We do listen to music a lot, and she sees me dancing.
Yesterday T brought her upstairs while I was doing my dance videos and I could see B trying to copy my arm actions.
It makes me think of a photo I took for my OMOM project –
I like when I put a song on and she just starts moving around. She was moving fast to ‘I’m Still Standing’ by Elton John the other day. Sometimes she flaps her arms to songs too.
I guess the womb is built to be resilient, but I barely knocked my belly at all when I was pregnant with B. A cat walked over it once, which made me worried, but B does a lot worse to it on the daily.
I love it. Just super big cheesy grin with her little teeth showing more now.
I say ‘giddy up’ and she goes for it.
I blame all this watching of the Olympics. I’ve watched so much of it this year, but today is the last day. I’m a bit relieved, though I do want to watch the Paralympics. I’m a bit sports out though – luckily I’ve just seen that it doesn’t start for 2+ weeks.
Though now she just drinks it until it’s gone when she gets it.
When Tiago is busy/out and I have to give it her by myself, geez I really struggle. Yesterday just thinking about it made me want to vomit.
I do not remember being this grossed out by it last time. I’ve been eating it for breakfast with turkish eggs here and there as well… I think the evenings are just not good for me.
I’ve been close though. The dry heaving is not much fun, especially as it leaves my stomach feeling unsettled for a bit.
Not that anyone cares, but it feels like a big step with it all.
I get worried a few times during the day. Sometimes it is just gas though… Classy.
I guess I was going to the office then and it was an easy lunch solution as local cafes sold them. Thinking about it I would like a jacket potato with coleslaw now… It’s not even 8am. I feel like I ate baked beans last time, but I have not been able to touch them lately.
(15th October: I had one last weekend and it was great. Earlier I said to Tiago that we should have them for lunch this weekend.)
I do not usually eat salt and vinegar crisps, but I am a fan at the moment.
I am quite concerned. My social calendar is empty this week though – I just need to go to the doctors for an early 16 week check.
I debated saying let’s leave it until after our holiday, but we’d missed her 1st birthday party and I do not see many people.
Argh. Hopefully it’ll be okay. They’ve yet to tell us they have Covid so…
Need or want? A lot of other people probably want or need a trip too. If it wasn’t for it being where Tiago grew up we’d just be going somewhere in the UK I’m sure. It’d be a lot less stressful.
True, he could have a break in the UK. Seeing his parents and friends is a big thing though. We last saw his parents at Xmas 2019, but in mainland Portugal rather than on the island.
So many wants and needs.
I want to see my parents in law as well, and see the people we usually see every summer.
Lonely when I’m with B all day? Sounds rude, but if you’re a parent I’m sure you know what I mean. It’ll be different when she can talk. It’s just weird that I have so much ‘free time’ (time where I could be hanging out with people) now and I do not really see anyone. Maybe it’ll be different when the summer holidays are over and we start classes again.
We are not planning to stay here forever, so soon it will get to the point of why bother trying to meet people. Maybe I’m just socially awkward. Maybe I’m just not a very likeable person. Maybe I’m just annoying. Maybe I have little in common with people around here. Maybe maybe maybe.
I recognised a couple of them, but there was a lot I’d never seen before.
Now we can hang out downstairs, in our room, go for walks… It’s raining again. I’m so fed up with this weather. I do wonder how things would be if it wasn’t for Covid. I’m sure I’d be taking B out more – hanging out at coffee shops, there’d be more classes/groups perhaps, I wouldn’t be so scared of taking her to soft play etc. Oh well.
14 weeks pregnant with B comparison:
I definitely took more bare belly shots when I was pregnant with B. I guess this project is different as a lot of it is me imitating B, so I do not have as much time for belly shots.
I avoided a lot of belly touching with B due to Covid. I’ve had a few people touching it lately without asking and my blanket response is usually ‘you’re touching my lunch’. The same family member was touching my belly on our trip and I had to tell her no again. It was awkward, but I don’t like it.
I still wouldn’t touch someone’s bump without asking, but I also don’t feel the need to touch someone’s belly or bump. It’s quite weird to be honest.
I don’t think I ever invited someone to touch my bump other than Tiago, but then again I was heavily pregnant during the first UK lockdown.
I do try to get B to ‘engage’ with my bump, but she doesn’t get it. I do look forward to her sibling kicking and B being able to see the kicks/feel them. I can just imagine her laughing…
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