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I Smell Of Sour Milk (21st February 2022)

TW: Bleeding.

Self-portrait where I am standing up and breastfeeding L.
I Smell Of Sour Milk (21st February 2022)
 
#TheOtherNightWasVeryEventfulWithMeGoingToTriageDueToMyBleedingGettingHeavier
#IHadChecked111AndCalled999AgainButAClinicianSaidIWouldBeBetterOffCallingTheHospitalAsMidwivesWouldKnowMoreThanAParamedic
#EveryoneTreatedMeABitLikeAnIdiotForHavingCalled999ButIDidNotKnowThatIShouldCallTheHospitalForSuchThings
#WeGotBOutOfBedAndGotThereBeforeTenAndSheDidNotSleepUntilWeGotHomeAfterOneThirtyEvenThoughTiagoDroveAroundABit
#ItWasOurFirstFamilyTripOutInTheCarAndBWasQuiteExcited
#LCameInWithMeAsINeededToBreastfeedHerAndSheNappedOnMeAndOnTheChairs
#ISawAStudentMidwifeFairlyFastWhoDidMyObservationsAndThenIHadToWaitForAMidwife
#SheAskedSomeMoreQuestionsButSaidItWouldBeBetterForADoctorToSeeMeSoIWentBackToTheWaitingRoom
#TheWaitingRoomWasHotSoIDrankMyWaterFastAndINeededToGoToTheToiletButThereWasNowhereForMeToPutLInTheBathroom
#AtSomePointAMemberOfStaffSawIWasUncomfortableAndAskedIfIWantedAHotDrinkButISaidNoAndAskedHowMuchLongerWouldItBe
#SheCheckedAndSaidNotLongButItWasAnotherHourPlusAfterThat
#IWasCryingInTheWaitingRoomUnderMyMaskAsIWasGettingSoTiredAndWasStressedByTheWholeSituation
#EventuallyADoctorSawMeAndSaidEverythingWasFineButGaveMeSomeAntibiotics
#InTheMorningIPassedABigClotThatLookedABitLikePlacentaAndWasTheReasonIWentInInTheFirstPlace
#TheyHadSaidToBeConcernedIfAClotWasBiggerThanA50pPieceButTheyDidNotTakeMuchNoticeOfIt
#ItHasTakenUsAllAFewDaysToCatchUpOnOurSleepAfterThatEpisode
#IHaveBeenGoingToSleepAsSoonAsLIsSettledIfIFeelTiredEnoughOtherwiseIJustRestInBed
#MyEyeMaskIsSoUsefulNowNotJustForNapsButForNightTimeSleep
#LHasAColdAndIsVerySnottySoWeFinallyGotANasalAspiratorWhichIWishWeHadGotWhenBWasABaby
#TheWeatherIsSoTerribleAndIHaveFeltQuiteTrappedAtHomeWhichIsNotFun
#WithBIDidNotLeaveTheHouseForTwoWeeksButThisTimeIGotOutPrettyEarly
#ICanNotWalkForTooLongAsIAcheButItIsGoodToGetOut
#IFeelBadAsSinceLWasBornIHaveNotAlwaysBeenAtTheWindowToWaveBOffToNurseryOrWelcomeHerHome
#SheLooksOutForMeWhichMakesMeFeelWorseButWhatCanIDo
#TheRegistryOfficeCalledAsTheyOpenedNewSlotsForAppointmentsSoWeGotMovedForwardAMonthAndAHalf
#BreastfeedingIsDefinitelyGoingALotBetterThisTimeThoughWhenMyUnclesCameToVisitIRealisedISmelledOfSourMilk
#IWashMyClothesAndThenPutOnANewTopAndThenLeakOverItAgainPrettyQuickly
#IAmWorriedAboutHowThingsWillBeWhenTiagosPaternityEndsAndIWishHeHadMoreTimeButIWillJustHaveToGetOnWithIt
#IKnowIAmLuckyWithBGoingToNurseryAndMyMumVisitingSoItWillNotBeAnywhereNearAsBadAsItCouldBe
#INeedToWorkOnGettingOutOfTheHouseWithBAndLByMyselfForAWalkWhichIAmQuiteNervousAbout
#AHealthVisitorCameTheOtherDayAndLWasOnly50gOffHerBirthWeightThoughSheThenPissedAllOverTheScalesSoProbablyWasABitMoreOffIt

#TheOtherNightWasVeryEventfulWithMeGoingToTriageDueToMyBleedingGettingHeavier

It had died down quite a bit, so it was a shock to see it get heavy again.

#IHadChecked111AndCalled999AgainButAClinicianSaidIWouldBeBetterOffCallingTheHospitalAsMidwivesWouldKnowMoreThanAParamedic #EveryoneTreatedMeABitLikeAnIdiotForHavingCalled999ButIDidNotKnowThatIShouldCallTheHospitalForSuchThings

A midwife said that 111 will always say to call if bleeding, but they mean A LOT of blood.

#WeGotBOutOfBedAndGotThereBeforeTenAndSheDidNotSleepUntilWeGotHomeAfterOneThirtyEvenThoughTiagoDroveAroundABit

I really thought she’d sleep in the car. Lol.

#ItWasOurFirstFamilyTripOutInTheCarAndBWasQuiteExcited

Especially as she saw L next to her in her seat. She was probably disappointed to just see a hospital car park and a bit of the local area.

#LCameInWithMeAsINeededToBreastfeedHerAndSheNappedOnMeAndOnTheChairs

The lights were super bright and the radio was playing – I didn’t mind the radio, but the lights were a bit much, especially as we were often the only ones in the waiting room. I felt a bit awkward being the only one there with a baby.

#ISawAStudentMidwifeFairlyFastWhoDidMyObservationsAndThenIHadToWaitForAMidwife

Blood pressure, oxygen levels, all that fun.

#SheAskedSomeMoreQuestionsButSaidItWouldBeBetterForADoctorToSeeMeSoIWentBackToTheWaitingRoom

I thought ‘it won’t be long’.

#TheWaitingRoomWasHotSoIDrankMyWaterFastAndINeededToGoToTheToiletButThereWasNowhereForMeToPutLInTheBathroom

I thought about asking someone at reception to watch her, but I thought I’d be called in soon and I didn’t want to miss my name being called. Her car seat isn’t one of those that you take in and out of the car, so she was just in my arms a lot.

#AtSomePointAMemberOfStaffSawIWasUncomfortableAndAskedIfIWantedAHotDrinkButISaidNoAndAskedHowMuchLongerWouldItBe #SheCheckedAndSaidNotLongButItWasAnotherHourPlusAfterThat

Fun times. It was nice of her to check on us though. I know they’re all overworked and understaffed so I’m not blaming them. I probably was at the top of the list at times, but then people who had just been given birth were probably then given priority which is fair enough.

#IWasCryingInTheWaitingRoomUnderMyMaskAsIWasGettingSoTiredAndWasStressedByTheWholeSituation

I was about to crack and went to reception to ask how long it’d be, then just as I opened my mouth at the window they called my name. Typical.

#EventuallyADoctorSawMeAndSaidEverythingWasFineButGaveMeSomeAntibiotics

Love having a speculum examination with stitches. As soon as I got in the room I asked if they could hold L while I went to the toilet.

#InTheMorningIPassedABigClotThatLookedABitLikePlacentaAndWasTheReasonIWentInInTheFirstPlace

It seemed to be stuck and I showed Tiago and he was concerned too. After all that waiting I wish I had not even noticed it, but it’s better to be safe than sorry.

#TheyHadSaidToBeConcernedIfAClotWasBiggerThanA50pPieceButTheyDidNotTakeMuchNoticeOfIt

This was bigger than a 50p piece. After I delivered the placenta the midwife had to use a hook to remove a bit of it that was stuck, so I wouldn’t be surprised if it was placenta – and I know how dangerous it can be to retain some which is another reason why I went to get checked out.

#ItHasTakenUsAllAFewDaysToCatchUpOnOurSleepAfterThatEpisode

I’m just tired all the time. I think breastfeeding is tiring too.

#IHaveBeenGoingToSleepAsSoonAsLIsSettledIfIFeelTiredEnoughOtherwiseIJustRestInBed

I’ve been watching all the Love Is Blind franchises and doing my Wordle and Quordles. Today I started to read The Beach.

#MyEyeMaskIsSoUsefulNowNotJustForNapsButForNightTimeSleep

I love my eye mask. I never used one prior to B being born. L seems to wake up if I turn our light out straight after putting her down, so I let it dim and turn off, so the eye mask is useful.

#LHasAColdAndIsVerySnottySoWeFinallyGotANasalAspiratorWhichIWishWeHadGotWhenBWasABaby

It’s a bit of a faff with L, but it works. It’s easier with B (I thought it’d be the other way around) and we have a laugh with it.

#TheWeatherIsSoTerribleAndIHaveFeltQuiteTrappedAtHomeWhichIsNotFun

Storm Eunice I despise thee. I think it’s Storm Franklin now…

#WithBIDidNotLeaveTheHouseForTwoWeeksButThisTimeIGotOutPrettyEarly

I needed to. I go stir crazy in this house.

#ICanNotWalkForTooLongAsIAcheButItIsGoodToGetOut

I don’t want to get crushed by a tree though. I’ll be happy when we can get L into a routine and I can get out for a walk after B wakes up from her nap.

#IFeelBadAsSinceLWasBornIHaveNotAlwaysBeenAtTheWindowToWaveBOffToNurseryOrWelcomeHerHome #SheLooksOutForMeWhichMakesMeFeelWorseButWhatCanIDo

Hopefully she understands. Often I’m napping or upstairs feeding L.

#TheRegistryOfficeCalledAsTheyOpenedNewSlotsForAppointmentsSoWeGotMovedForwardAMonthAndAHalf

Hurrah. We want to get L’s passport sorted out ASAP, so this is good news. Tiago will go by himself to register her though.

#BreastfeedingIsDefinitelyGoingALotBetterThisTimeThoughWhenMyUnclesCameToVisitIRealisedISmelledOfSourMilk

Lovely. Luckily I don’t get too close to them because of Covid, so I hopefully get away with it.

#IWashMyClothesAndThenPutOnANewTopAndThenLeakOverItAgainPrettyQuickly

I’ve started to put a muslin over L when I feed her, as changing her is a faff let alone having to do it more because I’ve leaked over her.

#IAmWorriedAboutHowThingsWillBeWhenTiagosPaternityEndsAndIWishHeHadMoreTimeButIWillJustHaveToGetOnWithIt

Two weeks isn’t enough.

#IKnowIAmLuckyWithBGoingToNurseryAndMyMumVisitingSoItWillNotBeAnywhereNearAsBadAsItCouldBe

Seriously I need to stop whining. I’ll cope.

#INeedToWorkOnGettingOutOfTheHouseWithBAndLByMyselfForAWalkWhichIAmQuiteNervousAbout

I need to set up the pushchair for both of them, but I’m happy just wearing L for now.

#AHealthVisitorCameTheOtherDayAndLWasOnly50gOffHerBirthWeightThoughSheThenPissedAllOverTheScalesSoProbablyWasABitMoreOffIt

Lol. I said I bet it’s not the first time and she said she’d lost count. She gave us a couple of books, which is nice as they did not do that in Liverpool.


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