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Portrait of A Mother Of A Seventeen Month Old (28 Weeks / 14th November 2021)

Self-portrait lying on the bed in a bra and leggings. I am cradling my bump with my right hand and have my left hand resting on my face. I am leaning on and against a maternity pillow.
Portrait Of A Mother Of A Seventeen Month Old (28 Weeks / 14th November 2021)
 
#IKnowIHaveTakenALotOfPicturesOfMyselfLookingTiredInThePastForThisProjectWithinAProject
#ButThisTimeIReallyAmTiredAndBeforeIDoNotThinkIKnewWhatTheMeaningOfTiredWas
#OrMaybeIWasTiredThenButIFeelExhaustedNowAndProbablyShouldBeSavingMyEnergyAndNotTryingToDoABitOfWork
#IWentToBedFourNightsAgoFeelingLikeIWasMaybeGoingToBeSickButThoughtItWouldPass
#IBarelySleptAndGotUpToGoToTheBathroomAroundOneThirtyInTheMorningAndKeptBeingSickThenFinallyStoppedButWasSickAgainAfterASitDown
#BActuallySleptUntilSixForOnceAndIWasSickWhenIGotUpThenButFeltFineEnoughToDoMyMorningExerciseButThenICrashed
#IWentBackToBedAndTWatchedBThenIWatchedBForAnHourThenMyMumCameAndWatchedBUntilLunch
#ThenIGotUpToGiveHerLunchAndSheHadFallenAsleepOnMyMumSoTiagoWatchedHerDuringHisLunchThenSheNappedAndINapped
#IWasSurprisedThatBSleptForTwoHoursButIGotHerUpAndPutHerInOurBedButThenISuddenlyFeltSick
#SoIManagedToPutHerOnTheFloorAndRunToTheBathroomWhereIWasSickAndIMeanSickkk
#IThinkItIsExhaustionAndTheSicknessIsASideEffectOfItThoughIHaveNotBeenSickSinceButHaveFeltLikeIWillBeAtTimes
#BeforeBWasBornIDidUsedToSpendAWeekendInBedAtLeastOnceAYearButObviouslyItIsHardToDoThatNow
#TypicallyItHappenedAfterBStartedNurseryButIGuessMyBodyKnewICouldBeIllSoItWaitedUntilThenAndIHaveNotReallyBeenIllSinceBWasBorn
#BHasBeenABitUpAndDownAsWellButMaybeItIsDueToStartingNurseryAndHavingALeapAndTeethingAndBeingFrustratedAtNotBeingAbleToTalk
#WeGaveHerLunchYesterdayAndSheJustPushedItAllToTheFloorSoICriedAsIWasSoTired
#WeThoughtItWasBecauseSheWasOvertiredSoWeJustPutHerDownForHerNapAndSheWokeUpAfter40Minutes
#TiagoNeededARestAndIFeltTooTiredToLookAfterHerSoIGotIntoHerCotAndRubbedHerBackUntilSheFellBackToSleep
#IManagedToGetOutOfHerCotAndOutOfTheRoomWithoutHerWakingUpAndSheSleptForNearlyTwoMoreHours
#IDoWorryHowIAmGoingToCopeWithTwoKidsButIAmHopingThatIWillSomehowFeelLessTiredWhenTheBabyIsOutAndNotTakingAllMyNutrientsButIDoubtIt
#IHaveBarelyHadAnAppetiteButIHaveBeenMakingMyselfEatForTheBabysSake
#IDidHaveMy28WeeksMidwifeAppointmentThoughAndSheSaidEverythingSeemedFineButThatIShouldDrinkMore
#IDidNotRealiseThatIWasGoingToHaveABloodTestButLuckilyIHadForcedMyselfToEatASandwichBeforeGoing
#SheSaidTheBabyWasMeasuringWellAndThatSheHasAPercentileOf50Percent
#SheToldMeThatBHadAPercentileOf32WhenSheWasBornWhichIDidNotKnowSoThisBabyIsDefinitelyBiggerForNow
#IActuallyThoughtBHadBeenLessThan32SoThatIsGoodToKnow
#SheWasTryingToFigureOutWhereTheBabysHeadWasButSaidItDoesNotMatterAsBTurnedAroundTheDayBeforeSheWasBornAnyways
#ThisWeekendMyParentsAreDueToLookAfterBAndIAmABitNervousWithAllHerEarlyWakings
#WeChangedOurHotelYesterdaySoThatWeAreStayingCloseToOurFavouriteIndianRestaurantInsteadAndTheRoomHasABigBathAsIDoNotKnowIfIWillHaveTheEnergyToSwim
#IHadABathTheOtherDayWhenTiagoHadToTakeACoupleOfHoursOffToLookAfterB
#IWasBoredOfLyingInBedAndThoughtItWouldDoMeGoodAndItWasTheFirstBathIHadEverHadWhilePregnantAndItWasGreatThoughIDidFeelGuiltyForHavingToUseSoMuchWater

#IKnowIHaveTakenALotOfPicturesOfMyselfLookingTiredInThePastForThisProjectWithinAProject #ButThisTimeIReallyAmTiredAndBeforeIDoNotThinkIKnewWhatTheMeaningOfTiredWas

I’m yet to do the shoot, but I think I will be probably lying down or some kind of pose that means little effort for my body.

(Yeah, a classic lie across the bed pose. I was initially wearing a dress, but I didn’t like how it looked in the photos/you couldn’t see my bump as well.)

#OrMaybeIWasTiredThenButIFeelExhaustedNowAndProbablyShouldBeSavingMyEnergyAndNotTryingToDoABitOfWork

I’ve been umming and ahh-ing about whether or not to write this today etc.

#IWentToBedFourNightsAgoFeelingLikeIWasMaybeGoingToBeSickButThoughtItWouldPass #IBarelySleptAndGotUpToGoToTheBathroomAroundOneThirtyInTheMorningAndKeptBeingSickThenFinallyStoppedButWasSickAgainAfterASitDown

I wish I had just made myself be sick before going to bed, but I really hoped it would pass.

#BActuallySleptUntilSixForOnceAndIWasSickWhenIGotUpThenButFeltFineEnoughToDoMyMorningExerciseButThenICrashed

Classic.

#IWentBackToBedAndTWatchedBThenIWatchedBForAnHourThenMyMumCameAndWatchedBUntilLunch

By watching B I mean I just laid on the sofa while she watched TV. I felt bad, but it was all I could do.

#ThenIGotUpToGiveHerLunchAndSheHadFallenAsleepOnMyMumSoTiagoWatchedHerDuringHisLunchThenSheNappedAndINapped

She was just asleep on my Mum’s lap. We (well Tiago) kept her up for an hour and hoped that she would sleep again.

#IWasSurprisedThatBSleptForTwoHoursButIGotHerUpAndPutHerInOurBedButThenISuddenlyFeltSick

It’s good to know that she can nap for a good amount of time after having a short nap not too long before.

The sickness just kind of ‘rose up’.

#SoIManagedToPutHerOnTheFloorAndRunToTheBathroomWhereIWasSickAndIMeanSickkk

Grim. B was just crying and luckily Tiago came upstairs and took her downstairs.

#IThinkItIsExhaustionAndTheSicknessIsASideEffectOfItThoughIHaveNotBeenSickSinceButHaveFeltLikeIWillBeAtTimes

I will probably call the doctors tomorrow just to rule stuff out, but I also don’t want to waste their time.

#BeforeBWasBornIDidUsedToSpendAWeekendInBedAtLeastOnceAYearButObviouslyItIsHardToDoThatNow

Lie in bed and try to sleep, or just watch terrible TV. I did feel better the next night as I just watched TV in bed, and I fell asleep with my phone next to me which I never do – and slept solidly until B woke up at 5.30am.

#TypicallyItHappenedAfterBStartedNurseryButIGuessMyBodyKnewICouldBeIllSoItWaitedUntilThenAndIHaveNotReallyBeenIllSinceBWasBorn

I guess it’s been due, and growing a baby is tiring.

#BHasBeenABitUpAndDownAsWellButMaybeItIsDueToStartingNurseryAndHavingALeapAndTeethingAndBeingFrustratedAtNotBeingAbleToTalk

I try to put myself in her shoes. It must be so annoying not being able to say what you want, though I can guess at times, but sometimes I seem quite off.

#WeGaveHerLunchYesterdayAndSheJustPushedItAllToTheFloorSoICriedAsIWasSoTired

That was my frustration.

#WeThoughtItWasBecauseSheWasOvertiredSoWeJustPutHerDownForHerNapAndSheWokeUpAfter40Minutes

Great.

#TiagoNeededARestAndIFeltTooTiredToLookAfterHerSoIGotIntoHerCotAndRubbedHerBackUntilSheFellBackToSleep

Not the approach I like to take, but I was desperate.

#IManagedToGetOutOfHerCotAndOutOfTheRoomWithoutHerWakingUpAndSheSleptForNearlyTwoMoreHours

I felt like a bit of a champion.

#IDoWorryHowIAmGoingToCopeWithTwoKidsButIAmHopingThatIWillSomehowFeelLessTiredWhenTheBabyIsOutAndNotTakingAllMyNutrientsButIDoubtIt

I do intend to breastfeed again, so she will still be taking nutrients but in a less invasive way to being inside of me I imagine. That’s what I think anyways. The baby is due to double in size between now and birth. *Nervous laugh*

#IHaveBarelyHadAnAppetiteButIHaveBeenMakingMyselfEatForTheBabysSake

It’s been a struggle.

#IDidHaveMy28WeeksMidwifeAppointmentThoughAndSheSaidEverythingSeemedFineButThatIShouldDrinkMore

I really struggled to get a urine sample before I left the house, but I couldn’t see over my bump and so didn’t catch most of it. She said it was enough for the test though. I had drank a lot, but I guess it was old piss. Lovely.

#IDidNotRealiseThatIWasGoingToHaveABloodTestButLuckilyIHadForcedMyselfToEatASandwichBeforeGoing

And drinking all the drinks had helped as it came out quite easily. Hurrah.

#SheSaidTheBabyWasMeasuringWellAndThatSheHasAPercentileOf50Percent #SheToldMeThatBHadAPercentileOf32WhenSheWasBornWhichIDidNotKnowSoThisBabyIsDefinitelyBiggerForNow #IActuallyThoughtBHadBeenLessThan32SoThatIsGoodToKnow

I thought that B had just been over the okay line (I’m not sure what that is, but I thought it was around 10-15%?)

So yeah my suspicions of the baby being bigger have been confirmed. Maybe the first time my body was testing me and thought I could grow a bigger one this time?

#SheWasTryingToFigureOutWhereTheBabysHeadWasButSaidItDoesNotMatterAsBTurnedAroundTheDayBeforeSheWasBornAnyways

Cue a conversation about B’s birth again.

#ThisWeekendMyParentsAreDueToLookAfterBAndIAmABitNervousWithAllHerEarlyWakings

Le sigh.

#WeChangedOurHotelYesterdaySoThatWeAreStayingCloseToOurFavouriteIndianRestaurantInsteadAndTheRoomHasABigBathAsIDoNotKnowIfIWillHaveTheEnergyToSwim

We can also cancel until an hour before check-in so if my parents change their minds, then we can cancel.

This hotel also has a pool, but it is a bit cheaper and we haven’t had food from our favourite Indian restaurant in a long time so it’s a good excuse to change hotel and location.

#IHadABathTheOtherDayWhenTiagoHadToTakeACoupleOfHoursOffToLookAfterB

I think this makes me sound really bad…

#IWasBoredOfLyingInBedAndThoughtItWouldDoMeGoodAndItWasTheFirstBathIHadEverHadWhilePregnantAndItWasGreatThoughIDidFeelGuiltyForHavingToUseSoMuchWater

A lot to cram into the last hashtag, but yeah it was good. I had ran a very shallow bath to begin with and realised I either had to really fill it up or not have a bath. It was weird lifting my bump out of the water as it suddenly felt cold, but also quite heavy?

28 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait of myself nude from my head to knees. There are white sections over my breasts and pubic area.
I Just Want A Nice Record Of My Pregnancy As Maybe I Will Never Be Pregnant Again (28 and a half weeks)
 
#IPlannedToRecreateMyFailedBloodTestsPhotoButIWas7AndAHalfWeeksPregnantThen
#IAmNow28AndAHalfNowSoMyBumpWasTooBig
#SoIRemadeIHaveNeverSeenMyBodyLikeThisBeforeAndItIsSoWeirdInstead
#IHaveTakenNudePicturesBefore
#AndThereAreOthersInTheSeries
#ButIDoNotKnowWhyIFeelSoWeirdAboutHavingThemInThisSeries
#IGuessBecauseTheyAreNotReallyHiding
#AndAllAboutRevealing
#ThoughWhenPostingItIWillHaveToCensorItWhichIsSomewhatARelief
#IHaveBeenMakingSureThatITakeMorePicturesForMyself
#AsMaybeIWillNeverBePregnantAgain
#AndIDoNotActuallyWriteInMyDiaryAboutBeingPregnantThatMuch
#SoThisProjectIsANiceRecordOfIt
#MyBumpIsDefinitelyGettingBigger
#IThinkTheBabyDoublesInSizeBetweenNowAndBirth
#IHaveBeenContinuingMyDanceVideos
#TodayTwoPeopleSaidCongratsOnMyPregnancy
#IHadOnlyHadOneOtherMessageBefore
#SoMaybeItIsFinallyMoreObvious
#MyYouTubeAudienceIsMainlyMaleWhichIsABitWeird
#TodayIGotASexualInstagramMessage
#IThinkTheyFoundMyInstagramViaMyYouTube
#ItIsObviousOnYouTubeAndOnInstagramThatIAmPregnant
#SoItIsMoreWeirdToGetGrossMessages
#ThoughIKnowThatSomePeopleHavePregnancyFetishes
#WhichIsWhyItPutsMeOffSharingNudePhotosOfMyPregnantSelf
#ButItIsAlsoFunnyAsIThinkALotOfPeopleGetPregnantAndDoProfessionalNudeShoots
#EvenIfBeforeTheyWouldNotThinkAboutBeingPhotographedNude
#IJustWantANiceRecordOfMyPregnancy
#MyAppSaysThereAre80DaysLeftIfIGiveBirthOnTheDueDate

Well, spoiler I am pregnant again but it would be nice to have a comparison photo.

I have taken less nudes this time (if any?), but I do need to take at least one like this just as a reminder – and maybe baby X will say ‘Hey Mum, why did you not take a nude portrait with me?’

I am still dancing, but I think I need to be more casual about it with my tiredness and all. No one has commented about my bump yet, but then again I am quite behind with posting them – just like this project. At the time of writing this, this will be my 17th post that I need to post. They’re all ready to go, but yeah I’ve fell behind.

I’m also adding the first photo that I took at 29 weeks on as it talks about my 28 week appointment:

The backdrop is half a plain white wall and half black fabric. I am stood with the wall to my right and the fabric to my left, facing the left of the image. I am wearing a bra and leggings and have my left hand on my hip. Tiago's right hand is resting on my left thigh.
Subject: Leaky Boobs (29 weeks)
 
#IHadAMidwifeAppointmentTheOtherDay
#IAmSupposedToHaveThemEvery3Weeks
#ButTheyAreBeingChangedToEvery4WeeksNow
#IDidTheUsualUrineTestForProteinAndAllWasFine
#MyBloodPressureWasLowInAGoodWayAgain
#SheTriedToDoABloodTestToCheckMyIronLevels
#SheOnlyHadTwoNeedlesInHerBag
#TheRestWereInHerCar
#AndSheCouldNotManageToGetBlood
#SheSaidMyVeinsAreDeep
#IMadeSureIAteAndDrankWaterButObviouslyWasNotEnough
#TheyAreStillDoingHomeBirthsForNow
#AndSheSaidThatMorePeopleAreAskingForHomeBirthsNow
#SheSaidMyMusclesAreSeparatingQuiteALot
#AndThatIMayNeedToDoPhysioAfterBirth
#TiagoStoodAtTheDoorAsSheCheckedTheHeartbeat
#AllWasFine
#SheSaidMyPlacentaIsMainlyAtTheFront
#AndThatMightBeWhyISometimesCanNotFeelTheBaby
#IAmFeelingItMoreThoughParticularlyWhenIAmLyingDownInBed
#OftenICanNotFeelIt
#ButIPutMyHandAtTheBottomOfMyBumpAndICanFeelIt
#IKeepWakingUpAround3am
#WhenIWokeUpAtHalf3TodayMyLeftBoobFeltWeird
#ICouldNotSleepSoIReadForAnHour
#AtSomePointIRealisedThatItHadLeakedABit
#ThatIsTheFirstTimeThatHasHappenedSoItWasKindOfOddButExciting
#IThoughtItWouldNotHappenUntilLaterButLetUsSeeWhenTheRightOneFirstLeaks
#IEmailedMyselfWithTheSubjectOfLeakyBoobToRemindMyselfIncaseIForgotByTheMorning
#IHaveABruiseOnMyRightArmFromTheBloodTestAndIForgotToIncludeItInThePhoto

My midwife appointments are currently every 3 weeks. My blood test was more successful this time too.

No one has mentioned that my muscles have separated this time, which is good – I’ve made an effort to not do anything that might encourage them to separate more.

I think my placenta is at the back this time.

I’m yet to have a leak, so maybe that might happen soon?


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