I wasn’t sure what shoot to do today. I was thinking a family shoot, but it’s easier to just do one by myself and save the next family shoot for the four of us. It also might be the last shoot that I do while pregnant, so I want to document my bump well.
I’ve always said I’m not really sure what are kicks and what are Braxton Hicks, but after a bit more reading it seems like BH makes your bump go tight for quite a while. I was having a lot of them last night.
They asked me if I wanted an in or out patient induction. I had no clue about the difference, so luckily her phone went dead so I had some time to ask her a bit more before she rang back. An out patient means I would be given a pessary to use at home, labour at home, but I’d have to go in earlier that day or the day before for a scan. In patient means I’ll have it there, but we’ll have to go in at some point for Covid tests. In patient seems easier as my parents can have B and hopefully things would happen fast as I’d be so due. (I read that inductions happen more effectively the more pregnant you are.)
With B my waters broke, I went to hospital, they wouldn’t let me go home as she was breech and had me on a countdown to a c-section. Luckily I went into labour (by staying calm and relaxed) and just laboured at the hospital, then got transferred to the delivery suite when I was in established labour.
(These shoots have been really stressing me out. I doubt I’ll get to 42 weeks, so I hope this is the last time I have to do one. I’m definitely disappointed that they don’t line up better – I wish I’d known that I’d repeat this shot, or thought about it more and made my life easier by standing or something.)
Fingers crossed. Probably not as when the baby is actually coming I need to get organised – finish packing the last bits of my hospital bag (things that I use every day like phone charger and toiletries), get B’s stuff organised etc.
It was a struggle when T and I were both ill last month and had to look after B. Plus having a newborn baby = more difficulty. No thanks, I’d rather avoid getting it. I probably won’t be venturing anywhere indoors with Baby for a while anyways, but no masks puts me off going to a few possible places that I could go to.
Also, my Nan is quite elderly and I do not want her catching it – though she goes out shopping way more than I do. She needs to go out for sanity, so I hope people who do not wear masks keep their distance.
I’ll say ‘run to the cupboard’ ‘run to the window’ etc. She’ll do it about 10 times. I joke that I am training her for marathons already. She has been napping better lately, it’s probably just her being under the weather but it’s good to wear her out too.
One we see most days, and the other one we have only met a couple of times but is a therapy dog and used to little kids patting it. She still won’t go near the big dogs though, unless they come over to her and sniff her, which they like to do from time to time…
Last time I had a bit of diastasis recti, so I felt a bit proud that I’ve avoided that (I think) this time. I don’t see why they’re so strong though – I guess just from the stretches, picking up B(?), and from sitting up by rolling onto my side first.
B is having a bit of a throwing phase, so I’m going to have to be careful with where I lay Baby X down. I like to imagine B just looking at X intently, but I’m also worried she might try to feed her all her foods.
I’ve seen the appointment in my calendar for ages, but the midwife mentioned it was for a sweep. I was about to leave, so I didn’t say ‘do I have to have it etc?’ as I know they are optional. If the baby isn’t born just after the due date, then they might want to hang on. I have an appointment booked in with my midwife for the week after which would be another sweep, so I’d rather just wait until then, but I also do not want to be induced either really so we’ll see…
I’m not entirely convinced that this baby isn’t breech, or will not be by the time I give birth though. I do think I might be at home longer though. Having B complicates things as my Mum needs to come and get her, if she isn’t here already etc.
It’s from having B and always being out and about our local area. Some I know as they talk to other dog owners and so I have got to know them that way. It’s really nice going for a walk and sometimes having a chat with three people. B isn’t so impressed though…
I’ve mentioned it before. It was easier to give it to her in her water when she was younger, and it encourages her to drink so it’s fine. I really don’t like the taste of it, but she only has plain water or milk otherwise, so it’s probably exciting to her.
I asked if I could have a hug and she ignored me. Then I opened up my cardigan and she ran to me. Tiago came in the room and I held it out wide to hide her from view, so she had a laugh while Tiago pretended that he couldn’t see her and looked for her.
I only knew a couple of his songs until 6ish months ago, but then suddenly really got into a lot more of his music. He’s been the soundtrack to a lot of B’s meals, and weirdly yesterday I suddenly had an urge to listen to his music after having a bit of a break. Thanks for the music Meat Loaf.
(I’ve said before that I don’t like doing these shoots. I probably spent the longest on this one, and it’s still quite off. I’m a lot lower than I am in the other photos, but for my sanity I had to stop trying to get it right. I’m frustrated, but I’m also tired and 38 weeks pregnant so I’m going to let myself off – for now and then be annoyed about it for the rest of my life probably.)
Yesterday she had her shoe balanced on her foot and brought it towards her face. It fell off and her face nearly made me cry, as she didn’t cry out but her lip was quivering and I felt awful (I’d been trying to put it on over two pairs of socks). This wasn’t why she was miserable though – I just thought about it.
Tiago told me later he texted my Mum at 4 in the morning to say I hadn’t slept much and to tell me to have a lie down in case I didn’t ask. I tried to sleep, but found it hard. B looked tired all morning and I had to wake her up from her nap.
I was surprised that she was hanging around, but it made for sense for her to do that then go home and potentially come back. She was getting ready to leave, but I said could she hang on for another half an hour just in case as by that point she would have had to turn around by the time she got home. Luckily she did. The roads were quite icy too and as he hadn’t slept much I didn’t want him to be rushing home.
We’ll just have to wait and see. The sonographer said as I’ve had a breech baby before I probably won’t need to argue my case so much, and that if I’ve had a breech baby before then I can handle a back to back baby. I just need to stay calm.
I was saying to Tiago that maybe I am just saying this as I am pregnant, but if I was not pregnant would I want to be trying to get pregnant now with B being more independent? I got pregnant while she was still pretty dependent. I guess I would. I just want to get the baby phase over and done with.
B going to nursery is definitely going to make a big difference, and I’m lucky that we are in the position to send her.
37 weeks pregnant with B comparison:
(This is actually the last photo that I took of myself pregnant for the project.)
I would have liked to have remade this photo, but this was when we lived in Liverpool, and we now live in Birmingham.
Maybe there were warning signs – like cramps in the top of my left leg. When I was having surges with B my legs would cramp up.
Last night the baby had hiccups and I was trying to work out if they were head down or not.
My sent my makeup to make Máscara like images. They arrived the day before B was born and luckily it was my day off and I took photos. I only liked a couple of images. I did a shoot the other day and they seem a lot better.
Last night we went to bed at 9. T fell asleep straight away, whereas I probably fell asleep half an hour later. I woke up quite a lot of times, but eventually got up at 6.30 as B was awake.
My brain just stayed stuck on a breech baby for the rest of the appointment and I forgot to ask about hospital restrictions etc.
B wasn’t breech at her 36 week appointment, so I’m wondering if this appointment hadn’t been delayed would Baby X have been breech at the original appointment time? I’m thinking that they might not have been. I guess at least this time I am aware that the baby is breech at this point (though B was born at 37+5, and I believe she became breech the day before she was born).
She said not to be worried about the growth as it might just be down to having different midwives at every appointment, and everyone measures differently. With B I had the same midwife measuring me, except for one appointment when she thought someone else should see me in case she wasn’t able to be at B’s birth – spoiler: neither of them were at B’s birth.
I’ve gone from feeling stressed to relaxed and back again a lot lately. It’s too much. Now I’ve had a bit of time to process things I feel a bit more relaxed.
I’m just worried if they turn the baby that it might turn back again, but it is what it is. I just want to try a water birth this time. I don’t feel like I can go through arguing my way out of a c-section again, but who knows how things will be on the day of the birth.
There’s more encouragement. The notes say about her looking to her peers and wanting them to join in with her etc. An example is she went to play with some animal hand puppets then smiled to her peers to join her. She put her hand in the puppets, which also explains why she started to do that at home not long ago. Nursery is obviously doing her a lot of good!
It’s very hit and miss. Same with the ‘From Head To Toe’ book as sometimes she will do the actions, and sometimes she won’t. I guess it depends on her mood, and she isn’t on the planet to perform for me.
It’s good. I get worried about her, but she is usually in a good mood despite everything.
37 weeks comparison with B:
I think the day before I had still been 36 weeks.
Chocolate oat milk has been a big treat of mine this pregnancy too. I haven’t been as healthy this time with food this time I think, since I live with my Nan who has a massive sweet tooth and I have been indulging in crisps a bit lately.
I was not planning on using my medical aid this time as I was worried that that is what made B turn round, but now I might give it a go as I have nothing to lose. I also need to look at my colostrum kit, but I don’t know if I can really produce any yet.
Spoiler alert – I had to go to hospital with B.
I was obviously in a good place mentally in regards to giving birth. I need to get there again, so I need to binge on as much hypnobirthing stuff as I can…
I can still do up the inner zip of this coat, so though this baby may be bigger than B was, my bump is obviously not bigger in some ways. Not sure.
I feel like I need to nest, but B has so much stuff that it is hard to. We can not set up the cot yet as it is at my parent’s house for in case they have to have B. I think I will keep B in her cot, and use their one for the new baby.
I try to have a nap every day when B does as otherwise I regret it. I often do not feel sleepy, but manage to sleep for a bit.
This picture is a remake of #1 (last image) and #2 (also last image).
My bump has definitely dropped, and the midwife commented on it (she saw me 2 or 3 appointments ago?)
This time around I tried to remake images more often.
I gave Tiago a haircut last week in case I didn’t have the opportunity to do it again for a while.
I think he is also looking forward to relaxing with a baby on his chest again. Those were sweet moments…
I knew that when we were trying to get pregnant that I might have another Covid baby, but I did not think that cases would be so bad again and that there would be such hospital restrictions. Fun times.
We haven’t been able to find her 0-3 month clothes, but her sleepsuits were so worn anyways that it’s probably nicer for the baby to have new ones. I got them in a sale, and I dressed B’s in hers all day every day so we’ll get the use out of them.
Yesterday she unzipped her sleepsuit (she generally wears her sleepsuits all day unless she has nursery as it’s so easy to layer clothes over them if we go out – I ordered her a couple of 12-18 months suits as she is still in 6-12 months and the 18-24 months that I bought look massive) and was looking at it.
If we moved out now I’d be at home with two kids all week, so it makes sense to stay here until our big move. Respect to the people who stay at home with their kids all week, but it seems too much for me. Sending B to nursery has been such a big relief in my third trimester.
I know that every week day I will have some help now, which I am very grateful for and realise I am extremely privileged to have (T works all week, and my Nan can do some things but I can’t just leave her alone with B for 5 hours).
I can’t wait for her to start saying actual words and for us to have conversations. It sounds like she has a nice voice.
36 weeks pregnant with B comparison:
I’ve been sleeping better this time, but it’s probably because I am tired from looking after B and the mattress at my Nan’s is comfier. I feel like I don’t have to turn over so much for pain reasons.
I miss our favourite falafel place. There is a falafel place that we get takeaway from here, but I’m not sure if it is as good. I don’t get salt headaches from this place though, which is good.
I was glad in the end that she came early as I did not have to wait and it was so unexpected when my waters broke. This time I’m on high alert, so it’s not as fun, though I guess I think this one won’t be so early. We’ll see.
I feel a bit more unprepared in ways – like I haven’t read/watched as much, but it’s not that long since B was a newborn and I know a bit more about looking after a baby this time (you’d hope).
I definitely took B on a lot of walks. I’m looking forward to taking baby X on walks while B is at nursery, and listening to podcasts and things. I feel like I haven’t had earphones in in a long time – though in Liverpool no one spoke to me, whereas I know a lot of local people now. It’ll be nice to show off the baby a bit.
In all honesty I am not going to miss doing these shoots. I find them quite annoying and frustrating. I think especially now as I can see the errors I made earlier on. I should have just stood up, but I did not take the original one with the plan of repeating it every month. If I had thought about it more then I would have done it differently…
I can not really tell, but I guess the baby is getting bigger and getting ready so it makes sense.
I’d buy more of the same sleepsuits but they’re not cheap, and the baby might not be in them for long. Especially if they’re bigger than B was. Also, as we are not planning to have more kids it does not make sense. We need a few more though, so hopefully we can borrow some or find some alright ones second hand.
Yesterday, I made a video of B poking my belly button then just smacking it. I kept saying gentle, but she did not seem to get the message… In the end I had to stop filming and stop her.
Sometimes she seems older. Sometimes she looks so tall, sometimes she doesn’t. It’s weird.
I lay in bed yesterday just feeling quite emotional. I also just couldn’t wait for B to wake up from her nap so I could cuddle her, but I was relieved that she had the best nap that she had had in ages.
Cue B walking around with a whole banana. I didn’t want her to eat the whole thing, so T took it off her, tore a bit off of it and gave that to her. B then just lay on the floor and was not happy. Fun times.
36 weeks pregnant with B comparison:
When I was thinking about how I am excited to meet Baby X yesterday, I was thinking about when I met B for the first time. Birth is a bizarre thing.
I am hoping this time that things will not be such a shock to the system – I know how to change nappies at least.
I had forgot about the one week in bed, one week on the sofa thing. I didn’t get out for a walk with B until 2 weeks-ish, so it makes sense. I guess it depends on how you feel. I felt sore…
I would say that I am quite active now too.
I am mainly nervous that there will not be enough staff that are Covid-free to have an okay birth experience. With B they gave me time (after I kept saying no to a c-section) to birth naturally, but will they have less patience this time (it’s also a different hospital).
We didn’t make it to Portugal until B was 14 months-ish old. B is still yet to meet one Aunt, Uncle and cousin.
I guess last time it was the summer, so the nights were shorter. I’m also more tired this time as I have B to look after so sleep hasn’t been so much of a problem. I do wear a mask when I have a nap though.
I was really not expecting it to be, but actually it was! B came at 37+5, so it was my last full week without a lot of responsibility.
I’m still no good at plans. This year, I just want to keep making work, and move. Then once we move I need to figure out a lot of things. I’m excited though.
I think having a child has given me more confidence in some ways. I like to think I am more efficient and organised too. I don’t have much time to faff. I love to do lists more than ever.
I’ve said it before – I want this baby to look a bit more like me, but I want B and baby X to look like siblings. We’ll have to wait and see – and B’s face just keeps changing.