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Pregnancy Waiting II

Thirteenth Family Portrait (35 Weeks / 2nd January 2022)

Family portrait. Tiago and I are looking up at B who is on Tiago's shoulders. A box, the same colour as the wall, is over her face to hide her features.
Thirteenth Family Portrait (35 Weeks / 2nd January 2022)
 
#Hello2022AndHelloToBsThirdYearOnEarth
#ItMakesHerSoundSoOldWhenSheIsNotEven19MonthsYet
#WeHadAVeryQuietNewYearsEveWhereWeJustWatchedACoupleOfEpisodesOfQueerEyeThenWentToSleepAt11
#AtMidnightIWokeUpToALotOfLightAndNoiseAsEveryoneAroundUsSeemedToHaveFireworks
#IThoughtItWas3InTheMorningAndWasReallyConfusedAsToWhatWasHappeningAtFirst
#TiagoBarelyMovedAndBDidWakeUpBrieflyButLuckilyNotForTooLong
#HerSleepingHasBeenGettingWorseAndIThinkSheMustBeGoingThroughARegression
#IHaveMadeTheLightOnHerRoomThermometerABitStrongerInCaseItHelps
#SheJustSeemsToBeFullOfColdAndTeethingALotWhichProbablyDoesNotHelp
#TheOtherDayWhenWeWereAllLeavingThePlaygroundTiagoAndISanitisedOurHandsAndBCopiedWhichMadeMeLaugh
#WeAreStartingToDigOutBabyStuffAndBHadABriefPhaseOfEnjoyingSittingInHerBouncerAgain
#IAmGettingAnnoyedThoughAsWeReallyCanNotFindWhereWePutAllHer0To3MonthBabyClothes
#WeHaveLookedMultipleTimesAndYesterdayWeWentThroughThingsPrettyThoroughlyButNoLuck
#WhenWeMovedBHadOutgrownThemSoTheyMustJustBeInASmallBagSomewhere
#IWantToGetThemAllWashedSoICanPackMyHospitalBagButReallyIJustNeedToPackMyBagAndKeepLooking
#OtherwiseWeNeedToGetSomeClothesAsSoonAsPossibleAsTimeIsQuicklyPassingBy
#INeedToRereadTheHypnobirthingBookAndTiagoNeedsToReadItToo
#WeHaveAFewThingsThatWeNeedToGetThisWeekLikeASterilisingMachineAsWeBorrowedOneLastTime
#IAlsoNeedToHireATENSMachineSoonAsLastTimeIThoughtIWasBeingOrganisedAndItCameADayBeforeINeededToUseItAsBCameSoEarly
#TiagoAndIAreTryingToMakeAnEffortToSpendABitOfTimeTogetherBeforeWeGoToSleepAsUsuallyWeAreOffDoingOurOwnThing
#IAmTryingToFaffLessAndUseSocialMediaLessAndReadTheNewsLessAsIDoNotNeedToReadIt10TimesADay
#ItHasBeenNiceToTalkABitMoreBeforeGoingToBedAsOnceBabyXArrivesIKnowWeWillHaveLessUsTimeForAWhile
#MyMainHopesForThisYearIsThatBabyXIsBornHealthyAndThatTheBirthGoesWell
#IHopeThatBAdaptsWellToHavingASiblingAndThatTheyGetOnWell
#IAlsoHopeThatWeCanMoveOutOfMyNansHouseAndIntoOurPotentialForeverHome
#NextMonthItWillHaveBeen7YearsSinceTiagoAndIMetAndWeHaveLivedIn3DifferentCitiesTogether
#OurPlansAreSlowlyMovingForwardAndWeWantToMoveOutInTheSummer
#SoOnceBabyXIsBornTheCountdownWillSwitchFromTheBirthToMovingOutAndGettingOrganisedForThat
#ItWillBeABigMoveButIThinkAllTheWaitingWillBeWorthItInTheEnd
#ThanksToMyNanForPuttingUpWithUsForOverAYearAlready

#Hello2022AndHelloToBsThirdYearOnEarth

2021 dragged at times, but it also feels like it went quite fast.

#ItMakesHerSoundSoOldWhenSheIsNotEven19MonthsYet

It is weird how things work. Yesterday I was thinking about how I am 22 times older than B.

#WeHadAVeryQuietNewYearsEveWhereWeJustWatchedACoupleOfEpisodesOfQueerEyeThenWentToSleepAt11

New series. Great. We had forgotten that it was New Year’s Eve, so we agreed to both be in bed by 9 to hang out.

#AtMidnightIWokeUpToALotOfLightAndNoiseAsEveryoneAroundUsSeemedToHaveFireworks

I guess it was a safer option for a lot of people to meet up, rather than be indoors.

#IThoughtItWas3InTheMorningAndWasReallyConfusedAsToWhatWasHappeningAtFirst

It really startled me.

#TiagoBarelyMovedAndBDidWakeUpBrieflyButLuckilyNotForTooLong

When I woke up I was so shocked I said ‘Tiago!’, but he just said ‘what?’ and rolled over. I had turned B’s machine up.

#HerSleepingHasBeenGettingWorseAndIThinkSheMustBeGoingThroughARegression

I looked up 18 month sleep regression and a lot of boxes were checked.

#IHaveMadeTheLightOnHerRoomThermometerABitStrongerInCaseItHelps

I had put it on the lowest setting, but it didn’t seem high enough.

#SheJustSeemsToBeFullOfColdAndTeethingALotWhichProbablyDoesNotHelp

We are constantly cleaning her eyes, wiping her nose, wiping away dribble etc.

#TheOtherDayWhenWeWereAllLeavingThePlaygroundTiagoAndISanitisedOurHandsAndBCopiedWhichMadeMeLaugh

She did it a couple of days in a row, and then stopped. We wash her hands when she gets home. Sometimes I use sanitiser, but I worry it is too strong for her.

#WeAreStartingToDigOutBabyStuffAndBHadABriefPhaseOfEnjoyingSittingInHerBouncerAgain

She tried to sit in the baby bath, so I thought I should get the bouncer out for her, then I was worried that she liked it too much that she would be trying to sit on the baby…

#IAmGettingAnnoyedThoughAsWeReallyCanNotFindWhereWePutAllHer0To3MonthBabyClothes

It is stressing me out.

#WeHaveLookedMultipleTimesAndYesterdayWeWentThroughThingsPrettyThoroughlyButNoLuck

I was sure I had put them in a cupboard in our bedroom, but nope. There is a shoulder bag of mine that I have not seen in the couple of weeks that I have been searching, so I am wondering if they are in there, but I kind of doubt it. Thinking about it there is another bag of mine that I haven’t seen either… Hmm. The shoulder bag is probably just full of my bags…

#WhenWeMovedBHadOutgrownThemSoTheyMustJustBeInASmallBagSomewhere

It’s so annoying. I want to find them ASAP.

#IWantToGetThemAllWashedSoICanPackMyHospitalBagButReallyIJustNeedToPackMyBagAndKeepLooking

I might pack my bag later or tomorrow.

#OtherwiseWeNeedToGetSomeClothesAsSoonAsPossibleAsTimeIsQuicklyPassingBy

We have a couple of new sleepsuits that we got as B’s are a bit overwashed and worn as she lived in them, so we need to get a couple more and some vests really. That’s it. I’ve found some cardigans and hats.

#INeedToRereadTheHypnobirthingBookAndTiagoNeedsToReadItToo

I’m enjoying reading a book about the Carpenters at the moment. It’s just a short read, then I will reread the book. To be fair I wrote down the main points in an email to myself and it’s enough really, but I feel like I’d feel calmer if I reread the book.

#WeHaveAFewThingsThatWeNeedToGetThisWeekLikeASterilisingMachineAsWeBorrowedOneLastTime

I don’t want to pump as much as I did last time, but it’s good to be organised. I wasn’t planning to pump at all last time, but we got given a pump and a friend lent us the steriliser so we were all set up for it when we got home from hospital.

#IAlsoNeedToHireATENSMachineSoonAsLastTimeIThoughtIWasBeingOrganisedAndItCameADayBeforeINeededToUseItAsBCameSoEarly

I have put a reminder in my calendar. I think you can keep them for 6 weeks or so, so I’ll just order it next week.

#TiagoAndIAreTryingToMakeAnEffortToSpendABitOfTimeTogetherBeforeWeGoToSleepAsUsuallyWeAreOffDoingOurOwnThing

B goes to bed and we’re like ‘freedom to do what we want’, which is me usually sitting at my computer doing some work, then stretching, and T is usually just having some time to himself and doing bits of work. I guess us not having our own place has made it this way too.

#IAmTryingToFaffLessAndUseSocialMediaLessAndReadTheNewsLessAsIDoNotNeedToReadIt10TimesADay

Less, less, less. I definitely feel better for it.

#ItHasBeenNiceToTalkABitMoreBeforeGoingToBedAsOnceBabyXArrivesIKnowWeWillHaveLessUsTimeForAWhile

We know how important it is to keep our bond strong (cheesy, but true), so that we can navigate the potentially difficult journey ahead (cliche) a bit easier.

#MyMainHopesForThisYearIsThatBabyXIsBornHealthyAndThatTheBirthGoesWell

Fingers crossed.

#IHopeThatBAdaptsWellToHavingASiblingAndThatTheyGetOnWell

Again, fingers crossed.

#IAlsoHopeThatWeCanMoveOutOfMyNansHouseAndIntoOurPotentialForeverHome

Potential forever home, as if we don’t like it then obviously we can move again, but I hope that it all works out.

#NextMonthItWillHaveBeen7YearsSinceTiagoAndIMetAndWeHaveLivedIn3DifferentCitiesTogether

3 and a half years in London in 2 different places a brief stay at my Nan’s while finding a place to live in Liverpool (lots of trips up and down to view places and work etc.), 2 years in Liverpool, then to Birmingham to live with my Nan (we weren’t sure how long we would live with her and had planned to find somewhere of our own to rent in Brum, but it’s too late now).

#OurPlansAreSlowlyMovingForwardAndWeWantToMoveOutInTheSummer

We shall see. We are starting to get a bit excited though.

#SoOnceBabyXIsBornTheCountdownWillSwitchFromTheBirthToMovingOutAndGettingOrganisedForThat

I’m not looking forward to going through all our stuff and really cutting down on things, but there is a lot of stuff that we haven’t touched since moving.

#ItWillBeABigMoveButIThinkAllTheWaitingWillBeWorthItInTheEnd

There has been a lot of waiting, and though it has been frustrating I think the timing is better.

#ThanksToMyNanForPuttingUpWithUsForOverAYearAlready

It’s been nice to see my Nan everyday and not worry about her, though it has been frustrating at times – which says more about me than her. It’s been good for her though, and it’s been good for B too. It’s been nice for my family to see more of B than they would have if we had stayed in Liverpool – especially due to Covid.

35 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait which is shot from below my bump. My eyes are looking out over the top of my bump and my elbows are in the air.
Our World Will Soon Change In One Way Or Another (35 and a half weeks)
 
#IFeelLikeIHaveNotWrittenMuchInMyActualDiaryAboutBeingPregnant
#MaybeBecauseIAmDoingThisProject
#SoLastNightIMadeMyselfWriteAboutHowIAmFeelingAboutImminentMotherhood
#AndIGotABitEmotional
#IAmStillNervousAsEvenThoughIHaveBeenGrowingThisBabyForSoLong
#ItDoesNotMeanWeWillHaveABabyInLessThan2MonthsTime
#ObviouslyIHopeWeDoButThereIsAlwaysAPossibilityThatWeWillNot
#SomeMightSayThatThinkingThatWayDoesYouNoGood
#ButIThinkItIsGoodToBeRealistic
#ThoughIDoNotNowHowIWouldReactIfThingsWentBadly
#ButTiagoSaysWeWillDealWithWhateverComesOurWay
#IAmAlsoNervousForIfWeDoHaveABabyAndIAmARubbishMother
#ObviouslyIWillDoMyBest
#AndIThinkNoMatterHowYouRaiseYourChildrenThingsWillNeverBePerfect
#ThoughIDoNotBelieveInPerfectButItIsTheEasiestWordToUse
#LuckilyWithLockdownItWillTakeSomePressureOffMeIThink
#ObviouslyThereIsAlwaysPressureForTheFatherTooButIThinkTheMotherGetsBurdenedWithALotOfIt
#PeopleSaveMoreJudgementForTheMother
#AndIWillBeThePrimaryCaregiver
#IThinkTiagoWillBeAGoodFatherThough
#IThinkHeHasMorePatienceAndIsABetterTeacherThanMe
#IHopeToWorkOnThoseAspectsOfMyselfThoughAlongWithManyOtherThings
#AndIWantToBeTheBestMotherThatICanPossiblyBe
#WhilstRetainingMyOwnIdentityAtLeastToSomeExtent
#IWillHopefullyBeAMotherButAlsoStillMuchMoreThanThat
#ThatWillBeJustOneOfMyLifeRoles
#MeAndTiagoAreAFamilyButThisWillBeADifferentKindOfFamily
#ILookForwardToLazyDaysInBedOrOnGrassLyingSideBySideBySide
#WritingTheseHashtagsAreMakingMeEmotional
#OurWorldWillSoonChangeInOneWayOrAnotherAndItIsExcitingButAlsoABitScary

This is from a diptych, but the second image is quite booby.

I feel the same as I did when I wrote these hashtags – I am still quite nervous that I might not be be a mother of two soon.

I don’t feel like the best mother at times – especially at the moment as I have no energy – but I know I am not the worst and that I am doing my best (or maybe 90% of my best).

There haven’t been many lazy days in bed or much lying on the grass side by side… Hopefully in the coming years.

I am excited though, but I am feeling a bit nervous too.

My hypnobirthing notes are mainly about breathing and trying to be as relaxed as possible.

See, by this point I had washed all the baby clothes. I need to get on it and find things!

I think I have cared less about how I look with this pregnancy, but I also have not been going out to work and generally people just see me when I take B out and about. I’ve been stretching a lot, and I do get out for daily walks, and I think I am a bit kinder to my body now after birthing one kid.

My mental health has been better in ways during this pregnancy as we want two kids, and I felt a bit lost just living at my Nan’s and waiting for our move, so it made sense to have the second one now. The living situation has been frustrating at times though, and I do look forward to having our own place again – and I’m sure my Nan will like to feel more relaxed in her house again. I know we have been lucky with this situation, and my Nan has benefitted from it too, but we can’t all live like this forever.


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B And The Bump (35 Weeks / 28th December 2021)

Self-portrait where I am holding B above my bump. She has my hair in her hands and is hiding her eyes. I am kissing her on her forehead.
B And The Bump (35 Weeks / 28th December 2021)
 
#ITookAPhotoOfMeHoldingBWhenIWas24WeeksPregnantAndYouCanSeeABitOfABumpButItIsDefinitelyMorePronouncedNow
#SoIWantToDoASimilarShootAsTimeIsRunningOutAndItCouldBeTheLastPhotoOfBWithMyBump
#IAmDefinitelyGettingToThePointOfBeingBoredWithBeingPregnant
#IDoNotLikeAcidRefluxAndNotBeingAbleToEatAsMuchAsIWant
#IWillEatSomethingAndKnowThatIWillFeelAwfulLaterWhichIsLotsOfFun
#IAmJustGladThatIHaveMoreEnergyNowAndFeelQuiteFit
#IAmNotSureIfIHadAnySideEffectsFromMyBoosterAsIFeltSoRubbishInTheWeekLeadingUpToItAndFeltMuchBetterByTheTimeIHadIt
#ChristmasWasVeryQuietAndWasJustNanTBAndIInTheEnd
#BHadAFewPresentsButNoneFromUsAsWeGotHerHerClimbingFrameAndSlideInTheSummerAndAnythingWeBuyForHerWeGenerallyJustGiveToHerStraightAway
#SheHasACoupleOfMolarsComingThroughAndSheWasInAFunnyMoodAllXmasDay
#IHopeThisTeethingStopsSoonButSheStillHasSpaceInHerMouthForMore
#HerConjunctivitisHasClearedUpNowWhichWeAreRelievedAbout
#WeUsuallyBathHerACoupleOfTimesAWeekButWeWereGivingHerDailyBathsToMakeSureHerEyesWereClean
#IAmSurprisedByHowMuchSheLikesWaterAndDidNotMindUsThrowingWaterAtHerFace
#ThisWeekSheSeemsToHaveLearnedWhatEarsAreAndWhenIAskHerWhereMineAreSheSticksAFingerInMyEar
#IAmNowTryingToTeachHerCheeks
#WhenWePutHerInHerHighchairAndPutHerFoxBibOnMostOfTheTimeSheWillTouchItsNose
#WhenSheFinishesHerBreakfastNowSheUsuallyPassesMeHerBowlWhichIsGood
#IThinkSheHasOfficiallyGrownTiredOfBakedBeansForLunchSoWeAreTryingOutDifferentThings
#WhileSheWasReallyIllSheWasNotEatingMuchSoItIsGoodToSeeHerGettingAnAppetiteAgain
#IGenerallyStruggleABitThisTimeOfTheYearWithMyMentalHealth
#TheOtherDayIJustFeltReallyTrappedInThisHouse
#WeArePlanningToMoveAwayInTheSummerSoIJustNeedToHoldOutUntilThen
#IMissHavingAPlaceOfOurOwnAndIGuessCovidHasComplicatedMatters
#IfItWasNotForCovidThenWeProbablyWouldNotBeHereOrInBirmingham
#ItHasBeenGoodInWaysButIHaveFoundItHardInOtherWays
#IGuessHavingASecondChildSoonWillBeABigDistractionAndTheMonthsWillFlyBy
#IWouldLikeToKnowMorePeopleButItAlsoSeemsABitLateNowIfWePlanToMoveAway
#IJustFeelLikeEveryDayIsTheSameAndWithASecondChildItMayFeelMoreThatWay
#INeedToStartGoingToBedEarlierAsIHaveBeenStayingUpTooLateWatchingShowsAndReadingIGuessAsIKnowThatWhenBabyXIsBornINeedToStartGoingToBedWhenTheyDo

#ITookAPhotoOfMeHoldingBWhenIWas24WeeksPregnantAndYouCanSeeABitOfABumpButItIsDefinitelyMorePronouncedNow

For my 33rd birthday portrait / marking B’s 16 month birthday. Post here.

#SoIWantToDoASimilarShootAsTimeIsRunningOutAndItCouldBeTheLastPhotoOfBWithMyBump

We will see how it goes. B was not very happy last time…

(I put off doing it all day, but in the end it was actually quite nice. She was unhappy at first, but then she started to just play with my hair and seemed to relax. Phew.)

#IAmDefinitelyGettingToThePointOfBeingBoredWithBeingPregnant

I know that once the baby is born my life will change a lot again, but I also just want to move on with our lives.

#IDoNotLikeAcidRefluxAndNotBeingAbleToEatAsMuchAsIWant

So much rich, fatty food at Xmas that is not good for acid reflux…

#IWillEatSomethingAndKnowThatIWillFeelAwfulLaterWhichIsLotsOfFun

Yesterday I had pizza for lunch and a few chocolates afterwards, and I didn’t feel as bad as I thought I would actually. Hurrah.

#IAmJustGladThatIHaveMoreEnergyNowAndFeelQuiteFit

I feel like I am not waddling as much as I was at this point when I was pregnant with B, but maybe it’s because I walk slower and not as far with B, and her pushchair gives me support.

#IAmNotSureIfIHadAnySideEffectsFromMyBoosterAsIFeltSoRubbishInTheWeekLeadingUpToItAndFeltMuchBetterByTheTimeIHadIt

It was hard to tell. I couldn’t feel more lousier than I did before having it.

#ChristmasWasVeryQuietAndWasJustNanTBAndIInTheEnd

Super chill.

#BHadAFewPresentsButNoneFromUsAsWeGotHerHerClimbingFrameAndSlideInTheSummerAndAnythingWeBuyForHerWeGenerallyJustGiveToHerStraightAway

I’d got her some felt tips the week before, but my Mum also gave her some. I guess next year we will have to be more Christmassy.

#SheHasACoupleOfMolarsComingThroughAndSheWasInAFunnyMoodAllXmasDay

It was a bit of a drag at times.

#IHopeThisTeethingStopsSoonButSheStillHasSpaceInHerMouthForMore

*Nervous laugh*

#HerConjunctivitisHasClearedUpNowWhichWeAreRelievedAbout

Hurrah. We’re still trying to clean her eyes a couple of times a day though, just in case it wants to come back.

#WeUsuallyBathHerACoupleOfTimesAWeekButWeWereGivingHerDailyBathsToMakeSureHerEyesWereClean

She loved it. We weren’t planning to give her a bath last night, but she went to the bathroom and looked longingly at the bath. It helps the time before bed go faster, and probably relaxes her so why not. She also uses a lot of energy up splashing about…

#IAmSurprisedByHowMuchSheLikesWaterAndDidNotMindUsThrowingWaterAtHerFace

She has a whale jug that we use and normally splash about with, so we’d splash her and say splash, and she’d laugh. Win.

#ThisWeekSheSeemsToHaveLearnedWhatEarsAreAndWhenIAskHerWhereMineAreSheSticksAFingerInMyEar

Lovely.

#IAmNowTryingToTeachHerCheeks

A lot of blowing my cheeks out and squeezing them.

#WhenWePutHerInHerHighchairAndPutHerFoxBibOnMostOfTheTimeSheWillTouchItsNose

Then I ask her where hers is etc.

#WhenSheFinishesHerBreakfastNowSheUsuallyPassesMeHerBowlWhichIsGood

I don’t like when she starts throwing her food about, so this is good progress. Last night she passed me her yoghurt bowl when she was done.

#IThinkSheHasOfficiallyGrownTiredOfBakedBeansForLunchSoWeAreTryingOutDifferentThings

She had a houmous sandwich the other day, she had some pasta, yeah we need to mix it up more. Sorry B – I got lazy.

#WhileSheWasReallyIllSheWasNotEatingMuchSoItIsGoodToSeeHerGettingAnAppetiteAgain

I was getting a bit worried, though I know she will eat when she wants. She might not eat much of her food sometimes, but she will always steal a bit of whatever we are eating.

#IGenerallyStruggleABitThisTimeOfTheYearWithMyMentalHealth

Dark days where we can’t go out for walks so late etc.

#TheOtherDayIJustFeltReallyTrappedInThisHouse

We’ve lived here for 14 months now, and we’re very grateful to my Nan for letting us live with her.

#WeArePlanningToMoveAwayInTheSummerSoIJustNeedToHoldOutUntilThen

There aren’t many short term options now and it does not seem worth it now.

#IMissHavingAPlaceOfOurOwnAndIGuessCovidHasComplicatedMatters

It’s good to know that Nan is fine and that she is being looked after, but I also can’t wait to have our own place where I feel a bit more relaxed.

#IfItWasNotForCovidThenWeProbablyWouldNotBeHereOrInBirmingham

T and I were talking about how things might be now if it wasn’t for Covid. I’m really not sure. I guess we might have moved closer to a park in Liverpool, or we might have just put up with living in the city centre (it wasn’t that much of a chore, but just not that kid friendly) and I’d be taking B to the museums every day…

#ItHasBeenGoodInWaysButIHaveFoundItHardInOtherWays

There’s space for us at my Nan’s, I haven’t been worried about her (I used to call her every day before living with her), she lives in a safe area and close to a park etc.

I just feel trapped as there aren’t many places to go within walking distance, Covid makes me not want to go to the few places that we could go to, I don’t know many people etc.

#IGuessHavingASecondChildSoonWillBeABigDistractionAndTheMonthsWillFlyBy

Once the baby is born I guess I will go into a baby tunnel.

#IWouldLikeToKnowMorePeopleButItAlsoSeemsABitLateNowIfWePlanToMoveAway

It’s been so difficult trying to meet other parents. Everyone has their old schedules too which makes it more complicated. We can’t invite new friends round to my Nan’s (well we could, but it’s not the best set-up), and I don’t feel that comfortable with going to other people’s homes, because of Covid.

#IJustFeelLikeEveryDayIsTheSameAndWithASecondChildItMayFeelMoreThatWay

I’ve been complaining about Groundhog Day vibes for a while. I’m glad we’re having a second kid now though, rather than leaving it until later. It does make sense as I’m really not up to much.

#INeedToStartGoingToBedEarlierAsIHaveBeenStayingUpTooLateWatchingShowsAndReadingIGuessAsIKnowThatWhenBabyXIsBornINeedToStartGoingToBedWhenTheyDo

I finished reading House of Gucci yesterday. I’m currently watching a series of Survivor Australia at 2x speed, and skipping through it a bit as the episodes are too long.

I need to read my hypnobirthing book again, and just go to bed earlier.

35 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait with my hands supporting my bump, and a patch of dried colostrum is visible on my dress by where my right nipple is.
Yes, That Is Dried Colostrum (35 weeks)
 
#InMyHeadIHaveBeenCountingDownTo42Weeks
#AsTheySayThatUsuallyYourFirstBabyArrivesLate
#ButTalkingToPeopleLatelyEveryonesStorySeemsToInvolveTheBabyComingEarly
#SoIGuessNowThereIsAChanceThatEveryShootForThisProjectCouldBeTheLast
#BabyDefinitelySeemsMoreActiveTheseDays
#SoMaybeItHasJustGotToThePointWhereItsMovementsAreNotShelteredByThePlacentaSoMuch
#LastNightIWasHavingALotOfBraxtonHicksContractionsIThink
#SomeWereQuitePainful
#WhenBabyHiccupsItIsQuiteUncomfortable
#ThisMorningTiagoPointedToAWetPatchOnMyDress
#MyRightBoobHadLeaked
#ItHasBeen6WeeksSinceMyLeftBoobFirstLeaked
#IThinkOneOfThemHasLeakedSinceButICanNotRememberWhichOneAndItDidNotSeemThatSignificant
#TodayItDidForSomeReason
#SoMaybeMyRightBoobHasLeakedBefore
#IHaveAScratchOnMyBellyWhichIMustHaveDoneWithAFingerNail
#TiagoAlsoHadToPointThatOutAsICouldNotSeeIt
#YesterdayIWentOutByMyselfForTheFirstTimeSinceBeforeLockdown
#IWentForAWalkWhilstTiagoWentToTheSupermarket
#IFeltSelfConsciousByMyselfAsINoticedPeopleStaringAtMyBump
#IWalkedOnTheSideOfThePathAndYetPeopleWouldPassSuperCloseByMe
#IWasOnThePhoneTheWholeTimeSoItMadeItNotSoBad
#WeFinallyGotSomeWholemealFlourSoIPlanToMakeSomePancakes
#IHaveNotHadThemInSoLong
#IDidNotAskTiagoToBuyMyFavouriteChocolateOatMilkAsIThoughtIShouldHaveAWeekWithoutIt
#ButNowIReallyWantSome
#IThinkLockdownIsStartingToGetToMeALittleMoreNow
#IJustWantToSpendAWeekendAtMyNansAndKeepHerCompany
#ButItIsLookingLikeItWillNotHappenBeforeTheBabyIsBornDueToRulesAndAll
#AndOnceTheBabyIsBornIDoNotThinkItWillBeAGoodIdeaForABit

Lol at the first two hashtags – B came before 38 weeks.

I thought I leaked a lot earlier than this, so I feel a little less worried now. I got given a colostrum kit today. (Oh wait, it said I leaked 6 weeks before.)

I still don’t like hiccups. I didn’t think that B was that active, but this baby is a lot more active.

I go out loads without Tiago, but usually just for walks with B. I do go to the local shops by myself sometimes, and I went to my midwife appointment alone today.

When I picked up B’s prescription a woman with a walking stick said I should sit down on the chair, so I must be looking quite pregnant to other people.

I’ve been on about making pancakes for a long time, and I haven’t. I finally bought some maple syrup the other day, so I should try to do it soon. Reading this makes me want some now.

‘#IJustWantToSpendAWeekendAtMyNansAndKeepHerCompany’

Well, we’ve spent many weekends with her over the last year+…

Self-portrait of Tiago and me hugging. We are hugging so that my bump is to the side of him.
Hugs Are Different When You’ve Got A Bump (35 weeks)

#ThePictureWasSupposedToShowHowWeHaveToHugNow
#ThoughIAmNotSureHowWellItShowsThat
#IAmSoUnawareOfHowBigMyBumpIsSometimes
#LookingDownIsSoDifferentToSeeingItSideOnInTheMirror
#WellEvenLookingDownIKnowItIsBig
#ButStillIBumpIntoThings
#INearlyKnockedAPlateOffTheTableTheOtherDayWithIt
#OrITryToGiveTiagoAHugFromBehindAndJustBumpIntoHim
#IHaveToHugHimWithMyBumpToTheSide
#HeOnlyGoesToTheBigSupermarketOnceAWeek
#ButWeGoToASmallShopOnceAWeekForBitsAndBobsWeNeed
#LikeTomatoesAndMushroomsAsWeSeemToRunOutOfThoseQuick
#SoTodayIAskedForSomeChocolateMilkAsIHaveBeenThinkingAboutItForAFewDays
#ItIsNotMyFavouriteOneAsYouCanOnlyGetThatAtTheBigSupermarket
#ThatIsProbablyBoringButIAmHappyThatIGotSome
#TodayIBoughtSomeMaternityPants
#IDoNotKnowIfIHaveAHomebirthIfIWillGetGivenThoseHospitalStylePants
#SoIBoughtSomeAsWhenIThinkOfPhotographingMyselfPostBirthIThinkOfAPhotoByRinekeDijkstraWithTheMotherWearingThosePants
#ThoughActuallyInTheOtherTwoPicturesTheyAreNotWearingPants
#WeShallSeeHowSoonIEndUpTakingAPictureAfterBirth
#TheMoreIThinkAboutItTheMoreIWantPicturesOfTheBirth
#ButIGuessItDependsOnHowThingsGo
#AndIThinkTiagoDoesNotWantTheResponsibilityOfTakingPictures
#AndWeBothWantToJustExperienceTheBirthAsMuchAsWeCanWithoutDistractions
#IAlsoBoughtADressThatICanNurseIn
#IBoughtABreastfeedingScarfAWhileAgoForMorePrivacy
#ButAtThisRateIDoubtIWillBeDoingMuchFeedingAwayFromHome
#IAmIWillNotFeelSelfConsciousDoingIt
#IThinkTheBabysNeedWillOverTakeAwkwardnessOrIHopeSoAnyways
#ItIsSuchANaturalThingThatItIsAShameThatPeopleGetOffendedByIt

Yeah, we have to hug like that again now.

I’m definitely bumping my bump into things, and Tiago often knocks it as he goes past…

I didn’t use my maternity pants, but I’ve dug them out as a maybe for my hospital bag this time.

I definitely want to get a picture or two of me giving birth this time, but we’ll see.

I never used the breastfeeding scarf… I hope breastfeeding is easier this time.


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Pregnancy Waiting II

Imitating B With Conjunctivitis (34 Weeks / 24th December 2021)

Self-portrait with makeup around my eyes to make them look a bit sore/like when B had conjunctivitis.
Imitating B With Conjunctivitis (34 Weeks / 24th December 2021)
 
#ImitatingBWithTwoRedEyesDueToConjunctivitisIsNotTheNicestPortraitICouldTakeButItHasDominatedOurWeek
#ISeemToHaveBeenInSimilarHealthToHowIWas6WeeksAgoWhenIWasBeingSickALotAndFeelingWeakInGeneral
#IWentToBedFiveDaysAgoFeelingSickAndWokeUpAt1AndWasSickThenSickAgainAnHourLaterAndThenAgainNotLongAfterThat
#ITriedToHaveAShowerAndSleepOnTheSofaButMyNanAlsoCouldNotSleepSoWantedAShowerAndCameIntoTheLivingRoomEarly
#SoIWentBackToBedButDidNotSleepMuchAndKeptBeingSickUntilAbout11ThoughItWasJustWaterThatWasComingUp
#TypicallyItWasTheOneDayWhereBDidNotHaveNurseryAndMyMumWasNotComingOverButTiagoManagedToWorkWhileWatchingBAndIHadALieDown
#InTheAfternoonIHadABathAndBWasQuiteHappyJustSplashingHerHandsInTheWaterAndDroppingHerToysIn
#BHasANewTrickOfPuttingStuffInTheBinAndRippingToiletPaperAndLiftingTheToiletLidUpToPutItInTheToilet
#ITryToDiscourageHerButEvenGettingHerHandTrappedACoupleOfTimesHasNotPutHerOff
#ThisIsProbablyHowSheHasGotConjunctivitisOrMaybeSheGotItFromNursery
#IHadNoticedHerEyesWereABitGunkyButThoughtItWouldPassButByTheNextDayItWasWorse
#IWentToOurLocalPharmacyToGetEyeDropsButTheyWereClosedDueToStaffSickness
#SoMyMumWentToADifferentOneButTheySaidThatTheDropsWereOnlySuitableFor2AndOver
#IKeptWashingHerEyesWithCooledBoiledWaterAndTriedASlightlySaltySolutionTooWhichMightBeWhyTheSkinAroundHerEyesWasSuperRed
#MyDoctorsAreOnlyReallyDealingWithBoostersAtTheMomentSoIWaitedForHalfAnHourToSpeakToTheWalkInCentreButHadCalledAnotherDoctorsByMistake
#SoIWaitedAnotherHalfAnHourToActuallySpeakToTheWalkInAndTheySaidSomeoneWouldCallLater
#TypicallyTheyCalledThe10MinutesThatIWasAwayFromMyPhoneAsBWasAsleepOnMeInHerRoomAndIThoughtIWasJustGoingInToGetHerUpFromHerNap
#After3HoursICalledAgainAndTheySaidSomeoneWouldCallWithinAnHourButTheyCalledBackAbout3HoursLaterAtAround6
#TheCallWasShortAndHePrescribedEyeOintmentThatHeSaidWasOkayForUnder2s
#IShouldHaveAskedForHimWhichPharmacyWasStillOpenButInsteadIHadItSentToOurLocalOneForTheMorning
#WeGotItInTheMorningButSheHadToMissNurseryAsSheWasTooIllToGoReally
#IWasReallyLookingForwardToJustHavingSomeTimeInBedToRestAndRecoverButOhWell
#TiagoWasAlsoFeelingWeakAsHeHadHisBoosterSoWeHaveBeenAVeryFunFamilyThisWeek
#ItIsTheFirstTimeThatWeHaveAllBeenUnderTheWeatherTogetherAndIHopeItDoesNotHappenAgainForAWhile
#TodayWasTheFirstDayIHadEnoughEnergyToDoMyUsualMorningStretchingAndMyAppetiteIsPrettyMuchBackToNormalNow
#IHadMyBoosterVaccineYesterdayAndItWasSoQuickAndOrganisedThisTimeWhichWasGreat
#IAmSoGladThatTheBabyDidNotComeThisWeekAsIHadNoEnergyAtAllSoNowINeedToMakeSureIFeelGoodForWhenLabourBegins
#MyAcidRefluxHasBeenPrettyBadForACoupleOfWeeksSoIAmLookingForwardToThatBeingOver
#HadMy34WeekMidwifeAppointmentAndAllIsFineAlthoughTheBabyIsCurrentlyHeadDownButBackToBack
#ISaidAtLeastTheyAreNotBreechButTheWomanSaidItWouldBeASlowLongLabourWithALotOfBackPainSoLetsHopeTheyMoveBeforeThen

#ImitatingBWithTwoRedEyesDueToConjunctivitisIsNotTheNicestPortraitICouldTakeButItHasDominatedOurWeek

B cries whenever she sees me coming towards her with cotton wool, and giving her ointment is an experience every time.

#ISeemToHaveBeenInSimilarHealthToHowIWas6WeeksAgoWhenIWasBeingSickALotAndFeelingWeakInGeneral

Great.

#IWentToBedFiveDaysAgoFeelingSickAndWokeUpAt1AndWasSickThenSickAgainAnHourLaterAndThenAgainNotLongAfterThat

It’s horrid. My throat then hurt from being sick so much. Fun.

#ITriedToHaveAShowerAndSleepOnTheSofaButMyNanAlsoCouldNotSleepSoWantedAShowerAndCameIntoTheLivingRoomEarly

I wanted to feel nice after all the sick, but it was not meant to be. I thought sleeping on the sofa would be best as to not wake T and B up when I was being sick.

#SoIWentBackToBedButDidNotSleepMuchAndKeptBeingSickUntilAbout11ThoughItWasJustWaterThatWasComingUp

Lovely. It was a long night. I don’t like those nights.

#TypicallyItWasTheOneDayWhereBDidNotHaveNurseryAndMyMumWasNotComingOverButTiagoManagedToWorkWhileWatchingBAndIHadALieDown

He’s got 6 days off over Xmas (it’s currently day 2), so he didn’t want to take more time off. I felt so weak that I could not do much, so lying down in bed was good but I could not sleep.

#InTheAfternoonIHadABathAndBWasQuiteHappyJustSplashingHerHandsInTheWaterAndDroppingHerToysIn

I should have a bath on days like that in future, as it’s a good way to keep B occupied while I don’t feel too crummy as I’m relaxing and resting.

#BHasANewTrickOfPuttingStuffInTheBinAndRippingToiletPaperAndLiftingTheToiletLidUpToPutItInTheToilet

It seemed cute, but obviously we need to properly wash her hands after every time she does it now.

#ITryToDiscourageHerButEvenGettingHerHandTrappedACoupleOfTimesHasNotPutHerOff

I don’t like her wasting toilet paper. We should buy a toilet seat lock really.

#ThisIsProbablyHowSheHasGotConjunctivitisOrMaybeSheGotItFromNursery

She’s had a cold from nursery for over a week.

#IHadNoticedHerEyesWereABitGunkyButThoughtItWouldPassButByTheNextDayItWasWorse

Fail. I just thought it was a bit of sleep or something.

#IWentToOurLocalPharmacyToGetEyeDropsButTheyWereClosedDueToStaffSickness

Great.

#SoMyMumWentToADifferentOneButTheySaidThatTheDropsWereOnlySuitableFor2AndOver

Also great.

#IKeptWashingHerEyesWithCooledBoiledWaterAndTriedASlightlySaltySolutionTooWhichMightBeWhyTheSkinAroundHerEyesWasSuperRed

I wish she understood that we’re trying to help her feel better. It’s such a struggle to try to get them better.

#MyDoctorsAreOnlyReallyDealingWithBoostersAtTheMomentSoIWaitedForHalfAnHourToSpeakToTheWalkInCentreButHadCalledAnotherDoctorsByMistake

Ergh.

#SoIWaitedAnotherHalfAnHourToActuallySpeakToTheWalkInAndTheySaidSomeoneWouldCallLater

Cool.

#TypicallyTheyCalledThe10MinutesThatIWasAwayFromMyPhoneAsBWasAsleepOnMeInHerRoomAndIThoughtIWasJustGoingInToGetHerUpFromHerNap

She woke up early. I planned to get her up, but then wanted to soothe her a bit and she fell asleep on me while I sat on her beanbag. I had to wake her up as my back was hurting and I was bored sitting in the dark without my phone – I would have read my book.

#After3HoursICalledAgainAndTheySaidSomeoneWouldCallWithinAnHourButTheyCalledBackAbout3HoursLaterAtAround6

I understand they’re busy and swamped, so it’s fair enough. I just don’t like waiting around for calls.

#TheCallWasShortAndHePrescribedEyeOintmentThatHeSaidWasOkayForUnder2s

He said that the drops is not okay for under 2s, but the ointment is.

#IShouldHaveAskedForHimWhichPharmacyWasStillOpenButInsteadIHadItSentToOurLocalOneForTheMorning

I hoped that they would be open.

#WeGotItInTheMorningButSheHadToMissNurseryAsSheWasTooIllToGoReally

The instructions said it wasn’t for under 2s, but the NHS website says that chloramphenicol eye stuff can be prescribed for under 2s by a Doctor.

#IWasReallyLookingForwardToJustHavingSomeTimeInBedToRestAndRecoverButOhWell

I was looking forward to just lying down for 4 hours, watching a bit of TV and resting.

#TiagoWasAlsoFeelingWeakAsHeHadHisBoosterSoWeHaveBeenAVeryFunFamilyThisWeek

We had an orzo dish on Sunday night that I’m bored of, but Tiago loves. I threw that up, then didn’t have much on Monday night, but Tiago did and was sick on Tuesday morning. Maybe it was the orzo that triggered off my ‘illness’? Who knows? I’m glad that Tiago doesn’t want to eat it for a while now.

#ItIsTheFirstTimeThatWeHaveAllBeenUnderTheWeatherTogetherAndIHopeItDoesNotHappenAgainForAWhile

I don’t like feeling so weak and helpless.

#TodayWasTheFirstDayIHadEnoughEnergyToDoMyUsualMorningStretchingAndMyAppetiteIsPrettyMuchBackToNormalNow

I kept forcing myself to eat for the baby, but it’s been tough. It’s nice to enjoy food again – just in time for Xmas.

#IHadMyBoosterVaccineYesterdayAndItWasSoQuickAndOrganisedThisTimeWhichWasGreat

Tiago dropped me off and I was confused as they’d moved from a marquee in a car park, into a building. It was so efficient. 5 stars.

I’m still not feeling 100%, which may be down to the booster, but as I felt so bad earlier in the week I feel quite good.

#IAmSoGladThatTheBabyDidNotComeThisWeekAsIHadNoEnergyAtAllSoNowINeedToMakeSureIFeelGoodForWhenLabourBegins

I don’t want to feel that weak again for a long time.

#MyAcidRefluxHasBeenPrettyBadForACoupleOfWeeksSoIAmLookingForwardToThatBeingOver

I went to get something for it, but the pharmacist said it’s best to avoid taking anything really. Being ill this week has meant I haven’t overeaten, so I just need to keep to smaller meals and I sleep with my head elevated, which is meant to be a good thing.

#HadMy34WeekMidwifeAppointmentAndAllIsFineAlthoughTheBabyIsCurrentlyHeadDownButBackToBack #ISaidAtLeastTheyAreNotBreechButTheWomanSaidItWouldBeASlowLongLabourWithALotOfBackPainSoLetsHopeTheyMoveBeforeThen

Well, B was head down in the opposite to back to back until the day before she was born so fingers crossed. Reading about it, it looks like I just need to sit leaning forwards more, not sleep on my back (I often wake up on my back and can’t be bothered to shift), and a lot of babies turn round during labour.

34 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait where I am squatting while in my bra and pants, but my pants are barely visible due to my bump.
I Know It Does Not Look Like It But Swear That I Am Wearing Pants (34 weeks)
 
#TimeIsFlyingBy
#LastNightIHadTheWorstNightsSleepInAges
#JustWakingUpConstantlyAndHavingWeirdDreams
#IPlannedToHaveALieInButOfCourseIWokeUpEarlyAndCouldNotFallBackToSleep
#ItWasGettingLateAndIHadNotFeltTheBabyMovingSoIWasGettingWorried
#EventuallyIFeltMovementsAndWasRelieved
#LastNightTiagoFellAsleepSpooningMyBump
#ISawTheCarSeatTodayAndFreakedOutALittleThinkingWhyDoWeHaveACarSeat
#IMomentarilyForgotIWasPregnant
#WhichIsWeirdAsItDefinitelyIsGettingUncomfortableNow
#TiagoSaidThatHeHasNoticedOnOurDailyWalksThatIAmStartingToWalkABitWeird
#IAskedHimDoYouMeanIAmWaddling
#HeSaidYes
#IDoNotThinkItIsVeryPronouncedButIGuessItMustBeEnoughForTiagoToNotice
#IProbablyWouldNotHaveChosenToBePregnantDuringAPandemic
#ButAtTheSameTimeIFeelLikeIAmNotMissingOutOnStuff
#AndItIsNiceToHaveSomeKindOfCountdown
#AsIThinkALotOfPeopleAreJustWaitingForThingsToChange
#IThoughtMyProjectTitleWasSmartWhenICameUpWithItEarlyOn
#NowItWouldBeMoreLike
#WaitingForThingsInATimeWhenEveryoneIsWaitingForSomething
#ButIGuessTheOldTitleKindOfAppliesToOurEra
#UnlessThingsWillNeverBeTheSameAgain
#WellLikeIHaveSaidBeforeThingsWillNeverBeTheSameAgainForMeAnywaysOnceTheBabyIsBorn
#ThingsWillBeDifferentForTiagoTooButNotToTheSameExtent
#HisBodyWillBeTheSameAndHisWorkShouldStillBeFairlyTheSame
#BeforeIWasPregnantWeWerePrettyMuchTheSameSize
#SameHeightSameShoeSizeICouldWearHisClothesApartFromTrousersWhichICouldFitInButWereALittleTooTight
#IAmJustHappyThatIAmStillExercisingAndIThinkStartingWhenIWasMoreAbleToHelped
#TheSameVideosThatIHaveBeenDoingForMonthsAreGettingHarderToDoNow

Good to know my sleep was also rubbish at 34 weeks last time, but I wasn’t being super sick/feeling weak. I was often waking up at 5 and not being able to sleep again, but with B I am more tired so tend to sleep until she wakes up.

I’m having a lot of weird dreams at the moment too. Super vivid.

I don’t think I am waddling too much at the moment, but usually when I walk I am behind B’s pushchair so it is good support.

This time I did choose to be pregnant during a pandemic. I didn’t think it would be getting worse though (cases are on the rise).

A close-up photo of my belly button. A remake of an image I took at 20 and a half weeks.
My Belly Button Has Never Been So Close Or Perhaps So Far Away (34 weeks)

#ISaidAt20AndAHalfWeeksThatMyBellyButtonHadNeverBeenSoClose
#MaybeNowItIsCloserOrMaybeNot
#CloseToWhatQuestionMarkMyFaceQuestionMark
#IGuessMaybeItIsFurtherAwayNow
#ButItIsFarOut
#MyBellyButtonHasNeverBeenSoFarOut
#ItSoundsLikeASurferOrSomething
#IWishICouldReachMyHeadDownAndRestItOnBump
#IWasSayingWithMyLastPictureThatBabyWasNotMovingMuchAndFreakingMeOut
#ThenTheNextDayItWasMovingAroundLoads
#AndTodayHasBeenAnAverageDay
#EvenSittingOnMyBallIsUncomfortableTheseDays
#WellIFeelComfortableWhilstIAmSatDown
#ThenWhenIStandUpIAmInPain
#LyingDownSittingUpGettingOutOfBedIsAnnoying
#TodayIHadAVideoCallWithTheWomenFromMyNCTGroup
#WeWereTalkingAboutInductionsAndWantingToWait
#ButThenSayingHowUnconfortableWeAreSoWhoKnowsWhatWeWillDecideAtTheTime
#IReadALotOfMyHypnobirthingBookToday
#IHaveBeenGettingABitRubbishAtReadingAndPreparingForBaby
#IStillNeedToDoMyBirthPlan
#SomeWomenOnTheCallWereTalkingAboutHavingTheirHospitalBagsPacked
#IThinkIAmTheOnlyOnePlanningForAHomeBirth
#ButIShouldPackABagJustInCaseAsYouNeverKnow
#IHadNeverHeardAboutNaturalOrGentleCaesareansBeforeDoingTheHypnobirthingCourse
#WithTheBirthPlanItIsABitMoreOfBirthPreferencesThanAPlan
#AndWritingDownWhatYouWouldWantForAnyPossibleSituation
#ItFeelsGoodToKnowMyOptionsAndThatThereAreOptions
#IHaveHeardOfBirthPlansBeingMockedABitButGivingBirthIsABigEventWhichCouldImpactYouForTheRestOfYourLife
#IAmSoGladThatILearnedAboutHypnobirthingAndSeeingBirthInAMorePositiveLight

This is a remake of an image I took at 20 and a half weeks.

It does look really far out this time too, and B likes to touch it when I say ‘where’s the baby?’

Earlier in the week I was getting stressed about movements, but they seem to have been quite active and I have been distracted by B’s eyes and my health.

Our bed is comfier now so I do not have as many pains in bed, but it is still best for me to lie on my left side.

I need to do a birth plan, and reread the hypnobirthing book but I am currently trying to read House of Gucci. Once that is done I am going to focus on baby, I swear. I tried to find B’s baby clothes this morning, but they weren’t where I thought they were, and I need to pack my hospital bag.

The first image on this page is the picture I am referring to in the hashtags.

My sister got me some nice new pyjamas for Xmas, and mentioned my Grandad’s pyjamas.

My Grandad was married to my Nan who we have been living with since late October 2020, so every once in a while I feel sad that Tiago and B and baby X never got to meet him.

B didn’t meet her Portuguese Grandparents until this summer, and she is still yet to meet Tiago’s brother, his wife and their daughter. We did a video call with them all today.

I’m gutted that Tiago’s paternity hasn’t improved since he was off with B, but I’m looking forward to him having two weeks off. He’s going to do the same again – one week of paternity, and one week of annual leave.

It’s good to know that I felt uncomfortable after sitting on the exercise ball, as I thought I didn’t, and I’m getting those pains now.

I didn’t go into another building until I gave birth to B in hospital…


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I’m Feeling Quite Uncomfortable Now (33 Weeks / 19th December 2021)

Self-portrait dressed in a black top and black leggings. My right hand is on my hip and my left arm is visible too.
I’m Feeling Quite Uncomfortable Now (33 Weeks / 19th December 2021)
 
#TheAchesAndPainsAreReallyStartingToSetInNow
#MyLowerBackIsBeginningToHurtMore
#YesterdayWeHadSomeFamilyRoundAndIThinkIJustSatDownWayTooMuchAndWeDidNotGoForAWalkAtAllSoIAmPayingForItNow
#IJustHadALookAtTheCurrentGovernmentGuidelinesAndItSaysIfYouAreMoreThan28WeeksPregnantThenYouMayWantToConsiderLimitingCloseContactWithPeopleYouDoNotMeetWithRegularly
#ItHasBeenACoupleOfYearsSinceIHadBeenInTheSameRoomAsBothOfMySistersSoItWasNiceToSeeThemTogether
#WeAllTookFlowTestsAndHadTheWindowsOpenTheWholeTimeSoHopefullyWeWillAllBeOkay
#ForXmasItWillJustBeMyNanTiagoBMeAndMaybeMyYoungerSister
#PregnantPeopleAreNowOnThePriorityCovidVaccineList
#TheyShouldHaveBeenALongTimeAgoButAtLeastTheyAreNow
#TiagoGotHisBoosterJabSoIFeelBetterAsHeHadHisSecondJabInApril
#IHaveStartedToDrinkRaspberryLeafTeaNow
#IAmNotSureIfItReallyHelpsWithLabourOrNotButIDrankItWhenIWasPregnantWithBAndIDoNotHaveMuchToLose
#WeGotBAnElectricToothbrushAndSheIsStillGettingUsedToIt
#TheFirstTimeSheTriedItSheJustKeptPuttingItOnHerTongueAndLaughing
#SometimesShePointsToItSoHopefullyIfSheBrushesHerTeethHerselfTwiceADaySheWillBrushThemEnough
#ITryToBrushThemAfterSheHasHadAGoButSheDoesNotSeemToLikeItMuch
#IHaveToKeepAnEyeOnHerAsSheBrushesFamilyPhotosWithIt
#SheHasANewThingOfTakingThingsSheKnowsSheShouldNotTakeAndTakingThemToAQuietPartOfTheRoomAndMessingAround
#MainlyMyNansPurseButYesterdaySheTookMyBowlAndSpoonAndFacedTheCornerOfTheRoomWhileTryingToEatTheCrumbsThatWereLeft
#WeMissedBsLastToddlerClassAsSheSeemedABitUnderTheWeatherAndIDidNotHaveTheEnergyToTakeHer
#ItLooksLikeSheHasACoupleOfMolarsComingThroughAndSheGetsABitUpsetAtTimesWhichIsFairEnough
#ItMustBeSoPainfulAndFrustratingForHer
#ICanNotBelieveThatBWasBorn4WeeksFromThisPointOfPregnancy
#IDoNotFeelReadyAndIDefinitelyNeedToStartOrganisingThingsMoreNow
#INeedToReadMyHypnobirthingBookAgainAndWashBabyClothesAndBuyTheFewThingsWeNeed
#TheOtherDayTwoPeopleAskedMeWhenIWasDueWhileIWasOutWithBSoIFeelLikeThatSaysSomething
#IWantBabyXToComeIn2022WhichIAmSureSheWillAsIDoNotThinkSheWillBeEarlierThanB
#MyMumSaidSheWillBeSurprisedIfIGetToFullTermThough
#IWasBornIn1988SoNumericallyItWillBeVeryNiceIfTheBabyIsBornIn2022
#MaybeItIsABitSadButIDoLikeNumbersAndTheFactThatBWasBornIn2020IsAlsoQuitePleasing

#TheAchesAndPainsAreReallyStartingToSetInNow #MyLowerBackIsBeginningToHurtMore

I am still stretching in the morning and evening, but the baby is getting bigger and my body is feeling it.

#YesterdayWeHadSomeFamilyRoundAndIThinkIJustSatDownWayTooMuchAndWeDidNotGoForAWalkAtAllSoIAmPayingForItNow

I pretty much stayed sat in an armchair all day. I should have taken B out for a walk before they arrived, but we were too busy organising the house, then they left as it had just got dark.

#IJustHadALookAtTheCurrentGovernmentGuidelinesAndItSaysIfYouAreMoreThan28WeeksPregnantThenYouMayWantToConsiderLimitingCloseContactWithPeopleYouDoNotMeetWithRegularly

To be fair, I do not see many people at all.

#ItHasBeenACoupleOfYearsSinceIHadBeenInTheSameRoomAsBothOfMySistersSoItWasNiceToSeeThemTogether

It was nice for B and her cousin to be in the same room too, and for Nan to see them together.

#WeAllTookFlowTestsAndHadTheWindowsOpenTheWholeTimeSoHopefullyWeWillAllBeOkay

We did think about cancelling it, but we’ve all been careful this week. I hope that no one got a false negative test…

#ForXmasItWillJustBeMyNanTiagoBMeAndMaybeMyYoungerSister

My younger sister didn’t come round last year as she had Covid. We’ll see how it goes this year.

#PregnantPeopleAreNowOnThePriorityCovidVaccineList

I have an appointment booked for next week, so it will not change much for me.

#TheyShouldHaveBeenALongTimeAgoButAtLeastTheyAreNow

Maybe it would have not put so many people off being vaccinated…

#TiagoGotHisBoosterJabSoIFeelBetterAsHeHadHisSecondJabInApril

So who knows how much protection he had – I am guessing not much.

#IHaveStartedToDrinkRaspberryLeafTeaNow #IAmNotSureIfItReallyHelpsWithLabourOrNotButIDrankItWhenIWasPregnantWithBAndIDoNotHaveMuchToLose

The Bolton NHS website says:

‘Raspberry leaf tea is a herbal remedy that is thought to tone the muscles of your uterus (womb), to help it work during labour. The idea is not so much to speed up labour but to help it progress at a steady pace.’

I also notice that it says: ‘If you have already had a baby and your labour went smoothly first time around, there is no need for you to drink raspberry leaf tea for this baby.’

It’s not recommended until 32 weeks.

Like I said, I feel like I don’t have much to lose by drinking it. Plus, it’s cold this time of year so it’s nice to have a warm drink to drink (I can’t drink drinks too hot, so I let it cool down).

#WeGotBAnElectricToothbrushAndSheIsStillGettingUsedToIt

I had been looking at them, and her cousin got one and seemed to like it so I thought we should give it a go.

#TheFirstTimeSheTriedItSheJustKeptPuttingItOnHerTongueAndLaughing

That’s my girl.

#SometimesShePointsToItSoHopefullyIfSheBrushesHerTeethHerselfTwiceADaySheWillBrushThemEnough

She doesn’t do a thorough job, but at least she has some enthusiasm for it.

#ITryToBrushThemAfterSheHasHadAGoButSheDoesNotSeemToLikeItMuch

Hopefully she’ll get used to it soon.

#IHaveToKeepAnEyeOnHerAsSheBrushesFamilyPhotosWithIt

And just faffs it in general. She was trying to brush my Grandad’s face with it the other day.

#SheHasANewThingOfTakingThingsSheKnowsSheShouldNotTakeAndTakingThemToAQuietPartOfTheRoomAndMessingAround #MainlyMyNansPurseButYesterdaySheTookMyBowlAndSpoonAndFacedTheCornerOfTheRoomWhileTryingToEatTheCrumbsThatWereLeft

She makes me laugh. So sneaky.

#WeMissedBsLastToddlerClassAsSheSeemedABitUnderTheWeatherAndIDidNotHaveTheEnergyToTakeHer

Plus, I did not really want to be in a room full of strangers while Covid is getting wild.

#ItLooksLikeSheHasACoupleOfMolarsComingThroughAndSheGetsABitUpsetAtTimesWhichIsFairEnough

We give her paracetamol and she seems better.

#ItMustBeSoPainfulAndFrustratingForHer

She can’t have many teeth left to come through.

#ICanNotBelieveThatBWasBorn4WeeksFromThisPointOfPregnancy

Argh!

#IDoNotFeelReadyAndIDefinitelyNeedToStartOrganisingThingsMoreNow

I need to make a to do list.

#INeedToReadMyHypnobirthingBookAgainAndWashBabyClothesAndBuyTheFewThingsWeNeed

And pack my hospital bag.

#TheOtherDayTwoPeopleAskedMeWhenIWasDueWhileIWasOutWithBSoIFeelLikeThatSaysSomething

It’s getting more obvious. My bump seems huge…

#IWantBabyXToComeIn2022WhichIAmSureSheWillAsIDoNotThinkSheWillBeEarlierThanB

She would be 36 weeks-ish if she arrives this year.

#MyMumSaidSheWillBeSurprisedIfIGetToFullTermThough

We will have to see. I feel this uncomfortable now that I do not want to get to 42 weeks…

#IWasBornIn1988SoNumericallyItWillBeVeryNiceIfTheBabyIsBornIn2022

There are at least two other members of my family who were born in ‘same digit’ years. (There must be a better name for them). I like them…

#MaybeItIsABitSadButIDoLikeNumbersAndTheFactThatBWasBornIn2020IsAlsoQuitePleasing

There is something satisfying about it. T was born in 1986, so it’s also nice that there is a 2 year gap between his and my birth years, and our kids.

33 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait of me lying down on my left side on the sofa. My left hand is touching my face and my right hand is resting on my left arm.
Lying On The Sofa Is Not Very Comfortable Anymore (33 and a half weeks)
 
#IWasNotSureHowToPhotographMyselfToday
#IKnewICouldNotHaveBumpOutAgainAsIThinkBumpIsABitTooPresentInThisSeries
#ThoughItIsAProjectAboutGrowingBump
#IDecidedToLieOnTheSofaAsIFeltABitTiredAndICouldHaveEasilyFallenAsleep
#ThoughLyingOnTheSofaIsNotVeryComfortableAnymore
#IUsuallyJustLieDownInBedWithMyMaternityPillow
#AndAnotherPillowOnTopOfTheHeadBitToHelpWithAcidReflux
#ITookAPictureOfMyselfOnTheSofaAt27WeeksSoItReferencesThatABitButWithoutBump
#IWokeUpThisMorningWithAnIntenseCrampInMyLeftLeg
#IFreakedTiagoOutABitAsIWasKindOfWhisperScreamingForAWhile
#HeJustToldMeToBreatheAndIDidWhichWasGoodPracticeForLabour
#NotSureWhatCausesThemButIThinkMaybeIWasABitDehydratedAsIFeltThirstySoItCouldBeThat
#AHealthVisitorCalledMeTodayOnThePhone
#IThinkUsuallyTheyWouldHaveComeHereOrIWouldHaveMetThemSomewhere
#SheWasAskingAboutPlansForTheBirthAndFeedingAndAboutMyMentalHealthAndTiagoEtc
#ISaidThatIWasDoingAnOnlineCBTCourseForAnxietyWhenIFoundOutIWasPregnant
#ButISaidIThinkItWasMainlyBecauseIHadMovedToANewCityAndWasTryingToGetPregnantAndMakeFriendsAndAllThatJazz
#IAlsoSaidAboutHowMyArtIsSuperTherapeuticForMe
#IThinkHavingThisProjectToFocusOnHasBeenReallyGoodForMeWithLockdownAndAll
#IAmSureIfIWasNotPregnantIWouldHaveBeenWorkingOnSomethingElse
#ButIfIWasBetweenProjectsIThinkIWouldHaveStruggledABit
#IFeltALittleLostForTheFirstCoupleOfWeeksOfLockdown
#OrJustLackedSomeMotivation
#AFeelingOfWhyRushToDoThings
#ButMyProductivityHasPickedUpAndIThinkNowINeedToMakeSureIRestEnough
#TheHealthVisitorAskedMeWhenIAmPlanningToCutDownOnWork
#IThinkACoupleOfWeeksBeforeMyDueDate
#IHadPlannedToCutDownSoonerToHaveMoreTimeAtHomeSortingStuffOutButObviouslyIAmAtHomeAllTheTimeNow
#SheSaidItIsGoodThatWeDoNotHaveAnyExpectationsAboutTheBaby
#AndThatWeSeeTheLockdownAsAPositiveToHaveMoreTimeAndSpaceToLearnAboutTheBabyWithLessPressure

Okay, it’s good to know that I was feeling uncomfortable at 33 weeks before too. I do not think our sofas and bed were that comfortable in Liverpool though.

I feel like I haven’t had a leg cramp in bed for a while, but I have been drinking more water before bed latley.

My work is still therapeutic for me. Getting my head around being a mother and being pregnant during a pandemic, while also feeling stuck in limbo – living in Birmingham with my Nan and not really doing much career wise.

I never got round to cutting down my workload with B, as it was a surprise that she was early and came a couple of days before the ‘couple of weeks before my due date’.

Again, I am just trying to be open minded about the birth and not get my heart set on anything. At least this time we will know how to change a nappy, and hopefully newborn care won’t feel so alien. You’d hope so, as it has not really been that long since B was a newborn…


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Pregnancy Waiting II

Portrait Of A Mother Of An Eighteen Month Old (33 Weeks / 15th December 2021)

Self-portrait where I am kneeling on the bed. I am looking off to the left of the frame. I am dressed all in black and have my hands on my knees.
Portrait Of A Mother Of An Eighteen Month Old (33 Weeks / 15th December 2021)
 
#ICanNotBelieveThatBIsAYearAndAHalf
#ThoughInSomeWaysIFeelLikeSheIsOlderAndIAtTimesStillFindItOddThatIHaveAChild
#WellICouldSoonBeAMotherOfTwoAndMyNanPointsOutAtLeastOnceADayHowBigMyBumpIsGetting
#SometimesIWorryThatIAmATerribleMotherButThenTheNewsLatelyRemindsMeThatIReallyAmNot
#IHadToLeaveTheRoomWhenTheNewsWasOnEarlierTalkingAboutTheMurderOfASixteenMonthOldGirl
#IHadACryAndIWasTheSameWithTheNewsOfTheMurderOfASixYearOldBoy
#MakingBLaughIsTheBestFeelingInTheWorldAndHearingHerLaughIsTheBestSound
#SheLikesToHaveARunAroundBeforeBedtimeNowWithUsChasingHer
#AtThePlaygroundTodayWeWerePlayingPeekabooLotsAndSheLovedIt
#IHaveDiscoveredThatICanPutHerPushchairHandlebarsLowEnoughForHerToBeAbleToPushItNowThoughIDoHaveToSteerIt
#TodaySheStartedToStandUpOnTheStepOnTheBackOfHerPushchairAndLaterOnSatDownOnItFacingMeForTheFirstTime
#SheIsDefinitelyShowingOffHerPersonalityMoreWhichIsReallyCool
#ThoughSheDoesLikeToDropToHerKneesAndCryWhenTiagoGoesToLeaveARoom
#SheHasAlsoJustStartedToWalkIntoARoomWhereHeIsAndDropToHerKneesDramatically
#WhenHeGoesToPutHerDownSheWillOftenLiftHerLegsUpAndHoverAboveTheFloor
#SheLikesToSitInHisOfficeChairNowAndDrawOnHisNotepadWithHisPens
#IGotHerSomeColouringPencilsButSheDoesNotSeemToLikeThemSoIGotSomeWashableFeltTipsThatWeAreYetToTryOut
#IFinishedHerBabyBookAndAmDebatingJustBuyingTheSameOneForBabyXButMaybeDoingItADifferentWayThisTime
#IWouldFeelBadIfIDidNotDoSomethingAndAmWorryItMightNotBeAsGoodSoItWasProbablyBestToDoSomethingSimilar
#IFinallyTookBBackToTheSoftPlayPlaceThatWeWentToInMay
#WeMetUpWithAPregnantLadyAndHerDaughterWhoIMetOnAMumApp
#WeBookedInForTheFirstSessionOfTheDayAndItWasGreatAsItWasSoQuiet
#IFeltComfortableKnowingThatItWasProbablyTheCleanestItWouldBeAllDayToo
#EveryoneWasWearingMasksThisTimeApartFromOneGuyWhoMayHaveBeenExempt
#BKeptWantingToGoOnTheSlideSoIHadToGoOnItTooAndItWasGoodFun
#ItStillIsNotSomewhereThatIWouldWantToGoWithJustBThoughAsIThinkItIsQuiteBoringIfNoOneTalksToYou
#CovidCasesAreRisingAndIAmGettingABitWorriedNowAsIDoNotWantToBeCovidPositiveWhenTheBabyComes
#IDoKnowWhatBirthingProtocolIsForAPositivePersonButAlsoItWillComplicateChildcareIssuesWithB
#TiagoIsDueToGetHisBoosterThisWeekendWhichIsGoodAsHeHadHisSecondVaccineInAprilSoHisProtectionIsProbablyRunningLow
#MineIsBookedForNextWeekForWhenItWillHaveBeen3MonthsSinceMyLastDoseWhichIsGoodAsICanDefinitelyFeelThatMyLungCapacityIsReducedDueToABabySquashingAllMyOrgans

#ICanNotBelieveThatBIsAYearAndAHalf

Happy year and half B – though you’ll be a lot older by the time I post this.

#ThoughInSomeWaysIFeelLikeSheIsOlderAndIAtTimesStillFindItOddThatIHaveAChild

I’m terrible at aging young kids as I did not have much experience with them prior to having one, but at times she does seem older. Also, it feels like she’s been in my life for a lot longer than she has – I guess if you add on the 9ish months of pregnancy, then that would seem a bit more accurate.

I do still often look at her and think ‘whoa, I have a kid’.

#WellICouldSoonBeAMotherOfTwoAndMyNanPointsOutAtLeastOnceADayHowBigMyBumpIsGetting

It’s just weird. My Nan pointed out my bump today just after I’d had lunch, and then after dinner.

#SometimesIWorryThatIAmATerribleMotherButThenTheNewsLatelyRemindsMeThatIReallyAmNot

I feel bad when I am tired and just leave her to amuse herself for a bit, but it is good for her.

#IHadToLeaveTheRoomWhenTheNewsWasOnEarlierTalkingAboutTheMurderOfASixteenMonthOldGirl

I couldn’t see her face. She was only two months younger than B. I don’t get how people can be so cruel…

#IHadACryAndIWasTheSameWithTheNewsOfTheMurderOfASixYearOldBoy

I feel like I saw his lovely face every day, and it’s so heartbreaking. Especially as his family was fighting so much to protect him and look after him. I’d just turn the TV off, but my Nan is usually watching it.

These are just two cases of many.

It reminds me of a Sandra Bullock interview that I saw the other day, where she talks about how a lot of kids don’t have anyone to love them, and it’s so sad.

#MakingBLaughIsTheBestFeelingInTheWorldAndHearingHerLaughIsTheBestSound

I don’t get how people can enjoy making their kids cry or hurt them.

#SheLikesToHaveARunAroundBeforeBedtimeNowWithUsChasingHer

I’m usually tutting and saying ‘it’s bedtime soon, yeah’, but it’s also good for her to get all the energy out before going to bed. She suddenly seems to wake up.

#AtThePlaygroundTodayWeWerePlayingPeekabooLotsAndSheLovedIt

I was hiding behind various things, and she was hiding behind other things. Great fun.

#IHaveDiscoveredThatICanPutHerPushchairHandlebarsLowEnoughForHerToBeAbleToPushItNowThoughIDoHaveToSteerIt

This is a great discovery as she likes to be picked up to push the bar, but I have not been able to do it for a while as it is too difficult for me, and Tiago held her to do it for so long the other day that his back hurt.

#TodaySheStartedToStandUpOnTheStepOnTheBackOfHerPushchairAndLaterOnSatDownOnItFacingMeForTheFirstTime

Also great, as it keeps her happy, though it will be better when she is slightly taller as when she stands up the button that you push to move the handlebars up and down is at her eye height at the moment.

#SheIsDefinitelyShowingOffHerPersonalityMoreWhichIsReallyCool

She’s picked up another cold from nursery, but she still likes to have fun. I think she is also teething.

#ThoughSheDoesLikeToDropToHerKneesAndCryWhenTiagoGoesToLeaveARoom

I think he is nervous that he might have two kids that are a bit obsessed with him.

#SheHasAlsoJustStartedToWalkIntoARoomWhereHeIsAndDropToHerKneesDramatically

The first time she did it he thought she had fallen, but I saw her purposefully do it. He won’t pick her up until she stands up though which is good.

#WhenHeGoesToPutHerDownSheWillOftenLiftHerLegsUpAndHoverAboveTheFloor

This makes me laugh.

#SheLikesToSitInHisOfficeChairNowAndDrawOnHisNotepadWithHisPens

She can climb up on it by herself, which I am quite impressed by.

#IGotHerSomeColouringPencilsButSheDoesNotSeemToLikeThemSoIGotSomeWashableFeltTipsThatWeAreYetToTryOut

The pencils are a bit weak compared to T’s pen, but it’s not the safest option for her. The pens arrived today, so we’ll try them out soon.

#IFinishedHerBabyBookAndAmDebatingJustBuyingTheSameOneForBabyXButMaybeDoingItADifferentWayThisTime

We got an instax printer and printed phone pictures out, but I do not like how they look at all – and it was way more expensive than just getting them printed at the supermarket or via a printing site.

#IWouldFeelBadIfIDidNotDoSomethingAndAmWorryItMightNotBeAsGoodSoItWasProbablyBestToDoSomethingSimilar

Tiago just had a look through the whole book, and I feel good that I made the effort to do it now. It’s also weird seeing her so small. I need to start making a family album too.

#IFinallyTookBBackToTheSoftPlayPlaceThatWeWentToInMay

We’d only been to soft play once since then, and that was at a different place.

#WeMetUpWithAPregnantLadyAndHerDaughterWhoIMetOnAMumApp

We have met up with them once before, but it rained the whole time and it was too stressful trying to keep B entertained outside of a coffee shop.

#WeBookedInForTheFirstSessionOfTheDayAndItWasGreatAsItWasSoQuiet

Amazing. It is a better place to the other one that I took B too, but it feels more claustrophobic / less airy.

#IFeltComfortableKnowingThatItWasProbablyTheCleanestItWouldBeAllDayToo

As I imagine that they do a good clean once everyone leaves, and we saw them cleaning while we were there too.

#EveryoneWasWearingMasksThisTimeApartFromOneGuyWhoMayHaveBeenExempt

Last time people slowly took their masks off, which annoyed me.

#BKeptWantingToGoOnTheSlideSoIHadToGoOnItTooAndItWasGoodFun

I wanted to send her on by herself, but I was worried that she would fall down weirdly. I would help her go down by herself, then follow her very slowly.

#ItStillIsNotSomewhereThatIWouldWantToGoWithJustBThoughAsIThinkItIsQuiteBoringIfNoOneTalksToYou

I need adult conversation. If it was a bit nearer and Covid wasn’t on the rise, then I guess I would be a bit more enthusiastic. By the time I had walked there and home again I was aching.

#CovidCasesAreRisingAndIAmGettingABitWorriedNowAsIDoNotWantToBeCovidPositiveWhenTheBabyComes

I’ve said this before, but yeah I am worried.

#IDoKnowWhatBirthingProtocolIsForAPositivePersonButAlsoItWillComplicateChildcareIssuesWithB

Tiago would probably have to stay home with B – this also goes for if my parents get Covid. I need to just relax though and try not to stress.

#TiagoIsDueToGetHisBoosterThisWeekendWhichIsGoodAsHeHadHisSecondVaccineInAprilSoHisProtectionIsProbablyRunningLow

I’ll feel better when he gets it. Luckily I ordered some flow tests last week, as there is a shortage. His is booked for Saturday evening, so he has Sunday to recover if need be.

#MineIsBookedForNextWeekForWhenItWillHaveBeen3MonthsSinceMyLastDoseWhichIsGoodAsICanDefinitelyFeelThatMyLungCapacityIsReducedDueToABabySquashingAllMyOrgans

I’m booked in at a medical centre, which is quite far from where we live but my Doctors messaged today to say they will be sending out booking info for there from tomorrow, so I might try to change it as it would be way more convenient to just be able to walk to my appointment. Everything does feel way more squished…

33 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait where I am hiding behind a piece of black fabric, but an arm, a leg and my bump are visible.
Things Seem A Bit More Real After My Midwife Appointment Today (33 weeks)
 
#WellTheBigNewsIsThatHomeBirthsHaveBeenUnsuspended
#ThoughMyMidwifeSaidThatThingsMightChangeAgain
#IDoNotKnowHowTheUKWillBeWhenIGiveBirth
#ButIFeelABitMoreRelaxedNow
#KnowingThatWeCanTakeOurTimeAndTiagoCanBeAroundTheWholeTime
#IfIHadToGiveBirthWithoutHimIAmSureICouldDoIt
#ButItIsMoreThatTheIsHeAllowedIsHeNotWhereIsHeThoughtsWillBeLessPresentIfIHaveAHomeBirth
#ObviouslyThereAreRisksAndIMightHaveToGoToHospitalAnywaysButIfWeCanStayInOurFlatThenItIsNice
#ThoughIStillWorryAboutWhatTheNeighboursWillThink
#ThingsFeelABitMoreRealNowAfterMyLatestAppointment
#WeHaveAListOfThingsThatWeNeedToGet
#AndSheTalkedALotAboutTheSnacksAndDrinksThatMightBeGoodToHelpMe
#IAmExcitedAboutSnacksThoughSheSaidThatAfterAWhileIWillNotWantToEat
#SheAskedMeIfIAmGoingToSetMyCameraUp
#IAmGladSheAskedAsIHopeToButIDoNotWantItToBeTooMuchOfADistraction
#ShameThereIsNotAnotherMeToDocumentIt
#IImagineThatIWillNotGetThePhotosIWantSoIDoNotWantToStressAboutIt
#MaybeINeedToTeachTiagoSomeSkillsButAtTheSameTimeIWantHimToJustBeWithMe
#ItIsFunnyAsTheMidwifeHasBeenTheOnlyPersonIHaveHadSuperCloseContactWithSinceLockdownBesidesTiago
#SheIsSendingSomeoneElseForMyNextAppointmentJustSoIHaveMetAnotherMidwifeAsSheMayNotBeAtTheBirth
#SheHadAGoodFeelOfTheBump
#ItIsCurrentlyHeadDownWithItsBackToMyBelly
#AgainSheSaidMyCoreIsStrong
#ButSheDidNotCommentOnMyMuscleSeparationSoItCanNotBeThatBad
#IGotUpEarlyToExerciseAndEatAndDrinkPlentyAndMyBloodCameOutFineForTheTest
#TiagoJustGotBackFromTheSupermarket
#ItIsABitSadHowMuchIMissGoingToBuyFood
#CravingsAreTotallyPointlessTheseDays
#IHaveFoundMyselfWastingAGoodHalfAnHourLookingAtFoodOnTakeawaySites
#IDoGetABitExcitedSeeingWhatTiagoPullsFromTheShoppingBagsThough
#TodayHeHadAReducedCheesecakeAndGotMeMyFavouriteChocolateOatMilk

Well, it’s good to know that at the same point of pregnancy things were a bit unclear. It was definitely more unclear then though – there were no vaccines.

As I have said many times before, I ended up not having a home birth so most of this was irrelevant, and he was there for the birth once I was allowed into a delivery suite – however, he was not able to visit B and I for the 4 days that we were there. I do wonder how it will be this time.

‘#IAmExcitedAboutSnacksThoughSheSaidThatAfterAWhileIWillNotWantToEat’

We got way too many snacks, but they came in handy during my long stay in the hospital. I did struggle to eat my hospital lunch when I was in the early stage of labour…

‘#SheAskedMeIfIAmGoingToSetMyCameraUp’

There are no pictures of me giving birth, which I am sad about, so I would like it to be different this time, but I also do not want to get distracted/I feel a bit awkward about it as I (imagine I) will be in hospital. I need to start thinking about this.

‘#IHaveFoundMyselfWastingAGoodHalfAnHourLookingAtFoodOnTakeawaySites’

These were sad times. I used to do it a lot…

Self-portrait from my neck to just below my waist. I am wearing a bra and my bump is on display. T is next to my bump, with a beard. It is a remake of an image that I took at 22 and a half weeks - he didn't have a beard then.
The Bump & The Beard (33 weeks)
 
#ItIsFunnyHowDifferentTiagoLooksToTheOriginalThatWeTookAt22AndAHalfWeeks
#IHaveNeverSeenHimWithThisMuchFacialHairBefore
#HeSaysHeHasNeverHadThisMuchFacialHairBefore
#HeMightGetRidOfItSoon
#ItIsFunnySeeingHowMuchBiggerMyBumpIsToo
#YesterdayWeWalkedADifferentWayAsOurWalksHaveBeenGettingShorter
#WalkingDownTheSameRoadAllTheTimeIsSoDemotivating
#WeWalkedInTheDirectionThatIsMorePopular
#TiagoIsTheOneWhoGoesOutAndDoesFoodShoppingSoHeIsUsedToBeingAroundAndSeeingMorePeople
#WhereasIHaveBecomeABitScaredOfPeople
#SoItWasGoodToSeeMorePeopleAndEnjoyALongerWalkAndChangeOfScenery
#SomePeopleStillWalkABitTooCloseForMyLiking
#ItIsQuiteObviousThatIAmPregnantNowIfYouAreWalkingTowardsMe
#MaybeTheyThinkThatBecauseIAmPregnantThatIAmNotLikelyToHaveCovidAndGiveItToThem
#ButIDoNotKnowIfTheyHaveItOrNotSoIWouldPreferIfTheyKeptTheirDistance
#ItIsWeirdImaginingAWorldPostAllOfThis
#MaybeItWillFeelEasyButIThinkRealisticallyIWillBeEmergingFromThisWithABaby
#AndSoTheOutsideWorldWillBeADifferentExperienceForMeAnyways
#ItIsGoingToBeOddNotHavingTiagoAroundAllTheTime
#IHaveBeenSpoiltAsHeHasBeenMaking99PercentOfTheMeals
#ITendToJustMakeCheeseAndPickleSandwiches
#ItWillBeWeirdHavingLunchByMyself
#WellIKeepThinkingAndSayingByMyselfButIWillHaveTheBabyAround
#IPictureMyselfWithTheBabyButItStillFeelsSoFarAway
#ThoughTimeIsMovingQuick
#INeedToStartPreparingMoreAgain
#IWasDoingWellAndThenTheNCTCourseKnackeredMeOut
#SoINeedToGetBackIntoReadingMoreThingsAndBuyingTheLastBitsAndBobs
#IAskedTiagoIfHeWantedToSayAnything
#HeJustSaidThatHeIsKeenToMeetTheBaby

This is a remake of I Have Told Him Before That If He Wants To Touch The Bump Then He Has To Make Sure His Hands Are Warm (22 and a half weeks).

At some point after moving he decided to keep a beard, though he keeps it quite short and neat.

This time I do manage to do a good walk as I have the pushchair to push which definitely helps me move, but I do need to be careful as I get quite achy.

‘#MaybeItWillFeelEasyButIThinkRealisticallyIWillBeEmergingFromThisWithABaby’

It’s weird that I will be emerging from this with two kids – if we ever emerge.

‘#ItIsGoingToBeOddNotHavingTiagoAroundAllTheTime’

He’s still around 99% of the time, and now the Government have said to work from home if you can, so hopefully it stays like that for a while so he won’t be out (which he rarely is) when I go into labour.

I need to read my hypnobirthing book again.


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Pregnancy Waiting II

Imitating B Poking Her Doll In The Eye (32 Weeks / 12th December 2021)

Self-portrait of me holding a doll, and holding its eyelid down with my right index finger.
Imitating B Poking Her Doll In The Eye (32 Weeks / 12th December 2021)
 
#IHaveMentionedThatBLikesToTryToTouchOurEyesWhichWorriesMeABitWithBabyXsImpendingArrival
#MyNanGotHerADollTheOtherDayAndSheAlsoLikesToTouchItsEyesButItIsSaferThanTouchingHumanEyes
#DollsHaveAlwaysCreepedMeOutSoIHopeSheAndHerSiblingDoNotReallyLikeThem
#ObviouslyIfTheyDoIWillHaveToBeSupportiveButIMuchPreferCuddlyToys
#IFinishedReadingMyHypnobirthingBookAndIFeelMoreRelaxedAboutXsBirthButIDoNeedToReadItAtLeastOnceMore
#TwoDaysAgoIGotFreakedOutByTheBabyNotMovingMuchButSheMadeUpForItYesterdayByMovingLoads
#IHaveStartedToMakeMyBirthingPlaylistAsIFoundItSoHelpfulWhenIWasInEarlyLabourWithB
#IWasDancingBehindMyCurtainOnTheWardWhileWaitingForMyLabourToProgressAndItDefinitelyHelpedMeStayRelaxed
#WeWillHaveToSeeHowEarlyLabourGoesThisTimeAsIMightEndUpNotGoingIntoHospitalUntilMuchLater
#OneOfMyCoatsHasNotDoneUpOverMyBumpForAWhileAndTheOtherOneIsGettingTight
#ISpentALotOfFreeTimeResearchingMaternityCoatsButInTheEndIDecidedItWasNotTheBestOption
#InsteadIHaveSentOneCoatBackToTheBrandToBeRepairedAndRestoredAndWillBeBuyAZipInBabyWearingPanelForIt
#TheOtherDayAGuyInTheParkKeptSayingHelloLoudlyAndIThoughtHeWasOnThePhone
#InTheEndITurnedAroundAsIThoughtIMightHaveDroppedSomethingAndTheGuyWasLookingAtMeLikeIShouldMoveOutOfTheWay
#HeWasStoodQuiteCloseToMeThenPeeredAroundMeToSeeBSittingOnTheStepOnTheBackOfHerPushchair
#HeSaidDoYouDriveDoYouAndSaidSomethingAboutMeGoingFromOneSideOfThePathToTheOther
#HeThenSaidIShouldBeCarefulAndWalkedOffWhichJustLeftMeFeelingQuiteConfusedAndThenAnnoyed
#IHadBeenWalkingSlowlyInCaseBFellOffAndIMoveIfISeePeopleOnThePathAheadOfMeButDidNotRecallMovingInTheTenSecondsOrSoBeforeHeWasRude
#ItWasJustWeirdAndWalkingInTheParkWithAPushchairIsABitDifferentToDrivingInACarOnARoad
#AnywaysWeAreDebatingSendingBToAnotherSessionOfNurseryAWeek
#TiagoCasuallyMentionedItAndAfterThinkingAboutItIDefinitelyWouldFeelABitMoreRelaxedWithLookingAfterOnlyOneKidForAFewMoreHoursAWeek
#IWorryThatWhenBabyXComesIWillBeBoringAndStressedSoIThinkItWouldBeBetterForBToGoOutAndHaveFun
#ITryToBeByTheWindowToWaveHerOffAndWelcomeHerHomeWhenTiagoTakesHerToAndFromNursery
#SheInstinctivelyLooksToTheWindowNowWhichIsQuiteCuteSoIHaveToTryNotToLetHerDown
#SheAlsoTendsToGetUpsetWhenTiagoLeavesSoIUsuallyHoldHerUpToTheWindowToSeeHimLeaveAndAlsoWhenMyMumGoes
#WhenWeGiveNanAMealWeUsuallySayHereYouGoNanAndBThenGenerallyComesRunningOverToSeeWhatSheHasWhichMakesMeLaugh
#SheSeemsToBePickingUpNewThingsAllTheTimeLikeNowShePointsToWhereTheTeddyIsInABookAboutFindingItOrTakesMyFingerToPointToIt
#YesterdayShePointedToTheFloorDuringWindTheBobbinUpAndSuddenlyLovesTheDingleDangleScarecrowSong
#IWasThinkingRecentlyThatItIsWeirdThatBWillGrowUpAndProbablyNotRememberThisPhaseOfHerLife
#INeedToDoTheLastPageOfHerBabyBookAndThinkAboutWhatToDoForBabyX
 

#IHaveMentionedThatBLikesToTryToTouchOurEyesWhichWorriesMeABitWithBabyXsImpendingArrival

I hope she outgrows this phase by the time X arrives.

#MyNanGotHerADollTheOtherDayAndSheAlsoLikesToTouchItsEyesButItIsSaferThanTouchingHumanEyes

The doll’s eyes are probably more fun as she has more control over them. I see her fingers coming towards my eyes and I shut them, and tell her not to do it, but she’s fascinated.

#DollsHaveAlwaysCreepedMeOutSoIHopeSheAndHerSiblingDoNotReallyLikeThem #ObviouslyIfTheyDoIWillHaveToBeSupportiveButIMuchPreferCuddlyToys

I will definitely not be adding to their doll collection, but you never know what they will get as gifts.

#IFinishedReadingMyHypnobirthingBookAndIFeelMoreRelaxedAboutXsBirthButIDoNeedToReadItAtLeastOnceMore

I keep practicing the breathing exercises, and just think about being as relaxed as possible to make things easier.

#TwoDaysAgoIGotFreakedOutByTheBabyNotMovingMuchButSheMadeUpForItYesterdayByMovingLoads

I had done a lot of dance videos, so maybe they needed to chill. I ached a bit afterwards, so I had to have a lie down. Yesterday she was just moving all over the place.

#IHaveStartedToMakeMyBirthingPlaylistAsIFoundItSoHelpfulWhenIWasInEarlyLabourWithB

I still have B’s birth playlist so I took songs from that, then thought about what I wanted to add.

#IWasDancingBehindMyCurtainOnTheWardWhileWaitingForMyLabourToProgressAndItDefinitelyHelpedMeStayRelaxed

Tiago wasn’t allowed to be with me, so I didn’t have much else to do. It definitely helped during surges, along with the breathing exercises.

#WeWillHaveToSeeHowEarlyLabourGoesThisTimeAsIMightEndUpNotGoingIntoHospitalUntilMuchLater

My waters had broken, so I had to go in to be monitored, then they were going to send me home but B was breech.

#OneOfMyCoatsHasNotDoneUpOverMyBumpForAWhileAndTheOtherOneIsGettingTight

It was fine with B as I was pregnant in the summer, but it is a bit colder this time…

#ISpentALotOfFreeTimeResearchingMaternityCoatsButInTheEndIDecidedItWasNotTheBestOption

A good one is expensive. I nearly caved and bought one, but it was dry clean only which is too high maintenance for me – especially with a B who likes to walk in the mud.

#InsteadIHaveSentOneCoatBackToTheBrandToBeRepairedAndRestoredAndWillBeBuyAZipInBabyWearingPanelForIt

It’s a coat I’ve had for at least 6 years if not more. The inside is a bit ripped from where I used the pocket that the coat folds into as an actual pocket, and it just needs a good clean and re-waterproofing. It’s a lot cheaper than getting a new coat, and I like the coat so it makes sense. I don’t really need another coat…

#TheOtherDayAGuyInTheParkKeptSayingHelloLoudlyAndIThoughtHeWasOnThePhone #InTheEndITurnedAroundAsIThoughtIMightHaveDroppedSomethingAndTheGuyWasLookingAtMeLikeIShouldMoveOutOfTheWay #HeWasStoodQuiteCloseToMeThenPeeredAroundMeToSeeBSittingOnTheStepOnTheBackOfHerPushchair #HeSaidDoYouDriveDoYouAndSaidSomethingAboutMeGoingFromOneSideOfThePathToTheOther #HeThenSaidIShouldBeCarefulAndWalkedOffWhichJustLeftMeFeelingQuiteConfusedAndThenAnnoyed

I’m still annoyed about it.

#IHadBeenWalkingSlowlyInCaseBFellOffAndIMoveIfISeePeopleOnThePathAheadOfMeButDidNotRecallMovingInTheTenSecondsOrSoBeforeHeWasRude

He was saying hello for at least five seconds to me (and it sounded quite distant at first), so I don’t think I just cut in front of him. He could have easily moved to the grass (okay, it was a bit muddy but not that bad).

#ItWasJustWeirdAndWalkingInTheParkWithAPushchairIsABitDifferentToDrivingInACarOnARoad

I do wonder if he’d have said the same thing to me if I was a guy. Probably not. He was maybe my age, possibly younger. I just looked at him quite blankly as I really thought he was going to say I’d dropped something, so I was in shock.

#AnywaysWeAreDebatingSendingBToAnotherSessionOfNurseryAWeek #TiagoCasuallyMentionedItAndAfterThinkingAboutItIDefinitelyWouldFeelABitMoreRelaxedWithLookingAfterOnlyOneKidForAFewMoreHoursAWeek

I feel guilty about it, but I think if a lot of people could then they would so why not? We don’t plan on being in Brum forever, so should make the most of the set-up.

#IWorryThatWhenBabyXComesIWillBeBoringAndStressedSoIThinkItWouldBeBetterForBToGoOutAndHaveFun

Seriously, why would she want to be at home all week with her boring Mum when she can be at nursery having fun? If I am more relaxed and happy, then it’s good for B too.

#ITryToBeByTheWindowToWaveHerOffAndWelcomeHerHomeWhenTiagoTakesHerToAndFromNursery

I wave quite enthusiastically, which usually makes her laugh, especially when she comes home. I then usually bend down and wait for her to come through the door so I can give her a hug if she wants one.

#SheInstinctivelyLooksToTheWindowNowWhichIsQuiteCuteSoIHaveToTryNotToLetHerDown

I’m just thinking when the baby arrives it might not be the case, but I will have to try…

#SheAlsoTendsToGetUpsetWhenTiagoLeavesSoIUsuallyHoldHerUpToTheWindowToSeeHimLeaveAndAlsoWhenMyMumGoes

It’s just something I do now. She often still cries when Tiago leaves so I try to make her laugh by dancing or spinning her round, but it often doesn’t work. She likes to wave to my Mum.

#WhenWeGiveNanAMealWeUsuallySayHereYouGoNanAndBThenGenerallyComesRunningOverToSeeWhatSheHasWhichMakesMeLaugh

She’s just started to do it. Breakfast – ‘here you go Nan’. B stops what she is doing and runs over to steal some scrambled egg. I try to serve B her lunch before giving my Nan hers, otherwise B just tries to stick her hands in it. Sometimes dinner is ready earlier than we want to give it to B, so she goes over…

#SheSeemsToBePickingUpNewThingsAllTheTimeLikeNowShePointsToWhereTheTeddyIsInABookAboutFindingItOrTakesMyFingerToPointToIt

It’s good as usually I take ages pointing at everything on the page to look for the Teddy, so it’s a bit quicker now though sometimes she does point to things and I say the name.

#YesterdayShePointedToTheFloorDuringWindTheBobbinUpAndSuddenlyLovesTheDingleDangleScarecrowSong

She’s been doing the claps to Wind The Bobbin Up for a while, but none of the other actions so that’s quite exciting. It’s quite sad that I have a version for when we’re in the park (point to the sky and point to the ground, point to the gate and point to the hound).

#IWasThinkingRecentlyThatItIsWeirdThatBWillGrowUpAndProbablyNotRememberThisPhaseOfHerLife

It’s been such a big deal for me, and I doubt she will remember any of it – living with my Nan, living in Brum etc. She’ll have my work to look at if she wants to, but I doubt she’ll be interested in half of this stuff – is anyone?

#INeedToDoTheLastPageOfHerBabyBookAndThinkAboutWhatToDoForBabyX

I thought about it today and the pages for 12 months are empty. I might do more of a family album for Baby X, though I don’t want her to feel like she’s been cheated out of what B has so maybe we’ll have to get the same book. I might just do it differently this time…

32 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

I keep saying this, but it’s weird that things still aren’t ‘normal’, and things are back up in the air again – I’m hoping it doesn’t impact Baby X’s arrival too much, but it is what it is.

‘#RealisticallyTheBabyWillBeBornUnderSomeKindOfLockdown’ – She was, and X might be as well.

‘#ToSitInARestaurantOrGoToTheCinemaOrGoToAGig’

Well, we sat in a restaurant a few weeks ago, but I haven’t been to the cinema or a gig since before Covid. We went to see Parasite at the cinema a couple of weekends before lockdown, and we feel a bit on edge then (because of Covid, not the film – well a bit of both I guess).

‘#IDefinitelyWillNotBeRushingToGoToLondon’

I’ve been a few times since September, but doubt I will be going there again any time soon now.

‘#YouNeverKnowICouldSlipBackIntoOldLifeQuiteEasily’

My old life is definitely gone. We don’t even live in the same place as we did before Covid. I do wish some things were different – like I wish I had more play dates for B during the week, and didn’t feel so worried about going further from home but we make do. If this was my life forever I would feel stuck, but knowing that we plan to move in the summer is something to look forward to after the baby is born – the baby has been a good countdown for most of the year.

‘#ItWillBeWeirdWhenHeFinallyStartsGoingBackOutToWorkAgain’

I’ve been lucky that he still doesn’t really go out to work very much, which has been nice for him as he has been around for more of B’s early life – but he was working from home a bit before Covid anyways.

‘TheExerciseVideosIHaveBeenDoingForWeeksAreGettingABitMoreHarderToDoWithABiggerBump’

Yesterday I did a pregnancy pilates one for the first time in ages. It felt weird. It’s funny being more pregnant than the women in my usual videos now – I remember reaching that phase with B, and it felt strange.

I’m nearly at the point where it was 5 weeks until B arrived.


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General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot VI (32 Weeks / 8th December 2021)

Shoot which I am recreating for the 6th time this pregnancy. I am wearing a bra and leggings. I have my right hand clasping my left elbow. My bump is bigger than the previous version of this image.
General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot VI (32 Weeks / 8th December 2021)
 
#TheFourWeeksSinceShootVHasGoneSoFast
#IAmNowLessThanSixWeeksFromThePointWhereBWasBorn
#IFinallyStartedToReadMyHypnobirthingBookAndIFeltALotMoreRelaxedAfterReadingATenthOfItInTheFirstSitting
#ItHasEncouragedMeToLookMoreAtTheHospitalWhereIWillGiveBirthAndIAmABitDisheartenedAtTheRatioOfBirthingPoolsToRooms
#IDoNotWantToGetMyHopesUpForAWaterBirthButIWouldLikeToTryItEspeciallyAsIWasNotAllowedWithBAsSheWasBreech
#IGuessIHaveToHopeThatBabyDecidesToComeOnAQuietDayAtTheHospitalOrWhenAPoolIsFree
#KnowingMyLuckIWillEndUpWithABreechBabyAgainThoughIHopeNotAsAdvocatingForMyselfWasTiringEnoughLastTime
#IKeepReadingAboutHowABabyIsUnlikelyToTurnAfter36WeeksIfItsHeadIsEngagedButBDidSoWeWillJustHaveToWaitAndSee
#BabyXWasSoActiveYesterdayAndIJustFeelSoTiredThatIWantThisBabyToComeSoonButIAlsoWantItToTakeItsTime
#TheDayBeforeIHadNotFeltHerMoveMuchSoIPutANightLightNextToMyBumpAndSheStartedToMoveWhichMadeMeFeelBetter
#BIsMeantToBeComingToTheEndOfALeapNowAndItShowsAsSheIsSuddenlySoMuchMoreChatty
#SheIsReallyTryingToCopyUsMoreWithOneExampleBeingIPutCreamAroundHerMouthTheOtherDayAndCalledHerSantaAndSheKeptTryingToSayItThoughItSoundedMoreLikeSassy
#SheWasLookingAtHerDearZooBookByHerselfAndIWalkedOverJustAsSheLiftedUpTheSnakeBasketFlapAndStartedToMakeASnakeSound
#IFeelSoProudButAlsoRelievedThatTheHoursOfMotheringAreStartingToShow
#ItAlsoMakesMeWantToTalkToHerMoreNowAsIKnowThatItIsSinkingIn
#ITryToDoActionsToNurseryRhymesWhenISingToHerAndIWasSurprisedWhenSheStartedToFollowAlongToIncyWincySpider
#DuringOurWeekendAloneWeManagedToGetSomeLupiniBeansThatWeUsedToBuyEasilyWhenWeLivedInLondonButHaveFailedToFindSince
#TiagoSoaksThemInWaterAndThenPutsChoppedGarlicInWithThemAndBSeemsToLikeThem
#SoMuchSoThatLastWeekHerQuietnessMadeMeCheckOnHerAndIFoundHerEatingTheSkinsOutOfTheBin
#WeDoNotHaveLocksOnTheCupboardsInTheKitchenAsMyNanWouldStruggleToGetIntoThem
#SoBLovesToRummageInTheCupboardThatHasTheHerbsAndSpicesInItAndYesterdaySheManagedToOpenTheCayennePepper
#INoticedStraightAwayAndHopedToGetItOffTheFloorBeforeSheTouchedItButSheIsTooFastForMeAndIHadToGiveHerACupOfMilk
#SheWasFineAndIHaveMovedItOutOfReachInCaseSheWantsToTryToGetACupOfMilkOutsideOfMealTimesAgain
#IWasRelievedToSeeThatMostPeopleAtHerToddlerClassWereWearingMasksAfterAFewWeeksOfMeBeingTheOnlyPerson
#IHaveGoneSoLongWithoutGettingCovidThatIAmABitWorriedIWillCatchItWhenIAmDueToGiveBirthAndIAmNotSureHowThatWillImpactTheWholeExperience
#SheOnlyHasACoupleOfSessionsLeftOfTheClassBeforeTheTermEndsAndThenIWillProbablyNotTakeHerBackForABit
#ItIsQuiteAnActiveClassAndTheMorePregnantIGetTheMoreIStruggleToHelpHerParticipate
#ItDoesNotStrikeMeAsAVeryEasyClassToTakeAToddlerAndANewbornToAlone
#TheWeatherHasBeenRubbishSoIFeelABitCoopedUpInsideWhichMakesMeFeelQuiteLonelyAtTimes
#TheWeekdaysAreLongAndJustGettingOutAndMakingSmallTalkWithLocalCommunityFolkCanMakeABigDifference

(I am not as accurate at copying the shoots as I wish I was, but you can definitely see that bump has grown a lot – even if my back is a bit more pushed out, and my bump is facing the camera a bit more than with the last shoot.)

#TheFourWeeksSinceShootVHasGoneSoFast

This sub-project and my midwife appointments are really showing how fast this pregnancy is going…

#IAmNowLessThanSixWeeksFromThePointWhereBWasBorn

*Nervous laugh*

#IFinallyStartedToReadMyHypnobirthingBookAndIFeltALotMoreRelaxedAfterReadingATenthOfItInTheFirstSitting

I feel like I can skim read over a lot of it and just focus on the key bits like breathing, staying in a good position during birth, and how to make a decision on something that is presented to me during labour/birth etc.

(It’s this book: The Hypnobirthing Book — The Positive Birth Company – I also did their digital birthing pack when I was pregnant with B, but feel like the book is enough for me this time.)

#ItHasEncouragedMeToLookMoreAtTheHospitalWhereIWillGiveBirthAndIAmABitDisheartenedAtTheRatioOfBirthingPoolsToRooms

I never even bothered researching the Liverpool one as I wasn’t planning to go there (I was planning to have a home birth with B).

#IDoNotWantToGetMyHopesUpForAWaterBirthButIWouldLikeToTryItEspeciallyAsIWasNotAllowedWithBAsSheWasBreech

This was one of the reasons why I didn’t want to look at the hospital much as I didn’t want to get my heart set on a certain room or something.

#IGuessIHaveToHopeThatBabyDecidesToComeOnAQuietDayAtTheHospitalOrWhenAPoolIsFree

Who knows how it will be… I feel like water births are pretty popular now though so my chances of getting a pool will be fairly slim.

#KnowingMyLuckIWillEndUpWithABreechBabyAgainThoughIHopeNotAsAdvocatingForMyselfWasTiringEnoughLastTime

You never know. The hypnobirthing definitely helped with the ‘how to make a decision on something that is presented to me during labour/birth etc.’ If this one ends up being breech and I was still in Liverpool I feel like I might not have to fight so much, but who knows how things will go between now and the birth.

#IKeepReadingAboutHowABabyIsUnlikelyToTurnAfter36WeeksIfItsHeadIsEngagedButBDidSoWeWillJustHaveToWaitAndSee

I just read that stuff and roll my eyes. When I was pregnant with B I was like ‘oh, okay’ and didn’t even have any birth preferences for a breech baby written down as they kept telling me she was head down at all my checks.

#BabyXWasSoActiveYesterdayAndIJustFeelSoTiredThatIWantThisBabyToComeSoonButIAlsoWantItToTakeItsTime

I feel a bit more ready and prepared, but it comes in waves. Right now I feel so tired. I need to start resting more.

#TheDayBeforeSIHadNotFeltHerMoveForABitSoIPutANightLightNextToMyBumpAndSheStartedToMoveWhichMadeMeFeelBetter

The good old light trick.

#BIsMeantToBeComingToTheEndOfALeapNowAndItShowsAsSheIsSuddenlySoMuchMoreChatty

It’s cute.

#SheIsReallyTryingToCopyUsMoreWithOneExampleBeingIPutCreamAroundHerMouthTheOtherDayAndCalledHerSantaAndSheKeptTryingToSayItThoughItSoundedMoreLikeSassy

She looked like Santa… She really likes S sounds at the moment.

#SheWasLookingAtHerDearZooBookByHerselfAndIWalkedOverJustAsSheLiftedUpTheSnakeBasketFlapAndStartedToMakeASnakeSound

It made me so happy.

#IFeelSoProudButAlsoRelievedThatTheHoursOfMotheringAreStartingToShow

Hours of reading books to her and putting effort into sounds and actions. Hurrah! It’s paying off!

#ItAlsoMakesMeWantToTalkToHerMoreNowAsIKnowThatItIsSinkingIn

It encouraged me to talk to her awkwardly on the swings the other day while a Dad was chatting to his talkative son in the swing next to us. Sometimes I go quiet…

#ITryToDoActionsToNurseryRhymesWhenISingToHerAndIWasSurprisedWhenSheStartedToFollowAlongToIncyWincySpider

It was a day of surprises.

#DuringOurWeekendAloneWeManagedToGetSomeLupiniBeansThatWeUsedToBuyEasilyWhenWeLivedInLondonButHaveFailedToFindSince

We usually refer to them as Tremoços. We used to get them in a big supermarket by us, but found them in a big supermarket in West Bromwich. That was a surprise.

#TiagoSoaksThemInWaterAndThenPutsChoppedGarlicInWithThemAndBSeemsToLikeThem

They’re quite salty, so he soaks them at least a couple of times to remove some of the salt, then puts in fresh water and chopped garlic.

#SoMuchSoThatLastWeekHerQuietnessMadeMeCheckOnHerAndIFoundHerEatingTheSkinsOutOfTheBin

She was sat on the little ladder next to the bin, and the bin was full enough that she was just picking them out. So gross. The same day she had been drinking (nothing) out of a little tea cup, so she was really showing her English and Portugueseness off.

#WeDoNotHaveLocksOnTheCupboardsInTheKitchenAsMyNanWouldStruggleToGetIntoThem

We really need to reshuffle stuff in the cupboards…

#SoBLovesToRummageInTheCupboardThatHasTheHerbsAndSpicesInItAndYesterdaySheManagedToOpenTheCayennePepper

She had already pulled it out once. I took it off her and thought I’d hidden it well. She pulled it out again and straight away got the lid open, and some sprinkled onto the floor.

#INoticedStraightAwayAndHopedToGetItOffTheFloorBeforeSheTouchedItButSheIsTooFastForMeAndIHadToGiveHerACupOfMilk

I quickly grabbed a cloth and put water on it, but she was already dabbing her fingers in it. Luckily my Mum was around and said to give her milk. It sorted her out straight away.

#SheWasFineAndIHaveMovedItOutOfReachInCaseSheWantsToTryToGetACupOfMilkOutsideOfMealTimesAgain

I only give her milk at meals, so I was bit worried that she would ask for more but she didn’t.

#IWasRelievedToSeeThatMostPeopleAtHerToddlerClassWereWearingMasksAfterAFewWeeksOfMeBeingTheOnlyPerson

It makes sense as masks are compulsory on public transport and in shops again, but you never know how people will act.

#IHaveGoneSoLongWithoutGettingCovidThatIAmABitWorriedIWillCatchItWhenIAmDueToGiveBirthAndIAmNotSureHowThatWillImpactTheWholeExperience

I stumbled upon some sad news the other day of a local woman who had a really bad birth experience in the summer as she was positive.

#SheOnlyHasACoupleOfSessionsLeftOfTheClassBeforeTheTermEndsAndThenIWillProbablyNotTakeHerBackForABit

I might wait until Baby X is a bit older, but maybe we will find something else to go to instead as I never talk to anyone there (and half the point of going to classes is to talk to people).

#ItIsQuiteAnActiveClassAndTheMorePregnantIGetTheMoreIStruggleToHelpHerParticipate

There’s a lot of hand holding and being led around and lifting.

#ItDoesNotStrikeMeAsAVeryEasyClassToTakeAToddlerAndANewbornToAlone

I really don’t fancy the idea of it. It’d be different if I drove, but with the walk… nah.

#TheWeatherHasBeenRubbishSoIFeelABitCoopedUpInsideWhichMakesMeFeelQuiteLonelyAtTimes

I know I live with Tiago, my Nan and B, but Tiago works all week, B is yet to be able to have ‘proper’ conversations with me, and I love my Nan but I need more conversations with people my own age.

#TheWeekdaysAreLongAndJustGettingOutAndMakingSmallTalkWithLocalCommunityFolkCanMakeABigDifference

I just find it takes ages for me to get B ready these days, and I worry that I am under or over dressing her. She got cold feet with two pairs of socks and wellies on the other day. It’s stressful.

32 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

I want to try to take some different angled shots of my bump again this time, but I feel like I already did it.

This time it seems like my boobs have not even changed much, or maybe I am too focused on my bump. I’m still yet to experience a leaky boob, so maybe they’re taking their time this time, or they don’t need to change so much after a first pregnancy? We’ll see.

I was so annoyed about my flash sync cable breaking…

This time I am trying to imagine myself having two kids to look after. I think that going from one to two kids will be less of a shock than going from zero to one, but yeah I’m still nervous.

I really like the second image.

I often wake up a lot during the nights now, so I know I’m super tired/B has slept well when I sleep through to 5ish now.

‘#IHaveBeenThinkingAboutPhotographingTheBabyAfterBirthAndIDoNotReallyWantToSubjectItToFlash’

Zero photos exist of me giving birth 🙁 I am hoping that we can get some this time, but we will have to see.

‘#AndIDoNotReallyWantToPhotographMyBabysFaceForProjects’

Well, B’s face is either not shown (it’s cropped out or she’s looking away) or hidden horribly with PhotoShop.

‘#IPlanToMakeWorkAboutMotherhoodAndTalkAboutTheBaby
#ButSpecificDetailsLikeTheNameAndHowItsFaceLooksAndPerhapsTheGenderAreNotImportant’

Well, she is known across the webiverse as B, and I did reveal her gender. I intend to refer to Baby X by a letter as well.

‘#IAmExcitedForTheBabyToBeHereAreForUsToJustGetOnWithThingsAndLearnAboutOurBaby’

The other day I was daydreaming about meeting Baby X. I hope that I will bond a bit quicker with her this time as last time I was just super freaked out. I didn’t even know how to change a nappy or anything… I am excited to meet her, but I am also nervous about becoming a mother of two.


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Imitating B Standing With Her Hands Behind Her Back (31 Weeks / 5th December 2021)

Self-portrait where I am stood facing a wall with the front of my hands touching my back. I am wearing a flowery dress and my head is tilted upwards slightly.
Imitating B Standing With Her Hands Behind Her Back (31 Weeks / 5th December 2021)
 
#BHasBeenStandingAndWalkingAroundWithHerHandsBehindHerBackForAWhile
#SometimesSheJustHasThemFlatAgainstHerOrSometimesShePlaysWithAFinger
#SheLooksVeryConfidentThoughAndWeAlwaysCommentOnItWhenSheDoesIt
#YesterdaySheDiscoveredThatIfSheStandsInFrontOfMeNextToMyLegsICanNotSeeHerBecauseOfMyBump
#SoWePlayedPeekabooForABitWhichWasFunnyAndIHopeSheDoesNotForgetAboutIt
#SheSometimesPointsToMyBumpButIDoNotThinkSheReallyUnderstandsWhatIsHappeningInThere
#IWantHerToSeeItReallyMoveAsIWantToSeeHerReaction
#IHurtMyFingerTheOtherDayPuttingMySocksOnAsItIsDifficultToNavigateAroundMyBump
#IHadA31WeeksAppointmentWhichWasOptionalAsItIsNotReallyNecessaryAfterYourFirstChild
#TheyOfferedMeOneSoIThoughtIMightAsWellGoAnywaysAsItIsAlwaysGoodToGetSomeReassurance
#TheyAlwaysTestMyUrineNowSoIBoughtSomeTubesToTakeASampleWithMe
#IStruggledToFillOneAsWithMyBumpIReallyCouldNotSeeWhereIWasPissing
#IHadADifferentMidwifeAsMyOriginalOneIsNowWorkingFromHomeAsSheIsOnlyABitMorePregnantThanMe
#ThereWasAlsoAStudentMidwifeWhichIWasNotBotheredAboutAsTheyHaveToLearnSomehowAndThereIsAShortageOfMidwivesInThisCountry
#TheyBothMeasuredMeAndTheStudentSaidTheBabyWas1CentimetreBiggerThanAt28WeeksButTheMidwifeSaidSheIs3CentimetresBigger
#TheMidwifeSaidToHerNotToWorryAsTheyAllHaveTheirOwnWayOfMeasuringSoAsLongAsTheyMeasureTheSameWayEachTimeItGivesTheInformationThatTheyNeed
#WellLastTimeSomeoneElseMeasuredMeSoTheBabyHasSuddenlyJumpedFromTheFiftyPercentileToSeventyIsh
#MaybeTheyDidHaveAGrowthSpurtButItSeemsLikeABitTooMuchAndItObviouslyIsNotSuperAccurateButTheMainThingIsTheBabyHasGrown
#ISaidThatIHadBeenInALotOfPainWithTheBabysMovements
#TheMidwifeSaidThatIDoNotHaveALotSeparatingTheBabyFromMySkinSoItWillBeUncomfortableAtTimes
#IHaveMyNextAppointmentAt34WeeksWhichWillBeWithADifferentMidwifeAndThenTheOnesAfterThatWillBeEvery2Weeks
#BsNurseryCalledDuringHerLastSessionAsSheHadABumpOnHerHeadButTheyDidNotSeeHerDoItAndSheHadNotCried
#TheyWatchedTheCCTVAndSaidSheMustHaveDoneItWhilePlayingWithAToyAroundSomeChairs
#ISaidItWasProbablyAnOldBumpThatTheyHadNotNoticedAndWeWouldBePickingHerUpInHalfAnHourAnyways
#WeWentToGetHerAndItWasAnOldBumpThatLookedLikeItHadBeenKnockedABitButItSoonWentDownAndSheWasFine
#BIsStillCryingWhenWePutHerDownForANapOrBedAndINoLongerEvenTryToLetHerCrawlInByHerselfAsSheCrawlsInHalfwayThenStops
#SoWeHaveZippedItUpAndTurnedItRoundAsTheRipInItIsGettingBiggerAndINeedToFixIt
#ABassinetZipsIntoHerCotSoTheBabyCanHaveHerCotOnceTheyAreBornAsTheBabyWillBeMoreSnugAndBCanHaveADifferentOne
#IJustHadToGoAndWatchBWhileTSortedSomethingOutAndBWasHoldingHerHandsBehindHerBackAgain
#SheDoesNotSeemToLikeScrambledEggsWhenIGiveHerSomeAtMealsButSheIsMoreThanHappyToStealSomeAndTheCrustsFromMyBreakfast

#BHasBeenStandingAndWalkingAroundWithHerHandsBehindHerBackForAWhile

I don’t know why I enjoy seeing her do it so much, but I do.

#SometimesSheJustHasThemFlatAgainstHerOrSometimesShePlaysWithAFinger

I took a video of her for reference for the shoot and she plays with a finger for a bit and then has them flat again.

#SheLooksVeryConfidentThoughAndWeAlwaysCommentOnItWhenSheDoesIt

She looks very powerful. I don’t know where she has picked it up from, but it’s probably another case of her just discovering she can do it…

I imagine the shoot will look a bit like My Baby Is A Brick Wall (14th July 2020).

#YesterdaySheDiscoveredThatIfSheStandsInFrontOfMeNextToMyLegsICanNotSeeHerBecauseOfMyBump

My Mum was saying that my bump seems to be sticking out the front more this time, but then again she never saw me heavily pregnant in real life last time because of Covid. I guess she’s seen the photos though and saw me on WhatsApp.

#SoWePlayedPeekabooForABitWhichWasFunnyAndIHopeSheDoesNotForgetAboutIt

I want to play peekaboo again.

#SheSometimesPointsToMyBumpButIDoNotThinkSheReallyUnderstandsWhatIsHappeningInThere

She knows something is up as I talk to her about it.

#IWantHerToSeeItReallyMoveAsIWantToSeeHerReaction

Baby X does really move about in there now, and my bump is pushed into some weird shapes.

#IHurtMyFingerTheOtherDayPuttingMySocksOnAsItIsDifficultToNavigateAroundMyBump

I was saying to Tiago things are only going to get ‘worse’ now until the baby is born.

#IHadA31WeeksAppointmentWhichWasOptionalAsItIsNotReallyNecessaryAfterYourFirstChild #TheyOfferedMeOneSoIThoughtIMightAsWellGoAnywaysAsItIsAlwaysGoodToGetSomeReassurance

I could walk to my appointment and yeah why not? They offered it to me.

#TheyAlwaysTestMyUrineNowSoIBoughtSomeTubesToTakeASampleWithMe

I bought them ages ago. It means touching less Covid surfaces and having one less thing to worry about once I get there.

#IStruggledToFillOneAsWithMyBumpIReallyCouldNotSeeWhereIWasPissing

Hello, piss on my hand. They need a funnel for the pregnant folk.

#IHadADifferentMidwifeAsMyOriginalOneIsNowWorkingFromHomeAsSheIsOnlyABitNotMorePregnantThanMe

Working from home because of Covid and all. I like her – shame I will probably never see her again. You never know though, we could be ward buddies.

#ThereWasAlsoAStudentMidwifeWhichIWasNotBotheredAboutAsTheyHaveToLearnSomehowAndThereIsAShortageOfMidwivesInThisCountry

They kept asking if it was okay if she was there. I had at least one student midwife at B’s birth, and it was mainly students who were looking after me and B during our hospital stay. She apologised in case I felt uncomfortable during her checks, but I said at least she wasn’t kicking me in the ribs.

#TheyBothMeasuredMeAndTheStudentSaidTheBabyWas1CentimetreBiggerThanAt28WeeksButTheMidwifeSaidSheIs3CentimetresBigger

I initally wrote ‘they are’ instead of ‘she is’, as I am still skeptical…

The midwife measured first, but didn’t tell the student what she had got until after the student had had a go. The test aspect made the appointment more interesting.

#TheMidwifeSaidToHerNotToWorryAsTheyAllHaveTheirOwnWayOfMeasuringSoAsLongAsTheyMeasureTheSameWayEachTimeItGivesTheInformationThatTheyNeed

They just want to see that the baby is growing.

#WellLastTimeSomeoneElseMeasuredMeSoTheBabyHasSuddenlyJumpedFromTheFiftyPercentileToSeventyIsh

Hmm.

#MaybeTheyDidHaveAGrowthSpurtButItSeemsLikeABitTooMuchAndItObviouslyIsNotSuperAccurateButTheMainThingIsTheBabyHasGrown

That’s what we want to see. Next time it will be with someone else, so we will see what they get.

#ISaidThatIHadBeenInALotOfPainWithTheBabysMovements

Though it has not been so bad the last few days. I have been using my body oil more as probably helps my skin not hurt so much.

#TheMidwifeSaidThatIDoNotHaveALotSeparatingTheBabyFromMySkinSoItWillBeUncomfortableAtTimes

Makes sense.

#IHaveMyNextAppointmentAt34WeeksWhichWillBeWithADifferentMidwifeAndThenTheOnesAfterThatWillBeEvery2Weeks

Time is flying by. The last appointment did not feel like 3 weeks ago.

#BsNurseryCalledDuringHerLastSessionAsSheHadABumpOnHerHeadButTheyDidNotSeeHerDoItAndSheHadNotCried #TheyWatchedTheCCTVAndSaidSheMustHaveDoneItWhilePlayingWithAToyAroundSomeChairs

I thought they might have been calling to say she’d been sick, as if she is too active after eating and seems to be a bit sick after meals (mainly breakfast) at the moment.

#ISaidItWasProbablyAnOldBumpThatTheyHadNotNoticedAndWeWouldBePickingHerUpInHalfAnHourAnyways

She keeps knocking the same bit of her head on different things. It’s good they called – and I guess they have to cover their backs.

#WeWentToGetHerAndItWasAnOldBumpThatLookedLikeItHadBeenKnockedABitButItSoonWentDownAndSheWasFine

It probably didn’t need much to upset it again. They said they’d put a cold compress on it. She seemed fine and after her nap it had already gone down a lot.

#BIsStillCryingWhenWePutHerDownForANapOrBedAndINoLongerEvenTryToLetHerCrawlInByHerselfAsSheCrawlsInHalfwayThenStops

If I put her to bed she soon stops crying, but if Tiago does then she seems to cry for a lot longer. She knows I’m the strict one…

#SoWeHaveZippedItUpAndTurnedItRoundAsTheRipInItIsGettingBiggerAndINeedToFixIt

Trying to figure out the best way to do it. She normally sleeps at the edge closest to the door, which was the zipped bit. Hopefully she won’t mess with it more now that we’ve turned it round.

#ABassinetZipsIntoHerCotSoTheBabyCanHaveHerCotOnceTheyAreBornAsTheBabyWillBeMoreSnugAndBCanHaveADifferentOne

I don’t want to have to bend down super far to put the baby down. They will be nice and snug in the bassinet – B liked it.

#IJustHadToGoAndWatchBWhileTSortedSomethingOutAndBWasHoldingHerHandsBehindHerBackAgain

After T came back she was playing with a comb and I said ‘do you want to comb Daddy’s hair?’ and she had fun.

#SheDoesNotSeemToLikeScrambledEggsWhenIGiveHerSomeAtMealsButSheIsMoreThanHappyToStealSomeAndTheCrustsFromMyBreakfast

Nan wasn’t up yet, but normally she steals most of Nan’s breakfast, even though she’s usually eaten an hour before…

31 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait standing on one leg, while holding my left foot and looking away from the camera with my right hand touching my chin. I am nude with small white squares hiding my nipples and pubic area.
It Is Kind Of Weird To Refer To Tiago As Daddy And For Me To Be Called Mummy (31 and a half weeks)
 
#IJustFeelTiredToday
#AtTheWeekendWeHadOurNCTCourse
#NCTMeaningNationalChildbirthTrust
#WeDidItVirtuallyOverZoomAsWeWereUnableToMeetInPersonDueToCovid
#ItWasGoodAndWeLearnedALot
#SomeOfItWasGoingOverWhatWeHadLearnedOnOurHypnobirthingCourse
#ButIFeelLikeIUnderstandThingsMoreAfterHavingSeenDiagramsAndThingsBeingExplainedAgainBySomeoneElse
#WeDidTheCourseBecauseWeWantedToLearnButAlsoBecauseWeWantedToMeetOtherPeople
#EveryoneSeemsNiceAndWeHaveAChatGroupAndWillHopefullyHaveMoreOnlineMeetings
#ButIThinkThingsWouldBeABitDifferentIfWeHadMetInPerson
#HopefullyWeWillGetToOneDay
#SoIThinkHavingTwoDaysOfListeningWhilstOnWebcamHasTiredMeOut
#AsComparedToOtherLockdownWeekendsItWasPrettyIntense
#ThisWeekendThereIsASmallSessionAboutBreastfeeding
#WeWatchedAnotherEpisodeOfBabiesTheOtherDayAndItWasAboutFeeding
#ApparentlyNoBreastMilkIsTheSame
#AndItWillDifferForIfYouHaveABoyOrAGirl
#ThoughIWonderWhatHappensIfYouHadTwinsWhereOneWasABoyAndOneWasAGirl
#ItWasInterestingAnyways
#IFeelLikeBabysKicksAreGettingStronger
#IThinkItWasLastNightWhereICouldJustSeeItMovingAllAbout
#WeAreReallyGettingIntoNestingModeNow
#ReorganisingTheFlatAndPreferringThingsToBeALotTidier
#WeHaveBoughtMostOfTheThingsThatWeNeedNow
#JustAFewSmallBitsAndPiecesLeftToGet
#IKeepTalkingToTheBabyAboutWhatTiagoIsDoingButISayWhatDaddyIsDoing
#ItIsKindOfWeirdToCallHimDaddyAndForMeToBeCalledMummy
#ThoughIThinkHeWouldPreferToBeCalledDadInPortugueseSoIReferToHimAsPaiSometimes
#ThoughPapaiIsDaddy
#SoMaybeIShouldStartReferringToHimAsThat

Well, we are quite used to being called Mummy and Daddy now… We did used to refer to Tiago as Pai, but we seem to do that less these days.

We debated doing an NCT course this time, but it seems like an expensive way to make friends (which is what we thought last time). Especially as we not planning on sticking around the area for more than a year now, so it would be another potential group of friends that we would be moving away from.

We weren’t expecting to move away from Liverpool anytime soon when we did the course, but we did. I had a zoom call with a few of them the other week, so that’s nice at least.

I’m still yet to open my hypnobirthing book, but I’ve got 5% left of the Sinead O’Connor book that I’m reading and then I will.


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Imitating B Touching Her Nose (31 Weeks / 1st December 2021)

Self-portrait where I am touching my nose with my left index finger. I am side on to the camera and wearing a grey jumper and leggings. My bump is very visible.
Imitating B Touching Her Nose (31 Weeks / 1st December 2021)
 
#BWillJustRandomlyTouchHerNoseForNoApparentReason
#SoIWillSingHeadShouldersKneesAndToesAndSheWillSpendMostOfTheSongJustTouchingHerNose
#IThinkSheDoesKnowOtherBodyPartsButSheIsCurrentlyFixatedOnHerNose
#YesterdayIAskedHerWhereWasHerTongueAndSheStuckItOut
#SheHasSuddenlyBecomeAMassiveDaredevilAndItIsFreakingMeOut
#StandingOnTheArmOfTheSofaAndFallingBackwardsAndClimbingUpAnArmchairToTryToSlideDownIt
#WhileSheIsGettingMoreEnergeticIAmBecomingMoreTiredAndSlower
#ICanNotGetUpToSaveHerFromHerselfAsQuickAsIUsedTo
#SheKnowsWhatIDoNotLikeHerDoingLikeStandingOnTheCoffeeTableSoSheWatchesMeWhileSheDoesIt
#SheLovesItWhenIGetFreakedOutEnoughToStandUpWhichProbablyDoesNotHelpThings
#JustBeforeBedtimeSheSuddenlyWantsToRunAroundAndHaveTiagoChaseHer
#IUsuallyGetAnnoyedAsIWantHerToCalmDownAndTheOtherDaySheRanIntoADoorFrameWhileSheWasRunningFromT
#ItIsFunnyWhenSheDoesALittleSquealAtBeingChasedAndHasALaughThough
#MyNanSaysSheIsLikeAnOctopusWithHerArmsInEverythingAsSheIsConstantlyOnTheMoveAndMessingWithMyNansStuff
#BabyXsMovementsAreGettingQuitePainfulEspeciallyAtTheFrontOfMyBump
#IThinkBsPlacentaCushionedALotOfHerMovementsWhereasThisTimeThePlacentaIsInADifferentPlaceAndThisBabyIsBigger
#ASonographerDidSayThatSheHasLongLegsSoMaybeSheIsJustTryingThemOutALot
#OrMaybeIAmGettingPunchedMoreOrACombinationOfTheTwo
#OrMaybeItIsAllBraxtonHicksAndICanStillNotTellTheDifferentBetweenThemAndGettingKickedAndOrPunched
#IDoOftenMakeANoiseThoughAsItHurtsSoMuch
#EspeciallyWhenIAmLyingInBedAndAboutToFallAsleepAndIHaveToTryMyBestNotToCurse
#IOftenJustSayToTiagoCanYouTellYourSecondChildToStopBeatingMeUpPlease
#ICouldHave11WeeksOfThisPregnancyLeftAndTheBabyIsMeantToDoubleInSizeInTheThirdTrimester
#IAmABitWorriedAboutAchesAndPainsAsMyBodyIsDefinitelyStartingToFeelTheImpactOfCarryingThisBaby
#MyBackHurtsMoreAndMyBumpAchesAndIAmSoTired
#BDefinitelyStartedNurseryAtTheRightTimeAsIAmJustBecomingABoringTiredBlob
#MasksAreMandatoryInShopsAndOnPublicTransportAgainThoughIAmNotSureWhyTheyEverStoppedBeingSo
#MyGrandIdeaOfTakingBIntoTheCityCentreSeemsToHaveFadedAsIJustWantToBeCarefulAndTheThoughtOfDoingSoIsTooTiring
#TiagoShouldBeCalledForHisBoosterSoonWhenTheAgeDropsAndAsTheGapForTheBoosterHasBeenDroppedFrom6MonthsTo3ItWillNotBeLongUntilICanGetMine
#ICanNotBelieveThatIAmHavingAnotherBabyInTheTimeOfCovidButHereWeAre

#BWillJustRandomlyTouchHerNoseForNoApparentReason

As always I wish she would say why, but I guess she does it because she found she can.

#SoIWillSingHeadShouldersKneesAndToesAndSheWillSpendMostOfTheSongJustTouchingHerNose

Maybe she will touch her head for the first half, then her nose for the second.

#IThinkSheDoesKnowOtherBodyPartsButSheIsCurrentlyFixatedOnHerNose

I can’t wait for her to know all the body parts in the song. I don’t know why – I guess it will feel like an achievement of sorts.

#YesterdayIAskedHerWhereWasHerTongueAndSheStuckItOut

I think she understands a lot more than I think she does.

#SheHasSuddenlyBecomeAMassiveDaredevilAndItIsFreakingMeOut

I am hoping she gets it out of her system now, but I know it is only the start of a new era of B.

#StandingOnTheArmOfTheSofaAndFallingBackwardsAndClimbingUpAnArmchairToTryToSlideDownIt

I was on a video call to my younger sister when she started to do the sofa business. The armchair is quite dangerous as sometimes she doesn’t go very far and other times she tumbles onto the floor…

#WhileSheIsGettingMoreEnergeticIAmBecomingMoreTiredAndSlower

I need a lie down after I finish this…

#ICanNotGetUpToSaveHerFromHerselfAsQuickAsIUsedTo

This bump is becoming a weight and I have to help myself stand up, otherwise I get pains.

#SheKnowsWhatIDoNotLikeHerDoingLikeStandingOnTheCoffeeTableSoSheWatchesMeWhileSheDoesIt

That and sitting on the top cushion of the armchair…

#SheLovesItWhenIGetFreakedOutEnoughToStandUpWhichProbablyDoesNotHelpThings

Sometimes I just ignore her, but I do not know which approach is better. I’m just worried she is going to really hurt herself.

#JustBeforeBedtimeSheSuddenlyWantsToRunAroundAndHaveTiagoChaseHer

Maybe it’s her toothpaste? Someone is playing a mean trick on us.

#IUsuallyGetAnnoyedAsIWantHerToCalmDownAndTheOtherDaySheRanIntoADoorFrameWhileSheWasRunningFromT

The more tired she gets, the clumsier she gets. Fun times.

#ItIsFunnyWhenSheDoesALittleSquealAtBeingChasedAndHasALaughThough

It’s cute, but not just before bedtime.

#MyNanSaysSheIsLikeAnOctopusWithHerArmsInEverythingAsSheIsConstantlyOnTheMoveAndMessingWithMyNansStuff

Nothing is safe anymore. Yesterday she was bashing the house phone with a magnifying glass…

#BabyXsMovementsAreGettingQuitePainfulEspeciallyAtTheFrontOfMyBump

I feel like she would come out through my belly button if she could.

#IThinkBsPlacentaCushionedALotOfHerMovementsWhereasThisTimeThePlacentaIsInADifferentPlaceAndThisBabyIsBigger

*Nervous laugh*

#ASonographerDidSayThatSheHasLongLegsSoMaybeSheIsJustTryingThemOutALot

I’m happy for you sweet, unborn child of mine but it hurts.

#OrMaybeIAmGettingPunchedMoreOrACombinationOfTheTwo

Probably both, plus her doing rolls.

#OrMaybeItIsAllBraxtonHicksAndICanStillNotTellTheDifferentBetweenThemAndGettingKickedAndOrPunched

You’d have thought that I’d know by now, but no.

#IDoOftenMakeANoiseThoughAsItHurtsSoMuch

Some wincing here, some ouches there.

#EspeciallyWhenIAmLyingInBedAndAboutToFallAsleepAndIHaveToTryMyBestNotToCurse

I guess I notice more when I am more relaxed and my guard is down.

#IOftenJustSayToTiagoCanYouTellYourSecondChildToStopBeatingMeUpPlease

I’d love for him to experience pregnancy, even just for one day but oh well.

#ICouldHave11WeeksOfThisPregnancyLeftAndTheBabyIsMeantToDoubleInSizeInTheThirdTrimester

*Nervous laugh*

#IAmABitWorriedAboutAchesAndPainsAsMyBodyIsDefinitelyStartingToFeelTheImpactOfCarryingThisBaby

Writing this now my upper back hurts.

#MyBackHurtsMoreAndMyBumpAchesAndIAmSoTired

I think lifting B doesn’t help things, but that’s why I stretch in the morning and evening.

#BDefinitelyStartedNurseryAtTheRightTimeAsIAmJustBecomingABoringTiredBlob

At first I thought maybe we had signed her up too early, but it was definitely the right decision. She seems to love it too, which is good. T says that she will hug him tight before she goes in, but then is fine.

#MasksAreMandatoryInShopsAndOnPublicTransportAgainThoughIAmNotSureWhyTheyEverStoppedBeingSo

Ergh. I’m too tired to talk about the Government.

#MyGrandIdeaOfTakingBIntoTheCityCentreSeemsToHaveFadedAsIJustWantToBeCarefulAndTheThoughtOfDoingSoIsTooTiring

I do not have the energy to go there via train. I worry that B would get bored anyways.

#TiagoShouldBeCalledForHisBoosterSoonWhenTheAgeDropsAndAsTheGapForTheBoosterHasBeenDroppedFrom6MonthsTo3ItWillNotBeLongUntilICanGetMine

It’s been 2 months since I had mine, so I’m sure by the time it’s 3 months they will have dropped the age so I’m eligible. It’d be good to have it before the baby is born to give her more antibodies and to protect myself in hospital a bit more.

#ICanNotBelieveThatIAmHavingAnotherBabyInTheTimeOfCovidButHereWeAre

It’s been a good time to have kids in a way as I really feel like I’m not missing out on much. It is weird thinking how our lives may be right now if Covid hadn’t happened, but we will never know so there’s no point wasting brain power on it.

31 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

I think my bump is currently bigger than in these photos, but it is hard to tell.

I saw something the other day that said my BMI at the start of my pregnancy was 20.2 this time. The extra scans were unnecessary last time, so I’m glad I didn’t have to worry about that this time – they probably wouldn’t have given me them anyways.

I did read an article the other day about home births having been suspended for a while.

Obviously in the end I did not have a home birth, so it didn’t matter but it was weird not knowing what would happen at the time. Whenever I mentioned to midwives that I wanted a homebirth last time they ask if I want one this time – I’m quite looking forward to a change of scenery in hospital to be fair. (I bet I end up having an accidental home birth…)

With names we agreed on a girl name pretty early for B. We didn’t really discuss it much and in hospital it was weird as Tiago wasn’t able to visit that we didn’t really talk much about names. This time there is also a clear winner for a girl’s name (one we hadn’t even considered for B), though we say we are open to others but I guess it probably will this one. I guess we will have to wait and see. If Baby X does turn out to be a boy, then we are screwed. We really can not decide on a boy’s name…

I have not used the same oil this time. I bought some different oil after B was born, but only started to use it during this pregnancy. It smells so good. Turns out that is meant for pregnancy, but for some reason I thought it was after giving birth. *shrug* My skin hasn’t been so itchy this time which is good.

I swam in the summer, and swimming while pregnant was odd. I didn’t like that it was so uncomfortable to swim on my front. There was a swimming pool at the hotel we stayed at the other week, but I was too tired to try it out. Realistically I don’t think I will be swimming for a while now. We had planned to try to take B as she likes water so much, but yeah it hasn’t happened. Her skin is so sensitive that I don’t like the idea of her in a big bath of chlorine.


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Twelfth Family Portrait (30 Weeks / 28th November 2021)

Family portrait where T is holding B and I am trying to entertain her with the camera remote. T and I are both looking at her, while B's face has been edited so she has no facial features.
Twelfth Family Portrait (30 Weeks / 28th November 2021)
 
#AgainTimeHasFlownByAndItHasBeenOverTwoMonthsSinceTheLastFamilyPortrait
#SoonThereMayBeAFamilyPortraitOfFourOfUsWhichIsAWeirdButExcitingThought
#IAmDefinitelyDoubtingMyMotheringSkillsMoreEspeciallyWithTheSuddenDropInTemperature
#TheOtherDayITookBToTheParkAndSheWasCryingSoMuchOnTheWayHomeAndEvenAfterWeHadGotHome
#ItIsNotFunWalkingALongWayWithACryingChildAndHavingPeopleCommentAboutIt
#IThinkHerHandsHadGottenTooColdSoNowSheAlwaysGoesOutWithHerOversizedMittens
#ThoughWeWentToSeeChristmasLightsBeingTurnedOnAndBWasCryingALotThenToo
#WeWereWithACoupleOfFriendsAndTheirKidAndIThinkBothKidsJustGotBoredAndColdSoWeAllLeftEarly
#WeThoughtItWouldBeANiceThingToDoButAtTheirAgeIGuessTheyDoNotCareAndIFeltOverwhelmedByTheHugeCrowdOfPeople
#SheHadACoupleOfBadFallsTheOtherDayTooWithOneAtThePlaygroundWhereSheFellOutOfACar
#IRanToCatchHerButIAmWaddlingMoreAndMoreTheseDaysAndWasTooSlow
#ThenSheLikesToGetOntoTheCoffeeTablesInTheLivingRoomAndFellForwardOffOfOneToo
#SheHasAClimbingFrameButSheLikesToClimbOnEverythingElseAsObviouslyThatIsWayMoreFun
#ITalkAboutWhatTimeBWakesUpWayTooMuchAndItIsTheFirstCommentIMakeInMyPersonalDiaryEveryDay
#ButYesterdayIWokeBUpJustBeforeEightAndIWasWorriedSheWasDeadAsIKeptCallingHerNameAndSheWouldNotWakeUp
#TodayWeWokeHerUpAtSevenThirtyAndWeDidNotHearHerAtAllDuringTheNight
#SheSeemsToBeSleepingInLongerButBeforeLastNightSheHadBeenWakingUpTwoOrThreeTimesAndTakingAWhileToFallBackAsleep
#LastNightIJustKeptTheHeaterOnLowInHerRoomAllNightWhereasOtherNightsPerhapsSheHasWokenUpAsSheHasBeenTooHotOrTooCold
#SheGoesThroughHerNapAndBedtimeRoutinesOkayButThenCriesOnceSheIsInHerCotThoughSheUsuallyCrawlsInByHerself
#LuckilySheDoesNotCryForLongButIGuessSheIsJustTryingHerLuckAtStayingUpForLonger
#SheTendsToWakeHerFromHerNapAfterFortyMinutesALotThoughIWillLetHerNapForTwoAndAHalfHours
#IHaveStoppedRubbingHerBackToSendHerBackToSleepAsMaybeThatIsSendingMixedMessagesAndYesterdaySheWentBackToSleepByHerself
#IJustTendToResortToRubbingHerBackWhenTIsWorkingAsHeCanHearHerCryingAndSheAlwaysWakesUpAfterIAmJustAboutToFallAsleep
#SheIsGettingReallyGoodAtEatingWithASpoonNowAndWeHaveStoppedTurningHerPorridgeIntoPancakes
#WeAreBoredOfDoingItAndSheWillHappilyEatThePorridgeByHerselfNowWhichIsGood
#TheBabysKicksAreGettingStrongerAndICanReallySeeMyBellyWobbleNow
#BStillSeemsObliviousAboutThereBeingABabyInMyTummyThoughIAmTryingMyBestToMakeHerAware
#IAmLookingForwardToSeeingHowSheWillReactButIAmALittleNervous
#SheHasANewThingWhereSheLikesToTouchOurEyesSoThatWillNotBeAGoodThingToDoToHerSibling
#SheHasNoIdeaAboutHowMuchHerLittleWorldWillChangeSoonButIThinkWeWillAllBeOkay

I said to T: Ready to see your daughter?

I showed him the photo and he pulled a face. Obviously she doesn’t look nice, but it’s good for hiding her face…

#AgainTimeHasFlownByAndItHasBeenOverTwoMonthsSinceTheLastFamilyPortrait

I was waiting to see if I’d have another scan photo (at 28 weeks), but then I realised that my NHS scans were over and yeah time has passed by fast.

#SoonThereMayBeAFamilyPortraitOfFourOfUsWhichIsAWeirdButExcitingThought

I go between nervous, excited, anxious etc. about becoming a mother to two.

#IAmDefinitelyDoubtingMyMotheringSkillsMoreEspeciallyWithTheSuddenDropInTemperature

Oh, the fun.

#TheOtherDayITookBToTheParkAndSheWasCryingSoMuchOnTheWayHomeAndEvenAfterWeHadGotHome

It had rained a lot and someone wanted to go down the slide and splash water off the slide…

#ItIsNotFunWalkingALongWayWithACryingChildAndHavingPeopleCommentAboutIt

Two women with a few dogs were talking to B and I said ‘I don’t think she’s in the mood’, but really I meant that I was not in the mood. B did temporarily stop crying when she saw the dogs…

#IThinkHerHandsHadGottenTooColdSoNowSheAlwaysGoesOutWithHerOversizedMittens

I had stupidly not taken them out with me as I thought pulling her sleeves down on her jacket was enough, but obviously not – especially after they got wet.

#ThoughWeWentToSeeChristmasLightsBeingTurnedOnAndBWasCryingALotThenToo

Le sigh.

#WeWereWithACoupleOfFriendsAndTheirKidAndIThinkBothKidsJustGotBoredAndColdSoWeAllLeftEarly

We got bored of waiting, but then got stuck trying to get home and so saw them being turned on anyways. It definitely was not worth the stress.

#WeThoughtItWouldBeANiceThingToDoButAtTheirAgeIGuessTheyDoNotCareAndIFeltOverwhelmedByTheHugeCrowdOfPeople

It had not been so cold, but that day it had been freezing and once the sun went down it was even colder. B didn’t want to be in her pushchair, but we didn’t want her running around all over the place and Tiago couldn’t keep carrying her.

I was freaked out by how many people were there. I knew it would be busy, but I had not seen so many people in a small space in a very long time. I’m glad that masks are being made mandatory for shops and public transport again…

#SheHadACoupleOfBadFallsTheOtherDayTooWithOneAtThePlaygroundWhereSheFellOutOfACar #IRanToCatchHerButIAmWaddlingMoreAndMoreTheseDaysAndWasTooSlow

I was stood at the front of the car, so I can run either way to catch her in case she falls out and it was a big fail. I was worried Tiago would tell me off, but he said it happens. I told our friend and she said she was surprised that it had not happened yet…

#ThenSheLikesToGetOntoTheCoffeeTablesInTheLivingRoomAndFellForwardOffOfOneToo

Tiago had said that something else bad was probably going to happen that day. I do believe in the ‘rule of 3’… Luckily she fell half onto a cushion/a thick rug. She usually turns around and climbs down backwards, but I think she is starting to get more confident/is a bit of a daredevil.

#SheHasAClimbingFrameButSheLikesToClimbOnEverythingElseAsObviouslyThatIsWayMoreFun

I wrote the hashtags in the living room today while T was about and B was doing her usual faffing. B was just climbing on various things…

#ITalkAboutWhatTimeBWakesUpWayTooMuchAndItIsTheFirstCommentIMakeInMyPersonalDiaryEveryDay

It is probably a big boring part of my work for most people, but it’s on my mind a lot.

#ButYesterdayIWokeBUpJustBeforeEightAndIWasWorriedSheWasDeadAsIKeptCallingHerNameAndSheWouldNotWakeUp

Usually turning the light on, and/or turning off her noise machine makes her wakeup. Not then. I kept calling her name and started to get freaked out. She must have been in a deep sleep…

#TodayWeWokeHerUpAtSevenThirtyAndWeDidNotHearHerAtAllDuringTheNight

Let’s see how long this lasts.

#SheSeemsToBeSleepingInLongerButBeforeLastNightSheHadBeenWakingUpTwoOrThreeTimesAndTakingAWhileToFallBackAsleep

Usually once before we go to bed or just as I’m putting my head down, then usually around 2 or 4…

#LastNightIJustKeptTheHeaterOnLowInHerRoomAllNightWhereasOtherNightsPerhapsSheHasWokenUpAsSheHasBeenTooHotOrTooCold

Usually when she wakes up I mess with the settings on her heater. The radiator in her room doesn’t work, so she has a heater that is plugged into a smart plug so I can control it from my phone.

#SheGoesThroughHerNapAndBedtimeRoutinesOkayButThenCriesOnceSheIsInHerCotThoughSheUsuallyCrawlsInByHerself

Once she’s in I zip it up and she then usually starts to cry…

#LuckilySheDoesNotCryForLongButIGuessSheIsJustTryingHerLuckAtStayingUpForLonger

Or maybe she wants more attention from me? Not sure.

#SheTendsToWakeHerFromHerNapAfterFortyMinutesALotThoughIWillLetHerNapForTwoAndAHalfHours

It seems to be a more frequent occurrence.

#IHaveStoppedRubbingHerBackToSendHerBackToSleepAsMaybeThatIsSendingMixedMessagesAndYesterdaySheWentBackToSleepByHerself

Maybe that is why she has been waking up more at night and taking longer to fall back to sleep? Who knows.

#IJustTendToResortToRubbingHerBackWhenTIsWorkingAsHeCanHearHerCryingAndSheAlwaysWakesUpAfterIAmJustAboutToFallAsleep

The other day I just resigned myself to the fact that she probably wouldn’t go back to sleep and I’d have to make do with a 10 minute nap. I was a bit grumpy for the rest of the day…

#SheIsGettingReallyGoodAtEatingWithASpoonNowAndWeHaveStoppedTurningHerPorridgeIntoPancakes

We probably should have given her a spoon to use earlier on, but she seems to have picked it up quick.

#WeAreBoredOfDoingItAndSheWillHappilyEatThePorridgeByHerselfNowWhichIsGood

Turning the porridge into pancakes just felt like effort. She had started to go too impatient in the mornings so she’d been having just the porridge. Now we warm it up and a bit and now our mornings are a bit easier.

#TheBabysKicksAreGettingStrongerAndICanReallySeeMyBellyWobbleNow

At one point this morning B and the baby both had hiccups.

#BStillSeemsObliviousAboutThereBeingABabyInMyTummyThoughIAmTryingMyBestToMakeHerAware

I need to find some episodes of her favourite TV shows where they talk about it. Is there a pregnancy version of In The Night Garden?

#IAmLookingForwardToSeeingHowSheWillReactButIAmALittleNervous

I hope she likes being a big sister. I just watched her walked around and got a bit emotional thinking about her being a big sister.

#SheHasANewThingWhereSheLikesToTouchOurEyesSoThatWillNotBeAGoodThingToDoToHerSibling

The other day I was lying down and she was trying to touch my eyes. This morning Tiago was holding her, and B was looking at him lovingly and then tried to touch his eyes. She’s more obsessed with touching her own nose though…

#SheHasNoIdeaAboutHowMuchHerLittleWorldWillChangeSoonButIThinkWeWillAllBeOkay

She adapts well to new things. I like to think I adapt quickly. I just asked Tiago how he adapts and he said ‘adapting to stuff is my work’.

30 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

My dreams have been quite vivid lately. Last night I dreamed that my Nan died and one of my sisters was in the process of buying her house…

As B slept so well last night I slept well and didn’t go to the toilet in the night. Hurrah. When B wakes up in the night I usually wait 15 mins before going into her room, and usually pop to the toilet beforehand as there is a big weight pressing on my bladder.

I lay awake for a little bit last night thinking that we should probably buy the other things we need soon. We need to look at another car seat and a heater for our room.

I haven’t done many reshoots for this project, but there have been a couple of times where I just really didn’t like the photos. Looking back I think there are a few shoots that could have been way better, but … oh well.


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