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Pregnancy Waiting II

Imitating B Dancing (14 Weeks / 8th August 2021)

Me with my right arm in front of my body imitating B dancing.
Imitating B Dancing (14 Weeks / 8th August 2021)
 
#BHasStartedToDanceMoreToSongsWhichIsReallyNiceToSee
#SheUsuallyDoesALotOfIntricateSteppingButSheAlsoPutsHerRightArmInFrontOfHerAtTimes
#BIsConstantlyKneeingMeInTheStomachOrUsingMyBellyAsALeaningPost
#ObviouslySheDoesNotKnowWhatSheIsDoingButItDoesFreakMeOutABit
#SheHasStartedToDoHerSuperCheekySmileAgainWhichMakesMeLaugh
#SheDoesItALotWhileSheRidesOnHerZebraWhichSheCanClimbOnAndPlayWithByHerselfNow
#ThoughSheLikesToScareMeByActingABitLikeAStuntRiderAndStandingUpOnIt
#WeHaveStartedToGiveHerHerMilkAtTheEndOfMealsNow
#BeforeWeWouldGiveItHerAtTheStartOfMealsAndSheWouldJustDrinkItAllUntilItWasGone
#IAmHopingThisMeansSheWillEatMoreNowAndSleepBetter
#ThoughThisMorningSheWasUpSuperEarlySoMaybeNot
#WeUsuallyGiveHerSomeGreekStyleYoghurtBeforeBedtimeButInTheLastFewDaysIHaveBeenStrugglingToEvenLookAtIt
#IDoNotKnowWhyButMyBodyIsRepulsedByItAndItMakesMeWantToMeSick
#IAmStillStrugglingWithBrushingMyTeethAtNightThoughIHaveNotBeenSickInSixDays
#IHaveAnnouncedThatIAmPregnantNowWhichIsMaybeTooEarlyButItIsWhatItIs
#EveryCrampWorriesMeButIGuessMyBodyHasALotOfStretchingToDoAndItHasToCleanItself
#WhenIWasPregnantWithBIAteALotOfJacketPotatoesButIAmYetToHaveOneWithThisPregnancy
#IAmQuiteIntoBeetrootAtTheMomentAndAnythingVinegaryReally
#MyMainConcernCurrentlyThoughIsItIsAWeekUntilOurHolidayAndNotGettingCovidBeforeWeGo
#IDoNotThinkWeHaveHadItYetButKnowingOurLuckWeWillGetItThisWeek
#LastWeekBAndIMetUpWithAFriendAndHerBabyAndIWasTryingToKeepMyDistance
#OfCourseIAmSuperCarefulButThenBGoesAndTriesToDrinkFromTheirWaterBottlesAndCups
#WeJustNeedThisTrip
#TiagoNeedsABreakAndHeWantsToSeeHisParentsAndHisFriends
#INeedABreakAndIWantBToMeetHerGrandparentsAndIWantToSwimInTheSeaAndHaveSomeChangeToOurGroundhogDays
#OfCourseIAmAlsoLookingForwardToSeeingLotsOfPeopleWhoIHaveNotSeenInTwoYears
#IHaveBeenFeelingQuiteLonelyAndBoredOfTheMonotonySoItWillBeNiceToSeePeopleAndHaveAHolidaySimilarButNotEntirelyTheSameAsThoseWeUsedToHaveEverySummer
#IWonderIfIWillEverMakeMoreFriendsHereButAllICanDoIsTryMyBest
#YesterdayWeWentForAWalkAndWeSawSoManyBabiesAndToddlersThatIAmNotSureWhereTheyAllCameFrom
#WeAreAllEnjoyingOurNewBedroomHangoutAtLeastAndItHelpsMixTheDaysUpABit

#BHasStartedToDanceMoreToSongsWhichIsReallyNiceToSee

We do listen to music a lot, and she sees me dancing.

Yesterday T brought her upstairs while I was doing my dance videos and I could see B trying to copy my arm actions.

#SheUsuallyDoesALotOfIntricateSteppingButSheAlsoPutsHerRightArmInFrontOfHerAtTimes

It makes me think of a photo I took for my OMOM project –

I like when I put a song on and she just starts moving around. She was moving fast to ‘I’m Still Standing’ by Elton John the other day. Sometimes she flaps her arms to songs too.

#BIsConstantlyKneeingMeInTheStomachOrUsingMyBellyAsALeaningPost #ObviouslySheDoesNotKnowWhatSheIsDoingButItDoesFreakMeOutABit

I guess the womb is built to be resilient, but I barely knocked my belly at all when I was pregnant with B. A cat walked over it once, which made me worried, but B does a lot worse to it on the daily.

#SheHasStartedToDoHerSuperCheekySmileAgainWhichMakesMeLaugh

I love it. Just super big cheesy grin with her little teeth showing more now.

#SheDoesItALotWhileSheRidesOnHerZebraWhichSheCanClimbOnAndPlayWithByHerselfNow

I say ‘giddy up’ and she goes for it.

#ThoughSheLikesToScareMeByActingABitLikeAStuntRiderAndStandingUpOnIt

I blame all this watching of the Olympics. I’ve watched so much of it this year, but today is the last day. I’m a bit relieved, though I do want to watch the Paralympics. I’m a bit sports out though – luckily I’ve just seen that it doesn’t start for 2+ weeks.

#WeHaveStartedToGiveHerHerMilkAtTheEndOfMealsNow #BeforeWeWouldGiveItHerAtTheStartOfMealsAndSheWouldJustDrinkItAllUntilItWasGone

Though now she just drinks it until it’s gone when she gets it.

#IAmHopingThisMeansSheWillEatMoreNowAndSleepBetter #ThoughThisMorningSheWasUpSuperEarlySoMaybeNot

Fun times.

#WeUsuallyGiveHerSomeGreekStyleYoghurtBeforeBedtimeButInTheLastFewDaysIHaveBeenStrugglingToEvenLookAtIt

When Tiago is busy/out and I have to give it her by myself, geez I really struggle. Yesterday just thinking about it made me want to vomit.

#IDoNotKnowWhyButMyBodyIsRepulsedByItAndItMakesMeWantToMeSick

I do not remember being this grossed out by it last time. I’ve been eating it for breakfast with turkish eggs here and there as well… I think the evenings are just not good for me.

#IAmStillStrugglingWithBrushingMyTeethAtNightThoughIHaveNotBeenSickInSixDays

I’ve been close though. The dry heaving is not much fun, especially as it leaves my stomach feeling unsettled for a bit.

#IHaveAnnouncedThatIAmPregnantNowWhichIsMaybeTooEarlyButItIsWhatItIs

Not that anyone cares, but it feels like a big step with it all.

#EveryCrampWorriesMeButIGuessMyBodyHasALotOfStretchingToDoAndItHasToCleanItself

I get worried a few times during the day. Sometimes it is just gas though… Classy.

#WhenIWasPregnantWithBIAteALotOfJacketPotatoesButIAmYetToHaveOneWithThisPregnancy

I guess I was going to the office then and it was an easy lunch solution as local cafes sold them. Thinking about it I would like a jacket potato with coleslaw now… It’s not even 8am. I feel like I ate baked beans last time, but I have not been able to touch them lately.

(15th October: I had one last weekend and it was great. Earlier I said to Tiago that we should have them for lunch this weekend.)

#IAmQuiteIntoBeetrootAtTheMomentAndAnythingVinegaryReally

I do not usually eat salt and vinegar crisps, but I am a fan at the moment.

#MyMainConcernCurrentlyThoughIsItIsAWeekUntilOurHolidayAndNotGettingCovidBeforeWeGo #IDoNotThinkWeHaveHadItYetButKnowingOurLuckWeWillGetItThisWeek

I am quite concerned. My social calendar is empty this week though – I just need to go to the doctors for an early 16 week check.

#LastWeekBAndIMetUpWithAFriendAndHerBabyAndIWasTryingToKeepMyDistance

I debated saying let’s leave it until after our holiday, but we’d missed her 1st birthday party and I do not see many people.

#OfCourseIAmSuperCarefulButThenBGoesAndTriesToDrinkFromTheirWaterBottlesAndCups

Argh. Hopefully it’ll be okay. They’ve yet to tell us they have Covid so…

#WeJustNeedThisTrip

Need or want? A lot of other people probably want or need a trip too. If it wasn’t for it being where Tiago grew up we’d just be going somewhere in the UK I’m sure. It’d be a lot less stressful.

#TiagoNeedsABreakAndHeWantsToSeeHisParentsAndHisFriends

True, he could have a break in the UK. Seeing his parents and friends is a big thing though. We last saw his parents at Xmas 2019, but in mainland Portugal rather than on the island.

#INeedABreakAndIWantBToMeetHerGrandparentsAndIWantToSwimInTheSeaAndHaveSomeChangeToOurGroundhogDays

So many wants and needs.

#OfCourseIAmAlsoLookingForwardToSeeingLotsOfPeopleWhoIHaveNotSeenInTwoYears

I want to see my parents in law as well, and see the people we usually see every summer.

#IHaveBeenFeelingQuiteLonelyAndBoredOfTheMonotonySoItWillBeNiceToSeePeopleAndHaveAHolidaySimilarButNotEntirelyTheSameAsThoseWeUsedToHaveEverySummer

Lonely when I’m with B all day? Sounds rude, but if you’re a parent I’m sure you know what I mean. It’ll be different when she can talk. It’s just weird that I have so much ‘free time’ (time where I could be hanging out with people) now and I do not really see anyone. Maybe it’ll be different when the summer holidays are over and we start classes again.

#IWonderIfIWillEverMakeMoreFriendsHereButAllICanDoIsTryMyBest

We are not planning to stay here forever, so soon it will get to the point of why bother trying to meet people. Maybe I’m just socially awkward. Maybe I’m just not a very likeable person. Maybe I’m just annoying. Maybe I have little in common with people around here. Maybe maybe maybe.

#YesterdayWeWentForAWalkAndWeSawSoManyBabiesAndToddlersThatIAmNotSureWhereTheyAllCameFrom

I recognised a couple of them, but there was a lot I’d never seen before.

#WeAreAllEnjoyingOurNewBedroomHangoutAtLeastAndItHelpsMixTheDaysUpABit

Now we can hang out downstairs, in our room, go for walks… It’s raining again. I’m so fed up with this weather. I do wonder how things would be if it wasn’t for Covid. I’m sure I’d be taking B out more – hanging out at coffee shops, there’d be more classes/groups perhaps, I wouldn’t be so scared of taking her to soft play etc. Oh well.

14 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait with my top lifted up so my belly is on show. I am staring down at it.
Don’t Touch My Belly (14 and a half weeks)
 
#14AndAHalfWeeks
#IWentToWrite13AndThenIHadToThinkAboutIt
#IAmTryingToNotMakeEveryPhotoShootAboutMyBellyButItIsKindOfWhereTheActionIsHappening
#IDefinitelyHaveABumpNow
#EvenIfSomeOfItIsFoodAndTrappedWind
#ThereIsDefinitelyABellyGrowingThereSlowly
#TheChildWillBeHalfPortuguese
#WellTiagoIsABritishCitizenNowSoHeIsPortugueseBritishSoThatMessesUpTheMathsABit
#ButToMeTheChildWillBeHalfPortuguese
#AndHopefullyOneDayIWillGetPortugueseCitizenship
#ButAnywaysThePortugueseCultureIsABitDifferentToTheBritish
#TheyAreVeryTouchyInGeneral
#ThisWeekIHeardStoriesOfRandomPeopleTouchingYourBump
#ItIsBadEnoughHavingMyPortugueseFamilyTryingToTouchIt
#IToldOneMemberOffAndOnOurGoodbyeSheWentForIt
#EspeciallyAsISpentTheVisitBeingSoIllAndSickAndGrim
#AndIHaveNeverBeenFondOfMyStomachAnyways
#SoHavingItTouchedByPeopleIsSoAwkwardForMe
#AFriendAtLunchReachedOutAndTouchedAndIJustSatThereStillInShock
#TiagoToldThemToBeCarefulAsIBite
#IAmLikingHavingABumpAndIAmLookingForwardToSeeingItGrow
#IJustDoNotLikeAllTheAttentionThatItBrings
#IAmThinkingThatIfPeopleTouchMyBellyThenIWillHaveToTouchTheirsBackToSendAMessage
#YeahAwkwardAndAHalf
#IWouldNotTouchPeoplesBelliesWithoutAsking
#NotThatIWouldThinkOfAskingEitherAsItIsAllAwkwardToMe
#HoweverWhenAFriendWasPregnantACoupleOfYearsAgoTheBabyWasKickingAndSheAskedMeIfIWantedToFeel
#BecauseSheAskedMeAndIWasIntriguedISaidYes
#SoMaybeIMightInvitePeopleToTouchMyBellyAtSomePointButPleaseDoNotTouchItOrAskMeTo
#AsIHateSayingNoButIProbablyWillAndThenWeWillBothFeelAwkwardWhichIsNotNice

I definitely took more bare belly shots when I was pregnant with B. I guess this project is different as a lot of it is me imitating B, so I do not have as much time for belly shots.

I avoided a lot of belly touching with B due to Covid. I’ve had a few people touching it lately without asking and my blanket response is usually ‘you’re touching my lunch’. The same family member was touching my belly on our trip and I had to tell her no again. It was awkward, but I don’t like it.

I still wouldn’t touch someone’s bump without asking, but I also don’t feel the need to touch someone’s belly or bump. It’s quite weird to be honest.

I don’t think I ever invited someone to touch my bump other than Tiago, but then again I was heavily pregnant during the first UK lockdown.

I do try to get B to ‘engage’ with my bump, but she doesn’t get it. I do look forward to her sibling kicking and B being able to see the kicks/feel them. I can just imagine her laughing…


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Oh Me, Oh Mãe

Dancing To Madonna And Kylie (10th November 2020)

Me dancing at home
Dancing To Madonna And Kylie (10th November 2020)
 
#ErghIFeelQuiteSickNow
#ThisWasGoingToBeJustCalledDancingToMadonnaAsIWasDancingToDressYouUp
#ButInYourEyesByKylieSnuckIntoMyHead
#YeahIWasNotActuallyPlayingTheMusic
#BIsAsleepNowAndIDoNotWantToRiskWakingHerUp
#IThoughtAboutUsingTiagosHeadphonesButIThoughtIShouldBeAbleToHearBIfSheWakesUp
#IAmTryingToBeMorePositiveAboutThingsEvenIfIDidWakeUpThisMorningFeelingAwful
#AndIDidHaveACryThisAfternoon
#IWokeBUpFromANapTodayByPlayingMadonnaAndDancingAndSingingAlongToIt
#IThenWentToGetHerWhenSheWokeUpFromANapAndIDidTheSameThing
#IWasPlayingCelebrationOnThoseOccasions
#ButIHaveBeenDoingALotOfNappyChangesAndFlannelWashesToDressYouUpRecently
#ThoughMaybeThatSongIsNotAppropriateToSingToABaby
#IHaveEnjoyedPlayingPapaDontPreachToHerAsILikeTheLineAboutHerNotBeingABaby
#AndThenISayButYouAre
#HaHaHa
#YouHaveGotToGetYourKicksAndLaughsSomehowDuringTheseWeirdTimes
#IStillFeelSick
#ITriedToGetBAnAppointmentForTheDoctorsAsIThinkSheMightHaveSomethingWrongWithHerEyes
#TheyHadNoAppointmentsForTodayAndAnotherPlaceDidNotAnswerSoIWillSeeHowSheIsTomorrow
#HerBottomEyelashesSeemToBeGrowingUpwards
#ButApparentlyThisIsNormalAndWillBeCorrectedAsSheGetsMoreFatInHerLowerEyelid
#IWasWorriedAboutHerEyesBeingABitGunkyAndHerRubbingThemALot
#TodayIJustFeltBadBecauseOfHerEyesAndTeethingAndBlockedNose
#ItIsAllFunAndGames
#ThisWasSupposedToBeAMorePositiveDiaryEntryOrWhateverThisIs
#WellAPositiveThingIsThatIDidThisShootInMyLittleStudioSlashOfficeRoom
#ItStillNeedsALotMoreOrganisingAndRearrangingButHopefullyICanStartToWorkOnOtherThingsSoon
#ThingsThatDoNotRequireMeToWriteLotsAndLots
#AndLetMeEscapeFromTheMonotonousNatureOfDayToDayLife

#ErghIFeelQuiteSickNow

It’s 10th November and I haven’t chosen a picture from the shoot yet, but there was a lot of fast head turning…

(27th November – I chose this one as I think it really looks like I’ve been caught dancing on a dancefloor somewhere, though I’m just at home with my baby asleep in the next room.)

#ThisWasGoingToBeJustCalledDancingToMadonnaAsIWasDancingToDressYouUp #ButInYourEyesByKylieSnuckIntoMyHead

It’s funny how a song that you haven’t heard in ages just creeps into your head. There was a Kylie question on a quiz show the other day, but I don’t think ‘In Your Eyes’ was mentioned. My sister keeps telling me to listen to her new album, but I’ve only managed to get a couple of songs in so far.

(

27th: Oh, I’ve managed to dance to one of them now. Someone commented ‘horrible’ – I’m guessing about my dancing.

)

Am I going to get sued for using their names in an image title? I don’t think so. I hope not.

#YeahIWasNotActuallyPlayingTheMusic

I’m so cool.

#BIsAsleepNowAndIDoNotWantToRiskWakingHerUp

I’m so sensible.

#IThoughtAboutUsingTiagosHeadphonesButIThoughtIShouldBeAbleToHearBIfSheWakesUp

I’m so responsible.

#IAmTryingToBeMorePositiveAboutThingsEvenIfIDidWakeUpThisMorningFeelingAwful

I just felt ready to crack. Tiago stayed in bed a lot longer today. I tried to do some work and did some stretching, but got back into bed thinking B would wake up 10 minutes later. However, she did have a very long nap.

#AndIDidHaveACryThisAfternoon

I need to start listening to podcasts and things on my daily walk again. I seem to come back from walks feeling worse, when I used to come back feeling better.

#IWokeBUpFromANapTodayByPlayingMadonnaAndDancingAndSingingAlongToIt #IThenWentToGetHerWhenSheWokeUpFromANapAndIDidTheSameThing

I seem to have started this since moving to Birmingham, but maybe I did do it before. Our time in Liverpool feels so long ago now, though it’s only been 2 and a half weeks? Weird.

#IWasPlayingCelebrationOnThoseOccasions

It’s definitely a song for putting you in a good mood. (It’s a Madonna song.)

#ButIHaveBeenDoingALotOfNappyChangesAndFlannelWashesToDressYouUpRecently

I love the choreography in this video – particularly the chorus where her knee comes up and in (yeah, that’s a bad explanation).

#ThoughMaybeThatSongIsNotAppropriateToSingToABaby

Well, I cringe at some of the songs that I used to sing obliviously when I was a kid.

#IHaveEnjoyedPlayingPapaDontPreachToHerAsILikeTheLineAboutHerNotBeingABaby

I always think of the Kelly Osbourne version of this song too and I can see why it seemed like an obvious song choice for her.

#AndThenISayButYouAre #HaHaHa

Yeah, I’m probably the only one laughing at this.

#YouHaveGotToGetYourKicksAndLaughsSomehowDuringTheseWeirdTimes

Exactly.

#IStillFeelSick

I’m still a bit dizzy.

#ITriedToGetBAnAppointmentForTheDoctorsAsIThinkSheMightHaveSomethingWrongWithHerEyes #TheyHadNoAppointmentsForTodayAndAnotherPlaceDidNotAnswerSoIWillSeeHowSheIsTomorrow

Babies are stressful.

#HerBottomEyelashesSeemToBeGrowingUpwards #ButApparentlyThisIsNormalAndWillBeCorrectedAsSheGetsMoreFatInHerLowerEyelid

Hello Doctor Search Engine.

#IWasWorriedAboutHerEyesBeingABitGunkyAndHerRubbingThemALot

This could be from her eyelashes or something else. Great.

#TodayIJustFeltBadBecauseOfHerEyesAndTeethingAndBlockedNose

It just makes me feel terrible.

#ItIsAllFunAndGames

Stress. It’s mainly stress. But then she smiles and I know she can’t be feeling too bad.

#ThisWasSupposedToBeAMorePositiveDiaryEntryOrWhateverThisIs

Me dancing and making myself feel sick, but shaking the tiredness off.

#WellAPositiveThingIsThatIDidThisShootInMyLittleStudioSlashOfficeRoom

Hurrah.

#ItStillNeedsALotMoreOrganisingAndRearrangingButHopefullyICanStartToWorkOnOtherThingsSoon

Well, all of our stuff needs organising and rearranging, but that’ll probably be an ongoing task until we move out. Whenever that is.

#ThingsThatDoNotRequireMeToWriteLotsAndLots

The writing side of this project is therapeutic, but it is a bit much sometimes.

#AndLetMeEscapeFromTheMonotonousNatureOfDayToDayLife

Again, I love B, but I just wish our days were a bit different. I’ve looked at going to some baby classes, so hopefully we might be able to soon. I’m so used to her schedule now though that I’m worried about being away from home and getting out of a routine. That’s the problem with not having to deal with randomness or adjustments because we haven’t been able to do much, but we just have to roll with it as we need to get out and live life a bit.

Another positive is that I managed to wash my hair. Hurrah. Shame you can’t see my pyjama bottoms in the picture.


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