so much as B will probably only be having 1 by the time baby X is born. I just need to do my best and rest when I can.

21 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait standing on one leg while naked.
Have I Mentioned That Pregnancy Is So Weird? (21 Weeks)
 
#FinallyGotTheScreeningResults
#TheScanPersonSaidToSpeakToMyMidwifeButTheMidwifeSaidToPhoneTheHospital
#PhonedTheHospitalAndGotPassedAround
#ButGotAPhoneCallBackWhichSaidIWasLowRiskForTheThreeSyndromes
#IAmJustGladThatTheyDidNotLoseTheBloodSampleOrResults
#AsIDoNotWantAnotherUnnecessaryBloodTest
#TheLetterGotLostInThePostSoTheyAreSendingAnotherOne
#ItIsReassuringToFeelTheBabyMovingAboutIt
#ThoughItAlsoWorriesMeWhenIFeelNothing
#INoticeTheMovementsMoreWhenIAmSatDownDrinkingWaterAndNotStressing
#IThinkItDidNotReactToMyStarJumpsTheOtherDayAsItIsUsedToMeExercisingAndDancingAbout
#ButItIsWeirdWhenYouFeelTheMovements
#ThatThereIsALittleSomeonePawingInsideYou
#HaveIMentionedThatPregnancyIsSoWeird
#IKnowIHaveSaidItManyTimesAlready
#IGetWorriedAboutThePregnancySometimesAndIExpressThis
#IKnowThatPeopleAreTryingToBeReassuring
#ButSomeoneTellingMeThatEverythingIsAndWillBeFineDoesNotAssureMe
#YouCanBeTheHealthiestPersonInTheWorldWhateverThatMeans
#ButThatDoesNotMeanThatYourBabyWillBeAbsolutelyFine
#PregnancyIsNotLikeTakingATestWhereIfYouStudyYouCanDoYourBest
#PregnancyIsUnpredictableAndYouCanNotControlItAndTheOutcome
#IAmSureThingsWillAllBeFineButItIsGoodToBeRealistic
#PeopleKnowAboutMyPregnancyNowAndIFeelAnxiousThatItIsOutInTheOpen
#AsWhatIfThingsGoWrongAndIHaveToTellPeople
#ButIAmQuiteHonestAboutThingsAndIAmSureIWillMakeWorkAboutThings
#IJustWishIHadBeenMoreHonestAboutTryingToGetPregnantAndMadeWorkAboutIt
#IMadeWorkAboutItButTheTextThatIWroteWasNotReallyAboutIt
#ThisPhotoIsSimilarToAPhotoITookLastYearWhenIWasTryingToGetPregnant
#IThoughtIShouldDocumentMyBodyInCaseIGotPregnantAndSoTheMainDifferenceInThisOneIsThatIHaveABumpButAlsoNoTan

This time my results came within a week.

Like I’ve said 100 times before, I don’t think pregnancy will ever stop not being weird to me.

I will also never stop not liking the fact that I have little control over pregnancy. It is stressful.

This time I did make work about wanting to be pregnant again, though I do feel awkward about it. I know that a lot of people have struggles with fertility or trying to get pregnant or getting through a pregnancy, and at times I do wonder why has it been quite straight forward for us as a family? I do feel guilty about it at times.

It Is Kind Of Nice Knowing That I Am Never Alone (21 and a half weeks)
 
#WellIAmIllAgain
#IThoughtThatMaybeICouldBeatTheColdThatIFeltComingOnButNo
#ItIsNotAsBadAsTheLastTwoTimesAtLeast
#ItIsJustABitAnnoying
#IThinkIAmGettingUsedToMyBodyChangingNow
#ICanNotReallyRememberWhatItLookedLikeBefore
#WellIAmRemindedByLookingAtOldSelfPortraits
#ButIGuessThisIsMyNewNormal
#IThinkIWillMissHavingABump
#ThoughMaybeIWillNotBeSayingThatSoonWhenItGetsMoreUncomfortable
#SoMaybeIWillMissHavingA21AndAHalfWeeksBump
#ItIsKindOfNiceKnowingThatIAmNeverAlone
#WasEatingMyBreakfastThisMorningAndIFeltItMove
#ItMadeMeImagineMyKidInACoupleOfYearsTime
#WatchingMeWheneverIEatAndWantingSomeOfIt
#ThisMorningItWasKindOfPawingAtMe
#LikeGiveMeSomeOfYourFood
#ButObviouslyIGuessItWasHavingTheNutrientsFromItOrWhatever
#ItSeemsToMoveMoreWhenIAmAboutToEat
#MaybeItSensesMyExcitement
#OrItIsJustACoincidence
#WhenItMovesIFeelReassured
#ThenIFeelStressedWhenItDoesNot
#IThinkItHasHadTheHiccupsAFewTimes
#AsTheOtherDayIThoughtItWasMovingButItHadARhythmToit
#AndMyMumHasMentionedThatSheUsedToFeelMySisterHiccuping
#SoWeird
#ItStillBlowsMyMindThatThereIsALittleHumanInMeAndOneDayItWillComeOut
#IKindOfJustWantToKeepItInMyBellyForever
#ButIAlsoWantToMeetTheLittleHumanThatIHaveGrownInsideMe

‘#ItMadeMeImagineMyKidInACoupleOfYearsTime
#WatchingMeWheneverIEatAndWantingSomeOfIt’

Well it hasn’t been a couple of years yet and B likes to eat everything that I have.

I definitely get stressed when I can’t feel many movements. Sometimes I am just busier though so have less opportunities to feel her.

As my bump gets bigger this time it is weird thinking that I probably will not ever be pregnant again, but being pregnant with a toddler is quite different to being pregnant without another kid. As B wants picking up a lot/needs to be as otherwise we will never get home from walks, having a bump does make it harder to pick her up/I get worried that maybe I am overstretching my bump.


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Pregnancy Waiting II

Imitating B Looking For A Raisin Down Her Sleeve (15 Weeks / 11th August 2021)

Self-portrait of me pulling my jumper sleeve out with my left hand and looking down it.
Imitating B Looking For A Raisin Down Her Sleeve (15 Weeks / 11th August 2021)
 
#BLikesRaisinsAndIUsuallyGiveThemToHerForASnackOnceADay
#AsSoonAsSheGetsTheBowlSheLikesToEmptyThemOut
#AsAResultTheyGoEverywhereAndSheIsOftenFindingThemThroughoutTheDay
#IGuessTheyAreTrickyToKeepHoldOfAndTheOtherDayILaughedAsSheLookedDownHerSleeveForOneSheHadDropped
#TiagoAndIJustCelebratedOurThreeYearWeddingAnniversaryButWeDidNotDoMuchExceptOrderOurFavouriteIndianFood
#WeHaveBeenSortingOutOurPaperworkToGetOurMarriageRegisteredInPortugalAndForBToGetHerPortugueseCitizenship
#AsWeHaveBeenMarriedForThreeYearsICanAlsoStartApplyingForCitizenshipWhichIsQuiteExciting
#IAmSoStressedThatOurTripWillNotGoAhead
#WeHaveOurTestsTomorrowMorningButYesterdayMyNanHadAPlumberRoundForTwoHoursAsWellAsSomeoneToLookAtTheRoof
#YouNeedToHaveTakenTheTestNoMoreThan72HoursBeforeYouArriveAtYourFinalDestinationButYouAlsoNeedToAllow48HoursForTheResultsToArrive
#SoWeHaveToHopeWeGetTheResultsInTimeAndThatTheyAreNegative
#WeHadWantedToGetThemDoneWednesdayNightButTheySoldOutAndAsWeHaveAConnectingFlightSaturdayEveningWeNeedToDoThemThursdayMorning
#IHaveBeenTakingBOutToTheParkMoreButIfThePlaygroundIsBusyIWillWaitUntilTheCrowdsLeave
#TheOtherDayAGuyWalkedRightByOurBlanketAgainWhenHeHad10MetresOfGrassToWalkOn
#SomeGoodNewsIsIHaveNotBeenSickIn9DaysAndLastNightWasTheFirstNightIDidNotGagFiveTimesAfterBrushingMyTeeth
#HoweverTwoNightsAgoIDidGetMyFirstLegCrampOfThePregnancyAndItWasNotPleasant
#IThinkIWasQuiteDehydratedSoLastNightIDrankALotBeforeBedAndIDidNotGetOne
#SomePeopleHaveToldMeIAmBraveForHavingASecondOneAlready
#IAmNotIJustHaveNothingElseGoingOnInMyLifeRightNowApartFromLookingAfterB
#ItMakesSenseToHaveAnotherKidNowWhileIFeelStuckInLimboAndAmJustWaitingForTheNextChapterOfOurLives
#IWriteNotesForMyNextPostAndTwoDaysAgoIWroteThatIFeelLikeALoser
#IWroteThatIAmWorkingVeryVeryFreelanceWithAdminWorkAndIAmJustWorkingOnMyOwnStuffThatNoOneCaresAbout
#IKnowALotOfPeopleWouldLoveToBeInMyPositionRegardingKids
#IAmGratefulToBePregnantAndToHaveBButIDoFeelLikeALoser
#ICriedTheOtherDayAsTiagoSaidHeWasLookingForwardToBoysNightsOnHoliday
#IDoNotRememberTheLastTimeIHadAGirlsNightAndIAmNotSureWhenIWillAgain
#IAmTakingBOutMoreInTheHopesThatWeWillMeetSomePeople
#WeSpokeToAWomanTheOtherDayWhoSeemedNiceButLetsSeeIfWeSeeHerAgain
#OnceIAmDoubleVaccinatedIAmGoingToTakeBToBirminghamCityCentreToSeeAShowAndGoForLunch
#IJustFeelLikeINeedToBeCarefulStillButIAlsoNeedToShowHerMoreOfWhatLifeCanBeLikeBeforeHerSiblingArrivesAndIProbablyWillNotFeelLikeGoingOutMuchForAWhile

#BLikesRaisinsAndIUsuallyGiveThemToHerForASnackOnceADay

I think she is starting to get bored of them, but then she keeps eating them… I’ve also started to eat them #FunFact.

#AsSoonAsSheGetsTheBowlSheLikesToEmptyThemOut

And by that I mean hold onto the bowl with one hand and flick it up, so they all go everywhere. Or just empty them out…

#AsAResultTheyGoEverywhereAndSheIsOftenFindingThemThroughoutTheDay

I saw her put something in her mouth the other day, so I yelled at her to spit it out (she was by where my Nan sits and sometimes drops tablets). She started to cry and Tiago said he had put a raisin on the table there… Sorry B!

#IGuessTheyAreTrickyToKeepHoldOfAndTheOtherDayILaughedAsSheLookedDownHerSleeveForOneSheHadDropped

I had to help her get it out in the end…

#TiagoAndIJustCelebratedOurThreeYearWeddingAnniversaryButWeDidNotDoMuchExceptOrderOurFavouriteIndianFood

I say celebrated. I saw it on my calendar in the afternoon… It seemed like a good excuse for Indian food.

#WeHaveBeenSortingOutOurPaperworkToGetOurMarriageRegisteredInPortugalAndForBToGetHerPortugueseCitizenship

We did try to register our marriage just after we got married and went to Portugal, but they said we had to get it translated so it was probably easier to get it done at home. The embassies are so useless in the UK. Tiago has been emailing and calling over the years, but we’ve not got anywhere. They said I needed to get a birth certificate that had been issued in the last 6 months, but our friend who is sorting it out for us in Portugal now said we needed to get the documents Apostille stamped. We will now just get them translated there, as we might be waiting for (more) years if we try to get things done here now with Covid.

#AsWeHaveBeenMarriedForThreeYearsICanAlsoStartApplyingForCitizenshipWhichIsQuiteExciting

Hurrah, we are going to get the ball rolling soon. It’s funny that Tiago and B both have the new passports that don’t have European Union stamped on them, whereas mine does but I am not an EU citizen, whereas Tiago is and B will soon be. B has more claim to citizenship than me, and I think hers will be processed fast.

#IAmSoStressedThatOurTripWillNotGoAhead

Please please please let it happen.

#WeHaveOurTestsTomorrowMorningButYesterdayMyNanHadAPlumberRoundForTwoHoursAsWellAsSomeoneToLookAtTheRoof

Small things that have been wrong with the house since we moved in obviously needed to be looked at this week… (They didn’t, but oh well.)

#YouNeedToHaveTakenTheTestNoMoreThan72HoursBeforeYouArriveAtYourFinalDestinationButYouAlsoNeedToAllow48HoursForTheResultsToArrive

What a headache.

#SoWeHaveToHopeWeGetTheResultsInTimeAndThatTheyAreNegative

If it takes 48 hours we will already be on the road. Worse case scenario is we have to pay for the stupidly expensive tests at the airport (providing they have space).

#WeHadWantedToGetThemDoneWednesdayNightButTheySoldOutAndAsWeHaveAConnectingFlightSaturdayEveningWeNeedToDoThemThursdayMorning

We need to get more organised. We are going to the Birmingham airport drive through to get them done, though we are flying from London. There are some where you get sent a test and a doctor watches you do the test via webcam and can give you an instant pdf certificate, but they had sold out for this week…

Whine whine.

#IHaveBeenTakingBOutToTheParkMoreButIfThePlaygroundIsBusyIWillWaitUntilTheCrowdsLeave

I say crowds as there must be a summer school or group that has about 30 kids that takes it over. The same school/group that decided to start a race a metre away from us the other week…

#TheOtherDayAGuyWalkedRightByOurBlanketAgainWhenHeHad10MetresOfGrassToWalkOn

Maybe we sit too close to that edge of the park, but I don’t see why going 3m off course would harm him. Of course I said something along the lines of ‘Yeah, I know you wouldn’t think there was so much grass to walk on’ to B.

#SomeGoodNewsIsIHaveNotBeenSickIn9DaysAndLastNightWasTheFirstNightIDidNotGagFiveTimesAfterBrushingMyTeeth

Hurrah. I did a little heave, but it wasn’t much.

#HoweverTwoNightsAgoIDidGetMyFirstLegCrampOfThePregnancyAndItWasNotPleasant

Some pain fun to replace sick fun.

#IThinkIWasQuiteDehydratedSoLastNightIDrankALotBeforeBedAndIDidNotGetOne

Let’s hope it stays that way. I woke Tiago up with my oww-ing.

#SomePeopleHaveToldMeIAmBraveForHavingASecondOneAlready

Lol.

#IAmNotIJustHaveNothingElseGoingOnInMyLifeRightNowApartFromLookingAfterB #ItMakesSenseToHaveAnotherKidNowWhileIFeelStuckInLimboAndAmJustWaitingForTheNextChapterOfOurLives

We’re in Brum until at least the start of next summer, so it makes sense to ‘get on with things’.

#IWriteNotesForMyNextPostAndTwoDaysAgoIWroteThatIFeelLikeALoser #IWroteThatIAmWorkingVeryVeryFreelanceWithAdminWorkAndIAmJustWorkingOnMyOwnStuffThatNoOneCaresAbout

I love B, but I’d also love to have a job/commission where B could go to nursery a bit and I could feel a bit more like my old self. Obviously being pregnant now complicates things, but that’s also why I’m pregnant as there are no jobs/commissions around that I am suitable for/are worth it/fit.

#IKnowALotOfPeopleWouldLoveToBeInMyPositionRegardingKids

Having to awkwardly tell certain friends that you are pregnant before they find out from someone else, but you don’t want to tell them as you know it will upset them etc.

#IAmGratefulToBePregnantAndToHaveBButIDoFeelLikeALoser

If I had more local friends to hang out with would it be better? Once I’m double vaccinated I’m going to start going to a local pregnancy yoga class. I doubt I’ll make any good friends, but you never know and it’d be good to have a bit of time for myself and stretch well.

#ICriedTheOtherDayAsTiagoSaidHeWasLookingForwardToBoysNightsOnHoliday #IDoNotRememberTheLastTimeIHadAGirlsNightAndIAmNotSureWhenIWillAgain

Lol, I suddenly just started to cry. Tiago went to London the other month and hung out with a friend, and a friend came to Brum and he went to meet them for dinner/drinks. T says I should have a day to myself soon and do what I want. I want to go to London, but I also don’t want to if you know what I mean? This darn Covid. Once I’m double vacc’d I may feel differently, but I don’t want to be going when I’m SUPER pregnant.

#IAmTakingBOutMoreInTheHopesThatWeWillMeetSomePeople

Love the desperation. I do like looking at all the dogs though, and B usually tries to talk to them all – and also to crows and magpies.

#WeSpokeToAWomanTheOtherDayWhoSeemedNiceButLetsSeeIfWeSeeHerAgain

Her kid was a bit older than B, but she also had an older one. She talked about not having family nearby, but at least having some good friends.

#OnceIAmDoubleVaccinatedIAmGoingToTakeBToBirminghamCityCentreToSeeAShowAndGoForLunch

It’d be nice. I feel like I could look after her outside of the house and it’d be okay (remember that I have not gone far from the house with her by myself). By the time we go she might be down to one nap a day, though I hope she keeps it up for longer.

#IJustFeelLikeINeedToBeCarefulStillButIAlsoNeedToShowHerMoreOfWhatLifeCanBeLikeBeforeHerSiblingArrivesAndIProbablyWillNotFeelLikeGoingOutMuchForAWhile

Typically I finally feel like I could take her to town by myself, but then when the second one comes we will probably be stuck to the house more again. I can only do my best, and maybe with the second one I might be more chill? The idea of taking two to town sounds like a bit too much, so I should definitely try to take B a few times by herself so it would not be too daunting. Let’s see…

15 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait with my top pulled up. I am holding an apple in my right hand over my belly button and my top is pulled up.
A Baby The Size Of An Apple (15 weeks)
 
#SoOBebeIs15WeeksAndTheSizeOfAnApple
#IToldMyselfThatIWouldNotTakeAnyPicturesOfMyselfWithFruitOrVegetables
#ButHereWeAre
#ILikeApplesSoIfIAmGoingToBreakMyRulesThenItMightAsWellBeForAnApple
#AnotherAppSaysItIsAPeachButAllTheAppsAndSitesSayDifferentThings
#ApparentlyItCanStartToHearSingingSoMeAndTiagoHaveBeenTryingToSingToMyBelly
#IAmABitWorriedThatTheNeighboursCanHearUsScreechingAway
#ApparentlyUntil20WeeksTheBabyWillDoubleInSize
#IAmGettingALotOfCrampsSoIAmGuessingThatIsTheBabyGrowing
#SoonIShouldBeAbleToFeelItMoveWhichIsACrazyThought
#IStillAssociateCrampsWithPeriodsSoItStillWeirdsMeOut
#MorePeopleKnowIAmPregnantNow
#ILoveHowEveryoneNeedsToTellMeToRestEatAndDrinkPlenty
#NonAlcoholicDrinksOfCourse
#ItIsNotLikeIGotPregnantAndThenDecidedToStopSleepingEatingAndDrinking
#IKnowPeopleAreJustTryingToBeHelpfulAndSupportive
#ButItIsLikePeopleTellingMeToMakeSureIRememberToBreathe
#IOrderedAMaternityPillowAndIAmHopingItArrivesSoon
#ItIsEarlyDaysButIFeelLikeINeedOne
#IAmASideSleeperButItGetsUncomfortableAndITurnOverManyTimes
#IAlsoFeelLikeINeedToHugSomething
#ICanNotRememberTheLastTimeIFellAsleepHuggingABigTeddyBear
#ButThatIsWhatIFeelLikeINeed
#IStillForgetIAmPregnantSometimes
#OrIStillFindTheThoughtWeird
#IKeepThinkingThatSomethingBadWillHappen
#AsIStillCanNotImagineMeWithABabyAndInSomewaysItDoesNotFeelMeantToBe
#ButObviouslyIHopeItIsMeantToBeAndThatEverythingElseIsFine
#IAmGettingQuiteIntoStretchingInTheMorningsNow

I am yet to take any pictures of myself with fruit and veg this time, and I think I will try to avoid that – says me on a post about raisins. If it’s me imitating B then that’s different (and there were no raisins on the shoot anyways).

Living with my Nan we are lucky as I have to screech pretty loudly for the neighbours to hear me. I can be less self conscious this time and do spend a lot of time singing to B…

I do not think I will ever have a cramp when pregnant and feel relaxed about it.

I have been getting annoyed this time by someone telling me to eat more fish. I haven’t intentionally eaten fish since I was 15. I know they mean well, but it’s quite annoying.

I have been hugging part of my maternity pillow from quite early on this time. I say part as there is a bit that unzips from the main bit. I got the main pillow out the other day, but actually I had forgotten that I can zip the little bit to the main bit. Just need to find where I put the small piece that joins them now…

I am really enjoying my stretching these days.

Portrait of Tiago, my husband. He is sat down with his right hand under his chin and his left hand supporting his elbow. He is looking off slightly to his right.
Tiago Says A Few Words (15 Weeks)

#ICanNotRememberHowIFeltWhenJocelynFoundOutSheWasPregnant
#IWasDefinitelyHappy
#WeHadBeenTryingSinceTheStartOf2019
#TodayIFeelHappyWaitingForMyChildToArrive
#SoICanPutMyFatherSkillsIntoAction
#IThinkIWillBeAGoodFather
#IThinkIWillBeARelaxedFather
#WhateverHappensHappens
#IAmLookingForwardToTeachingMyKidPortugueseAndToShowingThemRoundLiverpool
#IAlreadyFeelCloseToTheChildAsISpeakToThemEveryNight
#SoonIWillBeReadingThemStoriesBeforeBedTime

I didn’t realise that Tiago actually said so few words.

He keeps forgetting that I am pregnant this time…


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Oh Me, Oh Mãe

Ninth Family Portrait (31st May 2021)

Family portrait. Tiago and me are sat on the floor and B is sat on Tiago's lap wth one hand resting on T's arm, and one one resting on my arm.
Ninth Family Portrait (31st May 2021)
 
#WellThisWeekendWeHadOurFirstNightAwayFromMyNansHouseSinceWeMovedIn
#ICanNotBelieveThatWeHaveBeenLivingHereForSevenMonthsAlready
#IWasSupposedToWriteAListOfThingsToTakeButOfCourseIDidNotAndWeForgotAFewThings
#TheMostMajorThingWasBsNoiseMachineThatPlaysWhileSheSleeps
#WeUsedMyPhoneForNapsAndThenTiagosForTheNight
#OfCourseTheBatteryDiedButIThinkBOnlyWokeUpVeryBrieflySoThatWasGood
#WeWentToLiverpoolAsWeAreStillInTouchWithPeopleFromOurNCTGroup
#AndTheFirstBirthdayPartiesAreStartingToHappenSoWeWentForAJointParty
#ItWasAShameThatNotEveryoneCouldBeThereForItWasNiceToSeeSixOfThemTogether
#BWasSuperShyWhenWeArrivedAndHeldBackOnOurPicnicBlanket
#AfterAWhileSheWasQuiteContentCrawlingRoundPickingUpEveryonesBearShapedPotatoSnacks
#ItRemindedMeOfGoingToSchoolDiscosAndJustSeeingHowManyBagsOfCrispsICouldEat
#ThePartyHatsDidNotLastLongButTheyAllSeemedToEnjoyThemselvesAndItWasNiceToCatchUpWithTheOtherParents
#TheNextDayWeWentToMeetFriendsInTheCentreToHaveLunch
#ItWasBsFirstMealAtARestaurantAndOurFirstSinceMovingToBirmingham
#SheJustHadBitsOfOurFoodAndIShouldHaveTakenAPictureOfHerCoveredInTomatoSauce
#ItWasSoHotOut
#LuckilyTheRestaurantManagedToGiveUsSomeShadeAsIWasWorriedAboutBGettingTooHot
#IThoughtItWouldHaveBeenReallyHotAtTheBirthdayPartyButItWasNotSoIDidNotDressAppropriately
#LiverpoolLookedLikeItWasBackToNormalAsThereWereSoManyPeople
#WeWantedToGetAPictureWithTheBeatlesStatueButItWasTooBusy
#IFeelAwkwardHavingAPhotoTakenWithSoManyPeopleWatchingToo
#WeWentToOpenEyeGalleryBrieflyToSeeFriends
#WeUsedTheBabyChangingFacilitiesAndItWasTheFirstTimeWeHaveChangedHerNappyInAPublicPlaceSinceMovingIThink
#WePlannedToGetOnTheRoadWhenItWasTimeForBsSecondNapSoSheCouldSleepInTheCar
#OfCourseInTheEndWeLeftReallyLate
#BWasOvertiredAndCriedALotInTheCar
#SheEndedUpSleepingFor10MinutesAboutTwoHoursLaterThanSheShouldHave
#ThoughIWasABitRelievedAsIWasWorriedSheWouldNeedASuperLateBedtimeByThatPoint
#HerRoomWasHotWhenWeGotBackSoWeTriedPuttingHerInAShortSleevedVestAndLuckilySheSleptTheWholeNight

2nd August: I’m not totally sure on the photo editing. I had edited it differently, but I did not like it. I prefer this, but I’m still not sure. I like how B has one hand on Tiago and one on me though.

#WellThisWeekendWeHadOurFirstNightAwayFromMyNansHouseSinceWeMovedIn #ICanNotBelieveThatWeHaveBeenLivingHereForSevenMonthsAlready

I was anxious about it all, but it was nice to get away and see people.

#IWasSupposedToWriteAListOfThingsToTakeButOfCourseIDidNotAndWeForgotAFewThings

All that packing for one night… We took way too much stuff but I would rather take too much than too little. It took me a minute to remember how B’s cot folds up, but I managed it.

I do need to make a list for day trips and overnight stays though.

#TheMostMajorThingWasBsNoiseMachineThatPlaysWhileSheSleeps

Great. I remember saying to myself that I needed to pack it. Annoyingly I had gone in her room and noticed that I nearly forgot to take her nappies, but the noise machine is tucked out of the way.

#WeUsedMyPhoneForNapsAndThenTiagosForTheNight

This is what we played.

#OfCourseTheBatteryDiedButIThinkBOnlyWokeUpVeryBrieflySoThatWasGood

T’s phone needed to be charged so we had it plugged in for a bit, but we were worried about it being on all night so T went in to turn it off, and of course his phone died.

I did hear her briefly wake up at one point and that might have been why. It was good that she slept without it, but I thought with other people around it was a good idea to use it.

#WeWentToLiverpoolAsWeAreStillInTouchWithPeopleFromOurNCTGroup

NCT being the National Childcare Trust. We did a course with them to learn about looking after a baby, but also as we wanted to meet people as we didn’t know many people in Liverpool. And then we left.

#AndTheFirstBirthdayPartiesAreStartingToHappenSoWeWentForAJointParty

We can’t go to all of the parties (if it was a shorter drive then we would do), so it was nice that there was one for three of them. Shame we don’t have a group like them in Birmingham.

#ItWasAShameThatNotEveryoneCouldBeThereForItWasNiceToSeeSixOfThemTogether

The last time we saw some of them they were very small and not doing much. Now they are all crawling, standing up and one was walking! There are eight in total.

#BWasSuperShyWhenWeArrivedAndHeldBackOnOurPicnicBlanket

She just buried her head in it. I think it was because we were next to a lot of Dads and she doesn’t really see a lot of men. She’s usually less shy if there are a lot of babies around.

#AfterAWhileSheWasQuiteContentCrawlingRoundPickingUpEveryonesBearShapedPotatoSnacks

I don’t let B eat a lot of salt so she was in heaven. She was also eating a lot of triangular shaped adult snacks. I was surprised she ate so much dinner afterwards…

#ItRemindedMeOfGoingToSchoolDiscosAndJustSeeingHowManyBagsOfCrispsICouldEat

I think I ate seven once. Classy me.

#ThePartyHatsDidNotLastLongButTheyAllSeemedToEnjoyThemselvesAndItWasNiceToCatchUpWithTheOtherParents

They looked cute with them on. B’s was too big for her so I had to tie a knot in it.

#TheNextDayWeWentToMeetFriendsInTheCentreToHaveLunch

It was weird parking there as we always walked from home when we lived there.

#ItWasBsFirstMealAtARestaurantAndOurFirstSinceMovingToBirmingham

It seemed like a big occasion. I took no photos.

#SheJustHadBitsOfOurFoodAndIShouldHaveTakenAPictureOfHerCoveredInTomatoSauce

We looked at getting a meal for her, but we thought she would have barely eaten it. They had a kids menu, but it seemed for a lot older kids.

#ItWasSoHotOut

I had to take my shoes off as I was melting.

#LuckilyTheRestaurantManagedToGiveUsSomeShadeAsIWasWorriedAboutBGettingTooHot

And someone let us move as I could not have sat in the sun for that long.

#IThoughtItWouldHaveBeenReallyHotAtTheBirthdayPartyButItWasNotSoIDidNotDressAppropriately

It was fairly cold at the park for the party, so I thought the next day would be more of the same. I had shaved my legs in a hurry before we left Brum and cut my ankle quite badly (I’ve never cut myself that much shaving in my life). If I had known it would have been so hot I would have had no leggings on and worn sandals. Oh well. That’s what we get for being away from home and not checking the weather as much.

#LiverpoolLookedLikeItWasBackToNormalAsThereWereSoManyPeople

I was surprised on a day so hot that people were in the centre. I would have chilled in a park or a garden or something… but we had plans and they did too.

#WeWantedToGetAPictureWithTheBeatlesStatueButItWasTooBusy

Gone again are the days of it being super quiet. I guess it was a weekend and it was hot. I used to walk past it with B everyday on our walks.

#IFeelAwkwardHavingAPhotoTakenWithSoManyPeopleWatchingToo

There’s also a queue of people watching and yeah I find it awkward.

#WeWentToOpenEyeGalleryBrieflyToSeeFriends

We wanted to go for longer but it was already getting late.

#WeUsedTheBabyChangingFacilitiesAndItWasTheFirstTimeWeHaveChangedHerNappyInAPublicPlaceSinceMovingIThink

Bit weird to say, but again it feels worth mentioning. Our friends said they could hear B singing/talking from the reception area.

#WePlannedToGetOnTheRoadWhenItWasTimeForBsSecondNapSoSheCouldSleepInTheCar

We travelled to Liverpool when it was time for her first nap. We had left a little earlier and the first wake window is meant to be 2 hours 45 minutes to 3 hours. She fell asleep pretty much on 2 hours 45 minutes.

#OfCourseInTheEndWeLeftReallyLate

We know she can get away with being awake a little longer if she has to.

#BWasOvertiredAndCriedALotInTheCar

I was hoping to have a nap myself and read more of Pregnant Then Screwed, instead I was doing a lot of singing and stressing out.

#SheEndedUpSleepingFor10MinutesAboutTwoHoursLaterThanSheShouldHave

She woke up crying a lot. 🙁

#ThoughIWasABitRelievedAsIWasWorriedSheWouldNeedASuperLateBedtimeByThatPoint

You can’t win can you?

#HerRoomWasHotWhenWeGotBackSoWeTriedPuttingHerInAShortSleevedVestAndLuckilySheSleptTheWholeNight

Lighter sleeping bag or shorter sleeved top? We went for shorter sleeved top and it seemed okay. If it’s this hot in May I am worried for August, but we’ll hopefully get better at judging what she needs to wear.


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