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Pregnancy Waiting II

Maybe This Will Be The Last Photo Of Me Pregnant In This Project (38 Weeks / 21st January 2022)

Self-portrait of me wearing a black dress. Only a couple of top buttons are done up, and I am pulling out the left side of my dress with my left hand to reveal my bump. My right hand is down to my side. The image cuts off by my knees.
Maybe This Will Be The Last Photo Of Me Pregnant In This Project (38 Weeks / 21st January 2022)
 
#IWasTakingPhotosInTheStyleOfMyMáscaraProjectLastWeekAndIWasMessingAroundWithMyDress
#IDidThisPoseAndILikeTheIdeaOfShowingMyBumpLikeSomeoneWithACoatFullOfWatchesSoIWantedToDoItAgainForThisProject
#ItHasOnlyBeenACoupleOfDaysSinceMyLastImageAndTextButIAlreadyFeelCalmer
#TwoNightsAgoBetweenBeingAwakeAndAsleepIWasImaginingThatIWasHavingContractions
#IFeltSurprisinglyRelaxedAsIWasLikeOkayItIsProbablyHappeningNow
#IWakeUpEveryHourOrSoEachNightNowWhichIsQuiteAnnoying
#EveryTimeIWakeUpIHaveToTurnOverAndIWonderIfMyWatersHaveBroken
#WithBMyWatersBrokeAndThenIWentToHospitalToBeCheckedAndWasNotAllowedToGoHomeAsSheWasBreech
#AsIJustLabouredThereIDidNotHaveToWorryAboutTransferringInOrAnything
#ThisTimeMyWatersMightNotBreakAndItWillProbablyBeACompletelyDifferentExperience
#ILikeToThinkThatIAmOrganisedAndILikeToFeelInControlSoIThinkThatIsWhyIDoNotLikeThisWaitingPeriodSoMuch
#YesterdayWhenIWasOutWithBIHadSomeReallyStrongCrampsButItMightHaveJustBeenFromPickingBUpABit
#MyLowerBackJustAchesALotOfTheTimeAndIDoHaveCrampsHereAndThere
#BabyXCouldArriveReallySoonOrSheCouldJustWaitUntilTheClockRunsOut
#IThinkIHaveSaidItALotButIAmReallyIntriguedToSeeHowBReactsToTheBaby
#BAndIWillStopAndChatToSixDogsAndTheirOwnersAroundHereNow
#WellIChatAndBWaitsPatientlyForMeUntilSheJustGetsUpAndWalksOff
#ItHasBeenNiceHavingMorePeopleToTalkAboutThisPregnancyWithInRealLifeAsInLiverpoolTAndIHadDailyWalksButSpokeToNoOne
#IMentionItAsOneOfTheWomenHasSaidSheCanNotWaitToSeeHowBIsWithTheBaby
#AFewWeeksAgoIStartedToDoAThingWhereWhenIGetToTheBottomOfTheStairsWhileCarryingBIInteractWithTheMirrorThere
#ThereAreFourLittleCirclesOnEachSideOfItWhereIPutMyFingerAndGoPsst
#ItWasABitRandomButItMadeHerLaughSoIAlwaysDoItNowAsILoveToMakeHerLaugh
#NowILetHerTouchTheSidesInsteadAndAfterwardsWePutOurIndexFingersTogetherAndGoPsstThoughSheIsYetToDoTheSounds
#SheLovesHerVitaminWaterWhichSoundsFancyButIsJustHerVitaminsMixedWithSomeWater
#IGiveItToHerWhenSheWakesUpInTheMorningAndAfterHerNap
#WhileSheWaitsForMeToMakeItSheWillSitOnTheFloorThoughSometimesSheWillStandUpAndHugMyLegThenSitBackDown
#YesterdayIPutOnAMaternitySlashBreastfeedingCardiganThatIBoughtWhenIWasPregnantWithHer
#IHaveNeverReallyWornItAsItWasSummerWhenSheWasBornButIWasColdAndItWasByMyHospitalBags
#ItIsQuiteBigAndICanHideBWhileIWearItWhichSheFindsFunnyAndIGetCuddlesWhichIsNice
#RestInPeaceMeatLoafWhoDiedYesterdayAndWhoseMusicIHaveReallyGottenIntoDuringThisPregnancyForSomeReason

#IWasTakingPhotosInTheStyleOfMyMáscaraProjectLastWeekAndIWasMessingAroundWithMyDress

I did the ‘usual nude’ photos, then some wearing a towel, then thought this dress would be good.

#IDidThisPoseAndILikeTheIdeaOfShowingMyBumpLikeSomeoneWithACoatFullOfWatchesSoIWantedToDoItAgainForThisProject

It’s also because I took photos of myself playing around with a black backdrop when I was pregnant with B, and this is a quicker way to get a playful effect…

#ItHasOnlyBeenACoupleOfDaysSinceMyLastImageAndTextButIAlreadyFeelCalmer

I think I am a bit more ready now. I keep thinking I should watch more hypnobirthing, but I know that I just need to remember to breathe and that’s it.

#TwoNightsAgoBetweenBeingAwakeAndAsleepIWasImaginingThatIWasHavingContractions

My bump had gone super tight, and then I think my mind went into overdrive.

#IFeltSurprisinglyRelaxedAsIWasLikeOkayItIsProbablyHappeningNow

But it obviously wasn’t… I felt relieved in ways as I do not like this waiting.

#IWakeUpEveryHourOrSoEachNightNowWhichIsQuiteAnnoying

Luckily I have been getting better at going back to sleep. The other night I was awake from 3 to 5, and that was really annoying.

#EveryTimeIWakeUpIHaveToTurnOverAndIWonderIfMyWatersHaveBroken

Turning over is uncomfortable. I usually go to the loo as well as getting up relieves my hips of pressure briefly.

#WithBMyWatersBrokeAndThenIWentToHospitalToBeCheckedAndWasNotAllowedToGoHomeAsSheWasBreech

It feels so long ago now, but it was June 2020.

#AsIJustLabouredThereIDidNotHaveToWorryAboutTransferringInOrAnything

I had a deadline (if I wasn’t in labour by 6pm I would have had to have a C-section) and I knew I had to get into the ‘zone’. I think not being moved about probably helped.

#ThisTimeMyWatersMightNotBreakAndItWillProbablyBeACompletelyDifferentExperience

I’m not entirely convinced that this baby isn’t breech, or will not be by the time I give birth though. I do think I might be at home longer though. Having B complicates things as my Mum needs to come and get her, if she isn’t here already etc.

#ILikeToThinkThatIAmOrganisedAndILikeToFeelInControlSoIThinkThatIsWhyIDoNotLikeThisWaitingPeriodSoMuch

I do not like the uncertainty. I like to know what is going to happen. I have no clue.

#YesterdayWhenIWasOutWithBIHadSomeReallyStrongCrampsButItMightHaveJustBeenFromPickingBUpABit

My Nan tells me off for picking her up when she sees me doing it, but sometimes it needs to be done.

#MyLowerBackJustAchesALotOfTheTimeAndIDoHaveCrampsHereAndThere

My back is aching a lot at the moment, and I stretched this morning.

#BabyXCouldArriveReallySoonOrSheCouldJustWaitUntilTheClockRunsOut

I really hope she comes soon. I feel more ready now. I’m bored of these pains.

#IThinkIHaveSaidItALotButIAmReallyIntriguedToSeeHowBReactsToTheBaby

She really doesn’t know how much her life is about to change…

#BAndIWillStopAndChatToSixDogsAndTheirOwnersAroundHereNow

I think it’s 6, possibly more.

#WellIChatAndBWaitsPatientlyForMeUntilSheJustGetsUpAndWalksOff

She just wants to get to the playground, but I’m always keen for a chat.

#ItHasBeenNiceHavingMorePeopleToTalkAboutThisPregnancyWithInRealLifeAsInLiverpoolTAndIHadDailyWalksButSpokeToNoOne

It’s from having B and always being out and about our local area. Some I know as they talk to other dog owners and so I have got to know them that way. It’s really nice going for a walk and sometimes having a chat with three people. B isn’t so impressed though…

#IMentionItAsOneOfTheWomenHasSaidSheCanNotWaitToSeeHowBIsWithTheBaby

I’ve said I’ll show her a video of B meeting the baby for the first time – if we remember to do it.

#AFewWeeksAgoIStartedToDoAThingWhereWhenIGetToTheBottomOfTheStairsWhileCarryingBIInteractWithTheMirrorThere

It’s usually after her afternoon nap, but sometimes in the morning as well.

#ThereAreFourLittleCirclesOnEachSideOfItWhereIPutMyFingerAndGoPsst

Like little mirrors within the big mirror.

#ItWasABitRandomButItMadeHerLaughSoIAlwaysDoItNowAsILoveToMakeHerLaugh

The clown training I did in London is really paying off.

#NowILetHerTouchTheSidesInsteadAndAfterwardsWePutOurIndexFingersTogetherAndGoPsstThoughSheIsYetToDoTheSounds

It’s just a nice little thing that we do.

#SheLovesHerVitaminWaterWhichSoundsFancyButIsJustHerVitaminsMixedWithSomeWater

I’ve mentioned it before. It was easier to give it to her in her water when she was younger, and it encourages her to drink so it’s fine. I really don’t like the taste of it, but she only has plain water or milk otherwise, so it’s probably exciting to her.

#IGiveItToHerWhenSheWakesUpInTheMorningAndAfterHerNap

Fun fact.

#WhileSheWaitsForMeToMakeItSheWillSitOnTheFloorThoughSometimesSheWillStandUpAndHugMyLegThenSitBackDown

Too cute.

#YesterdayIPutOnAMaternitySlashBreastfeedingCardiganThatIBoughtWhenIWasPregnantWithHer

I took a photo of me wearing it when I was pregnant with B, and that might have been the only time I wore it.

#IHaveNeverReallyWornItAsItWasSummerWhenSheWasBornButIWasColdAndItWasByMyHospitalBags

It’s definitely more appropriate for a winter baby, which was probably why it was on sale. It definitely warmed me up.

#ItIsQuiteBigAndICanHideBWhileIWearItWhichSheFindsFunnyAndIGetCuddlesWhichIsNice

I asked if I could have a hug and she ignored me. Then I opened up my cardigan and she ran to me. Tiago came in the room and I held it out wide to hide her from view, so she had a laugh while Tiago pretended that he couldn’t see her and looked for her.

#RestInPeaceMeatLoafWhoDiedYesterdayAndWhoseMusicIHaveReallyGottenIntoDuringThisPregnancyForSomeReason

I only knew a couple of his songs until 6ish months ago, but then suddenly really got into a lot more of his music. He’s been the soundtrack to a lot of B’s meals, and weirdly yesterday I suddenly had an urge to listen to his music after having a bit of a break. Thanks for the music Meat Loaf.

Me dancing to Meat Loaf at 32 weeks pregnant. This song was the first track that I added to my birth playlist.

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General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot VIII (38 Weeks / 19th January 2022)

Shoot which I am recreating for the 8th time this pregnancy. I am wearing a bra and leggings. I have my right hand clasping my left elbow. My bump is bigger than the previous version of this image.
General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot VIII (38 Weeks / 19th January 2022)
 
#ThisIsTheMostPregnantIHaveEverBeenInMyLife
#ThatSoundsDramaticButBWasBornByThisPoint
#ThisAlsoMayBeTheLastImageOfThisSubSeries
#IDoNotImagineThatIWillStillBePregnantInTwoWeeksTimeButItIsPossible
#IStillFindItWeirdThatICouldBeAMotherOfTwoAnyDayNow
#IFeelMoreNervousThanIThinkIWasWithB
#PerhapsBecauseIKnowWhatIAmInForThisTimeAndTheNewbornStageIsSoIntense
#AndAsBWasBornBefore38WeeksIAmJustOnHighAlertNow
#ICanNotSayThatIAmReallyLookingForwardToTheNewbornPhaseButIKnowItWillBeSoonBeOver
#AtLeastBabyXWillNotWriggleLoadsWhileIChangeHerNappyOrDressHer
#SheWillBeAsleepALotButTheFeedingIsJustSoDemandingAndIReallyHopeIFindItEasierThisTime
#IGuessThatIsWhatIAmTheMostNervousAbout
#SomeoneToldMeThatTheirFriendsDaughterHadToWaitSixDaysForABedInTheHospital
#ButIGuessThatWasForAnInductionOrSomethingAsWhenABabyIsComingTheyWillNotThenWaitForDaysAsThereIsNoBed
#ThisWeekIWentToTheCoffeeShopByMyselfAndGotAHotChocolateAndSatInTheParkAndDrankIt
#ThatDoesNotSoundLikeMuchButThatWasTheFirstTimeIHaveDoneThatSinceBWasBornAndItCouldPossiblyBeTheLastTimeForALongTime
#DueToCovidAndBeingCautiousThereAreNotManyThingsThatIFeelLikeICanDoToMarkTheShortTimeLeftBetweenBeingAMotherOfOneAndAMotherOfTwo
#ISawSoManyGirlsWhoLookedToBeASimilarAgeToBWhenIWasSatOnTheBenchAndItMadeMeMissHer
#TheOtherNightSheWasTheMostMiserableIHadEverSeenHerAndItWasAwful
#SheJustSeemsToNeverStopTeethingAndWasSoSadThatWeThoughtABathWouldCheerHerUp
#SheStartedOffHatingItAndBLovesBathsButThenTheIbuprofenWeGaveHerSeemedToKickInAndSheWasHappyAgain
#WeHaveBeenGivingHerParacetamolForAgesButHaveSwitchedToIbuprofen
#BHasAFriendWhoWeSeeAtTheParkALotAndTheyNowHighFiveEachOtherWhichIsSoAdorable
#TheyAlsoClapForEachOtherWhenTheyGetToTheBottomOfTheSlideButTheyAlsoClapThemselves
#HerSleepingHasBeenOnAndOffButThenSoHasMine
#SometimesIDoNotWantToGiveHerMedicineIfIAmNotSureIfSheNeedsItButThenSheWakesUpEarlyFromANapTeething
#ACoupleOfNightsLatelyIHaveNotBeenAbleToSleepBetweenThreeAndFive
#OrIJustWakeUpEveryHourOrSoAsICanNotSeemToGetComfortableAnymore
#FourNightsAgoIHadALegCrampForTheFirstTimeInAWhileAndItWasMassive
#IAmOverBeingPregnantButIAlsoHopeIHaveAFewMoreDaysAtLeast

(I’ve said before that I don’t like doing these shoots. I probably spent the longest on this one, and it’s still quite off. I’m a lot lower than I am in the other photos, but for my sanity I had to stop trying to get it right. I’m frustrated, but I’m also tired and 38 weeks pregnant so I’m going to let myself off – for now and then be annoyed about it for the rest of my life probably.)

#ThisIsTheMostPregnantIHaveEverBeenInMyLife #ThatSoundsDramaticButBWasBornByThisPoint

I could have wrote this as a hashtag with every picture when I was pregnant with B, but I didn’t. This just feels like major unknown territory now.

#ThisAlsoMayBeTheLastImageOfThisSubSeries #IDoNotImagineThatIWillStillBePregnantInTwoWeeksTimeButItIsPossible

Baby will come when baby is ready. I just want to know when that will be though!

#IStillFindItWeirdThatICouldBeAMotherOfTwoAnyDayNow

*Nervous laugh*

#IFeelMoreNervousThanIThinkIWasWithB

Definitely. I’m nervous for the birth too.

#PerhapsBecauseIKnowWhatIAmInForThisTimeAndTheNewbornStageIsSoIntense

Having to set alarms to wake up to feed the baby if they haven’t already woken you up etc.

#AndAsBWasBornBefore38WeeksIAmJustOnHighAlertNow

With B I thought I had more time, this time I am aware that I might not have.

#ICanNotSayThatIAmReallyLookingForwardToTheNewbornPhaseButIKnowItWillBeSoonBeOver

And I will be sad that I will never experience it again (I really do not want more than two kids).

#AtLeastBabyXWillNotWriggleLoadsWhileIChangeHerNappyOrDressHer

In the beginning anyways. I am so slow at dressing B to go out for walks as she keeps running off and I am too pregnant to be bothered to chase her etc.

#SheWillBeAsleepALotButTheFeedingIsJustSoDemandingAndIReallyHopeIFindItEasierThisTime #IGuessThatIsWhatIAmTheMostNervousAbout

I am nervous about breastfeeding. It is what it is. If the baby is bigger then maybe that might help?

#SomeoneToldMeThatTheirFriendsDaughterHadToWaitSixDaysForABedInTheHospital #ButIGuessThatWasForAnInductionOrSomethingAsWhenABabyIsComingTheyWillNotThenWaitForDaysAsThereIsNoBed

So I’m not that put off. If anything it will hopefully buy me more time if I do end up needing an induction…

#ThisWeekIWentToTheCoffeeShopByMyselfAndGotAHotChocolateAndSatInTheParkAndDrankIt

Mega stuff.

#ThatDoesNotSoundLikeMuchButThatWasTheFirstTimeIHaveDoneThatSinceBWasBornAndItCouldPossiblyBeTheLastTimeForALongTime

The weather was quite pleasant. I was going to read my book or something but I just enjoyed watching birds and things. Simple pleasures.

#DueToCovidAndBeingCautiousThereAreNotManyThingsThatIFeelLikeICanDoToMarkTheShortTimeLeftBetweenBeingAMotherOfOneAndAMotherOfTwo

So I am taking advantage of anything I can do.

#ISawSoManyGirlsWhoLookedToBeASimilarAgeToBWhenIWasSatOnTheBenchAndItMadeMeMissHer

I felt awkward smiling at them, but their grownups could probably see I was pregnant and no threat. I’m sure I had not seen any of them before when I’ve been with B…

#TheOtherNightSheWasTheMostMiserableIHadEverSeenHerAndItWasAwful

Yesterday she had her shoe balanced on her foot and brought it towards her face. It fell off and her face nearly made me cry, as she didn’t cry out but her lip was quivering and I felt awful (I’d been trying to put it on over two pairs of socks). This wasn’t why she was miserable though – I just thought about it.

#SheJustSeemsToNeverStopTeethingAndWasSoSadThatWeThoughtABathWouldCheerHerUp

She wasn’t eating much of dinner, she was moping about, and she loves baths.

#SheStartedOffHatingItAndBLovesBathsButThenTheIbuprofenWeGaveHerSeemedToKickInAndSheWasHappyAgain

Yeah, B LOVES baths.

#WeHaveBeenGivingHerParacetamolForAgesButHaveSwitchedToIbuprofen

I think the paracetamol doesn’t do much for her anymore, and I did notice a big molar cutting through the other day. She’s just dribbling constantly. Poor thing.

#BHasAFriendWhoWeSeeAtTheParkALotAndTheyNowHighFiveEachOtherWhichIsSoAdorable

I thought I might give birth there and then from all the oxytocin of seeing them high five.

#TheyAlsoClapForEachOtherWhenTheyGetToTheBottomOfTheSlideButTheyAlsoClapThemselves

Adorable.

#HerSleepingHasBeenOnAndOffButThenSoHasMine

Life is a fun game.

#SometimesIDoNotWantToGiveHerMedicineIfIAmNotSureIfSheNeedsItButThenSheWakesUpEarlyFromANapTeething

And I regret my decisions… This was two days ago. She really needed a nap as she had woken up early, and then only slept 40 minutes and wouldn’t sleep again. I didn’t have a nap and I was tired…

#ACoupleOfNightsLatelyIHaveNotBeenAbleToSleepBetweenThreeAndFive

It’s so frustrating as I know I need my sleep. I ended up reading a book. I tend to sleep the night after, but I just want to have as much energy as possible for labour.

#OrIJustWakeUpEveryHourOrSoAsICanNotSeemToGetComfortableAnymore

Turning over is painful. My hips just hurt. My back hurts right now.

#FourNightsAgoIHadALegCrampForTheFirstTimeInAWhileAndItWasMassive

I thought Tiago might think I was in labour or something, but he said afterwards that that never even crossed his mind. He forgets I’m pregnant half the time…

#IAmOverBeingPregnantButIAlsoHopeIHaveAFewMoreDaysAtLeast

I don’t want it to drag on too much longer, but I also want to have a bit more time to myself. Baby will come when baby is ready though.

There are no comparison photos from now on, as B was born by this point so I have no photos of me pregnant past 37 and a half weeks…


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