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I Need To Stop Whining And Get Over Myself (7th April 2021)

I Need To Stop Whining And Get Over Myself (7th April 2021)
 
#AfterIHadWrittenMyHashtagsAndDoneMyShootTheOtherDayBSuddenlyStartedToBabbleLoads
#SheSaysDadaQuiteClearlyThoughWeNeverReallySaidItToHerBeforeAsWeCallTiagoHerPaiMoreThanHerDad
#ItIsObviouslyJustASoundThatBabiesCanMakeQuiteEasily
#TiagoWasTellingBThatIAmHerBigDadaAndThatHeIsTheLittleDada
#SheHasPhasesWhereSheBabblesLoadsAndThenSheWillNotSayAnythingForAWhile
#WeAreStillGettingUsedToHearingHerBabblingButItIsReallyCute
#ICanStillNotImagineHavingProperConversationsWithHerOneDay
#ButItIsLikeSheHasAlwaysBeenCrawlingNowSoIAmSureItWillBecomeNormalFast
#WeHadSomeTiramisuAtTheWeekendAndIFeltQuiteTipsyAfterwardsAsIHaveNotHadADrinkForAWhile
#SometimesIThinkAboutHavingADrinkButThenIUsuallyHaveLotsOfStuffToDoSoIDoNotBother
#IAmStillFeelingABitWeirdAboutHavingQuitMyJob
#IDoNotLikeToQuitThingsButIThinkItWasTheRightDecision
#IWasSoTiredOnMondayThatIDoNotSeeHowIWouldHaveManagedToDoAShiftAnyways
#MyBossCameToPickUpMyThingsYesterdayAndIDidNotEvenSeeHimSinceHeSaidICouldJustLeaveItByTheFrontDoor
#IFeltSoRubbishAtTheJobAsIWasSoAnxiousAboutKnockingOnPeoplesDoors
#ItHasAffectedMyConfidenceABitButHopefullyIWillGetOverItAllSoon
#IDefinitelyFeltABitRunDownPerhapsAsMyBodyWasLikeOkayYouCanRelaxNowThatThatIsOver
#IHadSomeCovidTestsLeftOverFromMyJobSoITookOneJustInCaseButItWasNegative
#IDoNotFindThemThatUncomfortableThoughTheyDoMakeMeGagAndSneeze
#BHasABabyClassNextWeekWhichIAmExcitedForButAlsoAnxiousAbout
#IAmWorriedAboutHowSheWillReactToItAllButIAmSureSheWillBeFine
#MyYoungerSisterCameToVisitUsAndBCriedAtHerForAWhile
#ByTheTimeSheLeftThoughBWasABitObsessedWithHerSoItJustShowsThatSheNeedsALittleTimeToAdapt
#IAmMostWorriedAboutBTryingToCrawlAwayWhenWeProbablyNeedToStayFirmlyOnOurMat
#ButIAmSureSheWillJustEnjoySittingAndLookingAtOtherPeople
#YesterdayOnTheSwingsSheWasJustStaringAtEveryoneAgain
#IFeelSoAwkwardAsObviouslyWeAreTaughtThatItIsNotPoliteToStare
#IAmSurePeopleDoNotMindAsTheyKnowSheIsJustABabyButStill
#SometimesItIsAGoodWayToMakeConversationButSometimesItDoesNotHappen
#IDidAShootWithBAndIThinkWeBothExperiencedEveryKindOfEmotionDuringIt

Well, this has never happened before – I managed to not post this and not realise this for two posts. Good work!

#AfterIHadWrittenMyHashtagsAndDoneMyShootTheOtherDayBSuddenlyStartedToBabbleLoads

I feel like she used to be quite ‘talkative’ when she was younger and then she went quieter. It was a bit of a shock to hear her babbling with quite clear sounds.

#SheSaysDadaQuiteClearlyThoughWeNeverReallySaidItToHerBeforeAsWeCallTiagoHerPaiMoreThanHerDad

Pai is Dad in Portuguese.

#ItIsObviouslyJustASoundThatBabiesCanMakeQuiteEasily

Maybe that’s where Dad came from?

‘Dada? That can be your name for me but it sounds a bit babyish so what about Dad?’

#TiagoWasTellingBThatIAmHerBigDadaAndThatHeIsTheLittleDada

Lol. I wonder when she will say Mama though.

#SheHasPhasesWhereSheBabblesLoadsAndThenSheWillNotSayAnythingForAWhile

She likes to babble to the stepladder in the kitchen, and last night she was talking to the bin a lot?

#WeAreStillGettingUsedToHearingHerBabblingButItIsReallyCute

I wonder what her voice will sound like when she’s older, and what accent she’ll have?

#ICanStillNotImagineHavingProperConversationsWithHerOneDay

It’s a weird thought, but I’m looking forward to it. It’s weird spending so much of my time with someone who doesn’t talk back to me…

#ButItIsLikeSheHasAlwaysBeenCrawlingNowSoIAmSureItWillBecomeNormalFast

It’s probably only been a month and a half? I can’t even remember now. It’s like she’s always done it.

#WeHadSomeTiramisuAtTheWeekendAndIFeltQuiteTipsyAfterwardsAsIHaveNotHadADrinkForAWhile

Absolute lightweight.

#SometimesIThinkAboutHavingADrinkButThenIUsuallyHaveLotsOfStuffToDoSoIDoNotBother

I didn’t have time for after effects of alcohol before having a baby, and I definitely do not have time for it now.

#IAmStillFeelingABitWeirdAboutHavingQuitMyJob

Ergh.

#IDoNotLikeToQuitThingsButIThinkItWasTheRightDecision

Oh definitely.

#IWasSoTiredOnMondayThatIDoNotSeeHowIWouldHaveManagedToDoAShiftAnyways

I guess I would have just got on with it, but my body felt so heavy then and it feels heavy now.

#MyBossCameToPickUpMyThingsYesterdayAndIDidNotEvenSeeHimSinceHeSaidICouldJustLeaveItByTheFrontDoor

I put it out early as I knew I had to get B ready for a nap around the time he said he’d drop by. I checked a couple of minutes later before I had even started to get B ready and it was already gone.

I was worried it had been stolen, but he never rang/texted/knocked so I’m sure it’s fine.

#IFeltSoRubbishAtTheJobAsIWasSoAnxiousAboutKnockingOnPeoplesDoors

It’s not great when you’re balancing everything to do a job that you feel so rubbish at and anxious about.

#ItHasAffectedMyConfidenceABitButHopefullyIWillGetOverItAllSoon

I need to focus and get over myself as I need to find other work now. Why do I have to be so awkward?

#IDefinitelyFeltABitRunDownPerhapsAsMyBodyWasLikeOkayYouCanRelaxNowThatThatIsOver

Yesterday I just napped/rested when B did.

#IHadSomeCovidTestsLeftOverFromMyJobSoITookOneJustInCaseButItWasNegative

I just felt a bit unwell, but I think it’s just how I feel in the morning when I get up sometimes. I took the test just in case, and I soon felt better anyways.

#IDoNotFindThemThatUncomfortableThoughTheyDoMakeMeGagAndSneeze

Fun times. I think soon everyone in the UK will be able to do tests twice a week, so maybe I’ll get used to them and they won’t take so long due to all the sneezing. It’s like sticking a little duster up my nose…

#BHasABabyClassNextWeekWhichIAmExcitedForButAlsoAnxiousAbout

I CAN NOT BELIEVE THAT IT IS NEARLY TIME TO GO.

#IAmWorriedAboutHowSheWillReactToItAllButIAmSureSheWillBeFine

It has been 4ish months since her last in person class.

#MyYoungerSisterCameToVisitUsAndBCriedAtHerForAWhile

‘Who is this strange woman in my territory?’

#ByTheTimeSheLeftThoughBWasABitObsessedWithHerSoItJustShowsThatSheNeedsALittleTimeToAdapt

I was really surprised that she cried as we do see her for walks from time to time, but I guess it has been a few weeks since we last saw her.

#IAmMostWorriedAboutBTryingToCrawlAwayWhenWeProbablyNeedToStayFirmlyOnOurMat

I’m sure she won’t be the only little escape artist. It’s going to be weird, but hopefully fun. I need to pack a going out bag for B. I haven’t had to do that for a long time…

#ButIAmSureSheWillJustEnjoySittingAndLookingAtOtherPeople

I am hoping she loves seeing lots of people her own age.

#YesterdayOnTheSwingsSheWasJustStaringAtEveryoneAgain

I’ve probably talked about it before; she does just stare at everyone at the playground.

#IFeelSoAwkwardAsObviouslyWeAreTaughtThatItIsNotPoliteToStare #IAmSurePeopleDoNotMindAsTheyKnowSheIsJustABabyButStill

Some people react well, some people are a little awkward. I don’t blame them.

#SometimesItIsAGoodWayToMakeConversationButSometimesItDoesNotHappen

‘Yes B, there are other people in the world.’ ‘Sorry, she’s not used to seeing other people.’ ‘Yeah, she’s a proper lockdown baby.’

#IDidAShootWithBAndIThinkWeBothExperiencedEveryKindOfEmotionDuringIt

Happy, sad, annoyed, frustrated – you name it we both went there.


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