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Imitating B Poking Her Doll In The Eye (32 Weeks / 12th December 2021)

Self-portrait of me holding a doll, and holding its eyelid down with my right index finger.
Imitating B Poking Her Doll In The Eye (32 Weeks / 12th December 2021)
 
#IHaveMentionedThatBLikesToTryToTouchOurEyesWhichWorriesMeABitWithBabyXsImpendingArrival
#MyNanGotHerADollTheOtherDayAndSheAlsoLikesToTouchItsEyesButItIsSaferThanTouchingHumanEyes
#DollsHaveAlwaysCreepedMeOutSoIHopeSheAndHerSiblingDoNotReallyLikeThem
#ObviouslyIfTheyDoIWillHaveToBeSupportiveButIMuchPreferCuddlyToys
#IFinishedReadingMyHypnobirthingBookAndIFeelMoreRelaxedAboutXsBirthButIDoNeedToReadItAtLeastOnceMore
#TwoDaysAgoIGotFreakedOutByTheBabyNotMovingMuchButSheMadeUpForItYesterdayByMovingLoads
#IHaveStartedToMakeMyBirthingPlaylistAsIFoundItSoHelpfulWhenIWasInEarlyLabourWithB
#IWasDancingBehindMyCurtainOnTheWardWhileWaitingForMyLabourToProgressAndItDefinitelyHelpedMeStayRelaxed
#WeWillHaveToSeeHowEarlyLabourGoesThisTimeAsIMightEndUpNotGoingIntoHospitalUntilMuchLater
#OneOfMyCoatsHasNotDoneUpOverMyBumpForAWhileAndTheOtherOneIsGettingTight
#ISpentALotOfFreeTimeResearchingMaternityCoatsButInTheEndIDecidedItWasNotTheBestOption
#InsteadIHaveSentOneCoatBackToTheBrandToBeRepairedAndRestoredAndWillBeBuyAZipInBabyWearingPanelForIt
#TheOtherDayAGuyInTheParkKeptSayingHelloLoudlyAndIThoughtHeWasOnThePhone
#InTheEndITurnedAroundAsIThoughtIMightHaveDroppedSomethingAndTheGuyWasLookingAtMeLikeIShouldMoveOutOfTheWay
#HeWasStoodQuiteCloseToMeThenPeeredAroundMeToSeeBSittingOnTheStepOnTheBackOfHerPushchair
#HeSaidDoYouDriveDoYouAndSaidSomethingAboutMeGoingFromOneSideOfThePathToTheOther
#HeThenSaidIShouldBeCarefulAndWalkedOffWhichJustLeftMeFeelingQuiteConfusedAndThenAnnoyed
#IHadBeenWalkingSlowlyInCaseBFellOffAndIMoveIfISeePeopleOnThePathAheadOfMeButDidNotRecallMovingInTheTenSecondsOrSoBeforeHeWasRude
#ItWasJustWeirdAndWalkingInTheParkWithAPushchairIsABitDifferentToDrivingInACarOnARoad
#AnywaysWeAreDebatingSendingBToAnotherSessionOfNurseryAWeek
#TiagoCasuallyMentionedItAndAfterThinkingAboutItIDefinitelyWouldFeelABitMoreRelaxedWithLookingAfterOnlyOneKidForAFewMoreHoursAWeek
#IWorryThatWhenBabyXComesIWillBeBoringAndStressedSoIThinkItWouldBeBetterForBToGoOutAndHaveFun
#ITryToBeByTheWindowToWaveHerOffAndWelcomeHerHomeWhenTiagoTakesHerToAndFromNursery
#SheInstinctivelyLooksToTheWindowNowWhichIsQuiteCuteSoIHaveToTryNotToLetHerDown
#SheAlsoTendsToGetUpsetWhenTiagoLeavesSoIUsuallyHoldHerUpToTheWindowToSeeHimLeaveAndAlsoWhenMyMumGoes
#WhenWeGiveNanAMealWeUsuallySayHereYouGoNanAndBThenGenerallyComesRunningOverToSeeWhatSheHasWhichMakesMeLaugh
#SheSeemsToBePickingUpNewThingsAllTheTimeLikeNowShePointsToWhereTheTeddyIsInABookAboutFindingItOrTakesMyFingerToPointToIt
#YesterdayShePointedToTheFloorDuringWindTheBobbinUpAndSuddenlyLovesTheDingleDangleScarecrowSong
#IWasThinkingRecentlyThatItIsWeirdThatBWillGrowUpAndProbablyNotRememberThisPhaseOfHerLife
#INeedToDoTheLastPageOfHerBabyBookAndThinkAboutWhatToDoForBabyX
 

#IHaveMentionedThatBLikesToTryToTouchOurEyesWhichWorriesMeABitWithBabyXsImpendingArrival

I hope she outgrows this phase by the time X arrives.

#MyNanGotHerADollTheOtherDayAndSheAlsoLikesToTouchItsEyesButItIsSaferThanTouchingHumanEyes

The doll’s eyes are probably more fun as she has more control over them. I see her fingers coming towards my eyes and I shut them, and tell her not to do it, but she’s fascinated.

#DollsHaveAlwaysCreepedMeOutSoIHopeSheAndHerSiblingDoNotReallyLikeThem #ObviouslyIfTheyDoIWillHaveToBeSupportiveButIMuchPreferCuddlyToys

I will definitely not be adding to their doll collection, but you never know what they will get as gifts.

#IFinishedReadingMyHypnobirthingBookAndIFeelMoreRelaxedAboutXsBirthButIDoNeedToReadItAtLeastOnceMore

I keep practicing the breathing exercises, and just think about being as relaxed as possible to make things easier.

#TwoDaysAgoIGotFreakedOutByTheBabyNotMovingMuchButSheMadeUpForItYesterdayByMovingLoads

I had done a lot of dance videos, so maybe they needed to chill. I ached a bit afterwards, so I had to have a lie down. Yesterday she was just moving all over the place.

#IHaveStartedToMakeMyBirthingPlaylistAsIFoundItSoHelpfulWhenIWasInEarlyLabourWithB

I still have B’s birth playlist so I took songs from that, then thought about what I wanted to add.

#IWasDancingBehindMyCurtainOnTheWardWhileWaitingForMyLabourToProgressAndItDefinitelyHelpedMeStayRelaxed

Tiago wasn’t allowed to be with me, so I didn’t have much else to do. It definitely helped during surges, along with the breathing exercises.

#WeWillHaveToSeeHowEarlyLabourGoesThisTimeAsIMightEndUpNotGoingIntoHospitalUntilMuchLater

My waters had broken, so I had to go in to be monitored, then they were going to send me home but B was breech.

#OneOfMyCoatsHasNotDoneUpOverMyBumpForAWhileAndTheOtherOneIsGettingTight

It was fine with B as I was pregnant in the summer, but it is a bit colder this time…

#ISpentALotOfFreeTimeResearchingMaternityCoatsButInTheEndIDecidedItWasNotTheBestOption

A good one is expensive. I nearly caved and bought one, but it was dry clean only which is too high maintenance for me – especially with a B who likes to walk in the mud.

#InsteadIHaveSentOneCoatBackToTheBrandToBeRepairedAndRestoredAndWillBeBuyAZipInBabyWearingPanelForIt

It’s a coat I’ve had for at least 6 years if not more. The inside is a bit ripped from where I used the pocket that the coat folds into as an actual pocket, and it just needs a good clean and re-waterproofing. It’s a lot cheaper than getting a new coat, and I like the coat so it makes sense. I don’t really need another coat…

#TheOtherDayAGuyInTheParkKeptSayingHelloLoudlyAndIThoughtHeWasOnThePhone #InTheEndITurnedAroundAsIThoughtIMightHaveDroppedSomethingAndTheGuyWasLookingAtMeLikeIShouldMoveOutOfTheWay #HeWasStoodQuiteCloseToMeThenPeeredAroundMeToSeeBSittingOnTheStepOnTheBackOfHerPushchair #HeSaidDoYouDriveDoYouAndSaidSomethingAboutMeGoingFromOneSideOfThePathToTheOther #HeThenSaidIShouldBeCarefulAndWalkedOffWhichJustLeftMeFeelingQuiteConfusedAndThenAnnoyed

I’m still annoyed about it.

#IHadBeenWalkingSlowlyInCaseBFellOffAndIMoveIfISeePeopleOnThePathAheadOfMeButDidNotRecallMovingInTheTenSecondsOrSoBeforeHeWasRude

He was saying hello for at least five seconds to me (and it sounded quite distant at first), so I don’t think I just cut in front of him. He could have easily moved to the grass (okay, it was a bit muddy but not that bad).

#ItWasJustWeirdAndWalkingInTheParkWithAPushchairIsABitDifferentToDrivingInACarOnARoad

I do wonder if he’d have said the same thing to me if I was a guy. Probably not. He was maybe my age, possibly younger. I just looked at him quite blankly as I really thought he was going to say I’d dropped something, so I was in shock.

#AnywaysWeAreDebatingSendingBToAnotherSessionOfNurseryAWeek #TiagoCasuallyMentionedItAndAfterThinkingAboutItIDefinitelyWouldFeelABitMoreRelaxedWithLookingAfterOnlyOneKidForAFewMoreHoursAWeek

I feel guilty about it, but I think if a lot of people could then they would so why not? We don’t plan on being in Brum forever, so should make the most of the set-up.

#IWorryThatWhenBabyXComesIWillBeBoringAndStressedSoIThinkItWouldBeBetterForBToGoOutAndHaveFun

Seriously, why would she want to be at home all week with her boring Mum when she can be at nursery having fun? If I am more relaxed and happy, then it’s good for B too.

#ITryToBeByTheWindowToWaveHerOffAndWelcomeHerHomeWhenTiagoTakesHerToAndFromNursery

I wave quite enthusiastically, which usually makes her laugh, especially when she comes home. I then usually bend down and wait for her to come through the door so I can give her a hug if she wants one.

#SheInstinctivelyLooksToTheWindowNowWhichIsQuiteCuteSoIHaveToTryNotToLetHerDown

I’m just thinking when the baby arrives it might not be the case, but I will have to try…

#SheAlsoTendsToGetUpsetWhenTiagoLeavesSoIUsuallyHoldHerUpToTheWindowToSeeHimLeaveAndAlsoWhenMyMumGoes

It’s just something I do now. She often still cries when Tiago leaves so I try to make her laugh by dancing or spinning her round, but it often doesn’t work. She likes to wave to my Mum.

#WhenWeGiveNanAMealWeUsuallySayHereYouGoNanAndBThenGenerallyComesRunningOverToSeeWhatSheHasWhichMakesMeLaugh

She’s just started to do it. Breakfast – ‘here you go Nan’. B stops what she is doing and runs over to steal some scrambled egg. I try to serve B her lunch before giving my Nan hers, otherwise B just tries to stick her hands in it. Sometimes dinner is ready earlier than we want to give it to B, so she goes over…

#SheSeemsToBePickingUpNewThingsAllTheTimeLikeNowShePointsToWhereTheTeddyIsInABookAboutFindingItOrTakesMyFingerToPointToIt

It’s good as usually I take ages pointing at everything on the page to look for the Teddy, so it’s a bit quicker now though sometimes she does point to things and I say the name.

#YesterdayShePointedToTheFloorDuringWindTheBobbinUpAndSuddenlyLovesTheDingleDangleScarecrowSong

She’s been doing the claps to Wind The Bobbin Up for a while, but none of the other actions so that’s quite exciting. It’s quite sad that I have a version for when we’re in the park (point to the sky and point to the ground, point to the gate and point to the hound).

#IWasThinkingRecentlyThatItIsWeirdThatBWillGrowUpAndProbablyNotRememberThisPhaseOfHerLife

It’s been such a big deal for me, and I doubt she will remember any of it – living with my Nan, living in Brum etc. She’ll have my work to look at if she wants to, but I doubt she’ll be interested in half of this stuff – is anyone?

#INeedToDoTheLastPageOfHerBabyBookAndThinkAboutWhatToDoForBabyX

I thought about it today and the pages for 12 months are empty. I might do more of a family album for Baby X, though I don’t want her to feel like she’s been cheated out of what B has so maybe we’ll have to get the same book. I might just do it differently this time…

32 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

I keep saying this, but it’s weird that things still aren’t ‘normal’, and things are back up in the air again – I’m hoping it doesn’t impact Baby X’s arrival too much, but it is what it is.

‘#RealisticallyTheBabyWillBeBornUnderSomeKindOfLockdown’ – She was, and X might be as well.

‘#ToSitInARestaurantOrGoToTheCinemaOrGoToAGig’

Well, we sat in a restaurant a few weeks ago, but I haven’t been to the cinema or a gig since before Covid. We went to see Parasite at the cinema a couple of weekends before lockdown, and we feel a bit on edge then (because of Covid, not the film – well a bit of both I guess).

‘#IDefinitelyWillNotBeRushingToGoToLondon’

I’ve been a few times since September, but doubt I will be going there again any time soon now.

‘#YouNeverKnowICouldSlipBackIntoOldLifeQuiteEasily’

My old life is definitely gone. We don’t even live in the same place as we did before Covid. I do wish some things were different – like I wish I had more play dates for B during the week, and didn’t feel so worried about going further from home but we make do. If this was my life forever I would feel stuck, but knowing that we plan to move in the summer is something to look forward to after the baby is born – the baby has been a good countdown for most of the year.

‘#ItWillBeWeirdWhenHeFinallyStartsGoingBackOutToWorkAgain’

I’ve been lucky that he still doesn’t really go out to work very much, which has been nice for him as he has been around for more of B’s early life – but he was working from home a bit before Covid anyways.

‘TheExerciseVideosIHaveBeenDoingForWeeksAreGettingABitMoreHarderToDoWithABiggerBump’

Yesterday I did a pregnancy pilates one for the first time in ages. It felt weird. It’s funny being more pregnant than the women in my usual videos now – I remember reaching that phase with B, and it felt strange.

I’m nearly at the point where it was 5 weeks until B arrived.


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General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot VI (32 Weeks / 8th December 2021)

Shoot which I am recreating for the 6th time this pregnancy. I am wearing a bra and leggings. I have my right hand clasping my left elbow. My bump is bigger than the previous version of this image.
General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot VI (32 Weeks / 8th December 2021)
 
#TheFourWeeksSinceShootVHasGoneSoFast
#IAmNowLessThanSixWeeksFromThePointWhereBWasBorn
#IFinallyStartedToReadMyHypnobirthingBookAndIFeltALotMoreRelaxedAfterReadingATenthOfItInTheFirstSitting
#ItHasEncouragedMeToLookMoreAtTheHospitalWhereIWillGiveBirthAndIAmABitDisheartenedAtTheRatioOfBirthingPoolsToRooms
#IDoNotWantToGetMyHopesUpForAWaterBirthButIWouldLikeToTryItEspeciallyAsIWasNotAllowedWithBAsSheWasBreech
#IGuessIHaveToHopeThatBabyDecidesToComeOnAQuietDayAtTheHospitalOrWhenAPoolIsFree
#KnowingMyLuckIWillEndUpWithABreechBabyAgainThoughIHopeNotAsAdvocatingForMyselfWasTiringEnoughLastTime
#IKeepReadingAboutHowABabyIsUnlikelyToTurnAfter36WeeksIfItsHeadIsEngagedButBDidSoWeWillJustHaveToWaitAndSee
#BabyXWasSoActiveYesterdayAndIJustFeelSoTiredThatIWantThisBabyToComeSoonButIAlsoWantItToTakeItsTime
#TheDayBeforeIHadNotFeltHerMoveMuchSoIPutANightLightNextToMyBumpAndSheStartedToMoveWhichMadeMeFeelBetter
#BIsMeantToBeComingToTheEndOfALeapNowAndItShowsAsSheIsSuddenlySoMuchMoreChatty
#SheIsReallyTryingToCopyUsMoreWithOneExampleBeingIPutCreamAroundHerMouthTheOtherDayAndCalledHerSantaAndSheKeptTryingToSayItThoughItSoundedMoreLikeSassy
#SheWasLookingAtHerDearZooBookByHerselfAndIWalkedOverJustAsSheLiftedUpTheSnakeBasketFlapAndStartedToMakeASnakeSound
#IFeelSoProudButAlsoRelievedThatTheHoursOfMotheringAreStartingToShow
#ItAlsoMakesMeWantToTalkToHerMoreNowAsIKnowThatItIsSinkingIn
#ITryToDoActionsToNurseryRhymesWhenISingToHerAndIWasSurprisedWhenSheStartedToFollowAlongToIncyWincySpider
#DuringOurWeekendAloneWeManagedToGetSomeLupiniBeansThatWeUsedToBuyEasilyWhenWeLivedInLondonButHaveFailedToFindSince
#TiagoSoaksThemInWaterAndThenPutsChoppedGarlicInWithThemAndBSeemsToLikeThem
#SoMuchSoThatLastWeekHerQuietnessMadeMeCheckOnHerAndIFoundHerEatingTheSkinsOutOfTheBin
#WeDoNotHaveLocksOnTheCupboardsInTheKitchenAsMyNanWouldStruggleToGetIntoThem
#SoBLovesToRummageInTheCupboardThatHasTheHerbsAndSpicesInItAndYesterdaySheManagedToOpenTheCayennePepper
#INoticedStraightAwayAndHopedToGetItOffTheFloorBeforeSheTouchedItButSheIsTooFastForMeAndIHadToGiveHerACupOfMilk
#SheWasFineAndIHaveMovedItOutOfReachInCaseSheWantsToTryToGetACupOfMilkOutsideOfMealTimesAgain
#IWasRelievedToSeeThatMostPeopleAtHerToddlerClassWereWearingMasksAfterAFewWeeksOfMeBeingTheOnlyPerson
#IHaveGoneSoLongWithoutGettingCovidThatIAmABitWorriedIWillCatchItWhenIAmDueToGiveBirthAndIAmNotSureHowThatWillImpactTheWholeExperience
#SheOnlyHasACoupleOfSessionsLeftOfTheClassBeforeTheTermEndsAndThenIWillProbablyNotTakeHerBackForABit
#ItIsQuiteAnActiveClassAndTheMorePregnantIGetTheMoreIStruggleToHelpHerParticipate
#ItDoesNotStrikeMeAsAVeryEasyClassToTakeAToddlerAndANewbornToAlone
#TheWeatherHasBeenRubbishSoIFeelABitCoopedUpInsideWhichMakesMeFeelQuiteLonelyAtTimes
#TheWeekdaysAreLongAndJustGettingOutAndMakingSmallTalkWithLocalCommunityFolkCanMakeABigDifference

(I am not as accurate at copying the shoots as I wish I was, but you can definitely see that bump has grown a lot – even if my back is a bit more pushed out, and my bump is facing the camera a bit more than with the last shoot.)

#TheFourWeeksSinceShootVHasGoneSoFast

This sub-project and my midwife appointments are really showing how fast this pregnancy is going…

#IAmNowLessThanSixWeeksFromThePointWhereBWasBorn

*Nervous laugh*

#IFinallyStartedToReadMyHypnobirthingBookAndIFeltALotMoreRelaxedAfterReadingATenthOfItInTheFirstSitting

I feel like I can skim read over a lot of it and just focus on the key bits like breathing, staying in a good position during birth, and how to make a decision on something that is presented to me during labour/birth etc.

(It’s this book: The Hypnobirthing Book — The Positive Birth Company – I also did their digital birthing pack when I was pregnant with B, but feel like the book is enough for me this time.)

#ItHasEncouragedMeToLookMoreAtTheHospitalWhereIWillGiveBirthAndIAmABitDisheartenedAtTheRatioOfBirthingPoolsToRooms

I never even bothered researching the Liverpool one as I wasn’t planning to go there (I was planning to have a home birth with B).

#IDoNotWantToGetMyHopesUpForAWaterBirthButIWouldLikeToTryItEspeciallyAsIWasNotAllowedWithBAsSheWasBreech

This was one of the reasons why I didn’t want to look at the hospital much as I didn’t want to get my heart set on a certain room or something.

#IGuessIHaveToHopeThatBabyDecidesToComeOnAQuietDayAtTheHospitalOrWhenAPoolIsFree

Who knows how it will be… I feel like water births are pretty popular now though so my chances of getting a pool will be fairly slim.

#KnowingMyLuckIWillEndUpWithABreechBabyAgainThoughIHopeNotAsAdvocatingForMyselfWasTiringEnoughLastTime

You never know. The hypnobirthing definitely helped with the ‘how to make a decision on something that is presented to me during labour/birth etc.’ If this one ends up being breech and I was still in Liverpool I feel like I might not have to fight so much, but who knows how things will go between now and the birth.

#IKeepReadingAboutHowABabyIsUnlikelyToTurnAfter36WeeksIfItsHeadIsEngagedButBDidSoWeWillJustHaveToWaitAndSee

I just read that stuff and roll my eyes. When I was pregnant with B I was like ‘oh, okay’ and didn’t even have any birth preferences for a breech baby written down as they kept telling me she was head down at all my checks.

#BabyXWasSoActiveYesterdayAndIJustFeelSoTiredThatIWantThisBabyToComeSoonButIAlsoWantItToTakeItsTime

I feel a bit more ready and prepared, but it comes in waves. Right now I feel so tired. I need to start resting more.

#TheDayBeforeSIHadNotFeltHerMoveForABitSoIPutANightLightNextToMyBumpAndSheStartedToMoveWhichMadeMeFeelBetter

The good old light trick.

#BIsMeantToBeComingToTheEndOfALeapNowAndItShowsAsSheIsSuddenlySoMuchMoreChatty

It’s cute.

#SheIsReallyTryingToCopyUsMoreWithOneExampleBeingIPutCreamAroundHerMouthTheOtherDayAndCalledHerSantaAndSheKeptTryingToSayItThoughItSoundedMoreLikeSassy

She looked like Santa… She really likes S sounds at the moment.

#SheWasLookingAtHerDearZooBookByHerselfAndIWalkedOverJustAsSheLiftedUpTheSnakeBasketFlapAndStartedToMakeASnakeSound

It made me so happy.

#IFeelSoProudButAlsoRelievedThatTheHoursOfMotheringAreStartingToShow

Hours of reading books to her and putting effort into sounds and actions. Hurrah! It’s paying off!

#ItAlsoMakesMeWantToTalkToHerMoreNowAsIKnowThatItIsSinkingIn

It encouraged me to talk to her awkwardly on the swings the other day while a Dad was chatting to his talkative son in the swing next to us. Sometimes I go quiet…

#ITryToDoActionsToNurseryRhymesWhenISingToHerAndIWasSurprisedWhenSheStartedToFollowAlongToIncyWincySpider

It was a day of surprises.

#DuringOurWeekendAloneWeManagedToGetSomeLupiniBeansThatWeUsedToBuyEasilyWhenWeLivedInLondonButHaveFailedToFindSince

We usually refer to them as Tremoços. We used to get them in a big supermarket by us, but found them in a big supermarket in West Bromwich. That was a surprise.

#TiagoSoaksThemInWaterAndThenPutsChoppedGarlicInWithThemAndBSeemsToLikeThem

They’re quite salty, so he soaks them at least a couple of times to remove some of the salt, then puts in fresh water and chopped garlic.

#SoMuchSoThatLastWeekHerQuietnessMadeMeCheckOnHerAndIFoundHerEatingTheSkinsOutOfTheBin

She was sat on the little ladder next to the bin, and the bin was full enough that she was just picking them out. So gross. The same day she had been drinking (nothing) out of a little tea cup, so she was really showing her English and Portugueseness off.

#WeDoNotHaveLocksOnTheCupboardsInTheKitchenAsMyNanWouldStruggleToGetIntoThem

We really need to reshuffle stuff in the cupboards…

#SoBLovesToRummageInTheCupboardThatHasTheHerbsAndSpicesInItAndYesterdaySheManagedToOpenTheCayennePepper

She had already pulled it out once. I took it off her and thought I’d hidden it well. She pulled it out again and straight away got the lid open, and some sprinkled onto the floor.

#INoticedStraightAwayAndHopedToGetItOffTheFloorBeforeSheTouchedItButSheIsTooFastForMeAndIHadToGiveHerACupOfMilk

I quickly grabbed a cloth and put water on it, but she was already dabbing her fingers in it. Luckily my Mum was around and said to give her milk. It sorted her out straight away.

#SheWasFineAndIHaveMovedItOutOfReachInCaseSheWantsToTryToGetACupOfMilkOutsideOfMealTimesAgain

I only give her milk at meals, so I was bit worried that she would ask for more but she didn’t.

#IWasRelievedToSeeThatMostPeopleAtHerToddlerClassWereWearingMasksAfterAFewWeeksOfMeBeingTheOnlyPerson

It makes sense as masks are compulsory on public transport and in shops again, but you never know how people will act.

#IHaveGoneSoLongWithoutGettingCovidThatIAmABitWorriedIWillCatchItWhenIAmDueToGiveBirthAndIAmNotSureHowThatWillImpactTheWholeExperience

I stumbled upon some sad news the other day of a local woman who had a really bad birth experience in the summer as she was positive.

#SheOnlyHasACoupleOfSessionsLeftOfTheClassBeforeTheTermEndsAndThenIWillProbablyNotTakeHerBackForABit

I might wait until Baby X is a bit older, but maybe we will find something else to go to instead as I never talk to anyone there (and half the point of going to classes is to talk to people).

#ItIsQuiteAnActiveClassAndTheMorePregnantIGetTheMoreIStruggleToHelpHerParticipate

There’s a lot of hand holding and being led around and lifting.

#ItDoesNotStrikeMeAsAVeryEasyClassToTakeAToddlerAndANewbornToAlone

I really don’t fancy the idea of it. It’d be different if I drove, but with the walk… nah.

#TheWeatherHasBeenRubbishSoIFeelABitCoopedUpInsideWhichMakesMeFeelQuiteLonelyAtTimes

I know I live with Tiago, my Nan and B, but Tiago works all week, B is yet to be able to have ‘proper’ conversations with me, and I love my Nan but I need more conversations with people my own age.

#TheWeekdaysAreLongAndJustGettingOutAndMakingSmallTalkWithLocalCommunityFolkCanMakeABigDifference

I just find it takes ages for me to get B ready these days, and I worry that I am under or over dressing her. She got cold feet with two pairs of socks and wellies on the other day. It’s stressful.

32 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

I want to try to take some different angled shots of my bump again this time, but I feel like I already did it.

This time it seems like my boobs have not even changed much, or maybe I am too focused on my bump. I’m still yet to experience a leaky boob, so maybe they’re taking their time this time, or they don’t need to change so much after a first pregnancy? We’ll see.

I was so annoyed about my flash sync cable breaking…

This time I am trying to imagine myself having two kids to look after. I think that going from one to two kids will be less of a shock than going from zero to one, but yeah I’m still nervous.

I really like the second image.

I often wake up a lot during the nights now, so I know I’m super tired/B has slept well when I sleep through to 5ish now.

‘#IHaveBeenThinkingAboutPhotographingTheBabyAfterBirthAndIDoNotReallyWantToSubjectItToFlash’

Zero photos exist of me giving birth 🙁 I am hoping that we can get some this time, but we will have to see.

‘#AndIDoNotReallyWantToPhotographMyBabysFaceForProjects’

Well, B’s face is either not shown (it’s cropped out or she’s looking away) or hidden horribly with PhotoShop.

‘#IPlanToMakeWorkAboutMotherhoodAndTalkAboutTheBaby
#ButSpecificDetailsLikeTheNameAndHowItsFaceLooksAndPerhapsTheGenderAreNotImportant’

Well, she is known across the webiverse as B, and I did reveal her gender. I intend to refer to Baby X by a letter as well.

‘#IAmExcitedForTheBabyToBeHereAreForUsToJustGetOnWithThingsAndLearnAboutOurBaby’

The other day I was daydreaming about meeting Baby X. I hope that I will bond a bit quicker with her this time as last time I was just super freaked out. I didn’t even know how to change a nappy or anything… I am excited to meet her, but I am also nervous about becoming a mother of two.


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Imitating B Standing With Her Hands Behind Her Back (31 Weeks / 5th December 2021)

Self-portrait where I am stood facing a wall with the front of my hands touching my back. I am wearing a flowery dress and my head is tilted upwards slightly.
Imitating B Standing With Her Hands Behind Her Back (31 Weeks / 5th December 2021)
 
#BHasBeenStandingAndWalkingAroundWithHerHandsBehindHerBackForAWhile
#SometimesSheJustHasThemFlatAgainstHerOrSometimesShePlaysWithAFinger
#SheLooksVeryConfidentThoughAndWeAlwaysCommentOnItWhenSheDoesIt
#YesterdaySheDiscoveredThatIfSheStandsInFrontOfMeNextToMyLegsICanNotSeeHerBecauseOfMyBump
#SoWePlayedPeekabooForABitWhichWasFunnyAndIHopeSheDoesNotForgetAboutIt
#SheSometimesPointsToMyBumpButIDoNotThinkSheReallyUnderstandsWhatIsHappeningInThere
#IWantHerToSeeItReallyMoveAsIWantToSeeHerReaction
#IHurtMyFingerTheOtherDayPuttingMySocksOnAsItIsDifficultToNavigateAroundMyBump
#IHadA31WeeksAppointmentWhichWasOptionalAsItIsNotReallyNecessaryAfterYourFirstChild
#TheyOfferedMeOneSoIThoughtIMightAsWellGoAnywaysAsItIsAlwaysGoodToGetSomeReassurance
#TheyAlwaysTestMyUrineNowSoIBoughtSomeTubesToTakeASampleWithMe
#IStruggledToFillOneAsWithMyBumpIReallyCouldNotSeeWhereIWasPissing
#IHadADifferentMidwifeAsMyOriginalOneIsNowWorkingFromHomeAsSheIsOnlyABitMorePregnantThanMe
#ThereWasAlsoAStudentMidwifeWhichIWasNotBotheredAboutAsTheyHaveToLearnSomehowAndThereIsAShortageOfMidwivesInThisCountry
#TheyBothMeasuredMeAndTheStudentSaidTheBabyWas1CentimetreBiggerThanAt28WeeksButTheMidwifeSaidSheIs3CentimetresBigger
#TheMidwifeSaidToHerNotToWorryAsTheyAllHaveTheirOwnWayOfMeasuringSoAsLongAsTheyMeasureTheSameWayEachTimeItGivesTheInformationThatTheyNeed
#WellLastTimeSomeoneElseMeasuredMeSoTheBabyHasSuddenlyJumpedFromTheFiftyPercentileToSeventyIsh
#MaybeTheyDidHaveAGrowthSpurtButItSeemsLikeABitTooMuchAndItObviouslyIsNotSuperAccurateButTheMainThingIsTheBabyHasGrown
#ISaidThatIHadBeenInALotOfPainWithTheBabysMovements
#TheMidwifeSaidThatIDoNotHaveALotSeparatingTheBabyFromMySkinSoItWillBeUncomfortableAtTimes
#IHaveMyNextAppointmentAt34WeeksWhichWillBeWithADifferentMidwifeAndThenTheOnesAfterThatWillBeEvery2Weeks
#BsNurseryCalledDuringHerLastSessionAsSheHadABumpOnHerHeadButTheyDidNotSeeHerDoItAndSheHadNotCried
#TheyWatchedTheCCTVAndSaidSheMustHaveDoneItWhilePlayingWithAToyAroundSomeChairs
#ISaidItWasProbablyAnOldBumpThatTheyHadNotNoticedAndWeWouldBePickingHerUpInHalfAnHourAnyways
#WeWentToGetHerAndItWasAnOldBumpThatLookedLikeItHadBeenKnockedABitButItSoonWentDownAndSheWasFine
#BIsStillCryingWhenWePutHerDownForANapOrBedAndINoLongerEvenTryToLetHerCrawlInByHerselfAsSheCrawlsInHalfwayThenStops
#SoWeHaveZippedItUpAndTurnedItRoundAsTheRipInItIsGettingBiggerAndINeedToFixIt
#ABassinetZipsIntoHerCotSoTheBabyCanHaveHerCotOnceTheyAreBornAsTheBabyWillBeMoreSnugAndBCanHaveADifferentOne
#IJustHadToGoAndWatchBWhileTSortedSomethingOutAndBWasHoldingHerHandsBehindHerBackAgain
#SheDoesNotSeemToLikeScrambledEggsWhenIGiveHerSomeAtMealsButSheIsMoreThanHappyToStealSomeAndTheCrustsFromMyBreakfast

#BHasBeenStandingAndWalkingAroundWithHerHandsBehindHerBackForAWhile

I don’t know why I enjoy seeing her do it so much, but I do.

#SometimesSheJustHasThemFlatAgainstHerOrSometimesShePlaysWithAFinger

I took a video of her for reference for the shoot and she plays with a finger for a bit and then has them flat again.

#SheLooksVeryConfidentThoughAndWeAlwaysCommentOnItWhenSheDoesIt

She looks very powerful. I don’t know where she has picked it up from, but it’s probably another case of her just discovering she can do it…

I imagine the shoot will look a bit like My Baby Is A Brick Wall (14th July 2020).

#YesterdaySheDiscoveredThatIfSheStandsInFrontOfMeNextToMyLegsICanNotSeeHerBecauseOfMyBump

My Mum was saying that my bump seems to be sticking out the front more this time, but then again she never saw me heavily pregnant in real life last time because of Covid. I guess she’s seen the photos though and saw me on WhatsApp.

#SoWePlayedPeekabooForABitWhichWasFunnyAndIHopeSheDoesNotForgetAboutIt

I want to play peekaboo again.

#SheSometimesPointsToMyBumpButIDoNotThinkSheReallyUnderstandsWhatIsHappeningInThere

She knows something is up as I talk to her about it.

#IWantHerToSeeItReallyMoveAsIWantToSeeHerReaction

Baby X does really move about in there now, and my bump is pushed into some weird shapes.

#IHurtMyFingerTheOtherDayPuttingMySocksOnAsItIsDifficultToNavigateAroundMyBump

I was saying to Tiago things are only going to get ‘worse’ now until the baby is born.

#IHadA31WeeksAppointmentWhichWasOptionalAsItIsNotReallyNecessaryAfterYourFirstChild #TheyOfferedMeOneSoIThoughtIMightAsWellGoAnywaysAsItIsAlwaysGoodToGetSomeReassurance

I could walk to my appointment and yeah why not? They offered it to me.

#TheyAlwaysTestMyUrineNowSoIBoughtSomeTubesToTakeASampleWithMe

I bought them ages ago. It means touching less Covid surfaces and having one less thing to worry about once I get there.

#IStruggledToFillOneAsWithMyBumpIReallyCouldNotSeeWhereIWasPissing

Hello, piss on my hand. They need a funnel for the pregnant folk.

#IHadADifferentMidwifeAsMyOriginalOneIsNowWorkingFromHomeAsSheIsOnlyABitNotMorePregnantThanMe

Working from home because of Covid and all. I like her – shame I will probably never see her again. You never know though, we could be ward buddies.

#ThereWasAlsoAStudentMidwifeWhichIWasNotBotheredAboutAsTheyHaveToLearnSomehowAndThereIsAShortageOfMidwivesInThisCountry

They kept asking if it was okay if she was there. I had at least one student midwife at B’s birth, and it was mainly students who were looking after me and B during our hospital stay. She apologised in case I felt uncomfortable during her checks, but I said at least she wasn’t kicking me in the ribs.

#TheyBothMeasuredMeAndTheStudentSaidTheBabyWas1CentimetreBiggerThanAt28WeeksButTheMidwifeSaidSheIs3CentimetresBigger

I initally wrote ‘they are’ instead of ‘she is’, as I am still skeptical…

The midwife measured first, but didn’t tell the student what she had got until after the student had had a go. The test aspect made the appointment more interesting.

#TheMidwifeSaidToHerNotToWorryAsTheyAllHaveTheirOwnWayOfMeasuringSoAsLongAsTheyMeasureTheSameWayEachTimeItGivesTheInformationThatTheyNeed

They just want to see that the baby is growing.

#WellLastTimeSomeoneElseMeasuredMeSoTheBabyHasSuddenlyJumpedFromTheFiftyPercentileToSeventyIsh

Hmm.

#MaybeTheyDidHaveAGrowthSpurtButItSeemsLikeABitTooMuchAndItObviouslyIsNotSuperAccurateButTheMainThingIsTheBabyHasGrown

That’s what we want to see. Next time it will be with someone else, so we will see what they get.

#ISaidThatIHadBeenInALotOfPainWithTheBabysMovements

Though it has not been so bad the last few days. I have been using my body oil more as probably helps my skin not hurt so much.

#TheMidwifeSaidThatIDoNotHaveALotSeparatingTheBabyFromMySkinSoItWillBeUncomfortableAtTimes

Makes sense.

#IHaveMyNextAppointmentAt34WeeksWhichWillBeWithADifferentMidwifeAndThenTheOnesAfterThatWillBeEvery2Weeks

Time is flying by. The last appointment did not feel like 3 weeks ago.

#BsNurseryCalledDuringHerLastSessionAsSheHadABumpOnHerHeadButTheyDidNotSeeHerDoItAndSheHadNotCried #TheyWatchedTheCCTVAndSaidSheMustHaveDoneItWhilePlayingWithAToyAroundSomeChairs

I thought they might have been calling to say she’d been sick, as if she is too active after eating and seems to be a bit sick after meals (mainly breakfast) at the moment.

#ISaidItWasProbablyAnOldBumpThatTheyHadNotNoticedAndWeWouldBePickingHerUpInHalfAnHourAnyways

She keeps knocking the same bit of her head on different things. It’s good they called – and I guess they have to cover their backs.

#WeWentToGetHerAndItWasAnOldBumpThatLookedLikeItHadBeenKnockedABitButItSoonWentDownAndSheWasFine

It probably didn’t need much to upset it again. They said they’d put a cold compress on it. She seemed fine and after her nap it had already gone down a lot.

#BIsStillCryingWhenWePutHerDownForANapOrBedAndINoLongerEvenTryToLetHerCrawlInByHerselfAsSheCrawlsInHalfwayThenStops

If I put her to bed she soon stops crying, but if Tiago does then she seems to cry for a lot longer. She knows I’m the strict one…

#SoWeHaveZippedItUpAndTurnedItRoundAsTheRipInItIsGettingBiggerAndINeedToFixIt

Trying to figure out the best way to do it. She normally sleeps at the edge closest to the door, which was the zipped bit. Hopefully she won’t mess with it more now that we’ve turned it round.

#ABassinetZipsIntoHerCotSoTheBabyCanHaveHerCotOnceTheyAreBornAsTheBabyWillBeMoreSnugAndBCanHaveADifferentOne

I don’t want to have to bend down super far to put the baby down. They will be nice and snug in the bassinet – B liked it.

#IJustHadToGoAndWatchBWhileTSortedSomethingOutAndBWasHoldingHerHandsBehindHerBackAgain

After T came back she was playing with a comb and I said ‘do you want to comb Daddy’s hair?’ and she had fun.

#SheDoesNotSeemToLikeScrambledEggsWhenIGiveHerSomeAtMealsButSheIsMoreThanHappyToStealSomeAndTheCrustsFromMyBreakfast

Nan wasn’t up yet, but normally she steals most of Nan’s breakfast, even though she’s usually eaten an hour before…

31 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait standing on one leg, while holding my left foot and looking away from the camera with my right hand touching my chin. I am nude with small white squares hiding my nipples and pubic area.
It Is Kind Of Weird To Refer To Tiago As Daddy And For Me To Be Called Mummy (31 and a half weeks)
 
#IJustFeelTiredToday
#AtTheWeekendWeHadOurNCTCourse
#NCTMeaningNationalChildbirthTrust
#WeDidItVirtuallyOverZoomAsWeWereUnableToMeetInPersonDueToCovid
#ItWasGoodAndWeLearnedALot
#SomeOfItWasGoingOverWhatWeHadLearnedOnOurHypnobirthingCourse
#ButIFeelLikeIUnderstandThingsMoreAfterHavingSeenDiagramsAndThingsBeingExplainedAgainBySomeoneElse
#WeDidTheCourseBecauseWeWantedToLearnButAlsoBecauseWeWantedToMeetOtherPeople
#EveryoneSeemsNiceAndWeHaveAChatGroupAndWillHopefullyHaveMoreOnlineMeetings
#ButIThinkThingsWouldBeABitDifferentIfWeHadMetInPerson
#HopefullyWeWillGetToOneDay
#SoIThinkHavingTwoDaysOfListeningWhilstOnWebcamHasTiredMeOut
#AsComparedToOtherLockdownWeekendsItWasPrettyIntense
#ThisWeekendThereIsASmallSessionAboutBreastfeeding
#WeWatchedAnotherEpisodeOfBabiesTheOtherDayAndItWasAboutFeeding
#ApparentlyNoBreastMilkIsTheSame
#AndItWillDifferForIfYouHaveABoyOrAGirl
#ThoughIWonderWhatHappensIfYouHadTwinsWhereOneWasABoyAndOneWasAGirl
#ItWasInterestingAnyways
#IFeelLikeBabysKicksAreGettingStronger
#IThinkItWasLastNightWhereICouldJustSeeItMovingAllAbout
#WeAreReallyGettingIntoNestingModeNow
#ReorganisingTheFlatAndPreferringThingsToBeALotTidier
#WeHaveBoughtMostOfTheThingsThatWeNeedNow
#JustAFewSmallBitsAndPiecesLeftToGet
#IKeepTalkingToTheBabyAboutWhatTiagoIsDoingButISayWhatDaddyIsDoing
#ItIsKindOfWeirdToCallHimDaddyAndForMeToBeCalledMummy
#ThoughIThinkHeWouldPreferToBeCalledDadInPortugueseSoIReferToHimAsPaiSometimes
#ThoughPapaiIsDaddy
#SoMaybeIShouldStartReferringToHimAsThat

Well, we are quite used to being called Mummy and Daddy now… We did used to refer to Tiago as Pai, but we seem to do that less these days.

We debated doing an NCT course this time, but it seems like an expensive way to make friends (which is what we thought last time). Especially as we not planning on sticking around the area for more than a year now, so it would be another potential group of friends that we would be moving away from.

We weren’t expecting to move away from Liverpool anytime soon when we did the course, but we did. I had a zoom call with a few of them the other week, so that’s nice at least.

I’m still yet to open my hypnobirthing book, but I’ve got 5% left of the Sinead O’Connor book that I’m reading and then I will.


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Imitating B Touching Her Nose (31 Weeks / 1st December 2021)

Self-portrait where I am touching my nose with my left index finger. I am side on to the camera and wearing a grey jumper and leggings. My bump is very visible.
Imitating B Touching Her Nose (31 Weeks / 1st December 2021)
 
#BWillJustRandomlyTouchHerNoseForNoApparentReason
#SoIWillSingHeadShouldersKneesAndToesAndSheWillSpendMostOfTheSongJustTouchingHerNose
#IThinkSheDoesKnowOtherBodyPartsButSheIsCurrentlyFixatedOnHerNose
#YesterdayIAskedHerWhereWasHerTongueAndSheStuckItOut
#SheHasSuddenlyBecomeAMassiveDaredevilAndItIsFreakingMeOut
#StandingOnTheArmOfTheSofaAndFallingBackwardsAndClimbingUpAnArmchairToTryToSlideDownIt
#WhileSheIsGettingMoreEnergeticIAmBecomingMoreTiredAndSlower
#ICanNotGetUpToSaveHerFromHerselfAsQuickAsIUsedTo
#SheKnowsWhatIDoNotLikeHerDoingLikeStandingOnTheCoffeeTableSoSheWatchesMeWhileSheDoesIt
#SheLovesItWhenIGetFreakedOutEnoughToStandUpWhichProbablyDoesNotHelpThings
#JustBeforeBedtimeSheSuddenlyWantsToRunAroundAndHaveTiagoChaseHer
#IUsuallyGetAnnoyedAsIWantHerToCalmDownAndTheOtherDaySheRanIntoADoorFrameWhileSheWasRunningFromT
#ItIsFunnyWhenSheDoesALittleSquealAtBeingChasedAndHasALaughThough
#MyNanSaysSheIsLikeAnOctopusWithHerArmsInEverythingAsSheIsConstantlyOnTheMoveAndMessingWithMyNansStuff
#BabyXsMovementsAreGettingQuitePainfulEspeciallyAtTheFrontOfMyBump
#IThinkBsPlacentaCushionedALotOfHerMovementsWhereasThisTimeThePlacentaIsInADifferentPlaceAndThisBabyIsBigger
#ASonographerDidSayThatSheHasLongLegsSoMaybeSheIsJustTryingThemOutALot
#OrMaybeIAmGettingPunchedMoreOrACombinationOfTheTwo
#OrMaybeItIsAllBraxtonHicksAndICanStillNotTellTheDifferentBetweenThemAndGettingKickedAndOrPunched
#IDoOftenMakeANoiseThoughAsItHurtsSoMuch
#EspeciallyWhenIAmLyingInBedAndAboutToFallAsleepAndIHaveToTryMyBestNotToCurse
#IOftenJustSayToTiagoCanYouTellYourSecondChildToStopBeatingMeUpPlease
#ICouldHave11WeeksOfThisPregnancyLeftAndTheBabyIsMeantToDoubleInSizeInTheThirdTrimester
#IAmABitWorriedAboutAchesAndPainsAsMyBodyIsDefinitelyStartingToFeelTheImpactOfCarryingThisBaby
#MyBackHurtsMoreAndMyBumpAchesAndIAmSoTired
#BDefinitelyStartedNurseryAtTheRightTimeAsIAmJustBecomingABoringTiredBlob
#MasksAreMandatoryInShopsAndOnPublicTransportAgainThoughIAmNotSureWhyTheyEverStoppedBeingSo
#MyGrandIdeaOfTakingBIntoTheCityCentreSeemsToHaveFadedAsIJustWantToBeCarefulAndTheThoughtOfDoingSoIsTooTiring
#TiagoShouldBeCalledForHisBoosterSoonWhenTheAgeDropsAndAsTheGapForTheBoosterHasBeenDroppedFrom6MonthsTo3ItWillNotBeLongUntilICanGetMine
#ICanNotBelieveThatIAmHavingAnotherBabyInTheTimeOfCovidButHereWeAre

#BWillJustRandomlyTouchHerNoseForNoApparentReason

As always I wish she would say why, but I guess she does it because she found she can.

#SoIWillSingHeadShouldersKneesAndToesAndSheWillSpendMostOfTheSongJustTouchingHerNose

Maybe she will touch her head for the first half, then her nose for the second.

#IThinkSheDoesKnowOtherBodyPartsButSheIsCurrentlyFixatedOnHerNose

I can’t wait for her to know all the body parts in the song. I don’t know why – I guess it will feel like an achievement of sorts.

#YesterdayIAskedHerWhereWasHerTongueAndSheStuckItOut

I think she understands a lot more than I think she does.

#SheHasSuddenlyBecomeAMassiveDaredevilAndItIsFreakingMeOut

I am hoping she gets it out of her system now, but I know it is only the start of a new era of B.

#StandingOnTheArmOfTheSofaAndFallingBackwardsAndClimbingUpAnArmchairToTryToSlideDownIt

I was on a video call to my younger sister when she started to do the sofa business. The armchair is quite dangerous as sometimes she doesn’t go very far and other times she tumbles onto the floor…

#WhileSheIsGettingMoreEnergeticIAmBecomingMoreTiredAndSlower

I need a lie down after I finish this…

#ICanNotGetUpToSaveHerFromHerselfAsQuickAsIUsedTo

This bump is becoming a weight and I have to help myself stand up, otherwise I get pains.

#SheKnowsWhatIDoNotLikeHerDoingLikeStandingOnTheCoffeeTableSoSheWatchesMeWhileSheDoesIt

That and sitting on the top cushion of the armchair…

#SheLovesItWhenIGetFreakedOutEnoughToStandUpWhichProbablyDoesNotHelpThings

Sometimes I just ignore her, but I do not know which approach is better. I’m just worried she is going to really hurt herself.

#JustBeforeBedtimeSheSuddenlyWantsToRunAroundAndHaveTiagoChaseHer

Maybe it’s her toothpaste? Someone is playing a mean trick on us.

#IUsuallyGetAnnoyedAsIWantHerToCalmDownAndTheOtherDaySheRanIntoADoorFrameWhileSheWasRunningFromT

The more tired she gets, the clumsier she gets. Fun times.

#ItIsFunnyWhenSheDoesALittleSquealAtBeingChasedAndHasALaughThough

It’s cute, but not just before bedtime.

#MyNanSaysSheIsLikeAnOctopusWithHerArmsInEverythingAsSheIsConstantlyOnTheMoveAndMessingWithMyNansStuff

Nothing is safe anymore. Yesterday she was bashing the house phone with a magnifying glass…

#BabyXsMovementsAreGettingQuitePainfulEspeciallyAtTheFrontOfMyBump

I feel like she would come out through my belly button if she could.

#IThinkBsPlacentaCushionedALotOfHerMovementsWhereasThisTimeThePlacentaIsInADifferentPlaceAndThisBabyIsBigger

*Nervous laugh*

#ASonographerDidSayThatSheHasLongLegsSoMaybeSheIsJustTryingThemOutALot

I’m happy for you sweet, unborn child of mine but it hurts.

#OrMaybeIAmGettingPunchedMoreOrACombinationOfTheTwo

Probably both, plus her doing rolls.

#OrMaybeItIsAllBraxtonHicksAndICanStillNotTellTheDifferentBetweenThemAndGettingKickedAndOrPunched

You’d have thought that I’d know by now, but no.

#IDoOftenMakeANoiseThoughAsItHurtsSoMuch

Some wincing here, some ouches there.

#EspeciallyWhenIAmLyingInBedAndAboutToFallAsleepAndIHaveToTryMyBestNotToCurse

I guess I notice more when I am more relaxed and my guard is down.

#IOftenJustSayToTiagoCanYouTellYourSecondChildToStopBeatingMeUpPlease

I’d love for him to experience pregnancy, even just for one day but oh well.

#ICouldHave11WeeksOfThisPregnancyLeftAndTheBabyIsMeantToDoubleInSizeInTheThirdTrimester

*Nervous laugh*

#IAmABitWorriedAboutAchesAndPainsAsMyBodyIsDefinitelyStartingToFeelTheImpactOfCarryingThisBaby

Writing this now my upper back hurts.

#MyBackHurtsMoreAndMyBumpAchesAndIAmSoTired

I think lifting B doesn’t help things, but that’s why I stretch in the morning and evening.

#BDefinitelyStartedNurseryAtTheRightTimeAsIAmJustBecomingABoringTiredBlob

At first I thought maybe we had signed her up too early, but it was definitely the right decision. She seems to love it too, which is good. T says that she will hug him tight before she goes in, but then is fine.

#MasksAreMandatoryInShopsAndOnPublicTransportAgainThoughIAmNotSureWhyTheyEverStoppedBeingSo

Ergh. I’m too tired to talk about the Government.

#MyGrandIdeaOfTakingBIntoTheCityCentreSeemsToHaveFadedAsIJustWantToBeCarefulAndTheThoughtOfDoingSoIsTooTiring

I do not have the energy to go there via train. I worry that B would get bored anyways.

#TiagoShouldBeCalledForHisBoosterSoonWhenTheAgeDropsAndAsTheGapForTheBoosterHasBeenDroppedFrom6MonthsTo3ItWillNotBeLongUntilICanGetMine

It’s been 2 months since I had mine, so I’m sure by the time it’s 3 months they will have dropped the age so I’m eligible. It’d be good to have it before the baby is born to give her more antibodies and to protect myself in hospital a bit more.

#ICanNotBelieveThatIAmHavingAnotherBabyInTheTimeOfCovidButHereWeAre

It’s been a good time to have kids in a way as I really feel like I’m not missing out on much. It is weird thinking how our lives may be right now if Covid hadn’t happened, but we will never know so there’s no point wasting brain power on it.

31 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

I think my bump is currently bigger than in these photos, but it is hard to tell.

I saw something the other day that said my BMI at the start of my pregnancy was 20.2 this time. The extra scans were unnecessary last time, so I’m glad I didn’t have to worry about that this time – they probably wouldn’t have given me them anyways.

I did read an article the other day about home births having been suspended for a while.

Obviously in the end I did not have a home birth, so it didn’t matter but it was weird not knowing what would happen at the time. Whenever I mentioned to midwives that I wanted a homebirth last time they ask if I want one this time – I’m quite looking forward to a change of scenery in hospital to be fair. (I bet I end up having an accidental home birth…)

With names we agreed on a girl name pretty early for B. We didn’t really discuss it much and in hospital it was weird as Tiago wasn’t able to visit that we didn’t really talk much about names. This time there is also a clear winner for a girl’s name (one we hadn’t even considered for B), though we say we are open to others but I guess it probably will this one. I guess we will have to wait and see. If Baby X does turn out to be a boy, then we are screwed. We really can not decide on a boy’s name…

I have not used the same oil this time. I bought some different oil after B was born, but only started to use it during this pregnancy. It smells so good. Turns out that is meant for pregnancy, but for some reason I thought it was after giving birth. *shrug* My skin hasn’t been so itchy this time which is good.

I swam in the summer, and swimming while pregnant was odd. I didn’t like that it was so uncomfortable to swim on my front. There was a swimming pool at the hotel we stayed at the other week, but I was too tired to try it out. Realistically I don’t think I will be swimming for a while now. We had planned to try to take B as she likes water so much, but yeah it hasn’t happened. Her skin is so sensitive that I don’t like the idea of her in a big bath of chlorine.


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Twelfth Family Portrait (30 Weeks / 28th November 2021)

Family portrait where T is holding B and I am trying to entertain her with the camera remote. T and I are both looking at her, while B's face has been edited so she has no facial features.
Twelfth Family Portrait (30 Weeks / 28th November 2021)
 
#AgainTimeHasFlownByAndItHasBeenOverTwoMonthsSinceTheLastFamilyPortrait
#SoonThereMayBeAFamilyPortraitOfFourOfUsWhichIsAWeirdButExcitingThought
#IAmDefinitelyDoubtingMyMotheringSkillsMoreEspeciallyWithTheSuddenDropInTemperature
#TheOtherDayITookBToTheParkAndSheWasCryingSoMuchOnTheWayHomeAndEvenAfterWeHadGotHome
#ItIsNotFunWalkingALongWayWithACryingChildAndHavingPeopleCommentAboutIt
#IThinkHerHandsHadGottenTooColdSoNowSheAlwaysGoesOutWithHerOversizedMittens
#ThoughWeWentToSeeChristmasLightsBeingTurnedOnAndBWasCryingALotThenToo
#WeWereWithACoupleOfFriendsAndTheirKidAndIThinkBothKidsJustGotBoredAndColdSoWeAllLeftEarly
#WeThoughtItWouldBeANiceThingToDoButAtTheirAgeIGuessTheyDoNotCareAndIFeltOverwhelmedByTheHugeCrowdOfPeople
#SheHadACoupleOfBadFallsTheOtherDayTooWithOneAtThePlaygroundWhereSheFellOutOfACar
#IRanToCatchHerButIAmWaddlingMoreAndMoreTheseDaysAndWasTooSlow
#ThenSheLikesToGetOntoTheCoffeeTablesInTheLivingRoomAndFellForwardOffOfOneToo
#SheHasAClimbingFrameButSheLikesToClimbOnEverythingElseAsObviouslyThatIsWayMoreFun
#ITalkAboutWhatTimeBWakesUpWayTooMuchAndItIsTheFirstCommentIMakeInMyPersonalDiaryEveryDay
#ButYesterdayIWokeBUpJustBeforeEightAndIWasWorriedSheWasDeadAsIKeptCallingHerNameAndSheWouldNotWakeUp
#TodayWeWokeHerUpAtSevenThirtyAndWeDidNotHearHerAtAllDuringTheNight
#SheSeemsToBeSleepingInLongerButBeforeLastNightSheHadBeenWakingUpTwoOrThreeTimesAndTakingAWhileToFallBackAsleep
#LastNightIJustKeptTheHeaterOnLowInHerRoomAllNightWhereasOtherNightsPerhapsSheHasWokenUpAsSheHasBeenTooHotOrTooCold
#SheGoesThroughHerNapAndBedtimeRoutinesOkayButThenCriesOnceSheIsInHerCotThoughSheUsuallyCrawlsInByHerself
#LuckilySheDoesNotCryForLongButIGuessSheIsJustTryingHerLuckAtStayingUpForLonger
#SheTendsToWakeHerFromHerNapAfterFortyMinutesALotThoughIWillLetHerNapForTwoAndAHalfHours
#IHaveStoppedRubbingHerBackToSendHerBackToSleepAsMaybeThatIsSendingMixedMessagesAndYesterdaySheWentBackToSleepByHerself
#IJustTendToResortToRubbingHerBackWhenTIsWorkingAsHeCanHearHerCryingAndSheAlwaysWakesUpAfterIAmJustAboutToFallAsleep
#SheIsGettingReallyGoodAtEatingWithASpoonNowAndWeHaveStoppedTurningHerPorridgeIntoPancakes
#WeAreBoredOfDoingItAndSheWillHappilyEatThePorridgeByHerselfNowWhichIsGood
#TheBabysKicksAreGettingStrongerAndICanReallySeeMyBellyWobbleNow
#BStillSeemsObliviousAboutThereBeingABabyInMyTummyThoughIAmTryingMyBestToMakeHerAware
#IAmLookingForwardToSeeingHowSheWillReactButIAmALittleNervous
#SheHasANewThingWhereSheLikesToTouchOurEyesSoThatWillNotBeAGoodThingToDoToHerSibling
#SheHasNoIdeaAboutHowMuchHerLittleWorldWillChangeSoonButIThinkWeWillAllBeOkay

I said to T: Ready to see your daughter?

I showed him the photo and he pulled a face. Obviously she doesn’t look nice, but it’s good for hiding her face…

#AgainTimeHasFlownByAndItHasBeenOverTwoMonthsSinceTheLastFamilyPortrait

I was waiting to see if I’d have another scan photo (at 28 weeks), but then I realised that my NHS scans were over and yeah time has passed by fast.

#SoonThereMayBeAFamilyPortraitOfFourOfUsWhichIsAWeirdButExcitingThought

I go between nervous, excited, anxious etc. about becoming a mother to two.

#IAmDefinitelyDoubtingMyMotheringSkillsMoreEspeciallyWithTheSuddenDropInTemperature

Oh, the fun.

#TheOtherDayITookBToTheParkAndSheWasCryingSoMuchOnTheWayHomeAndEvenAfterWeHadGotHome

It had rained a lot and someone wanted to go down the slide and splash water off the slide…

#ItIsNotFunWalkingALongWayWithACryingChildAndHavingPeopleCommentAboutIt

Two women with a few dogs were talking to B and I said ‘I don’t think she’s in the mood’, but really I meant that I was not in the mood. B did temporarily stop crying when she saw the dogs…

#IThinkHerHandsHadGottenTooColdSoNowSheAlwaysGoesOutWithHerOversizedMittens

I had stupidly not taken them out with me as I thought pulling her sleeves down on her jacket was enough, but obviously not – especially after they got wet.

#ThoughWeWentToSeeChristmasLightsBeingTurnedOnAndBWasCryingALotThenToo

Le sigh.

#WeWereWithACoupleOfFriendsAndTheirKidAndIThinkBothKidsJustGotBoredAndColdSoWeAllLeftEarly

We got bored of waiting, but then got stuck trying to get home and so saw them being turned on anyways. It definitely was not worth the stress.

#WeThoughtItWouldBeANiceThingToDoButAtTheirAgeIGuessTheyDoNotCareAndIFeltOverwhelmedByTheHugeCrowdOfPeople

It had not been so cold, but that day it had been freezing and once the sun went down it was even colder. B didn’t want to be in her pushchair, but we didn’t want her running around all over the place and Tiago couldn’t keep carrying her.

I was freaked out by how many people were there. I knew it would be busy, but I had not seen so many people in a small space in a very long time. I’m glad that masks are being made mandatory for shops and public transport again…

#SheHadACoupleOfBadFallsTheOtherDayTooWithOneAtThePlaygroundWhereSheFellOutOfACar #IRanToCatchHerButIAmWaddlingMoreAndMoreTheseDaysAndWasTooSlow

I was stood at the front of the car, so I can run either way to catch her in case she falls out and it was a big fail. I was worried Tiago would tell me off, but he said it happens. I told our friend and she said she was surprised that it had not happened yet…

#ThenSheLikesToGetOntoTheCoffeeTablesInTheLivingRoomAndFellForwardOffOfOneToo

Tiago had said that something else bad was probably going to happen that day. I do believe in the ‘rule of 3’… Luckily she fell half onto a cushion/a thick rug. She usually turns around and climbs down backwards, but I think she is starting to get more confident/is a bit of a daredevil.

#SheHasAClimbingFrameButSheLikesToClimbOnEverythingElseAsObviouslyThatIsWayMoreFun

I wrote the hashtags in the living room today while T was about and B was doing her usual faffing. B was just climbing on various things…

#ITalkAboutWhatTimeBWakesUpWayTooMuchAndItIsTheFirstCommentIMakeInMyPersonalDiaryEveryDay

It is probably a big boring part of my work for most people, but it’s on my mind a lot.

#ButYesterdayIWokeBUpJustBeforeEightAndIWasWorriedSheWasDeadAsIKeptCallingHerNameAndSheWouldNotWakeUp

Usually turning the light on, and/or turning off her noise machine makes her wakeup. Not then. I kept calling her name and started to get freaked out. She must have been in a deep sleep…

#TodayWeWokeHerUpAtSevenThirtyAndWeDidNotHearHerAtAllDuringTheNight

Let’s see how long this lasts.

#SheSeemsToBeSleepingInLongerButBeforeLastNightSheHadBeenWakingUpTwoOrThreeTimesAndTakingAWhileToFallBackAsleep

Usually once before we go to bed or just as I’m putting my head down, then usually around 2 or 4…

#LastNightIJustKeptTheHeaterOnLowInHerRoomAllNightWhereasOtherNightsPerhapsSheHasWokenUpAsSheHasBeenTooHotOrTooCold

Usually when she wakes up I mess with the settings on her heater. The radiator in her room doesn’t work, so she has a heater that is plugged into a smart plug so I can control it from my phone.

#SheGoesThroughHerNapAndBedtimeRoutinesOkayButThenCriesOnceSheIsInHerCotThoughSheUsuallyCrawlsInByHerself

Once she’s in I zip it up and she then usually starts to cry…

#LuckilySheDoesNotCryForLongButIGuessSheIsJustTryingHerLuckAtStayingUpForLonger

Or maybe she wants more attention from me? Not sure.

#SheTendsToWakeHerFromHerNapAfterFortyMinutesALotThoughIWillLetHerNapForTwoAndAHalfHours

It seems to be a more frequent occurrence.

#IHaveStoppedRubbingHerBackToSendHerBackToSleepAsMaybeThatIsSendingMixedMessagesAndYesterdaySheWentBackToSleepByHerself

Maybe that is why she has been waking up more at night and taking longer to fall back to sleep? Who knows.

#IJustTendToResortToRubbingHerBackWhenTIsWorkingAsHeCanHearHerCryingAndSheAlwaysWakesUpAfterIAmJustAboutToFallAsleep

The other day I just resigned myself to the fact that she probably wouldn’t go back to sleep and I’d have to make do with a 10 minute nap. I was a bit grumpy for the rest of the day…

#SheIsGettingReallyGoodAtEatingWithASpoonNowAndWeHaveStoppedTurningHerPorridgeIntoPancakes

We probably should have given her a spoon to use earlier on, but she seems to have picked it up quick.

#WeAreBoredOfDoingItAndSheWillHappilyEatThePorridgeByHerselfNowWhichIsGood

Turning the porridge into pancakes just felt like effort. She had started to go too impatient in the mornings so she’d been having just the porridge. Now we warm it up and a bit and now our mornings are a bit easier.

#TheBabysKicksAreGettingStrongerAndICanReallySeeMyBellyWobbleNow

At one point this morning B and the baby both had hiccups.

#BStillSeemsObliviousAboutThereBeingABabyInMyTummyThoughIAmTryingMyBestToMakeHerAware

I need to find some episodes of her favourite TV shows where they talk about it. Is there a pregnancy version of In The Night Garden?

#IAmLookingForwardToSeeingHowSheWillReactButIAmALittleNervous

I hope she likes being a big sister. I just watched her walked around and got a bit emotional thinking about her being a big sister.

#SheHasANewThingWhereSheLikesToTouchOurEyesSoThatWillNotBeAGoodThingToDoToHerSibling

The other day I was lying down and she was trying to touch my eyes. This morning Tiago was holding her, and B was looking at him lovingly and then tried to touch his eyes. She’s more obsessed with touching her own nose though…

#SheHasNoIdeaAboutHowMuchHerLittleWorldWillChangeSoonButIThinkWeWillAllBeOkay

She adapts well to new things. I like to think I adapt quickly. I just asked Tiago how he adapts and he said ‘adapting to stuff is my work’.

30 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

My dreams have been quite vivid lately. Last night I dreamed that my Nan died and one of my sisters was in the process of buying her house…

As B slept so well last night I slept well and didn’t go to the toilet in the night. Hurrah. When B wakes up in the night I usually wait 15 mins before going into her room, and usually pop to the toilet beforehand as there is a big weight pressing on my bladder.

I lay awake for a little bit last night thinking that we should probably buy the other things we need soon. We need to look at another car seat and a heater for our room.

I haven’t done many reshoots for this project, but there have been a couple of times where I just really didn’t like the photos. Looking back I think there are a few shoots that could have been way better, but … oh well.


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Pregnancy Waiting II

30 Weeks Feels Like A Big Milestone (30 Weeks / 24th November 2021)

Self-portrait where I am nude from my knees up. My left arm is covering my breasts, and my right hand is covering my pubic area. My bump is very visible.
30 Weeks Feels Like A Big Milestone (30 Weeks / 24th November 2021)
 
#WellIGuess30WeeksIsABigMilestoneAsTheDueDateIsCalculatedFor40Weeks
#SoThatMeansThePregnancyCouldBeThreeQuartersCompleteThoughYouAreAllowedUntil42WeeksIsh
#BWasBornLessThan8WeeksFromThisPointThoughSoWhoKnows
#IHaveToldMyParentsToBeOnAlertFrom37WeeksAndIWillStartGoingToBedEarlierAroundThen
#IWentToBedQuiteLateTheNightBeforeBWasBornAndWokeUpOnlyACoupleOfHoursLaterWithMyWatersBreaking
#ItIsEasyToSayIWillGoToBedEarlierButIDoNotAlwaysManageItAndTheOtherNightIDidButThenWasAwakeFromTwoToFour
#BHadWokenUpAroundTwoButSoonWentBackToSleepButICouldNotThoughLuckilySheSleptUntilSeven
#BAndMyParentsHadAGoodTimeAtTheWeekendWhichIsGoodAsTheyWillWatchHerWhileIAmInHospital
#SheWokeUpAtSixForThemWhichIWasRelievedAboutAsIWasWorriedSheWouldWakeUpAtFive
#WeDroppedHerOffAndWentForLunchThenCheckedIntoTheHotelWhereWeStayedUntilJustBeforeTheCheckoutTime
#WeHadANapAndWatchedTVAndIHadABathThoughIWouldHaveLikedToHaveReadAndSleptMoreButIGuessIWasExcitedAboutStayingUpLate
#AfterWeCheckedOutWeWentToHaveLunchAndDidFoodShoppingThenWentToPickUpB
#MyMumGotHerUpFromHerNapAndAtFirstSheWasJustClingingToMyMumButEventuallySheCameToSeeUs
#SheAteALotOfKidCrispsBeforeWeLeftAndFiveMinutesBeforeWeGotHomeSheWasSick
#AndIHaveNeverSeenSoMuchSickComeOutOfASmallHumansMouthBefore
#SheWentStraightIntoTheBathWhenWeGotHomeWhichSheWasHappyAboutAsSheLovesBathsAnyways
#WeTriedToGetAwayWithJustWipingTheCarSeatDownButYesterdayIHadToSolveTheCarSeatPuzzleAndPutAllThePiecesInTheWash
#IWasWorriedIWouldNotBeAbleToReassembleItButLuckilyIDid
#AfterTenMinutesOfBeingHomeItAlreadyFeltLikeWeHadNotHadAWeekendToOurselves
#WeDidMissBThoughAndAtOnePointWeWereWatchingVideosAndLookingAtPhotosOfHer
#IJustFeelSoTiredButBabyXIsSupposedToDoubleInSizeBetweenNowAndBirthSoIGuessIWillProbablyFeelMoreTired
#IFeelGuiltyAtTimesAsIDoNotHaveMuchEnergyAndIFeelLikeILetBDownABit
#IAmWorriedThatSheWatchesTooMuchTVAndSoITryToPutMusicOnInstead
#SheIsReallyIntoAFewShowsNowButIAmTryingToMakeSureWeReadBooksAndPlay
#IAmGladSheGoesToNurseryACoupleOfSessionsAWeekAsAtLeastIKnowSheIsGettingSomeStimulation
#IDoNotFeelReadyToBeAMotherOfTwoButAtTheSameTimeIJustWantTheBabyToArriveSoWeCanGetOnWithTheNextChapter
#IGuessWeAreOnACountdownNowThoughItIsABitFrustratingNotKnowingWhenTheClockWillRunOut
#BabyXFeelsQuiteActiveAndIAmStartingToGetMoreAcheyNowWithSlightBackPainAndHipPainEvenWithStretchingALot
#IHaveNotDoneAnyNudeShootsThisPregnancySoIGuessIWillDoOneToAccompanyTheseHashtagsAsAMemoryForMyself
#WeAreClosingTheKidBookAtTwoSoMyBodyWillNeverLookLikeThisAgainAfterBabyXIsBorn

#WellIGuess30WeeksIsABigMilestoneAsTheDueDateIsCalculatedFor40Weeks #SoThatMeansThePregnancyCouldBeThreeQuartersCompleteThoughYouAreAllowedUntil42WeeksIsh

I wasn’t sure on what word to use. Complete makes it sound like a video game or something, but I guess that’s what it is.

#BWasBornLessThan8WeeksFromThisPointThoughSoWhoKnows

I was sure that I’d be a 42-weeker, but no. Maybe this time? I hope not though.

#IHaveToldMyParentsToBeOnAlertFrom37WeeksAndIWillStartGoingToBedEarlierAroundThen

Baby X will probably come at 36 weeks now just to surprise me.

#IWentToBedQuiteLateTheNightBeforeBWasBornAndWokeUpOnlyACoupleOfHoursLaterWithMyWatersBreaking

I got through it as I wasn’t tired from running around after a toddler (I nearly wrote teenager?), but I think this time I will be too tired for the same series of events, but I guess adrenaline and whatever kicks in?

#ItIsEasyToSayIWillGoToBedEarlierButIDoNotAlwaysManageItAndTheOtherNightIDidButThenWasAwakeFromTwoToFour

Hello again pregnancy insomnia.

#BHadWokenUpAroundTwoButSoonWentBackToSleepButICouldNotThoughLuckilySheSleptUntilSeven

I was faffing around reading the news and stuff, but I think that just makes my brain more alert. I started to read my book and before long I felt sleepy again. I usually read a book every night until my eyes start to close, or I have to tell myself to go to sleep.

I am currently reading Men Who Hate Women by Laura Bates. It’s interesting, but sad/frustrating/a bit of a downer. I swear I’ll pick up my hypnobirthing book soon…

#BAndMyParentsHadAGoodTimeAtTheWeekendWhichIsGoodAsTheyWillWatchHerWhileIAmInHospital

Well, that’s the plan anyways. Let’s see. I don’t want to be calling them at 1 in the morning…

#SheWokeUpAtSixForThemWhichIWasRelievedAboutAsIWasWorriedSheWouldWakeUpAtFive

Phew.

#WeDroppedHerOffAndWentForLunchThenCheckedIntoTheHotelWhereWeStayedUntilJustBeforeTheCheckoutTime

We went for lunch at our favourite Indian restaurant and it did not disappoint. I have missed their chili paneer. Whenever we order Indian food I always get chili paneer and it is never as good.

We bought snacks at a supermarket before we got to the hotel and we barely touched them as we were so full from lunch.

#WeHadANapAndWatchedTVAndIHadABathThoughIWouldHaveLikedToHaveReadAndSleptMoreButIGuessIWasExcitedAboutStayingUpLate

I did also play The Sims. I do play it once in a while as it’s good when I’m feeling quite stressed/tired. I have phases of playing it once or twice a year. I remember seeing an ad for the first one on the back of a different game I bought and saved up for it until it came out. We have a long history together…

Anyways, I ended up staying up until midnight watching reruns of Gogglebox and then slept until 7. Was a bit disappointed as I did want to sleep until checkout, but I’m not used to sleeping in anymore.

#AfterWeCheckedOutWeWentToHaveLunchAndDidFoodShoppingThenWentToPickUpB

We shared a pizza between us as we were quite full. Exciting stuff.

#MyMumGotHerUpFromHerNapAndAtFirstSheWasJustClingingToMyMumButEventuallySheCameToSeeUs

She was nuzzling into my Mum and then would sneak a peek at us with a smile, then she came over. We knew she was just waking up and wasn’t in a mood with us or anything. My parents said the weekend went better than they thought so that’s nice.

#SheAteALotOfKidCrispsBeforeWeLeftAndFiveMinutesBeforeWeGotHomeSheWasSick

I’d got her some new crisps to try. I usually just give her a few, but as we weren’t at home I thought she could just eat them from the bag, but that was obviously a mistake.

#AndIHaveNeverSeenSoMuchSickComeOutOfASmallHumansMouthBefore

Luckily my morning sickness had passed, otherwise I probably would have been sick too.

#SheWentStraightIntoTheBathWhenWeGotHomeWhichSheWasHappyAboutAsSheLovesBathsAnyways

So she got a longer play than she might do normally. We were going to give her a bath before bed anyways, so it saved us doing it later.

#WeTriedToGetAwayWithJustWipingTheCarSeatDownButYesterdayIHadToSolveTheCarSeatPuzzleAndPutAllThePiecesInTheWash

It took me a good while to take all the pieces out. Tiago said the seat didn’t smell, but the night before we had gone to the supermarket and the car stank of sick.

#IWasWorriedIWouldNotBeAbleToReassembleItButLuckilyIDid

I should have taken pictures of it being dismantled really. I was proud of myself for sorting it out.

#AfterTenMinutesOfBeingHomeItAlreadyFeltLikeWeHadNotHadAWeekendToOurselves

I guess I didn’t have a nap as well (I usually nap when B naps) so that made me feel really tired too.

#WeDidMissBThoughAndAtOnePointWeWereWatchingVideosAndLookingAtPhotosOfHer

We do that a lot. We did it last night too… She’s funny.

#IJustFeelSoTiredButBabyXIsSupposedToDoubleInSizeBetweenNowAndBirthSoIGuessIWillProbablyFeelMoreTired

Apparently I only need to eat 200 more calories a day than before I was pregnant, but I have no idea what 200 calories is and the baby takes most of the nutrients out of what I eat and I get the leftovers. Charming.

#IFeelGuiltyAtTimesAsIDoNotHaveMuchEnergyAndIFeelLikeILetBDownABit

Oh, Mum guilt.

#IAmWorriedThatSheWatchesTooMuchTVAndSoITryToPutMusicOnInstead

If my Nan is up when we get up then we usually watch more. Luckily after a while B gets bored of watching the TV. I do try to take her out for a walk or two a day, but we need to find more things to do really.

#SheIsReallyIntoAFewShowsNowButIAmTryingToMakeSureWeReadBooksAndPlay

She likes to dance to theme tunes and she really likes In The Night Garden. This morning she was saying ‘Gaga’ and pointing at the TV.

#IAmGladSheGoesToNurseryACoupleOfSessionsAWeekAsAtLeastIKnowSheIsGettingSomeStimulation

It’s good for her. Tiago says she doesn’t cry or anything when he drops her off now. She’s settled in quick, but I said why would she want to spend all day with her boring, tired pregnant mother when she can see kids her own age and play with different toys etc.

#IDoNotFeelReadyToBeAMotherOfTwoButAtTheSameTimeIJustWantTheBabyToArriveSoWeCanGetOnWithTheNextChapter

I just keep wondering how it will be, but I just want to get on with it. I am feeling tired though, so I am nervous and should probably enjoy the few hours to myself that I get while B is at nursery and I have no mothering responsibilities while I can.

#IGuessWeAreOnACountdownNowThoughItIsABitFrustratingNotKnowingWhenTheClockWillRunOut

That is what makes me nervous. I just need to get prepared…

#BabyXFeelsQuiteActiveAndIAmStartingToGetMoreAcheyNowWithSlightBackPainAndHipPainEvenWithStretchingALot

I can feel the pain in bed a bit now. I guess baby is getting bigger and my body is trying to keep up. I have a lot of cramps and pains. All fun stuff.

#IHaveNotDoneAnyNudeShootsThisPregnancySoIGuessIWillDoOneToAccompanyTheseHashtagsAsAMemoryForMyself

I did a few when I was pregnant with B. I think I’ve said before that baby X will say ‘Mum, why did you take no nudes with me?’ In reality I’m sure they will both say ‘Mum, why did you take nudes when you were pregnant with us?’ I do wonder what they will think about my work when they’re older. They’ll probably just say ‘Mum, you look so old now’.

#WeAreClosingTheKidBookAtTwoSoMyBodyWillNeverLookLikeThisAgainAfterBabyXIsBorn

I say that, but so many people have told me that their third was an accident. I really don’t want to go through pregnancy again though. The sickness, the tiredness etc. Two seems like a good number. I have two arms. One to grab each kid with. One to replace Tiago, one to replace me. I think I will be stretching myself too much as a mother to more.

30 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait sitting on a sofa, holding my arms up over my head. T is resting his hand on my bump.
We Could Be Parents In 3 Months Or Less (30 weeks)
 
#ISayCouldBecauseIKnowItIsNot100PercentDefinite
#ThoughObviouslyIHopeItHappens
#YouWouldHaveThoughtByNowThatIWouldHaveComeToTermsWithTheFactWeHaveABabyComing
#ButItStillFeelsSurreal
#ThatIAmGrowingSomethingInsideMeThatLooksLikeAMixOfMeAndTiago
#ItReallyIsBizarre
#MyBumpGetsBiggerEveryWeek
#AndTheKicksGotStronger
#ItFeelsMoreActiveInTheEvening
#WhoWouldHaveThoughtThatIWouldBeHeavilyPregnantDuringAPandemic
#ItIsAlsoOddThatIWillNotSeeMyPregnantFriendsPregnantInRealLife
#WeAreOrderingMoreStuffNowAsIDoubtTheShopsWillReopenBeforeIGiveBirth
#AndIfTheyDoThenTheLastPlaceIWantToBeIsSomewhereWithLotsOfRandomPeople
#SomeHatsAndSocksCameInThePostYesterday
#TheyWereSmallerThanIThoughtTheyWouldBe
#ISaidToTiagoThatItIsWeirdThatTheBabyWillBeSoSmall
#HeSaidHeHopesForABigBaby
#ISaidDoNotWishTooMuchAsYouAreNotTheOneWhoHasToPushItOut
#HeSaidTrue
#IPlannedToDoSomethingDifferentWithTheShootToday
#ButTiagoWasFinishingSomethingOnHisComputer
#AndIHadSetUpMyStuff
#SoIJustAskedHimToPutHisHandOnMyBelly
#AndThenIJustMessedAboutWaitingForHim
#ByTheTimeHeWasDoneISaidWeCanTryTheIdeaAnotherTimeAsIThinkIHaveAPicture
#IAskedTiagoIfHeWantedToAddToTheHashtags
#HeShookHisHeadAndSaidHeLooksForwardToTheBabyComing
#HeWantsToKnowTheGenderOfTheBabyBeforeTheBirthButIDoNot
#IRealisedTheOtherDayThatIfIHaveScansHeWillNotBeAllowedInTheRoomOrEvenTheBuilding
#IDoNotSeeThePointOfFindingOutNowAsIWantToBeSurprised

Well, it seems like I felt similar at 30 weeks last time. I am still anxious that I might not become a mother of two, but I am trying to remain calm.

#WhoWouldHaveThoughtThatIWouldBeHeavilyPregnantDuringAPandemic

Who would have thought that I would be this pregnant again during the same pandemic?

#ItIsAlsoOddThatIWillNotSeeMyPregnantFriendsPregnantInRealLife

I had a zoom call with a few of our Liverpool friends the other night who were pregnant at the same time. They said to show them my bump and we talked about how it was weird that we never saw each other pregnant in real life last time. Sadly, they might not see me pregnant in real life this time as well just as I doubt we will get to see them before X is born.

#HeSaidHeHopesForABigBaby

I had forgotten that he said this. B was small. X is meant to be bigger…

#HeWantsToKnowTheGenderOfTheBabyBeforeTheBirthButIDoNot

Well, in the end we didn’t find out and like I’ve said before I’m skeptical that X is a girl. I know that people get it wrong so I’m holding my breath.

Self-portrait with Tiago from our necks to our waists. We are wearing the same top and T is facing the camera, whereas I am stood side on to the camera with my bump touching T's arm.
Who Knows How Things Will Be By The Time I Give Birth (30 weeks)
 
#IKeepTellingMyselfThatIShouldRestMore
#ButIWokeUpTodayFeelingLikeIWantedToDoAShoot
#ThisWasNotTheIdeaIHadYesterdayThatIDidNotEndUpDoing
#IRealiseThatAFewOfTheLastPicturesAllHaveAHandOrHandsOnMyBump
#IWasLookingAtThePictureOfMeAndTiagoWhenIWas19WeeksPregnantAndYouCanBarelySeeMyBump
#SoIThoughtItWouldBeNiceToRedoItWithMyBumpMoreObvious
#WeKindOfLookLikeWeirdMannequins
#WeOrderedOurPushchairAndCotToday
#ItHasBeenStressingMeOutForACoupleOfWeeksDecidingOnWhichOnesToBuy
#SoWeJustTookThePlungeTodayAsWhatIsTheWorstThatCanHappen
#ItIsSoWeirdMakingWhatFeelsLikeBigPurchasesWithoutHavingSeenThemInRealLifeOrHavingTriedThemOutFirst
#ApparentlyIfTheBabyCameNowItWouldHaveAGoodChanceOfSurviving
#SoItMadeSenseToOrderThem
#JustNeedToBuySomeSmallerThingsNowLikeMattressProtectorsAndNappies
#IAmLookingForwardToHavingItAllSorted
#ItIsNiceThatTiagoIsInTheProjectABitMoreNow
#ItIsGoingToBeWeirdWhenWeAreNotAtHomeTogetherSoMuch
#IThinkOnceTheBabyHisBornHisWorkNoLongerConsidersMeToBeVulnerable
#SoHeWillNeedToLeaveTheHouseForWorkAgain
#ButSurelyANewbornIsVulnerable
#IDoNotKnow
#WhoKnowsHowThingsWillBeByTheTimeIGiveBirth
#ItFeelsWeirdBuyingAPushchairKnowingThatItWillProbablyBeUsedForJustMyUsualSimpleWalkForALongTime
#AndMaybeIWillPreferToJustHaveTheBabyInACarrierForAWhileToAvoidAwkwardPavementEncounters
#IGuessItIsGoodToCoverAllTheOptionsAsThePushchairWillBeUsedAtSomePoint
#IHadALieDownThisAfternoonAndIThinkTheBabyWasUsingMyBladderAsATrampoline
#IThoughtIWasGoingToWetMyself
#WentOutForOurUsualWalkEarlier
#AGuyStuckHisHeadOutOfTheWindowOfAVanThatDroveFromBehindUsAndLetOutABloodCurdlingScreamAndIJumped
#HeHadHisHeadOutOfTheWindowSoIHopedHeNoticedIWasPregnantAndThenFeldBadButIAmSureHeWasJustHappyThatHeHadShowedOffInFrontOfWhoeverWasDriving

I keep telling myself that the baby will not come until at least the time B did, but in the back of my head I know the baby could come at anytime.

This time I have already bought nappies, but we need to think about cot options. We might just use the one that my parents have at their house (for B’s stays etc.)

Tiago has been in the project less this time, though hopefully this weekend we will do a family shoot.

This time things are meant to be a bit ‘better’ with visiting at hospitals, but I’m not going to keep looking at it as I know things can and probably will change before X is born. Better not to get my hopes up, but hopefully this time we will be home quicker.

I didn’t like using the pushchair for a while as I felt so self-conscious using it. It can adapt to have two kids in/on it, but we’ll see how it goes. I need to have a go at putting the bassinet and a seat on it.

I do worry about being far away from a toilet when we are out at times as I do feel like my bladder is smaller, but I think the kegels definitely help.


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Pregnancy Waiting II

Documenting My Bump From A Different Angle (27 Weeks / 2nd November 2021)

Self-portrait sat on floor. My feet are out in front touching each other, and my hands are clasping my bump. The image is shot from above.
Documenting My Bump From A Different Angle (27 Weeks / 2nd November 2021)
 
#IAmYetToDoTheShootButIImagineItWillBeSomeAboveShotOfMyBumpAsWhenIExerciseILookDownAndThinkThatIsWhatIWantToPhotograph
#IThinkBabyXMayBeMoreActiveThanBWasAsWhenIWasPregnantWithBIWasOftenJustSatByMyselfNotMakingMuchNoise
#NowAllDayIAmTalkingToBAndSingingToHerAndReadingHerBooksSoSheProbablyReactsToTheNoiseALot
#HoweverSheDoesKickOrPunchMeALotWhenIAmInBedAndItIsQuiteQuietSoMaybeSheIsMoreActive
#IAmAlreadyStrugglingToPutMySocksOnButIRealisedAsBWasASummerBabyIJustWoreSandalsOutsideButAsBabyXIsAWinterBabyINeedToWearSocks
#IUsuallyWearTiagosShoesIfHeIsNotComingOutWithUsAsTheyAreEasierToJustSlipOnAndOff
#WeSurvivedTheClockChangeThoughIDidWakeUpAndNoticeTheClockWasOffSoThoughtItHadFreakedOut
#ThenIRealisedTheElectricityHadGoneOffSoIWentToPlayWithTheFuseBoxAt2InTheMorningAsIWasWorriedAboutTheFreezerDefrosting
#IUsedAWoodenSpatulaAsIWasWorriedAboutGettingAnElectricShockAndEverythingCameBackOn
#IWasLookingForwardToTheOvenFinallyHavingTheRightTimeOnItButThenISetItAs8InsteadOf6SoIHadToTurnItOffFor15MinutesAndTryAgain
#BWokeUpAt5ButSheIsAlreadyAdaptingThoughLastNightSheWasAwakeFor3HoursBetween12And3AsSheWasProbablyTeethingAndIsGoingThroughALeap
#InOtherNewsBHasBeenOfferedAPlaceForNursery
#SheHasASettlingInHourSessionThisWeekThenAnHourAndAHalfOneNextWeekAndThenSheStarts
#IFeelGuiltyAboutItAndIFeelLikeABitOfAFailureAsAStayAtHomeMum
#ButAtTheSameTimeIThinkItWillBeGoodForHerEspeciallyWhenBabyXComesAlongAndIWillBeTiredAndHaveLessEnthusiasm
#ItIsOnlyForACoupleOfHalfDaysAWeekAndRealisticallyIWillProbablyPickHerUpEarly
#IThinkSheWillLikeItThereAndItWillGiveMeABitMoreTimeToOrganiseMyselfBeforeBabyXIsBornAndThenIKnowIHaveABitOfTimeEachWeekWhereIOnlyHaveToLookAfterOneKid
#UltimatelyIThinkItIsTheBestThingForUsAsAFamilyAndIFeelLikeItIsStartingAtTheRightTime
#MyParentsLookedAfterBForTheFirstTimeTheOtherDayAndItGaveMeATasteOfHowItMightBe
#WeDroppedHerOffAfterBreakfastAndThenWeStayedABitToMakeSureSheWasAlright
#ThenWeWentHomeAndDidABitOfWorkThenWentOutForLunchWhereTheySaidThatTheyCouldNotServeTheDishOfTheDayYetAsTheyWereABitBehind
#IJustMadeACommentAboutHowWeWereTooKeenAsItWasOurFirstLunchDateWithoutOurDaughterAndSoHeSaidHeWouldMakeASmallBatch
#TheDelayMeantWeHadSomeTimeToTalkAndItWasNiceToFeelLikeWeAreNotJustParentsInTheNicestWayPossible
#OnTheWayHomeIFeltColdAndMyBumpWasTooBigToDoTheZipOfMyCoatUpSoWeHadToSwapCoatsAndIThinkTiagoMayBeBorrowingMyCoatForAWhileNow
#AtHomeWeWatchedAlmostOneEpisodeOfAmericanCrimeStoryThenHadANapThenWentToPickHerUp
#IThinkMyTimeWillLookVeryDifferentToThatWhileBIsAtNurseryButIGuessIMightRestALittleBitSometimesThoughIWillProbablyFeelGuiltyForDoingThat
#ItIsGoodToKnowThatBCanHappilySpendTheDayWithMyParentsThoughAsSoonTheyWillBeHavingHerForAnOvernightStay
#IGuessThisIsAllGoodPreparationAsTheyWillProbablyHaveToLookAfterHerWhileIAmInHospitalGivingBirth
#ApparentlySheLookedForUsForFiveMinutesWhenWeLeftButWhenWeArrivedWeWalkedInTheRoomAndSheDidNotEvenNotice
#IAmLikingThatTheMorningsAreLighterNowButINeedToGetUsedToGettingBOutOfTheHouseEarlierForAnAfternoonWalk

#IAmYetToDoTheShootButIImagineItWillBeSomeAbstractShotOfMyBumpAsWhenIExerciseILookAtItAndThinkThatIsWhatIWantToPhotograph

We shall see.

(Well, it ended up as an above shot of my bump. I like it.)

#IThinkBabyXMayBeMoreActiveThanBWasAsWhenIWasPregnantWithBIWasOftenJustSatByMyselfNotMakingMuchNoise

By this point I was at home all the time, not singing in case the neighbours heard me, and Tiago was in the small bedroom/his office working all day.

#NowAllDayIAmTalkingToBAndSingingToHerAndReadingHerBooksSoSheProbablyReactsToTheNoiseALot

Plus I have my Nan to talk to, and my Mum comes round a few times a week, and I take B for walks and talk to people at the playground and park.

#HoweverSheDoesKickOrPunchMeALotWhenIAmInBedAndItIsQuiteQuietSoMaybeSheIsMoreActive

I think the position of the placenta may have something to do with it too, but it’s probably a mix of all these things.

#IAmAlreadyStrugglingToPutMySocksOnButIRealisedAsBWasASummerBabyIJustWoreSandalsOutsideButAsBabyXIsAWinterBabyINeedToWearSocks

Trying to find the easiest way to put them on. Generally sitting down and doing a figure of 4 with my leg.

#IUsuallyWearTiagosShoesIfHeIsNotComingOutWithUsAsTheyAreEasierToJustSlipOnAndOff

The laces are done up and they slip on and off easily.

#WeSurvivedTheClockChangeThoughIDidWakeUpAndNoticeTheClockWasOffSoThoughtItHadFreakedOut

It’s a digital clock that sits on my desk, so I usually sit up and look at it when I wake up. Exciting stuff.

#ThenIRealisedTheElectricityHadGoneOffSoIWentToPlayWithTheFuseBoxAt2InTheMorningAsIWasWorriedAboutTheFreezerDefrosting

I had noticed other things weren’t showing their usual lights, and then the lamp next to the bed wouldn’t turn on. Tiago didn’t seem too bothered, but I wanted to sort it out. I was quite awake though.

#IUsedAWoodenSpatulaAsIWasWorriedAboutGettingAnElectricShockAndEverythingCameBackOn

Everything made a noise and I was surprised that no one woke up – especially the doorbell ringing.

#IWasLookingForwardToTheOvenFinallyHavingTheRightTimeOnItButThenISetItAs8InsteadOf6SoIHadToTurnItOffFor15MinutesAndTryAgain

I like to think I’m quite good at fixing things, but I hadn’t been able to work it out. Before it was nearly at the right time before the last clock change, then someone came and fixed the oven and set it to the right time. More exciting stuff.

#BWokeUpAt5ButSheIsAlreadyAdaptingThoughLastNightSheWasAwakeFor3HoursBetween12And3AsSheWasProbablyTeethingAndIsGoingThroughALeap

Luckily we’d both gone to bed early. I think Tiago was asleep at 9 and I was asleep around 9.45 possibly?

#InOtherNewsBHasBeenOfferedAPlaceForNursery

Hurrah.

#SheHasASettlingInHourSessionThisWeekThenAnHourAndAHalfOneNextWeekAndThenSheStarts

I am a little nervous, but I think she will love it.

#IFeelGuiltyAboutItAndIFeelLikeABitOfAFailureAsAStayAtHomeMum

Well, I guess in the beginning I won’t be a stay at home Mum when B is at nursery, but once Baby X is born I will be again.

#ButAtTheSameTimeIThinkItWillBeGoodForHerEspeciallyWhenBabyXComesAlongAndIWillBeTiredAndHaveLessEnthusiasm

She will love seeing the other kids and playing with different toys I’m sure. The food sounds nice too!

#ItIsOnlyForACoupleOfHalfDaysAWeekAndRealisticallyIWillProbablyPickHerUpEarly

It’s not much at all, but it’s enough for now.

#IThinkSheWillLikeItThereAndItWillGiveMeABitMoreTimeToOrganiseMyselfBeforeBabyXIsBornAndThenIKnowIHaveABitOfTimeEachWeekWhereIOnlyHaveToLookAfterOneKid

Baby X won’t be moving about for a long time and will be napping a lot. B naps once a day now and is always moving about. It will be different.

I need to really go through all my stuff and have a clear out, then go through baby clothes sorting them and washing them etc.

#UltimatelyIThinkItIsTheBestThingForUsAsAFamilyAndIFeelLikeItIsStartingAtTheRightTime

I feel less guilty now. I am definitely starting to feel more tired as bump gets bigger…

#MyParentsLookedAfterBForTheFirstTimeTheOtherDayAndItGaveMeATasteOfHowItMightBe

Though T and I have both felt a bit ill since. We’ve had negative Covid tests. I think our bodies just decided that it was safe to be ill.

#WeDroppedHerOffAfterBreakfastAndThenWeStayedABitToMakeSureSheWasAlright

My Dad recorded some episodes of Teletubbies for her and she seemed quite content.

#ThenWeWentHomeAndDidABitOfWorkThenWentOutForLunchWhereTheySaidThatTheyCouldNotServeTheDishOfTheDayYetAsTheyWereABitBehind

At first we thought they were closed as they had a sign up saying they were closed for a function, but that was the day before.

#IJustMadeACommentAboutHowWeWereTooKeenAsItWasOurFirstLunchDateWithoutOurDaughterAndSoHeSaidHeWouldMakeASmallBatch

Legend. It wasn’t that great in the end, but it felt good to get out and sit in a restaurant/cafe looking out the windows and not having to worry about B.

(We had lunch dates when we visited T’s parents I think, but it was always different as we always felt like we were on a timer.)

#TheDelayMeantWeHadSomeTimeToTalkAndItWasNiceToFeelLikeWeAreNotJustParentsInTheNicestWayPossible

I guess some couples have kids and then all they really talk about is the kids, so it was nice to think and talk about other things. We did talk about her a bit of course, but it was good to feel a bit like our old selves again too.

#OnTheWayHomeIFeltColdAndMyBumpWasTooBigToDoTheZipOfMyCoatUpSoWeHadToSwapCoatsAndIThinkTiagoMayBeBorrowingMyCoatForAWhileNow

He never realised how cozy my coat was. His coat was cold…

#AtHomeWeWatchedAlmostOneEpisodeOfAmericanCrimeStoryThenHadANapThenWentToPickHerUp

The day went fast.

#IThinkMyTimeWillLookVeryDifferentToThatWhileBIsAtNurseryButIGuessIMightRestALittleBitSometimesThoughIWillProbablyFeelGuiltyForDoingThat

I’m sure I’ll have my to do lists. If I get my stuff done then I can rest.

#ItIsGoodToKnowThatBCanHappilySpendTheDayWithMyParentsThoughAsSoonTheyWillBeHavingHerForAnOvernightStay

This was a test run.

#IGuessThisIsAllGoodPreparationAsTheyWillProbablyHaveToLookAfterHerWhileIAmInHospitalGivingBirth

With B I was in for 4 days, so we will have to see how it goes this time. It’s also good prep for B going to nursery, though she knows my Mum well.

#ApparentlySheLookedForUsForFiveMinutesWhenWeLeftButWhenWeArrivedWeWalkedInTheRoomAndSheDidNotEvenNotice

I was just going to sit on the sofa until she noticed but Tiago said hi.

#IAmLikingThatTheMorningsAreLighterNowButINeedToGetUsedToGettingBOutOfTheHouseEarlierForAnAfternoonWalk

Before we would dawdle for a bit before going for a walk. This morning I felt too tired to take B out for a walk, so we definitely need a good one later.

27 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait lying on a sofa leaning on my right elbow and my right hand is nestled in my hair. My top is lifted up so you can see my bump.
I Want To Keep Being Able To Go For Walks (27 weeks)
 
#IAmFeelingTired
#GladIDecidedYesterdayToTakePicturesOfMyselfOnTheSofaToday
#YesterdayIWasLyingOnThereWatchingMyBellyToSeeIfICouldSeeTheBabyMoving
#IHaveNotSeenTheBabyMoveAsMoveAsMuchAsTheFirstDayISawIt
#ITryToTakeABreakToSeeIfICanFeelAndSeeTheBabyMoving
#IThinkItIsMovingNow
#AndItWasDuringTheShootABit
#IDoNotThinkIWillReadBabyForumsForABit
#TheyStressedMeOutBefore
#ButNowWithCoronaTheyAreFullOfPeopleBeingMoreStressedOut
#StillTryingToGoOutForAWalkADay
#IMakeAnEffortToKeepAGoodDistanceBetweenMyselfAndOtherPeople
#TheOtherDayIWasOutsideOfASupermarket
#AWomanAndGuyCameAlong
#TheWomanWentInAndTheGuyStayedOutside
#ButHeStoodRightByTheDoor
#SoAnyoneGoingInAndOutHadToWalkLessThanAMetreAwayFromHim
#ThenYesterdayWeWereWalkingOnAVeryWidePathByTheKerb
#AGuyRanByPuffingAndPantingRightNextToUs
#IShouldHaveToldBothOfThemOff
#AndYesterdayISawTwoGuysCoughInTheStreetWithoutPuttingTheirHandsOverTheirMouths
#AndOneThenWalkedIntoTheSupermarketThatTiagoWasIn
#IWantToKeepBeingAbleToGoForWalks
#INeedTheExercise
#ButIfPeopleKeepNotKeepingTheirDistanceAndDoingDumbThingsThenIMightHaveToStop
#ThoughTheyAreTheOnesWhoShouldNotGoOut
#IFeelLikeMaybeWeWillNotGetIt
#ButMaybeIAmTryingToBeOptimistic
#ItSeemsMoreSeriousByTheDay
#IJustWantToKnowHowLongItWillGoOnForButItCouldBeALongTime

Well, I’m definitely feeling tired. I’m writing this on 2nd November. I’m going to have a nap once I finish the comparison bit.

I have not really read any forums this time as I do not have the time or energy for them.

People still annoy me, but less so now I am double vaccinated. I am worried now that cases are increasing again though.

People running right next to me while breathing loudly does still annoy me a lot.

#IJustWantToKnowHowLongItWillGoOnForButItCouldBeALongTime

Well, it’s still going on and I wrote that in March 2020.

Self-portrait with Tiago. He is facing the right of the frame and I am hugging him with my left hand, but facing more towards the camera.
I Feel Like I Have Lost A Sense Of Urgency (27 weeks)
 
#AnotherDayAtHome
#WellWeWentOutForAShortWalk
#YesterdayWeLeftOurWalkUntilTooLate
#WhenItWasStartingToGetDarkAndCold
#SoWeDidNotGoOut
#OriginallyWeWereHavingOurWalksAfterItGetsDark
#ButTheWeatherGotBetterSoWeWantedToEnjoyTheSunABit
#IHavePlentyOfThingsToKeepMeBusy
#ButIFeelLikeIHaveLostASenseOfUrgency
#LikeWhyRushAsIAmNotGoingAnywhereElse
#AFriendAskedUsIfWeWereOkayJustBeingAroundEachOtherAllDay
#YeahWeAreUsedToBeingHomeALot
#WeAreLuckyAsWeCanSitInDifferentRoomsWhilstWeAreWorkingIfWeWant
#ThoughThisWeekendWeHaveStuckToTheSameRoom
#IWasSupposedToStartPhotographingHimMoreAWhileAgo
#IDidForABitButIFeltBadBotheringHim
#HeWasOnThePhoneDoingTheWashingUpToday
#AndIWasHuggingHim
#AndIThoughtThatWouldMakeAnAlrightPicture
#SoLaterOnIAskedHimAndHeObviouslySaidYes
#ObviouslyAsInHeIsInThePicture
#AskedTiagoIfHeHadAnyCommentsAndHeSaid
#IFeelKindOfRelaxedToBeFair
#HopefulThatThingsWillGetBetterInAMonthOrTwo
#ISaidIThinkItMightTakeAWhileForThingsToGoBackToNormal
#ItMightBeAfterIGiveBirthAtThisPoint
#IThinkEvenWhenThisNonLockdownEndsIWillBeCautious
#AsItCouldQuiteEasilyComeBackAndStartAllOverAgain
#WhoKnows
#IThinkWeJustNeedToBeCareful

I was not much of a walker until Covid. Now with B I love to get out of the house, though this morning I felt too tired to and instead did some baking (we have a lot of bananas that need eating).

I remember this ‘loss of urgency’ phase quite well, but it did not really last too long. It was just a lot to try to comprehend.

We are still trying to be careful.

Me sitting on the floor in a bra and leggings with my legs together in butterfly pose and my hands on my knees. My bump is showing.
The Baby Moving Reminds Me Of A Whale Rolling (27 and a half weeks)
 
#AnotherHalfAWeekGone
#TimeFliesInItsOwnWay
#EvenWhenIAmAtHomeAllTheTime
#ApartForOurLittleDailyWalk
#WeNowWalkALessBusyWayIfWeDoNotNeedToGoToTheSupermarket
#WhichWeHaveNotBeenToItInAFewDaysButProbablyWillGoToTonight
#ExcitingTimes
#WellIWillJustStandOutsideJudgingTheBehaviourOfOthers
#IFeelLikeMyDaysAreStillPrettyFull
#IGuessIHadAGoodRoutineBeforeLockdownHappened
#SoThingsJustContinueAsNormalish
#IAmTryingToReadMore
#AndMaybeIWillStartToWatchMoreTVButIFeelLikeIDoNotHaveMuchTimeForIt
#MaybeJustAtTheWeekends
#IAmQuiteFarBehindWithPostingTheProjectForOthersToSee
#ItIsFunnyReadingMyPreviousConcerns
#ThingsLikePeopleTouchingMyBelly
#LuckilyIWillNotHaveToWorryAboutThatWithSocialDistancing
#WhenWeGoOutForAWalkIWorryThatPeopleLookAtMeLikeSheShouldNotBeOutHere
#ButThatIsWhyItIsNiceThatWeGoTheQuietRoute
#AndPeopleSeemToBeGettingBetterAtKeepingADistance
#IStillGetWorriedAboutNotFeelingTheBabyMove
#IThinkIJustGetSoDistractedByThingsThatIDoNotRegisterItMoving
#IThinkItIsMovingNowThough
#WhenItTurnsOverItRemindsMeOfWhenYouSeeAWhaleRolling
#NotThatIAmComparingTheBabyToAWhale
#ButIJustVisualiseThatRollingMotion
#IGuessItIsARelaxingComparison
#IDoNotFeelTooWorriedAsIBarelyLeaveTheFlat
#ICallMyNanEverydayAndIHopeThatSheStaysFine

It’s so weird that Covid is still going on, but it’s better now that there are vaccines.

My walks are more with purpose these days as I am usually taking B somewhere, and we live in Birmingham now instead of Liverpool.

I think I will not stop being anxious about the baby during the pregnancy, and then when they’re born there are new anxieties.


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Imitating B Drinking Tea With A Comb (26 Weeks / 30th October 2021)

Diptych. First image is me dipping a comb into a mug. In the second image I am imitating B drinking tea off the comb.
Imitating B Drinking Tea With A Comb (26 Weeks / 30th October 2021)
 
#TheOtherMorningIExplainedToBAboutCombsAndSheCombedMyHairABit
#ThenInTheAfternoonICaughtHerDippingTheCombIntoMyNansCupOfTeaAndThenPuttingItInHerMouth
#ThisMorningSheTriedToBrushMyHairWithADustpanBrush
#SheSeemsToBeAdaptingAlrightToOneNapADayRoutineAndNowIWishIHadMovedHerToItSooner
#SheDoesStartYawningQuiteEarlySoITryToTakeHerOutForAWalkOrSomethingThoughYesterdaySheFellAsleepOnTheSwingBriefly
#SheLikesToWalkHoldingOntoHerPushchairNowSoITryToTireHerOutAndSheTendsToEatMoreLunchIfSheHasWalkedALot
#SheHasAnEarlyLunchOfElevenThirtyNowAndThenHasASnackAfterSheWakesUp
#BoringStuffLikeMostOfMyHashtagsButThisIsTheStuffThatDominatesMyThoughts
#SheGetsUpsetIfIPickHerUpToCrossTheRoadSoWeHaveToWaitForTheTrafficToClear
#TheOtherDayACarStoppedAndIWasHoldingOntoBWithOneHandAndHerPushchairWithTheOtherAsIfIPutTheBrakeOnItDoesNotComeOff
#TheCarBeepedAtUsSoIHadToDoAMassiveHeadJerkToSayDriveOn
#BLikesToWaveAtPeopleAsSheWalksByJustLiftingHerHand
#ItLooksABitMoreLikeASaluteSoINeedToBeCarefulAboutImitatingIt
#ILoveHerPerseveranceAsIfSomeoneDoesNotWaveBackSheTriesAFewMoreTimesThenMakesANoiseAtThem
#IFeelLikeWeAreStartingToSettleIntoTheLocalCommunityMoreAndWeRecogniseMorePeopleOnOurWalks
#SheDoesNotSeemToWaveAtPeopleWeKnowThoughWhichIsFunny
#YesterdayBWavedAtAWomanAndSheSaidOhSheMustHaveMeConfusedWithSomeoneElseButISaidNoSheOnlyWavesAtStrangers
#SometimesSheMilksItAndJustKeepsWavingAtTheSamePersonWithACombinationOfOneAndTwoHands
#IHaveNoticedThatMorePeopleInteractWithUsWhenSheIsWalkingComparedToWhenSheIsInHerPushchair
#AFiveMinuteWalkDoesTakeUsAboutHalfAnHourEspeciallyIfSheStopsToStareAtDogsAndRunUpAndDownTinyHills
#ThisWeekSomeBoysHadABallInThePlaygroundAndTheyWereReallyNiceAboutLettingHerPlayWithItWhichReallyWarmedMyHeart
#WhenSheGetsTiredNowHerLegsTurnToJellyAndSheFallsOverALot
#TalkingOfJellyICanNowSeeMyBumpWobbleWithKicks
#SheSeemsALotMoreActiveThanBWasButMaybeItIsDownToWhereThePlacentaIsAndMyMemory
#IAmDefinitelyGettingBiggerAsNowISeemToMisjudgeGapsAndKnockMyBumpIntoThings
#YesterdayIHeardTiagoWalkingUpTheStairsAndThrewMyselfOntoTheBedToPretendIWasAsleep
#OfCourseIForgotAboutMyBumpAndLandedOnItSoThatWasUncomfortable
#IAlsoHadATubeOfTomatoPureeFallOutOfTheFridgeOntoItSoSorryBabyXIfIHurtYouAtAllYesterday
#ICanNotWaitForBToFeelAKickButSheStillDoesNotSeemThatInterestedInMyBumpAndProbablyThinksIAmBeingSillyWhenITellHerABabyIsInside
#HoweverSheDidUseItAsAPillowTheOtherDayWhenWeWereChilling
Gif of the two previous images, showing me putting the comb in a mug and then pretending to drink tea off the comb.
Imitating B Drinking Tea With A Comb (26 Weeks / 30th October 2021) (GIF)

#TheOtherMorningIExplainedToBAboutCombsAndSheCombedMyHairABit

I rarely brush my hair, and wash it, so it was a bit of a task for her, but she seemed to enjoy it anyways.

#ThenInTheAfternoonICaughtHerDippingTheCombIntoMyNansCupOfTeaAndThenPuttingItInHerMouth

Does drinking tea from a comb make you more or less British?

#ThisMorningSheTriedToBrushMyHairWithADustpanBrush

Great. I nearly let her do it, then my common sense kicked in. I really can’t be bothered to wash my hair much lately…

#SheSeemsToBeAdaptingAlrightToOneNapADayRoutineAndNowIWishIHadMovedHerToItSooner

Typically I put it off and then it goes alright. I think we did it at the right time though as she had been taking two naps quite well for a while.

#SheDoesStartYawningQuiteEarlySoITryToTakeHerOutForAWalkOrSomethingThoughYesterdaySheFellAsleepOnTheSwingBriefly

We went to meet a pregnant woman that I had been speaking to via an app. On the way I was rattling the toy on B’s pushchair to keep her awake.

B seems to like the swing more now, but I think all the walking tires her out. She was quite happy just being on the swing for ages while we chatted.

#SheLikesToWalkHoldingOntoHerPushchairNowSoITryToTireHerOutAndSheTendsToEatMoreLunchIfSheHasWalkedALot

She walks quite a lot now. I do have to pick her up at times, which isn’t good for bump but sometimes I have to. Sometimes she is so wet from the rain that I do not want to put her in her pushchair, and she doesn’t want to get in it anyways.

#SheHasAnEarlyLunchOfElevenThirtyNowAndThenHasASnackAfterSheWakesUp

I think I need to start giving her a bigger snack and she is starting to get more hangry before dinner.

#BoringStuffLikeMostOfMyHashtagsButThisIsTheStuffThatDominatesMyThoughts

Yeah, this is my life. I don’t think anyone reads this anyways so whatever.

#SheGetsUpsetIfIPickHerUpToCrossTheRoadSoWeHaveToWaitForTheTrafficToClear

Sometimes I do pick her up and it’s a struggle to cross the road with her wriggling, and to push the pushchair.

#TheOtherDayACarStoppedAndIWasHoldingOntoBWithOneHandAndHerPushchairWithTheOtherAsIfIPutTheBrakeOnItDoesNotComeOff

There were a couple of other people waiting, so I though they’d go and we’d just wait.

#TheCarBeepedAtUsSoIHadToDoAMassiveHeadJerkToSayDriveOn

It was so awkward. They couldn’t see B from where they were in the car though.

#BLikesToWaveAtPeopleAsSheWalksByJustLiftingHerHand

Cute.

#ItLooksABitMoreLikeASaluteSoINeedToBeCarefulAboutImitatingIt

Not so cute.

#ILoveHerPerseveranceAsIfSomeoneDoesNotWaveBackSheTriesAFewMoreTimesThenMakesANoiseAtThem

A young woman yesterday was walking looking at her phone. B tried to get her attention a few times with a wave, then made a noise at her while waving, but she was either in her own world or ignoring us. I don’t blame her.

I told B to not lose her friendliness and to keep persisting with her waving, though I doubt she understood me.

#IFeelLikeWeAreStartingToSettleIntoTheLocalCommunityMoreAndWeRecogniseMorePeopleOnOurWalks

I think I’ve said it before, but it’s nice.

#SheDoesNotSeemToWaveAtPeopleWeKnowThoughWhichIsFunny

She generally just hides from them, especially if they have dogs that have barked in the past. Yesterday a couple of dogs we know were barking, and although B jumped she did not cry which is good.

#YesterdayBWavedAtAWomanAndSheSaidOhSheMustHaveMeConfusedWithSomeoneElseButISaidNoSheOnlyWavesAtStrangers

Big lol. She was pushing a shopping trolley bag, and I realised one would not be a bad idea with B. She can push it along and then when she gets tired I can just put her inside. I probably won’t do this…

#SometimesSheMilksItAndJustKeepsWavingAtTheSamePersonWithACombinationOfOneAndTwoHands

This happened a couple of days ago, but the woman was sweet and indulged her. And then when we met ‘the pregnant lady’ B kept waving bye.

#IHaveNoticedThatMorePeopleInteractWithUsWhenSheIsWalkingComparedToWhenSheIsInHerPushchair

‘Oh, isn’t he a good walker.’ (Everyone just assumes she’s a boy.)

#AFiveMinuteWalkDoesTakeUsAboutHalfAnHourEspeciallyIfSheStopsToStareAtDogsAndRunUpAndDownTinyHills

Probably more to be fair. There does seem to be a fine line between tiring B out and her getting overtired, but hopefully over time she will adapt.

#ThisWeekSomeBoysHadABallInThePlaygroundAndTheyWereReallyNiceAboutLettingHerPlayWithItWhichReallyWarmedMyHeart

‘Warmed my heart’ – lol. It’s true though. I was a bit like ‘oh B, don’t play with that it’s not yours’, but they were really kind. They were probably 10 or something? I really can’t age kids.

#WhenSheGetsTiredNowHerLegsTurnToJellyAndSheFallsOverALot

This happened a bit before, but is more obvious now with just the one nap a day.

#TalkingOfJellyICanNowSeeMyBumpWobbleWithKicks

It’s funny. Still trying to get B to notice…

#SheSeemsALotMoreActiveThanBWasButMaybeItIsDownToWhereThePlacentaIsAndMyMemory

She’s moving now. It’s good though as it’s reassuring.

#IAmDefinitelyGettingBiggerAsNowISeemToMisjudgeGapsAndKnockMyBumpIntoThings

‘I can fit through that – oww.’

#YesterdayIHeardTiagoWalkingUpTheStairsAndThrewMyselfOntoTheBedToPretendIWasAsleep

I was super tired to be fair. I couldn’t tell if my computer was playing up or if it was my eyes.

#OfCourseIForgotAboutMyBumpAndLandedOnItSoThatWasUncomfortable

Whoops. I then had to roll over a bit and was just lying weirdly when he entered the room.

#IAlsoHadATubeOfTomatoPureeFallOutOfTheFridgeOntoItSoSorryBabyXIfIHurtYouAtAllYesterday

It was a bit spikey… I think she is quite well protected though.

#ICanNotWaitForBToFeelAKickButSheStillDoesNotSeemThatInterestedInMyBumpAndProbablyThinksIAmBeingSillyWhenITellHerABabyIsInside

She’s still got a bit of time to adapt to the idea. She likes to look at babies in the park, but let’s see how much she likes having one at home all the time.

#HoweverSheDidUseMyBumpAsAPillowTheOtherDayWhenWeWereChilling

See, your sister is useful B. I’m still not 100% sure it’s a girl – I saw a newspaper article about a woman who was told she was pregnant with 2 girls and a boy and she ended up having boy triplets.

26 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait where I am naked from my breasts down. I am showing off a bump and my left hand is touching my back.
Today We Saw The Baby Move For The First Time (26 and a half weeks)
 
#WellThisMorningWasExciting
#IWasWorriedThatIHadNotFeltTheBabyMoveLastNightOrThisMorning
#IWasLyingInBedFaffingOnMyPhoneWithMyTopUp
#AndISawMyBellyMove
#IThoughtIHadNotSeenIt
#SoIJustLayThereWatchingMyBelly
#ItMovedAndIGasped
#WhoNeedsTVWhenYouHaveABump
#ItIsQuiteMeditativeJustWatchingIt
#AtOnePointThereWasAStrangeShapeByMyBellyButton
#SoITouchedIt
#ItMustHaveBeenAHandOrFootAsItThenWentAway
#SoCool
#ButSoWeird
#LastNightIWokeUpInTheNightAndStretchedMyLegOut
#ThenIGotAReallyPainfulCrampInMyLeg
#ITouchedWhereItHurt
#AndIThoughtIFeltALumpWhichFreakedMeOut
#ThoughIThinkItWasJustMyMuscleAndIWasHalfAsleep
#IHaveNotTouchedMyLegsInAWhile
#IGuessIAmGivingMyBumpAllTheAttention
#MyLegsAreGettingMuscly
#PostedAPictureTodayWhereIThoughtItLookedLikeIHaveABumpAtTheTime
#ItLooksLikeNothing
#EspeciallyComparedToNow
#ITookASimilarPictureToThisOnly4WeeksAgo
#AndIFeelLikeTheChangeIsQuiteDifferent
#LookingThroughThePicturesOfThisProjectTheBumpJustKindOfSuddenlyAppears
#AndDoesNotStop
#InterestedToSeeHowMyBumpWillLookJustBeforeIGiveBirth

Okay, so seeing my belly move started around the same time.

I have noticed a few strange shapes too. I guess she is getting bigger. (My app says the size of a swede – 35.6cm in length, that is quite long.)

I haven’t noticed any lumps in my legs with cramps this time, but I had forgot about this. The other night I had a cramp and just swung my leg out of bed to stand up and it was less painful than normal. Win.

I feel torn with this project as I love imitating B, but I also want more bump photos. I guess my next shoot can be a bump image…


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Imitating B Putting Her Head Against A Mirror (26 Weeks / 26th October 2021)

Self-portrait where I am resting my head on a mirror and looking at myself.
Imitating B Putting Her Head Against A Mirror (26 Weeks / 26th October 2021)
 
#IfBSeesAMirrorForSomeReasonSheHasToButtHeadsWithItOrBangOnItOrAtLeastRestHerHeadOnIt
#IAmStillTryingToFigureOutIfSheKnowsItIsHerInTheMirrorOrNot
#IfISeeAMirrorAndIAmCarryingHerThenIUsuallyWaveAtHerSoIThinkSheMustKnowButWhoKnows
#FiveDaysAgoIWroteInMyHashtagRemindersThatMaybeItIsTimeToDropBDownToOneNapADayButIWasFeelingHesitantAsILikeOurRoutines
#WellWeWentAwayAtTheWeekendAndBDidNotHaveASecondNapOnTheFridaySaturdayAndSunday
#ThenYesterdayIPutHerDownForHerFirstNapAndSheWasNotFallingAsleepSoIGotHerBackUpAndThenGaveHerANapAtMiddayInstead
#LastNightSheWasAwakeFromMidnightToTwoishAndThenWokeUpAtFiveThirtySoIPutHerInOurBed
#IDoNotLikeToDoItMuchButSheDidActuallySleepForAnotherHourThoughMySleepWasVeryUnsettledAsIWasWorriedAboutSquishingHerOrSomething
#StayingInAHotelStressedMeOutAsEverytimeSheCriedIWasWorriedThatItWouldAnnoyPeople
#IBarelySleptOnTheFridayNightAndOnTheSaturdayMorningWePutHerInOurBedFromFiveishAndSheSleptALittleBitLonger
#IAmWorriedThatWeAreUndoingHerSleepTrainingButMaybeSheIsJustTeethingAndABitClingierThoughOnSundayNightSheSleptFine
#ItWasWeirdGoingToAPhotographyWeekendAndTiagoAndBJoiningMeAsMyTwoWorldsRarelyCollide
#ItWasFunnyTalkingToPhotoFriendsAndThenSeeingThemWalkingTowardsMeAsItJustSeemedSoOdd
#IAmGoingToHaveToAdjustToThisNewOneNapScheduleButOnceWeDoIThinkItWillBeForTheBetterAsWeCanGoOutForLonger
#ThoughIAmWorriedAboutTheDarkEveningsAsIWillNotBeAbleToTakeHerOutLikeIUsuallyDoSoWeMightFeelABitStuckAtHome
#IWillJustHaveToAdjustWhenITakeHerOutForWalksAndMaybeWeWillJustHaveToDoSomeWalksInTheDarkWithTiagoOnTheNightsThatFeelLonger
#LastWeekIHadAMidwivesAppointmentAndIHadToTakeBWithMeButItWasAllFineAndTheBabyIsFine
#HerDueDateIsAFewDaysBeforeMineIThinkSoIWillNotSeeHerAgainAsSheWillBeWorkingFromHome
#SheSaidAsItIsNotMyFirstBabyThe31WeekAppointmentIsOptionalButISaidIMightAsWellHaveIt
#ThatMorningIWasChangingBsNappyAndThenICouldNotFindHerNappyCreamThoughIKnewIHadGotItBeforeSettingUpAChangingStation
#SoIWentOffToLookForItAndBStoodUpAndPissedOnTheFloorAndThenManagedToSlipOverInItSoWhenITookHerVestOffTheBackOfHerHeadWasWet
#SorryToBIfThisIsTooMuchButIFoundItFunnyAndSoIHadToGiveHerABathWhichMightHaveBeenHerFirstMorningBath
#IAmSureThisMorningThatShePointedToMyBellyAndThenDidAnImpressionOfItWithHerHand
#MyMumAndNanBothSaidMyBumpLooksALotBiggerTodaySoMaybeBNoticedToo
#WithHerNewScheduleIAmGoingToHaveToSeeIfICanDoABitOfWorkWhileShePlaysNextToMe
#IDoNotKnowWhyIFeelBadForDoingThisAsIAmSureALotOfOtherPeopleDoItToo
#YesterdayWeWereInMineAndTsBedroomAndISawAStackOfStuffNextToTheMirror
#ILookedAtItAndThoughtMaybeIShouldMoveItButDecidedItShouldBeFineButThen5MinutesLaterBHadKnockedItOverSoIHadToMoveIt
#IAmGettingQuiteNervousAboutHavingTwoKidsInAFewMonthsOrSo
#SometimesIGetWorriedAboutLackOfMovementsButThenSheStartsMovingALotAndTiagoCouldFeelHerKickingMeLastNight

#IfBSeesAMirrorForSomeReasonSheHasToButtHeadsWithItOrBangOnItOrAtLeastRestHerHeadOnIt

I really wish she could talk so she could explain things to me. Maybe she likes that it feels cold?

#IAmStillTryingToFigureOutIfSheKnowsItIsHerInTheMirrorOrNot

I thought she had known for ages, then I read in a development thing that is a more recent ‘skill’ that they learn.

#IfISeeAMirrorAndIAmCarryingHerThenIUsuallyWaveAtHerSoIThinkSheMustKnowButWhoKnows

I think she knows. Again, I can’t ask her.

#FiveDaysAgoIWroteInMyHashtagRemindersThatMaybeItIsTimeToDropBDownToOneNapADayButIWasFeelingHesitantAsILikeOurRoutines

Things were just working. I did note that maybe it would stop her early mornings though.

I send reminders to myself of what I might want to talk about in my hashtags. I am starting to think that they are just super dull, but I am tired.

#WellWeWentAwayAtTheWeekendAndBDidNotHaveASecondNapOnTheFridaySaturdayAndSunday

Friday I just thought she would not have a long enough nap before going to an appointment, and then going away so we might as well just try to leave as early as possible.

Saturday – She had her morning nap at a good time, then Tiago took her back to the hotel for a nap and she didn’t take it. Maybe it was because she knew T was in the room, but he had been there in the morning too?

Sunday – We left early so B and I could sleep in the car. Then we were meeting friends I could not be bothered to even try to get B to have a nap on the go. To be fair she showed no signs of being tired and wouldn’t even sit in her pushchair…

#ThenYesterdayIPutHerDownForHerFirstNapAndSheWasNotFallingAsleepSoIGotHerBackUpAndThenGaveHerANapAtMiddayInstead

I just realised ‘what am I doing? I should just transition her to one nap now’ as I didn’t think she would end up having a very long second nap anyways.

#LastNightSheWasAwakeFromMidnightToTwoishAndThenWokeUpAtFiveThirtySoIPutHerInOurBed

I was hoping she would sleep late as she was awake for so long.

I went in with her water and paracetamol and she seemed fine, until every time I went to leave. Tiago went in after a bit and stayed with her until she calmed down.

This morning I was not ready to get her up, and she seemed tired so putting her in our bed seemed like the easier option.

#IDoNotLikeToDoItMuchButSheDidActuallySleepForAnotherHourThoughMySleepWasVeryUnsettledAsIWasWorriedAboutSquishingHerOrSomething

My maternity pillow acted as a barrier so she was stuck on my side of the bed. She did cuddle up to me which was cute. When she went to Tiago’s side after an hour-ish I realised what an uncomfortable position I had been in.

#StayingInAHotelStressedMeOutAsEverytimeSheCriedIWasWorriedThatItWouldAnnoyPeople

The hotel reviews were really mixed, but it was nice. The staff were super friendly and the bed wasn’t bad.

#IBarelySleptOnTheFridayNightAndOnTheSaturdayMorningWePutHerInOurBedFromFiveishAndSheSleptALittleBitLonger

Every time she woke up I sat upright and stressed. Again, it seemed like an easier option to just put her in our bed.

#IAmWorriedThatWeAreUndoingHerSleepTrainingButMaybeSheIsJustTeethingAndABitClingierThoughOnSundayNightSheSleptFine

She had a similar bad sleep episode a week ago (awake for 2 hours in the night etc.) I don’t want to keep giving her paracetamol but she has been putting her fingers in her mouth a lot and she does seem to have a bit of a cold again.

#ItWasWeirdGoingToAPhotographyWeekendAndTiagoAndBJoiningMeAsMyTwoWorldsRarelyCollide

Obviously I photograph them, so my worlds collide then but I mean colliding in real life – it was weird.

#ItWasFunnyTalkingToPhotoFriendsAndThenSeeingThemWalkingTowardsMeAsItJustSeemedSoOdd

It was nice to introduce B to people, though when she was getting tired one night she kept falling over, so Tiago had to keep taking her out of the room.

#IAmGoingToHaveToAdjustToThisNewOneNapScheduleButOnceWeDoIThinkItWillBeForTheBetterAsWeCanGoOutForLonger #ThoughIAmWorriedAboutTheDarkEveningsAsIWillNotBeAbleToTakeHerOutLikeIUsuallyDoSoWeMightFeelABitStuckAtHome

We will have to see. I am really not looking forward to the clocks changing.

#IWillJustHaveToAdjustWhenITakeHerOutForWalksAndMaybeWeWillJustHaveToDoSomeWalksInTheDarkWithTiagoOnTheNightsThatFeelLonger

The time of her one nap means we do have a lot of time in the morning, and hopefully we can go out after her nap before it gets dark.

I’m not sure how safe it will be walking around with B at night, but I know people with dogs who are already trying to figure out a route. Some nights we might feel like we have to get out for a bit. I definitely wouldn’t go out with B by myself though.

#LastWeekIHadAMidwivesAppointmentAndIHadToTakeBWithMeButItWasAllFineAndTheBabyIsFine

She was listening for a heartbeat and I could feel the baby kicking so I wasn’t too worried then.

#HerDueDateIsAFewDaysBeforeMineIThinkSoIWillNotSeeHerAgainAsSheWillBeWorkingFromHome

Shame as I like her.

#SheSaidAsItIsNotMyFirstBabyThe31WeekAppointmentIsOptionalButISaidIMightAsWellHaveIt

It’s not too far to go and I’d rather just go for an extra check and know things are okay.

#ThatMorningIWasChangingBsNappyAndThenICouldNotFindHerNappyCreamThoughIKnewIHadGotItBeforeSettingUpAChangingStation #SoIWentOffToLookForItAndBStoodUpAndPissedOnTheFloorAndThenManagedToSlipOverInItSoWhenITookHerVestOffTheBackOfHerHeadWasWet

Of course the cream had just rolled away and was under the step ladder next to us.

#SorryToBIfThisIsTooMuchButIFoundItFunnyAndSoIHadToGiveHerABathWhichMightHaveBeenHerFirstMorningBath

Sorry B. I’m sure most people have slipped over in their piss at least once in their life. If they say no then they’re probably lying. I don’t remember doing it, but I might well have done at your age.

I was hoping to get away with not giving her a bath, but nope. Then I was hoping to just wash the back of her head, but she had splashed so much that I just washed all her hair.

#IAmSureThisMorningThatShePointedToMyBellyAndThenDidAnImpressionOfItWithHerHand

Just like ‘you’re this big now’. We’ve seen some friends the last couple of days and their 4 year old son hadn’t even noticed I was pregnant until he gave me a hug last night and I pointed out he was hugging baby X too.

#MyMumAndNanBothSaidMyBumpLooksALotBiggerTodaySoMaybeBNoticedToo

It does seem to have suddenly grown, but I have eaten a lot this weekend and it might be due to where my placenta is or something. I don’t know.

#WithHerNewScheduleIAmGoingToHaveToSeeIfICanDoABitOfWorkWhileShePlaysNextToMe

Yesterday I did manage to prep a blog post. I’m getting a bit over doing this blog to be honest, but I might feel better once I am up to date with putting the images in, writing pregnancy comparisons and tags etc.

#IDoNotKnowWhyIFeelBadForDoingThisAsIAmSureALotOfOtherPeopleDoItToo

It’s good for kids to play by themselves for a bit for sure. Mum guilt is real.

#YesterdayWeWereInMineAndTsBedroomAndISawAStackOfStuffNextToTheMirror #ILookedAtItAndThoughtMaybeIShouldMoveItButDecidedItShouldBeFineButThen5MinutesLaterBHadKnockedItOverSoIHadToMoveIt

Me being lazy… In future I need to trust my health and safety officer instincts. (I’m not one, but I feel like becoming a parent I do notice risks better.)

#IAmGettingQuiteNervousAboutHavingTwoKidsInAFewMonthsOrSo

*Nervous laugh* I’m just trying to go to bed earlier. The last couple of nights I have gone to sleep quite early. This is why I also need to get stuff done while B is awake/during her naps, though yesterday I had to nap during her nap and I imagine it will be the same today.

#SometimesIGetWorriedAboutLackOfMovementsButThenSheStartsMovingALotAndTiagoCouldFeelHerKickingMeLastNight

I feel like I have been writing ‘it’ instead of ‘her’ as sometimes I forget we know, though I will not 100% believe it until she is born.

I just hadn’t had much time to feel her movements as it was such a busy weekend, so it’s always a relief when I feel her moving about.

26 weeks with B comparison:

Self-portrait in my bra and pants where my bump is showing and I am looking up. My hands are resting on the top of my legs.
We Heard The Baby’s Heartbeat For The First Time Today (26 weeks)
 
#IFeelLikeIAmInSomeWeirdBubbleWithThisWholeCoronaVirus
#IAmUsuallyHomeQuiteABitAnyways
#AndInNoRushToGoOut
#ButNowIAmWorkingFromHomeForTheForeseeableFuture
#AndThereIsSomethingAboutNotHavingAnythingToGoOutTo
#WeJustTryToGoForAWalkInTheEveningToBuySomeFruitAndVeg
#TheGoodThingAboutOptingForAHomeBirthIsTheMidwifeVisitsOurFlat
#SheCameYesterdayAndAllWasGood
#SheSaidMyBloodPressureWasLowButInAGoodWay
#SheSaidWhyLowPressureWasGoodButICanNotRememberWhatSheSaid
#SheAskedMeIfIEverFeltDizzy
#ISaidNo
#ButLastNightAndThisMorningMaybeIGotUpTooQuickAndSawColourfulLightsInMyEyes
#SoINeedToBeCareful
#SheNeededToMeasureMyUterus
#ItTookHerAWhileAsSheSaidMyCoreIsSoStrong
#MustBeBecauseOfTheExerciseThatIAmDoingInTheMorningAndNight
#SheSaidThatMyAbdominalMusclesAreStartingToSeparateNowToMakeRoomForTheBabyWhichIsNormal
#IAmGuessingThatIfIKeepOnExercisingAsIHaveThenItWillAllBeFine
#ISaidIAmMoreFlexibleThanIWasBeforeIWasPregnant
#WhichIThoughtWasDownToTheExerciseAndItProbablyIsABit
#ButSheSaidThatHormonesDuringPregnancyWillMakeYouMoreFlexible
#SheAlsoCheckedTheBabysHeartbeat
#TheNightBeforeIWasConcernedAsICouldNotFeelItInTheEvening
#ThoughWhenICompletelyRelaxedIEventuallyDid
#SheSaidThatThePlacentaMightBeAbsorbingTheKicks
#AsItTookAWhileToFindTheBabyAsSheCouldMostlyHearPlacenta
#WhenSheFoundItThoughItWasAGoodQuickHeartbeatLikeItShouldBe
#TiagoWalkedIntoTheRoomAndHeardItTooWhichWasNice
#ThisMorningItWasKickingStrongAndTiagoFeltItALot

I heard the baby X’s heartbeat for the first time weeks ago, so not sure why it took so long with B.

It is weird thinking that at this point with B I was just going for a walk once a day and only seeing Tiago.

I feel like I look stronger in this above picture than I feel right now (at the same phase). I have made an effort to not sit up straight from lying down so hopefully my muscles will not separate so much this time. My midwife did think that I’d have to do physio after having B, but I didn’t have to luckily.

I think my placenta is in a different position this time, which may be why I can feel it kicking more than I did with B. It may also be why my bump looks different, but that might be down to having had a baby before.

As I’m not planning for a homebirth this time I have to go out to appointments, but I seem to have them at good times and it’s good to get out of the house.

Self-portrait with some broken blood vessels visible on my cheeks. I am wearing a purple top that matches the blotches on my cheeks a bit. I am resting my left hand on my chin.
Broken Blood Vessels (26 weeks)
 
#IHaveBeenNoticingBitsOfRedOnMyCheeksForAFewWeeks
#IJustThoughtItWasToDoWithTheColdOutside
#AsUsuallyMySkinGoesABitRubbishInTheWinter
#OrIThoughtItWasASlightAllergicReaction
#YesterdayMorningIHadABitOfRedOnMyFace
#IWentToPhotographItButTiagoWasDoingExerciseInTheBitOfTheLivingRoomWhereIShoot
#AndByTheTimeHeFinishedItHadFaded
#IWalkedForAbout2HoursYesterday
#AndTiagoCommentedThatMyFaceWasQuiteRedLastNight
#ItIsThatTimeOfYearWhereYourBodyFeelsWeirdWhenTheSunGoesDown
#AsItWasQuiteWarmDuringTheDay
#AndThenSuddenlyItIsVeryCold
#SoIThoughtItMightBeToDoWithThat
#ReadingLastNightThoughApparentlyItIsACommonThing
#ToDoWithIncreasedBloodFlowAndBloodVessels
#SometimesTheBloodVesselsBreak
#WhichExplainsWhySometimesThePatchesTakeAFewDaysToDisappear
#TheSkinOnMyChinIsAlsoABitWeird
#WhichIsProbablyToDoWithHormones
#ApparentlyTheBabyIsTheSizeOfAnAcornSquashNow
#AndAbout36cmLong
#IAmAlsoAboutTwoThirdsOfTheWayThrough
#TimeIsFlying
#FeelLikeIShouldStartBuyingMoreThingsOffTheBabyListSoon
#IKeepLookingAtThingsButDoNotWantToCommitToBuyingRightNow
#IAmHopingThatWeWillGetToGoSomewhereToTryOutThePushchairWeWant
#ButWeMightJustHaveToRiskItAndBuyItWithoutTrying
#WillSeeHowThingsAreWhenIAmAround30Weeks
#WeAreLuckyAsWeBothHaveJobsThatSeemRelativelySecure
#WhoKnowsHowLongThingsAreGoingToGoOnFor
 

I have not noticed any broken blood vessels this time, so far.

This time we do not really need to buy anything, though I remembered earlier that soon we will need to buy newborn nappies and things. Fun times ahead…


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General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot IV (24 Weeks / 17th October 2021)

Shoot which I am recreating for the 4th time this pregnancy. I am wearing a bra and leggings. I have my right hand clasping my left elbow. My bump is bigger than the previous version of this image.
General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot IV (24 Weeks / 17th October 2021)

#IThoughtItWasTimeThatIDoOneOfTheseShootsAgain
#TheBraThatIWearForThemHasFallenApartALotSinceTheFirstShootSoItWillBeGoingInTheBinOnceBabyXIsBorn
#MyBumpIsDefinitelyGettingBiggerAndICanNotImagineItGettingMuchBiggerButIKnowItWill
#IAmStrugglingToBendDownToPickThingsUpNowWhichIsReallyHandyAsBLikesToThrowEverythingOnTheFloor
#YesterdayISuddenlyFeltTheUrgeToTidyUpOurRoomAndGetRidOfLotsOfThings
#IDoNeedToDeclutterAndReduceMyStuffAsWeArePlanningToMoveAtSomePointNextYear
#SoItIsBetterToDoItNowWhileICanMoveAboutIshAndBeforeBabyXIsBorn
#ThereIsSoMuchStuffThatHasSurvived5MovesWithMeButINeedToBeRealisticWhetherIWouldWantToPayToShipItInTheFutureAndTheAnswerIsUsuallyNo
#IThinkTheOrganisingPlusDoingSomeExtraDanceVideosReallyTiredMeOut
#ThisMorningBWasUpAtFiveThirtySoTiagoWentToGetHerAndUsuallyIWakeUpButIWasAsleepWithHerPlayingRightNextToMe
#SheHasBeenAwakeAtFiveThirtyTheLastFewMorningsWhichIsNotMuchFunThoughAtLeastSheHasALongFirstNap
#IThinkItIsDueToHerTeethingAsSheSeemsToAlwaysHaveHerFingersInHerMouth
#SheOnlyReallyHasMolarsLeftToComeThroughAndTheyCanNotBePleasantAtAll
#ILikeHowIUsedToCountHowManyTeethSheHasAndNowIHaveNoIdea
#WeHaveFinallyBookedToGoAndLookAtANurseryForHer
#TheDaysWeAreThinkingWillMeanWeWillNeedToCancelHerMusicClassAndIWasFeelingBadAboutItAsILikeHerTeacherALot
#ButItTurnsOutHerTeacherIsFiveWeeksLessPregnantThanMeSoSheWillBeGoingOnMaternityLeaveAndNowIDoNotFeelSoBad
#IAmFeelingQuiteStressedAboutBeingPregnantAndTheFactWeWillSoonHaveTwoKids
#WeJustSeemSoTiredAtTheMomentAndEvenThoughBWakesUpEarlyAtLeastWeDoGetAGoodAmountOfSleep
#IJustNeedToGoToBedEarlierWhichToBeFairIDidLastNightButItObviouslyWasNotEnough
#EveryoneKeepsSayingTheFirstYearIsTheHardestAndToBeHonestIAmNotLookingForwardToWeaningAndAllThatStuffAgain
#HopefullySheWillArriveAndIWillJustGetOnWithItAndAllICanDoIsToTryMyBest
#AtLeastInTheEarlyDaysTheirNeedsArePrettyBasic
#IJustNeedToMakeAnEffortToGetOutOfTheHouseOnceADayForMySanity
#ItWillBeAStruggleInTheBeginningIAmSureButWeJustNeedToFindARoutineThatWorksForUs
#IJustHopeThatWeDoNotGetLockedDownAgainButThenAgainWhatDoesItMatterWhenIDoubtIWillWantToGoFarAnyways
#IAmWorriedThatCasesAreRisingButEveryoneIsABitNonchalantAboutItButIGuessIAmMoreRelaxedNowIHaveHadMySecondVaccineAndFluJab
#IJustDoNotGetWhyWearingMasksInShopsAndStuffIsNotCompulsoryAndIAmSurprisedAtHowFewPeopleActuallyDoWearThem
#InOtherNewsBIsTryingReallyHardToTalkNowAndISwearSheSaysTickleTickleTickle
#IHaveHeardACoupleOfMamaAndMumSoundsEscapeFromHerLatelyTooSoIHopeSheMightActuallyStartSayingMumAtMeSoon

#IThoughtItWasTimeThatIDoOneOfTheseShootsAgain

The last one was at 19 weeks, so there should be a difference?

(Yes, there is – you can see the versions here: 1 / 2 / 3.)

#TheBraThatIWearForThemHasFallenApartALotSinceTheFirstShootSoItWillBeGoingInTheBinOnceBabyXIsBorn

Maybe in each picture it will start to look more shabby. I’ve been wearing my maternity bras for a while now, and this is not one of them.

#MyBumpIsDefinitelyGettingBiggerAndICanNotImagineItGettingMuchBiggerButIKnowItWill

*Nervous laugh*

#IAmStrugglingToBendDownToPickThingsUpNowWhichIsReallyHandyAsBLikesToThrowEverythingOnTheFloor

This morning she was eating some of my breakfast (scrambled eggs and crusts of my toast), and then throwing it on the floor. I did struggle to pick it up.

#YesterdayISuddenlyFeltTheUrgeToTidyUpOurRoomAndGetRidOfLotsOfThings

I love nesting.

#IDoNeedToDeclutterAndReduceMyStuffAsWeArePlanningToMoveAtSomePointNextYear

Every time I go through my things I get rid of a few more things, but I need to start being ruthless.

#SoItIsBetterToDoItNowWhileICanMoveAboutIshAndBeforeBabyXIsBorn

I am tired, so yeah there will never be a good time again.

#ThereIsSoMuchStuffThatHasSurvived5MovesWithMeButINeedToBeRealisticWhetherIWouldWantToPayToShipItInTheFutureAndTheAnswerIsUsuallyNo

Playing my favourite ‘would I pay £5 to ship this?’ game.

I told Tiago about it and he said would most things really cost £5 to ship. I said no, but would you still pay £5 to ship it? Is it worth the money?

#IThinkTheOrganisingPlusDoingSomeExtraDanceVideosReallyTiredMeOut

I did lie down before B’s second nap, but I’m not sure if I even slept.

#ThisMorningBWasUpAtFiveThirtySoTiagoWentToGetHerAndUsuallyIWakeUpButIWasAsleepWithHerPlayingRightNextToMe

Wake up as in become more alert. I ended up sleeping in until 7.10am, and then I looked through my books and stretched. Then Tiago had a nap (and is still napping as B is napping as I write this).

#SheHasBeenAwakeAtFiveThirtyTheLastFewMorningsWhichIsNotMuchFunThoughAtLeastSheHasALongFirstNap

I try not to put her down for a nap until 9, and then wake her up between 10.30 to 11 depending on our plans.

#IThinkItIsDueToHerTeethingAsSheSeemsToAlwaysHaveHerFingersInHerMouth

I’m being more generous with her paracetamol these days, as otherwise she does not nap or sleep very well. I do worry that I am drugging her at times, but it’s only when I see her with her fingers in her mouth and it’s been 4 hours since the last dose…

#SheOnlyReallyHasMolarsLeftToComeThroughAndTheyCanNotBePleasantAtAll

Bless her.

#ILikeHowIUsedToCountHowManyTeethSheHasAndNowIHaveNoIdea

If I put my finger in her mouth now it just gets bitten and it hurts.

#WeHaveFinallyBookedToGoAndLookAtANurseryForHer

Hurrah.

#TheDaysWeAreThinkingWillMeanWeWillNeedToCancelHerMusicClassAndIWasFeelingBadAboutItAsILikeHerTeacherALot

The class isn’t the best but I do really like her teacher and she makes it way more enjoyable.

#ButItTurnsOutHerTeacherIsFiveWeeksLessPregnantThanMeSoSheWillBeGoingOnMaternityLeaveAndNowIDoNotFeelSoBad

I mentioned I was pregnant last week and she said ‘oh me too’. I really could not tell that she was at all, but she does wear a baggy t-shirt. I had looked at moving locations and days, but I think once B goes down to one nap the other day and time will not work for us. Hopefully B will get enough stimulation at nursery and we can just do more music stuff at home.

#IAmFeelingQuiteStressedAboutBeingPregnantAndTheFactWeWillSoonHaveTwoKids

I feel like I’ve mentioned it before, but I am starting to get waves of overwhelmed-ness now.

#WeJustSeemSoTiredAtTheMomentAndEvenThoughBWakesUpEarlyAtLeastWeDoGetAGoodAmountOfSleep #IJustNeedToGoToBedEarlierWhichToBeFairIDidLastNightButItObviouslyWasNotEnough

This would probably make a big difference, and I’m sure once she is born I will have to just surrender to motherhood, but for now I am enjoying have a bit of evening time to myself.

#EveryoneKeepsSayingTheFirstYearIsTheHardestAndToBeHonestIAmNotLookingForwardToWeaningAndAllThatStuffAgain

I just need to take each day/cycle of the day at a time.

#HopefullySheWillArriveAndIWillJustGetOnWithItAndAllICanDoIsToTryMyBest

We wanted this baby and I have to handle the responsibility. I am nervous though.

#AtLeastInTheEarlyDaysTheirNeedsArePrettyBasic

And she won’t be running off like B does.

#IJustNeedToMakeAnEffortToGetOutOfTheHouseOnceADayForMySanity

It will be winter, but hopefully by then spring will not be too far away.

#ItWillBeAStruggleInTheBeginningIAmSureButWeJustNeedToFindARoutineThatWorksForUs

Like I said, I need to surrender to motherhood.

#IJustHopeThatWeDoNotGetLockedDownAgainButThenAgainWhatDoesItMatterWhenIDoubtIWillWantToGoFarAnyways

B’s classes moving to zoom would make things a lot easier to be fair. I doubt we will have another lockdown though.

#IAmWorriedThatCasesAreRisingButEveryoneIsABitNonchalantAboutItButIGuessIAmMoreRelaxedNowIHaveHadMySecondVaccineAndFluJab

Other countries have less cases and are in full panic mode, but I guess they are not as vaccinated as here.

#IJustDoNotGetWhyWearingMasksInShopsAndStuffIsNotCompulsoryAndIAmSurprisedAtHowFewPeopleActuallyDoWearThem

We still wear them in shops, and I do on public transport though that is rare. I have not been wearing them in classes, but in B’s music class she does not go near anyone else and we sit far back from everyone. At another class I probably should, but no one else does… When it’s time to sing we sat at the back of the bunch.

#InOtherNewsBIsTryingReallyHardToTalkNowAndISwearSheSaysTickleTickleTickle

It sounds more like ‘iggle iggle iggle’ or something else I guess, but I think that is what she is trying to say.

#IHaveHeardACoupleOfMamaAndMumSoundsEscapeFromHerLatelyTooSoIHopeSheMightActuallyStartSayingMumAtMeSoon

She’s been saying Dada and Dad for so long, though she doesn’t really say it at Tiago much. She is growing up fast though.

Despite my nervousness I am excited to see her with her sister.

24 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait wearing a black dress with white stripes. I have a toy octopus on my head.
So Many Decisions To Be Made (24 and a half weeks)
 
#SoWeFinallyBoughtSomeBabyStuff
#ThereWereSomeGoodSalesOn
#SoWeOrderedSomeBabyClothes
#AndThenISawSomeCuteToysSoIBoughtACouple
#ItFeelsLikeWeAreCursingThingsByBuyingStuff
#ButIAlsoDoNotWantToGetCaughtOutByHavingNothing
#ObviouslyTheBabyWillNotKnowIfItHasToysOrNotInTheBeginning
#ButThingsLikeClothesAreNecessary
#SoManyDecisionsToBeMade
#ThingsAreSeemingMoreReal
#ThoughIAlsoDoStillForgetThatIAmPregnantSometimes
#IFeltSoHeavyNotLongAgoButIFeelLighterTheseDays
#MaybeItIsAllTheStretchingIAmDoing
#AndOrMaybeIAmNotEatingSuchBigMealsNow
#IDoASquatPoseInTheMorning
#ButInTheEveningItIsHarderAsMyBellyIsFuller
#IBoughtAHypnobirthingCourseAfterAFriendsRecommendation
#INeedToStartDoingThatJustInCaseAsAgainIDoNotWantToGetCaughtOut
#IKeepReadingThingsAboutPeopleWhoDidNotWantToBeParents
#WhereasIDoButIWorryThatIWillBeRubbish
#ThoughIRememberGoingToSeeMyNieceForTheFirstTimeAndBeingWorriedAsIHadNotBeenAroundABabyForALongTime
#ButISoonGotOverTheNervousness
#ThoughIWasJustEntertainingHerAndNotDoingHerWholeRoutineAndBeingAroundHerAllDayEveryDay
#ICanOnlyDoMyBest
#AndSoonWeWillDoAnNCTCourseSoHopefullyWeWillNotBeTooClueless
#IFeelLikeTiagoIsGoodWithKids
#IAmLookingForwardToSeeingHimAsAFather
#IGotAKickTrackingAppYesterdayToTryToMakeMeFeelBetter
#ThoughIAmNotMonitoringHowManyKicksYetButJustWhenIFeelItMoving
#TodayIHaveNotFeltItMoveMuchButIThinkIHaveNotBeenThinkingAboutItAsMuchAsYesterday

This shoot was a bit bad. It was definitely a day when I was struggling with ideas…

It’s funny now as it’s gone from being a toy that we bought to it being B’s toy that she does interact with from time to time.

#ObviouslyTheBabyWillNotKnowIfItHasToysOrNotInTheBeginning

B has only really started to interact with the toys she had then, quite recently. Especially cuddly toys.

We aren’t going to do the hypnobirthing course again, but I have the book of it which we are both planning to read again. I need to get on with it really as time is flying by…

I downloaded an app to monitor kicks but I have only used it once. This baby seems more active, so I feel reassured. I am being kicked/punched right now…


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