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Pregnancy Waiting II

30 Weeks Feels Like A Big Milestone (30 Weeks / 24th November 2021)

Self-portrait where I am nude from my knees up. My left arm is covering my breasts, and my right hand is covering my pubic area. My bump is very visible.
30 Weeks Feels Like A Big Milestone (30 Weeks / 24th November 2021)
 
#WellIGuess30WeeksIsABigMilestoneAsTheDueDateIsCalculatedFor40Weeks
#SoThatMeansThePregnancyCouldBeThreeQuartersCompleteThoughYouAreAllowedUntil42WeeksIsh
#BWasBornLessThan8WeeksFromThisPointThoughSoWhoKnows
#IHaveToldMyParentsToBeOnAlertFrom37WeeksAndIWillStartGoingToBedEarlierAroundThen
#IWentToBedQuiteLateTheNightBeforeBWasBornAndWokeUpOnlyACoupleOfHoursLaterWithMyWatersBreaking
#ItIsEasyToSayIWillGoToBedEarlierButIDoNotAlwaysManageItAndTheOtherNightIDidButThenWasAwakeFromTwoToFour
#BHadWokenUpAroundTwoButSoonWentBackToSleepButICouldNotThoughLuckilySheSleptUntilSeven
#BAndMyParentsHadAGoodTimeAtTheWeekendWhichIsGoodAsTheyWillWatchHerWhileIAmInHospital
#SheWokeUpAtSixForThemWhichIWasRelievedAboutAsIWasWorriedSheWouldWakeUpAtFive
#WeDroppedHerOffAndWentForLunchThenCheckedIntoTheHotelWhereWeStayedUntilJustBeforeTheCheckoutTime
#WeHadANapAndWatchedTVAndIHadABathThoughIWouldHaveLikedToHaveReadAndSleptMoreButIGuessIWasExcitedAboutStayingUpLate
#AfterWeCheckedOutWeWentToHaveLunchAndDidFoodShoppingThenWentToPickUpB
#MyMumGotHerUpFromHerNapAndAtFirstSheWasJustClingingToMyMumButEventuallySheCameToSeeUs
#SheAteALotOfKidCrispsBeforeWeLeftAndFiveMinutesBeforeWeGotHomeSheWasSick
#AndIHaveNeverSeenSoMuchSickComeOutOfASmallHumansMouthBefore
#SheWentStraightIntoTheBathWhenWeGotHomeWhichSheWasHappyAboutAsSheLovesBathsAnyways
#WeTriedToGetAwayWithJustWipingTheCarSeatDownButYesterdayIHadToSolveTheCarSeatPuzzleAndPutAllThePiecesInTheWash
#IWasWorriedIWouldNotBeAbleToReassembleItButLuckilyIDid
#AfterTenMinutesOfBeingHomeItAlreadyFeltLikeWeHadNotHadAWeekendToOurselves
#WeDidMissBThoughAndAtOnePointWeWereWatchingVideosAndLookingAtPhotosOfHer
#IJustFeelSoTiredButBabyXIsSupposedToDoubleInSizeBetweenNowAndBirthSoIGuessIWillProbablyFeelMoreTired
#IFeelGuiltyAtTimesAsIDoNotHaveMuchEnergyAndIFeelLikeILetBDownABit
#IAmWorriedThatSheWatchesTooMuchTVAndSoITryToPutMusicOnInstead
#SheIsReallyIntoAFewShowsNowButIAmTryingToMakeSureWeReadBooksAndPlay
#IAmGladSheGoesToNurseryACoupleOfSessionsAWeekAsAtLeastIKnowSheIsGettingSomeStimulation
#IDoNotFeelReadyToBeAMotherOfTwoButAtTheSameTimeIJustWantTheBabyToArriveSoWeCanGetOnWithTheNextChapter
#IGuessWeAreOnACountdownNowThoughItIsABitFrustratingNotKnowingWhenTheClockWillRunOut
#BabyXFeelsQuiteActiveAndIAmStartingToGetMoreAcheyNowWithSlightBackPainAndHipPainEvenWithStretchingALot
#IHaveNotDoneAnyNudeShootsThisPregnancySoIGuessIWillDoOneToAccompanyTheseHashtagsAsAMemoryForMyself
#WeAreClosingTheKidBookAtTwoSoMyBodyWillNeverLookLikeThisAgainAfterBabyXIsBorn

#WellIGuess30WeeksIsABigMilestoneAsTheDueDateIsCalculatedFor40Weeks #SoThatMeansThePregnancyCouldBeThreeQuartersCompleteThoughYouAreAllowedUntil42WeeksIsh

I wasn’t sure on what word to use. Complete makes it sound like a video game or something, but I guess that’s what it is.

#BWasBornLessThan8WeeksFromThisPointThoughSoWhoKnows

I was sure that I’d be a 42-weeker, but no. Maybe this time? I hope not though.

#IHaveToldMyParentsToBeOnAlertFrom37WeeksAndIWillStartGoingToBedEarlierAroundThen

Baby X will probably come at 36 weeks now just to surprise me.

#IWentToBedQuiteLateTheNightBeforeBWasBornAndWokeUpOnlyACoupleOfHoursLaterWithMyWatersBreaking

I got through it as I wasn’t tired from running around after a toddler (I nearly wrote teenager?), but I think this time I will be too tired for the same series of events, but I guess adrenaline and whatever kicks in?

#ItIsEasyToSayIWillGoToBedEarlierButIDoNotAlwaysManageItAndTheOtherNightIDidButThenWasAwakeFromTwoToFour

Hello again pregnancy insomnia.

#BHadWokenUpAroundTwoButSoonWentBackToSleepButICouldNotThoughLuckilySheSleptUntilSeven

I was faffing around reading the news and stuff, but I think that just makes my brain more alert. I started to read my book and before long I felt sleepy again. I usually read a book every night until my eyes start to close, or I have to tell myself to go to sleep.

I am currently reading Men Who Hate Women by Laura Bates. It’s interesting, but sad/frustrating/a bit of a downer. I swear I’ll pick up my hypnobirthing book soon…

#BAndMyParentsHadAGoodTimeAtTheWeekendWhichIsGoodAsTheyWillWatchHerWhileIAmInHospital

Well, that’s the plan anyways. Let’s see. I don’t want to be calling them at 1 in the morning…

#SheWokeUpAtSixForThemWhichIWasRelievedAboutAsIWasWorriedSheWouldWakeUpAtFive

Phew.

#WeDroppedHerOffAndWentForLunchThenCheckedIntoTheHotelWhereWeStayedUntilJustBeforeTheCheckoutTime

We went for lunch at our favourite Indian restaurant and it did not disappoint. I have missed their chili paneer. Whenever we order Indian food I always get chili paneer and it is never as good.

We bought snacks at a supermarket before we got to the hotel and we barely touched them as we were so full from lunch.

#WeHadANapAndWatchedTVAndIHadABathThoughIWouldHaveLikedToHaveReadAndSleptMoreButIGuessIWasExcitedAboutStayingUpLate

I did also play The Sims. I do play it once in a while as it’s good when I’m feeling quite stressed/tired. I have phases of playing it once or twice a year. I remember seeing an ad for the first one on the back of a different game I bought and saved up for it until it came out. We have a long history together…

Anyways, I ended up staying up until midnight watching reruns of Gogglebox and then slept until 7. Was a bit disappointed as I did want to sleep until checkout, but I’m not used to sleeping in anymore.

#AfterWeCheckedOutWeWentToHaveLunchAndDidFoodShoppingThenWentToPickUpB

We shared a pizza between us as we were quite full. Exciting stuff.

#MyMumGotHerUpFromHerNapAndAtFirstSheWasJustClingingToMyMumButEventuallySheCameToSeeUs

She was nuzzling into my Mum and then would sneak a peek at us with a smile, then she came over. We knew she was just waking up and wasn’t in a mood with us or anything. My parents said the weekend went better than they thought so that’s nice.

#SheAteALotOfKidCrispsBeforeWeLeftAndFiveMinutesBeforeWeGotHomeSheWasSick

I’d got her some new crisps to try. I usually just give her a few, but as we weren’t at home I thought she could just eat them from the bag, but that was obviously a mistake.

#AndIHaveNeverSeenSoMuchSickComeOutOfASmallHumansMouthBefore

Luckily my morning sickness had passed, otherwise I probably would have been sick too.

#SheWentStraightIntoTheBathWhenWeGotHomeWhichSheWasHappyAboutAsSheLovesBathsAnyways

So she got a longer play than she might do normally. We were going to give her a bath before bed anyways, so it saved us doing it later.

#WeTriedToGetAwayWithJustWipingTheCarSeatDownButYesterdayIHadToSolveTheCarSeatPuzzleAndPutAllThePiecesInTheWash

It took me a good while to take all the pieces out. Tiago said the seat didn’t smell, but the night before we had gone to the supermarket and the car stank of sick.

#IWasWorriedIWouldNotBeAbleToReassembleItButLuckilyIDid

I should have taken pictures of it being dismantled really. I was proud of myself for sorting it out.

#AfterTenMinutesOfBeingHomeItAlreadyFeltLikeWeHadNotHadAWeekendToOurselves

I guess I didn’t have a nap as well (I usually nap when B naps) so that made me feel really tired too.

#WeDidMissBThoughAndAtOnePointWeWereWatchingVideosAndLookingAtPhotosOfHer

We do that a lot. We did it last night too… She’s funny.

#IJustFeelSoTiredButBabyXIsSupposedToDoubleInSizeBetweenNowAndBirthSoIGuessIWillProbablyFeelMoreTired

Apparently I only need to eat 200 more calories a day than before I was pregnant, but I have no idea what 200 calories is and the baby takes most of the nutrients out of what I eat and I get the leftovers. Charming.

#IFeelGuiltyAtTimesAsIDoNotHaveMuchEnergyAndIFeelLikeILetBDownABit

Oh, Mum guilt.

#IAmWorriedThatSheWatchesTooMuchTVAndSoITryToPutMusicOnInstead

If my Nan is up when we get up then we usually watch more. Luckily after a while B gets bored of watching the TV. I do try to take her out for a walk or two a day, but we need to find more things to do really.

#SheIsReallyIntoAFewShowsNowButIAmTryingToMakeSureWeReadBooksAndPlay

She likes to dance to theme tunes and she really likes In The Night Garden. This morning she was saying ‘Gaga’ and pointing at the TV.

#IAmGladSheGoesToNurseryACoupleOfSessionsAWeekAsAtLeastIKnowSheIsGettingSomeStimulation

It’s good for her. Tiago says she doesn’t cry or anything when he drops her off now. She’s settled in quick, but I said why would she want to spend all day with her boring, tired pregnant mother when she can see kids her own age and play with different toys etc.

#IDoNotFeelReadyToBeAMotherOfTwoButAtTheSameTimeIJustWantTheBabyToArriveSoWeCanGetOnWithTheNextChapter

I just keep wondering how it will be, but I just want to get on with it. I am feeling tired though, so I am nervous and should probably enjoy the few hours to myself that I get while B is at nursery and I have no mothering responsibilities while I can.

#IGuessWeAreOnACountdownNowThoughItIsABitFrustratingNotKnowingWhenTheClockWillRunOut

That is what makes me nervous. I just need to get prepared…

#BabyXFeelsQuiteActiveAndIAmStartingToGetMoreAcheyNowWithSlightBackPainAndHipPainEvenWithStretchingALot

I can feel the pain in bed a bit now. I guess baby is getting bigger and my body is trying to keep up. I have a lot of cramps and pains. All fun stuff.

#IHaveNotDoneAnyNudeShootsThisPregnancySoIGuessIWillDoOneToAccompanyTheseHashtagsAsAMemoryForMyself

I did a few when I was pregnant with B. I think I’ve said before that baby X will say ‘Mum, why did you take no nudes with me?’ In reality I’m sure they will both say ‘Mum, why did you take nudes when you were pregnant with us?’ I do wonder what they will think about my work when they’re older. They’ll probably just say ‘Mum, you look so old now’.

#WeAreClosingTheKidBookAtTwoSoMyBodyWillNeverLookLikeThisAgainAfterBabyXIsBorn

I say that, but so many people have told me that their third was an accident. I really don’t want to go through pregnancy again though. The sickness, the tiredness etc. Two seems like a good number. I have two arms. One to grab each kid with. One to replace Tiago, one to replace me. I think I will be stretching myself too much as a mother to more.

30 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait sitting on a sofa, holding my arms up over my head. T is resting his hand on my bump.
We Could Be Parents In 3 Months Or Less (30 weeks)
 
#ISayCouldBecauseIKnowItIsNot100PercentDefinite
#ThoughObviouslyIHopeItHappens
#YouWouldHaveThoughtByNowThatIWouldHaveComeToTermsWithTheFactWeHaveABabyComing
#ButItStillFeelsSurreal
#ThatIAmGrowingSomethingInsideMeThatLooksLikeAMixOfMeAndTiago
#ItReallyIsBizarre
#MyBumpGetsBiggerEveryWeek
#AndTheKicksGotStronger
#ItFeelsMoreActiveInTheEvening
#WhoWouldHaveThoughtThatIWouldBeHeavilyPregnantDuringAPandemic
#ItIsAlsoOddThatIWillNotSeeMyPregnantFriendsPregnantInRealLife
#WeAreOrderingMoreStuffNowAsIDoubtTheShopsWillReopenBeforeIGiveBirth
#AndIfTheyDoThenTheLastPlaceIWantToBeIsSomewhereWithLotsOfRandomPeople
#SomeHatsAndSocksCameInThePostYesterday
#TheyWereSmallerThanIThoughtTheyWouldBe
#ISaidToTiagoThatItIsWeirdThatTheBabyWillBeSoSmall
#HeSaidHeHopesForABigBaby
#ISaidDoNotWishTooMuchAsYouAreNotTheOneWhoHasToPushItOut
#HeSaidTrue
#IPlannedToDoSomethingDifferentWithTheShootToday
#ButTiagoWasFinishingSomethingOnHisComputer
#AndIHadSetUpMyStuff
#SoIJustAskedHimToPutHisHandOnMyBelly
#AndThenIJustMessedAboutWaitingForHim
#ByTheTimeHeWasDoneISaidWeCanTryTheIdeaAnotherTimeAsIThinkIHaveAPicture
#IAskedTiagoIfHeWantedToAddToTheHashtags
#HeShookHisHeadAndSaidHeLooksForwardToTheBabyComing
#HeWantsToKnowTheGenderOfTheBabyBeforeTheBirthButIDoNot
#IRealisedTheOtherDayThatIfIHaveScansHeWillNotBeAllowedInTheRoomOrEvenTheBuilding
#IDoNotSeeThePointOfFindingOutNowAsIWantToBeSurprised

Well, it seems like I felt similar at 30 weeks last time. I am still anxious that I might not become a mother of two, but I am trying to remain calm.

#WhoWouldHaveThoughtThatIWouldBeHeavilyPregnantDuringAPandemic

Who would have thought that I would be this pregnant again during the same pandemic?

#ItIsAlsoOddThatIWillNotSeeMyPregnantFriendsPregnantInRealLife

I had a zoom call with a few of our Liverpool friends the other night who were pregnant at the same time. They said to show them my bump and we talked about how it was weird that we never saw each other pregnant in real life last time. Sadly, they might not see me pregnant in real life this time as well just as I doubt we will get to see them before X is born.

#HeSaidHeHopesForABigBaby

I had forgotten that he said this. B was small. X is meant to be bigger…

#HeWantsToKnowTheGenderOfTheBabyBeforeTheBirthButIDoNot

Well, in the end we didn’t find out and like I’ve said before I’m skeptical that X is a girl. I know that people get it wrong so I’m holding my breath.

Self-portrait with Tiago from our necks to our waists. We are wearing the same top and T is facing the camera, whereas I am stood side on to the camera with my bump touching T's arm.
Who Knows How Things Will Be By The Time I Give Birth (30 weeks)
 
#IKeepTellingMyselfThatIShouldRestMore
#ButIWokeUpTodayFeelingLikeIWantedToDoAShoot
#ThisWasNotTheIdeaIHadYesterdayThatIDidNotEndUpDoing
#IRealiseThatAFewOfTheLastPicturesAllHaveAHandOrHandsOnMyBump
#IWasLookingAtThePictureOfMeAndTiagoWhenIWas19WeeksPregnantAndYouCanBarelySeeMyBump
#SoIThoughtItWouldBeNiceToRedoItWithMyBumpMoreObvious
#WeKindOfLookLikeWeirdMannequins
#WeOrderedOurPushchairAndCotToday
#ItHasBeenStressingMeOutForACoupleOfWeeksDecidingOnWhichOnesToBuy
#SoWeJustTookThePlungeTodayAsWhatIsTheWorstThatCanHappen
#ItIsSoWeirdMakingWhatFeelsLikeBigPurchasesWithoutHavingSeenThemInRealLifeOrHavingTriedThemOutFirst
#ApparentlyIfTheBabyCameNowItWouldHaveAGoodChanceOfSurviving
#SoItMadeSenseToOrderThem
#JustNeedToBuySomeSmallerThingsNowLikeMattressProtectorsAndNappies
#IAmLookingForwardToHavingItAllSorted
#ItIsNiceThatTiagoIsInTheProjectABitMoreNow
#ItIsGoingToBeWeirdWhenWeAreNotAtHomeTogetherSoMuch
#IThinkOnceTheBabyHisBornHisWorkNoLongerConsidersMeToBeVulnerable
#SoHeWillNeedToLeaveTheHouseForWorkAgain
#ButSurelyANewbornIsVulnerable
#IDoNotKnow
#WhoKnowsHowThingsWillBeByTheTimeIGiveBirth
#ItFeelsWeirdBuyingAPushchairKnowingThatItWillProbablyBeUsedForJustMyUsualSimpleWalkForALongTime
#AndMaybeIWillPreferToJustHaveTheBabyInACarrierForAWhileToAvoidAwkwardPavementEncounters
#IGuessItIsGoodToCoverAllTheOptionsAsThePushchairWillBeUsedAtSomePoint
#IHadALieDownThisAfternoonAndIThinkTheBabyWasUsingMyBladderAsATrampoline
#IThoughtIWasGoingToWetMyself
#WentOutForOurUsualWalkEarlier
#AGuyStuckHisHeadOutOfTheWindowOfAVanThatDroveFromBehindUsAndLetOutABloodCurdlingScreamAndIJumped
#HeHadHisHeadOutOfTheWindowSoIHopedHeNoticedIWasPregnantAndThenFeldBadButIAmSureHeWasJustHappyThatHeHadShowedOffInFrontOfWhoeverWasDriving

I keep telling myself that the baby will not come until at least the time B did, but in the back of my head I know the baby could come at anytime.

This time I have already bought nappies, but we need to think about cot options. We might just use the one that my parents have at their house (for B’s stays etc.)

Tiago has been in the project less this time, though hopefully this weekend we will do a family shoot.

This time things are meant to be a bit ‘better’ with visiting at hospitals, but I’m not going to keep looking at it as I know things can and probably will change before X is born. Better not to get my hopes up, but hopefully this time we will be home quicker.

I didn’t like using the pushchair for a while as I felt so self-conscious using it. It can adapt to have two kids in/on it, but we’ll see how it goes. I need to have a go at putting the bassinet and a seat on it.

I do worry about being far away from a toilet when we are out at times as I do feel like my bladder is smaller, but I think the kegels definitely help.


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Pregnancy Waiting II

General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot V (28 Weeks / 10th November 2021)

Shoot which I am recreating for the 5th time this pregnancy. I am wearing a bra and leggings. I have my right hand clasping my left elbow. My bump is bigger than the previous version of this image.
General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot V (28 Weeks / 10th November 2021)
 
#WellIBelieveIAmInTheThirdTrimesterNowThoughSomeSourcesSayItStartsAt29Weeks
#IFeelLikeISayThisAfterEveryShootButHowCanMyBumpGetAnyBigger
#IFinallyGotMyWhoopingCoughVaccineAndItWasFineThoughMyArmWasALittleSore
#BIsBackToWakingUpAtFiveInTheMorningWhichIsStressingMeOutABit
#SheHasHadACoupleOfSettlingInSessionsAtNurseryAndTheFirstOneWentBetterAsSheHadJustWokenUpFromANap
#SheLookedABitConfusedWhenTheyTookHerFromMyArmsAndIJustStayedFillingInForms
#SheCameOutAndWantedToGoBackAsSheHadHadFunAndHadSeenHerLittleFriendAndTheyHadBeenExcitedToSeeEachOtherApparently
#TheNextSessionSheHadBeenUpSinceFiveThoughWePutHerInOurBedForAnHourAndSheSleptALittleMore
#IDroppedHerOffAfterSheHadAlreadyBeenAwakeForHoursAndWentRoundTheLocalShopsAsSheWasNotDueToBeThereForVeryLong
#IGotHerADogCuddlyToyWhichWillBeHerPresentFromBabyX
#WhenIWentToGetHerSheWasCryingAndTheySaidSheHadBeenFunnyTheWholeTimeAndMaybeWasTired
#ISaidYeahIThinkSoAndSheFellAsleepOnTheWayHomeAndWasGrumpyWithMeWhenIWokeHerUpSoIPutHerStraightToBed
#SheFellAsleepOnTheWayHomeFromHerToddlerClassLastWeekAsWellAndIWasTryingToWakeHerUpAndSheWasGettingAnnoyedWithMe
#SheSeemsToSuddenlyBeAFussyEaterSoIDoNotThinkSheHasBeenEatingAsMuchAsSheUsuallyDoes
#MaybeItIsHerTeethOrMaybeItIsDueToTheLeapSheIsMeantToBeGoingThroughOrMaybeItIsACombinationOfDifferentThings
#SheNormallyEatsAGoodBreakfastButMaybeSheIsAnnoyedAsIMadeHerABatchOfPlainishPorridgeInsteadOfButternutSquashPorridgeSoWeWillHaveToRevertToThat
#IJustWantHerToGoBackToSleepingUntilSixAsItWouldBeBetterWithNurseryAndStuff
#IFinallyTookHerToSoftPlayAgainThoughItWasADifferentOneToLastTime
#WeWentToMeetFriendsThatWeHaveNotSeenForAgesAndItWasQuiteNice
#IShouldProbablyTakeBMoreButItIsABitBoringForHerAgeAndNotSoFunIfYouAreNotWithSomeoneElseOrOtherPeopleDoNotTalkToYou
#SheHadFunInTheCovidPitIMeanTheBallPitThoughAndSheLikedClimbingOverEverything
#WeWalkedHomeInTheDarkWhichBSeemedIntriguedByAndIKeptTryingToPointOutTheMoonToHer
#AtTheWeekendWeWentToVisitMySisterAndHerFamilyWhichWasFunAndItWasSoNiceToSeeBAndHerCousinPlayingTogether
#TiagoHadABoysNightAndIHadAGirlsNightOnTheFridayEveningWhereAfterDinnerWeEndedUpGoingToABarForAHotChocolateAtTenInTheEvening
#AtFirstTheyWereNotGoingToLetUsInAsTheyCouldNotServeUsDrinksWithoutFoodAfterTenButISaidWhatAboutHotChocolatesWhichIsWhatWeWanted
#ItIsNiceToTravelAndSeePeopleButIThinkTiagoIsKeenToJustStayPutForAWhileNowApartFromOurWeekendWithoutB
#IAmBoredOfPackingAndTiagoSaysHeFeelsLikeHeJustNeverStopsWhichIsFairEnough
#IFeelLikeAllIWantToDoTheseDaysIsEatWhichIGuessMakesSenseWithAGrowingBabyInsideOfMe
#IDoStruggleToGetUpToStandingAtTimesOrSometimesIStandUpTooFastAndGetPains
#IReallyNeedToStartPreparingForTheBirthAsTimeIsFlyingBySoFast

#WellIBelieveIAmInTheThirdTrimesterNowThoughSomeSourcesSayItStartsAt29Weeks

I thought I was last week, but 28 weeks seems to be quite an official third trimester start. It makes sense if 42 weeks is the usually the ‘maximum’.

#IFeelLikeISayThisAfterEveryShootButHowCanMyBumpGetAnyBigger

I know I was pregnant with B not very long ago, but it’s still weird to see myself with a bump.

#IFinallyGotMyWhoopingCoughVaccineAndItWasFineThoughMyArmWasALittleSore

Standard. It was sore for a couple of days, which was more than I thought it would be. I did forget to spin my arm around afterwards though and maybe that’s why? (I did that with my flu jab and it wasn’t bad at all.)

#BIsBackToWakingUpAtFiveInTheMorningWhichIsStressingMeOutABit

Well, the last couple of mornings she has woken up at 4 something, but I think she has gone back to sleep for a bit. I have been anyways…

#SheHasHadACoupleOfSettlingInSessionsAtNurseryAndTheFirstOneWentBetterAsSheHadJustWokenUpFromANap

I had to get her up from her nap early to get her there on time. She was ready to PARTY.

#SheLookedABitConfusedWhenTheyTookHerFromMyArmsAndIJustStayedFillingInForms

I said ‘She’ll be fine in a minute’ and they said as soon as she went in the room she started to play with a toy car and look at a book.

#SheCameOutAndWantedToGoBackAsSheHadHadFunAndHadSeenHerLittleFriendAndTheyHadBeenExcitedToSeeEachOtherApparently

Apparently her friend came in the room and ran over to her and they started to ‘chat’. Cute. After we left she tried to go back in…

#TheNextSessionSheHadBeenUpSinceFiveThoughWePutHerInOurBedForAnHourAndSheSleptALittleMore

I find it hard to sleep well when she is in our bed though. I do not want to make this a habit but I wanted her to get more sleep as I was anxious about nursery.

#IDroppedHerOffAfterSheHadAlreadyBeenAwakeForHoursAndWentRoundTheLocalShopsAsSheWasNotDueToBeThereForVeryLong

It seemed like a waste of time to come home, then go back as I wouldn’t have done much. I hadn’t been round shops in a long time, so it was nice to have a look about.

#IGotHerADogCuddlyToyWhichWillBeHerPresentFromBabyX

I realised the other week that she does not have a dog cuddly toy. I’ve been looking about for one, but couldn’t make my mind up. Seeing them in person made a difference. It’s got a cute hat.

#WhenIWentToGetHerSheWasCryingAndTheySaidSheHadBeenFunnyTheWholeTimeAndMaybeWasTired

I could hear a kid crying when I was waiting and I thought that maybe it was her, but I was not sure.

#ISaidYeahIThinkSoAndSheFellAsleepOnTheWayHomeAndWasGrumpyWithMeWhenIWokeHerUpSoIPutHerStraightToBed

I tried to keep her awake with a cookie (oats, banana and almond butter), but she fell asleep with it in her hand. I tried to rush home, but I can’t really rush with a bump anymore…

#SheFellAsleepOnTheWayHomeFromHerToddlerClassLastWeekAsWellAndIWasTryingToWakeHerUpAndSheWasGettingAnnoyedWithMe

She fell asleep with a bit of cream cheese sandwich in her hand then. She did nap at home afterwards though, so it made me not so worried this time. If she naps for 5 minutes it doesn’t seem to affect her nap so much – she had 2 and a half hours that day, and 2 hours fifteen after nursery.

#SheSeemsToSuddenlyBeAFussyEaterSoIDoNotThinkSheHasBeenEatingAsMuchAsSheUsuallyDoes

She did not like the cauliflower korma I made the other night, but I thought she wasn’t hungry. We had it for dinner last night too and it got the same reaction. I gave her some baked beans and she ate them all up…

#MaybeItIsHerTeethOrMaybeItIsDueToTheLeapSheIsMeantToBeGoingThroughOrMaybeItIsACombinationOfDifferentThings

Oh, kids.

#SheNormallyEatsAGoodBreakfastButMaybeSheIsAnnoyedAsIMadeHerABatchOfPlainishPorridgeInsteadOfButternutSquashPorridgeSoWeWillHaveToRevertToThat

The other morning she seemed so hungry that I just wanted to get food in her asap. We make the porridge into little pancakes and she will often just eat the mix cold from a spoon while she waits…

#IJustWantHerToGoBackToSleepingUntilSixAsItWouldBeBetterWithNurseryAndStuff

She will – I hope. Fun times.

#IFinallyTookHerToSoftPlayAgainThoughItWasADifferentOneToLastTime

It’s been on my list for a while.

#WeWentToMeetFriendsThatWeHaveNotSeenForAgesAndItWasQuiteNice

We hadn’t seen them since before our holiday. It was going to get dark too early to meet in a park, so we needed somewhere to meet indoors.

#IShouldProbablyTakeBMoreButItIsABitBoringForHerAgeAndNotSoFunIfYouAreNotWithSomeoneElseOrOtherPeopleDoNotTalkToYou

Also with me being pregnant it makes it less fun. Our friend climbed up between the ladder and the slide and was sending the kids down the slide.

#SheHadFunInTheCovidPitIMeanTheBallPitThoughAndSheLikedClimbingOverEverything

Soft landings are definitely great when you like to fall off/over everything.

I am still nervous about Covid…

#WeWalkedHomeInTheDarkWhichBSeemedIntriguedByAndIKeptTryingToPointOutTheMoonToHer

We didn’t take the shortcuts and it was rush hour so it was quite safe. I think she did take notice of the moon a bit, but she seemed more interesting in looking at all the houses with their lights on.

#AtTheWeekendWeWentToVisitMySisterAndHerFamilyWhichWasFunAndItWasSoNiceToSeeBAndHerCousinPlayingTogether

They had a bath together where they were super splash happy. B slipped under the water a few times, but was fine…

#TiagoHadABoysNightAndIHadAGirlsNightOnTheFridayEveningWhereAfterDinnerWeEndedUpGoingToABarForAHotChocolateAtTenInTheEvening

They had offered to babysit while we went out for dinner. I knew Tiago really wanted to see his guy mates and talk Portuguese. They hadn’t been together as a group in about three years… My initial plan was to just stay home and rest, but then I thought I should try to arrange something, so I met a few gal pals for dinner at one of my favourite pizza places, then we went to an outdoor beer garden but I was upset that they didn’t have hot chocolate and it was cold, so we went to a place that we thought would be serving hot drinks.

#AtFirstTheyWereNotGoingToLetUsInAsTheyCouldNotServeUsDrinksWithoutFoodAfterTenButISaidWhatAboutHotChocolatesWhichIsWhatWeWanted

Well, three hot chocolates and a mocha. My kind of Friday night! I got home before 12, but I ended up staying late as I didn’t feel tired and regretted that.

#ItIsNiceToTravelAndSeePeopleButIThinkTiagoIsKeenToJustStayPutForAWhileNowApartFromOurWeekendWithoutB

I have been letting myself off doing lots of work for this project if we’re away, so it would nice to be more consistent before the baby is born. It’s good that B is starting nursery as it will give me more time in the week to get stuff done.

#IAmBoredOfPackingAndTiagoSaysHeFeelsLikeHeJustNeverStopsWhichIsFairEnough

He says when we’ve been away, by the time it gets to Thursday he feels like he has been working for 12 days straight. We have been trying to have a weekend in-between trips at home, but yeah it is tiring.

#IFeelLikeAllIWantToDoTheseDaysIsEatWhichIGuessMakesSenseWithAGrowingBabyInsideOfMe

While writing these hashtags and blog I have eaten a lot, and now I am starting to get hungry again.

#IDoStruggleToGetUpToStandingAtTimesOrSometimesIStandUpTooFastAndGetPains

I like to sit on the floor after stretching and watch a bit of TV/YouTube. I feel fine, but when I stand up I feel awful. I need to start using things to help me up too, as I don’t and then I stretch something and regret my decisions.

#IReallyNeedToStartPreparingForTheBirthAsTimeIsFlyingBySoFast

So fast. At the moment I’m about 10 weeks away from when B was born (pregnancy wise).

28 weeks pregnant comparison with B:

I'm leaning over a blue exercise ball on mys side and hugging it. My legs are out straight and my feet are on the floor.
Me, My Ball & My Lump (28 weeks)
 
#VideoCalledWithMyNanAndMumToday
#NanRefersToMyBumpAsALumpWhichMakesMeLaughEveryTime
#MyMumSaidThatMyFaceLooksMoreFilledOut
#APregnancyAppSaysThatTheBabyIsTheSizeOfACanteloupeMelonNow
#TiagoSaysIHaveTwoMelonsAndAWatermelon
#ILookedDownAtMyBellyTodayInBedAndItLookedALotBigger
#ILookAtItEverydayMultipleTimesSoIAmNotSureWhyIWasSoShockedThatTime
#IFeelTired
#EvenBeingAtHomeAllTheTimeIFeelLikeIDoNotReallyStop
#INeedToChillOutABit
#IMightHaveANapShortly
#IQuiteLikeBeingAtHomeAllTheTime
#IJustFeelBadThatICanNotVisitMyNan
#AtLeastWhenMyMumGoesRoundToTakeHerFoodWeCanVideoChat
#IFinallyGotRoundToBlowingUpTheExerciseBall
#IWasThinkingAboutGettingAnOfficeChairButIWillTrySittingOnTheBallInstead
#TiagoCanUseItForExercisingToo
#AndApparentlyItIsGoodForWhenYouAreInLabour
#NeedToStartToThinkAboutGettingMoreBabyStuffTogether
#OurBabyBathSupportArrivedTheOtherDay
#TiagoSaysHeWantsAnAdultSizedOne
#IHaveNotTakenABathSinceBeforeIFoundOutIWasPregnant
#ObviouslyIShowerButForSomeReasonIHaveBeenTooScaredToHaveABath
#IThinkItIsBecauseYouHaveToBeCarefulWithHavingThemTooHot
#SoIHaveJustAvoidedThem
#ButNowIAmOfficiallyInTheThirdTrimesterAndMaybeIShouldHaveOne
#IGotABadLegCrampLastNight
#ItIsTheThirdTimeItHasHappenedNow
#IDefinitelyFeelALumpEveryTimeButItGoesAwayWithTheCramp
#MyMumSaysIShouldPutMyFeetUpMore

I’m currently sat writing this while sat on the ball. This just reminded me to blow it up, so I did.

Living with my Nan she refers to my ‘lump’ all the time now…

‘#IJustFeelBadThatICanNotVisitMyNan’

Well, now I’ve seen her most days for over a year…

I haven’t taken a bath this time either. I know it’s fine for me to, but I do worry that I will cook the baby… I know it’s stupid, but oh well.

I’ve had leg cramps probably a similar number of times, but I keep forgetting to check for the lump. I’m trying to stay hydrated, but I do forgot at times/I worry about needing the toilet too much when I’m out.

Tiago is lying on the sofa, propped up by two blue pillows and has his eyes closed.
Tiago & His Holiday Beard (28 weeks)
 
#TiagoOnlyUsuallyHasSomethingThatResemblesABeardWhenWeHaveBeenOnHoliday
#IGuessItShouldBeCalledHisLockdownBeard
#ButIAlwaysReferToHisFacialHairAsAHolidayBeard
#HeIsNotOnHolidayThoughAsHeIsWorkingFromHome
#ButStillHasVideoMeetingsToAttend
#HeJustCanNotBeBotheredToShave
#HeHasBeenInAFewPicturesInThisProject
#ButNotAsManyAsIFirstThought
#ThoughDueToLockdownItMightBeAGoodChanceToPhotographHimMore
#IThinkTryingToGetHashtagsOutOfHimLastTimeWasHardWork
#IKnewThisWeekendThatIWantedToPhotographHimThough
#WeWentOutForAWalkTodayAndThePlanWasToPhotographHimWhenWeGotHome
#IThoughtTheSofaWasASafeBetAsHeWouldBeRelaxed
#HeDidFallAsleepAtSomePoint
#HeSpentALotOfTimeTodayCookingAndTidying
#IWantedHimToHaveHisEyesClosed
#ButItDoesLookABitLikeHeIsDead
#TheWeekendsGoBySurprisinglyFast
#IAmWaitingForHimToGetOffAVideoCallWithHisParents
#AndThenIWillAskHimIfHeHasAnythingThatHeWantsToSayAboutImpendingFatherhood
#HeWasOnThePhoneForAboutAnHour
#HeSaysHeIsFeelingExcitedByIt
#ItIsBecomingMoreRealEveryDay
#HeSaysHeIsMainlyFocusedOnTheBabyAndNotThatStressedOutByCorona
#HeFeelsConnectedToTheBabyAlreadyEvenThoughHeDoesNotKnowThemYet
#FeelingThemKickIsNice
#HeLooksForwardToParentingAndGettingToKnowTheBaby
#AndTheChallengeOfIt
#HeSaysSeeingMyBumpInTheFleshIsStrangeYetNaturalAtTheSameTime

Tiago was getting rid of his beard for in person meetings, but now he just keeps it smart at a shorter level. Thanks Covid!

I think this time he forgets that I am pregnant. He does talk to bump most nights, but some nights he is too tired – like last night.

I’ve not bothered him too much this time with being in the project as I know he is busy, and often when I am working he is watching B. The family portraits are nice though. We need to do one of them soon…


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Documenting My Bump From A Different Angle (27 Weeks / 2nd November 2021)

Self-portrait sat on floor. My feet are out in front touching each other, and my hands are clasping my bump. The image is shot from above.
Documenting My Bump From A Different Angle (27 Weeks / 2nd November 2021)
 
#IAmYetToDoTheShootButIImagineItWillBeSomeAboveShotOfMyBumpAsWhenIExerciseILookDownAndThinkThatIsWhatIWantToPhotograph
#IThinkBabyXMayBeMoreActiveThanBWasAsWhenIWasPregnantWithBIWasOftenJustSatByMyselfNotMakingMuchNoise
#NowAllDayIAmTalkingToBAndSingingToHerAndReadingHerBooksSoSheProbablyReactsToTheNoiseALot
#HoweverSheDoesKickOrPunchMeALotWhenIAmInBedAndItIsQuiteQuietSoMaybeSheIsMoreActive
#IAmAlreadyStrugglingToPutMySocksOnButIRealisedAsBWasASummerBabyIJustWoreSandalsOutsideButAsBabyXIsAWinterBabyINeedToWearSocks
#IUsuallyWearTiagosShoesIfHeIsNotComingOutWithUsAsTheyAreEasierToJustSlipOnAndOff
#WeSurvivedTheClockChangeThoughIDidWakeUpAndNoticeTheClockWasOffSoThoughtItHadFreakedOut
#ThenIRealisedTheElectricityHadGoneOffSoIWentToPlayWithTheFuseBoxAt2InTheMorningAsIWasWorriedAboutTheFreezerDefrosting
#IUsedAWoodenSpatulaAsIWasWorriedAboutGettingAnElectricShockAndEverythingCameBackOn
#IWasLookingForwardToTheOvenFinallyHavingTheRightTimeOnItButThenISetItAs8InsteadOf6SoIHadToTurnItOffFor15MinutesAndTryAgain
#BWokeUpAt5ButSheIsAlreadyAdaptingThoughLastNightSheWasAwakeFor3HoursBetween12And3AsSheWasProbablyTeethingAndIsGoingThroughALeap
#InOtherNewsBHasBeenOfferedAPlaceForNursery
#SheHasASettlingInHourSessionThisWeekThenAnHourAndAHalfOneNextWeekAndThenSheStarts
#IFeelGuiltyAboutItAndIFeelLikeABitOfAFailureAsAStayAtHomeMum
#ButAtTheSameTimeIThinkItWillBeGoodForHerEspeciallyWhenBabyXComesAlongAndIWillBeTiredAndHaveLessEnthusiasm
#ItIsOnlyForACoupleOfHalfDaysAWeekAndRealisticallyIWillProbablyPickHerUpEarly
#IThinkSheWillLikeItThereAndItWillGiveMeABitMoreTimeToOrganiseMyselfBeforeBabyXIsBornAndThenIKnowIHaveABitOfTimeEachWeekWhereIOnlyHaveToLookAfterOneKid
#UltimatelyIThinkItIsTheBestThingForUsAsAFamilyAndIFeelLikeItIsStartingAtTheRightTime
#MyParentsLookedAfterBForTheFirstTimeTheOtherDayAndItGaveMeATasteOfHowItMightBe
#WeDroppedHerOffAfterBreakfastAndThenWeStayedABitToMakeSureSheWasAlright
#ThenWeWentHomeAndDidABitOfWorkThenWentOutForLunchWhereTheySaidThatTheyCouldNotServeTheDishOfTheDayYetAsTheyWereABitBehind
#IJustMadeACommentAboutHowWeWereTooKeenAsItWasOurFirstLunchDateWithoutOurDaughterAndSoHeSaidHeWouldMakeASmallBatch
#TheDelayMeantWeHadSomeTimeToTalkAndItWasNiceToFeelLikeWeAreNotJustParentsInTheNicestWayPossible
#OnTheWayHomeIFeltColdAndMyBumpWasTooBigToDoTheZipOfMyCoatUpSoWeHadToSwapCoatsAndIThinkTiagoMayBeBorrowingMyCoatForAWhileNow
#AtHomeWeWatchedAlmostOneEpisodeOfAmericanCrimeStoryThenHadANapThenWentToPickHerUp
#IThinkMyTimeWillLookVeryDifferentToThatWhileBIsAtNurseryButIGuessIMightRestALittleBitSometimesThoughIWillProbablyFeelGuiltyForDoingThat
#ItIsGoodToKnowThatBCanHappilySpendTheDayWithMyParentsThoughAsSoonTheyWillBeHavingHerForAnOvernightStay
#IGuessThisIsAllGoodPreparationAsTheyWillProbablyHaveToLookAfterHerWhileIAmInHospitalGivingBirth
#ApparentlySheLookedForUsForFiveMinutesWhenWeLeftButWhenWeArrivedWeWalkedInTheRoomAndSheDidNotEvenNotice
#IAmLikingThatTheMorningsAreLighterNowButINeedToGetUsedToGettingBOutOfTheHouseEarlierForAnAfternoonWalk

#IAmYetToDoTheShootButIImagineItWillBeSomeAbstractShotOfMyBumpAsWhenIExerciseILookAtItAndThinkThatIsWhatIWantToPhotograph

We shall see.

(Well, it ended up as an above shot of my bump. I like it.)

#IThinkBabyXMayBeMoreActiveThanBWasAsWhenIWasPregnantWithBIWasOftenJustSatByMyselfNotMakingMuchNoise

By this point I was at home all the time, not singing in case the neighbours heard me, and Tiago was in the small bedroom/his office working all day.

#NowAllDayIAmTalkingToBAndSingingToHerAndReadingHerBooksSoSheProbablyReactsToTheNoiseALot

Plus I have my Nan to talk to, and my Mum comes round a few times a week, and I take B for walks and talk to people at the playground and park.

#HoweverSheDoesKickOrPunchMeALotWhenIAmInBedAndItIsQuiteQuietSoMaybeSheIsMoreActive

I think the position of the placenta may have something to do with it too, but it’s probably a mix of all these things.

#IAmAlreadyStrugglingToPutMySocksOnButIRealisedAsBWasASummerBabyIJustWoreSandalsOutsideButAsBabyXIsAWinterBabyINeedToWearSocks

Trying to find the easiest way to put them on. Generally sitting down and doing a figure of 4 with my leg.

#IUsuallyWearTiagosShoesIfHeIsNotComingOutWithUsAsTheyAreEasierToJustSlipOnAndOff

The laces are done up and they slip on and off easily.

#WeSurvivedTheClockChangeThoughIDidWakeUpAndNoticeTheClockWasOffSoThoughtItHadFreakedOut

It’s a digital clock that sits on my desk, so I usually sit up and look at it when I wake up. Exciting stuff.

#ThenIRealisedTheElectricityHadGoneOffSoIWentToPlayWithTheFuseBoxAt2InTheMorningAsIWasWorriedAboutTheFreezerDefrosting

I had noticed other things weren’t showing their usual lights, and then the lamp next to the bed wouldn’t turn on. Tiago didn’t seem too bothered, but I wanted to sort it out. I was quite awake though.

#IUsedAWoodenSpatulaAsIWasWorriedAboutGettingAnElectricShockAndEverythingCameBackOn

Everything made a noise and I was surprised that no one woke up – especially the doorbell ringing.

#IWasLookingForwardToTheOvenFinallyHavingTheRightTimeOnItButThenISetItAs8InsteadOf6SoIHadToTurnItOffFor15MinutesAndTryAgain

I like to think I’m quite good at fixing things, but I hadn’t been able to work it out. Before it was nearly at the right time before the last clock change, then someone came and fixed the oven and set it to the right time. More exciting stuff.

#BWokeUpAt5ButSheIsAlreadyAdaptingThoughLastNightSheWasAwakeFor3HoursBetween12And3AsSheWasProbablyTeethingAndIsGoingThroughALeap

Luckily we’d both gone to bed early. I think Tiago was asleep at 9 and I was asleep around 9.45 possibly?

#InOtherNewsBHasBeenOfferedAPlaceForNursery

Hurrah.

#SheHasASettlingInHourSessionThisWeekThenAnHourAndAHalfOneNextWeekAndThenSheStarts

I am a little nervous, but I think she will love it.

#IFeelGuiltyAboutItAndIFeelLikeABitOfAFailureAsAStayAtHomeMum

Well, I guess in the beginning I won’t be a stay at home Mum when B is at nursery, but once Baby X is born I will be again.

#ButAtTheSameTimeIThinkItWillBeGoodForHerEspeciallyWhenBabyXComesAlongAndIWillBeTiredAndHaveLessEnthusiasm

She will love seeing the other kids and playing with different toys I’m sure. The food sounds nice too!

#ItIsOnlyForACoupleOfHalfDaysAWeekAndRealisticallyIWillProbablyPickHerUpEarly

It’s not much at all, but it’s enough for now.

#IThinkSheWillLikeItThereAndItWillGiveMeABitMoreTimeToOrganiseMyselfBeforeBabyXIsBornAndThenIKnowIHaveABitOfTimeEachWeekWhereIOnlyHaveToLookAfterOneKid

Baby X won’t be moving about for a long time and will be napping a lot. B naps once a day now and is always moving about. It will be different.

I need to really go through all my stuff and have a clear out, then go through baby clothes sorting them and washing them etc.

#UltimatelyIThinkItIsTheBestThingForUsAsAFamilyAndIFeelLikeItIsStartingAtTheRightTime

I feel less guilty now. I am definitely starting to feel more tired as bump gets bigger…

#MyParentsLookedAfterBForTheFirstTimeTheOtherDayAndItGaveMeATasteOfHowItMightBe

Though T and I have both felt a bit ill since. We’ve had negative Covid tests. I think our bodies just decided that it was safe to be ill.

#WeDroppedHerOffAfterBreakfastAndThenWeStayedABitToMakeSureSheWasAlright

My Dad recorded some episodes of Teletubbies for her and she seemed quite content.

#ThenWeWentHomeAndDidABitOfWorkThenWentOutForLunchWhereTheySaidThatTheyCouldNotServeTheDishOfTheDayYetAsTheyWereABitBehind

At first we thought they were closed as they had a sign up saying they were closed for a function, but that was the day before.

#IJustMadeACommentAboutHowWeWereTooKeenAsItWasOurFirstLunchDateWithoutOurDaughterAndSoHeSaidHeWouldMakeASmallBatch

Legend. It wasn’t that great in the end, but it felt good to get out and sit in a restaurant/cafe looking out the windows and not having to worry about B.

(We had lunch dates when we visited T’s parents I think, but it was always different as we always felt like we were on a timer.)

#TheDelayMeantWeHadSomeTimeToTalkAndItWasNiceToFeelLikeWeAreNotJustParentsInTheNicestWayPossible

I guess some couples have kids and then all they really talk about is the kids, so it was nice to think and talk about other things. We did talk about her a bit of course, but it was good to feel a bit like our old selves again too.

#OnTheWayHomeIFeltColdAndMyBumpWasTooBigToDoTheZipOfMyCoatUpSoWeHadToSwapCoatsAndIThinkTiagoMayBeBorrowingMyCoatForAWhileNow

He never realised how cozy my coat was. His coat was cold…

#AtHomeWeWatchedAlmostOneEpisodeOfAmericanCrimeStoryThenHadANapThenWentToPickHerUp

The day went fast.

#IThinkMyTimeWillLookVeryDifferentToThatWhileBIsAtNurseryButIGuessIMightRestALittleBitSometimesThoughIWillProbablyFeelGuiltyForDoingThat

I’m sure I’ll have my to do lists. If I get my stuff done then I can rest.

#ItIsGoodToKnowThatBCanHappilySpendTheDayWithMyParentsThoughAsSoonTheyWillBeHavingHerForAnOvernightStay

This was a test run.

#IGuessThisIsAllGoodPreparationAsTheyWillProbablyHaveToLookAfterHerWhileIAmInHospitalGivingBirth

With B I was in for 4 days, so we will have to see how it goes this time. It’s also good prep for B going to nursery, though she knows my Mum well.

#ApparentlySheLookedForUsForFiveMinutesWhenWeLeftButWhenWeArrivedWeWalkedInTheRoomAndSheDidNotEvenNotice

I was just going to sit on the sofa until she noticed but Tiago said hi.

#IAmLikingThatTheMorningsAreLighterNowButINeedToGetUsedToGettingBOutOfTheHouseEarlierForAnAfternoonWalk

Before we would dawdle for a bit before going for a walk. This morning I felt too tired to take B out for a walk, so we definitely need a good one later.

27 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait lying on a sofa leaning on my right elbow and my right hand is nestled in my hair. My top is lifted up so you can see my bump.
I Want To Keep Being Able To Go For Walks (27 weeks)
 
#IAmFeelingTired
#GladIDecidedYesterdayToTakePicturesOfMyselfOnTheSofaToday
#YesterdayIWasLyingOnThereWatchingMyBellyToSeeIfICouldSeeTheBabyMoving
#IHaveNotSeenTheBabyMoveAsMoveAsMuchAsTheFirstDayISawIt
#ITryToTakeABreakToSeeIfICanFeelAndSeeTheBabyMoving
#IThinkItIsMovingNow
#AndItWasDuringTheShootABit
#IDoNotThinkIWillReadBabyForumsForABit
#TheyStressedMeOutBefore
#ButNowWithCoronaTheyAreFullOfPeopleBeingMoreStressedOut
#StillTryingToGoOutForAWalkADay
#IMakeAnEffortToKeepAGoodDistanceBetweenMyselfAndOtherPeople
#TheOtherDayIWasOutsideOfASupermarket
#AWomanAndGuyCameAlong
#TheWomanWentInAndTheGuyStayedOutside
#ButHeStoodRightByTheDoor
#SoAnyoneGoingInAndOutHadToWalkLessThanAMetreAwayFromHim
#ThenYesterdayWeWereWalkingOnAVeryWidePathByTheKerb
#AGuyRanByPuffingAndPantingRightNextToUs
#IShouldHaveToldBothOfThemOff
#AndYesterdayISawTwoGuysCoughInTheStreetWithoutPuttingTheirHandsOverTheirMouths
#AndOneThenWalkedIntoTheSupermarketThatTiagoWasIn
#IWantToKeepBeingAbleToGoForWalks
#INeedTheExercise
#ButIfPeopleKeepNotKeepingTheirDistanceAndDoingDumbThingsThenIMightHaveToStop
#ThoughTheyAreTheOnesWhoShouldNotGoOut
#IFeelLikeMaybeWeWillNotGetIt
#ButMaybeIAmTryingToBeOptimistic
#ItSeemsMoreSeriousByTheDay
#IJustWantToKnowHowLongItWillGoOnForButItCouldBeALongTime

Well, I’m definitely feeling tired. I’m writing this on 2nd November. I’m going to have a nap once I finish the comparison bit.

I have not really read any forums this time as I do not have the time or energy for them.

People still annoy me, but less so now I am double vaccinated. I am worried now that cases are increasing again though.

People running right next to me while breathing loudly does still annoy me a lot.

#IJustWantToKnowHowLongItWillGoOnForButItCouldBeALongTime

Well, it’s still going on and I wrote that in March 2020.

Self-portrait with Tiago. He is facing the right of the frame and I am hugging him with my left hand, but facing more towards the camera.
I Feel Like I Have Lost A Sense Of Urgency (27 weeks)
 
#AnotherDayAtHome
#WellWeWentOutForAShortWalk
#YesterdayWeLeftOurWalkUntilTooLate
#WhenItWasStartingToGetDarkAndCold
#SoWeDidNotGoOut
#OriginallyWeWereHavingOurWalksAfterItGetsDark
#ButTheWeatherGotBetterSoWeWantedToEnjoyTheSunABit
#IHavePlentyOfThingsToKeepMeBusy
#ButIFeelLikeIHaveLostASenseOfUrgency
#LikeWhyRushAsIAmNotGoingAnywhereElse
#AFriendAskedUsIfWeWereOkayJustBeingAroundEachOtherAllDay
#YeahWeAreUsedToBeingHomeALot
#WeAreLuckyAsWeCanSitInDifferentRoomsWhilstWeAreWorkingIfWeWant
#ThoughThisWeekendWeHaveStuckToTheSameRoom
#IWasSupposedToStartPhotographingHimMoreAWhileAgo
#IDidForABitButIFeltBadBotheringHim
#HeWasOnThePhoneDoingTheWashingUpToday
#AndIWasHuggingHim
#AndIThoughtThatWouldMakeAnAlrightPicture
#SoLaterOnIAskedHimAndHeObviouslySaidYes
#ObviouslyAsInHeIsInThePicture
#AskedTiagoIfHeHadAnyCommentsAndHeSaid
#IFeelKindOfRelaxedToBeFair
#HopefulThatThingsWillGetBetterInAMonthOrTwo
#ISaidIThinkItMightTakeAWhileForThingsToGoBackToNormal
#ItMightBeAfterIGiveBirthAtThisPoint
#IThinkEvenWhenThisNonLockdownEndsIWillBeCautious
#AsItCouldQuiteEasilyComeBackAndStartAllOverAgain
#WhoKnows
#IThinkWeJustNeedToBeCareful

I was not much of a walker until Covid. Now with B I love to get out of the house, though this morning I felt too tired to and instead did some baking (we have a lot of bananas that need eating).

I remember this ‘loss of urgency’ phase quite well, but it did not really last too long. It was just a lot to try to comprehend.

We are still trying to be careful.

Me sitting on the floor in a bra and leggings with my legs together in butterfly pose and my hands on my knees. My bump is showing.
The Baby Moving Reminds Me Of A Whale Rolling (27 and a half weeks)
 
#AnotherHalfAWeekGone
#TimeFliesInItsOwnWay
#EvenWhenIAmAtHomeAllTheTime
#ApartForOurLittleDailyWalk
#WeNowWalkALessBusyWayIfWeDoNotNeedToGoToTheSupermarket
#WhichWeHaveNotBeenToItInAFewDaysButProbablyWillGoToTonight
#ExcitingTimes
#WellIWillJustStandOutsideJudgingTheBehaviourOfOthers
#IFeelLikeMyDaysAreStillPrettyFull
#IGuessIHadAGoodRoutineBeforeLockdownHappened
#SoThingsJustContinueAsNormalish
#IAmTryingToReadMore
#AndMaybeIWillStartToWatchMoreTVButIFeelLikeIDoNotHaveMuchTimeForIt
#MaybeJustAtTheWeekends
#IAmQuiteFarBehindWithPostingTheProjectForOthersToSee
#ItIsFunnyReadingMyPreviousConcerns
#ThingsLikePeopleTouchingMyBelly
#LuckilyIWillNotHaveToWorryAboutThatWithSocialDistancing
#WhenWeGoOutForAWalkIWorryThatPeopleLookAtMeLikeSheShouldNotBeOutHere
#ButThatIsWhyItIsNiceThatWeGoTheQuietRoute
#AndPeopleSeemToBeGettingBetterAtKeepingADistance
#IStillGetWorriedAboutNotFeelingTheBabyMove
#IThinkIJustGetSoDistractedByThingsThatIDoNotRegisterItMoving
#IThinkItIsMovingNowThough
#WhenItTurnsOverItRemindsMeOfWhenYouSeeAWhaleRolling
#NotThatIAmComparingTheBabyToAWhale
#ButIJustVisualiseThatRollingMotion
#IGuessItIsARelaxingComparison
#IDoNotFeelTooWorriedAsIBarelyLeaveTheFlat
#ICallMyNanEverydayAndIHopeThatSheStaysFine

It’s so weird that Covid is still going on, but it’s better now that there are vaccines.

My walks are more with purpose these days as I am usually taking B somewhere, and we live in Birmingham now instead of Liverpool.

I think I will not stop being anxious about the baby during the pregnancy, and then when they’re born there are new anxieties.


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Pregnancy Waiting II

Imitating B Drinking Tea With A Comb (26 Weeks / 30th October 2021)

Diptych. First image is me dipping a comb into a mug. In the second image I am imitating B drinking tea off the comb.
Imitating B Drinking Tea With A Comb (26 Weeks / 30th October 2021)
 
#TheOtherMorningIExplainedToBAboutCombsAndSheCombedMyHairABit
#ThenInTheAfternoonICaughtHerDippingTheCombIntoMyNansCupOfTeaAndThenPuttingItInHerMouth
#ThisMorningSheTriedToBrushMyHairWithADustpanBrush
#SheSeemsToBeAdaptingAlrightToOneNapADayRoutineAndNowIWishIHadMovedHerToItSooner
#SheDoesStartYawningQuiteEarlySoITryToTakeHerOutForAWalkOrSomethingThoughYesterdaySheFellAsleepOnTheSwingBriefly
#SheLikesToWalkHoldingOntoHerPushchairNowSoITryToTireHerOutAndSheTendsToEatMoreLunchIfSheHasWalkedALot
#SheHasAnEarlyLunchOfElevenThirtyNowAndThenHasASnackAfterSheWakesUp
#BoringStuffLikeMostOfMyHashtagsButThisIsTheStuffThatDominatesMyThoughts
#SheGetsUpsetIfIPickHerUpToCrossTheRoadSoWeHaveToWaitForTheTrafficToClear
#TheOtherDayACarStoppedAndIWasHoldingOntoBWithOneHandAndHerPushchairWithTheOtherAsIfIPutTheBrakeOnItDoesNotComeOff
#TheCarBeepedAtUsSoIHadToDoAMassiveHeadJerkToSayDriveOn
#BLikesToWaveAtPeopleAsSheWalksByJustLiftingHerHand
#ItLooksABitMoreLikeASaluteSoINeedToBeCarefulAboutImitatingIt
#ILoveHerPerseveranceAsIfSomeoneDoesNotWaveBackSheTriesAFewMoreTimesThenMakesANoiseAtThem
#IFeelLikeWeAreStartingToSettleIntoTheLocalCommunityMoreAndWeRecogniseMorePeopleOnOurWalks
#SheDoesNotSeemToWaveAtPeopleWeKnowThoughWhichIsFunny
#YesterdayBWavedAtAWomanAndSheSaidOhSheMustHaveMeConfusedWithSomeoneElseButISaidNoSheOnlyWavesAtStrangers
#SometimesSheMilksItAndJustKeepsWavingAtTheSamePersonWithACombinationOfOneAndTwoHands
#IHaveNoticedThatMorePeopleInteractWithUsWhenSheIsWalkingComparedToWhenSheIsInHerPushchair
#AFiveMinuteWalkDoesTakeUsAboutHalfAnHourEspeciallyIfSheStopsToStareAtDogsAndRunUpAndDownTinyHills
#ThisWeekSomeBoysHadABallInThePlaygroundAndTheyWereReallyNiceAboutLettingHerPlayWithItWhichReallyWarmedMyHeart
#WhenSheGetsTiredNowHerLegsTurnToJellyAndSheFallsOverALot
#TalkingOfJellyICanNowSeeMyBumpWobbleWithKicks
#SheSeemsALotMoreActiveThanBWasButMaybeItIsDownToWhereThePlacentaIsAndMyMemory
#IAmDefinitelyGettingBiggerAsNowISeemToMisjudgeGapsAndKnockMyBumpIntoThings
#YesterdayIHeardTiagoWalkingUpTheStairsAndThrewMyselfOntoTheBedToPretendIWasAsleep
#OfCourseIForgotAboutMyBumpAndLandedOnItSoThatWasUncomfortable
#IAlsoHadATubeOfTomatoPureeFallOutOfTheFridgeOntoItSoSorryBabyXIfIHurtYouAtAllYesterday
#ICanNotWaitForBToFeelAKickButSheStillDoesNotSeemThatInterestedInMyBumpAndProbablyThinksIAmBeingSillyWhenITellHerABabyIsInside
#HoweverSheDidUseItAsAPillowTheOtherDayWhenWeWereChilling
Gif of the two previous images, showing me putting the comb in a mug and then pretending to drink tea off the comb.
Imitating B Drinking Tea With A Comb (26 Weeks / 30th October 2021) (GIF)

#TheOtherMorningIExplainedToBAboutCombsAndSheCombedMyHairABit

I rarely brush my hair, and wash it, so it was a bit of a task for her, but she seemed to enjoy it anyways.

#ThenInTheAfternoonICaughtHerDippingTheCombIntoMyNansCupOfTeaAndThenPuttingItInHerMouth

Does drinking tea from a comb make you more or less British?

#ThisMorningSheTriedToBrushMyHairWithADustpanBrush

Great. I nearly let her do it, then my common sense kicked in. I really can’t be bothered to wash my hair much lately…

#SheSeemsToBeAdaptingAlrightToOneNapADayRoutineAndNowIWishIHadMovedHerToItSooner

Typically I put it off and then it goes alright. I think we did it at the right time though as she had been taking two naps quite well for a while.

#SheDoesStartYawningQuiteEarlySoITryToTakeHerOutForAWalkOrSomethingThoughYesterdaySheFellAsleepOnTheSwingBriefly

We went to meet a pregnant woman that I had been speaking to via an app. On the way I was rattling the toy on B’s pushchair to keep her awake.

B seems to like the swing more now, but I think all the walking tires her out. She was quite happy just being on the swing for ages while we chatted.

#SheLikesToWalkHoldingOntoHerPushchairNowSoITryToTireHerOutAndSheTendsToEatMoreLunchIfSheHasWalkedALot

She walks quite a lot now. I do have to pick her up at times, which isn’t good for bump but sometimes I have to. Sometimes she is so wet from the rain that I do not want to put her in her pushchair, and she doesn’t want to get in it anyways.

#SheHasAnEarlyLunchOfElevenThirtyNowAndThenHasASnackAfterSheWakesUp

I think I need to start giving her a bigger snack and she is starting to get more hangry before dinner.

#BoringStuffLikeMostOfMyHashtagsButThisIsTheStuffThatDominatesMyThoughts

Yeah, this is my life. I don’t think anyone reads this anyways so whatever.

#SheGetsUpsetIfIPickHerUpToCrossTheRoadSoWeHaveToWaitForTheTrafficToClear

Sometimes I do pick her up and it’s a struggle to cross the road with her wriggling, and to push the pushchair.

#TheOtherDayACarStoppedAndIWasHoldingOntoBWithOneHandAndHerPushchairWithTheOtherAsIfIPutTheBrakeOnItDoesNotComeOff

There were a couple of other people waiting, so I though they’d go and we’d just wait.

#TheCarBeepedAtUsSoIHadToDoAMassiveHeadJerkToSayDriveOn

It was so awkward. They couldn’t see B from where they were in the car though.

#BLikesToWaveAtPeopleAsSheWalksByJustLiftingHerHand

Cute.

#ItLooksABitMoreLikeASaluteSoINeedToBeCarefulAboutImitatingIt

Not so cute.

#ILoveHerPerseveranceAsIfSomeoneDoesNotWaveBackSheTriesAFewMoreTimesThenMakesANoiseAtThem

A young woman yesterday was walking looking at her phone. B tried to get her attention a few times with a wave, then made a noise at her while waving, but she was either in her own world or ignoring us. I don’t blame her.

I told B to not lose her friendliness and to keep persisting with her waving, though I doubt she understood me.

#IFeelLikeWeAreStartingToSettleIntoTheLocalCommunityMoreAndWeRecogniseMorePeopleOnOurWalks

I think I’ve said it before, but it’s nice.

#SheDoesNotSeemToWaveAtPeopleWeKnowThoughWhichIsFunny

She generally just hides from them, especially if they have dogs that have barked in the past. Yesterday a couple of dogs we know were barking, and although B jumped she did not cry which is good.

#YesterdayBWavedAtAWomanAndSheSaidOhSheMustHaveMeConfusedWithSomeoneElseButISaidNoSheOnlyWavesAtStrangers

Big lol. She was pushing a shopping trolley bag, and I realised one would not be a bad idea with B. She can push it along and then when she gets tired I can just put her inside. I probably won’t do this…

#SometimesSheMilksItAndJustKeepsWavingAtTheSamePersonWithACombinationOfOneAndTwoHands

This happened a couple of days ago, but the woman was sweet and indulged her. And then when we met ‘the pregnant lady’ B kept waving bye.

#IHaveNoticedThatMorePeopleInteractWithUsWhenSheIsWalkingComparedToWhenSheIsInHerPushchair

‘Oh, isn’t he a good walker.’ (Everyone just assumes she’s a boy.)

#AFiveMinuteWalkDoesTakeUsAboutHalfAnHourEspeciallyIfSheStopsToStareAtDogsAndRunUpAndDownTinyHills

Probably more to be fair. There does seem to be a fine line between tiring B out and her getting overtired, but hopefully over time she will adapt.

#ThisWeekSomeBoysHadABallInThePlaygroundAndTheyWereReallyNiceAboutLettingHerPlayWithItWhichReallyWarmedMyHeart

‘Warmed my heart’ – lol. It’s true though. I was a bit like ‘oh B, don’t play with that it’s not yours’, but they were really kind. They were probably 10 or something? I really can’t age kids.

#WhenSheGetsTiredNowHerLegsTurnToJellyAndSheFallsOverALot

This happened a bit before, but is more obvious now with just the one nap a day.

#TalkingOfJellyICanNowSeeMyBumpWobbleWithKicks

It’s funny. Still trying to get B to notice…

#SheSeemsALotMoreActiveThanBWasButMaybeItIsDownToWhereThePlacentaIsAndMyMemory

She’s moving now. It’s good though as it’s reassuring.

#IAmDefinitelyGettingBiggerAsNowISeemToMisjudgeGapsAndKnockMyBumpIntoThings

‘I can fit through that – oww.’

#YesterdayIHeardTiagoWalkingUpTheStairsAndThrewMyselfOntoTheBedToPretendIWasAsleep

I was super tired to be fair. I couldn’t tell if my computer was playing up or if it was my eyes.

#OfCourseIForgotAboutMyBumpAndLandedOnItSoThatWasUncomfortable

Whoops. I then had to roll over a bit and was just lying weirdly when he entered the room.

#IAlsoHadATubeOfTomatoPureeFallOutOfTheFridgeOntoItSoSorryBabyXIfIHurtYouAtAllYesterday

It was a bit spikey… I think she is quite well protected though.

#ICanNotWaitForBToFeelAKickButSheStillDoesNotSeemThatInterestedInMyBumpAndProbablyThinksIAmBeingSillyWhenITellHerABabyIsInside

She’s still got a bit of time to adapt to the idea. She likes to look at babies in the park, but let’s see how much she likes having one at home all the time.

#HoweverSheDidUseMyBumpAsAPillowTheOtherDayWhenWeWereChilling

See, your sister is useful B. I’m still not 100% sure it’s a girl – I saw a newspaper article about a woman who was told she was pregnant with 2 girls and a boy and she ended up having boy triplets.

26 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait where I am naked from my breasts down. I am showing off a bump and my left hand is touching my back.
Today We Saw The Baby Move For The First Time (26 and a half weeks)
 
#WellThisMorningWasExciting
#IWasWorriedThatIHadNotFeltTheBabyMoveLastNightOrThisMorning
#IWasLyingInBedFaffingOnMyPhoneWithMyTopUp
#AndISawMyBellyMove
#IThoughtIHadNotSeenIt
#SoIJustLayThereWatchingMyBelly
#ItMovedAndIGasped
#WhoNeedsTVWhenYouHaveABump
#ItIsQuiteMeditativeJustWatchingIt
#AtOnePointThereWasAStrangeShapeByMyBellyButton
#SoITouchedIt
#ItMustHaveBeenAHandOrFootAsItThenWentAway
#SoCool
#ButSoWeird
#LastNightIWokeUpInTheNightAndStretchedMyLegOut
#ThenIGotAReallyPainfulCrampInMyLeg
#ITouchedWhereItHurt
#AndIThoughtIFeltALumpWhichFreakedMeOut
#ThoughIThinkItWasJustMyMuscleAndIWasHalfAsleep
#IHaveNotTouchedMyLegsInAWhile
#IGuessIAmGivingMyBumpAllTheAttention
#MyLegsAreGettingMuscly
#PostedAPictureTodayWhereIThoughtItLookedLikeIHaveABumpAtTheTime
#ItLooksLikeNothing
#EspeciallyComparedToNow
#ITookASimilarPictureToThisOnly4WeeksAgo
#AndIFeelLikeTheChangeIsQuiteDifferent
#LookingThroughThePicturesOfThisProjectTheBumpJustKindOfSuddenlyAppears
#AndDoesNotStop
#InterestedToSeeHowMyBumpWillLookJustBeforeIGiveBirth

Okay, so seeing my belly move started around the same time.

I have noticed a few strange shapes too. I guess she is getting bigger. (My app says the size of a swede – 35.6cm in length, that is quite long.)

I haven’t noticed any lumps in my legs with cramps this time, but I had forgot about this. The other night I had a cramp and just swung my leg out of bed to stand up and it was less painful than normal. Win.

I feel torn with this project as I love imitating B, but I also want more bump photos. I guess my next shoot can be a bump image…


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Imitating B Putting Her Head Against A Mirror (26 Weeks / 26th October 2021)

Self-portrait where I am resting my head on a mirror and looking at myself.
Imitating B Putting Her Head Against A Mirror (26 Weeks / 26th October 2021)
 
#IfBSeesAMirrorForSomeReasonSheHasToButtHeadsWithItOrBangOnItOrAtLeastRestHerHeadOnIt
#IAmStillTryingToFigureOutIfSheKnowsItIsHerInTheMirrorOrNot
#IfISeeAMirrorAndIAmCarryingHerThenIUsuallyWaveAtHerSoIThinkSheMustKnowButWhoKnows
#FiveDaysAgoIWroteInMyHashtagRemindersThatMaybeItIsTimeToDropBDownToOneNapADayButIWasFeelingHesitantAsILikeOurRoutines
#WellWeWentAwayAtTheWeekendAndBDidNotHaveASecondNapOnTheFridaySaturdayAndSunday
#ThenYesterdayIPutHerDownForHerFirstNapAndSheWasNotFallingAsleepSoIGotHerBackUpAndThenGaveHerANapAtMiddayInstead
#LastNightSheWasAwakeFromMidnightToTwoishAndThenWokeUpAtFiveThirtySoIPutHerInOurBed
#IDoNotLikeToDoItMuchButSheDidActuallySleepForAnotherHourThoughMySleepWasVeryUnsettledAsIWasWorriedAboutSquishingHerOrSomething
#StayingInAHotelStressedMeOutAsEverytimeSheCriedIWasWorriedThatItWouldAnnoyPeople
#IBarelySleptOnTheFridayNightAndOnTheSaturdayMorningWePutHerInOurBedFromFiveishAndSheSleptALittleBitLonger
#IAmWorriedThatWeAreUndoingHerSleepTrainingButMaybeSheIsJustTeethingAndABitClingierThoughOnSundayNightSheSleptFine
#ItWasWeirdGoingToAPhotographyWeekendAndTiagoAndBJoiningMeAsMyTwoWorldsRarelyCollide
#ItWasFunnyTalkingToPhotoFriendsAndThenSeeingThemWalkingTowardsMeAsItJustSeemedSoOdd
#IAmGoingToHaveToAdjustToThisNewOneNapScheduleButOnceWeDoIThinkItWillBeForTheBetterAsWeCanGoOutForLonger
#ThoughIAmWorriedAboutTheDarkEveningsAsIWillNotBeAbleToTakeHerOutLikeIUsuallyDoSoWeMightFeelABitStuckAtHome
#IWillJustHaveToAdjustWhenITakeHerOutForWalksAndMaybeWeWillJustHaveToDoSomeWalksInTheDarkWithTiagoOnTheNightsThatFeelLonger
#LastWeekIHadAMidwivesAppointmentAndIHadToTakeBWithMeButItWasAllFineAndTheBabyIsFine
#HerDueDateIsAFewDaysBeforeMineIThinkSoIWillNotSeeHerAgainAsSheWillBeWorkingFromHome
#SheSaidAsItIsNotMyFirstBabyThe31WeekAppointmentIsOptionalButISaidIMightAsWellHaveIt
#ThatMorningIWasChangingBsNappyAndThenICouldNotFindHerNappyCreamThoughIKnewIHadGotItBeforeSettingUpAChangingStation
#SoIWentOffToLookForItAndBStoodUpAndPissedOnTheFloorAndThenManagedToSlipOverInItSoWhenITookHerVestOffTheBackOfHerHeadWasWet
#SorryToBIfThisIsTooMuchButIFoundItFunnyAndSoIHadToGiveHerABathWhichMightHaveBeenHerFirstMorningBath
#IAmSureThisMorningThatShePointedToMyBellyAndThenDidAnImpressionOfItWithHerHand
#MyMumAndNanBothSaidMyBumpLooksALotBiggerTodaySoMaybeBNoticedToo
#WithHerNewScheduleIAmGoingToHaveToSeeIfICanDoABitOfWorkWhileShePlaysNextToMe
#IDoNotKnowWhyIFeelBadForDoingThisAsIAmSureALotOfOtherPeopleDoItToo
#YesterdayWeWereInMineAndTsBedroomAndISawAStackOfStuffNextToTheMirror
#ILookedAtItAndThoughtMaybeIShouldMoveItButDecidedItShouldBeFineButThen5MinutesLaterBHadKnockedItOverSoIHadToMoveIt
#IAmGettingQuiteNervousAboutHavingTwoKidsInAFewMonthsOrSo
#SometimesIGetWorriedAboutLackOfMovementsButThenSheStartsMovingALotAndTiagoCouldFeelHerKickingMeLastNight

#IfBSeesAMirrorForSomeReasonSheHasToButtHeadsWithItOrBangOnItOrAtLeastRestHerHeadOnIt

I really wish she could talk so she could explain things to me. Maybe she likes that it feels cold?

#IAmStillTryingToFigureOutIfSheKnowsItIsHerInTheMirrorOrNot

I thought she had known for ages, then I read in a development thing that is a more recent ‘skill’ that they learn.

#IfISeeAMirrorAndIAmCarryingHerThenIUsuallyWaveAtHerSoIThinkSheMustKnowButWhoKnows

I think she knows. Again, I can’t ask her.

#FiveDaysAgoIWroteInMyHashtagRemindersThatMaybeItIsTimeToDropBDownToOneNapADayButIWasFeelingHesitantAsILikeOurRoutines

Things were just working. I did note that maybe it would stop her early mornings though.

I send reminders to myself of what I might want to talk about in my hashtags. I am starting to think that they are just super dull, but I am tired.

#WellWeWentAwayAtTheWeekendAndBDidNotHaveASecondNapOnTheFridaySaturdayAndSunday

Friday I just thought she would not have a long enough nap before going to an appointment, and then going away so we might as well just try to leave as early as possible.

Saturday – She had her morning nap at a good time, then Tiago took her back to the hotel for a nap and she didn’t take it. Maybe it was because she knew T was in the room, but he had been there in the morning too?

Sunday – We left early so B and I could sleep in the car. Then we were meeting friends I could not be bothered to even try to get B to have a nap on the go. To be fair she showed no signs of being tired and wouldn’t even sit in her pushchair…

#ThenYesterdayIPutHerDownForHerFirstNapAndSheWasNotFallingAsleepSoIGotHerBackUpAndThenGaveHerANapAtMiddayInstead

I just realised ‘what am I doing? I should just transition her to one nap now’ as I didn’t think she would end up having a very long second nap anyways.

#LastNightSheWasAwakeFromMidnightToTwoishAndThenWokeUpAtFiveThirtySoIPutHerInOurBed

I was hoping she would sleep late as she was awake for so long.

I went in with her water and paracetamol and she seemed fine, until every time I went to leave. Tiago went in after a bit and stayed with her until she calmed down.

This morning I was not ready to get her up, and she seemed tired so putting her in our bed seemed like the easier option.

#IDoNotLikeToDoItMuchButSheDidActuallySleepForAnotherHourThoughMySleepWasVeryUnsettledAsIWasWorriedAboutSquishingHerOrSomething

My maternity pillow acted as a barrier so she was stuck on my side of the bed. She did cuddle up to me which was cute. When she went to Tiago’s side after an hour-ish I realised what an uncomfortable position I had been in.

#StayingInAHotelStressedMeOutAsEverytimeSheCriedIWasWorriedThatItWouldAnnoyPeople

The hotel reviews were really mixed, but it was nice. The staff were super friendly and the bed wasn’t bad.

#IBarelySleptOnTheFridayNightAndOnTheSaturdayMorningWePutHerInOurBedFromFiveishAndSheSleptALittleBitLonger

Every time she woke up I sat upright and stressed. Again, it seemed like an easier option to just put her in our bed.

#IAmWorriedThatWeAreUndoingHerSleepTrainingButMaybeSheIsJustTeethingAndABitClingierThoughOnSundayNightSheSleptFine

She had a similar bad sleep episode a week ago (awake for 2 hours in the night etc.) I don’t want to keep giving her paracetamol but she has been putting her fingers in her mouth a lot and she does seem to have a bit of a cold again.

#ItWasWeirdGoingToAPhotographyWeekendAndTiagoAndBJoiningMeAsMyTwoWorldsRarelyCollide

Obviously I photograph them, so my worlds collide then but I mean colliding in real life – it was weird.

#ItWasFunnyTalkingToPhotoFriendsAndThenSeeingThemWalkingTowardsMeAsItJustSeemedSoOdd

It was nice to introduce B to people, though when she was getting tired one night she kept falling over, so Tiago had to keep taking her out of the room.

#IAmGoingToHaveToAdjustToThisNewOneNapScheduleButOnceWeDoIThinkItWillBeForTheBetterAsWeCanGoOutForLonger #ThoughIAmWorriedAboutTheDarkEveningsAsIWillNotBeAbleToTakeHerOutLikeIUsuallyDoSoWeMightFeelABitStuckAtHome

We will have to see. I am really not looking forward to the clocks changing.

#IWillJustHaveToAdjustWhenITakeHerOutForWalksAndMaybeWeWillJustHaveToDoSomeWalksInTheDarkWithTiagoOnTheNightsThatFeelLonger

The time of her one nap means we do have a lot of time in the morning, and hopefully we can go out after her nap before it gets dark.

I’m not sure how safe it will be walking around with B at night, but I know people with dogs who are already trying to figure out a route. Some nights we might feel like we have to get out for a bit. I definitely wouldn’t go out with B by myself though.

#LastWeekIHadAMidwivesAppointmentAndIHadToTakeBWithMeButItWasAllFineAndTheBabyIsFine

She was listening for a heartbeat and I could feel the baby kicking so I wasn’t too worried then.

#HerDueDateIsAFewDaysBeforeMineIThinkSoIWillNotSeeHerAgainAsSheWillBeWorkingFromHome

Shame as I like her.

#SheSaidAsItIsNotMyFirstBabyThe31WeekAppointmentIsOptionalButISaidIMightAsWellHaveIt

It’s not too far to go and I’d rather just go for an extra check and know things are okay.

#ThatMorningIWasChangingBsNappyAndThenICouldNotFindHerNappyCreamThoughIKnewIHadGotItBeforeSettingUpAChangingStation #SoIWentOffToLookForItAndBStoodUpAndPissedOnTheFloorAndThenManagedToSlipOverInItSoWhenITookHerVestOffTheBackOfHerHeadWasWet

Of course the cream had just rolled away and was under the step ladder next to us.

#SorryToBIfThisIsTooMuchButIFoundItFunnyAndSoIHadToGiveHerABathWhichMightHaveBeenHerFirstMorningBath

Sorry B. I’m sure most people have slipped over in their piss at least once in their life. If they say no then they’re probably lying. I don’t remember doing it, but I might well have done at your age.

I was hoping to get away with not giving her a bath, but nope. Then I was hoping to just wash the back of her head, but she had splashed so much that I just washed all her hair.

#IAmSureThisMorningThatShePointedToMyBellyAndThenDidAnImpressionOfItWithHerHand

Just like ‘you’re this big now’. We’ve seen some friends the last couple of days and their 4 year old son hadn’t even noticed I was pregnant until he gave me a hug last night and I pointed out he was hugging baby X too.

#MyMumAndNanBothSaidMyBumpLooksALotBiggerTodaySoMaybeBNoticedToo

It does seem to have suddenly grown, but I have eaten a lot this weekend and it might be due to where my placenta is or something. I don’t know.

#WithHerNewScheduleIAmGoingToHaveToSeeIfICanDoABitOfWorkWhileShePlaysNextToMe

Yesterday I did manage to prep a blog post. I’m getting a bit over doing this blog to be honest, but I might feel better once I am up to date with putting the images in, writing pregnancy comparisons and tags etc.

#IDoNotKnowWhyIFeelBadForDoingThisAsIAmSureALotOfOtherPeopleDoItToo

It’s good for kids to play by themselves for a bit for sure. Mum guilt is real.

#YesterdayWeWereInMineAndTsBedroomAndISawAStackOfStuffNextToTheMirror #ILookedAtItAndThoughtMaybeIShouldMoveItButDecidedItShouldBeFineButThen5MinutesLaterBHadKnockedItOverSoIHadToMoveIt

Me being lazy… In future I need to trust my health and safety officer instincts. (I’m not one, but I feel like becoming a parent I do notice risks better.)

#IAmGettingQuiteNervousAboutHavingTwoKidsInAFewMonthsOrSo

*Nervous laugh* I’m just trying to go to bed earlier. The last couple of nights I have gone to sleep quite early. This is why I also need to get stuff done while B is awake/during her naps, though yesterday I had to nap during her nap and I imagine it will be the same today.

#SometimesIGetWorriedAboutLackOfMovementsButThenSheStartsMovingALotAndTiagoCouldFeelHerKickingMeLastNight

I feel like I have been writing ‘it’ instead of ‘her’ as sometimes I forget we know, though I will not 100% believe it until she is born.

I just hadn’t had much time to feel her movements as it was such a busy weekend, so it’s always a relief when I feel her moving about.

26 weeks with B comparison:

Self-portrait in my bra and pants where my bump is showing and I am looking up. My hands are resting on the top of my legs.
We Heard The Baby’s Heartbeat For The First Time Today (26 weeks)
 
#IFeelLikeIAmInSomeWeirdBubbleWithThisWholeCoronaVirus
#IAmUsuallyHomeQuiteABitAnyways
#AndInNoRushToGoOut
#ButNowIAmWorkingFromHomeForTheForeseeableFuture
#AndThereIsSomethingAboutNotHavingAnythingToGoOutTo
#WeJustTryToGoForAWalkInTheEveningToBuySomeFruitAndVeg
#TheGoodThingAboutOptingForAHomeBirthIsTheMidwifeVisitsOurFlat
#SheCameYesterdayAndAllWasGood
#SheSaidMyBloodPressureWasLowButInAGoodWay
#SheSaidWhyLowPressureWasGoodButICanNotRememberWhatSheSaid
#SheAskedMeIfIEverFeltDizzy
#ISaidNo
#ButLastNightAndThisMorningMaybeIGotUpTooQuickAndSawColourfulLightsInMyEyes
#SoINeedToBeCareful
#SheNeededToMeasureMyUterus
#ItTookHerAWhileAsSheSaidMyCoreIsSoStrong
#MustBeBecauseOfTheExerciseThatIAmDoingInTheMorningAndNight
#SheSaidThatMyAbdominalMusclesAreStartingToSeparateNowToMakeRoomForTheBabyWhichIsNormal
#IAmGuessingThatIfIKeepOnExercisingAsIHaveThenItWillAllBeFine
#ISaidIAmMoreFlexibleThanIWasBeforeIWasPregnant
#WhichIThoughtWasDownToTheExerciseAndItProbablyIsABit
#ButSheSaidThatHormonesDuringPregnancyWillMakeYouMoreFlexible
#SheAlsoCheckedTheBabysHeartbeat
#TheNightBeforeIWasConcernedAsICouldNotFeelItInTheEvening
#ThoughWhenICompletelyRelaxedIEventuallyDid
#SheSaidThatThePlacentaMightBeAbsorbingTheKicks
#AsItTookAWhileToFindTheBabyAsSheCouldMostlyHearPlacenta
#WhenSheFoundItThoughItWasAGoodQuickHeartbeatLikeItShouldBe
#TiagoWalkedIntoTheRoomAndHeardItTooWhichWasNice
#ThisMorningItWasKickingStrongAndTiagoFeltItALot

I heard the baby X’s heartbeat for the first time weeks ago, so not sure why it took so long with B.

It is weird thinking that at this point with B I was just going for a walk once a day and only seeing Tiago.

I feel like I look stronger in this above picture than I feel right now (at the same phase). I have made an effort to not sit up straight from lying down so hopefully my muscles will not separate so much this time. My midwife did think that I’d have to do physio after having B, but I didn’t have to luckily.

I think my placenta is in a different position this time, which may be why I can feel it kicking more than I did with B. It may also be why my bump looks different, but that might be down to having had a baby before.

As I’m not planning for a homebirth this time I have to go out to appointments, but I seem to have them at good times and it’s good to get out of the house.

Self-portrait with some broken blood vessels visible on my cheeks. I am wearing a purple top that matches the blotches on my cheeks a bit. I am resting my left hand on my chin.
Broken Blood Vessels (26 weeks)
 
#IHaveBeenNoticingBitsOfRedOnMyCheeksForAFewWeeks
#IJustThoughtItWasToDoWithTheColdOutside
#AsUsuallyMySkinGoesABitRubbishInTheWinter
#OrIThoughtItWasASlightAllergicReaction
#YesterdayMorningIHadABitOfRedOnMyFace
#IWentToPhotographItButTiagoWasDoingExerciseInTheBitOfTheLivingRoomWhereIShoot
#AndByTheTimeHeFinishedItHadFaded
#IWalkedForAbout2HoursYesterday
#AndTiagoCommentedThatMyFaceWasQuiteRedLastNight
#ItIsThatTimeOfYearWhereYourBodyFeelsWeirdWhenTheSunGoesDown
#AsItWasQuiteWarmDuringTheDay
#AndThenSuddenlyItIsVeryCold
#SoIThoughtItMightBeToDoWithThat
#ReadingLastNightThoughApparentlyItIsACommonThing
#ToDoWithIncreasedBloodFlowAndBloodVessels
#SometimesTheBloodVesselsBreak
#WhichExplainsWhySometimesThePatchesTakeAFewDaysToDisappear
#TheSkinOnMyChinIsAlsoABitWeird
#WhichIsProbablyToDoWithHormones
#ApparentlyTheBabyIsTheSizeOfAnAcornSquashNow
#AndAbout36cmLong
#IAmAlsoAboutTwoThirdsOfTheWayThrough
#TimeIsFlying
#FeelLikeIShouldStartBuyingMoreThingsOffTheBabyListSoon
#IKeepLookingAtThingsButDoNotWantToCommitToBuyingRightNow
#IAmHopingThatWeWillGetToGoSomewhereToTryOutThePushchairWeWant
#ButWeMightJustHaveToRiskItAndBuyItWithoutTrying
#WillSeeHowThingsAreWhenIAmAround30Weeks
#WeAreLuckyAsWeBothHaveJobsThatSeemRelativelySecure
#WhoKnowsHowLongThingsAreGoingToGoOnFor
 

I have not noticed any broken blood vessels this time, so far.

This time we do not really need to buy anything, though I remembered earlier that soon we will need to buy newborn nappies and things. Fun times ahead…


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General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot IV (24 Weeks / 17th October 2021)

Shoot which I am recreating for the 4th time this pregnancy. I am wearing a bra and leggings. I have my right hand clasping my left elbow. My bump is bigger than the previous version of this image.
General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot IV (24 Weeks / 17th October 2021)

#IThoughtItWasTimeThatIDoOneOfTheseShootsAgain
#TheBraThatIWearForThemHasFallenApartALotSinceTheFirstShootSoItWillBeGoingInTheBinOnceBabyXIsBorn
#MyBumpIsDefinitelyGettingBiggerAndICanNotImagineItGettingMuchBiggerButIKnowItWill
#IAmStrugglingToBendDownToPickThingsUpNowWhichIsReallyHandyAsBLikesToThrowEverythingOnTheFloor
#YesterdayISuddenlyFeltTheUrgeToTidyUpOurRoomAndGetRidOfLotsOfThings
#IDoNeedToDeclutterAndReduceMyStuffAsWeArePlanningToMoveAtSomePointNextYear
#SoItIsBetterToDoItNowWhileICanMoveAboutIshAndBeforeBabyXIsBorn
#ThereIsSoMuchStuffThatHasSurvived5MovesWithMeButINeedToBeRealisticWhetherIWouldWantToPayToShipItInTheFutureAndTheAnswerIsUsuallyNo
#IThinkTheOrganisingPlusDoingSomeExtraDanceVideosReallyTiredMeOut
#ThisMorningBWasUpAtFiveThirtySoTiagoWentToGetHerAndUsuallyIWakeUpButIWasAsleepWithHerPlayingRightNextToMe
#SheHasBeenAwakeAtFiveThirtyTheLastFewMorningsWhichIsNotMuchFunThoughAtLeastSheHasALongFirstNap
#IThinkItIsDueToHerTeethingAsSheSeemsToAlwaysHaveHerFingersInHerMouth
#SheOnlyReallyHasMolarsLeftToComeThroughAndTheyCanNotBePleasantAtAll
#ILikeHowIUsedToCountHowManyTeethSheHasAndNowIHaveNoIdea
#WeHaveFinallyBookedToGoAndLookAtANurseryForHer
#TheDaysWeAreThinkingWillMeanWeWillNeedToCancelHerMusicClassAndIWasFeelingBadAboutItAsILikeHerTeacherALot
#ButItTurnsOutHerTeacherIsFiveWeeksLessPregnantThanMeSoSheWillBeGoingOnMaternityLeaveAndNowIDoNotFeelSoBad
#IAmFeelingQuiteStressedAboutBeingPregnantAndTheFactWeWillSoonHaveTwoKids
#WeJustSeemSoTiredAtTheMomentAndEvenThoughBWakesUpEarlyAtLeastWeDoGetAGoodAmountOfSleep
#IJustNeedToGoToBedEarlierWhichToBeFairIDidLastNightButItObviouslyWasNotEnough
#EveryoneKeepsSayingTheFirstYearIsTheHardestAndToBeHonestIAmNotLookingForwardToWeaningAndAllThatStuffAgain
#HopefullySheWillArriveAndIWillJustGetOnWithItAndAllICanDoIsToTryMyBest
#AtLeastInTheEarlyDaysTheirNeedsArePrettyBasic
#IJustNeedToMakeAnEffortToGetOutOfTheHouseOnceADayForMySanity
#ItWillBeAStruggleInTheBeginningIAmSureButWeJustNeedToFindARoutineThatWorksForUs
#IJustHopeThatWeDoNotGetLockedDownAgainButThenAgainWhatDoesItMatterWhenIDoubtIWillWantToGoFarAnyways
#IAmWorriedThatCasesAreRisingButEveryoneIsABitNonchalantAboutItButIGuessIAmMoreRelaxedNowIHaveHadMySecondVaccineAndFluJab
#IJustDoNotGetWhyWearingMasksInShopsAndStuffIsNotCompulsoryAndIAmSurprisedAtHowFewPeopleActuallyDoWearThem
#InOtherNewsBIsTryingReallyHardToTalkNowAndISwearSheSaysTickleTickleTickle
#IHaveHeardACoupleOfMamaAndMumSoundsEscapeFromHerLatelyTooSoIHopeSheMightActuallyStartSayingMumAtMeSoon

#IThoughtItWasTimeThatIDoOneOfTheseShootsAgain

The last one was at 19 weeks, so there should be a difference?

(Yes, there is – you can see the versions here: 1 / 2 / 3.)

#TheBraThatIWearForThemHasFallenApartALotSinceTheFirstShootSoItWillBeGoingInTheBinOnceBabyXIsBorn

Maybe in each picture it will start to look more shabby. I’ve been wearing my maternity bras for a while now, and this is not one of them.

#MyBumpIsDefinitelyGettingBiggerAndICanNotImagineItGettingMuchBiggerButIKnowItWill

*Nervous laugh*

#IAmStrugglingToBendDownToPickThingsUpNowWhichIsReallyHandyAsBLikesToThrowEverythingOnTheFloor

This morning she was eating some of my breakfast (scrambled eggs and crusts of my toast), and then throwing it on the floor. I did struggle to pick it up.

#YesterdayISuddenlyFeltTheUrgeToTidyUpOurRoomAndGetRidOfLotsOfThings

I love nesting.

#IDoNeedToDeclutterAndReduceMyStuffAsWeArePlanningToMoveAtSomePointNextYear

Every time I go through my things I get rid of a few more things, but I need to start being ruthless.

#SoItIsBetterToDoItNowWhileICanMoveAboutIshAndBeforeBabyXIsBorn

I am tired, so yeah there will never be a good time again.

#ThereIsSoMuchStuffThatHasSurvived5MovesWithMeButINeedToBeRealisticWhetherIWouldWantToPayToShipItInTheFutureAndTheAnswerIsUsuallyNo

Playing my favourite ‘would I pay £5 to ship this?’ game.

I told Tiago about it and he said would most things really cost £5 to ship. I said no, but would you still pay £5 to ship it? Is it worth the money?

#IThinkTheOrganisingPlusDoingSomeExtraDanceVideosReallyTiredMeOut

I did lie down before B’s second nap, but I’m not sure if I even slept.

#ThisMorningBWasUpAtFiveThirtySoTiagoWentToGetHerAndUsuallyIWakeUpButIWasAsleepWithHerPlayingRightNextToMe

Wake up as in become more alert. I ended up sleeping in until 7.10am, and then I looked through my books and stretched. Then Tiago had a nap (and is still napping as B is napping as I write this).

#SheHasBeenAwakeAtFiveThirtyTheLastFewMorningsWhichIsNotMuchFunThoughAtLeastSheHasALongFirstNap

I try not to put her down for a nap until 9, and then wake her up between 10.30 to 11 depending on our plans.

#IThinkItIsDueToHerTeethingAsSheSeemsToAlwaysHaveHerFingersInHerMouth

I’m being more generous with her paracetamol these days, as otherwise she does not nap or sleep very well. I do worry that I am drugging her at times, but it’s only when I see her with her fingers in her mouth and it’s been 4 hours since the last dose…

#SheOnlyReallyHasMolarsLeftToComeThroughAndTheyCanNotBePleasantAtAll

Bless her.

#ILikeHowIUsedToCountHowManyTeethSheHasAndNowIHaveNoIdea

If I put my finger in her mouth now it just gets bitten and it hurts.

#WeHaveFinallyBookedToGoAndLookAtANurseryForHer

Hurrah.

#TheDaysWeAreThinkingWillMeanWeWillNeedToCancelHerMusicClassAndIWasFeelingBadAboutItAsILikeHerTeacherALot

The class isn’t the best but I do really like her teacher and she makes it way more enjoyable.

#ButItTurnsOutHerTeacherIsFiveWeeksLessPregnantThanMeSoSheWillBeGoingOnMaternityLeaveAndNowIDoNotFeelSoBad

I mentioned I was pregnant last week and she said ‘oh me too’. I really could not tell that she was at all, but she does wear a baggy t-shirt. I had looked at moving locations and days, but I think once B goes down to one nap the other day and time will not work for us. Hopefully B will get enough stimulation at nursery and we can just do more music stuff at home.

#IAmFeelingQuiteStressedAboutBeingPregnantAndTheFactWeWillSoonHaveTwoKids

I feel like I’ve mentioned it before, but I am starting to get waves of overwhelmed-ness now.

#WeJustSeemSoTiredAtTheMomentAndEvenThoughBWakesUpEarlyAtLeastWeDoGetAGoodAmountOfSleep #IJustNeedToGoToBedEarlierWhichToBeFairIDidLastNightButItObviouslyWasNotEnough

This would probably make a big difference, and I’m sure once she is born I will have to just surrender to motherhood, but for now I am enjoying have a bit of evening time to myself.

#EveryoneKeepsSayingTheFirstYearIsTheHardestAndToBeHonestIAmNotLookingForwardToWeaningAndAllThatStuffAgain

I just need to take each day/cycle of the day at a time.

#HopefullySheWillArriveAndIWillJustGetOnWithItAndAllICanDoIsToTryMyBest

We wanted this baby and I have to handle the responsibility. I am nervous though.

#AtLeastInTheEarlyDaysTheirNeedsArePrettyBasic

And she won’t be running off like B does.

#IJustNeedToMakeAnEffortToGetOutOfTheHouseOnceADayForMySanity

It will be winter, but hopefully by then spring will not be too far away.

#ItWillBeAStruggleInTheBeginningIAmSureButWeJustNeedToFindARoutineThatWorksForUs

Like I said, I need to surrender to motherhood.

#IJustHopeThatWeDoNotGetLockedDownAgainButThenAgainWhatDoesItMatterWhenIDoubtIWillWantToGoFarAnyways

B’s classes moving to zoom would make things a lot easier to be fair. I doubt we will have another lockdown though.

#IAmWorriedThatCasesAreRisingButEveryoneIsABitNonchalantAboutItButIGuessIAmMoreRelaxedNowIHaveHadMySecondVaccineAndFluJab

Other countries have less cases and are in full panic mode, but I guess they are not as vaccinated as here.

#IJustDoNotGetWhyWearingMasksInShopsAndStuffIsNotCompulsoryAndIAmSurprisedAtHowFewPeopleActuallyDoWearThem

We still wear them in shops, and I do on public transport though that is rare. I have not been wearing them in classes, but in B’s music class she does not go near anyone else and we sit far back from everyone. At another class I probably should, but no one else does… When it’s time to sing we sat at the back of the bunch.

#InOtherNewsBIsTryingReallyHardToTalkNowAndISwearSheSaysTickleTickleTickle

It sounds more like ‘iggle iggle iggle’ or something else I guess, but I think that is what she is trying to say.

#IHaveHeardACoupleOfMamaAndMumSoundsEscapeFromHerLatelyTooSoIHopeSheMightActuallyStartSayingMumAtMeSoon

She’s been saying Dada and Dad for so long, though she doesn’t really say it at Tiago much. She is growing up fast though.

Despite my nervousness I am excited to see her with her sister.

24 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait wearing a black dress with white stripes. I have a toy octopus on my head.
So Many Decisions To Be Made (24 and a half weeks)
 
#SoWeFinallyBoughtSomeBabyStuff
#ThereWereSomeGoodSalesOn
#SoWeOrderedSomeBabyClothes
#AndThenISawSomeCuteToysSoIBoughtACouple
#ItFeelsLikeWeAreCursingThingsByBuyingStuff
#ButIAlsoDoNotWantToGetCaughtOutByHavingNothing
#ObviouslyTheBabyWillNotKnowIfItHasToysOrNotInTheBeginning
#ButThingsLikeClothesAreNecessary
#SoManyDecisionsToBeMade
#ThingsAreSeemingMoreReal
#ThoughIAlsoDoStillForgetThatIAmPregnantSometimes
#IFeltSoHeavyNotLongAgoButIFeelLighterTheseDays
#MaybeItIsAllTheStretchingIAmDoing
#AndOrMaybeIAmNotEatingSuchBigMealsNow
#IDoASquatPoseInTheMorning
#ButInTheEveningItIsHarderAsMyBellyIsFuller
#IBoughtAHypnobirthingCourseAfterAFriendsRecommendation
#INeedToStartDoingThatJustInCaseAsAgainIDoNotWantToGetCaughtOut
#IKeepReadingThingsAboutPeopleWhoDidNotWantToBeParents
#WhereasIDoButIWorryThatIWillBeRubbish
#ThoughIRememberGoingToSeeMyNieceForTheFirstTimeAndBeingWorriedAsIHadNotBeenAroundABabyForALongTime
#ButISoonGotOverTheNervousness
#ThoughIWasJustEntertainingHerAndNotDoingHerWholeRoutineAndBeingAroundHerAllDayEveryDay
#ICanOnlyDoMyBest
#AndSoonWeWillDoAnNCTCourseSoHopefullyWeWillNotBeTooClueless
#IFeelLikeTiagoIsGoodWithKids
#IAmLookingForwardToSeeingHimAsAFather
#IGotAKickTrackingAppYesterdayToTryToMakeMeFeelBetter
#ThoughIAmNotMonitoringHowManyKicksYetButJustWhenIFeelItMoving
#TodayIHaveNotFeltItMoveMuchButIThinkIHaveNotBeenThinkingAboutItAsMuchAsYesterday

This shoot was a bit bad. It was definitely a day when I was struggling with ideas…

It’s funny now as it’s gone from being a toy that we bought to it being B’s toy that she does interact with from time to time.

#ObviouslyTheBabyWillNotKnowIfItHasToysOrNotInTheBeginning

B has only really started to interact with the toys she had then, quite recently. Especially cuddly toys.

We aren’t going to do the hypnobirthing course again, but I have the book of it which we are both planning to read again. I need to get on with it really as time is flying by…

I downloaded an app to monitor kicks but I have only used it once. This baby seems more active, so I feel reassured. I am being kicked/punched right now…


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33 / Portrait Of A Mother Of A Sixteen Month Old (24 Weeks / October 2021)

Self-portrait with B. I am holding her in my arms and she is touching my face with both of her hands. Her right foot has been photoshopped (duplicated and mirrored) over her eye, nose and mouth.
33 / Portrait Of A Mother Of A Sixteen Month Old (24 Weeks / October 2021)
 
#IHaveAlreadyDoneTheShootForOnceAndWasTryingToCopyTheShootThatBAndIDidTogetherWhenITurned32
#BackThenThoughSheDidNotMoveAboutMuchSoTodayWasAMassiveWriggleFest
#AtOnePointSheWasJustMessingWithMyFaceAndAsHerNailsNeedToBeCutMyLipHurtsABit
#HerNewFavouriteThingIsStandingUpOnHerBouncingZebraToyAndOnHerSmallCar
#SheHasBeenThreateningToDoItForAWhileSoIWasImpressedWhenSheActuallyStoodUpOnThemAndWithSoMuchControl
#IGuessAllTheClimbingOnHerFrameAndRampAndStandingInTheWobblyCarAtTheParkHasReallyImprovedHerBalanceAndCoreStrength
#AtTheWeekendWeWentToSeeMyParentsAndBHadLotsOfFunExploringTheirGarden
#TheyHaveOfferedToWatchBForAWeekendSoWeHaveJustBookedIntoAHotelWhereThereIsAPoolAndWeIntendToJustSwimEatAndSleep
#WeThoughtItWasAtLeastABitOfADriveFromTheirHouseButItIsOnly15MinutesAwayWhichIGuessIsGoodInCaseWeNeedToGetBackForAnyReason
#TypicallyAsSoonAsTheySaidTheyWouldHaveHerSheDidNotSleepVeryWellThatNightAtAll
#SheHasAMouthFullOfTeethNowButIThinkSheIsGoingThroughAParticularlyBadTeethingPhase
#WeTriedToSeeIfSheWouldSettleButAfterAWhileWeHadToGoInWithParacetamolAndAfterAnotherVisitWhereWeBothLaidWithHerInHerCotSheFinallyWentToSleepTwoHoursLater
#YesterdaySheMissedHerMorningNapWhichIThinkWasDueToMeForgettingToGiveHerParacetamol
#IHaveHadMyFluVaccineNowWhichIsGoodAndMyArmDidNotHurtAtAllOrAnything
#TwoHoursAfterTheAppointmentAtAPharmacyMyDoctorsMessagedToSayICouldHaveAFluJabWithThemThisWeek
#YesterdayWeDugOutTheRestOfMyMaternityPillowAsIHaveJustBeenUsingASmallSectionOfItForWeeks
#IFindMyselfWakingUpALotMoreAtNightNowAndOftenOnMyBackWhichIsNotGood
#IFeelLikeMyBumpIsGettingSoBigThatICanNotImagineItGettingMuchBiggerButIKnowItWill
#INeedToStartReadingHypnobirthingStuffAgainAndMentallyPreparingMyselfForTheBirth
#ThisWeekISaidToTiagoThatWeNeedToStartThinkingAboutBabyNamesAgain
#HeJustTurnedToBAndSaidTheNextSoundYouMakeWillBeTheNameOfYourSister
#WeBothWatchedHerWithAnticipationAndAfterALittleWhileSheDidABurp
#IAmTryingToImagineHowItWillBeOnMyNextBirthdayWhenIAm34AndWillMostLikelyHaveTwoKids
#ThePictureWillDefinitelyBeMoreOfAStruggleForSure
#IKeepSayingItButIKnowIWillNeedToAcceptThatThereWillBeLessTimeForMeForAWhile
#AtTheMomentTiagoUsuallyGetsBUpAndGivesHerBreakfastWhileIStretchAndFaffABit
#WithANewbornIKnowThatTimeWillProbablyBecomeBabyFeedingTimeAndIWillJustNeedToRestWhenICan
#WeOrderedAnIndianTakeawayLastNightThatWeWillAlsoHaveForDinnerTonight
#TiagoGetsStressedOutAboutPresentsEveryYearButIDoNotReallyWantAnything
#IAmOwedAFewMassagesThatHaveBeenGiftedForBirthdaysAndHolidaysEtcFromHimViaWordSoMaybeIWillActuallyGetOneOnOurWeekendAway

#IHaveAlreadyDoneTheShootForOnceAndWasTryingToCopyTheShootThatBAndIDidTogetherWhenITurned32

We did the shoot before her first nap.

(32 shoot.)

#BackThenThoughSheDidNotMoveAboutMuchSoTodayWasAMassiveWriggleFest

I was a bit nervous about how it would go, which was why I was keen to do it asap today.

#AtOnePointSheWasJustMessingWithMyFaceAndAsHerNailsNeedToBeCutMyLipHurtsABit

She found it hilarious. There is a series of her laughing her head off at me.

She was grumpy in the beginning, but then she got into it – especially when she could see the photos of herself and steal my remote.

#HerNewFavouriteThingIsStandingUpOnHerBouncingZebraToyAndOnHerSmallCar

Now I can not look away as you never know what daredevil stunt she will be doing next.

#SheHasBeenThreateningToDoItForAWhileSoIWasImpressedWhenSheActuallyStoodUpOnThemAndWithSoMuchControl

The zebra is quite tall, but she stands up quite slowly and steadily. She does fall off from time to time though.

She was standing on the car in the kitchen and fell off a couple of times. That one does move as it has wheels. The zebra does rotate though.

#IGuessAllTheClimbingOnHerFrameAndRampAndStandingInTheWobblyCarAtTheParkHasReallyImprovedHerBalanceAndCoreStrength

I am quite impressed considering how often she falls over and I thought for a while that her balance was terrible, so it has improved quickly.

#AtTheWeekendWeWentToSeeMyParentsAndBHadLotsOfFunExploringTheirGarden

For a while she just sat playing with stones, she was super intrigued by their cat, and a bit freaked out by their turkeys.

#TheyHaveOfferedToWatchBForAWeekendSoWeHaveJustBookedIntoAHotelWhereThereIsAPoolAndWeIntendToJustSwimEatAndSleep

It will be our first over night stay away from B as a couple. Weird. It is nice to think of grand schemes to get up to, but yeah we just want to sleep, watch some crap TV, eat some nice food and swim. I need to get a new swimming costume as the one I wore in summer was tight then.

#WeThoughtItWasAtLeastABitOfADriveFromTheirHouseButItIsOnly15MinutesAwayWhichIGuessIsGoodInCaseWeNeedToGetBackForAnyReason

I was just looking for places with a pool and my geography is obviously really terrible. I feel so tired writing this. I think the reviews said the beds are comfy.

#TypicallyAsSoonAsTheySaidTheyWouldHaveHerSheDidNotSleepVeryWellThatNightAtAll

She does not cry much usually, but she was crying quite heavily. We were quite concerned.

#SheHasAMouthFullOfTeethNowButIThinkSheIsGoingThroughAParticularlyBadTeethingPhase

Maybe it was affecting her ears as well? At first I thought it was an ear infection.

#WeTriedToSeeIfSheWouldSettleButAfterAWhileWeHadToGoInWithParacetamolAndAfterAnotherVisitWhereWeBothLaidWithHerInHerCotSheFinallyWentToSleepTwoHoursLater

We were conflicted over her sleep training, and naturally reacting to how we saw her. Tiago did cuddle her a lot the first time round until she calmed down, but she was still upset.

So after a while he went in again and as she was still crying I also went in. We laid in her cot with her and before long she was clapping and laughing, so I read her bedtime story and sang Twinkle Twinkle to her to let her know it was bedtime, then she settled. Phew.

#YesterdaySheMissedHerMorningNapWhichIThinkWasDueToMeForgettingToGiveHerParacetamol

I planned to give it to her, but forgot. We usually don’t use the syringe that comes with it, so I have to use that now and realised that we haven’t been giving her the full dose that she is allowed so hopefully by doing that she will be in less pain now.

#IHaveHadMyFluVaccineNowWhichIsGoodAndMyArmDidNotHurtAtAllOrAnything

Hurrah. I have been tired, but I think that is a normal pregnancy symptom…

#TwoHoursAfterTheAppointmentAtAPharmacyMyDoctorsMessagedToSayICouldHaveAFluJabWithThemThisWeek

Typical. It would have been easier. Oh well.

#YesterdayWeDugOutTheRestOfMyMaternityPillowAsIHaveJustBeenUsingASmallSectionOfItForWeeks

I was reading about how I need to support my whole body more, so I thought we better find it. It was vacuum packed in the garage.

#IFindMyselfWakingUpALotMoreAtNightNowAndOftenOnMyBackWhichIsNotGood

Often I wake up on my back and know I shouldn’t be on my back, but just kind of end up staying there. Whoops.

#IFeelLikeMyBumpIsGettingSoBigThatICanNotImagineItGettingMuchBiggerButIKnowItWill

Definitely less space for food these days.

#INeedToStartReadingHypnobirthingStuffAgainAndMentallyPreparingMyselfForTheBirth

I’m going to finish reading Dave Grohl’s book then I’ll start reading my hypnobirthing books.

#ThisWeekISaidToTiagoThatWeNeedToStartThinkingAboutBabyNamesAgain

With B we didn’t have that many thinking sessions about them. We had one early on and then left it for ages. It seems to be our approach this time around too…

#HeJustTurnedToBAndSaidTheNextSoundYouMakeWillBeTheNameOfYourSister

She does babble quite a lot now so I was wondering what she would say.

#WeBothWatchedHerWithAnticipationAndAfterALittleWhileSheDidABurp

Classic B.

#IAmTryingToImagineHowItWillBeOnMyNextBirthdayWhenIAm34AndWillMostLikelyHaveTwoKids

I say ‘most likely’ as I am still quite anxious about things.

#ThePictureWillDefinitelyBeMoreOfAStruggleForSure

I might need to recruit Tiago, or I imagine B might be stood at my feet just pulling on my top. I will have probably mastered how to hold both of them, but who knows.

#IKeepSayingItButIKnowIWillNeedToAcceptThatThereWillBeLessTimeForMeForAWhile

I thought about it again this morning.

#AtTheMomentTiagoUsuallyGetsBUpAndGivesHerBreakfastWhileIStretchAndFaffABit

Not too shabby.

#WithANewbornIKnowThatTimeWillProbablyBecomeBabyFeedingTimeAndIWillJustNeedToRestWhenICan

Less reading, less working, more just resting when I can and looking after my kids. It’s weird to say kids.

#WeOrderedAnIndianTakeawayLastNightThatWeWillAlsoHaveForDinnerTonight

Tiago thought about ordering from somewhere more fancy, but I like our local place. I know what we like. We ordered a couple of different things for once too and they were good.

#TiagoGetsStressedOutAboutPresentsEveryYearButIDoNotReallyWantAnything

If I want something I usually get it for myself.

#IAmOwedAFewMassagesThatHaveBeenGiftedForBirthdaysAndHolidaysEtcFromHimViaWordSoMaybeIWillActuallyGetOneOnOurWeekendAway

Covid, B and life have just stopped me having one. I definitely want a proper one after Baby X is born. I haven’t had many in my life, but I know it will be good for my body, and me.

24 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Diptych where in both I am stood sideways with my left arm forward, my right arm hanging down with a remote, my left leg is forward and my right leg is back. In the first I am breathing out and my bump is visible, in the second I am breathing in and my bump is a bit smaller.
I Tried To Suck In My Bump, But It Didn’t Really Work (24 weeks)
 
#BeforeIWasPregnantIDidNotLikeWearingTightTops
#IBoughtSomeForTheWinterThisYearButDidNotRealiseTheyWereSoTight
#AsTheyWereInPacketsAndIThoughtTheyWereLikeTheOnesIAlreadyHad
#WellIGuessIStillDoNotLikeWearingTightTopsButIHaveBeenWearingThem
#ISupposeIWantToTakeAdvantageOfTheFactThatBumpsAreSeenAsBeautiful
#ThoughNowIAmAtThePointWhereILoveMyBumpButIFeelAwkwardWhenPeopleNoticeIt
#IWoreThisTopTheOtherDayButDidNotThinkMuchAsIWasGoingToWearAJumperOverIt
#ButIWasWarmSoIWasAtTheOfficeAndFeltSelfConsciousWalkingDownTheCorridor
#WhenIWalkedPastAnOfficeWithAnOpenDoorITriedToSuckInMyBump
#ButIRealisedThatItDidNotChangeMuch
#ThenInTheEveningAGroupOfUsWentOutForDinner
#AndItWasHotSoISatInMyTopFeelingAwkward
#ThenWhenIWentToTheBathroomITriedToBreatheInMyBumpABit
#AndPutMyArmsInAWayToTryToCoverItABit
#IGuessIThoughtPeopleWouldJudgeMeForBeingPregnantAndWearingATightTop
#NoMatterHowYouLookAsAWomanYouWillBeCriticisedForSomethingAnyways
#InOtherNewsIAmABitWorriedAboutTheCoronaVirus
#IfIWasNotPregnantThenIWouldNotBeSoWorried
#ButBecauseIAmIDoNotKnowHowItWouldAffectTheBaby
#WouldItHaveLongTermHealthProblemsBecauseOfIt
#WhoKnows
#IAmJustWashingMyHandsMore
#AndSideEyeingPeopleWhoCoughWithNoAttemptToCoverTheirMouthInPublic
#HopefullyItWillBeUnderControlSoon
#IForgotToMentionInMyLastPhotoThatIHadSuchABadHipPainACoupleOfDaysBeforeThePictureWasTaken
#IThinkIJustOverStretchedItBySittingWithButterflyLegsForTooLong
#ButThenItWasReallyAwkwardForMeToWalkForTwoDays
#IStretchedMoreAndGotOverItLuckily
#GettingBoredOfHavingToStretchSoMuch
#ButIFeelGoodAfterwards

I am currently (31st October) sat in one of my tight tops. I feel less awkward as no one really sees me these days. I have breathed in a few times in the mirror to see if it makes a difference, but at this point it does not.

‘#HopefullyItWillBeUnderControlSoon’

I can’t believe that Covid is still a thing and cases are going up… At least we have vaccines now. I have been less scared now that I am double vaccinated, and I feel better for having the flu jab as well.

I have been stretching more this time, so I think that is helping a lot.


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Imitating B Wearing My Pants On Her Head (23 Weeks / 9th October 2021)

Self-portrait diptych. I am wearing a black dress with white stripes in both. In the left image I have pants on my head in a way that looks more like a hat. On the right a leg hole follows my nose and shows the left side of my face.
Imitating B Wearing My Pants On Her Head (23 Weeks / 9th October 2021)
 
#IHaveMentionedBeforeThatBLikesToPutThingsOnHerHeadAndOrAroundHerNeck
#AParticularFavouriteIsGettingMyPantsFromTheClothesLineAndPuttingThemOnHerHead
#ItIsFunnyButItAlsoScaresMeABitSoWeNeedToKeepAnEyeOnHerAtAllTimes
#IWishSheCouldSayWhySheLikesToDoItSoMuchButSheIsStillJustBabblingALot
#IFeelLikeIShouldTalkAboutHowIAmFeelingThisPregnancyAsIThinkThatIHaveNotReallySpokenAboutItMuch
#IHaveBeenHavingALotOfDaydreamsWhereSomethingBadHappensToBabyXEitherNowOrAtTheBirth
#OftenIDaydreamForQuiteALongTimeBeforeIRealiseWhatIAmDoingAndSnapMyselfOutOfIt
#SometimesIDoNotFeelTheBabyForQuiteAWhileButIKnowItIsProbablyBecauseIAmRunningAroundAfterB
#ThoughLastNightIThinkICouldFeelHerHiccuppingForAWhileSoThatWasARelief
#IDidNotFeelBMoveThatMuchReallyAndSheHiccuppedALotTooWhichWasAGoodIndicationThatSheWasOkay
#AtLeastBIsAGoodDistractionWhoMakesTimeFlyButIAmStillQuiteAnxiousWithThisPregnancy
#IMessagedMyMidwifeYesterdayAsIHadNotBeenOfferedTheWhoppingCoughVaccineAndSheSaidToCallMyDoctors
#SoIDidThatAndThatWillBeInAFewWeeksAndSheAlsoEmailedMeMyMaternityExemptionCertificate
#TheDoctorsSaidIJustNeedToAskForMyFluVaccineAtTheSameTimeButIDoNotWantToWaitThatLongForIt
#SoIBookedWithAPharmacyToGetThatDoneThisWeekAsIKnowPeopleMyAgeWhoHaveBeenGettingTheFluQuiteBadThisYear
#YesterdayAfterBreakfastIFeltLikeIWasGettingSomeAcidRefluxWhichIHaveNotHadMuchOfYetAndICanFeelItABitNowWhichIThinkMayBeCausedByOrangeJuice
#ReadingAdviceTheySayToEatSmallMealsButOnceIEatIGenerallyCanNotStopSoIThinkTheTimeHasComeToShowSomeRestraint
#MyBumpIsGettingQuiteBigNowAndIFindItHardToImagineHowMuchMoreItCanGrowBeforeTheBabyIsBorn
#SoItMakesSenseThatINeedToEatLittleAndOftenInsteadOfALotAndInfrequently
#LastNightIWasAwakeForAboutTwoHoursFromTwoInTheMorningWhichWasAnnoyingAsIHaveNotHadThatMuchInsomnia
#IWasJustReallyHotAndThirstyAndThenMyBrainWouldNotLetMeGoBackToSleepSoThatWasFun
#IWasMainlyThinkingAboutSendingBToNurseryAndForHowMuchTimeDuringTheWeek
#ItWouldNotBeYetButWeNeedToHaveALookAtThemAndCheckAvailability
#WeSeeAGirlAroundWhoIsTheSameAgeAsBAndTheyGetQuiteExcitedWhenTheySeeEachOther
#SheGoesToTheNurseryThatWeWereLookingAtSoItWouldBeNiceForThemToHangOutMoreAndItIsGoodToHaveARecommendation
#WeWouldProbablyStartOffSendingHerTwoMorningsAWeekInACoupleOfMonthsTimeSoICanHaveSomeTimeToSortOutThingsBeforeBabyXIsBorn
#IWouldRatherSheGoForTwoMorningsThanAFullDayAsAfterAWhileIWouldJustStartToFaff
#TiagoHasStartedToTalkToBumpABitMoreAndFeltSomeMovementLastNight
#HeMadeMeLaughWhenHeWasTellingTheBabyToWakeUpAndSaidWakeyWabyInsteadOfWakeyBaby
#BAlsoMakesMeLaughWithHerEnthusiasmForThingsLikeHerTryingOutTheRampOnHerClimbingFrameByRunningUpAndDownItFiftyTimesPlusLastNight

(Trigger warning: I talk about some of my anxiety during the pregnancy and unpleasant day dreams.)

#IHaveMentionedBeforeThatBLikesToPutThingsOnHerHeadAndOrAroundHerNeck

I think so anyways. The dry skin at the back of her neck has probably been caused by her love of it…

#AParticularFavouriteIsGettingMyPantsFromTheClothesLineAndPuttingThemOnHerHead

I love when she also carries three pairs of my pants around the house too.

#ItIsFunnyButItAlsoScaresMeABitSoWeNeedToKeepAnEyeOnHerAtAllTimes

You can see how kids can easily suffocate themselves on accident…

#IWishSheCouldSayWhySheLikesToDoItSoMuchButSheIsStillJustBabblingALot

It’s probably just because she found she can do it and it usually gets a reaction. Fair enough.

#IFeelLikeIShouldTalkAboutHowIAmFeelingThisPregnancyAsIThinkThatIHaveNotReallySpokenAboutItMuch

I generally plan to, but then end up talking about all the things that B has been up to.

#IHaveBeenHavingALotOfDaydreamsWhereSomethingBadHappensToBabyXEitherNowOrAtTheBirth

Basically, I end up without a second baby.

#OftenIDaydreamForQuiteALongTimeBeforeIRealiseWhatIAmDoingAndSnapMyselfOutOfIt

I imagine the events, the conversations, the feelings, the reactions etc. It’s deep.

#SometimesIDoNotFeelTheBabyForQuiteAWhileButIKnowItIsProbablyBecauseIAmRunningAroundAfterB

I can feel her (I find it weird that I know it’s a girl) moving about now as I am sat writing this, but sometimes I don’t. When B is awake my attention and focus is elsewhere.

#ThoughLastNightIThinkICouldFeelHerHiccuppingForAWhileSoThatWasARelief

I originally wrote them instead of her as I find it weird to say it’s a girl, I think as I didn’t know what B was until she came out.

#IDidNotFeelBMoveThatMuchReallyAndSheHiccuppedALotTooWhichWasAGoodIndicationThatSheWasOkay

Hiccups are reassuring. My Mum said before that my younger sister was the same.

#AtLeastBIsAGoodDistractionWhoMakesTimeFlyButIAmStillQuiteAnxiousWithThisPregnancy

I need to start reading about hypnobirthing again and start mentally preparing myself for the birth. I stretch in the morning and evening, and try to go for a walk or two a day with B so I feel quite strong at least. I just need to get strong mentally.

#IMessagedMyMidwifeYesterdayAsIHadNotBeenOfferedTheWhoppingCoughVaccineAndSheSaidToCallMyDoctors

With B I’m sure they said about booking it quite early on, or maybe I was just on the ball.

#SoIDidThatAndThatWillBeInAFewWeeksAndSheAlsoEmailedMeMyMaternityExemptionCertificate

I’m sure with B they told me to come in the same day, so I was surprised it was a bit of a wait. It’s good that the certificate is not a piece of paper this time – so much more convenient.

#TheDoctorsSaidIJustNeedToAskForMyFluVaccineAtTheSameTimeButIDoNotWantToWaitThatLongForIt

I’m more bothered about getting my flu vaccine now than the whooping cough.

#SoIBookedWithAPharmacyToGetThatDoneThisWeekAsIKnowPeopleMyAgeWhoHaveBeenGettingTheFluQuiteBadThisYear

My Nan got hers at the start of the week. I do not fancy catching the flu.

#YesterdayAfterBreakfastIFeltLikeIWasGettingSomeAcidRefluxWhichIHaveNotHadMuchOfYetAndICanFeelItABitNowWhichIThinkMayBeCausedByOrangeJuice

I’m still loving my hashbrowns and scrambled egg toasted sandwich with a small glass of orange juice.

#ReadingAdviceTheySayToEatSmallMealsButOnceIEatIGenerallyCanNotStopSoIThinkTheTimeHasComeToShowSomeRestraint

I won’t be hungry, but then I’ll just keep eating for ages once I start – especially at lunch.

#MyBumpIsGettingQuiteBigNowAndIFindItHardToImagineHowMuchMoreItCanGrowBeforeTheBabyIsBorn #SoItMakesSenseThatINeedToEatLittleAndOftenInsteadOfALotAndInfrequently

I feel like I am running out of space already.

#LastNightIWasAwakeForAboutTwoHoursFromTwoInTheMorningWhichWasAnnoyingAsIHaveNotHadThatMuchInsomnia

I mentioned it before but it seemed to be a one off, or two night event.

#IWasJustReallyHotAndThirstyAndThenMyBrainWouldNotLetMeGoBackToSleepSoThatWasFun

I thought my Nan had put the heating on, but she hadn’t. By the time I’d checked the thermostat, and gone to the loo I was wide awake.

#IWasMainlyThinkingAboutSendingBToNurseryAndForHowMuchTimeDuringTheWeek

It’s been taking over my brain space for the last 16 hours or so?

#ItWouldNotBeYetButWeNeedToHaveALookAtThemAndCheckAvailability

I’m keen for it to be after B drops down to one nap a day, which isn’t far away, and when baby X isn’t so far away.

#WeSeeAGirlAroundWhoIsTheSameAgeAsBAndTheyGetQuiteExcitedWhenTheySeeEachOther

We see her and her parents at the playground a lot. They’ll see each other from a distance and start smiling and flapping.

#SheGoesToTheNurseryThatWeWereLookingAtSoItWouldBeNiceForThemToHangOutMoreAndItIsGoodToHaveARecommendation

If it’s good enough for her, then it’s good enough for B. Great.

#WeWouldProbablyStartOffSendingHerTwoMorningsAWeekInACoupleOfMonthsTimeSoICanHaveSomeTimeToSortOutThingsBeforeBabyXIsBorn

And just have a bit of time to feel less tired?

#IWouldRatherSheGoForTwoMorningsThanAFullDayAsAfterAWhileIWouldJustStartToFaff

I do not know what I would do for a full day a week without having B around. I have work to do, but it’s more beneficial for it to be two mornings than a whole day. I’d get a lot more done. It’d also break the week up a bit.

#TiagoHasStartedToTalkToBumpABitMoreAndFeltSomeMovementLastNight

He feels the middle of my belly, but I said I feel more movements at the bottom and then he felt something.

#HeMadeMeLaughWhenHeWasTellingTheBabyToWakeUpAndSaidWakeyWabyInsteadOfWakeyBaby

Yeah, not that funny really but we had a good laugh.

#BAlsoMakesMeLaughWithHerEnthusiasmForThingsLikeHerTryingOutTheRampOnHerClimbingFrameByRunningUpAndDownItFiftyTimesPlusLastNight

I was hoping it would wear her out, but she was up just before 6. Zzz.

23 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait diptych. I am wearing a maternity bra and leggings in both. On the left my leggings are covering my bump, and on the right my bump is exposed.
I Am Not Sick, I Am Just Pregnant (23 and a half weeks)
 
#IWasFeelingStressedYesterday
#WorryingAboutTheBabysMovements
#EveryoneTellsMeNotToWorryButItIsEasierSaidThanDone
#IHaveNeverExperiencedPregnancyBeforeSoIDoNotKnowWhatIsNormal
#IWasOnTheFloorEarlierAndWasStrugglingToGetUp
#AndIWasLaughingToMyself
#IHadToGoOntoAllFoursSoThatICouldStandUp
#IKeepThinkingMyBodyIsTheSameAsItUsedToBe
#YesterdayIWasSayingToTiagoThatMaybeIDoNotEvenLookThatPregnant
#AndHeWasLikeYesYouDo
#IGuessLookingDownAtMyselfItSeemsFairlyNormalNowAsItGrowsABitDaily
#ButIGetMoreWeirdedOutWhenILookInTheMirror
#IDefinitelyLookedMorePregnantInMyDanceVideosToday
#ItIsWeirdLookingBackAtOlderPhotosThoughOfWhenIThoughtIStartedToLookPregnant
#AndIBarelyLookPregnantComparedToNow
#IAmAlsoFeelingAnnoyedAboutWorkAndOpportunities
#WhenIWasTryingToGetPregnantNothingReallyCameUp
#AndAsSoonAsIGotPregnantIStartedToGetApproachedForThings
#IFeelLikeIHaveBeenTurnedDownForThingsBecauseIAmPregnant
#ButInsteadOfThemHavingAConversationWithMeAboutWhatIFeelAbleToDo
#TheyChooseToShutItDownAndJustStartIgnoringMe
#MaybeItIsNotBecauseIAmPregnant
#ButEitherWayJustSaySorryWeDoNotWantToWorkWithYou
#ByThemNotSayingThatAndNotTalkingWithMe
#ItJustFeelsLikeItIsDiscriminationBecauseIAmPregnant
#ButByThemNotChoosingToTalkAboutItThenICanNotCallItDiscrimination
#IAmPostingThisProjectOnlineNowAndIThinkPeopleThinkIAmPostingItInRealTime
#IAmStillWorkingIAmStillMakingWorkIAmStillDancingIExerciseTwiceADay
#IAmNotSickIAmJustPregnant
#IKnowHavingAKidMeansIWillHaveToTurnDownCertainOpportunitiesButIAlsoFeelLikeMaybeIAmAlreadyOnADoNotHireListNow

Another unintentional pairing of comparison pictures – two diptychs. They also both talk about anxiety during pregnancy.

I decided to have another baby as soon as possible as I felt like it would be good to get the baby stage done and then hopefully in the not so distant future I can apply for bigger opportunities again. I also do think it will be good for them to be close in age.

I feel like since becoming a parent I have been approached for less opportunities, but maybe it’s because Covid is also a big part of life now and that also affects things?

I had to turn down one opportunity when I was pregnant with B as it was for international travel around the time B was due, but I guess it got cancelled due to Covid anyways.


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I Didn’t Get A Photo Of Me In My Dress On Our First UK Couple Night Out Since B Was Born, So I’m Taking One Now (23 Weeks / 5th October 2021)

Self-portrait in a very colourful dress. I have my right hand on my back and I am resting my chin on my left wrist/arm.
I Didn’t Get A Photo Of Me In My Dress On Our First UK Couple Night Out Since B Was Born, So I’m Taking One Now (23 Weeks / 5th October 2021)
 
#SoWeWentAwayForTheWeekendToGoToAWeddingReceptionAndSeeFriendsFromOurLiverpoolDays
#WeLeftOnTheFridayJustAfterBsSecondNapAndTheTrafficWasBadAndItWasStressful
#LuckilyIHadDownloadedSomeTeletubbiesAndSomethingSpecialOntoMyPhoneAsAJustInCaseMeasure
#BHasStartedToWatchMoreOfShowsInTheLastCoupleOfWeeksRatherThanJustTheThemeTunes
#MyArmWasAchingFromHoldingThePhoneAndISuddenlyHadHadAFlashBackToBeingAKidInTheCarWithAnArmRest
#IWonderedIfOurCarHadOneAndThenItWasANiceSurpriseToFindItDid
#WeGotThroughItAndBWasSurprisedToSeeSomePeopleAtMyFriendsHouseButWasThenFine
#WeLetHerStayUpABitLateAndIShowedMyFriendHerBedtimeRoutineAndSheWentToSleepFine
#TheNextDayWeWentToAFirstBirthdayPartyWhichWasNice
#WeTookHerHomeForHerSecondNapAndSheWasFineUntilWeWokeHerUp
#SheKeptCryingAndNothingReallySeemedToHelp
#AtHomeWeWouldUsuallyTakeHerOutForAWalkOrSomethingToTryToChangeHerMoodButTheWeatherWasNotNice
#WeTriedToGiveHerDinnerButSheWouldNotHaveItSoWeTookHerOutOfHerHighChair
#ThenAfterAWhileWePutHerBackInAndPutTheClappingSongOnAndSheSeemedOkay
#WeWereDueToGoToAWeddingReceptionAndItWasGettingLate
#TiagoWasGoingToDropMeOffWithBInTheCarThenComeJoinMeAfterSheWentToBed
#ButThenSheSeemedOkayAndOurFriendSaidWeShouldGoAndThenSheWouldLetUsKnowHowBWasGettingOn
#ItHadBeenAStruggleFindingADressForMeToWearAsMyUsualOnesWereNotWeddingPartyEnoughAndTheOneIWantedToWearDidNotFit
#ThenIFoundThisDressThatICanNotRememberTheLastTimeIWoreItButItSeemedToFitTheThemeAndICouldFitInItSoItSeemedLikeAWinner
#ByTheTimeWeGotThereItWasJustAboutBsBedtimeAndMyFriendSaidSheWasInABetterMood
#TiagoAndIHadNotHadANightOutInTheUKSinceBWasBornAndByThisPointWeWereQuiteStressedOut
#WalkingIntoTheVenueWeFeltOverwhelmedByAllThePeopleAndLoudMusic
#WeHadDoneFlowTestsBeforeWeArrivedAsInstructedToButItWasStillWeirdToSeeSoManyPeopleWithoutMasks
#WeDidNotKnowAnyoneAtTheWeddingBesidesTheBrideAndGroomSoWeFeltQuiteAwkwardAndEndedUpNotStayingVeryLong
#WeThoughtWeShouldMakeTheMostOfOurOneNightOfFreedomAsWeKnowWeWillNotHaveManyBeforeBabyXIsBornButWeJustWantedToGoHome
#OurFriendHadSomeFriendsRoundWhoWeKnewSoItWasNiceToJustRelaxInAHouseWithPeopleKnowingBWasFineUpstairsAndChatToPeopleLikeOldTimes
#TheNextDayWeHadToTakeBOutOfHerHighChairAtLunchAndTryAgainLaterSoNowIAmTryingToNotGiveHerSnacksBetweenMealsToSeeIfThisHelps
#YesterdaySheAteMoreOfHerLunchThanNormalSoWeCouldBeOnToAWinnerThere
#IReallyNeedToWorkWithBOnLearningSignsAsItWouldBeSoMuchEasierIfWeCouldCommunicateBetter
#IThinkSheHasACoupleMoreTeethComingThroughAndSheIsMoreSensitiveToUsSayingNoToHerAboutThingsNow
 

I’m going to attempt to write this blog post while B plays around me. I had planned to do it during her nap, but something that was meant to take 5 minutes has not been sorted yet.

I feel a bit awkward writing this post as I know my friends who are talked about in this might read this, but I’m not saying anything bad. I’m just saying how things went and how we felt.

#SoWeWentAwayForTheWeekendToGoToAWeddingReceptionAndSeeFriendsFromOurLiverpoolDays

Great.

#WeLeftOnTheFridayJustAfterBsSecondNapAndTheTrafficWasBadAndItWasStressful

We’d managed to get petrol so that was one thing. Trying to entertain B in the car for 2 and a half hours was a barrel of fun.

#LuckilyIHadDownloadedSomeTeletubbiesAndSomethingSpecialOntoMyPhoneAsAJustInCaseMeasure #BHasStartedToWatchMoreOfShowsInTheLastCoupleOfWeeksRatherThanJustTheThemeTunes

I read her about 5 books first before resorting to them. I said I’d never let my kids have lots of screen time, but desperate times mean desperate measures.

I had brought lots of snacks and a picnic dinner for her.

#MyArmWasAchingFromHoldingThePhoneAndISuddenlyHadHadAFlashBackToBeingAKidInTheCarWithAnArmRest #IWonderedIfOurCarHadOneAndThenItWasANiceSurpriseToFindItDid

Wahoo. Tiago wasn’t sure if he even knew about it. How many trips have I done in the back of the car without realising it was there? It has a drinks holder too, so I felt a bit posh with B’s cup in one and mine in the other.

#WeGotThroughItAndBWasSurprisedToSeeSomePeopleAtMyFriendsHouseButWasThenFine

She was a bit shy, but then she got over it quite quickly.

#WeLetHerStayUpABitLateAndIShowedMyFriendHerBedtimeRoutineAndSheWentToSleepFine

We thought she might as well enjoy hanging out with people she doesn’t see very often, and from our time in Portugal we know her staying up a little bit late doesn’t do her any harm from time to time. (She went to bed at 9, rather than 8.)

#TheNextDayWeWentToAFirstBirthdayPartyWhichWasNice

We were supposed to go to a zoo, but the weather forecast looked bad so we went to their house instead. Typically the weather was okay until much later in the day.

#WeTookHerHomeForHerSecondNapAndSheWasFineUntilWeWokeHerUp

Sometimes she is not in a great mood after we wake her up from that nap.

#SheKeptCryingAndNothingReallySeemedToHelp #AtHomeWeWouldUsuallyTakeHerOutForAWalkOrSomethingToTryToChangeHerMoodButTheWeatherWasNotNice

It’s always fun trying to figure out what to do without all your usual tools and distractions nearby. At home we would have probably gone out with an umbrella, but we didn’t know where to go in that area.

#WeTriedToGiveHerDinnerButSheWouldNotHaveItSoWeTookHerOutOfHerHighChair

Maybe she wasn’t hungry? Maybe she was teething? We did give her some paracetamol as she had started to put her fingers in her mouth.

#ThenAfterAWhileWePutHerBackInAndPutTheClappingSongOnAndSheSeemedOkay

At home we do use music as a big distraction. I’m so bored of The Clapping song (by Shirley Ellis) now.

#WeWereDueToGoToAWeddingReceptionAndItWasGettingLate

The invite said from 6 and it was probably around 6.45 by this point.

#TiagoWasGoingToDropMeOffWithBInTheCarThenComeJoinMeAfterSheWentToBed

I didn’t want to wait until B went to bed, as what if she was miserable for ages and we missed it.

#ButThenSheSeemedOkayAndOurFriendSaidWeShouldGoAndThenSheWouldLetUsKnowHowBWasGettingOn

It seemed the same as Tiago dropping me off with B in the car, except B would be at home so if things were okay then he could stay.

#ItHadBeenAStruggleFindingADressForMeToWearAsMyUsualOnesWereNotWeddingPartyEnoughAndTheOneIWantedToWearDidNotFit

I get stressed enough about wedding attire as it is, let alone being pregnant. The last wedding dress experience didn’t go very well, so that was a definite no.

#ThenIFoundThisDressThatICanNotRememberTheLastTimeIWoreItButItSeemedToFitTheThemeAndICouldFitInItSoItSeemedLikeAWinner

My older sister gave it to me when she worked for a fashion company. I’ve had it since my BA days and have only wore it out a few times, but have worn it for photo shoots.

#ByTheTimeWeGotThereItWasJustAboutBsBedtimeAndMyFriendSaidSheWasInABetterMood

Hurrah.

#TiagoAndIHadNotHadANightOutInTheUKSinceBWasBornAndByThisPointWeWereQuiteStressedOut

We hadn’t had a night out until we went to Portugal and Tiago’s parents would keep an eye on her after she went to bed. Our friend was the first person who had put her to bed besides us.

#WalkingIntoTheVenueWeFeltOverwhelmedByAllThePeopleAndLoudMusic

Well, maybe it was more me than Tiago. I just found it odd. I think I had been expecting less people for some reason.

#WeHadDoneFlowTestsBeforeWeArrivedAsInstructedToButItWasStillWeirdToSeeSoManyPeopleWithoutMasks

We had brought masks with us just in case. I saw one guy around our age wearing one, but no one else. I’ve had my second jab so I feel better about things, but I am still worried about catching Covid.

#WeDidNotKnowAnyoneAtTheWeddingBesidesTheBrideAndGroomSoWeFeltQuiteAwkwardAndEndedUpNotStayingVeryLong

Another couple we know weren’t able to go in the end. If you’ve been at a wedding all day it’s different as you have seats you can sit in and you’ve spoke to people next to you on the table. We just felt really awkward. We had some alcohol free drinks, and danced on the spot. People seemed to be in groups, so we said hi to the groom (the bride was too in demand) and then left. Sorry to my friend if he reads this, but I don’t think our company was missed.

I do think we were great guests though – we didn’t cost them any money by being there and we donated to their honeymood fund.

#WeThoughtWeShouldMakeTheMostOfOurOneNightOfFreedomAsWeKnowWeWillNotHaveManyBeforeBabyXIsBornButWeJustWantedToGoHome

This may have been our last one. We thought about going out for dinner, but on the way there I said can we just go home please.

#OurFriendHadSomeFriendsRoundWhoWeKnewSoItWasNiceToJustRelaxInAHouseWithPeopleKnowingBWasFineUpstairsAndChatToPeopleLikeOldTimes

They’d just ordered pizza, and we felt more relaxed being home to keep an eye on B (not that we didn’t trust her babysitters) and with a group of people we knew. I changed out of my outfit pretty quick.

I’d wanted Tiago to take a picture of me in my dress, but I felt so awkward at the party that I would have felt embarrassed for him to take it there – hence why I will do a shoot that fits this title later on.

#TheNextDayWeHadToTakeBOutOfHerHighChairAtLunchAndTryAgainLaterSoNowIAmTryingToNotGiveHerSnacksBetweenMealsToSeeIfThisHelps

Our friend had some family round and she may have had some chocolate pretzel, so I do not think she was hungry. I will try to give her lunch around 12:30/12:45 now instead of 1.

#YesterdaySheAteMoreOfHerLunchThanNormalSoWeCouldBeOnToAWinnerThere

It was about 12:45. She has a big breakfast – lots of porridge pancakes that she eats quick – and then usually steals some of my Nan’s and my breakfast (scrambled eggs and crusts).

#IReallyNeedToWorkWithBOnLearningSignsAsItWouldBeSoMuchEasierIfWeCouldCommunicateBetter

I think we all get frustrated these days with not knowing what she really wants.

#IThinkSheHasACoupleMoreTeethComingThroughAndSheIsMoreSensitiveToUsSayingNoToHerAboutThingsNow

This morning she tipped her head back and I could see two upper teeth coming through, though maybe she has more as I thought she had been touching the bottom of her mouth but maybe not.

I changed her nappy and she kept trying to put her hands in it, so I shouted ‘B, no!’, so Tiago came in and then she got upset.

I’m sorry B.

23 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Full length self-portrait. I'm wearing a hat with ears, which also has two big pink dangly bobbles. I have a grey jumper, navy coat, cropped trousers and boots on too.
I Usually Wear This Outfit When I Leave Home These Days (23 weeks)
 
#IUsuallyWearThisOutfitWhenILeaveTheHomeTheseDays
#AJumperThatIGotFromMySisterForSecretSanta
#AndSomeTrousersThatIBoughtFromHerProbablyAFewYearsAgoButHadNotReallyWornMuchBefore
#IStartedToWearMyOldBootsEarlyOnInThePregnancyAsIFeelLikeINearlySlipOverALotInMyTrainers
#WhichWasFineBeforeButNotNow
#AndThenIAlwaysHaveToWalkByAMassivePuddleWhereIWorryAboutGettingSplashedByCars
#SoWithMyBootsICanWalkInASmallerPuddleToGetAwayFromIt
#AndAlsoHaveToWorryAboutWhereITreadAllTheTimeAsIDoNotGetWetFeet
#IHaveALotOfHeatTechTopsThatIHaveBeenWearingAllWinter
#SoIAmUsuallyWearingOneOfThoseAsTheyKeepMeWarmAndIDoNotGetSweaty
#DoubleWin
#TheSockChoiceIsImportantAsSomeFallDownEasilyWithTheBootsLikeTheOnesIAmWearingForThisPhoto
#ThenIWearMyCoatWhichIGotTheWeekBeforeIFoundOutIWasPregnant
#ICanStillDoItUpButNotForMuchLonger
#SoHopefullyWarmerWeatherIsComingSoonSoICanJustWearItUnzipped
#AndThenTheHatThatMyMumGotMeWhichFeaturesInMyUlteriorMonologueProject
#IFeelAwkwardWearingItButItKeepsMeWarm
#IOftenCatchPeopleStaringAtMeAndIAmLikeOhItIsProbablyBecauseOfMyHat
#NowMyBumpIsShowingMoreIWonderIfTheyThinkIAmAYoungMother
#AsIDoNotThinkThatILookLikeIAmInMyEarly30sMostOfTheTime
#LetAloneWithAnAnimalHatOn
#IAmStartingToGetHeartburnNow
#IThoughtIHadNeverHadHeartburnBefore
#ButThenIRealisedThatAcidRefluxIsTheSameThingAndIDefinitelyHave
#LastYearIWasGettingItBadBecauseIKeptEatingLate
#IDidMyOwnMadeUpStretchingRoutineLastNightAndNotAVideo
#AndIKeptWakingUpWithPelvisPain
#SoINeedToMakeSureIFollowVideosOrDoAMoreThoroughStretch
#IAmStretchingInThePhoto

Unintentionally the comparison image is also about clothes. I also talk about wearing something that my sister got me, but this jumper was from my younger sister, whereas the dress was from my older sister. Fun fact there.

I haven’t really been wearing this outfit this time. I wear Tiago’s hiking boots when he isn’t wearing them as they’re a lot easier to slip on and off. I do wear the jumper sometimes but it hasn’t been cold enough yet. I do wear the coat. I favour wearing a dress with leggings over the trousers, just as the trousers are cropped and so I do have to wear them with the boots. More fun facts.

I’m now 26 weeks and I do struggle to do the coat up if I have eaten a lot. I will wear the hat once it gets colder. It is hung up waiting for me…

I haven’t had many cases yet where I’ve woken up in the night with acid coming up my throat. I think last night might have been the first time actually (maybe second).

I don’t wake up with pelvis pain so much this time, but maybe it is because I am stretching more, running round after B, and maybe our bed is more comfortable. When we were at Tiago’s parent’s house I don’t think their bed was as comfy and it did cause me a lot of pain at times.

(I’m writing this in late October as I want my blog posts to be up to date to post.)


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Imitating B In A Box (22 Weeks / 29th September 2021)

Self-portrait where I am sat in a grey fabric box. I am wearing a grey dress with black polka dots, and black leggings. My hands are tucking my hair behind my ears.
Imitating B In A Box (22 Weeks / 29th September 2021)
 
#BHasBeenClimbingInBoxesForAWhileButSheEspeciallyLikesThisOneWhichIsInOurBedroom
#WeUsuallyKeepHerPlayTilesInItAndAFewOtherThingsButIGuessIWillHaveToEmptyItToTryToGetInItAtAll
#IHaveRealisedLatelyThatALotOfTheImitationPhotosAreSimilarToPhotosIHaveTakenOfMyselfInThePast
#ButIWasJustDoingThemThenToTryToThinkOfNewWaysToPhotographMyselfOrToJustBeRandom
#TheOtherDayIWasEatingMyLunchAndBSuddenlyStartedToSoundUpsetAndKeptLookingTowardsTheWindow
#IWasABitScaredOfWhatIWouldFindButItWasAWaspActingABitWeirdAndLookingLikeItWasTrailingSomeLiquidBehindIt
#IThoughtBMustHaveBeenStungAsWeHaveSeenALotOfWaspsLatelyAndITryToRemainCalmWhenTheyAreAroundMe
#IWentToGetTiagoAndHeNoticedSomethingOnHerFingerWhichHeRemovedAndTurnedOutToBeAStinger
#LuckilyIWasWaitingForADoctorToCallBackAboutTheDrySkinOnHerNeckAndWhenSheFinallyRangSheSaidToJustKeepAnEyeOnIt
#HerFingerWasABitRedAndSwollenButSheDidNotSeemBotheredByItAndItHasHealedWell
#IAmJustGladThatSheWasNotAllergicToItAndIGuessSheMustHaveTriedToTouchTheWaspOrSomethingWhichIsWhyItStungHer
#TheOtherNightTiagoWasLyingDownInTheLivingRoomPlayingWithBsBallAndItHitAGlassAndHeJumpedUpVeryFast
#HisReactionPlusMeGettingABitAnnoyedProbablyScaredBABitAndHerLipStartedToQuiver
#ISaidDoYouWantACuddleAndWeHadAVeryLovelyCuddleButItIsAShameThatIOnlyGetThemWhenSheIsWorried
#AtLeastTheseDaysItIsLessOfAChoreToBrushHerTeethAndSheWasEvenBrushingHerTeethHerselfAfterwardsLastNight
#IHaveFinallyStartedToFeelABitBroodyAfterSeeingSomeParentsWithSmallBabiesAtTheWeekendWhenWeWentToAnExhibitionOpening
#IAlsoFoundSomePicturesOfBWhenSheWasLessThanAWeekOldAndICanNotBelieveHowMuchSheHasChangedInFifteenMonths
#IGuessItIsGoodThatIAmFeelingABitBroodyAsTimeIsPassingQuicklyButIDoWorryHowItWillBeLookingAfterANewbornAgain
#IAmNotReallyLookingForwardToItAsIFeelABitNervousAboutBreastfeedingAgainButHopefullyItGoesBetterThisTime
#IAmAlsoNotLookingForwardToHavingToGetUpLotsInTheNightButIKnowTheTimeWillFlyByAndBeforeWeKnowItWeWillHaveTwoToddlers
#SheIsStartingToReallyMoveAboutNowAndLastNightItFeltLikeSheWasTicklingMyInsides
#TheWeatherHasBeenReallyRubbishSoIHaveFeltABitTrappedIndoorsAgain
#ThisMorningTheWeatherWasNiceButItTookMeTwentyMinutesToFindBsSecondShoeWhichTurnedOutToBeInTheWashingMachine
#ByTheTimeIFoundItItWasNearlyTimeForHerNapSoWeHadAVeryShortWalkWhichTurnedIntoMeJustCarryingBAboutAsSheWasMoreInterestedInTwigsThanWalking
#NanGotHerBoosterShotWhichIsGoodNewsThoughSheHadToWaitAnHourForIt
#VaccinesUsedToBeSoOrganisedSoIAmNotSureWhatHasHappenedThoughMaybeFuelPanicBuyingHasNotHelped
#TiagoMadeEveryoneSalmonForDinnerLastNightAndEverytimeTheyHaveFishForDinnerMyNanAsksIfIEatItTooAndIJustSayYesNowAsItIsEasierThanArguing
#SheSaidWeMustStartHavingItTwiceAWeekAsItIsSoGoodForMeAndTheBaby
#IHaveNotEatenFishOrMeatIntentionallySinceIWasAbout15AndBTurnedOutFine
#WhenTiagoCanTellIWantMyNanToStopTalkingAboutSomethingHeAsksHerIfSheWantsACupOfTeaOrDessertToMoveHerOffTheSubjectOrToDistractHer

#BHasBeenClimbingInBoxesForAWhileButSheEspeciallyLikesThisOneWhichIsInOurBedroom #WeUsuallyKeepHerPlayTilesInItAndAFewOtherThingsButIGuessIWillHaveToEmptyItToTryToGetInItAtAll

I am not sure when it started, but I guess during some of her online zoom classes we were supposed to put our kids in a clothes basket or something, so I put B in a box instead.

She was all cute sticking her head out of the top of it, but sadly I won’t be able to do that as I’m too big.

#IHaveRealisedLatelyThatALotOfTheImitationPhotosAreSimilarToPhotosIHaveTakenOfMyselfInThePast

I guess this one will resemble me sitting in a bag in 2012.

Maybe that’s a show idea – me pre-kids in projects, with more recent photos of imitating B but the concepts being similar.

#ButIWasJustDoingThemThenToTryToThinkOfNewWaysToPhotographMyselfOrToJustBeRandom

Oh the days where I just had time to be random.

#TheOtherDayIWasEatingMyLunchAndBSuddenlyStartedToSoundUpsetAndKeptLookingTowardsTheWindow
#IWasABitScaredOfWhatIWouldFindButItWasAWaspActingABitWeirdAndLookingLikeItWasTrailingSomeLiquidBehindIt

Weird as in it was at first just kind of lying on the floor on its back, and then it started to go up the window trailing liquid.

#IThoughtBMustHaveBeenStungAsWeHaveSeenALotOfWaspsLatelyAndITryToRemainCalmWhenTheyAreAroundMe

I had a wasp stuck in my hair the other day at the playground and I could hear it buzzing, I still remained calm though. Tiago likes to swat them away, which I don’t think is a good idea – I have told him that.

#IWentToGetTiagoAndHeNoticedSomethingOnHerFingerWhichHeRemovedAndTurnedOutToBeAStinger

I had looked at B and she seemed okay, and didn’t seem obviously stung. It wasn’t like she was waving her finger around or showed it to me.

#LuckilyIWasWaitingForADoctorToCallBackAboutTheDrySkinOnHerNeckAndWhenSheFinallyRangSheSaidToJustKeepAnEyeOnIt

An eye on the sting. We got a prescription for hydrocortisone again for the neck – she had started to scratch it a lot again, so I thought I had better call.

#HerFingerWasABitRedAndSwollenButSheDidNotSeemBotheredByItAndItHasHealedWell

She really did not seem that bothered apart from when she was looking at the wasp. I think she was just annoyed at the wasp/upset that it had hurt her.

#IAmJustGladThatSheWasNotAllergicToItAndIGuessSheMustHaveTriedToTouchTheWaspOrSomethingWhichIsWhyItStungHer

I did closely monitor her after. I am not sure if I have ever been stung by one, but it is good to know that she reacted well to it all.

#TheOtherNightTiagoWasLyingDownInTheLivingRoomPlayingWithBsBallAndItHitAGlassAndHeJumpedUpVeryFast
#HisReactionPlusMeGettingABitAnnoyedProbablyScaredBABitAndHerLipStartedToQuiver
#ISaidDoYouWantACuddleAndWeHadAVeryLovelyCuddleButItIsAShameThatIOnlyGetThemWhenSheIsWorried

I always ask her if I can have a cuddle and she ignores me, which is fair enough as I did ask her question and the answer is obviously no. On this occasion though she came to me and it was very lovely, but yeah I don’t want her to get upset/scared frequently just so I can have nice cuddles.

#AtLeastTheseDaysItIsLessOfAChoreToBrushHerTeethAndSheWasEvenBrushingHerTeethHerselfAfterwardsLastNight

It may or may not be down to me singing the Something Special theme, though now we also play it on our ‘listening device’ and I think she enjoys it a lot more. I also try to make sure she sees me brushing my teeth, so she knows she isn’t the only one who has to do it.

#IHaveFinallyStartedToFeelABitBroodyAfterSeeingSomeParentsWithSmallBabiesAtTheWeekendWhenWeWentToAnExhibitionOpening

A baby asleep in the arms of a man while he waited outside the toilet. Aww.

#IAlsoFoundSomePicturesOfBWhenSheWasLessThanAWeekOldAndICanNotBelieveHowMuchSheHasChangedInFifteenMonths

Awwwww. It is strange how much they do change in a short space of time.

#IGuessItIsGoodThatIAmFeelingABitBroodyAsTimeIsPassingQuicklyButIDoWorryHowItWillBeLookingAfterANewbornAgain

I am excited to meet the little one, but…

#IAmNotReallyLookingForwardToItAsIFeelABitNervousAboutBreastfeedingAgainButHopefullyItGoesBetterThisTime

I am not really looking forward to the sensations of it all (heavy boobs, clogged boobs etc.) and feeling like my body is being taken over, but I am sure it will be fine.

#IAmAlsoNotLookingForwardToHavingToGetUpLotsInTheNightButIKnowTheTimeWillFlyByAndBeforeWeKnowItWeWillHaveTwoToddlers

We are lucky that B sleeps well at night (due to sleep training), but the time will fly by and then we might be sad that we will never have a little baby again.

#SheIsStartingToReallyMoveAboutNowAndLastNightItFeltLikeSheWasTicklingMyInsides

I originally wrote ‘they are’ as for a minute I forgot that I know it is a girl and that I will have revealed it by now. Yesterday for some reason I thought I was having a boy. My brain… (I actually only corrected one ‘they are’.)

#TheWeatherHasBeenReallyRubbishSoIHaveFeltABitTrappedIndoorsAgain

I need to just get B in her puddle suit and get on with things.

#ThisMorningTheWeatherWasNiceButItTookMeTwentyMinutesToFindBsSecondShoeWhichTurnedOutToBeInTheWashingMachine

I was relieved when I saw it through the door, and it was not wet. I was worried she had put it in the bin…

#ByTheTimeIFoundItItWasNearlyTimeForHerNapSoWeHadAVeryShortWalkWhichTurnedIntoMeJustCarryingBAboutAsSheWasMoreInterestedInTwigsThanWalking

I thought I would let her walk as I knew we did not have time to go far, but it’s not great when you don’t have much time. I should have just let her wander…

#NanGotHerBoosterShotWhichIsGoodNewsThoughSheHadToWaitAnHourForIt
#VaccinesUsedToBeSoOrganisedSoIAmNotSureWhatHasHappenedThoughMaybeFuelPanicBuyingHasNotHelped

I had mine last week before the panic buying had kicked in though. *shrug* I think maybe they’re booking in too many booster shots? Who knows.

#TiagoMadeEveryoneSalmonForDinnerLastNightAndEverytimeTheyHaveFishForDinnerMyNanAsksIfIEatItTooAndIJustSayYesNowAsItIsEasierThanArguing

I used to tell the truth, and get annoyed, so T says just say ‘okay’ and ‘yes’ and it does make things easier.

#SheSaidWeMustStartHavingItTwiceAWeekAsItIsSoGoodForMeAndTheBaby

Roll my eyes.

#IHaveNotEatenFishOrMeatIntentionallySinceIWasAbout15AndBTurnedOutFine

B does eat fish, and my Nan feeds her meat when she eats – I’m not happy about it, but Tiago wants her to eat meat. This is a bigger topic for another day, that I will probably never revisit as I do not have the energy to.

I’m not saying this stuff to be mean about my Nan. I’m just a bit fed up with being a woman in my 30s and getting told by people what I should and should not eat while pregnant.

(I say intentionally as there have been a few mishaps in restaurants, and in foreign countries – Japan with supermarket rice balls especially – where I have accidentally had a bit of meat or fish.)

#WhenTiagoCanTellIWantMyNanToStopTalkingAboutSomethingHeAsksHerIfSheWantsACupOfTeaOrDessertToMoveHerOffTheSubjectOrToDistractHer

The other day he knew I just wanted to eat my dinner in peace (I don’t like to talk much while eating), so he gave Nan some dessert. I like his new strategy. You can’t say it’s mean, as Nan is quite happy with her food/tea.

22 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait in a maternity bra and leggings. I am clasping my hands together and stretching them behind my back. I have a small bump.
It Is A Struggle To Roll Over In Bed (22 weeks)
 
#AFewDaysAgoIDidAShootWhereISaidIThinkIWillMissHavingABump
#IThinkIRomanticisedItABitTooMuch
#IKeepStandingUpTooQuickAndGettingPains
#ItIsAStruggleToRollOverInBed
#IHaveToSitUpFirstThenTurnOver
#RepositioningMyselfToTryToPickSomethingUpOffTheFloor
#OnAFlightAnOlderWomanDroppedSomethingOnTheFloorAcrossTheAisle
#ICouldFeelHerLookingAtMeLikeAreYouGoingToPickItUpForMe
#InMyHeadIWasLikeIAmNotTheBestPersonToPickItUp
#IWouldHaveHadToUndoMySeatbeltAndGetOutOfMySeatAndReachAwkwardlyToGetIt
#WhichMaybeIShouldHaveDone
#ButIGetAnxiousAboutGettingUpOnFlightsAndAvoidItIfICan
#IHaveHadToStretchInTheMorningAndEveningAndABitDuringTheDayToHelpWithPains
#ButIGuessILikeHavingTheBumpButIWillNotMissTheOtherStuff
#IThinkILikeItMainlyAsIDoNotFeelSelfConsciousAboutIt
#ThoughAWomanWasStaringAtMyBumpTheOtherDayAndIFoundItOdd
#SoMaybeIWillGetSelfConsciousAboutItInADifferentWay
#IGuessIAmStillAtThePointWhereRandomPeopleLookAtMeLikeIsShePregnantOrNot
#IUsedToNoticeWomenWithBumpsWhenIWasTryingToGetPregnant
#AndIDidNotMeanToStareButIGuessYouLookThenThinkAboutThings
#MainlyIWouldBeThinkingIsThatEverGoingToHappenToMe
#MyStomachHasNeverBeenAndNeverWillBeMyFavouriteBodyPart
#ItIsWeirdDoingAProjectWhereItIsTheMainFocus
#TheBabysMovementsAreGettingMoreTicklish
#ItIsFunnyExplainingHowItFeelsToPeople
#ThisLittleThingPawingAtYouAndTicklingYouFromTheInside
#ItIsSuperWeird
#AFriendSawTheLastScanPicAndSaidThatTheBabyLooksLikeJeremyCorbyn
#IAmLikeWellAtLeastTheyDidNotSayBorisJohnson
#WeHaveADateForTheFollowUpScanNowSoHopefullyThingsGoOkay

I think this time I just know how to get up easier.

Trying to pick stuff off the floor is annoying though.

At a restaurant last night the waitress dropped a fork on the floor. I looked to see what it was and she said ‘don’t worry about it’. I just pointed to my bump (I’m 26 weeks at the time of writing this) and said ‘it would be hard for me anyways’.

I guess I do look at people to see if they look pregnant these days too.

I was thinking about bellies being the main focus again today actually. It is odd. There was an episode of Yakka Dee on and it was all about tummies, which made me think about it.

I feel like though I have felt some tickles this time, it just felt more like kicks earlier on. Maybe it’s to do with where the placenta is?

Self-portrait with Tiago. My head is cut off and Tiago is next to my bump. I am wearing a black maternity bra and leggings, and Tiago is wearing a black top. He is clean shaven.
I Have Told Him Before That If He Wants To Touch The Bump Then He Has To Make Sure His Hands Are Warm (22 and a half weeks)
 
#IKeepGettingAdsForPregnancyPhotoShoots
#SoIThoughtIBetterTakeMoreOfOurOwn
#IWantedTiagoToRestHisHeadOnTheBump
#ButHeThoughtISaidForHimToPutHisHandsOnIt
#AndTheyWereFREEZING
#IHaveToldHimBeforeThatIfHeWantsToTouchTheBumpThenHeHasToMakeSureHisHandsAreWarm
#ThereIsAnOuttakeOfHimLaughingBecauseISaidNotHisHandsButHisHead
#AnywaysTheBumpContinuesToGrow
#IAmAtThePointNowWhereFoodCrumbsGetStuckOnTheTopOfIt
#TryingToMonitorTheMovementsStillStressesMeOut
#WhenICanFeelItMoveIFeelRelaxed
#WhenICanNotIFeelStressed
#ThisMorningTiagoWentForAShowerAndCameBackToFindMeJustLyingInBedWatchingMyBump
#IAmTryingToFaffLessOnMyPhoneSoItItOneWayOfDoingItIGuess
#WhoNeedsTechnologyWhenYouHaveAnOldFashionedBump
#ThatIsMonitoredInAllTheNewTechnologyWays
#IWasReadingAboutBraxtonHicksTheOtherDay
#IHaveNeverHeardAboutItInAllOfMyLife
#BasicallyItIsWhenYourBodyPracticesContractions
#SoNowIAmLikeWasThatAHiccupFromTheBabyOrABraxtonHicksContraction
#ItIsAFunGame
#INeedToStartThinkingAboutLookingMoreIntoHypnobirthingAndStuffNow
#AsTimeIsFlyingBy
#AndAFriendSaidThatHerFriendGaveBirthAt30Weeks
#SoIFeelLikeINeedToGetMorePrepared
#INeedToStartThinkingMoreAboutPushchairsAndAllThatStuffToo
#ThereIsSoMuchToChooseFromWhichIsAnnoying
#WeAreGoingToABabyShowSoonWhichSoundsLikeMyIdeaOfHellButIAmHopingItWillBeUseful
#TwoPeopleInTheLastWeekHaveToldMeThatILookPale
#WhichHasConcernedMeButIThinkItIsJustBecauseTheWinterIsJustDraggingOnAndMyBodyHasYetToUtiliseItsTemporarySkillOfRetainingATanForLonger

I haven’t had an ad for a pregnancy shoot yet. Disappointing but maybe it’s because I keep rejecting cookies.

I’m yet to take any bump photos with Tiago this time, but he is busy with work and then sometimes he is watching B while I do a shoot. Actually we have been doing family portraits so I guess that is something? But not a shoot like this anyways.

I still can’t tell the difference between a kick and a Braxton Hicks…


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