
#BLearnedToHideAWhileAgo
#ICanNotReallyRememberWhenAsOurTimeInBirminghamIsJustOneBigBlobInMyMemory
#AndItIsEvenHardToRememberLifeBeforeBWasWalkingAroundAndThatWasNotThatLongAgo
#SheStillFallsOverABitButTheChorusOfTubthumpingComesToMindOftenWhenAsGetsBackUpQuickly
#ObviouslyTheVersesWithAllTheReferencesToDrinkingAreNotFittingButSometimesSheDoesWalkLikeSheHasHadAFewDrinks
#InOtherNewsDrinkingMoreElectrolytesSeemsToBeHelpingAndIHadNotBeenSickInAFewDaysUntilISniffedABagOfSaladToCheckIfItWasOkayToEat
#EvidentlyItWasNotOkayAndTheSlightlyRottenSmellMadeMeBarf
#IStillSeemToDryHeaveAtLeastOnceADayButItIsOkay
#ItIsGenerallyInTheMorningWhenIFirstGetUpAndBeforeIGoToBed
#IHaveToBeCarefulWhenIBrushMyTeethAndIAlsoHaveToTryHardToNotThinkAboutSickWhileBrushingThem
#IFeelLikeIAmGettingSomeEnergyBackWhichIsGood
#TheOtherDayIHadAMassiveCryForTheFirstTimeInAges
#IWasJustSoPissedOffAndStressedOutByFreedomDay
#IFeelLikeEveryDayIsAlreadyTheSameAsWeDoNotGoAnywhereSoNowIWillNeedToBeMoreCareful
#AndItHasBeenTooHotToGoOutForRegularWalksSoWeGenerallyJustGoOutInTheMorning
#BsNewFavouriteThingToDoIsDrinkFromMyCupOfWaterAndThenStickHerHandInItAndSplashAbout
#IHaveFinallyGotRoundToSortingOutLifeInsuranceAsYouNeverKnowWithTheseWeirdTimes
#BAndTheUnbornWouldGetALumpSumIfIWereToDieAndTiagoOrWhoeverLooksAfterThemWouldGetAMonthlyPaymentToGoTowardsTheirCosts
#WeOnlyHaveOneBabyClassOnAtTheMomentDueToTheSummer
#IWasSoRelievedThatEveryoneWasWearingAMask
#TheTeacherGreetedUsAtTheDoorWearingAMaskAndSheCommentedOnTheHeatAndHowPaleIAm
#IBasicallyJustWalkFromOneAreaOfShadeToAnotherAsQuickAsPossibleTheseDays
#SoIThoughtIWouldMentionThatIWasPregnantInCaseItAffectedAnyOfHerDecisions
#AtTheEndSheThankedUsAllForWearingAMaskAndProtectingEachOther
#IWasReadingTheOtherDayThatThereIsNoPointMeWearingAMaskIfNoOneElseIs
#SoIJustLookedLikeTheWeirdOneAtAnotherClassForNoReasonButAtLeastItMadeMeFeelABitBetter
#BHasAFourthToothComingThroughAndItLooksLikeOtherMightSoonBeFollowing
#ItIsAtTheTopButItLooksLikeAnotherTopOneIsHavingAGoAsWellAsSomeMolars
#ITookBOutForAWalkYesterdayAndADogCameUpToBInHerPushchair
#TheGuySaidThatSheIsElevenButWhenSheWasAPuppySheWentUpToAPushchairAndAteAKidsCrispsAndSinceThenSheSeemsToCheckAllPushchairsForCrisps
(29th September: Just realised I named this image hiding behind, but maybe it should be more under? Oh well.)
#BLearnedToHideAWhileAgo
I am sure that I have talked about it for months.
#ICanNotReallyRememberWhenAsOurTimeInBirminghamIsJustOneBigBlobInMyMemory
Time passes very weirdly. A day feels like a week.
#AndItIsEvenHardToRememberLifeBeforeBWasWalkingAroundAndThatWasNotThatLongAgo
It seems like she has always been on her feet.
#SheStillFallsOverABitButTheChorusOfTubthumpingComesToMindOftenAsSheGetsBackUpQuickly
You know the one…
#ObviouslyTheVersesWithAllTheReferencesToDrinkingAreNotFittingButSometimesSheDoesWalkLikeSheHasHadAFewDrinks
I can’t remember the last time I had a drink…
#InOtherNewsDrinkingMoreElectrolytesSeemsToBeHelpingAndIHadNotBeenSickInAFewDaysUntilISniffedABagOfSaladToCheckIfItWasOkayToEat
Either it’s easing by itself or it’s the electrolytes. I think the electrolytes are having a big impact.
#EvidentlyItWasNotOkayAndTheSlightlyRottenSmellMadeMeBarf
It was the day that it was due to be opened by and it had not been opened yet. I opened it as the bag we were supposed to eat with dinner did not look appetising either (it came in one of those recipe boxes but they sent the wrong salad, and it looked a bit rotten too). In the end we picked some salad from the garden…
#IStillSeemToDryHeaveAtLeastOnceADayButItIsOkay
It is a bit annoying, but I’d rather dry heave than be sick.
#ItIsGenerallyInTheMorningWhenIFirstGetUpAndBeforeIGoToBed
In the morning I haven’t drank/ate much yet. In the evening I don’t like to eat too late, and I feel like I’ve had my sugar consumption for the day by then.
#IHaveToBeCarefulWhenIBrushMyTeethAndIAlsoHaveToTryHardToNotThinkAboutSickWhileBrushingThem
I’ll often brush my teeth and worry about being sick, which really doesn’t help…
#IFeelLikeIAmGettingSomeEnergyBackWhichIsGood
I wrote this at 6am. It’s now 9am and B has gone down for a nap and I will follow after I write this. Zzz. I also didn’t take B for a walk this morning as I felt so tired, but in ways I feel like I have a bit more energy at times.
#TheOtherDayIHadAMassiveCryForTheFirstTimeInAges
It did me a lot of good. I’ve felt better since then.
#IWasJustSoPissedOffAndStressedOutByFreedomDay
I’m fuming. I can’t even be bothered to rant anymore about it.
#IFeelLikeEveryDayIsAlreadyTheSameAsWeDoNotGoAnywhereSoNowIWillNeedToBeMoreCareful
The frustration is real. I’m going stir crazy enough as it is.
#AndItHasBeenTooHotToGoOutForRegularWalksSoWeGenerallyJustGoOutInTheMorning
Which I didn’t do today… So we’ll have to see if I can stomach a bit of heat later. I try to go for a walk at least once a day.
#BsNewFavouriteThingToDoIsDrinkFromMyCupOfWaterAndThenStickHerHandInItAndSplashAbout
Great. I’m like ‘aww look at her wanting to drink from a glass’ and then it’s just ‘splashhhh’. We do get a tub out for her and let her splash about a bit, and she’s been having baths more regularly due to the heat. She seems to enjoy it.
#IHaveFinallyGotRoundToSortingOutLifeInsuranceAsYouNeverKnowWithTheseWeirdTimes #BAndTheUnbornWouldGetALumpSumIfIWereToDieAndTiagoOrWhoeverLooksAfterThemWouldGetAMonthlyPaymentToGoTowardsTheirCosts
I kept getting adverts, and I don’t want to be morbid but you never know what is round the corner. There’s Covid, birthing complications, freak accidents, life… Thought I’d mention it in case this motivates anyone else to sort theirs out.
#WeOnlyHaveOneBabyClassOnAtTheMomentDueToTheSummer
And the last class (where B will graduate) is next week. It’s the end of an era!
#IWasSoRelievedThatEveryoneWasWearingAMask
Phew. I was worried…
#TheTeacherGreetedUsAtTheDoorWearingAMaskAndSheCommentedOnTheHeatAndHowPaleIAm
The teacher at our other class always worse a visor when we said we didn’t need to wear masks, but I feel like her standing there with her mask was a signal to say wear a mask please.
Yeah, have I mentioned it’s hot?
#IBasicallyJustWalkFromOneAreaOfShadeToAnotherAsQuickAsPossibleTheseDays
And that’s an effort.
#SoIThoughtIWouldMentionThatIWasPregnantInCaseItAffectedAnyOfHerDecisions
In case she was about to say ‘don’t worry about wearing masks’ or something, as I was the second person to arrive. It might sound selfish to some, but fair to others. Some women in the class are still breastfeeding and may not have wanted to get vaccinated yet as well, and someone else may be pregnant but they’re not as gobby as me. Who knows.
#AtTheEndSheThankedUsAllForWearingAMaskAndProtectingEachOther
I felt emotional. She was off the other week as she had to self-isolate. I was surprised it had not happened before. By us wearing masks it also protects her as this is her business and she can not afford to get Covid.
#IWasReadingTheOtherDayThatThereIsNoPointMeWearingAMaskIfNoOneElseIs
I’m protecting others from me-ish, but they’re not protecting me.
#SoIJustLookedLikeTheWeirdOneAtAnotherClassForNoReasonButAtLeastItMadeMeFeelABitBetter
I felt safer for sure, though I may not have actually been. Oh well.
#BHasAFourthToothComingThroughAndItLooksLikeOtherMightSoonBeFollowing
She was waking up a lot the other night and we thought it was due to the heat (she now has a better fan in her room), but it may have been the tooth. Who knows? Bit of both probably.
#ItIsAtTheTopButItLooksLikeAnotherTopOneIsHavingAGoAsWellAsSomeMolars
Seriously, the joy never ends.
#ITookBOutForAWalkYesterdayAndADogCameUpToBInHerPushchair #TheGuySaidThatSheIsElevenButWhenSheWasAPuppySheWentUpToAPushchairAndAteAKidsCrispsAndSinceThenSheSeemsToCheckAllPushchairsForCrisps
Just a (what I thought was) funny story to end things on. I was like ‘oh cute, the dog wants to say hello’, but I had a good laugh after realising she was only looking for food. Unlucky for her as I rarely give B food to eat in her pushchair.
Time for a nap. It sounds like a lot of work is going on outside – chainsaws and diggers? I hope B sleeps. I hope I sleep. I’ll read a bit of The Volunteer by Jack Fairweather first and then try to kip. I thought it’d be a small book, but it’s 780 pages. Just checked and the notes start about 200 pages from the end, so that’s a little less overwhelming now.
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12 weeks pregnant with B comparison:

#IAmNotReallyAlludingToAnythingInThisPictureByWearingATopSayingNobodysPerfect
#TheseAreTiagosPJsThatHisMumGotHimForChristmasAFewYearsAgo
#AndIKeepMeaningToTakeAPictureInThem
#IWasLookingForWhatToWearInThePicturesTodayWhenISawThem
#AndIThoughtIShouldTakeAPictureInThemWhilstICanStillFit
#AsMeAndTiagoAreAboutTheSameSizeUsually
#IAmWearingHisSandalsAlso
#MyBottomHalfIsJustABitBiggerThanHisSoHisJeansAreABitTightOnMe
#HeWearsMyClothesTooButIWearHisMore
#NobodysPerfectIsTrueThough
#WeAreWaitingForAPizzaDelivery
#ThisWillBeMyThirdTimeEatingPizzaIn6Days
#ToBeFairIReallyWantToEatASaladWithThePizza
#ButTheWeatherIsCrapSoIMightJustSliceSomeFruitAndEatItWithItAsWell
#TiagoEatsBananaAndCheeseTogetherAllTheTime
#ISawSomeoneOnTheTVEatingMustardAndBananaTogetherAtTheWeekend
#NextWeekIWillFindOutMyNewDueDate
#ButGoingOffWhatTheHospitalSaidLastTimeIAmNow12Weeks
#AllMyFacebookAdsAreBabvRelatedNow
#IWasReadingSomethingEarlierAboutGettingBabiesToSleepAndISuddenlyWorriedThatIWillBeARubbishMother
#IWillTryMyBestOfCourse
#IThinkTiagoWillBeAGoodDadWhichMakesMeFeelBetter
#ButYeahNobodyIsPerfect
#IThinkNoMatterHowYouRaiseYourKidTheyWillHaveProblemsOfSomeSort
#YouJustHaveToDoYourBestAndDoWhatYouCan
#Reaching12WeeksItFeelsABitMoreRealNow
#NotSureIfItIsMoreFoodThanBabyButThereIsDefinitelyABumpForming
#ItStillFeelsLikePregnancyIsSomethingThatHappensToOtherPeopleAndNotMe
#IAmTryingToBeMoreOptimisticButIAmStillExpectingSomethingBadToHappen
#IGuessThatIAmOnlyUsedToMenstrualCrampsSoTheseNewCrampsScareMe
Well, the images are quite different – one is all about hiding and one is about revealing (I do like hiding and revealing as a theme).
I think I was eating fairly healthy at this point with this pregnancy, but today I said to T that I really want pizza and I think I have not been eating so well lately.
I currently do not think I am the best mother, but I am not the worst and I know that I am doing about 80% of my best. I am human, so at times I do just let her play by herself which is good for her anyways.
I am finding pregnancy weird again, and the cramps still freak me out.
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