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Portrait Of A Mother Of A Fifteen Month Old (20 Weeks / 16th September 2021)

Self-portrait in B's tent. I'm leaning on my elbows in the doorway with my fingers pushing in my cheeks.
Portrait Of A Mother Of A Fifteen Month Old (20 Weeks / 16th September 2021)
 
#AfterALotOfLaptopStressInTheLastWeekWithItChargingThenNotItIsNoMore
#SoIAmWritingThisFromTiagosWhereTheSKeyDoesNotWorkAndIHavePasteItInEveryTimeIWantIt
#ICanNotBelieveThatIAm20WeeksAlready
#LastNightIHadATerribleLegCrampForTheFirstTimeInAgesAndIThinkItWasDueToBeingDehydrated
#IWasSoTiredTheOtherDayThatILayDownForANapDuringHerSecondNapWhichIUsuallyDoButThenOversleptBy40Minutes
#LuckilyIPutBToBedJust10MinutesLaterThanUsualAndSheWokeUpAt7InTheMorning
#IAmTryingToMakeMyLifeEasierByLettingBCrawlInAndOutOfHerCotViaTheZippedEntrance
#SheHasDefinitelyChangedALotInTheLastWeekOrTwo
#SheHasStartedToSlideOutOfHerPushchairWhenIPutHerInItSoINowHaveToReclineItToBabyModeWhenItIsTimeToGo
#SheDoesNotComplainOnceSheIsBuckledInAtLeast
#BLovesHerNewShoesAndWandersAroundThePlaygroundInThemNow
#SheSeemsToWalkInThemWellAndHerNewFavouriteThingToDoIsJustShakeTheChainAtTheBottomOfAClimbingWall
#TheOtherDaySheKeptOpeningALittleDrawerInTheLivingRoomThatCouldFallOutAndHurtHer
#TAndIKeptSayingNoAndWhenISayNoSheLooksAtMeLikeIAmTheMeanestPersonOnThePlanet
#InTheEndWeTurnedItRoundAndWhenSheNoticedSheWasPuzzledFor5SecondsAndThenMovedOntoSomethingElse
#SheHasAPatchOfDrySkinOnTheBackOfHerNeckWhichWasWorryingMeButThenIRealisedItIsBecauseSheLikesToPutEverythingAroundHerNeck
#ItIsNotTheBestHabitForHerToHaveSoWeHaveToBeReallyCareful
#SheLikesToHoldThingsSoTheyTouchTheBackOfHerNeckRatherThanGoAllTheWayRoundAtLeast
#SheHasStartedToHelpHerselfToFruitFromTheFruitBowlAndYesterdayManagedToEatMostOfAnAppleThroughoutTheDay
#YouCanSeeThatSheHasAMouthfulOfTeethNowButTheAppleWasQuiteSoftWhichExplainsWhySheWasNotStruggling
#ThisLackOfSKeyIsReallyAnnoying
#BHasAlwaysLovedMusicButItShowsMoreLatelyWhenASongEndsAndSheMakesANoiseAsIfToSayWhyHasTheMusicStopped
#IAmWorriedAboutCovidAndThingsGettingBadAgain
#IFeelABitDividedAboutBoosterShotsAsItSeemsABitUnfairOnALotOfCountriesButIWillAlsoFeelMoreRelievedWhenNanGetsHers
#WeWentToBsToddlerClassAgainAndAtTheFirstOneIDidNotWearAMaskButIDidAtThisOne
#IKnowOnlyMeWearingAMaskDoesNotDoMuchGoodButIFeelSlightlyMoreProtected
#IDoNotWantBsClassesToGetCancelledAgainIfCasesIncreaseButPerhapsItWillBeEasierToAttendOnlineIfItIsAfterBabyXIsBorn
#SheKeptHerDistanceFromTheOtherKidsAndWasQuiteHappyStandingByHerselfWithAMaraca
#ItMustBeOverwhelmingForHerSuddenlyBeingAroundOlderKidsSoAsLongAsSheEnjoysHerselfIDoNotMind
#SheLovesToWatchTheOlderKidsInThePlaygroundSoMaybeSheJustNeedsABitMoreTimeBeforeSheJoinsIn

#AfteraLotOfLaptopStressInTheLastWeekWithItChargingThenNotItIsNoMore

It was struggling to charge, so I got a new charger and then that confirmed that it was my laptop that had the problem… A replacement will hopefully arrive in the next few days.

#SoIAmWritingThisFromTiagosWhereTheSKeyDoesNotWorkAndIHavePasteItInEveryTimeIWantIt

It makes for slow and frustrating work. Maybe it will be a shorter entry than normal.

#ICanNotBelieveThatIAm20WeeksAlready

I have my 20 week scan coming up. I am excited but nervous.

#LastNightIHadATerribleLegCrampForTheFirstTimeInAgesAndIThinkItWasDueToBeingDehydrated

I did feel really thirsty. It is so painful.

#IWasSoTiredTheOtherDayThatILayDownForANapDuringHerSecondNapWhichIUsuallyDoButThenOversleptBy40Minutes

I think my alarm had gone off but I was so disorientated that I went back to sleep and then woke up 40 minutes later and went ‘whoops’. The alarm clock in our room has weirdly disappeared while we were on holiday, but every one says they have not touched it. Weird.

#LuckilyIPutBToBedJust10MinutesLaterThanUsualAndSheWokeUpAt7InTheMorning

Phew. I did not want to put her to bed much later, and I was worried that she would wake up at 6 or something.

She has been making noises at 5 or 6 some days but she tends to go back to sleep until 6:45 or 7. Phew.

#IAmTryingToMakeMyLifeEasierByLettingBCrawlInAndOutOfHerCotViaTheZippedEntrance

I do not want to have to lift her up more times than necessary.

#SheHasDefinitelyChangedALotInTheLastWeekOrTwo

She seems more grown up or acts older at times.

#SheHasStartedToSlideOutOfHerPushchairWhenIPutHerInItSoINowHaveToReclineItToBabyModeWhenItIsTimeToGo

A bit of a tantrum. This seems to be the easiest way to deal with it, where we both do not get too stressed or annoyed.

#SheDoesNotComplainOnceSheIsBuckledInAtLeast

I think kids get distracted quite quickly.

#BLovesHerNewShoesAndWandersAroundThePlaygroundInThemNow #SheSeemsToWalkInThemWellAndHerNewFavouriteThingToDoIsJustShakeTheChainAtTheBottomOfAClimbingWall

Considering she had not worn shoes for three or more weeks she walk really well in them. she likes to play with the velcro too…

She likes to rattle the chain as it makes a loud noise. it is fine as long as long as no older kids are waiting to climb.

#TheOtherDaySheKeptOpeningALittleDrawerInTheLivingRoomThatCouldFallOutAndHurtHer #TAndIKeptSayingNoAndWhenISayNoSheLooksAtMeLikeIAmTheMeanestPersonOnThePlanet

The way her lip curls (I think that’s the right term?) and she looks at me. I only say no if she is doing something dangerous, so I do not feel too bad about it. She does not give T the same look though…

#InTheEndWeTurnedItRoundAndWhenSheNoticedSheWasPuzzledFor5SecondsAndThenMovedOntoSomethingElse

There is always something else for her to be meddling with…

#SheHasAPatchOfDrySkinOnTheBackOfHerNeckWhichWasWorryingMeButThenIRealisedItIsBecauseSheLikesToPutEverythingAroundHerNeck

Which likely explains it, so I have been putting cream on it whenever I remember.

#ItIsNotTheBestHabitForHerToHaveSoWeHaveToBeReallyCareful

We can not seem to stop her doing it.

#SheLikesToHoldThingsSoTheyTouchTheBackOfHerNeckRatherThanGoAllTheWayRoundAtLeast

I am worried that she might suffocate herself. I can see how it is easily done…

#SheHasStartedToHelpHerselfToFruitFromTheFruitBowlAndYesterdayManagedToEatMostOfAnAppleThroughoutTheDay

She took a bit out of it though and then was keen to bite all the other ones.

#YouCanSeeThatSheHasAMouthfulOfTeethNowButTheAppleWasQuiteSoftWhichExplainsWhySheWasNotStruggling

I was impressed but also worried that she was going to break all her teeth.

#ThisLackOfSKeyIsReallyAnnoying

–make s hashtag capital —

I am going to have to make all the capital s’ bigger when I post this. It is too much effort. (Going through this in mid-October I have had to capitalise so many s’.)

#BHasAlwaysLovedMusicButItShowsMoreLatelyWhenASongEndsAndSheMakesANoiseAsIfToSayWhyHasTheMusicStopped

We listen to a good mix of classic, and then Vicky Arlidge – her favourite nursery rhyme singer.

#IAmWorriedAboutCovidAndThingsGettingBadAgain

Oh, the C word appears again.

#IFeelABitDividedAboutBoosterShotsAsItSeemsaBitUnfairOnALotOfCountriesButIWillAlsoFeelMoreRelievedWhenNanGetsHers

It does seem unfair to be getting them already, but people like my Nan are starting to get more vulnerable again.

#WeWentToBsToddlerClassAgainAndAtTheFirstOneIDidNotWearaMaskButIDidAtThisOne

I decided to not wear one when I saw no one else was, but then I spent the whole class feeling uncomfortable. With this one, someone else walked in wearing one, but then took it off. I felt awkard being the only person wearing one – in case people thought I was ill or something. Oh well.

#IKnowOnlyMeWearingAMaskDoesNotDoMuchGoodButIFeelSlightlyMoreProtected

I am basically protecting everyone from me, but I’m not that protected from them. Fun time.

#IDoNotWantBsClassesToGetCancelledAgainIfCasesIncreaseButPerhapsItWillBeEasierToAttendOnlineIfItIsAfterBabyXIsBorn

It is what it is, and we will just have to deal with it. I am not looking forward to the winter.

#SheKeptHerDistanceFromTheOtherKidsAndWasQuiteHappyStandingByHerselfWithAMaraca

The other kids are mostly older and have lots of energy and can talk, and respond more.

#ItMustBeOverwhelmingForHerSuddenlyBeingAroundOlderKidsSoAsLongAsSheEnjoysHerselfIDoNotMind

It is her class, so she can do what she wants. she is not hurting anyone, so it is fine.

#SheLovesToWatchTheOlderKidsInThePlaygroundSoMaybeSheJustNeedsABitMoreTimeBeforeSheJoinsIn

She is just doing a lot of observing, so one day she might just start to do more things, and get more involved. We just need to wait and see.

20 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Close-up of my belly button.
My Belly Button Has Never Been So Close (20 and a half weeks)
 
#IGuessItMustBeWeirderForPeopleWhoHaveInnies
#ItHasBeenMoreOutForAFewWeeks
#ButIAmStartingToThinkThatMaybeItHasAlwaysBeenLikeThis
#ButBecauseMyBellyIsGrowingThenItIsCloserToMe
#IFeelLikeItWasHarderToCleanBeforeThough
#InOtherNewsIHadMy20WeekScanToday
#WasRelievedToSeeAHeartbeatVeryQuickly
#ThoughTheScannerWasQuietALotWhichWorriedMe
#IGuessSheWasJustConcentratingOnCheckingThings
#AtOnePointWeCouldSeeItMovingItsMouthWhichWasFunny
#SheDidAllTheChecksApartFromThree
#SheAskedMeToGoToTheLooAndThenJumpUpAndDown
#TheBabyWasInABallAndWouldNotBudge
#SheHadMeRockingMyHipsFromSideToSide
#ItWouldNotMove
#SheMadeMeDrinkASugaryDrinkAndGoForAWalk
#ItWouldNotMove
#SheHadMeDoingStarjumps
#IWasImpressedWithHowManyIDidBut
#ItWouldNotMove
#SoIHaveToGoBackIn2To3Weeks
#IHopeEverythingIsOkay
#IStillHaveNotHadMyScreeningResultsFrom7PlusWeeksAgo
#IJustKeptLaughingAtTheMonitor
#WeHaveAPictureOfItLookingLikeAGrumpyOldMan
#WhenSheShowedUsItsFaceBeforeItLookedMoreLikeAPuppyThanABaby
#ThenSheShowedUsItsSpineSoMuchThatIComparedItToADinosaur
#SheGaveUsThePicturesForFreeAsSheSaidTheBabyWasInSuchABadPosition
#ICanDefinitelyFeelTheBabyMovingAroundNow
#ItTypicallyWasMovingBeforeAndAfterTheAppointment

It seemed quite pushed out from an early stage this time, but I didn’t document it as it was not so interesting to me this time.

My next post will talk about my 20 week scan for baby X. It was definitely a lot easier this time round, though I was sent out to go to the toilet (weirdly I wrote holiday) to see if it would help do the last few checks.


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Imitating B Pulling Her Hair (19 Weeks / 12th September 2021)

Self-portrait with my hair covering my face and I'm pulling pieces of my hair on the left and right side of my head.
Imitating B Pulling Her Hair (19 Weeks / 12th September 2021)
 
#BIsStartingToBecomeMoreAwareOfHerselfAndHerBodyIThink
#SometimesSheWillJustPullAtHerHairButNotInABadWayJustInAOohIHaveHairWay
#ShePullsMyHairInAHowMuchDoIHaveToPullThisToGetItToComeOutWay
#IGotBackFromLondonLastNightAndHadAShowerToDecontaminate
#IWentToBedWithWetHairAsIWasSoTiredSoMaybeItWillStillLookABitWildByTheTimeIDoAShoot
#IHadNotBeenAwayFromBForMoreThan6HoursBeforeAndInTheEndIDidNotSeeHerForAbout41Hours
#ILeftJustBeforeHerSecondNapOnFridayAndGotBackAfterSheHadGoneToBedOnSaturday
#IHadBeenExcitedAboutGoingButAsIPackedOnFridayISuddenlyFeltQuiteEmotionalAndSadAboutLeaving
#PackingForAnAdultForOneNightIsSoMuchLessWorkThanPackingForTwoAdultsAndAToddler
#OnFridayMorningTiagoEndedUpGivingBASpoonfulOfSlightlySoapyWaterInHerWaterCupRatherThanHerVitaminsSoIWasALittleNervous
#IHadBeenRinsingAnOldBottleForRecyclingAndMyNanMustHaveMovedItAwayFromTheDrainingBoard
#BsParacetamolIsSometimesPinkAndSometimesClearSoTiagoAssumedTheVitaminsMightBeTheSame
#ButInTheEndItWasFineAndTiagoSentMeVideosOfHimChasingAfterBAndHerCuddlingHerCollectionOfTeddies
#MyNanKeepsBuyingHerTeddiesButSheHasNeverPaidMuchAttentionToThemUntilThisWeek
#SheIsGoingThroughALeapAndHasChangedSoMuchInTheLastWeek
#ItWasHotTheOtherDayAndSheWasSatJustInHerNappySpittingOutHerWaterOntoHerChestAndRubbingItIn
#SheCouldNotSwimInTheSeaSoSheHadToMakeDoWithATubOfWaterOutsideButSheHadAGreatTime
#ButYesItWasNiceToHaveAnEveningAndDayAwayForMyselfAndToSeeSoManyOldFriendsAndAcquaintancesAfterSoLong
#IKeptThinkingThatEveryoneHasBeenCarryingOnAsNormalWhileIHaveBeenAwayLookingAfterB
#ButOfCourseThePandemicHasBeenDifferentForEveryoneAndItWasAStrangeExperienceForAll
#ILostMyVoiceAtOnePointAsIWasNotUsedToTalkingAndSpeakingLoudlySoMuch
#MyBumpFeltHeavyAtTimesFromAllTheWalkingAndStandingAndBeforeBoardingTrainsAndTubesIWouldRubMyBellyToShowIWasPregnant
#ItWasUnnecessaryThoughAsTransportWasPrettyQuietWhichWasNiceAndISatInThePregnancySeatsWithoutFeelingSuperAwkwardThoughIFeltALittleBitSo
#ThisWeekBHadHerFirstToddlerClassAndAtTheBeginningSheJustSatByHerPushchair
#IGuessItWasWeirdForHerAsSheHadGoneFromBeingTheOldestToOneOfTheYoungest
#SheHadAlsoNotBeenAroundSoManyYoungPeopleInAWhileSoItMustHaveBeenALotToTakeIn
#ItWillBeGoodForHerThoughAndSheWillLearnALotFromTheOlderOnes
#IAmHopingToJustTakeBabyXAlongToBsClassesAfterTheyAreBorn
#IAmTryingToMakeAnEffortToMeetMoreLocalMumsWhoAreAlsoPregnantViaThoseAwkwardMumApps
#MyThinkingIsTheyWillBeOnMaternityLeaveSoWillHopefullyWantToHangOutAndWeCanPassTheLongWeekdaysTogetherAtTimes

#BIsStartingToBecomeMoreAwareOfHerselfAndHerBodyIThink

She was already aware of it, but it seems like she is more so.

#SometimesSheWillJustPullAtHerHairButNotInABadWayJustInAOohIHaveHairWay

Maybe she is stressed sometimes, or maybe it is just something to do? It seems to be in a playful/toddler way.

#ShePullsMyHairInAHowMuchDoIHaveToPullThisToGetItToComeOutWay

Maybe she is just more aware of bodies in general. She likes to grab our noses more now.

#IGotBackFromLondonLastNightAndHadAShowerToDecontaminate

Put all my clothes in the wash, had a shower and washed my hair.

#IWentToBedWithWetHairAsIWasSoTiredSoMaybeItWillStillLookABitWildByTheTimeIDoAShoot

It looked WILD this morning. We took B for a walk and I don’t want to brush it, so I looked a bit of a mess, but it will have fallen out more by the time I get round to the shoot.

#IHadNotBeenAwayFromBForMoreThan6HoursBeforeAndInTheEndIDidNotSeeHerForAbout41Hours

Those 6 hours were in November…

On holiday the other week I did have a bit of time away from her, but I would generally see her after two or three hours.

It was T’s first time looking after B for a whole day, though my Nan was around and my Mum was about for a bit.

#ILeftJustBeforeHerSecondNapOnFridayAndGotBackAfterSheHadGoneToBedOnSaturday

So I did not see her until this morning.

#IHadBeenExcitedAboutGoingButAsIPackedOnFridayISuddenlyFeltQuiteEmotionalAndSadAboutLeaving

I did miss her while I was away, but I was also happy to see so many people and be reminded that I do have friends and know people.

#PackingForAnAdultForOneNightIsSoMuchLessWorkThanPackingForTwoAdultsAndAToddler

One small backpack. I packed way too many changes of clothes, but whatever. So nice to have a short packing list rather than a massive one.

#OnFridayMorningTiagoEndedUpGivingBASpoonfulOfSlightlySoapyWaterInHerWaterCupRatherThanHerVitaminsSoIWasALittleNervous #IHadBeenRinsingAnOldBottleForRecyclingAndMyNanMustHaveMovedItAwayFromTheDrainingBoard #BsParacetamolIsSometimesPinkAndSometimesClearSoTiagoAssumedTheVitaminsMightBeTheSame

He had given her milk and pointed to a glass and said ‘this is what is left of B’s vitamin water’ (we mix her vitamins in with her water as it seems easier than giving it on a spoon, though she likes it so she probably would take it from the spoon now). I was confused and said ‘it looks a bit clear’, but he mentioned about her paracetamol sometimes being clear and sometimes being pink. Her vitamins are a very strong pink.

After a few seconds it clicked and I could not stop laughing. I tried the water to make T feel a bit better. It couldn’t have been so bad as B had drank most of the cup.

#ButInTheEndItWasFineAndTiagoSentMeVideosOfHimChasingAfterBAndHerCuddlingHerCollectionOfTeddies

A good run around before bed – ‘I’m going to get you’.

A morning cuddle with three teddies.

#MyNanKeepsBuyingHerTeddiesButSheHasNeverPaidMuchAttentionToThemUntilThisWeek

It’s probably because before I put her down for a nap for bed I mention the three stuffed animals that are in her cot. Sometimes she cuddles them, sometimes she cuddles her water cup.

#SheIsGoingThroughALeapAndHasChangedSoMuchInTheLastWeek

She just suddenly seems smarter. She now makes it clear when she wants more water etc.

#ItWasHotTheOtherDayAndSheWasSatJustInHerNappySpittingOutHerWaterOntoHerChestAndRubbingItIn

Classic.

#SheCouldNotSwimInTheSeaSoSheHadToMakeDoWithATubOfWaterOutsideButSheHadAGreatTime

She loved it. One day it was so hot that I did not even bother drying her afterwards and she dried fast. Her skin felt lovely and cold.

#ButYesItWasNiceToHaveAnEveningAndDayAwayForMyselfAndToSeeSoManyOldFriendsAndAcquaintancesAfterSoLong

It’s just nice to wander around and recognise so many faces.

#IKeptThinkingThatEveryoneHasBeenCarryingOnAsNormalWhileIHaveBeenAwayLookingAfterB #ButOfCourseThePandemicHasBeenDifferentForEveryoneAndItWasAStrangeExperienceForAll

Big photography events and openings just haven’t been happening.

#ILostMyVoiceAtOnePointAsIWasNotUsedToTalkingAndSpeakingLoudlySoMuch

It was good to talk about photography and life with people in real life again. Apologies to anyone that I bored talking about family life to.

#MyBumpFeltHeavyAtTimesFromAllTheWalkingAndStandingAndBeforeBoardingTrainsAndTubesIWouldRubMyBellyToShowIWasPregnant

I haven’t stood up and walked so much in a while.

#ItWasUnnecessaryThoughAsTransportWasPrettyQuietWhichWasNiceAndISatInThePregnancySeatsWithoutFeelingSuperAwkwardThoughIFeltALittleBitSo

When I lived in London I’d never sit in the priority chairs so it felt weird, apart from getting the train to and from Brum. I love the single seats that face out, and I managed to get one of them both ways, so I didn’t have to sit next to someone without a mask.

I was disappointed how many people weren’t wearing masks on public transport in London.

#ThisWeekBHadHerFirstToddlerClassAndAtTheBeginningSheJustSatByHerPushchair

I had to put her by the mat and all the kids.

#IGuessItWasWeirdForHerAsSheHadGoneFromBeingTheOldestToOneOfTheYoungest

It’s nice to be at a more age appropriate class though, as the other one was getting boring.

#SheHadAlsoNotBeenAroundSoManyYoungPeopleInAWhileSoItMustHaveBeenALotToTakeIn #ItWillBeGoodForHerThoughAndSheWillLearnALotFromTheOlderOnes

It was a settling in class for both of us. Hopefully she will feel more at home next week, and we can try to meet some people.

#IAmHopingToJustTakeBabyXAlongToBsClassesAfterTheyAreBorn

Fingers crossed. Tiago can take B when he is on paternity leave, and then hopefully I’d feel comfortable enough to take them both.

#IAmTryingToMakeAnEffortToMeetMoreLocalMumsWhoAreAlsoPregnantViaThoseAwkwardMumApps

I’ve spent a lot of time talking to Mums over the last year, but not much comes out of it. It’s worse than dating.

#MyThinkingIsTheyWillBeOnMaternityLeaveSoWillHopefullyWantToHangOutAndWeCanPassTheLongWeekdaysTogetherAtTimes

Especially those who have an older kid as they will hopefully feel more comfortable going out. I’m not being picky though, I’d just like more weekday friends.

19 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait from my head to my knees. I'm dressed all in black and some of my hair is draped over my left arm, which is resting on my head.
The Other Day I Thought I Could Feel The Baby Moving (19 and a half weeks)
 
#TheOtherDayIThoughtICouldFeelTheBabyMoving
#ItFeltLikePopcornLightlyPopping
#ButAgainItCouldHaveBeenWishfulThinking
#TheNightBeforeIHadHadADreamThatINeededToFlushPeoplesRingsDownTheToilet
#OtherwiseSomethingReallyBadWouldHappenToMe
#ItWasASuperStressfulDream
#MeanwhileTiagoWasDreamingThatTheBabyWasCryingInItsCot
#SoHePickedItUpAndSangToItAndSettledIt
#AndThereWasAVeryBabylikeDollInTheCotToo
#BesidesFromTheCreepyDollItSoundsLikeAMuchBetterDream
#IHaveBeenFeelingABitBetterInTheLastFewDays
#IThinkTheCrampsWereProbablyTheBabyJustGrowingAndMyBodyDoingItsThing
#ButIAlsoThinkItMayHaveBeenTrappedWindAndThingsLikeThat
#CharmingButTrue
#ItHasBeenNiceNotGettingMenstrualCrampsForAWhile
#MyPeriodTrackerAppSaysMyPeriodIs111DaysLate
#MyCoughSeemsToHaveReturnedAlreadyWhichIsABitAnnoying
#PeopleAlwaysAskMeAboutIfIHaveCravings
#NotReallyThoughIHavePizzaToastInsteadOfCheeseAndPickleSandwichesWhenPossibleNow
#IThinkItIsMoreMeJustLettingMyselfEatWhatIWantRatherThanCravings
#IAmNotSureIfIMentionedItBeforeButOneDayISawAVanThatSaidWFSOnIt
#AndIWasLikeMmmWaffles
#TheOtherDayTiagoWasWatchingEvertonFootballHighlights
#AndTheirShirtsMadeMeWantCheeseAndOnionCrisps
#SoIGuessWeirdThingsTriggerCravings
#ThoughIDoNotUsuallyEatTheThingsIThinkAbout
#TheCravingsAreNormallyQuiteImpulsive
#LikeIWantItNowAndIfItWasEasilyAttainableThenIProbablyWouldEatItThenAndThere
#ThoughIAmTryingNotToEatTooUnhealthily
#INeedToEatMoreCalciumWhichIsWhyIDoNotFeelBadAboutEatingSomeCheddarEveryDay

I had forgot about describing kicks as popcorn popping. It just felt more ticklish this time and then quickly moved onto stronger movements.

My dreams have been intense lately (mid-October), but I don’t like when I have them as they tire me out.

I had a phase of being quite into vinegary crisps this time, but it passed. I have been enjoying beetroot and pickled red cabbage lately though (in a wrap with other things), and I did have a lot of vinegar on my chips at dinner today. But I was a fan of vinegar before being pregnant – I just usually don’t choose salt and vinegar crisps over other flavours though. Exciting stuff.

I have been making banana bread a lot lately and I put a lot of yoghurt on that, so I guess that’s my calcium sorted.


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General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot III (19 Weeks / 7th September 2021)

I'm kneeling on the floor in my bra and leggings. I am holding my arms behind my back. My bump is slightly bigger than similar photos I've taken before.
General Documenting Pregnancy Shoot III (19 Weeks / 7th September 2021)
 
#WeAreNowBackAtHomeSoICanFinallyDoTheThirdVersionOfThisPhoto
#IWouldHaveLikedToHaveDoneItSoonerAsTheGapBetweenTheOtherTwoWasFourWeeksAndNowThereIsASixWeekGap
#OhWellBetterLateThanNever
#ItWasNiceToBeAwayButItIsAlsoReallyGoodToBeHomeAndHaveAllOurStuff
#YesterdayIWasLikeANewWomanCookingAndCleaningLoads
#IThinkIAmDefinitelyNestingButWeWereAlsoTakingLivingWithMyNanForGrantedAndItIsNiceToBeBack
#IThinkIHaveAlreadyUsedUpALotOfMyEnergyAsThisMorningIAmJustSuperTired
#AtLeastIDoNotHaveToQuarantineButItIsSoHotThatIDoNotReallyWantToLeaveTheHouseAnyways
#TheDayBeforeLeavingWeWereSatInABankRunningErrandsAndIThinkIFeltTheBabyKick
#ItMightPossiblyHaveBeenBraxtonHicksButIDefinitelyFeelMoreThingsHappeningWithinMyBumpNow
#NowWhenIAskBForAKissSheOffersMeHerForeheadOrHeadbuttsMe
#TiagoSaidHisMumWasTeachingBHowToHeadbutLikeABullAsThereAreALotOfBullsOnTheIsland
#TravellingBackCouldHaveBeenWorseButItCouldHaveAlsoBeenBetterToo
#TheFirstPlaneWasFineAsTheAirportIsChillAndBHadHadLunchBeforeWeGotToTheAirportAndItWasAShortFlight
#ThenWeHadThreeHoursBetweenFlightsAndBWasStartingToGetSleepySoWeTookItInTurnsPushingHerUpAndDownTheAirportAndSheEventuallyHadANap
#CheckInStartedLateAndWeWereStoodInAQueueForAboutAnHour
#AFamilyInFrontOfUsWithATwoYearOldWereToldThatTheAirlineNoLongerAcceptedResultsFromTheCompanyTheyUsedAndWereNotAllowedToBoard
#WeTriedToHelpThemButThereWasNothingWeCouldDoAndAsCheckInWasSoLateTheyDidNotHaveTimeToGetNewTests
#BHasDefinitelyChangedAsSheWasNotSoBotheredByAllThePeopleAndSpentALotOfTheFlightWanderingUpAndDownTheAisle
#SheWasAlsoStealingWaterBottlesAsKidsDoNotWantFancyToysTheyWantToPlayWithAnythingAndEverythingElseInstead
#SheLikesToDanceUsingHerHandsButIThinkSheDoesAlsoWaveNowAsWellSoSheWasDancingOrWavingAtEveryone
#TheLightsWereOnHighOnTheFlightTheWholeWaySoBDidNotSleepAndWeLandedAtAboutElevenThirty
#TheFamilyQueueWasMassiveSoItTookAnHourToGetThrough
#TheTaxisWereSuperExpensiveAndWeHadJustMissedTheLastTrainSoWeHadToGetACoachInstead
#YouCouldSeeEveryoneInTheQueueThinkingErghNotABabyOnTheCoachButSheSleptTheWholeTime
#WeGotToMySistersPlaceAtTwoThirtyInTheMorningAndLuckilyBWentStraightToSleep
#ItWasNiceForHerToPlayWithHerCousinAndWeWentOutForLunch
#ApparentlySomeRestaurantsDoNotHaveMoreThanOneHighChairSoWeFinallyGotEnoughSeatsInTheThirdPlaceWeTried
#BDidNotLikeHerPlateOfEggFriedRiceSoIHadToGoAndBuyHerSomeFoodFromASupermarket
#WeAreTryingGivingHerDinnerLaterAndPuttingHerToBedLaterButLetsSeeIfSheCanKeepWakingUpAtAMoreRespectableHour
 

#WeAreNowBackAtHomeSoICanFinallyDoTheThirdVersionOfThisPhoto

Version 1 / Version 2.

#IWouldHaveLikedToHaveDoneItSoonerAsTheGapBetweenTheOtherTwoWasFourWeeksAndNowThereIsASixWeekGap #OhWellBetterLateThanNever

It is what it is. I’ll do the shoot when B wakes up from her nap and my Mum looks after her for an hour or so.

#ItWasNiceToBeAwayButItIsAlsoReallyGoodToBeHomeAndHaveAllOurStuff

Tiago’s parents’ house is a lot of stone and rock, so I didn’t feel like we had a safe place to play. Plus we didn’t take many books and toys.

#YesterdayIWasLikeANewWomanCookingAndCleaningLoads

I also don’t get on well with their kitchen and I missed having a routine with washing clothes etc. Simple stuff that shows I’m getting older.

#IThinkIAmDefinitelyNestingButWeWereAlsoTakingLivingWithMyNanForGrantedAndItIsNiceToBeBack

I did not want the suitcases hanging around for ages, so I washed what needed to be washed and put most of it away. Tiago just needs to sort out his mountain of clothes. The floor is covered in B’s toys, but there is no point tidying as she will be messing with them again in a bit. It’s good to see Nan too – though B was a bit weird with her for a day as I think she could not really remember her?

#IThinkIHaveAlreadyUsedUpALotOfMyEnergyAsThisMorningIAmJustSuperTired

I guess I also knew that today was a day for getting work done for me. Yesterday I let myself have an easy day – I also did a lot of what I needed to do before we came back.

#AtLeastIDoNotHaveToQuarantineButItIsSoHotThatIDoNotReallyWantToLeaveTheHouseAnyways

I took B to the park yesterday to kick her ball around, but she just wanted to play with the pushchair. We were in the shade the whole time.

#TheDayBeforeLeavingWeWereSatInABankRunningErrandsAndIThinkIFeltTheBabyKick #ItMightPossiblyHaveBeenBraxtonHicksButIDefinitelyFeelMoreThingsHappeningWithinMyBumpNow

At this point you can start to feel things, and apparently if you’ve had a baby before you might feel it earlier. I think because I was sat so still and not doing much I noticed it more.

#NowWhenIAskBForAKissSheOffersMeHerForeheadOrHeadbuttsMe #TiagoSaidHisMumWasTeachingBHowToHeadbutLikeABullAsThereAreALotOfBullsOnTheIsland

I tried to film it this morning and she just headbutted my phone instead. Hopefully she’ll stop doing it soon.

#TravellingBackCouldHaveBeenWorseButItCouldHaveAlsoBeenBetterToo #TheFirstPlaneWasFineAsTheAirportIsChillAndBHadHadLunchBeforeWeGotToTheAirportAndItWasAShortFlight

T’s parents live so close to the airport that it’s great. We can leave fairly late and still have plenty of time. We ate our lunch in the airport while giving B some snacks as she hadn’t eaten much since it was quite early for her. The flight was about 35 minutes I think.

#ThenWeHadThreeHoursBetweenFlightsAndBWasStartingToGetSleepySoWeTookItInTurnsPushingHerUpAndDownTheAirportAndSheEventuallyHadANap

At first we tried outside but I felt awkward and a lot of people were smoking. It was much better once we went inside and had seats too.

#CheckInStartedLateAndWeWereStoodInAQueueForAboutAnHour

It was less than 2 hours until the flight and T went to ask if it had started. They said yes, then updated the board. We were going to wait until the queue had got smaller, but we also didn’t want to miss our flight.

We moved to a different queue (after following others who had been in our queue), but it turned out to be for a different flight so they made us wait.

#AFamilyInFrontOfUsWithATwoYearOldWereToldThatTheAirlineNoLongerAcceptedResultsFromTheCompanyTheyUsedAndWereNotAllowedToBoard #WeTriedToHelpThemButThereWasNothingWeCouldDoAndAsCheckInWasSoLateTheyDidNotHaveTimeToGetNewTests

They’d used a company for tests to fly out with and it’d been fine. The staff told them they did not accept results from that company anymore… I felt so bad for them. It was late in the day and there is only one direct flight to London a week from the Azores (which was the flight we were all queuing for). I hope they got home okay in the end.

Some people had not needed to check-in, so some people got to the boarding gates without showing test results and were not allowed to board as they had not done tests. There were a lot of empty seats by us on the plane and we had 3 seats to ourselves which was good.

#BHasDefinitelyChangedAsSheWasNotSoBotheredByAllThePeopleAndSpentALotOfTheFlightWanderingUpAndDownTheAisle

She’s changed from the young girl who was scared of all the people on our first flight 3 weeks ago.

#SheWasAlsoStealingWaterBottlesAsKidsDoNotWantFancyToysTheyWantToPlayWithAnythingAndEverythingElseInstead

Ain’t that the truth?

#SheLikesToDanceUsingHerHandsButIThinkSheDoesAlsoWaveNowAsWellSoSheWasDancingOrWavingAtEveryone

Sometimes I do not know if she is waving or dancing at me. Maybe she thinks waving is dancing? Who knows? (Just B who can’t communicate what she thinks yet.)

#TheLightsWereOnHighOnTheFlightTheWholeWaySoBDidNotSleepAndWeLandedAtAboutElevenThirty

There was a slightly older toddler two rows behind us who was also struggling to sleep and making a lot of noise, so that also didn’t help.

#TheFamilyQueueWasMassiveSoItTookAnHourToGetThrough

I thought that not many flights would land at 11:30pm, but apparently they do. It was a queue full of overtired kids, and stressed out parents.

#TheTaxisWereSuperExpensiveAndWeHadJustMissedTheLastTrainSoWeHadToGetACoachInstead

Great.

#YouCouldSeeEveryoneInTheQueueThinkingErghNotABabyOnTheCoachButSheSleptTheWholeTime

It was not as bad as it could have been, but we should have probably got off at the first stop and got a taxi from there as it cost the same as from the fifth stop but whatever. It was too late by the time we realised as our luggage had been put in sections and we were at the back of the coach.

#WeGotToMySistersPlaceAtTwoThirtyInTheMorningAndLuckilyBWentStraightToSleep

We were planning to go to our car (though the taxi was the same price as a taxi to theirs), so we spent the night with them instead which was nice as we hadn’t seen them in a long time.

Another hurrah for not having to quarantine.

#ItWasNiceForHerToPlayWithHerCousinAndWeWentOutForLunch

The last time they saw each other they had been so young that they hadn’t really noticed each other existed. It was fun to see them together.

#ApparentlySomeRestaurantsDoNotHaveMoreThanOneHighChairSoWeFinallyGotEnoughSeatsInTheThirdPlaceWeTried

If we’d known my sister could have brought a booster seat, but oh well. The one we went to in the end had about 4?

#BDidNotLikeHerPlateOfEggFriedRiceSoIHadToGoAndBuyHerSomeFoodFromASupermarket

Her cousin was loving it, but B was crying her head off and we were getting stressed. My sister suggested going out to get her something (as the restaurant didn’t have much toddler friendly food). The kids loved the spinch and feta parcels I got.

#WeAreTryingGivingHerDinnerLaterAndPuttingHerToBedLaterButLetsSeeIfSheCanKeepWakingUpAtAMoreRespectableHour

The first night we all woke up at 7:45 after I realised what time it was and got us up. Yesterday I kept pressing snooze but we got up around 7:30. Today I heard B at 6:15, but she fell asleep again and then was crying at 6:45 so we got up then.

I was sick at about 7. Fun times. Need to get her up now…

19 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Close-up of four of my fingers. There is a cut on one of them.
Hand Cuts & NHS Fine (19 weeks)
 
#IAmGuessingThatTheLittleCutsOnMyHandsAreNotDownToMeBeingPregnant
#IReadThatMasksDoNotReallyHelpWithViruses
#ButTheyStopYouTouchingYourFaceSoMuch
#SoIHaveBeenWashingMyHandsMoreSoTheyAreProbablyMoreDryAndCrackEasier
#NotBecauseOfTheVirusButBecauseIHaveBeenIllAndIAmBoredOfBeingIll
#ManagedToDoSomeSaltWaterGarglingYesterday
#RealisedItIsBestIfIKeepTheSaltDownToOneTeaSpoonPerMug
#AndAtTheEndIStillStruggleABit
#IGotALetterFromTheNHSTheOtherDayAndIWasHopingItWasFromMy12WeeksScreening
#NoItWasAFineForSayingIHadAValidMaternityExemptionCertificateWhenIDidNotWhenIGotAPrescription
#ItSaidIfIWasEntitledToHaveOneThenICanApplyForOneButIStillNeedToPayForThePrescription
#ToBeFairIUsedToWorkInAPharmacyButNoOneEverToldMeAboutFinesForPuttingTheWrongOption
#TheWomanAskedMeIfIUsuallyPayForMyPrescriptions
#AndISaidIAmPregnant
#SoSheTickedTheOption
#NotBlamingHerButIThoughtTheyWouldBeAbleToSeeOnMyRecordsThatIAmPregnant
#WellIAppliedForOneYesterday
#NowIAmJustHopingItMeansIDoNotGetFinedForFreeDentistTreatmentToo
#IHonestlyDidNotKnowHowItAllWorks
#ItMakesSenseThatYouGetFinedIfYouSayTheWrongOption
#LuckilyThePrescriptionWas2MonthsAgoSoTheyGiveYouAWhile
#AndGiveYouTwoMonthsToContestItOrPayOrGetACertificate
#TurningOverInBedIsBecomingAProblemIMightHaveSaidSoBefore
#IHaveToSitUpBeforeIDoItNow
#Doing20MinuteStretchingVideosBeforeBedNowWhichDefinitelyHelps
#IDoNotSeemToHaveSaidMuchPelvisPainLately
#ThoughIGetCrampsAndStuffButThatIsMyBodyCleaningItselfAndGrowing
#StillFeelingNervousAboutTheBabyAsIHaveNotSeenItsHeartbeatIn7Weeks
#ItHasDefinitelyGrownSinceThenButIJustGetWorriedThatIGoAndTheyWillSayItStoppedGrowingXWeeksAgo
#NoPointGettingTooStressedOutButWillBeGladWhenICanStartToFeelItsMovements

This time I didn’t need a prescription, and asked for a maternity exemption certificate later (23 weeks?). No one really tells you how this stuff works or generally asks you if you want things, so you just have to find out for yourself or hope that someone tells you stuff. I get it though – the NHS are under resourced, underfunded, overworked etc etc.

With a subsequent pregnancy you have less appointments so you just have to get on with it and pay attention to your body more I guess. I can feel the baby kicking (or braxton kicks?) as I write this. It definitely helps when you start to feel things as you can monitor things for yourself a bit better.

Portrait with my husband Tiago. We have our backs slightly to each other. We are both wearing blue tops and dark bottoms. We look like we are daydreaming.
My Portuguese-British Family and Me (19 weeks)

#SoBrexitFinallyHappened
#IFeelComfortedKnowingThatTiagoHasBritishCitizenship
#ThoughIAmJealousOfHimStillBeingAnEUCitizen
#HopefullyOurChildWillBeAbleToHaveBoth
#SoIDoNotNeedToWorryAboutThem
#IJustHopeThatOneDayICanBeAnEUCitizenAgainOneDay
#IWillProbablyNeverGetOverBrexit
#IWasSatFumingAllDayOnTheDayItFinallyHappened
#PeopleOnTheNewsDoNotSeemAbleToGiveAGoodEnoughReasonStill
#AndItHasBeen3AndAHalfYears
#WeWereInPortugalWhenTheResultsCameOut
#AndItWasTheGreyestDayOfOurTrip
#WeSpentAgesGettingToABeach
#AndTheWeatherWasJustTerrible
#WhichReflectedOurMood
#TheOnlyGoodThingAboutBrexitIsThatItStoppedUsGettingTrappedInZone5OfLondon
#WeThoughtAboutDidWeReallyWantToSpendOurLivesThere
#WeDecidedNo
#SoWeStayedInZone2AndThenTiagosJobRoleChangedAfterAWhile
#IDidNotSeeMyselfLeavingLondonForAnywhereElseInTheUK
#ButThenOneDayWhenIKnewMyWatfordProjectWasNearlyDoneISaidIfYouWantToMoveUpNorthForYourJobThenIAmReadyNowAndWeLeftWithin5Weeks
#AndNowWeLiveInLiverpool
#SoIAmGladThatWeDidNotCommitToZone5InTheEnd
#YesWeAreWearingTheSameTop
#MyMumBoughtMeOneAndIBoughtAnother
#ButTiagoWearsOneAsTheyAreNiceAndWarm
#AndItIsColdUpHereInLiverpool
#ItIsAwkwardWhenWeGoOutWithJumpersOnAndRealiseWeHaveTheSameTopOnUnderneath
#SoOneOfUsHasToBoilInAJumperSoWeDoNotLookSilly
#BlessTiagoBecauseItIsUsuallyHimBoilingInTheJumperAsWeDoNotWantToOverheatTheBaby

Tiago celebrated his 2 years of citizenship the other day (I’m writing this mid-October). We applied for B’s citizenship on holiday and I think it has gone through as now we can apply for a citizenship card for her. Hurrah.

I’m still pissed off about Brexit and will forever be, but we are lucky as hopefully one day our little family will all be EU citizens. With the kids it is easy, but with me it is more of a faff.

I am still grateful that we didn’t get stuck in zone 5 of London. We might have tried for kids sooner though…

When I wrote the hashtags I had no idea we would end up living in Birmingham within a year. Weird.


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Imitating B Hiding Behind The Curtain In Tiago’s Parents’ Living Room (18 Weeks / 2nd September 2021)

Self-portrait hiding behind a thin curtain. I am pressing my head into it so you can see my hair and a bit of my face.
Imitating B Hiding Behind The Curtain In Tiago’s Parents’ Living Room (18 Weeks / 2nd September 2021)
 
#TheOtherDayWeWerePlayingInTheLivingRoomAndThenISuddenlyCouldNotFindB
#SheWasJustSittingQuietlyBehindTheCurtainThoughSometimesSheStandsAndMessesAbout
#SheHasStartedToTurnInCirclesWhichSheFindsHilariousAndIsCuteToSee
#SheNowAlsoPointsToStuffWhichIsGood
#ThisMayOrMayNotBeFromMeSingingAndDoingTheActionsToWindTheBobbinUpAMillionTimes
#TheOtherDayBMetHerSecondCousinWhoIsAboutFourMonthsYounger
#TheirCommonInterestsAreAnimalsFruitAndKeys
#ThereWereACoupleOfKittensInTheGardenWhereWeWereEatingDinnerAndBWasEnjoyingTalkingToThem
#TiagoAndACoupleOfFriendsFoundThreeKittensThatHadBeenAbandonedTheOtherDayWhileFixingSomeGardenWalls
#LuckilyTheyFoundThemAndTookThemToALocalGroceryShopAsACatCharityTheyCalledWasFull
#WeKeepTalkingAboutThemAndItIsSuchAShameThatWeCouldNotHaveKeptThemButIHopeTheyFoundAGoodHomeOrHomes
#WeHaveStartedToTakeBOutWithUsMoreInTheEveningAndTwoNightsInARowWeHaveReturnedWithHerAsleep
#WeRememberedToTakeHerToothbrushAndBrushHerTeethBeforeGettingInTheCarTheSecondTime
#WeHaveBeenWakingUpToTheSoundOfOurAlarmMoreLatelyButIDoWonderIfThisWillHappenWhenWeReturnHome
#TwoNightsAgoIWasLyingInTiagosArmsInTheNightAndAfterAWhileHePanickedAndSaidWhereIsB
#WeBothStartedToLookAroundButThenRealisedSheWasInHerCot
#TheSameNightIWasSatUpOnTheSideOfTheBedForAbout5MinutesWaitingForBAndTAsIThoughtWeWereOutside
#TheRoomWasPitchBlackButAfterAWhileIRealisedICouldHearTheSoundMachineSoKnewWeWereAtHomeSoIWentBackToSleep
#IHaveBeenHavingQuiteVividDreamsLatelyWithTheOneLastNightBeingAWholeEpisodeAboutLookingAfterMyParentsAnimalsAndThinkingIWasGoingOnHolidayWithFriends
#LastWeekIHadOneWhereIFilledUpAnEmptyOneKiloYoghurtBucketWithEarWax
#YesterdayIHadSuchIntenseCrampsInTheMorningThatIStartedToGetConcerned
#IDidNotWantToOverreactSoILookedOnlineAndItSoundedLikeItCouldBeDehydrationAndOrJustMyBodyStretching
#SoIDrankMoreWaterAndIDidFeelBetter
#YesterdayIGotUpTooFastFromSittingOnTheToiletAndIThinkIExperiencedRoundLigamentPain
#WeWillGoHomeInACoupleOfDaysSoTodayWeNeedToRunSomeErrandsAndGetOurCovidTestsDoneWhichIAmWorriedAbout
#ThereAreOnly20ActiveCasesHereSoItIsUnlikelyWeHaveItButYouNeverKnow
#IAmLookingForwardToGoingBackToOurRoutineAtHomeThoughIWillMissOurRandomExcursionsAndGoingOutAndAboutSoMuch
#TheMainChangeWeWantToMakeWhenWeGetAHomeIsToGetAFoldingDiningTableSoWeCanBothSitWithBWhenSheEats
#IMissSleepingInOurBedAsItIsMuchBiggerAndComfortable
#IfMyBodyFeelsThisAchyAndAwfulNowThenIAmReallyNotLookingForwardToBeingMorePregnant

#TheOtherDayWeWerePlayingInTheLivingRoomAndThenISuddenlyCouldNotFindB

The door was shut and I was so confused. There are not that many places for her to hide in the room…

#SheWasJustSittingQuietlyBehindTheCurtainThoughSometimesSheStandsAndMessesAbout

We do play a lot of ‘peekaboo’ with it.

I just need to try and take a photo with it now when it’s not in use (or Tiag’s parents are not there) as otherwise I will feel quite awkward.

#SheHasStartedToTurnInCirclesWhichSheFindsHilariousAndIsCuteToSee

Tiago’s Mum said she was doing it in the living room, then we saw her doing it outside. She usually falls down after 1 or 2 rotations.

#SheNowAlsoPointsToStuffWhichIsGood

Mainly the photos/paintings on the wall. The photo of T on the wall, and the paintings by Tiago’s Grandmother which are of many things but she likes the ones of flowers the most.

#ThisMayOrMayNotBeFromMeSingingAndDoingTheActionsToWindTheBobbinUpAMillionTimes

The whole ‘point to the ceiling, point to the floor, point to the window, point to the door’ saga. She points to none of them.

#TheOtherDayBMetHerSecondCousinWhoIsAboutFourMonthsYounger #TheirCommonInterestsAreAnimalsFruitAndKeys

I really don’t get how cousins work after first cousins, but his Mum is Tiago’s first cousin and I think they are second cousins?

They were both eating a lot of fruit, and playing with a set of keys.

#ThereWereACoupleOfKittensInTheGardenWhereWeWereEatingDinnerAndBWasEnjoyingTalkingToThem

Some say talking, some say yelling.

#TiagoAndACoupleOfFriendsFoundThreeKittensThatHadBeenAbandonedTheOtherDayWhileFixingSomeGardenWalls

They were fixing ‘curraletas’, which are the traditional way of growing grapes in the area.

#LuckilyTheyFoundThemAndTookThemToALocalGroceryShopAsACatCharityTheyCalledWasFull

They had been there one day the week before. It’s not a road where many people walk down and they would have been hidden. Luckily the weather was okay and they had got there early in the morning.

#WeKeepTalkingAboutThemAndItIsSuchAShameThatWeCouldNotHaveKeptThemButIHopeTheyFoundAGoodHomeOrHomes

I really hope they are okay. I am guessing this kind of thing happens more than we like to, but it may be how we end up with pets in the future…

#WeHaveStartedToTakeBOutWithUsMoreInTheEveningAndTwoNightsInARowWeHaveReturnedWithHerAsleep

We had been out 3 nights in a row. I was relieved to stay at home last night. We’d like to have a date night – just T and I – but it may not happen before we leave now. We have two nights left…

#WeRememberedToTakeHerToothbrushAndBrushHerTeethBeforeGettingInTheCarTheSecondTime

Hurrah.

#WeHaveBeenWakingUpToTheSoundOfOurAlarmMoreLatelyButIDoWonderIfThisWillHappenWhenWeReturnHome

Last night she went to bed at 8pm after having dinner at 6.30pm and she woke up when we woke her up at 7am, so that was good. The other nights she had been going to bed 2/3 hours past her bedtime, so it’s good to know she can do it without staying up late late. We’ll have to see if this routine works in the UK.

#TwoNightsAgoIWasLyingInTiagosArmsInTheNightAndAfterAWhileHePanickedAndSaidWhereIsB

He knew it was me, but at some point he thought I was B, and when he realised I wasn’t he panicked.

#WeBothStartedToLookAroundButThenRealisedSheWasInHerCot

Sleepily panicking in the dark.

#TheSameNightIWasSatUpOnTheSideOfTheBedForAbout5MinutesWaitingForBAndTAsIThoughtWeWereOutside

I must have been dreaming and then woke up. I was just sat patiently waiting for them.

#TheRoomWasPitchBlackButAfterAWhileIRealisedICouldHearTheSoundMachineSoKnewWeWereAtHomeSoIWentBackToSleep

It’s so weird. She’s sleeping less than half a metre from Tiago and we’re getting worked up a lot – as we can’t find her or whatever after waking up.

#IHaveBeenHavingQuiteVividDreamsLatelyWithTheOneLastNightBeingAWholeEpisodeAboutLookingAfterMyParentsAnimalsAndThinkingIWasGoingOnHolidayWithFriends

They don’t have many animals, but in my dream they did. They weren’t people I knew from ‘real life’ either – I think they were just based on people I knew or something.

#LastWeekIHadOneWhereIFilledUpAnEmptyOneKiloYoghurtBucketWithEarWax

There was more to the dream, which I have already forgotten. We have a lot of empty yoghurt tubs at home…

#YesterdayIHadSuchIntenseCrampsInTheMorningThatIStartedToGetConcerned

T started to message around about where I could go for a scan.

#IDidNotWantToOverreactSoILookedOnlineAndItSoundedLikeItCouldBeDehydrationAndOrJustMyBodyStretching

I know my body is stretching a lot, but it felt more intense than normal.

#SoIDrankMoreWaterAndIDidFeelBetter

Sometimes I forget to drink. We went out for a quick breakfast (just a cheese sandwich), so I drank water instead of my favourite chocolate milk.

#YesterdayIGotUpTooFastFromSittingOnTheToiletAndIThinkIExperiencedRoundLigamentPain

From reading what my pains could be I thought that I’d had been having round ligament pain earlier in the day. This seemed to fit the description more… I need to start getting up slower.

#WeWillGoHomeInACoupleOfDaysSoTodayWeNeedToRunSomeErrandsAndGetOurCovidTestsDoneWhichIAmWorriedAbout

We will go out in a minute, while T’s Mum can watch B.

#ThereAreOnly20ActiveCasesHereSoItIsUnlikelyWeHaveItButYouNeverKnow

Well it is getting passed about somehow.

#IAmLookingForwardToGoingBackToOurRoutineAtHomeThoughIWillMissOurRandomExcursionsAndGoingOutAndAboutSoMuch

More our base than routine – all of B’s stuff and having a bit more of our own space. B has been practicing her climbing a lot, so I think she will enjoy using her climbing frame a lot again.

#TheMainChangeWeWantToMakeWhenWeGetAHomeIsToGetAFoldingDiningTableSoWeCanBothSitWithBWhenSheEats

Usually one of us watches B in the kitchen and the other one sits in the living room. It’ll be nice if we can just sit together.

#IMissSleepingInOurBedAsItIsMuchBiggerAndComfortable

My shoulders ache. My hips ache. The bed is super creaky, so I have to try to be quiet when I turn over as to not wake B.

#IfMyBodyFeelsThisAchyAndAwfulNowThenIAmReallyNotLookingForwardToBeingMorePregnant

I’m probably not even half way yet, and I’m feeling it.

When we get home I need to exercise/stretch more. I feel like I’ve lost some of my fitness for sure.

Self-portrait where I am nude with a white space cutting through my breasts. My right hand is wrapped around my back and peeking out from behind my left arm. My left arm is supporting my bump.
 I Have Never Seen My Body Like This Before And It Is So Weird (18 and a half weeks)

#WellIAmIllAgain
#ItIsMainlyACoughButICoughedSoMuchYesterdayMorningThatIThrewUp
#IAmJustTryingToDrinkLotsOfWaterButEarlierTheWaterCutOut
#ItIsMeantToGoOffTomorrowSoThatWasWeirdButItIsBackOnNow
#SawAChartEarlierThatShowsIAmInMy5thMonthOfPregnancy
#ItIsGoingSoFast
#IDefinitelyJustLookLikeABlownUpVersionOfMyselfNow
#IHaveNeverSeenMyBodyLikeThisBeforeAndItIsSoWeird
#IAmStillNervousAsItHasBeen6WeeksSinceISawTheBabyInMyBelly
#TodayIWasThinkingHowOddItIsThatInSomeMonthsTimeWeCouldHaveABabyToLookAfter
#ObviouslyWeKnewWhatWeWereSigningUpFor
#ButItStillBlowsMyMindThatIAmGrowingAHumanInsideOfMe
#IAmTryingNotToJustTakeLotsOfBumpPictures
#ButThenIRealisedThatEvenIfIDoNotIntendForEveryPhotoToBeABumpPhoto
#IShouldStillDocumentItForMyself
#AndTheMainThingThatIsChangingIsMyBody
#KindOfObviousButThatIsWhyItIsHardToTryToTakeOtherPicturesOfMyself
#MyWorkHasBeenAboutBodyImageAndSelfEsteemAndSelfConfidenceForSoLong
#SoItIsInterestingSeeingMyBodyChangeAndHowIFeelAboutIt
#ILikeItBecauseIKnowIAmGrowingSomeoneInsideOfMe
#ThatSoundsSoWeirdAndThatIsBecauseItIs
#ButItIsAlsoJustStrangeSeeingMyBodyChangeSoMuchSoQuickly
#IDefinitelyFeelMoreConfidentThoughAndICareALotLessAboutThingsNow
#IHaveSpentMyWholeLifeTryingToBeSuperPoliteToPeople
#IWasCatchingATrainTheOtherDayAndIWas20MinutesEarlySoISatOnABenchBecauseIAmPregnant
#ThePlatformFilledUpSoMuchAndIWasWorriedThatIWouldNotGetASeatForThe90MinuteJourney
#WhenTheTrainCameIJustMovedAsCloseToTheDoorsAsPossible
#WhichFeltABitAwkwardButIHadBeenThereForAges
#AndIWasWorriedThatIWouldNotHaveASeatAndHaveToAskPeopleToGiveMeOneAsIAmPregnantAndNeedToSitDown
#IHaveToStickMyElbowsOutABitWhenIAmInACrowdNowToStopPeopleBargingMeInTheBelly

I am finding being pregnant weird this time too. It hasn’t really been that long since I was pregnant with B, but it does feel like a lifetime ago.

I haven’t had many opportunities to stick my elbows out this pregnancy, but I did do it when I went to London for a weekend at times.

I haven’t taken that many bump photos this time, though I am working on fixing it, but I guess this time the project photos are half about pregnancy and half about being a mother to B.


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Wedding Dress Malfunction (18 Weeks / 29th August 2021)

Self-portrait holding my cardigan strategically over a dress. My left hand is on my stomach, and my left hand is on my chest.
Wedding Dress Malfunction (18 Weeks / 29th August 2021)
 
#ItWasTheWeddingOfABestFriendOfTiagoWhichHadGotDelayedFromLastYearDueToCovid
#IWoreTheDressForOurWeddingAndEveryWeddingWeHaveBeenToSinceAndJustAssumedItWouldFitMeEvenWithABump
#IWentToPutItOnAndStruggledToDoUpTheButtonOnTheInsideSoTiagoHadToHelpMe
#IForgotThatIUsuallyHaveSomeStressWithThisDressDueToMyBraBeingExposedAtSomePointAndTheFrontFlappingOpen
#SoITriedToUseHairGripsWellAndEvenPinnedPartOfItToMyPantsButAsIAteItExposedEvenMore
#InTheEndIWoreMyBigCardiganThatShouldProbablyBeRetiredFromWeddingsNowAndHadItPulledTightlyAroundMeForMostOfTheDay
#ItWasBsFirstWeddingAndThereWereAbout150PeopleWhichHadBeenReducedFromAbout240
#WeEndedUpSittingAtTheBackOfTheCeremonyAndBKeptWanderingOutSoWeHadToKeepLeavingAndComingBack
#AfterBWasBornISaidIWouldWearMoreMakeupSoIBoughtSomeAndYesterdayWasTheFirstTimeIWoreSomeOfItAYearAfterIBoughtIt
#WeWereMeantToGoSomewhereToDoCovidTestsTheDayBeforeButTheRulesChangedSoWeWereJustToldPolitelyToDoFlowTestsWhichIWasAllFor
#ItFeltABitOverwhelmingBeingAroundSoManyPeopleButWeJustFollowedProtocolAndHadAGoodTimeInTheEnd
#WeThoughtWeWouldRelaxMoreAtTheReceptionButWhenYouBecomeAParentYouAlsoBecomeAHealthAndSafetyOfficer
#TiagoKeptTakingHerOutsideButThereWereALotOfRocksAWaterFeatureAndPalletsWithSplintersAndSheKeptRunningAroundSoWeWereBothQuiteTired
#IAmFindingItHarderToBendOverToFollowHerAboutAndItDidNotHelpHavingAMalfunctioningDress
#ITryToExplainToBAboutTheBabyGrowingInsideMeButSheJustPokesMyBellyButtonAndFindsItFunny
#TheOtherDaySheWasPullingMyTopUpJustToPokeIt
#WeWereNotSureHowLongToKeepBThereButInTheEndBAndIWentHomeAtNineThirtyAndTiagoWentBackUntilTwoThirty
#BSleptUntilSevenAndTiagosMumLookedAfterHerUntilHerNapAtTen
#TheOtherNightBSleptSoBadlyAndKeptWakingUpForAgesButItMayHaveBeenACombinationOfTeethingBeingColdAndOrALeap
#IAmNotVeryGoodWithThisSocialisingAfterBGoesToBedAsIAmSoTiredSoOftenTiagoWillDropMeHomeAndThenGoBack
#IWasWaitingToBookOurReturnCovidTestsInCaseThereWasSomeGoodNewsForUsAboutTheCovidTravelTrafficLightSystemWhichGetsUpdatedEveryThreeWeeks
#PortugalIsNotOnTheListButIWasSuperHappyToSeeTheAzoresOnTheList
#IThenWasFrustratedToLearnThatAsOurLayoverIsInLisbonDuringOurReturnTripTheGreenRulesWouldNotApplyToUs
#TheAirlineWeBookedThroughHadOfferedUsARefundOnBothOurFlightsThoughDueToTheLayoverTurningFromFourToNineHours
#LuckilyWeManagedToGetNewFlightsThatAvoidTheMainlandForTheSamePriceAndOurTravelTimeHasNowBeenReducedBySixHours
#WeWillStillGetHomeAt3InTheMorningButIWillNotHaveToQuarantineAndWeBothOnlyHaveToDoDay2TestsNow
#SoIAmNowGratefulThatTheAirlinesScrewedUsOverAndDidNotCareAboutItAsOtherwiseWeWouldHaveNotGotARefund
#ThisAlsoNowMeansThatICanGoToLondonForTheBigPhotographyWeekendOfTheYear
#TiagoKeepsSayingIShouldHaveADayForMyselfButIDidNotWantToWasteItOnSomethingUnworthy
#IAmGoingToGoFridayNightToSaturdayNightAndAmLookingForwardToSeeingLotsOfFriendsThoughIHaveNeverSpentMoreThanFiveHoursAwayFromBBefore

#ItWasTheWeddingOfABestFriendOfTiagoWhichHadGotDelayedFromLastYearDueToCovid

I was also unsure about all the travelling with a newborn, and not really wanting Tiago to leave me alone with B for a few days, so Covid made it easier for us – the wedding had to be postponed.

#IWoreTheDressForOurWeddingAndEveryWeddingWeHaveBeenToSinceAndJustAssumedItWouldFitMeEvenWithABump #IWentToPutItOnAndStruggledToDoUpTheButtonOnTheInsideSoTiagoHadToHelpMe

I should have tried it on before packing it… It was even awkward taking it off yesterday, but I guess I will have to try to get it on again to take a photo to accompany this post. (Spoiler: I managed it.)

#IForgotThatIUsuallyHaveSomeStressWithThisDressDueToMyBraBeingExposedAtSomePointAndTheFrontFlappingOpen

It’s been two years since I last wore it, so I forgot…

#SoITriedToUseHairGripsWellAndEvenPinnedPartOfItToMyPantsButAsIAteItExposedEvenMore

Pinning it to my pants definitely helped in ways, but then it also was probably shifting it round too. Yeah I felt awkward.

#InTheEndIWoreMyBigCardiganThatShouldProbablyBeRetiredFromWeddingsNowAndHadItPulledTightlyAroundMeForMostOfTheDay

The poor cardigan is looking a bit scruffy.

I am going to try to emulate my awkwardness in the photo.

#ItWasBsFirstWeddingAndThereWereAbout150PeopleWhichHadBeenReducedFromAbout240

Luckily she has got used to seeing other people now, and she was mostly interested in the slightly older kids that were wandering about.

#WeEndedUpSittingAtTheBackOfTheCeremonyAndBKeptWanderingOutSoWeHadToKeepLeavingAndComingBack

We were stressed about what she would wear, but in the end we put her in an all in one suit that went with the blue of our outfits. If you can’t wear unicorns and sunflowers to a wedding when you’re one, when can you?

B would not sit still, which is fair enough.

#AfterBWasBornISaidIWouldWearMoreMakeupSoIBoughtSomeAndYesterdayWasTheFirstTimeIWoreSomeOfItAYearAfterIBoughtIt

I thought I should maybe work on my appearance a bit as I always look so rough. I just wore mascara on my upper eyelashes (the bottom are a faff), and lipstick (I do not remember the last time I wore lipstick but it was nice). The lipstick probably wore off under my mask before anyone would have noticed it, but oh well.

#WeWereMeantToGoSomewhereToDoCovidTestsTheDayBeforeButTheRulesChangedSoWeWereJustToldPolitelyToDoFlowTestsWhichIWasAllFor

I was glad that everyone had to do a test, so when I heard the rules changed I did feel a bit uneasy.

There are only 19 active cases on the island, but only a few days ago there was no new cases and the risk was dropped to the lowest. 6 new cases have just been announced.

I hope that everyone did flow tests, but I doubt it.

#ItFeltABitOverwhelmingBeingAroundSoManyPeopleButWeJustFollowedProtocolAndHadAGoodTimeInTheEnd

For some reason we thought we wouldn’t need masks for the wedding and reception, which was dumb of us. We had to go back to our car to get one. We wore one when inside the church, when walking in, out and around the reception etc.

#WeThoughtWeWouldRelaxMoreAtTheReceptionButWhenYouBecomeAParentYouAlsoBecomeAHealthAndSafetyOfficer

Anything and everything is a potential hazard with a kid.

#TiagoKeptTakingHerOutsideButThereWereALotOfRocksAWaterFeatureAndPalletsWithSplintersAndSheKeptRunningAroundSoWeWereBothQuiteTired

At least it was mostly grass. We took trainers for her to wear but she was barefoot the whole time.

Tiago’s other best friend was there and he gets on well with B, so he looked after her a bit which gave us some rest.

#IAmFindingItHarderToBendOverToFollowHerAboutAndItDidNotHelpHavingAMalfunctioningDress

I’m not even halfway and I’m struggling…

#ITryToExplainToBAboutTheBabyGrowingInsideMeButSheJustPokesMyBellyButtonAndFindsItFunny

Not sure if I’ve mentioned B laughing at the picture of Tiago as a baby too. Maybe she’ll get the whole baby bump more as it grows bigger and she grows older.

#TheOtherDaySheWasPullingMyTopUpJustToPokeIt

Classic. Charming.

#WeWereNotSureHowLongToKeepBThereButInTheEndBAndIWentHomeAtNineThirtyAndTiagoWentBackUntilTwoThirty

We had had to wake her up early from her nap to get to the wedding on time, so she would have needed a super early bedtime. She stayed up 3 hours past her wake window… We changed her nappy and put her in her bedtime clothes before we left, so she fell asleep in the car and we moved her to the cot. Again, we forgot her toothbrush…

#BSleptUntilSevenAndTiagosMumLookedAfterHerUntilHerNapAtTen

I had expected B to wake up earlier (our alarm went off and it might have woken her up), and T’s Mum came in a minute after hearing her. I changed B’s nappy, then his Mum took over so we went back to sleep. That was a nice surprise. That was probably the longest sleep I’ve had since she was born.

#TheOtherNightBSleptSoBadlyAndKeptWakingUpForAgesButItMayHaveBeenACombinationOfTeethingBeingColdAndOrALeap

T had dropped me home from something then went back out. I think he might have woken her up, and then she just would not sleep. We gave her paracetamol, we left the room in case it was us, but in the end we put her in her sleeping bag (it has been quite hot until lately) and she went to sleep, so we have been dressing her up warmer at night recently.

#IAmNotVeryGoodWithThisSocialisingAfterBGoesToBedAsIAmSoTiredSoOftenTiagoWillDropMeHomeAndThenGoBack

I haven’t had a nap during the day for the last few days, which doesn’t help. They’re all his friends and my brain stops trying to translate after a while, so it makes sense for him to go back and not have to worry about me/upsetting his friends by leaving early.

#IWasWaitingToBookOurReturnCovidTestsInCaseThereWasSomeGoodNewsForUsAboutTheCovidTravelTrafficLightSystemWhichGetsUpdatedEveryThreeWeeks #PortugalIsNotOnTheListButIWasSuperHappyToSeeTheAzoresOnTheList

It hadn’t been a rumour in the news, but it makes sense as the cases are so low here.

#IThenWasFrustratedToLearnThatAsOurLayoverIsInLisbonDuringOurReturnTripTheGreenRulesWouldNotApplyToUs

There is only one direct flight a week to and from the main island. We had caught that one out, but as the return trip landed at 11pm we booked a different route home.

#TheAirlineWeBookedThroughHadOfferedUsARefundOnBothOurFlightsThoughDueToTheLayoverTurningFromFourToNineHours

We had booked that return home as it landed at a much better time (6pm-ish?), but then they changed it so we landed at 11pm.

#LuckilyWeManagedToGetNewFlightsThatAvoidTheMainlandForTheSamePriceAndOurTravelTimeHasNowBeenReducedBySixHours

We now have to be at the airport for mid-day rather than 6am, so that makes a big difference. Annoyingly our car is by Heathrow and not Stansted (we flew out of Stansted but left our car by Heathrow as we were due to return there).

#WeWillStillGetHomeAt3InTheMorningButIWillNotHaveToQuarantineAndWeBothOnlyHaveToDoDay2TestsNow

The money that we save on my day 8 test (Tiago didn’t need one as he is double vaccinated) will go on a taxi, but at least our return trip costs about the same now.

#SoIAmNowGratefulThatTheAirlinesScrewedUsOverAndDidNotCareAboutItAsOtherwiseWeWouldHaveNotGotARefund

Tiago went to the airport to see if we’d still be able to get a refund. The guy couldn’t do it, but said if they said they would then they would. We went ahead and booked our flights as we didn’t want the prices to go up.

Tiago emailed on Friday morning, and they emailed back on Saturday early afternoon saying we’d get a refund so we went to the wedding happy about that.

It worked in our favour in the end. Phew.

#ThisAlsoNowMeansThatICanGoToLondonForTheBigPhotographyWeekendOfTheYear

I was annoyed that I would be quarantining and would miss it.

(I write all this in hope that I don’t get Covid and have to self-isolate before the weekend).

I’m a bit nervous about going without being double vaccinated, but I’ll be careful.

#TiagoKeepsSayingIShouldHaveADayForMyselfButIDidNotWantToWasteItOnSomethingUnworthy

I feel bad leaving him to look after B for a day for something frivolous, but this is a good use of my ‘get out of parenting for a day’ card.

#IAmGoingToGoFridayNightToSaturdayNightAndAmLookingForwardToSeeingLotsOfFriendsThoughIHaveNeverSpentMoreThanFiveHoursAwayFromBBefore

T suggested that I go on Friday instead of Saturday so that I am less tired on the Saturday. I am not sure how much photography I will be able to see as my stamina for everything is low these days, but I’m looking forward to it. I haven’t been to London since November 2019, so it will be nice to see multiple friends at once and eat some of the food that I’ve been missing.

I’m definitely going to my favourite pizza place… (Spoiler: I didn’t go to my favourite pizza place.)

18 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait with my left hand pressing against my face.
There Is Only So Much Longer That I Can Hide My Bump In My Dance Videos (18 Weeks)
 
#IAmDefinitelyFeelingMorePregnant
#BumpIsDefinitelyGrowing
#IThinkARandomWomanWasStaringAtMyBumpTheOtherDayAtTheTrainStation
#MorePeopleKnowNowButIUsuallyJustTellPeopleInPerson
#OrIfTheyMessageMeAndIKnowIWillNotSeeThemUntilAfterIAnnounceIt
#AsThereIsOnlySoMuchLongerThatICanHideMyBumpWithAJumperInMyDanceVideos
#AndIWantToStartPostingThisProject
#InPersonIUsuallyTryToTellPeopleInAnUnexpectedWay
#LikeIDoNotSayIHaveSomethingToTellYouOrIHaveNews
#SomeoneAskedHowTiagoIsAndISaidHeIsExcitedToBeAFather
#SomeoneAskedIfTiagoWasMyHusbandTheOtherDayAndISaidYesAndMyBabyDaddy
#SomeoneAskedIfAnyoneWasIllAndISaidIAmPregnantIfThatCounts
#GenerallyPeopleAskingHowIAmIWillSayPregnant
#ThoughTheOtherDayIHadJustEatenAndISaidIHadBeenTellingEveryoneThatIAmPregnant
#SheLaughedAndThenAskedIfIWas
#IAmSeeingAFriendTomorrowAndIMightJustSeeIfSheNoticesMyBump
#SeeingTheLookOnPeoplesFacesIsHalfOfTheFun
#IfNotMostOfTheFun
#IAmHappyThatBrushingMyTeethHasBecomeLessOfATask
#ICanActuallyBrushMyTeethMultipleTimesADayWithLessWorryNow
#IHaveASoreThroatAtTheMoment
#SoIDidASaltGargleThisMorning
#IMadeItTooSaltyAsIWasThenSick
#IHaveBeenPhotographingMyselfEverytimeIHaveBeenSickWhilstPregnant
#ButIKnewThisWasMyOwnFaultSoIDidNot
#ThatWasACoupleOfHoursAgoAndMyStomachFeelsABitUneasyStill
#IHaveBeenUpSince5SomethingAsTiagoHadATrainToCatchAndIHaveFinallyGotIntoWatchingTheCircle
#IKnowIWillRegretItLater
#ParticularlyAsIHaveMyOwnTrainToCatchAndPlansForTonight
#AndIAmNotFeelingVeryWellSoIProbablyHaveMadeThingsWorseByNotGoingBackToSleep

This time I announced my pregnancy earlier so I did not have to worry about showing too much in the dance videos. I’m currently 25 weeks pregnant and no one has left a comment about me being pregnant yet, but then again no one really watches them anyways.

As I announced it earlier I didn’t really get to mess around with telling people much. The closest this time was seeing a friend with an older kid and a baby, and she said ‘don’t have a second one’ and I said ‘well I’m pregnant’.

I have had to do a salt water gargle a couple of times this pregnancy and I have tried to be careful.

I definitely don’t have the time or energy to watch TV so early or late.


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Pregnancy Waiting II

Imitating B In Her Temporary Cot (17 Weeks / 25th August 2021)

Self-portrait of my face pressed up against two bars of B's temporary cot.
Imitating B In Her Temporary Cot (17 Weeks / 25th August 2021)
 
#SheDoesSomethingSimilarInHerCotAtHomeButTheEffectIsQuiteDifferentAsThisIsBarsAndAtHomeItIsMesh
#EveryoneKeepsSayingHowMuchBLooksLikeTiagoButSheDefinitelyHasMyLoveOfWater
#SheHasBeenGettingUpsetWheneverWeTakeHerOutOfHerPoolOrOutOfTheSea
#HerLittleLipsWillBeShiveringAndSheWillWantToKeepGoingBackIn
#YesterdayWeTookHerToASpotThatHadARedAndYellowFlag
#WeTookItInTurnsSwimmingInTheYellowAreaAndOnlyLetBHaveALittleSplashWhenTheSeaCalmedDownMomentarily
#WeAreAdjustingToBeingHereButIFeelQuiteLostWithoutOurUsualRoutineAndStuff
#ThisHouseIsNotVeryBabyProofAndThisMorningIHadToRunDownTheCorridorInCaseBDecidedToGoToTheSteps
#TheOtherDayOurAlarmWentOffForTheFirstTimeInMonthsAndWeActuallyHadToWakeBUpForOnceAfterSeven
#ItSeemsLikeAOneOffThoughAsSheHasAtLeastThreeTeethComingThroughAndUsuallyWakesUpAt6SomethingNowWhichIsOkay
#MaybeItIsDueToHavingALaterDinnerOrMaybeItIsFromAllTheSplashingOrMaybeItIsAMixOfFactors
#IThinkWeWillTryPushingHerDinnerALittleLaterWhenWeGetHomeThoughAndGivingHerBiggerSnacks
#TheOtherDayIGotStungByALittleJellyfishWhichWasABitOfAShockButALifeguardPutSomeGelOnIt
#IManagedToSwallowSomeSeaWaterOnAnotherOccasionAndIEndedUpVomitingInMyHandAwkwardlyInFrontOfAFewPeople
#OurConnectingFlightOnTheWayBackHasBeenDelayedByFiveHours
#ThisMeansWeHaveANineHourLayoverAndWillProbablyGetHomeAtThreeInTheMorning
#TheAirlinesDoNotCareWhichIsDisappointingSoWeWillHaveToSeeWhatWeCanDoOtherwiseWeWillHaveToJustDealWithIt
#WeGotATimeAndDateForOur20WeekScanWhichIsAlsoInconvenientSoICalledAndSaidWhatDaysAreBestForUsAndTheyGivenUsAnotherInconvenientSlot
#SoTiagoWillProbablyHaveToWaitWithBInTheCarAndIWillHaveToGoInAloneWhichIsAnnoyingButWhatCanWeDo
#WeHaveTakenBToAMassiveDuckPondACoupleOfTimesWhichSheQuiteLikesAndILoveLookingAtAllTheDucklings
#ThereAreNoDucksLikeTheOnesAtHomeSoItIsNiceToSeeSomeDifferentBirds
#IHadNeverBeenThereBeforeButIGuessThatOurPrioritiesHaveChangedNowWithBAndWeWantToGoToMoreKidFriendlyPlaces
#WeHaveBeenGoingToALittleCoffeeShopForBreakfastAndYesterdayBManagedToKnockTiagosCoffeeAllOverMyBreakfastAndMe
#WhenWeWerePackingISaidIDidNotWantToBringManyClothesAsIEndUpWearingTheSameThreeOutfits
#InRealityIHaveBeenWearingTheSameDressAndJustWashingItAndPuttingItOnAgainAsSoonAsPossible
#WeHaveBeenRunningErrandsOrGoingToMeetFriendsWhileBSleepsAndTiagosMumKeepsAnEyeOnHer
#TheOtherNightWeWentToABarbequeAfterBHadGoneToBedButThenISpentTheWholeEveningSatByABabyAndAFourYearOldSoFeltBadForNotBringingHer
#MyPortugueseSpeakingHasImprovedButIStillFindItDifficultToUnderstandWhatPeopleAreSaying
#IGetSoTiredSoQuicklyInTheEveningsWhenWeGoOutWhichIsProbablyDueToUsingExtraBrainPowerTryingAndGenerallyFailingToTranslate
#ItIsNiceToSeePeopleButIHaveNotSocialisedThisMuchInAVeryLongTime

#SheDoesSomethingSimilarInHerCotAtHomeButTheEffectIsQuiteDifferentAsThisIsBarsAndAtHomeItIsMesh

It’s less of a full face smush, and more of a partial face smush?

#EveryoneKeepsSayingHowMuchBLooksLikeTiagoButSheDefinitelyHasMyLoveOfWater

Yes, she does look like him a lot. There’s a picture above her cot of Tiago as a baby and I keep pointing to it and saying ‘there’s daddy as a baby’ and she laughs.

Tiago likes the water, but he usually just likes to have a very short swim whereas I want to swim for ages. Well, I can’t anymore…

#SheHasBeenGettingUpsetWheneverWeTakeHerOutOfHerPoolOrOutOfTheSea

Similar vibes to when Tiago puts her back on the floor, when she wants to be in his arms all day.

#HerLittleLipsWillBeShiveringAndSheWillWantToKeepGoingBackIn

We try to not let her go in for more than fifteen minutes at a time.

#YesterdayWeTookHerToASpotThatHadARedAndYellowFlag

We saw the flags and were pretty gutted. Tiago went to talk to the lifeguards to see if it was safe enough to swim/take B in. There was a set of stairs that was safe to use, but we had to be careful as waves would wash over the wall and made it a bit dangerous.

#WeTookItInTurnsSwimmingInTheYellowAreaAndOnlyLetBHaveALittleSplashWhenTheSeaCalmedDownMomentarily

B was quite happy splashing in a little puddle on the rocks by the sea, but then after she’d had a bit of a splash in the sea she was annoyed again. She was getting quite jealous of me swimming in the sea. Better to be safe than sorry…

#WeAreAdjustingToBeingHereButIFeelQuiteLostWithoutOurUsualRoutineAndStuff

Today Tiago is out all day running errands, and I’m not sure how to entertain her all day. It’s times like these that I wish I could drive… Public transport around here is not easy to use/it takes forever.

#ThisHouseIsNotVeryBabyProofAndThisMorningIHadToRunDownTheCorridorInCaseBDecidedToGoToTheSteps

I was just turning the light off in the kitchen and I thought B was outside the door. I went to see and she was at the other end of the corridor by steps that go down, so I RAN.

#TheOtherDayOurAlarmWentOffForTheFirstTimeInMonthsAndWeActuallyHadToWakeBUpForOnceAfterSeven

I usually set the alarm to ignore as soon as B gets up. It is better when she wakes us up as we couldn’t be bothered to get up if she wasn’t going to. We got her up at 7:15 in the end.

#ItSeemsLikeAOneOffThoughAsSheHasAtLeastThreeTeethComingThroughAndUsuallyWakesUpAt6SomethingNowWhichIsOkay

She must have not been teething that morning. A few nights ago she was waking up from 4. Yesterday it was 6:30. Today she woke up at 6.

#MaybeItIsDueToHavingALaterDinnerOrMaybeItIsFromAllTheSplashingOrMaybeItIsAMixOfFactors

We will never know.

#IThinkWeWillTryPushingHerDinnerALittleLaterWhenWeGetHomeThoughAndGivingHerBiggerSnacks

People just eat later here. Yesterday I had a small dinner when B had hers (at 6ish) and then I had a second dinner at a friend’s house.

She can have a good snack when she wakes up from her second nap if she’s having a later dinner. We haven’t given her any yoghurt since we’ve been here (which we usually give her as a snack before bedtime in hope that she will sleep later).

#TheOtherDayIGotStungByALittleJellyfishWhichWasABitOfAShockButALifeguardPutSomeGelOnIt

Usually I keep a look out for them, but I was just swimming by myself and felt an electric shock in my arm. I told a friend (in bad Portuguese) and she said maybe it was muscle pain, but I didn’t think so.

Tiago was with a friend who was talking to a lifeguard, so he put some gel on it, and then a bit later the area where I got stung raised up a bit. It wouldn’t hurt and then suddenly it would. Weird. I had looked in the water but saw nothing.

#IManagedToSwallowSomeSeaWaterOnAnotherOccasionAndIEndedUpVomitingInMyHandAwkwardlyInFrontOfAFewPeople

I was trying to get out via a ladder, but lots of people kept jumping in so the water rose too high and I gulped some. I felt sick, but hoped the feeling would pass. I kept stopping in case I was sick, but thought I could get back to my towel and be okay. Tiago was with me as someone was watching B while we had a quick swim together. Suddenly I felt sick again, so put my hand to my mouth and some sadly sprayed out of the side of it. I felt embarrassed – especially with Covid and everything. Awkward. Tiago went back with water to clean it, but all evidence had already gone.

#OurConnectingFlightOnTheWayBackHasBeenDelayedByFiveHours #ThisMeansWeHaveANineHourLayoverAndWillProbablyGetHomeAtThreeInTheMorning #TheAirlinesDoNotCareWhichIsDisappointingSoWeWillHaveToSeeWhatWeCanDoOtherwiseWeWillHaveToJustDealWithIt

We have two flights by two different operators, but we bought them through one operator. The first flight is at 8am, then the second has been moved from 3pm to 8pm. Good job Tiago drove us to London as I was worried enough about catching a train with the 3pm flight (it’s a 3 hour flight). The airline we booked through don’t care, and say we can just have a refund – which isn’t great when you book months in advance for cheaper prices. The airline who delayed their flight have a first flight that is at 1pm, so that would save us waiting around so much at least but we’ll see what they say. It’s going to be a long day with a 14 month old and my pregnant belly, plus poor Tiago then has to drive us home.

#WeGotATimeAndDateForOur20WeekScanWhichIsAlsoInconvenientSoICalledAndSaidWhatDaysAreBestForUsAndTheyGivenUsAnotherInconvenientSlot

My Mum can watch B certain mornings. I said which days and they’ve given us another day where my Mum isn’t around.

#SoTiagoWillProbablyHaveToWaitWithBInTheCarAndIWillHaveToGoInAloneWhichIsAnnoyingButWhatCanWeDo

*Shrug* I’m annoyed about it, but oh well. I should call them again and complain possibly. I don’t like to be annoying and I know they’re busy.

#WeHaveTakenBToAMassiveDuckPondACoupleOfTimesWhichSheQuiteLikesAndILoveLookingAtAllTheDucklings #ThereAreNoDucksLikeTheOnesAtHomeSoItIsNiceToSeeSomeDifferentBirds

The first time we went it was early in the morning and very foggy, so we were the only ones there. The second time it was quite a bit busier. There are a lot of Muscovy ducks, some Appleyards, and some I don’t know. (My parents had ducks when I was younger.)

#IHadNeverBeenThereBeforeButIGuessThatOurPrioritiesHaveChangedNowWithBAndWeWantToGoToMoreKidFriendlyPlaces

We’ve been to a couple of swimming spots lately that I hadn’t been to before, as they’re closer and more kid friendly. I looked for a soft play or kid’s centre, but they don’t seem to have any around. Shame. Covid cases are quite low here. (I just checked and there are currently 14 people with confirmed Covid.)

#WeHaveBeenGoingToALittleCoffeeShopForBreakfastAndYesterdayBManagedToKnockTiagosCoffeeAllOverMyBreakfastAndMe

The guy had just set it all down, B went to go for my water and knocked the coffee over. I went to grab it, but realised I was too late so backed away and stood up. Luckily it just caught the end of my dress, as I didn’t want a burned belly!

#WhenWeWerePackingISaidIDidNotWantToBringManyClothesAsIEndUpWearingTheSameThreeOutfits #InRealityIHaveBeenWearingTheSameDressAndJustWashingItAndPuttingItOnAgainAsSoonAsPossible

Tiago’s Mum washed it and said she thought it was going to have a coffee stain on it, but once it dried it looked fine and I put it on again. It’s so humid here…

#WeHaveBeenRunningErrandsOrGoingToMeetFriendsWhileBSleepsAndTiagosMumKeepsAnEyeOnHer

It’s been nice to get out more, and have nice chats in the car.

#TheOtherNightWeWentToABarbequeAfterBHadGoneToBedButThenISpentTheWholeEveningSatByABabyAndAFourYearOldSoFeltBadForNotBringingHer

It’s nice that things are so kid friendly here. B had woken up early from her second nap (I think) so she had a very early bedtime, otherwise we could have brought her for a bit.

Tiago generally brings me home, then goes back out. He brought me home around 10.30pm and then got back at 2am. It’s good for him to see his friends, but I don’t know how he can stay out so late and then be fine in the morning.

#MyPortugueseSpeakingHasImprovedButIStillFindItDifficultToUnderstandWhatPeopleAreSaying

I feel motivated to try to find the time and energy to study more again – I’ve been a bit ‘lazy’ with all the pregnancies and mothering. We need to watch more kids stuff in Portuguese perhaps; I’ve been enjoying watching Bluey in Portuguese.

#IGetSoTiredSoQuicklyInTheEveningsWhenWeGoOutWhichIsProbablyDueToUsingExtraBrainPowerTryingAndGenerallyFailingToTranslate

Mothering, pregnancy plus extra brain work and socialising.

#ItIsNiceToSeePeopleButIHaveNotSocialisedThisMuchInAVeryLongTime

It is going to be a shock going home to quarantine for 10 days after being out so much. I need to make an effort to do more with B when we return, especially after I get my second jab.

17 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait with my hair covering the left side of my face. My right hand is pointing to where I had my whooping cough injection.
Whooping Cough Vaccine (17 Weeks)
 
#AtMyMidwifeAppointmentTheOtherDaySheSaidToGetTheWhoopingCoughVaccine
#YouHaveToBe16WeeksOrMoreAndIWasJustOver16WeeksSoIBookedAnAppointment
#IGoToTheAppointmentTodayAndAsWeAreWalkingToTheRoomTheWomanLooksAtMyBumpAndSaysNeverNeverNever
#WeSitDownAndSheIsLikeSoYouAreHereForTheWhoopingCoughVaccine
#AreYouPregnant
#YouHaveToBe16WeeksOrMore
#ISayIAm17Weeks
#SheLooksAtMeSuspiciouslyAsIGazeDownAtMyBump
#IStandUpAndPullMyTopInTightSoItAppears
#SheSaysWellIGuessYouKnowBetterYourself
#AndThereWasMeWorryingThatMyBumpWasTooBigForBeing17Weeks
#SoSheGaveMeItAndItWasAllDoneInSeconds
#IWasWaitingToDoAShootUntilAfterwardsAsIThoughtIWouldHaveAPlasterButIDidNot
#WhichIsFineAsIDidNotNeedOne
#ISaidIWouldDoAShootTodayWhereIWouldHaveATopOnAndIWouldFaceTheOtherDirection
#ButTheVaccineWasAtTheTopOfMyLeftArmSoItMadeSenseToDoItThisWay
#IGotHomeAndWasSoTiredThatIThoughtIWouldHaveANapFirst
#ISleptFor3Hours
#IHaveBeenFeelingMoreEnergeticButThisWeekWasSuperBusyAndIDidNotSleepInAsLateAsIPlanned
#IAmStillFeelingAnxiousAboutThingsAboutTheHealthOfTheBaby
#ButIAlsoRealisedTheOtherDayThatThisCouldBeTheOnlyTimeIAmEverPregnantInMyLife
#SoIShouldTryToEnjoyItAsMuchAsICan
#IDoNotKnowHowToReallyEnjoyItInTermsOfThereIsNotMuchICanDo
#ButIGuessIMeanMoreJustTryingNotToWorrySoMuch
#IGotReallyFreakedOutByTheFactThatThereIsSomeoneGrowingInsideMeAgainTheOtherDay
#PeopleAskMeIfIAmScaredOfGivingBirth
#IFeelKindOfExcitedByTheIdeaToBeHonest
#MaybeIMightChangeMyMindAsMyBumpGetsBigger
#ButIJustWantToEnjoyItAsMuchAsICanAsItSeemsLikeSuchABizarreThingThatWomenHaveBeenDoingForThousandsOfYears
#IDidNotStretchLastNightAndMyHipsHurtAllNight

This time no one mentioned to me about getting the whooping cough, so I will be getting it at around 27 weeks. No one will be saying that I don’t look pregnant enough for it this time…

It’s funning reading about ‘sleeping in late’. Now I’m like what is that? I should have relaxed more when I was pregnant with B. I used to waste so much time. Now I don’t have as much time to faff…

Definitely still anxious this time around.

I feel less excited about birth this time around, even though I would say I had a good experience with B. I am mentally trying to prepare myself though and am starting to read about things again. I am excited to meet her though…

Self-portrait wrapped up in a big cardigan that is suitable for breastfeeding.
Goodbye (For Now) Food Aversions (17 and a half weeks)
 
#IJustHadToRearrangeMy20WeekScanForASecondTime
#TheySendYouALetterForAnAppointmentInThePost
#ThenICalledUpToRescheduleItAsICouldNotMakeIt
#UsuallyTheyCheckToSeeWhatDateAndTimeICanDo
#ButThisTimeTheySaidTheDiariesWereNotOpenYetSoIWouldHaveToBeOnAWaitingList
#GotANewAppointmentDateAndTimeTodayWhichTiagoCouldNotDo
#ICouldHaveGoneAloneButTheHospitalIsQuiteFarAwayAndIThinkTiagoWantsToSeeTheBabyAsMuchAsIDo
#ThoughItIsAScanForAbnormalitiesWhichIsABitScary
#SoIWouldRatherThatTiagoIsThereTooJustIncaseItIsBadNews
#FingersCrossed
#InMorePleasantNewsALotOfMyFoodAversionsHaveDisappeared
#IHaveEatenIndianFood5TimesInTheLastWeek
#TiagoIsHappyAsHeCanCookALotOfHisUsualDishesAgain
#AndWeHadTakeawayFromOurFavouriteIndianPlaceLastWeekWhichGaveMe3Meals
#ItIsNiceToNotSitAtDinnerFeelingSickAndStrugglingToEat
#IAmAwareItMayReturnAtSomePointSoIAmJustTryingToEnjoyItWhilstICan
#TheMidwifeSaidIShouldBeEatingMorePulsesAndThingsLikeThat
#SoIAmGladThatLentilsAndChickpeasNoLongerRepulseMe
#IAmWearingOneOfMyFewPiecesOfMaternityClothing
#ItIsACardiganForPregnancyAndNursing
#ItMakesMeLookMorePregnant
#ApparentlyYouCanWearItInAFewDifferentWays
#ItWillProbablyBeHotToWearOnceTheBabyIsBornButItWillDoForNowAndForNextWinter
#ItDoesGetColdInLiverpool
#IDoNotWantToMakeAnyPurchasesForTheBabyUntilIAm6Months
#ButINeedToStartMakingASpreadsheetWithWhatWeWantToBuy
#IAmStillWorriedThatThingsMightGoWrongButIAmAlsoFeelingABitMoreRelaxed
#ItIsNiceToBeAbleToTalkAboutBeingPregnantWithMorePeopleWhenISeePeopleInPerson
#ItIsBecomingMoreObviousNowWithMyGrowingBumpButIWorryAboutBoringPeopleWithTalkingAboutItALot
#IHadToDoAFullYogaVideoLastNightAsINeededAGoodStretchAndIDefinitelyFeltBetter

Good to know that it’s been annoying getting an appointment for my 20 week scans both times.

I wasn’t into lentils and chickpeas at the start of this pregnancy either. B has baked beans on toast a lot and they were grossing me out, but I have started to have them for lunch lately (mid-October).

I didn’t wear this cardigan after having B, but it might be more appropriate with having a winter baby this time (B was a summer baby).

We really didn’t rush to buy anything for B, and thought we didn’t need much, but after she was born we bought LOADS.

It’s weird that in the end not many people saw me heavily pregnant with B.


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We’ve Made It To Portugal (16 Weeks / 18th August 2021)

Yet to do a shoot, but I know it will have a very different look. Maybe these posts will be more like holiday photos? I imagine there being a picture from later today of me standing with a slight bump in front of some water…

(Tiago did take some photos of me on my phone, but they were only cute family album photos, not project pictures – so instead I took some of me sat on the bed in my swimming costume instead.)

Self-portrait sat in my maternity swimming costume on a bed.
We’ve Made It To Portugal (16 Weeks / 18th August 2021)
 
#WeGotOurTestResultsTheNightBeforeAndInTheMorningIKnewIHadTheLastBitsToPack
#MyNanMentionedALargeMothInTheLivingRoomWhichTurnedOutToBeASmallBird
#SoWeHadToGetThatOutOfTheHouseWhileBAteHerBreakfastAndWeGotOnTheRoadAtHalfSeven
#BSleptInTheCarThenWeHadATaxiRideWhereSheWasUnsureOfTheTaxiDriver
#ThenALongWaitAtTheAirportAPlaneAShorterWaitAndAShorterSecondFlight
#SheManagedToHaveHerSecondNapOnTheFirstPlaneThoughSheShouldHaveNappedTwoHoursEarlier
#SheOnlyCriedWhenSheWokeUpAndObviouslyWantedToSleepMoreAndSheEventuallyWentBackOff
#AndWhenTiagoWentToTheBathroomAsSheDidNotLikeHimLeaving
#EveryoneWasSoNiceFromTheAirportStaffToThePeopleAroundUsOnThePlanes
#TheAirportWomanWhoRetrievedOurPushchairTheSecondTimeWentToSchoolWithTiago
#BWentFromBeingSuperShyInTheMorningToLookingAtMorePeopleAndWasFineMeetingTiagosParentsForTheFirstTime
#WeGotToTheirHouseLateAndWeAreInARoomWithB
#TheCotWeHaveIsTheOneThatTiagoSleptInAtBsAgeAndSheKeptClimbingOutOfItAndIWasWorriedSheWouldFallOut
#ThenIRealisedThatTheLoweredSideCouldBeRaisedAndSheEventuallySlept
#TheTimeHereIsAnHourBehindTheUKAndSheWokeUpAtHerUsualTimeButWeGotHerIntoBedWithUsAndSheSleptOnAndOffForThreeMoreHours
#WeOpenedTheShuttersToSeeCowsInTheFieldThatWereNotThereLastTimeWeVisited
#SoBHadAGoodIntroductionToCowsAndThereIsANewPlaygroundNearbyWithACoupleOfCatsHangingAroundCloseBy
#WeHaveHadSomeTeethingProblemsWithTheCotCarSeatAndACarButThingsWillHopefullyBeResolvedToday
#BHasAlsoBeenHavingTeethingProblemsAndINoticedSheHasAMolarComingThroughOnEachSideOfTheBottomOfHerMouth
#IWasNotSureHowSheWouldReactToTheSeaButSheGoesStraightForIt
#YesterdayTAndIWereJustFeelingReallyTiredAndABitDownAsItHadNotFeltLikeAHolidayYet
#ThenTiagosMumWatchedBWhileSheSleptAndACoupleOfFriendsPickedUsUpForASwim
#ThenIFeltLikeIWasOnHolidayAsIHadFinallyHadASwim
#ItWasMyFirstTimeSwimmingWhilePregnantAndItFeelsWeirdToSwimBellyDown
#ThenWeCameHomeAndGotBAndWentToAnotherSwimmingSpotWithThemBAndAFriendAndHerBaby
#BJustSplashedInTheSeaAndIAmSoHappyThatSheLovesTheWaterSoMuch
#WeGotHomeAndPutHerToBedAndTiagosParentsKeptAnEarOutWhileWeWentOutToDinnerWithFriends
#ItWasOurFirstNightOutAsParentsWhichWasNiceButTheFoodCameAtTenAndWeGotHomeAfterEleven
#BIsStartingToEnjoyTheCompanyOfEveryoneElseABitMoreWhichIsNiceForUsAsWeCanRelaxABit
#IAmAlsoLearningToRelaxAboutHerRoutineMoreAndTrustingOthersToLookAfterHerWhichIsGood

#WeGotOurTestResultsTheNightBeforeAndInTheMorningIKnewIHadTheLastBitsToPack

It was such a relief to get the results earlier than expected. We packed a lot the night before, but needed to pack the things that B would be using until she woke up/until we would leave.

I liked packing lists before, but they’re more useful now than ever.

#MyNanMentionedALargeMothInTheLivingRoomWhichTurnedOutToBeASmallBird

She pointed at it whilst it flapped and it would have been a massive massive moth…

Why did it have to happen that day of all days?

#SoWeHadToGetThatOutOfTheHouseWhileBAteHerBreakfastAndWeGotOnTheRoadAtHalfSeven

Poor B was freaked out as we were freaked out, and at one point it sat directly above her while she ate her breakfast. No poop luckily…

#BSleptInTheCarThenWeHadATaxiRideWhereSheWasUnsureOfTheTaxiDriver

We had to drive to London, then parked our car at a friend’s house, then got a taxi to the airport as it was less faff than catching 3 trains/tubes and cost the same amount anyways.

#ThenALongWaitAtTheAirportAPlaneAShorterWaitAndAShorterSecondFlight

It was better to be early than late to the airport. I was worried the car would breakdown or there would be massive traffic jams or anything might delay us.

We took lots of snacks and bought a few more things. Being early allowed us to weigh our bags and reshuffle stuff. Our suitcases were both over. Annoyingly our first flight had limits of 20kg per bag, and the second flight had 23kg limits. Our backpacks were just super heavy for the first flight…

I was worried about B’s meals but she was quite happy snacking on picnic type food (B and I both loved some mozzarella and tomato pastries we got).

#SheManagedToHaveHerSecondNapOnTheFirstPlaneThoughSheShouldHaveNappedTwoHoursEarlier

I thought she probably wouldn’t nap at all, so was happy she went off to sleep after some singing and massage.

#SheOnlyCriedWhenSheWokeUpAndObviouslyWantedToSleepMoreAndSheEventuallyWentBackOff

I think I read so much stuff about annoyed people on planes with kids that I was a bit scared. B was so well behaved though.

#AndWhenTiagoWentToTheBathroomAsSheDidNotLikeHimLeaving

Me awkwardly talking to her (in English and bad Portuguese) while he went to the loo and could hear her crying.

She would get annoyed at T for talking to other people and ignoring her at times.

#EveryoneWasSoNiceFromTheAirportStaffToThePeopleAroundUsOnThePlanes

I’m not sure if the airline staff are overly nice if they see you with a young kid as they know you must be stressed or what, but I’ll take it.

#TheAirportWomanWhoRetrievedOurPushchairTheSecondTimeWentToSchoolWithTiago

I love when we get to the airport and he recognises the staff, or you see other people greeting people they know.

#BWentFromBeingSuperShyInTheMorningToLookingAtMorePeopleAndWasFineMeetingTiagosParentsForTheFirstTime

There was a baby behind us on the second plane and they were interacting. We actually saw that family the next day in the supermarket.

I was worried about how B would react to her grandparents as I knew they would be keen to hold her, and she was fine. Phew.

#WeGotToTheirHouseLateAndWeAreInARoomWithB

So we left home at 7.30am, and then got to his parent’s house at 10pm UK time. It was a long day.

#TheCotWeHaveIsTheOneThatTiagoSleptInAtBsAgeAndSheKeptClimbingOutOfItAndIWasWorriedSheWouldFallOut

It’s obviously very different to the one we have. It was pushed against our bed and B kept climbing out of it to come onto our bed. I was trying to go to bed at the same time as her, while T was getting ready to go to a stag do.

Turned out the quarantining and day 6 test had recently been dropped. Win.

I was knackered as I had not napped at all, and then B was just stood up shaking the cot.

#ThenIRealisedThatTheLoweredSideCouldBeRaisedAndSheEventuallySlept

Phew. In the night I thought she had fallen out though, which stressed me out.

#TheTimeHereIsAnHourBehindTheUKAndSheWokeUpAtHerUsualTimeButWeGotHerIntoBedWithUsAndSheSleptOnAndOffForThreeMoreHours

We knew she was tired as it had been a long day for her. It was our first co-sleeping session as normally we try to get her to sleep, but she won’t. She normally just moves all over the place, but she was still in her sleeping bag and the room was pitch black which probably helped.

#WeOpenedTheShuttersToSeeCowsInTheFieldThatWereNotThereLastTimeWeVisited

The field used to just be harvested for the grass I think. The cows belong to the father of a friend of Tiago, so we had a nice chat with him as he was there.

We caught them at the right time as they’ve since moved onto another field as they’ve eaten everything.

#SoBHadAGoodIntroductionToCowsAndThereIsANewPlaygroundNearbyWithACoupleOfCatsHangingAroundCloseBy

I’m sure she’d seen a cow before, but this was her first time really being aware of them. The playground is nice and wasn’t here last time we visited. The cats live in a house looking onto the playground and like to hang around, so it’s a nice little visit.

#WeHaveHadSomeTeethingProblemsWithTheCotCarSeatAndACarButThingsWillHopefullyBeResolvedToday

The cot has been explained. The car seat that we got lent was for an older kid, but our friend sorted us out. The car has some problems that need fixing so we can’t drive it until then.

#BHasAlsoBeenHavingTeethingProblemsAndINoticedSheHasAMolarComingThroughOnEachSideOfTheBottomOfHerMouth

I know she has been teething in those areas for a long time. She wanted to teethe on my finger and I noticed one, then a few hours later I noticed another one. That also might be why she got upset on the plane…

#IWasNotSureHowSheWouldReactToTheSeaButSheGoesStraightForIt

We took her to the beach at 8am, before we realised the car problems and she walked/crawled into the sea. She loved it.

We brought a paddling pool with us in case of quarantine and she loves splashing in that too.

#YesterdayTAndIWereJustFeelingReallyTiredAndABitDownAsItHadNotFeltLikeAHolidayYet

We were both so tired. Travelling was knackering and with a toddler you can not switch off. I felt stressed as we were stuck at home, but we do not have many toys for B here and I feel like that there is not a safe spot to play with her as all the floors are super hard and there are steps and things. Hard life.

#ThenTiagosMumWatchedBWhileSheSleptAndACoupleOfFriendsPickedUsUpForASwim

I’m not expecting everyone to look after B all the time, but it’s what we need. It’s rare that T and I both leave the house without B.

#ThenIFeltLikeIWasOnHolidayAsIHadFinallyHadASwim

We went to the closest spot and we had not been there before. It was nice, though quite shallow and I worried about banging my toes on rocks. A friend cut his toe… I need to get some swimming socks or shoes.

It felt good though.

We also saw our friend’s sister and husband. They have a baby too, but she was at home being looked after by her grandparents while she slept too. We agreed the swimming spot wasn’t very kid friendly.

#ItWasMyFirstTimeSwimmingWhilePregnantAndItFeelsWeirdToSwimBellyDown

I never swam while pregnant with B. I wanted tom but life and Covid…

#ThenWeCameHomeAndGotBAndWentToAnotherSwimmingSpotWithThemBAndAFriendAndHerBaby

Our friend had planned to pick us up to take us, but then our other friends decided to join too.

It was a more kid friendly spot.

#BJustSplashedInTheSeaAndIAmSoHappyThatSheLovesTheWaterSoMuch

She was just there splashing like a dog doing doggy paddle from the moment she went in until the moment we got her out. We try not to take her in for too long. 15 minutes?

#WeGotHomeAndPutHerToBedAndTiagosParentsKeptAnEarOutWhileWeWentOutToDinnerWithFriends

We were getting hungry and thinking of going straight for food, but I was getting wary of B’s bedtime approaching. It made sense to take her home first.

#ItWasOurFirstNightOutAsParentsWhichWasNiceButTheFoodCameAtTenAndWeGotHomeAfterEleven

We got there at 8:30ish which is already late for me. It was nice to chat though, but swimming makes me hungry and I was… hungry.

I knew we’d regret going to bed late and B was up at 5:30. Luckily Tiago let me go back to sleep once B started to eat breakfast, and Tiago’s Mum took over from him after a while so he could work.

It’s so nice having the extra help as it means now I am working while B naps instead of being so tired that I need to nap. Obviously I don’t expect this to happen everyday, but I need to recharge my batteries and get some small things done.

#BIsStartingToEnjoyTheCompanyOfEveryoneElseABitMoreWhichIsNiceForUsAsWeCanRelaxABit

Yesterday at the swimming spot Tiago looked after B while I swam with a friend. Then we got out and the friend said she could have B while Tiago joined me for a swim. She was quite happy playing with everyone else, and it was nice this morning seeing her playing with her grandparents. She is a little less needy of Tiago which is nice for him.

#IAmAlsoLearningToRelaxAboutHerRoutineMoreAndTrustingOthersToLookAfterHerWhichIsGood

Ish. I’ll never completely relax, but I’m getting better. Yesterday she had some omelette at the swimming spot, then we gave her some fruit and milk when we got home. That seemed okay.

I’m used to other people watching her for an hour or so at my Nan’s house, but not elsewhere. It’s good for her though and it’s good for us.

16 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

Self-portrait hugging a maternity pillow. My left hand is resting on the pillow and my right arm is wrapped around the pillow and resting on my left arm.
Maternity Pillow (16 Weeks)

#SoIGotThePillowAWeekAgo
#IKnowItIsStillEarlyDaysInMyPregnancy
#SayingMyPregnancyIsWeird
#ButIFeltLikeINeededOne
#AndIThoughtTheSoonerIBuyItTheMoreValueIWillGetOutOfIt
#IAmStartingToGetHipPainNow
#AndIStretchInTheMorningAndEveningAndUsuallyABitDuringTheDay
#ButItHelpsWhenISleep
#IAlsoHaveAnOverwhelmingUrgeToCuddleSomethingInMySleep
#SoItAlsoHelpsWithThat
#TheOnlyBadThingsIsThatItTakesUpALotOfTheBed
#WellItTakesUpMyHalfButTiagoProbablyFindsItAnnoying
#ButHeIsPuttingUpWithItBlessHim
#SomeReviewersSaidTheirPartnerSleepsInAnotherRoomSoTheyHavePlentyOfRoomForTheirCushion
#ItIsNotThatBadButWhenTiagoGetsOutOfBedIDoPushItOverABitMoreAndTakeUpMoreSpace
#IProbablyDidNotNeedSuchABigUShapedOne
#ButMaybeItWillBeMoreUsefulLaterOn
#IThinkIWasDoingTooMuchMovingAroundDuringThisShoot
#IAchedABitAfter
#StrainingToSeeTheResultsOnMyScreenAndThingsLikeThat
#ThenIHadADeliveryCome
#ThatParticularDeliveryCompanyDoNotLikeComingUpstairsAnymore
#SoIHadToLugBoxThatWasNotThatHeavyButTooHeavyForMeRightNowIAmSure
#AndIAchedABitAfterwards
#IWasGoingToComplainButIDoNotWantTheDriverToGetIntoTrouble
#IKnowHisPayIsNotGreatAndTheyAskMeToComeDownstairsSoThatTheyCanGetOnWithOtherDeliveries
#ButIThoughtHeWasComingUpstairsSoIWaitedForAges
#ThenIWentDownstairsAndHeWasJustLeaningAgainstTheWallChilling
#SoNoTimeWasSavedInTheEnd
#OhWellIMightJustRelaxWithMyPillowUntilTheAchesPass
#ButIThinkAchesAreHereToStayForALongTimeAndWillProbablyGetWorseAsMyBodyGetsPushedAndStretchedMore

My hashtags used to be short…

With my latest pregnancy I got the smaller part of the pillow out around 11 weeks (see this post), and I started to use the rest of it around 24 weeks. I didn’t know where it was, but I also didn’t want it taking up the whole bed but the bed we sleep in now is bigger, so it’s less overwhelming using it.

I have had less hip pain this time, but I think it’s due to stretching early on in the morning and evening.

Self-portrait in my bra and pants. A little bump is showing.
It Is Hard To Believe That Someone Is Growing Inside Of Me (16 and a half weeks)
 
#TimeIsFlyingBy
#IHadMy16WeekAppointmentTodayWithAMidwife
#SheJustTookMyBloodPressureAndCheckedMyUrineForProtein
#FunTimes
#OneOfMyFavouriteThingsAboutPregnancyIsWhenIThinkIAmWettingMyself
#ButItIsJustMyBodyCleaningOutOldCellsAndStuff
#SuperFunTimes
#IHadAnotherWeirdedOutPhaseYesterday
#LikeThereIsASmallHumanInsideOfMe
#ASmallHumanThatLooksLikeAMixOfTiagoAndMe
#ThatIsSoWeird
#IMentionedToTheMidwifeThatIAmAtAWeirdStageWhereItIsAnother4WeeksUntilIHaveAScan
#SheSaysIProbablyWillNotProperlyBeAbleToFeelItMovingForAnother4To8Weeks
#SoIAmLikeHowDoIKnowThatIsAllIsWell
#SheSaidSheKeptBelievingThatThereWasNotABabyInsideOfHerWhichICompletelyUnderstand
#YesterdayAtWorkThereWereAFewCommentsAboutMyBumpBeingVisible
#SomeoneSaidYouLookSoPregnantToday
#ToBeFairIWasWearingATightFittingTop
#AndOnceIStartEatingTheBumpJustGrows
#ItIsFunnyAsBeforeIWasPregnantIWouldHaveFeltAwkwardAboutWearingSuchATightFittingTop
#ButBeingPregnantIDoNotMindSoMuchAsBumpsArePositive
#AndWeWereDiscussingThisInTheOffice
#AsPregnancyBumpsHaveALotOfPositivityAroundThem
#ButAsSoonAsTheBabyIsOutThereIsALotOfPressureToLoseIt
#IFeelAwkwardTakingAPictureInMyUnderwear
#ThePantsAreTheSameOnesAsIWoreForMyYourMindAndBodyProjectIn2012
#IDoNotWearThemOftenAndToBeFairIProbablyWillNotBeAbleToWearThemAgainForAWhile
#ObviouslyIHaveTakenPicturesOfMyselfNakedInThePastButIThinkIAmMoreAwareOfWhereTheyMightEndUpAndHowPeopleReactToThem
#APictureOfSomeoneInTheirUnderwearIsUsuallyAssociatedWithSexinessWhichMakesMeFeelAwkwardAsIDoNotConsiderAnyOfMyWorkToBeSexy
#ButIWantToDocumentMyChangingBodyAndMyFeedIsUsuallyFilledWithPicturesOfPeopleInTheirBikinisOnTheirHolidays

I had my 16 week appointment a bit earlier this time due to our trip.

I think I have not really thought that I’ve wet myself so much this time, which is nice. But geez the body does a lot of clearing out…

Reading these hashtags make me feel weird that there is a small human inside of me. I still look at B most days and think ‘whoa, I grew her’ and can not believe that I am a mother.

I feel similar this time about wearing tight fitting tops, but then again I do not really go out much apart from for walks and B’s toddler classes.

I haven’t taken any naked pictures of myself yet naked this time (currently 25 weeks pregnant), but I feel like I should soon as there’s not much time left really and it’s a nice record for myself.


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