I actually thought that I had done the last shoot 2 weeks ago and that now I was going to change to doing them every 2 weeks, that’s how quick time has gone…
So, this could be the last one, but it could not.
In all honesty I am not going to miss doing these shoots. I find them quite annoying and frustrating. I think especially now as I can see the errors I made earlier on. I should have just stood up, but I did not take the original one with the plan of repeating it every month. If I had thought about it more then I would have done it differently…
I can not really tell, but I guess the baby is getting bigger and getting ready so it makes sense.
I’m so over it.
I’d buy more of the same sleepsuits but they’re not cheap, and the baby might not be in them for long. Especially if they’re bigger than B was. Also, as we are not planning to have more kids it does not make sense. We need a few more though, so hopefully we can borrow some or find some alright ones second hand.
So, all is not lost. Hurrah. They’re clothes that I did not pack away when we moved though as I guess I hoped B would wear them a bit more, and/or were a bit big for B as a newborn.
Thanks to this blog and comparisons for making me realise.
This time I am preparing for a pre-38 week birth, but am obviously a bit more chilled about it. I guess having a toddler to run around after makes it more tiring. I had more time last time…
We don’t have too much to get now. Just a coat extender for babywearing, snacks and drinks for birth/hospital, sleepsuits, and a baby book (I’m still undecided about which one to get).
I did not expect to pump so much last time.
Yesterday, I made a video of B poking my belly button then just smacking it. I kept saying gentle, but she did not seem to get the message… In the end I had to stop filming and stop her.
Sometimes she seems older. Sometimes she looks so tall, sometimes she doesn’t. It’s weird.
I lay in bed yesterday just feeling quite emotional. I also just couldn’t wait for B to wake up from her nap so I could cuddle her, but I was relieved that she had the best nap that she had had in ages.
I hope it goes well. B does seem to like babies, but she might be like ‘okay, when is this baby going back to its home?’
I want to know if it’s actually a girl or not.
I’m just going to keep it simple.
It’s best not to get too attached to ideas/visions about how the birth will be, as with B it all went out the window.
She seems to change so much day to day.
My Nan gets a lot of catalogues in the post and B loves to go through her post. She also loves to go through my Nan’s bags after she’s been shopping.
She is funny.
Cute. She liked going through the tunnels at a class we no longer go to, so it seemed like a nice idea to get her one.
It was like her copying us using sanitiser. She’s so observant.
I ask my Nan if she wants scrambled egg on toast. She always says ‘yes please, and B can have some’
If I gave her scrambled egg for breakfast, guaranteed she would not eat it. But then again she does just revisit the plate all morning.
I thought my Nan didn’t need one, but B obviously thought otherwise. It was a cute moment. She’s very observant.
Cue B walking around with a whole banana. I didn’t want her to eat the whole thing, so T took it off her, tore a bit off of it and gave that to her. B then just lay on the floor and was not happy. Fun times.
36 weeks pregnant with B comparison:
When I was thinking about how I am excited to meet Baby X yesterday, I was thinking about when I met B for the first time. Birth is a bizarre thing.
I am hoping this time that things will not be such a shock to the system – I know how to change nappies at least.
I had forgot about the one week in bed, one week on the sofa thing. I didn’t get out for a walk with B until 2 weeks-ish, so it makes sense. I guess it depends on how you feel. I felt sore…
I would say that I am quite active now too.
I am mainly nervous that there will not be enough staff that are Covid-free to have an okay birth experience. With B they gave me time (after I kept saying no to a c-section) to birth naturally, but will they have less patience this time (it’s also a different hospital).
We didn’t make it to Portugal until B was 14 months-ish old. B is still yet to meet one Aunt, Uncle and cousin.
I guess last time it was the summer, so the nights were shorter. I’m also more tired this time as I have B to look after so sleep hasn’t been so much of a problem. I do wear a mask when I have a nap though.
I was really not expecting it to be, but actually it was! B came at 37+5, so it was my last full week without a lot of responsibility.
I’m still no good at plans. This year, I just want to keep making work, and move. Then once we move I need to figure out a lot of things. I’m excited though.
I think having a child has given me more confidence in some ways. I like to think I am more efficient and organised too. I don’t have much time to faff. I love to do lists more than ever.
I’ve said it before – I want this baby to look a bit more like me, but I want B and baby X to look like siblings. We’ll have to wait and see – and B’s face just keeps changing.
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