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I Can Not Believe That I Am Still Pregnant (39 Weeks / 28th January 2022)

Self-portrait where I am kneeling and have my hands down, but am looking under my right arm.
I Can Not Believe That I Am Still Pregnant (39 Weeks / 28th January 2022)
 
#IAmQuiteSurprisedThatTheBabyHasNotBeenBornYet
#IKeepThinkingIAmShowingSignsOfTheBabyBeingClose
#IThoughtHavingTinglyLegsForACoupleOfDaysWasASignAsMyLegsWouldReallyCrampUpBeforeIFeltTheUrgeToPushOutB
#MyLowerBackHurtsOnAndOffButTheMidwifeSaidAtMyAppointmentThatBabyMayBeABitHunchedOverWhichMayBeCausingIt
#SomeOfTheseSensationsMightJustBeDueToBeingHeavilyPregnantAndNeverBeingThisPregnantBefore
#IHadAScanWhichWentFineAndBabyIsHeadDown
#IWroteInMyCalendarWhichDepartmentItWasAndItWasAGoodJobIDidAsEvenThenIHadAHardTimeFindingIt
#IWentToGoToReceptionButItWasBeingWorkedOnSoIThoughtICouldFindItLikeLastTime
#IWentToTheFloorThatIThoughtItWasOnButTheSignsDidNotShowTheDepartmentSoIWentBackToTheGroundFloor
#SomeoneThenDirectedMeToAHigherFloorSoIWentThereAndItDidNotLookRightSoIWentBackToTheFloorIThoughtItWasOn
#TwoPeopleDirectedMeToTheGroundFloorButISaidTheySentMeToThisFloorLastTimeAndTheySaidOhYeahItIsAroundTheCorner
#ThisTimeIWasTheOnlyOneInTheWaitingRoomAndItWasSoHot
#ISoonGotCalledInAndTheSonographerWorkedQuietlyOccasionallyMentioningWhatBodyPartSheWasMeasuringOrChecking
#SheSaidThatTheGrowthIsFineAndTheBabyIsMeasuringAtAbout7PoundsAndFourteenOunces
#IJustCheckedTheGrowthChartAndSheWasSevenPoundsThreeTwoWeeksAgoSoSheIsDefinitelyGrowing
#TheBabyHasDefinitelyGrownAnywaysAndIWillNotBeGoingBackForAnotherScanAsAIDoNotNeedOneAndBTheBabyWillBeBornSoonAnyways
#MasksAreNoLongerMandatoryInEnglandButIWillDefinitelyKeepWearingOne
#NotThatIGoToManyPlacesButItSeemsTooEarlyAgain
#IWantBToBeAbleToStayInNurseryAsNowIAmSoUsedToHerGoingSoIDoNotWantToGetCovid
#SheIsAlwaysComingHomeWithAColdAndSheSeemedQuiteUnderTheWeatherYesterday
#IThinkItMayHaveBeenTeethingThatWasMakingHerReallyBadThoughAsSheHasBeenVeryDribblyAndHerCheeksWereSoRedAtOnePoint
#IGaveHerParacetamolAndSheSeemedToPerkUpEachTimeSoHopefullyItPassesSoon
#IHaveNappedTheLastCoupleOfDaysWhichHasBeenGoodButWhenINapISleepWorseAtNight
#ICanNotWinAsIFeelLikeINeedToRestDuringTheDayAndObviouslyGetSomeSleepAtNightAsINeverKnowWhenTheBabyWillCome
#IWantToHaveEnoughEnergyToDeliverThisBabyThoughIGuessMyBodyWillWakeUpOnceLabourActuallyStarts
#BHasStartedToRunBetweenTheKitchenCupboardsAndTheWindowInTheLivingRoom
#SheHasAlsoStartedToPatACoupleOfSmallDogsInTheParkWhichIsReallyCuteToSee
#ThereAreAFewBooksThatSheIsQuiteObsessedWithAtTheMomentButSheHasSuddenlyTakenInterestInOneAboutAMumBeingPregnant
#IStillThinkSheDoesNotHaveMuchOfAClueAboutHowMuchOurLittleWorldIsAboutToChange
#IFeelLikeWeAreInAGoodRoutineNowSoItIsGoingToBeFunWorkingOutANewOneThatIncludesTheBaby
Self-portrait of me propping myself up with my elbows and knees. My bump is hanging down.
I Can Not Believe That I Am Still Pregnant (39 Weeks / 28th January 2022) II

I prefer the second image, but I am a bit worried about criticism for it as it’s probably not a pose that heavily pregnant women should be doing. I held it for about 30 seconds…

#IAmQuiteSurprisedThatTheBabyHasNotBeenBornYet

I feel like I really need to look at my hospital bag and hypnobirthing again…

#IKeepThinkingIAmShowingSignsOfTheBabyBeingClose

Well, at this point there really isn’t much time left for the baby. My Nan is like ‘she’ll come when she’s ready’, but I’m like ‘unless she gets to 42 weeks and then they’ll force her out…’.

#IThoughtHavingTinglyLegsForACoupleOfDaysWasASignAsMyLegsWouldReallyCrampUpBeforeIFeltTheUrgeToPushOutB

I’d be resting having some water/energy drink and then my legs would start to cramp up and I knew it was time for the down stage of labour again.

#MyLowerBackHurtsOnAndOffButTheMidwifeSaidAtMyAppointmentThatBabyMayBeABitHunchedOverWhichMayBeCausingIt

When she couldn’t figure out what position the baby was in, she was saying that she thought the baby was hunching over her shoulders which was confusing her.

#SomeOfTheseSensationsMightJustBeDueToBeingHeavilyPregnantAndNeverBeingThisPregnantBefore

I am finding it harder to get up from the floor now for sure…

#IHadAScanWhichWentFineAndBabyIsHeadDown

Hurrah. Still holding my breath though…

#IWroteInMyCalendarWhichDepartmentItWasAndItWasAGoodJobIDidAsEvenThenIHadAHardTimeFindingIt

Last time I went to the wrong department, so this time I was not going to get it wrong.

#IWentToGoToReceptionButItWasBeingWorkedOnSoIThoughtICouldFindItLikeLastTime

I wasn’t sure if reception was even open. It was a bit weird. Someone at the door asks you why you are there, and then they just say okay.

#IWentToTheFloorThatIThoughtItWasOnButTheSignsDidNotShowTheDepartmentSoIWentBackToTheGroundFloor

Luckily I had got there early, but time was running out. My Mum dropped me off and took B to a supermarket while she waited as T was in a meeting.

#SomeoneThenDirectedMeToAHigherFloorSoIWentThereAndItDidNotLookRightSoIWentBackToTheFloorIThoughtItWasOn #TwoPeopleDirectedMeToTheGroundFloorButISaidTheySentMeToThisFloorLastTimeAndTheySaidOhYeahItIsAroundTheCorner

They said it is confusing. Obviously…

#ThisTimeIWasTheOnlyOneInTheWaitingRoomAndItWasSoHot

I’m definitely not going to pack any heavy clothes for the hospital.

#ISoonGotCalledInAndTheSonographerWorkedQuietlyOccasionallyMentioningWhatBodyPartSheWasMeasuringOrChecking

At one point I said it’s so clever and she said if you were taught how to use it you’d soon understand it.

#SheSaidThatTheGrowthIsFineAndTheBabyIsMeasuringAtAbout7PoundsAndFourteenOunces #IJustCheckedTheGrowthChartAndSheWasSevenPoundsThreeTwoWeeksAgoSoSheIsDefinitelyGrowing

I know the weight isn’t super accurate (or so I think), but the fact the technology shows a substantial increase in weight over 2 weeks says a lot.

#TheBabyHasDefinitelyGrownAnywaysAndIWillNotBeGoingBackForAnotherScanAsAIDoNotNeedOneAndBTheBabyWillBeBornSoonAnyways

Hurrah, it’s a massive faff going there so that’s a relief.

#MasksAreNoLongerMandatoryInEnglandButIWillDefinitelyKeepWearingOne #NotThatIGoToManyPlacesButItSeemsTooEarlyAgain

I really don’t see what the hassle is with wearing a mask.

#IWantBToBeAbleToStayInNurseryAsNowIAmSoUsedToHerGoingSoIDoNotWantToGetCovid

It was a struggle when T and I were both ill last month and had to look after B. Plus having a newborn baby = more difficulty. No thanks, I’d rather avoid getting it. I probably won’t be venturing anywhere indoors with Baby for a while anyways, but no masks puts me off going to a few possible places that I could go to.

Also, my Nan is quite elderly and I do not want her catching it – though she goes out shopping way more than I do. She needs to go out for sanity, so I hope people who do not wear masks keep their distance.

#SheIsAlwaysComingHomeWithAColdAndSheSeemedQuiteUnderTheWeatherYesterday

🙁

#IThinkItMayHaveBeenTeethingThatWasMakingHerReallyBadThoughAsSheHasBeenVeryDribblyAndHerCheeksWereSoRedAtOnePoint

I don’t like seeing her poorly. Just lying on the floor while rubbing her back etc. Poor thing.

#IGaveHerParacetamolAndSheSeemedToPerkUpEachTimeSoHopefullyItPassesSoon

She is still in a good mood though even when she is not feeling great. Still dancing. Still keen for books. Still had some appetite.

#IHaveNappedTheLastCoupleOfDaysWhichHasBeenGoodButWhenINapISleepWorseAtNight

The other night I was awake from 2 to 3.30am. Every time I wake up I wonder if my water has broken.

#ICanNotWinAsIFeelLikeINeedToRestDuringTheDayAndObviouslyGetSomeSleepAtNightAsINeverKnowWhenTheBabyWillCome

I don’t want my water breaking at 10pm when I haven’t slept since the morning etc.

#IWantToHaveEnoughEnergyToDeliverThisBabyThoughIGuessMyBodyWillWakeUpOnceLabourActuallyStarts

Fingers crossed.

#BHasStartedToRunBetweenTheKitchenCupboardsAndTheWindowInTheLivingRoom

I’ll say ‘run to the cupboard’ ‘run to the window’ etc. She’ll do it about 10 times. I joke that I am training her for marathons already. She has been napping better lately, it’s probably just her being under the weather but it’s good to wear her out too.

#SheHasAlsoStartedToPatACoupleOfSmallDogsInTheParkWhichIsReallyCuteToSee

One we see most days, and the other one we have only met a couple of times but is a therapy dog and used to little kids patting it. She still won’t go near the big dogs though, unless they come over to her and sniff her, which they like to do from time to time…

#ThereAreAFewBooksThatSheIsQuiteObsessedWithAtTheMomentButSheHasSuddenlyTakenInterestInOneAboutAMumBeingPregnant

I think it’s because it rhymes and sometimes she dances to it while I say the words.

#IStillThinkSheDoesNotHaveMuchOfAClueAboutHowMuchOurLittleWorldIsAboutToChange

I keep saying it, but it’s true. I don’t know if I’m ready for it, but I have little choice.

#IFeelLikeWeAreInAGoodRoutineNowSoItIsGoingToBeFunWorkingOutANewOneThatIncludesTheBaby

Just yesterday I was thinking how steady we are with our routine and how it works well. Baby will just slot in and will be happy as long as she gets fed, changed and sleeps for now I guess.


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Pregnancy Waiting II

39 Weeks Is Definitely A Big Milestone (39 Weeks / 26th January 2022)

Remake of an image I made when I was 30 weeks pregnant. It is a self-portrait from head to knees. I am nude and my left arm is across my breasts and clasping my right upper arm. My right hand is over my pubic area.
39 Weeks Is Definitely A Big Milestone (39 Weeks / 26th January 2022)
 
#ITookAPhotoOfMyselfNudeAt30WeeksAndSaidThatThatSeemedLikeABigMilestone
#NowIAm39WeeksWhichIHaveNeverBeenBeforeAndSoIThoughtIWouldRecreateTheImage
#ForNumericalPurposes40WeeksWouldBeBetterButIMightNotGetThatFar
#IHadMy38WeekAppointmentAndMyUrineAndBloodPressureWasFineThoughISaidIDidNotKnowWhatPositionTheBabyWasInNow
#ILiftedUpMyDressAndTheBabyWasMakingSomeWeirdShapes
#TheStudentMidwifeSpentAGoodFewMinutesFeelingMyBumpButSaidSheReallyDidNotKnow
#SoTheOtherMidwifeCameOverAndSheSaidSheWasAlsoUnsureAsMyStomachMusclesAreApparentlySoStrongThatItIsHardToTell
#SheGuessedBreechThenToldTheStudentToTryForAHeartbeatOnTheLowerLeftSide
#ShePickedUpAStrongOneButThenTheMidwifeSaidSheShouldHaveSaidToGoForTheUpperLeftSide
#ItWasNotVeryStrongThereSoBasedOnTheHeartbeatTheyThinkTheBabyIsHeadDown
#IGoBetweenFeelingQuiteRelaxedAndStressedAboutGivingBirthAndHavingASecondChild
#SomeMomentsIFeelReallyMentallyPreparedAndThenOtherTimesIHaveToRemindMyselfThatICouldBeHavingABabyAnyDayNow
#IKeepTryingToVisualiseHowItWillBeAndIHopeWeAllAdaptWell
#CurrentlyIAmGoingToBedEarlierAndGettingUpBeforeBToStretch
#IHaveMissedNapsTheLastCoupleOfDaysAndHaveBeenDoingALotOfNesting
#LastNightIFeltLikeMaybeIWasInTheEarlyStagesOfLabourDueToLegTinglesButMaybeIAmImaginingThings
#BFellOverWhenWeWereAtTheParkTheOtherDayAndHasACutUnderHerNose
#IHopeItHealsQuickSoThatItIsNotTooVisibleInTheFirstPicturesOfBAndHerSibling
#ThatSoundsQuiteShallowButItIsSomethingIHaveBeenThinkingAbout
#WeFinallyGotBANewCupWhichIsLikeHerCousinsThatSheLikesToDrinkOutOf
#IHaveNeverSeenHerSoEnthusiasticForJustPlainOldWater
#LastNightIFilledItUpFromMyGlassAndThenSheKeptWantingToPretendToPourWaterIntoMyGlassBeforeHavingADrink
#SheReallyCopiesNowWhichIsQuiteCute
#TheOtherDayTiagoWasRubbingMyArmAffectionatelyAsHeHeldBAndThenSheRubbedMyArm
#IWasShowingHerSomeDrawingsInHerNotepadAndThenSheCopiedHowITouchedThePaper
#SheWasTryingToPutALidOnAJarAndIWasTryingToExplainWithMyHandThatSheNeededToLayItFlatterSoSheWasTappingTheTopWithHerHandToo
#SheHasANewThingOfWhenWeWantToPickHerUpOffTheSofaOrOutOfThePushchairOrOutOfHerHighchairSheHidesHerFace
#IOftenHaveToLeaveHerInHerHighchairToFaffForABitAfterAMealAsSheIsQuiteHappyJustMessingAround
#LatelyWhenIHaveWantingToPutHerShoesOnHerSheLeansAgainstSomethingWhileSheLiftsUpAFoot
#IHaveAnAppointmentBookedForNextWeekWhichIsApparentlyForASweepButIHopeTheBabyComesBeforeThenOrIMightLeaveTheSweepUntilTheFollowingWeek

#ITookAPhotoOfMyselfNudeAt30WeeksAndSaidThatThatSeemedLikeABigMilestone

This image/post.

#NowIAm39WeeksWhichIHaveNeverBeenBeforeAndSoIThoughtIWouldRecreateTheImage

I posted the image this week, so it reminded me and I thought it was a nice one to recreate – especially as bump has grown a lot.

#ForNumericalPurposes40WeeksWouldBeBetterButIMightNotGetThatFar

Baby X could really come any day now…

#IHadMy38WeekAppointmentAndMyUrineAndBloodPressureWasFineThoughISaidIDidNotKnowWhatPositionTheBabyWasInNow

Honestly going to appointments has been something to look forward to, which is really sad, but shows how repetitive our days are at the moment.

#ILiftedUpMyDressAndTheBabyWasMakingSomeWeirdShapes

It was the same two midwives as last time and they probably think I just talk a lot of rubbish – I’m just excited to see people.

#TheStudentMidwifeSpentAGoodFewMinutesFeelingMyBumpButSaidSheReallyDidNotKnow

It must be so weird trying to figure it out. I look at Baby X moving and I have no clue what body part is poking out most/all of the time.

#SoTheOtherMidwifeCameOverAndSheSaidSheWasAlsoUnsureAsMyStomachMusclesAreApparentlySoStrongThatItIsHardToTell

Last time I had a bit of diastasis recti, so I felt a bit proud that I’ve avoided that (I think) this time. I don’t see why they’re so strong though – I guess just from the stretches, picking up B(?), and from sitting up by rolling onto my side first.

#SheGuessedBreechThenToldTheStudentToTryForAHeartbeatOnTheLowerLeftSide #ShePickedUpAStrongOneButThenTheMidwifeSaidSheShouldHaveSaidToGoForTheUpperLeftSide #ItWasNotVeryStrongThereSoBasedOnTheHeartbeatTheyThinkTheBabyIsHeadDown

I have a scan soon, so they will know for sure but I feel that the baby must be head down – unless the baby has moved by then, if the baby doesn’t come before then.

#IGoBetweenFeelingQuiteRelaxedAndStressedAboutGivingBirthAndHavingASecondChild

I just want to get it over and done with, so we can move on with our lives. I’m bored of waiting.

#SomeMomentsIFeelReallyMentallyPreparedAndThenOtherTimesIHaveToRemindMyselfThatICouldBeHavingABabyAnyDayNow

It’s weird. I had to check my hospital bags the other day to remind myself where things are.

#IKeepTryingToVisualiseHowItWillBeAndIHopeWeAllAdaptWell

B is having a bit of a throwing phase, so I’m going to have to be careful with where I lay Baby X down. I like to imagine B just looking at X intently, but I’m also worried she might try to feed her all her foods.

#CurrentlyIAmGoingToBedEarlierAndGettingUpBeforeBToStretch

Tiago has been super tired with work, so I’ve been better at getting B up in the morning – he was doing it for ages as I was so tired.

#IHaveMissedNapsTheLastCoupleOfDaysAndHaveBeenDoingALotOfNesting

I’ve just felt too energetic to nap, though I have been lying down and relaxing. I have been tidying up and organising things a lot.

#LastNightIFeltLikeMaybeIWasInTheEarlyStagesOfLabourDueToLegTinglesButMaybeIAmImaginingThings

When I was in labour with B I had leg tingles, so it could be a sign or it could just be from how I sit or something.

#BFellOverWhenWeWereAtTheParkTheOtherDayAndHasACutUnderHerNose

Her friend likes to escape from the playground and B was running around, then smack… 🙁

#IHopeItHealsQuickSoThatItIsNotTooVisibleInTheFirstPicturesOfBAndHerSibling #ThatSoundsQuiteShallowButItIsSomethingIHaveBeenThinkingAbout

I just want some nice pictures, but it will be an indication of how it will having two under two I guess. I can’t wait for them to meet… I can’t wait to meet the baby!

#WeFinallyGotBANewCupWhichIsLikeHerCousinsThatSheLikesToDrinkOutOf

It has a straw and B always steals it whenever we see her cousin.

#IHaveNeverSeenHerSoEnthusiasticForJustPlainOldWater

Hello lots of nappy changes…

#LastNightIFilledItUpFromMyGlassAndThenSheKeptWantingToPretendToPourWaterIntoMyGlassBeforeHavingADrink

Maybe it was more of a cheers thing, which I showed her before? Maybe a bit of both. It was sweet.

#SheReallyCopiesNowWhichIsQuiteCute

Cute, but a bit scary at times.

#TheOtherDayTiagoWasRubbingMyArmAffectionatelyAsHeHeldBAndThenSheRubbedMyArm

It was really sweet.

#IWasShowingHerSomeDrawingsInHerNotepadAndThenSheCopiedHowITouchedThePaper

I was showing her how she should draw with her crayons as well and she was just moving her hands about.

#SheWasTryingToPutALidOnAJarAndIWasTryingToExplainWithMyHandThatSheNeededToLayItFlatterSoSheWasTappingTheTopWithHerHandToo

Fascinating stuff, but it just showed me how much she copies and takes things literally – it’s fair enough, she’s 19 months old.

#SheHasANewThingOfWhenWeWantToPickHerUpOffTheSofaOrOutOfThePushchairOrOutOfHerHighchairSheHidesHerFace

I picked her up out of her pushchair yesterday and said ‘where’s B?’ and she laughed.

#IOftenHaveToLeaveHerInHerHighchairToFaffForABitAfterAMealAsSheIsQuiteHappyJustMessingAround

And she won’t let me take her out…

#LatelyWhenIHaveWantingToPutHerShoesOnHerSheLeansAgainstSomethingWhileSheLiftsUpAFoot

Cute. Yesterday she put her hand on the wall while she lifted up her right foot, then leaned her back against the wall as I put her left shoe on.

#IHaveAnAppointmentBookedForNextWeekWhichIsApparentlyForASweepButIHopeTheBabyComesBeforeThenOrIMightLeaveTheSweepUntilTheFollowingWeek

I’ve seen the appointment in my calendar for ages, but the midwife mentioned it was for a sweep. I was about to leave, so I didn’t say ‘do I have to have it etc?’ as I know they are optional. If the baby isn’t born just after the due date, then they might want to hang on. I have an appointment booked in with my midwife for the week after which would be another sweep, so I’d rather just wait until then, but I also do not want to be induced either really so we’ll see…


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